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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.
you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.
you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.
don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.
if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.
you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:
how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!
aren't you happy yet?
#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail''#ah tumblr...#writeblr#warm up#idk . having trouble writing rn#ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum#i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for#i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" .....#no.... not really.....#idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography#like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days#furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing...#this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey.#idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me.#i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will#actually ever happen#ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum
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*in the fading light*
[ID: A digital illustration of a gay trans couple sharing an intimate moment , drawn in two panels. The top panel features the couple cropped close, just showing them kissing, with a transparent starburst around their mouths. The second larger panel is cropped from the shoulders to the thigh. One figure is in the center, sprawled back as their partner touches their stomach and kisses their shoulder. They are both shirtless with top surgery scars, and the center figure has boxers on. There is a third narrow panel on the left side, showing a simple skyscape of a orange star falling through clouds. The whole illustration is done in a restricted palette of soft warm green and teal, with pops of orange. /. End ID]
#hands you some t4t kisses#hands you even more t4t kisses#i trip and hundreds of drawings of gay trans dudes making out fall out of my pockets#also i hope this ID is okaaayyyy describing multiple panels and people is trickier than my normal drawings#if there’s any awkward parts or things that could be described better please let me know!!!#my art#illustration#queer art#mossymountain#trans art#transgender#digital art#trans masc#ftm#t4t#gay artist#orcaking
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Reddit wins this one
[Image ID: post from Reddit thread r/thelastofus titled "When is a gay relationship on screen not "political propoganda?""
Post reads: "It's the same criticism I see levied at the last episode over and over again. "I'm fine with gay people, but keep politics out of my entertainment."
I'm genuinely curious. How in the holy hell is a gay relationship pictured on screen inherently "political?"
It's maddening man. I'd prefer they just come out and say what they're actually thinking."
User catnap_kismet replies: "there are two sexualities, straight and political. there are two genders, male and political. there are two races, white and political. etc".
This reply has many awards and 1.2k upvotes
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#tlou hbo#tlou hbo spoilers#the last of us#edit: added an image ID. please let me know if its done correctly
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finally watched Reign of the Supermen
#kon is three apples tall.... good luck getting anyone to call you superman when you look like you should be in middle school#the second pic was inspired by that scene where lois is on the phone w steel and kon is peeking over her shoulder#superboy#conner kent#john henry irons#man of steel#lois lane#reign of the supermen#rots was fun bc i knew kon and steels situations but had no idea what visor and cyborg supes had going on#so i was like IS it him...? no.... it cant be....#it was funny when he was like please. just call me superman.#like even if he was the actual genuine clark kent back as a cyborg bbgirl youre not going to shake 'cyborg superman'#superman#digital art#comic#comics#dcamu#dc#dc comics#2024#id in alt#also why is lois dressed like asami in the finale#and for the record steel is the most respectable of the titular supermen cause like#he wasnt trying to pass himself off as clark he was literally just a dude who was inspired to be a clearly separate superhero#i mean you could make a claim of copyright infringement cause of the S but in his defense it was a symbol of hope & clark was dead sooo
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Do You Love The Color Of The 413?
#HOMESTUCK#413#HOMESTUCK 413#john egbert#dave strider#rose lalonde#jade harley#vriska#kanaya#terezi#karkat#HAPPY 413 YAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!#THIS TOOK ME 4 DAYS PLEASE LOVE IT#AHHHHHHH IVE NEVER MADE ANYTHING THIS BIG BEFORE#IT'S NOT AS FINISHED AS ID LIKE- LIKE I USED A LOT OF JUST MULTIPLICITY LAYERS FOR SHADING BUT#I DONT HAVE MUCH TIME LMAO#ALSO IM PRETTY SURE TUMBLR WILL EAT THE QUALITY SO PLEASE CLICK TO ZOOM LOL#ART#MY ART#heavens. i dont know if i should tag all the characters?#ill only tag the bigger characters i guess#since so many are in there#it's supposed to be transparent and not black#but apparently tumblr will turn transparency white if the photo is too large#fucking great
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Not enough signs about how much I'd like to stick my hands between the moving parts of a machine, so I did it myself
#please let me crawl into an industrial grinder i want to be eaten by a machine#eroticism of the machine#these are about an oc yeah city sized biomechanical god would turn you into meat waffles#and id be ok with that
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JONATHAN SIMS PRIEST AU! FORCED CONFESSIONS! PEOPLE BEING FORCED TO RELIVE THEIR CONFESSED SINS IN THEIR DREAMS OVER AND OVER AGAIN!!! RELIGIOUS GUILT MARTIN!! THE FEAR ENTITIES SOMEHOW LINKED TO THE SEVEN DEADLY SINS! IM GOING INSANE!
