#i’ve literally been thinking about this for ages AAAAAAA

[archivedolon]

please…. make soul eater verses with me……..

[celestie0]

If someone looked at me the way Gojo was looking at Y/N after ugly crying I think I’d be carrying their kids tbh…

Poor Y/N is so scared to let someone in she puts up wall after wall the moment things get a bit too real 😭 but I get her. Every meaningful relationship in her life has been “temporary” (for lack of a better word) so far: her father left them, Choso abandoned her the moment he wanted Yuna’s pussy (although he was gone way before that), and her mom can’t really be there for her anymore through no fault of her own. I get why she has walls up when it comes to Gojo, they entered the relationship knowing it wasn’t real so why set yourself up for the inevitable hurt when it’s over.

The guilt of lying to someone you love even though you know it’s probably for the best is so painful, I hope Y/N allows herself some grace. Mourning your parents so young, at any age really is never easy and she’s doing it all alone too. I hope she has the happiest of endings because I feel like she’s going to need all the support she can get as her mom’s illness progresses 😭

Y/N is so much stronger than me because I’d probably have taken him up on that sex to blow off steam option even if he wasn’t being serious (I feel like he’d be so down though) 🤷🏽‍���️

I’m super excited to see how their relationship progresses. The emotional connection they’re developing is actually extending my lifespan.

Thank you so much for the chapter, this is genuinely one of the best works I’ve ever read so I sincerely thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing your work with us 🥰 I hope you’re doing well and that life is treating you amazingly! Can’t wait for the next chapter, I know it’ll be fantastic

(P.S - his mom’s wedding ring fitting her perfectly had be kicking and blushing 😭 if that isn’t a sign they’re meant to be then IDK WHAT IS)

hi my love oh gosh i could CRY!!!!!!!!!! this ask made me so happy because you 100% hit on like literally every single point that i wanted to emphasize in the chapter and also even managed to predict things that are to come as well??? i ask for your hand in marriage pleaaasseeeee 💍💍

HAHA yes i liked writing the parts where she’s like basically just blowing her nose on him 😂

aaaaaaa yess she definitely has sm walls up bc of how many people have left her and/or betrayed her, i think an additional heartbreak is the fact that she is literally a night shift nurse who saves lives, but isn’t even helped by the very system that she serves (healthcare)…i would be so jaded if i were her too :”( but tysm for having empathy for her!! i think it would take a very patient person to be w her n i def think ihm gojo is that guy hahah

YES ihm will have a sweet ending and we will see as the series progresses that reader softens and starts to reclaim her life once more :) but you’re so right! one of the devastating things about caring for a loved one w dementia is weighing the white lies vs the potential distress over relaying the truth…having grace w oneself is def so important

LOL ya i think he would be so down too 😂 it’s funny cause like? reader? girl? i mean you’re already stressed tf out why not at least get eaten out on a regular basis while you’re at it LOL (the time will come)

ouuu i’m so happy you enjoyed the chapter n thanks so much for interacting so meaningfully w it 🥺 a lot of stuffs u touched on in this ask are elaborated much further in what i have planned for series so i’m so excited to bring that to you!! much loveee (and yes the wedding ring fitting was literally a sign from god LOL)

[mantimae]

In January I made a post on my reblog blog about how I was envious of Danny Phantom fan artists. Y’all. The only thing I’ve read since I made that post is DP fan fiction. I have multiple other WIPs. I’ve been in denial. I’m literally obsessed I think I may have accidentally hyper fixated AAAAAAA! Gotta love when that autism hits lol, it’s been nearly ten months and I’ve only been reading and drawing more HAHA I think I’ll be here in DP land for a good long while more TToTT

Anyways here’s a “Danny stopped aging when he half died” AU :’)

It’s also the fruits of my procrastination so I hope that y’all enjoy it annum,dmfkkfmfm

[ravenclaw-reblogs]

Wolfstar prompt I just thought of:

Remus walks in on Sirius getting out of the shower and gets super flustered and Sirius teases him bout it later

Knock Knock

"Anyone in here?" Hearing no response, Remus pushed open the door to the dorm's shared bathroom and was immediately engulfed by a cloud of steam. Prongs left the shower on again, he assumed. We really need to talk to him about that.

He leaned over the sink to wet his toothbrush and had just began brushing when the shower shut off. Did he seriously empty the entire water tank??

The scrape of the shower curtain make him look up and almost choke on his toothpaste. Mercifully, Sirius had already grabbed his towel from the hook beside the stall and wrapped it around his waist, but enough skin was on show to make Remus flush.

"Evening, Moony," Sirius nothing short of smirked, "come to catch a glimpse?"

Spitting the toothpaste into the sink, Remus turned around and immediately regretted it. Fuck fuck shit abs, shit, biceps, fuck, Quidditch chest aaaaaaa

"Like what you see?" Bastard. The fog had began to clear and the rivulets of water dripping down Sirius' chest made Remus feel faint.

"I-"

"Hey lads," Not now, Potter. Any time but now. "What are we up to?" He leaned up against the doorway and Remus was trapped.

"Just getting ready for bed," Sirius moved over to the mirror opposite and Remus' brain short circuited. Back muscles.

"Early night, much?"

Remus vaguely registered Sirius' reply but his mind was elsewhere. His dick of a boyfriend had tugged the towel from around his waist and started using it to dry his hair. Remus' mouth fell open at the brief glimpse of toned backside he allowed himself, before an even briefer glace at Sirius' treasure trail where it disappeared below the countertop in the mirror. Remus needed to go...

He thanked every power above that he had his own towel to hold tactfully to his chest, so the bulk hid his groin while he grabbed his toothbrush and comb in shaky hands. Turning on heel, Remus hurried for the door and quite literally elbowed James aside with a breathless "Goodnight-"

***

"You can put your arse away now," James chuckled, "and your cock, for that matter. I think you broke your Moony."

Sirius stepped into his pyjama pants and tugged them up to sit low on his waist with a snicker. "You think that was too much?"

"Judging by the drool on his chin I'd say it was just right, although I don't think you're getting much sleep tonight..."

Sirius couldn't help the redness in his cheeks, paired perfectly with his lewd grin. "I'll remember the silencing charms this time."

"You fucking better," James patted Sirius' back as the latter passed him in the doorway. "Don't let your bed bug bite!" he winked.

***

Sirius padded over to his bed, footsteps muffled by the plush carpet, careful not to wake Peter. The familiar stir of excitement started in his stomach as he cast the all-important charms.

Pushing the hangings aside, Sirius moved onto his bed and was immediately accosted by a rather flustered werewolf.

"I cannot believe you" Sirius could only smile as warm hands immediately gripped his biceps.

"You're the worst" He chuckled when soft lips found his neck.

"And you're so fucking hot" Sirius snickered and let his arms encircle the werewolf straddling his lap, changing their position as he lay Remus back against the pillows.

"But I'm yours," Sirius murmured between tender kisses and Remus sighed a contented laugh. "All yours. And it's a good thing, too. I've never seen your cheeks that particular shade of red before-"

Remus slapped Sirius' arm, prompting the other to huff a laugh into his neck. "Shut up and kiss me"

Never one to pass up such an opportunity, Sirius set to work and the pair settled into their own world of blissful togetherness.

Again, this has been in my askbox for ages. I hope you're still here 💙

[many-gay-magpies]

oh boy here we go there’s even MORE noa feelings now bc of the cat comparison aaaaaaa now i can’t stop thinking abt noa curling his long-legged self up into a ball to take a nap, or like trying to compact himself on a couch so he can lay his head in one of the guys’ laps. noa is just as immortal as the rest of them and he doesn’t look so different but he’s still their littlest after all- according to the dark moon comics on the instagram noa started off as a baby in the orphanage, and all the guys probably still look at him and see that baby and want to dote on him. i see them (particularly heli and jaan) stroking his hair while he leans on them or has his head in their laps. but also i imagine noa refusing/trying not to lay on his brothers bc he’s “too old for that now” and them just going “oh no you don’t you’re never too old for naps come HERE” and pulling him in for head pats. just . the dark moon boys reminding noa he’ll always be their beloved youngest

THOSE ARE SOME WILD STORIES WOW. at least the ghosts your parents interacted with were benevolent mostly? that story with the shoulder massage is FREAKY but also . nice of the ghost? crazy that so many people died in that place. i’ve got my own ghost stories, my siblings’ apartment was haunted for about . 6 months? i think? that ghost was definitely Not benevolent though. if you want that story it’ll take a while ask if its own !

also jacob bae IS very cool i’m in love with him (not in a delulu way ok)

- vrvr anon

ohhhh yeah absolutely. lots and lots of feelings there.

