#id hope theyd feel the same..

[rubbership]

i cant tell if whimsy, castle, and jupiter are all fronting and have been, or if jupiter is a mashup of whimsy and castle, and they were able to fuse again now that whimsy isnt fucking killing our liver

[marmorenshud]

currently debating whether I should buy a (new) mop bc i don't know if/how I could take it thru the airport when I'll be leaving in one year but also it would improve my life and encourage me to clean more often

[too-much-boobus]

THIS IS NOT FUNNY GUYS how to become hot enough to justify being so so selfish how to not die AHGHHH AGHGGHHH I HATE HOMOSEXUALITY I HATE GAY PEOPLE AGGHHGGH literally my only weakness. can u imagine my power if i werent gay. i would die meaningless and alone but at least id know id been perfect by everyone else. i was not built for this i was built to be worshipped and yet here i am GROVELING like a PATHETIC FAGGOT because im WANTING SOMETHING which lends myself to VULNERABILITY AND GIVES THE POWER TO DESTROY ME TO SOMEONE ELSE. and WHAT ELSE AM I SUPPOSED TO DO. KILL MYSELF?1?1!1??1? maybe the problem is having self esteem. id say maybe its ok to be this pathetic as long as it makes them love me but it DOESNT EVEN. ITS ANNOYING AND BURDENSOME. i have to suppress myself if i want any of them at all. FUCK MY BAKA LIFE.and im GRATEFUL for this much but i cant help wanting more to the point the need and denial is interfering with my ability to enjoy anything. maybe buddha was right.........

holy shit i just reached the tag limit. anyways im gonna go take a fat shit and pray to god for a system reset soon plzplzplzplz i neeeed it i neeeed to reforge my identity from a depersonalized perspective chat come on its BEEN SO LONG what do i need to do.. ITS NOT MY FAULT NO ONES BEEN TRAUMATIZING ME LATELY come on now:/ i guess thats a good thing but i didnt know i was gonna turn into such a pissbaby afterward 😭 i hate the concept of regression how about im on top of it forever how about i never feel my emotions and never act my age THIS IS TOO SCARY IM SO BAD AT IT AHGHHHHH i will persevere. i just pictured a locked in chad face as a representation of myself and all my mortal complications have been quelled. Get back to work everypony crash out OVER. 😐🧏

#globs #♡

[connormoving]

i do feel bad bc when i talk abt myself i mostly use he or she even though it is also one of my pronouns i just get kind of embarassed which is bad of me . apologies

[lemedstudent2021]

hiiiiiii :)

so i'm writing some fanfic where the characters get into a plane crash and have to survive on their own with limited medical supplies/knowledge (the characters are age 12-15 but some of them have first aid knowledge to an extent) and i have some Questions (if u don't mind me asking)

(before i start this is SHAMELESSLY inspired by the greys anatomy season 8 finale where the plane crashes)

can you use fire to cauterise open wounds to stop bleeding? or would that just bring further complications?

can you use safety pins as makeshift staples (if you loop them so the skin shuts properly)

the only character who knows how to properly suture needs sutures to stop bleeding out, is it realistic for him to instruct the two other least injured people to suture him up (he can't use his hands) without blacking out from pain?

injuries the characters have: (what is the treatment protocol for each of these?)

one character gets her leg broken with bone exposed (eventually it has to be amputated)

one dislocates his shoulder

one person's hand gets stuck in the debris

someone gets debris in her stomach

one person just has superficial wounds

one character gets debris stuck in her leg

they all have heavy bruising and scrapes as well but those are treatable

things the characters do know how to do:

tie a makeshift tourniquet (advice: do not practise tying tourniquets on yourself because it's quite painful)

suture (one person)

insert a needle into someone's veins (same person)

apply compression bandages to stop bleeding

other super basic stuff (apply plasters, tie an arm sling, etc)

the very basics of cauterising a wound

supplies they have:

tranquiliser guns (limited, and the tranq guns are suited to taking down dinosaurs but they work on humans too)

hand sanitiser and rubbing alcohol (limited)

two basic first aid kits with needle and thread

a knife

cloth to use as bandages and tourniquet material

oxygen (from the plane)

possibly an iv drip???

matchsticks (limited) to make fire to sterilise things and to heat the knife for cauterisation

debris from the plane for splints

food and water (limited)

also how does one put a dislocated joint back into its socket? particularly the shoulder?

sorry if this is super long and for asking so many questions lol. feel free to answer whenever :) and it's completely fine if u don't know (duh) i can research myself but i am sure you're more accurate than a search engine

hope u are having a wonderful day <3

beloved hiiii :D

oooh exciting!! ngl i havent watched any medical shows lol so i dont have any pop culture knowledge (the writing in said shows isnt always the most accurate as u probably already know lol) BUTT tis a famous trope/ au setting so lets see what we got >:)

(also ofc??? love answering ur questions and stuff in general!! and if i dont anything we can always learn together XD)

disclaimer i will be freestyling these okay i dont have any experience in trauma surgery lol but heres what i do got right off the bat:

