#i'm not ready for them to leave me :((((((

[somegrumpynerd]

A little animation I made of Dream and Nightmare for fun, it's pretty short and simple but not bad for my second go at animation I think ^^

The music is from here, I highly recommend listening to the full thing cause it's so beautiful!

Quick explanation for the song and a gif version under the cut

So when I was first dipping my toes into utmv stuff like a year ago, I made a slideshow for my sister with a bunch of au Sanses, let her guess what kinda vibe she thought they had and then gave her a list of names/ aus to see if she could figure out who was who (she did surprisingly well and I'm proud of her).

Well, when I first showed her pictures of Dream her immediate reaction was "this guy looks like he's from zelda" and it's just always stuck with me. Somewhere along the way I started headcanoning Dream playing some kind of instrument when they were kids and when I heard the pan flute version of zelda's lullaby everything kind of fell into place.

So here they are, having a little moment of peace finally, brothers together again c:

[lpsgirl109]

I need to know if anyone else understands the feeling of wanting to spend the rest of your life with someone in ways that Sound very romantic but you aren't into them like that. Fantasizing about living with them. Cooking dinner together every night and watching movies, laying together in silence just because one of you is lonely and wanted comfort. If you have to leave the house before they wake up, you'll make yourself breakfast and leave a plate for them in the fridge. When one of you is sick, the other makes soup and brings them their medicine whenever they need it. Getting home late knowing there will be a warm meal waiting for you, and doing the same for them. But you're not attracted to them, and you know you never will be, but you still want that kind of life with them

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Hi? Gosh how do I even start with this :'D

I know it's been ages since I've last popped up on here. I've been debating when to post this for a while, but I kept adding to my draft more and more and now it's the end of JULY omgg I felt so guilty disappearing with zero updates but then thought my birthday would be the best day to finally address this considering it'll feel less random? idk but Ive always celebrated my bday with you guys and I'd feel so bad answering your kind asks without me at least explaining why I was gone for months.

Truth be told, I was dealing with a lot of stuff irl. health issues and sudden declining grades that left me stumped and drained for months now- along with technical issues like having to replace some parts of my computer that took a while for me to find to even draw digitally, which I didn't have the time for anyway with how tired and weary I felt every day.

I'm frankly shaken up by a lot of shit rn and I don't know how to be active online with this burden on my chest- Especially as it's been a while since I've even looked at utmv related content and my motivation dwindled. I swear I'd hype myself up to post or reblog something- but I'd see just how much I've missed or the overwhelming amount of posts I'd need to go through and I'd feel so swamped with exhaustion and most importantly guilt, for not clearing the air up sooner to reassure you guys that I'm, y'know, alive, and not dead in a ditch somewhere. And I'd procrastinate cause typing it all out is hard and I'd give up halfway every time and it's just not fair to you all!

I thought I was handling it well when I started going out and socializing more, instead of staying cooped up at home on my computer all day. and in the first draft of this post I made months ago I was gonna detail some of the fun plans I had, for my life and for this blog :D but relaxing my strict study schedule and letting go a bit of my tight routine, thinking it was better than wringing myself dry to keep it up, backfired horribly, to say the least.

I know right?? so silly to be hung up on stupid shit like studies of all things! but this is a very important thing for me considering my career plans and the competitivity encouraged by everyone I'm surrounded by, the pressure of keeping up adding to my already stressful days. I had to fix myself up first and I couldn't handle the strain nor interact with people and thinking of jobs and exams sapped my energy so much it's frankly embarrassing. writing this feels so cheesy too and it frustrates me to know I could've come back a month earlier if it weren't for that, but I also know putting all of this into words then would just sound like incoherent venting (not that this is very different tbf) and I wasn't in the right headspace to address my absence, or anything really- I didn't want everyone to see me return when I couldn't muster up a genuinely positive message, let alone talk to anyone with a shadow of my usual cheer

I feel like a complete mess and It drives me up the wall how depressed I've gotten. I debated deleting this blog so many times 'cause the fear of disappointing my audience and my friends, for lack of a more fitting sentiment, made me feel even shittier. I'm constantly thinking if this wall of text is worth posting, or if it's better not to burden you all with all my sappy troubles as if it's the end of the world. Trust me, I'll be fine. I'm not trying to dramatize this situation, but I don't think I'm up to pretending I'm all sunshine and enthusiasm you're all accustomed to.

So sorry for worrying you all! I'll try to catch up, deliver some missed birthday gifts, and answer some asks while I'm at it! Again, I can't state how much I appreciate your support throughout the years. It's frankly a miracle I kept any of you around with how much I keep popping and leaving at random with no warning. I definitely can't promise for my stay to be without a hitch, and if you don't mind an inconsistent schedule you're free to stay of course, but I'm afraid I can't sustain the pace I had when I first started this blog. I'll keep posting art, but lower my activity in the fandom sphere to reduce the strain on my mental health. so fewer rants and walls of text, more art, and less stress overall. Love you all and thanks for waiting for this long <3

[onelastsailxr]

So I was thinking about a SPN au, where Logan is a brooding/tired with everyones shit hunter and Wade is the angel (but more like Gabriel/trickster) or demon that Logan has to team up with one day.

