#i'm also a little sick. so if this is bad then i'm so sorry.

[alchemicaladarna]

I'm gonna be honest, out of everything that has happened this week, I didn't expect to become so attached to tr!Pili (and tr!Pangi by extent). Like, I'm being so legit whenever I say they make me insane/sick/ill (in a /pos way ofc). Because *head in hands* they literally met each other about a week ago. THEY DIDN'T KNOW EACH OTHER BEFORE THEN WHICH STILL BAFFLES ME BTW BUT ANYWAYS-

Like, sorry for the ramble, bear with me for a second. Pili!! Saying he doesn't care about his own life and safety!! So long as Pangi is safe because it always comes back to him!! No matter what!! These two care so much about each other that they're willing to die and sacrifice their lives for the other.

Allying with Bad (which is a bad idea btw and I'm saying this as a devoted ghostie) and being kinda used by him for his own gain to some extent because it keeps Pangi safe since Bad is one of the most powerful people on the server, and well, they are technically still allies at the end of the day. He couldn't care less about his own life, being antagonized and being buried knee deep in lies to keep this charade up when it's so easy to just tell the truth so long as Pangi!! Is!! Safe!!

Also, their little moments where Pangi is reassuring Pili and saying he is worth so much more than what he thinks he is. Those moments. Make me so insane. It's just so fucking sweet I'm on the floor crying actually.

One more thing, whoever is making the pangili edits (I'm sorry I don't remember your url yet 😭) pls keep making them because you are actually doing God's work and I just go O(-( every time I watch them.

[fakeusernamelol]

Sorry I'm obsessed with bad ending teen dad stancest--

When Ford leaves home for college he takes Stan with him, Stan thinks it's fine, it's not their boat but it's basically what he used to wants, they're out of jersey and they're okay. Fiddleford asks him what he wants out of life sometimes but that question's made him sick since he was twelve and realized he wasn't smart enough to be much more than a housewife for whatever man he ended up with. Instead he tells Fiddleford he's gonna be a pirate, because it makes him laugh. Then Ford wants to go to Gravity Falls, and Stan's back to being alone with him. By the time they're 27 he's stopped trying to keep his hair short, he makes for a piss poor Ma as far as hes concerned but the twins aren't old enough to get that yet. Bill gets mad at Ford so Ford gets mad at Stan, and Stan sleeps on the floor next to the kids' beds because Ford's better than their father, he won't lay a hand on him in front of the kids, and Stan uses it because hes a conniving coward with a distant look in his eyes that their own Ma used to have.

But then the portal, it drives Fiddleford insane, Fiddleford tells him Ford is dangerous, that he's going to kill them. And Stan didn't believe it until he spent a night barricading a door covered in height marks and crayon while Bill tried to claw his way in and then the next morning when he caught Ford crying in front of the TV, Ford punched him full in the face in front of the twins.

So it was so easy, hitting Ford back for once, shoving him just a little too far and letting the portal take him away, leave Stan with the house and the kids and a new name to inherit and the freedom to cut his hair and get himself the glasses he needed and call himself Stan instead of what Ford called him.

SORRY IF I RAMBLED TOO MUCH IM EATING YOUR DRYWALL I NEED MORE AU--

would that be a win-lost or a win-win?

PLEASE PLEASE DON'T APOLOGISE WHEN YOU ARE GIVING ME EXACTLY WHAT I WANT, I LOVE YOU AND OF COURSE I'M GIVING YOU MORE DEAR ANON you and me are now friends and i don't take no for answer 🤭🤭💖💖💖 Also what a good name for this au, im using it now 😘

(tw: Transphobia, Misogyny, Abuse, a lot of implied noncon yadda yadda you already know where's this going 🤷)

Stanley needed something to hold on to try to survive this new life, it's not exactly what he always dreamed but it's not bad, he has ford and that's all he has always needed, isn't it? He can get used to, come on he has always been seen this way he can get through it.