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aight first off cauterisation is indeed used to stop severe bleeding *when all other means have been used* and an open flame is definately not the way to go for tha (burns can be extremely dangerous and a. cause fluid loss and b. increase the risk for nasty infections that can lead to sepsis and death)

instead id suggest heating up metal (like a scrap from the aircraft or sum) via the fire and then applying it to the wound :3

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assuming u mean the surgical staples: yes and no? lol obv since this is an emergency there is little space to be picky abt equipment, so honestly safety pins would work ig but i think theyd keep coming loose (oh the agony)

i messed around with one of mine just now and the line that locks into the head (?) is pretty straight so i kinda doubt itll be able to like close flesh the way one imagines it to but its literally fiction lol we can suspend our belief far more than this. as long as its closed properly go for it lmao i give u my blessing XD

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yeah sure!! since the patient is awake and aware enough to be able to assess and give instruction i see no reason as to why not lol.

btw in case of an amputation or extremely severe bleeding id recommend using a tourniquet (lots of tutorials online!) to compress the artery and minimise the bleeding :D (ooh maybe u can use the cautery thing here too)

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OMG I READ THE FUTURE AHA (my condolences) okay so the amputation will be at the knee level (which afaik is the hardest kind of amputation to perform joint wise lmao. good luck with that) presumably. theyll need a tourniquette as mentioned above, very sharp knife or something to hack away at the flesh and tendons (very tough) and ligaments around the knee socket (even tougher i think). and lots of bandages for the stump

now had they recieived the needed medical attention i doubt theyd need to go up to the knee (there are shin level amputations) but since theyre kids and all alone with no guide or anything idk if theyll be able to save the lower leg bones or even cut though them if they could (i doubt med supplies include saws lol) so yeah thats my reasoning at least.

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dislocation is a relatively easy fix (compared to everyhting else lol) but it depends on where the humerus (arm bone) is:

based on which kind of dislocation the direction of pull is determined, but again relatively simple no blood no mess

there are a few maneuvers/ techniques u might want to look up like hippocratic and spaso/ reverse stimson (both for anterior btw)

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a hand getting stuck i assume means impaled? oof thats going to hurt. well broken hand bones are pretty rough to deal with in the wild, since all bones need proper realignment to avoid further pain and complications when the body heals itself (did u know that if a fracture heals wrong they have to break it and reset it? yeah.) so im not sure honestly ig it depends on what u have in mind for them

again not too sure what stomach means exactly; are her guts poking out? just bleeding from scratches? depends on what ur going for!! lmk btw and feel free to send more asks ill look up and find what we need to know :D

impaled leg i take it? as the above u need to know what condition shes in exactly like arterial puncture probably means severe bleeding and death honestly, lmk what u have in mind!!

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superficial wounds need cleaning and patching up, sometimes if theres like unclean areas of said wounds they need to be scraped off (debridement) esp if theres like scraps or dirt or anything on the wound. what fun!

again for the cautery i think an open flame would heat up the knife much faster than a match lol (also they need to be preserved. also also they wouldnt last long enough i think)

not at all pookie i had so much fun going over everything!! hopefully this is coherent and useful for u ajsdhsjjdhfn

[en-djinn]

I've been meaning to ask if you have any opinions about The Goddess. I feel like a lot of the more recent Warlock stuff is kinda trying to ignore that she existed :')

so i finally finished infinity crusade and am in the last stretch of infinity watch. finished it abt a week ago bt i wanted to let it marinate in my head a little before saying anything. this is the first time im talking abt smth so recent to me so this will be a lil undercooked wrt my thoughts and very meandering, but i think the act of writing this out will help me anyway loll, it usually does

right away. infinity crusade spoilers obvs.

first of all ill talk abt ur last comment there, and i wanna ask fr further clarification on what exactly u mean by that bt ill just cover both things i thought u meant anyway.

so its pretty obvious that the goddess represents the past, right. warlock is the present, magus is the future. thats why the goddess isnt present in things like the magus is. her stuff is already over. warlock isnt going to revert coz hes already here as he is, the man that he chose to be (transmasc W!).

the goddess is his previous incarnations that were a woman. now that itself is a very interesting topic i wish theyd touched more on bt i also think its good that its kept vague (or at least i hope it is) coz the room to speculate is what makes it fun to think abt. the goddess is a version of him that no longer exists. in fact i think theres a strong case to view this all thru the lens of transmasculinity in general, as a trans man myself i see it like the goddess being yourself before you Knew. i used to have thoughts like 'maybe she wouldve been happier. but it wouldnt have been me. it would have been someone else.' thats what the goddess feels like to me. and magus feels a lot like the childish toxic masculinity of throwing ur weight around as a man for the first time, compensating for what u cant quite believe u truly are.

warlock is the one who is comfortable with both halves, hes chosen to be a man but has accepted that these stereotypical gender roles are arbitrary and unhelpful.

