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muirmarie · 4 months ago

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i do think one of the funniest things people do is, sometimes when we have a group of friends, you just know that someone doesn't like you. i don't mean they hate your guts or anything, but they just Do Not Like You. but you're in the same group of friends, so it's whatever, you're both nice and polite to each other, and if you ever told another of your friends, they'd be like nooo, don't be silly, so-and-so absolutely likes you! so you just don't mention it, and they don't mention it, and sometimes you end up in situations with just the two of you, and it feels vaguely like you're making polite small talk with your worst coworker, and the two of you never admit what you're both absolutely aware of, and this can easily go on for years. i just think that's a funny thing we do.

#i currently have someone i know doesn't like me lmao and i try so hard not to put her into situations where she has to extra pretend #but i have another friend (who is an absolute DOLL) who likes to say nice things about me TO THE PERSON WHO DOESN'T LIKE ME #and i'm just out here silently BEGGING my doll of a friend to stop inflicting psychic dmg on the one who doesn't like me #because again: the one who doesn't like me? absolutely a doll herself doing her best to keep the group dynamics intact and being nice #but i am begging the one who likes me: STOP MAKING THE ONE WHO DOESN'T PRETEND TO AGREE I'M GR8 THIS IS PSYCHOLOGICAL WARFARE BABE #mine #(i don't THINK the one who likes me KNOWS but it's at the point where i am concerned she does & is doing it for me. and i don't want that.#literally just let her not like me!!! it's fine!!! she's already having to pretend!! just leave her alone!!! lmaooooo sigh)#(silly humans with our complex group dynamics at play)

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spilling-blood · 6 months ago

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End of an era. I donated my instruments today.

#after years of trying to make myself enjoy bass and pick up playing guitar.#i have accepted i just don't enjoy them. and that is okay. i have tried so many times #since having lessons in middle school. and picking it up. and putting it down. and picking it up. and putting it down.#because my whole life i thought “i need a hobby” but it isn't like i ever really tried anything else. so i thought i could just pick and #make it happen.#had nothing to do with skill that was the other part that i think caused me grief. thinking i “should” enjoy this #i have an aptitude for it. i love music. i love the sound. i'm gifted with good rhythm sense. there is no reason i shouldn't enjoy it #but then i realized outside of personal things i have an aptitude for a lot of things like when it comes to work and my education #and i freely accept that i don't enjoy many of those things either even though i'm good at them #so yeah. good riddance. if i ever get the urge to play something again i will let myself get something small cheap and silly.#like a ukulele #or some shit. but i bet i don't. i have released myself from the chains of string instruments. plus i have actual hobbies now that #i do enjoy #and things i want to try as well not just out of “idk what to do i guess i should do this”#-pers

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irritablepoe · 1 year ago

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Why can't I have friends that want to talk to me?🥲

#like it doesn't have to all the time obv just. yk. genuine.#johnny's silly rambles #i feel like they're tip-toeing around me when i just want to *talk*#everything is better than them being idk. scared?#it feels like they're scared and idk why #I may be distant but so are they #at least I'm trying to hold a conversation...#and i don't want to let them go like that #we've been friends for 6-14 years (depending on the friend) they are important to me!#but at this point it feels like I'm begging for their attention #and then i feel guilty bc of it #I don't want to be annoying #and i think they like me like in general. it's just like in school where everyone didn't know how to handle me #and they've turned into those people themselves over the years #I don't know what to do😭 i don't want to be entirely alone #vent #once again #help💀

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elizabeth-mitchells · 1 year ago

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going to war to watch the Barbie movie was SO WORTH IT ACTUALLY 🩷🩷🩷🩷

