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I'm principally not on the Mahidevran x Gülşah ship train (I even dare say I'm actually firmly against it in the context of the series, because their whole dynamic reveals the worst, most toxic sides of both of them in that tense environment), but every time I rewatch the scene where Mahi lays the poison in front of Gülşah and her first words literally are: "Gülşah, do you love me?", I always half-jokingly imagine her answering: "But of course, Sultana, I'm gay for you!".
#i feel like i'm on rakia today i'm SO sorry for this amhgghttffg#i'm not that serious here truly#because the meaning of mahi's line is way way less cordial in context#it's a test of loyalty amidst a risky and desperate decision mahi's about to take#she didn't know whether even to trust gülşah in this dangerous yet necessary in mahi's eyes endeavor#this is what i mean when i say that she trusted her in S02 more than it S01 which IMO is weak af writing#but i get that this line maaay sound kinda suggestive for a viewer who has no context whatsoever#anyway mahidevran and gülşah's dynamic *is* very interesting in all its toxicity and i love analyzing it#but still i don't ship them#magnificent century#muhteşem yüzyıl#muhtesem yuzyil#mahidevran sultan#gulsah hatun#*in S01
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#so one half of the couple i'm house/dogsitting for had an unexpected medical emergency on their trip#which -- i won't go into details but it culminated in a pretty serious diagnosis and emergency major surgery#and now they're coming home today after getting medevac transport back to california#and have asked me to stay here for a few more days while they settle in#as the one who had the emergency needs 24/7 care during recovery but is being released from hospital to recover at home#and they need someone to basically keep looking after the dog/keep her from getting in the way while they figure out what care he needs#anyway i agreed to stay a few days like they asked#which means i'm trying to finish my coursework before they get back later this afternoon but man my focus levels are LOW#and honestly they have been for several days at this point because once again it seems that waiting to hear about medical stuff has become#somewhat of a panic response trigger for me since the extended nightmare of february this year with my dad#and mostly i've been able to compartmentalize but the energy that takes has truly wiped me out#to the point that i'm genuinely shocked it hasn't set off a fibro flare up (touch wood)#also i really don't know this couple very well at all -- they're mostly friends of my parents-in-law#i've looked after their dog for them several times over the past couple of years#but obviously that's been while they aren't home#and i've only had fairly brief interactions with them#so i do feel a bit awkward about being here while they're going through something so serious and personal#but they're nice people and they need the help and i'm able to provide it so i'm gonna push past that#anyway just a tag post venting thing
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scientology is such a good example of how being rich doesn't mean you're smart, like i think it's so important to remember how many wildly rich idiots there are out there.
someone really looked these people in the eyes, told them an elementary school level sci fi story, and they were like sounds good, here is my entire life and millions of dollars forever!!!
it's one thing if they were born into it but John Travolta? Idiot. Tom Cruise?? Such a moron that he found a way to weaponize that stupidity
#and no I'm not saying all people who join a cult are idiots bc it could truly happen to any of us#but these people have all the money and resources in the world and it just can be very hard to sympathize sometimes ya know#also my aunts cult which is arguably stupider yet attracting more and more celebs lately it's just like........are you serious#which if you're new here and wondering what I'm talking about look up Ramtha School of Enlightenment#and tell me that's not objectively the stupidest thing you have maybe ever heard#cults#scientology
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i think people take me FAR too seriously on this website, is the issue
#like i'll clearly be joking/being tongue in cheek abt smth and then i find out people like#actively hate me/vague me over that thing#and it's ultimately very funny like......#there's a difference to Me from a blog like this (personal blog) and one like the fact checking blog#here im gonna call paul a fag & i'm not claiming that in any serious way or trying to say it's for sure fact#same w trans john#but on a blog like the other one it's like. there's Standards i'm meeting#but it's wild how many ppl take me at full face value#like i truly am just saying words recreationally
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I've been a stay for 6 years, I've seen all the bad and the good things, and skz have been a really important part of my life. With everything that was going on, I decided to take a break from skz until this whole lose my breath era was over. Now I wanted to come back for their new album, but it just doesn't feel the same anymore. It's been months yet nothing has changed, they haven't apologized or addressed any of the concerns, they are still working with zionists. Their lyrics seems so meaningless now, this is from their new song "Head above the clouds, stand tall for the hell of it. Tower over crowds, don't pause 'cause I'm lovin' it. Heavy and I'm proud, backbone never suffering". In the past I would loved this song, but now them saying this while being silent about a genocide and happily working with zionists, just feels wrong. I know that one person leaving won't change anything, but I don't think I can support them anymore. As much as it hurts, it's time to admit that they really don't stand for what they used to.
