#i'm kinda wondering what i'm going to do when i want to go skating because obviously it's dangerous to do that with bad depth perception lo

[keeps-ache]

eye test scheduled :DDD

[storywriter007]

do you do requests? if you do, can you do Leo x fem reader who is the daughter of Khione, she has ice powers and she has a very friendly, cheerful demeanor and is genuinely kind tends to smile a lot of the times although it does comes off as creepy sometimes, the reason why the reader smiles a lot is because just like Leo as a way of coping with her mommy issues and doesn't want people to worry

Fire & Ice - Leo Valdez x Fem!Reader

author's note: i do take requests :) and this is such a cute idea! like fire and ice, polar opposites, but they end up being the exact same. thank you for the request!

author's note 2: i didn't know if you wanted this to be fluff or angst, so i kinda did both (please send me more angst im internally dying writing all of this joy)

warnings: slight bullying, mommy issues, cursing

genre: angst ending in fluff

word count: 1.9k

-> heroes of olympus masterlist

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send me requests here! (these are my guidelines)

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y/n gently braided the curly hair in front of her. she put a little elastic towards the end of the braid, and leaned back. it looked wonderful. beautiful brown curls cascaded down like a waterfall, and two cute little braids were at the top of the head.

"all done lay!" she smiled.

"you look beautiful," she said, holding up a mirror for the girl to see.

"thank you so much y/n! i loooove it!" she beamed, giving y/n a big hug.

"of course!"

she ran off, and y/n began cleaning up.

"surprised you didn't give the kid a brain freeze." a familiar voice laughed.

"nice to see you too, valdez." she rolled her eyes.

leo's smile died out whenever he saw y/n, and y/n's kindness turned into cruelty whenever she saw him. they didn't get along; not in the least. leo was a fire-producing maniac, and y/n was a snow-summoning psycho. their rivalry started when y/n was ice skating on the lake (after turning part of it into ice) and leo came up and set it on fire. y/n would've drowned if she didn't quickly skate away and create ice until she got to the grass. after that, y/n froze one of his favorite machines, and he spent days trying to melt all the ice off. they'd had it out for each other for two summers - ever since leo found out she was the daughter of khione.

leo was loud. annoying. funny on occasion. y/n was soft spoken. kind. caring. fire and ice. they were far too different.

"don't you have something to blow up?" she asked, meeting his brown eyes.

"yeah." he said, looking over at her cabin. "elsa's castle."

"i swear to god, i'm going to-"

"turn me into a rocket pop?" he grinned.

"i'm gonna freeze your bed. have fun sleeping outside for the week." she said, staring him down.

"that'll make two of us."

they both stormed away. gods, she couldn't stand him.

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evening struck, and as y/n made her way to the mess hall, she saw a little boy sitting all alone on a fallen tree. he had curly blonde hair. he was wearing a blue t-shirt and beige cargo shorts. he looked no older than twelve. he sat quietly, his face resting on his right hand. he looked upset.

"y/n, c'mon." one of her friends said.

"you guys go, i'll be with you in a few."

she made her way over to the little boy.

"can i sit here?" she asked.

"yeah." he said glumly, moving over.

"what's your name?"

"daniel." he said, not looking at her.

"tough first week, daniel?" she asked.

he nodded his head. new campers came in everyday, and it didn't get easier for any half-blood who stepped in the magical boundaries.

"it's alright." she reassured. "the first week is always the worst week."

"i've got no friends." he said shakily. "no one wants to talk to me."

he finally looked up and met y/n's gaze. she could see the scattered freckles on his face and the tears that were welled up in his light green eyes.

"what about your siblings?"

her voice was soft and calming.

"they don't wanna talk to me either." he said, defeated.

"i know." she sighed. "it's tough being new. but, uh, tell me dan, what do you like to do?"

"i-i like to draw." he said.

"that's so cool! i can only draw a stick figure, dear gods. what do you like to draw?"

"mostly nature and stuff. i draw a lot of animals and landscapes." he said, his tone picking up a little bit. "i have a sketchbook, if y-you want to see.."

his voice trailed off.

"i'd be delighted." she smiled.

the boy's eyes lit up as he rushed off and quickly came back with a sketchbook. he showed her all of his drawings and where he had drawn them. they were absolutely beautiful. they continued talking about the drawings, and daniel told y/n about all of the parks, lakes, and mountains he'd visited before arriving at camp. she could see he was feeling a lot better.

"don't you want to go to the mess hall?" y/n asked him. "get somethin' to eat?

"my siblings don't like it when i sit with them." he sighed.

"who said you have to sit with them?" she laughed. "sit with me. c'mon kid."

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after walking daniel to the ares cabin, y/n turned around and rushed to the camp headquarters for a counselor's meeting. she wasn't looking forward to seeing leo. as she walked into the very informal meeting room, his first remark was made.

"someone's late." he coughed.

the other counselors turned to look at her.

suck my dick is what she wanted to say.

"one of the kids wanted me to walk them back. that's kinda what happens when the younger campers actually trust you." she smiled, passive-aggresively.

"hey, they trust me!" he defended. "they love me."

"first you lie about your height, and now how much the kids like you?"

the crowd of counselors started laughing.

"don't encourage her guys." he said, so seriously that the crowd quit laughing. "she's gonna start singing 'let it go!'"

giggles and laughs burst out from every corner of the room as y/n felt her cheeks grow warm.

"c'mon johnny storm." she paused. "give them a real show and sing 'this boy is on fire,' won't you?"

he glared at her as more laughs erupted from the counselors. to them, it was all in good fun. to leo and y/n, it was the continuation of a war. just as leo was about to holler another snappy insult, their verbal sparring was interrupted.

"enough." chiron said, entering the room. "i've had it with you two."

the room stood quiet.

"yeah, y/n, pack up your shit." he snickered.

"i'm sorry for the constant misconduct." she smiled, trying to repair the damage. "i could fix it, if you'd let me turn valdez into a statue for my ice castle."

laughs erupted from more of their banter.

"go clean the stables." he ordered. "both of you, together. come back to your cabins once you've become friends."

"there's no way that me and evil frosty are gonna get along." leo protested. "we're gonna be there forever!"

shut up y/n wanted to yell. he was just making things worse.

"then i suggest you ask mr. jackson to teach you how to speak horse." chiron said firmly.

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y/n cleaned the stables while leo swept the floor.

"leo, could you pass me that-"

"no."

they had been here for four hours and leo had refused to cooperate. she was at the end of her rope with him.

"why do you hate me?" she asked, exasperated.

she'd wondered this ever since they'd got here. she assumed it's because ice and fire don't get along, but everyone at camp assured her leo would never hate anyone over something they couldn't control. especially, godly heritage.

"you got us stuck here!" he argued.

"you started it!" she countered.

their voices slowly rose as they yelled at one-another.

"you were late!" he continued. "and besides, i might've started it, but you ended it!"

"you started things with me from the first day i got here two summers ago! you tried to burn me alive! you threated to blow my cabin up! why!?" she asked loudly.

she was tired. she was sore. and she was sick of leo always being a douchebag.

"your mom tried to kill me!" he yelled.

"she tried to kill me too!"

"what?" he asked, his gaze softening and his voice lowering.

"nothing." y/n said, realizing what she'd just said. "nothing, just forget about it."

"y/n-"

"go to bed." she demanded. "i'll finish this by myself. not like you were doing anything anyways."

"you can trust me." he insisted. "please?"

"make whatever snide remark you were going to, and leave."

"please, y/n." he said, his voice low and steady. "what happened?"

"i was nine, and uh, my mother had decided she was done with me. she tried to freeze me, and uh, then she tried to stab me." she paused to say the next part. "and when none of that work, she uh-she tried to burn me."

"i'm so sorry."

"don't worry about it." she said, quickly plastering a smile on her face. "now it's your turn to answer my question. why do you hate me?"

"i-i don't. i never have." he sighed. "i figured you'd end up hating me regardless, so i just sealed our fate."

they stood in the silence of the stables.

"you started a fight with my because you assumed i would automatically dislike you? because you can summon fire?" y/n asked, it being her turn to be shocked now.

"yeah." he said, rubbing the back of his neck. "i thought you'd be some cold, icy, pessimistic bitch.

"ouch."

"until i saw you. how much you cared, and how much you smiled, and how much you made other people feel better. by the time, i realized you weren't what i had made of you, it was too late to turn back."

"leo." she said, unable to speak. "i care about people regardless. i would've never had a vendetta against you because you're a mini human torch. and even though you were convinced i hated you, i never did. i just played along."

"liar." he chuckled.

"when you passed out from exhaustion for forty-eight hours, do you know who monitored you each and every second? do you know who constructed your diet and recovery plan? do you remember the fuzzy voice telling you everything was going to be okay? because that was me."

"why?" he asked. "why are you so nice?

"i just want someone to stay."

they started at each-other for a moment. leo used humor and jokes to cover up the pain he felt. y/n used compensating kindness. they didn't want people to leave them, so they found something that would make them valuable: witty remarks and selflessness. they both covered up their profound pain and self-hatred with a form of fake happiness. they both had constructed a person who is only upset when no one is watching. and it was all because both of them didn't want people to worry, they just wanted them to stay.

"i feel the same way." he shared.

they weren't as different as they thought they were.

"i'm sorry." he said, sincerity in his eyes. "i misjudged you."

"i'm sorry too." she responded. "i held up my end of the bargain, didn't i?"

"i guess fire and ice aren't polar opposites after all." he smiled.

"i think they're identical." she agreed, reaching her hand out.

they shook hands, but didn't let go. leo's grip was firm on her hand. they looked into each other's eyes. leo pulled her in and pressed his lips to hers. his rough hands wrapped around her waist, as hers roamed his face and neck. it wasn't a needy kiss, it wasn't a passionate kiss, it was a "i'm glad you're here" kiss. leo felt her cold fingers move around his neck. it felt refreshing. y/n felt his warm hands around her waist. it felt comforting. after a few seconds, they pulled away, and laughed a little. y/n put her head on his shoulder as he held her tight.