apparently when i associate people/characters with cats i go all out with the cat-like mannerisms because now im just imagining noa with like. ALL OF THEM. sitting in places he in no way should be able to reach or contort his ridiculously long body into but somehow still manages to (on top of counters, fridges, very weird seating positions in chairs, far too small boxes/cupboards), leaning into touches and headbutting the people he loves like a cat (just picture him trying to pull the "im not a baby anymore stop petting my hair 😤" stunt whilst actively nudging jino's hand to keep moving LMAO), even the small destructive urge here and there... one of my enha moots says he condones violence in the webnovel, and im not entirely sure what that means but if that's the case i can totally imagine him being a petty little shit and knocking cups, books, and various other objects off of tables when his brothers annoy him (like a couple of the brothers are chilling in their dorm or something and noa has his legs propped up on the coffee table, jino is teasing noa about something, and noa goes very quiet and just. looks at jino's glass of water. looks at how close it is to his foot. jino sees the gears turning in his mind. "noa. noa stop it. dont. do not. noa. NOA. no- noa i SWEAR if you-" *crash* "hELLS DAMMIT--" ">:3")

also consider .

noa: stop calling me clingy. i am NOT clingy. i'm grown-up now jaan, just like you.

jaan: okay well. you see. your argument might be a tad bit more convincing if you werent currently laying across my lap and also computer keyboard.

noa: that's irrelevant

jaan: pls noa i'm trying to do schoolwork

anyways on another but still mildly connected note, i know the seven brothers are all separated into different grades in the webcomic (like heli is a senior/12th grade, jaan, jino, and solon are juniors/11th grade, shion is a sophomore/10th, and jakah and noa are both freshmen/9th—or at least i think thats it, i could be wrong), but i imagine the whole immortality business messes with that a little. i dont know WHEN exactly they stopped aging, or how long they've been "stuck" at the ages they appear to have in the comic, but a one-to-four year difference is probably a LOT less significant when you've been with these same people for literal DECADES rather that just a few years. still with that being said the brothers 100% went "fuck that age is a construct anyways you're our baby brother forever" to noa. meanwhile noa is like "fucking christ could you all not have just experienced the disintegration of age difference relevance with time like all the other fucking vampires" (while secretly liking it more than he lets on lmao)

oh yes it was very wild (although i dont remember much very clearly because it was years ago that we lived there). i am both grateful that it was a benevolent ghost and sort of sad that i didnt have more interactions with him ksfgfjghfj-- if that ghost story ask offer is still on the table i will absolutely take it 👀

[smallblueandloud]

dude… i’m thinking about starting doctor who… give me your thoughts lmao

AAAAAAA

okay. okay. i'm gonna be reasonable about this. i'm not gonna bias you against perfectly good seasons.

I'M TRYING SO HARD HERE I'M GONNA TRY TO NOT HATE ON THINGS THAT YOU MIGHT ENJOY. most of this is under a cut because i apparently have a LOT of thoughts about this, the show i was hyperfixated on for two entire years. go figure!

okay. first thing: don't skip nine. some people might tell you to, and like, you do you and all, but s1 of nuwho is one of my favorite seasons and i don't think anyone should skip it.

(for clarity's sake -- you probably know all this, but you asked for my thoughts, so -- there are two "kinds" of doctor who. classic who is doctors 1-7 and mostly in black and white. it started in the 60s and it's wild and i haven't seen ANY of it, but i know a few people who are super into it, so it appeals! then the show got cancelled. then they did a few movies with the 8th doctor. then they rebooted the series in 2005 with the 9th doctor. that show is still ongoing and it's what i mean when i say nuwho. it's all i've seen, so it's gonna be what i have opinions on lol. nuwho starts on 1x01 "rose", so you can make sure you're watching the right season.)

PERSONALLY, my favorite era of the show is RTD's, which are the first four seasons of nuwho and showrunned by Russell T. Davies. my favorite companion is donna, because her dynamic with the doctor is PERFECTION, but i also really really love rose and martha. the season arcs are kinda all over the place but they're really fun! the show has HEART, okay, it's all about kindness and helping people and solving mysteries and i love it. it doesn't treat its characters of color (martha and mickey) very well, which is my main issue with his run. it makes it hard to enjoy whole episodes of s1, so just, be aware.

then there's the moffat era, from seasons 5 to 10. he. sure wrote a tv show. many people have written about how much they love that era, which i would direct you to rather than trying to write it myself, since i'm... not a huge moffat fan, lol. a lot of people liked how elaborate his plots were and especially how he wrote 11 and 12! (also the master during his era is super popular, but i don't want to spoil much so i'm trying to avoid talking about them lol.) (i will concede, he wrote "blink" in s2 and i LOVE that episode, it's one of the more famous ones for a reason.) bill potts, the fourth (and final) companion of his era, is the first regularly appearing queer companion, and i haven't watched all of her season but i love her.

and right now we're in the chibnall era, which has had two seasons (11 and 12)! honestly i can't articulate what he's about yet, since it hasn't been very long, but his doctor is a DELIGHT and i love her companions. also spyfall was literally everything i've wanted out of television, ever, so i'm kinda legally obligated to enjoy his stuff.

okay, that's eras down. now for shipping: i'm a huge doctor/rose shipper. i can't tell you how popular it is in the fandom at large, but a quick glance at ao3 tells me 10rose has more than two times as many fics as the second most popular doctor who ship (11/river). so do with that what you will! the age gap is weird in the first season, which is why i don't usually headcanon that they're together then, but in s2 it's much more of an... equal partnership? idk if i'm wording this right, i have SUCH a soft spot for 9rose that it's hard to strike the right balance lol. the point is: if 9rose doesn't appeal to you, don't write off doctor/rose entirely, at least not until you've seen s2.

(can you guess which part of the doctor/rose ship appeals to me the most. Can You Guess. hint: there's a reason why s4 is my favorite dw season, and possibly my favorite of television ever.)

i'm also a HUGE fan of random femslash ships between the companions. rose/martha has stolen my heart, but rose/clara is popular (and very sweet) and also What If Yaz And Clara Dated. literally pick two female companions' names at random and i will be extremely into whatever ship that makes.

(sidenote, i'm looking at the ao3 ships again and PROPS to 13yaz shippers for having more fics than doctor/master?? Good For Y'all.)

oh okay and also the master exists. uhhh without too many spoilers: the master is another time lord who grew up with the doctor, and they're kinda... best enemies? (ignore me, i spent two hours today watching sarah z's video on a certain webcomic.) there is one certainty in the doctor's life and it's that they will always have to kill the master one more time. obviously that's the kinda angst that appeals, and they always have Delicious tension when they're both onscreen, so just like. yeah. if you want tortured gay time lords, stay tuned, because that'll be there.

(RTD is gay, i believe, so his storylines are. queer. you will not be surprised that he created jack harkness. the doctor's first onscreen kiss in the reboot, ever, was with a man. Thanks RTD!)

uhhhh that was a lot of words. one more thing: people are gonna tell you you Have to watch This Episode, or This Season, or whatever, and here is my advice on that. do whatever you want! listen to whoever's recommendations you want. it is perfectly fine to skip episodes or entire seasons if you're just not feeling them. i stopped halfway through the s8 finale and still, to this day, have not started s9, and it's fine! watch whatever you want. skip s1 if you're not feeling it! the show is pretty disjointed between doctors, which is disappointing if you want them to reference a long-gone companion, but makes it super easy to skip around.

okay, NOW i'm going to wrap this up. i was hyperfixated on doctor who for YEARS so i have SO MANY THOUGHTS. i keep meaning to get back into it and... hmm, is this a sign? should i go rewatch doctor who? i'm crying PREEMPTIVELY about [redacted episode that features a white wall, for all the whovians reading this] so obviously that is a yes and i will get on it immediately. PLEASE PLEASE let me know how it goes, i'd love to hear your thoughts as you watch!! good luck and enjoy the ride!

[acciostorian]

mae reads the kane chronicles: the serpent’s shadow the red pyramid

(aka we see mae go through many emotions in the space of 2-3 days)

holy fuck ive only got to the contents and the chapters have those classic pjo click bait titles i’m so happy rn

WAIT IM SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT- the serpent’s shadow is the THIRD BOOK. uh-oh i almost fucked this whole series over lemme change the book real quick....

i’m literally on the first page and i’ve already been sent on a mission, so the kanes are THOSE bitches

SADIE AND KANE ARE BRITISH???? omg yes please

THEYRE IN LONDON MY HOME

never fucking mind they’re from LA

oh wait sadie was raised as a british kid. that’s very sexy of her.

carter be like, “you wouldn’t be interested in my dad’s lectures.” SHUT UP CARTER I WANNA KNOW MORE ABOUT EGYPTIAN PUNISHMENT

so sadie was raised in east london???? THATS SO SEXC BECAUSE ME TOO BOO

sadie has a british accent. a b r i t i s h a c c e n t.

FIT

“six years in london and she thinks she’s james bond” LMAO

sadie’s so emo/alt i love it. does rick always write his characters like this??

sadie pronounces it “mum” and carter says “mom”

it’s so refreshing to read mum ngl

sadie said bloke omg

i’m feeling carter’s pain. little sisters are shits and honestly sadie has the same vibes as my little sister and me and carter are quite similar. i hate this.

oh wow they really said sadie was too white for their family...

sadie did not HESITATE to be like, “yeah dad we’ll lock that guy in his office. mint.”

sadie telling the story is an experience

sadie said “maths” and “mates” in the same sentence. this is some refreshing shit.

sadie’s friends saying carter is hot is fucking hilarious. like it’s a classic piss-off to thirst over your mate’s sibling

THEYRE GETTING DEPORTED????

