#i'm gay and evi; >:3

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[myfriendsneedtostop]

I'm sorry was no one going to tell me how fruity Descendants 3 was? Or was I just supposed to watch it myself?!

[caramelloss]

"you are my witch"

lilia calderu x reader • pure smut • 3.2k w/c

summary: you've been friends with lilia calderu for years. drunken from the poison of wine, you confess your love for the woman. although reluctant to admit her feelings, because she harbors a secret you don't know, you learn that lilia feels the same way. years of yearning come to an end, and you find yourself falling into your desires, unable to control what has been kept away for so long.

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author's note: so first i'd like to just THANK all of you for blowing up my post asking for who'd like to be tagged, because the taglist isn't even done, i can't fit them all in the blog. also, i tagged you if you liked or reblogged the tag ask post, because i bolded i would tag those who liked or reblogged. second; i'm sorry this isn't a longer fic. it was originally planned to be, but i don't want to use my idea i came up with in a one chapter fic, i'd like it to be used in a longer more meaningful one. i really hope you enjoy this. if you have any positive, negative, or general feedback, please let me know! i want to become the best author i can be for you guys. also, i'd love to receive any asks for fanfiction or one shots! i'm currently focused on my big multi character x reader fic, but im 100% open to and willing to write for your requests.

content includes: fingering, oral stimulation, biting, praise, hair pulling, pet name usage

you noticed the difference in her eyes like it was bolded in bright red ink. her smile fell, like an angel to descend from heaven. 'this is it' you thought, 'she’ll hate me.' you turned away in shame, your heart dropped. words flooded out, stupid, careless words. "i love you, lilia." 

you couldn't bear to look, you feared the disagreement would show on her face. your body tenses, and you scrunch the bridge of your nose with your fingers. you expect her to tell you to get out, or leave.. but you hear nothing. 

but you feel, oh, you feel. 

you feel her behind you, closer than when you had muttered those stupid, damning words. her fingers gently traced your neck, and you closed your eyes, the yearning in your soul up to its brink of expression. each breath you take is shaky, is heavy. you tilt your head aside, desperate to feel her warmth on your skin forever. 

you open your eyes when you feel her breath on your neck. she must've noticed your body's reaction, because she paused, and remained still. lilia traces her fingers down your body, to your hips. she stops here, her lips close to your ears, as her body presses into your back. 

you lean into her, your head slightly leaning back, at the pure and utter pleasure you feel being so close to her. her lips part, and with such composure, yet so little solidity, she delivers a line that would come to send shivers down your spine. "i have loved you since i saw you the first time, long ago. i am consumed and rattled by you at every waking second.." her hands pull you in, and you hum at the gesture. your eyes are closed, not because you hate this, or don't want to be there, but because the way you long for her in this moment now is too painful for you to bear. a lump forms in your throat when you feel her wet cheek graze your neck. she was in tears, and you needed to console her; but how? how should you console her now? you did not have much time to think. her lips, warm, soft, and gentle, were on your neck. the kiss she blessed your skin with felt like one that existed prior to the world, and forever past the present. it was torture, it was devastation, when she pulled away. it hurt, it was brutal.. so brutal, your lips parted, and you gasped quietly. your hand reached back for her head, and you enveloped your fingers in the curly, silver locks of her hair. you held her head close to yours, as her thumbs rubbed gently upon your hips. her voice broke as she completed her confession, and your heart broke with it; you'd do anything to protect her, to keep her from harm. "i'm a witch, y/n.. how could you ever love a witch?" 

your eyes opened, and you stopped breathing, for just a moment. you were sure you'd heard wrong. with a furrowed brow, and a worrisome expression, you broke away from her touch, from her hold. you turned to her, and your head tilted to the side, as tears began to form in your waterline. the sight of her, so weak, so doubtful of herself, so ashamed.. your heart shattered like a broken mirror. 

her face was lined with streaks of wet. she had cried for this, she suffered for it. she couldn't even look at you, her eyes were avert. 

your hands raced to cup her cheeks, and you gently wipe away her tears. her lips part, in astonishment, followed by her eyes meeting your gaze. finally, you saw those beautiful eyes again. your heart skipped a thousand beats at the sight of those irises. you smile, and your face softens. "lilia.." you whisper, your forehead pressed against hers now, "i've loved you since the sun rose opposite the moon. i've chased you in all of my wildest dreams. i've loved you in every moment and i would not stop because of what you are or are not." at your notation, her lips fold into a smile. she grabs your wrists softly, holding them. once more you spoke, "you are my witch, my little piece of divinity. you are mine, and my heart is yours." you watch as her eyes move from your eyes to your lips, and you wish for nothing but her to kiss you. 

after all these years, of being her "friend", you have never wanted anything more than for her to kiss you. it's like an insatiable hunger you cannot destroy. 

lilia bites her lip, and she grabs your chin with her pointer finger and her thumb. you start to breath heavy, and your heart begins to race. she brings your face to hers, so close that your lips graze against one another’s. you ache for her, you long for her. you need to taste her, to merge your body, your soul, your heart, with hers. you need her to kiss you. 

and she does. her lips mesh with yours in perfect harmony, like the melody of heaven’s sea. your mind is adrift, clouded. you cannot form a thought, you do not desire to form a thought. her unaccompanied hand caresses the small of your back, and you pull her closer with the hands you hold on her face. 

she slips her tongue along your bottom lip, and you moan softly into the kiss. her grip on your chin releases, and she holds your jaw instead. she guides you through the long, heart-felt kisses. her lips control your body, your mind. 

warmth builds between your thighs, and your head is still covered by nothing but a blanket of emptiness. lilia is the first to pull away, her lack of oxygen in her lungs being the culprit. you curse the living necessity of air. 

you yourself breathe heavy, panting almost. lilia’s lipstick is smudged, and you smirk at the notion that you've just kissed this marvel of a woman. she notices your cocky smile, and a single eyebrow lifts. she now wore a smirk herself. 

