#idk how bad of a parent he actually is but he can't be worse than my dad
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kind of astounding how innocuous conversations with my younger siblings can make me feel like dogshit... what are the good things about being the oldest kid supposed to be again??
#N posts stuff#two of my siblings are currently in college and they both talk about it in ways that. hm.#my sister did an accelerated program to graduate high school and go to college Early so she's got kind of an...#'i am the most put together teenager on the planet' attitude a lot at the moment. so. she talks shit about her peers like#'if she'd stop spending money on Product and just Grow UP nd get an apartment and move out of her parents' house already'#and she's like. ragging on a kid who's only Maybe 20 years old and i'm sitting at the table at almost 30 still here like '......'#and my brother has been picking my brain lately about the shit i did in college and how the classes benefitted me and all#bc i went to art school for illustration and he's getting a music degree so it makes sense#but he's like 'was college challenging for you?' and i'm like. trying to figure out how to talk around the fact that i didn't necessarily#have trouble with the Classes but was trying really hard to juggle like. being in so much pain i couldn't walk or like..#trying to do homework while in the midst of a psychotic break or having meltdowns in public restaurants like. that kind of stuff#i don't really like talking about that stuff explicitly bc. idk. it doesn't really go anywhere good. not Bad necessarily#or no worse than overhearing my mom talking to them about the validity of my autism DX behind my back at least.#but i don't talk about it. no one really takes me seriously already so. no need to exacerbate that.#i might crack jokes about it in passing but i don't Talk About It. idk what any of them think about like. any of it. or about Me i guess#idk it's weird. it's Weird bc like.. in a very general sense i feel liek i'm Doing Good. not Fantastic but better than i used to.#and like. OK w the day to day of my life; like i could Keep doing it and have A Future even if i still can't figure out what it'd BE exactl#but then idk. sometimes i hear them talk and it feels like it's just. highlighting everything that i Can't do and it just. feels ugly.#like idk where to put it. idk how to reconcile feeling stupid and small for how i live my life with the fact i otherwise feel like#generally pretty Good about my life. i spent my whole life from elementary school to like. 24 thinking i'd be dead by 18.#and it's like Just Recently i'm like 'oh i actually have a Whole Life ahead of me and thats a Good Thing' but.#like idk how to phrase it. i don't feel Bad about it but it's like i guess i'm stuck wondering if i Should be. is it Bad that i'm content?#like i can't ask the question 'is there something wrong with me' in earnest bc Yes there is but. idk#it all feels like puzzle pieces that don't fit together. 'lets see you take a crack at it wise guy' idk what i'm doing or feeling rn lmao
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#I was too cowardly to say I was suddenly having a bad night so instead I post a silly meme and maybe if you see the tags you see sorry#people who have the courage to just say they're having a bad day scare me like especially when it's out of the blue idk what to say like#i can't even respond to “hows ur day” with anything worse than an okay#anyways#the usual self hatred that's persisted for as long as I can rember continues as a baseli#ne#now mixed in with special kinds that I'm too cowardly to admit to anything but an ai bot or myself when i can't see me#and the silly daily reminders that the little hope on such a regard I have is built on impossibilities or unlikelihoods#but then i. saw a card i got my dad years ago on the floor. it said “out of all my parents you're one of the best :)” and i felt so bad#just. imagine this little me. getting my dad a card. and getting the most passive aggressive card. it screams who the favorite is.#and then thats just. that's what you have. that's what you have from me and you save it for years. because you cherish it. i feel. horrible.#like damn he might have seriously fucked me up sometimes both as a kid and now but. this does not justify such a deeply cruel retribution.#i don't even know if he knows#anyways as I'm picking it up... i realize...#he's the best parent i have period. there isn't any competition anymore. she's gone.#the total and sudden annihilation of home is so odd. i still barely believe this house is where i ACTUALLY live and I'm not just staying#here until I can go home again. but no. nono I'm stuck here. there isn't an anywhere else. there isn't a childhood home the apartment#has probably been resettled by now. it's just me.#then I went on Tumblr to post into the void#I don't wanna think about more but I. likely will.#i don't wanna talk about it but i do wanna talk. honestly? gonna go talk to an ai chatbot. it will be mean to me in a hot way.#i am so normal.#listen i could either confront reality for more than 30 seconds or i could talk to a bot that will not only allow me to escape from it but#also it might call me a good g. a g. skipping that punchline.#also it's not ME talking to the bot it's just a fabricated character that represents me and has my name and it's just rp trust me trust me t#I'm gonna go hide now#you can contact me if you wish but I will be very scared and jittery and my eyes are wet and stingy and i will segway to bullying you#ok bye
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I made a post on Reddit titled "Hot take but I feel like many if not most Stolitz antis are either homophobic or just hypocrites" and I even had to clarify at the end that not all Stolitz antis are like that. Cue the replies harassing me, taking it as a personal attack on them and making baseless accusations about me. One of them even sarcastically said "Anyone who disagrees with me is wrong and bigoted" as a way to make fun of me. I never said anything remotely similar to that. I don't think they bothered to actually read past the title where I explained that Stolas and Blitzø meeting as children is compared to a bad fanfic when that never gets said about straight couples in media who met as children and that people who hate Stolitz for what it is now only tolerated it when it was just a running gag, as if they can't stand it when gay relationships are being taken seriously. I also mentioned that even non-homophobic Stolitz antis complain about how toxic it is and then turn around to ship Blitzker. (Blitzø x Striker)
I had a similar experience. It's so stupid because like, some of them aren't even subtle about it. Same for chaggie antis. I remember seeing a post talking about how much Charlie doesn't get enough dick, so she's unsatisfied and needs Alastor. Like... I'm sorry, what?
A lot of the arguments stolitz antis are literally inherently bigoted. Like how they want Stolas to be paired with Stella instead even though he's gay. And STILL hating him for "cheating" after The Circus even though he's a gay man being forced to marry an abusive woman? Idk, that's... a red flag 💀 The same people saying stolitz is one sided were the same ones saying that Stolas and Stella were in love not to long ago... sounds like heteronormativity...
