#idk I felt like challenging myself

[writingwife-83]

This is just a quick rant (that you can take as a request if you feel so inclined)

WHY AREN'T THERE MORE DARK REY FICS OUT THERE?! REDEEMED BEN IS NICE AND ALL BUT WHAT ABOUT REYLO RULING THE GALAXY TOGETHER?!!?

I get it! I have to admit it’s compelling, and I often think it’s super cool particularly when I see it in the form of fan art. I like it, but I have to admit I don’t necessarily want more of it or want to write a bunch of it myself. I kinda just enjoy it if I happen to come across it and then don’t think of it much beyond that. But hey, have a lil something since you sent an ask 😉…

Tired of Fighting

Kylo shifted in his bunk, surfacing into consciousness as a very familiar feeling washed over him. His eyes blinked open and he sat bolt upright, grabbing the lightsaber at his side and preparing to ignite it. His finger paused though, as Rey came into full view, standing near his bed by way of the Force.

“You,” he murmured.

“I can’t stop seeing it,” Rey said, prompted by nothing at all. There was something wild in her eyes.

“Seeing what?”

“A vision… of the Sith throne.” She paused, and he could see her swallow thickly. “You and I are on that throne.”

Kylo’s heart beat faster, because he began to realize that the look in her eyes wasn’t anger. It was excitement. He didn’t want to push her away again, so he proceeded with caution, gauging her intentions.

“I’ve seen it too,” he replied softly, gently. “You don’t need to be afraid, Rey. You don’t need to fight it any-“

“I know. I’m not fighting it anymore.”

Kylo blinked, wondering if she could possibly mean what it seemed like.

“I’m tired of fighting it,” Rey added, her eyes boring into his. “Now that I know who I am… it’s only become harder. Maybe it’s time to become who I’m meant to be. Maybe I’m not afraid of that anymore. At least, not if I’ll be with you.”

His entire body was humming with energy now, wanting to jump up, wrap his arms around her. But he knew this would only last for so long, and that wasn’t good enough. Only forever would be good enough.

Throwing his blankets off, Kylo stood to face her. “Where are you?”

Something shifted in Rey’s gaze, and he thought he saw the ghost of a smile playing at the corner of her lips as she stepped closer.

“Do you really want me to tell you?” Her eyes swept over his face, down slowly over his chest, then back up again. “What if I’m not ready to give up the fun of being chased?”

Kylo stared down at her with determination and thrill, instantly enjoying this new side of her. He’d known it was there all along, and he had not been disappointed.

“Well then, scavenger, I’ll just have to come find you.”

“Trust me, if I’ve learned anything from being a scavenger…” Rey lifted to her toes, so close that he could feel the warmth of her body against his chest and her breath against his lips even as their Force bond began to fade. “Searching and waiting makes for a much sweeter reward.”

[mayhemspreadingguy]

[pepprs]

ok so. today i am going to

fly (and travel at all) by myself for the first time since making the emergency return home from br!ghton bc of c0vid 4 years ago (extremely distressing and scary experience). and fly by myself two weeks after a mixed bag of a conference experience / plane ride home that included a massive scary depressive spiral that i had someone there to help me through as much as they could but it wasn’t enough which was absolutely not their fault but was deeply distressing to me at the time. so im about to be in a very similar environment but this time that person won’t be physically with me and it’s going to wreck my brain in multiple directions in part bc i have not yet recovered from the depressive spiral. i am still in it. lawl <3

ride in an uber by myself for the first time. ride in an uber at all for maybe the 5th time. as a very short young woman. which i have been expressedly warned by my parents not to do. lol <3

check into a hotel by myself for the first time

walk in a big city by myself for the first time (technically slightly untrue bc wjen i was last in ch!cago 5 years ago i did power walk from the hotel to the conference venue (like a block away) on the last day bc i was pissed about a situation but that was like… a block and i saw ppl i knew walking in that area. this time i will be in the same city and know no one at least for today

give myself a self care evening at the recommendation of my therapist…. for the first time. (maybe after i take a walk which i will do specifically when it’s still light out to see what the area is like). tonight no one i know will be in ch!cago yet and i have no plans to do anything. im going to play video games and draw and sing and give myself space and time to just enjoy being by myself and see how it goes

[homophyte]