anyway as for the other thing u couldve meant, her being ignored in the actual narrative as never having happened? to be fair im not sure how she would be involved unless it was part of the story of the other 'perfect humans' and i havent rly gotten to them yet! ive seen Her but not as she returns as ayesha, and i havent seen the others yet either. but i dont see why the goddess shouldnt be involved with them in the future (assuming she isnt already). adam and the goddess are technically the same being but theyre not the same person in the way that warlock and magus are. so i think broaching that topic w the actual women seems like the way to go? again especially seeing as Her is also very transgender. they are ALL trans to me btw because theyre nonhumans who are adopting to the human gender binary, which makes them inherently trans. but some will have a stronger case or allegory to project than others, is more what i mean. bt again, i havent gotten to them yet so i rly cant say a whole lot. id like to come back to this tho once i have.

anyway, that stuff aside... where to even start.

i DO love that they keep a balance w morality/intent even tho they say that magus is evil and goddess is good. magus wants infinite life and a deathless world, goddess wants pure nothingness and death for all. and both perspectives do make sense. what the goddess wants Would mean an end to all pain, and like the magus, shes lashing out in frustration at adam for not seeing and accepting all the sides of himself. though in her case, adam just didnt know she existed at all. generally i also love that adam's whole Thing is that hes obsessive and swings wildly between extremes and magus+goddess both represent these extremes. theyre him dialled up to 11. in that way the goddess is the perfect counterbalance to both warlock and magus. bt hey starlin's understanding of the character he essentially Made (obviously not made as a fictional character but Made him into who he is) is really impressive to see every time, love the way he writes things as character studies first.

i also love the implication that adam was Supposed to have a childhood. and that the gotg cartoon that i loved for its depiction of adams origins is actually way closer to canon than id thought!

it could be elaborate headcanon bt to me this means that every previous incarnation of himself grew up from being small, and his most recent birth at the enclave is an outlier. a sort of trapping of his soul or smth. which actually makes more sense considering later on when magus is also reborn as an actual child.

hmm i lost my train of thought cz i was watching vids w someone. bt honestly im not sure i have a ton more to say specifically abt her? the rest of my infinity crusade thoughts are ummm. predictably. about magus. i REALLY enjoyed it as a whole tho, it was fantastic. even tho i dislike the big teamup stuff in general cz it spreads the narrative too thin and u cant focus on any one char which means all the less important ones are gonna be ooc to some degree. hmmm. idk. my train of thought is totally gone wwww, if u wanted to ask abt smth more specific then go ahead bt ig thats my thoughts for now

[storgicbytes]

OKOKOK so im re classpecting the sticks bc i understand much more abt classpects now than i did when i first classpected them. i hope you dont mind if i drop em here bc youre very smart and you know both avam and hs so

tsc - lord of space (this stays, its way too narratively relevant for it not to)

green - prince of breath (very passionate, perfectionist, tries to be carefree even when he cares way too much about what other people think)

yellow - mage of light (moreso on the knowledge front than the luck front, similar to rose but more active in his role, likes to figure things out but using what shes previously learned)

blue - witch of life (FEFERI WOOO obv shes very witchy, leaf feels like theyd be more rebellious, life player bc its very energetic and tends to take on a healer role in the group)

red - knight of heart (tends to jump straight to protecting her friends, very impulsive and passionate/soulful, acts confident but is sometimes more hesitant than others realise)

victim - thief of hope (man i was so on point with this one)

chosen - mage of doom (has a lot of firsthand experience with doom and suffering, also suffers from their aspect, and very good at causing doom *cough* chosen has never won a fight on the right side *cough*)

dark - heir of time (very destructive by default, causes a lot of death, RED 🔥🔥🔥, but also logical, at times a bit too laid back and chill)

striker - maid of mind (maid im not sure on i just wasnt sure what else to do, mind bc shes very straightforward, thoughtful, plans ahead, very serious and logical)

purple - prince of blood (accidentally or on purpose fucks up almost all his relationships at some point, at the same time is also the reason most of his friends met in the first place, Prince = royalty theming, also matches with green)

mango - rogue of life (acts very skeptical and un-lifey but takes life from others to give to the people they care about)

gold - sylph of hope (loves to cheer people up, very hopeful and energetic demeanor, fairly childish, wants to make everyone happy all the time!!!)

hangman - bard of rage (calms people down, fairly chill compared to the other players, prefers to support and wishes people were more peaceful and mature)

ballista - knight of breath (session lacks breath for reasons i dont feel like describing rn, acts chill but actually feels like he cant live up to the title of Hero and isnt that carefree, protects the few people he attaches himself too <- that one scene in his original short where he draws upon the memories of his friends to open the door)

hazard - seer of void (ngl this is mostly just process of elimination but hazard feels pretty void oriented tbf. hes so chill hes not minding anyones business)

paleo - witch of heart (same as above </3 very passionate headstrong etc etc)

sorry for the word vomit in your inbox i want to talk to you more and idk how to initiate conversation other than random infodumps

OH I ABSOLUTELY DONT MIND PLEASE DO SEND ME STUFF LIKE THIS

oh this is so good. this is so good

my knowledge on classpects is probably slightly closer to surface level than yours lmao but from what i get GOD yes !!!!!! yellow being a mage of light / red being a knight of heart is literally them hello. absolutely. its in their code

PRINCE OF BLOOD PURPLE !!!!!!!! WOOOOOOO !!!!! thief of hope victim OH this is so good. im eating this up (id say my victim leans towards being a rogue a little bit. my whole rambling on how much i associate the motif of them being a "divine being sharing the gift of the animators with the outernet" typa thing) mage of doom chosen DONT even joke with me lad. im shaking him shaking him so hard

