#And my house is falling apart my animals keep getting sick

[revenantghost]

Hey, I’m just here to say you’re extremely missed and that, even though there’s probably not much I could say to make any of the bad things less awful, I’m hoping for an easier and gentler future for you soon. Take care, ok?

Oh man, thank you so much for sending this, and I'm sorry it's taken so long to respond (and to the other person who sent me an ask, too—I'm not sure when I'll get to it but please know it was seen and means so much). It has just been. So awful. I won't dump on the public at large everything that's happened, you don't need that novel, but it feels like every day life's falling apart more and more.

Just, seriously, thank you for sending this, and to the couple of people who checked in with chats (again, I'm sorry if I haven't responded yet, spoons are just very limited). There have been a lot of times throughout this where I get overwhelmed by everything going on and some truly horrific people I've met in the fandom and I've considered deleting everything permanently! Very often!!! Tbh I'm still struggling with that VERY intense urge while writing this. I feel so unsafe, and scared, and run down.

And tbh, it's really hard to believe anyone could care about me when I feel so awful and worthless, I feel like it must be an obligation, or I somehow accidentally manipulated people, but I'm trying to cling to that being the brain demons talking. Because I really appreciate the time and effort anyone's taken with me. And I really miss fandom and fun, even if it's weighed down with some significant trauma—I still love the stories and the characters and, most importantly, the amazing people I've met here. Outside of any fandom I've poked around in, the wonderful people I've met matter the most, and I'm trying to cling to that.

I really enjoy talking with everyone, running little projects/events, and for the first time in years actually writing again. (I've been slowly plucking away at that AU I mentioned a few times and I want to start posting for an event this month but! Ahhh!!!) I would like to try and be active again, and I'm so sorry for just being such an absolute goddamn mess. I feel like this is all too much to even say, but I do want to just be honest about all of it. Still, again, thank you so much for reaching out <3 And I'm sorry this is so ridiculously long even though I don't feel like I'm saying much and nothing important, I didn't intend for this answer to be a word-vomit update, just. Things suck, but you guys are good, and I hope things are as okay as you can be on your side of the screen <3

[softpascalito]

Peluda - Javier Peña x Reader

Summary: A snowstorm hits Bogotá and you bring back a surprise visitor. Javi is not amused. But, it leads to a realization about himself- and about you.

Relationships: Javier Peña x F!Reader WC: 1700 Tags/Warnings: Hurt/Comfort, Fluff, Domestic Fluff, Established Relationship, Emotional, Nicknames, Soft Javier Peña (Narcos), Sweet Javier Peña (Narcos), Healthy Relationships, Fights (blink and youll miss it), Snow, Blizzards & Snowstorms, This kitten is DEA Read on AO3 full advent calendar (updated daily)

notes: okay listen i am AWARE that bogotá does not get snow like this but this is my fanfiction and what i say is law so there is snow now.

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Thick snowflakes swirl around you, the ice crunching under your feet as your gaze flies over the windows of the building down the street. As you get closer, you can see it clearly, light spilling out from the right window on the ground floor. He's home.

You slip twice before you reach the house, hurrying past the parked cars and up the small flight of stairs that is also glazed over with ice, keeping your head down and your coat wrapped tightly around your body. When you reach the front door, you fumble with your keys for a moment, your hands shaking from both the cold and the adrenaline.

A curse escapes your lips as the bundle of keys falls down and you lean forward to grab it before settling for the doorbell instead of giving it another try. It's mere seconds until the door buzzes open and you push yourself into the dimly lit hallway of the apartment building. The wind howls around you, even after the large door has fallen shut, seemingly finding a way through the cracks around it.

“Hermosa?”

His door is slightly ajar, brown hair and a pink shirt poking out at the side of it. You practically storm towards him and you can tell by the way he flexes his arm that he's holding his gun, carefully checking who is showing up on his doorstep this late at night.

“It's me, calm down,” you brush him off as you reach the door and all but push yourself inside. Javier steps back, staring at you for a moment. His voice is a little lower than usual, which in your experience means one of two things. He's horny or he's mad. Occasionally a bit of both.

“Are you crazy, going out in this weather? I was worried sick.”

Mad it is.

You barely look at him as you shake your head, “I just wanted to get some more bread, we were out again and I didn’t know if the stores might close-” His gaze is on your face for a moment, resting on your slightly reddened cheeks, the slowly melting snowflakes that decorate both your hair and your coat. 

But that is what he stumbles over- the coat. Your arms are wrapped around yourself and the thick fabric is drawn over a lump that definitely does not belong to your body.

“What did you get?” Javier tucks the front of the coat down just as you turn away, sending a glare into his direction, “Don't scare it.”

“It?” Javi asks and you can practically see his brain going haywire as he tries to figure out what you’re talking about. The agent is so goddamn smart when it comes to tracking down informants and exposing cartel members but the most normal conclusions sometimes seem like a mystery to him.

His furrowed brows relax slightly when you peel the coat off yourself carefully and he is left staring at a trembling ball of fur in your arms. Very dirty, brown fur.

“Oh hermosa-” He starts but you shake your head before he even has the chance to complain. Bogotá has more than a few stray cats and dogs but so far, he has managed to keep you from taking any of them home.

“She was all alone, Javi, in the snow. She would’ve frozen to death,” you mumble. As if to confirm your story, the kitten gives a small, strangled noise and you hum quietly. Javier follows you into the bathroom, watching with crossed arms as you place the animal in the bathtub and begin to run the water, adjusting the temperature with one hand. The cat trashes around slightly, clearly uncomfortable with the cold porcelain below her and the attention of not one but two humans. Her claws strike your hand, making you curse as a thin trail of blood runs down your fingers.

“What are you doing?” Javier asks in a low voice, clearly exasperated. But you're not exactly calm either, your own hands still cold from the snow and now stinging slightly from where the cat has struck you. 

“I’m taking a bath,” you say with a roll of your eyes, voice dripping with irony. “I’m cleaning the fucking cat, Javi, what does it look like?!”

You don't need to see his face to know you're not the only one in the bathroom who looks like they've been struck. There's a small shuffle next to you as Javi closes the door behind himself and then kneels down beside you with a low groan, “Okay, how do we do this?”

A weak smile spreads over your face as you bring both hands back to the cat that has by now joined in on the conversation, audibly meowing up at both of you as you gently stroke its back, “I'll hold her, you run the water and get some soap.”

He does as told, filling the tub up just a bit so that the small animal can still stand. To your surprise, she doesn't seem to mind the water as much as a cat should. In fact, she almost seems to enjoy the warmth of it around her small paws. 

Javier seems to pick up on it too, “I thought cats don't like baths.”

“I guess not all of them?” You offer as he hands you the bar of soap and you begin to gently run it over the matted fur below your hands.

“Are we sure it's a cat?”

His voice is so serious that you can't help but laugh as you elbow his side, “Javi-”

“I'm just saying, hermosa. It could be a- an oddly shaped, brown raccoon.”

It does not turn out to be an oddly shaped raccoon. As the dirt comes off, layer after layer, staining the once white tub a gentle brown, it doesn't even turn out to be a brown cat.

The orange fur is dripping wet, making the small thing look even more pitiful than it had when you had spotted it hiding from the snow below a bench. At least the attempts to further scratch you have died down, the cat seemingly content to be warmed up and cared for.

“Hold on, I'll get a bigger towel,” you mumble and head to the small cabinet in the hallway. As you grab a well-worn one and pull it out, you hear a low voice coming from the bathroom, one that makes your head turn and hold still as you peek past the door frame.

“You're still shaking, peluda,” Javi whispers, crouched over the tub to gently brush his fingers through the dripping fur, no doubt not realizing you can hear him, “We’ll get you nice and warm, don't you worry.” A tiny meow comes as reply and he tuts softly, “Todavía no estoy seguro si eres un gato. You may fool her but not me. I'm an agent, you know? I can see right-” He punctuates his words with a soft, gentle pat on the cat's head, “- through - you.”

Your heart feels like it's about to jump out of your chest. You've never heard Javi talk to anyone so gently, anyone except yourself. And even then, it's usually reserved for when you're alone, tucked away in bed in the dark, tracing the skin of the person beside you.

