#i’m screaming i don’t deserve this
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i’m sure it’s been said already but chappell roan is literally out there making history. no one else is doing it like her. dressed as the statue of liberty, she made a statement about freedom for minorities and people in occupied territories. and in addition to that, she mentioned turning down an offer to perform at a white house pride event, saying that she won’t do it until there is freedom, liberation and justice for everyone.
[photos via rolling stone]
#i’m just screaming into the void but. i adore her.#i don’t think there’s a single artist more deserving of all the attention and hype she’s receiving#chappell roan
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Silly goofy game about mouthwash!
#did scribbles#doodles even#mouthwashing anya#the only woman ever forever#mouthwashing swansea#my queen#daisuke mouthwashing#the baby#what do you mean you don’t cry over him regularly?#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#screaming biting and raging about him#put this poor man down#he deserves so much better#mouthwashing jimmy#fuck Jimmy#kill him with fire#he deserves so much worse#giving Jimmy all my cramps#I’m thinking about these guys more than I should#I’m so emotions about these guys#mouthwashing#pen sketch#sketches#art#traditional art#artists on tumblr#illustrators on tumblr#doodles#fanart
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i actually feel so incredibly uncomfortable and isolated in this space right now and i know that’s silly because of how many people there are just like me who share the same feelings but idk…the fact that people even think this is defensible behavior is making me feel sick
#nothing quite like being reminded how disposable you are#during the pandemic that set the stage for everyone to show exactly how much they don’t care about disabled people#i’m tired of people not taking this shit seriously and i’m incredibly angry about it#because i know y’all who are reckless and ignorant and think you’re invincible are going to be the same ones begging to be let in#when they ultimately become disabled too.#and you know what? i’m not ready to give those people grace yet#been screaming it for years but nobody listens until it’s too late#have already had people with obvious long covid who spouted ableist rhetoric this entire pandemic#come to me asking for advice#and honestly? i don’t think you deserve advice#i have so much empathy but i’m TIRED#i don’t fucking care anymore i get that we’ve been lied to this entire time but if you actually wanted to do the research you would#and since i know nobody cares about protecting others#i think you would at least care about protecting yourself considering how selfish you’ve proven yourselves to be#this is at the entire world and everyone who refuses to wake up to the fact that we are screwed#disabled people have been telling you this entire time and it’s still a fuckimg joke#and it will only become serious when it affects them directly#i’m so angry right now#and honestly? if you feel like this is about you at all? in any way? that’s your sign#do fucking better. TEST WHEN YOURE SIXK#stop fucking going out when you’re sick unless it’s necessary#i’m so so tired
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watching the last episode of season 5 in 2026 and steve gets fatally injured and then the first notes of when it’s cold id like to die start playing and we all know in that moment it’s over
#i’m sad rn#i’m so scared for steve#i was scared for him in season 4#but now i’m like… so petrified#i just cant lose him#he’s not even real but#if i have to sit there and watch the life leave his eyes#watch this character take his last breath#so young#he deserves to live a full life#i’m gonna literally lose my mind#and definitely DONT think about robin and dustin being the last ones there to see him go#definitely don’t think about robin screaming at him to wake up come on steve get up you’re fine YOURE FINE let’s go#definitely don’t think about dustin just sobbing in disbelief because no not again please please i cant do this again not you too#not steve#anyways uhhhh#sorry#stranger things#steve harrington#stranger things 4#stranger things 5#robin buckley#dustin henderson
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IT’S SO FUCKING HARD FOR ME TO WATCH SCREAM VI KNOWING THAT HE’S GOING TO DIE AT THE END!!!!!!!!!!!!😭😭😭
#jack champion#Ethan Landry#ethan kirsch#ghostface#gf!ethan#I miss him#I can’t#I don’t give a fuck if he’s a killer!!#I don’t give a shit that he’s the killer#he deserved to be the first ghostface to survive#why did he have to have such a brutal death#I can’t watch his death#scream vi#scream iv#scream franchise#it’s so hard#I just can’t#I don’t care that I’m being dramatic#scream 6#scream 2023
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I’m shadowing at the vet clinic in 2 days and I’m clearly not nervous at all because I definitely didn’t have a long winding, distressing dream in which the veterinarian made me play a game in which leif had to throw food at people and maki kicked his ass so bad that leif fucking died but don’t worry because the vet was there and he has magic healing powers and he brought leif back to life but he made sure to mention for some reason that leif doesn’t have chlorophyll because he’s not a plant
