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tagged by @rareblackcat 🖤🐇
I'm answering this as a nonhuman, I don't identify with alterhuman
1: Holothere/physical therian and otherkin (I know it's a separate thing but they're intertwined for me so I'm a pet regressor too)
2: Holothere is rabbit, otherkin is vampire, and pet regression is dog and the species change. I'm usually all 3 at the same time because recently there hasn't been a time where I haven't been somewhat regressed
3: The only shifts I get are wing shifts which are connected to my chronic pain, everytime my back hurts I feel them and it's painful and can cause regression
4: I don't know, I just live like this there isn't anything special I feel or experience because I just am a bunny unless I'm heavily regressed, in that case going nonverbal and generally not doing anything but being curled up and refusing to eat and generally exhibiting behaviours of dog depression
5: I'm not very welcomed in the community for various reasons 💖💖💖🐇 there's the ones who think physical therians are mentally ill, the ones who pretend only canine therians exist, the ones that think only white therians exist, the ones who think people who are transspecies are mocking the transgender community, the ones who forget disabled people exist, the anti kink ones, the ones who forget that wanting to have an animal body does not mean just paws and a tail and can in fact mean genitalia too (god that animal packer discourse was stupid) as well as a few other things. I don't like to interact with the community and just stick to my mutuals
6: when my partner says they're petting me (we're long distance)
7: no not really
8: it's okay to be wrong, it's okay for your identity to change
9: badly made dog tail that I don't need unless someone wants to physically pet my tail
10: imprinting on tv, watching shows exclusively with anthropomorphic animals as the characters when I was younger, I know I wasn't always this way but at a young age I saw that animal bodies I saw on tv were just so much cooler than human bodies and slowly to morph into that
11: @t4z-0n-p4wz @mons7errr @astrorain-e idk if you identify but worth tagging anyway
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(don't be afraid to write a lot, do what you want ¯\_(ツ)_/¯)
1/ Which category of alterhumanity do you belong to?
2/ What/who is/are your type(s)? (if you have any)
3/ Do you experience shifts? If so, can you tell us your most common shifts and your strangest cameo shift (if you've ever had a cameo shift)?
4/ How do you experience your alterhumanity in everyday life?
5/ What do you think of the community?
6/ What are the things that make you most comfortable and euphoric in your alterhumanity?
7/ Are you experiencing species dysphoria?
8/ What advice would you like to say to a young alterhuman who has just awakened?
9/ Do you have/want to have gears?
10/ Do you know/have any theories about the origin of your alterhumanity? If so, tell us! (all beliefs are legitimate)
11/ Tag someone/a creature to answer these questions!ㅤᵕ̈
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the lovely amazing darling @crescenthistory tagged me a little bit ago about doing the 12 fics for 12 months. i had to really ponder so it took me a moment; i apologize
all fics are character x reader
but here they are 🥰:
just to stop the feeling; theodore nott - @musingsofahufflepuff ;; when i say that i cannot express enough how much i absolutely adore and love this fic. there's a little bit of everything for the sb trio person in here; Enzo being a smart ass, Mattheo being a tender friend, Theo discovering himself. my hubs really did an amazingly fantastic job. please scour his master list I'm begging.
come back, be here; sirius black - @ellecdc ;; this fic is the single most important fic that got me truly hooked on reading more marauders. there's angst, there yearning, there's hurt (and then there's comfort). eight parts overall, this link is to part one. elle is quite amazing.
its nice to have a friend; remus lupin - @crescenthistory ;; this is childhood best friends to lovers with my favorite marauder boy always...and fuck if i'm not a sucker for that.
midnight strolls and nosy portraits; sirius black - @iamgonnagetyouback ;; adorable adorable sirius black fluff, if you're looking for a way to make me obsessed with something, sirius + being a sweetie = sab's brain melting.
divination; james potter - @ikkyfics ;; you and james have (you guessed it) divination class together and get a verrrry interesting reading
dealer!remus x shy reader; remus lupin - @inkdrinkerworld ;; if there's one thing sab loves, it's remus who has a special affinity for you based on what makes you different than the rest. uuuugh love this man. there's two parts to this as well.
everything is blue; barty crouch junior - @unconventional-lawnchair ;; this is barty x potter!reader. if you've paid attention to my blog at all over the last, i'd say, four months, i'm obsessed with barty. everything barty. i need barty. (there's a sort of second bit to this too)
checked box; sirius black - @marauder-misprint ;; sirius is seemingly going through a list of sorts, confusions spread of whether you should be on it.
first kiss; remus lupin - @latenightreadingpdf ;; title says it all, and i'm obsesssseeddd
my darling elle's hockey!au ;; i've linked her remus master list here. if you like hockey (or just thing the rough and tumble of hockey boys are sexy asf [valid]) then i implore you to explore this.
if i kiss you i'm sorry; james potter - @astonishment ;; the first fic i read by my darling darling mal. strangers-esque to lovers. many parts. as always she is just captivating a writer. i encouraged you to explore all her other works as well (you're losing me/remus lupin/james potter has me in a chokehold as well)
desperately needed; mattheo riddle - @musingsofahufflepuff ;; mmmm yes yes yes yes yes i love this, nothing quite like a lil bit o bump and grinding. my favorite activity with mattheo
#this was soooo difficult to pick#but i'm satisfied with the list#EVERYONE GO READ THEM#FOLLOW THESE PEOPLE#james potter#james potter x reader#remus lupin#remus lupin x reader#sirius black#sirius black x reader#mattheo riddle#mattheo ridd x reader#theo nott#theo nott x reader
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Kira has a nightmare, one night when she's staying at the O'Brien's. Miles and Keiko, sleeping in the other room, don't hear her get up - but Molly does.
And Molly, being clever and kind, knows exactly what to do when someone has a nightmare. (Or, at least, she knows what her parents always do for her.) So she sits Kira down and brings her a glass of warm milk, and sits by her side as she drinks it.
Then, she takes Kira by the hand and leads her - to her parents bedroom. "I always sleep with mommy and daddy after a nightmare," she explains, when Kira stops outside the door. "It helps! Mommy chases the scary things away. And Daddy is warm."
"Molly," Kira says quietly, a little embarrassed, "I don't think your parents want me in their bed. Even if I did have a nightmare."
"No, they won't mind!" Molly assures.
Then, of course, Miles wakes up.
"Molly?" he asks, voice rough with sleep. "Did you have a nightmare?"
"No, but Miss Kira did!"
And now Keiko's awake, too, sitting up and saying, "Nerys? Are you alright?"
Mortified, Kira says, "Yes, I'm fine, I was just - on my way back to bed. Molly brought me here. I'm - sorry for waking you. I'll just be-"
"You can stay, if you want," Miles offers.
Kira doesn't quite think she heard him right. "What?"
"You can sleep here, if you think it might help," Keiko says.
"Or even if you don't!" Miles adds.
Kira opens her mouth, then closes it again. "I, uh-"
Keiko gets up, and takes Kira, gently, by the hand. Her palm is soft, Kira can't help but notice.
"Brr, it's freezing out here!" Keiko says, tugging Kira along. "You'd better get in before you catch your death of cold. Miles is practically a furnace, so you'll be nice and warm with us."
"And, Molly, you'd best go back to bed, too. You've got school in the morning," Miles says, as Keiko bundles Kira into the bed between them.
As Molly makes her way out, Keiko swings a lazy arm over Kira's back. "Sleep," she hums. "We'll be here in the morning."
Kira, feeling warm and cared for and more than a little overwhelmed, does.
#tbh molly may be a bit too old for this to be fully in character at this point#UNLESS she knows Exactly what she's doing and is simply Plotting to get her parents to kiss their crush#also i don't remember if molly is still saying 'mommy' and 'daddy' at that point? we might just not see her talk much at all#i think molly's like. um. 9? maybe? at that point which means that i'm for sure writing her too young#or maybe not. idk. i don't know enough about kids to write them well lmao. i'm tryin my best. what are “children”.#does this count as a ficlet? maybe. idk. it's not my real writing style but i guess it's still a ficlet.#anyways this is a free fic idea if anyone wants to do it more justice#since i don't think i'll ever flesh it out and save it from my Lazy Tumblr Post writing style#star trek#ds9#star trek deep space nine#kira nerys#keiko o'brien#miles o'brien#molly o'brien#the o'brien polycule#kira x miles x keiko#is there a good tag for this ship? an accepted ship name? tell me if it exists because i do not know it
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FRIENDS WITHIN TOUCHING DISTANCE
⊹ Summary: Jungkook and you, his childhood friend, live together in an apartment, sharing space as roommates. Your relationship, built on years of friendship, is gradually becoming strained by growing sexual tension. You decide to become friends with benefits, trying not to complicate your feelings. But Jungkook's world is not so simple. When you begin to realize that he is hiding something, you open the veil of his double life - a world of mafia, criminal activity, and risk that could ruin not only your deal, but everything you valued in each other.
⊹ Couple: Jeon Jungkook/ Fem!Reader
⊹ Characters: The Reader, Jeon Jungkook, Park Jimin, Kim Taehyung, Min Yoongi, Kim Seokjin, Kim Namjoon, Jeon Hoseok.
⊹ 🔞 Age restrictions: 18+
⊹ 👩🏼❤️👨🏻 Relationships: ⚤
⊹ Number of part: 18/?
⊹ 🖇️ Tags: best friends, friends with benefits, slow longing, sexual tension, protected sex, unprotected sex, alcohol, drunken sex, inexperienced main character, mafia au, illegal trade, deaths of minor characters, weapons, swear words.
⊹ 👩🏼💻From the author: ✊🏻✊🏻 Knock, knock… it's me again with my new chapter. I want to assure you right away that I'm not obsessed with sex in the car (after all, this is the third scene where they have sex in the car), it's just that this scene appeared in my head so suddenly, and they were in the car at that time... 🤭😁 Anyway, let me know if you liked this? And also, do you like the plot development?
⊹ 🫂Dedication: For you, my love @myjungkookthighs. You are my favorite person 😘🥰 You know that I appreciate you so much and love you🥰💜
⊹ ⚠️ Warning: English is not my native language, so there may be mistakes in the text. Please don't get mad at me too much! Those under 18, please don't read this story!
⊹ 📋Tag list: @myjungkookthighs, @notsevenwithyou, @nikkinikj, @lovelyyylunaa222, @jiminiemanura, @jalexad , @kelsyx33 (If anyone wants to be in my tag list let me know)
≣ Chapter Index ↓
Part 18. Dangerous.
Your eyes are closed, and there are thousands of thoughts in your head. All of them create chaos in your head and you can't understand what is important to think about now and what is not worth attention. This causes anxiety. You should be happy because you finally have a relationship. You have a loved one who is supposed to make you happy. Of course, you are sure that he will make you, but what is happening in your life right now makes you feel like you are in limbo.