A few minutes later you're seated in the living room, the tiny cat wrapped in a big towel on your lap as Javier hands you a baby bottle filled with some milk - both borrowed from the Murphy’s upstairs, who had both been equally confused when Javi had shown up on their doorstep to ask for both.

“Come on, peluda,” you reassure the kitten gently, repeating the nickname Javi used for her earlier, and very carefully, she begins to drink. The taste of the lukewarm milk seems to agree with her because after a few moments, the small sucks on the bottle becomes more eager and silence falls over the apartment, only interrupted by the small noises of the furball on your lap.

Javier is still standing in the open kitchen, watching as you feed the animal, occasionally reassuring her with a gentle pat or a different angle of the bottle.

He swallows, trying to get the realization that his head is producing back down into his stomach, the scenarios running in front of his eyes away from the surface. But there is no un-knowing the things he knows, no way to get rid of them.

He wants children.

It's not a possibility, not in Colombia, not with the cartel so close. Maybe it won't be one for a few years to come, until things are more quiet, until he has fixed everything he needs to fix. Including himself.

But as he watches you, the ever-growing wish settles in his throat, placing itself dangerously close to his mouth. Javi swallows again. He doesn't want it to slip out. Not yet, anyway.

He stands there, content to just watch as the cat eagerly takes one sip after another until the bottle is empty and the ball of orange fur purrs gently as it settles onto your knees, eyes already drooping.

Your voice is quiet as you urge him to come closer and with a small sigh, Javi settles down next to you, his arm automatically wrapping around your shoulder. He doesn't realize how close the picture of the three of you is to what he might have in a few years, minus a round stomach or a non-furry little companion on your lap. It's okay. He can wait.

“Can she stay?” You almost beg, your eyes finally leaving the kitten in front of you to wander to Javi instead. He sighs softly, both of you looking at each other. Then, his gaze leaves your face.

Brown puppy eyes meet green kitten eyes. They look at each other for a moment. Then Javi nods, “Yeah. She can stay.”

notes: shoutout to the person on my discord who said "funny, normally javi is happy to see a pussy" (i love you) also: do not give kittens cow milk (unless theyre starving and theres a snowstorm i guess?) idk this is no vetinary advice, google that shit if you ever bring home a kitten to your dea agent husband.

[joohanisms]

hiii i'm sick rn and i think i deserve some shameless selfish fanfiction

xdh + you're sick :-( 💭💫

cw: being sick in general, mention of vomiting, boys being really lovely

gunil

you're not lifting a finger.

he's got Everything covered, don't worry. don't even THINK about doing anything, he'll do it for you.

carries you around the house so you dont "tire yourself out" (?? you have a sore throat)

keeps you nice and warm <33 wraps you up in the blankets like a burrito. like a little shawarma sandwich. like a little cigar. like–

HOLDS YOU!! you know when you're so sick you feel like you're going to fall apart? he wraps his arms around you so gently and holds your pieces together so softly :-(

cooks nice healthy meals for you <3 makes sure to get all nutrients you need even if it's by going to the drugstore and buying supplements

showers with you because he's lowkey scared you'll faint with the heat – not that you mind having a strong body to prop yourself up against

jungsu

oldest child. takes care of you .

he's on edge for as long as you're feeling shitty. probably cussed jooyeon out for being too loud and then felt so guilty about taking his frustration out on him that he cried a little

Responsible!!

gets you gatorade, makes sure you drink plenty of water and eat light snacks through the day, will open every window so the room gets some air, takes your temperature, tells you to nap so your body has the energy to recover, gently wipes away that disgusting balmy feeling that only being sick brings

softly sings you to sleep :-(

if you're having stomach issues, he's holding your hair up and only cringing a little bit (also probably gets something soft for you to kneel on in front of the toilet – will camp out on the bathroom with you the whole night if needed)

jiseok

good entertainment + nearly makes you forget you're sick

talks a lot. tells you all about his day his week his month goes into tangents, talks about science and music and things you can barely understand just because he wants to take your attention away from the discomfort

puts his forehead to yours and says if i could i'd take the pain away :-( he's so sappy and he's half joking but you can feel how much he loves you and hates seeing you like this :-(

takes care of you as best as he can. tries to remember what his mom used to do when he got sick

has amazing sense of what to do due to being a science nerd. he might be gambling his luck but he's correct most of the time

if you're puking he's holding your hair and petting your back but he's NOT looking unless he wants to join you on the toilet

seungmin

gets everything you could possibly need and stays with you ;-(

if it's contagious then the windows are wide open he's got a mask on nothing could stop him

you need tylenol? he brought some from the bathroom when he entered the apartment!

you need a little cold patch? dw he bought one of those stick-on patches to save you from the mess of wet towels/cold compresses!

you're a little hungry? here he brought some light snacks in case your tummy wasn't feeling well!

uh oh the snacks didn't sit too well on your stomach? he has a gameplan already he's grabbing your little trashcan and brushing your hair away from your face!

you're feeling shitty after all of this? he brings you your toothbrush and water to wash out the aftertaste and he's settling beside you to pet your hair!

you still feel terrible? come on, a shower will help! he won't be able to shower with you seen as he's not keen on getting waterboarded by his mask but he will help you wash up even if his shirt gets soaked with the spray!

brushes your hair and dresses you up in comfy pajamas like you're his favorite doll afterwards :-(

hyeongjun

my lovely :-(

the best at keeping you company, be it sitting beside you with your fingers intertwined while you watch soft slice of life animes, be it laying down with you for emotional support cuddles, be it making you food and insisting on feeding it to you, be it telling you every thought that pops into his head so he can entertain you

lowkey loves when you feel like a cooked noodle and have jelly limbs because he gets to get everything for you, do everything for you, hold everything for you :-( don't count on him to carry you around though his limbs are not very .. uncooked noodle-y

will do Anything you ask him to. he might not know 100% what to do but yourself + google are good guides

brings his earbuds not to make any sound in case you have a headache, takes naps with you all day, lets you watch whatever he's doing on his phone (usually games or tiktok) (with very low volume!!)

forehead/temple kisses!!!! does the little "mm you have a fever" thing where he presses his lips to your forehead to gauge your temperature

if you want him Away from you because you're contagious, he's on the other side of the room doing his own things while you rot away in bed thinking what have i done i should've accepted the cuddles when i had the chance

jooyeon

cuddler!

if you have tummyaches he's rubbing your tummy!! if you have headaches he's massaging your head!! you have a sore throat?? do not worry he's keeping it warm because he has his face buried into your neck!!

pets your hair to sleep

he runs hot and if you have a fever he'll just sit by your side looking like a kicked puppy and holding your hand :-(

loves to help you wash up – will wash and condition your hair, soap you up, dry you with a fluffy towel afterwards, put on mosturizer all over you, will even brush your teeth for you if you let him (he's really touchy and adores caring for you and helping you feel like a human again)

definitely has the "well you got this Plague AT THE VERY LEAST yesterday. and we slept on the same bed and kissed on the mouth. if you're contagious, i'm getting sick anyway. i'm NOT being shooed away from my beloved when they're ailing." mindset

nevermind his dramatic ass. he's even more stubborn than he is theatrical and he WILL be by your side whatever anyone tells him

but gets sick too most of the time and acts like he's on his deathbed

[blue-jisungs]

heeseung with a gamer!partner

a/n. i was like “hey there’s so much gamer heeseung bf but where’s my gamer y/n at!!” because someone (me) got to play some games after a looong while so here you go 🏋️‍♂️🏋️‍♂️

i got a lil carried away 🤪🤪 someone get me a bf like this.

before you started gaming you told heeseung you enjoyed a little gaming

duh, you two sometimes pulled all nighters to play together but those were usually games like mario kart, minecraft or fifa

(bc riki bullied you to start playing it too so he could have another game buddy)

heeseung found it quite cute that you liked to watch him play games on his own computer

like you’d sit on his lap or next to him, sometimes silently or sometimes chatting with him while he played valorant or cs:go

but oh was he surprised when he found out you play those games too

and when HE SAW YOUR SET UP

he was really speechless

“y/n why didn’t you tell me sooner?! >:(”

“i didn’t want to intimidate you🙄🙄”

yes you did stalk him on steam but we’re keeping this as a secret

and honestly he’s so whipped :”)

bc 1) he finds it HOT 2) he can enjoy his little hobby with you now <3

and how the turn tables. he LOVES watching you play games.