[milkmissiles]

todoroki as a boyfriend pls? 🥺 I'm so weak for him oml

Oooo yes ofc! Sorry this took so long lol I have been so busy. Also it's much longer than I thought it was going to be haha. I'm weak for him too honestly he's just so pretty.

Hope I did this man justice :)

♡Boyfriend Todoroki♡

-CW- fluff, a bit suggestive but nothing too in depth. Probably SFW.

Pairing: todoroki x GN reader

He is dense. Like denser than dense.

You could literally make out with him for hours and he still wouldn't get the message.

He'd be like, "What are you doing..? I don't need cpr..."

This bitch

Its Not that he doesn't have feelings for you, In fact its pretty much the opposite. It's just that this poor traumatized boy can't even comprehend that someone would want to date him.

And he's literally the prettiest boy in U.A. so you eventual gave up on trying to ask him out because you figured he probably just didn't like you.

Imagine this poor boys reaction when you stop talking to him everyday. He is crushed.

Would inevitably go to Midoriya for help. He doesn't understand his feelings for you and pretty much has to be informed by Midoriya that it's a crush. Unfortunately, Midoriya isn't all that good at confessions either. So obviously, the next best option is Bakugou.

Except that he also sucks ass in this situation... he'd tell poor confused Shouto to grow a pair or something.

Eventually Shouto goes through literally everyone in the class asking what to do. He gets tons of advice and multiple lessons and pep talks from the girls.

At this point you know how he feels before he even has the chance to ask you out... I mean he is constantly talking about it out loud in the hallways and in Class. There have been multiple note passing situations between him and Mina that resulted in a very pissed Aizawa, and a very embarrassed Shouto...

When he finally gathers enough information on this whole "crush" thing. He works up the courage to ask you out. You would obviously know what was happening, but please act surprised he's trying really hard.

He would ask you out in like the textbook way, With a little flair added by Mina and Denki.

He bought you red roses, and brought you to an extremely fancy restaurant. Like, dress code level fancy.

(Don't worry he's using Endeavors card please buy the most expensive thing on the menu)

He would be super uptight and formal at first, And it's really awkward.

But you were expecting that considering it's Shouto so you don't mind.

As long as you continue making conversation, he will calm down eventually, smiling softly at you from across the table while you tell some story about an annoying customer you dealt with at work yesterday or something.

He loves the sound of your voice and the way you get all riled up when you rant about something annoying. Or the way you talk with your hands when you're excited. He loves watching you just talk. He doesn't even need to say anything he just nods along, giving all of his attention to every word that comes out of your mouth.

By the end of your diner, the atmosphere is completely normal. Shouto's nerves have calmed down at that point, and his confidence is up a bit.

Once you leave the resteraunt, he offers his hand to you. He doesn't say anything. he just kinda puts his hand out and hopes you get the message. When you take his hand, he immediately starts leading you down the street.

You ask where he's taking you and he just says "it's a surprise.. you'll see when we get there."

And it is a long ass walk into the middle of nowhere. Like the literal bush. If it was anyone other than Shouto you would have thought you were being kidnapped.

Fortunately it is Shouto. So you've got nothing to worry about.. but you start to wonder how long this walk is going to last... he seems very concentrated.

Finally, you get to the spot. Emerging from the bush to see two pairs of ice skates a lake that is completely frozen.. which was obviously Shouto's doing considering its the middle of summer.

You would ice skate together for hours. Your hand in his, he would slow his pace down a bit because you are definitely an inferior skater to him.

(Which is why Denki and Mina suggested skating. Gotta give him as many opportunities as possible right?)

But in the end, he doesn't try anything. He doesn't want to push you to do something you're not comfortable with.

Even though a first date with Shouto would be extremely awkward. After a few months of dating, and quite a bit of reassurance that he didn't have to worry so much. He would come around.

I don't think he would be into pda like at all. He would definitely be on the shy side when it comes to physical affection. Although he does like to be the one who initiates it.

In public he would do small touches, like pulling on your sleeve to get you attention, Or brushing hair out of your face. He would hold pinkies with you if you were in a crowd. Telling you to keep close to him. (Or honestly you don't even have to be in a crowd, he's just worried about you)

"Stay close ok..? There's a lot of people her, you could get lost." He would say, squeezing your Pinky a bit.

He would hold your hand if the crowd got to chaotic, his grip firm but not to hard. A drop of sweat rolling down his forhead.

He's really scared of losing you. After all, who knows how long it would take to find you again, right? You could easily be ambushed by a villain. Or a civilian for that matter. I mean, normal businessmen can be just as dangerous as villains. Definitely a threat to your safety. Or at least that's what he's thinking.

I mean, can you really blame him? U.A. students and pro heroes alike get attacked almost daily. So it's not his fault if he's worried, right?

On the other hand if you were in private, he would be much more touchy.

Not gross touchy but like cute soft touchy y'know?

Like he would come up behind you if you were doing housework and stuff and just rest his chin on your head and follow you around while you do things. Every few minutes asking if you need help.

it would be the most menial things too. Like your just minding your own business, unloading the dish washer and there he is asking if you need help putting away a singular fork.

He just wants to make your life easier, but man, it is constant.

He would be so nervous to kiss you when you first start dating. He does not know how.

But surprisingly enough, I think he'd be naturally talented. Like he warns you in advance that he's never really done it before, and you're all prepared for the most awkward, stiff kiss of your life. And then, by some miracle, he's like a master kisser.

within a few makeout sessions you're experiencing mind-blowing, earth-shatering kisses with this man.

His hands definitely wander when you two are making out.

Not even on purpose, he's just doing it absent-mindedly.

But even though he doesn't realize what he's doing. You sure do.

I mean how can you not with his right hand running through your hair, holding your head in place as he kisses you. And his left hand is traveling up and down your back, under your shirt, in a rhythmic soothing motion that could probably put you to sleep if you weren't currently making out with Shoto Todoroki.

You are a fucking mess and this man has no idea what he's doing to make you act like this.

Try and keep your composure at least a little bit, or he might think you're sick and dying though.

Seriously the first time ya'll did anything spicy he probably got so freaked out by the sounds you were making.

You literally had to show him source material to convince him he wasn't hurting you and you weren't possessed.

It does make sense though. Like there's no way Endeavor ever gave him the talk..

So he is completely clueless and you basically have to give him the talk yourself. But once he gets the idea, he's... well, let's just say he's very.. well endowed.

(...The carpet matches the drapes...)

He would literally break your guys's 11th bed frame and he would just be like "oops."

Absolutely menace. Nobody wants to have to replace their bedframe that many times. Nevermind your bed sheets which also tend to get ruined.

It's a good thing you're both top pro heroes and absolutely loaded.

He would be so good at aftercare though. He cares about you so so much, so he would definitely pamper the shit out of you after ya'll do your thang.

He would run you a warm bath, heating to water up to the perfect temperature with his Quirk. He helps you into the bathtub, massaging the shampoo into your hair with the most gentle touch you have ever felt.

After he takes care of you and you both go to bed, you would have no trouble falling asleep.

Your bodies pressed against each other. Your head resting peacefully on his chest as he strokes your hair, breathing a sigh of relief. Just knowing you're there, with him, and your safe. That's enough to give him a good night's sleep.

I would literally die for him. If he needs a dog, I can meow 👍

[flashnthunder]

Tag game (Christmas edition)!

It's Festivus for the rest of us so grab your Chanukah bush, your mistletoe, your pagan ritual or whatever brings you joy and come gather round the fire and celebrate your pocket friends.

@deputy-buck tagged me in this :)) !

Favourite nickname you've ever been given?

i have never gone by my full name but technically izzy is my nickname, i've gotten iz or izzers by friends before and izzy-maye is my family nickname which i like

Where are you located?

the US, specifically ohio so very midwest

What season is it where you are now?

it is winter and officially Cold, it has not felt like winter for the past month but now i am freezing and already crying thinking about driving in ice

Favorite tradition this time of year?

there's a zoo that puts on this big light show every year and i usually go with friends which has become a little tradition, but tbh there's not a lot i can think of other than that

Favourite holiday food?

probably fudge?? idk if that counts as holiday food but i only eat it in the winter

Mulled wine, eggnog or hot apple cider?

apple cider for the win i am not a big any type of wine fan and eggnog is only kinda not awful if i don't think about what i'm drinking

Turkey, ham or nut roast (Or Tofurkey?)?

ham! i feel like turkey is a very november food and not my favorite

Would you rather spend the december holidays in: a cabin in the woods surrounded by snow, or a house on the beach with sun and sand?

right now im gonna say cabin because that sounds nice and peaceful but check-in with me in a month and i will have switched up once i am sufficiently sun-deprived and looking like a sad vampire with scurvy

are you pro-snow or anti-snow?

pro-snow in the hypothetical sense of enjoying it when i don't need to do anything, and anti-snow when i'm slogging to class in the slush at 9am which is the reality of january

have you ever built a snowman?

