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I just want to be near a Broadway theater. Like, I don't even have to be in it, just in the general vicinity; that would be really great
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yes, exactly! though the point of this post is not how dracula loves, or what he does with it, the point is that he affirms that he can and does love at all. which is pretty unusual for unsympathetic villains. but it's important, because love is not this pure infallible thing. love is a feeling, love is an emotion, love is what you do with it. love is morally neutral, and (as dracula shows in the novel, and is mentioned in these tags) it can be just as flawed and messy as any other emotion. love does not automatically make things good, and the absence of love does not make them bad. people can do just as many bad and terrible things with love as they can good. whether the actions are a direct result of their love or are simply uninfluenced by their capacity for and feelings of it. someone else in the notes stated that love is a feeling, but goodness and kindness are choices, and that is so true! and i wish that more people would consider all this when they're writing (especially villains) because what they so often do is fall into the idea that "absence of love = evil" which just contributes to the continuous demonization of aspec (specifically arospec) people. now, having said all that, i'd just like to reiterate the base meaning of the original post, which is: dracula personally affirming his own ability and capacity for love is so important because 1.) it does not make him any more sympathetic or any less villainous. and 2.) it refutes the idea that he is a villain because he lacks love. and that really holds a lot of meaning (to me, at least)
unironically, one of my favourite things about dracula and something that i keep thinking about is during the may 16th entry where, after dracula has saved jonathan from the brides, the one says to him "you yourself never loved; you never love!" and dracula responds with "yes, i too can love; you yourselves can tell it from the past. is it not so?"
dracula is not evil because he is loveless. he's not loveless at all. he can and does love, and yet he is still evil. love is not the opposite of evil, and i absolutely hate the idea and tropes that are basically just like 'what makes a villain sympathetic is their ability to love. and more evil/unsympathetic villains don't have the ability to love' but bram stoker refutes that idea with this line, because dracula is pretty much entirely unsympathetic, yet still he himself confirms his own capacity for love
and idk, as a loveless aromantic, this tiny detail just means so much to me
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Hey, I’m just here to say you’re extremely missed and that, even though there’s probably not much I could say to make any of the bad things less awful, I’m hoping for an easier and gentler future for you soon. Take care, ok?
Oh man, thank you so much for sending this, and I'm sorry it's taken so long to respond (and to the other person who sent me an ask, too—I'm not sure when I'll get to it but please know it was seen and means so much). It has just been. So awful. I won't dump on the public at large everything that's happened, you don't need that novel, but it feels like every day life's falling apart more and more.
Just, seriously, thank you for sending this, and to the couple of people who checked in with chats (again, I'm sorry if I haven't responded yet, spoons are just very limited). There have been a lot of times throughout this where I get overwhelmed by everything going on and some truly horrific people I've met in the fandom and I've considered deleting everything permanently! Very often!!! Tbh I'm still struggling with that VERY intense urge while writing this. I feel so unsafe, and scared, and run down.
And tbh, it's really hard to believe anyone could care about me when I feel so awful and worthless, I feel like it must be an obligation, or I somehow accidentally manipulated people, but I'm trying to cling to that being the brain demons talking. Because I really appreciate the time and effort anyone's taken with me. And I really miss fandom and fun, even if it's weighed down with some significant trauma—I still love the stories and the characters and, most importantly, the amazing people I've met here. Outside of any fandom I've poked around in, the wonderful people I've met matter the most, and I'm trying to cling to that.
