#i'm sure they scarred or traumatized kids at this point

[oneluckydragon]

"Suddenly the world was gray and dull and my heart was so heavy I felt like I couldn’t move, let alone make it back to Treasure Town. But because of Echo’s last wish… I was able to keep living.”

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SORA : (Partner)

Abilities: Justified / Inner Focus

Nature: Gentle / Hardy

Moveset: Aura Sphere / Metal Claw / Poison Jab / Dragon Pulse

[delusionalbitchinthehouse]

Here I am with summoning headcanons for the first ghouls told through Chain (my beloved). I'm pretty happy about this one, actually !

"Why d'you wear it ?"

Chain blinks slowly, lazily turning their head to look at Phantom, sprawled on the worn rug next to them.

The new kid is cute, they decide, a bit of a lightweight, so they stopped smoking a while ago. His cheeks are flushed purple, big stary eyes glazed over, a sweet little smile never leaving his lips.

Chain almost forgets they were asked a question, until Phantom tugs a bit more insistantly on the heavy chain looped around their waist. They hum.

"'s a lucky charm, stickbug."

Phantom tilts his head with a confused noise, wiggling closer until he can rest his head on Chain's chest. The water ghoul runs fingers adorned with bone tattoos on the skin of the young quint's arm, raising goosebumps in their wake.

"Y'know I was the first water ghoul summoned after the mess Nihil's ghouls were, right ?"

Phantom nods, tail swaying lightly.

"Well," Chain hums, "back then, summonings were messy. And now, with how much damage Nihil's ghouls had done, the Clergy was afraid. Everytime they summoned a ghoul, they found new reasons to be afraid."

Phantom shifts, reaching up to follow the glowing stripes under Chain's jaw with the tip of his fingers.

"Like what ?"

Chain sighs, thinking back to their very first pack.

"Most of them were ancient, powerful ghouls. 'Mega was the first...I mean, you've seen him. He's big. Sure, Earth and Air are taller, but there's that thing 'bout 'Mega, y'know ? Some kind of...aura or shit. Maybe it's the quintessence, dunno. Anyway, he spooked them real good, and Alpha didn't make it better."

Phantom wrinkles his nose.

"Uh oh. Alpha's spookier than Omega."

Chain can't help snorting at that.

"He's got a shit temper and an ego the size of a planet. Fought Omega the second he slid of the altar. Got messy real quick - that's were he got the scars on his cheek and on his stomach, and 'Mega has matching ones on his thigh, burn marks on his ribs too."

With a little gasp, Phantom pushes himself up on his elbows.

"Really ? But they're....really close."

Phantom's surprise is understandable. Omega and Alpha are pratically joined at the hips now, evolving around each other with an ease speaking of intimacy. Chain hums.

"Well, yeah. Suprisingly, once Omega made Alpha eat shit, it didn't take long for them to get along. I guess they just had a rocky start."

"Understatement."

That sets Chain off, somehow, and it takes a long while before they can speak again without being interrupted by their own giggles.

"And after that, Air and Earth were summoned. You've seen them. Fucking trees, the both of them. Looming above everyone. Air traumatized the poor summoners by screeching so loudly he made some eardrums burst. And Earth, well. Spat out blood and guts everywhere - not his fault they summoned him right after a successful hunt."

Rolling on top of them, Phantom pushes his forehead against Chain's, pawing at their shoulders absent-mindedly.

"And you ?"

Closing their eyes, they can still picture it perfectly. The dim candle-lit room, the smell of incens and fear, the anxious whispers, the rough stone of the altar under their naked skin. And that familiar clinking sound.

"Well, I was the last of Primo's original ghouls to be summoned. And by that point, the Clergy was rightfully pissing their pants. So, the second I crawled out of the pit, they threatened to chain me if I showed any sign of agression. I guess they didn't expect for me to find their shiny chain really cool."

Phantom blinks at them in disblief.

"You...thought the chain looked cool."

Shrugging, Chain ruffles the quint's hair with a huff.

"Y'sound awfully judgmental. Yes, I thought it looked cool. Hopped off the altar, took it from them, sniffed it a few time and decided it was mine. Been wearing it ever since - and got my name out of it."

They stare at each other for a second before dissolving in another fit of giggles. It feels good, Chain decides, spending time with the newer ghouls, telling them stories of before they were summoned and watching their incredulous reaction.

"You," Phantom pants in between chuckles, "are the least serious ghoul I've ever met."

"Part of my charm."

Phantom laughs again, and Chain doesn't realize they're purring until the quint joins in.

[chaoticdelinqueerwithglitter]

Shinichiro, stay away from the kids!

(with love)

Okay, first of all, this is not a hating Shinichiro post. I swear it. This is just me having brain riot and thinking in how many times Shin was a questionable example for kids and teens around him and how we seem to forget about it but it's kinda hilarious when you put all of them together (except for Sanzu, that is never funny, my poor lil gremlin 😭)

I know most of this things were because he was also too young, oblivious and reckless. I know that, but it's funny to bully him with affection anyway 🙈

(and in the more serious ones, he was too dissociated and too out of everything, I know that too)

So... Here I go, random Shinichiro moments for all of you!

(big manga spoilers because it's Shinichiro)

Leaving Inupi to look out the shop.

Inupi, who looks like a cute potato here and it's deffinetly too young for it. Canon unpayed intern Inupi, yuhuuu! 💜

Him smoking around bikes all the damn time.

In his shop where Inupi was and could blow out the whole block. But also in his garage, where Draken and Mikey used to watch him fix the bikes. Shin, don't, that's dangerous! (I would say "if you wanna kill yourself do it but don't drag others with you", buuuuuut... Yeah, he did it and everyone got drag on that, so why bother to say it? 😑)

Wharever the fuck this was.

Probably just a prank, but.. Really, Shin? You ran away and left Izana there? I know, I know, you're a dumb teen, but c'mon, think for once! The whole interaction makes me laugh and want to smack Shinichiro in general, to be honest.

Oh...I think the not-so-funny ones are about to start. Here we go!

Leaving the Black Dragons to the traumatized orphan that just went out of juvie.

Yeah, that looks like a great idea, I'm sure nothing wrong will come out of this, lalalalalalala! (Shinichiro and his relationship with delinquency and his siblings should be a lot more explored because holy shit)

(Btw, not even pointing the helmets stuff, nops)

Bringing 8 y/o Mikey to gang meetings.

Like... What the fuck? I'm with Takeomi on this one, are you stupid Shinichiro? What are you thinking? Are you thinking? 😒

Love how BenWaka bully him for it too, that's why I left it here, ngl.

Isn't that just how Haruchiyo is, slashing people for Mikey?

Well, yeah, he is, but he wasn't! He shouldn't! Can't you not pretend this is not concerning for a second? Or... Not settle this mindset on Sanzu because it's gonna have big consequences? 🤦🏻

Talking about his inminent suicide with a 13 y/o.

Okay, I thought A LOT about putting this one, because obviously I'm not judging Shin at all, he was in a really dark place and when you're about to kill yourself you can't think clearly. It's just that this exchange... Breaks me. And Haruchiyo is just a kid, this is so not fair for him either 😭

(Sanos, start treating the Akashis like people with feelings that also matter for once, please)

You can still be his friend even if he scarred you for life!

Okay, Shin, I know you're a mix of biased and dissociated but... Really? Please, stop creating Sanzu, stop iiiiit! Let Haruchiyo alone, don't do this! Also... "Right now"? So you're saying he should forgive Mikey but not right now? Is that, Shincihiro? 😒

Trauma dumping to 13 y/o Haruchiyo. Shhh, keep the secret, bye!