anon i'm honestly on the same boat as you and tbh your feelings are valid if you decide to unstan it's truly okay bc i get you! truly i've been following everything going on and it's insanely sad that so many stays have been trying their hardest to make them know but all we get is silence. it doesn't help that jype is also trying to silence people too but you know it just sucks because there's no way they haven't seen it at this point there's no way they don't know their fandom is so divided over this ever since the lmb release. i wanna believe they are good people but it just so crazy they keep being tied to zionists or hanging out with them and it feels like a slap in the face every time i am not gonna lie and unfortunately, they aren't the only group that is silent rn and it truly makes me question all the people i stan at the moment and what their intentions are... like i truly sit here and think to myself what the really reality is! i can't be excited about things anymore because of how everything is looking rn. i knew i wasn't gonna tune in for this next skz comeback when the lmb fiasco happened because unfortunately it tainted everything for me and it's sad! i don't know what i'll exactly do either but since i'm so dead set on making things right and to keep pushing it i am sticking around for that because my interest in kpop is kinda slowly going away and it's sad. even tho i want idols to have better working rights and it's something that i will always bring up and, i'm very passionate about you could say, it's hard for me to stay knowing that these people are so comfortable being silent and it hurts to know this was probably the plan all along. the way when people started to bring up celebrities speaking up, people were already not including kpop idols with everyone else like... the group of people that should speak up and i think that was the moment that i realized how wrong everything is like how we expect them to essentially do nothing and not gaf about anything and that's messed up ESPECIALLY coming from groups like skz that have lyrics that are very much about rebellion and fighting back oppressive things and so on and it makes you really think that yeah maybe this whole shit was just a concept to them and they don't bring that into their real life. it just sucks atp i'm just venting i could go on because i have SO MUCH TO SAY i'm just now realizing i've been bottling this all up almost but yeah all of this to say that i truly truly get it and just know you aren't alone when it comes to feeling like this towards groups you stan because it's happening to a lot of people atm
#truly thank you for telling me this tho i do appreciate that#i have a lot of these convos with my mutuals on twt#and i'm just glad that other feel this way too and understand#because in this space they are people that don't think too much about this#and stan groups no matter what happens and it can make you think#like wow maybe i'm going crazy here??? i've had a lot of those moments these past few months#but as time goes by there are certain shit i can't ignore#and i think questioning yourself about your fave groups and what their intentions are and etc#should be a normal thing especially when it involves something SO serious#and i've seen this before and i'll say it again like i don't want people that i stan to speak up#because i want confirmation that they are good people#honestly i want them to speak up because it's the right thing#and these groups have a lot of influence especially groups from big companies#and can make a difference on that regard#it's just disappointing and sad that it has come to this tbh#asks#anon
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Okay now for something Different. Or the same. Who knows. But entirely for my own enrichment purposes.
For Moe, a transmasculine character who, despite its flamboyancy and androgyny, is solidly exclusively Some Guy in identity just with a lot of extra steps (and can get really dysphoric if interpreted Incorrectly). For Moe, all of this considered/factored in, to have a fairy Resplendent, which seems to be an all-girls club.
The goodness in your heart aside that may wish well for Moe and its fate. Is it giving Women and Thems, conflating nonbinary/genderqueer identities with being afab and therefore "woman-lite", which inherently alienates anyone who falls outside of that whether it be due to identity (Moe's case, it WILL fucking kill you), presentation or sex assigned at birth. Or can Moe just serve cunt in peace with its complicated relationship with femininity (both what was enforced and coerced upon it and how it currently defies and defiles it). Thematically, can Moe serve cunt in peace?
#moe tag#this IS for funsies and won't really have any bearing on anything.#sometimes i just love creating unique forms of torture for moe though. like. dod alt and wedding alt case and point#back to the question actually secret third option. is it like pixie hallow where there's just like. a grand total of four guys.#like you've got terrance clank and bobble and that cunty ceo of spring fairy guy. i don't know his name.#I FEEL LIKE. the childhood fixation i had on tinkerbell just. shows. sometimes.#either way. do you condemn moe to death via cruel and unusual punishment or do you have mercy on its wretched soul#OKAY OKAY I'LL BE SO SERIOUS. I'LL STOP FUCKING AROUND. WHAT I'M TRULY GETTING AT HERE#is WHERE is that line!!!! between capturing a character who has an extremely complicated relationship#w how they were raised/who they are now and how they present themselves which seems to be in contradiction to WHO they are#or bad faith who they 'claim' to be#WHERE IS THAT LINE!!!!!!! between finding a way to Portray that w themes/visual storytelling#vs just pigeonholing them into a box that they have fought tooth and nail to claw their way out of.#is it a disservice to moe? or is it Saying Something? is the contradiction PART of the Point#is it about rebellion? to spit in the face of it? to tear it apart and to re-create it in your own image?#any which way i do wanna put it in a funny little outfit. moe loves funny little outfits. enrichment.
