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riotinciter · 1 year

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#I'm maybe 30 pages away from finishing tar baby #which would make it my 5th Toni Morrison book this year #but god I can't push myself through those last few pages #maybe im missing something very important here but jadine is dumb #so educated but not emotionally smart #an unpredictable but beautiful man comes close to raping you #and you want him because he's beautiful?#have some self respect #old marggie gal is FUCKING INSANE DUDE I gasped #valerian is just an old white man so I don't even have an opinion on him #nanadine and Sydney I feel sorry for #but jade girl that old whitey poured so much into your education but you might as well be #any uneducated motherless little girl on the street #letting a man hurt you just because you think you see a savannah in his face #idk I feel like im missing something #maybe my hatred for men is not letting me enjoy this book #but I do know the author tends to Be Like That #make a character a little too outrageous #idk I still enjoy her work very much #just hard to read sometimes yknow #anyway im no closer to writing I had a tough TEN DAY PERIOD and im wiped #oh and after 3 weeks I decided I can't live without weed so im back babey #my sleep and my life are too fucked like I can't function without some relief #im not on any meds and I don't drink #let me have thisssssss

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bacchuschucklefuck · 2 months

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and! barbarian!fig! its her

#fantasy high #dimension 20 #figueroth faeth #fh class quangle #if u look at the junior year design and think tifa lockhart: yeag #I already thought the cleric!gorgug junior year design kinda is very aerith so. lol #but! I do feel like these designs maybe portray the clearest arc out of all of them so far. I like that #some of it came from a bit of necessity which is really fun that mirrors the actual play format thats cool #(necessity being freshman year riz is pretty much a huge block of red flannel lmao. kinda stole figs canon color coding for a bit)#(and he's got the owlbear jacket from taping the games in sophomore year... so I cant give fig the big red blocking until #junior year lmao. coincidentally this forced me to be a bit more dynamic with her concept which is great)#her second pair of shoes very sonic tho. I kinda enjoy that lol #tbh I really love that canon gorgug is like in a pair of chucks 24/7 that is SO funny for a barbarian I hope to keep the energy going #with class swap fig I think a barbarian who wears like collector sneakers is awesome. the foot support is so important to their work #the general idea of a hyperfem girlypop barbarian still ticks for me tbh. idk enough abt the zeitgeist to know if thats passé now or not #but doing Fashion on ur job of bodily tearing ur opponent apart with the least flourish possible is just a hit for me #her knee brace is from like an injury back in her cheer days that she got by overexercising in hope of being good enough that #the team couldn't let her go. the team then used that same injury as a pretext to let her go #I think abt her arc tbh... fig's thing in canon junior year abt the point of her rebelling. I feel like a lot of it can also apply to rage #both knocking things over and holding onto things don't like. make anything new. destruction without at least a glimpse of a vision #of the after is ultimately a cynical defeatist point of view... strategic barbarianism for fig babeyy #yay! once again its time for me to Fucking Sleep. but hopefully I can hammer out a proper ref for riz and gorgug both in the #following week inbetween doing my job. its that time of da year lads (<- fully seasonal worker)

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aroaceleovaldez · 2 months

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i would like to say my ideal PJO adaptation (if i was being physically forced against my will to have to pick a live action adaptation over an animated one for some reason) would be a combo like writing of the musical + casting of the show + visuals of the movies

BUT the show actually does have the playwright for the musical as one of the major writers for like three episodes and that did nothing for it. so...

#pjo #riordanverse #pjo tv crit #i do love the casting for the musical lots and lots though #it was really good #i do also have some nitpicks for show casting but they're largely inconsequential #like majority i very much enjoy and think are cast well #i only have one i'd say im actually disappointed with and that's Poseidon. idk he just feels. bland??? does that make sense?#like idk maybe it's the costuming but im not getting Sea God *or* Fishing Dad from him #like i think i kinda see what they were going for and i saw some gifs of him in another show where he plays a pirate and its like #okay. *little* bit better. but idk im just not getting Poseidon from it #in general most of the immortals in the show dont feel very Immortal(tm) but thats definitely mostly just the writing/show itself #not any reflection of the casting #my only other two are i would have liked plus sized Clarisse. i am VERY sad we didnt get that #Dior is a VERY good Clarisse though so i'm not too upset about it. i like her Clarisse energy. the yelling is fantastic.#my most controversial pjo tv take is im still meh on Walker. like he's fine. but like he's kind of Just Fine to me so far #its probably mostly the writing being bad but he hasnt grown on me as Percy yet. i can tell he has the energy though in interviews n stuff #and the main trio dynamic in interviews and stuff is *very* good. i just wish the show writing was better #because the casting IS very good but they have so little to work with. you can really tell theyre trying their best #i like to joke the show would be better if they just set the cast loose in the woods doing in-character improv #like its clear basically all of them know their characters SUPER well. id watch 8 episodes of in the woods pjo cosplay improv.

