#icarus’ rambles

[jackdawandicarus]

Okay I was totally going to post about this when it happened but I forgottttttttt

Um so on Friday I did what was *supposed* to be the final performance of the devised drama piece I’ve been doing since January. Our whole group were in and we all had complete costumes so that was good. And we all knew our lines. I got into a bit of a panic about it but eh I was fine. So the camera began recording.

When I tell you I put my WHOLE FUCKING HEART into that performance, I mean it. I’ve never given a better performance in my (admittedly, quite short) life. No hyperbole there, I swear I was blessed that Friday afternoon.

Except clearly not because THE SHITTY CAMERA STOPPED RECORDING FIVE MINUTES IN!!!! AND OUR TEACHER JUST LET US CARRY ON!!!!

And everyone else was actually relieved because they’d made some noticeable mistakes (I also did but they were pretty minor, I don’t think anyone who hadn’t read the script would have noticed) and apparently our teacher couldn’t hear them for most of it, but I’m actually experiencing the seven stages of grief right now. Oh and also it’s like I know it’s kind of selfish when I write it down but honestly if you can’t project at this point then??? Like did you not learn this when you were like eight??? It’s not that hard??? And you ain’t getting a good mark here without it??? Yeah anyway you’ll have to forgive me for sounding insensitive this is a full on rant. These people cannot write naturalistic dialogue either :/. I wrote most of my lines but the two I didn’t I had to rework because they sounded like a robot. OFF TOPIC, anyway these people are so relieved and I’m fucking furious because I’ve been micromanaging every little movement I make to make the scenes where I don’t do shit seem like I’m actually doing something. For instance, I have a scene where I just stand there listening to the suffragettes give their speeches, so I was, like, straightening my posture and leaning in at the particularly ‘empowering’ parts of the speeches, pretending to repeat ‘deeds not words’ right after they all say it. Trying to make the bit where I stand up to my character’s shitty husband (I murder him at the end 👍) seem more realistic for my character to do. There *was* originally more material for me to work with, but it got cut. So I can’t help to feel kind of bitter about it. Some of their lines sound so stilted, which obviously isn’t helped with them not being well-written, but still. It’s still only happened recently and I can’t help but personally feel kind of angry at them I guess. They haven’t actually *done* anything. I mean one of them’s always criticising tiny aspects of my performance which actually don’t need changing at all (I dare her to try saying ‘a brief moment of catharsis’ five trillion times, one time where I trip over it isn’t that big of a deal, it’s not easy to say and it never usually trips me up). Okay I’m going to end this rant here 😭👍. Going to pray and give a couple offerings to Dionysus before take 2 on Tuesday.

[thekingofcrochet]

Think of all the cum you could be pumping inside me

[pxper-cranes]

Every child of Hades gotta have:

a milf mother figure that aint their real mum

a mean goth gf

a moody emo bf

a baddie mentor from the Trojan War

and a neurodiversity

[soni-dragon]

“and what if who and what i am is going to get you killed?”

+ ramblings :)

[mistakes-have-been-made]

This as melinoë and icarus

[icarusignite]

Something so tragic about watching a show like house of the dragon, especially as a book reader.

Something something "they've been dead from the beginning, you know how all this ends"

And still you're like hoping like a fool that something changes and you're screaming at the characters to see sense but they're doomed and they've always been doomed and the story will march on as it's supposed to and all you can do is be a witness to all the horror

Anywas lol yeah, was feeling sad after today's episode. Everyone is so fkn tragic and there's nothing you can do about it except watch them walk to their ends

[starsifter]

Ford describing Bill as the sun, the center of his galaxy, not only shows a profound and deep love for Bill but also just how isolated he was in that relationship. Bill eventually got everyone Ford cared about to leave, punished him when he felt he was getting too close to other people. And when there's no other source of light, of course you think the one guy who stays around is the sun.

[misteria247]

WOW-

NO FOR REAL??? YA SURE????? DAMN IT'S ALMOST LIKE THERE WASN'T ANY SIGNS.....OH WAIT THERE WERE THREE!!!!!!????????????