#I HAD SO MUCH FUN I'M LITERALLY SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!#i seriously had to fight for my life. i waited a week for my cousins. we couldn't get tickts. i waited another week. none of them wanted to #try again. i went with cousins i never hang out with. they were so nice and they paid for my ticket and we bought the barbie promo thing!!#big popcorn! this cool chocolate i love that comes with a pink wrapper!!! and a barbie cup thing that i got to keep!!!!!!#and it's all so silly but god i feel like nothing ever reaches this country let alone this small city but #i get to feel part of a fun silly trend for once!!!! i wore a pink tshirt and i've been wearing this pink nail polish for three weeks hsgjd #BUT ANYWAY THOUGHTS #idk if it's as groundbreaking and judging by the critics i thought it would be more... more and it was definitely too much ken for my likin #but you know i always prefer to focus on the things i loved! it is what it is and I LOVED WHAT IT IS!!!!!!!!!!!!#IT SO MUCH FUN AND I LOVE WOMEN SO MUCH AND MARGOT ROBBIE IS PERFECT AND GLORIA IS SO SPECIAL TO ME AND IT'S JUST SOOOOOO <33333 #I TEARED UP THREE TIMES WHEN SHE CALLED THE OLD LADY BEAUTIFUL WHEN SHE HAD THE GLORIA VISION AND BEFORE TURNING HUMAN WITH THE OLD LADY #THE SONGS ARE FUN I LOVED THE CHASE SCENE SO MUCH??????#i'll never stop laughing at the fascist joke and the margot robbie joke and and and #gloria's husband doesn't exist. i love happy endings <3

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sysig · 10 months ago

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Starting out, things going Exactly to plan, as expected (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Damned #Helix #ZEX #Dexter Favin #And implied Captain from offscreen lol #Hghhh I am Really considering a tag to differentiate at least because I am 💕💖💞💗#Things I am normal about: He. Him. Himst. Themst. Them'll.#I'm love!! All of the above!#It's so fun! And distressing hehe ♪#For the earlier sections tho it's fairly light and silly all things considered :) ZEX acclimating to Max's body and being so excited hehe #He's so flippin' cute agh - trying just a little too hard to extend those offers for peace and understanding and communication!#Please be comforted by my very wide smile! I know it is a friendly gesture! He's adorable ♥#But then when he just lets the now-human parts of him take over and naturally goes along with the instincts hhghh <3 <3 #His natural smiles are everything to me 💕#Double helps that it's Max's cute face smiling as well I am double-endeared haha #Poor lad has visibly aged just from ZEX being in there - but in his case he's de-aged :0 So odd to be so young again #The whole experience is alien of course haha #I've been wanting to doodle ZEX first waking up at the estate for a while now and having Dexter touch him lightly #His very first contact in a human body! All thoughts of planning or trying to figure out what happened thrown right out the window lol #''What is happening right now?? :D'' haha #He's so sensitive! New mind in an established body ♪ It's interesting :3c #And then of course where he ends up - haven't gotten there yet (probably not even close haha) but to see where the trajectory ends...#Or at least one version of it haha #Poor dear ♥#The bandage turned out a bit stiff there hmm :P Of all the things I'd want to redraw ''Bandage Expression'' was not my first guess haha

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nervocat · 6 months ago

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man.

#💭 — ⌗nervo rambles . ★#gonna say I'm venting a bit (kinda of a lot)#but I may seem selfish from this and let me say now ik everyone was putting themselves first (which is a very good thing)#but having three mutuals deactivate their accounts within I think two months or so??#I rlly don't like to be negative and I might also take a break from Tumblr (as much as I love posting here #so I'm still unsure if I'll even stick to that) bc of how negative I've been lately #I just don't want to keep venting and putting that on everyone so #but yeah I just. It makes me sad to see old/new mutuals go #I never thought I'd have to like #witness it #Idk #I've cried over losing them all and it feels rlly silly but I mean idk #I (try to — my feelings with crying are iffy and I hate admitting I do cry) not cry over everything but I just can't word stuff rn #might be posting less/not posting at all for the next few days or so #I'm gonna be busy in July anyways so it's probably better to just say that now #sorry guys I'm just dealing with some stuff mentally lately (an example being gender dysphoria but I can't even word the stuff going on #not to sound like I'm overexaggerating bc I rlly don't wanna seem like I am. It's nothing too serious so don't #be worried at all pls I'm ok enough I won't just disappear)#I just wish I could have alone time in my room with my cats without my family bugging me for a few days #It's tiring atp #I wanna lock myself up just to recooperate and figure out how to deal with certain things the best I can #anyways yap fest over I'm gonna go play wuwa and build Jinshi more #sorry for venting again 🫡🫡

