#id really like other's opinion on this because i think i genuinely want to write something about it.

[hoaxghost]

OK finished rewatching all of SU from og series to movie to future and thoughts below:

My feelings on the show are overall positive. My enjoyment was stronger than my grievances for sure and I was just reminded about how much I love the concept of gem society. To me, they read as like this pseudo ai-robotic race that over the course of thousands and thousands of years, began to gain emotion and desire outside of their basic programming. That's why I think it never exactly works comparing Homeworld to other oppressive empires in cartoons because they're more like literal cogs in a never ending machine who can work for an eternity doing the same thing without tiring out. Like the gems are machines! They're machines who haven't been told they can dream because they never saw the need to sleep. I really liked that theory where the gems were created by some other ancient race as a weapon but when the creators died out, the gems continued and developed this mega unending society yet also gaining full sentience.

I think that's the most frustrating aspect of the show where I'd love to see more exploration of homeworld and gem society overall but the structure of the show focuses elsewhere.

The biggest flaw the show has is when it allows itself to constantly make meta commentary that feels more like its responding to fandom opinions rather than genuine callbacks. The version of SU that the fandom had convinced itself of as well as the version that the later show criticizes doesn't actually exist to the extent either acts like it did. Take for example the constant jokes about people crying a lot. While watching the early seasons, it never felt that excessive- like people cried when the scene called for it whether to be comedic or dramatic. It justified when crying was used and through that it never felt unnecessary or a point of contention.

Like the later seasons and lot of things in Future felt torn between wanting to be self referential/responding to fandom/still sticking to the core values and earnestness the early seasons had. When it was the latter, it was the best because I enjoy sentimentality! I didn't care much for the creep of irony in some of the episodes. I just preferred Steven most when he was being silly and heartfelt with it over making the millionth "my mom caused a galactic space war but I'm mentally fine!" comment.

id write more but i have to register for courses uh. byeee

[kiyomitakada]

(the page took like 5 minutes to load the ask box, which feels like a sign) ......................................................................................... matsuda for the ask game?

matsuda………………… matsuda. one of the guys of all time for sure.

favorite thing about them:

in the manga: the scene where soichiro and light are both panicking because mello is demanding L's real name and matsuda reaches past light and types touta matsuda. this is my favorite matsuda scene in general it's so good he's impulsive and self-sacrificial and he would die for those yagamis

in the anime: the scene where he calls L during yotsuba and tells him the statistic about misa-misa's rising popularity in eighteen. (in the manga he actually gets the call from misa's manager about it, in the anime he makes it up himself which is SO much cooler. he really wanted them to stop fighting!!!)

least favorite thing about them: this isn't really a least favorite thing but i hate-love how he has a great relationship with misa and still cheers on light cheating on her. it's so fascinating. i don't really think matsuda sees either her or light as real beyond the performance to be honest, i think he feels like he's watching a cool soap opera and is completely failing to consider any of the Moral Quandaries.

favorite line: "what was it all for?"

brOTP: him and ide riff off each other so well. i love that matsuda immediately picks up on ide's insecurity about romance and then proceeds to drag the joke into the ground by bringing it up even when it's not relevant.

OTP: matsuliiiiight <3 everyone read metempsychosis right now if you haven't. i love that all the women matsuda apparently has crushes on are the women orbiting light yagami (sayu, misa, kiyomi) and that he also sees them kind of as stage props in the greater Light Yagami Show.

i also love that light kind of took his loyalty for granted and looks genuinely betrayed in the warehouse. the Turtleneck Scene where matsuda talks about how he kinda-sorta supports kira is everything to me in this regard since it is like the only time arc 2 light is ever honest even to himself. on some level light thinks matsuda is the only one who Gets It even though he doesn't even really like matsuda all that much, because matsuda is the only character in the entire show who has No facade, who can't help but be open about everything he thinks, and maybe some part of light envies him for it.

nOTP: uh… unironic uncomplicated matsu/misa but i don't think anyone really writes that… OH. law/tsuda. i really want to be convinced of this i just haven't seen anything that personally appeals to me yet

random headcanon: he and misa bond over substance abuse post-canon

unpopular opinion: he is a kira supporter i don't know why no one talks about this. he is not subtle about it. he asks "are we sure catching kira is the right thing to do?" every five minutes. i've seen people argue that he was trying to empathize with kira and both-sides it but honestly it reads way more like he already agrees with kira's ideals and just disagrees with how to go about them

chapter three! it's his defining character trait! he gets it before he gets a recognizable hairstyle!!!!

and then chapter 75, right after the explosion. im writing all the dialogue out because i love this conversation SO much

matsuda: do you really think kira is evil? [...] to tell you the truth, i just can't make myself believe that kira is completely evil.

mogi: do you think that kira is righteous, then?

matsuda: i don't know if kira is good or evil. and i'm serious when i say i'd give my life to capture kira… but i also think that kira is fighting against evil. [...] to the weak and earnest, the world is definitely becoming a better place to live…

aizawa: that's not true. the world might be more peaceful, but that's because people are afraid. a peace based upon murder and fear is not a real peace.

matsuda: i know. i do know that. i know that kira is a mass murderer.

i just. god. i don't know why people erase this when it's literally what makes matsuda matsuda.

look at everything he says that's anti-kira. it's all things like "kira's a psychopath" "kira's a mass murderer" "i'm a cop so it's my job to catch him." there's nothing about his ideals that's wrong to matsuda, no actual criticism of his regime beyond buzzwords. honestly i think matsuda could even excuse the killing if not for the fact that he's a cop and it's his job to catch criminals. it's his duty. he's papering over all his doubt with Well I'm A Cop So I Guess I Gotta.

the reason he shoots light in the warehouse isn't because of all the criminals dead at light's feet. the reason he shoots light is because of soichiro. because light lied to him. it's a personal betrayal. he doesn't actually care about any of light's victims beyond the people he knows. remember: everyone else is a prop in the Yagami Show, which he was told was a family sitcom and has just been revealed to be a psychological horror.

anyway sorry this makes it sound like i dislike matsuda I REALLY DON'T his moral grayness is what i love about him!!!! where else do you get "i have signed my soul to the police force (fascism) but i can't help but be tempted by the vigilantes (also fascism)" he's so awful. he's everything to me

song i associate with them: ha ha ha ha ha

Sometimes you scrape and sink so low I'm shocked at what you're capable of And if this is the coronation, I ain't feeling the love 'Cause we are all a bunch of animals that never paid attention in school So, tell me all about your problems, I was killing before killing was cool You're so cool, you're so cool, so cool

favorite picture of them:

[redr0sewrites]

I have been summoned :>

May I request Dabi fluffy hcs and maybe a story with a pro hero s/o PLS 🙏🙏

☕️ A/n: i kinda combined this into fluffy hcs w a pro reader s/o !! yippee !!

☕️ Cw: fluff, postwar mention, kinda silly n cute

☕️ top dividers/bottom divider

ohhhh hes pissed at you at first because ?? what right do you, a hero, have to be so intriguing and proud ??? what right do you have to spark such a raging passion in him??? what right do you have to treat him fairly and with kindness when so many others havent??? what right do you have to make his stomach flutter and to keep returning to his mind so often- oh.