YES i love building snowmen i don't care if i'm getting freezing and wet and gross outside it's gotta happen it is just way to funny to not leave them everywhere possible

Skiing or snowboarding?

i have never really done either, i like ice skating though in terms of a winter sport :) i will fall on my ass

Do you decorate for the holidays?

i try to a little!! i like putting stuff outside, have some lights and things like that

Favourite holiday movie?

nostalgia wise stuff like charlie brown, that claymation rudolph movie, the muppets, it's a wonderful life but around the holidays i like to religiously rewatch the original star trek show so that is like My Holiday Movie

Favourite holiday fanfic?

people should rec me some because i can't think of anything off the top of my head??? i might be forgetting one i'm sure i have read them before

If you were to star in a hallmark movie, who would be your love interest?

confession time i've never really watched hallmark movies but going off the memes maybe i am the small hometown man waiting on a stressed businesswoman from new york to come home for christmas and then we can get a dog or something while the credits start

if yall would like to- tagging: @ewipandora @blood-mocha-latte @lewis-winters @good-night-space-kid @heystovepipeboys @gorgeousundertow @1waveshortofashipwreck + anyone who wants to do it :)

[hugheses]

9-19-18: jack hughes at the all american prospects game

Jack Hughes is likely to hear his name called first that particular night, and he joins us here on the power play. What's going on, Jack?

Good. Yeah. How are you doing?

Well, doing well. Thank you very much for joining us here today. What have the last couple of months been like for you? We talked to you during the course of the summer. We know you had a a real good showing at the Under 20 showcase. What have the last couple of months been like in your life and how excited are you to play in tonight's game?

Yeah, it's been good. It's been a good summer, good break, but I'm ready to get back after it now and start the season. So I'm excited for for tonight and it's going to be a good start.

Jack, it's a pleasure to have you on. I mean, being a great player is one thing that's wonderful, but I hear great things about you as a person, and I think that matters more. So it's a pleasure to have you on the program. Let's begin about all the hype about yourself. I'm sure you've heard of who Bob McKenzie is. I know you lived in the 416 for a while. We'll talk about the Georgetown Raiders later. So how do you stay focused as a 17 year old, not just in the game tonight because you're going to be a household name very soon, heading to the World Juniors and then into Vancouver next June?

Yeah, for me, right now I'm kind of taking it step by step not really looking forward into the future, looking at things to come. But kind of staying in the moment and keeping my feet on the ground. So right now, right now my main focus is the The All-American Prospect Game. And then getting ready to go to start the year with the NTDP. So I'm excited and ready to get going.

Yeah, it's kind of hard to outdo what you did last season, Jack, at the at the program. And, you know, coming up, one point shy of breaking Auston Matthews’ single season mark, is is that something that you set out to do? I know you want to have team success and you're going to be a big part of your team once again. But individually speaking, do you look at at that Auston Matthews goal and maybe even doing better than you did last season is something that you set out to do?

Yeah, for sure. It's in the back of my mind, but I mean, I had a really good year last year with some really good players. But I mean, for me, first of all, it's team success and then I know, I know it won’t come easy this year either I'm not really expecting it to happen. I'm kinda just moving along and worried about my game and I think the points will come because I mean, we play 18 Division one colleges, but it's going to be really tough games and we play a lot of good international teams too. So I mean, right now I'm kind of worried about my game and not to not to worried about breaking any point records or anything like that.

Jack, who is your favorite player growing up? And there are comparables now, but it doesn't matter what other people think. Do you have an NHL comparable for the fans out there who have never seen you play?

Um, I feel like a guy like Patrick Kane be a pretty good comparable. I mean, obviously Kaner is unbelievable. So I mean that's a lot of it's a lot of things to compare him. But yeah I mean I love watching him. I still still pull up his highlights all the time and just watch him for fun. Such an unbelievable talent and such a good representation of USA Hockey. So for sure, a guy like that.

You mentioned to us as well as Jack Hughes, continues to join us here on the power play. You mentioned to us when we talked to you last, Jack, that you were having an opportunity to skate with with Connor McDavid a little bit. Did that continue at any point during the summer? And if there's any advice that maybe even number 97 has given you, could you maybe tell us what that might be?

Yeah. I mean, I skated I was skating with him, guys like him, Hall, Tavares weekly. So me and Quinn were. So it was really good to just see them up close and see how hard they work. I mean, three of the best players in the league getting after it every every day. So it's it's really motivational to see the things they do up close and personal. And yeah, I mean, they're all just great guys. Connor has been there with me. He's been really nice to me, so that's all I can ask for.

So you're 17. I understand you were born in Orlando, Florida, but you've kind of moved around. So since May 14th of 2001. Give us a 17 year history of your bouncing around and the leagues you played in.

Yeah. So of course, my dad working in pro hockey. I mean, that's kind of the life you're you're up, you're in somewhere, and then you pack your stuff up and go on to the next. But I mean, we were lucky enough to spend 12 years in Toronto from 5 to 16, 5 to 17. So yeah, we went from starting off in Florida, then went to Boston, let my dad coach for the Bruins, and then we went to Manchester and then we're up in Toronto for 12 years. So yeah, we played that. GTHL growing up and me and my brothers like the joke is it's the best the best junior league in the world. So I mean really really good competition up there and a lot of great players so are playing playing for the Toronto Marlies. Growing up it was really good.

Do you think that 5 to 17 in Toronto helped you more than any of the other stops or if you would have stayed obviously in the south, is it critical that took you from A to maybe a plus?

Um, I wouldn't say that, but for sure. I mean, we were up in Toronto for so long and like those were kind of my vital years and my best memories up in Toronto. Like, my best friends are Canadian. I mean, people even know we went up there. We had no family, no cousins up there. And now I have people like I legitimately call family up there.

So, I mean, yeah, it's a really special place to me. And I mean, I think we all know it's such a hockey hotbed and so many great players are coming out as well every year. So it's so competitive up there. And I think that's where my brothers and I, our passion for the game grew through three outdoor rinks and through the Maple Leafs. So even in those tough years for the Leafs, we were always diehard fans of them. So I think I think that was a great spot for us.

Jack Hughes with us here on the Power play and and Jack, as you said, I mean, your dad had the life and still does. And he, of course, was involved in professional hockey and hockey at so many different levels. And you spoken about just how integral your mother was in developing you guys as hockey players in terms of getting into the rinks on time and that sort of thing. Just tell us about that, about your mom and the role that maybe she played in your development in minor hockey?

Yeah, she was she was everything really with my dad on the roads half the time. And it was always her bringing three guys, three boys around to the rink. So she did an unbelievable job. And I mean, the difference with her and a lot of a lot of other moms is like, she is not the ordinary mom. She she's in her College Hall of Fame for the three sports she played hockey, she played in the world championships.

So, I mean, even when my dad was out of town, we still got great points from her because she knew the game really well. So she did a really good job. She was always - she'd never say no. She'd always bring us - bring us to the outdoor rinks or it was going to three or four guys on our team to come over and just play mini sticks like she was always there buying pizza, saying, Yeah, So she, she does everything for us.

And I tell you what. Two, your dad was there and still is, like I said. And tell us what, what it would be like watching games with your dad, because I understand that sometimes two hour games would become four or 5 hours because your dad knew that when you were young that this was a pretty good teaching moment for you, right?

Yeah. Yeah. We like to joke around about I mean, still to this day, if we ever get to watch a hockey game with him, I mean, the first period period that usually takes 20, 30 minutes would take an hour and 30 and then it's time to go to bed. So, I mean, yeah, it's it's unbelievable. I mean, it's like having an NHL coach in your house. He's so smart. He coached in the NHL. He coached probably 900 pro game- pro games. So he's so smart. He's been through he's been through a lot. So to be able to, like, watch a game with him and just sit down and talk with him, it's so important. I never take it for granted.

Jack, you talked about staying focused and, you know, worrying about tonight's game and then taking things, you know, step by step. I'm sure you know about the top teams in the league. You grow up, you know, you stay in Toronto, your dad teaching you. I do the same thing with my kids, too. So your dad's actually video sessions are longer. So hopefully my kids are not as mad at me. But it did pay off, Jack. So there you go. So when you look at the league and you know who's up there and who's not, do you start saying, Hmm, I could be with my brother or I could be in Colorado? Or how do you cope with that? Because there are people in Vancouver, they just lost a pair brothers who are twins. They would love the Hughes to be reunited in Vancouver in about ten months from now, Jack.

Yeah, I mean, of course it's in the back of my mind. I'm sure it's on the back of a lot of people's minds. But I mean, I don't get to decide where I go. And there's not a problem with any any team in the league in the NHL, 31 great places to play. So I'm not too worried about where I'll be. But I mean, the draft's still ten months away, like you said. So anything could happen, I don't even know where I'm going to go yet. So, I mean, all I can worry about is my game, and then we'll let the rest play out and see what happens.

I tell you what I mean, Quinn's no doubt helped you out and no doubt you've both been able to help out. Your younger brother Luke is projected to be quite a hockey player as well. Tell us about Luke and what fans can look forward to a few years down the road from another one of his family.

Yeah, I think just another one down the pipeline, another Jimmy Hughes product. So he’s kind of a clone of Quinn. We like to say we kind of think he's better than Quinn at the same age. He's just a really good skater. He's so fluid with the puck and he's smart. And the best thing about him is he's the biggest of the three of us, taller than both me and Quinn right now.

So where is he playing, Jack?

He's playing with Little Caesars. So he's committed to Michigan and then he's. He's playing U15. So they're playing like 80% minor midget schedule playing in all the big tournaments up in Toronto. So. Oh, it seems like Luke's been doing really well.

Silver six. Scotty will see him in November at our neck of the woods. Good. That's good stuff. I can't wait. We're there all the time anyway. But it's great when you have a connection to the kids. Of course. Well, last one before we let you go. And everything that your dad has done. I love listening to you speak so highly of him. And I know you're so proud of him. And he must be so proud of the three of you. So in the summer. So let's say from June 1st until September 1st, what do the Hughes do in terms of skill development to get you ready for the upcoming season?

So, yeah, I mean, we're up in Toronto, we train with Dan Ninkovich over at BTNL and I feel like it’s a great spot for all three of us. Quinn’s been there since he was probably 12 and me and Lukey moved into it as well a little later on. So Dan’s kind of family to us and he's been great for us so he's been kind of taking on taking care of the off ice and then yeah, we kind of skate with we've been skating with PEP, me and Quinn. Um, we've been skating with McDavid group, John Tavares group, and then we skate with our dad a lot too just battle drills, rubbing shoulders, grinding and working on the skill set. So I mean, we have a really good set up up there and I think we train really well.