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kenmaiii · 6 months

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oomf right honestly drawing faves and ocs like ponies is fun :3. pretty slay for a first attempt i think

#youd think i wouldve drawn a pony at least once in my life since i enjoyed mlp/equestria girls as a kid & yet... <- avoided horses artwise #honestly still very ehhhh abt how much i should share since its a game related chara from my datesim im working on >_< but hey #whatever ig. i can reblog it to the gamedev account later. or delete as well. who cares yknow #pre-game treat ig whatever still need to figure out proportions.. think i will draw more of the dateables n not post those tho #-w- maybe i should add em to my commission options. idk its kinda fun. what its like to be cringe and free ig #my art #ocs #not using anymore tags than that for the reasons listed above heh -w- but i fink he'd be a lil earth pony...#no clue as to a cutiemark yet. perhaps cooking or kindness related. let me go look at the carebears for a minute #but yea... maybe something to do with bravery or being sturdy... or heart related since his name has a valentine pun #-w- he wouldve been such good friends with fluttershy. and perhaps he would like rainbow. shes so similar to his younger sister #so i think in turn he'd view her in the same exasperated but fond vein or whatever. anyways back to the canvas for me #<- one of the few ways i regain my sanity in the midst of solodev work and commissions

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oldmisfortune · 2 years

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I completely forgot to share this yesterday but here's my oc and my redesign of Ez I used for my comic!

#i am very happy with Ez's design #would he wear this??? i have no clue but i enjoyed designing it so much #i tried to keep some parts of his old design like the colors and cropped jacket while giving him a new flair #i wanted to make him more... suave? like less silly hsgdjjdk #yes i found his OG design so so silly #anyways #my oc is there too!#I'm not 100% sold on her design but it works!#i tried to use clothes inspired by the game's assets #i did go about an change a few things so that they work better together!#my art #eldarya #eldarya oc #ezarel #I STILL GOT NO NAME FOR HER.#Francine ? Primrose? idk #:(

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perexcri · 1 year

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happy one year to her and one of my better opening lines for a fic <3

now, because i'm curious:

#to hell and back again #i genuinely can't believe it's a year but i guess that's how time works huh :')#anyway umm gonna leave some retrospective thoughts in the tags:#1. i hold this fic near to my heart but also have a very complicated relationship with it now-#mostly bc i feel like my writing has improved so much and it's hard for me to reread parts of this lol #2. i honestly feel like it's a product of its time? like i think if i was publishing it now people wouldn't like it nearly as much #(especially with the opening line wHICH HAS A POINT AND COMES FULL CIRCLE AT THE END OK JUST TRUST ME)#3. on a sadder note this also means it's been a year since we had to put my family's eldest dog down #i remember i was gonna post this first chapter later when i had finished another fic up #but then our dog just like. straight up started dying on my mom's bedroom floor #and my mom was too distressed/upset to take her to the vet so i had to put her in my car and take her on my own #and then had to go to work right after that #so yeah i was upset and was like 'well dammit im gonna post this then bc it's silly and makes me laugh and i am sad'#so yeah!! some thoughts and behind the scenes info for anyone who's bothered to read this many tags #idk these things just feel like Tags thoughts not Post thoughts #anyway thanks for all the love this one has gotten!! i'm glad people are still enjoying it though *will voice* it's been a year mike #byler

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hella1975 · 1 year

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sometimes i think about the fact my grandparents literally overnight just cut us off and im like. how did u even do that. does it torment you

