#i've been tired like all day it's been hell

[syntheticcharmva]

I need HELP

I feel unsafe in my own home, not sure if or when it's all going to be taken away from me after threats made by my father. who's decided to pull the rug out from under my whole family, we're fighting how we can, but i want to get out of all this. We're trying to hopefully handle this with legal means, stops his threats in it's tracks, but my living situation feels deeply unsafe and it feels like I'll need to back up everything and run any day now, my sleeps been a mess, and I've been a mess of anxiety while this all goes on. the support has been helping me get some piece of mind, but i'm REALLY looking to ge the hell out of all of this drama that's been my life and ge tas far away from that man as possible. he's hurt me throughout my life and I'm so tired of it, I just want to move away, do something else. start my own life without this looming shadow over it. you've all supported a ton, and I'm beyond greatful. you've spread the word, and it's been wonderful for keeping me safe in the moment, but any further support will be actively put towards me getting the fuck out. if everyone who saw this donated a single dollar, i'd be practically half way to my goal,

[ramyuniee]

I try to induce void but instead I sleep and wake up next day without inducing 😭😭

Some ways to stop your a$$ from passing out!

Girl, we've all been there, I'VE been there, I'm a tired mf what can I say 😭

Honestly, if you want to stop yourself from falling asleep during the Void, here are some tips I have lowkey gathered during my time here on tumblr as well as on this planet...

Anyways, without further ado...

1. GO TO SLEEP

Dude I literally CANNOT stress this enough. if you're constantly too tired to get in the Void State, just take a nap earlier in the day, whether it be an hour or 6 hours, TAKE A NAP!! ever since I stopped gaf about hypergogingia or whatever and the other thing, I've progressed sm. YOU DON'T NEED TO BE ON THE BRINK OF EXHAUSTION TO GET INTO THE VOID STATE OR SHIFT!!!!

2. try to focus

ok so yeah we've all heard it 2948292 times, that "omg girl void is home if you feel your body you're doing it WRONG!!!! I don't care if you thought you were in the Void you felt your tingly ass leg so you're invalid die"

and to these people I say... shut the fart up!

If you find yourself trying to get into the Void State but finding yourself absolutely collapsing into your bed... try to focus on smth!!!

I've posted about trying to focus while focusing on your eyes being closed but even for me I struggle with that bc my eyes forcefully open themselves... smh. if you can't focus on the darkness, focus on your BREATH or hell, even your symptoms if it really helps!!! keep your mind as occupied as possible, so you don't fall asleep!!!!!

3. try to repeat smth in your head

ok this lowk ties in with #2 but IM TRYING TO GET MY WORD COUNT IN OK!!! this one is ESPECIALLY amazing if you're a shifter because OMG. you can basically repeat like an affirmation!! for example my name is [you'll never know] in my cr and Hana in my dr so I could just repeatedly say

"my name is both [you'll never know] and Hana." a million times even until your brain gets sick of it

OK MY FINGERS HURT no cute ending for you Just my final thoughts...

GO TAKE A NAP GIRL!!!!!

[rqsie63]

WE WERE BOTH YOUNG WHEN I FIRST SAW YOU - Yuki Tsunoda.

pairing: yuki tsunoda x female kpop idol / best friend reader.

summary: yuki and reader are friends since ever, when she in mónaco to attend an award show and they reunite the feelings he secretly has for her do nothing but grow.

warnings: none. ignore the typos please im too lazy to correct them, english is not my first language.

a/n: honored to join the yuki tsunoda love club. thank you for the love the little alex albon smau is having jsjfjdj is overwhelming (in a good way). this is not my best work but I'm happy with the results anyway❤

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ynupdates: in her most recent Instagram Live YN confirms she is a very close friend of Formula 1 driver Yuki Tsunoda.

"It started in kindergarten, our mums basically forced us to be friends. They know eachother since college so we had no choice but to keep the legacy alive".