Jungkook is your best friend who is now your boyfriend. He belongs to the mafia and does a pretty dangerous job. You imagine, just for a second, what he does and what he looks like, and you feel horror crawling through your body. You feel discomfort mixed with anxiety and open your eyes.
The Mercedes drives smoothly, but with its characteristic engine growl. The interior is warm and smells like unobtrusive citrus. Jungkook is watching the road, holding the steering wheel with one hand.
You look sideways at his profile without turning your head. His perfect face seems to be getting beautifully to you every day. You literally can't stop admiring him.
Jungkook looked calm, almost detached, focused on the road. His sharp features seemed to be carved by God himself: a strong jawline, a straight nose, perfect symmetry of his eyebrows, which moved slightly as he thought about something. His lips, slightly pursed but soft, beckoned to be touched and tasted.
His hand gripped the steering wheel. The tattoos were eye-catching. You looked at his long fingers and imagined them holding a gun. His index finger pulled the trigger and a shot rang out. Someone had died by his hand.
You shook your head slightly to clear away the horrific image you were sure had never happened. Jungkook would never kill a human. But you are saddened by the thought that you doubt. You can't say that you believe that Jungkook is not a murderer. But how can this gentle, caring person take someone's life? You are confused and completely disoriented. You just don't know what to believe.
Why are you thinking about all this while driving in the car? You know about the situation with the devices that Doohoon stole. You have a vague idea of what awaits Jungkook when you arrive in Seoul and he meets Namjoon. You're scared and nervous about revealing this to Jungkook so that he doesn't worry about you. Will Namjoon be really angry? Will he punish him in some mafia-style way or just tell you that another $50 million is added to the blog and let Jungkook go? What a lot of money!
Although everything is perfect between you and Jungkook right now, you can't keep thinking about who he really is. Knowing criminal world, the life will seem to you like a ticking time bomb. Sooner or later it will explode. However, your feelings for Jungkook are growing every day, and you think about how you can save him. What can you do to make him leave the mafia and finally live like a normal person?
You pick up your new phone and look at the time. It's eleven in the morning. It's only a thirty-minute drive to Seoul.
Jungkook notices that you are awake and looks over at you. A smile touches his lips and he reaches out to you. He places his hand on your thigh and squeezes it lightly.
"Did you doze off?" - He asks. His voice is hoarse and gentle at the same time. Your eyes instantly find his and you smile back. In fact, you were awake. You were trying to sort out the chaos in your head. But all you got were not clear thoughts but a headache.
"A little." - You lie. "I lost my sleep rhythm. It was hard for me to wake up at 7 a.m. to get ready for the trip." - You admit.
"How much sleep did you get?" - Jungkook asks looking ahead.
"Three hours." - You say. Jungkook's eyebrows fly up.
"Baby, you need to get more sleep. I'll take you home and you can go straight to bed." - Jungkook is worried. You struggle to smile.
"Okay." - You agree. After a moment, you speak again. "Your mom must have been sad that you had to leave in the morning, right? It would have been better if you hadn't stopped by your parents' house at all." - You say in a sad, slightly guilty voice. Jungkook could have stayed with his parents longer, but he spent a lot of time with you yesterday. And this morning he left because he had to meet Namjoon.
Jungkook heard what you said and laughed softly. He stroked your thigh as if to calm you down.
"That's what my mom said when I told my parents I was just passing through. I told my mother I was on business near Suwon so I came to see them because I was miss, even though I had important business in Seoul since morning. My mother was touched that I wasted time to coming to they and instantly melted." - Jungkook told you. You raised your eyebrows, unhappy that Jungkook was manipulating his mother's feelings with a lie.
"You lie to your mother and think it's okay?" - You asked, irritated. Jungkook gave you a quick glance and the smile disappeared from his lips.
"I wasn't lying. It was almost like that." - Jungkook defended himself. "If I had told her that I had come for a couple of days but had to leave in the morning, she would have been upset. Besides, I promised her I would come back after the new year."
"You've been lying a lot lately." - You complained, even though you knew Jungkook was right. The fact that he lied made sense. But he was really lying a lot, and you were nervous about it. He's the one who can lie to you easily!
"Only the last four years." - Jungkook says ironically, meaning that it started when he met Namjoon. You snort in displeasure.
"More. About six years." - You say. Jungkook raises his eyebrows, wondering why it took so long. He looks at you questioningly, and you stretch your lips into a luscious smile. "You wanted me all along and lied about me not being your type." - You explain. Jungkook smiles again, the smile of a man who has been exposed.
"Is it my fault that you didn't reciprocate for so long?" - Jungkook asks you. You're shocked. Meaning you didn't respond? Did he show any interest in you? He just liked to tease you and make you blush. He's been with a lot of girls, even though he says he's liked you since high school.
"Reciprocated on what? You never even hit on me like a normal guy." - Jungkook bursts out laughing.
"I'm sorry. I did it the best I could." - He says through his laughter.
"No. You didn’t do all the best that you could. You were just a playboy. Who thought, that his best friend wasn't going anywhere anyway." - You said it a little harshly. Jungkook didn't stop smiling, but he raised his eyebrows. It sounded like an accusation.
"Do you know me that well, baby?" - Jungkook jokes, trying to calm you down. Because he can already see you're getting annoyed.
"Yes. I know you very well. I just don't know why it took you so long to ask me out. Did you want to be free longer?" - You ask sharply, trying to be calm.
"I was in a relationship before you, so the 'free' theory isn't true, baby. I dated Minsoo at school for a year, and I dated Jayon for about a year too. And I dated Ha Young for a long time. But when I started working for Namjoon, it became difficult to have a girlfriend. I wasn't a playboy." - Jungkook explains indignantly. The mention of Jungkook's exes makes you even more irritated. You give him an angry look.
"You were!" - You growl. "Do you want me to recall all your passions that wrote to me to stay away from you? For some reason, your last one isn't there, although I'm sure she wanted to threaten me too. That's probably why you stopped talking to me during your first year at university." - Jungkook exhaled nervously. You were angry about this. You sat up straight and crossed your arms over your chest. Jungkook rubbed his palms on the steering wheel.
"Okay, if you think I'm a playboy, so be it. But what are we arguing about? You accuse me of not courted you well, but you've never even flirted with me as a joke. All I ever heard you say was, ‘I'm going to kill you, Jeon.’" - Jungkook imitated you. You choked on your anger and indignation.
"Did I have to do that? I thought you were my friend, and I didn't think it was necessary. But you were flirting with everyone, you didn't miss a skirt. And it spread to me too because I have boobs. That's why I didn't react." - You snapped back.
"You liked me, you could have reciprocated." - Jungkook says lightly.
"No, I didn't. I didn't like you!" - You shouted. Your pulse was pounding in your ears. Jungkook gave you a look full incredulous. "I only started to like you when we started living together." - You lied.
"Are you answering for your words?" - Jungkook asks you in a serious tone. You can hear your heart beating desperately against your ribcage, and you delay your answer for a long few seconds.
"Yes. I'm telling you the truth." - You say with determination, but you're afraid you don't sound confident. "If I would like you, how I was okay with you fucking every girl in town?" - The muscles in his jaw are pulsing. He's irritated. He flicks his tongue against his cheek, and you never miss this gesture.
"You've dreamed of being in those girls' shoes, and don't tell me you haven't, baby." - Jungkook says slyly. Although you expected a more angry reaction, judging by the look on his face.
"Never. You're the one who must have wanted me to be in their shoes, because you've been wanting to fuck me for so long." - You reply defiantly. Jungkook snorts. You approach him, leaning over the armrest. You can clearly see the shine of his perfect skin. "You should have just confess to me instead of sticking your dick in everyone's." - You smile. Jungkook pulls off the road and parks on the side of the road. You fall back on the seat. You stare dumbfounded at the road, trying to understand why Jungkook stopped. Before you can say anything, you feel Jungkook's hand squeezing your cheeks. His face is just a few centimeters away and his eyes radiate something devilish.
"Your big mouth is too big sometimes. I can put my cock in your mouth. That you'd stop saying stupid things." - Jungkook says thoughtfully. He looks at you with authority. You feel a piercing sensation between your thighs, and you think you just wet your panties.
"Try your luck, Jeon." - You say through clenched cheeks. You feel Jungkook's fingernails digging into your skin. Jungkook laughs, but it's a laugh that sounds like something between mocking and maniacal.
"Why do you like provoking me so much? Do you get off on me being rude to you?" - Jungkook asks, and you feel him already undoing the button on your jeans. You get wet in anticipation of Jungkook's fingers on your pussy. He's right that you like his roughness and power. But you can't admit it. Of course you love it when he's gentle and caring, but those eyes, those eyes in front of you, they set your whole being on fire.
"Don't even touch me!" - You scream when you feel his hand slowly slide down your pants. Jungkook's eyes darken even more when you don't let him. His cock instantly hardens. Jungkook captures your lips and his fingers are already touching your folds. You grab his hand, but your strength is not enough, because you can't resist your desire to have him touch you.
Jungkook terrorizes your lips, his tongue literally fills your entire mouth. You return the kiss with the same passion. He caresses your clit and you can't help but moan into Jungkook's mouth.
"Take off your pants quickly and get on my lap." - Jungkook orders you. You are flushed from his kiss and touch. Jungkook pushes his seat back as far as it will go. He notices that you are sitting still. You don't listen to him right away, and he gets mad. "Baby, don't try my patience. Otherwise I will punish you severely." - Jungkook asks you. Although it sounds like a pure threat. You smile slyly. You wonder how he can punish you severely?
"Make me, Jeon. I wasn't planning on sitting on your such promiscuous cock tonight." - You say as if you're testing Jungkook's patience. He's horny and eager to get satisfaction, and you won't bite your cheeky tongue. Jungkook slowly approaches you. He doesn't touch you, he just moves a short distance away. You unconsciously squeeze into the seat.
"You have half a minute to take off your clothes and climb on my lap. Otherwise I'll climb on top of you and you'll choke on my cock. Choose, baby." - He says gently. You look at him and realize that you are too excited. The wetness between your legs and the aching more screaming at you to listen to Jungkook and do as he says. Without looking away from your boyfriend's black eyes, you take off your jeans. Jungkook leaned back a little and smiled victoriously, one corner of his lips quirking up. "What a good girl." - He says and returns to his seat. Jungkook lifts his hips and pulls down his sweatpants along with his boxers. He lowers them to his knees so they don't get in the way.
You see Jungkook's erect cock, eager for attention. The thick vein that runs along its length attracts your attention and you want to feel it with your tongue.
You quickly get rid of your jeans and thong. You don't take off your turtleneck, thinking that you don't need to undress completely for a quick fuck.
Jungkook is waiting for you. He pumps his cock several times, smearing his pre-cum. When you climb onto his lap, he smiles evilly. You don't even expect the punishment you're going to get for your long tongue.
