#i’m not proud of myself for graduating

[angelfoodscake]

ok all that walking has finally tuckered me out , but just talking to my school psychologist put me in such a good mood . like i was so happy!

it definitely made me feel assured , and i know the negative thoughts will probably come back but, something i needed in the moment

i feel so young yet so old. was told its normal to feel so lost at this age. she told me that people don’t even feel like adults when theyre into their 20s and 30s

ok now i forgot what else she said because it’s been a few hours

[angelmush]

the other day i walked around the golden lake w my love and the sun was setting hot and orange and we watched a brown duck preening through the weeds, ducking her head under the dark water. the cool lake swallowed up my tired feet to the ankles and we counted the dog walkers with their curly panting doodles and their handsome german shepherds and their whip smart little terriers and we admired the careful construction of a sand castle whose moat held determinedly against the lapping of the waves. we could feel in our chests the persistent thunderous thumping of celebratory music at the finish line of the lakeside 5k, welcoming each gasping runner across its bounds. and i felt like crying. i felt like curling into myself and crying. we walked through the swamp of the bird sanctuary afterwards and listened to the woods sing and croak and groan and then we went and got ube and yuzu gelato and devoured it suntired and sweating on the couch in our living room. and i was so overcome w a deep and true unshakeable happiness and a sort of confused grief that i wanted to sob and sob and sob.

[mostrizzaward]

I’d like to thank daniel howell for my 3.9 GPA in law school this semester, did it for you babe <3

[sophies-junkyard]

So uh I’m really posting for myself but… I did it!

Bachelors of Science in both Physiology and Biology (pre-medical concentrations).

Also a Spanish minor

And uh. I graduated with Honors.

And the grades aren’t finalized yet, but uh… Magna Cum Laude? (I mean even if something Hilarious happens, I think I can round on tumblr)

And I just. Uh. Idk it hasn’t sunk in yet. Like I haven’t cried yet or anything but… I did that.

[ichthustent]

btw guys i graduated!!! my cap had a nod to next semester of course, very happy i made it through :’) “graduate now”, and i did!!! <3 all thanks to this band (and a few other things)

[detentiontrack]

Thinking about how at this time in 2 days I’ll officially be the first person in my family to graduate from college

[the-sn0wy-0wl]

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[angelicwolf98]

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[theastronovastarlight]

✨🫧🎉GRADUATED!🎉🫧✨

[hiddenworldofmary]

a small thing happened which i document here because 1 it made me stop for a while and think and 2 it feels appropriate since this blog started when i was in a pretty bad place mentally but we’ve come a long way since then

i was organising my thoughts and making a list of things i need to do asap because i’m behind on work. at the end i always write some no-thought-straight-from-the-head very general reminders (to drink water etc.) which i tend to conclude with something positive. they usually end with ‘you can do it!’ or ‘you’re great!’ and while at the beginning of me doing that it was a bit forced, since it is hard to change your inner self talk from a negative to a positive one, now they’re very automatic and i can see that they helped me at least in some way. since i write all those pretty automatically i managed to surprise myself today. at the very end of my list i wrote ‘i love you!’. it never happened before. of course when asked if i love myself i would say that yeah sure i think i do, i definitely like myself, but i’ve never spontaneously expressed it to myself in any form. of course i still have absolutely awful moments of self doubt and general dislike but those are very much situational. what i realised today is that after listing a mountain of tasks i instinctively decided to just love myself through them all. perhaps i won’t accomplish everything (most of my lists end up unfinished), perhaps i won’t be great in the coming days, perhaps i can’t ‘do it’, but that’s ok. maybe i don’t need that. whatever happens i will love myself through it all. and i think this small thing may actually be quite big.

[malachitezmeyka]

Idk why I thought the new year would suddenly bring immense change to me as a person, it was such a childish belief, I can’t believe I let myself fall for it. The years go by but I remain the messed up anxious wreck who starts crying the second she’s left alone with her thoughts. The new year won’t change anything, nothing will

[deus-ex-mona]

congrats to anyone who has graduated recently/will be graduating soon~~~ y’all did it!!!!!

[tittyhunt]

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[campirebitesarchive]

I just booked my tattoo and I could cry of happiness

[chazz-is-a-zelda-fan]

can’t post this on insta considering a good chunk of my irls follow me there and they wouldn’t get this but i’ve been doing a lot better this week about keeping up with myself, i think

[stillthe1]

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