#i've been trying since LAST summer

[twistedglass]

Me: PLEASE, game. I really want Jamil in his DORM uniform. Game: You want Jamil; got it. Me: Remember, I said DORM uniform. Game: Jamil, right! You want him. Me: Not SCHOOL. Not P.E. Not LAB WEAR.... Game: I got it, I got~! Me: C'mon…… Game: SCHOOL UNIFORM~! :D Me: ……..Why are you like this?

[eskawrites]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Stranger Things (TV 2016) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Robin Buckley & Steve Harrington, Robin Buckley/Nancy Wheeler Characters: Robin Buckley, Nancy Wheeler, Steve Harrington, The Party (Stranger Things) Additional Tags: Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Graduation, the inherent trauma of being 18 in a small town Series: Part 14 of thriving in the apocalypse Summary:

She hasn’t been in the running for valedictorian since sophomore year, and there’s no way anyone in Hawkins High would vote her for class president, but somehow her mother was still delusional enough to expect some incredible achievement from her once graduation rolled around. I’m alive, Robin thinks. How’s that for an achievement?

or, the Hawkins High School Graduation Ceremony, 1986

[eggmeralda]

I need a massive sudden hyperfixation shock to happen again

[khargaotte]

My first ever @mayakern order just shipped today and it contains the ye olde cats skirt and I'll be damned if I don't go to the fine arts museum, wearing that skirt, to take a picture in front of my favorite painting in that building, the one with the cat with the human nose, which happens to be featured on said skirt. Consider this my pledge to do this.

[obliviousriki]

I finally finished Future Connected. The game has been out for over two years at this point

[rascheln]

On my way home from another lovely hike. Was a bit worried earlier today since a bunch of school classes seemed to be out on trips and on the same train line, but once I reached my stop there was only one left that had to stay behind and wait for a couple classmates that had gotten off one station too soon.

The route I usually take had to be adjusted a fair amount due to parts of the trail being blocked off while the deer are in season. Heard a lot of horny deer shouting haha

The air was almost completely still and it was super humid and warm, but just cloudy and shady enough that it was still bearable. I just wish this super slow couple that I had come across earlier (and who had walked about half the distance I had in the opposite direction) hadn't blocked the one bench I had planned on taking a rest on. Then again, you kinda have to be lucky to catch it while it's free and I feel lucky enough to have gotten outside of the city on such a lovely day.

[tmpttion]

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[scorpion-flower]

Also, while we're on the topic of my parents being human turds:

Last year, I worked at a school (hey, preschool teacher here!) and when that year was over (you have no idea how difficult it was, lol) I didn't want all those group projects that I had made with the kids to be thrown out, so I took them with me inside a huge plastic bag.

Now, there is no way of really showing this to you, but my room is a mess. And it is this way because I have too many stuff (such as clothes, books, funko pops) while the room is not that big. And to be honest, I don't want to throw anything away. So, as you can guess, that plastic bag didn't help.

So, my boyfriend suggested, that he could take that bag and keep it at his home, since they have extra room, and I said 'sure'. He didn't do it tho.

And here's where my stupid parents come into the story!

They already don't like him (lol, it's not because of anything that he has done, I believe that they would like him only if he was filthy rich and beat me up like they used to) so they use his suggestion and his failure to deliver, as a way to both diminish him and me, because I continue this relationship.

Mind you, these are the same people who have promised me a lot of stuff and always failed to deliver.

I still remember being 3 or 4, watching commercials about Disneyland in Paris on TV and them promising me that they would take me there when I'd finish elementary school. Guess what, I am 29, 17 years out of elementary school and still, I've never been there!

And I remember, being like 18 or 19, and them telling me that they'd search for a small appartment for me to rent, in order for me to start being more independent, and even said that they'd help me with the bills. Did that happen? Of course not! Back then, I also had a therapist who, when I told her what my parents said about renting me an appartment, replied with a "They won't do it, it's all a lie" And she was right!

They even repeated that promise when I was 26, I flat out told them that I don't believe them, and I was right!

It's not like I expect them to do big things for me. They cannot even have basic human decency. It's the lack of self awareness and the gashlighting that gets me everytime tho!

[wewontbesleeping]

oh YAY the old coworker who had delusional fantasies about a relationship with me and harassed me about it both at work and in absolutely insane social media posts has started commenting on my old posts again! yay!!!!! i'm so happy!!!!

[weaseltube]

i hate shoes

[eggmeralda]

I may have lost all hope

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

not to be superficial but seeing those pics also motivated me to work out after work tonight even though I really didn't feel like it lol

[avinox]

I'm not sure how viable it would be, but I could try to get an assessment for disability because my OCD really does impair my ability to function normally. Like even when I think I'm doing fine I'm really not, it affects every little thing in my life.

My family would probably refrain me from trying to get that, even though that's what they suggested I do when I went to that job helping thing. They'd say that'll for sure make me unemployable, or that they're gonna fire me for that or something (obviously illegal). I'm not sure if I care about it as much as I do about wanting to know the exact degree that they think having this prevents me from having a life.

[kimmkitsuragi]

kinda wanna get baldurs gate 3 hmmmmmmm but i shouldnt

[flatstarcarcosa]

LIKE. the WHOLE FUCKING POINT of ‘i’m you’ ‘i know’ is to show that despite ben’s basic failures to perform masculinity correctly* and despite all the bravado and bullshit he spews it’s all a facade to cover up the fact that he’s still emotionally stunted and scarred from having an abusive father.

and also that despite the toxic ass way he deals (or, more accurately, doesn’t) with it, there is a part of him on some level that knows it’s wrong. 

what he says is ‘maybe i could have made you better and not some weak sniveling pussy’ but what he means is ‘maybe i could have done it right and kept you from ending up like me.’

he literally got an entire fucking monologue with butcher immediately before this scene about his abusive toxic ass and emotionally neglectful father that gave you all the fucking context clues on a fucking platter but all anyone wanted to talk about was ‘deehee he called homie a pussy’.

for a show that has a fandom that thinks they’re soooooo smart for noticing the satire, i swear to god

[lingeringscars]

I know I just said next week I'll be writing my paper + then back in class but like. I'll also probably be more active then.

All my shows are ending this week I think? And I'm always better about actually writing when they're on hiatus (yes muse is high while they're on but I get in my head about what will happen next u feel me probably not but <3 it's fine)

With that said, if you want to develop dynamics you absolutely know where to find me xo