You press your pussy against his aroused cock and bite your lip. Jungkook grabs your hips and lifts you up to enter you right away. He won't stretch you this time. You have to be punished today.
You will feel the head of his cock running over your clit. Jungkook uses it to rub your wetness. When he presses his cock against your entrance, you sigh with anticipation. He plunges into you and you think he's going to go slowly, but his hands on your hips jerk you around and he enters you abruptly. A cry of pain escapes your mouth. Jungkook admires you, his lips curved in a cocky smile. Your eyes are closed, your eyebrows are drawn together, and your mouth is open. This expression could easily pass for pleasure, but your face is pure pain.
"You didn't think I'd be gentle, did you? As I remember, you like me to be rough." - Jungkook says with difficulty. His voice is low and husky. He's trying to withstand the way your tight pussy is squeezing his cock.
"It hurts..." - You whimper. Jungkook squeezes your thighs with his fingers and gives a deep thrust. You scream again, but less painfully. Now it's more pleasant than painful.
"You're being punished, not having lovemaking." - Jungkook tells you. You open your eyes and see his face radiating lust and anger at the same time.
"Why are you punishing me? For I telling that you fucked everyone?" - You say slyly. Jungkook looks at you defiantly and slams his hips into you again, plunging his cock into you as much as possible. It's as if he's knocking all the air out of you when he does this. You forget how to breathe when he starts fucking you intensely. You moan in pleasure, moving your hips to meet Jungkook's.
"You need to be punished for running your mouth. What business is it of yours how many I've fucked?" - Jungkook asks, breathing heavily.
"Business?" - You gasp. "It’s my business, because you could have fucked me a long time ago instead of all those whores." - You say indignantly. You talk as if you're not sitting naked on Jungkook in the car right now, filled to the brim with his cock.
"I'm fucking you right now, and I started doing it when we were friends. Aren't you also my slut too?" - Jungkook asks, smiling. You moan as you bounce on him. Are you his whore? Only he and you can't be compared to them.
"No. I'm not..." - You want to tell him not to put you on the same level as those girls. But his cock pounding into you, making you feel incredible, silences you.
"Oh, yeah. Just look at you. You're sitting on my cock and you can't get enough. You love it when I'm rough with you, like a real whore." - Jungkook's voice is hot. Your head is spinning.
Jungkook catches a glimpse of your erect nipples, visible through your black turtleneck. He takes one hand off your hip to free your breasts from your clothes. Your tits fall out and move in time with your movements.
Jungkook doesn't like the way your clothes are in the way. He stops you and takes off the last thing you're wearing, over your head. He throws the turtleneck elsewhere and pounces on your attractive nipples.
Jungkook grabs one in his hand, kisses it gently at first, then swirls his tongue around it several times. He suddenly sucks on the nipple so hard that almost tears barely appear in your eyes. You hiss, just sitting on his cock. Your pussy is throbbing and you wouldn't mind if Jungkook paid attention to your clit. He sucks on your nipples, and it hurts a lot more than all the other times.
"Does it hurt?" - Jungkook asks, pulling away from your breast. You bite your lip so hard that it hurts too. You nod that it hurts, but that's not the right answer. Jungkook smiles with satisfaction. Your punishment continues as he begins to pound you with his hips again, ruthlessly pushing his cock into you. You are as close together as possible, so you can feel his pubic bone with your clit.
Your knees are getting tired of holding onto the narrow seat on the sides of Jungkook's thighs. But Jungkook doesn't care.
He looks down at your pussy and thinks that you must be finally punished. You continue to ride Jungkook's cock and suddenly you feel a blow to your pussy. It doesn't hurt too much. But fuck, it's so unusual. You stop and watch Jungkook's cruel smile in puzzlement.
"This pussy is responsible for your long tongue. You can apologize to her for your impudence." - Jungkook says sweetly. You want to protest, but another stroke silences you, almost choking. Jungkook touches your clit, just as you wanted him to, and he massages it, making you feel euphoric. But when he pinches your clit, you scream. And Jungkook giggles in amusement. You squeeze his shoulder with all your strength, and if he wasn't wearing a sweatshirt, you would have scratched him.
"But you were right, baby. When I was fucking all those girls, I was imagining you." - Jungkook confesses. His voice is still brutal with no hint of sweetness. "Because all I ever wanted was you. You're my cherished dream come true." - You open your eyes and finally see his loving smile. You feel like everything inside you is on fire. He lights you up with a fire that spreads throughout your body. Your soul trembles at his words, as do you. You lean into him and kiss him, putting all your feelings into this kiss. Jungkook responds. Your lips tell each other that you are in love.
Jungkook squeezes your buttocks as he moves you around on his lap. You lean on the seat with one hand to keep your balance. You speed up your movements. You feel Jungkook's cock grinding against your walls. He touches your G-spot, building up your orgasm. A wave of pleasant pleasure slowly covers you. One moment and the knot in the bottom of your stomach breaks, engulfing your body in blissful pleasure.
You moan into Jungkook's ear and he can't get enough of the sound. He keeps fucking you so he can come himself. He hardens to the maximum and lifts your juicy hips to get out of you. You get up and instantly fall back on his lap. His hot cum paints your pussy and his stomach. You watch his cock twitch, spewing white liquid. When it softens, you finally look up at Jungkook. You see him smiling with satisfaction. You reflexively lift your lips in a smile.
"You didn't come in me, so that's a big success." - You joke. Jungkook grabs your neck and pulls you gently.
"Is that mouth ever going to stop being so big?" - He asks before kissing you one last time. You taste your boyfriend's lips and can't get enough.
"Never. I was given to you so that you would never relax in your life." - You answer, pulling away from Jungkook's lips. Jungkook laughs and you get off his lap. You have to clean yourself up. Before you can make it home.
Jungkook dropped you off at house. He wanted to help you carry your things upstairs, but you assured him that you could do it yourself. You argued for a long few minutes and you convinced him. He kissed you goodbye and left for the main office of «Mono Corp».
Jungkook was almost calm. He could have been nervous. After all, Namjoon had found out about everything. But Jungkook had everything under control. He was in Japan those days while you were away, and he was able to return all the devices. And they in Korea by now. Hayato texted he last night and told him that he and the devices were in the port of Busan.
Jungkook parks the Mercedes and goes up to the top floor of the building. He doesn't meet any of his friends on the way and it's a little strange. Where did they all go? He approaches Namjoon's office and greets the secretary. The woman nods and invites him inside. Jungkook crosses the threshold and finds himself in the sacred place for the boss of an influential mafia clan.
He felt heavy, like a mountain pressing down on his chest. This happens every time he finds himself in this place.
Namjoon's office wasn't just a workspace - it was a zone of authority that Jungkook hated and respected at the same time.
Dark wood on the walls, a large panoramic window overlooking the masterpiece lights of Seoul. A huge ebony desk with papers and documents on it reflected the very essence of this place: everything is under control. Namjoon was sitting at the desk, leaning slightly forward, focused, but his expression was not stern. There was an invisible warmth in him, but it was all deliberate.
"Jungkook." - He said quietly, without the usual pressure and threats that accompanied normal meetings in the mafia world. "Have a seat." - He pointed to the couch, which was located away from the table.
"Hello." - Jungkook greeted, bowing him and sat down on the designated seat. Namjoon put some papers aside. He ordered coffee from his secretary for the two of them and stood up from the table.
Jungkook didn't look at Namjoon, but he knew exactly what he was doing. The sound of his expensive shoes broke the silence. Namjoon sat down across from Jungkook and stared at his subordinate.
Jungkook looked up at the leader and stared intently at his expression.
"What's up, kid?" - Namjoon asked with an uncharacteristic warmth in his voice. Jungkook pressed his lips together, showing off his mole under his lower lip.
"All is right." - Jungkook didn't lie. Namjoon lazily turned his head to the side, his gaze remaining calm but studying. His whole appearance was like a challenge, but not aggressive. It was an intellectual strength, a strength that didn't need to be brutal. He looked at Jungkook, and his eyes reflected a patience that could end at any time.
"Why did you hide everything from me?" - Namjoon asks. Jungkook knows exactly what he's talking about.
"Jimin had nothing to do with it. It's completely my fault. So please don't punish him." - Jungkook says at first. This brings a faint smile to Namjoon's lips. He's always so noble.
"Jimin knows me well, he should have foreseen that I would find out about your affairs anyway." - Namjoon said more coldly, showing that Jimin would not escape punishment for covering up for Jungkook. "It's so funny, kid, that you thought I wouldn't know that 50 million dollars disappeared from under my nose." - Namjoon let out a shrill laugh. The laughter echoed in Jungkook's ears like an intrusive fly.
"I didn't think you wouldn't find out, I just wanted to solve it on my own. Without bothering you." - Jungkook said in his defense.
"Solved it?" - Namjoon asked mockingly, raising his eyebrows. Jungkook wanted to answer, but the secretary came into the office with two cups of espresso. She silently put the coffee tray down, clearly sensing the tension around, and left as quickly as she could. Namjoon took the white, small cup with the black drink and took a sip. The aroma of coffee teased Jungkook's receptors. But he didn't want to drink coffee right now.
"Yes." - Jungkook replied, more firmly than he wanted to. Namjoon tasted the coffee and nodded his head.
"I like how you decided. You took almost a month to find out where the devices were. Beat that asshole to a pulp in front of our Japanese partner. And because of you, I wasted 10 minutes of my life listening to his father complain and demand compensation from me for some reason." - Namjoon said. He put the cup of coffee on the table and adjusted his expensive Rolexes.
"I'll explain..." - Jungkook said. He regretted answering so quickly. How could he explain if everything was tied to you?
"What exactly do you want to explain?" - Namjoon clarified. "Why did Doohoon, as soon as he got to Korea, immediately start make trouble to you? Or why did you beat him up and leave his blood all over the hallway? Or how did you manage to lose my 50 million dollars so easily?" - Jungkook exhaled a long breath. There were no answers to these questions, specifically for Namjoon.
"I returned the devices." - Jungkook said, carefully avoiding the topic of Doohoon.
"So what? I don't want them, I want the money." - Namjoon says dryly, and now Jungkook hears the tone he's become accustomed to.
"I'll sell them personally, I already have a new client." - Jungkook says.
"Are you sure, that I have to give you another chance?" - Namjoon asks a rhetorical question. Jungkook looks him in the eye, not afraid of his boss for a second, even though he should be.
"I'll sell them for 100 million." - Jungkook replies, and a spark lights up in Namjoon's eyes.
"100 million." - Namjoon repeats. He is silent for a second and then answers. "Don't let me down, kid. If you don't sell it for 100 million, you know This amount will be added to your debt." - He says, and it's no surprise to Jungkook. It was expected.
"I won't let you down." - Jungkook says. Namjoon finally smiles. It seems that the sum of 100 million dollars has lifted Namjoon's spirits quite a bit. He is relaxing, his posture shows it, and Jungkook is also relieved.
