#i’m not good enough

[chrissy-kaos]

Girl! Love your content. But damn, how are supposed to compete with you. That last post you made omfg girl! Like really? Absolutely GORGEOUS. You’re on a whole other level than every single girl on here. You really are the Queen! All hail Queen Chrissy!

P.S. We really love you. You're goals for many of us.

Wow umm I’m not sure what to say to that?.. thank you! Tho for the record I’m not better than anyone else. Nobody has to compete against me. We’re all in this together. Let’s build each up instead of putting people on pedestals and acting like they are better than someone else. Lots of people have better content than I do. Hell majority of the girls on here are wayyy prettier than me. So yea, honestly I wouldn’t be nearly as popular without my mutuals always reblogging my content. Btw my mutuals are 🥵😍 if you haven’t noticed. If you think I’m pretty they are 100% next level.

I know I said it in the post but it was for the movie and not for me. I’m not the Queen nor do I want to be one. Tho @pandy-peaches wants to be the Queen 😂

[b0a-c0nstrictor]

I’m thinking about ending it I don’t know what to do anymore everything would be better if I just died I’m really close to stabbing myself

[traumatizedjaguar]

You're not supposed to be strong. You were supposed to be safe as a kid.

[decease-soul]

hate this loneliness feeling

[afluria]

Maybe if I change myself to look like the others…I’ll be shown off and be someone he can actually say he’s proud or blessed to have.

Fuck. I just really need some reassurance.

[liesmultixxx]

quick update on the crush situation in case anyone cares:

i‘m 99% sure that he doesn’t give a shit about me 😀 (like always)

but honestly what did i expect, i'm not lovable and therefore i'll be alone for the rest of my life and i have to learn how to be okay with that

[pearl-blue-musings]

Wow waking up feeling like a completely piece of useless shit was not how I thought my day was gonna start

[theleechyskrunkly]

IM SORRY I TOLD YOU EARLIER I'D LEAVE YOU ALONE BUT I COULDN'T RESIST WRITING ONE LAST LITTLE THING FOR YOU SORRY I'LL GO NOW

[3-lavender]

I think I’m having withdrawals from stopping Prozac. It feels like it did before I started taking it. I can’t do this. I need Prozac. I need Prozac. I’m going to cry. I need Prozac. I can’t do this. I need it.

[ohforficsake]

💯💯💯

Commenters are a writer’s lifeblood. We write for ourselves, we share not to feel so alone. Thank you to those of you who have made me feel less alone. 💚

Dude it is SO FUN and EXCITING to see a reoccurring reader. If you've commented a handful of times on an author's work, I guarantee that they recognize you. You can't imagine how many times I've excitedly informed my friends "the person with the funny cat image commented!" "- anon is back!!!!" and the friends've recognized who I was talking about because I talk about my commenters so often LOL. We love you all!!!

[littlesomethingaragher]

There’s something blocking my thoughts but I’ll just keep hitting my head against it until I can’t feel anything.

[tired-bunni]

He wants me to be perfect. He doesn’t want me to ever take naps, he blames me for everything, he wants me to get A’s, he wants me to go outside more, he wants me to everything. I’m only so good at being perfect. I can’t be 100% perfect. Everything is my fault. I need to do better. I need to be better than everyone.

[destiny-in-the-universe]

Boy, do I feel like a sack of shit.

Hi hello, it’s me again. I don’t know where to even begin explaining myself but I just… I feel very negative about myself and no one has to reply to this, if you want to ignore it that’s fine but I swear to everything-

I am struggling so hard with accepting people like my work. I struggle with my own self confidence- I feel like I’m just bothering everyone when I’m sharing my ideas; after a while, I’m too much. I’ll burn people out because I’m unable to stop the brainrot. I’ll be in the middle of one idea and then come up with another on the spot.

Unfortunately, I am angry at the world too.

I feel constant pressure sometimes for no reason. It’s unbearable. I feel like I’ve got a weight on my chest that can’t be removed no matter what. I don’t know why I feel this way lately, but I always try and keep a lid on it - unfortunately now it’s bursting at the seams.

I’ll still keep posting- it’s all I have, but i want to feel myself again. I don’t want to be consumed by uncomfortable thoughts all the time like I need to be able to prove myself to others.

I feel to the extremes sometimes and I just-

I wish it could stop.

I don’t want to keep feeling this way.

Am I enough?

I want to be okay again.

I just wish I knew why I’m like this.

I want to be normal.

But instead I’m a mess.

[madeitthisfar-notgivingupnow]

The guilt, the embarrassment, the regret, the self hate.. I guess this is my life now.

[grimy-underbelly]

I’m not good enough I’m just not good enough

[bajaja-blast]

you dislike Luke Castellan because he disagreed with an oppressive government system and actually took action to change the abusive ways him and his peers have been forced to follow for millennia.

I dislike Luke Castellan because in the Titans Curse he manipulated Annabeth, who he raised as his little sister, into holding up the sky, the FUCKING sky, for over 20 hours and had the audacity to walk away as though he was completely apathetic towards it while she begged and pleaded with him to help her.

we are not the same.