“you're looking at me like you've just seen me naked, y/n.” you chuckle when she says this. “while i wouldn't be opposed to that, i'm just a little satisfied with the fact that in the midst of kissing me, you forgot about your lipstick.”  

her smirk faded and her lips parted again, she pop looked offended, but you could tell it was just her beautiful sense of sarcasm. 

“fix it for me?” she asked this with a lower tone and a wink, and you felt your core throb at the sound of her voice. she wanted you to kiss her again. 

you ran your tongue across your bottom lip, and you couldn't help your smile. her hands guided your face close, and you pushed a curl behind her ear. she grew desperate, unable to wait. her lips caught yours, and you shut your eyes at the contact. in your head you pictured her eyes, beautiful and brown, like the rock embedded and shaded on the side of a mountain. your grip on her hair tightened as she pushed you back softly, making sure not to break the kiss. her lips were soft, so soft it felt like the comfort a pillow brings in the hour of sleep. you moan as your lower back makes contact with her counter, and your head leans back, which breaks the embrace. 

the wetness between your thighs grows, and you figure your underwear must be utterly ruined. lilia's fingers stroked your hair, and she shook her head slightly, a whisper following shortly. "let me taste you.. every inch of you.." you bite your lip, and hold her gaze, nodding hesitantly; even though you don't feel hesitant on your answer at all. her smirk returns, and her hands descend, down from your hair to your neck. she drags them further down, past your shoulders. she stops at where the unbuttoned cardigan opens, pushing the material off of your arms and body. her warmth intoxicates you when her skin brushes against yours. she plants hot kisses on your upper arms, which are exposed because of the camisole top you wore. 

her hands found the straps to your shirt, and she pulled them down slowly, kissing the empty place they used to cover. you tense, and your eyes shut as your lips purse together while you try to conceal the soft hum of pleasure you make.

lilia's fingers pull away the top, leaving you completely naked and exposed from your waist up. she smiles at the sight, her hands cupping your breasts. you feel the slick between your legs, it seems the inner part of your thighs had gotten soaked by extension.

her thumbs grazed over your nipples, and the sensation was enough to drive you wild. you pulled her head into the curve of your neck, your lips parted as soft moans escaped. she chuckles and her lips start to kiss your neck. 

your knees go weak, simply from the ecstasy her lips brings you. her thumbs lose the feel of your sensitive buds, and she begins to creep down your throat. she leaves sloppy kisses down your collarbone, and down to your nipples. her eyes close as she takes one into her mouth, suckling on the sweet spot. your eyes fall back, and you inhale, biting down onto your lip to stop yourself from being loud. her fingers play with your lone nipple, and you feel as though you will not be able to take much more of this before becoming pathetic for her. 

the witch releases your areola from her mouth and takes in the other, her tongue lapping around the bundle of nerves. her hands trace the curves of your body. they pause when she's reached your hips, and she digs her nails into your skin. the pain blends with the pleasure beautifully, and it's as if they are interchangeable. 

you breathe heavily, your stomach twitching when she starts to drag her lips down your stomach. your pussy was so wet that she could smell the scent of arousal from your waistline. her fingers pulled up the black skirt you wore, and it revealed your soaked nude panties. she chuckled, looking up at you with eyes that were darkened and overwhelmed with lust. she bit her lip and furrowed her brow, which made you roll your eyes. 

“you're so wet, darling. i could just devour you.” you gently pull her hair, forcing her head back a little. she smirks, and you pout. “please, i need you” you say, pleading for her tongue, for her fingers, for her to be the one to shape you into a mess of a woman. 

she winks, bringing her mouth to your inner thigh. she leaves kisses along your skin, and it seems as though she’s teasing you. her eyes stay locked onto yours with each touch of her lips, she wants to see your face as she tortures you.

your hands release her hair, and grab onto the counter behind you, your nails scratch the surface with each new touch. her eyes look so dark, and it turns you on even more. 

but your view of them is gone as she bites into your other thigh. her teeth are sharp, and your jaw drops, you whimper. her teeth release, and she kisses the bite mark. you open your eyes to see it, to see the mark she had left. it was dark red, and your expression changed, you felt your core throb uncontrollably, and you grabbed her head by her hair, guiding her to your cunt. your eyes pleaded with her. 

lilia opened her mouth and licked the wet slick on your panties, all while looking you dead in the eyes. the touch was faint, but it was all your body needed to jerk up. it was so cruel, the way she left you needy and desperate for her. you couldn't think beyond her tongue on your clit, or her fingers buried in your warm folds. 

she bit the material of your under garment, pulling it slowly down your legs. her eyes were stolen away by the sight of you completely naked and in front of her, soaked, ruined. you were such a slut for her. you wonder if she would tease you about how soiled you got for her later down the line. 

the witch sighed, and her lips kissed the very inside of your thighs, right beside where you writhed for her. you thought you might faint. 

using your hand, you rubbed her cheek, shaking your head at the sight of her, down on her knees, ready to please you.  

she turned her face, kissing your gentle fingers. you smiled, and you took a deep breath as she brought her face as close as possible to your core. her eyes were focused on your face, you could tell she wanted to watch your face as she ate you out. so typical of her. 

her face buried between your legs, her tongue circling your clit. your hands shot behind you to the counter once more, desperate to hold yourself up. your eyes closed, and your back arched. the moan that echoed through the room was inevitable. she took her time, finding the nerves that were more sensitive and paying more attention to them. you thought she must've found you stupid to be so wet and needy for her. 

her tongue sped up, and she took your clit into her mouth, suckling the bud. you couldn't control the way your hips bucked, or the way your knees fell wobbly and weak. her hands grabbed your hips to stabilize her, and she pulled her mouth away in a flash. 

you were worrisome, you thought maybe you'd messed up, or maybe she'd realized she didn't want you like this. it was almost heartbreaking to feel her pull away. 

she had never stopped looking at you, though. you of course couldn't tell because your eyes had closed before out of the extremity of what you were feeling. 