I really enjoy talking with everyone, running little projects/events, and for the first time in years actually writing again. (I've been slowly plucking away at that AU I mentioned a few times and I want to start posting for an event this month but! Ahhh!!!) I would like to try and be active again, and I'm so sorry for just being such an absolute goddamn mess. I feel like this is all too much to even say, but I do want to just be honest about all of it. Still, again, thank you so much for reaching out <3 And I'm sorry this is so ridiculously long even though I don't feel like I'm saying much and nothing important, I didn't intend for this answer to be a word-vomit update, just. Things suck, but you guys are good, and I hope things are as okay as you can be on your side of the screen <3
#Ask#shiromouse#Yadda yadda#I feel really bad for even saying all this honestly kasjndkasjdn#I'm really so sorry if this is too much#The guilt has been especially bad since I was... uh baited let's say#A very very bad incident#Done by a 'friend' in the fandom maybe about a year ago now#It's just been so hard to trust and feel okay and exist man#Because you can't forget#It makes it so hard to want to exist#And my house is falling apart my animals keep getting sick#I swear it's something new every day#ANYWAY time to stop rambling#I'm gonna try to restart the queue in the next few days I just still feel... overwhelmed#That's why I stopped it#I just couldn't stand existing#BUT YEAH#GOTTA STOP RAMBLING
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truly what a guy
#malevolent#malevolent podcast#arthur lester#arthur malevolent#john doe#john malevolent#my art#ahfdgfghsdd i have so many important things to do but these two have overtaken all of my waking thoughts so i'm fucked to say the least#adgfd i just wanna talk about them with someone but no one i know has the energy for that 12h long infodump#straight up today was my first truly no work day in a few weeks and what did i do? spent half the day figuring out how i want to draw arthur#still not sure if this the direction i wanna take his design in but somehow along the process he ended up as like my ideal look on masc days#tbh i don't have the time to unpack whatever that says about me ywy#john's design is very much still a first draft but i can't think about it too much or i might just actually go insane#this podcast makes me unwell(affectionate)#the universe is so evil for not letting me just draw them all day long ywy#in an ideal world it would be no diploma no uni applications only malevolent#.....i'm gonna stop with the rambling now#so yeah go listen to malevolent
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Struggled with today's art but I have to draw Scar Daily or I implode basically- also Ren for @pup-pee because I have to practice drawing him and Martyn after all-
Also I think Non-dog hybrid Ren is cursed but like it's what we're working with here we're balling-
#WAaDW AU :>#fanart#scarian#desert duo#hermitshipping#trafficshipping#rendog#renthedog#<- I don't even feel like I should be using this tag cause he isn't a dog at this point LIKE SKVNDFd#also implied Treebark but you wouldn't know unless I explicitly said it from the images alone so yeah#something something Ren's Red Glasses are actually prescription because I refuse to draw that man without them#trafficblr#traffic smp#traffic series#traffic life#life series#life smp#life series smp#Madi's art :>#I have so much info on this AU guys it's not even funny but I won't start writing it til next year CAUSE I HAVE SOMETHING I NEED TO EDIT AN#POST BEFORE I START TRYING TO WRITE A MULTI-CHAPTER STORY THANKS#I'm shaking my AU so fast and the only people that know shit about it are Ru and Jay and I'm soooooo I wanna spill everything BUT CAN'T AAA#my curse as an artist is to draw the scenes in my head that I have planned for my story and just DIE IG#Maybe if I actually like write the chapter the first two doodles is from I'll clean up that drawing okay okay okay#OKAY I'M GONNA STOP RAMBLING NOW BECAUSE AT THIS POINT I'LL JUST SPILL ALL MY SECRETS AAAAAAAAAAAAA#AH SHIT I FORGOT THE OTHER TAGS#goodtimeswithscar#grian#gtws fanart#grian fanart
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this episode has me stressed™
does Kant really not think that they have security cameras inside the house?? and Bison pulling a gun at Kant because he was startled??? and Kant lying through his teeth the whole episode???? this is gonna blow up in the most spectacular way
also the preview showing Bison sacrificing the mission to save Babe??? how is Kant supposed to continue knowing Bison saved his brother 😭
oh my poor heart. i guess i did sign up willingly for the trauma
#please ignore me my heart is a mess and I haven't eaten since 11 am (it's now 6pm)#I'm gonna stop losing my mind now and find something edible in my kitchen lmao#thk#the heart killers#tina rambles
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[WIP] Some more updates!!!
