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buttercupshands · 1 month ago

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At this point I'm just trapped in a time loop

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muirmarie · 7 months ago

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i do think one of the funniest things people do is, sometimes when we have a group of friends, you just know that someone doesn't like you. i don't mean they hate your guts or anything, but they just Do Not Like You. but you're in the same group of friends, so it's whatever, you're both nice and polite to each other, and if you ever told another of your friends, they'd be like nooo, don't be silly, so-and-so absolutely likes you! so you just don't mention it, and they don't mention it, and sometimes you end up in situations with just the two of you, and it feels vaguely like you're making polite small talk with your worst coworker, and the two of you never admit what you're both absolutely aware of, and this can easily go on for years. i just think that's a funny thing we do.

#i currently have someone i know doesn't like me lmao and i try so hard not to put her into situations where she has to extra pretend #but i have another friend (who is an absolute DOLL) who likes to say nice things about me TO THE PERSON WHO DOESN'T LIKE ME #and i'm just out here silently BEGGING my doll of a friend to stop inflicting psychic dmg on the one who doesn't like me #because again: the one who doesn't like me? absolutely a doll herself doing her best to keep the group dynamics intact and being nice #but i am begging the one who likes me: STOP MAKING THE ONE WHO DOESN'T PRETEND TO AGREE I'M GR8 THIS IS PSYCHOLOGICAL WARFARE BABE #mine #(i don't THINK the one who likes me KNOWS but it's at the point where i am concerned she does & is doing it for me. and i don't want that.#literally just let her not like me!!! it's fine!!! she's already having to pretend!! just leave her alone!!! lmaooooo sigh)#(silly humans with our complex group dynamics at play)

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spilling-blood · 8 months ago

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End of an era. I donated my instruments today.

#after years of trying to make myself enjoy bass and pick up playing guitar.#i have accepted i just don't enjoy them. and that is okay. i have tried so many times #since having lessons in middle school. and picking it up. and putting it down. and picking it up. and putting it down.#because my whole life i thought “i need a hobby” but it isn't like i ever really tried anything else. so i thought i could just pick and #make it happen.#had nothing to do with skill that was the other part that i think caused me grief. thinking i “should” enjoy this #i have an aptitude for it. i love music. i love the sound. i'm gifted with good rhythm sense. there is no reason i shouldn't enjoy it #but then i realized outside of personal things i have an aptitude for a lot of things like when it comes to work and my education #and i freely accept that i don't enjoy many of those things either even though i'm good at them #so yeah. good riddance. if i ever get the urge to play something again i will let myself get something small cheap and silly.#like a ukulele #or some shit. but i bet i don't. i have released myself from the chains of string instruments. plus i have actual hobbies now that #i do enjoy #and things i want to try as well not just out of “idk what to do i guess i should do this”#-pers

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irritablepoe · 1 year ago

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Why can't I have friends that want to talk to me?🥲

#like it doesn't have to all the time obv just. yk. genuine.#johnny's silly rambles #i feel like they're tip-toeing around me when i just want to *talk*#everything is better than them being idk. scared?#it feels like they're scared and idk why #I may be distant but so are they #at least I'm trying to hold a conversation...#and i don't want to let them go like that #we've been friends for 6-14 years (depending on the friend) they are important to me!#but at this point it feels like I'm begging for their attention #and then i feel guilty bc of it #I don't want to be annoying #and i think they like me like in general. it's just like in school where everyone didn't know how to handle me #and they've turned into those people themselves over the years #I don't know what to do😭 i don't want to be entirely alone #vent #once again #help💀