Did I say Shinichiro created Sanzu? Yes? I'll say it again, I don't care. Again, I know he was dissociating and all, but, but... It's fine to kill people for Mikey mindset is now installed successfully on Haruchiyo's brain, yuhuuu! 😭

The amount of total disregard for Haruchiyo's mental health here is too much and should be a crime. The "keep the secret" part don't make it better. Specially, specially, when Shinichiro himself is not going to keep it, he's about to say everything to Wakasa. But Haru? Shhh, you should keep the secret, I'm sure this is not a huge burden for a teenager that suddenly have two set of memories!

(Well, not everything, he probably forgot to tell Waka about Haruchiyo remembering it, because in the final battle it didn't look like Sanzu ever talked about it with Wakasa and I wanna think they would if he knew... Look, another Sano forgetting about Sanzu, yuhu! 😑)

(Shin, with all my love, but I hate you for this one even if you gave me the best blorbo to torture on my fics that I ever had)

I'm sure you'll be able to handle it, random kid that I don't even know the name! 👀

YOU HAVE TO BE FUCKING KIDDING ME WITH THIS ONE SHINICHIRO! I wish you remembered in the final timeline because you own Takemitchy the biggest freaking apology of all your life! What the hell? Go, apologize with Michi now!

Yes, he was able to handle it and to be traumatized infinite times in the way, but that's not the point! Use you brain for once Shin, why are you giving the burden to a kid? Why? What is wrong with you? (so many things actually xD)

But, for real, this sentence is Wakui being hilarious because c'mon, poor Takemichi!

Edit: I didn't put the poorly way Shinichiro handled everything about Izana and Mikey because I consider canon doesn't give us enough info on that. Same with Emma. What happened? Why Izana never met them? I have my hc, of course, but we don't know for sure. So... I can't ramble about how badly he managed that! (Badly, for sure, I just don't know exactly how and how much)

[kingmagnificoofrosas]

I just cannot get over this one kid in the cinema who went "But he isn't evil!"

We are talking children here! Children don't really know or understand anything about ptsd and trauma (mostly, yet) they just observe! And if a KID between the age of 5 and 10 observes Magnifico and can read between the lines and conclude he isn't evil, what excuse does that leave for haters calling him one?

Now, more analysing cause you've been loving those and I enjoy doing them 🛡⚔️ (I might repeat some points but in a alightly different way)

Every single arguement I've seen haters or anti-Magnifico people make so far was either straight up stupid, ignorant, uneducated, defiant, baseless and or senseless. And then we also have the hardcore Amaya/Asha fans who just go on hating on Magnifico just "because!"

Or those who go "He's the worst villain ever." Yeah, Sherlock, maybe thats because he isn't one? 🤨 Like, seriously, you take Magnifico, compare him to aaaaall the REAL villains like Jafar, Frollo, Scar etc. And you wanna tell me he was anything like them because his trauma forced him to get himself posessed by evil trapped in an evil book and only went bonkers after he was literally posessed? And his sole motivation was to protect and keep safe at all costs ?

And then come the arguements 🫴🏼

"He's vain and narcissistic!"

Because he acknowledges the fact that he's handsome and like's to see himself in mirrors? 🤨

"He didn't grant every single wish! He shouldn't have kept them."

He didn't grant every single wish because of his trauma caused fear/paranoia and kept them for the same exact reason. However, he always meant well.

Yes, I agree that a traumatized person shouldn't be in any leading position, nor should they be in the position of making important decissions. But lets take a look at his motivations and goals again!

His motivations :

- Never have anyone suffer a fate like he did

- Never have people have to see their hopes and dreams get shattered

- Never have his past repeat

Quote - "Everything I do is to make sure that never happens again!"

His goals :

- Protect and keep people safe

- Make sure people live happy, content, free of hardships and strive

Further comparisons

All the other villains when singing - Sing openly about their evil plans, desires etc. showing they're evil!

Magnifico when bursting into song :

"promise as one does, I will protect you at all costs. Keep you safe here in my arms. I will protect you at all costs."

"If you're ever feeling like you're lost, I'll come find you. Man all fronts, there's no ocean I won't swim across to be right by you. And not just once, here and now I swear on my response. I'll remind you-"

"I let you live here for free and I don't even charge you rent. I clean up all your messes and I'm always there when you need to vent. I give and give and give and give, you'd think they'd all be content. And all I really want is just a little respect."

Back to the arguements Anti-Magnifico people make and even more comparisons ⬇️

More for the vain and narcissistic

Gaston - treats everyone like trash and thinks the whole globe spinns around him only. Doesn't care if he walks over dead bodies looking good.

Evil queen - Wants to kill her stepdaughter because she's prettier than her.

Mother gothel - Kidnaps the baby princess, locks her up because the magic hair makes her stay young and pretty, doesn't give a toot that the king and queen are suffering immense heartbreak and guilt. And to keep the princess locked in, gaslights and belittles her.

And then we have Magnifico ✨️

"I'm handsome and I know it." Likes to look at himself in the mirror and is happy and content with his looks. Hurts not one single fly with it. Doesn't put others down.

"He's power hungry!"

Why did he want to keep his power? - Because he was terrified if he would lose it, he wouldn't be able to protect anymore and his past would repeat.

"He threatened everyone and destroyed wishes!"

Again, he was posessed? Do people understand what posessed means? Amaya knew this book would control him! Not him controling the book!

In the end, I don't even care for people who disagree with me. But one thing I just don't get is : Why are some people so out to prove to us Magnifico-defenders that he's evil? Like, are these guys for real? We push forgiveness and love and the other side pushes hate, ignorance, unforgiveness and bitterness. Why does someone feel the need to spread negativity rather than positivity?

I won't stop defending Magnifico 🛡⚔️🩵

[thatgayb1tchwhosimps4her]

The Coven + Thalia's Relationship w/ Them

Not really sure how I was supposed to set this out either, but I like it.

Also, Rio's low-key made me cry, so I might not touch on this AU for a little while (I definitely will, but in case I don't, you have been warned).

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Agatha Harkness:

When they were younger, Thalia drifted more toward Rio, and Nicholas to Agatha, but once he died, and Rio had to take him to the afterlife, they immediately kind of latched onto the other, to like keep each other afloat/keep both Rio's and Nicky's memory alive (no matter how much it hurts), and grieve together.

In a way, once Agatha and Thalia like 'lost their person', they became a lot more understanding of each other, in a way (I can't really think of a way to explain this properly).

Thalia definitely had nightmares about that day, for a long time, and after a good couple weeks of Agatha going back and forth between both their rooms, she let Thalia sleep in her bed (which was also probably a comfort for her, too).

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Pretty typical mother-daughter relationship, honestly, up until Agatha finds out about the Darkhold, and essentially becomes a loyal sidekick, on her quest to power/a way to get their old life back, instead of the little girl, whoever secretly looked up to Agatha, her entire life.

Which brings us to the WandaVision and Agatha All Along chapter(s), which will be linked on the navigation page (and here) when they're done, sooo :)

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Rio Vidal/Death:

Thalia is 100% a mamí's girl, and I will die on this hill.

Literally, Thalia's been waving the "Team Rio" flag, since the day she was born; sporting the same doe-eyes her mother fell in love with, back in Salem.

When she was younger, 9 times out of 10, she would only ever settle for Rio, which confused both mother's for a long time; because how could anyone, especially somebody as innocent as a baby, find comfort in Death?

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This pretty much carried on through the first like half of her childhood.

i.e. Thalia's first word being 'mamí', instead of 'mama' like most other babies (including Nicholas).

Thalia giggling at the voices Rio does, while reading bedtime stories to her and Nicky (and low-key Agatha, as well).

Rio teaching/coaching Thalia (and Nicky) on how to use her/their powers (since Agatha would end up accidently absorbing them, and cause Rio physically cannot be that badly injured) etc.

