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BILL SKARSGÅRD as Mateo in Soulmates (2020) - S01E04: Layover
#bill skarsgård#bskarsgardedit#billskarsgardedit#gif#dilfgifs#tvedit#tvgifs#dailyflicks#userstream#filmtvcentral#userchristineb#dailycelebs#userbbelcher#usersavana#usermattz#underbetelgeuse#gaybuckybarnes#dailymenedit#flawlessgentlemen#mancandykings#userpedro#userbrittany#userpayton#soulmates#i'm so not normal about this ffs#i had a dream i was in sweden with him and his family; i woke up feeling lonely
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JOSHUA ROSFIELD + DETAILS
#ffgraphics#ffgifs#ffedit#final fantasy xvi#joshua rosfield#gamingedit#videogameedit#dailygaming#final fantasy#xvi#my edit#ffxvi#ff16#final fantasy 16#ff#ffxvi spoilers#i'm so normal about him 😂❤
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just having a normal one thinking about how badly Armand wants to be loved but every time he gets close to it, he self sabotages and ruins it. almost as if. he subconsciously doesn't think he deserves it.
#I'm fine I'm good I'm so normal about him#he does it with EVERY romantic relationship we see him have it's insane#first with lestat and their whole Thing. especially the nicki stuff we haven't seen yet.#then louis. like he lets himself have it and then realizes it's possible for it to work and IMMEDIATELY blows it#by you know. trying to kill him. actually succeeding in killing his daughter.#making sure there's no possible way louis will ever forgive him even as he plots and manipulates to underplay his role in it#they loved each other but armand made sure it would never be in the way he craved the most and then punished himself for it#by strong manning the relationship together with hot glue and stickers even if it was hurting them both#AND THEN with daniel too ffs#DOUBLE of it with daniel if past-devil minion happened too fuck#turning him and then leaving him bc daniel SEES him for who he is and he's not afraid (I mean he is but YOU GET WHAT I MEAN)#possibly erasing his memories of him from the 70's & 80's as both a fucked up attempt to keep daniel alive#(which tbf it works but is STILL a fucked up thing to do)#and to get himself out of a situation in which someone finally started to love him unconditionally the way he wants so badly#but he can't let himself have that can he#I AM SO NORMAL ABOUT THE VAMPIRE ARMAND GUYS#I might be wrong idk I have yet to rewatch s2 but#BUT IT HURTS ANYWAY DONT IT#iwtv#armand#iwtv amc#the vampire armand#interview with the vampire#iwtv s2#armandposting#robin going insane about armand again#iwtv armand
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I'm still fondly thinking about the fact there are so many fuckin' FF6 like references in UT and DR, like oughh ofc only two are prob confirmed and the rest are coincidences BUT IT'S STILL DRIVING ME NUTS I need to yAPPPPP Opera scene is one of the confirmed ofc, and the coloured maze puzzle dungeon part of the play's OST just HAS to be a play on the Finale of the opera from FF6 (it HAS to beeeee WAA the opera scene is around the start of the FF6 opera and the Finale is... well, the Finale part, it works to well CRYINGG)
Onto coincidences I think.... Ralse was the original inspiration for Ralsei... and I know he was named after Toby's brothers' character Ralse but... Ralse is a character in the SAME FUCKIN' FF6 OPERA SCENE. He's called Prince Ralse aswell LMFAO
There is also an Ebots Rock in FF6 which made me think of Mt. Ebott AAAAND can you guess what chaotic jester also laughs during his boss fight
I'm-- i'M SORRY Toby do you like... FF6 by any chance
#I'm just#normal very normal about these#I swear#ALSO if the angel is involved in a fight like... a final boss fight... thats a very FF thing to do toby... (kefka and sephiroth i'm looking#at you)#ofc I'm just#looking too deep into this LMAO but it's so fun#and it fuels my sillay FF hyperfixation#please bear with me LMAO#but guys just imagine a final boss of Deltarune with Dancing Mad levels of insane music and boss fight!!!!!!!#I'M SO NORMAL ABOUT THIS#random thought...#also if I have said something like this before......#meh I forgot#I AM STILL THINKING ABOUT IT AND MUST TALK ABOUT IT MOREEEEEEEEE
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I've always been fascinated by fandom history, and I know I'm not the only one. It's interesting to see how fans of pop culture can create a culture of their own, and in the modern age of social media and the internet in general, that culture is as widespread as ever. Unfortunately, that also means downsides are becoming bigger as this culture becomes widespread, and it's saddening to watch, maybe even concerning.