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daz4i · 11 months ago

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this is a completely harmless thing but it is my pet peeve mostly bc it is a topic i know a lot about. anyway. so. you know i love angel/demon aus. and when i make my own, i just make up my own rules, barely touch any actual lore. and i know lore!!! angels (and jewish mythology as a whole) used to be my special interest not long ago, and i actually picked up research about it again lately, so i know i'm well informed on the topic, but i usually don't really wanna deal with canon stuff when it comes to fun aus. HOWEVER sometimes. i will read a fic that IS trying to be canonically accurate (to the bible, i mean) and is just a little bit Off and i cannot begin to explain how much this little bit pisses me off. please i can tell you're trying to put in effort here if you wanna stick to canon lore why not fully commit to it please-

also don't even get me started on shit like "seraphims" i'm removing english speakers' rights until they put minimal effort into using words in other languages right

#(seraphim is already plural. seraph is singular. one angel can't be seraphim on its own)#(also no one knows what seraphim actually are 😭 ''biblically accurate angels'' jokes are so annoying to me you don't understand.)#i have ranted about this before and i will rant about it again 🖤 said recent research i'm doing reminded me of it #but again let me stress this is completely harmless. i just have a short fuse over silly shit. you know how it is #so like if you're doing stuff like that don't let my annoyance stop you. just have fun #(and if you want you can send me questions to help flesh things out in a more accurate way. i'll try my best to help how i can)#(sometimes it's just a matter of sources in english having incorrect information tbh lol)

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keeps-ache · 1 year ago

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trying to write, i want to write but the only place i have with dark mode is my computer's notepad and i can't access those files from anywhere else. augh

#just me hi #girl help my Eyeyessseses hbfvhs #i keep getting told 'use google docs' it Hurts My Eyeballs !!! let me change the funkin website theme !!!#plus when i'm writing at night i don't want the whole world knowing what's up bc i have the equivalent of a lighthouse beacon telling every #one 'HEY. THIS THING'S AWAKE !!' lol :^#i'd use google keep bc it feels. friendlier ? but also the clutter behind the note i'm writing in is making me anxious + distracting me. so #hvfbhs #this is such a silly problem but i'm running in circles just trying to rewrite p.space for the... i think eighth or ninth time now Lolll #i wanted to try wattpad again but i like not having my eyes hurt. and i'm trying to plan ahead bc i want to have a place i can write in #Consistently. ya know ?#sigh. sogh. saigh. sygh #oh and also wattpad feels too cluttered. there's something about having the writing space take up the Whole Entire Screen that doesn't #groove with my brain right. so !#this is just me being very picky for no good reason lolll :)#'just minimize the tab then' but that is still wrong bc the writing space is taking up the Entire Tab now !!#/anyway i just remembered rn why i don't explain why i'm actually having issues with things HFBVSH #it's really specific. and really vibe-based. and it's like being in the middle of a field and not being able to explain what is so wrong ab #being in the empty‚ cold‚ deadly-quiet but also piercing-loud field forever and ever and ever #do you know what i mean ??#//ANYWAY. back to whatever this problem is Lolll :3

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violetsareblue-selfships · 1 year ago

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hi so i made a discord if any mutuals wanna add me~

#i've never used it before but i wanna talk to people so~#april rambles #posting this & then immediately going to bed lol #i'll reblog it again in the morning it's fine #& my (social?) anxiety is silly and won't let me post it during the day so i'm trying to outwit it here hehe