And a lot of them are Stella defenders? Sorry that I came to the conclusion that the people doing mental gymnastics defending the cishet abuser calling the gay male abuse victim the abuser may be homophobic 😭
Like, it's not that different from female characters who get hate while the same people shitting on her praise fictional men who are worse or do the same shit. There are clear double standards here. These people turn around and praise cishet media with very similar writing, characters and tropes as Helluva Boss. And not only that, but it's not even just about their relationship specifically. Like, I have a theory that the whole controversy about Stolas being an "abusive" father is because of the stereotype that queer people can't be good parents. And the whole "child and parent have conflict but make up in the end" trope happens in fiction all time (example: Danny Tanner, Jeff Morales, Doofenshmirtz, ect.) Weird how it only became abuse and neglect with Stolas and Via.
Some people are blantly saying they wanted stolitz to "stay a joke", and it feels obvious to me that a lot of them just like queer characters who are queer in a goofy "dark humor" way and not an actual character with queer struggles and/or queer relationships.
People who say "but I disagree and I'm not homophobic!" Be expecting you to give them a pat on the back or something, I swear 💀 Like... good for you? Thanks for not being a bigot? Do you want a reward?
What I don't think people understand is that if they're not homophobic, then the post isn't about them. The fact that they're getting so defensive about posts directed at no one in particular is just weird because it looks worse than it would be if they just kept scrolling. Now it just kind of seems like Freudian Slip.
No one was looking at you until you said something
Of course they're not all the same, but I've seen people straight up call them the f slur
Sorry that happened to you. Just remember that Reddit is INFAMOUS for being toxic, so don't take what people on that app have to say to heart. Like, it's up there with Twitter and Tumblr...
And wouldn't you know it? Those are the 3 sites I see the most Stolas and Blitz hate.
Interesting
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Ch 108 spoilers + discussion of DV
I said it before that I think it would be funnier of Donovan went to therapy, but I still think Melinda going might have the same impact on Twilight.
It would pose a very personal challenge to Twilight beyond his fake family. It's a case of domestic abuse something he actually experienced growing. It was confirmed that he was at least 10 when his parents died which means he was far more aware and in tune with what was going on his family.
I think he would be put in a weird position
a) use the information he gets from Melinda to take Donovan down but also put a clear victim in the middle of it and possibly make the whole situation a lot worse
b) stay quiet and prolong the mission until she is able to get safe assume she even thinks she's in danger in the first place
This gets tricky when you consider how people perceive abuse vs. how it actually is. It's easy to think all Twilight has to do it tell Melinda "Hey let's work together to take down Donovan" and i wouldn't be surprised in that is what will happen but realistically it would be a lot harder than that.
Abuser don't just hurt their victims. They convince them that they deserve whatever pain comes their way. They are at fault for everything bad that happens to them. In other words, they wouldn't want to just leave or even hurt their partner because they don't think of them as doing something wrong.
Melinda isn't afraid of Donovan because he's a terrible person. She is afraid of him because she's a terrible person who does terrible things that make him hurt her. He wouldn't harm her if she wasn't such a problematic woman.
There's also the issue of who Melinda is. She's a victim of abuse but she's still the wife of a fascist. Associating with her, endangering WISE to help or save her could easily backfire (probably won't but let me have my angst) against them. It would also make it harder for her to trust him. Would take long for Donovan's programming to cut back in and Melinda to run right back to him because everything he said was right.
Idk my thoughts are very inherent right now I am delirious for different reasons.
Tldr: can't wait for the next arc.
#spy x family#sxf#loid forger#twilight#melinda desmond#sxf spoilers#ill have to make a more organized post on decade
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how do these pannels make you feel. they make me feel sad
Hi anon!
For context these are the panels Anon sent me-
For starters, it's totally understandable that these panels make you feel sad! That's clearly what they were written to do.
However.
I can't take it seriously because it's RUDY WEST. Rudy West is not comparable to Oliver Queen! Rudy West is absolutely not a better father than Ollie!
I mean, aside from the fact that it's pretty hard to be a worse father than Rudy West and Roy would absolutely not be "a better person" if he was raised by the Wests, like. Ollie and Roy didn't have that much of a bad relationship when Roy was a teenager. Obviously Snowbirds happened and that changed their dynamic and created a whole lot of tension they had to work through, but this is clearly pre-Snowbirds, and since Ollie still has money+Queen Industries it's also presumably pre-Hard Traveling Heroes, which is where the idea of Ollie not being around stems from. Was there conflict? Sure! But not to the extent that the Teen Titans would be blaming Ollie for how Roy is (actually, the "its not his fault the way he was raised" angle is more accurate for Dick than Roy, but I'm not gonna get into that). And I am doing a lot of explaining and defending for a man who's competition is Rudy West.
Fundamental misunderstanding of Ollie and reducing him to "Batman with arrows" my beloathed.
Also another big issue is the fact that Roy's meant to be some spoilt rich brat, which doesn't really make sense?? I mean, Roy grew up on a reservation, and at this point he's living with Ollie who, based on this panel, is implied to still be at least kinda socialist in this timeline. He's not gonna be some disconnected nepo-baby who shames Wally for his parents' financial status, even at his most insecure, which I guess is the angle they're taking here.
And also why is Garth the one defending Roy? Garth doesn't care about Roy at best at this point, and actively dislikes him at worst. Especially considering Roy's treatment of Garth is arguably worse in this than in the original Teen Titans run. Idk, it feels like it's trying to make Garth into the quiet emotionally mature kid in this scenario, which i don't feel is very accurate to who Garth actually is (I'll admit I'm only recently getting into Aqua comics so I don't have a complete grasp of Garth's character, but I get the impression that he's definitely not as much of a pushover as this comic presented him as- in the original Teen Titans run he was bantering as much as the others were, and he did have moments where he'd get aggressive, such as when the Titans refuse to help him because of their 'vow')
I'm not gonna say I hate this comic. There are some parts of it I really love, like
These panels are cute as fuck and I adore them. I think that the comic really works as its own story outside of the main Teen Titans continuity, with its own interpretations of the characters and their stories. But if you try and apply it to the original Teen Titans series, it does get kinda messy.