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Then Nicky dies, and it's very much an incredibly emotional and traumatic (??) time for all of them.

Thalia instinctually goes to Rio, and because she's still young, doesn't understand why "He won't wake up", which completely tore her heart in two (no matter how black it is).

Rio then takes Thalia up to her room, to try and calm her down, while Agatha has time with Nicky, before they have to go.

She reads Thalia her favourite story 3 times over, because Thalia's cannot get enough (and also cause she has a sinking feeling she should make the most of it/I'm just making shit up about clairvoyance at this point).

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In the end, they settle on snuggling in Thalia's kid-bed, while Rio sings the lullaby version of "The Ballad of the Witches' Road" (which is a memory they both deeply treasure), over and over, until Thalia falls asleep, and Rio very hesitantly has to pull herself away from the girl, with one final kiss to Thalia's temple (just to the left of the scar over the crook of her eyebrow, from one of their many training sessions, when Thalia wacked herself with a tree-branch).

Which again, brings up to the Agatha All Along chapters, that are linked above :)

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Lilia Calderu:

Lilia's relationship with Thalia would very much be like "the grandmother she (Thalia) never had" (we hate Evanora Harkness, with burning passion, in this house).

When they first meet (in episode 2), Lilia can instantly sense the doubt (of if walking the Witches' Road will actually work), and guilt (that she's been carrying all these years, about not being able to bring back Nicky), radiating off the girl's body.

Very soon after she clocks it, is like- "Alright, that lonely little queer girl is mine; yes, she has a mother already, but I'm willing to back her up if she needs it" (she doesn't, but it's very much appreciated), you know what I mean?

But yeah, that very much radiates throughout the entire show (maybe aside from episode 5, cause there were definitely sides picked during that episode), until episode 7; RIP Queen.

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Jennifer Kale:

Thalia's relationship with Jen is very much the same as Jen's and Agatha's, like they're not really sure if they can trust each other, but it's like an amicable, back-and-forth teasing, type of relationship.

Up until episode 6 (the version of it I'm writing/Thalia's trial), where the remaining members if the cover (lowkey including Agatha + Rio), see a more vulnerable, and kind of broken, side to Thalia (more on that to come).

Then after that, it's very much like "We both lowkey hate each other, but she (works both ways) is actually pretty cool, so we're gonna keep it mellow."

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Alice Wu Gulliver (my girl <3):

Love of my life, Alice Wu Gulliver, was honestly such a breath of fresh-air for Thalia; like the older sister she never had.

'Protection witch' is the name, and protecting Thalia (and lowkey Agatha as well/RIP angel girl) is the game.

Thalia helped her (and Teen, but mostly Alice) pull Mrs Hart out of the mud at the beginning of episode 3, and basically from that point onwards, became best friends.

And then from that point on, Thalia's basically just jumping to Alice's defence a lot, after every little comment.

Especially the "Everything I touch turns to shit" (that part of the episode definitely didn't make me cry), and Thalia goes over to hug her, cause she knows what it's like to feel that way.

Almost always near each other, while walking the road + during trials, as like a "If anything happens to her (works both ways), I'll be the first one there, cause even though we've only known each other for a couple hours/days, she's still my bestie".

Bonus; Kojo is definitely Alice's best bud (it's literally fact that he's prone to face licking, when he can sense that people are upset or anxious), and was sat between her, and Thalia, during the last 10/15 minutes of episode 4, as well.

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Teen/Billy Maximoff:

Eps 1-5 their relationship is very much a brother/sisterly bond.

Like yeah, they'll take the piss out of each other a little bit, but will still kill for each other, if someone even looks at the other (Billy or Thalia) the wrong way.

Then his true identity gets revealed (at the end of Agatha's trial/just before Thalia's trial), and gets a little rocky, but ultimately they still look out for each other (I'm just guessing, as the show's not 100% out yet, iykwim).

Like it's still very much a "I knew you/a version of you, a few years ago, and you reminded me of my brother, so we're chill, just as long as you don't try to (kind of) kill my mom again, otherwise I'll slit your throat, and you best believe I'm telling the truth, cause you know/will find out who my other mom is."

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Mrs Hart/Sharon Davis:

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Last, but not least; this legend.

Near enough the same thing as Thalia and Lilia's relationship, but more like soft; like instead of witchy banter (calling Lilia kooky, and shit), it's very much like typical grandmother/granddaughter bonding.

i.e. Thalia helping Alice and Teen pull her out of the mud at the beginning of episode 3.

Explaining what being a witch is (along with the rest of the group) in episode 3, and shit like that.

She didn't really have much screen-time for me to come up with much else, so RIP Mrs Hart :(

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I'm actually obsessed right now. I haven't slept in the last 24(+1) hours, so if I'm still up, I might start planning out Thalia's trial + Backstory, since I've got some idea as to what it'll be, but it needs some tweaking.

-Harlow

[atopvisenyashill]

Killing Jaehaera off was completely unnecessary and it would've been better if she was the mother of Aegon III's kids.

I personally would have loved it he had married Jaehaera and Daenaera because I think there's room in the narrative for both girls.

I think the reason George changed it (besides getting invested in the Velaryons as he wrote out the backstory) was because he wanted some sort of commentary on the lasting legacy of the Dance - Aegon usurps his sister and kicks off a whole violent war for the throne, only for his line to end with a mad little girl, and then die off completely. Rhaenyra lets revenge color her actions during the war and adds to the death, misery, and escalation of violence all so her line can descend from her only for the history books to record that they descend from Daemon, and there’s nothing Aegon III can do to change it. In a way, despite everything, the lines of both Rhaenyra and Aegon end with them. This war that claimed the lives of their children, their lovers, their families, was completely fruitless and useless; all that's left at the end is orphans, and history books that will call Aegon and Rhaenyra both usurpers. It's very sad commentary, for sure, but I get why it was so important to George to kill Jaehaera off (to a certain extent). It's just he did it in the most George way possible lmao and it doesn't hit the way I think he intended it to.

But it could have! Which is so frustrating! He could have 100% had them both in the narrative easily - just have Daenaera be a lady of the court and a friend of Jaehaera's! Jaehaera can take in Daenaera as a lady to help smooth things over with that branch of the Velaryons (who are probably still pissed off because Alyn is a bastard and everyone in Westeros hates Baela for doing #HotGirlShit). Jaehaera is mother to Daeron, Baelor, and Daena, and kills herself/is murdered right after Daena is born. I think having a daughter of her own is an interesting trigger for her trauma - like, your husband having the same cursed name as your father who died miserable and alone, with only you for family, and then watching your husband hold your first daughter? More than enough to trigger an episode, and leave it vague as whether she threw herself onto the spikes or someone simply took advantage of her being scared and alone & pushed her.

Maiden’s Day happens and there's a lot of nerves because the last time the King got remarried, the Dance happened. Different circumstances because Aegon has two sons, to be sure, but I'm positive half the realm is thinking "what if he chooses wrong and we get another Otto Hightower." Baela and Rhaena present Aegon’s new bride, then point to the beautiful but quiet, also grieving Daenaera Velaryon, and Aegon just accepts it because he knows Daenaera won’t oppose Jaehaera’s children (they were friends, also Daenaera is now scarred by the violence of Jaehaera’s death). Daenaera is as uninterested in him as he is in her; the twins present a way for him to remarry without forcing him out of his comfort zone (which neither Aegon nor Jaehaera ever liked to be) while backing Daenaera into an offer she can’t refuse. Continuing on the use of traumatized women as pawns, the twins clawing for their own power and relevancy as the Regents, Small Council, and now even Aegon’s sons steal it away from them, a move that is as “girlboss” esque for them as it horrifying for Daenaera. This way, you still get the Blackfyres descending from Jaehaera (and the Greens), you get the Velaryons in there more, you get Maiden's Day and Daenaera.