LIKE I FEEL BAD BUT DUDE YOU LITERALLY FLEW INTO THE SUN WITH THIS ONE-

WAIT ICARUS OH FUCK IT MAKES SENSE NOW I GET IT NOW

[qaze]

///Sherbaverse CMV spoilers

But in all seriousness, the difference between Reo handing off the title vs Midas handing it off is so interesting to me. Like Reo just wanted the hell out of the world port and actually had the opportunity to go back and see his brother and continue like nothing happened, he kinda gave it to Midas, didn’t care that they were a teenager, immediately pulled them, practically said “hey! This job sucks! Thanks!” And dipped

Midas however, saw Icarus was a kid and couldn’t pull them. And once they did pull Icarus they were careful with how they passed on the title, gave them the explanation they needed and have been wanting, and then when they left they were lost because there wasn’t a world for them to go back to

I know the circumstances were much different for Midas becoming Quixis vs Icarus becoming Quixis, but Midas still very much could’ve been like “get me the hell out of here,” and leave without any more conversation, but they didn’t

[forestshadow-wolf]

Ever wonder what it was like for Icarus as he was falling, soaring, crashing through the sky? Was he scared? Did he laugh? Did he feel alive?

What was it like to feel the scorching melted wax roll up his arms, his back, his neck, his face, leaving trails of raw reddened skin in its wake? Did he watch as feathers flew up around him? Or maybe he flew down. Did it pain him? Did he close his eyes and welcome it?

Did he realize he flew too close to the sun? Or did he not even realize? Was it terror or joy in his heart?

Is this what it feels like to love, soap wonders? Is love over inflated pride? Does it burn? Or does it make him fly? Is it only his love that sears? Is it loving an unlovable man? Is he supposed to fear the mad plummet? How can he when he's never felt more alive?

Is he Icarus, a man fallen by his pride? Is Icarus him, a man crashing into life?

[jackdawandicarus]

Hiiiiiiii, this is my intro post I guess?

I go by Jackdaw, Jack, and Icarus. However, I mostly prefer Jackdaw. I use they/them, he/him, and it/its pronouns! I am also an eurasian lynx and ginger tabby cat therian.

I am aromid (aromantic aegosexual), pansexual + panromantic, and achillean. I am transmasc and bigender.

My enneagram is 6w7 684. I am a ♐️ sun, ♏️ moon, and ♉️ rising.

I’m diagnosed as autistic and self-diagnosed as having NPD + BPD (unsure).

Something’s fucked up with my body but oh well let’s not think about that shall we 👍

Please talk to me about Six of Crows, Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss, Stardew Valley, Cult of the Lamb, The Amazing Digital Circus, Gravity Falls, writing, Hunger Games, Doctor Who, Spiderverse, or Warrior Cats (Warrior Cats is physically unable to leave my being I swear) I literally will not shut upppp.

:)

PLEASE send me an ask I’m perpetually bored- https://www.tumblr.com/uwuthority/178615431226/get-to-know-me-uncomfortably-well

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Writing-

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In Your Shadow (Warrior Cats Fanfic)-

(please consider becoming an alpha reader for my WIP- https://www.tumblr.com/jackdawandicarus/756273409394130944/looking-for-alpha-readers)

[chzy-doodles]

these duos have the same vibes, I can totally imagine a kid icarus animatic with little wolf

[bibibbon]

Nobody ever pays attention to the fact that Hawks is literally a government drone. He has bird wings that have feathers that can listen in on conversations, and he works for the government.

Hawks works for the bourgeoisie.

That's the interesting aspect of Hawk's character since he literally fulfils the role of the perfect government spy or agent.

Hawk's has it all to fit the role perfectly. He has the quirk, the skills, the looks and the charisma. He is a beautifully built puppet that works to uphold the status quo, the same status quo that also harms people like him (hetamorphs and the less fortunate in society).

To the civillians and the hpsc Hawk's is perfect in every way possible. However, this notion of perfection is interpreted differently by both the hpsc and the civillains. To the HPSC Hawk's is the perfectly crafted puppet that was successfully produced to be everything they wanted him to be.

Hawk's to them understands the system, was raised to worship it and uphold it. He has no doubts of what he must do and does it almost as if the action of upholding the system and killing have become second nature and pure animalistic instinct to him. Those red feathers are the HPSC biggest prize. They are stained culling weapons that kill, disarm, hear and have eyes everywhere. A huanting red that must do what's necessary for the system to survive and for the government to always be on top. The colour of blood but to the hpsc it's the colour of their pride and most perfected puppet.