LMAO AMOS WAS LIKE, “yeah we don’t talk about manhattan. they’ve got their own problems. *cough percy jackson cough*”

i read thoth the god of knowledge as thot the god of knowledge

carter is right, amos has undeniable swag

philip of macedonia. the crocodile. cool.

i love how the greeks and romans be like “if we don’t honour the gods we’ll get SLAUGHTERED” and the egyptians are like “you know what? fuck the gods me and my homies hate the gods”

sadie kane would stab you in a back alley and dance to mcr as you bled to death and carter kane would take you to a museum, tell you everything about everything and then commit a terrorist attack

amos really went “don’t touch anything, the cats in charge and peace out bitches” and then fucking jumped off the balcony of his five storey mansion

sadie made that door go BANG

that fucking clay statue came to life and not one of them screamed. I WOULD SHIT MYSELF.

i’m giggling, all the greek/roman gods have really long/scary/cool sounding names like tartarus and chaos and nyx but the evilest guy in egyptian myth is called set. S E T.

please make muffin some crazy badass animal like crookshanks or swiftwind.

WHO DARES THROW HANDS WITH PHILIP?????

THE SHABTI FUCKING STOLE AN ARTEFACT THATS AMAZING

i love carter sm, even tho he’s scared as fuck he still picked up that ancient sword and was like “ig i’ll bash some heads in whilst sadie holds the cat”

MUFFIN JUST TURNED INTO SOME WARRIOR CAT LADY AND SHE INSTANTLY GAVE ME CATRA VIBES

every cat in new york is helping them

bast jacked that car like it was nobody’s business

i used to think the greek gods were stupid for having so many things to control but honestly the egyptians are taking the piss, do you really need a whole scorpion goddess?

the kane siblings are written so well. like i actually BELIEVE they’re siblings

i think carters gonna become a comfort character now... like i relate on another level. little siblings always take the spot light and you have to act level headed and calm because the younger ones start shit and you’re like “i gotta be the good one because my family would fall to shit if i didn’t behave.” so big kudos to carter, i love you

so carter’s a king huh? I DIDNT NEED YOU TO TELL ME THAT RICK I ALREADY KNEW HE WAS

zia was like “king tut?? ugh he was such a boy, there were waaaaay cooler tombs out there x x”

i read “nectanebo II” as “nintendo II” and i was like ??? when was that a thing

i drinking camomile tea whilst reading this and i feel so peaceful uwu

sadie really can do magic like THAT like bitch be like “i just copied what zia did and yeah it worked lol”

okay so i’m sorta feeling bad about sadies life rn but i’m still very pro carter

set’s laugh makes me uncomfortable. because when most villains laugh it’s usually described like “their laugh was like a knife, cold and sharp. i hates it.” but when sadie discribed set’s laugh she was like “it was warm and friendly. beautiful.” LIKE AAAA THATS A RED LIGHT

set: the god of theatre because gods dam is he a good actor

sadie saw some hot emo guy and was like “omg marry me”

iskandar be like “lmao imma speak in alexandria greek all the time but this girl bouta die? i switch to perfect english for dramatic effect”

woooOooaaaah SLOW DOWN THERE BUDDY, tongue tattoos???

zia: you guys will probably suck at this at first but oh well we all can’t be great

sadie: *makes fire first time* wooosh

sadie and kane: *doing cool shit* me and my tea: sluuuurrrp

bast is so sassy i love it

me when it’s a sadie chapter: okay ig :/

me when it’s a carter chapter: HOLY SHIT CARTER HEY OMG YOURE DOING CRAZY STUFF???? COOL. i love you.

bast: so yeah, you’d be stupid to teleport to paris, this is desjardin’s home territory

sadie and kane, lying in the streets of paris: oh cool cool

sadie: like i might die rn but i don’t care, as long as it doesn’t get filmed and put in youtube, that would be embarrassing

like ???? sis get your priorities together smh

sadie: *sees hot emo guy again in her spirit adventure, he hints that’s he’s dead or something*

also sadie: so will i see you again?

“no, an egyptian drink. you’ve heard of hot chocolate? this is rather like hot vanilla.” dam now i want some.

carter is an amazing older brother. he’s written perfectly and he’s a great character to relate to for me. even though sadie can make his blood boil, he dropped everything to calm her down when she was panicking about not being able to change back from a bird. i too have to do that for my little sister - sadie and ava are ironically the same age - so i find that very comforting that there is someone like me to relate to!

‘a businessman with a rolling suitcase was waiting by the doors. his eyes widened when he saw me. i must’ve looked pretty strange — a tall black kid in dirty, ragged egyptian clothes, with a weird box tucked under one arm and a bird of prey perched on the other.

‘“how’s it going?” i said. “i’ll take the stairs.” he hurried off.’ LMAO THIS IS WHY CARTER BABY I LOVE YOU

highkey pissed that carters like “i’m always edgy around the police. once i turned eleven they started giving me the Look. when it doesn’t happen it’s always a pleasant surprise.” LIKE FUCK NO HE SHOULD BE ALLOWED TO WALK AROUND UNHASSLED WHATS WRONG WITH HIM

lmao bast be like “imma jump off this national monument. see ya at the airport in my finest clothes and jewellery x”

FOOD UPDATE: i’m eating a chocolate covered waffles and having some tea and i feel so happy rn sorry i know you don’t care but like aaaaaaa

bast called carter her little tomcat and my heart exploded

bast really likes convertibles huh

thoth: i hate rereading my old writing, my present self would never write like this now!! SOMEONE GET ME A RED PEN

are they... are they going to dig up elvis presley?

might put some elvis in for this part, y’know, to set the mood?

i cant stop reading ‘thoth’ as thot even though i know how to pronounce it

the captain with a axe for a head: my name is bloodstained battle axe 😸

yuh bast did some shit ...

imma stop now because spoilers, GO READ THE KANE CHRONICLES THEY ARE THE MOST UNDERRATED RIORDANVERSE BOOKS X X

[grilledsquids]

Aaaaaaa can't wait to see what happens in the next chapter!!! Natsuo is gonna steal the spotlight and I'm so ready for it. I never really thought of Toph as a revolutionary until you brought it up and now you made me so hyped over it. By the way I just red your other haikyuu fanfic and the chapters are all so good, where do you even get the ideas to write this stories?? Like do you come with already an ending in mind or do you write down whatever crazy idea comes to your mind?

Thank you 💕 (Natsuo is literally a king of sass and I have no control over him)

The problem is that I’ve been thinking about Toph since 2008, and with no one to stop me I will continue to write about her forever. In the fic, I always meant for Toph to change the course of history (hence the title I’ll Move Mountains), but lately I’ve been irritated by Toph’s canon future in Legend of Korra. Ms. I Don’t Follow Rules, I Hate Being Handled, becomes the head of the POLICE DEPARTMENT? (And don’t get me started on her family!)

So, this fic is my way of exploring Toph’s character past the age of twelve, but also dabble in the hero universe of BNHA. Because no, she’s no rule-follower. Toph has always been a hero, but what does that mean in a world where heroics means a government-sanctioned agency? (Also I’m trying to fuse Avatar mythology with BNHA plot and I’m flying by the seat of my pants, who knows how it’ll end?)

Oh, and my Haikyuu fic?? The slice of life story about Hinata Natsu and she doesn’t even play volleyball?? That’s me living vicariously through fanfiction, because I want a soccer girls anime SO FREAKIN MUCH. In 2015 I almost published a similar story, I had so many OCs drawn up for it, but I couldn’t put it into the right words (and also it featured Natsu at Seijoh... It was Wrong). So in a way, that one’s been stewing in my brain for years, but it took me a long time to figure out what I really wanted to say with my story.

In summary, I have an idea of how I should end fics, but while I fill in the middle part I tend to wander and find new ideas along the way until it’s not quite clear if I’ll get to the end at all.

[buggaberry]

Tag Game: Authors

Tagged by: @mikauzoran

Author name: I’m PrincessBuggyCat on Ao3!! 

Fandoms I write for: Miraculous Ladybug! I don’t really write for any other fandoms. Fun fact, I’ve actually been writing longer than I’ve been drawing, I posted Miraculous fanfic at first on wattpad but we don’t talk about that.

Where I post: Ao3! and sometimes here too, I haven’t been posting much as of late, I have a lot of documents sitting around.

Most popular one-shot: It’s “A Gorgon’s Stare”, which is a Lukadrien one-shot adshfajksdhf it was the first thing I imagined when I woke up and I just spewed it out.

Favorite story I wrote: uuum it probably is A Gorgon’s Stare.

Story I was nervous to post: I think you mean what am I actively afraid to post, I’ve had this story in my head for ages and I’m worried I won’t be able to do it right. I’m also sorta worried about what other’s might think about it because it could be a bit strange.

How do I choose titles:  It literally just comes out of my head and I’m like oh! nice title! 

Do you outline? With big fics, yES. One-shots I write on the spot, but I do like to outline with the bigger ideas so I know where I’m going I haven’t posted any of them yet. 