Well, it's been great to catch up with the once again. Jack We once again have enjoyed the conversation with you. Best of luck tonight. Have fun above all and best of luck when you guys get going for your regular season there at the NTDP.

Yeah, I will. Thank. Thanks, guys.

[mrs-monaghan]

Jkk probably feel the need to defend V's behavior lately, because if they don't then they're left questioning his loyalty to Jm regarding Jk. The day V tells Jk he likes him the most or that he likes him to his face, then what? When V did that in front of Jk and said all of that to Jm, even causing Jm to tell him to stop when he kept telling him he liked him, it was written off as soulmates, besties, even with people trying to defend Jk, saying it was wrong if he's dating Jm. If V was willing to tell Jm he likes him and not be joking and later on say he likes Jm the most right in front of Jk, then what would stop V from flipping the script and doing it to Jk now, since they seem closer lately?

I don't think V would do that tho, because it is Jm he likes the most, not Jk & Jk wouldn't ever let V do something like to that Jm, but if Mr. Unpredictable ever did tho, I'm betting it wouldn't be written off as besties/soulmates, like it was with Vmin. We had Jk saying from a friend & Jm's actual panic waiting for what V was gonna say to him, then Jm looking at Jk after V said that to him & Jin's side eye & Suga yelling to break the tension. They all knew & braced for impact lol. He's not a horrible person, he loves Jikook, but he's unpredictable & enjoys trolling & kinda does before he thinks. Example, Going live from Jk's house without asking permission. If Jikook are dating, I imagine that didn't sit right with Jm & calling out people for saying it was wrong, cause they don't want to admit they themselves know its wrong, isn't okay. You may think its right, doesn't mean someone else does & no one has a right to say you can't feel its wrong. Jm is very patient with V cause he loves him & V just told Jm he loves him openly on IG just 4 mons ago, so I think Vmin are fine, but there are limits & patience can wear thin, even when it comes to besties.

what would stop V from flipping the script and doing it to JK now, since they seem closer lately?

Who's side are u on anon?

I love this video sm!! God Bless the person on twitter who made it 😂😂😂

No, but really, anon you have to watch how u say things. We live in a world where Tkkrs sent death threats to V pretending to be Jkkrs so they can make us look bad. We have them using Jimin as their PPs so they can lure people into the cult. So I am very cautious, alright? Let's be careful about how we word things so I don't side eye u 🤭🤭

Just because we don't see Jikook out and about like we used to, don't mean Tkk are now closer than Jkk. U know what, I wanna talk about this. The vermin can yell till the cows come home but we only have 2 legit instances of them being spotted together. 2. TWO instances. Bowling

And the musical

The end.

Every other instance has been made up and doesn't exist. The snowboarding which later turned into ice skating??? The way that story kept changing? And the fact that JK who hates the cold was ice skating without gloves and that's how a fan spotted him? 🤡🤡🤡🤡

Then we have the TT ontop of that one hotel. Where they supposedly spent the night together

Never mind that other members were present too and a certain girl group was also staying there. ☕

Speaking of the TT (that was for work) I have never seen anyone bring this up so I will. When this TT got posted I was trying so hard to figure out what or who I was looking at.

It was hard. Alright? Go to the comment section and see Trashkookers complain how they wish the video was clearer. The fact that I needed to check the tags to know who was dancing 🤭🤭 And so when this happened my Jikook brain couldn't help but wonder; editor - JK did he do this on purpose? Would he have edited the TT the same way if he had done it with Jimin? With Hobi? Was this him denying the cult content? We know he don't like them. 🤷🏽‍♀️ Food for thought. 🤔

Moving on swiftly....

Back to your ask my darling anon. I'm sorry your one sentence sent me into a tangent. 🙏🏽 I pretty much agree with everything u said. I will clip Jimin looking at JK during that Vmin moment so we can all enjoy it together.

Notice how Jimin didn't say "I like you the most too?" Is it because there's another person at that table that he likes the most? 👀 But the kicker is when Jimin looks at JK immediately after saying that. Immediately. Gee, I wonder why. 🤭

You know what this moment reminds me of? Bon voyage season 4 episode 6.

Jimin says he wants to sleep in the tent WHILE LOOKING AT JK. JK tells him to go ahead. No one else, just JK

Jimin repeats again *while still looking at JK* that him and Suga were gonna sleep in the tent. And JK nods.

👁👃🏽👁

This reads to me like Jimin was asking for permission here. He gets it the first time but once again feels the need to reiterate; babe, I will be in the tent with Suga. 🤭🤭

But like i said before. We don't talk about Yoonmin 🤫🤫🤫

[loco-warehouse]

What was Britney's relationship with the turtles like?

HUEHUEHUEHUE

Master Splinter kinda acts like a stand-in parental figure for Britney. She's gone through so much and he acts like a soft landing for her, so she can have time to process the current state of everyone's situation. Splinter also takes a realization that Britney is NOT cut out to be constantly going out fighting the Foot Clan or Kraang, but understands that she's too stubborn to be left behind. So, he assigns Leo and himself to start training her, in hopes that Britney can have SOME sort of defense. All in all, Britney has a huge amount of respect for Splinter, but isn't 100% sure how to connect with him, especially since she was taught opposite values that he has. Splinter finds her to be a bright girl with a wonderful future, and he just wants to make sure that he gets a chance in this world. Before his death, one of his last, personal lessons for her was teaching forgiveness. Both Baxter and Angela have taught a sense of holding grudges and seeking vengeance to fuck people over, and Splinter is the first to help break that cycle. She misses him, dearly.

April is like, her main sense of normalcy when living with the turtles. She was her apartment neighbor, so the two have a connection already. April acts as a sort of older sister/cousin. She attends her track meets, her parent conferences, etc. They'll even have "girl days" where she takes Britney out for lunch, shopping, and getting their nails/hair done as a treat!

Casey, is like the shitty older brother she always fight with. He'll wet willy her often, give mean nicknames, and all in all, a little shit. Britney returns the same teasing, by covering his hockey uniform in pink glitter and stickers. The two butt heads but have alot of fun.

Leo and Britney are SOO geeky! The two act serious when he needs to tutor her in fighting, in which it's hilarious bits of Leo deepening his voice to give some wise, out-the-ass, lesson, and Britney is like, trying to follow along, only to make fun of him. After training though, the two geek out over Space Heroes and other shows.

I think I'm gonna go a different route for Donnie and Britney. The two aren't fans of each other. It's a battle of prodigy minds, and she's constantly criticizing his contraptions. There's also a sense that because she's basically a Stockman, he doesn't trust her too much in the beginning, especially when she starts living with them. They do a lot of mind-fucking with each other, always trying to be the one above the other, so it leads to a lot of sibling rivalry. The only times they get along is when she needs help with homework and he the only smart one who gets what her homework is. Tiny one off, but Britney does ask him to turn her dad back, and Donnie response was basically, "Why would I do that?"

Raph and Britney are competition buddies! They like to be aggressive with each other alot, and always fighting to be on top. Raph and Casey do help her train outside of just fighting, such as her track races. They sneak into the football field and have alot of races, and Britney is determine to beat him one day. Other than training and track meets, they play alot of video games, pinball games, and even sneaking her out to play DDR. They keep each other busy :)

Mikey is her absolute best friend in the whole, wide world. Since meeting in early season three, the two were able to instantly click. He truly is a older brother, both having extreme interest in each other hobbies and ideals. He teaches her how to skateboard and roller skate, she teaches him how to have a better intuition, and the two can have ridiculous amounts of fun and connecting. They share comics, toys, games, everything! Tiny headcannon, when Mikey threw the retro-mutagen at Baxter, then proceeds to punch him, it was because he knew it's what Britney would've wanted.

[invisibleraven]

doing a paint night for Rulie

"What do you wanna do for date night this week?" Reggie asked Julie after class one day.

"Dinner and a movie? Our usual?" she suggested.

"Eh, we always do that, was wondering if you wanted to do something new."

"Because the roller skating worked out so well," Julie snorted.

"It's not my fault that the squirrel almost killed us!" Reggie protested.

"And I don't really want to go to the arcade," Julie said. "I kinda want to do something.. arty?"

"Well as long as we don't go to the museum with Willie, I'm fairly certain he's been kicked out of all of them for screaming or skating," Reggie said with a giggle.

"I'll think of something," Julie assured him. "You off to D&D?"

"Yup, have fun in choir!" they parted with a sweet kiss, promising to see each other at home later.

Friday night, Reggie had just put down his bag when Julie greeted him with a tight hug and a gorgeous smile. "Hey darlin', you miss me?"

"Yes, stupid late classes."

"You figured out whatcha wanna do for date night tomorrow?"

"Yup," Julie replied. "But for now..." Well Reggie didn't really complain about a somewhat quiet evening in.

The next night however, he was a little surprised when Julie shuffled them into the car and told him to drive north. "Wanna tell me where we're going?"

"Not yet, but I think you'll like it."

They pulled up to a smallish building, and Julie grinned as she pulled Reggie into a large, well lit room with several couples sitting down around easels. "It's a paint night," Julie explained. "We all get instructions to paint something, or can do something independently. I thought it would be fun."

"I'm not much of an artist," Reggie admitted. "But for you I'm willing to try."

"Pfft, bull, you designed all the band's logos and merch, plus I know how skilled you are with a camera," Julie assured him.

"That's not paint and canvas darlin'," Reggie argued. "I'm sure it'll be fun either way."

They sat down to their stools, and Reggie was grateful to see a bottle of wine for them to share along with a cheese and cracker platter and some fruit to nibble on. At least even if his painting turned out horrid, he would have food.