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yourusername: awards season is coming to an end🥹, thank you for your love and support. mónaco see you soon for the final round 😘🤍

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user1: totally forgot about MAMAs taking place in monaco, can someone explain??

user2: they started doing this last year, the show was in the US for some reason idk

user3: global expansion they said. hate this whole concept of doing the sow outside asia just for validation

user4: atp im here for the red carpet looks and performances lol

ynhq: YUKIYN REUNION

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yourusername: excited about being in such a wonderful place for the first time 🤍 thanks to my tour guy 🤗

user5: yuki so boyfriend

user6: monaco looks so good on you 😍

user7: stay there forever it suits you so much 😍

yukitsunoda0511: "tour guy"?, it's "my best friend the most handsome tour guy on earth" to you 😐

user8: who is this beautiful woman and why's yuki here

user9: she's a kpop idol and yuki's best friend, they have known each other for life basically

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yukitsunoda0511: best friend duties i guess 🙄

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user10: the friendship i deserve

user11: they're so cute, just kiss eachother rn

yourusername: shut up you love it

user12: "i guess🙄" keep fighting my man, your time will come

user13: you guys think he's going to the MAMAs to watch her perform??

user14: he's totally going, with his own lightstick and stuff.

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motorsportsgossip: Formula 1 Driver Yuki Tsunoda spotted at the MAMA Awards Night 1 in Mónaco.

His close friend YN of Aespa performs tonight.

user14: what the hell is a MAMA Award?

user15: hope they're dating idc

user16: cisca on the likes?? 😭

yukitsunoda0511 instagram story.

story's replies:

francisca.cgomes: pierre and I were wondering....

francisca.cgomes: ARE YOU STUPID?

yukitsunoda0511: unprovoked???

yukitsunoda0511: what did I do now?

francisca.cgomes: you have this WOMAN in front of you, how are you just best friends

yukitsunoda0511: not this again, I'm not planning to tell her. this is how it's has to be.

francisca.cgomes: thank you, question answered

yourusername: damn I look good 😍

yukitsunoda0511: always so humble ❤

yourusername: thank you for being there tho, I've been so tired these few days but having you there with me gave me an energy burst ❤

yukitsunoda0511: always ❤

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yourusername: monaco, you're unreal ✨ thank you thank you, i'm so happy to be here 🖤 (part 2 of this post with the performance outfits coming up🤭)

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user17: stunning

francisca.cgomes: what a beauty!

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yourusername: thank you kika!

user18: yuki if you don't make a move...

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yukitsunoda0511: first time at the MAMAs, where amazing and promising asian artists like @yourusername can show the world what they're made of. congratulations my dear, you killed it ♥️🔥

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user19: yuki tsunoda the best friend that you are!!

user20: MY DEAR, I'm not okay leave me alone

-texts between yuki and pierre

-texts between you and yuki.

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yukitsunoda0511: mónaco you always offer me the best views...🌙❤

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user21: WAIT

user22: is this a soft launch??

user23: if this is not ⭐HER⭐ I don't want it.

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yourusername: guess i really like it here, mónaco you're magical 💙

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user24: stop playing with our feelings and confirm you're eating each other

user25: girl-- 😭

user26: cuties

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motosportsgossip: Formula 1 Driver Yuki Tsunoda spotted KISSING a young woman around Mónaco.

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username: IS THAT WHO I THINK IT IS???

username: GOD finally yuki isn't bitchless anymore🙏

-texts between yuki and you.

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yukitsunoda0511: is it official now, @.yourusername? it feels amazing to call you mine.

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user27: FUCKING FINALLY

user28: we love besties to lovers!!

pierregasly: about damn time my friend

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yourusername: I don't know how it gets better than this💙 (yes @.yukitsunoda0511, it's official now)

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user29: i can already imagine her outfits on race weekends

user30: God i've been waiting for this HOW MUCH TIME

francisca.cgomes: yyyayyy congratulations

yukitsunoda0511: I love you 💙

yourusername: to the moon and back❤

[feedback it's always appreciated❤- 14/01/25)

[misty-wisp]

actual agony

[vandalizedheart]

a solution nobody likes but is guaranteed to take care of the issue: turn anon off. you can leave it off permanently, enable it selectively for ask prompts and whatnot, or just disable it for a while to drive off the nastier ones.

i know the anon feature can be fun and useful for sending asks without an identity attached to it, but if people in your inbox are abusing it due to that very reason, it may be best to keep it off, even if only temporarily. people who use the anon feature to send nice things, questions about/for your muse, and etc. can do all of these things off anon, and it may be just as appreciated.

meanwhile, if you're using anon to send asks that you'd never send to someone should that feature not be available, (especially if it's an excuse to be ableist, racist, LGBTphobic and etc.) then perhaps you shouldn't be using it at all.