I'm thinking, enemies to friends to lovers, slow burn, angst/comfort (because they both have their respective traumas and depression, so there will be a soft moment where they're trauma dumping. You know, maybe one night in a motel or something) and some interesting case they have to solve together

[torchickentacos]

Swinging a bat at a hornet's nest, but I keep seeing the opinion go around that it's insensitive to say that we'll make it through the next 4 years because so many people didn't the first time around. Which, I guess I see the point, but like... do you expect all of us to just be like this for the next 4 years???

I totally get why some people can't feel hopeful, but insinuating that someone else is in the wrong for being able to stay optimistic just isn't productive or, in my opinion, a reasonable expectation. We all react to stressful times differently and not only is that okay, but it should be encouraged that people work through this however they personally need to and in whichever emotional state they end up in.

[sol-consort]

"The dog that weeps after it kills is no better than the dog that doesn’t. My guilt will not purify me"

that qoute lives in my head rent free.

(who said it, btw? I tried to find a source before the tumblr user @/ojibwa posted it and nothing came up)

[firebirdsdaughter]

Something else I love…

… About Leverage ep one is that they pull it off.

Despite the fact that they all normally work alone, that it's the first run, that they all have different personalities, the opening lets all the characters show that they really are professionals who know what they're doing. The only reason that the whole thing goes sideways is the employer.

And I appreciate it for that.

[b-blushes]

thursday quest - no physical therapy today - make and eat lunch sooooo early but i can do it!!!!! - get ready for wedding - attend wedding! yay! (: - decompress well when i get home <3

[that-birdy-chick]

Guys I need advice, please,

this goes out to all the h50 and mcdanno fans,

i'm currently at the start of s7 and I've been noticing the cracks in the writing for a while now so I have a question,

Is it worth it, to keep watching after s7?

Like genuine opinions please, because I do love the characters and as long as there are still some nice mcdanno moments or just wholesome stuff with the team as a whole that's enough for me to stick around till the end

I just wanna know if it's worth it or if I should live a happier life and finish at s7 before things get worse?

So to the people who've made it through, what do you think? Spoilers are welcome

[crossbackpoke-check]

Substance, Shadow, and Spirit [remixed, abridged] by Tao Yuanming

[raccoonnutella13]

what if i was never okay again </3

[goblin-gardens]

Just wrote an email coming out as nonbinary to the hardest conceivable group: the 5 girls I was friends with in middle school because one of them is inviting us to her pre-wedding Girls Trip And Witchy Women Time. Yikes.

[mel-loly]

-“Oh, school has to be something serious, especially this year/something like that!”

The things I did when I was at school (especially in computer class):

TW: cigarette

I have a lot of memories, and this is certainly one of the most important/best/funniest in my life. I'm really going to miss everything... and I'm already crying lol..

[ruushes]

Top 5 bg3 npcs that aren’t companions?

oh great question thank you :)c going to refrain from answering with all pets/animals as well cause that’s all it would be 😂 oh and disclaimer that i’ve only played a little of act 3 as a tav and up to the start of act 2 as a durge so im sure im missing some great ones that are developed in the later game (‘:

mattis (completely coincidentally exactly the same person my character was as a child)(like i had decided on that backstory before even meeting him and when a cheerful scamming tiefling orphan showed up i was >:0000)(the rogue-specific dialog rly supported a 'recognition of the self in the other [derogatory]' interaction too which was so perfect)

dame aylin (i mean obviously aylin if you're free thursday night etc)(but also she's so interesting to me)(larger than life and sort of outside time very distinctly Different as a demigod and a target bc of it)(so full of love but also a harsh and violent form of 'good' i feel like you don't get to see much in female characters)

barcus wroot (wulbren turn on your location i just want to talk)

auntie ethel (there's little i love more than a hag)(and she gave me a piece of her scalp to eat so i feel we have a connection)

enver gortash (i haven't fully seen his story yet)(but he deserves mention bc i had such a strong reaction to meeting him)(which was that i literally could not wait to kill him i immediately hated him so much lmao)(but now im doing a durge run and im 👀 to meet him again bc i have a feeling it will be a very different reaction)

[icewindandboringhorror]

Apparently I can meet my goal of roughly 400,000 words in 6 months if I just somehow write at least 2,200 words a day ghbjh... Almost 2,500 today... huzzah...

[raininyourblackeyes]

My cousin, a published writer, a well-known poet in my country and a literature professor, for whom I've always been no.1 support ever since her first attempts at writing in high school, told me that I must stop writing as a hobby because that's her thing and since I'm writing fantasy mostly my writing could never have any important artistic value anyways.