she looked serious, determined, but her eyes were still as dark as before. you blush at the sight of her face covered in your taste, your slick. her mouth opened, and you heard every word with such a heavy impact. “do not close your eyes again. i want to see your eyes, your face, at every moment. do you understand?”

your heart starts to race again, there was just something so inexplicable about the way her words made you feel. you nod your head, scared that if you spoke your words would be jumbled. she didn't accept it though, her voice changed, from demanding to mischievous. “you understand..? what do you understand, dear? how does it make you feel..? tell me how i make you feel.” 

you bite your lip, looking up at the ceiling. maybe you were throwing up a prayer that you wouldn't mess up, or maybe you were just trying to prepare yourself for what she wanted from you. her right hand slipped from your hip, and you didn't notice, so fixated on her request. you went to start speaking, but as you did, you felt her fingers inside of you. 

your head leaned back, and you closed your eyes. a hushed “fuck!”, was followed by a loud humming. she smirked, “what did i say about closing your eyes, baby?” 

you forced them open, forced them to lock their gaze down onto her own. you wanted to make her happy. you needed to please her just as badly as you needed her to make you cum. 

“i'm sorry, darling—” as you began again, her fingers started to pump inside of your pussy, and your mouth lay agape. she didn't stop, even as you took a moment to continue, and you took a deep breath. 

“you want me to look— oh, fuck.. god.” it was like she went faster with each word you spoke. you took note of her devilish grin, thinking that you'd someday get your revenge. “you want me to look at you, you want to see me when— shit!” your body flinches as she curls her digits inside you, her speed still gradually increasing. “come on, princess, you're doing so good” she whispered this against your clit, right before sucking it into her mouth again. 

you bit your lip and your hands pulled her by the hair, just giving you something to hold onto. “when i cum for you, when i'm just a puddle for you.. you want to see me when i take your fingers!” 

the words came out shaky, spaced between your moans and whimpers. her fingers started to go as fast as they could, and lilia lapped her tongue around your wet clit, stimulating every single part of your cunt. she was still looking at you. you held her gaze as you started to tremble, your body shaking as it came to the brink of an orgasm. 

you finished your thought, giving her what she asked of you. “it makes me feel like abandoning everything for you, to have you like this, every second, every moment.”

her eyes closed, and you watched her remain between your thighs. your body hit a climax, and your hips bucked up, your back arching. you yelled for her, her name. your eyes rolled to the back of your head and you bit your lip to muffle any further sounds as she fucked you through your orgasm. 

when you had came, your white fluid casing over her fingers, she pulled her mouth away from your clitoris. 

you, with your head still fuzzy, had managed to pull her back up to you by her hair. her lips were so wet because of you. you immediately pull her in to kiss you, tasting yourself on her tongue and lips. she pulled away, breaking the contact. her teeth captured your bottom lip and you sighed when she pulled it back. 

lilia’s lips started kissing your neck, and she brought them to your ear, whispering hushedly, “clean your pretty little mess, my love.” 

you whimper, and you open your lips, as she slips her two cum-covered fingers inside of your mouth. you suck off your fluid, and the growing wetness between your legs returns.

the older witch laughs, kissing your neck again. her lips find yours once more, and she kisses you like there is no other action in this world. her tongue invades your mouth, as she tastes the sweetness that remains. 

[vintagelacerosette]

Tag game 🩷🎀

Hosted by the wonderful Jess @jrooc

Sorry for the lateness!! I was tagged by these twinkling starlights Kaka @stocious Dosho @doshiart Kat @mybrainismelted Pie @gallapiech Ice @spookygingerr Michelle @mmmichyyy Willow @ian-galagher Jen @wehangout Georgia @iansw0rld Cyn @ms-moonlight-inn Evie @ energievie Gigi @guinguin1984 Becki @francesroserecs Michelle @michellemisfit

Thaaankss 🥰

Name and A03 handle:

Shermyn/Myn & Dynastyria (no written works yet!💕)

Current Location:

On the lounge couch

Favourite picrew (don’t have one? you can skip this or do this one)?

So many to choose from!!!

Picrew 1 (I am obsessed with cardcaptors) , Picrew 2 (Willow made of usss & I treasure itttt 😍) Picrew 3 & Picrew 4 (bc who doesn't love a good bread bowl)

What’s one thing you want in a picrew?

I think more body size inclusively 🙌🏻

Favourite thing you’ve created (or seen created) for the fandom?

Tie between Molly's draw this in your style/Gallacrafts & 2024 gallavich valentine's!

Why is it your favourite?

It's the first time a drawing really looked how I thought it did in my head & I impressed myself. Also, I'm obssessed with the pastels in the gallavalentine. 🩷🩵💜

Did it come easily or was it hard to create? 

Hard bc I find body poses hard, then I start to procrastinate bc of that, but then I've got the deadline so it makes me stressed haha

Last ao3 fic you commented on?

from way up there (you and I, you and I) by the amazing @sam-loves-seb It was the cutest I couldn't even!!!

Biggest WIP heartache you’ve ever experienced? 

Where the Feigned Wind Falls by the very talented & missed Jenna @ianrightsonly

Thank you for sharing your story & I hope one day you'll come back 🥰

Favourite trope or head canon you like included in a fanfic?

Ohhh gotta be lust at first sight, then we fuck our way into true tender feelings!! I'm a sucker for it!! Notable writers of this are Jane @captainjowl & Kay @goodkwuestion & they are so damn good at it

Least favourite?

I haven't seen with gallavich thankfully but turning one character in a gay ship into the opposite gender to make them het!!

Secret or surprising kink or trope?

Omg it's gotta be uniform kink bc of Ray @whatthebodygraspsnot Kinktober 2022. It awoke something in me & I was like I finally get it ahaha

Describe how you feel after you’ve created something new?