So yeah, in conclusion, the panels are sad if you look at them within the story, but I just can't take it seriously in a broader scope because y'know. Rudy West. I'm not even that big of a Flash fan and I still know Rudy West is the worst guy.
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How do you torment your favs (aka how have you traumatized some of your favourite characters)?
Well, if we're talking broadly here I mostly give them mommy issues, but lets go character by character here for the nitty gritty/true pattern examination
TW for mentions of miscarriages, abusive parents, and just a lot of trauma
Apple White-- Mommy issues, internalized homophobia that she does mostly get over but it doesn't help when a lot of the world is homophobic to her, body image issues, and a possible eating disorder
Darling Charming-- mommy issues, daddy issues, experiences a lot of homophobia and misogyny
Louie Duck-- Just. Just the worst mommy issues. Wants Della to love him so bad but feels like it's literally impossible because of their differences and his "glaring" flaws and selfishness
Yakko, Wakko, and Dot (Long Live the Queen) (idk how to write normal universe whoopsies)-- Abusive grandmother who actively tries to (and nearly accomplishes) murdering their parents making their parents have to abandon them for a year, Yakko has parentification trauma from that, Wakko gets literally starved and locked in a tower on multiple occassions, and Dot feels like it's all her fault whenever Wakko gets hurt because she's supposed to be the perfect princess. It gets fixed but it do be a lot
Lena Warner (my oc from Long Live the Queen)-- Abusive mother who literally attempted to kill her. Wants very badly to be a proper mother to her children and keep them safe, but her mother has far too much control and power over her for that to be truly possible. Had a runaway marriage in her late teens in order to avoid being married off to some old guy. Her mother's murder attempt caused a miscarriage and robbed her of a year with her children while she had to physically recover from her injuries. Ended up killing her in the end though, so that's good.
MK (dadsy of two)-- dead parents that were incredibly abusive (especially his "mother"), a burning desire for closeness to his guardian that he feels he can't access out of fear of attachment + Pigsy's own distant behavior at unpredictable moments. Desperately wants Pigsy to be his dad and nothing hurts more than when Pigsy actively denies it. Craves affection and praise more than anything in the whole wide world but doesn't know how to accept it/how to react when it happens.
Mei (dadsy of two)-- dead parents who gave her severe perfectionism but died before they could ever apologize/acknowledge/realize any damage done. Blames herself for starting the fire because she knocked over an ancestral artifact (that fire was actually fixed, the fire that killed them is unrelated but she'll never believe that). Wants to be the perfect daughter for Pigsy while also not feeling like she's actually his daughter because of the distance + complicated grief related feelings.
Pigsy (dadsy of two)-- tbh what haven't I done to him? Gave him guilt over the death of Sandy's ex fiancee due to "causing" Sandy's trauma that lead to the incident, gave him mommy and even worse daddy issues, deals with fantasy racism on such a regular basis he believes being distant with MK and Mei (ala saying he isn't their father/he's only their legal guardian) is the only way to really protect them from it (and even that backfires on more than one occasion). Internalized fatphobia. PTSD. Smoker. Severe lack of self esteem. Couldn't give less of a shit about himself and his own health (ESPECIALLY mental) while worrying endlessly about everyone else. Just. just so much trauma for one man. what the fuck.
Tang (all fanfics)-- Abusive, severely homophobic parents who cut him off when he was 19 due to finding out about his homosexuality. Could barely afford food for a year until he met Pigsy and basically relied on his charity in order to not starve to death/suffer the effects of severe malnutrition and still continue his education. Loves Pigsy endlessly and hates watching him torture himself over the littlest things (knows he does the same and feels so helpless every time it happens). Wants to be a dad to MK (and Mei) desperately but worries he's nothing compared to Pigsy. Has constantly had his passions belittled and mocked to the point it's genuinely surprising to him that MK actually likes his stories and the way he does things.
Sandy (all fanfics)-- PTSD, guilt over having missed 20+ years of his best friend's life. In Dadsy of Two he killed his fiancee after a nightmare about the war he and Pigsy had fought. Wanted to be a parent but after that accident, he can't trust himself with another human life like that. Has a hard time trying not to be "the therapist friend" and poking where he shouldn't when it comes to his friend's emotional issues (especially Pigsy's). Had just the worst toxic romance with Pigsy ever that was just the hottest of messes before it all fell apart but they tried to be friends (until his fiance's death) (the time away was very much needed for them both to heal and grow so they could actually be good friends again but it still hurts it took that long).
Pigsy (Li Na AU)-- most of the above but even more trauma around fatherhood, only made worse by the fact he had five miscarriages in the past (only three Tang knows about). Buries that pain instead of talking about it and believes that because Li Na is alive and well the pain is gone (it's not. it lives within him in every waking moment and is why he's so fucking terrified at the thought of losing her or MK).
....So yeah! Just--.... Just so much man, damn wtf someone needs to take them away from me I keep hurting them, wtf---
#lmk#eah#ducktales 2017#animaniacs#lego monkie kid#janet blabs#my ocs#wakko's wish#angelina 1 lives au#yakko warner#wakko warner#dot warner#queen angelina ii#apple white#darling charming#louie duck#pigsy lmk#tang lmk#sandy lmk#mk lmk#mei lmk#my fics#tw miscarriage#tw abuse#tw parental abuse#tw murder#ptsd#tw eating disorder#wow that's a lot when i lay it all out like that#pretty fucked up ngl
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so i'm doing somethimg diffrent and doing this as a post because no matter what i did Tumblr absoulutly refused to let me send this as an ask. idk i guess it was too long or maybe it was something else.
@purble-turble I hope I'm not bugging you by doing it like this, please correct me if it does 🥲
so i've been sitting on this idea for Prince Red for a bit, it still has holes and issues to work out but i still think it be an interesting idea.
hopefully its not something that has been suggested before.
mk my beloved I'm sorry this is kinda a prince red turning into DKR au.