I've been quiet recently, but got a bunch of stuff in the works for y'all!!
I'm still working on those paper puppets for a little project regarding intertwined opposites (Possibly one of the most ambitious things I've ever worked on so far) and found a proper way to introduce that new au I'm working on!!
Here are two more paper puppets for the big pmv
And a few sneak peaks for the new au!!
(Doodles+notes alongside a silly little meme with a sprite edit of pewpaw)
I'm working on an info post for it, progress has been slow however since I wanna prioritize the pmv again (Started it on june, stagnated a long period, and went back to work on it. I'm dead set on finishing it this summer AND stubborn/silly).
[Personal reminder: Beetle stop starting wips when you're already busy/silly]
#Another note here#Intertwines opposites is by far my most fleshed out au whfbebf#I've started to lose interest in storybook recently#mostly because I can't think out new story beats and lack motivation#so I've set it aside for now to work on something fresh#I like character focus and more simple narratives hsrbwbfb#Intertwined Opposites has one but I'm still figuring out a story line for this other one here#won't spoil but it's revolving around statements and misteries#I don't think it'll have a proper conclusion either...mayhaps....#Maybe up to interpretation or more vague if I give it a “”ending“”#There isn't a conflict in the first place shfhdhf it's much more simple in concept#that's all I'm gonna say for now#/silly#beetle's ramblings#cookie run kingdom#pure vanilla cookie#crk au#intertwined opposites au#- .- .--. . ... - .-. -.-- .----. ... / .-- .. ... .--. . .-. ... au#I'll give y'all a little hint#ok I'll stop rambling now gsbeugjdhg#beetle's art#white lily cookie
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Shhh they’re sleeping
#blind man's bluff#ladyredms#l4d2#these aren't spoilers or actual scenes or anything i just love drawing them sleeping for some reason LMAOOO#but the few scenes so far where they've shared the same bed/couch/tree are sooooo special to me HRGNHH#i become the yes... hahah... yes! sicko like yeeeess cuddle and snooze away guys!!!! yeeees enjoy a few hours of safety and silence!!!!#like them waking up in the hotel room together and chatting & cuddling and being affectionate ARRGHHHH that moment is lodged in my heart!!!#i swear if there's a repeat of that in a future chapter i WILL be only posting gibberish for about a week!!!!!!! god i love them!!!#okay i'm gonna stop talking now or i'll ramble forever hehe
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i know i shouldnt dwell on stupid opinions like this but a while ago i saw someone complain that Applin was a boring concept bc its just a worm in an apple and i was FLOORED. this iirc was in response to smth about gen 1 designs being boring as well
its not just a worm its a Wyrm its a pun. that is a concept. maybe you don't like it personally but to say its objectively bad is certainly Something. not every pokemon has to be based on a myth or something else fantastical to be a good concept. you Need "boring" pokemon for the dex to feel complete, if Everything is Cool then nothing is actually cool
"gamefreak is running out of ideas" yeah there's a billion fish pokemon but they're all actually very different to each other, lanturn is an anglerfish and lumineon is a butterfly fish. say what you will abt gamefreak rn its probably warranted but imo the one thing they still do right 100% of the time is unique concepts for each pokemon. the execution can be debated but the fundamentals are always there
#clai speaks#does this make sense#i get so annoyed every time i see the ''they're running out of ideas!!!!'' thing parroted all the time i had to say SOMETHING#like yeah you're gonna find some pokemon boring. theres a thousand of them now with all different designs#theres no way all 1000 are going to cater to you specifically. impossible#but to then fault the ENTIRE THING. get mad at people when they like the mon you think is lazily designed or boring or whatever#sorry not every pokemon can have the lore relevance of cosmog or reshiram or ogerpon? i guess????#you Need some toned down concepts for a good creature collector. or any game with a vast array of enemies to fight#are you expecting to go to route 1 and find reality-bending dragons there?#honestlyyyyy i don't actually even think gen 1 designs are Boring. yeah they aren't at the same standard as modern mons#but for the time they were perfectly acceptable. its been almost 30 years yeah things will change#maybe i;m just mad bc i'm a huge fan of several ''boring'' mons. fearow is so bland but i love it a lot#all the regional birds actually. no 1 unfezant defender#idk i should stop here i'm rambling too much. point is. i just wish people would stop treating opinions as objective fact#you dont like applin. thats cool. others do tho stop being pushy about it ok#i realize now maybe its hypocritical to complain abt others having these opinions its just. the way they always present it irks me yknow???#ahhh whatever. i think i;m making myself mad now JHDBJHBHJF#guy cares too much about pokemon opinions pt 126736
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back on my bullshit with husk and a bunny!reader... to raise you... jackalope!reader. so you get the cute little prey animal vibes, pretty little bunny for him...
