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stormyweaver · 6 months ago

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it's been a rough week tbh. having three days off honestly exhausted me more than energized me. that piled with a ton of OTHER shit i won't get into bc it's just stressing me out even more, and...

fuck. i've never felt so fucking incapable and simultaneously proud of myself.

#greyrambles;#not snz #idk what to do half the time but #i think i really need to learn to keep parts of my life private #which is hard bc i don't see my therapist that often #and sometimes i really REALLY just wanna burst out with everything so i info dump and lbr #nobody ever really cares or gives a shit and they aren't obligated to #like my friends obvs are treasures to me but i also don't wanna burden them with my constant negative thoughts/feelings #journaling helps a little but #i'm just tired of feeling like a disappointment for not knowing how to properly manage my fucking life #i'm so tired of being told i'm not doing enough #i just want to be enough #and realistically for MYSELF I am #but i take other people's words to heart so so easily #how do you not do that lol

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wanderer-clarisse · 4 months ago

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... and he was eager moreover to discover all that he could concerning Mankind. He it was that first met Men in Beleriand and befriended them; and for this reason he was often called by the Eldar Edennil, 'the Friend of Men'. (Athrabeth Finrod ah Andreth)

(partially inspired by this)

#small disclaimer: i still haven't completed my annual silm reread #so this mayyyy be a little bit inaccurate #i was having so many thoughts about finrod and the edain again so i couldn't stop myself :)#but!#clarisse! you may ask. whats up with the hands being so realistic but they still have cartoon faces #i don't know. i respond. im at that stage of drawing #you know how sometimes you draw something and stare it for too long and you start having a crisis of whether it was even a good idea #like i've been working on this for the past week! and have no idea if it's even comprehensible #however. i am done with it and methinks is time to release it to the wild #clarisse doodles #tolkien #the silmarillion #finrod felagund #finrod #beor the old #house of beor #baran #andreth #beren

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kasieli · 2 years ago

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Hear me out: MC and Seb exploring the underwater caves together

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muchcelebrated · 3 months ago

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YOU GUYS WE DID IT!

WE DID IT!

#I’m not gonna lie I am shocked #like obviously I was hopeful but I was also trying to be realistic #I’ve been let down so many times with cancellations #i actually can’t wait #like idk what I’m going to do with myself #dodgerfox #my post #the artful dodger #the artful dodger hulu #the artful dodger disney plus #artful dodger #the artful dodger uk #the artful dodger cast #dr jack dawkins #jack dawkins #lady belle #lady belle fox #belle fox #season 2

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fibi-draws · 2 years ago

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You found a spider in the ceiling... er... the ceiling of the multiverse? Weird

[Commissions are open]

closeup :)

#idk i got bored and i like using funky colors... and so do the spiderverse animators so... here i am #into the spider verse #across the spiderverse #across the spider verse #spiderman #spiderverse #spiderverse fanart #miles morales #gwen stacy #gwiles #miles and gwen #i dont actually... ship them..... but i wanted to draw them so #i fucked myself over by making them too realistic on my first try and i got really sad bc i am very slowly losing my style to college #the tragedy... of learning anatomy professionally.....

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averageludwig · 11 months ago

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I need to get this out of my system or i will blow up. LIKE DAMN.. DAMN. LIKE OKAY. Like damn. Like. Tears in my eyes . fistful of hair . rocking back and forth . damn. He is ruining my life. Guys on the count if 3 throw the biggest rock at me. I need to be stoned there is no cure to this. goodnight cruel world.