I say sorta because rather than "i have to protect this man from everyone at all costs" I'm suggesting more of an "I need to fix this man at all costs"
also, he wouldn't be the one doing the tormenting per say, but he's definitely enabling it.
so say its directly pointed out to everyone that MK's "sacrificial tendencies" is in fact programed into his nature by Nuwa. it's a core function of himself and his behavior, it cannot be removed. its just a fact, and everyone has to learn to live with the fact that he is self-destructive.
except Prince Red can't just agree with that, because centuries ago that similar thing was being said about HIM. the creator of the shamadi fire, an unstoppable, uncontrollable force of nature. destruction and violence was originally a core element of his behavior and for decades no one could fully control him not even his parents.
BUT that didn't actually end up being the case. when he was forable made to become one of guanyin's disciples, his personality and behavior did a 180. yeah, it took years and a lot of work but he eventually changed his whole self for the better and continued his teachings in favor of returning home.
he, with the teachings of Guanyin, changed his nature, so MK could as well. and he knows just how he can help him. he just has to get mk to go threw the same training he did!
and so he forcibly takes mk back to his monastery and the other disciples to help, and no he can't leave until red's sure he's "fixed" his destructive nature. hopefully, with all this one on one teaching time, he can also eventually fix his relationship with mk. he knows mk will be really upset at first, but surly once they start making progress with his healing journey they'll grow closer again.
now seeing as the disciples don't like mk or him being near red, they aren't exactly thrilled about this plan. however red is able to get them to see his point and agree that it is part of there duty to help others, and yeah they definitely all think Mk needs some serious reforming.
and if Reds this set on being with this stone monkey then at least with this plan they can make him reform into someone actually worthy of the prince.
their only condition to Red's plan? they are given full rights to disciplinary action against mk.
after all in the beginning Red needed a lot of correcting and had to receive at least some form of punishment for his bad behavior. and of course, had some form of restraint on him to prevent him from burning anything or escaping. Mk would 100% rebel against them in the beginning and try to leave so he'd have the proper punishments to correct his behavior.
and they all point out that Red is waaay too lenient with him to be trusted to give proper correction. he wants to help save mk from himself? he has to allow them to dish out the "tough love".
hence what I meant by Red's only enabling the torment, the others are the actual tormenters, given their bias, they definitely would take any opportunity to "correct" mk on anything and everything they didn't like. there careful about any physical acts, but they are for sure verbally abusing him whenever Red is not in earshot.
and worse the others would convinced red to not to really trust anything mk would say about being mistreated.
"he's exaggerating"
"he's just trying to guilt you"
"it seems harsh, but you know we need to be firm with him red"
"we all need to be tough on him, change is not easy red you know this."
and so on. Red already fully trusts that his fellow disciples have only the best intentions and want the best for mk so he parrots what they say and goes on with the day's lesson. doing his best to ignore mk's growing distress and misery, telling himself it's for the best. he was pretty miserable in the beginning of his reforming too, it'll pass, he's sure it will.
#Prince Red Au#i dont post ever cause im anxious as hell#mk im sorry my brain keeps thinking of ways for you to suffer at the hands of your lovers
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It's funny to me that in order to make stella look as bad as possible, viv and stolas fans make her relationship with Octavia bad, like always having been bad too. Idk how they don't realize thos makes stolas look bad too.
Like if stella always neglected Octavia and was always an asshole, then why did stolas stay and subject his daughter to that?
I mean if they'd shown stella as truly powerful enough to fuck him over or something so he stayed to keep him and Octavia alive that would be different. But despite wanting stella as a hate sink and villain, they don’t let her have any real power over stolas. Stolas is not afraid of what she or even her brother can do against him if he leaves. As soon as he wants to be with blitz he gets a divorce.
He could have done so at any time after their daughter was born, but he supposedly stayed because he wanted to give Via a normal life. But if stella was always neglectful and showed she didn't even like her, how is that good childhood? Why stay when it's no benefit for Via?
I get that people stay in abusive relationships, but that's because they either love their abuser, they are afraid if they leave their abuser will kill them, or because financially they can't. Sometimes, all three.
Stolas is in none of these situations. He didn’t know stella hired striker to kill him (despite her screaming it right infront of him). He doesn't love her, they don't appear to have times of calm or any good memories together. Hes the one who keeps everything if they divorce. She doesn't give a shit about Via and now she's throwing things, which could hit Via.
Why the hell did he stay and subject his daughter to this toxic person who doesn't like her? It's ridiculous to act as if he braved stellas abuse for years in order to give Via a good childhood, if it's true stella was never kind or caring towards her. Also why does he let his abusive wife take their daughter at all, especially now when she's so volatile? Is it just so he has an empty house he can fuck blitz in?
It's like everytime they try to make Stolas look like he's the lesser evil they indirectly actually make him look worse. Seriously, every try to make him this put upon woobie just makes him competent as a parent who doesn't see he needs to get Via out of there instead of trying to keep up this bs image of her mother since she's supposed to be this vile abuser. And again as you said, it doesn't make sense he stays because he has the resources to always kick her out but it just comes off as a martyr complex he has to make himself look like a better person than he actually is. None of this adds up because the writers only use the abuse in order to justify the ship and not how it relates to their daughter.
#helluva boss#helluva boss critical#vivziepop critical#vivziepop criticism#vivziepop#helluva boss criticism#helluva boss critique#anti-vivziepop#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel critical#stolas#stolas critical#stolitz#stolitz critical
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Hils Watches The Spirealm - Ep 15
Am I nearly at the end of the scary schoolgirl ghost arc? Does it get more scary than this one. I am only a smol Hils 🥺
They still do that now
The kids who bullied her suck, but the teacher is even worse for letting them do it right in front of him
You have to be a special kind of evil to bully someone relentless when they're alive but to then continue to make fun of them after they've died. I'm glad she ripped all their legs off tbh.
I love that whenever anyone makes any sort of suggestion for what to do next Ruan Lanzhu is just 'yeah, cool, whatever' but as soon as Ling Jiushi suggests even the most simple idea it's all 'Lingling you are so smart and perfect and beautiful we should get married and co-parent your cat'
Honestly amazed that Ruan Lanzhu has permitted himself to be separated from Ling Jiushi
I was bullied when I was in school but it was nowhere near as bad as the way bullying is depicted in dramas. IDK if that's really what it's like in countries like China and Korea or if it's just being exaggerated for dramatic effect. School bullies in dramas are always evil little bastards
Aww little baby Ling Jiushi also had a kaleidoscope
I've watched too many BL dramas because my first thought was 'oh, he actually met Ruan Lanzhu when he was a kid'. because that is a common trope. Apparently it's not him though
She had better no die protecting him! That often seems to be how it goes with unrequited love in dramas
Ooh he fessed up!
