#idk i'm no therapist myself

[ben10appreciation]

Anyone else wish there was an episode where Ben just snapped at Azmuth for some of his BS? Or is it just me?

dude. the amount of times i WISH ben snapped. like... even setting aside azmuth’s and ben’s relationship, i wish azmuth was snapped at by someone.

he’s the smartest being in the universe, blah blah blah, and yeah he’s got his own issues (namely the horrible, crushing weight of being smart enough to understand how truly meaningless both life and existence is. like damn, albedo instantly lost ALL will to fight as soon as he had azmuth’s intellect), but that’s no excuse for how he treats others. just like all toxic actions, there’s plenty of reasons for it, but no matter how heartbreaking they are, that’s all they are—reasons. they can never stand in as an apology and NEVER an excuse.

though i admit that that’s half the reason i enjoy azmuth as a character. of course i don’t condone his actions and he’s high key a piece of shit, but he’s fascinating as a character. as the smartest being in the universe, it’s easy to take advantage of others and throw around your “weight.” it’s probably even easier to be toxic, because knowing that everyone around you is dumber than you? knowing that you’re better than them on a chemical level?

that’s not healthy.

i got a bit off-track from the ask, but someone needs to snap at azmuth to get his shit together, and azmuth needs to get that log out of his ass and get some therapy. he owes a lot of people a lot of apologies.

[ticklepinions]

Raise your hand if you feel utterly behind in life 🫠

[kingscourthouse]

I don't know who needs to hear this, but if it works for you, don't let anyone shame you. Whatever it may be.

I've been shamed before because I have to microwave my drinks to make tea and coffee. I've boiled noodles in a rice cooker and someone just said to buy a pot. I only have 1 plate, 1 cup and 1 set of silverware for myself. I don't have a functional dishwasher. I've been shamed for using water for hot cocoa instead of milk when I couldn't afford it. I've had one pair of shoes for the past 7 years because they're not comepltley fallen apart yet.

Don't let someone shame you for the things that work for you. Don't let someone shame you for things that make you happy. They don't know your life.

Wheather you can't afford something, are homeless, just don't have the "normal" household items, the ability to get help, broken or worn down items, don't let anyone shame you for it.

If it's working for you, then it works. If it's not harming anyone, then it works. If you're still living your life finding ways around problems, then it works. You're making it work and that's all that matters.

Don't let anyone shame you for just trying to live.

[heartshattering]

I hope I can enjoy dressing up again instead of clothing turning into a new form of anxiety for me.

I don't fit into XS sized clothes anymore and I have to keep telling myself that that's okay.

I might hate how I look now (a lot tbh...) but I have to believe this is better overall for my health and that I don't want to go back to how I was before.

IT'S. OKAY.

[purpurussy]

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[antiyourwokehomophobia2]

Am I being an idiot

[sherlock-is-ace]

the imposter syndrome i feel every time i even slightly think i might be autistic is insane, specially for a person who highly relates to the lived experiences of people who are professionally diagnosed.

Like I was just watching this one youtuber, and she was talking about very specific examples in her life and childhood where she saw autistic traits that made her realize she was autistic and then seek a diagnosis and then get one, and everything she was saying was like she was describing my life! But yeah no, I can't be autistic tho

[h0dge-p0dge]

small vent thing ig???

I've been losing the idgaf war so bad for the past week and I have to wait another week until I see my therapist??? guh everuthing sucks fat balls rn cuz I'm thinking sooo much about one little thing, and I keep thinking everyone hates me, but I don't wanna talk about it to my parents cuz it's embarrassing how much it bothers me this is not normal behavior 😭😭😭

[vacantgodling]

like i could get a therapist but like, how am i supposed to be a tortured artist if i'm not... yknow... tortured

[cheekblush]

Ask Polly - 'I Hate Myself and I'm Miserable Every Day!'

[dogearedheart]

I'm so tired, man

[mercifullymad]

i wish there was a workbook/zine/other resource for chronically suicidal ppl with advice about how to gauge what a "crisis" looks like *specifically* for chronically suicidal suicidal ppl. so many of the mental health resources i see use "crisis" almost interchangeably with suicidality, where suicidality always represents a crisis/tipping point/"the worst things can get." but suicidality alone is not a good gauge of crisis for chronically suicidal ppl! those of us surviving chronic suicidality might need to get more specific about what a crisis would look like for us, whether that's passive suicidality moving into active suicidality or it's certain levels of planning for death being done (ie, writing a note/buying a means of suicide/giving away belongings).

i am well-aware of the pitfalls of comparing physical illnesses to mental illnesses (and also aware of the false dichotomy between the two), but i often think of how ppl living with chronic physical pain talk about having a different "pain scale" compared to people who live without chronic pain — for chronically ill ppl, the level of pain that would drive them to go to the ER is much higher than someone who doesn't live with chronic pain, bc they're aware of the limitations of what the medical system can do for them and also how much medical trauma they risk by going. i think something similar occurs with chronically suicidal ppl, where a "crisis" that might drive someone who is not typically suicidal to the ER is for us just another day, or just a bad day. but then i think we are left without the tools to articulate what a crisis actually constitutes for us, and in what situations the potential psych trauma of presenting at a medical institution would outweigh the trauma of suffering another crisis alone. or in what situations it's worth it to reach out to friends/peers/other supports if you "know" you're able to weather this crisis the way you've weathered all the others, even though you're alone & in distress. when the baseline becomes just "staying alive," & you know you can achieve that, despite the immense amounts of pain it takes to do so, how do you convince yourself to reach out? when is the level of your pain worth "worrying others" over when you know you can stay alive through it?

[vse-kar-vem]

how to write vent post title that does not come off as self-pitying and or accusatory (because it's NOT !)

[brinnanza]

sometimes i like to research the treatment protocols for my various Issues and Problems and it is always very gratifying to find psychiatrists recommend something I am already doing today's rabbit hole was alexithymia because it's very much a the top fell off of the sprinkles container and now my bowl is all sprinkles at the autism sundae bar and it turns out the thing they're doing for that is basically just thinking about how you feel about stuff and practicing untangling it so you can do it faster on the fly and lo and behold that is precisely what my weed fueled self therapy sessions have been about lately

[creepyscritches]

Ramping up to my first family therapy appointment and I'm feeling like an insane person trying to get thoughts in order like this is hell on earth 🤡

[stormyweaver]

it's been a rough week tbh. having three days off honestly exhausted me more than energized me. that piled with a ton of OTHER shit i won't get into bc it's just stressing me out even more, and...

fuck. i've never felt so fucking incapable and simultaneously proud of myself.