#eeaao's 'how did you let me go so easily' moment. like i dont let myself even THINK about this too often #bc i immediately beat myself back with the 'if it's hard for you then imagine how hard it is for mum. her PARENTS cut her off'#but like. idk. my nan i couldn't give less of a shit about which is something i always find so interesting #bc even as a child with NO basis for it or any understanding of her behaviour both past and present i still wasn't Comfortable around her #like children are smart actually. i just Knew her vibes were off and i Knew my mum was weird when she was around #like i truly dont think i ever loved my nan even when she was a very frequent part of my life #but my grandad? i ADORED him. id see him multiple times a week and he's the kindest man ive ever met #and hannah what i told you about my mum saying certain people have magnetic auras THAT WAS ABOUT HIM #like i cant actually put into words what it was about him but people just wanted to know him and spend time with him #but he was weak and let my nan walk all over him and when push came to shove he chose her and now ive not spoken to him in 3 years #& i KNOW he loved me. he thought the world of me like it's a bitter unspoken thing between me & my sister that we KNOW i was his favourite #he used to buy me egg butties at agricultural shows when my mum said no and specifically ask for two eggs #he used to sit and eat his soup with me when he came over to do work at the house #he used to play with me. he used to smile all the time. i can so clearly hear the way he'd go ''iya [my name]' with his proper rural accent #or how he'd tell anyone who would listen 'she's tough as old boots that one'#and i could make him laugh like NO ONE else could and he'd light up and go 'give over' and he genuinely enjoyed my company #i KNOW HE DID. and i havent spoken to him in 3 years. he'll be dead soon #and i cant talk to my mum about it bc it's her DAD it is so much worse for her and i cant talk to my sister about it #bc she wasn't close with him like i was and she just shuts the conversation down and those are the only two people #who know my grandad and know what he meant to me so im just here like. he literally stopped speaking to me overnight #i stopped hearing from him i stopped meeting up with him im so so angry with him the love is still there i dont know where to put it now #why couldnt he stay. why did he pick her when she's a loveless void of inhumanity. why werent we enough #hella goes home #my grandparents on my dad's side are also not in the picture funnily enough but idgaf about them. she got that grandparentless swag

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orcelito · 8 months

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Great thing about my new girlfriend is that we r both autistic so we are all 🤝 about being socially awkward. Another great thing about her is that we r both trans (t4t relationships ❤️). Another great thing about my new girlfriend is that she is 6'2" and I am 5'3" so I have a girlfriend that is literally 11 inches taller than me. And what a time it has been.

#speculation nation #shes so sweet and shes so preoccupied with making sure our date on friday is nice #& she mentioned wanting to impress me and i was just like. Please. i am a gremlin. you really dont need to worry about that.#she mentioned being nervous around me too (in the admiration jitters kinda way) and it's so strange to me #that people would feel that way about me. i really am so imperfect.#but she sure does like me huh :]#still a very new relationship but it's been nice. she picked me up from work yesterday after my awful ass day #and she treated me to some tortellini b4 dropping me off #and it was in the car outside my apartment that she brought up making it official #shes just so.... idk. it's been nice. ive actually been Wanting to spend time with her.#which is a pretty important thing to want with your girlfriend huh?#im enjoying seeing where this leads. very much so.

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arolesbianism · 18 days

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Thinks abt comic Siffrin. This could be a playground I think. If I felt like it. If I so chose.

#rat rambles #stars posting #I do also just enjoy the concept of other siffrins that existed before loop as well #either just the one extra or potentially even more if you wanna get funky with it #Im leaning more towards the one option but the many option is more funny #idk I just think it'd be a bit fucked up if there was another siffrin who made a desperate wish and just got completely whiped for it #bonus points if that sifs version of things was quite drastically different than loop and current sifs versions were #like a whole different party than the other two #thatd be fun #I do enjoy myself some timeline fuckery that leads to disturbing implications and several layers of tragedy #I already have three stories with that as a major element so it was only a matter of time before I look at isat through the same lense #the lace loop meetup would go crazy (theyd probably hate eachother)#speaking of lace I dont think Ive actually been like. posting abt her story huh.#well just know that Ive been working on that story a lot along with a billion other projects that have been keeping me busy #isat is actually the reason Ive been working on lace's story again since the two have a decently large amount in common #still very different stories like fundimentally but timeloop that takes place near the end of an rpg esc adventure is present in both #although the timeloop that lace is in is no longer the main focus of the entire story #well it hasnt been in a long time but Ive been actually fleshing out what the story is actually act more recently #and I keep going back to isat to get back into a creative mood anytime I feel like Im stagnating too much #which brings us back to the actual point of this post. yay.#anyways I need to go to bed even if Im half tempted to try to write smth with my current 3rd sif idea