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sysig · 1 year ago

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Starting out, things going Exactly to plan, as expected (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Damned #Helix #ZEX #Dexter Favin #And implied Captain from offscreen lol #Hghhh I am Really considering a tag to differentiate at least because I am 💕💖💞💗#Things I am normal about: He. Him. Himst. Themst. Them'll.#I'm love!! All of the above!#It's so fun! And distressing hehe ♪#For the earlier sections tho it's fairly light and silly all things considered :) ZEX acclimating to Max's body and being so excited hehe #He's so flippin' cute agh - trying just a little too hard to extend those offers for peace and understanding and communication!#Please be comforted by my very wide smile! I know it is a friendly gesture! He's adorable ♥#But then when he just lets the now-human parts of him take over and naturally goes along with the instincts hhghh <3 <3 #His natural smiles are everything to me 💕#Double helps that it's Max's cute face smiling as well I am double-endeared haha #Poor lad has visibly aged just from ZEX being in there - but in his case he's de-aged :0 So odd to be so young again #The whole experience is alien of course haha #I've been wanting to doodle ZEX first waking up at the estate for a while now and having Dexter touch him lightly #His very first contact in a human body! All thoughts of planning or trying to figure out what happened thrown right out the window lol #''What is happening right now?? :D'' haha #He's so sensitive! New mind in an established body ♪ It's interesting :3c #And then of course where he ends up - haven't gotten there yet (probably not even close haha) but to see where the trajectory ends...#Or at least one version of it haha #Poor dear ♥#The bandage turned out a bit stiff there hmm :P Of all the things I'd want to redraw ''Bandage Expression'' was not my first guess haha

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daz4i · 1 year ago

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this is a completely harmless thing but it is my pet peeve mostly bc it is a topic i know a lot about. anyway. so. you know i love angel/demon aus. and when i make my own, i just make up my own rules, barely touch any actual lore. and i know lore!!! angels (and jewish mythology as a whole) used to be my special interest not long ago, and i actually picked up research about it again lately, so i know i'm well informed on the topic, but i usually don't really wanna deal with canon stuff when it comes to fun aus. HOWEVER sometimes. i will read a fic that IS trying to be canonically accurate (to the bible, i mean) and is just a little bit Off and i cannot begin to explain how much this little bit pisses me off. please i can tell you're trying to put in effort here if you wanna stick to canon lore why not fully commit to it please-

also don't even get me started on shit like "seraphims" i'm removing english speakers' rights until they put minimal effort into using words in other languages right

#(seraphim is already plural. seraph is singular. one angel can't be seraphim on its own)#(also no one knows what seraphim actually are 😭 ''biblically accurate angels'' jokes are so annoying to me you don't understand.)#i have ranted about this before and i will rant about it again 🖤 said recent research i'm doing reminded me of it #but again let me stress this is completely harmless. i just have a short fuse over silly shit. you know how it is #so like if you're doing stuff like that don't let my annoyance stop you. just have fun #(and if you want you can send me questions to help flesh things out in a more accurate way. i'll try my best to help how i can)#(sometimes it's just a matter of sources in english having incorrect information tbh lol)

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violetsareblue-selfships · 1 year ago

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hi so i made a discord if any mutuals wanna add me~

#i've never used it before but i wanna talk to people so~#april rambles #posting this & then immediately going to bed lol #i'll reblog it again in the morning it's fine #& my (social?) anxiety is silly and won't let me post it during the day so i'm trying to outwit it here hehe

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soleadita · 2 years ago

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me: makes a silly little teen wolf post on my silly little tiny blog

rabid sc*tt stans i literally have never crossed paths with ever in my entire life: derek hale is the devil incarnate, actually, and here’s why

#might delete this later im just so ??? and needed to vent #like. i understand it’s the public internet but why are you adding comments to a post and arguing with a fucking stranger?#u don’t know me i don’t know u it’s fucking rude???#JUST. KEEP. SCROLLING.#i'm just sitting here trying to figure out what i did wrong. is it bc i tagged him? is it bc i didn't censor his name IN the post?#do these people just live in the sc*tt tag and argue with everyone who dares to breathe there?#i should’ve known better but it’s 2023 i thought we were fucking over this #and like. i'm also not AGAINST HIM? as a general rule i just think all the characters are a little silly and. that's all i was saying?#the only teen wolf adjacent person you're gonna see me actively disparaging is jeff fucking davis like. COME. ON.#it’s not that big of a deal ig bc block button <3 but i keep getting jumpscared seeing derek slander on my own post :(#btw this is NOT about bestiemutuals lovingly roasting derek in the tags bc lets be real he deserves that <3 #leo.txt #anti scott mccall #(<- again not ACTUALLY but like. just to ward off Those People i guess)

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haru-chi · 2 years ago

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I have one big worry ...