I don't discuss these things to be preachy, especially considering how I've fallen into several of these pitfalls before, and have perpetuated some of this behavior in the past. To say otherwise would make me a hypocrite and a liar, and I firmly believe this goes for most people in any fandom. I was just thinking about this recently, and how a lot of the biggest stressors in what should be our stress relief really can be pinned mostly into a few central talking points, which I would love to discuss to know if I'm not just going crazy here
The concept of Big Name Fan has evolved into a position of authority on fandom, which does not fall to anyone regarding subjectivity. No one in a fandom is an authority except the creators themselves, who have every right to stay away from the fandoms they have birthed.
Popularity in general being conflated to intellectual authority as well, especially on websites with public stats, particularly following counts. The algorithm is no benevolent god, but people will sometimes see someone with 30k followers and think they are correct on a minor non-issue that has spiraled into discourse, especially when compared to someone with 30 followers. This also is just...a bummer when fanon evolves into perceived canon, and newcomers to the fandom can't post even innocuous meta or headcanons without it being perceived as morally/intellectually incorrect.
Monetization of fanworks, but especially zines, have led to a hypercompetitive atmosphere that only escalates the bitterness and resentment. This is not a universal problem, but many zines across all fandoms habitually accept the same artists and writers, or diminish the value of fanfic due to the limitations of physical printing. The application process has devolved into such a disheartening debacle for a majority of people I see, and the way it is often framed as "your work just wasn't good enough" when it's really about what the mods deem mass marketable will destroy just about anyone's self-esteem after repetitive rejections, and will give some frequent zine runners a false sense of final say over the community (not usually, but it can happen).
The level of distrust for anyone new attempting to start a fan project is just so depressing nowadays (and this one we sadly can blame on a few people by name, but the ones who have sent this issue spiraling still don't care and that just sucks. I feel horrible for everyone who has been tricked).
Somehow comment and anonymous asks have gone backwards from "don't feed the trolls" to "suck it up, at least you're getting comments." I have seen some of these comments people have been told to suck up. It's not okay in general. It's particularly gross when it's an anonymous hate message unrelated to the fanworks themselves, perhaps born out of resentment or bearing an ulterior motive. And some will even attack and defame character due to identity. It's not subtle. It's not okay. People should absolutely be dunked on for this, and I gotta say I'm sick of unsolicited concrit being enforced as positive either. If they didn't ask, don't give it. There's a reason a lot of fic writers some people adore suddenly go ghost, and they can't even talk about it.
Don't like, don't read has been discarded in favor of don't like, tell others don't read and also don't write. Transformative works don't have to fit into a canon or even in character mold. That's why they're transformative! It's a different type of artistic expression. If you don't like it, chances are good it simply wasn't meant for you. It's not bad. Don't shame others, god especially not for non-issues such as a t/b preference or a different gender hc, preferred haircuts, types of animal you imagine them as in another lifetime, I could list literally anything here and I bet there has been a fandom fight over it.
Exclusive yet publicly advertised community Discords that will bar you from invite if you're not one of the cool kids. I have unfortunately fallen into this trap before, and refuse to ever enable or endorse that behavior ever again. This isn't about friend groups either, it's about fandom-dedicated servers that flaunt themselves as a VIP club instead of what they are: a friend group. I also don't even know how to broach the subject of private accounts that turn into fandom tea accounts with dozens if not hundreds of followers, only for people to be angry if someone isn't exactly okay with horrific stuff being said in general, let alone about their mutuals or friends.
