#i'n sick

[dailyish-mario-hugo]

* day 66

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for telling my mom I don't like it when she slaps my ass? potential tw

so I (22 trans m) currently live with my mom (65), and I've always had issues with how she interacts with my body. today she woke me up to try on a pair of pants I bought yesterday before she washed them, and I asked her if she could stop staring at me while I took my pajama pants off to try on the jeans. she pushed back and laughed it off saying it didn't matter, so I had to change in front of her cause she refused to leave the room. this has happened many times before where she insists on watching me change, even when I'm completely naked, despite me asking her not to.

I put the pants on and she immediately comes over to inspect how they fit for herself, tugging on the waistband and looking them over, then promptly slaps my ass. I immediately recoil and tell her I didn't like it and I want her to stop, and she scoffs and rolls her eyes at the suggestion. I tell her it's weird because we've had this conversation before since her slapping my ass is a frequent occurrence, and like usual, she insists there's nothing weird about it because she's my mother and she isn't doing it to be sexual. when she does this, she usually says, "I birthed that ass, so I'm allowed to slap that ass if I want to." I tried to tell her that I'n an adult and I should be allowed to tell her when I don't like something she does to me, and I was visibly pissed off and kicked her out of my room to go back to bed.

I could hear her in the other room walking around saying loudly, "ohh, so I'M aaaaalways the problem. I'm the problem, of course," in like a mocking tone because she clearly thinks I'm in the wrong. I know she's an asshole for a lot of other reasons (she's pretty transphobic and doesn't respect my name, pronouns, or that I'm on hormones, and she frequently takes out her anger issues on me by yelling at me if I even look at her wrong when she's mad), but this one has been bothering me a lot since I moved back home after college (I'm also unemployed and wouldn't be able to move out for a while despite already wanting to get away from her)

for further context, she's always had a specific way of interacting with my body that I think is weird but she refuses to see it. she insisted on personally bathing me into middle school, then continued to say that I needed her help to shower correctly even up to now, so she frequently walks into my bathroom or bedroom when I'm entirely naked and will look my body over and I'm not a fan of it. she also still tries to force her way into changing rooms if we go shopping together so that she can have the final say in how I look in clothes, and she never even wants to turn around or wait outside while I strip.

I've tried to get her to stop before but she keeps doing it, insisting that she's my mother so she's allowed to, even though I'm an adult who hasn't lived with her for the past four years and is very autonomous, so it's not like she still does everything for me. she also pushes back and says that if I think it's weird then it must mean I've been assaulted before and that's why I don't like it when she touches me. I'm also autistic and don't like frequent hugs or any kind of touching and she doesn't like it when I tell her to stop doing that too, but her slapping my ass and insisting on seeing me naked is the stuff that really bothers me, the rest I tolerate just so I don't have to argue with her all the time.

I've asked friends before if they think it's weird she does this, but she's so insistent that she should be able to touch me whenever and however she wants just because she's my mom and that she can look at me naked because she birthed me and has seen me naked before, so why is it different now that I'm a full on adult. I honestly don't know who's in the wrong for this specific thing and if I'm over exaggerating like my mom says I am, but I'm so sick of her touching me when I tell her not to that I needed to poll answers, so:

am I the asshole for telling my mom to stop slapping my ass and insisting on looking at me while I'm naked despite being an adult and asking her not to?

[wheelie-sick]

dysmetria is horrible because I type like this without autocirrve it's really bad I'm sos ick of jt I cant fucking oress the right keys if I tey ti typ a tmy ordferred speed

corrected text:

dysmetria is horrible because I type like this without autocorrect it's really bad I'm so sick of it I can't fucking press the right keys if I try to type at my preferred speed

like I'n s really fast typer and I want my coordinstion bacj because I'm tired of typing soiely. soemtimes I fuck op a word so badly not even autocorrect cn rigure iut what I'm trying to say

corrected text:

like I'm a really fast typer and I want my coordination back because I'm tired of typing sowly. sometimes I fuck up a word so badly not even autocorrect can figure out what I'm trying to say

ataxia will be the death of me

[the-1-foxy]

I'n so fucked up right now

Is that veva dash??!?! or am i missing something???

aaa i feel sick. I totally didnt cry at a mincraft lets play series

[cosmotiger-kiara]

Go away! You're a teribble artist and you have disgusting characters! Everyone will agree with me, don't doubt it! Get off the Tumbrl, Russian brat!🇺🇦😡🤬