it is interesting to me that ive seen lately (n yknow this is subjective and likely not any real social force just what ive seen) many queer people simultaneously talking about taking back and embodying unpalatable and ‘unmarketable’ queerness (the recent return to the terms faggot and transsexual come to mind) which i think is pretty evidently shaped by the conservative moment were in of demonizing queer ppl and especially gnc and trans people as predators--it reads as a return to queer isolationism in the face of external hostility, imo--while at the same time ive seen a lot of rallying around the “original” 6 stripe rainbow flag as opposed to any of the purportedly ‘factional’ flags of different queer identities, with the assumption being different identity flags divide us while the rainbow flag encompasses everyone and its kinda fascinating to me bc the rainbow flag is probably the single most marketable and palatable and uncontroversial symbols of queerness which has been seamlessly uptaken by those who wish to sell it back to us as gets pointed out every pride month with all the cringey pride merch.... i dunno you could maybe take that as a point of hypocrisy and claim the queer community is itself in a conservative moment rn where its returning to a sense of history and historical continuity (perhaps even out of that sense of external threat) or even that the queer community has for some time been in a conservative moment given the like, decade of identity discourse and lashing out at any people deemed to not have a sufficiently established history or however we should categorize the bihets/ace discourse/transtrender-tucute discourse/pan discourse/bi lesbians discourse (because lets be frank its essentially all the same discourse just keeping up its momentum by leapfroging from one target to the next) which i think is, like, SOMEWHAT true but not entirely? its more interesting to me, in any case, as an expression of a conflict the queer community is facing given that current state of affairs RE antitransness and that very recent history. like, the simultaneous need to retreat to a safe sense of community which is welcoming to the very things the outer world is demonizing ie mutable gender, complex or contradictory experiences of gender, gender expression which is hostile to the cis binary, but also the ways in which it has to grapple with those discourses which have largely defined the community infighting for again the past decade. its queer people begging the question ‘how can we make the queer community welcoming to the girlfags and genderfucks and tboys who are being threatened when we have spent so much time making the queer community a hostile place for anyone with a non-conventional or not easily (or even just palatably) sortable sense of queer identity’. and the answer it seems to be grappling with at the moment is like, welcoming all that diversity of experience but being absolutely averse to naming it. yes we love all the fuckery with gender and sexuality never be marketable but like, ew, why are you calling yourself [insert microlabel here]. you can be genderweird but you cant call yourself genderweird. you can only exist as queer in the broadest possible way (the all-inclusive gay pride flag!) but if you try to name the specifics or use those identity labels weve been fighting over for years youre doing it wrong (the progress pride flag is now ugly and cringey and ‘too much’). i think theres something also to the way (at least on this site) transmisogynistic discourses have really taken hold as legitimate (though yknow i wont downplay how much a problem transmisogyny has like. always been in queer spaces no matter what) in the name of protecting n defending trans people. like its just regurgitated transmisogyny but its being mobilized supposedly in the service of helping trans people. idk its definitely getting a little late for me to string this together fully coherently but theres a throughline there, in the ways certain ideas are being consolidated and reified as ‘yes were more progressive now!’ when i think theres definitely something to question there in terms of like...are we? are we actually? are we doing better by the people were trying to help or are we setting strict standards and forcing ppl to adhere to them again?

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[bitalis]

seeing post about chaos system in dishonored and how good it is making me wonder why doto didn’t have a chaos system and why that ultimately made me not finish it shdjfj

[memories-break-our-fall]

hey I don’t like being a smart gifted kid anymore. can I please be normal I’d much prefer that

[phagodyke]

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[29121996]

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[grimandghoulish]

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[fangzadventures]

So I was playing Skyven on roblox and uh...

Man I think playing as a bird has kind of helped me put together some things recently-

I'm pretty sure I might be a sparrow

Yes- a roblox game of all things helped and its a really darn good one at that

[thursdayg1rl]

getting that feeling when youre sick and the whole body starts aching as well as the head and you cant really breathe and keeo coughing noonstop i think im going to die

[bluebeads-art]

As the flash hits your eye, you feel something crashing into you from all directions. Below you is obvious, Bonbon situated themself to bump into you while the picture was taken. You look to your right, and Mirabelle’s cheek is pressed up to yours. On your left, Isabeau’s sheepishly hugged you to his side. There’s a hand in your hair, too, and it feels like Madame Odile. [...] “We need a souvenir of this trip,” Mirabelle adds. She rushes to the ground to pick up the picture and snort-laughs as she looks at it. “Oh no, Siffrin looks like we’re holding him hostage!” — Curtain Call, Chapter 9, by @openphrase123 (Link in the replies)

2024 October 22nd

Fanfic fanart fanfic fanart!! When I read the "hostage" line, it invoked such a clear image in my head of Siffrin tensed up like a startled prey animal that it got added to my list of things to maybe draw immediately.

Dooon't think about the words 'left' and 'right' in that quote too hard. I know how to read I prommy. :) (I did Not process those words and lost the coin flip in the composition phase...)

Close-up and ramblings about the cans of worms I unleashed upon myself under the cut

Time taken on this was [head in hands] 48 hours and 37 minutes.... That bloated number has two culprits:

1) I got a new tablet! My old one was 10 years old. Its plastic was melting and the electronics had ghosts in 'em, so it needed the sweet release of retirement. However, I had just gotten to the line art phase when the switch happened. Clumsily getting used to the new one during the most precise phase of the process did devastating things to my perfectionism.