I know none of this will likely ever change, and tbh i'm so tired of it all, but...does anyone else know what I mean? I'm stressed out whenever I try to enjoy myself, because popularity and a strange business mindset is steadily taking over fandom spaces. I'm not saying people should stop trying to make stuff that sells, or that people universally do any of this, but fandom is evolving into a thing I'm not sure is good. idk anymore
#parker says things#the last point stresses me out particularly after a HUGE mess during the 2010s#in which an ex mutual deepfaked a twt for someone they hated to try and tell others they were being made fun of#and then it went wrong anyways but god#i keep seeing these patterns over and over and somehow they keep getting worse!#Why has being mean become so normal? and popular? Actually it's more like#why has being mean but ESPECIALLY IN PUBLIC become acceptable?#if you couldn't say it to someone at a con without getting backlash don't say it here#I may not like those discords but at least the tiniest ones with 3-5 like minded people won't poison a community#and unfortunately I worry about fandom community! It's stagnating or becoming toxic but publicly now#people have always been like this but now it's becoming...okay to bash others again. I hate it. Don't be like FF dot net comment sections :#i lost my train of thought partially bc I wrote half of this and had to pause but#idk it's just frustrating! And I'm actually not okay with it! I've dealt with my own stuff but my friends and even people I don't know-#have dealt with a million times worse#I wouldn't wish this crap even upon people i don't like!! what is wrong with some people
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One Rawking Ghoul :D
This one’s for Tumblr Ghoul (@thebandghostofficial) - thank you for rawking so much! 💜
I had a bit of an art block after my last digital drawing and I am still stuck drawing left-handed for a little while longer, but Fanart Friday gave me a good reason to draw something fun and to say thanks, as well ^^
#FroqueYourself#PhantomimeUnholyVestments#Fanart Friday#ghost#the band ghost#ghost the band#nameless ghouls#tumblr ghoul#art#fan art#ghost fanart#my art#my posts#digital art#i tend to check tumblr in the morning before work and seeing the latest Rawking tour update or Fanart Friday reblogs always makes me smile#so - thank you :)#meant to finish this for the FF before the last but i'm a bit slow left-handed (also the heat's tiring)#anyway hand surgery's scheduled for next thursday and i should be able to use my right hand normally again soon after#i can't wait tbh it's been a long half year#side note: the coloring reminds me a lot of my first digital drawings about a decade ago :')#kinda sweet#learned a lot since and here we are#2023#24.6.2023
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you have to understand that i have never seen a single episode of this show. i saw his design and read his wiki page and got a little obsessed.
#Ohsama Sentai King-Ohger#glodi leucodium#they put him in lipstick ffs how was i meant to be normal about that.#i've not seen how the bottom half of the outfit looks but he seems like a guy who'd go for stilettos to me. so. mm.#he jsut seems so funny.... thinking death has rejected him?? hating noises of living things??? iconic bitch behaviour....#i think it Also needs to be stated that i am a fan of his actor. i think he's very pretty. him in pretty outfit too?? i'm very Normal :)
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having my WoL meet both Clive and Noctis is one of my favorite moments of all time while playing XIV
#i know not every ff14 player plays the other ff games but as someone who adores both clive and noctis#it was such a pleasure to have my own character journey with them even for a little bit#makes me happy like YoshiP saying our WoLs can stand shoulder to shoulders with the other protags makes me smile :)#i'm sad the Lightning Event is retired BECAUSE she would be the person i would want Sentra to meet the most she's one of my fav ff protags#also hehe oc/canon shipping is fun#ALAS i can't gpose with Lightning#i totally HC that my Wol did the event though cause im so normal about it#final fantasy 14#final fantasy xiv#ffxiv#ffxiv wol#oc: sentra tannk#noctis lucis caelum#clive rosfield
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Goran Višnjić as Nikola Tesla in Doctor Who 12.4, Nikola Tesla's Night of Terror.
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[1] A still from an episode of Doctor Who, showing Goran as Nikola Tesla in front of Niagara Falls with an audience of men in suits and top hats, only their backs shown to us. Nikola is gesturing towards the waterfall as he speaks. He's a tall, slim man of about fifty in an old-fashioned suit with a tailcoat, pinstriped trousers, a waistcoat and watch-chain. He has a moustache, and brown hair parted in the middle, a few inches long and styled neatly with a bit of a wave.
[2] Goran as Nikola Tesla gesturing towards a device I don't understand well enough to even describe except that it's two corrugated metal cylinders and electricity is arcing between them, blue and dramatic, while he gestures like a magician. His other hand is on a lever, his face obscured by a starburst of blue light.
[3] A close-up of Goran as Nikola Tesla with a lightbulb in the foreground gleaming with warm light. He's looking off-screen and smiling slightly, eyes large and grey-blue, eyebrows raised, creases in his forehead and around his mouth. He's wearing a butterscotch-yellow tie with a wing or tuxedo shirt collar.