W-what?.. How is this possible?.. My heart hurts... Can someone really hate me just because I live in Russia?... I haven't done anything wrong to anyone. I was sitting quietly in class when I received this message, and I immediately felt sick when I read it... Guys, forgive me if I've even offended anyone, and I'n sorry if someone had to put up with me all this time... Looks like I'm going to have to leave, I don't want to bother anyone else... Bye...💔

[bluewaterhigh2005]

i'n so sick that just a few hours ago i was coughing up blood and now i'm regressing to pacing the apartment at 3am thinking about the targtowers again and frankly the two feelings are not dissimilar

[crmsnmth]

Courier

I'm not sure this floor has ever been cleaned But that doesn't matter really The only thing I want to be clean is the spike and the spoon won't ever burn my fingers again Clean water and cotton bones

Greg said he's hook me up but I had to do hin a favor He already knows that of course I'n down I'm past the point of using for fun I just don't like feeling sick anymore

A package shoved into my back pack an address on a torn piece of looseleaf paper Drop it off and come right back, You want a hit for the road? Goddamn, is he good at this

Sidewalk symphony, it's not that far and I walk with the confidence of a btter man When this is all over, I can just get high. I don't think about her when I'm high escaping into my own tainted veing

I knock on the door loudly I just want to get back to my coming fix The door barely opnes "What?" A voice made of slang and razror blades "Package delivery from Greg,"

I'm allowed inside and I'm not sure the floors ever been cleaned My backpack is opened and the old man grabs the wrapped package I know I just delivered a good amount to smack I know this fact and I still don't give a fuck about it

I leave, back to my sidewalk dancing Moving just a little quicker towards the stretch Finally.

BANG.

[fearlessmuses]

ooc. i won't be on till probably sunday. tbh. i'n taking today to do writes and shows and just resting. i was sick yesterday and i did some writes but honestly i just wanna rest. XD so yeah that what i'mma do.

[guillemelgat]

Solomon a Gaenor (1999)

1h40m | Welsh, Yiddish, & English

Y wythnos diwetha', nes i weld y ffilm 'ma. Mae hi'n am Solomon Levinsky, sy'n dod i'r Cymoedd De Cymru o Rwsia efo'i deulu, a Gaenor Rees, sy wedi byw yna ei holl fywyd. Mae Solomon a'i deulu'n Iddewon Uniongred, a mae Gaenor yn dod o deulu Anghydffurfiol, ond mae'r dau'n disgyn mewn cariad. Mae'r stori'n dipyn bach fel Romeo a Juliet, ond mae hi'n wahanol hefyd—mae'r cymeriadau'n mwy cymhleth, yn fy marn i, ac yn y diwedd o'n i ddim yn siwr beth i feddwl amdanyn nhw. Er hynny, mae'r hanes yn ddiddorol iawn, a mae'r ffilm yn sôn am y streiciau yn y Cymoedd ac am hanes Iddewig yng Nghmyru. Mae'r sinematograffi'n wych, ac o'n i'n licio'r trac sain hefyd, ond dwi'n dal i drio penderfynu am y plot. Rhaid i chi'w gweld a deud beth ydach chi'n meddwl!

Last week, I watched this film. It's about Solomon Levinsky, who comes to the South Wales Valleys from Russia with his family, and Gaenor Rees, who's lived there all her life. Solomon and his family are Orthodox Jews, and Gaenor is from a Noncomformist family, but the two fall in love. The story is a bit like Romeo and Juliet, but it's different too—the characters are more complex, in my opinion, and at the end I wasn't sure what to think about them. The history was really interesting, though, and the film talks about the strikes in the Valleys and about Jewish history in Wales. The cinematography is great, and I liked the soundtrack as well, but I'm still trying to decide about the plot. You have to watch it and tell me what you think!