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toastsnaffler · 11 months

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sometimes I wish I was a more interesting + charismatic person just so I could keep conversations going bc I like sharing space with other ppl but they routinely lose all interest and leave once I run out of things to say/start talking abt things that don't concern them :-(

#and boy do I run out of things to say so fast when I'm talking to friends who ik dont give a fuck abt any of my interests...#theres only so much i can make small talk or ask them questions abt their own interests/lives yknow. man #it just makes me feel like im constantly competing with smth else for other ppls attention all the time + constantly losing #eg. when i say smth + my flatmate reaches for her headphones a little dark souls banner appears across my vision like INTERACTION FAILED #and i can feel my rsd + insecurities praying on it like the more i feel this way the more it prophetically fulfils itself #by making me less willing to try and take up space so i become a smaller and smaller person around others #it frustrates me a lot sometimes and i dont rly have the will rn to undo that and force myself to take up more space regardless #ik this sounds like a water is wet complaint like oh nooo woe is me people get bored of me when i talk abt boring things (!!)#but when im spending time w ppl i like i enjoy listening to them talk even if im not interested in the subject bc its Them talking #and if they care abt smth then its worth hearing abt!! to me anyway. but it rly feels like no one reciprocates that idk #oh well not that it matters. at least i like the shit im into so i can talk to myself abt it in my head or on this site lmao #and i like myself as a person even if other people dont so theres always that. ur no 1 should always be urself <3 #voicing this makes me feel so stupid + embarrassed urgh. i hate being anxious abt dumb shit i hate being the sort of person who worries #that their friends privately dislike/just tolerate them or whatever bc id never want a friend to worry abt whether i thought that abt them #and im not naturally a very insecure person!! i think im just feeling particularly vulnerable atm bc of the season + jobhunting so long #+ the fact im dissatisfied with my current social life + still feel very wobbly from not having other ppl i can trust or rely on etcetcetc #and thats just bleeding into other areas. and it sucks a lot. but theres nothing to be done abt it rn bc im not going to communicate it #to other ppl bc im not pathetic enough to make my anxieties someone elses problem + beg for pity attention im too proud for that 👍#anyway. gonna play some noita + then i rly need to work out today bc thats probs part of why im feeling so shite #if ur reading this ignore me im just venting itll pass. i hope youre having a nice day :^)#.vent #.diaries

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moe-broey · 3 months

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Man..

#sorry i'm still upset about bridal sharena. like YEAH she's an incredibly powerful incredibly useful unit #pair her up w winter edelgard and the girlies are cleaning up tt maps extremely efficiently #and YEAH. she absolutely has nice art and huge win for the power of friendship. w veronica.#but man. it's like. i can't even enjoy my time w her.#due to. extremely specific things about me that are entirely a me issue and i can acknowledge that and own that.#it would probably feel less bad if like. sharena got literally anything else. in between now and her bunny alt.#like YEAH... she is the other half of the alfonse duo. which is the cutest shit and i love them so much #idk i know it's a non-problem. it feels dumb to make it a problem.#but genuinely like. i don't like using her w the animations on i don't really like checking the home screen dialogue #it's INTERESTING. for lore/characterization purposes. it's funny and charming bc ofc it is!!!#it's sharena and veronica ofc they're gonna be funny and charming!!!!!!! they are SO endearing to me #but god. i really do just. have problems. and it feels soooooo upsetting that like #my very specific problems are preventing me from enjoying WHAT SHOULD BE. something i should really like!!!!!!!#like there are NO problems w her!!!!!!!!!!!! the problem is ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm gonna thrup #why didn't intsys consult me about this. the unemployable shut-in who runs a semi-obscure tumblr blog. in america #unbelievable..#like would i sound insane if i said marriage is like a trigger for me. like completely seriously and unironically.#like. again. it is such a non-issue. and all of it is on me to choose what i engage w that IS how managing your triggers works.#please please pleeeease don't misconstrue anything i'm saying i'm being vulnerable. rn. and petty. super fucking petty.#and obviously i can just. not use her. or use her minimally. but that's really not my point here i'm not looking for solutions #i'm just. expressing how uniquely upsetting this situation is. w how intense my askr sib interest is #w the fact that sharena IS. absolutely one of my fave charas. i adore her completely and she means so much to me #this feels like. a saw trap. made just for me.#idk again there is no solution here and i fully acknowledge this is a skill issue and realistically not even a problem.#but like. can anybody hear me. it's so dark in here.