will sit beside you with doe eyes and smile wildly when you get stuck in a weird place or just do good in a game

if you’re playing a game he doesn’t know much about, he’ll love to listen to you explaining how it works and all

also finds it very hot when you curse underneath your breath when something doesn’t go your way 🤭

anyways,

will bring you snacks and water when you play… and place forehead kisses before leaving the room or settling next to you

loves spoiling you

like… “aw hee, [game name] is on a sale! i’ll have to buy it–” “who says you don’t have it bought already?” “what?” “what?”

if spending money on the gems, skins, weapons, you name it makes you happy… he’s willing to make that sacrifice 🫡

no but he does it purely because he wants you to be happy :D

and don’t get me started on actually playing games with him 💔

the comforting ones are just *screams into pillow*

you have a cute house in minecraft; he sends you adorable messages in animal crossing <3

and it’s so fun to play those lego games with him, you always end up with tummy ache because of how hard you laughed (because he’s just a little too good at imitating those falling apart lego people 😟)

when it comes to multiplayer games, people either hate you both or love you

because sometimes when you’re in a vc and say that you’re a couple people go awww and it’s wholesome

and sometimes there are meanies that laugh at you and it takes a whole new level of effort for heeseung not to burst out with anger >:(

usually it’s the cute people tho :3

expect him to match with you all the time – like eg bios, pfps, whatever!!

or games references 🥹

“what what do you mean “the creeper to my steve”?” “because you blow me away–” *smack*

but! that doesn’t mean he goes easy on you (mostly)

you often play 1v1 just to pick the one who’s washing the dishes or taking out trash….

and for funsies, ofc!!

and when you happen to play with his friends and be in the opposite team… oh boy

honestly they are all sick of you because in stead of focusing on winning, you focus on teasing each other 🤕

“oh lover boy~ i see you!” *heeseung’s squeals of pure fear*

THAT REMINDS ME

horror games.

even if you’re not a fan, you play with him because “it’s okay babe, i’ll be the muscles and you’ll be the brains 😍”

ehe.

you two end up flinching and screaming at the jumpscares or just screaming at each other when something suspicious happens

he is very skilled with killing zombies though so you’re fine

“oh man… lady dimitrescu hello there–” “heeseung.” “sorry.”

overall he’s very happy he can bond with you over gaming

(the boys are not that happy though because of all the noise you produce but it’s okay because he has the hyung privilege 🙄)

[ masterlist <3 ]

taglist. @geniejunn ,, @luvhyun3 ,, @starlostseungmin ,, @elviransworld ,, @jnks6r ,, @sieunsgf ,, @ethereallino ,, @laylasbunbunny ,, @duolingofanaccount ,, @slytherinhobi ,, @jung0ne ,, @ka-ni-ma ,, @iliveforlixie ,, @moonacholy ,, @ameliesaysshoo ,, @dazzlingligth ,, @stcrlcst ,, @l3visbby

[kirin-central]

STARDEW VALLEY’S NEWEST FARMER: LOREN PARKER

picrew by DriDri || map template of Sundance Farm coming soon

NAME: Loren Parker

AGE (Year 1): 22-years-old

BIRTHDAY: Spring 10

PRONOUNS + GENDER: she/they + demigirl

OCCUPATION: farmer + horseback riding instructor

FARM NAME: Sundance Farms

FARM TYPE: Meadowlands Farm

LOVE INTEREST: Sebastian

BACKSTORY: Loren is the sole granddaughter of the original farmer of Sundance Farms. She was raised solely by her father, who wanted her to become the heir to his struggling company. Sick of life in Zuzu City, Loren takes up the offer to move to Pelican Town upon receiving her grandfather’s letter. Though she struggles with the new changes, she’s eager to prove to her father that she can be an independent person.

TRIVIA:

She fell in love with Sebastian at first sight.

She’s friends with Sam, Sebastian, and Abigail, and joins them on Fridays at the saloon.

She forms a platonic relationship with Shane and Leah.

She has many dogs and a couple of cats.

She enjoys raising horses and cows the most.

Her doctor’s appointment is on Fall 21.

Apart from farming and adventuring, she’s a huge book reader and cinephile. Count on her to have a neatly organized Goodreads and Letterboxd profile.

Her Loved items are: Frozen Tears, Obsidian, Midnight Carp, Maki Roll, Lobster Bisque, Squid Ink Ravioli, Rainbow Shell, Crocus, Rabbit’s Foot

Her Liked items are: Apples, Green Tea, Pineapple, Lionfish, Jade, Star Shards, Spaghetti, Sashimi, Stir Fry

Her Neutral items are: pretty much anything else

Her Disliked items are: Bat wings, Coleslaw, Rhubarb Pie, Petrified Slime, Slimejack, Snails, Beer, Pickles

(lines, heart events & more under the cut for length)

LINES:

First meeting: “I’m Loren! Please take care of me.”

Receiving a Loved item: “I love these so much, thank you!”

Receiving a Liked item: “This is great!”

Receiving a Neutral item: “I’ll make use of this!”

Receiving a Disliked item: “Oh, thanks…”

Green Rain: “So weird. I hope this doesn’t mess with my animals.”

Spring: “Spring is so nice. It’s the perfect season between hot and cold.” // “I love all the flowers that come out this time around.” // “Perfect weather for the animals.”

Summer: “I think my skin’s melting.” // “Thank Yoba for air conditioning.” // “Hey, is Alex selling ice cream yet?”

Fall: “Better plant as many crops as I can before winter comes.” // “Y’know, I never got into pumpkin spiced beverages. Feels like I’m missing out.” // “I know they can’t help it, but why do the squirrels choose my crops to plant their nuts…”

Winter: “Way too cold.” // “I wanna hibernate like a bear.” // “Been spending a lot of time fishing, since I can’t grow much.”

At Ginger Island: “Takes a long time to get here, but I like this place.”

Sebastian-exclusive lines:

Proposal: “Sebastian, I want to stay at your side forever. Please keep me at your side.”

Marriage: “I promise to love you, to stay by your side.

Day after marriage: “Wow… I can’t believe I get to spend the rest of my life waking up by your side. I feel so blessed.”

Morning: “G’morning. Waking up feels so much better with your face being the first thing I see.”

Night: “It can feel pretty isolating in the dark out here, but your company makes it a million times better.”

Day, indoors: “Hey, love. I know I haven’t put too much effort into decorating as of late, so feel free to add your own touch. This is your house too, you know.”

Day, outdoors: “Hey, great to see you outside! This farm’s yours now, too. If you need anything, let me know.”

Patio: “Your motorcycle always impresses me.”

Stardrop exchange: “With this gift, I hope that you know how much I love you.”

Going out: “Hi, my love. I’m going out. Anything I can get you?”

Rainy day: “Don’t mind getting a little bit wet. At least I won’t have to water the crops.”

Rainy night: “The sound of rain can be soothing.”

Low hearts: “I’m sorry, I’m just not having a good day.” + “I just want to sleep.”

Neutral hearts: “Can you help around with [chore]? I have to run some errands. It’s easy to do, really.”

High hearts: “Hey, I love you. Don’t ever doubt that I love you. Thank you for supporting me.”

Responses to low/neutral/high hearts: “���” // “Thanks for helping out. I know this is new to you, but I really appreciate it.” + “We’re financially doing alright. There’s always someone needing something.” // “You’re not strange. Enjoy your time. I love you.”

Festival lines (single // married):

Egg Festival: “I don’t know why, but I get competitive during the hunt.” // “Sebastian and I promised to share the reward if either of us won.” // (day before) “It’s nice getting together for the first time since winter.”

Flower Dance: “Everyone looks like they’re having fun.” // “Sebastian’s a pretty good dancer! I feel bad for stepping on his feet though.”

Desert Festival: “The festival itself is fun, but the dryness is killing me.”

Luau: “I don’t know how, but the soup always turns out well so long as we add high quality ingredients.” // “Sebastian and I will exchange the ingredients we don’t like with each other. It’s our own little tradition.” // (day before) “Heh, what if I put Mayor Lewis’ purple pants inside?”

Dance of the Moon Jellies: “Jellyfish are such interesting creatures. I’d love to swim among them, if they weren’t venomous.”

Stardew Valley Fair: “I hope my crops are good enough…” // “Sebastian’s helping me set up before he goes off with Sam. I love him.”