"But the question of Doohoon is still open." - The clan leader speaks up about him.
"I will deal with him as well. Please give me some time." - Jungkook asks. Namjoon stares at him again with a long, piercing gaze.
"Go ahead. But really deal with this brat, because I have enough problems from his father. I have more important things to do." - Namjoon says and finishes his espresso.
"I'll take care of it." - Jungkook promises. Namjoon nods in acknowledgment.
"Why does that guy Doohoon hate you so much? I remember he didn't like you in high school or something." - Namjoon says. Jungkook doesn't want to talk about this topic at all. So he keeps his mouth shut. "But thanks to him, you work for me." - The clan leader suddenly says, and Jungkook looks up at him.
"I'm only working off my debt, no more. Since Doohoon is back in Korea, you could demand your money from him. He's the one who owes you." - Jungkook says a little sharply. Namjoon's face radiates disappointment. He doesn't like the way Jungkook is talking. He would rather have Jungkook work for him voluntarily. He sees Jungkook's essence, and this job he's doing is perfect for him.
"You'll work off his debt because you're just as involved in this." - Namjoon says coldly.
"I didn't turn you in to the police, and I told you that many times. I'm not the reason you lost the money." - Jungkook defends himself.
"I don't care. Whether you were involved or not, the two of you brought him to my club." - Namjoon cuts him off, referring to the police officer's son. Jungkook stops talking and decides that the conversation is over. He gets up from the couch.
"I have to go. I have things to do." - Jungkook bows and is about to leave when Namjoon's words make him freeze in horror.
"So you two became enemies because of your girl friend?" - Namjoon asks. He said he knew everything, didn't he? Jungkook turns and glares at Namjoon. "She's really pretty, I understand why there's a war. How long have you two been living together? Jimin says she has a temper." - He pauses, enjoying Jungkook's look, and continues. "But kid, lets you make sure that your girlfriend doesn't affect my company's income. Really handle everything yourself, so I don't have to interfere personally."
Jungkook has left and you are standing on the street. There is even more snow in Seoul than in Suwon, but all the roads are well plowed. Your hands are freezing from the slight frost, and so you want to get inside as soon as possible.
To get into the building, you have to cross the parking lot, because that's where Jungkook dropped you off. You wrap your jacket tighter because there is a terrible draft in the yard and grab the handle of your suitcase. You walk away thinking about a hot bath. You don't notice the gray Volvo parked in the parking lot, not far from the high-rise building. When you pass by and hear the horn honking, you jump in surprise.
You want to scold the person who honked the horn, but you drop your suitcase, which falls on the snow compacted by cars. Doohoon stands with his car door open and smiles at you with difficulty. He can't do it normally because his face is so beaten up.
His right eyebrow is cut, and it looks like there might even be stitches because he has a large bandage on it. His lip is split in two places. There are severe bruises under both eyes, purple and burgundy in color, which suggests that they are slowly coming off. Doohoon's appearance is horrifying. Only brown eyes, the color of the whiskey, remain of his handsome face.
"Hello, candy." - He greets you, and you just want to run. You instantly remember everything you've been told Jungkook about Doohoon and you want to made him another bruise. You come to your senses. You pick up your suitcase and walk as fast as you can without saying hello to Doohoon. He catches up with you, grabbing your arm. You pull your hand away.
"Don't touch me!" - You shout. Doohoon presses his lips into a line and almost immediately grimaces in pain. His acting is Oscar-worthy.
"Let's talk, candy..." - Doohoon asks you. You feel a kind of growing anxiety. With Doohoon, you felt this all the time.
"We have nothing to talk about with you. Just like all the times before." - You say angrily.
"You came together and you return to his apartment. I can see that my words about Jungkook didn't impress you at all, although you had a slightly different reaction at the party." - Doohoon says. You pierce him with a look worth a hundred knife cuts.
"What's your business with me and my reaction? Stop following me." - You ask. Doohoon smiles, restrained and almost sweet.
"Do you remember what I said to you that night?" - Doohoon asks, but you don't answer. "I told you that I like you. That's why I can't stand aside while Jungkook is with you. It's not stalking, it's caring." - You raise your eyebrows and get even angrier.
"I don't need your concern. I don't like you for the life of me. And your behavior scares me." - You confess. Doohoon laughs heartily.
"Scares you?" - He repeats mockingly. "Does my caring scare you more than Jungkook whose hands are up to their elbows in blood?" - You freeze with a shadow of fear on your face.
"He didn't kill anyone..." - You say quietly, not believing yourself.
"Candy." - Doohoon calls you gently. "He did. You're a smart girl, you should know that people connected to the mafia are not saints. If you knew what he was doing, you'd change your mind." - You stare at each other for a while. You don't know what to say in defense of Jungkook. But Doohoon is wrong. Jungkook is still a very good person who has been trapped. And it's all thanks to Doohoon.
"Whose fault is that?" - You ask. "It's your fault that Jungkook is working for Namjoon." - Your voice is laced with venom. Doohoon takes a step toward you and you can hear your heart pounding, but you remain unmoved.
"Maybe so. But I'm not the one who pulls the trigger on a gun and beats people to death." - Doohoon says looking down at you. You look bravely into his cold eyes. "He is dangerous to you and you realize it. One day you might get hurt because of Jungkook." - Doohoon reaches out and touches your cheek. "That's why I'm here, to save you." - You're not impressed by his words. You knock his hand away.
"Who gave you permission to touch me?" - You ask harshly. "Get off me. Leave me and Jungkook alone. I don't need your concern because I know who you really are." - You jab your finger at Doohoon's chest. "You envious piece of shit." - Doohoon laughs. His anger has been growing as fast as a fire burning through dry grass. Your stance of resistance only strengthened his desire to possess you. Are you deliberately making him obsessed with you?
You walk away and Doohoon doesn't stop you. He looks at you and thinks you just signed your own warrant. He was trying to persuade you to distance yourself from Jungkook in a nice way. It looks like he need to move on to more effective ways.
You disappear from Doohoon's sight and he walks back to the car. Once behind the wheel, he dials the number he needs. Several long beeps reach his ear.
"Hello?" - Doohoon hears on the other end of the phone.
"I need to hire some guys. Remember when we talked about this?" - Doohoon asks. He starts the car and hears the sound of the engine.
"Kidnapp some girl?"
"Yeah. Find those guys who have a beef with Jungkook. I'll come to you right away and we'll talk about it in detail." - Doohoon doesn't wait for an answer and turns off the phone. His Samsung flies to the seat next to him. Doohoon steps on the gas pedal and leaves the parking lot of your and Jungkook's house.
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#jungkook x reader#jungkook#bts#bts jungkook#jungkook x f!reader#jungkook smut#jungkook friends with benefits#bts mafia au#bts fanfction
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#okay tbh I think Silver's need to be loved supercedes most of his morals#because he is so continually unloved and unappreciated#we must assume that when he becomes silver that's one of the few versions of himself that has truly been loved#and he can have his logic and his thinking but like#for a man who always has one foot out the door then they cut it off as he's said#it's one thing to be needed. depended on. appreciated even. it is another thing to be loved#over the course of this series we see how the crew of the walrus grows to appreciate silver. worship him even#and in this worship they begin to love the tale and the story and the character#it's incredible to watch him become Long John Silver#but regular John Silver doesn't need glory or admiration he needs to be loved#he Needs to be loved and he knows it exists#in the way that thomas and flint loved each other#he has a lot of that with madi for sure because she gets a more genuine version of him#but flint knows him in a way nobody else has or will because flint sees him#madi sees him too#the perfect answer here is polyamory but that's another monologue for another set of tags#anyways we know john silver will do terrible awful things#we know what he is capable of#so I do believe him capable of unmaking someone#so my read on the text is alive.#I am also delighted by the ambiguity for SURE#but John Silver would not destroy the one thing that could give him what he truly needs#and that is to be one man who is loved without question. unconditionally. because nobody ever truly has before#and if that mere possibility for him to have that exists? he'd secret it away#he'd hem and haw about deserving to be loved and ultimately never pursue it#but he'd never fully destroy the chance#because all one really needs is a chance#I didn't mean to do this oops#john silver desperately needs to be loved but doesn't understand how to get it#because he's lived a life where affection is transactional
i'm sorry i love your tags so much @spacelesbin and they've subsequently driven me mad
dont blow up my notes with arguing, i just want to know what The People In General think. if you want to change minds please make an original post
#black sails#the ambiguity makes me INSANE#but also he's alive bc i fuckin said so#(i also just find it hard to believe they would SHOW his reuniting with thomas to us ON CAMERA intending it to be a lie)#also also#secret third option: FLINT is dead bc silver fully unmade him and james mcgraw is alive
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LENKA'S ULTIMATE FICS HALL OF FAME ༉‧₊˚.
i’ve been reading fics on tumblr for a whileeeee. many years. i went through many phases, celebrity crushes, fictional crushes and obviously, fics related to them. only some stuck with me through all this time and well, here there are!!
what’s important, i’ve done this type of post before only with theodore nott in mind. i was asked by anon to recommend some more so here you can find him, as well as many different characters across many films, books, tv shows, genres. i lowkey recommend reading most of them honestly, even if you don’t know the characters. some are just in alternate universes so the name or context of the character doesn’t really matter :)
i’m picky and particular with fics so i promise these are best of the best 🤍 well written, in character, super cute all that. and like 80 percent is fluff
SO have a lovely time reading!! let’s start
(if i tagged a character and there's no section for them, they're for sure down at the bottom in "misc" – with poe dameron, regulus black, scorpius malfoy, jake peralta and some more <3)
spencer reid
i love baby steps by @sinfulspencer !!!!! i love domestic spencer
also can't let go by the same author i remember being lovely
fluffy cute ass blurb by @tinyluvs
asleep spence by @in-another-april <3
i looooveee @radiant-reid ! for example this little fic
and this omg
oh and these season 7/8 headcanons!!