MAID OF MIND AGENT !!! MAID OF MIND AGENT !!! (even if not a maid shes still very much a mind player methinks)

oh knight of breath ballista oohhh ... this is so smart oh my god (and very obviously. already fits with one of his forms in "wanted" of literally looking like a knight lol)

wait i just realized green & purple knight and princ. cinder im gonna. im. oh this is SO good

[honest-moth-of-silver-grove]

helloo, never done a match up but recently been very obsessed w bg3 so im curious.

its a little hard describing myself since im not so good with words but id say im anxious/awkward but quickly warm up when someone speaks to me. i love teasing my partner and joking with them in a flirty way. my love language is def words of affirmation. my mbti is intp. ive been called very chill & easy to get along with & just someone who will want to listen & help people. although if someone just saw me on the street theyd assume im very reserved & keep to myself. i dont have the best upbringing and definitely had to persevere my way through life & def had a "dark" path i was heading down but now im at a very good place. the only thing that still really affects me is my anxiety and my constant need for reassurance lol. im very gay so i would prefer to be matched with a woman but id also like to see the male match up as well! poly only:)

A/N: Oh my gosh the bg3 obsession is so real though!! Because you wanted to see both your Male and Female answers (being open to a poly interpretation), for you my Anxious/Awkward INTP Anon, I’m thinking Shadowheart (Female) and Halsin (Male) would be your best bets. 

Shadowheart would be a great match for you! Similar to you, she’s not the quickest to speak, preferring to hang back and observe before commenting. However she is quite the wordsmith, and loves teasing her partner with witty banter as well as the occasional suggestive quip. 

Shadowheart may want everyone to think she doesn’t need help or guidance but in reality she’s actually quite insecure and needy, which means she greatly understands your love language of words of affirmation. She’ll remind you as many times as you ask, how she truly feels about you and hopes that you do the same for her. 

As an INTP, you share some similarities to Shadowheart’s ISTJ, although there are a few notable differences. Whereas you are less of a teacher’s pet, Shadowheart is quite by the book. She places an emphasis on following orders, and doing what is expected of her. This may cause some friction, but its actually for the best as your free nature can help untether her from any unhealthy binds or relationships in her life. 

Shadowheart is fairly easy going compared to the other companions. She’d rather watch from a distance than jump right into the fray of a social event. The two of you can linger at the refreshments table together drinking wine and gossiping about the fashion choices of those around you. 

Depending on how her path goes, Shadowheart may also have just found herself steering away from a darkened path. If she becomes a follower of Selune, she’ll view her days worshiping Shar as a mark on her honor and her soul. At the same time, if she becomes a Dark Justicer for Shar, she will view her short period of doubt as a mark on her honor. Either way, Shadowheart knows what it’s like to be headed down the wrong path, and she will hold no grudges against you for it. 

Shadowheart doesn’t suffer from generalized anxiety but she does have a few fears, wolves being amongst them. She does her best to reassure you of your safety, always taking the time to remind you that she is here for you, as you are the woman she loves, and she would move hell and earth for you. 

In a poly relationship (with Halsin, for example), I can see Shadowheart being a little bit more passive aggressive with her banter/word play. Her choice to be coy rears its ugly head every time she feels neglected. Just be sure to include her in your threesome a bit more and everything will go back to normal. 

Halsin would also be a great choice for you! (If you were attracted to men). Hell, even if you’re not, I don’t think that would stop Halsin from shooting his shot, at least once.He’s lived a long time, he knows it’s better to put yourself out there than risk missing out on a true love. 

Halsin doesn’t mind if you’re not great with words, he’d rather his actions speak for himself and others anyway. He’s a very physically attuned person, being a Druid afterall, and as a result, he’s adept at reading body language. Of course being the enormous lover (ahem slut) he is, he lives for your flirty teasing! He’s also a master at getting people flustered. It becomes a competition between you two, who can say the raunchiest thing to make the other person crack first. If you’re in a poly relationship with him and Shadowheart at this point, she, surprisingly, ends up winning this competition, saying things to make you and Halsin blush (and cause a nun to have a heart attack). She’s the undefeated champion really. 

His ENFJ is a good balance to your INTP. He’s an empathetic enough person to be able to understand your need to think things through logically, without getting hurt in the process. And as an extrovert, he can help you navigate social aspects- especially ones where you feel awkward or out of place. 

Halsin understands having to overcome darkness, as he was burdened with the task of solving the Shadow Curse and saving the shadow lands. He has done several things he is not proud of. (It’s actually interesting, in a scrapped storyline for Halsin early-access had him as the one who dealt the killing blow to Isobel, killing her, and unintentionally sparking the Shadow Curse as it was Ketheric’s grief over the death of his daughter that pushed him over the edge.) Halsin does not know if he is worthy of your forgiveness, but he will welcome it nonetheless. He will always remind you how much you mean to him, not only to quell your anxiety but because he truly cares about you that much.  