I feel relief & feeling proud. Then I stress about when's a good time to post for most of ya'll to see bc of timezones 😅

Top hype man you have that always helps you get across the finish line:

My loves Benja @svltburn & Vey @look-i-love-u

I run to Ben in my art WIP bc like a kid showing art to an adult & Vey's given me amazing advice with writing that sparked inspiration 🥰

I'm in the headspace of desperately telling ppl about my fic ideas & wanting it to be a surprise so idk i may reach out for more hype men haha

It’s been a bad day, you turn to the fandom and you _____

Like Evie I mass reblog fandom works to spread love 🩷

I'm tagging these sparkling rainbow darlings if they wanna play & for anyone else consider yourself tagged 🌈

@ burninface @deedala @jademickian @sgtmickeyslaughter

@darthvaders-wife @matt404b @gallavichsbitch

@deathclassic @look-i-love-u @celestialmickey

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@whaticameherefor @heymrspatel @gallawitchxx

@psychicskulldamage @sleepyfacetoughguy @doodlevich

@awa444 @suzy-queued @crossmydna @iandarling

@y0itsbri @michellemisfit @mikhailoisbaby @samantitheos

@pookiebearmick @reganmian @firecrxtch

@howlinchickhowl

[murasaki-cha]

A little book rant! I love dual pov in romance books! I love them so so so much!!

And I especially love them when there's a closed off love interest who doesn't really emote much!

Because we go to character A (main character) and we see things from their perspective. They might do something stupid. They might be doing the most normal thing ever. They might be doing something very romantic. Heck they might be just breathing. And they look at character B and they're just standing there looking blankly, or looking grumpy, at most they might have a small smile.

AND THAN WE GET TO CHARACTER B POV!! AND THEY ARE JUST SCREAMING ON THE INSIDE!! LIKE THEY ARE GOING AKSKLDKSNSLDKNSKSPSNSKSOKS! They are in fact this close👌 to crying because of the feelings character A is making them feel.

I go feral over this!!

If I have to give some excamples

I would say one of the greatest moments in my existence was when I was reading Assistant To The Villain and Evie kissed Trystan AND THAN IMMEDIATELY we jumped to Trystan's pov! I almost cried ngl. I freaking screamed for 3 minutes straight (on the inside because I was in public). Honestly it was hilarious going to Evie's pov and she's all "Oh my god I would kill for him, I can't let him figure me out" and than we go to Trystan's and he's all "Crap I'd kill for her I can't let her figure me out".

Wes isn't the type of love interest I described but the extra chapters from Better Than The Movies that were from his pov (The party, Liz's proposal, Basketball Night and their road trip chapters) might have completed my entire life. Might have been the missing piece of my soul. Might have given me a new purpose for living. Might have rewired my brain. Just might have.

A Thousand Heartbeats by Kiera Cass made me experience all the emotions THEY JUST LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH THOSE FREAKING IDIOTS!!

*punching a wall* AARON! FUCKING! WARNER'S! POV! CHAPTERS!!!!

I'm reading the Shepherd King duology and book 2, Two Twisted Crowns has 3 pov but 2 of those are between the main character and her love interest in the first book so it counts (also this series is amazing please read it!!!)

I rescently read The Brightest Light of Sunshine by Lisina Coney, NA romance with an age gap, and it was so so cute and touching and when you read their povs you could tell they both were in love with each other from the begining but they were too stubborn to admit it to themselves! Again the love interest isn't really the type that I described but still they're idiots and he constantly fangirls over her so yeah.

Butcher and Blackbird gets a special mention because I love them! Idiots! Bafoons! Dumbasses in love! Both of them just go asjjskdjdd over each other tho so into the list it goes. God I'm eating this audiobook up like Rowan ate that beef niçoise (iykyk)!!!

Some very specific NA hockey player books and book series. I have needs.

I have to mention Defy The Night, I have to. I have yet to finish Defend The Dawn so shush don't tell me anything. Though I loved the dual pov there less about the romance and more when it came to presenting the current situation of the kingdom from both perspectives of the Royals and the Wilds. So it doesn't really fit with what this post is about but I just wanted to mention it because I really liked this book

And if I had to pick one book that I wish would have a dual pov...... Red White And Royal Blue. Even if Henry's inner monologue would have been a long string of "FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKK I'M SO GAY I'M SO SO SO BLOODY GAY!!!!!". I'd pay good money for that actually

[caliburn-the-sword]

since i've been gone:

watched atla live action. hate the tell don't show writing style. got mad every time i saw ian ousley on screen. suki and jet ate that up tho i'm literally SO pan. zuko's flashbacks made me cry. him leading the division that he saved in finding the avatar is a nice touch. love how secret tunnel and two lovers/omashu is gay now

am starting a jade fire gold by june cl tan reread because holy fuck i'm in zutara feels rn

read if you could see the sun by ann liang. made me cry shake throw up. obsessed with her writing and need her book to hurry up and appear in aus

read the first shatter me book since i enjoyed the first 6 chapters on google. BIG mistake. how did simultaneously nothing happen in that book while everything happen at the same time?? why do people hate adam and love warner??? why is every man on the planet obsessed with juliette??? however the last two chapters gave xmen vibes so unfortunately i will be reading the rest of the series at some point in time

i became OBSESSED with the maleficent movies for an entire fortnight. so much so i thrifted a grunge fairycore skirt with NOTHING to style it with. can't wait for maleficent 3!!!!

follow up to maleficent, i ended up rewatching all of descendants. all i'm gonna say is mal did nothing wrong. ben is insanely mid. i think that evie's backstory is a lot darker than let on by the disney channel rating but i'll make a separate post about my headcanons for her. saw the teaser for the 4th movie. rip to cameron

i watched the marvels FINALLY. i ADORED kamala as always even with all the shitty writing changes to her backstory, iman slays as always. i screamed cried and threw up when i saw the og beast from xmen and professor x mention!!! seeing carol from the kree's perspective was also actually REALLY interesting. the family angst between monica and carol also made me emotional. seeing kamala become disillusioned with her hero was also very civil war 2 coded and i'd LOVE to see that fleshed out more. i'm interested to see whether kamala is trying to form the young avengers (which she was never a member of and predates her by 10 years), champions or secret warriors (both of which kate was never a member of if i remember correctly)

because of xmen crumbs i unfortunately rewatched about half of the gifted s1 for those feels

i now know 4 programming languages and am living out my own little cress darnel life

watched a few episodes of love between fairy and demon, thought i didn't like cdramas, gave an episode of who rules the world and actually?? i might be into it. i'll see in a few episodes time (IF i have time)

[onetimetwotimesthreetimess]

I knew you from my Shadowhunter fandom days but I didn't know you're also into lone star! Hii I'm evie and that show is kind of my entire personality right now. Are you watching a5? Who's your favourite character? I am always open to talking about it if you ever wanna <3

Hi Evie,

I remember you bb.

