#@bodyelectric77 sent me a DM the other day saying she dissappeared for 24 hours and I became a cashbaria blog

[clatoera]

id love to hear more about the period where Cashbaria were friends in your au & how they realised they both had genuine feelings and id LOVE to know how you picture their first kiss

Have you ever listened to Red Wine Supernova by Chappell Roan because-

I'm kidding i'm kidding not entirely go listen to it but anyway I paused writing chapter 8 (?) to answer this ask because I was thinking about it allll day okay anyway.

I think it's important to like realize sometimes these things happen like these feelings sneak up on you without you realizing it or processing what those feelings are which really is the case. So Enobaria is about 16 when she wins, the next year she is 17 when Gloss wins (at 16) and then When Cash wins she's 18 (Cash is 17). And so naturally she knows Gloss first and remembers the things he did and how like..hollow he looked when he returned to the like room where the victors hungout because of the depths he was going to get sponsors for his sister. Enobaria doesn't have a sister (or brother) so like she can't really fathom what he's experiencing right now. By the time they properly meet when Cashmere is on her victory tour they're probably 18 and 19. And like...I don't know if you ever had a codependent friendship at 18/19 but if you have you understand that theres like a depth and fine line you don't really know. Like you are SO close with this friend that you don't really worry about dating people becuase like you have your little bestie why would you need a man. And So I think from the time they're like...20-22 thats what it is. They see each other relatively often in the Captiol (because despite popular opinion I don't think Enobaria just escapes the victor abuse, like theres masochistic men who want to feel those teeth). That being said the kind of clients Enobaria get want to be like..degraded but the ones Cash get want to put a pretty girl in her place and truly just..abuse her. So that being said for years they're just like..they see each other a lot. They don't think about it. Cashmere wonders to Enobaria's room/floor after a bad night when she doesn't want to be alone and feels like someone's after her.

Have you ever like...realized you developed feelings for someone who you just considered your best friend. Thats what my first boyfriend (in HS AND College both) was like. It's just a line you don't realize you crossed until it's too late. Like you aren't aware until it just hits you one day thats what it is. And thats what I can only imagine it was like for them too. Just one day oh! Thats...thats not a platonic feeling.

And when it comes to who kissed who first it was Cashmere. I think it was some time around the 67th? games I think. Like neither of them really had skin in the game at that point. They're alone. Just a little drunk. It involved a conversation about even after like 5 years she sometimes still like cuts her own lips on her teeth and Cashmere's like oh you wouldn't hurt me and even then I'm not scared of you and just like..goes for it and the rest is history!

Anyway stream Red Wine Supernova