Plus Julie looked so happy, taking in all the paint colours, the various brushes, and he would do anything to make her look like that, even attempt his best Bob Ross.

It wasn't long before an older woman came into the center of the room, introducing herself and explaining the process. She had a table full of items they could paint, or they could follow her instructions to do a landscape alongside her, whatever they found easier.

Julie was following along, loving how some simple brushstrokes could convey trees and a sunset over a calm mountain lake. She turned her head to see Reggie, the tip of his tongue stuck out of the corner of his mouth as he added a splash of brown to his canvas. She wasn't sure what he was painting, but his look of concentration was adorable.

They slowly worked away, demolishing the plate between them, though they mostly stuck to water after the first glass of wine, neither of them being big drinkers.

The class came to a close, and Julie stood back, admiring her piece. It was awash with colour, and she felt a sense of pride as she took it in. She did that! Sure, she was always doodling or drawing, but this was a new medium, and it was a subject matter she didn't usually dabble in, but it had turned out rather lovely, and she kind of wanted to see how it would look hanging above their bed.

"Nice work darlin'," Reggie said with a low whistle. "That'll look great in our place."

"Just what I was thinking," she said, relaxing back into his hold, ensnaring his arms around her waist. "What about yours?"

"Eh, I dunno, it didn't turn out like I wanted," Reggie admitted, pressing a kiss to her pulse point, making her shiver. "But I sure did have fun."

Julie waddled them over to his canvas and gasped as she took it in. Because... that was her.

The painting was of Julie, eyes closed as she played a piano, dressed in her favourite lilac summer dress, a small vase of dahlias on the piano top. She looked...

"Beautiful."

"Well you are," Reggie said quietly. "This is how I see you."

Julie sniffled, and turned around in his arms. "You're beautiful too."

"So whaddya think? Can we find a place for this one?" he asks.

"A place of honour," she promises.

And they do, right in their entryway, for everyone to admire as they come in. Though when they get their first home, they have a few more paintings to add to it, including the one Reggie did showcasing their intertwined hands, a large ring on Julie's finger-the one he had used to propose that night.

[fateinthestars]

It must be about time for another review/rambling post right? And for this month it's gotta be the Christmas sets!

Let's start with the two that I think are the oldest? And that's 'Signs of Love on a Holy Night: Wishes' and 'Signs of Love on a Holy Night: Punishments'

The Wishes set contains stories for: Leon, Teorus, Huedhaut

The Punishments set contains stories for: Scorpio, Dui, Ichthys

Spoilers under cut

Signs of Love on a Holy Night: Wishes

Leon: The Final Touch: A God's Sweet Kiss

This is an odd thing to talk about in the Wishes section of all things but I'm so amused at some stuff about Ichthys here that I have to mention them:

One of his pranks ended with MC pulling down one of Scorpio's bedroom walls and now Scorpio is furious with MC in this path

Scorpio actually respects the idea of Ichthys trying to prank Leon!

Uh where was I? Oh, right, Leon's Christmas story. This is actually really sweet, though MC really did try to do way too much. Leon's his usual appearing not to care at all about things on the outside but fixing it anyway and clearly having gone to the trouble of learning details on his own, as well as reassuring MC.

Teorus: Jealous Santa Claus

Ugh. Great. There might be no over-possesive Teorus here, but let's have a petulant jerk instead shall we?

The one thing I will say against MC is: I know you'd already picked him a present out but why didn't you give him one of the Christmas Stocking cell phone straps you were making as well? It's not like that would have detracted from the gift.

On the other hand: Teo, MC was doing stuff for work, she was really busy because of work. Yes, she could have said more to you when you turned up, but that was no reason to go the other way and pretend you weren't in when Vega knew that you were and could tell MC as much. You went so far that Ichthys and Huedhaut even thought you genuinely were mad!

Thinking that MC had really upset you simply to give her a taste of what it feels like to have some radio silence still feels like a really mean spirited move.

Maybe this is the introvert in me speaking but I hate the idea of people insisting that things can't go well if you don't meet up in person loads.

Teorus really does frustrate me sometimes. At least what he was really doing in his room was kinda sweet, if a bit weird. The photo session messing around at the end almost makes up for how I feel about the start of this mess...

Almost.

Huedhaut: A Holy Night For Two

And now at the other end of the scale we have one of my absolute favourite special stories.

Poor Hue really has zero luck, but that may just be because of the utter morons he has to put up with!

Getting all the special work done in record time so that he could go out with MC and yet being interrupted at nearly every turn by the idiots in the departments... sheesh. No wonder Hue was getting so frustrated!

Still it's such a memorable story and gives us such amazing moments as:

And:

Don't worry Hue, I'm sure MC had an amazing time: I certainly did! This story is just so funny. It's a great one to go back to when you're after something to make you smile.

Signs of Love on a Holy Night: Punishments

Scorpio: Our Own Little World

This is such a sweet and lovely story, in absolutely typical Scorpio fashion. However, to me, this one will always be the story where this happened:

It' not that it's unusual for Scorpio to call the others names, but to call ZYGLAVIS by something other than his name? Man Scorpio really was pissed off here wasn't he?

I'm also still rather intrigued that his opinion of Krioff is 'Smart mouth brat' too...

Dui: Melting with the Snow

Aww this is such a comforting and sweet time between Dui and MC. From the Ice Skating, to the Kamakura Snow House, to the gift MC had got Dui and making herself somewhat uncomfortable in the cold due to not wanting to spoil the surprise...

It's just such a loving relationship. I adore this one. (And I'm kinda irritated at how they treat a follow up of going skating again in one of the other Christmas sets... but I'll leave that until we get to that set)

Ichthys: Love's Chimney Delivery

The most bizarre thing about this is that in these two sets, this is the only one of the six stories where MC isn't dating the featured God. I feel like this one would be quite hard to place but as they do almost kiss at one point, I guess it is likely to be somewhere in Ichthys' route.

This is just a bit of good fun with MC and Ichthys playing Santa.

Actually delivering presents goes as well as you are probably thinking it would, but the gift that Ichthys gives MC is really really touching.

Okay, guess I better try and rank these? I would say my enjoyment level puts them in this order:

Huedhaut

Dui

Scorpio

Ichthys

Leon

Teorus

[widowshill]

B, D, J, K, M, T (doesn't have to be just DS if you don't want it to be!)

A -> Z FANDOM ASKS.

B - A pairing–platonic, romantic or sexual–that you initially didn’t consider, but someone changed your mind.

it feels like cheating to say any ships that came from rp because 90% of the time there's no way you'd consider them otherwise, but the one that stands out to me is willie and esme (ft. @retrograderesemblance) cherish them, would never have put them together on my own lol.

beyond that, and this doesn't really count for not ever considering it, but I was a w.illabeth disliker until this year, I read several persuasive defenses, and writing lizzie swayed me. so elizabeth herself changed my mind kinda.

D - A pairing you wish you liked but just can’t.

ok listen. it's s.parrington. i get it intellectually and i see the vision but i just don't like it and i have tried for years it is just not. idk. can't do it.

J - Name a fandom you didn’t think about until you saw it all over Tumblr.

i hope this is dark shadows to all my treasured mutuals whom i single-handedly inundate with ds content all over their dashes. my answer would be e.lisabeth das musical or honestly like ? robespierre of french history kinda has a stan army on here.

K - What character has your favorite development arc/the best development arc?

ohhh who would i say for ds. maybe roger because he gets domesticated, and makes truly wild strides in his relationship with his son. ( go white boy break that patrilineal curse ). weirdly i also kinda wanna say joe is up there ? he has an interesting journey from Carolyn's Rejected Puppy All American Fish Boy to like ... helping vic investigate laura, being ang's chew toy, having a mental breakdown. and also deeply caring about david! maybe i just like it when people start caring about the kid.

elsewhere it's jimothy norrington. easy. character arc of all time.

M - Name a character that you’d like to have for a friend.

not many people on this show because that's a death sentence but lowkey.. natalie dupres (josette's "spinster aunt") bc i think we would really get along. fancy french brunches with the gay aunt and we can talk shit about barnabas. even though she would bully me for my french, and rightfully so.

elsewhereeee hmm. alice k.ingsleigh would make a wonderful friend. sybil c.rawley. max b.lack sails.

T - Do you have any hard and fast headcanons that you will die defending? 

most of my headcanons about vicki tbh dan curtis can piss off. namely that girl has autism. she dislikes the task of setting her hair / sleeping on rollers and rarely feels like doing it, but her and carolyn will sometimes set hair for each other for some girl time. roger fencing and liz ice skating. i also know i'm right about specifically vic's and carolyn's music taste (monkees/mamas & the papas/paul revere & the raiders/herman's hermits, and jan&dean/the ventures/elvis/beach boys, respectively). vic is also added in the collins family history. david draws her in after she dies/disappears, and elizabeth has her formally added after she discovers his handiwork.

you can also pry my "elizabeth swann's burgundy dress was esme's" from my cold dead hands ! like. that's such an important one to me sdfgfd.

[weirdthoughtsandideas]

If you would pair up all main 7 girls in SL with each other, how would you feel about every pairing?

Ok, let's do in an order here then, starting with Luna and then going from there.

Luna/Ámbar - Yes very much <3 Except for the very fact that S3 made this a little "eeeeh". But I had a field trip shipping them in S1 before I knew... idk they had a lot of moments that still makes me go "wait what-" but... going canonically, I am still very happy they are close in one way <3 And they're one of my favorite relationships on the show.

Luna/Nina - They had some moments, I'm thinking when Luna said she was going on a date with Nina, when Monica thought they were dating, and then when Luna practically gave her a love confession in the final ep lol. So I see it. But I also kinda see Nina as straight HSHSDJFKX like it's a mix - I see her as straight but if I'd imagine her with a girl I could picture her with Luna, maybe. They can platonically get married for tax purposes /j

Luna/Jim - I didn't see it a lot but people have made me warm up to it. They should kiss.