I’ve been a lonestar girlie since s1. The 4-5 months that the show airs is the reason why I’m able to get through the rest 7-8 months of the year. It’s one of my all time fave shows.

In terms of favorite character, let’s see. Tyler Kennedy Strand has got to be my favorite. He’s babygirl. He’s princess. He’s a cunt. 100/10. No notes. And ofc I love Carlos. something about his protective personality and repressed emotions really hit home lol. He’s somehow so affectionate and closed off at the same time lol. He’s me.

Other than these two, I adore Paul and Marjan. And Tommy. And Mateo and Nancy and Grace and Judd. my beloved. I’m loving Wyatt this season.

I’ll be honest it’s one of those shows where I love all the characters. Except Owen. He’s too white for my taste. The show is also slightly overtop on the patriotism and religious elements for my taste. But I get that it’s a fox show so can’t get out of that one lol. But a gay couple being able to have so many storylines on prime time television means the world to me. I do wish we could have seen more storylines for Paul though. But I think the show runners to a horrible job at spreading the time between the ensemble. Like it’s all Owen and Judd sometimes I’ll be honest.

I can talk about this show endlessly too istg.

[dynamic-power]

Evie @energievie tagged me in an end of year writer interview! This is such a cool idea.

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1. How many works do you have on AO3? 

15! I plan to increase that by a lot next year!

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

Just shy of 62k.

3. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Since Prom - Steddie, E

An Offer - Kanej, T

back to the past - Steddie, T WIP

Coach H - Steddie, T

Kinktober Drabbles - various, E WIP (it's finished on tumbr. I just need to move the last few to AO3 lmao)

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Ngl, I struggle with this. I want to. I see and cherish every single one! But I forget to reply, or I don't know what to say, or I don't check for comments for a month and when I finally see them, I feel like it's too late. 😅

5. What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

That would be A Coat Or A Blanket. Angst is not my forte. I want happy endings for everyone.

6. What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

Probably Since Prom? Or Arrivals. Just because there's an actual plot and a real ending lol.

7. Do you write crossovers?

Not yet. But maybe in the future? 🤷

8. Have you ever received hate on a fic?

Yes lol. It was on a kinktober fic. Ao3 rule number 1: don't like, don't read. Apparently they didn't get the memo. 🤣

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Most of my fics are kinktober! So kinky, gay sex. 😏 That'll change next year. I mean that I plan to write a lot of non-kinktober stuff, not that I won't be writing kikny, gay sex.

10. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I don't think so 👀

11. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope, but I wouldn't be opposed

12. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Nope, but I wouldn't be opposed. Seriously, if you ever want to collab, lmk! 😄

13. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Currently, it's Gallavich. But my favorite of all time is Drarry.

14. What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

It's one I haven't even started posting yet. It's a Gallavich soul mate AU where the pair have special gifts centered around eye contact. Mickey can see soul mates and Ian severs soul mate connections. I'm absolutely in love with it but I'm also kinda struggling to get through it. 😭😭😭

15. What are your writing strengths?

Word limits. I love the challenge of trying to portray certain emotions or situations in a limited amount of time, and I feel like I'm really good at it. I don't have to get caught up in details, I can just make my readers feel in just a few sentences.

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

Pacing lol. I don't have patience, I always end up rushing my ending.

17. What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

2 situations. If the POV character doesn't speak the language, I try to limit it to things that can be easily assumed without need for translation. Expletives, nicknames, or recognizable phrases. Unless, of course, the POV character is meant to not understand what is being said. And 2, if the POV character speaks the language, I'll usually have them translate in their thoughts. I just want the reader to be on the same level of understanding as the POV character.

18. What was the first fandom you wrote for?

Harry Potter. That was way back in the day. I posted my first fic in 2010. 🤣 On my current account, it was Six of Crows.

19. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t written for yet but want to?

Hooo boy. Doctor Who comes to mind. I'm obsessed with the idea of Fourteen and Jack Harkness meeting again. I've always wanted to do something for Criminal Minds. I'll probably dip my toe into Supernatural, too. I've done drabbles for Mungrove, Harringrove, and Harringroveson, but i'd also like to do full fics for them. Idk, I've always got too many ideas.

20. What’s your favorite fic you’ve written?

Either Since Prom or Coming Soon To Home Video. I can't pick.

If you write fanfiction, you should totally do this! Consider this me, tagging you.

Our just giving you cake. 🍰

[binch-i-might-be]

I just fucking died laughing reading your new fic please that was so funny 😭 I feel like I need to send you a fucking fruit basket. Do you remember when I had like 6 exams but I was sending you asks about these two instead...yeah that Evie is losing her shit even more than I am right now

I was doing like a full on commentary as I read it's like 6 am. Alex being accused of being a sugar baby was fucking hilarious 😂😂. Good for him though he's having a good time I'm here for it. Or well he was...now he's gotta live with his boyfriend and his boyfriend's kids who don't like him 😭

Please this was so good. Are you gonna write more to this? It would be so interesting to see it progress. And honestly I just want more Patsy being done with all of this

I love you, hope you have a great day 💝

THANK YOU HRHDJDJ I GRATEFULLY ACCEPT YOUR VIRTUAL FRUIT BASKET

yes I do in fact remember that. you had your priorities straight (gay) and honestly I'm just glad I could deliver 😌

he was having SUCH a good time and I too am fully in support of it. he deserves ALL the hot morning sex with his hot sugar daddy

Jack and Patsy are such funny bitches tho. honestly yeah roast that twink. he's becoming a bit spoiled because George never tells him no 😩

I actually started a second chapter today! I can't say I have any concrete plans but I am having fun so <3

NO U!!!!! 💕

[aprofessionalwithoutstandards]

I am very interested in kink history and culture, are there any resources or books you'd recommend or is it a more Go Out And Learn From People thing?