I think this scenario - where Jaehaera is mother to Daena and the Blackfyres, and Daenaera to the two youngest girls - doesn't make a huge difference in the grand plan, BUT it does make some things more interesting. It adds a really interesting echo from Viserys I and Rhaenyra’s children to Aegon’s - how easily these bonds between half siblings can be turned sour if only their lives are just a bit different. Daena, daughter of Jaehaera, falling to the generational Targaryen curses of dying young, of accidentally kicking off a succession crisis simply because she desired sexual agency. Elaena, daughter of Daenaera, escaping these curses through her politicking, her skill, siding against the nephew she adores and helped raise to try to escape Daena and Jaehaera’s fates. Not to mention having Aegon II’s line end with his daughter, then morph into the usurping Blackfyres is a great narrative choice!

It’s all right there!! The themes!!! It all goes back and back, this family enacting continent destroying violence against each other all for the privilege of sitting on that ugly, spiky chair. But no we get Daenaera the hot six year old instead. SmFh.

[doumadono]

EMERGENCY REQUEST ( ALSO TW FOR SA MENTION I BEG YOU TO NOT READ THIS POST IF NOT IN A GOOD PLACE OF MIND AND THIS HAS HAPPENED TO YOU! )

So I'm drunk right now, to be honest. So sorry if this comes out a bit weird.

I'm realizing my family is full of r***ist apologists, they had said my first real BF couldn't be blamed for ruining my life as he has a kid, despite him serially abusing me for a year straight from ages 15-16.

Then my other ex, my second long term relationship : He was 34-35 and I was 22. So, yeah, he knew of my trauma and exploited it. Forced me to do sexual actions I was NOT okay with, and threatened me with those.

I'm realizing I was groomed and I wouldn't mind ( would really love ) if I could get a Hitoshi x AFAB reader ( they them pronouns ) who is kind of.. traumatized... before their "intimate" acts. He reassures Them that it is okay, and no matter what he still loves them.

( Points if the act doesn't continue, points if they end up tearing up and he wipes their tears, kisses their cheek and comforts them. Asking them if they truly want to continue, making them feel safe, valued and loved, etc etc )

A/N: I'm truly sorry to hear that you've had to go through such difficult experiences with your family and past relationships. It's disheartening to encounter people who don't recognize the gravity of abuse or trauma. Your experiences should never be diminished or brushed aside. Your feelings and your healing process are valid, and you deserve understanding and empathy

EMERGENCY REQS MASTERLIST

In the dimly lit room, Hitoshi Shinso could sense the palpable tension in the air as he gazed into the eyes of his partner. The shadows of their past haunted them, their trauma casting long, dark shadows across their soul. They, a person of determination, a survivor of their own battles, had never let their past dictate their future. But now, as they lay at the precipice of intimacy, those old wounds resurfaced with a vengeance.

As they began to undress, they couldn't help but feel a suffocating weight on their chest. Every touch, every intimate gesture, seemed to trigger the memories they had tried so hard to bury.

Hitoshi noticed the subtle change in their demeanor, how their breathing became shallow and their hands trembled. He placed his hands on their shoulders, his touch gentle and reassuring, and softly spoke, "Hey, I want you to know something, something I need you to truly understand. Your past doesn't define you. I'm here with you in this moment, and I love you for who you are right now. You can talk to me."

They shifted nervously, averting their gaze, and it was evident that the memories that had once tormented them were still fresh in their mind. "I know you do," they whispered, their voice quivering. "But sometimes… I can't help but feel like I'm not good enough, like I'm too broken." They covered themselves with a blanket, hiding their nakedness and the contours of their breasts from his glance.

Hitoshi cupped their face, gently guiding them to meet his eyes. "You're not broken. You're a work of art, and every scar on your soul is a brushstroke in your masterpiece. I love you for all that you are, even the parts that you may consider broken. Please, understand that."

Their eyes welled up with tears, the emotional floodgates threatening to burst open. Hitoshi wiped away a tear that had escaped, his thumb grazing their cheek ever so gently. He leaned in and planted a tender kiss on their forehead, a symbol of his unwavering love and support. "It's okay to be vulnerable, to be afraid. I have those moments every now and then. We don't have to continue if you're not ready. Your feelings are valid, and I'm here to make sure you feel safe, valued, and loved. I'll willingly wait."

They sniffled, gripping his shirt tightly as though it were an anchor in a stormy sea. "I want to," they whispered, their voice fragile. "But it's just… hard."

Hitoshi's arms wrapped around them in a protective embrace, and he held them close, his heart aching for their pain. "We can take it slow, at your pace. We can stop at any moment. I'm not going anywhere, and I'm not judging you. Your trust means everything to me."

The room was heavy with emotion, but it was a different kind of heaviness now, one born of shared vulnerability and trust. Shinso continued to hold them, allowing them to find their strength. He knew that healing took time, and he was willing to wait as long as it took.

"I love you," he whispered, his words a soothing balm for their wounded heart. "You are so incredibly strong, and I'm honored to be a part of your life." Shinso held them close to his chest, and his steady heartbeat slowly soothed the storm of emtions raging within them.

Their tears flowed freely now, and they looked up at him with a mixture of gratitude and affection. "I love you too, Shinso," they murmured, their voice filled with emotion. "Can we… Can we try some other time? I don't think I'm mentally ready just yet…"

"That's all that matters. Let's take this one step at a time."

They nodded, their trust in him deepening with each passing moment. The darkness of their past may have cast its long shadow, but in the embrace of Shinso's love, they found the strength to face it and, together, emerge into the light of a new beginning.

[sleepyistinky]

Here's a little snippet from a fic I'm working on!!

If there’s one thing Jason has promised himself, it’s that he would not end up like Bruce. 

He wouldn’t be an emotionally closed-off bastard, he wouldn’t drag kids into this fucked up family business, and he certainly wouldn’t let Joker get away with traumatizing a kid the same way Joker traumatized him and his family.

He also promised himself not to get attached to any kids, period.

So why, pray tell, is he standing here with an unconscious teenager (God, he’s so small, is he even a teenager? He looks thirteen at most) in his arms. Both of them are covered in a familiar toxic green liquid, and the corners of Jason’s vision are tinged the same color. The kid is only in some sort of high-tech super-suit, possibly even more high-tech than Jason’s helmet or the batmobile, and the kid’s gripping what Jason assumes is the kid’s mask in his hand. Not to mention the bulky ass backpack that is way too big for the kid hanging from his elbow. And god, does the kid look like Dick so much. The kid’s got these freckles covering his cheeks, his skin tanned with barely noticeable scars here and there. It’s obvious he’s not from Gotham. Metropolis, maybe. He’s also got the same shock of white stands in the front of his hair, and Jason’s willing to bet he’s also probably got some bright green eyes behind those closed eyelids as well.

If Jason begins to follow in Bruce’s footsteps when it comes to collecting kids who have the same anger (well, kinda) as him? Well, he’ll let it slide this once. He’s sure Dick will be excited to be a kinda-sorta-maybe uncle.

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Basically, just all those other Spider-Man gets sent to Gotham EXCEPT I am not planning anything out and it's going to be Tom Holland's Spide-Man, ATSV Miles, Gwen, Pav, margo, and Hobie. I'll probably have Jason punch Miguel at some point tbh

[blacklegsanjiii]

Okay but- I'm not the same asl+sanji brothers au ask but I'm thinking about this a lot

Like, is said that Sanji run away when they were in the East Blue so, what if be accident the sea makes he go to Goa? Like, Luffy and Makino finds him in the beach, hurt and with a metal thing in his head and Luffy calls Ace and Sabo, and when they see how this boy is they are horrified.