Complete: I think there’s only one? I ditched my wattpad works adsfkdsg

In progress: The thing I’m scared to post :) I’ve talked about it with one (1) person months ago fjgsfdjgk

Do you take prompts? Yes! Absolutely! I have a few that are sitting around and I actually think they were kinda cute. There’s this Ladynoir one and this short Ninette drabble. 

Upcoming project I’m most excited about: Again, that thiNG I’m working on but scared to post. I definitely am excited about it, I think it’s pretty cool and I’ve really thought through a lot of it. It might not be everyone’s cup of tea tho and I’m like aaaaAAA

Tagging: @colonel-insomniac and anyone else who wants to do this! 

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From the send me a character: Mahiru

wow two asks for Mahiru OvO;;) well okay then!

First impression: Somehow seems both like your typical average shounen main character… but also a lot different for other anime mc’s that I have seen before??? Not sure if he’s really brave or just kinda insane…. 😅 Oh well, at least he’s cute. 😂💕

Impression now: Oh my gosh, I can’t even begin to explain how proud I am of Mahiru’s character development!!! I don’t even know where to begin, but the only issue I have now is that I feel like the more we learn about Mahiru’s character the more tragic his character seems… he’s gone through a lot in recent chapters…(with being injured, us learning about his real father… and then the untold story about his mom) and while he seems to be handling most things well so far, there’s still a lot Mahiru is unaware about… and I feel like everything is going to hit him at once at some point,,, and that makes me real sad for him. ;;; I’m sure he’ll stay strong, but Strike has been full of surprises lately so I’m extremely skeptic to say that fksafkajdlsj 

Favorite moment: Huh. I just suddenly realized I have never thought about my most favorite Mahiru moment… I have several tbh but Mahiru  vs. Touma was all pretty awesome!! Well expect for one certain part if you know what I mean…it made my arm hurt too…. 

Idea for a story: jlkjkas I have so many random aus including Mahiru already. 😂 I think my favorite is age au? and married au heheehehe~

Unpopular opinion: Most of these are very rare now, but at one point this was pretty prominent? But I don’t like when Mahiru is treated like he’s super dainty or weak. :/ and he’s always “the uke uwu” and then people use that to treat Mahiru like he’s some kind of damsel in distress? Like… I’m sorry but what part of Mahiru is weak? He’s literally braver and mentallystronger than a lot of other characters. I know Mahiru makes very reckless decisions and can be overly trusting sometimes and has to be saved from that,-oh when will he learn? Mahiru may be a human character and isn’t as strong as a vampire, but come on he’s not that pathetic or dumb. Another thing I’m not really a fan of is Mahiru being gender bended so much….? I don’t usually care that much when people do Rule 63 stuff or whatever we call it these days. It’s just when it’s only Mahiru being a girl?? and no one else usuallyfor some reason?? But mainly for only two reasons:

I’ve just personally never been into that kind of thing. Many fandoms I’ve been into over the years do the whole “take a ship that’s originally two boys or two girls and make one of them a girl or guy so the ship is straight now” I couldn’t ever really get into it,,, I always found it really odd no matter what the context was. Not like context is usually ever given tho…? It’s just weird to me. 

 There’s another personal reason…It was only super early in the fandom I knew a small group of people who liked Fem!Mahiru and I thought the ideas and stuff were cute when I listened to them at first, but… then I learned that they preferred Mahiru ONLY as a female? and they hated ALL “yaoi” ships?? So the only time they would make anything KuroMahi was only when they gender bended Mahiru… they did that for many other ships I learned too, While it might not really bother me in other circumstances people should be allowed to enjoy their fiction the way they want to and we should all be respectful of that, But that was the only case when it started to really rub me the wrong way. What’s even worse was when they explained why they liked Mahiru better as a girl… “He’s basically a mom already xD, and does super girly things like cooking and housework anyways!! He’s the perfect housewife!! It’s just so easy to gender bend him!!!” I’m sorry but that’s all kinds of fucked up to me because a man doing housework shouldn’t be considered overly feminine or weird. Because knowing how to do those things are important for anyone to know, especially when you live alone. So it should be considered normal that a guy knows how to cook and care for his home, but noooo. To them it’s only a women’s job I guess. So therefore Mahiru is better off as a girl. Stop. It’s sexist.  Like… why ship a ship that’s two guys in the first place when you only like the ship when only one of them is a girl? Just ship an actual straight ship instead lol I’m glad that’s NOT the case for everyone, but only that specific time it really bothered me, so it was hard for me to get back into it ever. Also cause op admitted to being homophobic anyways. So yikes. wow this section got long….  ksdsjlfakjf ;;;

Favorite relationship: Sakuya and Mahiru or Kuro and Mahiru (or better yet KuroMahiSaku lol)  I’ve always liked both individual ships in their own different way. Both have always fluctuated being either romantic or platonic to me, it’s always just depends on certain things. I only like when they are portrayed just right. 👌 I’ve seen both ships portrayed in weird ways lol But for both I’m fine with either being portrayed as a romantic relationship or even just a really good friendship. 💙❤💚 The reason I started liking both relationships in those ways is because just how important Mahiru is to both Kuro and Sakuya. Mahiru cares about them both like how he cares about all his friends. ;w;) Honestly, I like all of Mahiru’s other friendships too. I wish we could see Mahiru interactions with his other friendships too ;v;) I would love to see more eve and eve friendship moments. Like with Misono, Tetsu or even Licht. Also Ryusei and Koyuki… where are they? 

Favorite headcanon: It’s too hard for me to pick just one– but all the hcs recently about what Mahiru really is have been super interesting!

okay it’s 12 a.m and I ramble aaaaAAA

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Now it's my turn🙈💚 1, 2, 8, 11, 13, 15, 20, 21, 24, 27, 30, 37, 42, 56, 57 and 59 sorry that this is late🙈💙

ayyyyyyy my guy! ❤️

1) selfie

ditto so I’ll dm you em! x

2) what would you name your future kids?:

so i’ve always liked the name layla because i really admire the beauty of a night sky but then it literally means sheep in aapni zerbaan so ye lol; i think the name marina is pretty too like the whole nature element, i liked marwa as well till my sister said it sounds like ‘marijuana’ which just ruined it for me totally lol; yusuf is a nice one, you know because of his whole story which i just find really moving and im sure i had some more prophet names which i really like but none of em spring to mind at the mo

8) have you ever cried because you were so annoyed? 

yesssss so the other day i was dress rehearsing for an interview (pray i get the job! x) and none of my smart-wear would fit so i just angry cried it out; i have bipolar as well and before i was on the right meds i’d do that daily but now i seem to be doing a lot better alhamdulilah

11) are you listening to music right now? 

astaghfirullah sister skskskk but naa i stopped listening to music about a year ago i feel like it just dragged me down might just be me but like even the uplifting stuff has melancholic vibes to it 

13) how do you feel right now?

so like i think i missed my meds this morning and at round 7pm i got this really intense agitation where my mood randomly switched within the space of like an hour and i got angry that i was angry but now that im home and talking to you i feel a lot better - I was really on one earlier on in the day when we were messaging tho bc i was like ‘OMG IVE FOUND A NEW FRENNNNN’ which is a huge positive for me!

15) personality description

aaaaaaa i could go on forever, hope you enjoy the cv! so im a really perceptive person - i have a strong insight into my own situations and mindset as well as those of others (a positive side to mental illness i think, like the whole self awareness aspect) i’ve been told im ‘compelling’ which is an incredible personality trait to have! i have a mad sense of humour, talkative, very outgoing, very extroverted and i love a good bit of banter with the right people, love meeting new people and hearing their perspectives too. I’m very intellectual, i love discussions and acquiring knowledge and anything which makes you think or reevaluate your current opinions! but ya im really proud of my identity purely bc i genuinely didnt think i’d make it past 16 (suicidal depression, self harm, mad mania, abuse, overdoses, etc) but like alhamdulilah here i am and i think its my perseverance and my relationship w god which i really admire - im really proud of who i’ve become! (but i mean theyre trying to stamp a personaity disorder diagnosis onto me so i guess i could be chatting bubbles and all this could be totally subjective *x files theme toon plays*)

20) what is your favourite song at the moment?

i mean i hear the odd bop over the radio every now n then n the ‘JUST BC ITS OVER DOESNT MEAN ITS REALLY OVER N IF I THINK IT OVER MAYBE YOU’LL BE COMING OVER AGAINNNN’ song just really seems to get me

21) age and birthday?

ahh see i feel like an old granny ting now compared to you! i’m 20 and my birthdays the 5th of april so i guess we’re both april babies!

24) height

5′2 but i dont look as short as i sound i swear lol

27) things i hate

im no longer a hateful person like even the people i hate i pray for but bidah has got to be #1 without a single doubt, aside from that its all the usual stuff such as bigots, nonces, etc

30) favourite tv shows

mostly stuff on netflix like at the moment im watching ‘sacred games’ and ive never been into the whole bollywood vibe but i swear ive been missing out like! peaky blinders is amazing and tommy is beautiful i dont care if hes my dads age, bedlam was incredible, period dramas like victoria n bbcs les mis are really good, you should check out this is england, shameless, dark and NSU: german history they are mint; i love a good documentary as well

37)  favourite actor/actress

angelina jolie i think! like i have an entire hashtag dedicated to her so ya i guess shes the one!