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are you leaving? sorry for asking :/
Not sure yet :') being in this fandom takes such a huge toll on me when shit hits the fan that i cant really justify to myself staying and being invested in the same capacity as I have been. However I love my mutuals and this community too damn much to just up and leave completely 😭 for now im gonna take a break from tumblr and just give it some time. I could never leave tumblr fully though I fear I'm a yapper at heart so maybe I'll just end up posting about whatever. I really don't know ! I'll figure it out !!
#Don't really want to talk abt the whole situation on here I'm not the person for that#But yeah you all will hear from me again god knows I am incapable of shutting the hell up#And I want 2 say i truly consider dtblr to be my favorite fandom I've ever been in despite all the (very low💀) lows#You all are so incredibly funny and creative and kind and I really am so thankful I got to be a part of it all#When I think abt the friends I've made I could rlly just cry I love u all so much !!#Okay now it sounds like I'm writing a fucking eulogy DORRY ITS NOT THAT DEEP IM JUST NOT LOGGING ON THIS WEBSITE FOR A BIT GODDAMN#Like for all I know tomorrow I'll be like damn it wasn't really that serious and reblog dnf sucking cock or whatever#I'm joking^. It would probably be a frog picture#OKAY whatever I'm rambling I'm just gonna go and log out of my account on here CIAO#asks
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loving gotham penguin but hating b22 penguin you will never see the light of heaven the deepest pits of hell will consume you
#particular odor that comes from those memes i just don't like it#also HE WAS WEIRD W HIS MOM TOO WHY DOES EVERYONE GLOSS OVER THAT TO THIS DAY I CAN'T BITE MY TONGUE ANYMORE IT'S BEEN A DECADE#that's always been a gotham fandom thing that makes me feel like i'm in the twilight zone i have to finally speak my truth#why do ppl think that's normal. why does every single fanfiction portray that as a wholesome loving mother/son relationship#every. single. one. find me the one that doesn't#let's unpack it it's been 10 years why are we still doing this#no one ever seems to truly get gotham oswald in fics. no one wants to portray him as the awful person he is and like why#that's the good shit#you can't imagine the TRENCHES i was in being a nygmob fan who favored ed while the show was airing#EVERYTHING was always ed's fault oswald could do no wrong. ever#and if you tried to point out oswald did a shitty thing to ed ohhh BROTHER#it's like they didn't even want a relationship between two villains man what game are we playing here#i brought my basketball to the basketball court and everyone's looking at me like i'm an idiot because they're trying to play water polo#and i'm like 'but there's not even any water in here....' but i'm being drowned out by a chorus of shut ups#anyway i think oswald and oz would like each other i would wanna sit at their table they'd be talking mad shit about EVERYONE#i imagine their dynamic would be the meme w the drag queens laughing and making fun of someone then one gets very serious and says#'i wonder if people talk about us this way.' then they just stare at each other stone faced. that
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i really can't even begin to express how much i need people especially in the selfship community to just stop answering anon hate. block them and delete it. you are doing nothing good for yourself by answering it. your epic comeback doesn't deter them it just makes them mock you in private servers and send more. Please stop feeding the trolls.
#this goes for obvious bait asks too but those can fall in a grey area where it's hard to tell if they're asking a serious question or not.#so those are more case by case. but truly god just stop answering anon hate.#it's never funny to me it just makes me sad. stop it.#.txt#ESPECIALLY with the like.#this doesn't happen much anymore that i've seen but when people were sending anon hate like. impersonating other people ??#first of all why would you ever believe such obvious bait who signs their anon hate. second of all stop answering them T__T.#even IF you don't believe it it still causes problems for the person being imoersonated. OK PARTNERS ARE HERE I'M DONE.