Luna/Yam - They don't interact much alone those two, but I think they could work as a pairing. Yam would teach Luna all about queer history and slang (cause we KNOW she knows all about that) and giggle when Luna messes up some fact but tries to hard because she wants to show her gf she's listening!!

Luna/Delfi - Nah I don't see it tbh. I feel like they'd not really understand each other's vibes. They can be good friends tho.

Luna/Jazmin - Jazmin would be so excited to make videos about Luna, record her all the time skating, and they always be seen giggling together. Everyone else would wonder how they work, but they just do.

Ámbar/Nina - Haha yes Ámbar decides to seduce Luna's other best friends instead /j. Don't know how it would work out, I feel like Nina wouldn't be too into it.

Ámbar/Jim - Jim would feel nervous, especially since Ámbar is in another social status than her, and Ámbar would probably be a little... dominant in the relationship. I feel like it could work, but it would be a little rocky to begin with.

Ámbar/Yam - Listen I feel like this could be so interesting if these two just could share a conversation alone. I like this "unlikely bond" they'd have, when they just share their thoughts and be like "huh, I seem to relate to her more than I think". Then they'd get closer and kind of realize they may want some more, and it starts kind of as a secret relationship cause they don't know how people will react, but then they'd tell more and more people and be a pretty nice couple.

Ámbar/Delfi - I sometimes wonder if Delfi has a small crush on her and doesn't know how to handle it. I think if Ámbar was a little nicer to her, this could work lol

Ámbar/Jazmin - Jazmin would be Ámbar's number 1 fan, always brag to everyone THAT'S MY GIRLFRIEND!!! And Ámbar would be a little embarrassed but also she secretly thinks it's so cute how much her gf cares <3

Nina/Jim - You know, Jim has chemistry with every girl ever and they had a little moment in S3 that made me go "hm, yeah, maybe".

Nina/Yam - This could potentially work too, I think Yam would love to sing to her or make her cute outfits.

Nina/Delfi - Nah not really

Nina/Jazmin - Jazmin were comforting her off screen after her breakup, and idk I think they'd be a fun and an unlikely pairing that somehow works.

Jim/Yam - YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jim/Delfi - Idk it could work, they'd have lots of skating dates and duets together.

Jim/Jazmin - Possibly. As mentioned, Jim just has chemistry with every woman HAHAHA

Yam/Delfi - Yeah, they could be cute together

Yam/Jazmin - Well the actresses are very close and if they'd have more scenes in the show, I would say they could work.

Delfi/Jazmin - Yeah <3 Idk that S3 scene where they cuddled on the couch did something with me.

[dzpenumbra]

7/18/23

I want to get to bed earlier tonight than I have been lately, so I'm going to try to keep this shorter than normal.

I went to the skatepark today. The smoke from the Canadian fires was back and I went anyway. It was pretty exhausting and I sweat like crazy, I had to take a ton of breaks. I didn't do anything too impressive, but I really wanted to get more comfortable on my board, so I just kinda focused on that. I was getting a bit spooked with the idea of ollieing onto an angled box, I kept riding up to it and then chickening out. It was only like 6 or 7 inches tall. But I was just spooked by it. So I made myself do it. And I ended up doing it a bunch of times without any problems at all. I was probably ollieing way higher than I needed to, but the feeling of just doing something I was scared to do just seconds before was really nice. And just getting comfortable with it and seeing it's really not that bad. So, all-in-all, skating was fucking great. I was beaming, I felt like a kid again. I had no shame really, I wasn't even that insecure, I just sorta embraced where I was at and just skated for the love of skating.

The ride up on my electric board... I was a bit nervous. I have to go through a not-so-great area to get there, which just so happens to be the area right next to the health center and the community center... and a block away from the police department... it's pretty clearly not a great area. Going up, I was a bit nervous. I forgot what turn to take and kinda... had to come to a stop for a minute and check my map. But I made it there fine.

Coming back was another story. At first... I was having no problems. In fact, most of the way was pretty much fine. Until I got to that same area by the train tracks and the community center and a dude flagged me down. I... stopped. I was just absolutely stunned that someone actually wanted to interact with me. There was one other kid at the skatepark and he was just on the other side of the tiny park the entire time and never even acknowledged me. This guy was like waving and yelling, asking me if I just rode down that hill on my board. I yelled back across the street that yeah, it's electric, and the brakes charge the battery, it's really cool. I seriously... in those moments, it is 100% my inner child coming out. I sound like a fucking 8 year old. And I love that about myself, I love connecting with that part of me, there's so much excitement and wonder and joy. Then... the guy came across the street.

I... actually was getting ready to let him try riding it. I don't fucking know why, honestly, I really shouldn't. He actually kinda stopped me, saying something like, "oh no, that belongs to you, that's okay." That's around when I noticed this guy was barefoot and had painted toenails. He had scraggly hair, he was missing one of his teeth. He had gigantic widely-open blue eyes and his pupils were pinned. He had a recent injection mark in his right arm. He had something stuck in his left foot and didn't seem to be aware of it. Meth, I'd put money on it. But I was just... oblivious. In the moment, I was just like "oh wow, someone wants to talk to me." And I told him I came from the skatepark and this is how I get to the skatepark, and he asked me if I was on a mountain, would I ski or snowboard... and I said snowboard. And he got excited and fist-bumped me. And that's when I saw the injection site and reality started to set in. He then said, out of nowhere... "okay, welp, I better go get that corpse out of the road." And walked off. I'm guessing it was roadkill or something? I was just like... in my head... "alright, um... guess it's time for me to get the fuck out of here..."

Wonder why I have social anxiety? This is really... a big part of why I'm scared of socializing. I feel like I just completely miss the gigantic red flags. I feel... inept. I feel like I put myself in unsafe situations, because... I just assume the best of people. I see the best in people. Compulsively. And that means that not only is my guard down, my guard is pretty much non-existent. I genuinely wonder... if this guy asked me if he could have my skateboard that was on my back... if I would give it to him. Me right now, most likely not. I mean, unless he was like part of an NA program and had a sponsor who could vouch for him and thought skating could get him off the drugs and turn his life around, then sure, absolutely. But me in the moment? I really don't know. I really don't know. And that shit scares me. It's been haunting me ever since.

I've honestly really been struggling to process that encounter. It's like... 2-3 blocks away from my apartment. There is an alternate route I can take to get to the skatepark that's through a suburban(ish) neighborhood. I have no idea if that neighborhood is any better, worse, or the same. But I guess... maybe next time just... if I see someone coming across the street trying to get my attention, trying to talk to me, in that area... maybe next time don't stop and talk to the dude. Even though nothing bad happened.

I don't know if I'm being paranoid. He didn't seem to have bad intentions, he just seemed... high. But after that interaction, I have just really... not felt safe. It doesn't make me want to go that way to the skatepark again. Is this an overreaction? Have I had these effects on people when they've observed me inebriated in public? Am I being fair? Am I underreacting?

I don't really know how to assess this situation, and the obvious solution would be... don't skate alone. It's really never a good idea... but I just don't really have a choice right now. So the best compromise I have come up with is just... stay away from that specific road.

Is it obvious that I'm not a city person? XD

I legit treated that interaction like I would've treated meeting another hiker in the woods. "Hey, how are you? How's your day? Can I offer you a gift of some sort? Tell me your story!" And this dude is tweaking, standing in the doorway of his apartment building, walking out into the road and shit. Now that I'm thinking back, there was even a truck that slowed down to like... scope out the scene and I'm guessing make sure everything was okay and shit. And even they probably realized it looked like a potentially unsafe situation.

I'm seriously... ugh, I'm trying not to get too anxious about this but my heart is going already. I really worry that I'm not cut out for this type of world. Like I said, when I am doing well... when I am confident and all that... I keep ending up in unsafe situations and like... not even realizing it. It makes me feel stupid. I'm just going to say it so I can get it over with and move beyond it. I feel socially stunted or oblivious, blind, dumb.

It's making me think of kayaking in the flooded river. Or just not going to the doctors when blood started pooling in my foot when I got a blood clot in my shin. Or getting on a plane and flying to Vegas alone for the first time with no hotel room and barely any plan. Reckless. Adventurous? Shortsighted. Impulsive. Optimistic?

I don't know how to read it. Part of me just wants to see the best in things and not let anxiety rule me... but encounters like these just... they fucking validate that anxiety so fucking much. I can feel it right now, that smug little shit in the back of my head chiming in over and over and over - "I told you it wasn't safe..." "I warned you." "You're lucky."

And then another part of my brain chimes in and goes, "these are just people. Not all drug addicts are thieves or violent people. You were nice and neighborly to a troubled person." "Maybe you could find some kind of work in rehabilitation or something, find a way to help these people out, since you just... compulsively see the good in people. I'm sure they appreciate being treated like actual people."

Then another part of my brain goes... "AAAAGHAAAHAHA!! WE'RE NOT SAFE! Don't go back there again! Don't make yourself a target! Lock the doors!"

So... inner conflict. That's really how I feel. And right after a really good skate session where I had a lot of fun and was beaming with joy.

I've been lost in my head trying to find a good analogy for how I feel in pop culture... nothing is coming to mind right away... so I'm just going to reference my GTA RP character - Raymond Holmes. I made a character that went through a personality facelift and I made him into basically... during the day he was a cool high school dropout kinda guy who wanted to become a stuntman, like a Jackass cast member... during the night, he reverted to an 8 year old child. The two personalities had no knowledge or awareness of each other. What I'm referencing here is... how people would treat Ray, the child persona. They were very well aware that they were interacting with an authentic child-like personality. And every fucking person tried to get him drunk or get him high, or make him commit crimes, or something corrupt. Every fucking person wanted to corrupt him. Or hurt him. For fuck's sake, he went up to a gang member and straight up told the gang member to their face that his friend was stealing the gang member's car - he negligently, naively ratted on his only friend. And the gang member beat the shit out of the friend... then beat the shit out of Ray with a golf club. ... Why? No clue. Barely even spoke to him. But he did, left him crying on the side of the road.