Spirit’s Eve: “So weird, but nothing here compares to the Skull Mines…” // “Sebastian seems to like the atmosphere a lot. I’m glad he’s enjoying himself.” // (day before) “Tomorrow’s Spirit’s Eve… I hope all goes well.”

Festival of Ice: “So damn cold… so pretty though.” // “Sebastian says he never gets cold. I’m so envious of him.”

Night Market: “Hehe, I love collecting trinkets.”

Feast of the Winter Star: “It gets a bit lonely sometimes, but my dad does remember to send me something.” // “I never thought spending the Feast with my love would make me so happy. I’m so happy.” // (day before) “What to get Sebastian… I need to get some obsidian. Or maybe a new motorcycle accessory?”

Heart Events with Sebastian:

2 Hearts: Sebastian finds himself at Sundance Farms. He spies Loren carrying buckets of milk from outside the cow barn. Their eyes meet, and Loren smiles. Sebastian feels his heart skip a beat, but he suppresses it as the two approach each other. Sebastian inquires about the farm; he gains affection with Loren as he commends her for her hard work.

4 Hearts: Sebastian finds Loren trotting on a beautiful Cremello pony, along the river. She slows her horse to a walk, and then to a halt as Sebastian snuffs out his cigarette. She dismounts, and the two converse with each other. Sebastian inquires about her horse; Loren introduces him to Sabrina, the childhood pony she’s brought over from a fancy ranch in Zuzu City. She’s a docile thing, ever gentle. Even Sebastian finds comfort in the pony. He gains affection when he compliments Sabrina.

6 Hearts: Loren invites Sebastian to watch a movie with her; it’s one of her favourites. He sits through the movie; it’s not exactly what he would watch by choice, but he finds himself drawn to the movie. Perhaps it’s because it is Loren’s favourite. He gains affection when he gives a smart analysis of the movie.

8 Hearts: Sebastian finds Loren sitting at the bus stop late at night. There’s no driver in sight, but Loren still sits on the bench as though she’s waiting for it. Her eyes are distant, and she doesn’t notice Sebastian quietly approaching to sit beside her. It’s only when the man apprehensively places a hand on hers that she snaps out of her reverie. After some time, Loren confesses that she still experiences bouts of anxiety about her future, about her decision to leave everything behind for the farm. She doesn’t regret her choices, but she still can’t help the raging thoughts of “What if?”. Sebastian gains affection with her by comforting and validating her and her choices.

10 & 14 Hearts: same as in the game

picrew by OH12

[weaponizedhorse]

Okay so I just found out there's a book that's "based on true events" about a cross country road trip that took place in 1938 to deliver*giraffes* to the San Diego Zoo! So after searching for way longer than I thought was necessary to find and account of the actual events and *not* just a review of the book. (I hate "based on true events" works anyway it just means 95% of it is fiction) I finally found an article! AND this article contains an article from 1938 about the event!! It's amazing!! So I thought I would share:D

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From The San Diego Union, Wednesday, Oct. 26, 1938:

Those Spots Before Your eyes, Reader, Are Symptom of Galloping Giraffe-itis

By Ruth Taunton

Giraffes! They’re here alive and kicking—accent on kicking--the two much-heralded animals that blazed a publicity trail across the continent were unloaded in San Diego zoo yesterday.

It was a three-hour ordeal. When they finally were in their new house, a picturesque building that resembles a fairy-tale illustration, every connected with the job was “ready to fall apart”— except Mr. and Mrs. Giraffe.

PAPA LOVE MAMA? MAYBE

They never have kept house together before, and just o make sure they do not kick the daylights out of each other—and make the Zoo’s $7500 investment worth no more than the current quotation on dead giraffes—the animals were shown to separate apartments for the time being.

Born in the wild country of southeast Africa, these babies, less than three years old, set sail from their native shores last summer and were 54 days at sea. No one thought of padding their stalls, and they learned bout mal de mer* during the last days of the voyage when the big September storm swept the Atlantic coast. Arriving in New York Sept. 23, they had to keep quarantine officers company for 16 days.

Charles A. Smith, head keeper at the zoo, was putting in that time devising ways and means of getting them into crates and on to a San Diego city truck for the last lap home

SHE WAS NO LADY

Loading them was no one-day job and in the melee, Patches (Mrs. giraffe), kicked Smith down more than once.

“I learned to expect it,” he said yesterday, “but I never learned to like it.”

Two weeks ago last night, Smith, the giraffes and Eddie Seuss, mechanic, started the trek westward, the animal’s heads sticking out of the top of the crates and astounding motorists from ocean to ocean wondering if they saw it, really.

Yesterday at 12:30 Eddie drove the truck through the gates at San Diego zoological gardens and all hands followed it to the mesa where the city’s big crane was waiting and the camels were wondering what the heck. It was some time before they found out.

HAM-AND-EGG PLAN URGED

Smith, who was quick to express his affection for Lofty--the giraffe that didn’t kick him--directed that his crate be the first to be unloaded by the whirring, grinding, chug-chugging crane. But getting Mr. Giraffe to leave his crate was another matter. Smith lured him with an acacia branch. He tried alfalfa and molasses. Advice from the sidelines urged him to try ham and eggs. Nothing worked until, after a couple of hours, he tried an onion.

“Onions,” observed Smith, “have power.”

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*Mal De Mer: Sea Sickness

After I finished reading this to my mom she made a joke in reference to the fact that Lofty got to come out of his crate first. She said "What ever happened to ladies first?! Good to know misogyny was alive and well in the 1930's" lmfaoo

Can you imagine being in the 1930's not having ever seen let alone heard of a giraffe, then one day you are driving down the highway and you see one with it's head sticking outta the crate lmao

[restforthe-burdenedsoul]

Today I am figuring out the minimum amount we need to make to keep our apartment and bills.

There’s a few animal jobs I’m looking at, but they would be a large pay cut. I’m applying if I can handle the income.

Maybe that won’t be any better. Maybe I’m forever going to feel this sense of dissatisfaction with work. I don’t know.

I’ve never felt like this before. My last long term job was a pain but it took years before I felt like this.

There’s just not enough support at this job and too many questions to be answered. The other new coworker and I were talking to another coworker who confirmed that it’s always like this.

You never get ahead. There’s always too many cases. There’s never enough support. You’re always behind and overwhelmed.

And yes, maybe once I learn the job, the feeling of being lost will dissipate. I’ll be quicker to get things done

But here’s the thing, if every job is like this, always too much work, I may as well be overwhelmed at a job I like. My first social work job was ROUGH. I cried A LOT. I was placed in many dangerous positions. But I didn’t dread every single day. I had clients I loved working with, I loved the work that I did, I even utilized my own personal resources to help at Times (example: borrowed a trailer from my parents and used my ex husbands truck to help move a client into better housing i helped him secure. Work didn’t have funding for uhauls and there was a particular item that wouldn’t fit in the work van. Permission was granted for this bc of the circumstances. He was a great client and I genuinely enjoyed helping him). I have art work that clients made for me hanging in my office. I ran groups even tho we couldn’t bill for them. I did so much and loved so much of what I did.

That job doesn’t pay well enough for me to return to and here in Florida, it’s all independent contractor based. I really tried to get back into that field, but with not getting mileage reimbursement or benefits or time off, you barely make a profit 😔

I’m trying hard at this job, I swear i am, but I find myself in tears more often than not. My hair is falling out again. I’m sick to my stomach and I’m having non stop nightmares.

I don’t think this is normal? Is it just me? Am I overreacting? This job has the bones to be so good for what it is. But we need more workers, less cases, more support. And we just don’t have that.

[briarpatch-kids]

Hi :). This might be a question more for you at the beginning of your being disabled/sick/?. I'm not disabled but how do/did you mentally deal with other people having more gas/energy than you? Because the people around me can do so many complex tasks in a day like wake up, take care of animals, cook, clean the kitchen, go to the store, come back, and then do something else. And theyll be tired but mostly fine. And like I'll do like three simple tasks and it feels like somebody has beat me up?? If I tried to do the amount of tasks they do I would simply fall apart. And it's like I do 3 tasks and I'm DONE but they (and also other people too) just keep going and going and now I feel lazy or something because I feel like I could be helping or doing something and now I'm just sitting down :(. I hope this makes sense and is okay to ask.