Red flag one ...

Red flag two ...

#do I need to worry about this ??#why Seiji indirectly mention or get associated with death ??#I don't think it's what it seems ... but I do have a fear ...#actually ....#or never mind ... let it die inside ...#there're other red flags but ....#hahahaha #I'm overthinking this right ??#every meaning this flower had been bad ... those can mean two different things depending on what was trying to convey #like in this cover I think it was a massage from Seiji to Natori #but then again on another art he was wearing or using this flower too so it can have more than one meaning #ugh ... I ...#yup I should go and sleep for the better before I suffer greatly ...#ignore silly me ...

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remacei · 2 years ago

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i won a raffle and got a sewing machine recently so I have begun growing my excitement for getting so much closer to getting into cosplay!! i'm so excited to try tailoring/modifying clothes as well...

#my cousins on my tumblr side have seen me cosplay in the past but this is like gonna be elevated crafting. next level customization control #i used to just paint on clothes now i can do MOREE #gotta relearn and brush up on stitching basics and ofc get used to the machine too...#last time i attempted to use a sewing machine there weren't easy to watch yt tutorials on threading the bobbin n shit #idk if it's always that confusing or if i'm silly but i could Not figure it out on what i used LMAO #let's try this again 💪

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strawberrysweater · 2 years ago

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i need to rotate saiibomatsu in my brain at high speeds < already does that every day

#meows #i just miss having someone else to be insane about them with n share all the silly headcanons clogging up my brain #not in any way meant to be a self-depricating boohoo nobody likes me and i have no friends #also i would NEVER wanna like. force someone to like a ship or listen to me ramble #i'm just :( need to convert people but it doesnt work......#also of course i massively appreciate how much ppl seem to enjoy my art of them though!!!!#i don't rlly mind being alone in my little corner bc the reception to them is positive even if it's sorta passive letting me do my thing #also #i wanted to make a little zine of them but my perfectionism got in the way #i should try again #anyway sorry not to be complainy huge thank u and ily to everyone who says nice things about my saiibomatsu arts 💖💖

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softandwildx · 6 days ago

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Sometimes I think about the 4 years and countless dollars I spent in art classes + college level studio art senior year and laugh because I can't fucking draw

#i genuinely don't know why my teacher let me in to studio art tbh lol #maybe she thought she could fix me but i was UNFIXABLE #the sad part is that class in particular that i wanted so badly to get into killed off any love and passion i had for art #i haven't done anything solid for 12 years and that makes me sad #i have ideas all the time and just. let them go. because i have absolutely no desire to try again #part of that is the depression obvs #also why i quit piano and guitar and singing lol i just lost my passion for anything that required minimal effort #but goddamn i miss doing art projects for fun #i still have some stuff in my closet that i'm proud of from when i still enjoyed it #i wish i could give that kid a hug and tell her she doesn't have to be perfect to have fun #coupled with the fact that senior year was just the worst possible experience coming at me from all directions #my creativity was just doomed to die i think lol #anyways #this post sponsored by a silly little sketch i tried yesterday and immediately wanted to shred in a million pieces and burn #bc i couldn't make it look 'right'#anyways pt.2 #ma'am this is a wendy's

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microwavetoaster-selfships · 29 days ago

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Okay. Honestly not as drastic as a change as I anticipated, but my pinned post and carrd are both now all touched up, I think I added a handful to my carrd, my pinned post edits was mostly just clarifying some things! I might come back later and add dividers and maybe some more colored text to my pinned post like I mentioned previously, but the main important information has all been plastered around there. Might go back and add a few things to the little section in my pinned where I rattle on about things I like, just because I like people being able to get a flavor of who I am.