[4] A side-on view of Goran as Nikola Tesla bent over a workbench doing something with a tool we only see as a faint gleam of metal. He's bent almost double, intent on his work, a curl of hair falling down above his forehead, his coat gone and his shirt sleeves rucked up to the elbow so that his arms are bare and evidently hairy. The scene's dark, lit only by a candle lamp.
[5] A view of Goran as Nikola Tesla looking at a figure mostly out of view, visible to us only as blonde hair at the side of the screen. Nikola's eyes are a little wide, his mouth slightly open, making him look bewildered, and perhaps wary - I thought of it as his "okay, either you or this situation is bonkers" face. His thumb is just visible at the bottom of the screen, suggesting he's gesturing or fidgeting with his hands.
[6] A view of Goran in a crowded street, no coat, standing almost a head taller than everyone else and gesturing with one hand in a way that signals frustration or defensiveness, his eyes closed, mouth open as he speaks. A few bowler hats are visible around him, and a few of Nikola's companions - Dorothy, a serious-faced woman of thirty or so with tightly curly hair and smart clothing; the Doctor, currently a woman with straight blonde hair looking curiously past Dorothy; and just a glimpse of Yasmin in the background in a flat blue hat.
[7] A side-on view of Jodie Whittaker as the Doctor and Goran as Nikola both paying rapt attention to a glowing green mechanical-looking ball in a dish, with the Doctor pointing her sonic screwdriver at it and Nikola bending down to watch at the opposite side of the desk, hands folded together as if he's fidgeting, intent on her work. The Doctor's in a long light grey coat with a hood, incongruous for the era, and it's clear she'd be a lot shorter than him if he weren't currently courting back pain.
[8] The same scene as before, minutes later - the Doctor only visible as blonde hair in the foreground, Nikola's face transformed like he's realised something wonderful, eyes on the Doctor and leaning forward slightly, or still leaning on the desk. His mouth is open as he talks, his eyes bright, skin creasing faintly at the corners with a real smile.
[9] The same scene as before, seconds later. Goran as Nikola is looking to the side, no longer smiling but serious and thoughtful.
[10] The same scene as before, seconds later. Nikola is looking back at the Doctor and raising his eyebrows in a question at something she said, his forehead creasing, his expression perhaps a little doubtful.
[11] A close-up of Goran as Nikola in a room with warmer and dimmer lighting, his hair coming loose a bit as short curls on his forehead, frowning as he talks to someone off-screen. The angle exaggerates his nose, emphasises the lines around his mouth.
[12] A different view of the scene, zoomed out. Nikola is bent over a worktable beside Yasmin, a young woman with curled hair and a smart navy-blue jacket, and they're looking at each other as though discussing a problem, Nikola folding or rubbing his hands together. The desk of a mess of wires and oddments, lit bulbs in metal cages and what might be the odd green ball from earlier.
[13] Nikola and Yasmin in a very different location, dimly lit, with strange red lights in the background and a green light over their faces. (They're on an alien spaceship.) Yasmin is looking down at the floor like she's stunned, mouth open, and Nikola is holding her arm like he's just pulled her back, but his eyes are on something or someone else we can't see. His eyes are wide, his expression startled and openly afraid.
[14] Nikola and Yasmin still on the spaceship, blurry machinery behind them, but Nikola is almost level with Yasmin now and they're standing close, both looking at a third party off-screen. Yasmin's expression is one of distaste and a little anger, and Nikola's eyebrows are drawn down, expression somewhere between bewildered and worried.
[15] A different scene, different lighting - deep blue in the background, warm light on Nikola's face. It's an odd angle, his head ducked as though looking at something, his expression serious.
[16] A different scene, perhaps daytime with electric lighting, Nikola in conversation with someone off-screen who's clearly shorter than him. His hair's a little disarrayed, eyebrows raised and forehead creased, but there's something of a smile to his eyes and his mouth that gentles it.
[17] The same scene, seconds later, slightly zoomed in. Nikola's eyebrows are lower, forehead still creased and eyes a little scrunched, like he doesn't understand yet what the other person means. There's something tender about it still.
[18] A different room, darker, Nikola grinning while the Doctor is mostly off-screen, just a little of her hair visible, except she's raising a hand for a high-five that he isn't reciprocating. Creases are splayed out from his eyes, deep ones around his mouth, his nose sharp from this angle.