#what’s up guys I’m not nervous in the slightest#there was more to the dream but that part was the most vivid#I slept through the whole night the other night for the first time in months and I was really hoping that it’d happen again#WRONG that was a fluke. woke up like 4 times#sigh OKAY!!!#if I disappear from the face of the earth on Monday it’s because I did something so embarrassing that I went to go live in a hole#it’s three hours what’s the worst I could do CLEARLY MY DREAM THINKS A LOT COULD GO WRONG#notes to self. do not show up an hour late. do not forget your shoes#and f-y-fucking-i do NOT quote finch holy SHIT#that was a horrible dream I made a total ass of myself#I fear it will come true because. I have a tendency to say and do the wrong thing#it is all replaying in my head…..the time a girl called me pretty and I just stared at her and walked away…….#the time I said ‘I don’t say thank you to anyone’ instead of ‘I’m not ignoring your compliment I just have selective mutism’#the time I accidentally angrily screamed ‘GOOD MORNING’ at an old man because I couldn’t control my tone of voice#< actually he deserved that lmao he yelled at me first. fuck that guy frfr that was traumatic#this is just my stream of consciousness atp hey guys I’ll shut up now
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i hate to say this because i know how it makes me sound but i got so used to being screamed at over things that weren’t my fault/had nothing to do with me/were beyond my control multiple times per shift when i worked at target that i’m actually finding it kind of weird and strange that that’s not happening at dunkin
#there’s been one Screaming Incident but i feel it was kind of deserved….certain coworkers of mine made questionable comments#over the drive thru speakers. and the couple came in and started screaming at me because i was the first person they saw.#and i was just like ‘i’m sorry. that wasn’t me you were speaking to.’ and then my coworkers came over & they left me alone#i mean don’t get me wrong there have been people that are assholes for no reason but that’s like maybe once per shift#unlike at target where it was like maybe 50% normal people 25% assholes and 25% just straight up crazy people
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What's PMD Explorers of the Spirit? 0v0
It’s a PMD Sky romhack! It serves as both a sequel and a canon divergence kinda thing. I’m not super far into the game but it’s really interesting so far 👀 I’ll definitely be posting more about it as I play through it!
#Several things I’ve noticed:#Idk if they adjusted the level curve or what but HOLY shit. The dungeon mons are so strong for some reason.#I never got my ass kicked this hard early game until this hack lmao#Also. Us bickering with Chatot is very funny. And deserved.#But it also makes me sad bc I love Chatot SO much#Don’t fight with him he’s just trying his best :(((#It’s really strange how much the hero seems to hate the guild#When I watched Smant’s playthrough of Sky he mentioned how much the guild is like a cult and I SCREAMED#BC HE’S KINDA RIGHT. And the hero alludes to this too#Anyway. Again I’m not super far into it yet but I will recommend it ;)#Bc a friend recommended it to me and I trust their judgement lol#I’m enjoying it so far!#Pokemon#PMD#PMD EotS#Shima answers questions#thatrobotgirl
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the feminine urge to bitch slap every man ever
#expect hobie ofc#he doesn’t count as a man though#he’s too good to be a one of those#men are so annoying#loud#gross#they have so much audacity#and they smell#and every man I’ve met is at least a tad bit sexist#like#oh sorry that I don’t wanna clean my brothers fucking piss off the toilet seat!!!#guess I’m a “pretty pink princess” for that!#Or sorry that I don’t wanna pick his nasty ass socks off the floor for him!!#Or sorry that I don’t wanna clean his shit stained underwear for him!! Guess I’m a “pretty pink princess”!#And sorry that I accidentally bumped into you#I DEFINITELY deserved for you to shove me and flip me off#or sorry that after a long shitty day at school#and I would like for it to be at least a BIT quiet!#Guess I’ll let my brother(quite literally) scream at his bloody laptop and repetitively slam it down!!!#Oh!! Sorry for getting upset at you after I said no multiple times and you kept bothering me about it!#guess i’ll just go fuck myself#i hate men
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SUPPORT ALL THE BE MY FAVORITE FIC PLEASE <3
I need everyone in the world to know that a friend of mine is writing a Witcher AU starring Kawi and Pisaeng from Be My Favorite and I’m reading an early draft of it on my lunch breaks and it’s become the best part of my day.
This thing is likely gonna be over 60k when it’s finished, and I’m really gonna need everyone in the world to leave kudos and comments on this fic when it’s done because my god she’s making an incredible piece of fiction and it’s so ludicrously charming. I don’t even play the Witcher games, I just casually watched the Netflix show and I don’t even think you need to have seen that to keep up. She’s just doing an incredible job.