The first weeks are hard, Sanji is always scared and flinchs at everything. Until Sabo mention something about a sea creature or cooking and Sanji is, for the first time, really talking with them and not flinching much.

Some time later, during the night when Luffy is already asleep, the 3 start to talk (more Ace and Sabo since Sanji don't really talk unless 'necessary') and Sanji ends up telling them everything he went through and- both older boys are so mad.

After this, Ace and Sabo start to be more protective of him since, well- their 'little brother' suffered as hell and still is really traumatized.

In this, Sabo don't lose his memory (he still has the scar and meet Dragon, but he ask to go back to his brothers and end up saying something about 'Makino' and Dragon drops him in the place without anyone notice) but has 3 brothers hugging him while the two younger cry their eyes out.

Since Sanji is raised with these 3 feral boys who he started to call brothers, he is more feral than in canon. But I also think he wouldn't be the way he is in canon with women, in truth, probably he would fight one just like Luffy.

In Marineford, Sabo still has his memories and manage to enter and help alongside Sanji and Luffy (I hc that even if Sabo don't go with Dragon he would still be a Revolutionary bc of like, discovering about and liking it). All of them are hurt but if it's to save one of them, is worth it.

(Zosan bonus: when the strawhats first meet Ace, he is always with Luffy and Sanji, and for Zoro who already has a small crush in the cook just make him jealous)

(WCI arc bonus: when everything with the Vinsmokes hapoens, there's no way Ace and Sabo don't go to drag their brother back, because after all the Vinsmokes did to Sanji, they aren't letting him go with them – even if to save his crew)

That's a whole timeline split. Damn. Alright. For Sanji to show up on the beach with the fucking mask??? And no one knowing where he came from having someone have to pick the fucking lock to get it off would traumatise everyone around. He's skittish and jumpy and they quickly learn to tone down the violence. This twirly browed kid who mumbled his name is 'Sanji' and is so quiet even with Makino.

When they mention having to cook that's the first time Sanji starts talking with them. They managed to convince Sanji to cook for them and it's over from them on. Sanji is theirs, dammit! Sabo, Ace, and Luffy are all about protecting Sanji and Sanji is weirded by that and Luffy is fucking rubber so ya know. They're better than his blood brothers that's for sure.

And yeah one night Luffy is asleep so the elder three are talking and at some point Ace asks about the helmet and why Sanji was wearing it when he showed up. Ace has no tact and the look Sabo gives him as Sanji's eyes well with tears that freely fall as he explains he'd been in it for two years in a dungeon in his kingdom. That his father did it to him when he failed to kill him, that his blood brothers would hurt him constantly, that he was the shame of the Germa kingdom and of Vinsmoke Judge. Ace and Sabo are crying too and holding Sanji and claiming him to be their brother and they seal it when Luffy wakes up with a drink.

If Sabo keeps his memories and comes back with Dragon, Luffy's dad who all the boys tilt their heads at because what the fuck but also Sanji and Luffy are crying because Sabo's home! He's home but Sabo explains he talked to Luffy's dad and is going to join the revolutionary army but he'll visit, a lot! So much! And he does! He's there for every birthday and event and stuff. When Ace sets off they're all happy and waving.

Also basically if Sanji isn't raised by Zeff/only by Zeff he's fighting anyone and everyone. Also imagine a Sanji who's still just as good of a cook as he usually is but just as feral. Sabo gave him a bunch of cook books and normal books so like Sanji's got the book smarts for the Strawhats and Luffy's got the emotional intelligence because if they weren't together it would be chaos and truthfully it's probably best that Sanji and Luffy set off together.

In Alabasta everyone is like laughing cuz that's Luffy's brother how cool! Why is he also hanging off Sanji? And Zoro is getting insanely jealous and Sanji, the flaming bisexual that he is like, "oh I'm Luffy's other brother! There's a fourth one of us too but he's with Luffy's dad rn! No need to be so jealous, Moss!"

Marineford shows Luffy, Sabo, and Sanji showing up. Garp is staring at his three grandsons and he's with the fourth one on the execution platform. Sabo, Garp and Ace see Sanji catch his legs on fire with no fruit and it's all. And then when they save Ace and escape with the White Beard fleet.

WCI is going to be a fucking threat if Sabo, Ace, and Luffy are all descending on to Tottoland to get Sanji back. I imagine Koala and Nami are having constant heart palpitations, Brook can't cuz he's dead and he can't even bite his finger nails, cuz, ya know, he's dead.

[princess-of-the-corner]

okay I'm having. More thoughts. About that 'Enji gets isekaied into atla' thing.

So like. Random notes on things. (also I should go back and tag this but not rn)

To keep him from totally uprooting things outright, Enji actually hasn't watched ATLA. He knows some things. Like the basic premises of the show. Bending, the Avatar, the fact that the Fire Nation are the antagonists, etc. But he doesn't know any major plot points so he has to like. Discover on his own what's going on with the Fire Royals instead of just decking Ozai on sight.

Enji at least at first tries explaining that he's not a Spirit. But he's too Weird™ so everyone's like 'uh-huh sure'. Now there is /some/ debate as a few people think he's less of a pure Spirit and more like. A Fire/Sun-Spirit version of what Yue was. Someone very blessed by the Spirits and holds their Life Force even if they seem to be separate beings at the moment(I doubt Yue was the first so it may be legend as a whole). He still gets revered though because clearly the Spirits don't choose just anyone.

Timeline wise: On the bnha side this is barely post-canon!CC(so like after Canon, but haven't really had a lot of time to fix everything). In atla this happens like. Sometime after Book 2 but before the mid-season of Book 3. Aka: When Zuko is back home.

This is like. Kinda gross but it popped into my head and given the cut plotline I could see it but ANYWAY. When Ozai asks Azula to be the one to attend to 'The Spirit', Enji is getting so many red flags because last time some wealthy and powerful asshole sent his daughter to care for his whims in the hopes he'll lend favor, Enji got a wife out of it and Azula is literally a baby. (obvs he doesn't do anything weird but he's like 'wow kinda pissed that you're cool with the idea that I could do something weird')

The only people who realize that Enji isn't a Spirit are Iroh and Aang because they know Spirit Nonsense. As soon as they call him out on it, Enji's just like 'oh thank fuck someone sane!!!'

Enji accidentally calls Zuko 'Shoto' once and they ask about it and he explains that Zuko and Azula remind him of his kids, especially the Zuko=Shoto thing because they have similar scars. Zuko and Azula hesitantly ask 'what did he do to deserve that?' and Enji's like "?????? Nothing???? It wasn't- People don't deserve that what the fuck???? Especially a child doesn't??? I might not have been the /best/ father but holy shit I'd never purposefully cause a horrific and traumatic injury to a child no matter what they did????"(Zuko and Azula are suspiciously quiet and Enji doesn't like that)

[gwenllian-in-the-abbey]

What was the point in making Aegon sexually traumatised his brother Aemond ?

Honestly, I think the writers were trying to draw a parallel between Viserys & Daemon and Aegon & Aemond. If you remember there was a line early in S1, when Daemon said he and Viserys visited brothels together when they were the age Rhaenyra was when Daemon took her to the brothel. Viserys would have been the older brother (and in HotD, he's older by a fair amount), Daemon the younger, so this would likely have been initiated by Viserys. I think the show wanted to make a point about Targaryen lack of boundaries between siblings, and about how Aegon's hypersexuality started young. I think the show wanted us to recognize that it's kind of sad that the rite of passage/bonding activity Aegon chooses for his thirteen year old brother is visiting a brothel. Like, these kids grew up with pornographic paintings on the walls and with the expectation that they might marry their own sisters. They're not going to be normal about sex, and I think that's the point.