42) favourite books

kite runner and a thousand splendid suns (defo recommend them both yasmin esp tss - if you ever do read it give us a shout and ill send you the coursework i did for it in Alevel!)

56) favourite food

ben and jerries along with cookie dough are my absolute weaknesses but im inshlla cutting down on sugar so we’ll see if anything changes w those ones!

57) favourite animals

cats for sure! mines called marno shes now 5 alhamdulilah and she is my life n soul - i like dogs but they get over excited way to easily which startles me a bit esp as im v spaced out a lot of the time so a dog tryna hug me is like arghh wyd but i mean i admire their intentions lol that n the fact theyre najis is also bit of a problem for me (whups)

59) why i joined tumblr

so i think i came across tumblr on a random google search n i figured it’d be a good form of self expression n a good emotional outlet esp as i was in a v v bad mind-space at the time so i felt i needed something to call my own which eventually became my lil blog - but ye if you go allllllll the way back to my old reblogs its literally just those black and white depression posts and gifs which is actually really upsetting to me; like although im no longer in that place anymore tumblr continues to be a very good therapeutic outlet so im v grateful for that ❤️

and thats all! thanks for reading this far b and feel free to ask me any other questions, i enjoy answering them! ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

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ok here's some totally incoherent thoughts about endgame that i just have to write down or i might explode spoilers: i loved it also actual spoilers spoilers very spoilery spoilers

1. Steve and the goddddamn mjölnir!!!!! FINALLY!!!!!! when thor, iron man and cap were like 'aw yeahhh we're gonna fight thanos' i was like what the heckie is steve even doing there, supersoldier or not he's just a human. then thor drops his hammer and i’m like oh my gods please literally crossing my fingers. then thor’s fight is not going so well and oh no he definitely needs someone to save him! i’m like ohhhhhmygooddss. and THEN IT FINALLY HAPPENS I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS FOR YEARS HELL YEAHHHHH

2. steve & peggy dance. yes. just yes. fucking finally. i love it. it was perfect i cried

3. clint should’ve died. (finally haha) he was my fave since before the avengers and i was so sure he was going to die back then, but then he didn’t and look what’s became of him since.......... i had a violent flashback to watching age of ultron for the first time and for the first time just hoping that my fave character (that would be clint) would just die, bc they’re screwing his character over so badly........ and most definitely it. should.  not. have. been. natasha. who. died.  that was such a bullshit i mean WHAT THE FUCK????  i mean maybe clint and natasha were the only remaining avengers that actually loved each other (?¿¿????¿¿¿?¿ tho that’s just flimsy, i’m just trying to....idek) and that’s why it had to be them on that stupid fuckin death cliff, but why did natasha have to die?? just because clint had a family (still with no actual characterization, not that i even care, or maybe i would if the movies had given me any reason to...) to return to and she didn’t??that fucking sucks and what sucks even more is that not only was natasha the only character that died (i’m not even counting tony, bc that was very Different) but she’s the only original female avenger AND it’s the same stupd fucking rock that the only original female gotg gamora died in such a bullshit way just last movie??? goddddd i hated that so much like maybe if she hadn’t been the first one to die and all the original avengers would’ve died as was i kinda hoping (tho i love happy endings so i didn’t actually hope that it would happen..), maybe then i would be okay with her being dead. now i am very much not okay, and that means very much not okay in a angry way, not in a sad way

4. speaking of death: to me tony’s was perfect. i might not be the biggest fan of how he always got the most screentime and a bigger role than other characters, but i can’t deny that he definitely is the heart of the whole mcu and it had to be him who saves the day in the end and what else could it have been that a very tony-like self-sacrifice..... god i cried. i loved that he got a funeral (even tho natasha didn’t...) and i loved his funeral with all the people and fricking harley and then the kid saying how much she likes cheeseburgers and the frickin ‘proof that tony stark has a heart’ and sfghkklkghhhh

5. i gasped audibly when i noticed that natasha was wearing the arrow necklace

6. i kinda forgot that vision ever even existed..... in the end i first thought that wanda was talking about pietro and then i was like ok well maybe not maybe she’s talking about tony or something WHICH MAKES NO SENSE LOL i don’t even remember what she actually said, but as was pointed out to me, she was probably talking about vision. who was a thing that existed... whoops

7. ugh i hate brucenat, i really thought we were over that shit already. i also very much disliked that they actually decided to go with professor hulk, but idk w/e i don’t care that much. but natasha’s death sucked tho and the one thing i do not want to see is bruce’s pain or whatever when the movie didn’t even give me the time or reason to actually grieve for her goddd that whole thing was such a bullshit

8. i did not like that thor was treated as a joke most of his screentime........

9. that stevepeggy dance tho. love it. it’ll probably take me at least another seven years to get over it

10. i fricking adored the whole going back in time thing, especially the 2012. the callbacks and the humor really worked for me, the elevator scene straight from cap2 but reversed and hail hydra and steve fighting steve and loki’s expressions when things go wrong and goddhhh i loved it all aaaaaaa, that was the moment when i was like ok i need to see this movie again immediately.... also the fact that their time travel rules were that they were just creating new paths or w/e i guess, and not actually changing what happened to them specifically... good. so many aus

11. that final battle was so perfectly epic

12. tho shouldn’t valkyrie’s (who really just doesn’t have a real name, now does she..) horse have died after being shot haha

13. i loved that clint had the gauntlet for so long, like he’s definitely the Least Qualified Person to keep it safe, why would that be his job, it was amazing

14. i hated natasha’s death with burning passion, but i loved how she and clint fought each other over who gets to throw themselves off that cliff. tho i really hoped that their ‘yeahh we know what we have to do’ would’ve rather meant that they decided to just throw red skull down bc who even knows if it even actually needs love sacrifice or w/e, a soul is a soul is a soul

15. i loved the human jarvis whatever-his-first-name-was cameo and i really need to finally watch/rewatch agent carter

16. i really liked the tony howard scene even if i thought it felt a bit iffy, bc i feel like there’s so much more to unpack w/ those daddy issues.... but maybe that scene means that there is that one universe where howard was actually a good dad. i want to believe that. yeah. (maybe not but let me dream)

17. i like how they totally forgot that sharon carter ever even existed

18. damn that moment when black panther comes through that portal

19. damn that moment when gi ant-man is giant

20. damn that final battle was so epic

21. damn that steve with mjölnir

22. this movie was SO GOOD when it was good and so mehhh when it was bad, and i’m really glad that it was just good enough that i can forgive overlook all of its flaws. (tho i will not forgive what they did to natasha, even if i can mostly ignore it when thinking about how good most of the rest of the movie was) but idk if it would’ve been perfect, maybe i wouldn’t have survived like there’s this One Huge Thing (natasha) that really brings down the movie that otherwise would’ve been just Amazing

23. i don’t know if my heart has ever beaten as fast as when steve finally picks up the hammer. never while watching a movie, at least

24. i love that carol has her short haircut, bc it bothered me so much in cpn marvel that she should not have been able to see anything when her hair was just constantly on her face haha

25. i feel nothing but seething resentment towards clint’s stupid family and that stupid family man role he is stuck with

26. why was natasha’s hair so weird and ugly. why can’t it just be red??

27. clint’s hair was weird and ugly too and i think i have finally kinda given up on mcu!clint (tho he has those small Very Good moments and i cry for what could’ve been.....we could’ve have it aaaaaalllll.... i think i’m going to watch swat (2003) again and still pretend it’s the clint backstory movie i deserve haha, it’s been ages since i’ve seen it idk if it would still work for me, i’m gonna try)

28. i love nebula tho

29. i loved the trip down memory lane! frigga!!!! the way the continuation of the avengers capturing loki just felt so natural and like it probably happened just like that! nebula and rhodey judging quill’s singing and dancing haha yes! everything! just as i was hoping it would be!

30. doesn’t really have anything to do with this movie but: i still firmly believe that coulson never died. i still firmly believe that pietro never died. 

31. falcon cap helll yeah!!

32. i guess i’ll never get my strike team delta movie with clintasha best friends soulmates and with buckynat and the red room.........  goddd there really should’ve been a black widow movie after cap2. like that was The Perfect Spot for a black widow movie, it’s really a crime that there isn’t one, and even if they make a black widow movie now, it’ll definitely be too little too late.

33. like..... a for effort..... for that female heroes girl power.... ughhhh.... scene, i guess, but that. does. not. cut. it. when you have just killed natasha

34. things i really wished they would say in some perfect moments: “hail hydra” “avengers assemble!” “i am iron man”. things they did say in those moments: “hail hydra” “avengers assemble” “i am iron man”, gogssgddd that was perfect (ok i also really did wish steve would’ve said the “i could do this all day” in the fight but couldn’t say bc the movie had just made fun of that.. i’m kinda sad but haha it’s not that big of a deal, maybe if he hadnt said it in civil war which i dont like but well...)

35. haha people are already complaining about the steve going back thing and how it’s definitely not moving on and erasing character development or whatever and HA. i finally got my stevepeggy dance i don’t care about anything else i am so happy!!!!!