Dabi is CONFLICTED at first- not only is he a villain, but what if you're just using him for information? it takes a while for him to trust you, but !! i want to keep this fluffy, so let's imagine that over time you gain his trust (and he gains yours)

if you're a powerful hero, he's definitely going to try to fight you just to test the limits of your quirk. if you're quirk naturally parries his, like say you have a water quirk??? ohhh you're in for trouble because he's lowkey harassing you just to see how your quirk works. i also think he'd find it really attractive if you have a quirk thats comparable to his in terms of power, i just think he'd find it intriguing how you not only challenge his ideology of heroes but also his power

Dabi definitely teases you a bit about your hero rank. not in a mean spirited way (at least not once you're dating), he just thinks it's cute how flustered you get when he mentions your ranking, whether it be super high or super low

causes you "his hero" as a joke, but over time it unironically becomes his nickname for you

watches the news whenever you're online, and when he sees you he always teases you about any villains you've defeated. "saw you defeated that rubber villain, hope that wasn't too much of a stretch for ya" and you're standing in your kitchen staring at him like 👁️👄👁️ "how'd you get in my apartment-"

if you have hero merch, Dabi buys it and teases you about it mercilessly. he's subtle at first, like he'll wear ome of your shirts beneath a hoodie and you only catch a glimpse of your logo, but over time he grows more bold until you enter his apartment and he has like. six posters of you on his wall

if he ever sees you working with ende*vor, ohhh he'll be so annoying about it. you wouldn't even know why, he's just slandering him mercilessly. if you agree with him though??? like if he's complaining about him and you're like "yea ive met him he's an asshole" Dabi's opinion of you goes wayy up

in a scenario where you're interacting with the league a lot, say your in a similar position as Hawks where you're doing spy work OR your actually defecting sides, i definitely think you'd interact with Dabi a lot more and while it may cause a conflict of interests, it might even bring you two closer as well. i think that both of you being on opposing sides could open both of yours' mindsets, and genuinely give Dabi insight that not all heroes are horrible and allow you to realize that most villains are just broken people.

i think in a postwar/rehabilitation scenario, you'd help him a lot in terms of giving him the grace and opportunity to be a good person. someone truly seeing how good he can be, seeing him as Touya and not Dabi, i think that would be incredibly inspiring to him and would make him realize that he's not unsalvageable.

i hope this isnt too bad !!! this was a really interesting req to write and i really enjoyed thinking about a possible plot where he does fall in love w a hero. i hope this wasn't to angsty, i tried to keep it fluffy bc that was the req, but if anyone wants me to do general hcs of dabi w a pro hero s/o or a more analysis-y angsty version id gladly do so !!

[copperbadge]

Hi Sam. A potentially stupid question. Image descriptions for screen readers. Do they work the same way for audio and video? As in are they needed or helpful? I'm finding conflicting answers when I search for this.

Not at all a stupid question! I think sometimes it can vary by community, to be honest.

Screen-reader users, visually impaired folk, and others for whom IDs are particularly relevant, feel free to chime in; I'm going to ramble and you likely have more useful stuff to say. Remember to do it in reblogs or notes, as I don't post asks sent in response to other asks.

I'm not visually impaired, and I don't use a screen reader and thus am not really able to speak with firsthand authority. In the past, when I've asked, I've heard that in-post text is better than alt-text for images; even if that stops being the case, I prefer to use in-post text because there are people who aren't screen-reader users who also like the IDs. I do too, actually. And generally I've heard that video as well as image should be described. I don't do straight audio generally, but when I do, if it's a song I don't bother because the title is there and lyrics are googleable, if it's speech I like to see/give a transcript.

I like when videos have descriptions especially, because I am almost never in a position to play a video I see on my dash. If the video doesn't autoplay I don't want to hit play because then it will load with audio and I'm usually either a) somewhere I can't have audio or b) already listening to something and unwilling to turn it off. If the video autoplays it's muted, but if it's audio-heavy there's the same issue. So if someone posts a video without a description/transcript, unless it has captions, I can't engage.

There are a lot of guides out there for how to write IDs and I kind of think, based on conversations I've had, most of them are bullshit by people who don't use screen readers. In my experience, which is not universal but is relatively comprehensive, people who can't see an image often do not want a precise objective description as we're instructed to provide.

There's a great essay that touches on this, Against Access, where the writer, who is Deafblind, talks about how he doesn't want a diagram, he wants an emotional evocation.

Why are you telling me, telling me, telling me things? Your job isn’t to deliver this whole room to me on a silver platter. I don’t want the silver platter. I want to attack this room. I want to own it, just like how the sighted people here own it. Or, if the room isn’t worth owning, then I want to grab whatever I find worth stealing.

I've had people get shitty with me about putting "feelings" into my IDs, but the majority of people for whom those IDs are necessary have told me they like it because, for example, saying "She looks like she's about to commit violence" is a subjective opinion but conveys something that "A woman is standing with arms upraised and a frown on her face" does not. And if you're describing an image but there's not a ton of meaning to it, describing it in clinical detail is wasting time. A paragraph describing a fortysomething white guy and all the clothing he's wearing and the room he's in is not as helpful, on occasion, as simply saying "This is a photograph of me in my bedroom." It depends on context, which is your call to make, and the only way to get good at that is to do it.

But again: this is my experience with my readers, and even John Lee Clark, quoted above, doesn't speak for his whole community. So I would suggest that the best way to get an answer for this is just to ask your readers what they'd prefer. If you have friends who use screenreaders, ask them. If you don't, or if you don't get a response from your readers, I would do what you feel is best until someone tells you otherwise, and then be gracious and discuss it with them so you can better understand their needs. In my experience, when someone is genuinely trying to make a more welcoming space for disabilities -- as opposed to making virtue-signal attempts to Be The Perfect Ally -- they get a lot of slack when they don't get it exactly right. It is better to make a welcoming space for people to feel safe telling you that you fucked up than it is to pretend you're never going to fuck up.

So yeah, as someone who is more or less fully sighted, that's my two cents, but if you really want to know what your readers want, you know...I'd ask them. :) Good luck, either way.

[rachhaven]

If you're looking for fic inspiration but dont have loads of asks, maybe incorrect quotes or headcanons? Good luck in your writing journey!

hi lovelies!!! this was a brilliant starting point, and I think that this sets a good baseline of what to expect from how I write these characters, I adore them all and have my own understanding of them in my head so this is just my opinion. hope you enjoy!!!

Remus – big ol softie at heart- and he looks like one- gets possessive and snappy at the same time closer to the full moon. Chocolate is obvs his fave- but in my head he alternates between dark and milk chocolate- white chocolate is a crime against humanity. Calls his partner dove/ dovey, sweet/pretty/lovely (insert girl or boy or gender) and sunshine (purely because he’s the moon and I think that’s adorable). He loves tea, like obsessed- has to have decaf in evenings because he’s enough of an insomniac- but will have random nights where he’s dead to the world. 