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

If you've never heard an LRAD go off in person, I *genuinely* do not want to hear your opinion about methods of resistance in the US.

[tvuniverse]

Listen i just want to preface this by saying I don't even personally hate Tommy, but that's not really the point i want to make so here goes nothing.

The way a lot of people act as if it's impossible to dislike him because the characters have moved on so so should we, right? and that's the thing right here, as poc we're always being told to move on. We can't express our feelings, we can't hold grudges, we can't complain about issues without making it something more than it is, we always have to just... move on.

I know people are going to say it's just a show, it's not that serious, but the issues it touches on and the way fandom speaks on those issues are.

I've seen a lot of comparisons between Tommy and other mains, how each of them are flawed and have screwed up one way or another, and you're right, but it's still unfair to compare him to them. We've seen each of the main characters experience guilt, or be ashamed of their action, we've seen them apologise, put in the work to actually grow, and they have. There's not enough time in an episode for us to see that for side characters. In this case, Tommy didn't do any of the above and that's normal, he was a plot device to show some very real societal issues, and especially what people of colour/women might go through in the workplace, and once he served his purpose he didn't get much more beyond a few scenes where it seemed like everything was fine between him and chim/hen. It would be more appropriate to compare him to the buckley parents, (who appeared in more or less the same amount of episodes) like if people suddendly started saying no one is allowed to hate them because they got their redemption, their kids more or less forgave them, they more or less tried to be better parents. And yet it's still not enough for a lot of people, because how they treated their children, the shit they've said to them, hits a little too close to home for a lot of people and so no matter what the show says or does, they'll still be mostly hated by the audience, and that's more than okay. But if margaret buckley is your favourite character than by all means be my guest. And listen, i love this show, it's all about hope, and it means everyone gets a redemption arc, as short as it is (sometimes even just a sentence lol), but we won't always be satisfied with these arcs, especially if they don't feel proportional to the hurt the characters may have caused to our mains, so we'll all have different reactions to them.

I swear liking a morally ambiguous/grey character says absolutely nothing about you, but making excuses for them, antagonising people who might dislike them (for good reasons) or acting like suddenly triggers don't exist for people, does say something about you. One of my favourite characters is literally the worst person ever, an actual bigot, but i won't ever write essays about why people are not allowed to dislike him actually because he's my babygirl.. i very much understand why people would.

All of this to say, everyone will have different opinions about Tommy. Some might love him, some will be completely neutral or at worst slightly uncomfortable/bothered by him, and some will straight up hate him, and all of these are fine. Live and let live, love whoever you want to love, and hate whoever you want to hate, but please stop trying to dictate how others should feel, i'm begging. And this really does go both ways.

[icewindandboringhorror]

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[lucyvaleheart]

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[topaztimes]

Hi this is a vent post! Continue scrolling if you'd rather not see that

[imagine-nerd]

The fucking disconnect is so real.

[maddogmp3]

have you ever wanted to disappear and join a monastery go out and preach on manic street who will i be when i wake up next to a stranger on a passenger plane a passenger plane oh permanent jet lag please take me back please take me back im a stray dog sick please let me in the mad key's trippin' singing vows before we exchange smoke rings give me a pen call me mr benzadrine but dont let the doctor in i wanna blow off steam and call me mr benzadrine but don't let the doctor don't let the doctor in

[astrxealis]

me rn having the biggest hots for leon kennedy and astarion sorry LMFAOOO <3

[kittlyns]

I had yet another long, strenuous day yesterday and didn't finish work until super late and then I couldn't fall asleep until well past 2am cuz I was in so much pain from standing literally all day

[maladaptivedaydreamsx]

Had enough items to speedrun and read both parts to Silvio's, then found more items and was able to read the sweet end for both Clavis & Jin.... aw hell yeah, triple epilogues baby 👀

I still feel very torn about how they're running things lately though, Ikepri is starting to feel much more cash cow-y with the high point requirements, the premium ends requiring BOTH readthroughs, and no more bday stories but instead grinding through events... love the characters & the storylines but like.. damn. i'm getting genshin ptsd ngl💀

[gentlethorns]

fuck dude i have got to find a job where i can be self-employed and creative. i cannot be in fucking retail hell anymore