#i’m never good at these because i always forget stuff at the wrong time. esp like the ship one. i know what my first ship was just not rn 😭

[crabs-but-better]

9 ppl to get to know better

tagged by @howldean ‼️🫶

list 3 ships you like: the ones i’ve been into the most lately would be forthur (h2g2), hilson (house md) and valvert (les mis). destiel forever tho 💪

first ship ever: this is difficult because I’m not sure where shipping starts, yknow? like there were definitely relationships that i liked from a young age, but that was before I knew about the concept of shipping, so idk if it counts. the first ship i ever participated in fandom or read fanfic for was edwin (fmab), so i’ll call that my first ship.

last song you heard: where is my mind by pixies cus i have to learn the guitar part for this band thing i’m doing

favorite childhood book: JUNIE B JONES �� I WAS OBSESSED. OWNED THE WHOLE COLLECTION

currently reading: ‘The 99% Invisible City’ by Roman Mars and Kurt Kohlstedt for pleasure (city design!! based career) and ‘Their Eyes Were Watching God’ by Zora Neale Hurston for school (but for pleasure too cus it’s a rlly good book, highly recommend).

currently watching: i started Northern Exposure w my dad recently. i’m also doing a house rewatch.

currently consuming: just had a bowl of cereal 👍

currently craving: the tender embrace of a lover (or a really good fish fry)

tagging: @mister-finally-found-himself @incidentalblr @youre-only-gay-once @angel-of-fallen-dreams @discourseposter @pisshandkerchief @shcherbatskya @anglerflsh @crowli-wan (nine people is a lot so i tagged some mutuals even if we’ve never talked 🫶 sorry) (+anyone else who wants to do it is welcome to! just tag me in the response :)

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

idk how many people would even want to see this BUT i wanna yell about Leela and Brax so here's a list of all their scenes togethr/scenes pertainng to them that i can recall (pLEASE add on if i missed anything/ you have any additional thoughts!! i could talk about these two all day!)

right off the bat in Weapon of Choice when Leela is on the outskirts of the Citadel and Brax goes to bring her back (which is interesting in and of itself, bc usually i would imagine a chancellery guard would go do that so what made Brax decide to instead??), Leela kinda goes off at him bc she's hurting and instead of trying to actually explain what's going on Brax doesn't even try to argue he just says "we need you" which is great bc Leela has that instinctive desire to be needed and to help people and he's speaking right to that -- also as far as we know, this is Leela and Brax's first actual meeting in canon? it's implied that they know of each other, which makes sense, but it doesn't seem like they've ever directly interacted before: Brax seems almost slightly uncertain, and Leela is combative, but when he's gentle with her she's actually quite receptive

the literal next scene after that, where the OT4 is all in one room for the first time (they still kinda hate each other at this point but still !!!). Narvin explaining Gryben and being a real jerk about it and Leela (understandibly!) questions if Gryben is a prison world, and Brax (who to this point has been mostly quiet as Narvin and Romana brief Leela) jumps in to both clarify Narvin's previous xenophobic statements while also maintaining the inherent questionable/negative connotations

(btw it's actually pretty important to note that Romana self-edits herself a lot when talking to Leela, especially in the earlier seasons; you can actually hear her revising the things she says to put it in terms that she thinks Leela will better understand. and i mean she does it out of genuine consideration for her friend associate but it often comes across as varying levels of patronizing. Narvin also obviously "dumbs things down" when dealing with Leela early on, but like... Brax never does that on any level. the only difference i can tell in how he addresses Leela vs how he talks to anybody else is that he seems much more kind with her than almost anyone else???)

their conversation about the Matrix in The Inquiry: this is REALLY important (and if you've ever talked to me on ao3 i've probably gone off to you about it lol) because it's layered. they're talking about the Matrix but they're also not because in answering Leela's question Brax is making a very thinly veiled allegory (which he outright states a minute later) to Time Lord society/politicians/most importantly HIMSELF -- he's actually strangely open about his morals/beliefs in this scene and i'm living for it tbh -- and i find it very interesting that even though he does directly explain what he means ("how do you know all this?" / "because i am a politician.") he also leaves it for Leela to work out the implications. like it's a very nuanced conversation bc there's double meaning in it and most people on Gallifrey seem to think that Leela is tone-deaf and can't pick up on that stuff (even Romana sometimes oversimplifies things to her) but Brax totally just lets her take from it what she will bc he believes her intelligent enough to understand. he doesn't think her any lesser because she's human.

ALSO on a secondary note to the above: the fact that Leela has a question/needed clarification (sorry, haven't listened to this in a while i forget how it actually happened) and actively sought out Brax to talk to about it?? like she knows Romana better she could have gone to her but i feel like Leela kinda imprinted on Brax and someone she can go to for help if she needs it; maybe it's partly bc she knows he's under marginally less pressure than Romana is but also the truth of the matter is that Brax was the most genuinely helpful person to her in the previous stories and that probably means a lot to her (esp. bc he acts like the essence of everything she hates about Gallifrey but he doesn't treat her the way she would expect from that). btw this topic is gonna come up again in a hot minute

that part where Brax gives her that information that might help her re: the Andred thing, even though he really probably shouldn't have done that -- it kinda makes me think about what he must have been like with Theta tbh???

actually this is mostly my own conjecture but there's some neat stuff in Spirit bc during the *waves hand vaguely* bodyswap dream sequence thing, Romana is very "!!!! Brax can help us !!!" which is tecnically Leela brain talking, so like there's the implications of the stuff i've said above about Leela having this idea of Brax where she knows he's someone she can go to for help

can u tell i'm soft for them

Leela sounding really sad/distracted when she talks about how Brax isn't there YES i'm grasping at straws but a lot of this relationship really is conveyed through the voice acting bc of how little direct focus there is on the characters. there's actually several scenes in Mindbomb where she mentions him and she outright says that she misses him during her discussion with Matthias

that implied scene with them in Mindbomb!! i have a Lot of thoughts about that!!! it's all conjecture and fanfic fodder!!! but the reason i mention this is because it seems pretty meta that out of the whole Gally Gang, it's Leela who first sees Brax when he comes back to Gallifrey and in turn she's the first person (besides Matthias, i guess) that he sees upon his return?? idk i just feel like that's somehow a meaningful detail??? also her reaction of utter shock after spending the entire episode missing him and how worked up she is when she tries to tell Romana, like I desperately need to know what happened in this missing scene MR RICHARDS PLEASE TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED

Leela insisting on going with Brax when Pandora starts hurting him and their whole conversation there is just. so good. like they're both just so soft and then when Darkel comes in Leela instantly goes into protective mode. like they just have such an open relationship bc Brax doesn't even try to be all pretentious with her, like he doesn't even try to keep up any facades when he's with her he's just very genuine and it really says a lot about both of them -- Leela is so good at seeing people, like getting down to the core of who people are and what makes them them (which is why she's good for Romana, btw, bc Romana has a lot of identity issues) and Brax is so tangled up in who he presents himself as that he barely knows who he actually is anymore but Leela can see that and she makes it so he can truly be himself and he doesn't have to hide. also she's so gentle with him when they talk about Pandora, she's very caring and empathetic and wants to make sure he's okay and i am WEAK

it's been a hot while since i listened to Panacea but I think i remember Brax being really soft with Leela when he first brings the gang to the Axis, like just sounding really glad to see her

ok other than the fact that Brax is lowkey relatable in Reborn (daydreaming fanfic about yourself/people you know? simping for Mary Tamm Romana? yeah mood, my man) there's that scene where they're first appraoching the Citadel on the alt!Gallifrey and it seems like none of them, and Brax specifically, have seen it from the outside in a good long while bc he's very in awe and he tells Leela that he wishes she could see it and he sounds sO hEcKiNg sOFT oh my word-

and once again with Leela thinking of Brax as someone she trusts for help: in Dissassembled when everything is going to crap she straight-up says that she wants to go find Brax bc he'll know what to do/be able to help

at the beginning of Annihilation when Romana is depressed and questioning if Brax truly was her friend and Leela INSTANTLY, NO HESITATION assures her that he was; i lost where i had her exact lines written down but she actually kinda goes off to make sure Romana gets the point

literally forcing myself to talk about this bc it makes my brain stall out but like,,, the Brax Hound in Annihilation,,, Leela being like "goodbye, Braxiatel... again" she sounds so sad and like UGH i always kinda forget how sad it actually is for them to lose Brax in Dissassembled bc like, it was so sudden and they didn't get to say goodbye and Leela is always losing people and i have many many feels about this scene and how all that emotion is made very clear in how they each respond to the Hound (might make a separate post abt this later if anyone is interested ::eyes::)