But when he met Fiddleford those thoughts were becoming harder to support again, a new person, new air and new perspective. Sure he wasn't going to tell him all those crazy thoughts he had because that would make ford mad but he can express a little of it, fidds wouldn't ever know that those jokes were actually his dreams but at least he can say them and think a bit of them every once and then to distract a bit from the real life. Maybe... Who knows,maybe one day Ford wouldn't be this harsh with him and he and their kids could still sail the world once he's done with college! Joke's on him, of course they were going to do what ford had in mind and he can't say anything, after all if he's not in the streets is thanks to him so,heh, could be worse. going to miss fidds anyway...

But well, not time for thinking about himself, they are already grown adults and since he's not getting a job the least he can do is be a good as possible mom for their already 10-year-old twins. Ever since they've been in Gravity Falls, Stan can swear that he's seen all kinds of strange creatures but Ford seems delighted with it and only times he doesn't talk to him in a rude tone is when he says something about them so, it's not that scarier as it was the first times. He doesn't quite understand what Ford is actually doing with that information, but after that he goes to the basement and warns him and the kids to stay away from this as possible, and he's going to obey for his own sake.

...At least as much as he can because things are becoming even weirder, he has seen Ford obsess over an investigation before, but this time he seemed to be going genuinely crazy, not all bad tho, at least fidds was back again and having a new face in the place was genuinely a good thing for him, sure he was here for working but anyway stan would try to sneak up on them like bringing them something to drink after a long day of work in the basement, Ford wasn't so harsh when Fiddleford was around so he wasn't so scared to do that and share a few words with a good friend not knowing that ford would make him pay for that later.

« what did I tell you about going down the basement, [ ] ? You have your things upstairs with the kids. »

It was fine, he deserved it. He has never said anything about Ford's abuse, because ever his teenhood he knows he deserves it, He only knows how to screw things. Maybe if he hadn't broken that stupid machine ford would change his mind but he had to fuck it. Yes, he sometimes still daydreams about a world where ford could accept him, a world where ford would hug him often and not hurt him again and maybe, a world where he calls him stanley for once... but time has passed and his hope has faded away, Now he just wishes that thoughts to leave his mind once for all.

Suddenly things get worse. «they could?» it seems to be.

Ok, sleeping in the kids room wasn't so bad, sure the floor was cold and he only had a blanket in order to not die of hypothermia but at least he had his kids near him and that was fine, ford wouldn't try to make something to him with them near. Now, seeing the eyes of that friend he always thought of like a kind of safe place full of fear and warning him of such an unthinkable danger for him what's indeed something he would never forget and fuck shouldn't do it. He thinks he knew what Ford was capable to do, sure he's angry with him ever since and his touch is not the gentlest, but stan didn't think he would go so far as to endanger himself, much less his children... Seems like everything he thinks is really just bullshit, he says to himself while using his body to lock the door of the kids room while hearing those strange creepy laughs and scratches from behind the door.

Ok so things are going to be dangerous now, but the next morning when he sees ford crying with his hands in his face and his legs on the floor he gets second thoughts, something was wrong with ford, he don't get what but maybe he could...

So you know, Stan has endured a lot of things ford has done: the words, the insults, the abuse, the punches, the constant contempt and more but punching him in front of their kids was enough.

For the first time ever since that night in the bathroom floor stan had enough of ford and didn't even think twice before giving him the punch he has always deserved it. Not punch, punches.

HE was angry, HE was tired, and not even the cries of his little children in the background had made him stop while Ford tried, like the coward he really was, to flee from him when he saw that this time his blows were not saving him.

Funny, stan thought, « I always protected ya' from Crampelter and his herd, no matter what. Ya' we're afraid of givin' them a good punch but what about me, sixer? Are ya' scared of me now? »

Stanley was stupid, but he was stronger, even if ford has always despised him for being born as a woman, HE was stronger than him and for once he wasn't scared of his rejection.