I feel like that. And I know that people... for some reason... find amusement in causing bad things to happen to innocent people. Corrupting the innocent. I know that good, passive, well-intentioned, child-like people are excellent targets. They are prey. And... I feel like I've kinda... ended up in a strange reversal of the situation I came from.

In my old environment, I could feel people looking at me like I was the rabid dog in the pack (ahh Kristoff Krane). Like I was the wolf wearing sheep's clothing, hiding amongst the herd. Because I would wear metal band t-shirts and I have tattoos, and shit like that... where I used to live, that was very out of place. Now? I feel like a sheep wearing wolf skin trying to blend in in the pack, and doing a horrible job.

How much of this is feeling and how much of it is reality? I really can't tell. That's the most confusing part. Maybe that interaction was... not the worst in the world? I want to be social. I want to be trusting. I want to see the best in people. And I really, really do. But... man, all it's gonna take is someone baiting me into a parking lot and then I get jumped or some shit. "Oh they just need a hand, better be a Good Samaritan."

I want to be a good person. I want to be innocent. I want to embody that childlike wonder and joy. But this comes with it. And it leaves me vulnerable to being exploited. Which is why I feel so unsafe. And... ultimately... if my material possessions (my skateboards, my sunglasses, my AirPods, my phone, my water bottle and my keyfob were all I had on me... I deliberately left my wallet at home) were just... things... it wouldn't be that bad. "Just take my board, I'll walk home." I file a police report, they don't follow up on it... I lose my form of transportation that I only really use to get to the skatepark. Maybe I buy a new one, maybe I don't? So... working on my level of attachment to my possessions would dramatically reduce the feeling of risk here.

But then there's the element of physical harm. I don't know why any idiot would risk committing a violent crime against a stranger on the side of a major street... but I guess stranger things have happened. And if someone had it set in their mind that they were going to harm me? What am I going to do about it? Fight them? Run? I don't know. I just wanna fuckin skate, man! Now I've gotta think about this shit?!

What blows my mind is that a lot of the populace think the skateboarders are the criminals. Good lord.

So yeah. I'm just... kinda processing. Again, none of these feelings really hit until after I got back inside my apartment. In the moment it was just like... "oh, poor guy. I wish he chose going out and living life instead of drugs. He seemed like this was something he might be interested in." And I just moved on. But when I got back, it started hitting how... that could've been a bad situation. And it started bringing back those memories of how I just stood there and listened to my former best friend from high school tell me horrific (like literally straight out of a horror movie) stories about the life she came from. It just all makes me so sad. So sad. How horrible people can be to one another. To themselves.

I guess it makes the work of being a good person, breathing light and love into the world, that much more important. Is that how this works?

I don't want to linger on this. I'm sure I will discuss this with my therapist at length on Thursday. I just... I really wish I met a new friend today... not a meth head. It's not really making me feel comfortable renewing my lease... XD But huge pat on the back to me for going out, getting exercise and braving the world today - warts and all. It was a very big step and well worth it, even with its surreal setbacks.

Other than that? A decent night's sleep. 4 hours, got up, read some of this Meditation in Action book that is just... probably the big core of my existential crisis with like... "how do you deal with situations like vehicle theft and potential physical threat as a pacifist without just being eaten alive?" It's hard because books don't talk back. Then I got back to sleep and rested well.

After dinner, I did more work on the grip tape, it's coming along. Most of the mandala basecoat is pretty much done... I think... depends on how big I want to make it. The bigger it gets, the more paint it's taking to fill. Kinda "no duh"... but it just means each step is more time consuming and it feels like progress is slower. And yeah, that was pretty much the day.

So... I'm gonna try to focus on the good here, that I was getting pretty comfortable on my board and I actually went and skated regardless of the smoke in the air and the late hour. And I had a lot of fun. I absolutely saw the dark side of letting my inner child take the steering wheel, but I really don't want to let that overshadow the huge plus-side, because I had a fucking blast.

[springbridedragon]

It's a weird time.

I should start with my step-dad died, and we found that out November 11, but he'd been sitting in his truck for 4 days. And in a strange manner, I have been grieving, but trying to figure out why exactly. Well, he had been my source of terror for a good chunk of my life. Age 8-18. Not every day, of course. Up until my first sibling, he was nice, taught me things, and we had fun- like skating or fishing. My own dad was MIA mostly. I won't do an itemized list but, after J was born and they all kinda fell apart, I took on a caregiver role but simultaneously had a target on my back. I couldn't do anything right, he would watch for my mistakes. To this day I feel safest in the dark, afraid my facial expression would trigger a reaction. One of the worst things though; was the love bombing. He would give a hint of approval and I would do anything to get it. Even stand for hours and let him tell me how I was wrong in every manner. The only good times we seemed to have was when he cleared up from the oxy and we talked about history, aliens, horror movies.

After S was born and I was a teenager, and he had a 2nd back surgery where his addiction got worse, the sexual/miscellaneous abuse increased and I was no longer interested in preserving our relationship and I stopped calling him dad. After a few years and I was with my now husband I felt brave enough to try again. We had one or two good episodes before he got hooked on something else and my siblings pulled away from him. And then it was maybe 2 years ago we interacted for the last time and I was working through my trauma and no longer wanted so see him- it enraged me that my mom stayed married and continued to help him. That's another post.

Fast forward to November 11, the sheriff came to tell us. And a couple days ago I went with J to say goodbye. I cried pretty hard. But by then I understood why. I would never get a confrontation, or apology (not that I really expected one) or just acknowledgement. All I would ever have is this trauma I'm working on releasing. And the what could have beens, or the parent he could have been. And I just feel so sad for how he had to go. Alone in his truck, no contact with anyone. Like man, it never had to be like this.

Anyway aside from that, there's drama between my siblings and my moms health is suffering. Feels like my family is very distant. Like icebergs far apart in the sea. S is determined to split away from J over some issue with S husband talking shit. I am not fond of him either and mad at S because this is absolutely the worst time. And my best friend lives 5 minutes from me but barely contacts me- i reached out needing connection and she was dismissive. We are supposed to have friends giving on Thursday but i am not sure i can let my guard down with them anymore. Also I've gone clean from Facebook, finally not missing it. Reading up on digital minimalism and focusing on learning and separation from my phone app by app.

I know, it's a lot. I wondered if now is really the right time to cut off all my socials and friends on it as my birthday is in a couple weeks. But I'm plunging into the isolation anyway. Planning a snowy cabin trip with just me and hubs and doggo. I just want to continue moving forward for the betterment of my life. For health and making a little family and a lot of little adventures.

Hope my passport gets here soon.

[casspurrjoybell-25]

Skating on Thin Ice - Chapter 49 - Part 2

*Warning - Adult Content*

Elijah Ellis

Fawn and Raven walked in a few minutes later, each with a coffee in hand.

"You didn't even think to ask if I wanted anything?" Fox questioned his sisters with a glare.

"I'm the one that's been in this hell hole for hours."

"Robin will get you something," Raven said, sitting down at the foot of the bed.

"They went off with your friends."

Fox raised his eyebrows at me.

"Josh, Ian and Trevor are here," I told him.

"Trevor?"

"He was with Joshua when I got the call from Wren," I replied.

"I don't know the details."

Fox smirked but didn't say anything else about the two of them.

"So who the hell beat you up?" Fawn asked, taking a sip of her coffee.

"I can go rough them up."

"I don't doubt it," Fox responded.

"Seriously though. What the hell?" Raven added, turning to face us.

Fox didn't explain the specifics but he ran through what happened after he had left my house.

"You fucking scared us," Robin boomed was he walked in the room, Wren following behind him.

"Whatever. What did you bring me?"

"I brought the peace offering of a Redbull," Robin said, handing it over to Fox.

Fox snatched it out of his brother's hands and immediately opened the drink.

Wren stood against the wall next to where Colt sat, his posture rigid and tense.

I told Fox I was going to step out of the room for a moment, giving the siblings some alone time.

When I got back to the hallway, Joshua, Ian and Trevor were sitting on the bench across from the room.

"How is he?" Joshua asked, standing from the bench. Ian stared at me intently, waiting for my answer.

"He's fine," I said, leaning up against the wall.

"He's in some pain but he's acting like his normal self."

"So he's being bitchy?" Ian asked with a scoff, his face no longer blank.

It was like once he knew Fox was okay, he was back to being irritated with him.

"Kinda."

The doctor came back down the hall, walking with Vanessa and Leo.

The three of them entered the room, leaving us outside.

We waited around a while, Fox giving his statement to the police, until he was finally being discharged.

He surprisingly didn't have a concussion, which he boasted about to his family.

"How are you man?" Joshua asked Fox when he came out of the room.

"I'm fine," he assured him, looking around at all of us.

"You guys didn't have to come here."

"Well, Elijah made it sound like you were fucking dying so..." Ian snapped, his hands in his pockets as he stood next to Joshua.

Fox turned to me with a confused expression.

"Wren called me," I clarified.

"All he knew was that you were at the hospital and that's all he told me. So I thought the worst."

Fox nodded in understanding, putting his hand on my back.

"I'm glad you're alright Fox," Trevor added with a smile.

Fox returned the gesture.

"Thanks."

We all left the hospital with the tension lifted from the air.

I was relieved Fox wasn't badly injured but the thought of why this happened because of me, was haunting me.

Fox noticed I was distant and he brought his face in front of mine when we got out to the parking lot.