but now they have antlers/horns for him to hold onto while they suck his cock.
@irkimatsu @mckeeks @jazziesanura
(also myths say you can lure jackalopes with whiskey which works so well and omg it's cute shut up back to the dick sucking imagery)
#seriously#i've been playing with creating an actual oc for hazbin#and I've been stuck on bunny for a while#but now I'm thinking... jackalope?#because it's hell#who's gonna stop me from using a mythical creature lol#husk x reader#husk x oc#salem rambles#tagging people because i think they'll like it lol
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I like never really come on here and, I dunno, talk. So here goes.
It's been a long time since I've published any fanfic, tbh a long time until recently that I was even writing anything. But now that I have been writing, I've gotten in my feels.
I've been asking myself why I do this. Why do I spend hours upon hours writing fanfiction of all things, why have I spent more than a decade of my life doing this on and off?
Then I reminded myself that it makes me happy. I'm not wasting an entire weekend when I stay home and write until my laptop gets too hot. I'm not losing time. I'm not doing something without purpose.
The purpose just has to be happiness.
Why I'm typing this all out for once, I don't know. Maybe the silly little thoughts finally got too heavy so I felt like making someone else bear the weight.
Maybe I want you to know that what you're doing, what you're creating, drawing, writing, isn't pointless. It's part of your life. You're creating something from inside of you that only you can make, even if it's fanfic or original content or whatever it is.
Just... don't give up on yourself, let yourself breathe, let yourself just be happy with your hobby. I gave up on myself for a long time and I regret it.
P.S. If someone can teach me how to actually be social on tumblr again, I'd appreciate it.
#lauren rambles#seriously it's just a ramble#I reblogged one post earlier and got sappy and was like oh#why do I feel the way I feel#so maybe this is trying to put words to feelings I'm still coming to terms with#a lot of times I think I'm a fucking ~loser~ for loving fanfic of all things#but I have to remind myself that fandom really is such a special place#full of real people who create beautiful things#anyways I need to stop now#I'm gonna go make a shitty frozen pizza and write more smut that makes my little heart happy
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"Ok, it was a pain to get it- but here you go Belle"
Stab hands her over the amulet Stanford had taken
@reverse-falls-stan
*She's sulking in the corner until he says that. Mason's off on stage, playing to the crowd and causing at least five separate fangirls in the crowd to swoon. Even backstage, the sounds of cheering as he draws a heart in the air are clearly audible. Mabel seems bitter and angry about being grounded still. The instant she hears Stan's voice, she perks up, stands, and rounds on her heel to face him.*
Oh- hello Great Uncle Stan! I can't believe you're here! And with my amulet, too! I really can't thank you enough, Great Uncle Stan. You're so generous and wonderful and lots of other things!
*She goes to grab the amulet.*
#i am actively redesigning her right now and using this as my excuse to debut her new design#it's very different in a lot of ways#ringleader#audience requests#oh but i do want to do this don't take this as me saying “cool i'm not gonna rp with you” i do want to do that#i just wanted to get more of her design done so i could tie it into the arc that's sorta happening#she's still pissy over what ford said and will be overhauling her look#belle: say I've got no personality? I'll show you personality you [redacted for legal reasons]#beau: belle chill god damn like actually#side note i might actually start calling Mason Beau just normally#i already do it in my head to differentiate from Mason HF AU#i'm going. to stop rambling in the tags now.
