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malachitezmeyka · 12 days ago

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Sometimes I go like “I’m fine” and then remember that one friend whom I loved dearly who did a complete 180, told me to fuck off and essentially split apart our entire friend group in 2022 simply because I was Russian and she was Ukrainian. We didn’t talk politics, didn’t discuss the news too much, nobody held any anti Ukrainian opinions. We showered her in nothing but sympathy and support. And yet somehow, it was all our fault. We were 15 and it was our fault. Because we were Russian, so how could it not be?

I’ve never been the same since

#it’s what made me realise how conditional friendship can be. how disposable I am #if I can be dropped for something way beyond my control… what else could I be dropped for?#that’s what radicalised me. I think #I used to scream about how pro ukraine I was from every rooftop. got into so many arguments with relatives over it #but at the end of the day. it doesn’t matter what you do #as long as you’re russian you can never be ‘one of the good ones’#you’re the oppressor. the genocidal monster. the coloniser #with no culture or history or folklore of your own. with a language no one should speak. with a nationality the world hates #according to these people. the only good russian is a dead one. and I’m beyond caring #people wonder how propaganda works. but how much of it is propaganda if it’s true?#you’re told that the world hates you. you look around and realise it’s true #sanctions. history revisionism. xenophobia. on and on and on #it’s not made up. it’s not exaggerated. it’s not even hidden #and it gets to you. it really does. especially when you’re expected to sit there and take it bc you deserve it #to the point that even one person finding out you’re russian and not treating you any different is a gift from the heavens #I don’t support the war. of course I don’t. did I not just say that I’m not a genocidal mosnter?#but it’s hard to give a fuck. it truly is #it’s this curious little thing about the human psyche #when the world hates you and doesn’t bother hiding it. you start hating it back #it’s a reactionary response but a natural one. and it made me who I am today #if to the rest of the world I’m russian first and a human second. then so be it #that’s what I shall be

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