But.. sure he didn't expect what happened next. He has never seen what he and fidds were doing in the basement and now, he knew it even less.

He was angry but fuck he didn't mean that! Why does everything have to be so complicated towards Ford? Fuck!

...On the bright side, those 30 years will serve Stanley well to realize everything that his brother held him back from for years, guess who's the one being welcomed with a punch in the face here. 😗

So, you can say the bad ending au got a good ending? Lol 🙆

[araqeial]

Hey, Equinox. I'm really sorry you're going through this. My case is a bit different, but I may be able to help a little bit.

Honestly, for anyone with chronic digestive issues, this will probably be relevant/helpful.

For some background: When I was 35, my gallbladder ruptured and I had to have an emergency Cholecystectomy (gallbladder removal). The rupture was so catastrophic that the bile necrotized 12% of my pancreas, which then had to have the bad tissue removed.

Suffice it say, food has been a huge challenge since then. Same as you, I get sick almost immediately after a meal. However, I've had the chance to test a few things and I've found some guidelines to try and follow:

1.) This is the biggest one - No Dairy/Saturated fats. Without a gallbladder, it's just not a good idea. I love me a grilled cheese, so I ugly-cried about this one.

2.) No processed or bleached flour or rice. This was surprising! Apparently, it spikes bile production. Without a gallbladder, the bile just dumps directly into the intestines. Unbleached corn is normally okay.

3.) Be very careful with dairy and meat substitutes! I find a lot of vegetarian/vegan alternatives go for broke on things like sunflower oil, which again spikes bile production.

4.) Try to stick to plain old sugar. Diet/artificial sugars don't break down and exacerbate bile. This also applies to alcohol-derived sugars like Erythritol.

5.) Caffeine will make you sick, hands down. Any diuretic that you ingest will leave sediment, and drain water from the bile produced, which makes it more concentrated.

6.) Fruit is very hit or miss depending on how well you tolerate acidity. Be careful around strong citrus until you have a chance to gauge your reactions.

Just about all these rules are meant to minimize bile production, which is really the big thing. The less bile you have, the less the intestinal inflammation will flare.

The only other thing I can really recommend is to really stay hydrated as well as possible. After a meal, take small sips of water if you can.

I know that buying or acquiring healthy food is a challenge in itself with grocery prices right now. Cheapest meal I make that fits the rules is normally tofu and broccoli stir fry. It's a good clean protein, a cruciferous vegetable, and it's cheap as hell.

I hope this helps even a little bit.

Please feel better soon! The first 18 months after the surgery were really rough because I was figuring things out. If I can help at all, feel free to message me.

i am deeply frightened and frustrated and need to talk about my physical health for a bit

all throughout this year, i have been struggling with digestion and other gastrointestinal health issues. i got my gallbladder removed a few months ago, which helped tremendously to reduce the amounts of pain i was in, and it helped decrease my nausea by a lot. however, i had a colonoscopy done that showed that i have diverticulosis, which are bulging pockets in the walls of one's intestines. these pockets can cause all kinds of problems, they can get inflamed and infected super easily due to old waste not cycling out of the body correctly

nothing was done about it. the doctor never talked to me to tell me if they were infected or inflamed or not. i was told nothing and sent home. for the past year, i have been having debilitating GI issues. i can barely eat food anymore. nearly every time i eat, no matter what it is, i either become nauseated, or end up having to run to the bathroom shortly afterwards. whenever i have to use the bathroom i come out of it feeling weak, exhausted and sick. the pain in my stomach and intestines has been unbearable.

a few nights ago, i ate some bread the food bank gave me, and it caused me so much lower gut pain that i couldn't move or do much of anything. the amount of foods i can safely consume without becoming sick is slowly becoming less and less. it's to the point where i'm just genuinely scared to eat anymore. i don't really know what to do about it. i feel hysterical, like i'm gonna crack and break into thousands of pieces

i have an appointment scheduled with a good medical group, but the soonest they were able to get me into their GI department for an appointment is May of 2025. if i'm struggling this hard to eat now, i have no idea what's going to happen in the next 5 months. i'm so tired of having to worry constantly before every bite of food i eat if i'm going to become sick and spend my entire day in the bathroom.