Also here's a chance to soapbox about any of your blorbos and relating them to kink history (or just the history!) I'm all ears

God I haven't rlly done like a lot of bookreadin on it, which is a shame I would certainly like to </3 if anyone has some book recs I'll definitely take them lol (especially if I can read them online I'm not rlly in a position to be buying physical books about bdsm rn). Uhh man it Is kind of a learn from people thing just by virtue of kink being so personal, so talking to people is a good way to learn a wider variety of experiences than u might get from reading if ur trying to figure urself out (although if it's history and not modern-day culture ur trying to learn abt, then like books and articles and stuff are basically the only way to do it lol). Finding people to talk abt kink with on Tumblr is hard but not impossible, basically just follow increasingly strange gay and trans people and Someone will be into Something. One of my favorite bdsm education YouTubers is Evie Lupine, who does like all sorts of overview videos about certain kinks and gives advice about how to do kink and how to manage these kinds of relationships and also talks abt polyamory and asexuality and stuff like that if ur interested. Kat Blaque is another YouTuber I rlly like who talks abt bdsm, although her videos are less educational and more personal, you get a better feel for like The Community as it is in real life right now. Some of those "lgbt archive" type accounts on here will talk about kink history too, because kink history is lgbt history in so many ways, it's just hard to find bc Tumblr blocks all kink-related tags lol </3. If anyone has some more suggestions n maybe stuff I forgot feel free to stick it in the notes I know that's not what this blog is like About but again this is where I have the biggest platform </3 I do talk abt this kinda thing on main sometimes tho so like. follow me lol

[trobeds]

YOU ASKED FOR MY THOUGHTS ON TOH AND I. WILL BE GIVING YOU A LIVEBLOG

[THERE WILL BE spoilers for anyone who hasn't seen the first episode of toh! spoiler-cutting this just to make sure nobody whos been planning to watch this spoils themselves. been there.]

i'm only thirty seconds in and luz is already my beloved. i love her. i treasure her. her book report gets an A+ from me. also the inside out eyelid trick 😭 i used to do that!!

THE BOARDING CAMP PLOTLINE???

THREE MONTHS?????? AT SUMMER CAMP????

oh we are the same. i am her. she is me.

she's gonna run after the owl isnt she. and meet the gay witch lady i keep seeing on my dash.

I CALLED IT!!! YEAHHHHH!!

oh this is cool. i like this. fantasy worlds my beloved. also the animation style in this is so <333

THE GIVE ME YOUR SKIN FAIRY I'M DYING THIS IS THE BEST

EDA THE OWL LADY!!! I LOVE HER!!!

oh she just. whacked that dude. boom. stupid of him to take his eye off her tbh.

HER HOUSE IS SO COOL

HOOTIE!!! IVE SEEN HIM TOO!!!

LITTLE SKELETON DEMON HHH LOOK AT HIS FACE!!

what the heck is a conformatorium

THE CAT EAR HOOD I'M CRYINH 😭 I LOVE LUZ

GIRL WHO WRITES FANFIC ABOUT FOODS FALLING IN LOVE I SEE WHY EVERYONE'S OBSESSED WITH THIS NOW

oh this dude's scary.

oh she's sad :(( the guilt on her face & her confusion & the fact that she relates to them so much i am in Pain

the burger king crown omg 😭

he wants a date oh god what is happening

oh she's not actually gonna leave is she??? she's attached now. I'M ATTACHED NOW.

hell yeah get 'em.

she's not gonna go home. or stay home. theres no way.

I LIKE THIS SHOW. GLAD I FINALLY STARTED IT. NOW I'VE GOT. 4 MORE SEASONS!! SO I'M EXCITED

YEAAHHH EVIES WATCHING TOH !! READING ALL YOUR THOUGHTS RN AND YES I ALSO GOT ATTACHED TO LUZ INSTANTLY SHE IS ME I AM HER SHE IS BELVOED <3 IM GLAD U LIKE THE SHOW FEEL FREE TO LIVEBLOG MORE

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I am going to ramble about Justin's house. Noone will ever read this probably, but I could not care less, I just have to express my thoughts somewhere!!!

What I love about Robert is the fact that he can say the most ridiculous shit ever and he just gets away with it. Like if any other presenter on cbeebies said some of the stuff he did then it would just sound out of character, but for Robert, he just absolutely nails how to speak it.

'Madam, you are a human gyroscope'. Like mate imagine Rebecca or Evie saying that. No way.

'I'm just going to sit over here....and think about my life choices.' This one actually made me giggle so much, I can picture him just sitting on the floor behind the sofa doing that omg

And the stupid little throwaway comments he does in the show and the pantos aswell is the most hilarious thing EVER. Like when Nina was running onto stage in the 2012 panto and he was like 'oh she's been at the sweets again'. Actually hilarious.

The JH podcasts are so boring though (for the most part). Of course it's meant for small children, no wonder I don't find them great, but the quality of the scripts is abhorrent. I died of cringe at some of the lines. Like what do you MEAN that Justin and Steve get paid to say the line 'let's have a spin-song' (instead of a singsong, I can't recall the scenario that led to the word-pun), but jesus that was a rubbish joke. Justin and Robert get so fruity in them tho, like it actually made my jaw drop (/pos) at some parts at how gay it is

Like when Robert fell asleep on the sofa, and Justin said something along the lines of 'Oh, look at his little robot face, isn't he adorable!! Who's my little robot...you! (x2)' THAT IS SO GAY. I LOVE IT. And when Justin said to Robert something like 'Oh you're too kind, you charmer!' AAAAA I LOVE THEM!! And in the Christmas episode where they're unwrapping eachothers gifts!! That whole segment of it was so adorable!!!