Enemy Lines is utter bullcrap about these two and I will never stop being salty about how they not only sidelined the very good, very subtle friendship they had in s1-4, but they??? made Leela acutally not trust Brax??? when literally this entire time she's been the one person who probably genuinely trusts him the most?? what the heck, David

I haven't heard TW3 or 4 yet but i'm assuming there's nothing worthwhile in those with regards to this duo (correct me if i'm wrong tho lol, i would love to be mistaken in this assumption)

TL;DR Leela and Brax mututally imprinted on each other and have probably the most open and healthy relationship within the OT4 and it is an absolute CRIME that nobody besides Gary Russell and Justin Richards cared enough to actually build on it in canon

[brainrotmeta]

my favorite hobby! reading destiel meta

So, I keep running into this idea that Dean's entire character arc (esp in season 15) was tied to him falling in love or admitting he's in love with Castiel. I wanted to see where that came from so I did some googling.

First thing: The Romance Arc (Destiel)

I'm not really in a debunking mood. Although the post does play into my Hot Take that TVtropes has done more harm than good. I just wanted to post quotes I found amusing.

most of the time Supernatural is more focused on not telling a story than it is in telling one, [emp not mine]

I have questions.

because they still refuse to tell us how Dean and Cas met in Hell and why Cas was sent there

Yes they did.

Dean could have chosen his tried-and-tested Who cares what happened, I’m here now, let’s forget all about i

...Supernatural is a show about where two brothers investigate supernatural occurrences? Dean figuring out how he got out of hell.... would.... count...as....a. supernatural... thing......... to explore?

(and, don’t forget, Sam had been coded as Dean’s primary partner until then, s

Sam wasn't coded as Dean's primary partner. HE IS DEAN'S PRIMARY PARTNER.

[See that infamous boner scene for details.]

Jensen moved his hand because Cas came in at an awkward moment (where Dean and Sam are talking about Cas being shady).

Dean and Cas’ previous engagements, namely Sam’s safety and Heaven’s orders, which may not be romantic in nature but are certainly a big part of the characters’ original coding.]

That's not coding you numbnut. Cas' heaven stuff and Dean's Sammy stuff are things that motive their characters.

Under something called a "Parental Marriage Veto": “I mean, who are you gonna turn to next time instead of me? Another angel, another - another vampire? Do you have any idea what it feels like to watch your brother just -

Destiel shippers just can't seem to stop taking Wincest content. And this funny because at the start the op mentioned that Wincest only had four romantic tropes associated with them.

Dean left Cas behind in S9 because he assumed Cas would be happier without him

Dean kicked Cas out of the Bunker, homeless and vulnerable and then mocked him for having a service industry job.

Your Cheating Heart [Dean openly sleeping with Anna,

this is the funniest one yet.

Relationship Sabotage [Sam begging Dean to always put him first just about ruined me.]

and the part where Dean angrily says that he'll never put anything, past or present, before Sam? HOW SAM SHOULDN'T DARE THINK OTHERWISE?

Sometimes it feels wrong to look at beer labels and wonder about Dean’s taste in pornography and trying to piece it all together from two lines of dialogue

what

in conclusion: I didn't find this post circa 2016 convincing. But I'll keep digging.

[storydays]

Season 1, ep 4, p2

You and Bolin walked up to Korra, who was petting Naga's belly. "Hello, fellow teammate!" She looked up and smiled slightly. "Oh, hey Bolin." Nevermore and Pabu ran off together playing happily. "Missed you at practice this week." Bolin continued awkwardly. "Yeah, sorry about that." Korra turned towards Naga, who continued to wag her tail happily. "Aw it's all right. We're probably out of the tournament anyway. Unless some money miraculously drops out of the sky by tomorrow. Anyway, reason I came by was to give you this. Ta-da!" 

He held out a pretty red rose and a cupcake wrapped up neatly in a plastic bag. "Wow, thanks. What's this for?" She wondered. Bolin's eyes widen from where he was currently handing you a (favorite treat) and a yellow rose. "Uh...oh, I can't remember now. Oh, yeah, now I remember. You guys saved me from Amon." He smiled happily like a puppy who earned a treat. 

"Oh that? It was no big deal." she shrugged it off, while you rolled your eyes, gently watering the flower in your hand.  " 'No big deal?' Are you serious? I was totally freaking out when he was coming at me with his creepy mask, all: 'I will take away your bending forever.' I mean that is scary stuff. I still can't sleep well." He sighed, sitting next to Korra on the steps who hummed.

Your (e/c) eyes narrow at her suspicious behavior. "Delivery for Avatar Korra." You all turned to the stringy man. "Tarrlok sends his compliments and urges you to reconsider his offer." He smiled pleasantly. "Tell him I haven't changed my mind." "Yes Avatar Korra. Oh, Councilman (Y/N)? You have a letter from Waterbender Master Katara." "O-Oh, thanks!" The man bowed and left Air Temple Island. "Whose this Tarrlok guy? Is he bothering you? Huh, 'cause I could have a word with him." Bolin threatened. 

"Heh, no. It's not like that. He's just some old guy who works with Tenzin and (Y/N) on the council." Korra laughed at Bolin's goofy nature. "Oh good. Good, that's better. I like that better." Bolin rubbed his hands together, making you raise an eyebrow curiously, before shrugging it off. You sat next to Korra and opened Gran Gran's letter. 

'Dear (Y/N), 

                         It sounds like your ESP powers are starting to show. Do not worry, all will be explained when you come visit me. Take care of  yourself.

                                                                                   Love, Gran Gran.'

You sighed, making your bangs puff slightly. Typical: elders seemed to like talking in riddles. "Everything okay?" Korra wondered. "Yeah, just some Grandmother Grandson stuff. Nothing to worry about." You smiled before you all yelped when Nevermore and Pabu rolled by squealing, and nipping each other. "Ah, Bolin! Help me!" The two of you raced over to your respective animals who were very aggressive and unusually angry with each other.

"Hey, what's wrong girl? This isn't like you." You frowned, as Nevermore pouted. Bolin laughed uneasily. "It's like their siblings, huh, (Y/N)?" He laughed sheepishly, tending to Pabu's wounds. You chuckled dryly,  wrapping Nevermore's wing, while sending Bolin an amused look. "Reminds me of when we first started training together for pro-bending." The Earthbender had the nerve to grin impishly. "Wait, what happened the first time?" Korra asked curiously. "Well.." 

*Flashback*

You step sided an Earth disk and a burst of flames before sweeping underneath their feet with ice cold water. You then took off your blindfold, walked over to the side of the arena to see your teammates and friends frowning and pouting (in Bolin's case) up at you. "How?" Mako said blankly, looking more serious than a 10 year old should. It's been two years since they became a family with the pro bending gym. You've still had a ways to go before you fully knocked down Mako's walls, but he's slowly warming up to you. 

You laughed, jumping down before hanging on one of the lower beams by your knees, near the boys. "I'm the grandson of Waterbender Katara, who is friends with the Greatest Earthbender of All Time. I've learned a few things, Mako."  The brothers then smirked at each other, before they began splashing you, and eventually Mako pulled you into the water and you joined into the fun, acting like a child instead of an adult for once. 