2) I made a GRAVE mistake with how I chose to color this. I wanted to keep the grayscale layers for accuracy instead of just slapping a B&W filter over the colored version, so all the colors come from gradient maps, color balance layers, overlay layers, and raster layers clipped to other layers. Listen. I'm used to working with lots of layers. I like keeping things separate so I can edit them more easily. But this is the worst layer system I have ever created. Going from color to B&W requires toggling exactly 20 layers & folders on or off. There are 87 visible layers total. This file lags when you edit it. I've never wanted CSP v1.13 to have layer comps more in my life.

Not helping matters was Isabeau. I said he was the easiest to draw in my last post, but he took that as a challenge, apparently. It's a simple fist-on-hip pose, why was that so hard!?! His face gave me grief too.

Odile's lil' wave got added at the end of the line art phase. I've never added to a sketch that late in the game before, but I felt bad about how little screen area she got, haha. Girl, I tried, but this composition was not kind to you.

Giving Isa, Odile, and Siffrin skin colors felt cursed. Well... "color" is maybe a stretch for Sif. The pallor from being affection-jumpscared isn't helping. In the dev's nose reveal post, they said that Siffrin isn't white but is white-passing, so BOOM albinism headcanon. Like c'mon, they wear a big hat and have most of their skin covered because the sun is a deadly laser when you have little to no melanin and idk if sunblock exists in-universe. Heck, maybe most Islanders have it, their whole religion is about the night sky so maybe they're nocturnal. This makes perfect sense. :)

[hp-lonesome-actual-art]

Ah yes, the aforementioned comic I was scheming up that one summer I had theater camp and always arrived five hours before it started (due to my parent having a librarian job in the area lol). Hence why I even had the time to make this silly concept into comic form. However it was never finished or continued as you’ve probably figured by now :P

Funny enough though I have leftover digital sketches for the initial conceptualization of these panels and the dialogue, which were never released once I finished the pages to be more refined. Think it’s neat to see the sketchy process tho. And since I’m not continuing it, might as well dump unfinished work or else it’ll just rot in my photos

These were part of the initial comic linked, before I redrew it and placed into comic boxes with background outlines

And this was part of the secondary comic prequel that I released. The dialogue got changed up and shortened quite a bit

And I think this was an alternative version to the second image in this sequence? Because it just kinda restates what was already said but different wording

Here’s some doodles in reference to the comic I created lol

I didn’t include The Badge Seller deal part in the comic, but it’s part of the overall story. Maybe I’ll make another comic explaining more about that

(Here’s the comic link btw. Just so it’s all connected together:)

[try02line]

DTYIS INK SANS

Hello Hello- Here we are with a #dtiys from the amazing @yeloenk ! Congrats on the milestone, your art is SOOOO GOOD!

I hope I did not take too much artistic freedom here- usually when I am doing these kind of challenges I change as little as possible from the og design (color-wise, composition-wise, expression-wise), I usually like to try and be as faithful as possible and just adapt it to my current skills.

These times tho- I could not stop the inspiration this drawing gave me! So I adapted it more from a conceptual point of view, I saw Ink, I saw wind, and I saw him looking excited towards smth that seemed to be the epicenter of all of this- and my thought was “oh- he is looking at the creation of a new AU!” Maybe the connection is too loose- won’t begrudge if this is considered a too strained connection to be part of this challenge, I just could not control myself and I had so much fun!

Here, the creation of an AU is similar to the birth of a star, it’s a cosmic magical event full of colors and life! And- fun fact, for the nebula I used Error’s colors! Blues, Reds and Yellow- i thought it to be quite fascinating how these are the primary colors from which all the others derive and thought it was a nice sort of touch for the Destroyer’s colors to be the same ones which form AUs! Error may dust the Aus, but stars are made of dust! Idk it felt very poetic in my mind!

Leet me know what you think of this cuz I am SOSOSO proud of it, especially of the background!

I also really hope @yeloenk enjoys it too! If it’s too far from the og prompt to be considered part of the challenge it’s totally fine too!

Have all a lovely day 🦊

Ink sans belongs to Myebi/Comyet

[hoonzluv]

HEART’S ECHOES - NISHIMURA RIKI

PAIRING nishimura riki

SYNOPSIS yn, a brilliant yet reserved student, is tasked with tutoring riki, the star basketball player struggling academically. as they navigate personal challenges and a crucial school event, their relationship evolves from a simple tutoring arrangement into something deeper, discovering feeling that none of them have felt before

GENRE fluff, angst, nerd!reader x popular!ni-ki 

WARNING mental health issues, inappropriate use of pills, swearing, academic stress, argument, lmk if i missed something (probably yes), really short and fast story. everything in the story is fictional, my au is not reflected in their true personality, if there is something that coincides with reality it is a mere coincidence!!

FEATURING  all enhypen members ft. yunah from illit, they're all the same age.

CHAPTERS 23

NOTE this is my first time doing this,, idk when (soon ofc) but i will try to post five chapters at once and then i will upload them as i finish them and depending on how much time i have since i am on vacation now, but in a few weeks i’ll start another semester at university so i don't know how busy i’ll be. i hope this turns out well and i hope you like it.

FEATURING  all enhypen members ft. yunah from illit, they're all the same age.

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