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catvids · 3 months

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they gave my favorite character a closed arc and wrote her out of the story 👍

#(about zero)#i dont mind the transformational character arc i think it fits but i do wish she retained some of her terseness and awkwardness #it was charming i dont think she needed to lose that in order to show how much shes grown…#pouting and kicking the dirt #it just feels like a way of saying ''yeah we are done with zero she has fulfilled her purpose. Back to being irrelevant with ye''#it worked better for meteion. felt more like she had fulfilled her purpose. her exit from the msq was graceful and satisfying #this feels significantly more clumsy. especially because the thirteenth still is nowhere close to being saved!?!?!?!?!#what was the point of all those parallels between zero n her world if you are just gonna drop em at the last second in favor of closing-#-her arc and wiping her clean of her unique character traits. What do they think you cant be a hero and also autistic?#Idk these are only my immediate thoughts and im aware they are influenced by my own biased feelings n opinions #im just smad #and im especially sad cuz i was enjoying it so much until literally the very end. i was 100% onboard with everything but then the ending-#-just had me like ''oh. thats it…?''#but i can forgive them for their transgressions against me if they make an awesome thirteenth expansion (threateningly)#edit: oh also for the record im not inherently against her being written out #id be sad about it either way but my Issue is that i think they dropped the ball on the execution #if they wanna close her book and put it on a shelf im fine with that. however if they wanna toss her book into the trash can and set it-#-ablaze Well i am less fine with that #edit edit: ok i Fully finished 6.5 and its so weird cuz everything else about 6.5 and its ending worked and was perfectly fine imo #but the way they handled zeros character arc ending…i cannot get behind that #my post #personal #ffxiv #endwalker spoilers

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britneyshakespeare · 9 months

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i didn't like the roaring girl by middleton and dekker as much as i was expecting to. i have the feeling it's just one of those you-have-to-watch-it plays but as someone who has read a lot of elizabethan-to-restoration era comedy this year, there are other have-to-watch-it plays that still fare as better entertainment in a reading. basically the selling point to me moll cutpurse as the main character herself, and on that front she didn't disappoint, but every other character in the play had minimal interest to me, or if they did, they only had a little bit of time on the stage. having already known that the plot is that she saves other women from dishonor and remains a single woman by choice, yes, that's still cool—the gender fluidity inspired by the real moll cutpurse is cool. i enjoyed reading about that. but the whole action and plot around it. lackluster.

#im also a bit partial to thinking maybe i just didnt like the editing in my edition?#but i read it in oxford world classics 'the roaring girl and other city comedies'#and that's the first play ive read in that collection but i just. idk i cant tell #when i read something else in that edition ill let you know. but i own other oxford world classics edition of english plays #and i usually like them.#i kinda enjoyed the other middleton comedy i read a few months ago a chaste maid in cheapside #not that that was really groundbreaking but i did find it funnier and the trickery of the plot was more entertaining.#the contrivances were better. and the side characters were waaaay funnier. that guy and his tutor OH my god #tales from diana #yeah if you're interested in the real historical moll cutpurse or any fiction inspired by her? i hate to say it but roaring girl's a skip #or at least it's not the first thing you need to read (it's the first thing i read)#(there must be better work though)#i also havent read enough middleton or dekker to tell whose voice is whose within the writing #but i dont find either of their styles of prose OR verse to be as elegant as shakespeare's.#i found a chaste maid in cheapside to be very modern-friendly in its language and the roaring girl i found. much less so.#i wonder if that has to do with dekker? or maybe just the vocabulary made necessary by the plot was different #hard to know! im not an expert. dont think i have any authority to discern here.#i have to read one of middleton's tragedies sometime. i still havent read women beware women

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heatwa-ves · 2 years

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ruka tsukinaga....