theodore nott
i might accidentally repeat myself from my theo recs post, sorry:( most of them should be new recs though
speaking of repeating myself, first i'd like to repeat myself on purpose. if @artytaeh has no fans i am dead, i swear to goddd. i stand by what i said last time. best characterisation of theo, everything seems like it's made with so much care, no misses in the masterlist. read it alllllll
i mentioned veryberryjelly in my last theo recs too. here are some more of my favourites :) this and also this i ordered hehe. also i don't remember if last time i linked blair witch or tangled in lights so here you get them both
little dragon by @retrobutterflies super so very sweet
i remember the cat chronicles by @obsessedwithcelesteare being very cute 🌟 i love theo + cats combo always
like a moth to a flame by @julesinsummer angsty!!!!! but so good
honestly i'm pretty sure i talked about it in theo recs already but in case i haven't you need to read this by @agirlsguidetolove
i remember loving fools by @luv4freddie !!! cute
this by @darkmagic-s was super silly and fun i love silly and fun things yayay
i for sure i talked about @cassiopeiasdaughter but did i talk about mirrorball specifically? i requested this and i loooveee it
this unhinged smut by @theostrophywife i love i stan
also silly little smut hcs by @sucka4thepuss hehe, most of them i agree i love em
😣😣😣<3😣
alright done with this smut section just this too let me link
cute and silly reminders of marriage thing by
@wordsarelife made this cute thing that lol im like 70% sure i may have requested???? and the ask looks like something i would ask for hehe
@suugarbabe makes really good stuff :)
cedric diggory
golden by @sapphicwhxre (love the username btw) might be my favourite cedric fic? first date cedric loooooveee
plain sight by @softboyluvr too oh my god! love this as a scenario
rainy summers as well as just you by @mirclealignr i think im just all for pure cedric diggory fluff (well written too!)
godsend by @pariahsparadise with sick reader super very sweet
@mistress-riddle made this lovely thing (and she's also btw soooooooo unbelievebly great with tom riddle fics if thats your cup of tea, i love all of them)
ced yule ball hcs by @styleswithaseaview are so sweet and there are also lovely petnames ones by the same author <3
cuuuute girldad!ced called pigtails by @mayabooowrites
post hogwarts cedric just so so so sweet by @iliveiloveiwrite, here's lighthearted domesticity
misc (all the other characters)
there's a bunch of my phases passed a long long time ago but some fics are just waaay too good to not keep rereading and recommending them. i think they're all pretty universal and can be imagined with anyone as the main love interest so please read them even if you don't know the character. and DON'T judge me ;(((( for the characters !!! i'm exposing myself enough. these were found by young me from a long while ago
this by @wizkiddx is the sweetest ever tom holland blurb about how he's a clumsy mess trying to measure reader's ring size while she's asleep
i think destined by @thirst-refinery is the cutest soulmate au made, even though i don't think the story was ever finished? but i love it still and honestly i am very not ashamed to be in love with poe dameron
black leader shutting up by @starryeyedstories also greattttt poe dameron fic
clingy fluffy sugary sweet scorpius malfoy in dinner by @blog-of-a-multitude-of-fandoms <3
🤎🤎 regulus black bunch :) here and here as well as here and here
....or maybe i just love timothee chalamet? like here and also here and definitely here
out of my hamilton phase a few years ago came out my love for this fic which might be one of my favourites ever, i legit have this text copied to my notes just in case it ever gets deleted
my alex turner moment was brief but so fun
OH AND this long jake peralta fic by @ongaku-ato-kakikomi is oh my god SOOO much fun please read it
also another poe dameron fic, this one is so good, by @absolutelyfizzing, kind of angsty also!!!!
DALI ON TUESDAY charlie dalton fic by @rostovs-loveralso one of my favourite things on this whole app. love love love love
YAY THATS ALL. this took so long. you've got my whole collection now. all of the all time favourites and more. love love you, hope you love reading them as much as i did<3🌜🌟👼 night night
#spencer reid#spencer reid x reader#theodore nott#theodore nott x reader#cedric diggory#cedric diggory x reader#regulus black#scorpius malfoy#jake peralta#poe dameron#lenka’s recs#fic recs#timothee chalamet#tom holland
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STAR TREK DIALOGUE ANALYSIS OVERVIEW
oh boy so i mentioned this project awhile back and after a long hiatus i'm finally done! (the irony that i wrote this and then took a second equally long hiatus but the point stands.)
i went through transcripts for TOS, TNG, DS9, Voyager, and Enterprise (thanks to chakoteya.net for those!) and calculated how many lines each main character has in each episode (and season & show as a whole), calculated means, looked at who had a lot of high & low line count episodes, made some graphs, and did some analysis on gender and race.
you can find my whole process & results on a spreadsheet here (it's a little messy. i'm sorry. if someone pays me i'll make it look nice and actually learn how to make good graphs in Google Sheets.) and i'll walk through some Big Results & reactions on this post here under a cut. just so this doesn't get too long, i'll breakdown each show, post my gender & race analysis, and a big list of every character with how much of a focus they get on separate posts. they'll all be tagged as "star trek dialogue analysis".
but first just a disclaimer – i do have professional experience doing data analysis but this is by no means a professional analysis and i'm sure there are plenty of mistakes because this was initially a small personal project that snowballed a little bit. if there are any Major Things you see that are wrong (i.e. i copy and pasted a totally wrong value somewhere) please reach out and i'll correct it if i can. also if anyone wants to use this data for anything, feel free but tag me because i'm curious!
see also: gender analysis // race analysis // tos breakdown // tng breakdown // ds9 breakdown // voyager breakdown // enterprise breakdown // who's the most/least used character?
all of the following graphs measure mean (average) lines of dialogue per episode, averaging all seasons (that they were a main character) together. please refer to the spreadsheet for more detailed information about exact numbers.
unsurprising results... this is the one Star Trek show that really never aspired to be an ensemble show. i was actually surprised by how few lines Spock and McCoy have in comparison to Kirk
also unsurprising that the two characters of color have the fewest lines per episodes in the 60s
Kirk had BY FAR the most lines of dialogue per episode out of all characters i've measured (115.20)
again unsurprising that Picard has more lines by such a wide margin
honestly fairly surprised by how few lines Data had (I thought he'd beat Riker by a decent margin) and was very surprised at how few lines Troi consistently has across the season. like i knew it wasn't many but dang... only 18 lines per episode on average.
and here we can see that ds9 really embraces being an ensemble show with everyone (sans Sisko, Ezri, & Jake) having around the same number of lines on average, probably the most equal overall of any Star Trek show.
Sisko obviously has the most lines as the lead and Jake the fewest because of irl work restrictions (and less kid-centric stories).
i was surprised with how many lines Ezri had but then again her entire character was compressed into a single season so it seems fair. (interestingly, Ezri has the most lines out of anyone in s7 (996), even beating Sisko (874))
despite having the most lines in DS9, Sisko has by far the least out of any main character/Captain of the shows i've measured.
Janeway has the highest average line count out of any 90s character and third highest of any character i measured (69.51)
and again, with the exception of Janeway, we see that Voyager tends to be more ensemble focused than TNG which surprised me a bit given how later seasons are often criticized for ignoring a lot of characters but i think the very ensemble heavy early seasons balance things out.
the characters also generally seem to have more lines on average than either TNG or DS9.
and oof... yeah Voyager was it for the ensemble style show
Archer has the second highest average line count (86.68) for the whole study after Kirk (115.20)
apparently the inception of Enterprise was to recreate the TOS style triumvirate and for better or worse they certainly did.
some overall fun stats –
there are 162,455 total lines of dialogue spoken by the main cast from TOS to Enterprise
somehow there's only a ten line difference between the amount of dialogue spoken in TNG (43,148) and DS9 (43,158)
the 5 characters with the most dialogue per episode in Berman era Trek: Archer (86.68), Janeway (69.51), Picard (69.37), Sisko (50.72), & Tucker (46.03). notably only one woman and one character of color (more on this in a gender & race analysis post)
not including kids, the 5 characters with the least dialogue in Berman era Trek are: Mayweather (13.39), Sato (15.99), Troi (18.11), Kes (18.18), & Neelix (19.68). notably including three women and two characters of color (again, more on this in a different post)
the character who has the most dialogue in a single length episode is Quark with 189 lines in Who Mourns For Morn?
#star trek dialogue analysis#i hope this makes you fellow stats nerds happy#i did the bulk of this like. a year ago but i was just procrastinating on doing the write up#my posts#i'm expanding on everything in future posts that will be out in the next few minutes but feel free to ask questions!#star trek#tos#tng#ds9#voyager#enterprise
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Soy super fan de tu trabajo, I love the vibe of all the stuff you make, it's always so good (〃´▽`)
I was wondering if there were any specific places or websites where you take references from for your character designs / vibe / environment overall?
And if it was possible for you to share the wireframe or geometry of any of the peklo little guys! I'm very curious about the way they are built in 3D.
If not that's totally fine, with you knowing that I just love your work it's good with me ( ̄▽ ̄)
Que tengas un gran día! (*´∇`)ノ
oh hello thank you :3
i do have a peklo pinterest board but i try not to look at it too much.. nothing wrong with looking at references obvs but i'm scared to unconsciously copy too much. it's mostly n64 and nds animal crossing screenshots but there's also other games, photos of places, illustrations...
also the stuff i reblog here. i have inspo tags like peklo ref, city ref (which ended up being for any type of locations), retro electronics, etc. tumblr has been really useful for this.
i get some inspo from daily conversations too, my dreams, movies, toys... just anything really. i think about my characters often so it's not hard to come up with stuff for them from that
sorry for the long wait i just realized i had this answer in my drafts ૮ – ﻌ–ა
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ooohhhh long long post!!!! [this is @doodlejoltik's main btw for any of the people I tagged that might not recognise it]
@pillowbugs aww thanks ! i didn't realise/remember that your blog was new at the time :O that's awesome to hear! it's fun seeing your art and writing!
i cannot possibly mention everyone cool that i know on this site but I'll try for a few at least. again in no particular order
@beastkonohaworld BK!!! you've been a great person to work with and an even greater friend :D chemmet is one of the highlights of my merch collection too. here's to another great year!
@protagpigeon KAIT! :D collabs shenanigans silliness you name it, if it's comedic we can do it XD immensely enjoyed all the time we've spent together, may there be endless more fun times to be had
@reestallized hey reestal! fellow Rei fan :D love your art and ideas loads, they're always so great to see !!! especially your traditional art it's something you do that is very cool :O same with the colour palette challenges
@cheesecake801 cheese it's quite possibly your fault that I enjoy volkner so much. it's contagious you spread it to everyone XDDD love the warm colours you use in your art and all the Character Thoughts you have, they're so wonderful <3
@skitter-kitter aka. one of the Lear fans ever. it's Definitely your fault i like Lear so much i blame you entirely /lh thank you for the fun times vibing about writing in DMs together, the community you've organised for us Lear fans, and generally being Very Cool <3
@ursamajorgamma we only met this past year, but it's been a delight knowing you! VC shenanigans beloved all our conversations have been so interesting and/or fun. epic Lear art and other paintings too :OO
@defoozor thank you for the cool art talk and other conversations, the awesome concepts you've made (Lear_Gem and Arc Suit Consequences are iconic) and also the VC fun hehe
@davepeta neppy you're always down for fun and silliness and you appreciate a good Bit! cool writing too, and art, and it's just awesome to hang out with you on chat.
@choochooboss Jun thank you for everything you've done for the community and being an AWESOME person to know! I've gushed many a time about how much i love pokemagma so I won't repeat myself but suffice to say it's one of the best things I've ever been part of. and to borrow from BK: U CUTE also!