#averitext #I AM GKING TO VOMIT.#IS SO LIKE #soft.......#I am gonna pop him into my mouth #this will get inappropriate very quickly i should hold myself back #ITS JUST GUYS?????? LIKE GUYS LIKE COME ON #like okay #like he is so handsome #i want. a 30 minute long sfm animation very human and realistic and smooth of him talking and chatting really softly and being really happy #and passionate and full of love and joy and oh god #cant even say my wife anymore this is just something else #mental breakdown in tags because this being in the actual blog will end me up in a hospital #please #lethal injection

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nihilismtrcit · 2 years ago

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did nora clean or unpack anything today? no. did she write? also no. she did have beer for breakfast, though

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angelpuns · 3 months ago

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JUST SO YA'LL KNOW I LOVE READING REBLOGS AND REPLIES TO KID LEO AND I WISH I WISH I WISHHH I COULS RESPOND TO THEM ALL CAUSW YOU ALLA RE SO FUNNY AND AMAZINF AND WONDERDUL AND ALWAYS LEACE GREAT COMMWNTS I PROMISE I READ THEM I JUST GET OVERWHELMED AND SOMETIMES MASKING TO REPLY IN A WAY THAT DOESN'T SEEM OUTRIGHT DISMISSIVE IS REALLY HARD CAUSE EVEN THO THEY MAKE ME REALLY HAPPY I JUST DONT HAVE THE WORDS TO EXPRESS IT OKAY GOODNIGHT THANK YOU TO EVERYOBE ALSO THIS APPLIES TO MY NORMAL POSTS I PROMISE I READ THEM I JUST LITERALLY DO NOT HAVE THE WORDS TO REPLY

#2 am thoughts #feeling emotional about it tbh #and a lil guilty but i know realistically i just cant stretch myself thin to reply #even tho i want to #but im v v v v heavy masking irl rn cause of my living situation so if i dont have to online its better for me #masking me and unmasking me are unfortunately two v v different people and its kinda depressing to sww #see the tone shift when i reread comments on old stuff #my own tone shift btw #you all are awesome

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xbasement-baitx · 3 months ago

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Being a self collared brat is so humbling, like damn this is really what I put my doms through lmao

#I don’t know how to tag this #I mean realistically I’m a bigger brat to myself then I am with my doms but #that’s bc I’m not a dom so like !!!

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prolibytherium · 1 year ago

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I feel like Mac & Dennis had to have SOME in-universe rationalization for getting rid of all of their furniture and all I could come up with was

A) sold (or attempted and failed to sell) their preexisting furniture to invest in their awesome new inflatable furniture business

B) to make room for their inflatable furniture business inventory (would be a literal explanation for the 'no room' comment) or

C) they had actually been renting NOT JUST the couch but the beds and chairs and etc, and panicked upon discovering this was a dumb as fuck move

#iasip #Realistically leaning towards a combination of A & B. But I love C #I'm not even talking about the rationalization for one bed here I'm talking about getting rid of everything TO BEGIN WITH.#It's easy to come up with in-character excuses for the bed but just getting rid of all the furniture is a mystery to me #Ok I fucking love that episode because it is so pleasing to the part of my brain that likes to linger on unimportant background details #like the fridge contents or everything about Charlie's apartment/bathroom situation #Kind of want to continue elaborating on the latter in the tags here but it's 7 am and I told myself I'd be going to sleep at 4 so uh #mission failed goodnight

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corviiids · 5 months ago

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complaining about creative writing post

#realistically i know it's fine and common and pretty popular even to do multiple works exploring the same theme #but after a while it does get slightly embarrassing to open a new document and do some shit to it and then sit back and go aw hell.#i did the thing i just did last week. but now it's a square #get a new trick guy!! write a different theme once in a while guy #rookposting #i woke up with a lawlight idea since ive been wanting to do another deranged oneshot that i mostly write at work so i started doing that #and then was like wow this feels remarkably too similar to the other shit i have already put them through #i need to like send them to the circus or something. get a new trick #i mean i can put them through it again!! i know no one will object to me putting them through it again #but i am wishing for some variety in my own diet that i am feeding to myself #this is not a post complaining about audience reception. this is a post complaining about lack of enrichment that i am giving myself #ALSO I THINK MY LIGHT NENDO MIGHT BE BEYOND REPAIR :( that has nothing to do with creative writing #but it does make me sad.