That said, at the risk of getting yelled at, I think this scene has been overblown just a wee bit in the process of woobifying Aemond. While I'm sure it was uncomfortable for Aemond to visit a brothel at that age, there's no reason to think that a prostitute would actually force sex on a thirteen year old. The sex worker will get paid either way, and I'm sure they'd be more than happy to sit there and drink tea with the kid until the time was up. If the situation had been truly traumatic, I don't think Aemond would have related it to Criston with that wry tone. Yes, he looked embarrassed/uncomfortable with the brothel madam, but who wouldn't? It's an awkward situation, and don't get me wrong, it's super inappropriate, but honestly I don't think it was meant to be some super traumatic event that scarred him for life.

[axxio-sriracha]

Angst- Drarry.

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That's it- it's the title.

For people who love to read traumatized Harry!!

And for people who don't.... well? Sorry??

Good luck <333

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Harry stood abruptly from his seat in the Great Hall.

He had managed to make it so far.

He made it through the fucking train ride. He made it through sitting in that same car he met Remus Lupin in. The same car he had met Ron and Hermione and Neville in.

He managed walking through the gates, watching as now everyone around him could see the thestrals only himself and Luna could see just last year.

He managed the sorting, the fact that there was less than twenty first year students total, each looking even more nervous than the last.

He made it through Slytherins not clapping at all, some looking as terrified as the kids who were put into their house.

He made it through the names, oh Merlin the names, the names of families he now recognized, each sending a jolt through him like lightning.

He made it through McGonagall being the one to stand up and give the speech, through her apologetic smile, scanning over the gaps in tables where students no longer sat.

Through the first half hour of conversations.

Through all of the new faces at the staff table.

Through Hermione checking in on him every few minutes.

Through Ron barely touching his food.

He made it.

But then he made the mistake of looking up.

It was an old habit, he had no idea why he even felt the need to do so now. It was a habit he picked up eight years ago, when he constantly felt the need to check whether the Slytherin was doing anything nefarious.

And there he was.

Blond hair unstyled, half hanging in front of his eyes. His face held a large scar across his cheek now, his hands shaking as they brought the goblet to his lips with difficulty. His wand sat in front of him, close by, something Harry needed to do as well.

Harry stood abruptly, shocking his friends out of their quiet reveries.

"I have to go." He mumbled to nobody in particular, stepping over the bench and making his way to the door.

He had made it so far before he snapped.

And of course it would be those haunted gray eyes that would do it for him.

"Potter." A voice called as he practically tore down the corridor, needing to get away from it all.

He froze.

That voice.

Familiar yet so, so different. Resigned but worried, a hint of fear.

Harry turned on the spot,

"Malfoy." He breathed back.

Merlin what had he done. He couldn't handle this conversation. Couldn't handle the look on Malfoy's face, the way his hands lifted up slowly to show he wasn't actively armed.

Harry knew the action meant little, both of their wands lay upright in the pocket of their robes, both prepared to draw it at moments notice, at a flicker of a shadow.

"Are you alright?" Malfoy asked carefully.

"No." Harry replied. He'd given up lying about it a long time ago. He'd been asked a million times. Nobody ever believed him anyways, they could see it, there wasn't a point in pretending.

The honesty shocked Malfoy, he reeled in surprise for a moment before composing himself, "Is there something you need right now? Something I can help you with?"

He'd heard those words a million times too. Yet somehow...

"Yes." Harry whispered, his resolve hanging by a thread.

His quick answers bubbled to the surface. I need to be alone. I'm fine. I'll be alright. No, I just need time.

None of them came out, Harry's shaking breath was the only sound to break into the tense silence.

"Okay." Malfoy continued his slow approach, his hands still out and visible, "What do you need?"

"Out." The word was a quiet plead, tearing through him before he could stop it.

He wasn't sure it made any sense to Malfoy, hell, it barely made since to himself.

Malfoy seemed to understand.

"Come on." He closed the distance and took Harry's hand, disapparating on the spot.

With a whoosh of air and a dizziness Harry wasn't sure he'd ever get used to, he found himself in a large field.

"What-" Harry started, looking around.

"It's a new safety protocol. All of the prefects were given permission to disapparate to this specific field in case of emergency. This is the only place you can do it to and from Hogwarts and it's incredibly secured."

Harry looked around, he noticed the shimmer then, high above them like a force field, protecting the area from people coming in from the outside.

"That's ridiculous they never added this before." Harry thought out loud. A safety evacuation spot only prefects and teachers can reach? It was perfect.

"It was my idea." Malfoy told him quietly, he shrugged, "Kids shouldn't be forced to either fight or wait to die. There should be a safe zone to bring them to in case something like that ever happened again."

"It's brilliant." Harry turned to look at him, realising with an odd flutter that their hands were still clasped tightly together.

He didn't let go.

Neither did Malfoy.

"Do you need to sit down?" He asked. Harry shook his head,

"No, fresh air is enough. Thank you." He whispered.

They stood in odd silence for a while, their hands held tight, their eyes focused on a random point in the distance, careful not to look at each other.

"Do you think they can see us?" Harry asked quietly. He didn't know why, he'd never wanted to talk about it before, always triggered easily by the mention of them. Draco didn't need to ask who,

"Maybe." He replied thoughtfully, looking up to the sky.

If the conversation bothered him he didn't show it. Harry was surprised he was so calm himself.

He told himself it was just the fresh air and not the steadying pressure of their laced fingers.

"I saw them all when I held the resurrection stone. Everyone I'd lost." He cleared his throat, "I know it sounds stupid but it... it seemed so real."

"It could have been real." Malfoy looked at him now, turning his gaze away from the clouds, "I don't know of anybody who's used the stone before and stuck around to talk about it, maybe you really did see them."

Harry looked up too, "Maybe." He muttered.

He wondered what his parents would think of him now, what they would see in the half life he wandered through. He wondered if they'd have still been proud had they watched the lives it took to keep his safe.

He wondered if they met the others, if Fred had told them what Harry had cost the world.

He hadn't realised he started shaking again until he felt a gentle tug at his arm, Malfoy pulled him into a tight embrace, holding him close.

He relaxed, the pressure making his heartbeat slow and his thoughts focus in on the moment.

"I'm sorry." Malfoy murmured, "I should have asked first... this is what Pansy does sometimes. It-" He hesitated, "It helps me feel like I won't fall apart. Like she's holding me together in a way."

Harry couldn't speak. He nodded numbly, letting the truth of Malfoy's words wash over him.

Malfoy was holding him together.

He didn't break the way he thought he did when they locked eyes. It was an explosion of a dam. It was release.

It was tension he wasn't allowed to acknowledge, emotions he wasn't allowed to feel. Grief he hadn't had time for and respect he shouldn't give.

Malfoy didn't have that look in his eyes, terrified of him breaking down. Malfoy looked at him like he was waiting for it, expecting it, hoping for it. And he looked like he was sure he would be there to pick him up again.

Malfoy held him together, and suddenly Harry was crying. His heart finally letting go of all the pain it carried around. His tears flowed, his hands clutched at the back of Malfoy's robes, grateful to have something secure to hold on to.

And Malfoy let him. He didn't try to reassure him, he didn't tell him to calm down. He let him cry. He let him grieve and grieve and grieve until he was empty.

And the pain was gone.

"It's gonna be okay." Malfoy told him after he'd been silent for a few minutes, "It took me a while too, to get to the point where I let myself feel. But you'll feel better soon, you just can't hold it in all the time."

Harry nodded, letting his comforting words wash over him. His strong hands and kind voice. Malfoy was there to piece him together as many times as he needed to break.

And, oddly enough, it felt right that it was him.