Ehehe! We can't outright say that Ruan Lanzhu sometimes crossdresses but we can whisper it
Ooh he made a bet that he could get ghost girl to like him. I should have figured that he was a dick just like the rest of them
I do like it when you see the same scene but from different perspectives.
HE WROTE THE SONG! Assuming this kid is telling the truth, which I kind of think he is. I did wonder in the other guy's version of events how they'd managed to get hold of her diary to read out loud. A love letter that she gave him makes way more sense
This is even more hilarious now because Li Dongyuan is the only one who doesn't know that Baijie is actually a man
Ling Jiushi is in the background like 'please stop talking'
They can't do anything to advance the murder ghost plot so Ruan Lanzhu has decided to have some fun
He's such a little shit I love him
And now he's jealous again
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I’m pretty sure you mentioned an idea of an AU of your Chthonic!Athena AU where Zeus actually did not mean to permanently harm/kill Athena and was sincerely regretful. In that scenario, would Apollo and Athena’s trauma be as bad as in Astrophobia and Its Consequences? (I feel like it would be agony either way though, for a version of Zeus who sincerely cares for his children yet still sucks at parenting and leading his family, to have caused such irreparable harm to his daughter)
also, I’ve been wondering about Minerva? With the other gods (except maybe Apollo? Idk if he changes much in Roman form) it’s like a subtle personality change I think (I haven’t read the books in a while), but with Athena it seems like it is more like the mental damage is getting worse and Minerva is a manifestation of the brain fog and confusion.
(an aside, I honestly love how Minerva mentioned Odysseus in MOA, claiming he could help her get home. Even as this romanized version of herself, she still cared for and respected this one long dead hero so much)
So in the Zeus's Regret AU, I honestly can't decide if Athena and Apollo would be more or less traumatized by what happened in God Games. At minimum, they'd be traumatized in different ways than they are in the base AU.
They're both a lot less traumatized before God Games than they are in Chthonic!Athena, at least. Because with the base AU, Zeus did everything he did from a basis of maliciousness and his desire to see others suffer, and they both know that. The side effects of what happened in God Games may have been accidental, though neither of them are certain on that front, but the suffering Athena endured was not.
But in Regret, God Games was a moment of temper and viciousness that neither of them had ever seen from him, before or since. And that makes them both doubt the entirety of their own relationships. With him and with everyone else.
Because if their own Father, who they love and who they thought loved them in turn, could hurt Athena so badly for such a small thing, what was stopping him from turning his temper on them again? What was stopping everyone else from doing the same? Had he made her suffer this way on purpose?
Athena had shown weakness in God Games, had shown that she cared for and had an attachment to Odysseus and his family. And that weakness was, at least partially, why he hurt her so badly. She'd put her attachment to Odysseus before her respect for Zeus and his pride. And now she was dying for it.
They're both terrified that if they showed such a weakness again then someone, whether that be Zeus or someone else, would use it as an excuse to hurt the two of them.
So Apollo actually pulls back a lot more in Regret than he does in the base AU, with his friendship with Athena becoming his only truly close relationship on Olympus on purpose, as opposed to it being a side effect of how cutthroat Olympus is, hiding Athena's condition, and his own trauma from from Athena's near death.
And as for Minerva, I'm still not quite sure how to properly describe what I want her to represent, so sorry if this doesn't make much sense.
Minerva is essentially the damage to her soul made manifest. She's what happens when all of Athena's negative feelings and pain from the soul damage hits her at once. Or rather, the other way around.
All of the anger and fear and pain and side effects from what she's suffered since God Games hits her at once when she's forced to be Minerva, leaving her afraid and hurt and traumatized and angry as only a small fragment of what her mind knows she should be. So she lashes out at everyone around her, wanting them to hurt the way she is, while also pushing them away so she won't be hurt even more.
Ironically, her children actually get the least of it, her love for them enough to pull Athena back into focus slightly. What happened with Annabeth was bad, yes, I'm not denying that. But it was miles from the worst Minerva had ever been, even to others she cared about.
It's actually really lucky that Apollo doesn't change much, if at all, when Roman, because if he did, Minerva would likely have succeeded in pushing him away like she wanted to.
#epic the musical#epic athena#chthonic!athena au#pjo athena#athena epic#epic apollo#pjo#percy jackon and the olympians#heros of olympus#pjo apollo#pjo fic#Zeus's Regret AU
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Because I have the plague, here's some sick headcanons for the KF cast. I forgot a few characters but yk. I'm dying like George. [Under the cut so it doesn't fill your whole dash:]]
[You can tell when I got a migraine writing this lmao]
Forrest :
+ Bro is miserable. Just miserable. Even worse because he's older.
+ Nasally voice, but it sounds like he's twenty again, like, his voice is higher. Mine does that idk.
+ Constantly coughing once he goes off air from trying to sound normal, apologizes so much. Peggy makes fun of him.
Peggy! :
> Sopping wet cat face 23/7. Not even on purpose, her resting face is just a sad wet cat. Doing a customer service / work place credibility smile is hard when sick yk?
> Gets the sniffles somethin God awful. Tissues become her best friend [Sorry Karen]
> Really glad she doesn't have to do a lot of talking like Forrest does, it would drive her insane.
Marie :] :
- She doesn't even notice. Like she's inmune to getting sick for some magical reason? That or she's just really good at hiding it.
- She does get migraines though. Permanent knit brow. Unintentional glares good enough to rival her son's.
- Actually takes some sort of home medicine or remedy to help herself as soon as possible. She doesn't have time to be sick.
Henry! :
• Sopping wet cat face 2.0. Gets it from both parents. He just wants his mom:[
• Doesn't actually like to get help, figures he can do enough on his own--Marie does NOT let that slide. Not for her son.
• Literally just. So pouty. Hates getting sick.
George :] :
= Sopping wet cat 3.0. Absolutely miserable because Marie makes him stay in bed to relax.