Sirius – also a softie, all of them are lets be so fr- but he hides it behind the cocky, joker man bravado. Coffee addict- every morning, without a doubt- he def has a proper coffee machine because he makes the best coffee and no shop does it right anymore. He’s got snobbish tendencies, he’s trying to outlearn them but its tricky- he prefers m and s food, but the rest of them like a big tesco so he deals with it. Calls his partners doll, love, he’s def the type of guy to use my “x”, like, my love, my dear etc. I see him as being like the best big brother in the world, just exudes comfort and love and gives the best hugs ever. Also,  curls are always long and a mess and only washed when absolutely necessary 

James – eugh the sweetest most adhd ridden soul I’ve ever met other than myself- he’s so gentle but forgets how strong he is majority of the time, hell squeeze in a hug and accidentally hurt someone because he’s def got a sleeper build and forgets his physicality. This guy thrives off dr pepper and I don’t know why, but unfortunately with all the soft loveliness of him there is the gym bro side who will only eat fish and a ricecake some days because he’s doing some weird training plan, but we love him for it. Will happily yap for hours so when remus and Sirius want to sit and read or listen to their vinyl’s he has to be doing something more engaging because he just can’t.

Barty – big shoutout first to @ellecdc because shes an icon who introduced me properly to barty and ev and I’m obsessed now. Treasure is his nickname, tres for short and that’s the only thing hell call his girl other than *other* nicknames during *alone time*. He’s chaos but its organsied in comparisons to james’ pure chaos. He knows where he’s going, what his plans are and anything else like hours in advance, a manic planned person. He totally goes on weed walks, and only shares with people he genuinely cares about. Now there is the other side of barty, the teddy bear- bartybear, for shiggles and giggles, but he’s a sweetheart for those he loves and cares about, he knows violence as a consequence for everything and melts when he’s shown any form of affection and is so so open to learning to be gentle, I know that makes him sound like a dog but imagine him as a puppy and it just makes sense 

Reg – my sweet little love I will pass away before anyone says anything remotely bad about my boy. He’s a tortured soul, metaphorically and literally, he’s had the shittiest childhood out of all of them id say, not in the fact that he was hurt more, I don’t think he was hurt anywhere near as much as the others until Sirius left, but seeing his big brother, his protector, so hurt and trying to save him, then just being left? It makes sense he’s so withdrawn from himself, that’s a lifetime of trauma in a young boy. It takes a lot for him to open up, and he falls back on French for his emotions because then only the people who really care about him will try to understand, he needs love and safety and gentleness, and once he’s got that, the real reg shines through. He calls his partners French pet names, and he’s got the most hilarious dry wit that can make people fold over in laughter, dark humour is a coping mechanism and if there was a degree in it he’d have a phd. 

Evan -  ev. Now, I don’t know much about this beautiful soul, I think he’s the calmest of the slytherins, I love the dynamic I have in my head of him and pandora being the most hilariously yin and yan twins ever, and that they just complete each other. He’s jumpy, but he hides in in a strong boy bravado, but he’s also got the smarts, he’s worked for it, unlike barty who is annoyingly naturally so smart, ev puts in the work and sees the outcomes. He calls his partners sweets or something along those lines, I see him as a baby guy too, when he’s trying to convince you to let him do something so bloody stupid, overall, an angel and a devil in one, and I need to learn more about him. 

Pandora- only a baby bit about her for now, im not too involved in the marauders girls yet other than lily and marlene, but pandora, Dorcas, mary, alice- I want to know more and develop my ideas of them better, ill probably use their names for parties or other scenarios, but I will get there eventually with it. Pandora is a whimsical soul, she cares so deeply, she loves most people, and is just the epitome of luna, luna is a copy paste of her mum, and I will die on that hill. She’s naive sometimes, but the boys all look out for her, and they’d die and or kill someone before anything happens to her. 

Lily – the firecracker- an absolute icon in the meaning of the word, but also the sweetest most genuines soul ever. She loves her books and being clever and reaching her goals, she’s the kind of girl who has the five year plan moodboard under her bed, but she sprepared for anything and is first aid trained to the max and its so hilarious that the second anyone gets hurt they all just scream for her. Her hair is a mess when she sleeps but she brushes it the second she wakes up. She’s the type of girl to call her partner lovie, something short and sweet but she says it in a tone that just melts anyone she’s talking too, she screams maternal and will just coddle you whenever you need it, friend or partner. She thrives off of small touches, she hates pda but a hand on the back or a kiss on the head in passing makes her day. 

Marlene – marlene is genuinely the complete opposite to me, we share dark humour, but she genuinely doesn’t give a fuck what anyone says or does and she’s doing her own thing whether you like it or not. She’s hot as fuck and smokes and drinks and parties as hard as she can, she’s a wild heart but deep down a sweet soul. She doesn’t give fuck what people think of her, but she does push for her to succeed, she hates the thought of failure of being replaced and has attachments to her favourite people because she’s terrified she’s too much for them, but she knows how to handle it, she’s got this life long lesbian thing down to a t. 

[on-a-lucky-tide]

Curious what you'd say about Soap for the character ask game. You haven't really spoken about him as much as the others so I'm curious :O (id love to hear about every single character tho i wont lie to you but i have a feeling you'll get asked about those lol)

@nekrosmos asked for Soap too.

Honestly? There is unfortunately a reason. I lingered around fandom for a good few months before I got involved at all. I saw some behaviour from his fanbase that I didn't like and so I made the conscious choice that he's not a character I'd probably be creating much for. I love the art, happy to support creators, etc. Besides, there are so many delicious, delicious rarepairs to love and create for and plenty of gallant, productive, devoted Ghoapers.

He's quite compelling though, and I've got quite a few thoughts and headcanons, and I'm happy to write prompts with him. A few friends on Discord really love him and I like to create for them too, cause happy friends give me the fuzzies. So, you know, a story idea might grip me by the balls and I'll wack out a long form thing.

favorite thing about them

His journals.

Reading those finally gave me a connection with his character that I hadn't developed previously. But they really show how driven he is, how much he wants to be the best he can be, so he's not a burden, so he doesn't let anyone down. He's constantly striving to earn his place to the point that it kills him in the end.

I think he genuinely struggles with wanting to be liked (as part of 'earning his place'), and I think he is often too much for people. Ghost giving back as good as he gets is a comfortable relationship because the line for Ghost is way, way in the distance; Johnny doesn't have to worry like he does with 'normal' people. Neither of them is fuckin' normal.

Price giving him a chance would have been the first step towards the hero-style worship he has for him. "What? Me? Ye want... me? Aye, aye I will be the best fuckin' dog ye ever had, I will bite my own leg off for ye." Everything Soap does is to prove that Price didn't make a mistake. That he was a good investment. And Price, the sly fucker, knows it. He sees himself there.

least favorite thing about them

I wish they had given him a stronger accent and leaned more into that in the games. In fact, I wish that for all of them.

I also think that Soap has capacity to cause great harm without even realising it. Like, we get glimpses of it; he's nearly court-martialled for punching out a copper. In his single-minded pursuit of something, I reckon there could be a lot of collateral damage.