In a poly relationship with Shadowheart and Halsin, I see you getting all the attention and reassurance you could ever ask for. Shadowheart and Halsin may butt heads occasionally, especially if Shadowheart still worships Shar. (And I mean it would take A LOT to get Halsin back on board with a Shar-worshiping Shadowheart for a life partner.) But for the most part, you’d make up a very witty, naughty little trio. 

A/N 2.0: Ahhh, sorry it took forever to post this. I’ve actually had this mostly done like a month ago but I didn’t want to share it until I could look it over and make sure it sounds right. I hope you liked it, and it was worth the wait. <3

[natsmagi]

this is abt jom (naming them since you've done so as well lmao) and i just have some stuff to say too from when we were friends. post this or not, idm either way--while i wasn't a minor when we talked, i can definitely confirm the hollow words part. i was, admittedly, blinded by how cool i thought they were, and that led me to become over-enthusiastic with our friendship, but i was always told it was reciprocated and that they were excited to have another friend their age. yet there were many times id get ghosted for no apparent reason. all id ask for was communication, but it never happened unless i initiated. so so many times i was gracious toward them and told them, that all i wanted was their genuine happiness, but never did they try to improve themself. more often than not, their words felt placating, rather than a show of genuine interest.

there's lots more i can say but in short, ive fallen for their false apologies countless times and dont think they're going to change any time soon, so take their words with a grain of salt

thank you for your ask!! and yes, they did the same to me. i feel weird talking about such interpersonal issues so publicly so im not gonna go into much detail, but know i trust your every word as ive witnessed similar behavior with my own eyes

thank you for your open mindedness in spite of what moja mightve told you about me aswell. im aware of some of the things theyd say to smear my name and it disgusts me to my core. let it be known i fucked up ALOT in our friendship. i admittedly regret the whole thing and think i never shouldve spoken to moja. But we cant undo the past. all we can do is try to ensure our mistakes dont repeat themselves.

i have plans for tonight so i wont have time to chat, but tomorrow i might go ahead and add you on discord if thats alright! ive been told of many grievances people have with moja, and i think its good to have an outlet for how you feel. i myself have been bottling up my own emotions for quite some time now, only when this new wave of grooming allegations came to light did i truly let it all out to a close friend of mine and cried over it all. Because as a victim of childhood grooming and CSA, as someone who had repeatedly tried to prevent moja from going down this path as time and time again i saw moja lean into it, it truly does eat at me psychologically. and i keep blaming myself for it when ive had nothing to do with them for over a year now. i keep regretting so many of my actions and wondering if i couldve prevented all of this. it all is just so incredibly horrible, and im flabbergasted theyre completely ignoring these serious allegations that people have been trying to converse with them IN PRIVATE about since 2023. i just want it all to end. i want moja to change already. i hoped it was all just a mistake but i dont know how much more i can tell myself that

[vanillaxoshi]

If its ok, imma voice out some of my opinions or thoughts about the series sori episode 1

So first of all, the models, like boboiboy's, when i first saw it i was like "oh he looks baby!" And yes he still looks like mochi

Though it is cute. Character or age wise i think that they couldve or shouldve kept it the same face structure like season 1 since at season 1 the expressions are more ok?? And he looked older. Because when i see boi in the sori ep 1 being serious or mad(mostly blaze)

It looks cute, like the face expressions all look cute and i dont think it kind of matches

Bc season 1's model can look cute and mature at the same time

Though its too early to say that comment since not all episodes are out but based on the trailer id say it could be frequent

It feels like it doesn't match the serious elements

And the rendering or colors, its not bad from the upcoming thumbnails and some scenes its beautiful and i like it but is it bad if i prefer bbb movie 2 rendering???

The fire seems like its from a 2d game unless thats what theyre intending and with yaya's power having a full visible ball with outline and everything

I heard theyre using a new program?? Maybe it will improve or kept the same depending on the studio's decision

Im gonna say outrageous on how they didnt make adudu struggle or pushed back to a corner by yaya and yings attack and how easy the got pushed off (gravity and a thousand kicks that fast are that easy to block/defend/offend against)

The fighting didnt intriuge me and i rewatched season 1 the choreography, angles, animation and perspective of the fighting felt better but once again, this is not a full deduction bc of the later episodes

The episode wasnt bad in general but there were alot to point out like lets say i yelled loud and screamed magical girl transformation but then cackled at blaze's pose

Sorry his pose there felt goofy, maybe the camera shot made it goofy idk

Once again face doesnt match and i do hope that hed look older because even if he looks older he could still look cute as its shown in season 1

First half was nice, second half was decent

Sad they didnt include the triple split, wouldve loved to see the elements interacting again but i guess production costs??? Or time limits since this arc is 6 episodes long and i worry how theyd pace and handle it cuz they'll change some scenes and delete some

Boi is de-aged or became more cuter and its nice to see image wise but i guess its a 50/50 animation wise

[malewifesband]

trying to go back and actually write this scene w kabru and rin. my stupid illness is worse again so im struggling but id like thoughts if anyone has them. on like any aspect

to establish: i feel like kabru takes rin for granted like by far the person he seems to treat worst is her. hes not a terrible person for this no way but like the way he teases her about liking him despite having no feelings for her ... idk i feel like he counts on rin always being there. like nothing could push her away so he feels he can be a bit cruel and hell be forgiven--not like she doesnt rag on him all time, right?