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soleadita · 2 years ago

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me: makes a silly little teen wolf post on my silly little tiny blog

rabid sc*tt stans i literally have never crossed paths with ever in my entire life: derek hale is the devil incarnate, actually, and here’s why

#might delete this later im just so ??? and needed to vent #like. i understand it’s the public internet but why are you adding comments to a post and arguing with a fucking stranger?#u don’t know me i don’t know u it’s fucking rude???#JUST. KEEP. SCROLLING.#i'm just sitting here trying to figure out what i did wrong. is it bc i tagged him? is it bc i didn't censor his name IN the post?#do these people just live in the sc*tt tag and argue with everyone who dares to breathe there?#i should’ve known better but it’s 2023 i thought we were fucking over this #and like. i'm also not AGAINST HIM? as a general rule i just think all the characters are a little silly and. that's all i was saying?#the only teen wolf adjacent person you're gonna see me actively disparaging is jeff fucking davis like. COME. ON.#it’s not that big of a deal ig bc block button <3 but i keep getting jumpscared seeing derek slander on my own post :(#btw this is NOT about bestiemutuals lovingly roasting derek in the tags bc lets be real he deserves that <3 #leo.txt #anti scott mccall #(<- again not ACTUALLY but like. just to ward off Those People i guess)

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icharchivist · 2 years ago

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Chikage’s 3rd flair (the usual fanservice minichat one) has him talk about how the Spring troupe is trying to get information out of him, and yet that way he learns more about them and he enjoys getting to know more abut them, and then he turns to Izumi like “do you want to hear more about me? okay. lean me your ear” and then he gets EXTREMELY CLOSE TO THE CAMERA TO REALLY TRANSLATE THAT HE IS WHISPERING DIRECTLY TO HER EAR

and it’s to say how he prefers to eat his curry. he’s CLOWNING ME.

and then he ends up being all teasy because :) yeah it’s still learning about me! and it’s implied Izumi gets pouty because he replies something that a friend of mine translated "Well, there's no need to know in hurry. We'll be getting along for a long time, right?” but google translate translated the “getting along” part as “we’ll be in a long relationship after all”

and i’m

i’m having a moment.

#i usually kinda skip those and don't try to read them #bc my understanding of Japanese is really on the basis so far #but i skip them by tapping on the screen bc it's faster than reaching for the button skip #and SO SEEING HIM GET THIS CLOSE JUMPSCARED THE HELL OUT OF ME #so i tried to read through the rest and looked at a translator and then asked a friend who is fluent to help me make sure i got it right #and i got quickly the whole 'let me tell you a secret' *invades your personal space* *says something relatively silly*#LIKE it's STILL SOMETHING ABOTU HIM and it's sweet but it was clearly not what people were fishing for and he knows it!!#and I KNEW. I KNEEEEW HE WAS DOING THAT #im. weeps and holds my head into my hands in despair.#it has no right working on me so well i hate it #and once again with his 'we'll have a long relationship so it's fine you'll get to know more in that time'#it adds so much to the fact one of his way to flirt is so much so constantly proposing or acting like they're engaged #and then going 'i'm joking though. or am i. :).'#like geez talk about commitment #and i'm not going to derail myself thinking about man. commitment for a man who had to always be on the move and everything.#like. bites fist.#but yeah anyway i was in public when i was going through this and i almost fucking cried on the spot #and i felt myself turning red like a complete idiot #so fuck this fuck this fuck t-#ichablogging a3jpn

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haru-chi · 1 year ago

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I have one big worry ...

Red flag one ...

Red flag two ...

#do I need to worry about this ??#why Seiji indirectly mention or get associated with death ??#I don't think it's what it seems ... but I do have a fear ...#actually ....#or never mind ... let it die inside ...#there're other red flags but ....#hahahaha #I'm overthinking this right ??#every meaning this flower had been bad ... those can mean two different things depending on what was trying to convey #like in this cover I think it was a massage from Seiji to Natori #but then again on another art he was wearing or using this flower too so it can have more than one meaning #ugh ... I ...#yup I should go and sleep for the better before I suffer greatly ...#ignore silly me ...