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me looking at my own blog: god i wish this bitch would stfu
#liz speaks#i just say things man#and i think it's so fucking funny that people on here take me as seriously as they do#i'm like...the least serious person you're ever going to meet#also why do people get so pressed about a random person's opinion on here?#i literally don't make policy dude#all i said was i think some silly little thing about some silly little fandom#and suddenly i've declared war on an allied nation or something? idk that's how seriously people take the discourse on here sometimes#like there are things that i think are serious of course#but yelling at me because someone asked me if i would make merch for my fics and then when i asked the masses about it#i'm being accused of trying to steal people's money? that's when you KNOW it's time to go touch some grass#this is a hobby not my profession. like people get so pressed about the most inconsequential shit on here.#my profession is being a silly goose. something i'm very good at actually#oh no did someone interpret your blorbo in a way you didn't like? call the national guard about it ig#idk dude sometimes i truly just want to pull away from everyone and ignore y'all#i think i'd be happier sometimes just posting my stories and not interacting with anyone#because some people (anons at the very least) make this place so bleak and miserable because they feel like they have to police everything#literally just vibe my guy. nothing on here is that serious. we're all just yapping about blorbos and reading/writing self indulgent shit#eat some grapes and sit in the shade or something idk
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another day another "applying the concept 'disposability' to 'someone withdraws from a personal relationship, & that wasn't signed off on by the other'" kill me
#literal acknowledged interpersonal abuse Needing to be ''mediated'' (implicit premise of preserving that relationship >>>)#and if the victim doesn't participate they're treating their abusive partner / abusive relationship as ''disposable''#like in what meaningful way. getting away from an abuser is ''disposing'' of them like imprisonment / killing From A State?#dropping an abusive relationship is ''disposing'' of it? like uh yeah i sure hope it is#this is always Vaguely Applied to ''ppl don't want to HANDLE CONFLICTS or DO THE WORK'' & then connected to political actions#like well someone's just a bad person In The World / All Things if they stopped being my friend and i don't know why#like of course that Can Be good faith. it's a personal business#but if someone ghosts you and you truly don't know why Yeah maybe there's something going on but like okay let them go#if they want to do that for reasons you don't think are Compelling or they just aren't interested / putting in that Effort then like#what Friendship is really being lost here. but then tweet about it with no context & a zillion ppl like SO TRUE kys randos#[fart reverb Conflict Is Not Abuse] standard abuse apologetics which are easy & a zillion ppl go SO TRUE b/c It's Abuse Culture#someone HAS to Answer My Texts / Calls / In Person Confrontations As A Bold Clearsighted Political Actor are you kidding#someone really doesn't. even if you Really are like ''and i'm not even consciously malicious'' what a high bar#one gazillion abusive parents will tell you And My Estranged Child Won't Even Tell Me Why / Doesn't Have Any Good Reasons / Won't Talk....#what am i supposed to doooo i'm at a losssss And Really I'm The Victim#''i want to break up'' / ''okay i don't :) let's talk through Your Feelings :) [waffle around until insisting on Same Access To Person]''#someone can rescind interpersonal access to themself For Any / No Reason. on a dime no explanation necessary. for god's sake#and friendship is not actually some magically pure & Neutral relationship either. same things#anyway just unfollowed some rando for their thread spinning off a vague qrt ''ppl are so AFRAID OF CONFRONTATION they unfriend u''#going on & on abt how You Need To Put In The Work & Effort & You're Just Probably A Bad Person Otherwise & Disposability like#the disposability is my three points wastebasket toss. death via the state =/= someone won't talk to you. can we be at all serious#every day i reach out further like aplatonic people [some emblem gesture] lovelessness [same] help me#thinking of a Good Tweet i saw abt framing everything re: interactions with others around Consideration first & foremost#wildly enough the way you treat people doesn't need to have Fundamental Assumptions re: like ah Friendship / Community / Love / Family &ccc#how do you treat a stranger. how do you treat someone who you don't personally like &/or vice versa. how do you treat ppl you don't Meet.#it's all so vague it could mean Anything but a) often hints towards [abuse victims are framed as Bad Political Actors]#& b) then that's what people read into & respond to for sure lol#as ever ''oh everyone's just little bitches who can't handle any discomfort. yes; this was prompted by my being discomfited''#wait yeah lol i did not Confront this stranger to try to Posit this to them in twttr's character limit; just unfollowed. disposability smh
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Having a serious George Michael moment at two am.