36. i am so glad i managed to avoid any spoilers bc i hear that there was some pretty massive ones going around??¿?¿?

37. also: ok from here on out i am not here for any of you negative nancys complaining (probably very reasonable complaints idec) about the movie, god i really wish it was 2012 again

38. in final thoughts: i absolutely loved it and i love that it turns out that i’m apparently still very much marvel trash........ if natasha hadn’t died, especially in such a bullshit way, i would’ve been able to overlook everything else that was kinda meh about the movie and just purely and blindly loved it. i still did love it, a lot, but now there’s that bitter aftertaste.....

ok now, maybe that’s enough rambling and repeating myself....... i’m going to need to see it again asap

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39. I FORGOT TO MENTION IT BC I FORGOT ABOUT IT but goooooooooodddd i loved nebula and tony playing that game in the beginning and tony letting nebula win ääääää

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//Ages back, @spookylilmoonpie asked for more information about Dante and Murmur. Started on some lore but I’ll post a small part of it here now:

Audio transcribed and translated from the Italian (with exceptions where necessary) by [REDACTED]. Timestamp states place the recording took place at 3:33 PM on the 10th of January [DATE REDACTED]

“This is Father Dominic Lawrence, acting chaplain of the St. Olympius Residential School , documenting on behalf of Repubblica Dei Lupi. The day is the tenth of January, Feast of St. Peter Orseolo. Optional Christmas vacation ended one week prior to this day. As the students of St. Olympius have returned to school for spring sememster, they have begun reporting strange happenings—well, stranger than usual—concerning two students enrolled on the fourth of December, Feast of St. Giovanni Calabria. The following interview is to be conducted with the older brother. Mother Superior currently records her questioning of the younger sister in the parish hall...”

Transcriber’s note: Father Lawrence now opens the door, the creaking of which can be heard on the original recording.

Good afternoon, son.”

“Good afternoon, Father Lawrence.”

“Please sit down and help yourself to the cookies.”

“Thank you.”

“What is your name, son?”

“Dante Feliciano Argenti.”

“And how old are you.”

“I don’t know. Mother says I’m roughly three years older than Giu-Giu—my sister, but Mother doesn’t like talking about it.”

“How old do you think you are.”

“Most of the people in my class are fourteen or fifteen—except Estella. She just turned 3049 years old yesterday. I told her she didn’t look a day over 2000, but I don’t think she understood that I was joking...”

“Sister Madalberta claims you’ve been sleepwalking.”

“If I have, I don’t remember.”

“Then you don’t remember the things you said to little Francesco?”

“That he could have my marbles because I’d already lost them in the figurative sense?”

“No, though that was very kind of you and he’s very thankful. I mean when he found you sleepwalking out of the dormitory and tried to wake you up...Dante, you told him that a thousand centipedes waited for him in hell, that they would crawl beneath his eyelids while he slept and...”

“I didn’t say that! I promise, I didn’t say that. Centipedes wouldn’t even go to hell anyway, they’re perfectly nice creatures...”

“Yes, the boy was quite sure that it wasn’t you, even if the words came out of your mouth. Didn’t have your energy, he said. You know he’s an empath, yes?”

“Is that like a psychic?”

“Sort of...”

“I really should apologize to him, if only for the bad things he’s probably seen in my head.”

“Tell me about the bad things in your head...”

“I don’t think you really want to hear them, Father. Mother says I think exactly the way she expects from a teenage boy...”

“You’re probably right, let me rephrase: tell me about the bad thing in your head that isn’t you. Tell me about the thing that hurt your mother.”

“Why would you want to know about him? I’d call him a turd, but I don’t hate toilets so much that I would force him upon them.”

“Have another cookie, Dante.”

“Thank you. Mother never let me have seconds.”

“Why do you hate him?”

“Because hurt my mother, obviously. He would have hurt my sister if he’d had the chance...”

“Did he ever speak to you?”

“Only in my nightmares...can I go now? Please?”

“Did he pretend to be your friend.”

“No, he pretended to be me...”

“What do you mean?”

“I grew up in a haunted mental institution, Father. I would like to think I’m well-versed in the difference between the voices that exist within one’s own mind and those that belong to outside forces, between madness and malus, if you will...”

“...but...”

“...There were no voices in my head at all, at least, none I could distinguish from my own thoughts. Do I have to talk about this?”

“Just explain a little more...”

“I had bad thoughts. I still do. Everyone does, I think. I want to think it’s normal. Sometimes, I’d have very vivid night terrors where I...where acted on those bad thoughts. I wanted to be good, I couldn’t be good all the time, but I tried. Every bad thought would be locked away somewhere, and my nightmares would feed on them, the way eating soy beans or chicken can feed a growing tumor with the hormones but are harmless if you don’t have a tumor. I think I was fighting myself too hard to realize that I was also fighting something else.”

“The greatest trick the Devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn’t exist.”

“Yes, exactly. I thought it was just my guilty conscience and nothing more, which made me feel all the more helpless to fight back. Guilt isn’t productive, Signore Pantalone told me when he rescued Giu-Giu and me. It traps you so that you become convinced you can’t do better, and if you think you can’t do better, you don’t. I think the bad thing that lives inside me was waiting until I stopped trying to do better, until I couldn’t tell the difference between my nightmares and reality...and now, I guess he can’t tell the difference either if he wakes up when I’m asleep.”

“How would you feel if I put you to sleep so that I could talk to him?”

“I thought you were maybe trying to put me to sleep right now, but sedatives don’t work on me. Why else do you think I’ve been eating the cookies even though I’m pretty sure you drugged them?”

“You’re a smart boy.”

“Thank you. You didn’t have to lie to me, you know. Bearing false witness is a sin, father.”

“I never lied to you, son...”

“A sin of omission is still a sin. You think I’m stupid. Everyone thinks I’m stupid. I was trying to be polite, but trying just made me look like an idiot...”

“I didn’t drug the cookies, Dante. I’m telling you the truth. I didn’t want to put you to sleep, I wanted to make you angry, because being angry makes you feel guilty, and when you feel guilty, you want to disappear...”

“And nothing can stop me...”

*muffled static*

Transcriber’s note: at this moment, the radio in Father Dominic’s office appears to have been switched on. The song “Duke of Earl” by Gene Chandler plays in the background of the following conversation:

“˙˙˙lɹƎ ɟo ǝʞnD ǝʞnD ǝʞnD lɹƎ ɟo ǝʞnD ǝʞnD ǝʞnD”

“Dante?”

“Dante’s inferno...”

“Who are you?”

“Siehst, Vater, du den Erlkönig nicht? Den Erlenkönig mit Kron' und Schweif?"

“Excuse me?”

“I’m the Duke of Erl, I sing, come and I’ll show you the Erl King.”

“What is your purpose?”

“I’m gonna love you ¿sɹǝʌoɔ ɹnoʎ ɹǝpun ɹǝɥ ɟo ʞuᴉɥʇ noʎ ʍouʞ poƃ ɹnoʎ sǝoD ¿ɹǝɥʇɐɟ 'ɹǝɥ ǝʌol noʎ ʍouʞ ǝɥs sǝoD ‘cause I’m the Duke of Erl.”

“Why are you here?”

“It’s nighttime. Time to sing a lullaby.”

“Why didn’t you manifest sooner?”

“I’m always there when good little boys are sleeping. Are you thinking of Sister Claire while you’re sleeping? Mich reizt deine schöne Gestalt. Und bist du nicht willig, so brauch' ich Gewalt. Come on, let me hold you, darlin’...”

Transcriber’s note: According to Father Lawrence, this lull in the conversation occurs when he unplugs the radio, though the song keeps playing.

“Why did you manifest when he was awake?”

“ʞɐǝʍllᴉʇssǝɥsǝlᴉɥʍǝʇuɐpʎqɐqǝɥʇllᴉʞ ˙ǝʇuɐp 'ʎqɐq ǝɥʇ ǝʇɐɥ ʇ’uop 'ǝʇuɐp 'ʎqɐq ǝɥʇ ǝʞɐʍ ʇ’uop ˙ʎqɐq ǝɥʇ ǝʞɐʍ ʇ’uop sʎɐs ɹǝɥʇoW. Dante says don’t wake the baby, mother, don’t hurt the baby mother, don’t hurt the baby. In seinen Armen das Kind war tot...”

“Tell me your name.”

“I’m the lɹƎ ɟo ǝʞnD ǝʞnD ǝʞnD lɹƎ ɟo ǝʞnD ǝʞnD ǝʞnDoh yeah yeah yeah yeah...”

“I-in the name of the Father, I command you, tell me your name...”

“Aaaaaaa-I’m the lord of the night, master those spirits who cannot rest, Duke and earl and duke and earl and...”

“In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy S-Spirit, I command you, tell me your name.”

“...Murmurmurmurmurmurder you in your sleep, while you’ve got your pants down and you’re thinking of Sister Claire...”

“Shut up!”

“That wasn’t very nice, Father. Have you been a bad boy? Good little boys must go to bed. Bad little boys must stay there. Never waking up again. In his arms, the child lay dead...”