[19] A different view of the high-five moment, focusing on the Doctor as she realises he doesn't know to reciprocate - the high-five wasn't invented yet - and starts to lower her hand. Her mouth is wide open, teeth showing, somewhere between a grin and talking, and her body language is open exuberance. The creases around Nikola's eyes are still very visible from this angle, though most of his face isn't.
[20] A view of Goran as Nikola with his eyes closed as if he's blocking something out, and a look of forbearance and faint frustration on his face.
[21] A side-on view of Goran as Nikola, a shorter man in the background and the TARDIS behind them both, its windows glowing white. Nikola's expression is determined and a little grim, more hair curling messily against his forehead.
[22] A view of Goran as Nikola outside, trees in the background, a blurry blue-white sky and what might be yellowish grass. He's wearing old-fashioned aviator goggles on his forehead, where they're pushing his hair up so it's even messier, and he's looking down at something with a troubled expression.
[23] A view of the Doctor and Goran as Nikola in the TARDIS, the scene awash in electric blue and peach-pink, and no other lighting. The Doctor's leant over the TARDIS controls doing something there and looking back at Nikola, who has picked up some sort of contraption and is looking down at it, expression either troubled or focused. The light on his face is blue, throwing his features into sharp and unflattering relief.
[24] A view of Goran as Nikola in the TARDIS still, the lighting blue, the angle of his shoulders suggesting his hands are on his hips, and his expression now one of open joy. His eyes are large, his mouth open and smiling slightly, soft creases on either side.
[25] A view of Goran as Nikola on the street, looking with his head tilted at someone in the foreground - barely visible, except for the bowler hat. Nikola's expression is tolerant, a restrained smile with narrow eyes, and his hands are probably clasped behind his back.
[26] A view of Goran as Nikola on the street, now talking to the Doctor, only the back of her head visible. Nikola's in the same pose as before, hands behind his back, only leaning slightly towards her now, his expression warm as he talks to her. The creases around his eyes are back, and it's another angle that emphasises his nose.
[27] The same view as before, only now Nikola's ducked his head, almost like he's shy, or needs a moment to collect himself. The creases have gone from his eyes, but the smile's still there at his mouth.
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#Goran Višnjić#Goran Visnjic#doctor who#nikola tesla's night of terror#orig#genuinely just a screenshot dump please excuse the various lighting crimes#this was my exposure to the actor playing a genuinely nice guy and it turned my entire brain on its head thank you#he does such a great job with this I'm just thrilled he gets to play sweet characters too#also slightly offended the doctor didn't adopt him. c'mon doctor you need a nerd friend and he needs to be reminded he's brilliant c'mon#timeline shmimeline you could at least be penpals#anyway tumblr increasing the maximum number of images per post to thirty was dangerous and this is why#I should have to pare it down further but that's not happening. enjoy!#note that I do image descrips like this because I've found alt text doesn't always work on mobile. maybe only 'cos I say so much though.#also image descrips remain a mortifying experience. now all of tumblr knows I'm not normal about this man.#I didn't know it before either ffs
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#long talk in tags incoming i guess#i don't understand why people keep following me when everything i do is complaining lately#and not about dnp per se. but about how the work is done and how their team *coughs* martyn *coughs* is handling stuff#i'm just looking at all this mess and i can't agree with basically anything#everything goes against my beliefs when it comes to work organisation. customer focus and etc.#and i'm trying SO hard to mildly help for free. and i'm just getting ignored. but that's like.. basic fixing and shit#any decent company would do it and say thank you for noticing and letting us know#but not irl merch lmao#and it all feels and looks like a massive joke#and i'm so so tired to basically pay for existence of this mess#i'm rethinking a lot of tour related decisions i made. and i know the reason i made them was about travelling more than the show itself#so i don't completely regret it#i'm just so tired of being spat in the face (figuratively speaking) over and over again#and tired of no one taking their job seriously ffs#neither martyn nor dnp nor their fucking editors#and i'm doing all that not for attention or whatever. but because I really care for the words to be correct and for the fucking text..#.. to be in the middle. like idc about the credit or WHO i need to ask for it to be fixed. i just want it to be fixed#so it looks good and how it should look#like. it's not that hard to put a little care into the things you do and getting paid for#I don't understand how it became so normalized. how being a bad manager is okay if you work with a fanbase and you're a 'small company'#a small company who has more than enough money to hire people to check things btw. if only anyone cared#i'm just so so tired of caring. because apparently it's not something everyone else does.#and i can let it slide when it comes to dnp. they are not being literally hired to do it. but others..... yeah#today was a moment when i thought 'that's a perfect opportunity to leave. enough.'#but the tour is in 1.5 months and i have tickets so i can't leave lmao#what kind of joke that is? oh and i know i'm fully responsible for this mild breakdown#personal