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WELP LOOKS LIKE WE'RE FINALLY GETTING SEASON FOUR 😭🎉✨️
#oh my fucking godddddddddd#like i knew this was gonna happen soon i felt it in me bones but FUCKING STILL!!!!#prayer circle to manifest yanagida & homura in s4 let's go—#guess i need to stop slacking on my rewatch#hopefully we get a bit more info about the new season from the radio announcement later#for now i'm going back to sleep i'm so tired 😭#osomatsu-san#osmt#videos#mj rambles#Youtube
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okay, here's the post about my thoughts on Newsies 1992 that I promised, because I just remembered that I was gonna do that.
First of all, I didn't realize that Kenny Ortega directed the movie until the credits (I did like, zero research on the cast or crew, I just knew that Christian Bale played Jack Kelly) and I think that explains why it was so fucking good (and why Jack and Davey were so gay lmao)
Number 2: this one is just a thought about the story of Newsies in general, but I do not see the need for a romance subplot at all. especially in the movie, because Jack and Sarah barely interact with each other, and the "oooh they like each other he he he" little subplot start the first time they meet ? at least in the musical, Jack and Katherine interact a lot and they're friends before the romance stuff starts. idk. it just kind of irks me when media has a romance subplot for no reason.
Number 2.5: following up on the romance subplot; it could be completely taken out and the story would be exactly the same. "but what about at the end when Jack decides to stay in New York because of his love interest?" you may be asking. simple: he realizes that he has a family already in New York with the newsies and he doesn't want to leave them and be alone. this ending emphasizes the importance of familial and platonic relationships and bonds, which I think we just need more of in general.
Number 3: I love how the movie has the time and means to go more in-depth with Davey and how he reacts to Jack's betrayal and how he keeps the strike going without Jack and everything. I know that the live version is a musical, and therefore has more music, but still they kind of glossed over all that if I'm remembering correctly (I haven't watched livesies in a while and may be misremembering things oops)
Number 4: the scene where the rest of the workers join the crowd for the children's crusade is so much more powerful in the movie, because they were able to have a ton of extra people, as it is a movie and not a stage production with a smaller cast. I genuinely got some chills when I watched that scene it was awesome.
Number 5: all of these guys have beautiful voices. I didn't know that Christian Bale could sing (if it is him singing and not someone else because I know sometimes movies do that; have someone else sing for a character instead of their actor or voice actor). The songs are different than what I'm used to with the musical soundtrack, but I enjoyed them a lot. and the choreography was great too.
Number 6: I like Denton. he's awesome. it's great that the newsies have an actual adult that helps them instead of someone who is assumed to be close to Jack's age (Katherine).
Number 7: the scene in Medda's theater when Snyder and the police showed up was so- I don't even know, I just really like it. I was on the edge of my seat watching it. also, Davey kicking Snyder in the face on the swing was so badass. I love you movie Davey you're so cool
Number 8: there was way more romantic tension between Jack and Davey than between Jack and Sarah. I'm just saying. the scene where Jack was being carried away by the police after getting punched by Snyder, when Davey reaches for him and tries to get the police to let go of him? oh he wants that cookie so effing bad. Davey going after Jack by himself when he was taken to Pulitzer's from the Refuge? Gay. (also how did no one see him??) the alley scene? they should've kissed. Davey confronting Jack after he sold out to Pulitzer? they should've angry-kissed there. the scene at the end after Jack comes back on the governor's carriage and the way they stare at each other?? my homo-alarm was going off so loud. idk they just had so much tension and I thank Kenny Ortega for that, because I know damn well that he had everything to do with that.
Number 9: THE FUCKING HARMONIES HELLO. I feel the same way about the harmonies in livesies, but the ones in 92sies are different from those, which I'm used to, and it was just so fun listening to them. god, I love music, can you tell?