To the civillains Hawk's is alluring. He is handsome, young, strong, tall, muscular and he has it all. Hawk's is what the people fan over and to some who they want to be. He is a Saint to the civillains a man with good looks that ensures to keep them safe with his agility and quickness. An angle in disguise is what the civillains would think of him (yet to the villains he is more of the devil in disguise)

To the villains hawk's is the embodiment of the system and its wicked ways. Hawk's interaction with twice says it best whether that be from Hawk's not wanting to kill twice heck he tried to disarm twice he cut off twices muscles so he couldn't move and therefore disarmed him from using his quirk yet when it came to it hawk's reverted to his hpsc taught instinct and killed what he deemed a good man. OR twice completely being shattered at the betrayal and realising that hawk's is the system that he hates and has suffered from severly.

Throughout the MVA arc hori seems to draw some religious imagery of Hawk's comparing him to the fallen angle or heck even icarus (could be both 🤷‍♀️) In the MVA arc Hawk's does tell the truth about one thing and that is that he feels trapped in a cage due to the hpsc. Hawk's wanted to escape that cage, and one way he may have tried to defy the hpsc was to try and save twice, yet in the end, he never did. He was too optimistic, too quick to revet to hpsc instinct and too slow to fully stop twice so he ended up killing him and rather falling from grace of the publics eye who saw this happen on a live recording, from the eye of the hpsc who if they were still around would of quickly abandoned him and he fell as a hero.

Hawk's ambition and insiticts led to his failure.

In the end, Hawk's is a government spy that upholds the status quo and the mha civillains most of them that is were okay with the status quo so why would they care if the hpsc would send a spy in order to keep them "safe"?

(Such a shame that Hawk's never gets to change properly whether that be acknowledging his mistakes, changing by leaving the instinct embeded in him and getting to have proper intropsection looking at characters in a different light such as enji)

[lordofryoshimacoast]

Hear me out, a Dark Pit and Pit kiu designs based on these pigeons because OMG they're gorgeous.

[paintedkinzy-88]

(So sorry i feel like im spamkmg yoyr ask box but i just rotate this au around in my brain like microve)

So i was checking out the posts linked through your coi au master post, and this part:

Did this this cut more deep than Donnie intended? Like does Leo still think about this one line even months past? Like does he think, as hes going on his nightly falling/flying sesions how his brothers couldnt even think of leaving april behind but didn't hesitate to leave him behind

Meanwhile donnie and bros dont see it that that. They see leo as equal, even without wings, they never once thought of it as leaving him behind. Because hes their brother, theyd NEVER leave him behind.

But then that got me thinking... did they accidentally like ACTUALLY leave leo behind that first night donnie made his wings. Cause i can see donnie and the ither two being caught up in the joy of flying together for the first time, maybe going too fast for leo to keep up on the rooftops, cementing the idea in his head that his bros dont need him.

This is long winded lol i just got angst on my mind 😭

Spam me all you want!! I may not be able to promise I’ll get to every ask I ever receive, I just don’t have that time, but I CAN promise that I see, read, and overthink everything anyone sends me (ง’̀-‘́)ง So send away!!

As for your question: Absolutely, yes, that moment struck Leo down to his core — but not like. Personally. He knows Donnie didn’t mean it like that! Realistically, he understands that his brothers/sister care just as much about him as he does about them. They’d never purposefully leave him behind!! At the end of the day, he trusts that, should he ever get seriously knocked down, his family would turn right back around to help him get back up.

But he still has a MAJOR barrier that he sees between them. One that Donnie AND April are now able to literally fly over. And now that he’s outnumbered, that wall feels even higher than before. He’s not alone, not ever, but it certainly feels like it sometimes…

And all of that is exactly why he doesn’t want to say anything. He not only feels a little silly to have this impossible dream in the first place (his hoard is literally birds and butterflies and shit, that’s so weird and pathetic, isn’t it???), but he doesn’t WANT them to worry about him. He doesn’t want them to turn tail and come back just to make sure he’s keeping up with them. He can’t hold them back like that!

It’s better to pretend he’s on the same level, train himself into the ground (even literally if that’s what it takes) to prove he’s on the same level, make them focus on his stellar swimming skills that are (to them) on par to their flying, than for them to ever realize that all he’ll ever do is look up at them from below.

Also, yes, after Dee made his first fully functioning flight pack, they all went on a quick flight around the city. April was the one to suggest they move it to the ocean so Leo could at least keep up with them and cheer them on…

[thekingofcrochet]

Your hatred of trans men is still transphobia.

your hatred of non-transitioning and/or gnc afab people is still enbyphobia/transphobia.

your hatred of non-transitioning and/or gnc amab people is still enbyphobia/transphobia.

just because you’re trans doesn’t mean you can’t be transphobic.

Keep it to yourself or become a better person.