Their whole relationship is so cute though. Like you can clearly see that Robert fancies Justin throughout the whole show. Eg in series 1 'Starting with art' when Justin did his little show-off dance of his arty clothes, Robert posed in a way that you could CLEARLY see that he thought Justin looked hot, which is quite funny. Also in 'Robert's inventions', Robert literally gives Justin such a seductive look for literally no reason, its so obvious he likes him. AND THE FACT THAT JUSTIN WANTED TO GO ON A DATE WITH HIM IN S2?!?! (I'd like to imagine that Robert eventually went to Posh Nosh with Justin the next day). Also at the end of s1ep23, when Dee, Nina and Cerrie chase Justin to kiss him at the end of the episode, Robert literally follows the 3 ladies in the line...like dw mate I'm sure Justin has a kiss saved for his favourite robot aswell lol. Omg I nearly forgot that in the prom podcast that Robert does, he has a phone call with Justin, and they say they love eachother at the end!!! Now that is epic. Ngl there's countless moments of homo between them, I'd be here all day if I listed them all!!

Also it's so funny how in s1ep6 that both of them (especially Robert) had a whopper hangover. Literally no other show could get away with that in an episode. Imagine a drunk TinkyWinky!?! That would be all over the news!! I guess it's a funny relatable joke for adults so noone cared. Actually now that I think about it, Bluey had an episode where her parents were hungover, and that got talked about loads!! In a good way. Its funny how JH does such wild things sometimes (those Pretty Woman references didn't escape my eye!) but literally noone cares lol

I like how at the start of some episodes it shows what they've been doing prior to the audience being there. Especially in s2. Eg Justin and Robert were taking swimming lessons together?!?! And they went to Glastonbury together too!!! They're just 2 daft lads living the life! Their chemistry is incredible though. Like no other pair in cbeebies has that spark. Cook and Line are very good together of course, but it does not match the level of Justin and Robert!

I REALLY hope that in the last ever series of JH (could be s7 or 8) that they properly confess to eachother in an episode. Or at least they say some sort of line in the background that confirms it. Or maybe even a sneaky little kiss on the cheek (although that'll never happen lol). Because I've noticed in s5 and 6 they've slightly mentioned the gay community more, eg when Robert's looking through an inventors book and says 'Oh of course him, and I remember her, ooh and I remember them!' (Yippee) and also there's a canoniclly non-binary caterpillar called Leslie, which is awesome. Maybe they're preparing the audience for something..I sure hope so.

Here endeth the rambling-eth.

[shelbeetaylor]

Meet the Author

hi, i'm shelbee, the author and owner of this blog! in september 2022 i began working on a fantasy story, and after reading a little bit of it, my friends suggested i post chapters and begin gaining a following! i post chapters every saturday, and also cross-post to ao3 and wattpad (visit my story masterpost linked below to find those links if you prefer reading on those sites). this fictional world is incredibly important to me, so i hope you all enjoy the story as well as the silly other things i post about the characters :)

below is a link to the masterpost, rules of the blog, a tag directory, and a little bit more about me!

-> click here for the story masterpost

rules of the blog:

homophobia, racism, sexism, transphobia, terfs, and any other forms of intolerance and discrimination are not welcome here! you will be blocked!

blocking extends to trolls, bullies, and weirdos as well!

please be kind! this story is a safe place for my innermost thoughts and feelings, and i want others to feel the same safety among my fictional world. and while i appreciate criticism or feedback (lack of beta readers, haha), please keep it constructive!

my ask box is always open! i love talking about the little guys in my head and their stories, so please send any questions you have my way!

finally, if you make any fan content of my story and characters, please tag me! i want to see it!

tag directory <3

#announcement: any sort of announcement i need to make, usually involving story news (like a new place to read it) or me telling y'all i won't be posting a chapter that week because of *insert reason here*

#ask the author: any post where i answer the questions left in my ask box

#character text posts: posts of incorrect quotes, false scenarios, and any other text post i've made involving my silly little guys in case you need a laugh or more non-canon content of the characters

#magic lesson: an info-dump post about my magic system like explaining rules, deep dives into spells mentioned, or otherwise

#meet the characters: introductions of the characters, usually accompanied by a cute mood board

#new chapter: every installment of the story itself

#soundtrack: posts involving the playlist i've curated for the story

#story scene: very specific one, but sometimes my friend grace makes like-- i don't quite know what to call them but for lack of a better term-- moodboards of scenes

characters with tags (in case you're looking for content specifically on one of them)

cassandra ravenwell

evie ravenwell

gena santira

theo valennard

wesley moonbourne

more about the author!

i am currently 20 years old.

my big three are taurus sun, leo moon, and capricorn rising.

last time i checked i was an infp.

while i moonlight as an author, i am also a full-time college student and a bartender. i also am involved with a community theatre near my hometown, so my free time is also spent performing in shows or volunteering on staff for fight coordinating.

i identify as a lesbian who uses she/her pronouns.

my inspiration mostly comes from bbc merlin, the special interest show that made me realize i was gay as fuck. *insert agatha harkness shrug* this story actually started as a joke fanfic of my trio of friends at the time with a bit of gender-bending... and now here we are, haha. it's not the only inspiration i draw on, but it's a big portion of it since the show is so very important to me.

as always, thank you for visiting and giving my story the time of day, and i hope you enjoy!

[ethelxain]

My criminal minds dr Instagram but realistic

@Evie..pop

Caption: Look at this cutie 🦝

150 likes

@Spencereid: why do you have a raccoon, I leave you alone for FIVE MINUTES and you kidnap a raccoon???

@MommyJJ: name it tiny Ray

Emmybitch: I kinda wanna eat it ngl

@Dmorgan: wtf Emily

@Evie..pop

Caption: My wives<3 @MommyJJ and @Emmybitch

20 likes

@Spencereid: why do I feel like a third wheel in my own relationship??