but i think things change when he falls in love. like it finally hits rin that man, its never going to be her. shes watched him date around for years, and never truly fall for someone, so there was always that hope that one day hed just realize how he really felt about her. and now she cant delude herself thats true, she can just fuckin tell how bad he has it for laios after spending two years living between the castle and her apothecary. she starts trying to breakaway from him, because every time she talks to him theres a reminder that he loves someone who isnt her.

feeling especially pathetic one night, she sees marcille, who is also feeling especially pathetic bc falin is still over a year away from her and enjoying their open relationship, but marcille doesnt. she cant bring herself to want anyone but falin. rins like ok bet. we are the same kind of pathetic and i dont like you but youve also been nothing but nice to me and im not reconciling these feelings. lets have sex

the scene im struggling with comes after

like rin is in the garden again, hoping that marcille will come. she didnt feel lonely when she was with marcille. she felt... special. more seen. she didnt think about how she misses kabru even when hes with her.

but ofc kabru is seeking her out bc he just really fucked up with laios.

she tells him, yeah man, super your fault for pressing the bruise after fuckin kissing him and then refusing to talk about it. everybody knows the dude does not want to get married and have heirs why did u like agree with his dads letter that he has a duty to sire children

she really doesnt want to talk to him about this. she wants him to need her like she needs him--she doesnt want to need him like she does. and she doesnt want to help him fall in love with someone else, but its like he doesnt even realize whats happening.

kabru insists the kiss was nothing, and he shouldnt talk about it with laios bc he was just drunk its just... he wants laios' full trust. and its weird, but sometimes he pictures laios as girl and something about that works. but its a weird wishful thinking bc kabru wants to get thru this barrier they have where (kabru feels) laios feels like he cant trust him bc kabru is good liar and laios cant read ppl. like maybe if they shared something that intimate, them both being trans, theyd understand each other completely

rin doesnt really know what to make of any of that. it feels like further rejection. like it just feels obvious to her that no matter what, he loves laios. and that thorny feeling of jealousy is spiraling around her heart. maybe she says something cruel, gives terrible advice bc she feels so hurt that he cant see how sincere her jealousy is, that he cant see how it hurts her to hear him in love with someone else?

im not super sure where to take the scene from there. i know i want it to end with kabru feeling worse about laios and deciding to avoid him, but without him realizing that rin is purposefully pulling away yet. (he'll realize that later, when laios is the one to tell him she and marcille and seeing each other and he didnt even know. and he'll have to address then that hes taken her friendship for granted)

any thoughts on the kinds of things she might say? or might tell him? i feel like theres an obvious solution im just missing

[en-djinn]

hiii hope I’m not bothering you with this but in my mind you’re like the magus connoisseur and I was wondering how would you envision him in rivals?

I’m really hoping they add him and I’m guessing it’ll be like a malice kinda situation but idk what do you think? It’d be soooo interesting if he had different voice lines or something (it’s not gonna happen)

i loooooove ppl talking to me so its never a bother, i have answered this before bt i think i was drunk/tipsy when i did and ive had more time to think abt it i guess so i can revisit my answer

i think i said before that that im not sure i wanted it in rivals? and the chances r very low anyway. bt i said that coz i feel like theyd make it a dps and i dont agree with that. magus was the avatar of life before warlock was, warlock got that role because magus had it first. magus IS way more violent and aggressive and i think his kit should reflect that bt i dont want him if he isnt a support. ik they said they wont do skins that change who the character is but idk where magus falls there? to the devs at least. cz they ARE the same character bt also separate enough to actually just be separate too. so who knows. im just praying for magus themed chromas.

anyway i think coming up w a fake kit for it could be rly fun bt im not a hero shooter vet or anything so i cant actually do that lol. other than that i think he should be one of the supports thats more focused on personal damage like mantis and warlock himself. smth that supports reckless and aggressive play. or maybe more of a harasser like jeff is. im not sure if itd work in this genre but if this were something im more familiar with (an rpg) then id suggest he'd be the type of healer that functions by hurting other things, like disc priests in WoW. the more dmg u output, the more healing u output too, all ur dmg gets converted to heals on allies. esp since we see magus suck souls out and get stronger for eating them. so maybe even a personal buff when he gets a kill or final hit? or is just Around a kill? shrugs. random ideas. im going for vibes here

bt it had also crossed my mind that they dont have to do a counterpart to adam necessarily, if they go with gotg v5 magus. the little reborn one. u could potentially make a totally different char around that concept. bt ik they said peni is 18 right, i had to ask my sister abt that lol, so im assuming maybe if they add nova itll have to be richard rider (which i think id prefer anyway so we get richard+peter lines lol), but idk if peni was aged up For rivals or whatever. and idk if sam is 18 at this point anyway cz ive only seen him when he first got the helmet and also in the gotg cartoon.