It got a lot easier as soon as I made peace with the fact that my life is not going to be the same as everyone else's. I'm not going to be able to work, or keep the house in order on my own, or likely have a kid* but I still have goals and dreams. They're just different ones, like learning new hobbies that I can do in bed or becoming someone I'm happy with being.

Another tip is to start learning how to say "I'm not in any hurry" because it helps you slow down and not hurt yourself trying to do things at the speed of an able bodied person.

Also, I've tried really hard to reframe my annoyance when i complain about being tired and someone's like "yah I did xyz and worked 8 hours and then exercised for 2 and now I'm beat! 😅" to think of it in the way of like... I'm exhausted all the time from just living and I know how much fatigue can hurt, so I can relate to how much pain they're in and commiserate with them. Instead of getting annoyed that they got to do ALL that and still complain about fatigue. I usually like saying something like "aw man yeah you did a lot! You MUST be exhausted." Because doing all that is so exhausting only an abled could do that, of course they're in pain and I know how that feels.

*someone just had a kid while having spinal muscular atrophy and half the lung capacity I do, so if I have a good year we're gonna revisit the idea of a science baby

[toonabby]

Three days until Christmas (sorry I skipped out on the first two days)

(April 2024 update to fix spelling mistakes)

Since Christmas is three days away I'm just gonna list out a bunch of foreign, non-Japanese animation that debuted this year. I'm just gonna keep this first entry short and sweet:

The Girl Downstairs

I really liked the more laid-back tone of the series focusing on the male lead, a drop-out idol who lives at his apartment downstairs, and his college friends. Speaking of which I adore stories that are set in college and I want more works from SoL genre (or any genre in general) to take place in college, ESPECIALLY anime. I am sick and tired of anime only taking place in high schools especially when the dreaded "fanservice" trope is involved... 😒 (I also found out it was based on an ongoing webtoon as well as being one of the two adaptations released this year - the other being a live-action Netflix series called Doona!)

Xyrin Empire

Rare harem W Maybe its me excluding this (and DAL) from the terrible harem animes solely because its made in a different country from the same continent AND has CG animation that isn't god awful, but from what I seen of the first few episodes or so its not that. Not that good either since it falls into the tropes common in anime (the "boring but overpowered" MC, the love rivals, the 'tsundere' childhood friend, "really 300+ year old" childlike character who wears age-inappropriate attire), but I can at least tolerate this show compared to other works from this genre and even with the tropes there not as awful and apparent as the other harem animes, but that's probably because I haven't watched much from this show.

Rainbow Bubblegem

If this was an anime, then I'll pay my life-savings for what would be a return of the traditional Magical Girl genre in a loooong while after we've been bombarded with PMMM wannabees that fall in the "ow the edge" territory while forgetting what made MadoMagi phenomenal for the genre in the first place, remakes of old Magical Girl animes (e.g. Sailor Moon Crystal and Tokyo Mew Mew New), and the Precure franchise being the sole survivor of the traditional magical girl genre. I really like the premise that is essentially a combination of H2O: Just Add Water, Miraculous Ladybug, and Sailor Moon, and how Red Ruby (on of the main characters) isn't just a stereotypical alpha bitch, no she's actually helpful and friendly to the main girl, if a bit self-centered.

As for the shows I started to get invested in....

Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends (2004)

This is a childhood of mine that resurfaced in my mind. Out of all of the Cartoon Network shows this one is my personal favorite, and I'm really excited on what the new preschool show spin-off will take us to. That, and me being a Bloo fan since I've started remembering this show. "It's hoooooot in to-pe-kaaaaaaaaaaaaaa."

Ba Da Bean (2021)

I adore the show's aesthetic of an arts and crafts-laden environment where everything and I mean EVERYTHING was made out of art (such as the houses being cardboard boxes or an impossible bottle) and the 'fish out of water' premise of a science project from a school's science lab transferring to an art class where he gets to meet and befriends the town's residents while also having a knack for science. I love the dynamic between Bean and Cosa too. Kami the origami bibliophile is my favorite solely because of how relatable she is (I'm also an introvert). That's of course mnot even mentioning the impressive voice cast of the English dub such as Stephanie Panisello (Resident Evil's Claire Redfield and Genshin Impact's Cloud Retainer/Xianyun), Suzie Yeung (Chainsaw Man's Makima, Genshin Impact's Eula, and HSR's Hanya), Amber "FoxyVox" May (Genshin Impact's Dehya and HSR's Yanqing), Dino Andrade (Zuzubaland's Zuzu, whose dub coincidentally was also recorded by the studio that recorded BDB's dub, BangZoom!), and Kelly Baskin (Genshin Impact's Amber and Azure Striker Gunvolt 3's Kirin), with four of the working on Genshin Impact and two on Honkai: Star Rail.

FriendZSpace (2021)

I'll be real. Had it not been for the official YouTube channel uploading all of the BangZoom dubbed episodes (plus the Discovery Kids LA YT channel uploading a few clips of the eps in Spanish), this show would've likely become lost media. When I first watched the show in English I enjoyed it, and I was actually surprised that one of the sealife characters in the first episode was voiced by Melissa Fahn, and I couldn't believe it at first glance she sounded nothing like the other roles Fahn played. Other than that I loved the show and wised I got more from it.

Underdogs United (2022)

For the most part, I didn't even acknowledge that this show was an actual thing until a year later; even the more obscure cartoons from South America at least had a cult following. Even less was me acknowledging this show is a TV adaptation/spin-off of Metegol, a movie with three of the main Foosball players (Capi, Beto, and Loco - the precursor to Kiko) being transplanted there with a bunch of original characters. Hell, the company and producer of the original film (MundoLoco CGI and Juan J. Campanella respectively) also made UU, and Metegol itself is an adaptation of Memoirs of a Right Winger - a short story by Roberto Fontanarrosa that film loosely based itself on. In other words, a TV series about Foosball figures living in a sport-centric world spun-off from a movie about said Foosball figures coming to life in the real world which was loosely adapted from a short-story by an author from Argentina who died 6 years before the movie came out....

Anyways, of the characters I like in UU, it's THE BETO! His personality can be basically described with any adjective for self-centeredness. He's so egotistical that his spot in the intro has him flexing his muscles after he kicks the ball, AND THEN looks at the camera with smug-ish eyebrows and puckered lips. But what I really like about him is not his selfishness but rather the fact that he is deep-down a kind and friendly individual who cares for his allies and would even put aside his arrogance to help others. That's what I like about him - he's selfish, but not too selfish to the point of being annoying. He's obsessed with his looks and popularity but when the chips are down, he'll prioritize the safety of his allies and his loved ones over his own.

[perspectivestarters]

Perspective's Sentence Starters; Save Rock and Roll by Fall Out Boy (Part II)

THE MIGHTY FALL

"Oh god!"

"Why the hell is there a light that's keeping us forever?"

"Did you get dressed up?"

"I can't stop it when there's chemicals keeping us together."

"How the mighty fall."

"They fall in love."

"Oh, how the mighty fall in love."

"Your crooked love is just a pyramid scheme."

"I'm dizzy on dreams."

"If you ask me two's a whole lot lonelier than one."

"Baby, we should have left our love in the gutter where we found it."

"You think your only crime is that you got caught."

"It's getting clear, you're never coming clean."

I know you said not to call unless I'm dying.

"Even though my eyes closed, I still see you."

"I just hope that when you see me, I'm not see-through."

"Sometimes I swear, I need a day just for me."

"Like, I let her climb on top."

"I'm either fuckin' or workin', so the grind don't stop."

"They say I got screws missing, well hell, only when I'm missing you."

MISS MISSING YOU

"Don't panic."

"No, not yet."

"I know I'm the one you want to forget."

"Cue all the love to leave my heart."

"It's time for me to fall apart."

"Your hot whiskey eyes have fanned the flame."

"Maybe I'll burn a little brighter tonight."

"Let the fire breathe me back to life."

"Baby, you were my picket fence."

"I miss missing you now and then."

"Sometimes before it gets better, the darkness gets bigger."

"The person that you'd take a bullet for is behind the trigger."

"We're fading fast."

"I see through you when we're sitting in the dark."

"So give me your filth, make it rough."

"Let me trash your love."

"I will sing to you every day."