The three of you were so busy having fun, you didn't even notice Aunt Kya and the gym owner smiling at the three of you. "This will be good for the three of them." He said quietly, Kya placing her hand on her hip, loving how happy you looked, being around children your own age. 

"Yes, it will." 

*End Flashback*

"And that's how we our first training session went." You laugh softly, eyes closed in memory. "Ahh,  seems like yesterday that happened." Bolin hummed, running a hand over Pabu's back. "Yeah, and look how far we've come. Interesting, huh, Korra?" Your eyes met hers. "Yeah, sounds like fun." She smiled at you. "Well, I've got to get going, I need to see what Mako wants to do for dinner. See you guys at practice, next week!" He waved with Pabu chattering at Nevermore. 

"Yeah, see ya." You waved before turning to study Korra. "What?" She asked, feeling defensive. "Nothing, Avatar. I'm going to go check on Ikki, I owe her a story. Catch ya later." You waved backwards, leaving the Water Tribe girl alone. Nevermore flew up and away to play with some of the bisions. 

*10 minutes later*

You found Ikki and Meelo playing in a Sato Mobile, chattering away to Tenzin. "Beeeeeeep! Beep, beep, beep!" she exclaimed, Meelo repeating her. "Beep, beep." "Nice ride." you whistled, looking at the gift tag. "Ugh, Tarrlok is annoyingly frustrating." Your Uncle hummed, agreeing with you. "Yes, he is. Have you seen Korra, nephew?" "Yes, Uncle. She was heading towards  the ying yang training grounds..." He started to walk away before he stopped. "(Y/N), are you..doing all right?" He asked hesitatingly. 

"I-," you looked at your curious cousins before smiling unconvincingly at the airbending master. "Yes, Uncle. I'm fine. However, I'm worried about Korra. Could you--" "Do not worry. I will talk to her." He smiled at you before leaving. Meelo pulled back his arm with a (favorite flavor) pie, and began to throw it at you but yelped when it was suddenly thrown back into his face. Ikki began giggling wildly, before she yelped as she was suddenly thrown into the air and began throwing air back at you. 

"You two brats are sneaky, but guess what?" You all were suddenly drenched in water, and Meelo was all muddy. "I'm sneakier." Pema was laughing from where she was standing next to a giggling Jinora, and a few Air Acolytes were laughing at the scene. You merely blinked and held your arms out to catch Ikki bridal style. "Aw, Mommy! We were playing! We're still in the middle of a prank war." Meelo pouted, running up to the group of women. 

"Yes, dear, you can do your prank war later, it's bath night." At the word of, "bath," Meelo tried to run, but was grabbed by his ankle with a water hand, and was hanging upside down in front of you. "(Y/N), I hate to be a bother but would you--" "Say no more, Auntie." You set Ikki down, and she left with some of the Acolytes, before you grabbed Meelo, slung him over your shoulder and then began walking to the men's dorms. 

"But (Y/N)! I don't want to take a bath!! Baths are gross, and how can the ladies love my natural self if--" the airbending rugrat yelped when he was suddenly in warm water, without clothes. He spat water at you, and glared at you. You were smirking, your hair tied up, your normal clothes gone, and you were wearing swimming shorts. 

"Well, Meelo, let me tell you something about women," you leaned down be face to with him as he leaned in excitedly. "Ladies don't like stinky brats." You booped his nose with suds, and laughed softly as he exclaimed. "(Y/N)!" He giggled as you rubbed his bald head with his washcloth. "Seriously though, little cousin. Women like men who take care of themselves, which includes taking baths or showers regularly." 

Meelo closed his eyes as he sighed happily. He liked bath time with you; you make bath time fun. "How do you know that?" He asked curiously. You froze before rinsing the mud off his body. "My mom used to tell my dad that when I was younger." He turned around to face you with curiosity on his face. 

You didn't talk about Aunt Lotus, your mother very often. In fact,nobody did. You smiled at Meelo. "I'll tell you a story about my mom later, okay? I got to get ready for my shower." You drained the water, and dried off the little monk. "Go get dressed, and I'll join for dinner soon." He ran off, and you ran warm water, before locking the door and sighing as the water ran over your sore body.

It's been 10 years since your mother passed away, and her birthday was coming closer, and it never got any easier. You usually shut yourself away on certain days concerning your mother, and tried to forget about the pain you were feeling. You refused to cry because your mother wouldn't have wanted that. 

After all, you were always her strong solider.  

*Crunch*

You blinked, bringing your trembling hand to your chest, and hissed as warm water ran over your now bloody and bruised knuckles. So trapped in your thoughts, you didn't realize your knuckle was in motion until you were staring at bloody water. Sighing in annoyance, you let your hair cover your sight. "Damn it." 

*20 minutes later*

You walked to the courtyard, a towel on your wet hair. Knuckles wrapped in fresh pristine white bandages, slippers on your feet,  sweatpants loose on your hips, tank top clinging to your skin. On your wrists, two Northern Water Tribe bracelets. You leaned against  a column underneath Korra, watching Ikki and Jinora play a game. You both perked up to see Tarrlok's assistant run up. 

"Avatar Korra, I have something for you!" Annoyed, Korra jumped down. "It doesn't matter how many gifts Tarrlok sends." She used the Earth to turn him around before kicking him in the butt. "I'm not joining his task force!" "Sheesh, Korra." You laughed into your hand. "It's not a gift. It's an invitation." He pulled out said paper. "To what?" asked the blue eyed Avatar, snatching the invitation. 

"Tarrlok is throwing a gala in your honor. All of Republic City's shakers and movers will be there. The Councilman humble requests your attendance. You as well, Councilman (Y/N)." You rolled your eyes, before accepting the invitation. "Fine." you and the girls laughed as Neo growled at the assistant to leave. "Yeah, see ya there, dude." You shook your head as Neo sat down for Jinora and Ikki to rub his belly. 

*The next night*

Jinora, Ikki,Meelo laughed seeing how amazing the party looked. You trailed behind Korra and your Uncle Tenzin. "I-I can't believe this is all for me." Korra breathed. "I'm not sure what Tarrlok's plotting, but keep your guard up. It's not like him to throw a party just for the fun of it." "Uncle's right, Tarrlok is sneaky as a snake." They turned to you snacking on a pig in a blanket, with a handful of other treats, in your hand.

Your hair was half up, half down, complete with a few blue beads here and there.  "Wow, (Y/N), you've cleaned up pretty good." Korra complimented, stealing one of your treats. "So glad you could make it, Avatar Korra. If you'll excuse us, the city awaits its hero." Tarrlok smirked, urging Korra to follow him. You stuck your tongue out childishly, before laughing when you notice what Meelo was doing. 

"Uh, Uncle?" You outright laughed as Tenzin rushed to get his son. "Meelo, no!" He gasped, turning blue. "That is not a toilet! Oh, dear." He sighed, rushing over to grab his son, clearly embarrassed. "Hey, (Y/N)." You turned around to see Asami, with her arm hooked with Mako's, and Bolin trailing behind. Korra stood next to you, with an annoyed look on her face. "This us my daughter, Asami." Hiroshi introduced. 

"It's lovely to meet you. Mako's told me so much about you." Korra crossed her arms. 'Oh, no.' "Really? Because he hasn't mentioned you at all. How did you two meet?" Korra asked, snappily. "Oh, Asami ran him down with her motorbike." You said, casually. "What? Are you okay?" Korra's mood switch, as she turned to the firebender. 

Ohhhh. You realized why she was acting like that, and you felt a smirk creeping to your face. 'This is going to be fun.'  "I'm fine, more than fine. Mr Sato agreed to sponsor our team. We're back in the tournament!" Mako grinned when Bolin wrapped his arm around his brother with an even bigger grin. "Isn't that great?" "Yeah, terrific." Korra's face dropped.