He lacks confidence but will cover it up by being an arsehole and doing arsehole things (such as smuggling a girl on base to impress The Guys). I say I like "least favourite"; I think this makes him compelling as a character. He's not all sunshine and rainbows. He's just as gritty, professional and flawed as the rest of 'em.

favorite line

"You sick bastard..."

"My kingdom for a suppressor..."

"Price?... This belongs to you, sir."

brOTP

Gaz & Soap

OTP

Uh... none really. Ghost/Soap?

nOTP

Don't have any strong feelings on any.

random headcanon

He's really bad at team sport. He showed no interest in any when he was growing up. Gym? Running? Swimming? Anything where the only competition is himself and his own limits? That's where Soap's head is.

unpopular opinion

Honestly? I don't know which of my opinions would be unpopular. Probably the 'not sunshine and rainbows' one, maybe?

song i associate with them

favorite picture of them

[trekkele]

"# i think If you want a genuine critique of Batman then Leslie and her pacifism is far more interesting"

So true. Unfortunately nobody's been writing her well since the 90s or '00s. At least, I didn't come across anything featuring her in a well thought out way.

I'm split on counting War Games because 'she would not fucking do that' as people say. However, it is her position on morality taken to the twisted extreme. Still, intentionally killing or faking it, is very emotionally hurtful, like trauma inducing hurtful. Both for Steph and the Batfam and her mother.

Looked up the exact definition of pacifism and, well:

"Pacifism is a policy or doctrine of rejecting war and violence in solving disputes"

She kinda did use violence (emotional and body violating and zero consent from removing Steph from her life) to solve a dispute. Or to "free" Steph of her bat-duties, but it still counts.

Would love for Leslie to go after other batfam members and not just Bruce and argue with them about their methods.

Actually i think Stephanies death, either by medical negligence or a failure of her support system, is a natural consequence of Leslies brand of pacifism and while “She, personally, might not fucking do that” her philosophy might so its not as ooc as id like it to be.

So to discuss Leslie i think i have to establish two things 1. She suffers from being a (mostly) anti Batman character in a Batman comic* and

2. She and Jason are actually on two ends of a spectrum, with Leslie being “it is better to be the victim of violence then the perpetrator of it” and Jason being “it is better to enact unspeakable violence then be the victim of it”. With Bruce in the middle like “can we please get some nuance in here can we please get some fucking nuance” which is. Very funny actually.

(Its funny because Bruce, by being Batman, has basically decided to become the nuance - he will be violent for you, and by being so good at violence he can minimize the amount of actual violence needed)

So by letting Steph die, Leslie is essentially saying “no amount of violence can save us, isnt it better to die then without having inflicted it upon others?” Which is so very Ghandi of her, but also fucking insane and yeah Bruce was 100% right to never trust her again after that.

She is also - ok so the thing is, in-universe, being a teenage vigilante is. It’s basically like being a dance kid. Its going to have a profound and everlasting effect on the kids mental and physical health, there are side effects we still don’t entirely understand, but for the most part its just. Something some kids do!! Some of them insist on doing it (dick, damian (<-i have thoughts about why Bruce didnt want to give Damian robin ok) some of them realize it isnt good for them but cant really give it up (jason, maybe tim?) some of them are in it just for their stage moms (cissie king-jones) and some of them suffer long term consequences due to insufficient parental supervision (kon, pre-nu52) etc etc. Leslie is the mom in the corner who thinks allowing her kid to perform or even learn ballet in a studio is a slippery slide to abuse. She thinks no kid should ever be in that environment, and by Bruce allowing Dick to do so, despite Bruces reluctance in the matter and almost oppressive supervision, he has doomed an entire generation of kids.

She is never going to criticize anyone else in the batfam, because to do so would be admitting that kids have agency beyond what adults believe is best for them, and admitting that means being unable to push her “correct” views upon them.

Leslie is actually a pretty good stand in for fandom in that way; refuses to allow anyone but Bruce agency and independent thought, refuses to place blame anywhere but Bruce, insists a difference of opinion is grounds for dismissal of personhood and respect, and believes Gotham would be better off if Batman never existed.

(Once again i have no idea if i answered your question/addressed your ask. Sorry)

[paintbrushnebula]

Listed below are some Spiderverse hot takes/controversial opinions I have that'd id like to ramble about

I wish Gwen and Pavitr were overweight. Like midsized. I'm very happy we got a heavier *young* girl on the team with Margo at least, but I'd like there to be a heavy *young* guy. I noticed that Pav is certainly not as petite as Miles is, but that's more of a flex for how skinny Miles is, it's not really saying that Pavitr is chubby. And Gwen, idk I always just draw her as heavier. It just suits her better and again we need more mainstream skinny x fat/overweight ships. I've never drawn Pav yet but if I happen to I'm drawing him heavier too. 

I don't think Miles and Gwen were about to kiss before Rio interrupted them at the water tower. Everyone thinks this was what the scene was trying to implybutI don't think that's what would've happened at all. The camera was zooming in and the two of them were getting dangerously close to each other, they were definitely going to get more intimate, Miles was definitely looking at her lips and thinking of sssssomething, but they were not gonna KISS. They would've gotten real close and quiet, maybe held hands, then realize what they're doing and then break apart all awkward and embarrassed. And like, it's not just that i don't think the scene leading up to a kiss, I don't want that to have been the case. It's shallow, these two were SO not there yet. Gwen was not even fully in love with Miles yet. "But they're teenagers that's just normal teen friskyness, man 🤷‍♂️" Yeah I know, I've watched teen romcoms. We don't need to apply all the cliches to Ghostflower. 

Not a huge fan of whenever people write Miles and Miguel becoming like a sweet, surrogate son and father dynamic post-BTSV. If you want your found family tropes and you wanna give Miles a secondary daddy besides. his actual daddy, Peter B is right there 🤷‍♂️. Yeah I know ATSV wrecked their relationship but idk I personally headcanoned a whole mini arc for them to reconcile in my mind that I love, it's easy. Just play with the potential drama that's already sitting there. 

Ok so. This is more of a complaint against like, the original conception of the character, obviously there's nothing the movies could do about it. But. I don't like the name Miles very much. Idk i...do y'all ever love a fictional character and then like, pay close attention to their name, and go "hey uh, I actually don't think that name suits the character." Naming a character is like a whole process for me, I take character names very seriously. The name "Miles" just sounds too...unsentimental. Like they (Miles' original creators) wanted to name him something cool and hip. I just. Idk! I feel like he should've been named something else. Certainly nothing generic, but something more personal or meaningful, at least cute! I mean like at this point I'm used to the name and it's like, whatever, doesn't change anything for me. But still it's just a gripe I have. Idk does anybody feel this way. I'm genuinely curious. 

I am saying both this as a Hispanic and someone who likes Miguel O'Hara that I never found the ATSV script describing Miguel as animalistic or beast-like to be offensive. The guy was running on all fours and had talons and was trying to bite people. Because he's part vampire. They were literally just describing his actions as they appeared in the movie. He was literally behaving feral, he's not full human. He's a spider man. Now onto George. Now I hate when a white man's actions are sugar coated to appear less severe than when the same actions are committed by a person of color, I really hate it. But the script isn't gonna use "animalistic" vocabulary to describe George pointing a gun at his daughter. It's pig-headed, certainly. But like, George can't run up walls with claws or smash through metal, he's just an awful guy with a gun. It requires different vocabulary than "feral." this is all like, just sort of circumstantial. 