@turtwisp we've only been talking regularly pretty recently, but you are very cool :3 love your barries !!!
@grubbin22 you are so nice and so sweet i've very much enjoyed the time we've spent together!!! and I've always admired your art so it's awesome to make your acquaintance
@monvallaria our acquaintance has been short so far but I'm absolutely loving it!!! you're a delight! love all your little doodles with hearts everywhere and much hilarity it's wonderful <3 <3 <3 here's to more fun together
@antihibikase it was super fun to talk and hang out productively, plus it's nice to see you around. i hope 2025 is a good year for you <3
@ultipoter yippee ulti! i love your art so much... such a recognisable and distinct artstyle with some traditional and anime influences that is Very Tasty. awesome character thoughts like that one Volo comic that popped off, hilarious Bits (Volo Cola, our incredibly stupid venn diagram /affectionate) and one of the guys of all time (holds up Jirou like a lil plushie). it's always a delight when you're around! I'm very happy to know you
@scraggscribbs hey scraggs, hope you've been well! i appreciate all the support and amazing comments you've given me on my fics <3 and you make such AMAZING manga with such interesting characterisation, I'm in awe! enjoy all our conversations very much and would love to catch up again :D
@hwpn-gurire I really appreciate all the comments and positive energy you bring to the pokemas community! you uplift everyone and always have a kind word :) plus your art is fantastic - thanks for teaching me that lil trick about offset colour, it's a really fun effect to use!
@claitea you have Many character thoughts that we are in agreement on / make me Think. really great stuff, thank you for appreciating my insane tag rambling on your posts LOL frequently pointing like yeah YOU GET IT! your art is great too with many :O comics that live in my brain rent free 👍
@kobandan you've listened to me a lot over this past year, thank you for that <3 your art is awesome, especially love your submas series with all their different pokemon. seeing those less popular combinations get the spotlight is great!
@smashwolfen originator of UPDOG my beloved snorlax.... thank you for the Very Epic name and continuing to stay subscribed to my silly Updog Newsletter XD I promise to continue the saga! also love your art, so much good PLA <33333 the Volo sketch page I remember quite well, phenomenal stuff hahahaha
@raikouswish rei-membering all the good times we've had this year 😁 i always have so much pun talking to you! here's to staying f-rei-nds in times to come >:3
@shibearts U CUTE !!!! love your designs and OCs they are super epic and you always hit me with the nostalgia blast. you've inspired me with your character design! geographyverse collab sometime this year surely
@submastrain it's been awesome collaborating with you! your rendering and colours make my brain light up they're so good :O
and many MANY more people that I've had the pleasure of talking to or reblogging posts back and forth with or drawing with - I'm sorry I can't mention you all!! appreciate all of you, whether we're mutuals or you're just following me along on this ride - both here and with my pokeposting :3
happy new year!
@jumpy-buggy-33 @ollie-arts67 @ashmeertheimp @k4izershasfreakycanon @cyrophobia
[And all my moots becuz I'm supposed to be helping out during party 😋]
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、 𓈈 🫧(ꈍᵕꈍ) pity party : the event.
📸◍ ✿ 𓂅 happy new year! i wanted to post this yesterday but i was kinda busy lol. thank you all so so much that i'm able to post moodboards and carry on! sometimes i lose all motivation and am on the verge on deleting very one of my social acc, but thanks to all of you that i'm continuing! thank you all of my moots and followers who have been supporting me! and thank you so much for 130+ followers so quick! a special thanks to @r-kizn who encouraged me and helped me to start my blog! i never expected to be this loved by all of you, tysm! y'all are the best gif i could ask for this year. let's start with the event. sorry for the shitty prizes 😭!
、 𓈈 ��(ꈍᵕꈍ) how to participate.
🧵◍ ✿ 𓂅 like this post + reblog, and comment “yourname slays”, tagging 2 - 4 people who would want to join this event too!
❀ 🪞 ✦ dm me with your favourite song and your favourite squid game character cause why not? if you haven't watched it's okay, just dm me your favourite actor/actress.
、 𓈈 🪻(ꈍᵕꈍ) the rules.
📺◍ ✿ 𓂅 your moodboard should be 90% made by you, using free to use locs, images, dividers is allowed!
❀ 🦋 ✦ do not take inspo from other participants or blogs!
🛍◍ ✿ 𓂅 you CAN'T join after the 30th jan.
❀ 🍴 ✦ you can submit upto 2 entries, deadline posting your moodboard(s) is 13th february.
👖◍ ✿ 𓂅 you must claim your prizes before 20th february.
❀ 🫓 ✦ to claim designs, you must have joined my shop
🐏◍ ✿ 𓂅 tag “#❁ ⌑📸 pity party : the event” for me to see your moodboard!
❀ 🔮 ✦ for any doubts or anything i may have forgotten to add, please dm me or just comment here!
、 𓈈 🎟(ꈍᵕꈍ) the prizes.
🎐◍ ✿ 𓂅 1st : 200 reblogs, 80 rbx, 1 fgif, 2 headers, 4, layouts, 1 divider, 3 channel set or full server set up of custome theme (no anime/genshin).
❀ 📷 ✦ 2nd : 150 reblogs, 50 rbx, 3, layouts, 1 divider, 1 header, 2 channel set or half set up of custom theme (no anime/genshin).
🍽◍ ✿ 𓂅 3rd : 100, reblogs, 25 rbx, 2 layouts, 1 divider, 1 channel set.
special tags : @r-kizn @inassvage @k-hoons @beompercar @aesverse @leehanade @beomcoms @4uarterlife @ayatxt @arie-n @ningrlz @nikist-4-n @nikist-2-n @yuzchaes @n-americano @i9hrtszn @yeritos @softkiseu @c-ollie @kiyeuo @ecojinri @yvesntially @k-charms @daddldee @t-aepies @you!
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Mood Ring: the moodboard tag game
The rules: Either: choose one of your published fics (or a WIP if you'd prefer), create a moodboard for it and share it along with a snippet. Or: Create a moodboard for your fave episode of the show, fave character, or a fic someone else has written that you love, and share it with some sentences about why it's a fave! (And tag people!).
29 Going on 30
During a trip to New York City to celebrate TK turning 30, TK and Carlos stumble upon a list of things TK always wanted to do before he turned 30, all of them being references to romantic comedies he loved so much growing up.
While TK is fine with leaving the past in the past, Carlos thinks there's no better time than the present. He thinks that TK deserves to feel the same type of love he loved watching on the silver screen, so he devotes the rest of their trip to just that.
Told through a tale filled with everlasting love, a never-ending trek across New York City and the occasional painful reminder of the past, Carlos learns a little more about the city TK once called home and TK learns a little more about himself.
Here's a snippet 💕
“TK,” Carlos turns to TK, the skyline forgotten and TK follows his motions. “In my vows, I said that you are the dream I would not allow myself to have, and every time I wake up next to you, I feel like I’m still dreaming. Every time I wake up next to you, I think this feels too good to be true.” TK wonders where this could be going, if they’re both afraid of the same thing and if so, what could that mean. “But,” Carlos says. “That’s what I love about it. Every day with you it’s like I get to experience falling in love for the first time all over again. I get to feel the euphoric rush of realizing I’ve found the one and I get to feel that again and again and again.” “I think that part of living life is finding new ways to left love in,” Carlos continues. “Learning that love can be an afternoon serenade, a hideous sweater that you still found a way to look good in or the realization that the love that feels too good to be true is the love that you’ve been deserving of all along.” TK is quiet for a beat; a medley of mixed emotions overtaking him. Love that feels too good to be true is the love that you’ve been deserving of all along. Maybe Carlos is right, maybe he needs to let himself finally feel comfortable with the idea that this type of love isn’t meant to crumble. He won’t have to dig through the remains of what’s left to restore himself. This love has a foundation that’s meant to last. Quietly, he asks, “You still think I’m a dream?” “So much I almost can’t believe my eyes,” Carlos replies with a smile.
Is now a good time to say that I've started working on an unofficial sequel titled 30 Going on Forever where they go back for Carlos' birthday, which is during Pride, and they do all the queer things teenage Carlos never thought he'd get to do (let alone with the love of his life)? I'm excited 💕
Thanks for the tags @heartstringsduet and @carlos-in-glasses for thinking up this fun game! Also thanks to this user for the divider!
#my pelvic pain is flaring up like a bitch today so my mind is kinda doa so pls use the open tag if i didn't tag you <3#anyways!! strand bookstore!! heaven on earth!! <3#fic: 29 going on 30#on the shelf#tag you're it#my writing#tarlos
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2024 Fic Writer End of Year Roundup
Answer and then tag three or more creators to keep the game going!
Thank you to everyone who tagged me! I'm sorry this is late. I've been working on it for days. It's really long.
1. How many words did you publish on AO3 in 2024?
366,893
2. How many fics did you complete this year?
9!
3. How many in progress or ongoing fics did you start this year?
I have 1 WIP: A Love That Bleeds and a Koschei x Eris fic that's not posted yet (but close to drafted).
4. What was your favorite thing you wrote?
I love all my babes equally, but I am most proud of Just Enough Light to Cast Shadows, which was my first fan fic, and a true labor of love.
5. What piece was your most experimental or different from your usual style?
Monster feels different from a lot that I've written. It's pre-cannon and examines Lucien and Eris's relationship, and is not ship-centered.
6. Did any fics surprise you - either while writing or their reception?
My Azris modern AU The Night Court Lounge really took me by the throat. It was supposed to be a slutty little spite fic and then it just took off. The boys caught feelings and I caught feelings. But I have @pippsmcgee to thank for hyping that story up. She was the brain child behind a big plot point, the pet names, and just talked me through positions and timing and what ifs... truly a gift.
7. Do you have a fic you wrote and loved that went under the radar? (This is your sign to reblog/repost it!)
Hmmm... not sure? Maybe my Amarantha x OC fic? It's hard to write pre-canon stories, especially for a villain! A Love That Bleeds is pretty dark and touches upon themes of slavery, love and autonomy, and is different from much that I write. But I am so proud of it.
8. Who is an artist that inspired you?
There are too many talented artists to list. Here are a few: @nus4y who makes Azriel's skin literally glow and everything just screams passion. LOOK AT HIS BRILLIANCE on A03 (NSFW)
@queercontrarian never fails to surprise me. Their take on the Court fashions, hair styles, jewelry. So much diversity and representation. THIS is one of my all time favorites. THEEESAN.
@palomita-de-la-sangre whose style is so unique and gorgeous and raw. This is what I mean.
@seihdacalling is immensely talented! Her Eris and pups and JEL Eris? AND LOOK AT MITHRAS (my beloved OC).
@bloodyplunder whose work is so passionate and full of color and movement. LOOK at this! AND (NSFW) LOOK AT JEL CHAPTER 25 on AO3!