"Thank you." Harry whispered after the silence had stretched again.

"Don't worry about it. I'm here however many times it takes until you're alive again." He cleared his throat, leaning back a little so they met eyes,

"It's never going to be the same, Potter. That's life, that's war. We'll never be the people that we once were, so don't expect yourself to be. You're allowed to have scars now, you're allowed to be a little broken, but you can't mend anything if you won't acknowledge the cracks are even there. I won't judge you for anything that happened when we were younger, or for anything you needed to do to survive. You're here now, that's what matters." He took a deep breath and nodded, "I'm glad you're here, Potter."

Harry smiled weakly at him. The words felt so nice to hear, comforting in their sureness. It wasn't empty promises and vague advice. It was facts. He was never going to be whole again, but that was okay. He could live with okay.

He could allow himself to break, as long as he knew it was Malfoy going to be there to help him pick up the pieces.

"I'm glad you're here too, Malfoy." He whispered.

And he meant it, more than he'd ever meant anything in his life.

In this meadow, in Draco Malfoy's arms, for the first time in his life, he was at peace.

He was home.

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[stevie-petey]

Hi! I'm so happy you wanna hear my rambles!!

I'm gonna start with stancy since they kinda started this. When Nancy was first attracted to Steve it was for very superficial reasons. He's hot, rich, popular, he has a cool car and an even cooler attitude. She had been miss perfect forever and Steve was kinda like a start of a rebellion for her. But then barb goes missing and she starts to see Steve's "bad sides" his immaturity, his arrogance, selfishness, the list goes on. All of those things about Steve pushed her towards Jonathan who was the opposite. Jonathan has been the "man" of his house for a while. He's emotionally mature ( as much as a 15-17yr old can be) sensitive, compassionate, everything that Steve wasn't and things he saw as "weakness". Then Steve and Nancy broke up, and both Steve and Jonathan changed.

Then Steve changed, but not necessarily for Nancy or bug but for himself. He realized he has been an asshole and hurt someone he loved, he chose to change and be better for the people around him and himself. And bug was with him through that change, she helped him and supported him. After a couple years he had matured a lot. He's softened and he's open with his feelings. He's brave and continuously throws himself into danger to help the people he loves ( and gets his ass kicked every time). He's goofy, and fun loving, he doesn't care that people may now see him as a loser or a dork, he's happy. He's so openly loving and caring to his new family ( bug, the kids etc). Everything that attracted Nancy to Jonathan Steve now embodies. And with Jonathan having pulled away from Nancy, Nancy finds herself being pulled into Steve's new energy. She doesn't love him ( not in a romantic way at least), but he shows everything that she's missing from Jonathan. She's simply seeking what she's missing, she doesn't mean anything by it. She's confused.

And now for Jonathan and his resentment and regrets. This young man is one co-dependent mother fucker. When he was with bug he had his own dreams and his own plans. Bug had a big part in them for sure, but they were his dreams. Then he gets with Nancy and merged his dreams with hers to be with her. He "gave up" on his dream school to be with Nancy instead of following his own path. He's upset, his life isn't going how he planned, and I'm fairly certain he's depressed at this point in time. He's using the cover of wanting to be close with his family ( it's not exactly a cover, it's true he's traumatized he wants to stay close in case anything happens) as an excuse. He regrets his choice and doesn't know what to do, he's hiding away from any confrontation. Now onto jug, he regrets leaving bug and resents Steve for " taking his place". You have to remember Jonathan isn't really gonna see Steve and bug dating. He's seen them pine for each other sure, maybe a quick hug here and there, but actually dating? Steve and bug kissing, hugging, sharing knowing looks and soft touches? Everything he used to do with her? No he doesn't see any of it till he comes back from California. It makes him upset when he does because he never felt the full sting of losing bug, because he didn't fully lose her. But now she's with someone else and deeply in love.( stug4ever). With Steve, Jonathan sees it as Steve took Jonathan's place. In the kids lives, in bugs life, and Nancy even talks about how much Steve has grown. He expects Nancy to at least take his side but she doesn't. He's suffering the consequences of his own actions. He left bug for Nancy, and now bug has moved on, he hurt bug, who the kids love with all their hearts, now they prefer Steve who has proven himself, he chose to give up on his dreams and now he doesn't get what he wants. He doesn't even know what he wants anymore, all he knows is what he's lost. He wants things to go back to the way they were. He wants bug to love him, he wants the kids to love him, he wants his place in their lives back. Seeing bug seek out Steve when she's hurt, or scared, when she needs someone. It hurts him because he used to be that person. He wants his old life back before everything was sucky and awful.

Thank you for listening to me!! It means a lot, sorry this was so long. Love youuuuuu❤️❤️❤️ mwah

i love ALL of this !!! not going to say much about what youre spot on about, but i will say youre really close to a few plotpoints i have planned for season 4 <3

i also wanna just point out in general that steve and nancy were never able to just be Friends so season 4 kinda showed that awkwardness that im sooooo excited to explore

[rakubalka]

Orsi Orfai (you know Asta and Yuno father figure) is getting a complete character overhaul

Gotta be honest this started as me wanting to give him time magic to further develop Asta's and Yuno's and their brokenness at Julius betrayal , because in this au at least they associate time with home and safety .

And now while I was searching for more info for Orsi I stumbled upon and completely agree in that he is not a good father with his obvious favoritism for Yuno and almost complete disregard for Asta .

And because with me the only shit fathers there are are either the already dead ones or those who are gonna be killed by their kids for being such a gigantic combination of bad things with shit father's being one .

And seeing that I Don't want to traumatize anyone in the orphanage we are instead going to turn Orsi from shit father to great father . While using what I remember of one of if not the greatest dad in anime I myself have seen the one and only Shiro Fujimoto from Blue Exorcist (again this is from what I remember and my impression) .

And we are going to start with his back story .

For the first 20 or so years I'm not sure what I want him to be . Do I make him an assassin, delinquent , orphan raised on the street or orphan raised in an orphanage ? You know what all the above , were going with all the above .

So we're starting with him being orphaned at such a young age he doesn't even remember he had parents (and if some is wondering if his parents were nobles , they were not , he has no noble blood in at least 10 generations and even that was from a bastards child of a noble) . His years in the orphanage were some of the best in his life (until he got to be the head priest in Hage only then did those young days of his youth start to pale in comparison) which is what later on acted as his motivation to become priest , but that is for later .

While on the streets Orsi had to face the brutal reality that the world is at large uncaring for even a child , had to face the brutality people were ready to put a child under for no reason other than having no one . That was something that scared him for the rest of his life . Even now the way he looks after his children is affected by those scars , it's why he is so protective , sometimes even a little too overprotective because he doesn't want them to have to come face to face with this brutal world as he did .

He at some point got picked up by a very shady group of people (either an assassin guild or a corrupt noble who wanted a child assassin squad) . They tried brainwashing him into being their puppet and had he been of weaker mind and will he would have fallen whoever he did not , so instead he took his time training himself , having a roof over his head and food even if somewhat scarce on his table all while planing either his escape , take over or total genocide of the group all while patiently staling his time . He didn't wait all that long in a 2-3 years he had learned and gotten everything he would have of this place . And in a even if somewhat bloody sense of justice decided on genocide of the group .

With himself back on the street he wandered city to city wondering what to do with his life . It was not the worst life all things considered . And he would have continued to live like this until he met a lost child , a child to whom he helped to find his home . And the child home was the church . The church that in Orsi memories was always the best place he has been in .

And with that reminder he decided to join the church . It was not easy for him however , because that was in the church itself that his world view solidified further facing discrimination . Discrimination for his mana type at that . And it made sense why he was always treated as a spy . With the way the current politics were in Clover it only made sense and with the church's obvious distaste for the house of Kira and even the house of Silva . In an attempt to unmask Orsi as a spy the people of the church put him in Hage and to their surprise the obviously trained assassin not only didn't complain but gave them thank you letters about how happy he is there . It weirded them so hard they collectively decided to not touch him whatsoever .