The whole team thing was still sore between the four of you. After all, the Fire Ferrets was your team, you were the one that created the team! 

"Chief Beifong, I believe you and Avatar Korra have already met." Tarrlok said slyly. "Just because the city's throwing you this big to-do, don't think you're something special. You've done absolutely nothing to deserve this." She said, narrowing her eyes and walking away. Korra looked down, discouraged. "Eh, don't mind her, Korra. She's just grumpy because this is interrupting her self care time." You grinned at Korra who smiled weakly. "Thanks for trying, (Y/N)." She walked away. 

Tarrlok led her to the stairs where the press was waiting for her. "I've got one more question, Miss." "Hold up, hold up!" The reporters chattered but stopped when a voice spoke up. "Avatar Korra, you witnessed Amon take away people's bending first hand." "Uh, no. Councilman (Y/N) did, I was busy dealing with some of his goons." You grumbled under your breath as you hid behind your Aunt Lin. 

"How much of a danger does he present to the citizens of Republic City?" "A real danger." "Then why haven't you or Councilman (Y/N) joined Tarrlok's task force?" "Why do people keep bringing me into this?" You hissed to your Aunt Lin who in turn laughed quietly. "Aren't you going to help her?." Lin questioned. "No, she needs to learn to deal with the press. It's part of being apart of the lime light." You said, chewing on a candy stick. 

 "As the Avatar, shouldn't you be going after Amon?" "Well, I--" Korra tried to explain, but the same reporter continued to question her. "Why are you backing away from this fight?" "What? No! I've never backed away from anything in my life." Korra defended. 

"You promised to serve this city. Are you going back on that promise?" "Do you think pro bending is more important than than fighting the revolution?" "How do you think Avatar Aang would've handled this?" "Are you afraid of Amon?" 

"I"M NOT AFRAID OF ANYONE!" She shouted, as you finally came from behind Lin.  "If the city needs me,then we'll join Tarrlok's task force, and help fight Amon." You scowled and glared at Tarrlok. "There's your headline, folks." Cameras flashed and questions echoed through the building, as you felt your blood boil. You watched Tarrlok wink at a certain reporter and realized it was a trap. 

You followed the reporter, and grabbed him by his neck. He yelped and was shaking when he came to face to face with you. "So, what did Tarrlok bribe you with?" You demanded, while he played with his fingers before finally talking. "I will tell you everything I know, but it's not much."

*The next day* 

"My fellow task force deputies, tonight we will execute a raid on an underground chi-blocker training camp located in the dragon's flats borough. According to my sources, there is a cellar underneath this bookstore, where equalists train chi-blocking in secret." You were kneeling next to Korra but sat on top of the truck, more there as backup and for medical knowledge. You bent water to the next teammate. 

"Get ready, anddddddd now." You said boredly, waving your hand as the task force attacked. You watched Korra run after two Chi blockers, and sighed. You ran after her, seeing no one was injured. Korra fell on the floor, and gasped sharply as someone fell down and tried to attack her. You used ice to trap him, and freezing the other behind you. "Oh, nice timing. Thanks (Y/N)." You helped her up, and gave a lopsided grin. 

"Of course,friend. Let's go." She smiled as you lead them out, pulling your gloves tighter over your hands, keeping your distance away from Tarrlok, but staying close to Korra. 

At the moment, she was too unstable to keep her guard up for much longer. 

*At the pro bending gym* 

"No Korra for practice again?" Bolin asked. "Doesn't look like it. " Mako sighed, reading his newspaper. You were currently practicing some similar movements to make your agility smoother. You tuned into the radio, "Avatar Korra and Councilman (Y/N)  have bravely answered the call to action. With the three of us leading the charge Republic City has nothing to fear from Amon, and the Equalists. Question for the Avatar: Amon remains at large. Why have you failed to locate him?" 

Korra's voice came over the radio. "You want to know why? Because Amon is hiding in the shadows like a coward. Amon, I challenge you to a duel. No task force, no chi blockers, just the two of us, tonight at midnight, on Avatar Aang Memorial Island. Let's cut to the chase and settle this thing...if you're man enough to face me." With that the radio turned off. You pinched the bridge of your nose, steaming mad. 

"Ugh....this girl."

*That night* 

You were sitting on the ladder, watching Korra wrap up the rope from the pier. "Korra, this is madness." Your uncle's voice stated from behind you. Korra's dark blue eyes snapped to the airbending master. "Don't try to stop me, and don't follow me. I have to face Amon, alone." You studied her movements, ignoring the adults arguing behind you. "This is all your doing." Uncle snapped at Tarrlok. "I've tried talking her out of it too, but she's made up her mind." Tarrlok defended himself., giving Korra the opportunity to zoom away.  

"No Uncle. " Everyone turned to look at you, but you kept your gaze on the water changing color below you. "This is something Korra needs to do, or she will never understand." "Understand what, Nephew?" Tenzin asked curiously.

You looked up at the stars, determination in your eyes. 

"That is is okay, not to be okay." 

"(Y/N) is right. And if anything truly goes wrong, I have a fleet of airships ready to swoop down." Tarrlok said, attempting to re-assure Tenzin. You leaned down to allow your hand to feel the coolness of the water, and suddenly you weren't leaning on the pier, waiting for Korra. You were in a vision, great. 

*Vision*

You opened your eyes to see a young child running through luscious green gardens. The child was tearing up, until he finally collapsed on the ground. Your vision cleared to see a younger you, about 10 years younger. It was raining down hard, and the tiny you was soaked to the bone, and stiffled your sobs. "(Y/N), where are you?" "Son? Come out!"  you simply curled up tighter, clutching your head. 

You heard footsteps stop near you, and a breath of relief. "Oh, (Y/N), there you are." You looked up to see Uncle Tenzin standing there, with a warm blanket. He knelt down and opened the blanket, silently urging you to run into his arms. He grunted when you tackled him, and clung to him with a vice grip. Tenzin sighed softly, running a hand through your hair as you shook in his arms. 

"Nephew, it's okay to not be okay." He murmured. "No, not for me. I just have to be  strong. I just have to." 

*End vision*

You opened your eyes and jumped into the air, opening your glider, and taking off. "Uncle, let's go!" He followed you, soon the two of you were flying around looking for a sign of where Korra was. You went higher, and landed near an opening,  before seeing Korra crying into your Uncle's chest. "You were right. I've been scared this whole time. I-I've never felt like this before,and Tenzin, I don't know what to do." she sobbed.

"Admitting that you're afraid is one of the first, but most difficult part of healing." Tenzin's voice echoed through the tunnel. You leaned against the wall, waiting for them to step out.

'She'll be okay.'

[pepperful-qt]

Heyy can i please have some soft tsukkk content 🥺👉👈 like thise cutesy hcs where he sees you cry

finally some goddamn angst you're speaking my language rn you have no idea. Made this as a first time thing to give that extra👌👌somthin. love tsuks let's go

Genre: angst💧 to fluff☀️

Warnings: just general sad thoughts :(

Tsukishima Kei seeing you cry for the first time

you'd had deep conversations with Tsukki before, but raw emotion was something you hadn't encountered in your relationship yet. It just never came up, but it couldn't be avoided forever

tbh you were terrified to let him see you cry, and you felt horrible for it, because you did trust him but you had no idea how he'd react to that side of you, or rather, what you'd pictured wasn't good

it hadn't even been a bad day, that's the thing. It was just everything weighing down on you all at once that finally made it spill over

now you're able to get past it normally, push it down or tell yourself it's fine, then find a way to deal with your stress later. Really that "put a pin in it" attitude and then you never do get to it

you're not one to show these thoughts on your face either. Like Tsukki you distract from it with a snarky comment or bright smile, etc, and you even distract yourself

so you and Tsukki were hanging out in his room doing homework, and you'd been going out for a few months so it's not weird or anything

he is a perceptive guy, so he'd noticed your mood was off for a while, but when he'd asked earlier how you were you'd hit him with the "fine" and he assumed you'd tell him when you were ready nope

you had spent the last ten minutes on this single math problem, and no matter how much you tried you just couldn't figure it out and it just got to you, yknow? These thoughts in your head about how useless and dumb you were, spiraling irrationally into all these other bad thoughts

a shudder, a sniffle, a choked sob, whatever small thing it is, he notices right away

bc this mf is observant and attentive okay?