[superdeluxeaverage]

n just thinking abt the whole shittyness of my whole friendship w/ them n how i tried to ride it out with them when theyd treat me shittily and blame it on stuff they were going thru and tell me that they rly valued me as a friend and hoped we could continue to be friends n then continue to consistently ghost me like monthly and then fall on the same excuses anytime id bring up to them how i felt abt the dynamic of our friendship and how theyd do this super fucking weird in hindsight thing where theyd always go on mini-rants abt ppl need to get therapists and stop using their friends to vent about all their troubles and then immediately start venting to me about all the shit they were going thru with their real friends so that would like put me in a weird situation where id listen to their problems but feel guilty about even considering talking about mines and once i did eventually tell them about my moms then drinking problem (b4 it got real real apparently bad but where it was still something that made me uncomfortable) and they just recommended me a therapist lol. I dont kno if i have a place for them in my heart truly like im sure they tell everyone they know that im a huge loser and a weirdo clingy person or whatever and i kno one of their friends def thinks im a huge loser and was prob just waiting for them to cut me out so they could stop tolerating me but like hypothetically if they did actually reach out and apologize i wonder what id do knowing we shared music interests n stuff like idk that scares me i really especially with my job have been aware of how much of a pushover i am and how unhealthy that is to let ppl walk all over me as if its no problem n then for me to go to pieces when it obv doesnt lead me anywhere but like i wonder if id ever forgive them if they did reach out idk. my whole situation with my mom and how i never forgave her and now well do have a positive relationship with her i dont wanna be a completely unforgiving person cause i kno u have to forgive to be a good person and obviously u have to draw a line to live ur life healthily but idk where that line belongs for me with the way i act like im no big deal with not much goin on. i think abt them and that theyre in their way a beautiful person but i dont think they ever respected me as an equal. i dont kno what id say to them if i had to talk to them i fantasize abt being rude and concise with my words but in reality i dont kno what id say. maybe just that i was hurt. because i was. ive matured a lot since then in ways they would consider maturity (having a job driving a car dressing better) and ways id consider maturity (comfortable with my isolation or perceived isolation, not being so codependent on relationships, greater confidence in musical abilities and musical interests, dressing better) that id wonder how things would go if i was in a situation where i had to talk to them. but mostly it just makes me sad thinking abt it but a mature kind of sad not moping about it or having it eat me up but just like idk u look at adulthood and see how ppl u thought were mature cause they had things u didnt/dont (friends/friend group, driving ability, job) turn out to be more childish than u thought. like where im at now rly things look different looking back theres less envy of wanting to go back and glancing at their face when they came to where i work two days ago i could rly see the weakness and childishness in their face in a way. like looking back im glad i moved forward cause im sure theyre in the same place with the same problems while im in a very great place and have a genuine confidence with who i am as a person

[sophieinwonderland]

im confused about personal plurality, feel free to ignore. for a while now ive wanted imaginary friends (although they are all characters in media) out of- i guess- lonliness? not the best reason, i know, but its lead me down a rabbit hole of researching plurality and whatnot. i know i dont have alters or switches or anything, if i try to call out unprompted i get no response. for some reason im so fixated and almost really wishing i had alters to talk to and experience things with, but i dont. the closest i can get to that is imaginary friends, but they feel puppeted, for lack of better words, and arent autonomous. i really want to make myself belief they are, and in a way i think they want to as well, but i have a feeling thats my brain telling me that, aka not an indication of anything.

if talking about my experiences help at all, for a while i went through a process of mimicking systems, aka having the imaginary friends speak to me in thoughts, but it was all voluntary and scripted. a while later i tried a different method of mentally visualizing these imaginary friends in the same room as me, and sometimes theyd "share" my body, and id pretty much only be the one in control, and theyd just talk to me. again, its not switching or anything, i dont have sudden memory gaps, although my memory of stuff is consistently foggy, ranging from earlier that day to multiple years ago- kinda maybe about a 35% chance ill forget something every time, and the number climbs the longer its been.

with the imaginary friends themselves, its a rough explaination. again, they come from any fictional media i fixate on, but my fixations change nearly weekly, so its never consistent with who it is. i am a copinglinker who links witb these fixations as well, so its a 50/50 of if i want to personally identify as the character, or if they are an imaginary friend. again, conversation is prompted and feels very short, because i think in the back of my mind i know im directing the entire conversation, instead of talking to a seperate person. i want to believe so bad the conversations and opinions are real, but i dont think they are. whenever i ask them if they think theyre autonomous, its either "i dont know" to "yeah, why?" but i feel those answers are fabricated to. i dont know, maybe i just sort through thoughts through characters.

sorry, im rambling. i dont know if this is the right place to go, ans im genuinely hoping none of this is offensive. again, im 99.9% sure im not plural, but i feel /something/ in the back of my mind if i focus hard enough, but then again, it might be confirmation bias or something, i donr know.

if you have any thoughts or advice, please share. this has been plaguing me for nearly a year now and im not sure what to do with the information or how to interpret it. thank you.

Are your imaginary friends actually puppeted, or do they just feel puppeted? Because these aren't the same things.

In tulpamancy, there exists what's known as parroting, where you consciously talk for your tulpa and control their speech. Conversely, there's parrotnoia. This is the fear that you're controlling your headmate even when you aren't.