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nomattertheoceans · 1 year ago

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I've been reading the Percy Jackson books for the first time over the past two weeks! Just finished "The Battle of the Labyrinth" last night (which btw is my favorite of the series so far!!)

I have now gained a new obsession but it might not be what you think

#like i swear to god i did not expect to be absolutely enthralled by the protagonist's mom kahskahfjkaja #she's just so fascinating to me #she's so kind and smart and she has given EVERYTHING for her son okay #like her staying married to an abuser for years to protect him omg she deserves the world #like when Poseidon called her a queen in the first book he was 100% right alright she is a queen #the woman murdered her abuser with a monster's head LIKE THAT'S SO AWESOME #also i cannot explain how obsessed i am with her relationship with Poseidon okay #like. do i want her to still have feelings for him? yes. do i need poseidon to pine and long for her from the distance?? ABSOLUTELY YES.#like realistically it's more likely that be does not but I need it okay #like at first i wanted them to be reunited because you know. of course i did.#but i am perfectly content with her finding love and happiness with a mortal man and Poseidon pining for her from the distance #like listen. this woman is amazing and she deserves to have an immortal all powerful god unable to get over her alright SHE DESERVES IT #but the way he just showed up at Percy's birthday party and called her as beautiful as ever????? omg??? BECAUSE YES SHE IS #and she blushed??? be still my beating heart #kahskahfksja honestly laughing at myself right now like I'm just over here watching a Sally Jackson tele novela in my head #AND HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE #percy jackson #no spoilers please if you see this post i know very little about the story and I'm thoroughly enjoying myself that way #also jsut as an fyi i am also a little obsessed with Percy and Annabeth kajakshdjshsha they are too cute and intense #sally jackson #percy jackson and the olympians

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dandelion-wings · 28 days ago

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WIProgress report: I have half a chapter of 7, half a chapter of 9, and all of chapter 14 to write, and then this first draft is done. I have to go to bed and I know I won't write anything else good tonight but I'm so close that I'm vibrating. Prayer circle I can actually sleep so that I can finish 7 and 9 tomorrow!

#fic nattering #i am at the stage where i cannot think about anything else but the fic. ANYTHING #i'm hoping to finish it tomorrow #but realistically chapter 14 will happen next week #hopefully in time to play lantern rite because i won't be able to make myself focus even on it until this is done >>;;

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altschmerzes · 5 months ago

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posting something new is so much fun for so many reasons but it does always mean an interesting little bit where it’s like am i gonna have to gently handhold a new fandom through the concept of aromanticism and romance repulsion or are they gonna be cool about my adamant and guaranteed to never change refusal to write ship fic all on their own

#gav gab #ONLY TIME WILL TELL #not that anyone needs an excuse or justification if they’re a gen fic connesoir like myself #but it is a little like #no really. No Really this is all i ever am or will be about #and you gotta get cool with that or see yourself out #I write about intimacy and love and connection and yearning I do Not however write about romance #i occasionally write about sex these days! still doesn’t involve romance #let’s all be realistic about our expectations here ahsjsbsnsn

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unspuncreature · 1 month ago

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o|–< well ok

#realistically this is something that’s likely been happening for years behind my back in some capacity #and this is just one of the first times i’ve ever found out about it #like i literally post face and hole online for money. i am by no means concealing myself or my identity #but sheesh what a message to wake up to #maybe they’ll just circlejerk in their fb group and leave me alone #scout.txt

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lilacerull0 · 2 months ago

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sorry for switching to my own language so much lately, but it helps me feel more like myself here and it's rekindling my love for this page

#letters from stephanie*#it's just more authentic i feel like i am toning myself down in english. that's a faded version of me #also realistically i am not saying anything new about mbf i am only phrasing it in a way that makes the most #sense to me and comes with the most weight because it's how i experience it internally so it's not #like you're missing out on anything special i just need to do this for my own sake

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