and he just freezes. and his mind just starts racing and lowkey freaking out? bc he'd never heard that sound from you and it stirred something in him

not in a good way. It was dread, and fear, and confusion

he just says your name, no emotion or anything, just an acknowledgement

"y/n?"

and then you freeze because shit of course he noticed

"y/n...are you crying?"

his voice is astoundingly even, after all he's good at masking his emotions too

your immediate reaction is brush it off and ignore

bc you'd never been vulnerable like this. tbh you really thought he'd be uncomfortable with such strong emotions, which is why you'd avoided talking with him about it. The last thing you wanted to do was make him uncomfortable

but oh boy is that about to change

so you shake your head, "I'm fine."

but oh, your voice breaks, and it's like the floodgates burst. That little bit of panic and stress pushed you over

and then Tsukki internally goes oh fuck

Honestly? It hurts him to see you cry, so so much, but seeing you try to hide it from him? Absolutely rips him apart

Did he do something? He goes through every little thing in his head overanalyzing and feeling worse and worse

he really spaces out for a moment bc he has no idea what to do. He's not a natural comforter by any means

"hey, what's wrong?"

"nothing"

"it's obviously not nothing"

"it doesn't matter" why are you even trying at this point

then he scoffs bc obv it does matter, or you wouldn't be crying over it.

and if it matters to you, it matters to him

but oOf that was the wrong reaction

bc you immediately think you've annoyed him,, so you just start packing your things to leave and you choke out

"I'm sorry"

and he breaks

tsukishima: fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck

"Don't--" He winces when it comes out harsher than he means and he takes a deep breath and walks over to you

and just wraps you in the biggest hug, pressing his face into your hair and you hear the softest, most gentle:

"don't... don't ever apologize"

and then you break fr fr

because this is something you never expected, and he's so warm

every reservation and fear you'd been holding onto with him falls apart and you cry into his chest lowkey feeling bad about his shirt

and he just holds you so tightly not saying anything, just being there, and it feels so good to have him there that even after you stop you just stand there for a while

when you finally do pull away he holds your face and wipes your cheeks with his thumbs, but your eyes are still on the ground

"look at me"

and when you do, you don't see pity, you see an expression of genuine love and concern for you, which is so foreign on him and simultaneously the most beautiful it makes you want to cry again

"look, you don't have to tell me what's wrong if you don't want to, but don't forget I'm here for you, dummy"

jokes on him, because you do tell him everything, just let everything out. As hesitant as you were in the beginning once you start you don't stop

and he's a great listener. Not the type of active listening where you say mhm and that sucks etc, but his eyes never leave you and he'll drop an occasional question to understand better and show he is paying attention

wraps you in a blanket and holds your hand the entire time

and you feel a bit silly for ever thinking he'd make fun of you or reject you

and it becomes a regular thing for you two to just check in on each other and vent so you don't bottle shit up, bc even if he denies it, he does the same thing

doesn't let you get away with it anymore, bc like hell he'd see you like that again. And though he's not one to cry, he does compartmentalize emotions but you make sure he talks through it

and honestly? your bond is so much stronger for it

crying for reasons like that becomes less of a frequent thing

but obviously shit happens

not even god can save any person that makes you cry oop

he's still awkward, but much more prepared, an absolute angel. You really brought out the soft side of this boy💕

bc his heart breaks every time your eyes so much as water

there's always little gestures of comfort when he listens to you

holding your hand and rubbing his thumb over your knuckles as a constant reminder he's there and listening

If it's possible sometimes he'll wrap you in a blanket again and let you lean on his shoulder

but in terms of hugs and stuff you usually initiate it bc he wants to respect your boundaries esp if you don't want to be touched at that moment

"Kei, can I...?" *gestures with arms*

he gives the most dramatic sigh but opens his arms anyway

oh yeah he's still a snarky little shit. will throw in a little tease every now and then bc he knows it makes you smile, but chooses his moments carefully so he doesn't step over the line

is the type to kiss your tears away aw

we love healthy communication <3

***

I hope that was soft and fluffy enough at the end🥺 still can't add read mores on mobile 😔😔

[ellewords]

Let’s say that those types of questions become more and more common after/during season two’s run because Yachi is new and much more susceptible to feeling like she has to answer when she’s alone, so the Karasuno first years suggest they do a promotional photo shoot for season three where all of the boys wear super provocative, feminine things that Yachi and Kiyoko have been asked to wear during multiple interviews or online while Yachi herself wears the most attractive, flattering but not overly sexual suit anyone has ever seen.

Every photo has Yachi in it as the main focus, and the boys cycle through as her eye-candy in the stereotypical doting, support female lead poses. There are some jokey ones of Hinata in the bunny girl costume and Tsukishima in a maid outfit, but there are also serious ones of Kageyama and Yamaguchi in pretty, but revealing dresses as Yachi stands in the forefront posing in a way that most men had been posed to show how powerful and confident they were. Kiyoko and the second and third years do a similar photo shoot to promote the fourth season, and it turns out just as amazing as the first year shoot. After both of the photo shoot releases, interviewers ask about what the meaning of the shoot was, and some of them try to spin it to mean something sexist. When they do, the boys tend to wait to see how the girls are going to react because they don’t want to speak over them.

When any of the boys interview with Yachi, she tends to get flustered at first, so she often gives them permission to speak up about how shitty the industry can be for making women feel inferior to men before she grows more confident seeing their support for her. Then she’ll take over and set the interviewer and anyone that agrees with the industry in their place.

Kiyoko tends to plainly explain to the interviewer why they did the shoot in a tone that is polite and warm but is also meant to highlight how absolutely stupid they sound asking her questions like she isn’t going to say something about how messed up it all is and then she’ll ease up just a bit and allow the boys to speak as well but really they just reiterate what she says and talk about it from the perspective of someone who benefits from it but wants to change it.

If any of the interviewers try to argue in favor of the industry, they get blacklisted from being allowed to do interviews with the cast again.

And though the other school casts don’t do an official photo shoot, a ton of the cast posts photos of them dressed accordingly on their socials in solidarity. (Saeko in a suit goes viral in under ten minutes, and she loves to tease Oikawa about it because his photo of himself in a replica of one of her dresses only goes viral in thirty minutes)

hold on i really love this idea anon !! putting my thoughts underneath the cut bec i have quite a bit of them and i also go on a very quick tangent/rant about sexism in the entertainment industry ;-;

okay so first of all i’m going to get my quick rant out of the way first so if you don’t wanna read my ramble then proceed to the next part, won’t hold it against you, i just need to get my feelings out bec i feel very strongly about this—- anyways, it stresses me out so much how rampant blatant sexism is in the entertainment industry. like during press interviews alone, women are almost always asked more about their looks, who they’re dating, what they’re wearing, etc. but there’s usually never any much of that for men : they get questions on how they get into character, what they think about the story. sure they get asked about the trivial stuff that women do but it’s not always at the forefront, usually just as an aside to their body of work. while the reverse applies to women. it’s really so ingrained in the institution/ industry that no matter how many times they’re called out for it,,, nothing changes??? and i know it’s the absolute bare minimum but it’s nice to see male actors speak up in solidarity for their female costars and even nicer when they let them take the lead and not talk over them (which is why i love your addition of the hq boys waiting to see how the girls react bec they don’t want to speak over them). okay rant over idk if what i said made any sense it’s really a word dump of feelings rather than like an actual essay or something

anyways :

that photoshoot : i would love to see it !! they would all look so so good 😩 i also like to think that they organized the shoot themselves instead of like hiring people or a studio for them. they’ll get somebody else from the cast to take the photos, find their own looks or costumes, locations, etc. i feel like it’s a project that’s quite close to all of their hearts so they want to be the ones to take the reigns — esp. yachi and kiyoko who have most, if not all, of the creative control.