Bro imma be real. Ay. Aaaahhhhhhhghh, esto si lo odio. I'm sorry. I hate it when people write Miles and Gwen to be Mayday's godparents/uncle and aunt. I've seen people do this. I've read BTSV prediction fics that write in this moment where Peter B will...declare Miles and Gwen--PRESENT DAY Miles and Gwen, as in. 15-16 yr old Miles and Gwen--as Mayday's godparents. ????????? Peter, Miles and Gwen are young enough to be Mayday's siblings??? You think of Miles like your son (oh and you SUCK as a self-appointed dad btw sorry not sorry). Idk it's just silly to me. Like why do you as a middle aged man give legal guardianship over your daughter to two high schoolers if you die. I don't. What even are you, Peter. lol

The character "acting"--aka the way the characters' facial expressions and body language are animated--in ATSV is worse than it was in ITSV. I noticed this before, but it becomes so much more obvious when I watch the two movies back to back. It really stinks because I just KNOW this is a direct result of the crunch the crew went through. You cut corners when you crunch. Things get overlooked when there's no time. You don't have time to polish. It's the one obvious way that the poor working conditions during production actually shows. I mean, the character acting in the first movie was amazing.  That part when Miles is being choked by the Prowler. The part when he removed his mask, when Aaron turns off the thermal sensor vision in his cowl to actually look at his nephew and you see Miles just broken. His eyes already start welling up with tears and his lip quiver. Man and that's just one example. ATSV's character acting...it's good! Overall. It has its moments when the expressions are amazing, certainly, just as good as the first movie. But they're fewer. The Right to Remain Silent scene, the scene where Miles has the vision at the Spider Society, that little moment where Miles smirks at Gwen out the window, all two times Gwen smiles, all of Hobie's body language, that face Gwen makes when Rio warns her not to break Miles' heart, Gwen's speech to her dad when she returns to her universe, there's a lot of great ones. But then...there's like, a lot of frames where characters look weird. Have you seen how many times a character looks off??? Like if a character's face is just a little far away the model looks weird. Like look at this shot--look at Gwen.

In the actual scene, she says "Peter?", but why is she so...unanimated??? It's like, she's moving, yeah. Her mouth moved. She blinked. But it's so minimal. Her animation is not conveying enough emotion. Honestly, the weaker character acting is another one of the big reasons I really hope they're not crunching Beyond the Spiderverse. That movie should be ALL the feels, and I want characters to be emoting properly and fully, and for the animators to have the TIME to do that ETHICALLY. You see what happens when they ARENT provided with that LUXURY.

[teddystealeaves]

robyn’s tiktok ab ppl being pissed ab feminine sirius just cracked me up dude IT’S SO TRUE!

“canon sirius would never wear that” Y’ALLLL this is fanfiction😭 i’m sorry to break this to you but canon sirius is NOT REAL BRO HE DOESN’T HAVE AN OPINION

i think it’s funny to think about how more canon compliant interpretations of the characters would react to fanon as like a THOUGHT EXERCISE but why is sirius in a skirt hurting your feelings rn

the main argument i hear about it is that it’s reinforcing heterosexual norms for wolfstar & like i kind of get where ppl are coming from w/ that ig but also i’m sorry I DON’T CARE! the marauders is such a gay fandom i really don’t see why people are hurt by people exploring sirius’ gender expression. idk i’m having trouble putting into words exactly why that argument doesn’t sit right w/ me but it really doesn’t. there are just so many different gay experiences out there to write about & if you want to read a different dynamic for wolfstar there’s plenty out there! it just feels like a lame excuse to hate on people.

maybe i just need someone to explain it to me in depth more but i struggle to see what the harm in writing a fic where the wolfstar dynamic resembles a lot of heterosexual relationships because that is a thing that happens in gay relationships & it doesn’t make them any less gay?? i feel like i must be missing the point of the argument but i also think a lot of people making the argument couldn’t even elaborate on why it’s a problem. i’m sorry i feel like some people are just repeating what they’ve heard online because they want sirius to match their own hcs.

okay that last paragraph might be a bad take i’m just genuinely confused BUT I THINK A LOT OF OTHER PEOPLE ARE TOO! & that doesn’t stop them from leaving hate comments on beautiful fan art where they think sirius looks too feminine for their taste😭 id love to hear someone who has like a fully formed opinion speak on this though

[jorisjurgen]

ficwriting yapping

tw: im neurodivergent and too passionate and writing this before sleep lmao

fun fact: flower war is one of the three fics I have that arent named after songs (well, technically)

Flower war: named after flower wars, duh (this fic is halfway edited. read at your risk)

This title is just a reference to the fact that 90% of all misfortune in crepin twins' life was orchestrated by their divine father and their mutual hate of each other is completely meaningless, and basically a drama that their god/genetic donor organized for his amusement, lol.

But I did learn about this from a vocaloid song (which has literally nothing in common with my fic's themes and motifs, but is still a banger)

My other fics NOT titled after songs include Die Toteninsel from kh fandom (NOT EDITED)

(titled after a painting. because the fic literally does take place in afterlife. on an island. and has some signalis-ass mindfucky unrealiy logic. THIS FIC WAS INSPIRED BY SIGNALIS FEELS MEETING KHDAYS FEELS. the games have weirdly similar tones: doom and despair and no happiness.)

and Mutually Assured Destruction from matsu fandom (ill also probably have to re-edit it someday, but i now re-edit fics while publishing them on ao3 to fix any formatting errors, so its not like, ergigious)

this fic redeems itself by having every chapter be named after a song instead (the fic itself is titled after the concept that once someone shoots a nuke everyone is immediately also going to do the same, leading to a chain reaction. its kind of a joke with this fic because yeah,, its a reference to the mutually destructive codependency and deep bonds of trauma running like cracks through the whole family unit,, but also I mean it literally because once ONE matsu engages in incest, at least 3 others are soon to follow out of FOMO. crying laughing emoji)

id love to go in depth on why i titled chapters from MAD with the songs that I chose, but that'd take a LONG time.

(I have a 50+ song playlist for plot ideas and possible chapter song sources because i know this fic will be 20+ chapters long. do not fuck with me)

this is, in my personal opinion, my second most favorite fic I've ever written, after Fragile (btw my fic ranking goes as follows: Fragile, Mutually Assured Destruction, ninth circle and hocus-pocus tied for one place, flower war, die toteninsel. I love them all but its easy for me to rank these fics according to which one i love the most)

(im going to de-anon my kh fics someday when I have the time to edit them and remove the typos. same goes for MAD. ill deanon it someday when its a bit more finished, i guess?)

ANYWAY

all my other fics are titled after music.

ninth circle (also a kingdom hearts fic. ALSO unedited so) is titled after this song. it pretty much describes the plot and themes of the fic perfectly lmao.