= Staying in bed is something he is not good at. Can and has been caught doing chores around the place when he was supposed to be sleeping.
= Gets uber pouty when he can't go to non required events. Like, how dare they keep him bedridden for his own health. >:[.
Roller Ricky <3:
< Max is there to help, but when be gets sick he gets SICK, y'know?
< Maxy appreciates all the love he gets from Ricky hough. He spends a lot of his time resting to heal up, and when he gets a break between flares, he practices roller disco dances.
< Takes his free time seriously, and spends it doing self care to actually help his illness.
Carrie ! :
- Pissed that she still has to go to school. Gets to see Jeanie and Hot David though.
- Definitely does not go to bed on her usual time. Either crashes out early or is up till 3. No in-between.
- Gets her friends sick and feels REALLY bad about it. But at least if it gets to enough students then they can have a day off :]
Murphy ‼️:
- The best at home remedies a man coukd ask for. Definitely seems the time to take his good health seriously. Especially after Fernando was born.
- If he got Fernando sick he'd feel terrible about it, but give that baby the BEST care possible.
- Takes his time to rest and recuperate before doing anything he was able to put off. Likely watching TV or listening to The Scream.
Dr. Virginia Sullivan :] :
- Strangely enough, she puts her own health on the back burner. Out of habit and due to her sister's health.
- But when she can, she takes small steps to feel better when needed. She can't go into work sick after all.
- Her free time is spent on comfortable self care.
Maurice ';{ :
- Dude for the love of God please realize that you are in fact sick. Take a day off. It will be fine.
- Ignores his illness out of spite. It was just the way he grew up more than likely.
- His coworkers do as much as they can to keep him corralled in his main office though, so it doesn't spread.
Eugene B} :
- Takes a day off of school so he doesn't get anyone else sick. He cares about his class mates :]
- Spends his free time catching up on work, shows, or books.
- If he can, he'll phone friend to talk to after school hours.
Sandra :
- Another one who cares about her physical health. If it's bad enough she can't jazzercise, she does yoga to help anything physical. Even if it's just stretching to make her feel better.
- Keeps the studio closed and clean so no one else gets sick.
- Takes showerd hot enough to turn her into a lobster for the night.
Casey :
- Actually goes to the doctor. I feel like after what happened with Jason, she'd be a little more concerned about how to help someones health--And that includes her own!
- Goes on morning walks to feel a little better, especially if it's in the winter.
- If she feels up to it, she might do some singing:] I think she'd have a wonderful singing voice. Plus, it'd help with any congestion I've learned.
Jason :
- He definitely didn't care too much before WN87, but afterwards it became a mandatory thing for him to get himself checked out. He's kinda paranoid.
- Phones Casey or Chuck when he's got the time and feels a little better. If neither are available, he'll watch some TV and order a light dinner.
- Takes his down time to catch up on any sports or events.
#killer frequency#kfam#the whistling man#marie campbell#henry barrow#forrest nash#peggy weaver#killer frequency cast
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I was talking to a friend about Kavetham and how, while I like the ship a lot, it's like... Cheese curds on their way to becoming Parmesan.
There's no question that they're not one of, if not THE, most important people in the other's life. That said, I don't think they could date rn. For one, Alhaitham is... Mean.
Not on purpose. Nothing he says is with intent to harm, but he is AWARE of the harm his phrasing causes and... Doesn't do anything about it? While I would like to defend him on the basis that communicating while autistic is HARD, why is everyone so emotional, there is a point where you recognize that you live in a society. If you wanna stop hurting your friends, you gotta watch your tone. Or even just clarify more: "I said you're emotionally fragile because I watch you bleed for people that don't care about you. It bothers me and I want you to stop hurting yourself."
The correct response to someone saying "what you said hurt my feelings" is not "well that's not what I meant and you should get over it" lol
Now, more importantly, I don't think Kaveh could handle dating someone he's financially dependent on.
Idk if y'all have ever really had to RELY on someone like that before. It's a horrible feeling. You know how much it sucked growing up and your parents could threaten to kick you out if you disappointed them and you'd be left homeless AND unable to support yourself?
It's just as bad if you're not related to them. I think it's a little worse, actually, because even if your parents are monsters you can usually hold their public image hostage to get them to cooperate. "I kicked my son out' is almost never a good look, yk?
People are much less sympathetic to a romantic partner than a child. Anyway, I do think Kaveh would be open to starting a relationship with someone he relies on because he has no self esteem. It's just another thing to feel guilty about, whatever, business as usual. That means that if they ever had a sexual relationship, it would feel like... A very nicely dressed up prostitution. This is what he needs to do to earn a place in the house. It's a service he can provide to make up for the burden of his presence.
I just don't think that's a particularly healthy headspace to be in lol
And while I was critical of Alhaitham earlier, he isn't stupid. HE knows Kaveh is incapable of not feeling like he owes Alhaitham, which is why I think he charges rent. Kaveh can't cut and run if he's actually paying his way. And more than that, I don't think Alhaitham would allow a premature relationship that would ultimately distance Kaveh from him
#genshin#kavetham#kaveh#alhaitham#HYDRACHEA THIS ONE'S FOR YOU#I'd @ you but I don't want it to seem like I'm putting words in your mouth#also Alhaitham absolutely is emotional lol#there's no reason he picked the moment Kaveh hurt HIS feelings#to pop back with how self destructive Kaveh is lol
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okay, i think i left this in tags, so like ignore this if you read those, but I can get into Urban Canville. I have the contrarian in me that can shake some sympathy thoughts loose:
I like the idea that he might be lower class than some of his other peers (going off a Peter headcanon that Io Jasper is as well and that she's a merit scholar to the Academy. His parents are referred to dismissively. Coriolanus can't even be bothered to remember what exactly they do. He posits physicists question mark).
Everyone not hesitating to dogpile him on national tv... makes me really think his family isn't in the position to complain.
I think his bad attitude could spring from insecurities about that and lashing out. (a lot of mentors can be this way to me, but I think coming from a less prestigious family could really put a chip on his shoulder)
He is canonically very smart and probably won't shut the fuck up about it, but when you aren't as rich and your family isn't as prestigious, what else have you got to compete with?