@fourteentrout is inspired and talented. And all around incredibly kind and supportive. Just brilliant. LOOK AT FIRE SPRITE ERIS
@laxibbeb creates characters' faces in a way that hold so much emotion. NESTA is a favorite, omg... and AZRIEL IN STIRRUPS.
@elleybug @chunkypossum @lucychanart (who made me a Tamsand believer. God, this one?) so many more...
9. Who is an author that inspired you?
There are SO many. First and foremost, @chunkypossum who welcomes new creators with so much warmth and support. Every single story. Every word is magical. @iftheshoef1tz is another legend who is so kind and warm and wickedly talented. Every single story is perfection. Will they adopt me as my Azris parents? Maybe. Congrats! It's a shoe-possum!
@the-darkestminds is truly someone I could write a book about. The emotions she brings out with her characters and words will leave you breathless. If you want to feel, read her stories. You will walk away so full of every emotion, but also with a newfound appreciation for each character. And @mistandmemories whose Eris is the funniest, most clever, most lovable in the biz. Her Azriel makes me laugh constantly. How you ask? Shenanigans. Windows, pants, awkward moments of self doubt and a precious inability to communicate. Go read it. The plots, the politics. The WIT. The decades of delicious edging. (It was several chapters but gods it felt like a lifetime).
These two have been writing their own multi-chapter fics beside me this year, and without their friendship and support, I probably wouldn't have finished. ILY!
@pippsmcgee will never be rid of me and my neurotic little paws. This one just looks at a story, a character, a scene, and says "you know what will make it even more (painful, sexy, exciting)?" And you better listen. But she also wrote a beautiful story about young Azriel that inspired me so much this year.
@shadowsandlint is full of talent-- Her prose is layered with meaning and flows so naturally. I can't put her stories down.
@zenkindoflove For her OC Alexius, who is my baby forever and ever. Creating an OC is gutsy and brave and takes so much talent. She's got it all. Also stunning world building and dialogues! And don't get me started on Elucien...
@talibunny30 For her depictions of young Nesta and her OC Boudica. She shows so much of Nesta's trauma in a thoughtful and honest way. I love it!
@neciebee whose writing is like poetry. Every time I read it I'm like, wait! Come back. Tell me more. I want... more? Gimme!
@witch-and-her-witcher whose fics are so magical. Her Nessian is my all time favorite. Nesta, Cassian, the Illyrian culture that she built for us. Just stunning.
@born-to-riot for VAMREN. But also sexy plots, hilarious shadows, and fluffy Azris moments we need.
@acourtofladydeath for writing pieces that challenge readers to sit with uncertainty-- gray characters and grief that lingers but also carry lessons and hope.
@secret-third-thing for such perfect storytelling-- every word matters and every image counts. The descriptions and details are exact, the settings are lush and imaginative. Also, Artaban.
I could keep going... If you are not on this list, but I've commented or left kudos or bookmarked your fic, you've left a mark. If not, I'm coming for you in 2025!
10. Who is a new author you discovered?
@g00seg1rl who writes smut like a witch. A very sexy witch. @nus4y who is another sexy witch? Watch out for these two. @jolenes-library is so talented! Motorcycle Azris AU. Enough said. @buffy-vanserra whose prose is beautiful. Every word matters. @clockwork-ashes has so many lovely pieces I couldn't choose just one. @unanswered-stars for those damn letters. You know the ones. I'm still crying. @yanny-77 : Best Elain in the biz. And the Lip Ring.
11. Did you do any collaborations? How did it start?
@brunetterebel010 @mistandmemories and I wrote A Solstice Carol. It started as a lot of joking about Rhys being Scrooge. And it became a true passion project! @talibunny30 helped with brainstorming ideas and beta reading, and @fieldofdaisiies and @pippsmcgee beta read.
Also my partner in crime in all Azris fics: @pippsmcgee who talks me through plotting the political animal, asks the important questions, and twists the knife of angst. She keeps my eyeball obsession in check.
12. What accomplishments are you proudest of?
I'm most proud of Just Enough Light to Cast Shadows. It really is silly, but finishing it, right at the end of 2024, and looking back at all the new friends I've made along the way, and how it has touched other people just makes this year feel special.
Thank you so much to @pippsmcgee for helping me land that plane. And for being my very first comment, ever. When I saw you and @talibunny30 and @neciebee were reading, I felt legit. And to @mistandmemories and @the-darkestminds who were on this journey with me. It was so important to walk beside you during it all!
13. What did you learn about writing or creating this year?
Write was brings you joy. Comparison is the thief of that joy. You can only write your own story, and it's ok if it's not for everyone. Because a story that is everyone's is probably no one's, you know? It will reach the people it needs to.
Outlines are important (for my process). They saved my ass so many times. And beta readers. And friends. And reader-readers. They all saved me too.
14. What is your advice?
Surround yourself with people who cheer you on. Be sure to support other creators. The community aspect of fandom is important. We're all just out here putting our hearts onto the screen and hitting Post.
15. What are your creative goals for 2025?
Finish A Love That Bleeds, Finish my Koschei x Eris fic, and start plotting out a longer Azris multi-chapter fic. It's a little seed right now, but one day soon...
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The worst ending 10 : A Delicate Descent
The worst ending 9 | The worst ending 11
Yandere!Jade Leech x GN!Reader
A/N : damn I'm starting to think of an ending where the main character dies. I think I should watch a movie to do the ending.
P.S. I'm almost done with the final draft of kalim.
Warning : This story contains themes of obsession , emotional manipulation , and accidental death.
Tags :
@iris-arcadia
If you want me to tag you please tell me.
English is not my first language.
The day you brought him home felt surreal, as though you were stepping into a bizarre dream. him as you decided to name him, was staring at you with those eerily sharp eyes. His expression never betrayed much—calm, collected, and somehow unsettlingly polite for a doll-child. You thought the name suited him. Something elegant yet grounded.
" Jade. " you said aloud, testing the weight of the name. " That’s what I’ll call you. "
The doll’s lips tilted up into a small smile.
You were a little shocked, but after all, this wasn’t an ordinary doll—he was meant to be human in every way that mattered. This would be your responsibility, as strange as it all felt.
" Well, Jade. " you said, setting you bag down and brushing past him. " Let’s set some ground rules, alright? First, no calling me ‘Mother.’ I’m too young for that nonsense. Just call me y/n. "
Jade tilted his head, looking amused but obedient.
Raising Jade wasn’t as difficult as your had feared, but there were moments when his quirks left you baffled. Most of all, it was his obsession with mushrooms.
One morning, you woke to the savory aroma of something cooking in the kitchen. Bleary-eyed, you shuffled in to find Jade at the stove, humming quietly as he sautéed mushrooms in a pan.
" You’re cooking? " you asked, voice thick with sleep.
Jade glanced over his shoulder, wearing an apron far too big for his slender frame. " Good morning, y/n. Breakfast is ready. I made mushroom omelets. "
You grimaced. " Mushrooms again? Jade, I told you yesterday I’m not a fan. "
He smiled that calm, unreadable smile of his. " You’ll like these. I promise. I seasoned them perfectly this time. "
Despite your reluctance, you allowed you self a bite, only to gag and spit it out dramatically. " Nope. Still mushrooms. "
Jade’s smile didn’t waver, but something in his eyes darkened. " You just haven’t acquired the taste yet. " he said smoothly. " You will, eventually. "
You laughed nervously, waving him off. " Sure, sure. Maybe next century. "
As time passed, you couldn’t deny that Jade was growing on you. He was intelligent, polite, and surprisingly thoughtful. He’d often brew you tea after long days at work, sit with you during meals, and even offer to help clean the apartment.
One evening, as you sprawled on the couch after a particularly grueling day, Jade approached with a small plate in hand.
" What’s this? " you asked, eyeing the plate warily.
" Just a snack. " he said, sitting beside you. " Mushroom crisps. They’re much less intense than sautéed ones. I thought you might like them. "
You sighed but took the plate, nibbling on one of the crisps. To you surprise, it wasn’t terrible. " Huh. Not bad. "
Jade’s smile widened, and for a moment, he looked genuinely pleased. " I told you I’d find a way. "
" Alright, don’t get cocky, chef. " you teased, ruffling his hair.
For all his endearing qualities, Jade intensity was difficult to manage. He had a habit of watching you too closely, always with that serene smile that felt just a little too sharp. And then there were the arguments.
One afternoon, after coming home late from work, you found Jade waiting for you by the door. His smile was as calm as ever, but there was an edge to his voice.
" You’re late. " he said, his tone deceptively light.
" Yeah, well, work ran over. " you replied, brushing past him.
" You didn’t answer my calls. " he continued, following you. " I was worried. "
" My phone died. " you explained, kicking off you shoes. " It happens. "
" You could have borrowed someone else’s phone. " Jade said, stepping closer. " Do you have any idea how anxious I was? What if something had happened to you? "
You sighed, pinching the bridge of your nose. " Jade, I’m fine. You don’t need to hover over me like this. I’m an adult, remember? "
The tension simmered between them, and for the first time, you saw a flicker of something dangerous in his eyes.
The argument reached its peak one evening while they were walking home from the market. Jade had been unusually quiet, his expression unreadable.
" Something on your mind? " you asked, trying to break the silence.
He didn’t respond at first, but as they neared the apartment building, he finally spoke. " Why don’t you trust me? "
" What? "
" You keep brushing me off. " he said, his voice eerily calm. " You don’t take me seriously. You don’t let me take care of you the way I want to. Why? "
" Jade, what are you even talking about? " You asked, exasperated. " You’re overthinking this. "
" No. " he said, stepping in front of you, blocking you path. " You don’t understand how much you mean to me. You never do. "
" Okay, you’re being weird. " you said, trying to push past him.
He grabbed You wrist, his grip firm but not painful. " Why can’t you see that I only want what’s best for you? "
The argument escalated quickly. you pulled away, you frustration boiling over. " Jade, you’re acting like a child! Just—just stop! "
And then it happened.
In his desperation to make you stay, to make you listen, Jade reached out, his movements frantic. you stepped back instinctively, not realizing how close they were to the stairwell.
you foot slipped.
" y/n! "
Time seemed to slow as you tumbled down the stairs, you body crumpling at the bottom. Jade froze at the top, his eyes wide with horror.
For a moment, everything was silent. And then he was running down the stairs, kneeling beside you, shaking you gently.
" y/n... " he whispered, his voice trembling. " Wake up. Please wake up.. "
But you didn’t respond.
Tears streamed down his face as he cradled you lifeless body, his mind racing. He hadn’t meant for this to happen. He just wanted you to understand, to stay with him.
" y/n.. " he choked out, pressing his forehead against you. " I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean it. I didn’t mean it… "
The reality of what he’d done sank in slowly, painfully. And yet, even in his grief, he couldn’t bring himself to let you go.
" You’ll forgive me, won’t you..? " he whispered, his voice breaking. " You always forgive me. "
He stayed there for hours, holding your, his mind spiraling into a dark, inescapable abyss.