It was the second fic I ever wrote, and I wrote it shortly after finishing reading 1984. I was inspired by that book a lot. many people read it for political or meme reasons, but i was genuinely feeling so fucking bad for the characters and the ending made me want to claw my heart out.

So I decided to write something even MORE bleak and hopeless, based on the most bleak and hopeless game ever: kindom hearts 358/2 days.

I was numb by the time I finished writing this. it legitimately put me in a really bad situation mentally, and I couldn't reread it much because reading it again made me feel sick. so i think i accomplished my goals of creating an eldritch artifact that gives anyone who reads it Bad Feelings.

This song isnt JUST the anthem of this fic: its the most Axel-core song in existence. This song is quite literally the musical representation of Axel Kingdomhearts

all i can say about this fic is that axel is a fucked up person, he has been in a cult since he was 15 and watched his best friend be completely broken by it and start abusing him in turn <3 and his deepest desire in life is for his new friend, roxas to 1. give up on being happy and free like he did, because disappointment is even more painful when you have hope. 2. for roxas to be happy and free.

I feel like not enough people who play kh really pay attention to the fact that all the things i just said are literally just canon and the entire plot of khdays if it were told from axel's point of view.

the entire conflict is that he knows that roxas and xion are basically sacrifices for their cult, and not real members. he knows the ending of the game, and their entire friendship, from day one.

he tries not to feel too much about that. tries not to get too attached to the two sacrificial lambs while using him for his own needs, and playing the role of a Friend to control them.

he fails.

hocus pocus sleight of hand is my first ever fic and its titled after this song and youve read it and if you didnt you SHOULD read it. a certified crepinjurgenite classic, and surprisingly the first ever fic in the Joris Jurgen & Kerubim Crepin tag (WHAT THE FUCK???????)

FRAGILE HANDLE WITH CARE is my master piece and i am afraid of never being able to write anything better than it. it actually has multiple songs associated with it!

the song its titled after <3 i think this shows the entirety of the fic in the most objective light of what is really happening.

and the two songs i listened to over and over while writing it which are more representative of joris' objective point of view of what happens in the fic:

I keep wanting to draw art for my fics but i only managed to illustrate this fic so far. I genuinely love this fic with all my heart.

and its the first fic of mine that had any fanart of it made..... (thank you lauren!)

[trinketstar]

i wrote another big rant earlier today about character analysis again but tumblr refreshed on my phone and deleted it all. ah well

‘twas all about Max this time and the whole “id vs superego” thing they had going on cuz in my humble “took a semester of psychology and child development” opinion I think that theory isnt the greatest but it makes for such interesting character analysis 

So Max is always described as “a being of pure id” while his superego is literally locked in a dark room cut off from the rest of Max’s brain. left so ignored that it manifests itself into a weird little man that Max saw on tv (because it’s this series and of course it did). The fact that Superego apparently HATES Max, seems to barely know anything about him and wants him dead... like WHAT DOES THAT IMPLY? It’s the inside out dilemma all over again but way darker. Max has very infrequent vague allusions to the fact that he’s got some kinda mild depression but I don’t think he genuinely hates himself like that. The most I can see is that he’s got a very weak sense of self preservation. He’s apathetic to his own safety, but again that’s more because of the id thing. 

The superego is supposed to be your sense of right and wrong. It’s your morality and logic system that keeps you from doing things Max does, like screaming in public and attacking people and stealing things. 

I think in the context of the intentions while writing this game, the superego is essentially a more pretentious word for the Max’s conscience. Like a Jiminy Cricket that’s stuck in Pinocchio’s head and can’t leave. Max ignores his conscience, and his conscience is forced to watch all the stupid stuff Max is doing while ignoring any sense of morality. So he’s like “ok screw this guy all my homies hate stupid id bunny”. I think the superego only manifested once Max found the psychic toys since they’re what caused Max’s brain tumor and other such nonsense. Max couldn’t have had that tumor from the beginning because past Max is fine. 

Id is your baseline impulses. Max at his core is constantly acting on impulse and only seeks immediate gratification.  Even his love for Sam doesn’t really contradict this. Sam has ALWAYS been his best friend and protector, so keeping Sam safe and happy will keep Max safe and happy. Max isn’t intentionally mean or selfish, and he’s not stupid either. But his mind works in a very direct thought pattern and he doesn’t think through anything he says or does. And Sam kinda does this FOR him if necessary so he’s never really had to develop that part of himself anyway. Plus they’re both self aware toons, so consequences don’t apply! 

That being said, everyone we’ve seen with “the gift” that uses the toys seems to be doomed in some way, like the toys themselves are cursed with bad luck. Sammun-Mak, Maximus, the brain in the ship, Skunkape, and Max all met their ends indirectly because of the toys. 

Uh i lost track of my point here. just, It’s totally up to interpretation if the superego REALLY is a part of max that resents his own lack of ambition and power, or if he’s just literally detached from Max and is his own disgruntled entity.

[koqabear]

hi! i recently stumbled upon ur gem of a blog and i recognized attention as a fic id read before and really enjoyed, and then proceeded to make my way thru ur masterlist.

im usually dont read dark/yandere fics as much (mostly because i find them weird if theyre not written well + i enjoy casual fluff more) but omg u write them so well! lamb to the slaughter was a fever dream and divinity for the damned kept me so hooked! u have this wonderful way of creating a dark atmosphere that chills me but also keeps me coming for more. it's like i got reintroduced to the genre.

im not even gonna talk abt the smut because it made me go efjygdewtwftgw the whole while! but i need u to know how much i love ur endings to these dark fics! my jaw dropped when i finished divinity for the damned.

im just so happy i found ur blog! it reminded me of why i like reading fics so much, because of writers like u, who make them so much more than just a guilty pleasure! i want u to know how much i (and im sure a lot of other people too) appreciate the effort u put into ur art. (i haven't read all ur fics yet but im so excited to!) i think ur my favorite writer on here now 💗

(sorry for the ramble lol, i just needed u to know)

Haiii !! gem of a blog omg T__T you’re too sweet,,, 

Ahhhhh omgomg that’s so amazing to hear ??!? this is like. one of the highest compliments in my opinion… i love when you guys give my works a chance, and even more so when you tell me that you enjoyed it ! i’ve always had a fascination with dark content like this, so when i began writing it on this blog, i was afraid that i wouldn’t have an audience,,, but imagine my surprise when i did !! those two are truly my favorites, im so happy that you also liked them!! and yeah… a fever dream is literally the perfect way to describe ltts akhagdalgdagh

Im giggling so bad rn… im so geeked. subverting expectations through the endings of my fics is always something i try to do, and dftd definitely has one of my favorite endings ! i loved reading everyone’s reactions, i have so much feedback to reply to…. T_T

im literally sending you all my love right now. this is just such a heartwarming thing to read, im so appreciative that you left this message and your thoughts on my fics !! if you do read any of my other fics, i hope you enjoy them !! and i hope to keep giving more stories that are worth such genuine and kind messages <333