during interviews wherein yachi lets the boys call out interviewers and just the industry in general : i feel like tsukishima would be the most visibly angry or frustrated, like a scowl just immediately forms as soon as the question / statement is asked / said ; gets quite fired up. kags on the other hand isn’t as visibly angry, his cool demeanor is kept, but you could hear it in his tone that he’s pissed. yams and hinata are a lot more passive aggressive, expect tons of eye rolls, raised brows, and ‘are you being serious right now’ looks.

but when yachi gets past the initial nervousness and flusteredness, damn. the boys take a backseat just watch her in complete awe and admiration. she’s very well spoken, keeps her voice as calm and as collected as possible while she explains the purpose of the photoshoot and her thoughts on the industry as a whole. never raises her voice, or gets too riled up. you could take what she said word for word and submit it as an essay honestly. same applies with kiyoko.

the cast never forgets. if the interviewers apologize, they’ll forgive and let it go for as long as they learned. but if they do it again, or insist that nothing is wrong—- yeah, no more for them.

also i see your oikawa and saeko and i agree, but i would also like to offer : the haiba siblings and the miya twins 😳

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from this ask | send me your hcs on a characters as cast / actor au !! <33

[mego42]

I 100% agree about wanting more fanfic lists! I honestly think it's the best way to get a variety. Everybody has personal preferences, if someone, who mostly reads long, fluffy au Brio fic, is making recs, they're not likely to mention short, angsty, canon Brio (which is understandable and fair!) so ideally someone else, who does like those, would also do recs. I'm pretty sure I've read or at least tried the vast majority of Brio fics, but the recs often make me re-read the fic and author.

YAAASSSS!!! I mean like, okay, I v much get why people have issues with rec lists, and I def do not by any stretch endorse the idea that recs/rec lists should be considered anything other than one person sharing a think they liked, but to me a lot of the issues (the same fics/authors getting recced, feeling like awesome fics/authors are going unrecognized) can be solved by more reccing, not less. everyone’s got different taste and different stuff they look/read for and I am extremely pro sharing that.

Idk, I think about it like this: in a previous internet life I was a YA book blogger and I lived and died by recs from other bloggers whose taste and preferences I knew. I mean, you know, I’d check out a book bc the premise sounded interesting but literally the first thing I would do was go to Goodreads and look for a handful of people who tended to like the same books I did and see what they were saying about it bc that was the best way to get a good idea of if I wanted to give it a shot. Or, on the flip side, there were some people whose reviews I followed bc I knew we v much did not read for the same things so if they hated a book for X, Y and Z reasons, I was probs going to like it (one thing about book blogging is if you want to keep current, you do not have a lot of time to mess around, snap judgements are key but that’s a whole other thing and idk if it’s even relevant anymore bc that landscape has changed so much). 

ANYWAY, the point is, I got in the habit and now I do the same thing with fic bc, tbh, I don’t have a ton of time to read, esp not when I’m actively writing which, with the exception of the last week or two, I’ve been doing p non-stop since I got here. All of which to say is, I am desperately in favor of fic recs for purely selfish reasons, I need them! Give them to me!!! Please!!!!!

That said, I uh, am v bad at returning the favor and I recognize that (I think I’ve made what? two rec lists for this fandom?) so I will try to do better to live by my own, idek what this is, moving on and here are 10 recs not really thematically linked by anything other than I’ve read them and loved them and don’t think I’ve put any of them on one of my rec lists yet (and if I have, my blog is a trainwreck I cannot be expected to remember what’s on it LET ME LIVE):

The Goodest Boy by EnsignDisaster

There’s a key turning in the lock and Buddy rushes over to greet his Master excited for her to meet his new friends. The door opens and he dances around Master’s feet rejoicing on the fact that she’s made it home. It's been literally forever.

“Hey Buddy what’s wrong? Need to go potty? Need to pee-pee?”

“Nah he’s good we took him out.”

Master does something very unMasterlike, she drops all the food she’d brought in on the ground and screams. It’s a non traditional avant garde type of hello…Buddy loves it. Mostly because while Master taps furiously on her small light box and sits tense in the corner opposite his new friend Buddy can lick up the egg smashed on the hardwood floor.

Buddy! The! Dog! POV! no further explanation necessary. Technically WIP, but it covers the whole pilot in a way that could be read as standalone (THOUGH THAT WOULD V MUCH GIVE ME A SAD though, when did the show forget the Bolands had a dog? so maybe that’s a tragic casualty of canon, idk)

May The Moon’s Silvery Beams by @pynkhues

Emma hums in agreement, and Rio turns her around to sit her on the counter, grabbing one of the older looking boxes of muesli while she kicks her legs out, heels bumping back against the counter, watching him. He gropes around the inside of the box, finally just opting to pull the plastic cereal bag out and peering inside. He can’t quite keep the grin off his face when he sees the wad of cash lining the bottom. This woman kills him, she really does.

Then there’s a little face peering up beside him, trying to peek into the box.

“What is it?” she asks, and he tilts the box sideways so she can see inside.

The upside to not getting here until s3 is that old fic is new to me! Huzzah!! Idk how many of y’all have already read this on but if you haven’t I highkey recommend. Extremely cute take on what if Emma woke up when Rio and came by to collect his/Beth’s/whoever's money during the shutdown. Cannot believe I’m reccing kidfic. Witchcraft!!!!!!

Maybe You’re My Fantasy by ohmisterjapan

He fucking loves the involuntary. It speaks to how he likes to unlock chaos and walk away. He's been called a control freak before and it felt like such a misunderstanding of him - he's all about self control but he doesn't want to control others. It's more that he enjoys revealing to them how little they can control themselves. It's more that he likes to stand still in the eye of someone else's storm and pick coldly through the wreckage.

Another oldie but a goodie. This fic is more like an extended character study (first chapter Rio POV, second chapter Beth) and I LIVE FOR THIS KIND OF SHIT. I really really really love the take on both characters, it really digs in and pulls out some nuances that made me sit and think about my own read of them and I love it.

A Shock Of Blue by mintletters16

“You don’t look very well. Would you… like me to get you a glass of water or something?”

Her voice is low but smooth, laced with a softness that cuts straight though to his core. Strawberry blonde locks fall gently just above the pair of magnets freezing him in place.

He can still feel the chaos tearing through his veins - emanating from the gold plated gun stuffed in his waistband - and suddenly he can’t be here anymore. Can’t meet this wide-eyed gaze that’s been locked on his for the past God-knows-how-long anymore.

Can’t see blue alive and concerned when he just left it cold and void somewhere in oblivion.

She’s looking at him like he’s on the brink of madness. He thinks maybe he is.

Apparently, it’s backlist rec day over here and I’m not sorry. This one is another technical WIP but the chapter works as a standalone (BUT if the author decided to return to it I WOULD NOT BE MAD). It’s a what if Beth and Rio met pre-canon and it works so!!! well!!!! The tension and fascination and build are all *chef’s kiss* plus the writing is gorgeous and lyrical and ugh, I love it.

for a moment we were strangers by openhearts

“We got stuff,” Rio motions with a nod to the backpack Beth hadn’t noticed when they arrived hanging on the back of one of the chairs at the island.

She swallows and turns back to the dishes, realizing Rio apparently means to sleep there , assuming the place isn’t bugged.  Or for some kind of cover story if it is.  She turns and fixes Rio with a narrow-eyed stare, studying his face, the corner of his jaw especially prominent from the angle she’s looking up at him.  He’s methodical about drying each dish and setting it back on the rack, maddeningly ignoring her hard stare, so when he goes to take the next plate from her hands she grips it tightly and gets his attention.