“In Jesus’s name, once more, your name.”

“No.”

“Your name...”

“No.”

[several seconds of unintelligible static]

“Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven...”[more static] “The power of Christ compels you, tell me your name!”

“...Murmur.”

“Murmur, go back to hell.”

“Already there. Nothing can stop me...”

“I command you, in Jesus’s name, go back!”

“Dante’s inferno. Dante’s hell. Don’t hurt the baby, mother! Over and over again...”

“Go back!”

“Hell is home. Dante is home. Dante is hell. Can’t kill the baby, it’s okay to hurt the baby, Dante, she won’t die.”

“Go back!”

“People who cannot die cannot go to hell. People who cannot die are already in hell. Hell is where the the good little boys go to bed.”

“Murmur, I command you, go back to hell!”

“Daylight is fire. Fire is hell. It’s nighttime. Dante is daylight. Daylight is hell. I am in hell. We’ll walk through my dukedom and a paradise we’ll share...”

“The sun is rising, Murmur, go back to sleep...”

“Duke Duke Duke Duke of Erl Duke Duke Duke of Erl Duke...is everything alright, Father? You look like you’ve seen a ghost...literally.”

Transcriber’s note: the recording ends here.

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aaaaaaa mcu rant below break

i think the last mcu movie i saw in theaters was civil war and like after that i just swore off superhero movies in theaters; honestly i’d been losing interest since i was so disappointed in age of ultron - i went to see gotg2 because i have such a soft spot for the first gotg but i didnt like it at all and ended up having a seizure like fifteen minutes into it so i left. it took a lot of songs i loved and now people associate them with that movie; mr. blue sky is one of my favorite songs ever and now the soundtrack version has almost more views on youtube than the official version and idk that pisses me off more than it should. anyway i still havent seen the rest of that movie and i dont intend to - i went to see black panther because i wanted to support the (almost) entirely black cast and incredible filmmaking but i didnt care about how it tied into the mcu and it was pretty stand-alone anyway. a damn good movie

aside from those two ive only seen two other superhero movies in theaters since - i saw wonder woman because she’s my favorite superhero ever and it’s the first female superhero movie in the new superhero movie age (it only took ten years! :)))) *fucking strangles someone*) at first i was ambivalent towards it, but now i legitimately dont like it because i think it fucked up diana’s character, focused too much on steve, and played into too many “girl movie” stereotypes (they literally had a makeover scene kill me rn) - i almost didn’t see spiderverse because i swore off superhero movies, but it won me over in the end and im so glad i saw it. besides it wasn’t mcu. spiderman is my favorite/objectively the best marvel superhero; he’s probably the most relatable superhero ever and they did him really well here. they breathed so much life and charm into miles too, making him also relatable. instant animated classic i would recommend it to anyone

other superhero movies i’ve seen outside of theaters since civil war: - ragnarok: an excellent film; immensely enjoyable and all-around fun - homecoming: meh? everyone really liked it and i guess it was fine. im pissed because it ripped off miles so much and directly caused the exclusion of ganke in spiderverse, not to mention all the other shit it hurt in that movie. honestly ive switched opinions on it so many times i keep going back and forth. actually im trying to remember now that im thinking about it i feel like i saw it in theaters but i honestly cant remember. weird

i haven’t seen any of these movies and i have no intention to - doctor strange: fuck this stupid “white guy masters ancient vague asian mumbo jumbo magic and becomes better at it than all the poc” bullshit and fuck benedict cumberbatch - infinity war/endgame: the avengers movies just dont interest me anymore at all they’re so cluttered and boring and annoying - antman: who? - antman and the wasp: ok this one pisses me off IMMENSELY the wasp was CRUCIAL in the founding of the avengers in the comics and they just completely cut her out from all of that in the mcu. she didnt even get her own movie she had to be the deuteragonist to fuckin antman. not to mention she was killed at the end. growing up the wasp was my favorite avenger and they did her so so SO dirty. fuck this movie - captain marvel: took over a decade for them to make a female superhero movie and its a blonde white chick. they didnt even have the guts to make her gay. smfh. dont have any interest since this iteration doesnt seem to have a personality beyond trauma and “girl power!”, not to mention all the armed forces propaganda in and surrounding it

really doubt im going to see any more superhero movies after this; i have no interest in the mcu anymore and never had interest in the dc movies. i doubt ill even see the spiderverse sequels (especially not in theaters) because im even more anti-sequels than i am anti-superhero movies

anyway. crying rn because media hates girls so much. obviously it also hates poc, lgbt+ folk, non-christians, and disabled people but whats presently on my mind is how much it just absolutely loathes women. im angry and sad

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THIS IS THE BEST QUESTION IVE EVER BEEN ASKED

okay so yall dont know this but i have 766 bookmarks on ao3, and thats AFTER i spent all of last summer going through them/deleting things from them (of course i added a ton over this year so i need to do another cleanse now but regardless), so i am literally Hella prepared for this. so here we go: my TOP SPRING AWAKENING FICS in no particular order

1. What The Cat Dragged In by grrcookierawr / @nastyinkhakis​; hernst, 6.7k words

basically, you literally cannot go wrong with a fic by kelsey. two of her fics made this list but everything she writes or has ever written? iconic but this fic in particular is about a headcanon that ernst calls hanschen ‘kitten’ as a nickname and hanschen just,,, melts into a sappy mushy puddle, but also hanschen is Ridiculously embarrassed by his own vulnerabilities. this fic is Old (pre dwsa!) and Beautiful--so beautiful that i got distracted from writing this list because i started to reread it--and, tbh, it was really a catalyst for the turning of the tide of public opinion on hanschen (along with all the other beautiful hanschen content kelsey created). basically, 12/10, quite possibly my favorite spring awakening fic ever written

2. roses by flowernst (asphodelgrimoire) / @transaaronburr​; hernst, 7.4k

very high school, VERY german (which is shockingly lacking in many sa fics despite the fact that its literally set in germany). features: well written deaf and hard of hearing characters!!!!!!!! hanschen rilow who pretends to be a stone cold bitch but is just a soft teenage boy. overall its Super cute and very funny and i love it

3. breathing for this moment in time by intertwiningwords / softhernst on twitter ; melchiotto, 1.8k

if you follow me on twitter youll know i Love melchiotto bc its a crack ship that i created out of spite and grew to love. but do you know who Really spurred on my love for it? JESS jessica has always supported my weird ships and has allowed me to corrupt her with them, and this fic is a Perfect example of that. basically, i said “pls dont write a sad fic” and jess said “lmao fuck you im writing fwb melchiotto with a sad ending.” feat. internalized homophobia and “Straight Guy” otto the most painful part is “ ‘Just stay in this moment,’ Melchior thought. ‘It might be the last time you ever get to touch him like this.’ “ and the best part is the part where melchior and otto have a cute conversation about bike riding

4. This Tongue of Mine by howveryzoe��/ @queerrevisionist​ ; ernst/many but endgame hernst, 9.9k

FUCKING HELL okay so i was dreading/looking forward to this fic for MONTHS and BASICALLY its experienced ernst: the fanfic. ernst figures out that hes gay and has a lot of sexual relationships with varying levels of emotional connection before meeting hanschen at a party and im dumbing it down here but GOD its so good and its such a beautiful look at how the gay male hookup culture can affect a teen boys life when hes just coming into himself and wants to learn more. if you arent yet convinced, it also features these lines: Then at age twelve he watched Spartacus in history class and realized he was gay “Christ to think I’ve known you my whole life and we’re both too ashamed to see each other naked. Bizarre.” Ernst doesn’t find it bizarre. Ernst finds it a fact of life. Ernst wants to get his clothes on and get back to his good Catholic house and his last period class.  “I’m into you Georg.” Ernst tells him slowly and deliberately, caught between a blush and a laugh. Georg chokes. “Like in what way?” “Like in a sexual way.” “Oh.” 