"Do you want to come spend the night with me?" he asked, concern etched onto his face.

I was the one that was supposed to be concerned with him, not the other way around.

It felt like he was holding me together and without him I would break into pieces.

"Ian's staying at my place," I answered, my tone quiet and raspy.

There was nothing more that I wanted than to sleep with Fox wrapped in my arms tonight but I couldn't abandon Ian.

Even if he most likely wouldn't speak to me for the rest of the night, I wanted to be there in case he needed to.

"He can still stay at your house with Joshua, right?" Fox wondered, looking over to where Joshua, Ian and Trevor stood at our car.

"He doesn't need a babysitter, just a place to sleep."

I pondered on his offer, glancing over at the group at our car and knowing if I looked at Fox he could convince me to do anything.

I walked over to the group after telling Fox I needed to go talk to them.

Their conversation ceased when I reached them.

"So I'll see you tomorrow?" Joshua asked as soon as he saw me.

"Um..." I glanced around at the three of them.

"I just assumed you'd be staying at Fox's," Joshua added.

I made eye contact with Ian, who then gave me an irritated scowl and crossed his arms.

"Go, Ellis," Ian snapped.

"Now I can sleep in your bed instead of the fucking floor."

After saying goodbye to them, I made my way back to where Fox waited for me at his parents' car.

He wrapped his arm around me, giving me a brief kiss on the cheek before getting into the car.

The ride back to his house was quiet, the only noises coming from Colt's game he was playing in the back of the SUV and the tires rolling on the pavement.

Once we were back at the house, Fox led me upstairs.

"I didn't wreck your car," Fox called out to Wren, who was about to open his bedroom door.

Wren slowly turned his head and let out a short laugh as he opened the door.

"I know you didn't," he said, closing himself in his room.

Fox opened his own door and I followed him inside.

"I need to take a shower," he said, heading to his dresser to grab new clothes.

"I'm covered in blood and dirt."

I watched him closely, noticing his wince as he moved to remove his shirt.

"Fox," I said, astonished at the bruises littering his abdomen.

"Are you sure you don't have a broken rib or something?"

"The doctors said no," he replied, trying to hide his discomfort as he removed the rest of his clothes.

My eyes watered as I looked at him, knowing he was hurt because of me.

"Hey," he said, coming in front of me and putting both hands on my cheeks.

"Don't do that."

He kissed my cheek under my eye, where a tear was about to fall.

I didn't dare voice my thoughts to him.

He would only try to convince me otherwise but I knew it was the truth.

Dave had orchestrated this because he knew hurting Fox would affect me.

"Go lie down," Fox said, leading me to his bed.

"I'll be out in a few minutes." Fox exited the room, leaving me to my thoughts.

I buried myself in the covers, taking deep breaths.

Thoughts of Fox being beaten ran rampant in my mind.

He had to suffer because he was with me and that caused a squeeze in my heart.

He didn't take long in the shower and I didn't know whether or not I should have been grateful for that.

Fox got into the bed and reached for me.

Before he could wrap his arms around me, I turned around and wrapped mine around him.

All I wanted was to hold him close.

He settled into my hold, letting out a content sigh as I kissed the back of his neck.

This was all I needed at the moment, to have him close and safe in my embrace.

[macaroni-rascal]

I have so many thoughts but so little time, goddammit! Both dance events were fascinating. The junior event showcasing infinitely better skating skills than the senior one is such a bad look. My heart broke for Yahli, but at least she had Tanith there to console her, she's the perfect person for this because she's literally lived through it. Although I do feel bad every time Tanith curls her hair just so her teams would disappoint her. Overall I was pleasantly surprised by how much I liked the juniors, they were all so different and so good. Probably the best JGPF I've ever seen, especially the girlies!

Marjo and Zak are likely rooming with Lia and Trennt respectively because they looked like they rubbed off on each other. Zak looked like he knew they wouldn't have a good skate going in, so I wonder what's been going on. Marjo's hair piece is doing all the heavy lifting discipline-wide. The tech panel tried to do its job but the GOEs were a trip, as always. It's fascinating which judges fucked over their own teams. Charlene went out there with a vengeance and skated lights out, her ponytail floating in the wind like a plume of fire. They should've been in first. Barbara's stopwatch should be put up in the Olympic Museum when she retires. I love Mark so much, his ability to sneakily say things is unparalleled. When he said C/B have never won the GPF, all of us old-timers knew exactly what he was saying - they'll be handed the win. Luckily for them, G/P aren't helping themselves with this atrocious RD. Any team that's lying down on the ice better not talk to me. And Nik really isn't doing anything to get off my shitlist, huh? I was wondering when F/G's reckoning would come and I'm pleasantly surprised it was this quick, they needed a reality check.

The pairs event also made me stabby. The Germans had no business outscoring the Italians. Minnie better shield this boy lest Aljona try to poach him. What annoys me the most is that Deanna and Max repeat this trajectory every year - they start out strong, nail it at an early Challenger or GP, and then can't do a clean competition for the life of them, the choreo gets watered down, and by the time Worlds rolls around, they're completely out of gas and the judges have lost their faith in them. The axel has never been Trennt's jump, but I'm fascinated by how he's landing his former nemesis the 3S with such ease now but not the 2A. And it was only a matter of time before he started putting down lifts because Alison doesn't teach the girls how to hold themselves up in them. They need a harder throw and a Lori Nichol/Sandra Bezic/David Wilson program if they want to be competitive next year and of course they should keep spending time in London, it's doing wonders for them, and maybe they can learn a thing or two about lifts from the coaches there as well. Their free was the most beautiful of the bunch here. I see what Asher was trying to do with the SP but it doesn't really suit them, I much preferred the initial version they did at the sectionals. The Hungarians' free could also be so tender and special if it was being done by a team with any connection whatsoever. I want justice for Sara and Niccolo at Europeans and Worlds, but they also need to change programs once in a while. Is H/V's coach really powerful or something? What is going on here? What is this shit?

The women's event could've been an email. I'm still shooting daggers at Isabeau's coaching team. The way she can't recover from a mistake is deeply concerning. Amber is being served the national title on a platter this year and she better eat. Rion's skating usually doesn't do anything for me but I kinda enjoyed her here. I still actively dislike Hanna and Loena's SPs. Nina's dress is fabulous but she's the second coming of Alina on those crossovers when I'd rather forget even the first coming. Angel Kaori still doing angel shit, good for her, as an OG stan I'm fucking thriving. All I need is Wakaba back at full brilliance and I'll ascend. I'm so ready for this senior free dance event, I can't even tell you. Hope you feel better soon!

I didn't end up watching any of the junior gpf, but you're making me wanna go back and watch junior ice dance, I may do that!

Ice dance at the GPF could have been an email, I know you said that about women -- and that's fair -- but I really think this ice dance event bored the hell out of me. Same with the free dance I just watched. I skipped half the teams cause I just didn't really care to watch. I am happy F/G got a reality check, and I wish the Italians won, but what are ya gonna do? Go stalk and kidnap judges' families until they do what you want? Maybe?!

Pairs is a wild time, I think H/V have been very consistent this season, despite all their issues off ice, and the judges are into it. I enjoy them as a team, I wish they had better programs, and looked at each other more, but I think they've got a cool future ahead of them. I'm so sad for Deanna and Max, had she done a double axel the title would have been theirs. It is fun the top three teams were within two points of each other, that's a good time for me. The Italians (both teams) put me to sleep, so I don't really remember their skates.

I agree with all your opinions on the women's sp event, amen amen amen.

[castieelsblog]

I think I have severe commitment issues-

So, I've had MANY different partners but I'm just going to talk about the last three. Sophomore year of HS, I was dating this boy and he was the first person in my freshman/Sophomore year that I count but that relationship was...mostly kept a secret from his dad (no mom, I think she died or something....) and he was just...kinda a shitty person. He treated me like shit when we split off, and I don't even know HOW or WHEN we split it off because the night before we were joking around then the next day: nothing. Fast forward to junior year, I come back from being in online school and at the time, t*ump was saying things about LGBTQIA+ rights and I thought as a form of protest-ig-i wore my pride flag to school for a week straight. A group of people came up to me and I felt INSTANT panic, but the person who talked for the small little group is who I ended up falling for-as ironic as it is- we both liked similar things and we exchanged jackets but...I was ghosted once school ended (they were a senior) and then school started again and I saw them. They had credits they needed to make up so that's why they were there, but they had asked me on our first and last date and that Saturday, we went roller skating. I ended up spraining my wrist about midway through the date (I'm usually a good blader I promise, I just stumbled 😭) then after that we didn't talk again. So, my last year rolls around and there's no one. Yes there are crushes but that's all there were. Presently, I'm dating someone who I've known since my sophomore year who used to be friends with both of my ex's. He's wonderful and everything but he talks about marriage and stuff...constantly. he's Christian and we both have been treated badly at some point in our relationship histories. But the thing is, I DON'T WANT TO GET MARRIED. I never really have, I've seen it as a waste of time since I was a kid. He also is going into the reserves and today he had a meeting with the recruiter about the jobs he would do and he refused to do something that departed on our anniversary (Feb. 14th) and to me, an anniversary is just another day but he's been treating it as a big thing since our one month. But the thing is, I don't want to say like "Hey btw I may have commitment issues so can you please tone it down?" BECAUSE THATS RUDE??? AND I DONT WANNA BE A BITCH BUT IM ABOUT TO DISAPPEAR OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH AND START OVER IF IT CONTINUES, I DONT WANT TO DEAL WITH IT 😭😭

............nvm safe to say I DO have commitment issues. HOW TF DO I GO ABOUT SAYING IT-LIKE WHAT?? WHAT IF HE TAKES IT THE WRONG WAY?? Why can't we just be a situationship. I'd be WAY more comfortable then-