#we're having serious family problems#the kind you should call the cops about if you trust the cops#instead i called my dad#i have never asked him for anything#not in like thirty years#and i begged him to come as soon as he can in the morning#i can't be the only adult here anymore#and my abusive dad who has religious delusions is my only option#and for literally the first time in my entire fucking life he's coming to help me#i think i scared him with my crying#i don't think he's ever seen me cry in like the last thirty years or so#i am terrified though#so I'm listening to George Michael because he and Elton are the most comforting music i can think of right now#maybe I'll add some Madonna to this playlist#anyway everything is hard right now and i truly don't know what to do when the systems society has in place for this aren't an option#and my cats are like an hour away#i really might delete this later#I'm just so upset???#i needed to write it out for a third time in a third place
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chat how bad is it if i've started writing my own bokuroo content
#it's a drought out here fr#it's Serious bc i'm like the slowest writer ever but i started two drabble fics like GRRRRAHHH I NEED MORE BOKUROO CONTENT#the world isnt ready for how many posts i have in my likes waiting to be reblogged...#also do people still rp anymore or ... cause i would totally be down for that#like i'm That consumed by the brainrot that is two city bros falling into the phenomenon that is mutual romance#yappings#double also: this is all i talk about on my twitter like wtf... but i have no moots who appreciate bokuroo truly the damnest shame
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I love the vocal nuance in this exchange, but also posting this for my differences posts because this is one of the changes that infuriates me the most. Yuri didn't threaten Ioder, did not threaten him with a weapon, and just said he'd punch him in a lazy, half joking voice (half joking as in, he really doesn't want to hear that - that's just his way of saying so; but that's not the voice of someone who is super angry and threatening).
My other huge grievance is that this is a recurring issue between them in the dub. Yuri is pretty much always vocally rude to Ioder. Ioder has done nothing to wrong him or anyone and has only ever done good for the people where he's able to.
Yet despite Ioder being nothing but sincere, honest and polite with Yuri, in fact even happy to see him here and there, dub Yuri is outright tonally rude to him leading right up this scene where he threatens Ioder in this dark voice. Meanwhile he's actually just supposed to be… lazily telling Ioder he'll punch him in his Yuri Lowell way of saying "I don't want to hear that".
The dub really just wanted to turn Yuri into this dark edgelord and I hate that for my goofy, silly boy.
#GTF Vesperia Clips#honestly JP Yuri talks abt punching ppl often enough that it's like... this should have been an easy tl#and like honestly wtf is with the dub having Yuri at Ioder's absolute THROAT every time they talk#I'm serious when I say dub Yuri genuinely pisses me off sometimes bc he's an asshole for NO reason#it's not cool. I'm not rooting for him. I'm rooting for someone to punch him in the face for being an ass#JP Yuri would love to do it honestly he's always up for punching ppl it's a recurring theme for /him/#I've never wanted to punch JP Yuri in the face. I've wanted to punch dub Yuri in the face multiple times#that's enough for me to recognize that the dub took more than just ''creative liberties'' with the loc#it SUCKS too bc the dub in and of itself isn't bad. I've said this before but#it really is primarily Yuri and his absolute ATTITUDE problem /and/ the way the dub treats Flynn and puts him down constantly#and unfortunately often uses Yuri to do it... when they're not having Flynn himself do it#all always in areas that never even happened originally. they just literally made it up#still not over how they had Flynn basically berate himself by saying ''like a /good knight/'' at Yormgen#the dub very clearly had a /narrative/ bias against imperial figures/knights that wasn't in the original#what was the reason to drop Sodia calling Yuri ''sir'' at Aurnion? there wasn't one!#but Sodia BaD so we can't possibly let anyone see her character development and have to hide it from dub players!#unfortunately for me the dub not being bad in and of itself truly is trumped by#its treatment of Yuri and Flynn as characters and the way the game narratively directs players#for me it really is THAT BAD that it's stronger than the rest of the dub being just fine#and it really truly honestly RUINS the entire dub for me bc I love Yuri and Flynn and hate seeing them treated like that#I mean literally the whole point of me making those text posts is bc of my love for Yuri lol#and it's so sad and hard to see dub players not get the same Yuri experience simply bc... they don't even know#a lot of people didn't even realize how different he was and like... I get loving Troy's acting#but again Troy isn't the problem here. I don't want a dub that treats my favorites the way it does#I WISH Troy could have voiced Yuri the way he really is. in some way for me it feels very lonely#bc like the casual person I pass by who knows Vesp isn't likely to have not played the dub you know??#so it's like... I wanna talk abt Yuri but we aren't even talking abt the same Yuri#nearly outta tags lol but yeah it just... makes me SO sad that they did all this to those two
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#i'm serious about not wanting to talk about it more okay?#can't bear me complain about charles' fanbase than leave?#i was truly not kidding about can't take criticism to save your life#take the L for once#it's known that his is one of the worst fanbase here#if you take it personally it's not my problem
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gosh--my friends and beloved mutuals on here are such incredible writers. i'm honestly always so in awe. i need lessons 😭
#the more trauma healing i do the worse my writing gets...i'm serious#i completely lost the ability to describe setting and create atmosphere now that i'm more present in the real world#i truly hate it...why can't i have both?#i know myself very well so i know there's a direct correlation here#i think it's also why i lost my music synesthesia. sigh
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