Okay, here we are. Little Kane turning point that the big wide world is getting to witness. Square one but it is square one of a separate chapter. All my stuff is here now!!! All of it.! No more. Separate blogs(aside from. Things that actually qualify as separate blogs like my main and the daily selfship questions one). I think I will try and chalk up some selfship tags for the F/Os that don't have ones yet and I know that I will be talking about(the rest can be done as I mention them) just so I can satiate the part of me that still demands some sort of organization. Truthfully, this might actually have me talking a little extra about some of the sillies from other casted away blogs that I haven't mentioned in awhile because it isn't me posting on some barren land of a blog now. I will probably also go into my carrd and things and list out all the F/O tags that I will at least for now have and update them as I go. I might just stick with my name and heart emoji theme, I'll worry about revamping those some other day if I ever decide to.

Going to. Try and push myself to an extra extremity of not hiding away on my own blog, truthfully I almost ponder if anyone at all will actually notice a difference in my posting or what I'm saying, which I will find super funny if I'm like "ahh!! I have been posting so much and revealing so much more and being more unfiltered.." and everyone here is just like "What. Are you talking about this is just your usual." And by being more unfiltered and revealing more I am entirely referring to having about five more tags at the end of each post where I mumble some incoherent things and saying an added extra two or so sentences on my posts where I let myself be publicly romancey sappy and mumble some cheesy sorts of comments of praise or compliments about my F/Os publicly.

#Obligatory “this post was supposed to just be the first paragraph and that was it.”#I wonder if I am doing that thing again where I think this is a big thingy but it. is just a silly thingy. Kane you are running a-#-tumblr blog. I don't even need to add anything else this is a TUMBLR blog. on TUMBLR.#Which is also part of this revamping all my things is. Getting out of my head a bit. I think I have realized mayhaps a little extra that I-#-am a little extra caught up in things when it comes to what people think of me and my selfships.#Which. Makes sense because. It is big and important to me so of course I may have an extra-#-sensativity to it. but I want to try and come out of that hole a bit more. At least to where I'm at a more reasonable point of-#-this person doesn't like this thing/disagrees with it and it isn't the end of the world and doesnt mean anything negatively-#-towards your actual selfship or how your F/Os see you or feel/think about you.#Dipping my toes in the water. Getting out there a little pushing myself.#Again. Humoring myself at the thought of no one batting an eye because it is essentially going to be just my regular usual stuff.#KANE. Having problems that are JUST IN HIS SILLY MIND?? pssssshhhh. nawwww.#Okay. It's getting a wee late and I can't tell if I'm saying a lot or too much now(hammer of irony comes crashing down and whacks me over-#-the back of my head).#I'll save anything else for tomorrow I. really need to try and straighten out my sleep schedule and tonight would probbbbablyy be a good-#-night to do that. Let me at least give everyone here a formal and sappy thank you and blasting you all with beams of joy and whimsy.

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margindoodles2407 · 6 months ago

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Star Wars Fandom I Am Once Again On My Knees Begging You To Stop With The Discourse For The Love Of All We Hold Dear

Looking At You Especially Clone Wars Subfandom

Respect Each Other

#losing my mind. again.#this is why i don't follow the star wars tag #guys PLEASE. let me have my silly guys. my silly sad space guys. i am so tired #star wars #margin rambles #one of these days i'm gonna have an aneurysm. and make a full-blown vent post #guys come on please i am legitimately being serious here. just be nice to each other. respect opinions. if you don't like a take BLOCK IT #and also PLEASE TAG YOUR STUFF #SO THAT PEOPLE CAN BLOCK IT #we curate our own fandom experience yeah yeah i know and i'm not trying to say other people should be responsible for my #enjoyment of my special interest that i've had since i was like three years old #but what i AM saying is that we need to remember that there are real people behind the screens and that we can't just. attack people #anyway. rant over #but very soon i am actually going to snap and say “that's it you've lost star wars privileges”#*deep sigh*

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mystic-mae · 2 months ago

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i need some motivation to do shit, so like... notes thingy i guess

100 notes - water consumption for the body. marching band season made me realize i dont drink enough fucking water out here. (alright, i guess i need water now... I WAS DRINKING TEA EARLIER. THATS CLOSE ENOUGH, RIGHT??)