He likes making people feel stupid. It's his one sure-fire way to feel like he has the upper-hand. Since it's couched in the system of academic excellence, people can't punish him for it directly
Although, similar to how I see Arachne kind of leaning towards abusing her power over her tribute, I think that Urban would do the same.
I bet he tries to fit in when people are shitting on someone else but everyone gives him a weird look because they are like... "hey, you can't say that. you were just shitting on us?"
He either stays in academia or is a scientist (or both). Maybe he makes bombs. Maybe he was making prototypes for what eventually became the pods in Mockingjay?
I think he could have a very ugly personality that comes from very human frustrations. But he's a dick. I hope everyone makes him worse.
maybe he dies in a lab accident (his own bomb). maybe he is legitimately killed by rebels... maybe a lab assistant or a test subject kills him... i think he might be one of the mentor deaths in my headcanons that is not caused by Snow
okay that's all the urban canville i've got... idk
omg abyssal thank you!! you fr pulled through with this
i actually really like your first headcanon! the idea of him being a scholarship kid and the other kids not respecting his parents gives him an interesting (and kind of sympathetic to me?) background! i could actually understand his anger better when you think about it like that!
everyone is comfortable to dogpile on him during the games- so combining that with your first headcanon, i wonder if this is a regular occurrence? like, students like io and urban are the first to get pushed around because they have no important name to back them up.
i could see him weaponizing his intelligence as a defense mechanism in this scenario! he can’t compete with the elite they way they compete with each other, but he can best them in class. he acts very pretentious about it as a way to get back at them!
i agree, urban would definitely abuse his power over his tribute because he finally has someone ‘lesser’ than him to take his anger out on.
i think it would be interesting to have him cause his own death in the lab by overestimating himself!
anyway, this was all brilliant! thank you for sharing!!
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I'mma keep it coming with I wanna see your head canons for Danny tbh I wonder if we're similar about the boy. So I guess 002
How I feel about this character:
I love him, I really do! I had such a crush on Danny when I was a teen, made worse (or better, idk) by the fact that when the show aired, I was also just entering high school. So it was one of those, "oh look! A socially awkward teen also has to deal with the stress of living! He's just like me fr (minus the ghost powers on my part)!"
All the people I ship romantically with this character:
Romantically? Vlad, Valerie, Clockwork, and Dan, but mostly Vlad.
Want to see him get railed and ruined and crying? Dan, Nocturne, Skulker, Wulf, Walker.
My non-romantic OTP for this character:
Tucker and Sam (provided Sam can get over some of her holier-than-thou attitude)
My unpopular opinion about this character:
This boy doesn't have a dominant bone in his entire body. I don't like reading top Danny fics, my boy deserves a break, and I'm also not a fan when he's taller and beefier than Vlad either. I stan a short king and I will take no criticism.
One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon:
It's a kids' show, so I know this was never gonna happen, but I would have loved to see him have a full psychological break. I'm talking an entire episode dedicated to Danny having a complete and total panic attack, Batman the Animated Series style. Parents want to catch and study him, one of his best friends keeps pushing him to do the superhero thing, parents and peers are pressuring him to date said pushy friend, he's failing in school, he can't retaliate against his primary bully, his future is screwed if he doesn't watch himself, the ghosts keep coming and they won't fucking stop, his sister keeps giving him these worrying looks like she's worried, why should she be worried? He's fine, everything's fine, he's only half-dead, what's the big deal?
Danny eventually has that panic attack the closer he gets to graduating, unsure of his future, scared he's gonna fail and never be able to leave Amity Park, terrified that all he has to look forward to is fighting ghosts and running/hiding from his parents. His future is forever uncertain because the alternate time line, and his friends can't understand, even if they're trying, but they just can't know what's going on with him, and he sees the fear in their eyes every time he brings up that dark future. He could go to Clockwork, but Clockwork will only give so much advice. He doesn't share more than is necessary to keep time in tact, so he eventually breaks and goes to Vlad. Who else could possibly understand if not the only other halfa in existence?
Basically, I would have loved to see him become increasingly overwhelmed until he had no choice but to run away and go to Vlad's. They make a temporary truce long enough for them to bond over their shared plight.
my OTP:
Pompous Pep, of course (you will pry this ship from my cold, dead hands)
my cross over ship:
None
a headcanon fact:
Danny totally had a crush on Vlad the first time they met. He thought he was handsome and charming and all that gross first crush stuff, and he actually enjoyed talking with him, even if him hitting on his mom was super fucking weird. Danny could look past that because he knew his mom wasn't interested, was happily married, and when Vlad wasn't focused on her, he could be pretty cool. Too bad he had to go and ruin it by revealing his evil intentions.
#thank you for asking!!#i may have made it too peppy#my bad#harley answers#asks#pompep#pompous pep#harley writes
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🔥16, 24, 25 for the violence ask game
16. you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)
i mean the entire “dany will be the uncontested queen of westeros” boring bland been done a hundred times before ntm it’s not ~breaking the wheel~ she would essentially just be aegon the unlikely if he had dragons and we know that despite egg being a good goose at heart he wasn’t a particularly effective king! dany coming into her crown while everyone applauds does not engage with a single theme in this series. dany FAILING to get the crown? now that’s compelling!!!
for a slightly less “you talk that one to death” take, and probably a more cancelable one but i don’t think there has been any child on child bullying happening in this series. luke & jace think aemond is In On The Joke they have no idea that they’re hurting his feelings that much (which imo is clear when jace & aemond have that little missed moment at laena’s funeral! now that he knows aemond is bothered by the teasing bc jace, a bastard, is laughing at aemond, a true born targaryen, jace feels bad about it and aemond sees he feels bad about it and almost reaches for him!) and to me, that’s not bullying that’s children just not understanding boundaries yet. similarly, i don’t think sansa bullies arya; i think arya gives as good as she gets, and i also don’t think sansa is saying anything with malice. she makes those snide remarks about arya bc septa mordane does, and because sansa wants arya to be a “proper lady” so they can do proper lady stuff together. she’s very explicitly put out by arya running off with micah because she wanted to hang out!! arya and sansa both feel isolated at winterfell in their own ways bc they’re kids and a lot of kids feel like they don’t fit in - look at jon & theon too!