i hate the american medical system so much. i hate how gross i feel all the time and that there's nothing i can do about it. its getting to the point where i might go to the ER again. i don't really know what else to do, i still can't eat food. i got my gallbladder removed, but i still can't eat. that was only part of the problem. i hate that the rest of it was just completely ignored. if i'm constantly complaining about lower GI symptoms and i have diverticulosis, there's a good chance that is the reason why my lower gut is so miserable. but just ignore it, i'm fat, so it doesn't matter if i can't eat. i'm sure they think it's good for me to eat less. fucking christ.

[the-raindeer-king]

Enjoy the movie! I'm making a bold statement for Nikolai

If he wants to impress his partner, he doesn't take them to a fancy restaurant.

He cooks. Big guy's gotta eat, and he doesn't seem the type to always pay a fortune to go sit in public when he can have a great time at home.

Whole nine yards, has some candles around, a bottle of some strong and more mild alcohol for you both to drink interchangeably, music playing, whole thing.

All the while he has you sitting on the counter so he can talk with you (bc you know that man just loves a simple conversation sometimes). Maybe he'll pass you some potatoes to peel, maybe he just wants you there so he can grab a kiss when he walks past between simmering pots that are stirred, and veggies being diced.

Sets the table, and fixes your plates. Far more impressive and memorable than going and sitting at some overpriced restaurant for subpar food in his mind. Does not hold back that opinion either, even if someone he knows who owns a few restaurants suggest it. (Though if he thinks they're alright he might phrase it a bit vauger for the emotional sake of things) -🐾

AAHH I'M SORRY THIS TOOK ME A WEEK TO GET TO BUT I WANTED TO DEDICATE PROPER TIME TO IT!!!!! We saw Wicked and it was really good btw. I love musical theater. Anyway!

Now, I don't think this is a bold statement. But that might just be because I think you're so right. Like sure, Nikolai has the money and he could do the whole "fancy restaurant, suit and tie" thing, but it's not who he is.

Besides, it's a waste of money anyway. Why spend all that money when you're going to leave hungry anyway? He understands part of it is just about the experience, but it's stupid and he's not wasting his money like that. (Not when he can use that money to buy you things, like a diamond ring...)

I've said this before, but Nikolai's love language is definitely food based. You're his partner, his pretty bird, and he likes knowing that you're taken care of. He likes knowing that he's the reason you're well taken care of.

So, he does go the whole nine yard when he invites you over for dinner. There's candles on the table, wicks flickering as wax rolls down the side. He even went as far as pulling out his grandmother's table runner, a gorgeous red lace that stands out against the dark wood of the table.

Several different pots sit on the stove, bubbling with sauce. You're not entirely sure what's in them, but it smells good. When Nikolai offers to let you sneak a taste, you discover that it tastes just as good as it smells.

From your spot on the counter, you offer to help, feeling a little bad that he's going through all this effort without help.

"Just sit and look pretty, he replies with a wink, knowing it'll make your face heat up.

He's definitely sneaking kisses on his way back and forth across the kitchen. He calls it a "chef's tax", and he's serious about it, even if he's covering your face in kisses at one point, smiling as it makes you squeal with laughter.

I hope you're hungry because this man is feeding you. You're getting a six course meal, and no amount of arguing is going to stop Nikolai. Everything is divine, better than any restaurant you've ever been to, and the praise makes Nikolai blush.

You're both full by the end of it, and a little tipsy off the wine, and you only giggle when Nikolai scoops you out of your chair, taking you to the bedroom for some cuddling and a movie.