[hanasnx]

some updates while i’m here. i miss you! whether you’re a casual enjoyer of my blog & i see you in my notes, or my mutuals, or my followers, i’ve been thinking of you :) rare vulnerable moment i do cherish this blog and all your well wishes. thank you very much. i was right, typing is a huge strain and taking a break has been very good for my hands, so i’m going to keep at it.

some things:

don’t be afraid to keep sending me asks! they’re a great joy to me, i love seeing a notif in the inbox. i’ve gotten a fair few already that i’m excited to respond to when i can come back.

i did post a fred weasley drabble and not that i have to explain myself but i wanted to say i’ve been watching the harry potter movies. i’ve never seen them in their entirety, and the earlier ones have always been christmas movies in my house so to speak so i figured id give them a fair shot. i did read the books, and i’ve seen bits and pieces of the movies (hence my interest in fred weasley when i was a tween, but seeing him again made me wanna write for him for the first time in years)

also! a very kind anon told me earlier that my response to someone wrongfully making an ai chat bot of my content was an overreaction. it was “not that deep,” i believe was the colloquial term used. so the inherent content theft of ai invading free creative spaces is solved everyone! well done! very special thanks to the anon that let me know i was overreacting towards something i am passionate about and had a strong feeling towards! wow :) i never would’ve seen it like that. genuinely i am sorry anon that you’re ugly irl and your mommy doesn’t love you, which is why you feel like you can’t have a backbone over certain things. maybe you should stop consuming the free content creators provide on tumblr because you feel so secure in criticizing the selfless service <3 it’s giving: “im an old bigot that thinks ppl must be talentless and stupid when they work at mcdonald’s, but i’m still going to eat the food from there.” you’ve been blocked btw so you’re not offended by my use of free will when making free content on the internet for your grubby little hands to get a hold of and your smooth brain to criticize my right to share my personal opinions.

because the internet is the way it is, getting “hate” online has never really bothered me since i’ve always been a person with a large enough platform for years. it’s very easy for me to ignore and block and never answer whoever has decided to send some worthless hate message. which is probably why i almost never get hate anymore but it does happen occasionally. this was different since it wasn’t an attack on me per se, more so someone trying to admonish me for having a fair reaction towards something offensive. so i’m here to tell you it’s alright to treat strangers on the internet as strangers. you’re allowed to reinforce boundaries. you’re allowed to tell people you do not appreciate their actions towards you, and don’t leave room for argument. i am a very direct person, which means i told that person firmly that they needed to delete that ai chat bot they made of my au without my consent. and i did it without remorse. and i was told “it wasn’t that deep.” well it was. and it is. it is that deep because it’s deep to me, and i know it’s something that happens to others and it is that deep to them too. so what’s the problem in it being that deep? there is none :) let things be deep. be sincere. it is very important.

also if you make ai chat bots without creator’s consent when using their content you’re a piece of shit and doing a disservice to the very person you’re trying to exalt. take a step back and reevaluate how ai harms your interests rather than progresses them as well as the creators you claim your respect and cherish. you’re a victim of propaganda, my friend! and i prolly wouldn’t have made this post if anon hadn’t said anything. so maybe they should’ve kept their mouth shut since they didn’t wanna see shit like this so bad lmfao

now that that’s out of the way, i am sending wet fat sloppy kisses to everyone’s lips tell me when you receive them

[irlkomaedanagito]

Hey hey, I saw your danganronpa asks post, so I was curious:

27, 29, 35

27. You’re placed in a Killing Game as yourself (who you are now, no perks). How far do you believe you’d get?

i would immediately become a blackened. like im sorry theres always one annoying ass motherfucker in each game like... idk maybe if i was in thh or sdr2's game id be good. but if there was like, a tenko in my game, we'd both be toast because she'd be dead and i would be standing there very conspicuously covered in blood. other than that i think my paranoia would make me solitary but not super killable on account of id just spend all my time holed up in my room. idgaf about the motives i will not be coerced into it. i will just be at the monomono and staying holed up

29. Talent swap time! Which two characters do you think would benefit best from a talent swap?

i dont really know about a talent swap per se but i really want to see what would happen if komaeda had a "proper" talent that wasnt just his luck and how that would impact how he saw himself. would he trash on his own talent no matter what it was bc his self esteem is just THAT low? probably yeah honestly. idk i dont really think about talentswaps much, i like the talents as they are

35. What is your honest opinion on the end of V3?

why would you do this to me.

okay so like. i see what v3 as a whole was going for with the metacommentary on danganronpa as a series. i get it, i really do.

but i think they did it badly.

the characters were super interesting but they were a noticeable downgrade from the ones in the other games. none of them really try to escape save for chapter one, everyone seems kind of reactive in relation to the overarching plot of Why Are We In A Killing Game. plots come out of nowhere like angie's cult thing in chapter 3, like, it felt less like a natural progression of events and more like a "its a new chapter, we gotta have the chapter subplot now!" 4 and 5 are the only 2 that dont have this problem and thats because weirdly enough kokichi is one of the only consistently active characters that is constantly doing something relating to the overarching mystery and trying to utilize his talent to do so (see: shadow leading, taking over the killing game) so of course the two chapters where he's a major player would be the best ones

and im talking about the whole game here because the people who wrote the game also wrote the ending. and if most of the game is clunky and poorly executed then so will the ending be

and i swear to fucking god if anyone goes "uuhhhhhh it was season 53 of COURSE it was bad it was bad on purpose" 1) you cant just handwave any writing critiques with "it was meant to be bad" because the game as a work just falls flat because of it, whether it was a genuine artistic choice or bungled writing and 2) DO NOT. refute my doylist critique with watsonian analysis.

though i heard that the monokubs were included because spikechun wanted a monomi-esque character for v3. and that a lot of time was put into utdp because it was a soft launch for danganronpa s, taking time and budget away from the main game. and i know how executive meddling can TANK a series (see: final space season 1 is genuinely amazing, and the creators had total freedom. season 2 is so muddied and bungled and you can SEE what they were trying to do but ultimately it falls flat, and the network got WAY too involved with s2) so like. i dont think a lot of this is Kodaka's Fault it was probably because of executive meddling. at least thats my guess

also just im sorry i dont know what the fuck v3 is critiquing here. fandom culture, with tsumugi? corporate greed, with team danganronpa doing this to everyone? if some people go "v3 is SO GOOD because it critiques corporate greed destroying artists, tsumugi isnt the fandom, she's the underpaid passionate writer being exploited, people just dont GET IT!!!" and some people go "v3 is SO GOOD because it critiques obsessive fan culture, especially with tsumugi, people either are tsumugi and dont wanna be called out, or they just dont GET IT!!!" then maybe the theme of your game is a little bit fucking muddled

if its Corporate Greed, why is the last panic talk action against the fans of danganronpa, not team dangan themselves. if its actually a super deep and profound look on fiction because shuichi says fictional characters make us feel real emotions and are important, why is the final pta against the fans and refuting their Real Emotions On Fictional Characters and treating them as obsessed lunatics?

and im sorry x2 but someone finding the ending bad doesnt mean they """""didnt get it."""" i get what they were trying to do i just think they didn't do it very well. such is life.