Jade never moved on from that moment. The apartment remained untouched, frozen in time. Every day, he would sit by you favorite chair, talking to the empty air as though you were still there.
And every night, he would prepare a plate of mushroom crisps, setting it on the table for you.
" Try the mushrooms. " he would say softly, his voice echoing in the silence. " They’re so delicious. You’ll love them this time. I promise. "
#yandere twst#yandere twisted wonderland#yandere twst x reader#yandere jade leech#yandere jade x reader#au doll#Hey#is he mad that we didn't eat his mushrooms?
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Having not seen the media in question.
This is a question I have wrestled with with my sexual identity. Like, being ace, and bisexual, and having had a lot of pretty not-ace not-bisexual sexual encounters. When I'm having “straight” sex, is it bisexual? (Is it ace? Different also very frustrating question to wrestle with.)
I think there's like... a flavor to straight sex...? And it doesn't sit well with me, whatever it is. I like to think that the way I have sex and the way I love someone is just... fundamentally different from a typical expression of straight attraction and affection, regardless of who I'm with. I think it has something to do with agency and a negotiated balance of power and trust?* But I'm a coward and don't want to examine it too closely. It's a vibes thing for me.
* I know straight relationships can and do have these things in abundance but I also feel like the default setting is not that, where the default setting for queer sex is very much that.
So in that regard, I kind of sympathize with the tag. To the tagger, this doesn't feel like that special flavor of straight sex that is so often depicted in porn. It's different. It's 'not straight'. So to them, it's a bisexual way of being together with someone. Negotiated. Trusting. Full of agency. All flagrantly on display. Adding an extra layer of intimacy and emotional connection to the performance.
I am ascribing a whole lot of sentimentality to a very casual mistagging, and it's a super valid critique, but I just wanted to put another perspective out there. This could just be something that feels affirming to the tagger. “This looks like what I want bisexual sex to look like.” Like when you see ships between canonically straight characters but like, they're definitely bisexual. Good luck explaining why.
I often see people tag porn with 1 man and 1 woman as "bisexual", because the woman is in some way dominant.
I really want to talk to the people who do this. They have ideas about what gender are that are so different from anything I understand.
(Now I can see the "logic" with pegging, even if I don't agree at all: if you're associating men having receptive anal sex as a "gay thing", I can see how you'd think pegging is "bisexual", but no; apparently a woman giving a man in light bondage a blowjob is "bisexual" to some people, and I don't get it in the slightest)
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9 TBRs for 2025
I was delighted to get tagged by the fabulous @burberrycanary! Thank you. <3
The Woman Upstairs by Claire Messud
The desire to read Messud's novel about an elementary schoolteacher who seems nice and calm on the outside but is secretly seething with anger and frustration on the inside was sparked by this post and a subsequent conversation with @village-skeptic about unlikeable female protagonists. I've been dying to read this for a while now, but it was surprisingly difficult to find in physical form (I'm sick of looking at screens all day and my library only had the ebook). Package tracking tells me it's finally due to arrive on January 10. I'm genuinely so very excited to read this!
Our Evenings by Alan Hollinghurst
This novel, which traces the life of a gay, biracial actor in England from the 1960s to the pandemic is only one example of a whole number of books* on my TBR about queer middle-aged men looking back on their lives and in the process delving into themes of personal growth, identity, and cultural and societal change. Wonder what that says about me as I approach middle age ever more rapidly myself? One can only speculate, of course...
*see also: Four Squares by Bobby Finger; My Ex-Life by Stephen McCauley; Caledonian Road by Andrew O'Hagan
Madhouse at the End of the Earth: The Belgica's Journey into the Dark Antarctic Night by Julian Sancton
Not much to say about this except that my thirst for books about doomed (Ant)arctic expeditions has apparently still not been quenched. I guess this is my version of True Crime. This has made several Best-of lists, so I hope that it'll be well-written (and edited!) too, which is not always a given with nonfiction books.
The Winter Soldier by Daniel Mason
The assumption is an obvious one to make, but no, this has nothing to do with the #1 Blorbo of my heart. This is actually a novel about a young medical student from Vienna thrown into a remote WWI field hospital, where he soon leaves behind any romantic notions about glory and heroism as he faces the brutal reality of war. I've read the first 50 pages of this a while ago, and I'm really eager to get back to it.
Effingers by Gabriele Tergit
This 1951 novel is often described as the "Jewish Buddenbrooks"—a comparison that I understand for marketing purposes but that I nevertheless do not like for a whole host of reasons. It’s an epic, multigenerational story about a German-Jewish family from the late 19th century through WWII. I got a beautiful special hardcover edition of this for Christmas and I can't wait to savor all 904 pages of it.
Secret City: The Hidden History of Gay Washington by James Kirchick
Speaking of long books. I bought this 848-page brick of a political and social history of queer (not exclusively gay as the misleading title would suggest) Washington at the height of my Fellow Travelers obsession... and then I just never got around to reading it. A failure that I really want to make up for this year.
Daddy by Emma Cline
I already very much liked but did not unreservedly love Emma Cline's debut The Girls. However, I was completely blown away by her follow-up novel The Guest, which she published last year, and which instantly catapulted her to auto-buy status for me. So, it's only natural that I would want to read the only book of hers that I haven't read yet. Daddy is a short story collection, which will hopefully deliver the same sharp observations, wonderfully complex characters, and elegant & precise prose that I have adored so much in her novels.
The Warm Hands of Ghosts by Katherine Arden
To be honest, the premise of this—historical fiction with supernatural elements, following a combat nurse during WWI searching for her missing brother—does not super excite me (anything magical realism-adjacent has traditionally not been a great success for me) and reviews seem to be pretty mixed. But. Katherine Arden is the author of my beloved Winternight Trilogy*, so I will at least give this a fair chance.
*seriously I want to grab all the Romantasy girlies and shove this into their hands instead of whatever latest abomination Cassandra Clare or Sarah J. Maas have cooked up. ...uh, sorry if you're a fan? 😬
Manhattan Beach by Jennifer Egan
I read and enjoyed Jennifer Egan's Pulitzer Prize-winning novel A Visit from the Goon Squad many years ago and have been meaning to read another book by her ever since. When a couple of my family members asked what I wanted for Christmas and I put together a little list for them (cause that's what I do), I stumbled upon Manhattan Beach. It's a blend of historical fiction, mystery, and family drama set in Depression-era New York City, about a young woman who pioneers as the first professional female diver at the Brooklyn Navy Yard. Does that not sound like the perfect book for me? Seriously, the summary reads like I made it up in fever dream!
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Looking back over this list, I'm somewhat surprised to realize that it gives the impression that I'm much more of a historical fiction reader than I actually am. Or thought myself to be, I guess. Huh! How about that.
Ok tagging: @ethicalhorseslaughter, @burninblood, @thisonesatellite, @between-a-ship-and-a-hard-place, @voylitscope, @aimmyarrowshigh, @weenhand, @painted-doe, @buckrogers, @maplefiasco and everyone else who wants to do this! Show me your books, please.
(I know this has been making the rounds, so apologies if I double- or triple-tagged anyone.)
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Sorry for the late update, i've been travelling!
2 and a half days left, and currently Zhao Yunlan is winning with 14.7%, marrowly beating out Luo Wenzhou (who had previously been winning for most of the poll) with 14.3%, and then Tang Fan in third with 13.9%. Things are very tight currently and anyone could win!
(Also on the strength of the write in candidates, i have started to watch Detective L)
Tag propaganda under the cut
Zhao Yunlan
#all the best detectives work with coworkers who meow#so I gotta give it to zyl by @bitterfrosts
#there's no way I wouldn't vote for Zhao Yunlan#you can give me any poll and I'll vote for Zhao Yunlan tbh#I'm a simple person by @face--the--strange
Luo Wenzhou
#luo wenzhou!!!#i still have to finish Mo Du but I loved him#silent reading#luo wenzhou by @rose-tinted-vision
#yes the right one is winning#luo wenzhou#correct#best detective#mo du#priest novels#silent reading by @lunarriviera
#I'm picking luo wenzhou#he's competent and level headed#he won't be TOO distracted#second place for xiaobao and company#then zhang ping and his league#I'd rather tang fan didn’t tbh 😂#his cases tend to be so messy and dangerous and politically fraught#even if he's very smart#idk the others by @fire-burning-brighter
Zhang Ping
#gotta go for Zhang Ping#I love him and his funky harem#a league of nobleman by @jianghushenanigans
Chu Chu
#chu chu!#runner up xyl by @anndramarama
#chu chu is the absolute best character *and* detective ever#most unapologetically autistic baby#incredibly very very good at her job because she never realized the things she does are impossible to do#so she just does them by @endrega23
Tang Fan
#voted for tang fan#genius twink with no self preservation instincts to speak of#but also a write in for Luo Fei from Detective L!#he's Republican era Shanghai Sherlock Holmes#with all the messiness and brilliance that comes with the archetype#played brilliantly by Bai Yu#absolute disaster#terrified of feelings#extremely ADHD#love him by @gavilansblog
#cdrama poll#propaganda#having finally read most of the book#i have to go back to it#its surprisingly informative about the fine period!#tang fan for the win#he is really focused on his cases and his love interest comes in and supports in effective ways#these two are really professional when you get down to it#and tang fan is tactful and political#i trust him to get it done#*time period ugh by @pinkbalrog
Lu Yao
#Lu Yao#as much as I find him insufferable he is very very smart#and comes with a side of Qiao Chusheng by @lasenbyphoenix
Fang Duobing
#for pure ‘I haven’t seen enough of the others’#as well as he does get pretty damn good at it#it’s gotta be Fang Doubing#he holds a special place in my heart#uncharted waters by @swimming-with-a-raincoat
Su Wenli
#i am gonna be in a minority#cz for me it's su wenli by @aletheablanchett
Other
#zyl and wenzhou i love you both#but this one i have to give to luo fei#luo fei#detective l by @merinnan
#listen i love very many of these guys#but my vote goes to su wuming (strange tales of tang dynasty)#least likely to get distracted by his personal life or hunger in the process of solving the crime by @unfortunatelycake
#luo fei#detective l by @auntiedebtravels
#zyl and wenzhou i love you both#luo fei#detective l by @1ebilcat
#luo fei#detective l#sorry zyl but of the two disaster bai yu detectives it's luo fei by @psychic-waffles
#I'd like to write in Fei Du#he did a better job than his gay ass nepo boyfriend by @dripping-moonlight
#yeah it's luo fei#polls#q by @rainvillage-trio
These characters are the ones who you'd want to solve your murder. Methodical, dedicated, and with a healthy dose of luck, these sleuths are the best of the best.
Let's just hope they manage to get you justice before their messy personal lives catch up with them...
Write-ins, propaganda, and images are welcome!
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