Geirfa - Vocabulary

(Note: The movie is set in South Wales, so some of these are Southern Welsh variants)

swllt - shilling cefn gwlad - countryside cenhadwr - missionary perthyn i - belong to, be related to pai' bod yn ddwl - don’t be silly rhywpryd eto - another time tost - sick moddion - medicine damwain - accident twymo - to heat up darn - passage tlawd - poor cwlwm - knot siort - type pobi - to back carthu - to clean bod mas o gyrraedd - out of reach of, past main - fine cyhuddiad - charge, accusation dieithryn - outsider cosb - punishment disgwyl babi/plentyn - to be expecting a child, to be with child cywilydd - shame bradychu - to betray gwlân - wool sodli - heel gweddi - prayer rheol - rule haearn - iron lliain - towel pyped - puppet dere ymlaen - come on, let’s go carchar - prison cyfeiriad - address gwau - to knit

Os ti isio gweld y ffilm, mae hi ar Youtube // If you want to watch the movie, it's on Youtube:

Fersiwn Gymraeg (heb isdeitlau/isdeitlau i'r Iddew-Almaeneg yn Gymraeg) / Version in Welsh (no subtitles/subtitles for the Yiddish in Welsh)

Fersiwn Saesneg (y rhan amla' yn Saesneg efo rhannau yn Gymraeg a Iddew-Almaeneg/isdeitlau i'r holl ffilm) / Version in English (mostly English with parts in Welsh and Yiddish/subtitles for the whole film)

[officialambassadorfrisk]

i'n pretty sure, if not for the efforts of all the people trying to *keep* her from falling down, she would've done so at least... thrice by now. maybe more. there were a lot of close calls. :(

Oh, of course! But that just wasn't enough for all of you, was it?

...you disgust me. Every one of you sick freaks who pushed her to her death and harmed one of the kindest people I have known in the process. I hope it was worth your damnation.

[taegularities]

hie rid ❤️❤️ how are u today? and god, has the day been super hectic for me 🥴 i guess i'n sick too argh 😭😭 what is the c&f/cmi shedule? uk, might take a sick leave and enjoy at home with these fics <3

awh hi love !! i've been living lol how are you? ahhh nooo, i'm sorry you've gotten sick !! i'd definitely take a break from work if you need it to recover 🥺 get cosy and do something you enjoy hehe

ah well, cmi is gonna take a bit... i'll hint at it once we get closer, but it isn't happening very soon is all i can say :') and c&f. my god, i've been struggling. i want to have it out this weekend, but i don't think i'll be able to, with school and social stuff etc. happening all at once :/ but i'll keep trying !! <33

[courtesanofdeath]

Hello my friend 🌹 Sorry if I bothered you but I need your support My tent burned down and my daughter is sick and we are staying in the street I don't have money to buy a tent Please help us Contribute to the joy of my children 🙏🙏 https://gofund.me/1400c60c

i'n really sorry about your situation and what's been happening at gaza. i hope you and your children get the support you need and that things get better soon.

everyone please help out if you can

[creatur3-featur3]

//vent and slight rant

I'n doing nothing with my life. I barely get out of bed and when i do i get changed, make the bed, then sit on it for the rest of the day. If i have school then i only leave the house for school. O dont leave my room and i'm so sick of it and my mom thinks I'm depressed and that i'm antisocial and she probably thinks i'm defective. I'm afraid that because i never do anything that i'm going to lose all my friends and i really will be alone forever. But i cant do anything because if i do i mess up my routine that i have only recently just perfected and it'll bother me forever if i mess it up. So yeah. Tjat.

[cheolism-archive]

katie beloved i have a quick question about the post you made. is is 2021 grad from *high school* or college or ???? because i'n a 2021 high school grad and aroace-ness aside thinking about having a baby at my age is NAUSEATING. have fun with your coups pc though <33 if you wanna share what it looks like i'd love to see it and ily (^^)/ ♡♡♡♡

- @aceofvernons

OH from high school!!!! My sibling just turned 20, so the girl is 20 too. And I’m with you. I actually have a phobia of being pregnant (it sounds weird but let me explain). The thought of having something inside of my body and being able to feel it move makes me sick? Like I refused to touch my mom’s stomach when she was pregnant w my little brother bc the thought of being able to feel something wiggling around inside of her made me actually sick. Like idc if other ppl get pregnant, it just is not. For me.

Cheol pc below:

So as u can see. Miss Kkuma is in this pc. Which raised the pc price by a LOT. But still this one was being sold for less than what I’ve seen others sell it. I saw one listed at $100….

These also just arrived ��💕💕💕

[punkjinshi]

... Okay? I thought calling out Mox szn was over

[rexcaliburechoes]

Me, at 230 am, playing an otome: you know what? fictional romance isn't that bad, so long as it's just a self insert I can distance myself from and read from am outsider's point of view...

Me, approximately three (3) hours from now, still playing the otome: romance BAD. romance GROSS. get that poison away from me. hiss.