“Hey.”

“What you on about now?” he asks, irritated.

It gets her gut uneasy, how he’s just . . . there, settling in, in ways he never had before, no matter how nonchalantly he would let himself in through her locked doors.  

“This is,” Beth tries, failing, to find words for it, “. . . it’s weird .”

This one takes place post 204 and Rio and Marcus end up spending a long weekend staying with Beth and Emma for reasons (that work, for the record, I’m just not trying to summarize rn) and it’s domestic and cute but honestly my fav part of it is how weirded out Beth is by how easily they slip into sync. The story does an excellent job balancing where they are in canon (uneasy post-sex truce) with a snapshot of what they could be if they got over themselves (HA! as if) and Beth is DEEPLY FREAKED which makes her slow slide into realizing she could maybe sort of kind of oh shit like it/him??? that much more satisfying.

Not So Careful by @bensonstablers

When he doesn’t answer, her eyes go to his but he’s too busy watching the letter opener which is still pressed against the back of his hand. Curiously, Beth runs it up his arm, careful not to press too hard, and smiles a little as he shivers. Pulling her leg up onto the bed, she shuffles closer to him before pressing the tip of the sword to his chest and slowly circling his left nipple with it, being sure not to get too close.

“You ain’t gotta be that careful.”

And when she lifts her eyes to meet his, he’s got that look. The one that always makes a lump form in her throat and for her to fall back into bed with him without a single thought of what they have to do that day. Only thing is, this time they’ve got nothing to do for the rest of the weekend and well, staying in bed the entire time had seemed like an appealing idea so she allows herself to give in a little to that look.

It makes me EXTREMELY SAD that knifeplay ranked so low on the kink survey so I’m gonna need y’all to check out this V V V EXCELLENT example of it and come back and tell me you’re sorry and you voted wrong. I am v reasonable what are you talking about.

love (where it wasn’t supposed to be) by @lilliloves

"You know what I can't stand?" Rio asks, stepping closer. It's a rhetorical question but he pauses for a second and watches Dean sniff, watches a bead of sweat trickle down his forehead, watches him shift on both his feet as he contemplates making a run for it.

"A guy who don’t realize how good he's got it." Rio continues, looking Dean up and down in disgust. "A guy that will literally fuck up a good thing just to get his dick wet."

"Yeah, well I can't stand a guy who can have anyone he wants but chooses the married woman he's not entitled to.” Dean shoots back. "And I really can't stand the fact that you're always in the room with us even when you aren't there."

And who brings him into the room Dean hmmmmm????? Jk, jk (or am I). In this one Rio catches Dean out on the town with another woman (bc of course he is) and tries to call him out but whoops! gets called out himself. I really love the like, idk, undercurrent of wistful regret in this fic. I love Dean straight up calling Rio out on his feelings (spoilers but there’s an exchange right after this one that made me straight up holler), and, you know, obvs I am here for Rio making Dean feel like an ass. 

Hell Is Other People by makemanybraver

Rio: We're in Hell, Elizabeth! If you don't think you belong here, then repent! Don't fuck everyone in the room in hopes that you get to go out!

Beth: Why do I have to repent?!

Rio: Because you did some fucked up shit in your life, Elizabeth! You keep doing fucked up shit here, too! And you think you don't belong here!

Beth [screaming at the top of her lungs]: Because I don't!

This fic is existentially bonkers and I love it. It’s the kind of experimental format/homage/what have you kind of thing that I L O V E. Based on No Exit by Jean-Paul Sartre, Beth, Rio, and Fitzpatrick are stuck together in a room in hell for all eternity. What more do you need, honestly.

Working On Things by odenkirk

Unknown Hold up, Elizabeth. I'm really thinkin about you here.

Beth turned her face into the pillow, effectively suffocating herself for a moment, but thinking it was a good trade off for the way the cool silk of her pillowcase chilled her skin.

She lifted her head to glance at the still sleeping Dean before replying.

Beth I'm thinking about you too. But this can't happen.

She wanted him to know she wanted him, but she also thought that admitting she was already there would save Rio from trying to convince her. She wanted him, but morals had to win just once in a while.

YES this is technically Beth/Dean while also being Beth/Rio BUT it’s also sort of Rio/Dean and I am HERE FOR THE DIVERSITY OF SHIPPING leave me alone who asked you.

Five Times He Knew What She Was Thinking, and One Time He Didn't by JoeyLee

Aight, so tell ‘em I was hittin’ it. Said deliberately blunt, eyes locked on her face the whole time, just to see those blue eyes widen. She looked so shocked that he almost laughed, so he softened it teasingly just to keep her going. Oh, I’m sorry, sweetheart, tell ‘em we were makin’ love.

Then he just watched her, just watched her face, just fucking fascinated. Her lips were parted and her eyes were big as saucers, and…there it was. Before she could look away flustered, he watched the thought go through her mind. Him and her together.

He wondered what she was picturing or where. Them in the back seat, her bed, a motel?  Her on top or him from behind or his face between her legs?

Whatever it was, the blush started immediately, and he watched it bloom out from her cheeks to her hair. Then she was tearing her eyes away to gulp a little.  But it didn’t knock her down for long before she was looking back. And then, wait, was she actually asking him how to go about telling a fed they were fucking?

Okay this is another technical WIP but works as a standalone. I am absolutely fucking feral for character POV takes of canon scenes and this is a supremely excellent take on Rio POV of some notable scenes from the pilot through 204. Imo it brilliantly captures Rio’s voice and I love it a lot. 

HEADS UP I am absolute shite at tracking ao3 to tumblr unless people have specifically told me someone’s ao3/tumblr name SO if you recognize any of the non-tumblr authors on please lmk so I can tag them and YES I recognize that I am asking y’all to do things for me throughout this entire post and I’M SORRY OKAY I’M A WHOLE ASS MESS LOVE YOU BYE

[scandeniall]

Can I request a Afro!s/o tryng to braid Kuroo and Akaashi hair and they like drama queen because it’s kinda painful

this personally attacked me as the most tender headed bitch alive. I do be wondering how i manage to always have my hair done eye---- (but the way you requested 2 of my top 5 boys yeah TASTE)

also im sorry if some of this comes off as crack (esp kuroo)

implied nsfw 

Kuroo

ok so i see him as the type to ask you. Like he sees you braiding your hair for braid outs or cornrows for witch etc and it has him curious

Hes the type to also eye your hair products and just go around smelling them when hes bored and looking at ingredients and stuff

So say you’re like chilling in the living room watching some show on Netflix, but you’re really scrolling the same 3 apps and he’ll just plop down next to you and outright ask.

“Hey babe can you braid my hair for me?” And you’re like huh- but then like ok??? and you reach up to touch his hair. “Go get my comb, brush, spray bottle and then the gel I keep under the cabinet” bc yeah and hes lowkey like???? you need all that just to braid me up (bald head hoe shit for him)

anyways you're gonna try to cornrow him (grip game on 100)

He comes back and literally sits next to you thinking you're about to be able to work like that too and hes just like “whats wrong,” when you're just looking at him.