[sleep-deprived-corvid]

Star fly

[swan2swan]

Every live-action Star Wars show when it comes time to stick the landing:

[lee-blogs]

Still packing stuff and now i'm looking for a box for this.

My dad and i made it a few years ago for halloween, probably 2015/16 if i'm remembering right. It's made from a lays can, a wipes container from his work, and paper maché. I don't remember what the wires and front metal bits are from, but the middle actually lights up! It has one of those long battery-powered emergancy lights in it and some colored tissue paper

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

it sucks that so much of my family has also dealt with cancer but it's really lovely that they were able to give me warnings about things

[takecarelove]

I so desperately need to rewatch lockwood and co with suna on a couch under a blanket on a big screen tv and i'm crocheting the entire time and he's just drawing patterns on my leg and ik he'd be invested in that show I KNOW IT I KNOW HE'S A LITTLE GHOST NERD and he'd ask me to explain the type one-three ghosts AND I'D BE PULLING OUT PICTURES OMG

[icewindandboringhorror]

recent things

[ai-the-broccoli]

aaghh I hate health anxiety ocd (or whatever you call it), it's literally doing nothing other than contributing to make my health worse

... wait actually, does anyone have like, tips/advice for that kind of thing? I really think I need some help with this one

[nebulousfishgills]

Reading Emily's saga from HTM to Necrosis (plus Instinct and finishing with Shades of Blue) to @bowersbubbles has been a very rewarding experience, getting real time feedback while I make her laugh, lose her shit, and cry while I swallow mucus by the mouthful since my nose has Issues.

Apologies to my much beloved roommate for having to vaguely hear me reading out loud into the 1 or even 2 AM.

[longagoitwastuesday]

Going through the Utahim.e tag had me checking several times if at some point I had clicked on the G.ojo/Utahim.e one instead

[clowngremlin]

ordered a really big water bottle that comes with like a special case that has a strap on it so i can go for my walks without having to either carry my water bottle in my hands (heavy and often times annoying because i only have one free hand to do stuff with) or bring my backpack with me (often times overheats me when it's warm out and like if i'm just going for a walk around my grandma's neighbourhood or the area around my house, it's overkill because i don't need an entire backpack when most of my things fit in my fanny pack) and i am very excited about it......

[hauntingmiser]

[ GORE WARNING AND SPOILERS FOR P4/ P4G IG idk????? But yeye ]

MERMAY DAY XXIX ?

sooner or later the investigation heard noises coming from the middle of the fog ever since teddie's submarine was put down in the middle of the fog

The team settled to go to the bottom middle of the fog and put an end to the curse once and for all

until they heard a sore throat yet horse voice calling one of their team members name........

"hₐₙₐ-cₕₐₙ....." the voice said, suddenly yosuke was shocked and questioning if he had heard this voice before and then it clicked on him, it was that girl the one that yu found when he was in his evening swim and the one that he met in June's and so after realizing that voice he shouted through the fog and called her name by the amount of luck he has

"HUH!.....S-S-SAKI!?" yosuke said stuttering his own words

she approached the investigation team and from that day forward, yosuke was all correct all along....

" 𝗛 𝗔 𝗡 𝗔 ~ 𝗖 𝗛 𝗔 𝗡 !!!!!! "

"....oh god......" yukiko feared "this can't be....right?"

" I believe so..." yosuke frightenly answered

The fog covered the team's vision, then vanishing the only to find a merzombie corpse approaching them slowly.....oh god

It's her......

saki....konishi.....the second victim of the crystal curse of "mother nature"

what did this to her? If teddie was right about the biomechanical warfare and that means...

The investigation team had no choice but to attack her and kill her just to keep going until they find the center of the fog

[shikai-the-storyteller]

The lady who cuts my hair just called me and said "I'm at urgent care rn because I twisted my ankle, can we reschedule?" and I was like "WHY ARE YOU CALLING ME IF YOU'RE AT URGENT CARE, PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF??? DONT WORRY ABOUT IT MA'AM"