But if you aren't consciously doing it, it's not parroting.

If you haven't yet, you should check out my article on how to know if your imaginary friend is sentient:

I'll also add that switches feel differently for different systems. For us, it's often like something external is entering the body. But to some systems, it can feel like you're becoming somebody else.

Switching also doesn't usually have amnesia unless you have DID. (Although, if you do have DID, it can be hard to recognize if you have amnesia because... you know... you forget. But don't worry about that right now.)

But it's also normal for some systems to only partially switch, co-front, or just be co-conscious.

If you want them to be more real and developed though, I'd recommend sticking with a few over time. Cycling between proto-headmates every couple weeks means none will get the full development they deserve.

[rusteddreams]

i feel so hopeless right now. My life has just been torn from me, time and time again. I have tried being hopeful and never giving up, but... Im losing that strength. Im trying so hard to keep going, but every day, my grip starts to weaken, more and more

Im so tired and upset, I dont trust anyone to help me, because I know I'll be ignored or just sent to a padded room, and I dont want to be alone or be a burden. Money is already tight as can be, and I dont want to be any more of a burden than I already am.

Everyone I know just.. doesnt understand me or... seem to care? I feel like im nothing but a tool to them. Just someone to go to if theres noone else around. Someome thats always there to lend an ear, but when it comes to me, noone is ever around.

I feel like im always sacrificing myself for them, but.. they never do the same for me. I greet them, and I try my best to love them, and yet... they barely even look me in the eye unless its convienent to them. im just... an object.

I want to leave them and find people like me, who arent going to use me, but.. i cant. Im too scared to neet new people.

My thoughts are so jumbled up. My friends dont talk to me unless its something about them, but if i want to talk about something, im lucky to ever see the light of day. Not to mention, when I am having fun, the happiness fades so quickly... after everything js done, Im just... done. i cant be happy for too long.

i just want to be happy. i just want to feel included. they dont ever message me when it comes time to hang out in a vc. im just leftovers. i want to have people genuinely care about me. people who are genuine and loving. everyone is so full of irony and themselves that i cant ever tell if their jokes are mean or friendly.

I cant even try to love to love them. theyve all broken my heart in one form or another. telling my secrets behind my back, ditching me for others unless theyre not available. Being too full of themselves, Calling me names, treating another friend horribly, not listening to me, among other things. how can i try loving people who barely even seem to love themselves?

Theyre not evil people, far from it. but... I dont fit in. even if i dont like emoting myself or talking feelings, im soft. soft and caring. i love people so much, to the point i hurt myself for them... id hurt myself to make them happy... but ive reached a point where they just use me. id confront them about this, but ive already tried on a smaller scale. i dont think theyd change.

i cant change an entire friendring. I couldnt even convince them to do something small. i cant force an entire dynamic to change.

as much as i hate to say it, ive lost hope in them, i feel. i want to love them, i really want to. but... i cant love people who cant even love themselves or others.

[secretstrangerperv]

hey there sweetie. you mentioned wanting someone else to send you dom asks so you could practice being a sub, iirc? hope this is what you had in mind<3

we met through a friend we had in common. well, i knew you before that, and i might have blackmailed this common friend so theyd introduce me to you, but you dont need to know that. ive been playing the softie role with you, being all cute and saying all the right things. youve been slowly letting your guard down with me. its adorable how you think youre in control. i wonder how youd react, knowing the disgusting fantasies i have each time we talk?

at some point, i invite you to a game bar. its not really my thing, but whatever my prince enjoys. better to make you suffer in a place you feel comfortable, right?

you have a great time telling me about your favorite games, and i listen patiently. though of course, theres something that puts you on edge, even though you cant place your finger on it. i keep ordering drinks and asking if you want to drink, and even though you dont feel its the best thing to do, how could you say no to free alcohol?

finally, you excuse yourself to go to the bathroom. you dont notice me following you. you dont notice the sound of the bathroom door being locked. you dont notice until its too late, when youre stepping out of your stall and im punching your jaw straight on. i grab you by the collar and shove you against a wall, grabbing a fistful of hair with the other hand. after the painful surprise subsides, you have such a hot look of fear that appears on your face, as you realize how little of me you actually know.

you try fighting back but that just makes it more fun for me. im surprisingly faster and stronger than you, and i keep hitting you at the same spots, wearing you down. once ive had my fun, i simply sweep your feet off the floor before falling on top of you, pinning your hands down with my knees. you smell the stench of alcohol on my breath before i force a passionate kiss between us, my tongue shoving your mouth open and my teeth tasting your sweet lips. you feel me getting hard against you as i tell you how badly ive needed this, how fucking attractive you are, how much more youll look like a real man when ill be done with you.

- 🌻

fuckfuckfuckkkkk this is so hot oh my goddddd 😵‍💫💫

i love how you lure me into a false sense of security like that, only to overpower and violate me when im drunk and vulnerable.

id definitely try to fight back against but my wet cunt says it all 🫣 like im definitely kind of clueless to your advances but it would be a stone cold lie if i said i never imagined your hands around my throat whenever im yapping on abt my nerdy interests......

i domt wven have many words. this is jusy so hot and i need it. rrrrrright now.