5. One More Season by hulklinging / @hulklinging​​ ; hernst, 2.3k

SCREAMS I LOVE THIS FIC i just found it again but BASICALLY this fic is what Could Have Been and it’s not one of those where ernst and hanschen run off together as literal teens (tho i rly dont have anything against fics like that) its more of a beautiful fate thing??? they break up bc hanschen is trying to be practical and whatever and then they find each other as adults??? and stay together until theyre old (and there are whispers of ww1 but shhh ignore that focus only on the happiness) and its beautiful and historical and based around birthdays. i love p much everything ziggy writes so its no surprise that this ended up on the list but just its so beautiful please read it

6. Ginsberg and Cigarettes by cannibananalism ; hernst, 2.1k

give! me! more! pretentious! hanschen!  he skips class to read poetry and fuck a boy in the bathroom like how much more pretentious can you get??? nsfw--features hjs by 2 underage kids and the implication of sex if that squicks you out--but its v cute, v good, generally an enjoyable fic

7. The Murder of Mr. Maler by grrcookierawr yet again ; multi, 8.6k

AAAAAAA OKAY SO first of all this fic was made at the Height of the “fuck bobby maler” movement. second of all its literally the Best murder mystery ive ever read like move over agatha christine. third of all ITS SO SO SO BEAUTIFULLY WRITTEN like i gush about kelsey and her writing but goddamn this is a good fic.  basically bobby maler has been found dead in miami in the study at the hotel he owns and all the kids are suspects in his murder. it such an interesting fic and it really keeps you guessing actually? i remember gasping aloud at the twist the first time i read this. but yeah its good as h*ck and yall should all read this

honorable mentions

Sink Back In The Ocean by howveryzoe, which was written as Self-Indulgent Catharsis for zoe and i. in which ernst just fuck,,, beats melchior up. i love this fic. it saved my life

don't call it love by ShippingEverything, which didnt make the list because its obviously one of my own fics. its melchiotto (unrequited sort of? melchior eventually moves on), its sad, it features our good friend “Straight Guy” otto, and straight up if i could only have one of my fics be read ever again, i’d choose this one. probably the best thing ive ever written

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Man its so weird to think back and see how many signs there were that I was transgender long before I realized it. I was SO fucking oblivious, I had no clue that being nonbinary was even an option, all I knew was 'well I don't wanna be the opposite gender but I don't wanna be the one I was assigned at birth'. (Except obviously I didn't even know the correct words to describe it) And like... I bought into A LOT of horrible transphobic bullshit, cos I was raised with a biased view of what being transgender even is. 'Trans-sexual people are turned on by wearing women's clothes'. Ugh. And I was completely disgusted by it, since I'm a sex repulsed asexual and everything about foreplay or whatever disgusts me. My parents and pop culture and stuff all treated it like trans people were the equivelant of someone into BDSM wearing nipple clamps out in public or something. 'Well in theory I have nothing against them having that kink, but why do they have to show it in public?' Being trans was ALWAYS only shown as 'oo kinky I like to crossdress in the bedroom', as if it was a fucking sexuality, as if there was NO OTHER REASON why someone would wanna wear the 'wrong' clothes and use the 'wrong' pronouns. I felt viscerally disgusted at myself whenever I didn't want to wear my birth gender's cliche outfits, I denied absolutely everything cos I didn't want people to think I was a pervert. I didn't even know it was POSSIBLE to be transgender and asexual, or even that being transgender wasn't the same as being gay! I said SO MUCH fucking horrible transphobic and homophobic stuff as a kid, just parroting what I was told, and overcompensating for hating myself by making it clear I hated everyone remotely similar to me. While being in huge denial that they were similar to me! And I'm gonna carry these regrets forever and always worry that I stopped someone else from feeling comfortable about theirself and just... GAHH! And I did all the same too about parroting stereotypes of 'crazy people' and 'r*tards' before I learned that this big ol stereotype about autism was bullshit and real autistic people look EXACTLY LIKE MYSELF It just makes me think a lot about how many other people out there might be trans and not have the ability to find out because they've been buried so utterly in this false, bigoted image of what a trans person actually is. Tho also I hate the dumb stereotype that 'all homophobes are secretly gay', like seriously wtf why u wanna escape all responsibility for your actions and say the only problem is gay people systemically oppressing THEMSELVES... ANYWAY I went off on a sad train of thought there but back to the point! I'm just remembering this one part of a school trip that was like one of my most treasured memories for no logical reason until I realised I was trans. I met a new classmate and he mistook me for the opposite gender, and I was like 'HOLY SHIT WHY AM I HAPPY' until someone else 'corrected' him. I mean.. I knew I wasn't that gender either, but it felt like a weight off my shoulders to at least be misgendered the opposite way for once. I felt inexplicably happy that I was looking ambiguous enough to even be in question! And this was when I was like 11, I had no clue what word to even assign to these feelings... And I mean, it was SO DUMB that I never noticed these signs! This is what internalized transphobia does to you! Like 'hey there's probably no reason at all why I always play as a different gender ever time I buy a pokemon game, and get this self hatey feeling in my gut when both options have very stereotypically gendered costumes'. And 'wow there sure is no reason why I got inexplicably attached to this genderless character and can't stop thinking about ways to prove they aren't real'. Seriously all that debate about 'quina is really a girl/boy' with weird evidence in stat builds and equip items and stuff! I got REALLY into that transphobic bullshit cos it was something that shook up my perception of the world and I felt like if not being either gender was ACTUALLY AN OPTION then id have to address painful things about myself. If I knew I could be that, I couldn't keep lying to myself. So I went in aggressive denial mode and missed this chance to come out of the closet at like 9 years old and save myself a damn lot of trouble! And then I just went through the same bullshit at 14 with Chrona from Soul Eater, and could not explain why on earth I was so upset that the English dub assigned them a random gender instead of translating it properly... And OH MAN how fucking dysphoric I was about puberty even before I knew that dysphoria was a thing! It was like 'hey look you're growing up!' 'NO IM NOT DEAR GOD NEVER SAY THAT AGAIN'. And that led to this stupid thing of me just saying 'well I have the mental age of a seven year old LOL' to excuse whenever I acted 'weird'. My forum avatar and stuff was a doodle of myself in chibi form, etc. (Even literally wearing chest binding... I only knee at the time that it was 'a martial arts thing' tho.) Like, I'd got all these messages that not wanting sex was 'childish' and not wanting my body to change was obviously 'immature', and when I was undiagnosed with mental illness and trying yo make up excuses for how I TOTALKY didn't have a mental illness, all I could say was 'ha ha I'm totally uhh... Doing it on purpose? Cos I'm so... Quirky?' I got obsessed with overacting as a class clown, cos I mean you can also excuse cross dressing as a thing that 'the comic relief character' does... And OH MAN, like my big Special Interest throughout all of high school was Norse myth, more specifically Loki. I was FASCINATED with the idea of a shape shifter who could be either gender, and was completely unashamed about it. And, of course, I used to play it off as 'ha ha isn't it so funny he turned into a girl', when I seriously did not have any clue WHY it was funny, I just thought I had to say it. It HAD to be the reason I was so sympathetic yo this character, right? Because he's A FUNNY JOKE?? And man then I got so obsessed with researching non gendered English pronouns from the 18th century and championing how they should totally come back into modern language and EVEN THEN I was in denial! It took until I played Magical Diary to realise 'well fuck I'm trans'. It took a game outright saying that these genderless pronouns arent just 'to be inclusive of both genders' but can be used for A THIRD GENDER, A GENDERLESS GENDER, A BOTH AND/OR NEITHER GENDER!! A game saying that this gender does exist in human beings, and EVEN THEN I took ages to be sure that it was really real and not just a fantasy thing that the game made up. I mean, quina was totally only genderless cos they're a magical creature, right? (Completely ignoring the fact that the other two members of that magical creature town are both male...) And just.... AAAAAAA I feel like I'm the human personification of that 'no Patrick, put it on the lid' meme No, you're trans. No, TRANS. Trans, bunni! TRANS!! This is what societal prejudices do to people. Even LGBTQ people usually grow up within homophobic, transphobic society, absorbing all the same messages. It destroys our ability to be okay with being ourselves... Its so fucking sad that this happened to me, and it hurts even more to think of all the times I said insensitive offensive stuff to other LGBTQ people back when I thought I was cis and straight... Gahhhh... ALSO, it makes me extra sad that Summon Night: Swordcraft Story 2 never got released in Europe. There's a character there called Arno who's NB and very out about it, and the English translators didn't make a mess of it, or anything. People actually call Arno 'they', and literally their catchphrase is 'Are you a boy or a girl?' 'I'm just a child of the wind~' Like seriously NO ambiguity, character actually getting to dish out sick burns when being misgendered, absolutely NO room for the ol 'well they just don't MENTION a gender, it doesn't mean they were intended to be nonbinary' excuse. Arno outright stating 'I am not a boy, and I an not a girl'. And your protagonist respecting it! Arno is still my absolute fave best handled nonbinary character in all of games. And the summon night series is very inclusive with a lot of gay romance options! Its a shame tho that the only other game with a nonbinary character was never dubbed even in america. But apparently the protags of previous games get a cameo in the upcoming Summon Night 6 which finally will be released in Europe! I just hope they handle Corlal's pronouns respectfully, considering how they managed to do it so well a decade ago with Arno. But then again the Swordcraft Story series is a spinoff so the main games might have different translators? Anyway, let me hug my tiny enby dragon child! Also I'm sad the cellphone app trading card game never got dubbed either, cos Corlal got some cute cards for the valentine's day event. All three dragon kids just got adorable scenes making platonic family chocolate for their siblings cos they're too young to really participate. And they thankfully got super cute totally non-lolicon maid and butler outfits like SERIOUSLY THANK GOD FOR THAT! Just cute ten year olds playing dressup like normal kids. Corlal got two cards for that one! Them being nonbinary continues to be 100% canon, they got a version with both a dress and a tuxedo. AND ITS SO FUCKING CUTE MY GOD ...man I'm sorry this just went off topic into how great that series is But anyway! If I've ever said anything that offends you, please message me about it! I'm still unlearning a lot of internalized prejudice. Also if you want a quality nonbinary werewolf in a cool side scrolling GBA jrpg, look for Arno! Im on mobile rite now so I can't send links n stuff, but as soon as I finish moving my PC desk to the other room I shall spam you all with my obscure fandom's!!!