And that is how Orsi got the position of head priest of Hage . Later one those same people in the main church are gonna trow sister Lily his way to keep the water element noble (who is possible a spy from the Silvas) out of their mana sense , eyes and ears .

And for those curious here is how he treats all his children going from oldest to youngest :

Sister Lily

While technically Asta and Yuno were with him first in his eyes she is his oldest child

She was actually elated by the adoption as her own parents were nowhere as supportive of her own likes and dreams while Orsi is the perfect mix of supportive and realistic

Took on the role of eldest pretty well and absolutely adores her now family

Even starts to proudly introduce herself as Lily Orfai

Asta and Yuno

Is extremely protective of both of the twins for different reasons but still very protective

Tries to sweet talk them out of the Magic Knight not because of status or magic but because it's a dangerous job and he wants his sons to be alive and happy

As stated before he is extremely protective of them both and while most of the time it's played for fun in this au it's a very real and VALID protectivness on his part

One of the examples of his protectivness being valid is actually the first chapter/episode in which the chain dude isn't only after just the 4 leaf grimoire , he also plans to sell Yuno as a breeding tool or just a boy toy to some rich noble and Asta to either a cult or to a mad doctor or maybe even to some sick noble who is going to take enjoyment out of torturing Asta for the "sin" of being born with no mana on his own (the only reason the chain bastard didn't end up dead and drowned in his own blood or other body fluid is because the authority got to him before Orsi)

Orsi protectiveness actually comes in multiple forms on of which is finding jobs his kids are good at that can feed them

He is actually the person who made the arrangements to make it possible for Yuno to learn how to be a shepard and for Asta to learn how to hunt and how to be a doctor

And to this day he is proud of them both , but to be honest he is proud of all his children

Also one of his top best 5 moments of his life was when Asta became a full fledged and recognizes doctor at the age of 12 because when Asta gives it his all he can move mountains if he so pleased

Noelle and Libei

Any sibling of his children are also his children

Orsi became one of their father figures and are just happy to be included and recognized as Asta's and Yuno's siblings by their father

Rekka

He is trying to make her quit being a magic knight just like her brothers

Her colleagues in the Blue Mantis were even thinking her father was a not really good father because he was trying to make her quit

That was of course before they learn that no he does the same for her brothers and if anything it's even worse on them because they get into more problems than her

Then they learn who brothers are and agreed with her

Nash

Orsi lost his shit once again when Nash also became a Magic Knight

At least he has two of his friends to have his back so it's not the absut worst but he just wants his children safe and happy is it too mush to ask

Arlu and Horo

At the moment (aka 5 years after the start of canon) he is trying to make sure they don't end up as a magic knight because his heart wouldn't be able to handle it

[mot-hesbian]

Can we finally talk about how Lorelai was emotionally and verbally abused, as well as emotionally neglected by her parents yet? Or are we just gonna keep on saying that she's overreacting and exaggerating how bad they are because she's a brat or whatever it is y'all call her?

Like, there are moments in the show where you can actually see them doing exactly that. A lot of Lorelai's behavior is in line with that of someone who was abused and neglected in that way as a child.

Stop saying they just "weren't great at expressing themselves," or that "she's ungrateful for everything they did for her," or some bullshit about her "overreacting" every time they do something for her whenever they finally start getting to a good place.

Most times that she "overreacts" is when they cross a boundary that she had previously established was there. Setting boundaries is an important part of any relationship and they rarely, if ever, respect them. Needing to put distance between them is a perfectly acceptable thing to need when someone constantly crosses lines.

I can't believe I have to say this in 2022, but just because they never hit her or deprived her of her physical needs doesn't mean she wasn't abused or neglected. Emotional and verbal abuse are still abuse, they still leave deep scars. Emotional neglect is still traumatizing to children and teens, it also leaves marks.

I think the worst part is that we openly acknowledge Jess's neglect and the similarities between the two of them personality and humor wise, but we never acknowledge the reasons why. In fact, people actually go out of their way to exaggerate Jess's abuse and then treat it like it's cannon and anyone who disagrees is an abuse apologist. There is no evidence in the show that he was ever physically or s*xually abused at any point.

However, both he and Lorelai are heavily implied to have been through emotional neglect (even physical neglect in Jess's case), as well as emotional abuse. I'm not sure if Jess was ever verbally abused by Liz, but I wouldn't be shocked if one of the many boyfriends/husbands she's had did due to how he talks about them.

You know what the difference is? Lorelai grew up rich and never wanted for anything food, shelter, and education wise, and Jess was poor. Also, he's a guy who everyone finds really attractive so woobifying him was naturally gonna happen at some point.

I'm not going to get into Lorelai's arrested development due to having Rory at a young age but it certainly explains a lot, and why she would feel uncomfortable seeing Rory hang out with a kid who acts out very similarly to how she did at his age.

Case in point, stop acting like Lorelai is the one in the wrong for having the relationship she does with her parents.

[jacky-rubou]

Any commentary to share on "He Signs I Love You"? That story got me right in the heart </3

sure i do!

i find giving my favorite characters disabilities they don't have in canon to be fascinating to think about, one of the reasons I had the idea for that fic in the first place.

At first, I wondered about having Ford become paralyzed after Crampelter knocked him around too hard when he was a kid, but having it be Stan during the Portal fight felt better plot wise. also didn't know how I'd work it out if he was paralyzed that early.

There was a point where I debated making Ford's traumatic brain injury be bad enough to give him semi-permanent amnesia they'd have to work through, but I wanted him to know most of what was going on so i just didn't go through with that.

I believe I made Ford mute and not able to write well enough to be legible anymore because I wanted it to be a little more difficult for him to tell Stan about Bill. Also because I couldn't leave the idea of Ford using sign language with his six fingers and everything. I thought the idea was neat.

I did kinda want to make Ford feel a bit more angry about what Stan did to him (on accident, but y'know), but i think i was a hair too worried about accidentally coming off as ableist to go through with it properly. also i was having a hard time making Ford as angry as he should be because i'm so biased when it comes to him. if i were to rewrite it, i would probably make the process for Ford reconciling with Stan take a little bit more time. i'm trying to do better with this in my Blind!Ford au haha.

there was so much I researched for this fic, it's crazy. I wanted to be as true to the experience of being disabled in the way I made Ford disabled as an able-bodied person as myself could possibly write. I may have fallen short in some aspects, but I swear I was trying. I hope the research shined through in my writing.

a scene I wanted to do but ended up not doing was Ford trying to wash himself in the bath but worrying Stan enough for him to try helping. But it felt awkward by the time I would've gotten to that so I ditched it.

When the kids come to town, I wanted them to find out how Ford got paralyzed by finding the basement and seeing a bit of dried blood where Ford had been injured on the controls and asking Ford about it. But I was too writing exhausted at that point to even try it, plus I didn't think it would fit. In the au canonically, I think they just spotted scarring on the back of his neck and head and asked about it that way.

Having Ford pass away at the end was not part of the plan. I was initially just gonna give him a regular boring happy ever after ending, but it felt a little unfulfilling somehow. I had the idea to end it like this because I remembered something about paralysis weakening the immune system and potentially shortening the life span of those with the disability. Also the angst was too perfect to ignore. And I think it worked out pretty well. I feel it works just fine in this au.

that's pretty much the basics of what I want to say commentary wise. if there's anything specific about this au or another fic you want the director's commentary that you're curious about, feel free to send in another ask about it. thank you for the ask and hope you like my commentary here.