#i really dont know much about her <- understands nothing about engirls #but i have thoughts about her #and about the tsukinaga family in general #OHHH thats how im gonna motivate myself to do work. if i finish the essay i can draw design concepts for the tsukinaga family #i think the parents are genuinely loving and want to be supportive towards their children but dont really know how especially with leo #basically all we know is that he considers himself a burden to them and that they'd be better off without him #which isn't true!! they love him a lot and they love ruka and they love their nonexistent eldest daughter who ive made up bc i refuse to #accept leo being the oldest #but they're really busy and its a little hard to make ends meet and with leos big sister moving out theres more for his parents to do #and they don't get to slend as much time with their kids as they want to #and leo is. leo. and hes really not doing well #amd so when he starts not going to school his parents are ao worried but they dont know what to do #and they get more stressed and have a few arguments #nothing big or really serious but still #ruka is the youngest and tho her parents love and dote on her shes still. not doing great either #i like to think she was close with her big sis and so her moving out wasn't very nice and that combined with leo entirely breaking down and #her parents getting more stressed...poor ruka #we see from that part of lionheart that shes REALLY worried about leo but cant help him or. he won't let her help him #and ofc he feels so bad for making her worry he tries to be a good brother but. hes goung through a lot #anyway idk if any of this made sense enjoy my silly rambles

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munamania · 2 years

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ok had another ‘deep’ convo or whatever with this girl (until 4 in the morning amazing since i had to be up early today) and she really is a lovely person. and i still like her so much. but i feel like i had this sinking feeling of oh jesus christ i don’t know if i can ever say something to you about this

#i mean. we talked about a Lot clearly and i feel like. idk if she is really truly just straight and im an idiot #or if she’s maybe. bi and not willing or needing to like worry about it. yk #and i’m genuinely so happy after everything we’ve talked about that she’s in like a good place and i really #do adore just. this strange dynamic we’ve built. but how much did i overestimate how much it meant to her?#ok well hang on. how much did i possibly mistake tension for… well idk. her just being someone that likes attention and us both enjoying #just talking about whatever. lol #because she is very kind and even if i am mistaking the feelings she’s still very thoughtful toward me and i appreciate that #like she’s a good friend. that unfortunately i’ve had the thought of. oh no if we keep talking am i gonna fall in like one sided love here #hopefully i can keep that under control if i can keep the expectations managed lol #i don’t know what to think whatever!!!!!!!!!!!!#film girl saga #like it feels like we’re building this foundation of trust and comfort and we’ve talked explicitly about sexuality and perception and #idk a bunch of shit. idek how many times now. and i just don’t. sigh #i don’t think she would stop being friends with me but it’s the classic well great now i don’t want it to be weird #and maybe we have a strange enough dynamic that it could easily pass lol idk.#she unfortunately knows how overthinky i am now and i know a little more abt how her thought process works #and it’s like we’re circling these conversations and i’m petrified to know if she ever. has Perceived the feelings. and either #gotten caught up in that and confused or still just enjoyed the conversation enough to look past it. or whatever another altnerative could b

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holytrickster · 1 year

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sitting there like has my art gotten better over time or do I just add way too much unnecessary detail now

#but lineart becomes honestly really meditative for me at times especially if im adding texture to something #i will say at least i dont pick such ugly colors anymore. i used to always have reslly bright colors and then i thought it was too much #and overcorrected imo so everything was desaturated and boring #oh i also used to color in the lines for like every single color on the character? idk how to describe it but it was tedious #i like it on other people's art but i dont have the patience and i dont like how it looks when my lines are “cleaner”#sometimes i do miss how i used to not care if what i drew was “cringy”#but i think im coming back out of that considering all i draw is like. gay shit and elves and various iterations of myself and also my ocs #i should redraw some really really old art after what im working on maybe #i almost started working on a redraw of when i drew yavanna in likr 2017-18 but i dont like the design i gave her at all #minus the weird branch ears those were cool #mostly im just frustrated it still takes me hours to draw lol. i dont know why i get insecure about it or about art in general #i guess bc no one in my family really does so they have this idea im good at it #and i wanna grab them and shake them sometimes and explain all the reasons im actually not and all the mistakes i regularly make #i dont know if that makes any sense and i dont know why i struggle to just take the compliment #i guess because i know im not good enough at it for it to be a job? except thats not it either because ive almost always wanted to write #its very dumb and weird. especially considering i dont really draw for other people. i mean i like when people like my art but unless its #for somebody specific im not necessarily going to take it very hard at all if its not to their taste. i just do it because i enjoy it #and because there are things i only know how to express through writing or drawing. and when one doesnt work sometimes its the other #maybe i just get frustrated i cant be good at everything #its not realistic but i always end up wanting to do so many things and getting frustrated when i dont pick them up right away #because OF COURSE i dont #ok where was i going with this #its nearly 2am and my head is pounding again i dont even know what day this makes it. at least a week?#i dont know

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