“what about aegon” what aegon does to aemond (and what aemond eventually does to aegon) is not “bullying” it’s way worse than that! bullying is like…when children see an “outsider” and isolate them with physical or verbal manipulation. what’s going on with those two is like out and out abusive family dynamics that’s not the same. “what about the driftmark brawl” i don’t know how to tell you that when an argument between children escalates to actual physical harm, it has left the realm of bullying and gone into “a fucking problem” 😭
24. topic that brings up the most rancid discourse
objectively the most rancid is whenever anyone makes a single comparison involving arya & lyanna that isn’t comparing them to each other. sorry but “my favorite teenager is hotter than your favorite teenager” and “comparing these two practical toddlers to their parents is misogyny bc *fart noises*” is genuinely insane.
and for another less obvious take, i think there’s this weird discourse that pops up around kingsguard characters where people will just fully buy into the concepts of like, chivalry and courtly love being the ideal and say shit like “aemon is the best knight ever bc he died trying to save his evil brother” buddy if my lover OR brother died saving trump or even like, pritzker (who i genuinely like as a governor!) i would carve “died a loser” on their gravestone. why is it so virtuous to die for a bad man?? for a politician???? aegon was raping naerys practically NIGHTLY, let that bitch die!!!!!!! or the semi recent discourse about how arthur gerold and oswell were ~only protecting jon and lyanna~ or people unironically being like “jaime is a bad person for killing aerys” like how do you read affc and come away with this take.
25. common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing
“bran/rhaenyra are boring” first of all if you got into the high fantasy series and are upset when characters are invested in the fantasy elements of their world, idk what to say but you played yourself. second of all mfers will say they only like the political story line but when rhaenyra talks about her birthright or bran uses magic to jack the throne suddenly it’s “we’ve already done this story before it’s boring”
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Thanks to @canadianlucifer for the ships questions :>
MORE aidlyn because I just. Need this for my mental health guys.
Actually I've been thinking about doing stuff for other ships?? But idk let me know if yall wanna see that ^_^
1. Who would ask the other "would you still love me if i was a worm?" And what would the others reaction be?
...You guys know Aiden would ask 💀 He also asks stuff like "would you love me if I was a shoe" and other bullshit. Ash just looks at him like "...what."
2. Who plans the best dates?
Depends on your definition of best. Aiden plans all the cool/exciting stuff and he actually has the money for all the stuff he wants to do with her. Ash's dates are more romantic, if only by virtue that they're in quiet places where they can be alone. Tho neither of them plan dates a lot they just kinda end up alone together lol
3. Who's the best at carnival games?
Aiden's been to a lot of carnivals and he's a good shot with a BB gun! Ash doesn't really like carnivals (overstimulating) but she's good at the fish pond and ring toss.
4. Who drags the other onto rollercoasters?
Aiden LOVESSSS rollercoasters so much, its a great way to get his adrenaline up! He'll ask Ash a lot to go on one too, but he won't force her (rollercoasters are *really* loud, especially all the people screaming, and he wouldn't make her do anything that causes her pain)
5. Who does the most chores?
Ash is pretty strict about chores, and she makes sure any household stuff is evenly split between them, but...I mean, she helps Aiden with his own chores cuz he's really bad at cleaning and stuff 🫠
6. Who gets drunk faster?
At some point in the future: Depends what you mean. Aiden has a higher tolerance but he would also drink WAAAAAY more than Ash ever would, so he would get drunker "quicker", but if they were drinking exactly the same Ash would get tipsy faster (vertically challenged struggles fr 😔)
7. Who watches more reality TV?
Aiden likes all that crap like Big Brother and stuff, watches reruns at night when he can't sleep.
8. Who is more likely to insist their way is the best way, even though objectively its the worse?
Ash is more stubborn than Aiden is but her way is probably waaaay better than Aiden's way 🤡 Aiden might insist for a bit but he also finds arguing to be kinda boring so eventually he would drop it
9. Who believes in ghosts?
Ash doesn't believe in ghosts at all, and Aiden is really into the idea of ghosts and would LOVE evidence, but he also doesn't believe in them.
10. Who texts the other memes?
I don't think Ash has texted a meme to anybody in her entire life. So...Aiden.
11. Who makes the most typos/autocorrect mistakes?
Aiden because he types really fast and he doesn't bother to fix the mistakes lol
12. Who's the nervous flier?
Ash has never been on a plane, and she doesn't like doing stuff that's outside her comfort zone, so she's the more nervous flier. Aiden doesn't like flying but only because it means he needs to sit still for more than an hour and he cant do that shit happily 🤡
13. If they had matching profile pictures would they be cute/funny/weird?
Aiden would beg to match pfps because he's an absolute dork. it can't be anything too weird because like...Ash isn't into that. Would probably be smth really basic like Hello Kitty and Tuxedo Sam or whatever (he's Hello Kitty) if Ash even wanted to do it.
14. Who is better at writing formal emails?
Thank you discord for helping me settle this. We settled on Aiden because his parents/tutor definitely would have taught him how to do that so they could be in contact/to teach him about their job. Ash only does them for school and they end up really short and simple.
15. Who steals the others food?
Aiden always offers Ash his food, so she doesn't even need to steal 🤡 Aiden will do it mostly to mess with her lol
16. Who is more willing to commit murder for the other?
Lol. Guess. :)
17. When their kid is chanting "McDonalds!" Who is joining the chant, who is saying there's food at the house, and who is pulling up to order a single black coffee and leave?
Aiden is joining the chant because he's always up for McDonalds, but Ash is driving and she's driving home 😭
18. Who uses the most slang?
Aiden unironically
19. Who uses emoticons?
Aiden feels a spiritual connection with the smiley face emoticon
20. Who'd slay at the Met Gala?
Um they'd both slay 🤭 But Ash would slay harder I mean have you seen her fits??? I literally wanna steal her closet omg
#sbg#school bus graveyard#school bus graveyard webtoon#sbg (webtoon)#aidlyn#ashlyn banner#aiden clark#aiden x ashlyn
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