Number 10: Spot Conlon. that's it, really. I like him, he's funny, "on the grounds of Brooklyn, your honor". I just love him. so much.
Number 10.5: Racetrack Higgins. he does so much more in the movie than in the stage production, and I love that. he's also very funny and has incredibly witty lines and I love it.
Number 11: I love getting to see more of the other newsies, and especially Davey's interactions with them. I don't remember getting to see much of that in livesies, and I think it really helps the viewer to connect with the characters and story more.
ummm, I think that's all I can think of that I wanted to share. if I think of more things, I will come back to share them. I think I'm probably gonna watch it like ten more times in the coming week and try to get my younger brother to watch it cause he's only seen the stage production so far (my town's high school is doing Newsies for their musical this year and he's gonna audition !!!!).
alrighty chat, that'll wrap up this tumblr post. have a great day and keep being cool :3
#newsies 1992#newsies#newsies the musical#newsies the movie#92sies#livesies#i have. so many thoughts#this newsies hyperfixation business is getting more serious#please don't replace my current big hyperfixation please#this movie is so good why haven't i watched it before#okay i'm gonna stop rambling now#have a good day
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cringe is dead or whatever so… here's a super rough comic about geo getting smooched at a new year's eve party o7 (the mall toons of course belong to @8um8le)
happy new year, go kiss a robot xoxo
#2023#stellar city#sc mall toons#sc geo#sc tele#sc hydro#sc pyro#sc ash#self insert#self ship#wish you all a lovely 2024 xoxo#making geo's clouds explode like a bomb went off lmao#i made the little icons go with their nicknames not their models entirely bc i wanted a television for tele bc i thought it'd be funny#idk why but my favorite panel is just them on the couch i think it's so cute#okay now that i've rambled… i'm like extremely nervous about posting this idk i can't shake the feeling that it's wrong somehow#like i'm indulging to close to the sun idk i'm gonna schedule this so i forget about it by the time it's up#okay i need to go make my brain shut up bye#geo.exe has stopped responding
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alrighty, friends, i feel the need to be a little transparent because it's affecting things here. the short version of everything is: i'm not doing so hot in the mental health department. no one needs to be concerned -- i'm okay even if i'm having a hard time. but i just ask that everyone continues to be patient and understanding bc i promise that i'm excited to write and chat!! both new and old mutuals, i have so much admiration for you all!! the problem is that the discomfort and sensitivity i feel are making it increasingly difficult to be punctual and social.
so what does this mean? it means my activity may continue to be extra slow. i might procrastinate with messages or go completely silent. i might not log on some days just so i don't have to use my brain. but however my presence here fluctuates, i promise that in no way this is a reflection of my feelings towards you or our muses. i'm just going through it.
all that said, thank you for being here <3 thank you for filling my dash with things that make me smile, and thank you for being a space where i can relax. i care about all of you so much, and i encourage you to be kind to yourselves!! take breaks!! take your time!! your happiness and health matter first always.
#trying to resist the urge to erase everything bc i feel like i'm needlessly explaining myself#but it /is/ needed bc i see how my mental health is affecting me here and i'm frustrated by it and feel guilty#like today was a bad day tbh. i was angry for a good chunk of it bc of work and then there are personal things making it very hard#for me to not become instantly agitated when i get home#so even though i wanted to start messaging people i really almost have the urge to cry at the thought of doing so rn#bc it's just another thing to do when i really just want to /stop/ having to do things today#it's a similar feeling to wanting to see my friends bc i love them to bits but being so burned out that i also don't want to go anywhere#i hope that makes sense and i'm sorry to everyone waiting on me and i'm so thankful to everyone waiting on me#i'm gonna stop talking now though bc i feel like i'm definitely rambling atp ;v;#get ready to ramble | ooc#tw negative#i hope this post isn't as messy as it feels to me but i gotta stop rereading it or i'll go insane
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