[clatoera]

id love to hear more about the period where Cashbaria were friends in your au & how they realised they both had genuine feelings and id LOVE to know how you picture their first kiss

Have you ever listened to Red Wine Supernova by Chappell Roan because-

I'm kidding i'm kidding not entirely go listen to it but anyway I paused writing chapter 8 (?) to answer this ask because I was thinking about it allll day okay anyway.

I think it's important to like realize sometimes these things happen like these feelings sneak up on you without you realizing it or processing what those feelings are which really is the case. So Enobaria is about 16 when she wins, the next year she is 17 when Gloss wins (at 16) and then When Cash wins she's 18 (Cash is 17). And so naturally she knows Gloss first and remembers the things he did and how like..hollow he looked when he returned to the like room where the victors hungout because of the depths he was going to get sponsors for his sister. Enobaria doesn't have a sister (or brother) so like she can't really fathom what he's experiencing right now. By the time they properly meet when Cashmere is on her victory tour they're probably 18 and 19. And like...I don't know if you ever had a codependent friendship at 18/19 but if you have you understand that theres like a depth and fine line you don't really know. Like you are SO close with this friend that you don't really worry about dating people becuase like you have your little bestie why would you need a man. And So I think from the time they're like...20-22 thats what it is. They see each other relatively often in the Captiol (because despite popular opinion I don't think Enobaria just escapes the victor abuse, like theres masochistic men who want to feel those teeth). That being said the kind of clients Enobaria get want to be like..degraded but the ones Cash get want to put a pretty girl in her place and truly just..abuse her. So that being said for years they're just like..they see each other a lot. They don't think about it. Cashmere wonders to Enobaria's room/floor after a bad night when she doesn't want to be alone and feels like someone's after her.

Have you ever like...realized you developed feelings for someone who you just considered your best friend. Thats what my first boyfriend (in HS AND College both) was like. It's just a line you don't realize you crossed until it's too late. Like you aren't aware until it just hits you one day thats what it is. And thats what I can only imagine it was like for them too. Just one day oh! Thats...thats not a platonic feeling.

And when it comes to who kissed who first it was Cashmere. I think it was some time around the 67th? games I think. Like neither of them really had skin in the game at that point. They're alone. Just a little drunk. It involved a conversation about even after like 5 years she sometimes still like cuts her own lips on her teeth and Cashmere's like oh you wouldn't hurt me and even then I'm not scared of you and just like..goes for it and the rest is history!

Anyway stream Red Wine Supernova

[bidisasterevankinard]

Hello!

I'm gonna try to keep this short because I could easily turn this into a hundred-page rant if I let myself, and I can't bring myself to do that to you. 😅

I've been a silent lurker on Bucktommyblr since season 8 started. I started watching the show live at 8x05 and immediately stopped watching it after 8x06 because the breakup made me sick to my stomach. Right now, I'm sticking to my plan of not watching anything in full until I know their direction 'cause I don't feel like getting burned again. 😅

Before 8x06, I followed the Bucktommy tag and interacted with pretty much any post. After 8x06, I became more of a silent lurker, specifically for your blog. And I wanted to thank you for your Bucktommy content regarding the break-up.

After the breakup, but before I found your blog, I was starting to think I was going crazy. Almost everywhere I looked, it was people criticizing Buck for the entire episode while never really mentioning anything Tommy could've done better (and the few things I saw criticizing Tommy were clearly meant as hate, not a genuine complaint, so I don't count those).

Frankly, I found it really hard to find a blog that agreed with me that both Buck and Tommy were to blame, and both could've handled things a lot better. Like, I remember when everyone talked about how horrible Buck was at talking to Tommy because he didn't know about Abby six months in. Everywhere I looked, everyone was saying the same things about this.

This situation officially introduced me to your blog. I saw your post on the situation where you essentially said, "Um, guys, you know Tommy also didn't know about the Abby connection six months in, right? Their lack of communication skills comes from both of them." Like, I saw this post, and I literally yelled, "FINALLY!!" Many people came to the conclusion that I was crazy that day. 😂

Like, I do get why people are more willing to criticize Buck. He's the character we've been following for 8 seasons, and it is frustrating to see him act in a way that people don't necessarily agree he'd act (I do have opinions on this as well, but this is already too long 😭). But it got to a point where it felt like people didn't like Buck anymore (and I know that the Oliver situation didn't help), but they were still super in love with Tommy while ignoring the things Tommy should be called out on, specifically regarding 8x06. Some takes started to genuinely make me question whether I should even ship them anymore because it seemed like a lot of people were using Buck to prop Tommy up on a pedestal where he did nothing wrong. I can't stand it when relationships are portrayed like that.

You were one of the few exceptions I found to this. You've called out both Buck and Tommy and respectfully argued your stance to people who disagreed with you, and I've really admired you for this, especially since (just based on post reactions) our thoughts seem to be in the minority. You're part of the reason I haven't given up on Bucktommy and still chance their tags on AO3 and Tumblr, and I really appreciate you for that.

I'm sorry this is so long and that I might've gotten a bit rambly. This is after I promised myself I wouldn't write too much and could've said more. 😭 If you want, I can continue this in other asks, but I think I've taken enough of your time.

Nonny you're basically explained all my feeling too(and id you want you can say more ofc). After the finale of the season it's really hard for me in a fandom too, and recently I'm def less active bc my own problems are not helping feeling good and make my love to the ship sour. But yes, unfortunately i saw kinda the same in buddie fandom, and it happened here. People love Tommy really much, put him on pedestal, and as with Eddie do not love to look at him with critical part. Unfortunately bc of it Buck became just a tool to write Tommy in fics. It's already not so about bucktommy as about buckTOMMY. And partly i understand why. Tommy is a new shining not deep explored character, unlike Buck. But love to character and ship moves to blind love to only one character who "can't do bad"

I maybe might seem critical to Tommy more, but if people look at the post I reblog too, they'll see i agree that Buck was wrong too(I also explore it in my fics too), but yes, unfortunately somehow a lot of people only decided that in the wrong is only Buck

I'm always try to respectful, bc ofc we're all different and have opinions, but I was, is and will talk how Tommy DID wrong with Buck too. Communication problems came from both of them, Tommy's speech that is really biphobic, the way maybe he didn't plan it but what he said basically means "I wanted fun time and it's your problem if you thought we're serious"- this again comes to problem with two street communication, but at least 6 months in Buck, maybe wrong way, but stated his expectations, and actually he stated them in 7x5 too, in the way he could when he only understood he is interested in men. Also, Tommy twice showed himself as a runner. Twice. And if we add Tommy's running from 118 before 1s, it means three times. Remember what is show's stance about 3 times being a pattern?

Rn actually both Buck and Tommy should do a WORK TO BE BETTER. And if smt Buck is doing it. He's not clinging, he is giving Tommy space. Is baking can be seen as clinging? Maybe, but basically show made a point to show that Buck is in love. Eddie is not over Shannon after 6 years, why Buck should be after a week or month?

Partly this is why i still have hope for next part of the season but I'm still not sure if I will watch life or not