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I think we should bring back basic etiquette lessons such as shutting the fuck up when you’re watching a movie in a group that is not exclusively your friend group 🙂
#welcome to another Mick Airs Out Their Grievances and by god is it a VERY long one#prob best if u don't expand the tags#am I being maybe a bit meaner about this than I would be for any other movie? maybe but pac rim is one of my favorite movies of all time#so I think I get a pass on this one.#one of the groups on campus is hosting movie nights & I went to this one bc I've only ever watched pac rim on my laptop and wanted to watch#it on a larger screen. yay yippee I love this movie!#there r maybe 10-ish of us in this room and a three person friend group is sitting on the couch one of whom has seen the movie and two who#have not. okay so far so normal.#and then the movie starts and they won't! stop! fucking! commentating! the whole fucking movie!!! I don't have a problem with doing that#when I'm in just my friend group because I know that I can tell my friend to stop talking or pause the movie or whatnot but not when I'm in#a large group w people I'm not good friends with ffs#and the comments aren't even funny or anything they're all oh this is JUST like in iron widow!! oh they're SO gay and autistic!!! and#they're talking so loud about this that it completely drowns out the movie audio which has already been turned up a few times#like. be considerate!! some of us want to yknow actually listen to what's going on and not whatever bullshit you're saying#I nearly walked out three or four times before I actually wound up doing so#I may have been a bit of a bitch at the end but I don't care. I got up to leave because this was not an enjoyable environment and one of#them offered to turn the movie down if it was too loud. this caught me a bit off guard since I expected them to still be so wrapped up in#their convo and. well. I may have said 'it's not the movie that's too loud' before closing the door#this also reminds me a lot about my issues with online shipping culture and it bleeding through into how we interact with media irl#this is probably heavily influenced by my aromanticism but I'm so sick of people constantly reading romantic relationships into everything#AND placing more importance on those relationships than any other form. I don't mind romance in media. I think if done right it has great#emotional impact on a story but when a movie is running and when other people who may not want to hear it are in the room watching it too#is not the time to be loudly saying 'he's autistic!' 'they're in love!' 'she has a crush on him!'#I have my own interpretations of the movie some of which agree with what they said and some of which don't but that's beside the point of#knowing how to coexist politely in public#anyway. I think they were awful and annoying and they ruined my night out.#I think I'm just so incredibly mad about this because I love the movie and I was looking forward to watching it in a group of people who#found it cool as well while still having some modicum of politeness#I almost wish I had been meaner but that's the extreme annoyance talking I think#hater hour over love u guys bye
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me, a 30 y/o who has gradually grown more and more reclusive over the years, unable to hold a job for more than a month and unable to finish any schooling despite many attempts, who struggles immensely with social situations to the point of avoiding everything, has been misdiagnosed w/ bpd in the past, & been in treatment for depression & anxiety for nearly 2 decades atp: so i think i'm autistic
the psychiatrist i only got in to see after suffering a severe mental/emotional breakdown for the second time in my life: ok well most physicians don't do assessments for that anymore, you'd have to go private and pay around $5000 to find out
me: surprisedpikachu.jpg
#this is entirely personal and literally just me complaining so i'm gonna stick it under a cut#but LOOK ok i've had a drink and i'm MAD about this again#well actually the last time i mentioned it (i think i mentioned it here anyway...) i was more distressed & upset than mad but#u get me. i think it's just fresh again bc i talked about that appointment again in counselling today ajkshkfsd#love that i can't truly figure out what's wrong w/ me without paying out the fucking nose money that i dON'T HAVE#even though it's impacted my life to this point and i can't function to the level generally expected of a normal person my age#i'm in canada ffs. i've had no trouble getting healthcare in any other area. i'm so??? mad?????#this appointment was like two months ago why am i pissed NOW???#w/e W/E might delete this later might not i just needed to let off some steam & i've got literally nowhere else to put this asjkds#ignore meeeee i'll try writing tomorrow lovelies ok#for now....... back to degen hour gaming & muttering to myself about how stupid life on this godforsaken planet is#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.#personal cw
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Me: I'll just get the whole booking my flights thing over and done with now. It won't take long and I'll feel so much less stressed once I'm done
My bank: Can't authorise this payment lmao also good luck getting through to customer support!
