#i'm surely not as sad as i was yesterday

[lakesparkles]

I feel more normal today :>

[phantom-of-the-501st]

Still heartbroken by the fact that Crowley doesn't leave until he sees Aziraphale go to Heaven.

He leaves the bookshop, but he doesn't leave. He waits to see if Aziraphale would change his mind. He gave him one last chance to come back. And only once Aziraphale makes the final choice to go to heaven does Crowley get in the Bentley.

Also, the fact that GO posted this as a promo image when they knew what scene this is from is evil

[dazais-guardian-angel]

With today's entry, I was rather surprised and confused that Johnathan seemed to turn around so quickly from the absolute pit of despair he was in yesterday, having newfound determination and energy when he's seemingly been completely hopeless and inactive for weeks now (and for good reason). Not that I ever thought he'd completely given up, but there's definitely been a slow decline in how descriptive his journal entries have been to reflect his declining mental state (more robotic, less of his actual feelings about things), and today was a sharp contrast; it feels more like the early entries again. I thought, well, his mind is probably just so cracked at this point that he's looped all the way back around to being bold and energetic again, because by now he's desperate enough to throw caution to the wind: he either succeeds doing something extremely reckless to escape, or he fails and meets his end in a far better way than if he just waits for his fate by Dracula's hands.

...But having thought about it and reading other posts, I realized (probably stupidly obvious as it is) that his sudden change in mood probably has to do with what happened to the baby. Despite how scared he's been all this time, yesterday he didn't hesitate for a single second to try to save the baby once he realized from the previous incident what was happening, not thinking about his own life at all. And then he despaired when he couldn't save the child, the first time he's mentioned crying in the book at all, and then he had to witness the mother blaming him for her baby's death, and being killed herself for trying to rescue it. Now, the day after that horrific and heartbreaking failure, he's suddenly more determined than he's been in ages to escape. Maybe that was a turning point for Johnathan, and lit a fire under him... maybe he's clinging to the need to escape not just for himself and the people he loves anymore, but for the vain hope that he can put a stop to Dracula's schemes somehow once he gets out, because he doesn't want to let any more children die :' )

[coldlikethestars]

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[violet-jessop]

okay i've spent the year so far (40hrs) laying in bed, staring at the ceiling, listing out the logical reasons this crush needs to die:

1) to begin with, there is a high probability that he doesn't even want to be my friend and that bestie was way too optimistic about this to begin with. i was 100% just the awkward tag along on nye that none of them will ever speak to again, and holding on to any of that joy will only increase the impending disappointment.

2) if he was interested in being so much as my friend he would have at least seen the message i sent him last sunday lol. the rung below being left on read is a pretty clear cut place to be i think. and i can't double text because that would make things weird for sure.

3) he's besties bestie and i CANNOT make anything weird for her by even admitting to a crush on him.

4) i need more queer friends in this city, especially transmascs because i'm community-less and slowly going back to full time fem out of fear, and if i make things weird i could lose my only chance at community here.

5) he very clearly fucks, and i can offer him nothing of value in that department. even with confirmed zero bodily sensation i don't really have much to offer unless he's looking for someone to smack aroun - and he doesn't seem like that kind of guy.

6) he's literally the hottest man alive and i'm somehow simultaneously the least beautiful woman AND the least handsome man? achievement unlocked.

7) not only am i physically unattractive, i'm also a pretty huge downer personality wise. whatever skerricks of joy i could offer would be dramatically outweighed by bad.

8) IF i somehow tricked him into paying attention to me it would be taking away his chance at finding a partner to match his level which would be cruel.

[strayslost]

OMG TERUKOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I'M GONNA CRY!! I WILL CRY YOU GUYS!!

[soulsxng]

Me, yesterday: *makes a big, involved dinner with like 5 or 6 different parts* Me, today: *struggles to make chicken nuggets and waffle fries*

[joyridingmp3]

end of an era

[toiletpotato]

the casting directors of The Wiz and Wicked have an opportunity to do the most thing imaginable

[jaennie]

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[poisonjaffas]

I literally hate how some days I just seem to wake up woth zero patience or tolerance for other people and I'm just awful to be around and I don't even notice half the time, I don't want to make my friends sad but that seems to happen the more time I spend with them and I don't know how to explain it in a way that doesn't just make me sound like a dick for no reason

[holyshit]

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[camcamino]

I miss freddie mercury so much

[vitunhienokivi]

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[reinemichele]

We're in your car (in your car) It's still silent (so quiet) Can you break the silence? 'Cause I don’t want it All I can hear is the sound of the radio in here (in here) This is so sad, say something please... We're not talking at all in the moving car And we just ride (na-nanana) I'm staring at my phone, you're looking out the window I'm so frustrated; we're hopeless, babe I know, you know, we both know We must break the silence (I don't understand) I know, you know, we both know But we just can't start a conversation...

[toddtheodd21]

When mootuals interact with my posts🤭🤭 (they're all reblogs)

Jk that i see you in my notifications and am happy! Hope you guys will have a good week?