I’m so happy our little time travel show is still attracting such incredible talented writers and such fun, exciting ideas in fanwork.
If you haven’t been keeping up with the AO3 tag obsessively like me:
Along with the stupefyingly, brilliantly executed genius of Mr. and Mrs. Smith AU Mr. and Mr. Jirawarakul (50k and one more chapter to go!!!) by Looorelai, there’s the nuanced The Long Way Home by saisei about the after-effects of Pisaeng’s time travel, and the punch-you-in-the-soul twist of Writing Ourselves on the Walls of our Future Hearts by Synergic.
Be My Favorite has had some incredible fics written for it.
If you loved the series and you’re missing it and KawiPi, I highly, highly encourage you to check out the tag or my bookmarks.
Tiny fandoms like BMF truly flourish when there’s warmth for them to grow by—or at least glow at a consistent rate. So when you read any fic ever and it makes you happy, please leave kudos and comments if you have the bandwidth. Especially if it’s old. Especially if the fandom seems tiny. It will mean more to them than you may realize; it may even mean the difference between that writer never writing in that fandom again and writing more.
An ember can start a fire.
Just as an example, I left a long comment recently on Clawed by daisydiversions in which Famous AU Kawi and Pisaeng (mostly Pisaeng) are battling a crane game in Japan, and the writer responded thus:
I thought, “Ooh, my screaming nonsense gave them a fic idea! That’s fun!”
Two days later, I had a notification in my inbox!!
And like! I get it! I wrote my 38k WinTeam fic Fireproof on the strength of my friend screaming at me after every chapter posted as well as the comments screaming even more. If I had been writing that on my own with no engaged readership, I would’ve gotten bored and unmotivated and given it up.
I’m not saying, “Leave comments in case the writers will write you fic.” I included that example as a, “Look what unbridled enthusiasm and active community spirit can inspire when we reach out to artists and tell them we appreciate what they created!”
It could inspire more fic, sure, but more importantly: it’ll make writers feel like we aren’t pantomiming for a silent, uninterested audience. That’s how fandoms survive for ten, twenty years. Or longer. Not just through love for canon.
We thrive because we show love for each other. Love for the stories and art we share with each other. Love for the community we’ve gathered.
Love is what brought us to fandom in the first place, after all. That’s where we excel. <3
A nice comment on a fic might be the difference between someone staying in fandom and leaving. You’re more influential than you know, and you can evoke incredible joy in people’s lives with a simple, “I loved this, thank you for sharing!”
#be my favorite#be my favorite the series#kawi x pisaeng#i love all these fics so much#and god they all deserve so much more love#i know people move on fast nowadays but we don’t have to!#i’m determined to keep my li’l microfandom well fed with screaming and admiration#always leave comments if you can#you may not know it but god it has an enormous influence#a friend told me recently the only reason she didn’t quit a fandom was ONE COMMENT#you’re more powerful than you may know <3
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screaming crying throwing up
[VIDEO ID: Joy Wang is standing in front of a car, facing her mother, Evelyn Wang. The scene is dark, with minimal lighting from the left side of the frame. Joy is crying as she asks Evelyn, “why not go somewhere where your — where your daughter is more than just this”. She laughs ruefully as the camera turns to see Evelyn looking saddened. END ID]
#yes I’m still obsessed shut up#eeaao#everything everywhere all the time#jobu tupaki#joy wang#evelyn wang#stephanie hsu#key huy quan#michelle yeoh#every so often I’ll watch this on repeat for an hour for the sole purpose of acting out my mommy issues#sobbing screaming crying#you don’t understand#I’m OBSESSED with Stephanie Hsu#she was ROBBED at the Oscar’s I’m sorry but you know I’m right#like I get that Jamie lee Curtis has had a long and influential career#but also she didn’t deserve the Oscar for that particular role (as IRS lady)#cause Stéphanie’s performance had me crying so hard I was on the verge of throwing up#she is next level and I’m in love with her omg#mommy issues
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cried in the night shop while trying to buy ramen after getting off the phone with my dad
#i don’t deserve him honestly#wearing flip flops and my tank top under my wool coat very hot girl behaviour lmao#zero food in the fridge cause i haven’t restocked for this week#zero hours of sleep at a normal time#the only thing that could fix me rn would be screaming at the sky i fear#or him kissing me really i’m not picky lmao#this is for no one in particular i just need to vent#*
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oh god, it’s been a long time since I touched any of my asoiaf fics, but I shit you not, I’m just gonna change history and make it to where the Velaryons sit out the fucking Dance just so they can be rich as shit come 298 AC just for funsies.