@MommyJJ: love you too 😘😘

@Emmybitch: wifey<3

@Dmorgan: I KNEW SHE WAS GAY @Davidrossi pay up

@Davidrossi: fine

@Evie..pop

Caption: I left two morons and my boss with my phone and this is what I get??

23 likes

@Spencereid: it really wasn't that hard to get you to leave your phone.

@Emmybitch: yeah all we needed to do was have Spencer tell you about germs on your phone and you left it with us

@HotchnerAaron: this was a funny time, but please focus on the case??

@Evie..pop: how bout you focus on deez nuts

@evie..pop

Caption: wtf y'all

96 likes

@Dmorgan: we played a loud buzzing sound in his ears

@Spencereid: I'm still mad about it.

@Evie..pop

Caption: my girls<3

126 likes

@Spencereid: I'm not a girl but I think I look cute

@Garcia_pen: I look adorable as always 🥰😍

@Dmorgan: love you girlie ;)

@Evie..pop: no sexting in my comments PLEASE

@Evie..pop

Caption: Missing you @Elle_green

24 likes

@Elle_green: miss you too

@Spencereid: wait hold on, why don't I have Elle following me???

@Evie..pop

Caption: My little drunk man :)

123 likes

@Spencereid: I had two shots and I was drunk??

@Dmorgan: your a lightweight pretty boy

@Evie..pop

Caption: I miss Gideon 😭😭

28 likes

@Emmybitch: yk the Spencer one is accurate when you first said "I love you" to Spencer he said sorry

@Dmorgan: but I mean who doesn't love me??

@MommyJJ: me 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

@Emmybitch: ;)

@Evie..pop

Caption: I want what they have </3

26 likes

@Emmybitch: Evie we are literally married.

@MommyJJ: yeah I divorced will for her like 6 months ago

@Evie..pop

Caption: I have tried to :,)

12 likes

@Spencereid: babe..please stop with the jokes, you literally tried to overdose on your antidepressants

@Emmybitch: nah hoe if you die I die

[dcvil]

Used to be lost, now we're on the map, used to steal stacks, now we’re giving back!

[thegirlwhowrites642]

You don't like Drarry. Are you homophobic?

Oh, God. I'm laughing so hard right now.

I've been seriously asked this question. I can't believe it. It's true that the human brain it's a really fascinating thing.

You know, a question of this intellectual level is not worthy of an answer, but I'm going to give you one anyway.

First of all, I'm not homophobic and I understand you don't know me, but if you did you'd be able to grasp just how ridiculous accusing me of that is. Like, you'd be laughing too.

Second, the fact that you seem to believe that the only reason why someone wouldn't like drarry is being homophobic makes me wonder just how delusional you must be about this ship. When's the last time you read the books? Or went out and touched some grass?

If anything shipping drarry is probably homophobic. I mean, if I were a gay man I'd be supremely offended by the idea that people think they are representing me with that shit.

But because today I feel particularly generous, I'll explain to you why I don't like drarry. I think a little summary will be sufficient. I'm even going to ignore the obvious fact that it's not canon. We'll do it in three points, shall we?

1. It's a bullyxbullied ship, a ship that once again perpetrates this idea that bullies are just nice people who don't know how to express correctly their emotions, poor people, they should become a problem of the people they bullied and end up in romantic relationships with them. Seems healthy.

I understand that if you were a bully or a bullied person and you were never able to emotionally deal with what you did or what was done to you, it's way more appealing to believe that those behaviors came from lowkey positive feelings. Unfortunately, for all the ones of us who are actually sane, it's just disturbing.

And Harry was bullied by Draco. The fact that Harry can respond to it, and give great comebacks, doesn't change the fact that he was a victim of bullyism. How you react to what your oppressor does to you, doesn't change what it's being done. And it does have an effect anyway, it's a trauma. It's even shown in the story. How do you think it is to enter a class and know, every day, there's someone there who is gonna do anything in their power to torment you? That at every mistake you make, there's always going to be that person that will point it out and try to ridicule you for that? I'll tell you how it is, a nightmare. You become paranoic, and every time there's a possibility of failing at something you'll be tormented by the idea of what that person will say, what other way they'll find to ridicule you. Which is exactly what happens to Harry. Unfortunately for Harry, then he has even bigger problems.

2. Draco is classist, specifically towards Harry's surrogate family, he bodyshames the only mother Harry has ever known, and he uses racial slurs against Harry's dead mother and the girl Harry considers a sister. He also makes fun of Harry for being an orphan. Makes me wonder what kind of consideration you have of Harry if you ship drarry. You must think he's a horrible person.

3. Harry values courage above anything else and respects and cares only for the people who fight alongside him. If the contrast between how he feels about riding the train with Luna and Neville in OotP and HPB didn't make it clear enough, then there's always that line in the epilogue about Snape or anything else Harry does in those seven books for that matter.

Now, Draco on the other hand is the incarnation of the ignavo. Ignavo is an Italian word that, as far as I'm aware, doesn't have a proper translation in English. It indicates someone who thinks only about their personal gain and interests, and never stands up for anything, never picks a side to fight for. Someone without honor.

If you are familiar with Dante's Inferno, and somehow I doubt it, you know that Dante puts the ignavi [plural of ignavo] right outside of hell, because they are not even worthy of that. They never really picked evil. They stood up for nothing but themselves. And so they are condemned in eternity to run after a white flag which keeps turning on itself, while wasps attack them and make them pour all the blood they didn't pour in life, in battle. Blood that gets eaten mixed with the ignavi's tears by worms.

Or, if you want a way less intellectual way of putting it, I can always quote Ron and say that Draco is a two-faced bastard.

["And that's the second time we've saved your life tonight, you two-faced bastard."

The tragedy that was not having that scene in the movies.]

In short, Harry would never even be friends with Draco.

Also, why on earth you'd want a person like that with Harry? Why would you think it makes any sense to pair such a pathetic individual with the guy who willingly walked to his death at age 17 to save everybody else?

The only logical conclusion is that you must hate Harry.

I don't.