#if i didnt hc jon as jewish id have had this idea much sooner#i have no energy to write fanfics atm so im just throwing this idea out there and if anyone does something with it please please tag me!!#might make fanart for this later though#tma#the magnus archives#tma au#jon sims priest au#priest!jon#jonathan sims#jon sims#tma fanfic
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back on tumblr to say that i am obsessed with Zagreus Hadesgame . here is him sitting down for once
#i am desperate for hades moots please Please PLEASE talk to me about this game#the brainrot is reaching CRITICAL LEVELS.#zagreus#zagreus hades#hades game#hades supergiant#hades fanart#id in alt text#described#june art
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PSA 🗣️ another scammer using genAI without disclosing it
pixlgirl has been posting generated AI (targeting fandoms) without disclosing it, passing it off as their genuine art and has apparently scammed at least one person into ‘commissioning’ them. this is a public PSA so yall can block them, and not interact. please do not harass them!
it’s incredibly shitty to be disingenuous while posting AI but even shittier to scam people with it 🤢 stay diligent yall
#i hate making ‘call out’ posts but kinda feel obligated since so many people have trouble spotting it#pixel art#pixelart#anti ai#i’ve been seeing them in the tags for a few weeks but saw they’re now scamming people so i thought id make a post#the animations they’ve posted are just filters on the AI lol#please don’t harass them#this is for those who don’t want to interact with AI#genAI#fuck genai#fuck ai#fuck ai art#zelda#pixel aesthetic#text post#these types of losers always just block me lol#art drama#drama#artist on tumblr
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Mom, I'm tired Can I sleep in your house tonight? Mom, is it alright If I stay for a year or two? Mom, I'll be quiet It would be just to sleep at night And I'll leave once I figure out How to pay for my own life too
#stanley pines#gravity falls#my art#gravity falls fanart#stan pines#gf fanart#gf stanley#mullet stan#young stan pines#class of 2013#mitski#car fans please don't come at me#I know it's not accurate#I just don't respect cars enough to care about this#Spotify#ID later
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Blue collar, shirtless, road worker
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#bridget#ky kiske#baiken#venom#bedman#romeo f neumann#delilah#guilty gear#guilty gear strive#guilty gear xrd#(Wipes sweat from brow) I love Tags!#Also this is my first time drawing a wheelchair so if anyone has any input please let me know – I tried to simplify it without getting rid#of its most core components but I'm not sure if kept enough of its accuracy#mine#id in alt
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My body is a collection of all the parts that came before! 🌱🌱🌱
[Image ID: A drawing of a trans masculine person, nude except for underwear. The figure has top surgery scars, and no head, the bottom of a jaw bone with plants growing from it floating above the neck. There are flowers, mushrooms, and stars surrounding the figure, and a bird flying to the left of the canvas. /. End ID]
#i hope the ID is ok???? i’m always unsure abt if i’m writing them right please let me know if there’s ways i can improve!!!#my art#trans art#transgender#trans masc#ftm#top surgery#illustration#queer art#trans artist#gay artist#procreate#digital art#orcaking#mossymountain
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staff still hasn't given me polls, what should i do?
🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪 their moms 69%
🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪🟪 their dads 31%
grace image os i get to look at her
#edit: edited the og post to what i want but to set the record straight i edited to the post to be mathematically correct right after the#first person pointed it out which was like ten mins after i posted the og post. now fuck offf !!!!! the rest of the tags r from the og post#for some reason i feel very immature making your mom jokes about tumblr staff. which i shldnt !!#bc they suck nd they still havent given me polls. but i ig i feel imature bc it a your mom joke 😭 but still i tihnk its kinda funny#EDIT: edited the post to what i want bc yall were getting annoying . but to set the record straight i edited to post to be mathematically#also its *mum* not mom okay i am NOT !! an american . but if i say mum everyone will j be like 'omg british' like i dont know i am#anyway. i want polls please. give me the rigght to force my mutuals chose between the most inane things#also i tihnk it wld b cool for the cs weekly blog. like w each episode#i cld do a poll of like. out of five stars what do u think of this ep#and it wld b a cool thing of which eps r ppls faves#also i cld have like. whose ur fave in team red whos ur fave in acme etc#id prob just have to go with vile faculty bc theres more than 10 ppl in vile. and ppl wld kill me if i didnt include nel the ell or whoever#it wld b fun !!!#oh btw csweekly thats i thing i want to start. prob on uhhh the 11th of feb ill post abt it more but its basically#a tag/blog for watching cs one ep a time watching one ep every saturday#ya !! :3#flappy rambles#inaccessible#ask to tag#(<- idk. just in case)
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agony
#goro akechi#persona 5#persona 5 royal#persona 5 fanart#vent art#akechi goro#p5 akechi#persona 5 akechi#do not tag as ID#do not tag as kin/me/id#I don’t know how I can make it more apparent but this is vent art#you can appreciate the artistry but please don’t take it as a joke
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