#House Velaryon deserves better#rant in the tags#yeaaaah this is out of spite for HOTD and the fact that S2 disregarded pretty important shit from S1#Hell even S1 was weird like… they established that Rhaenys and Corlys thought Rhae had something to do with Laenor’s ‘death’#only for them to turn around and be like okay we’ll fight for you :)#Not to mention insult upon insult to House Velaryon like come on…..#Visible bastards?#Vaemond’s public execution by DAEMON?#I don’t even know how HOTD is gonna handle the whole ‘Triarchy burning down High Tide’ thing but I SWEAR TO GOD#If they make the Velaryons extinct in the show I’m gonna fucking SCREAM#anyways
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would you.,,, mayhaps be interested,,,,, in me posting a song cover in discord server when im home alone again,,….. mayhaps,,,,,
i don’t sing much,,,,, and i prolly won’t do it unless someone wants it..,,,
you should!!!
#i just got back but only for like 20 minutes#i must take my leave again for 3 hours ✨✨#screams into a pillow#🍊askbox#juno is talking#shshhshdhd hehehe i’m not gonna be able to concentrate later#jshshdjd ily <33333#& btw if you don’t wanna sing then dont#you deserve to have the right to post it when you’re ready <333
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Erm
I don’t usually post my writing here but I thought I’d try posting something
Spoilers for Mouthwashing
Warning for: mentions of death, blood, panic, being drunk (in mention. Not moment.), Jimmy (I feel the need to put a warning as a joke but also as a genuine warning for anyone who played, felt triggered by the subtext and couldn’t finish or did and couldn’t stomach his behaviour.)
Please take care of your mental health first.
IM SORRY IF THIS IS REALLY EDGY OR OUT OF CHARACTER IM TRYING 😭😭😭
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Daisuke’s pov.
It aches in my shoulder so much worse than I thought it would in the vent after I first felt it. The jokes didn’t seem to work at all this time and the results were even worse than I was hoping for. I can’t think and my head feels like it’s full of foam. I can’t focus. I can’t focus on really much of anything. Jimmy says something about being able to fix things again and to hold on, to not move. What else am I to do? I can’t even get a word in, can I? It all comes out like I’m drunk again on mouthwash. I can hear Swansea reply, he’s not happy. Hah.. of course he’s not. He’s probably furious because of that drink we gave him. I wish we hadn’t. There had to have been a better way, right?
She’s gone. Anya. I saw her; sitting there, lifeless with blood flowing down from her nose while Curly’s breathing seemed so much more intensified. I can’t even try to joke about this. Am I going to die? What about my mom? My home? My life back on Earth? Did I even have a real life? A real future? God, it hurts so much. The foam is filling up more and more in my head. My words aren’t even words when I talk anymore, are they?
Why does it have to hurt so much? Why did Jimmy think this would be a good idea? Why did I listen? I trusted him because I thought it would save Anya. I try to speak again, but I think Swansea tells me to be quiet. He sounds… sad. Quieter. He’s thinking. He’s got the axe and he’s watching over me while I lay and wait. Maybe I’ll be able to just.. take a nap and they’ll find a way to fix this. Even when they use mouthwash to try to disinfect my wounds, it just hurts. I can’t do anything but cry and let out some sort of sound. I can’t tell if Jimmy gave up or if he’s still ‘thinking’.
“Close your eyes, Daisuke.”
Yeah. That sounds nice. I can do that. Close my eyes and wait. Swansea kind of felt like a dad anyways. Maybe he’ll help.
I’m scared. I just wanted to go home. I thought all of us would be okay.
I just—
#mouthwashing#mouthwashing daisuke#i literally love him so much#Daisuke deserved so much fucking better WAAHHH#daisuke mouthwashing my beloved…..#writing#fanfic#I don’t really know what I’m doing#i’ll probably forget about this later and be like erm#✨#screaming crying throwing up
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Why why why why why why why why why .. why me?
#stfu.001#tw repetition#I really want to kms#I can’t be here anymore I really can’t#I’m not sad anymore#I’m just filled with anger#how could they do this to me?#how dare they cause me to be like this?#and they don’t even feel bad?#but when I do it I’m the perpetrator and I have the cops Called on me..#if I wasn’t in the right mind I’d go in there and hit the bitch#cause my mum deserves to go what I went through#I need to beat her until she is crying and black and blue. until she throws up and until she screams#just like what she did to me for years#she deserves everything coming to her#I Hope her lupus kills her earlier than I thought#god I hate my mom and my dad and my family and just#sigh idk anymore
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