"I've heard you got it so bad."

"I am the best you'll never have."

DEATH VALLEY

"I want to see your animal side."

"Let it all out."

"I wanna see the dirt under your skin."

"I need your broken promises."

"I want the guts and glory, baby."

"This town is wasted and alone."

"Don't take love off the table yet."

"Tonight, it's just fire alarms and losing you."

"We love a lot, so we only lose a little."

"But we are alive."

"Oh, there you go, undress to impress."

"You can wear the crown but you're no princess."

"We're going to die, it's just a matter of time."

"Hard times come, good times go."

"I'm either gone in an instant or here 'til the bitter end."

"What I've got will make you feel more alive."

"I'll be your favorite drug."

YOUNG VOLCANOES

"We're the beginning of the end."

"Tonight, the foxes hunt the hounds."

"It's all over now."

"Before it has begun, we've already won."

"We are wild."

"We are like young volcanoes."

"C'mon, make it easy, say I never mattered."

"We will teach you how to make boys next door out of assholes."

RAT A TAT

"It's (Name), bitch."

"No thesis existed for burning cities down at such a rampant rate."

"They just DIY'd that shit and they built their own bombs."

"She's his suicide blonde."

"She's number than gold."

"Are you ready for another bad poem?"

"One more off key anthem."

"Remember me as I was, not as I am."

"I kept wishing she had blonde ambition and she'd let it go to my head."

"If my love is a weapon, there's no second guessing when I say."

"If my heart is a grenade, you pull the pin and say."

"You need to lower your standards."

"It's never getting any better than this."

"You settled your score."

"This is where you come to beg."

"This is what we do, baby, we nightmare you."

"I'll take your heart served up two ways."

"I'm the lonelier version of you."

"I just don't know where it went wrong."

"She's sick and she's wrong."

"I've seen bigger."

"I've lit better."

"Not a dry eye left in the house."

"Talk less, mean more."

"Go boy, run for your life."

"Let's be electric, like we were before."

SAVE ROCK AND ROLL

"I need more dreams and less life."

"I need that dark in a little more light."

"I cried tears you'll never see."

"So fuck you, you can go cry me an ocean, and leave me be."

"You are what you love, not who loves you."

"In a world full of the word 'yes', I'm here to scream no."

"Wherever I go, trouble seems to follow."

"I only plugged in to save rock and roll."

"Blood brothers in desperation."

"An oath of silence for the voice of a generation."

"How'd it get to be only me?"

"I'm the last damn kid still kicking that still believes."

"I will defend the faith."

"Oh no, we won't go."

"We don't know when to quit."

[casspurrjoybell-24]

The Alpha's Boy - Chapter 22 - Part 1

Book Two In : The Alpha's Trilogy

*Warning - Adult Content*

Alistair 'Star' Claymore-Phoenix

We were back on the farm the next day.

I felt awful, my stomach was sick, my head hurt, I was sweating.

It wasn't as bad as the first withdrawal but it was still gross and I didn't want to pick myself up off the couch once I made it into the house.

Riot went out with the animals, I didn't see him but I noticed his things around, so Preston was out in the fields by the time we got back and I was thankful for that because it meant I didn't need to stress about Riot being alone and doing all the farm work by himself.

I was weak and Riot didn't want someone that was weak.

It was a thought that was going through my mind every so often.

I needed to grow up, I needed to stop doing things without thinking.

I didn't want to make a promise to myself that I wasn't ready to keep but I couldn't help it.

If I wanted to keep Riot and stay out of rehab, I would need to get more control over myself than I already had.

I know he didn't think like that, I know he didn't see me as some toy that couldn't be fixed but I couldn't help but feel that way, because in my eyes Riot was perfect, he was funny, stock, he was everything I wanted to be and here he was mated to me.

It made me feel guilty.

I fell asleep on the couch, a fever definitely holding itself over my body, I had hollow dreams, where everything felt miles away.

It was bothersome like nothing was going to get done or finished.

I hated dreams like that, like an itch, you couldn't scratch.

I woke up in the dark, I had must have slept through the guys coming back into the house, I could hear a T.V. in Prestons' room, low as it spoke, barely a sound.

I could also hear water running, so I assumed that Riot was having a shower.

My head still ached but I got up nonetheless.

I walked into Riot's bedroom, feeling less hazy with the smell coming from the bathroom.

Everything about Riot was perfect and though I wanted it to bug me, that even his smell was calming.

I didn't let it.

My cell-phone was charging on his nightstand and I took it, sitting on the bed as I scrolled through texts from Ivan and my Dad.

I couldn't tell them about my relapse,I know they needed to know at some point but not right now, not when everything in me wanted to fall apart at one more pinch in someone's voice at something I've done wrong.

I didn't notice the shower stop but I did lift my head when the door opened and Riot walked back into the bedroom with a towel over his shoulder and loose, grey sweat pants on.

I didn't want to openly stare at him, look at the water that dripped down his chest and to the waist of his pants but I couldn't stop myself, I was obviously drawn to him and fighting myself wasn't one of my strong suites.. obviously.

"You're not very stubble, you know that?"

My eyes snapped to him, my face burning with heat.

I wanted to grab him, shake him and kiss him but it was silly of me to think like that when just hours ago I was laying in a bed clinging to what life I had left.

'I wasn't trying to be,' I said, leaning a hand on the bed as he shut the door behind him.

I knew nothing would happen, we had only shared a kiss before but the way my hands started to sweat, the way my heart started to speed up, the way his heart started to speed up made me think something might.

I was hopeful but not holding on to hope as he put his towel in the nearby laundry basket and looked towards me, I couldn't help but notice the way his eyes trialed down, it hit me then what Dad said before we came here.

How skinny and unhealthy I looked.

I didn't see it but it came rushing into my head making me feel self cautious and suddenly all the confidence I had, flew out the window and I claimed up, my hand moving to my lap as my eyes looked towards the window, the window that looked to the bedroom I had at the main house.

"Star," Riot said, pulling me from my head, I almost jumped to see how close he had gotten, he was on a knee, kneeling in front of me, his two hands on his legs.

I bit my lip, looking down at him.

"What's wrong?"

I started to shake my head but Riot gave me a stern look.

'I don't look how I think I look,' I simply said.

Giving a soft sign, he knitted his brows together.

"How do you think you look?"

'Unhealthy.'

He sighed, standing for a moment before sitting beside me on the bed.

He took both my hands in his body looking towards me.

"I'll be honest, you don't look that healthy but before you take that as an insult, I want you to think about it. You've been eating more, outside more, sleeping better. The only unhealthy look you have right now is that your hair isn't as full as it could be. It's not something that can really be helped right now."

I went to bow my head, let out a sigh but Riots hand caught my chin and forced me to look at him.

"When I first met you, I thought you were some good for nothing druggy that didn't want help and was forced here by his family because he was trouble but I see now how wrong I was Alister. I was wrong."

"You're a hard-working, sensitive guy who was lead down the wrong path by trauma and you try so hard to fight it, I can see it in your eyes, I can see that you don't want to have the demons you're fighting. You're broken and it's okay if you're broken. We're all broken and I'm here to help you when you can't help yourself."

My brows furrowed together, I was trying to fight the feelings that swelled in my chest, the pit in my stomach.

Nobody has ever said something so sweet to me before and I was too awkward to really know how to react to it.

So I did what my instincts told me to do, I leant forward, closing the gap between us.

My lips touched his and it was like I was on fire, I was going to pull back, stop what I started in pure embarrassment for how I reacted but just as I was about to pull away Riot leaned in, pressing the kiss deeper.

I was taken aback for a moment before I leaned in to meet him, a hand falling on his shirtless chest.

He put a hand on the bed behind me, leaning into the kiss.

We broke apart for a moment, I took a deep breath, looking him in the eyes, I sighed, resting my forehead on his for a moment as we looked at each other.

His eyes danced in mine before a small smile pressed on his face and I couldn't help but mirror it, and relax at the sound of his soft chuckle.

Riot lifted his other hand to my cheek and I felt myself flush even more at the added attention.

Riot knew it too because he smirked again, grabbing into the hair at the nape of my neck now before pressing us closer together and just like that, I was lost in him, all over again. 

[reboxczar]

SLEEP: GET SOME by: a teen

I Love Sleep.

