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augh. i think the thing that freaks me out the most is how close me and dani were to being friends. could i have saved her? could she have ruined me? idk.
#bun 🐰#idk idk idk.#the weird thing is we were friends for a teeny tiny bit right before she transitioned. and it wasnt like she transitioned and then got evil#it was something else entirely i think. something i dont understand#on one hand maybe i shouldve stuck around to help her. but on the other maybe i saved myself from getting dragged down with her#idk. i dont want to be associated with her either way. but i also cant deny the crucial part we played in eachothers lives :l
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one of those nights
#idk idk idk.#anthro#dogs#anthro art#furry#oc#original character#doberman#and whatever that second dog is idk#art#aesthetic#aesthetic art#character design#drawing#sketch#doodle#digital art#digital drawing#artwork#artists on tumblr#black artist#illustration#pissarts
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Frontlines is a fun time because I’ll be like “oh, lemme play around with another job for a bit, see how that goes” and yeah, I’ll get an elim or two, I’ll get a few assists, but I inevitably die—then I swap to paladin and immediately get 4 kills and it’s like. Why do I try anything else.
#I’m ALMOST feeling confident enough to try out CC. not ranked obv but an unranked match?#I may try it out. cause like. clearly I’m gitting gud at frontlines! may be time to try something new?#idk idk idk.
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thinking about exploring historia as a villain + her motivations for staying silent about eren's plan some more. as always. under the cut for potentially triggering content, discussions of genocide, etc
i honestly think a big part of her motivation for everything was a desire to not sacrifice her children to a life of being used/sacrificed, and seeing themselves as worthless, having no right to live for themselves. which is an understandable thing to want to prevent, but she literally let millions/billions of innocents die for it... so nonetheless incredibly selfish and horrific. if it was just her being sacrificed, i think she might've hesitated more, but sacrificing her children was too much for her.
but i think another part was that she believed that even if the 50 year plan worked, and the paradisians were safe, the hatred for them would never actually go away. of course, she's not stupid - she knows that wiping out everyone outside of paradis isn't going to end hatred, either. but in her mind, regarding any new hatred that rose between those who were for and against the massacre, for instance - at least the yaegerists (including herself, even if she doesn't fully share their beliefs/values) would actually deserve that hatred. (that's how she sees it, at least.)
it's all just very twisted. her only redeeming feature is really that she knew her actions were selfish and never tried to excuse them - but in some ways, that just makes it worse. she tries to do her best to "atone" through the rest of her life, attempting to bring peace and help the survivors of the genocide that she helped enable, but she's very aware it'll never be enough.
i'm undecided on whether she ever fully comes to regret her actions, as in "would make a different decision if she was capable of going back to the past" type regret specifically. i want to explore themes of like... the conflict between her beliefs that people have the right to live for themselves and fight for their own happiness, but also that they don't have the right to do what she did and sacrifice others for it. similarly, themes of "what should you do if you know you've committed an inexcusable sin? do you just die? try and make things better? what about if you'd do the same thing again, given the chance?" are all things i'm interested in. i'd like to think that, at the very least, she comes to be someone who is stauchly against justifying eren's (and arguably her own) massacre or villanizing the victims of his actions. of course, that arguably makes her the worst type of hypocrite, but. she wants other people to be better than her.
#ooc#me as i write about what an awful selfish person historia is: why am i writing you again.#like... now i feel like an awful selfish person for still sympathizing with you. even if i still feel like what you did was inexcusable#and should never have been allowed.#idk. i don't come to this blog often because aot is just such a depressing series; lmao...#but though i don't agree with a lot of it's delivery; i do think it has some really important messages as well as it's questionable ones#and i want to explore them in writing; honestly.#idk idk idk.#honestly i think i've just realized that historia's character triggers my ocd about self-sacrifice and altruism a little#but i might make my own separate post on that. lol#idk this whole post feels like a Big Mess#apologies. otl
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i want to leave the house because i feel lousy but i dont wanna leave the house because i feel lousy
#like. i could go to this poetry event and then head over to my friend’s party after#which would be good cuz a girl i know is going to the event so i can kind of go with her to the party after since a lot of the ppl i know#wont be there#but i dont wanna go to the party empty handed#so i could Not go to the poetry event and just make something to tak#to take to the party instead#but idk.#idk idk idk.#poetry thing starts in 10 minutes#plus i havent eaten dinner.#UUUUUUUGGGGGHHHHHHHH#m
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You will not use AI to get ideas for your story. You will lie on the floor and have wretched visions like god intended
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Idk what au im cooking.. but Im cooking..
#gravity falls#au#gravity falls noir#<< calling it that#stanford pines#stan pines#stanley pines#dipper pines#mabel pines#my art#idk what is going on but im probably just gonna make a bunch of fake movie looking screenshots#and i just wanna see the grunkles in suits doin undercover stuff
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it came to my realization that 99% of my fandom related headaches would be cured if everyone understood this
#making this at 2 am was like top 10 autism moment for me#this is helping me make sense of so many things hopefully it helps someone else too idk#user macdenlover drops badly drawn infographic media literacy rates skyrocket theres world peace#anyways#for sunny 1.5 is the sweet spot for me. a sexy medium rare if u will#but it completely depends on the piece of media#with supernatural i was a 2.5 on a good day.
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my muse and I
#yeah i know the caption is wrong#grammar stanford#idk whet these are enjoy ig#billford#kinda#bill cipher#stanford pines#gravity falls#gravity falls fanart
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the queen of the disco or whatever
#gravity falls#stanley pines#stan pines#scary-oke#zombie#zombie stan#idk if that's a tag whatever#anyway i was on the fence on posting this bc i think i might hate it but i put a good deal of time into it so you get it anyway SHUT UP!!!!!#k bye#disappearing back into my cave#mods art#mods draws#my art
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sometimes im like "wow holy shit im being really fucking annoying. i should stop talking" and then i pull out my magic 8 ball and it says "youve always been annoying and your friends chose to talk you anyways. youll be fine" and im like wow thanks magic 8 ball. and then the ogre attacks me
#found this beautiful gem in my drafts and couldnt let her go to waste#frog rambles#idk whay this is about. or if its anything. but i think its funny
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If you have Spotify reblog this and tag what your number one song on your “on repeat” playlist is.
#mine is#veronica mars#by#blondshell#music#tag meme#on repeat#I’m just curious and I want new music lol#spotify#meme#memes#alt#scene#emo#punk#metal#goth#gothgoth#gothic#alternative#rap#country#folk#idk what else to tag this
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I have no excuses and no regrets
#natm#night at the museum#natm larry#larry daley#natm jedediah#jedediah smith#natm octavius#octavius#jedediah and octavius#jedtavius#my art#fanart#art#idk what is this bruh 😭#shitpost
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