200 notes - food consumption, i guess. i'll try to eat 3 full meals a day. enough to make my body full and stuff. (gods dammit. well, i already ate breakfast and lunch, and i have leftovers from lunch, so, i guess dinner's all set for me.)

300 notes - homework completion. i've been lacking in my homework game, and i definitely need to improve it this semester. (...i'll start my chem homework tomorrow since saturdays are my rest days, okay??? MOST OF MY WEEKEND HOMEWORK IS DONE BUT THANKS FOR CARING, CHAT)

400 notes - writing hobby. i need motivation to write lore for my dnd campaign (#runaway ruler dnd / #convict ruler dnd / #ruined ruler dnd universe if you want to follow along my shitposting for that) (i already started shitposting for runaway ruler again, so check it out. I WILL WRITE LORE FOR EACH ARC DONT WORRY IM JUST BARELY GETTING STARTED ON THE SECOND ARC SINCE ITS VERY LONG)

500 notes - animation gift. i'm making a little valentine's gift for my spouses, and it's gonna be 1:34 seconds long... I need motivation to actually animate lmao. (i'll do bits and pieces throughout the week. don't worry, i plan to figure this out [i haven't animated in months, and even then i barely scratched the animation surface])

1000 notes - script memorization. i uh... need to memorize my silly little script for a production coming up in a month. im performing in front of kids so like... the script's pretty short and easy. im the antagonist in my cast >:]. (sick, let's go. i love myself some memorization.)

2000 notes - chest binder shopping. i'll ask my parents if i can get a chest binder. ive been meaning to get one for myself for some time now. im getting desperate for one. (i suppose i'll ask today or tomorrow... or over the weekend- that's when most of the shopping happens, anyways.)

3000 notes - leaving the closet. i'll come out to the rest of my family that i'm trans, aromantic, all the nine yards about my lgbtq+ identities. i'll definitely have to schedule a good day to do that. (HELLO??? WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN?? OKAY FINE I'LL FIGURE OUT A DAY. I'LL COME BACK TO YOU WITH THAT-)

4000 notes - researching possible colleges across my state and outside my state. because i wanna get out of here.

5000 notes - order a suit. preferably black or purple. because i need more gender affirming clothes in the formal department.

EDIT: do however many notes you want. i know i said 10 notes per person earlier, but like... go wild i guess

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thatoneluckybee · 1 year ago

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😭😭😭😭😭??? I barely go 2 church and I have the memory of a fly.... Wdym 😭😭😭

I'm gatekeeping

#HEHEHEH #i make references to everything forever too often #Like to everything.#Okay but I'm bored and have a few minute in class I will explain the obscure reference ONCE #Asks #So it's. A Bible story where I don't remember too much but there's a storm. Everyone is losing their minds. Obviously. They are on a boat i #A storm in the early BC/BCE I'd be crying too #They see some dude just. Chilling in the water. WHY IS JESUS STANDING CALMLY ON THE WATER? I DONT KNOW HE FELT LIKE IT I GUESS #There's a dude named Peter known for being nice but also causing problems. Jesus says “Hey calm down it's just me” Peter does NOT BUY IT #So Peter says that if it's really you let me walk on the water too! And Jesus says sure cmon #And Peter does it and it's cool and then the absolute fool notices it's windy and starts freaking out again and FALLS #and Jesus who is just trying to do his thing on the water has to grab this screaming child because he got scared of the wind. The wind.#I don't know why I've always found that one funny. Like a little kid on a bicycle who stops peddling and flops over #It's silly #kirexa #I should really stop making vague references to random asks or in the tags of posts nobody understands them but that's part of the fun

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