I love sleep. I don’t know why. I just love relaxing in a warm and cozy bed. I feel swaddled up and safe. Do you ever wonder about sleep? Do you question why you sleep? Or how you sleep? Or what happens when you sleep? Because I love sleep so much I had many questions about sleep so I decided to research a few of my questions to find out some answers about sleep. 

Why Is Sleep Important?

There are many reasons why sleep is important. I will talk about 3 reasons. 

First, sleep is “necessary for our brains to function well” (News Current). 

Second, sleep “gives our body and brain a chance to rest and regenerate” (News Current). Regenerate means to regrown. When we sleep we regenerate trillions of cells that “help our body function”. “Important stuff gets saved as memories” (Puddler). 

Third, sleep makes us healthier. A study done in Spain “suggests that people who sleep more are better able to avoid cancer, depressions, weight gain, and other negative health effects” (News Currents: Read to Know). 

What Causes Us to Feel Sleep?

Many things can make you feel sleepy and cause you to fall asleep. For example, going to bed at the same time each night trains our brains and and makes us feel sleepy and fall asleep - usually at around the same time each night. A comfortable bed also makes some people feel sleepy. “Sometimes you sleep longer if you’ve been active” (Kent, 17). I know that if I have a long and tough day at school I come home and feel very sleepy. Staying up very late for many nights in a row can also make us feel very sleepy. This is why it is very important to go to bed on time and get the correct amount of sleep  

Why Do We Have to Go to Sleep Early?

If you do not go to sleep early enough then you will not get enough sleep before it is time to wake up again the next day. If you don’t get enough sleep you will find it hard to think and concentrate. “You will feel very tired and your body will feel heavy” (Kent, 9). The worst thing that can happen when you don’t get enough sleep is that “you are irritable and cranky, even with your friends” (Kent, 9). Sometimes lacking sleep can even make you sick. This is why it is important to go to sleep on time each evening even you want stay up and watch television or play on your computer or iPad. 

Why Do Some People Drool When They Sleep? 

According to an article in New Moon Childrens Magazine, “when we sleep our throat muscles relax causing us to breathe through a very small opening” (36) and also causing us to open our mouths. Because everyone produces saliva in their bodies, when our mouths are open when we sleep some of the saliva (aka spit) can come out of our mouths and get on our pillows and blankets. This is called “drooling”. And this is the reason why some people drool when they are asleep. But not everyone opes their mouths when they sleep. And not everyone drools when they are asleep. 

Why Do We Still Feel Tired When We Don’t Get (Enough) Sleep?

What makes us not get enough sleep? Here are some reasons :

Electricity: When we are around fake lights like computers, iPads, and televisions it resets our internal clocks. Our internal clocks tell us when to go to sleep, when to wake up, and when to eat.

Snoring: When people snore loudly it can disrupt our sleep. Even our own snoring can disrupt our sleep. If we snore it can keep us awake. It can even mean that we are “trying too hard to breathe” (New Moon: A Peep Into Sleep). 

Environment: If there are loud noises, weird smells, or other things in your house or apartment that could disrupt your sleep. 

Bad Habits: The biggest reason we still feel tired even when we are getting sleep is because of bad habits. This means we stay up too late, don’t eat healthy foods, don’t drink enough water (Weber, 14), are not active enough or getting enough exercise, or that we just are not sleeping for long enough hours. 

“Every living animal needs to sleep”. When we get enough sleep it keeps us healthy. Sometimes we feel tired when we are not getting the proper amount of sleep. This is not good because every “body needs rest. Sleep is when a body repairs itself” (Weber, 18). Doctor’s recommend that kids gets between 8-12 hours of sleep each night. If you don’t get enough sleep you become “sleep deprived”. This means you are “denying” yourself sleep.

If you don’t get enough sleep then you will still feel tired. This is why it is important to not only get sleep but to get enough sleep. If you wake up and still feel like you need to take a nap then you are probably not getting enough sleep. 

I recommend that you find "sleep" and you go get some!

[the-firebird69]

We saw bja get up this morning and he's running the program against John remillard with success now because of the function where if we kick him out of the apartment and his son he starts to try and pull our friend out my grandson-in-law and he goes ahead and says we're on it and stuff but really the function is not too complicated he's trying to kidnap our friend and get him out of the house and so is Trump and the clones and they all blame each other for trying to kidnap him and they tried to get him out of the apartment and they're fighting each other the reason why I worked on John rimelord is it starts off not blaming us but this time it's us pulling him out and our friend is not really doing it that much already he's seeing that other groups are trying to get them out even before getting our friend out which is new Tommy f bja they want him out and they're pulling pretty hard so the guy might lay down and kick himself out try blaming our friend but he knows about these guys and it's in writing and it's working very well. Big big groups are doing it. They're taking him down in the process and a lot of it was to get out of stuff to get at his stuff obviously and they're using methods now that make more sense getting information and him trying to get our son out is helping it's an excuse and they're beating him to death getting cold to use and entrance code keys they are taking all this information in the process of pulling him out and standing him off it's exactly what he said would happen , well no no hasn't really happened yet said once she's kicked out he's going to turn into a cream puff I'm trying to kidnap him and the guys are fool and he uses tool to set up by the Max and he falls for it really hard fast and constantly has turned into a menace to everybody including them we know that guy needs to go his son and his clone and this whole people there are a bunch of asses but this function will work I studied it

Ben Arnold

We started at 2:00 and we do see it and we studied it as well so what it means and we did see that they are doing what he's saying and they're competing and they're trying to pull them out and that's the trumpsters they're trying at and eventually they'll pull them out. And he'll try and blame our friend and it won't work but we'll have to intercept them more and he says he found holes but we're plugging those and they're going away and he hasn't noticed and I'm not making this up but this guy is an animal we have a lot of stuff to do and he's willing to burn himself up to distract us including Max and take our time energy and thought power and smart people and he's a useless piece of s*** basically the guy a friend here is accidentally enslaved the piece of crap it's not on purpose you're a loser oh that's what works and he keeps trying to have our friend make noises or say certain things it doesn't work that great and then he says I win because of that and he's an a****** okay Trump is so stupid it just keeps doing it and doing it to people it's very annoying and he gets killed because of it. So then he says so I get to have revenge and I'll tell you that guy's a moron in a loser. We're going to go after him for his comments. We're going after the radio guy that's on right now too we're going to slaughter his people and we know who he is and boy you people are fools. . I'm putting orders out on these idiots right now

Mac daddy

You see the roofing company and where they are and we do understand that game and they don't really. The pseudo empire is not bowing they're going in and pulling people out and it willing to die to a harass our son so we're willing to kill you anyway we can all day and all night until you're exterminated and such assholes to him we're moving out too

Thor Freya

It certainly see how this is going and have to tell you I'm sick of these people I need them out of my face and a little bit in the future and they still are stinky they're covering stuff and it works very well but they're very rude and they try stuff all the time all right one more report I'm going to put in there big letters you people are asleep too I'm going to hand out that assignment for those who don't think that they should have a state of emergency up there and that they should be in a state of readiness and I'm going to record it now he says

It's time right now Thor and I hear you my brother we have to work on this since I'm sorry I'm still a smaller person I do understand what you're saying but it has to go through and I'm ordering it from here and Hera too that we are going to declare a state of emergency I'll be a low level one but we're going to keep it on there until the war is over and I do hear you and I'm going to go ahead and do that Thor Freya say

Zues

I have heard it all but that will have an offense and we need it and we need it now

Hera

We're going to get together and discuss this we need to do it and we need to do it really quickly it is a good idea and we have to have confidence in our screening if we don't All is Lost if we have a question we do put them through a rigorous tests on purpose and we see what you're saying what's the damn problem this is the problem and he keeps saying it and you're driving him mad he's getting upset it's either you try and do that or you're in trouble up there too and you have to try and do that and we now see what you're saying we're going to go ahead and do what you're saying and we're going to sign up tons of people and will continue

Olympus

[kraviolis]

in my mind bundy and lennon moved to bundy's hometown in virginia to help his parents after he heard about his dad getting sick. they have a cozy three bedroom house on a sizable plot of land, plenty of space for their menagerie of pets they have after kiki leaves.