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remacei · 1 year ago

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i won a raffle and got a sewing machine recently so I have begun growing my excitement for getting so much closer to getting into cosplay!! i'm so excited to try tailoring/modifying clothes as well...

#my cousins on my tumblr side have seen me cosplay in the past but this is like gonna be elevated crafting. next level customization control #i used to just paint on clothes now i can do MOREE #gotta relearn and brush up on stitching basics and ofc get used to the machine too...#last time i attempted to use a sewing machine there weren't easy to watch yt tutorials on threading the bobbin n shit #idk if it's always that confusing or if i'm silly but i could Not figure it out on what i used LMAO #let's try this again 💪

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strawberrysweater · 2 years ago

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i need to rotate saiibomatsu in my brain at high speeds < already does that every day

#meows #i just miss having someone else to be insane about them with n share all the silly headcanons clogging up my brain #not in any way meant to be a self-depricating boohoo nobody likes me and i have no friends #also i would NEVER wanna like. force someone to like a ship or listen to me ramble #i'm just :( need to convert people but it doesnt work......#also of course i massively appreciate how much ppl seem to enjoy my art of them though!!!!#i don't rlly mind being alone in my little corner bc the reception to them is positive even if it's sorta passive letting me do my thing #also #i wanted to make a little zine of them but my perfectionism got in the way #i should try again #anyway sorry not to be complainy huge thank u and ily to everyone who says nice things about my saiibomatsu arts 💖💖

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sysig · 9 months ago

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See you everywhere, now that you’re gone (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Damned #Helix #ZEX #Dexter Favin #Ft. Wally West and Xigbar again - they're good to him <3 #Hhhh ;; The sads :'0 #ZEX never got to fully show off his uniform ;;#I was so hoping for that! He deserves to show off and feel nice and be praised </3 #At least he'd surrounded himself with good people - the dynamics around which are also interesting #Wally lovely <3 He's so sweet honestly just wants to offer a shoulder if he's able any small bit of comfort #He's injured and he's still trying to hug ZEX weh ;; Any bit of solace ♥#Xigbar's way of cheering him up is his own kind of misplaced sweetness haha I love the care put into everyone's quirks <3 #Ugh the whole thing of Nobodies trying to (and failing to! To varying degrees) convince themselves that they don't have emotions #Clearly Xig is unbothered by this so it's better to just flirt and not worry about it! It's a shame but it happens to everyone #I see you Xigbar ♥ Really tho him being a bit flippant and silly and tactile with ZEX did seem to help haha #''Let me comfort you'' pfft - sad silliness hehe #And then Dexter showed up!! I was so unprepared for that!!#Honestly I only expected him to come visit The One Time so I was so not ready for him to be here after All This #He made ZEX cry last time and this time he came to it already crying ;;#Ughhughgh ZEX's unshakable trust for DAX - even just his voice - being the breaking point of his self control I jfdlksahfds #Someone he can be weak in front of since he doesn't want to be seen by anyone that way - only to DAX ;;;;#Offering any bit of familiarity as comfort weh I'm fine this is fine ;;#Poor ZEX :( Being so powerless and helpless in this situation is so sad!! At least when he was in the War he was in control to an extent #He only touched his cheek with his uniform later that night which I do honestly love the imagery of soft and tender <3 #I like drawing people holding things fully to their face more than I remembered haha #And then the fact that his roommate changed the same night and it was /Kirk/ of all people fjdslahfdsfd wehhhhh 😭#Kirk is genuinely the sweetest to him he is absolutely best boy but to have a Captain after all that ;;;;#It cuts so deeply ironic oww <3 <3

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blackvahana · 17 days ago

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Go figure I'm getting annoyed with linguistic unpopular opinions when Grey is prevalent in me. Hilarious stomping around in the astral being particular about coding shit and having to pause mentally to complain about things

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