#every time i try to book flights to/from japan they're like hmm this seems suspicious#which i would get but they know i live in japan#i'm paying for internet in japan with that account and also use it to buy stuff from japanese websites#ffs#this whole situation is so horrible and stressful as it is why do they have to make my life more difficult :(#also stressed bc i've never flown with air china but i've heard bad things about them and yet they're the only flights available#and i'll have to fly from narita which i've never been to and into london gatwick which is a pain in the arse to get to#i just want it to be january 5th already so this is all over and i'm back to work and life is normal and moving forward again
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i just had the weirdest exchange ever
#so i have a uhhhh friend? who's in a relationship with some dude#and i'm openly trans yes#so she comes to me and says#i think my boyfriend is a trans woman what do i do#AND FOR THE LAST HALF AN HOUR I JUST??? TALKED TO HER????? THAT IT'S NORMAL????????????#I GAVE HER SOME SOURCES TO READ ABOUT IT BC SHE SWORE SHE DOESN'T UNDERSTAND IT?????#cis ppl ffs#i don't like to be the transgender google but that was so unexpected i just told her over and over again to just listen to her partner#.......and i'm meeting with them both tomorrow#wow#chr-txt
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the absolute vicious shit people think they have to say whenever the topic of 'picky eaters' comes up ESPECIALLY when it's about children is just sickening
#post : my child doesn't like carrots so I#rando : WELL I WOULD JUST *describes a thousand different ways to abuse a child* AND IM THE NORMAL ONE HERE#adult : i can't eat fish because#rando : LMAO GROW UP WHAT ARE YOU 5 FUCKING IDIOT LOL JUST STARVE FISH HAS GOOD VITAMINS JUST KYS#have y'all tried not being dicks about other people's diets ffs#especially when it's like. a video showing how a parent is successfully introducing new foods to their picky kid#like Oh they only like cheese crackers so i'm gradually nudging them towards grilled cheese sandwiches with these steps#and then hopefully use the grilled cheese as a base to introduce other types of sandwiches etc#and it's just. it works. it's respectful of the kid's boundaries. it's healthy.#and Still a thousand people just jump to say INSTEAD OF DOING THIS THING THAT WORKS TRY BEATING HIS ASS (WHICH WONT WORK)#so many people are fucking eager to tell you they Love violence against kids who have no way to defend themselves#that they're fucking sludgebrains who haven't come up with actual parenting techniques#so all they know is ''hit child'' or ''yell'' like a fucking level 1 pokémon#that they view the small young people they have agreed to take care of as dolls that must obey or get thrown against the wall in a tantrum#if your entire plans for parenting are ''i'm just gonna use violence until my human toything complies'' don't become a fucking parent#Anyway this was about picky eating and how people don't know how to mind their business about it#why are you so pressed about what someone else Doesn't put in their mouth. why are you so weird#humans come with a variety of tastes in anything from fashion to colors to home decor to favorite animal#and you can't fucking fathom that they'll also Not all want or like to eat the same things ? fucking cringe
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My aunt seriously complained about me "not doing enough work" today when I've been dealing with one of the worst flare-ups I've ever had.
#things like this make me feel like I'm just gonna snap but I have to keep myself under control#but still UGH FUCK WHY CAN'T SHE MIND HER OWN DAMN BUSINESS#WHY DO I HAVE TO BE WORKING ALL THE TIME IN ORDER TO SATISFY HER?????#ESPECIALLY WHEN I'M SICK#ALSO#SHE FLAT OUT LIED TO MY MOM ABOUT ME???????? (wouldn't be the first time)#also why am I still being treated like I'm a kid when I'm not#ffs#I feel so mad rn lol#I hate being mad before I need to fall asleep but just... who the hell does shit like that#she non-stop complains when she's over here but always comes back within a few weeks#totally normal behavior right#I want to punch something lol
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