lennon, with all her medical experience, gets a job at a local veterinary clinic and eventually starts doing surgeries again, but on larger animals like horses and cows that don't require as much fine detail work as humans do. her hands still shake sometimes and the tendons and scars on her arms ache when it rains but she's saving lives and helping animals and that's all she's ever wanted to do.

bundy still doesnt make as much as lennon, but he does make some money. he becomes an author. he writes an autobiography at first, not about his entire life, but he writes out everything that happened during his investigation into the simones. it sells pretty well, everyone's curious to know what really happened with the super terrorist of los santos. after that, bundy decides to write more about his insane life as a detective in los santos. most of his books are sold as nonfiction, except for one. a supernatural novel about a man in a lighthouse who calls himself death. it's the least sold out of all his books, which bundy thinks is for the best. no need to give people any crazy ideas about knocking old doors, because the wrong one might open.

their house is old and falling apart, but all the repairs and improvements keep bundy busy because after all those years cleaning up other people's messes in the PD, he'd go stir crazy without having something to fix or improve. bundy mostly spends his days taking care of his parents, working on his next book, and installing whatever new flooring or light fixture he'd decided the house needed. their neighbors always ask bundy if he can fix their crumbling fence or leaky roof too, and he always does it free of charge.

the house has two floors and three bedrooms. their living room is always filled with dog toys and they have a nice spacious hutch enclosure for their rabbits. on the first floor is two bedrooms, their bedroom is soundproofed (as always) and their guest bedroom is always kept tidy and open for any of their seven hundred children whenever they come to visit.

the second floor has only one bedroom with a big open window that faces east and lets sunlight flood the room every morning. there's fake ivy lining the walls, fairy lights perfectly hung but never turned on, an old guitar leaning against the wall, books sitting on a shelf, and a teddy bear laying on the bed. on the desk is various medical devices to monitor one's heart and blood pressure along with bottles of prescription medications that are half-empty and years out of date. inside the closet is neatly hung and folded clothes, the scent of whoever wore them faded yet still there somehow.

everything inside the room is covered in a layer of dust, except for the windowsill, where a pristine vase of sunflowers sits and soaks up the sun every morning. the flowers never get the chance to wilt and the water is always refreshed every morning.

[fraener]

4/15/23

this week has been hard on me. ive been very anxious and even stayed home from school thursday because i was too scared to leave the house until the evening i went with hans and we worked in the garden. its nice to be touching the dirt again. i cant remember if i wrote in here that i joined the experimental music ensemble or not, but were meeting for the second time tonight. it felt good to do something new and be kind of bad at it. i realized in that moment that i really miss trying things and being bad at them. its been strange, i feel really scared in the mornings and then i feel ok by the evening usually, a little scared again when im going to bed. my anxiety and ocd are evolving in new and interesting ways. it sort of feels like when a zit is surfacing or something, everything feels like its coming to a head and everything thats building up pressure under the surface is going to come flowing out and then ill be ok again. im looking at my healing and hurting cycles like breathing....a big inhale of horrible painful scary events and then i hold my breath for a little bit and then a biiiiiig exhale every few years. my lower and middle back have been hurting, and i think im having some dampness/spleen stagnation thats making it overact on my kindeys. ive definitely been stressing out and have had a really hard time getting out of the cycles and into the ifs lobby/core self. but other than my anxiety things have been really good. i fall a little more in love with hans every day which is really nice, and even though we had some conflict recently we both handled it so reasonably that it didnt even make a bump in the road for more than a couple of hours. its still been hard to eat but no so much because im scared of getting sick as its just hard to find fresh food in the grocery store. the produce is really bad right now and so im really looking forward to the coming weeks where ill be able to eat things that arent canned or bread or dairy anymore. i finally got some eggs so im really happy with that. i kinda think i might have to just move back to seattle after all when school ends. the artist trust is really promising for grants and such and i really really really miss home. im going to be penpals with stefan i think, they said yes so im excited about it. i started crying really hard because it felt like an avenue back into feeling like myself and feeling like home. theres this shimmering warm light like from one of those big windows in the animation room that i keep feeling when i feel like i can return....i get the same feeling from that first spring in this apartment. like the world is so big and warm and bright. like theres something right outside of my little stormcloud i cant seem to get out from underneath. i think i want to travel lots and go to grad school somewhere really interesting but i also really want to come home, germs and loud noises and high prices and all. but today i feel ok. today stefan said yes to being penpals with me, today i stumbled across the blog of someone who loves food and loves to cook beautiful things who lives right across the street in the martin in one of the apartments facing the olympian. today im going to call my grandma and karen and go do some more earth prepping and go to the herb store and go to my choir practice. today i might clean or meditate or go for a walk, i might try and make something out of clay, i might write a letter, i might cry some more. today is full of just as much good possibility as bad possibility. actually i think more good than bad. my outlook has been so damaged and changed in so many ways i just want everything to get flipped right side up again. i think if i could see the world a little different like i used to id feel so much better. i dont need to make a beautiful life up, i need to see how good life is right now and lean into it as hard as possible. what max said about life being a competition for who is having the most fun is right. i should be trying to win.

[neovexinous]

Emergency Situation!

So, after asking around on a sub-reddit (by suggested to many to do so) it seems this situation my boyfriend and I are in have gotten so bad that we have no choice but to move out of here ASAP. I am already contacting Animal Rescue to resolve his mum's animal hoarding issue and I plan to contact authorities as soon as I can. I hate that it befalls to me to do this since we were really hoping his mum would finally see how fucked we are and actually try to help us improve the situation, but.. nope. She'd rather bitch about it and do fuck-all. I know hoarding is a seriously difficult issue to take care of and often requires intervention and, sadly, this intervention will be one hell of a rude awaking for his mum because we may lose this house. So yeah, I have no clue what Demir and I can do currently, we don't really have anyone that can give us a temporary place to stay and we don't have the money to just.. up and leave so I don't know what to do. We just... can't keep dealing with this forever. It's already affecting my health and is probably affecting his and his mum's. Half the house smells, badly, of cat piss and the entire house is falling apart, this cannot continue any longer. I do also know his mum may go into a fit of rage and kick me the hell out for doing this, but what choice do I have? She refuses to do anything about it, even when we've tried to get her to improve and tried to tell her that hoarding cats is making the living situation so much worse. Most I can do is ask to donate to my Ko-fi to help us out so.. here we go: https://ko-fi.com/littlesoftspacefluff ...I just hope this doesn't tear me and Demir apart. Basically, this is what one commenter has said (and all agree with them): "this is a really tough situation to be in but if i were in that situation, my actions would come down to one issue: safety. safety of those animals, and (despite her anger) safety for your boyfriend's mother. if floorboards are in danger of caving in, if water is leaking into the house, if animals are sick and suffering, someone has to step in to be a responsible adult here and it seems like that's fallen to you. floorboards are the least of the house's problems: your number 1 issue is that roof. any water coming in will weaken wood and cause mold, which will sicken the animals just as much as the humans there. water coming in could cause an electrical fire because water and power don't mix. even though you lack resources and transportation, if you call adult protective services for the safety of the humans and the ASPCA for the safety of the animals, then you all can get health and safety squared away. for APS though, i'm sure his mother will refuse to let anyone inside so you need to physically open the door for them and give them permission to come inside. you live there and have the power to invite them in. her owning the house means nothing. you say you want to fix up the house, but i need to tell you honestly, that its going to take hundreds of thousands of dollars to fix a house where floorboards are rotten through and every wall has mold. know how i know this? my family home where i grew up was left to sit for a few years while the housing market "stabilized." during that time, a pipe burst but because no one was living there, the house grew mold for an undetermined time period. the home insurance paid nothing and half the house was affected. as it turns out, the mold it grew was so toxic that no one was allowed inside without special suits and respirators which had to be stripped off after exiting the house then sent to be incinerated for safety. a quote to rip out all the walls/insulation/flooring/etc without treating the mold or rebuilding ANYTHING was going to cost 250k. if you are not in a place to spend that kind of money which you don't have, you all need to get out of there and sell the property as is so it can be torn down." EDIT: My boyfriend pleaded with me to hold off for a bit longer to try and push his mum to do some kind of improvement, I really didn't want to but.. I caved in since I am aware that if I do it immediately, he'd have a panic attack. This is still an emergency situation, I don't want to hold off for much longer. I won't be as active on here and I'll be putting off everything to focus on life, I can't just sit around and do nothing.