#i'm so sorry i'm like this

[cinamun]

[acaciapines]

I am completely willing to hear a rant on why the ending of amber spyglass fucked over Lyra and pan. I always thought it was off, but I don’t know why to be honest

dfklghgh so the honest answer is. its been years since ive read hdm. im sure if i reread them now i might have Thoughts and Feelings but i cant give a rant about things i read years ago and only half-remember.

but!! in my long daemonfic trends post i talk about my issues with lyra and pan in hdm!!! and that was made after i'd recently read the books, so the information is actually up to date and i still stand by what i said there! i also have the tag 'daetalk' which might have more posts about them in there, but i truly do not remember.

the long and short of it from what i remember is simply that hdm and i have very different thoughts on daemons and how important they are to both society and their respective other half. hdm is more interested in the relationship between lyra and will than lyra and pan and due to that pan ends up sidelined by the end of it. (also kirjava. oh my god kirjava). hdm might be where daemons are from but i have taken them and ran and i will fistfight pullman in a parking lot over this.

[a-memory-a-distant-echo]

for the WIP game: hands

ok so. it turns out that i have a number of wips, including [mumble] that are just sitting open in tabs like i'm some kind of savage? i have more open tabs right now than i almost ever do, and it's 100% because there are so many tabs of fic drafts open. 💀

anyhow, i searched all of them trying to find a Good Line, but did not, really, so here, have the list of the first instance in each file in which it appears:

He rubs his hands against his palms, willing himself to forget what it was like to have his hand against Fang Duobing's throat, pressed into the fine fabric of his robes.

Li Lianhua watches him for long moments, his own hands held tightly against his sides, though it does nothing to ward off the echo of the once-familiar warmth.

He closes his eyes and gropes blindly for the bed, barking his shin on it before he sits, burying his head in this hands.

It makes her restless and reckless both; she flexes her hand against her thigh, thinking about stroking his face.

He pushes one of them back with shaking hands, unable to look at it and unwilling to put it away, certain that if he picks it up, one of them—him or the cup—will shatter.

[blakbonnet]

too many promos and stuff suddenly 🤡 what's going on...

[for-a-home-that-once-was]

I'm a disappointment. With everything. Disappointment as a child, disappointment as a person, disappointment as a friend, disappointment as everything and anything

[sweetlikehoneystingslikeabee]

Me: okay I should be writing or making more flashcards-

.....A SMALL BREAK WOULDN'T HURT.

[rancidarling]

god isn't it the absolute worst, when you have an undying thirst for attention, and there are people around who would give it if you simply asked,

but my brain simply must reject everything I ask for because it's clearly "fake and undeserved"

[podcastwizard]

this will not be a bridgerton blog but for the foreseeable future i will not be thinking about anything other than bridgerton

(original post @romanceyourdemons)

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

I am incredibly serious right now when I beg you all, please, and if you have Twitter or Tiktok or whatever to please spread the word: click on an author's profile on Ao3.

You want to know if an author has written more? Want to know if they're still writing? Want to see more from them? Want to know if they've written a trope or kink or sex scenario you enjoy?

Click on their name. And look at their profile.

I cannot tell you how many times in the last six months someone has read a new or newer fic of mine and said they (a new reader who has read nothing else I've done) "can't wait to see what you do next!" I've written 50+ fics and over a million words already.

"I don't know if you're still writing..." click on my profile. I am. I literally wrote a 128k+ fic for that ship last month.

"Would you ever do X?" "Please do Y!" I already did. Click on my name and look at my works.

Archive of our Own is a library. It's an archive. Not social media. It is your responsibility to fight back against the laziness that corporate algorithms have trained into you.

Click my author name. Just click it. Just click it.

Before you demand more, or ask if a writer will do XYZ, or wonder if the author still writing, or anything - click on their profile. Click on the author's profile.

I'm not trying to be mean or condescending or anything like that. I'm just exhausted. It's disheartening and frustrating to repeat myself ad nauseam, because someone couldn't take thirty seconds to do the tiniest bit of work to see if I've written lately, if I've written more for their ship, or scan my works to see if I've written what they're asking for. Please. Please. I'm begging.

Click the author's name, and explore before you ask.

[callonpeevesie]

I'm onto something I'm telling you

[gongyussy]

studio trigger understood the assignment. i would let her wreck me.

[thatwavephenomenon]

me: i sure hope the crows are not gonna be solely depicted in veilguard as a brave force who 'fight for all' when they are at their core a criminal organization who is known to buy children to indoctrinate them and turn them into assassins, by putting them in overcrowded warehouses and making them fight for scrapes in order not to starve, to later torture those who reach adulthood to finish their initiations and kill them anyways if they dare to try getting out

bioware: i cooka da pizza

[spirk-trek]

Unification (2024)

[taimanzano]

One of one. One, alone, one.

[galactic-drops]

Hello there, I just read your fic Heart, Mind & Soul and quite enjoyed it. Is it alright to ask what the status of the fic is currently?

Anon, I'm so sorry you sent this months ago, and I meant to answer it I had a whole post drafted, and then I said, "I'll spell-check it after class!"

I did not do that. I forgot I didn't post it.

Which is fine my answer has sort of changed anyway!

The fic is being written as we speak! I have decided though I might not post new chapters until I have most of them finished. I think I get too in my head about posting each chapter regularly that I burn out and don't wanna write more.

But It's going! Slowly but going all the same! I wish I could give you a date to expect it, but I honestly have no clue when I'll finish. I will try to post little updates here and there (If I remember heh...), and I plan on posting some character questions I filled out to regain inspiration tomorrow!

Thank you for your patience, and I'm so sorry for taking so long to write and answer your ask

[ilions-end]

i've noticed just how often achilles' dragging of hector's corpse is framed mostly as an act of extreme disrespect, or only some brutal show of triumph. personally i think that's underselling both achilles' intention and what the trojans must be thinking as they watch it happen.

hector's corpse is divinely protected so it can't be damaged by the greeks after death; all that effectively happens in the iliad is that his body gets dirty. but under normal circumstances (and i'm not gonna impose realism on mythology, but the iliad is famously detailed when it comes to bodily trauma), the physical reality of dragging a corpse along stony ground for miles would be severe disfigurement and dismemberment. first the skin would wear off, then soft tissues, then extremities would start to detach. i think the iliad's original audience would be aware of that as an intended outcome.

achilles (who doesn't yet know that hector's body has been granted divine stasis) doesn't just want to parade his enemy's corpse around, he wants to tear it apart ("i only wish that this fury inside my heart would drive me to carve you to pieces and eat your flesh raw..."), he wants it to not resemble a human anymore. he wants hector's blood and flesh to circle the city of troy. he wants to make it impossible for hector's family to gather the pieces of him to cremate and that way hector's spirit won't find passage into the underworld. that's what the gods are preventing from happening, they're not just keeping the corpse pretty for priam to pick up later.