“You’re too tall for this, you're gonna have to sit on the floor. And hes the type to do it but like get down slowly while complaining about his aching bones from old age. (like shut up you're not even 25 yet) 

Ok so you get his hair a little damp and start parting and hes like, ok ok. But then you start grabbing his hiar to braid and he literally jumps in pain

You: um are you ok????

him: “What the hell (Y/N) that hurts” and you laugh at him and asks him does he want you to stop. But hes like no I’m good and you promise to be gentle

Hes a big baby, flinching every two seconds and youre nice enough to keep asking him is he sure? You cant even part without him complaining

You end up taking a break bc hes annoying and massaging his scalp

do you ever finish braiding him up???? shit idk

he literally asks you to be more gentle every time you touch him and youre like “I’m BARELY touching you”

the type to just knock your hands away to literally just lean back between your legs. “I’m never letting you do this again”

“Good because I didn’t plan on it”

Hes gonna make some stupid joke about even though hes aching hes in one of his fav places rn

Akaashi

he has such soft hair that you really love playing with just in general. And like he’ll let you out him in mini buns and stuff

so one day you’re like cuddling in bed and youre like “hey baby, can I try braiding your hair”

hes the sweetest so hes gonna say yeah. (also hes been curious about it before tbh)

so you set all up at your desk, and ngl you start finding yourself playing in his hair forgetting the task at hand

and hes all soft like “babe. You’re getting distracted,” you you lean down to give him a quick kiss before apologizing 

anyways now, you decide not to give him cornrows and just do regular braids bc you wanna see his head full of braids 

He frowns a little when you start parting as the comb occasionally snags but hes like not too bad

but when you actually gather to start braiding hes like “damn” under his breath 

You just pause holding his hair and starting point between your fingers “You ok down there?

He brushes it off and tells you to keep going

Hes not as bad as kuroo and doesn't start flinching too much until you're like halfway done and now his scalp is getting extra sensitive

Yeah you laugh at him and he just rolls his eyes at you bc wow you're enjoying his pain? bet he got your ass later 

At this point his subconscious stays making him pull his head away and you keep having to pull him back. “Would you stop moving away.”

Hes the type to literally grab your wrist like “stop” and you’re like do you want a break, but hes tryna be a trooper and says no.

fuck it, youre towards the front of his head and its not like you're braiding him to go anywhere so it doesn't have to be perfect: aka you straddle his lap now yes. “Now will you stop fucking moving”

Yeah hes restless but this makes it a little better so he kinda just settles his hand on your waist

He tries to limit his flinching by squeezing at your sides and it kinda works, but when he flinches extra hard at one braid you end up messing up and am just like “you messed it up” but yeah he doesn't care because hes sick and tired of this

you finish him and hes like damn now i need something for the pain and yeah you end up in the bed 

[aceandart]

Hey! I read your recent post and it read differently to a lot of posts under the destiel tag as of now. Personally, I’ve seen the first 5 seasons (watched it about 5 yrs ago), but haven’t been caught up to date on any of the recent stuff other than the Destiel apocalypse that’s happening right now. Could you explain the following?

“...mostly being this show is a misogynistic racist homophobic consent issue-ridden pile of bad writing “.

I was contemplating returning to the show and tuning in for the missing seasons, but what you said about it has now placed me on the fence. Could you elaborate and advise?

Thank you so much! I appreciate seeing an honest post that doesn’t sugar-coat or overlook bad writing/negative characteristics of a show!! :)

[re this]

Hi!

Well, I feel like the finale probably took care of any fence-sitting you were doing (and sorry I couldn't reply sooner), but actually my answer wasn't going to change even if the finale was okay (good, imo, was always a stretch): No, I personally would not recommend watching this show. and while my answer is mostly because of the things I am going to list to answer the rest of this question, I was also going to say - you dropped the show in s5 and that was five years ago? Whatever caused you to drop it in the first place, it probably got a lot worse. (It literally doesn't even matter what your major grievance was, they have since doubled, tripled down in terms of how bad it was.) Trying to marathon through ten seasons (20-23 episodes long each) is hard; trying to marathon through all of that to get something without a satisfactory ending is a lot of emotional labor for no payout. It's not just that this is a bad show (though it really, really is, on every level); it's that you have already tried it, you tried arguably the better seasons of it, and you still didn't want to stick to it. By the nature of how tumblr works, it can make anything look so much better than it is, just because in general the people you see hyping it up *like* the product, have decided to devote their fandom time to it, are highlighting the choicest parts of it. spn was always about the potential around the edges, the story fans made of it; the actual product was always secondary to the could have, should have beens, and this gets truer the later into the show you get. I'm not saying there weren't some great episodes, some great scenes, and even some great mini-arcs, but it was a drop in the bucket to everything else. and I'm positing this answer on the idea that you are asking because you want to watch the show, and not because you want to use the show as a supplemental for your fandom experience, but if it is the latter, I'll just say I'm currently heavily involved in reading fanfic for a fandom I've never actually watched a whole episode for, and while I'm probably missing some context I'm still highly enjoying it. fandom, honestly, so often becomes so much more than the bones we build it on. and if you want a little more, catch some "greatest hits" videos or catch up on just some of the “must-see” episodes and save yourself from having to watch all the moments in-between, because there are a lot more of them than the good parts. very few shows improve as they age out, and before the nov 5th resurgence if you weren't already following spn blogs, likely the main spn meme you were coming across was the annual 'salt and burn this dead horse' that went out after each season renewal. the tl;dr answer is really, it's not worth it. (to be honest, at the end of the day, despite the sheer amount of time, energy, and words I've put into this fandom over the years, and I put in a lot, I didn't actually like the majority of the show. so, you know, grain of salt on my opinion. then again, you left it seasons before I did.) That said, buckle up, cause now I'm gonna tell you why:

Literally, The Shitty Writing

I feel like the finale speaks for this point by itself, but before I get into all the "problematic" bad writing spn does, I want to talk about the fact that the writers are also just fundamentally bad at the craft of writing.

continuity errors. they’d change their lore/creature ability to fit their plot. (the reapers esp got the end of that bad stick.)  the characters will often forget (monster-slaying) solutions that worked before (holy wood, yarrow, christo, creative approaches like exorcisms on recording, spells to remove angels from their vessels, bullet with a devil’s trap, etc).  the writers forgot their own timeline more than once. the random retcons they'd do. sometimes it would also lead to plot holes.

which, speaking of, they had plenty of

there's also things that don't count as plot holes but are very large missed opportunities (ex: Dean spends a year in Purgatory and no one recognizes him? he doesn't bring up his daughter?)

I don't even know what this one would fall under, but if a character wasn't right in front of them, they would forget that character's existence. not just Adam (though that was a big one), but there were so many secondary characters that even in places it would make sense to mention them, much less bring them around, they didn't. or because they would not expand their main character list, characters who should have been around a lot more than they were (*cough* Cas, but that's an easy one, I'm also talking about characters like Kevin) would have these huge gaps between episodes that didn't make sense

they don't really have character development. this isn't to say the brothers don't change, they do, but at the same time the characters face the exact same (internal) arguments over and over again, never resolving or growing from them; they just have more examples when they think about them and it gets worse and more unhealthy because of the new weight added to it. the problem with their brothers only format, and the problem with their biphobia but more on that later, is that Dean wasn't actually allowed to grow out of his John Winchester's son role, to let himself be comfortable (and dare to be happy) with himself because that meant changing the story into something they didn't like and/or didn't know how to do. at the same time, allowing Sam to grow meant breaking the Brothers Only format, because as the show stated multiple times, Sam's happy ending did not involve hunting.

and with that, they sometimes flattened the characters so badly they became caricatures more than anything else.  hell there's a whole season where Dean goes evil, and people had a hard time realizing it, which was not because it was a subtle slow descent but because shitty pacing, uneven (and contradictory) episodes, previous actions that weren't written as being evil but were the the exact same thing as when he was evil that were supposed to be "signs", and how they chose to represent that evil meant it was really hard to figure out that was what they were doing and not just writing Dean as more of an asshole than they previously were.  (he's not evil, he's just a prick.) and I don't mean I had trouble telling, I mean fandom as a whole had major arguments about it, much less the general viewing public.

the series finale put a definite end to the idea they would follow through on even one of their main series themes (family don't end in blood, free will vs destiny, always keep fighting, etc), but this was something they would build up to addressing and then just anti-climatically let fizzle out in multiple seasons. character and relationship themes (not just destiel but the brothers co/counter-dependency, the importance of found family, Dean's growth from Daddy's Blunt Little Instrument and Sam's acceptance that he deserves better/agency in his own life, etc) would be built and broken down in an effort to drag the question out into another season. it wasn't two steps forward, one step back, it was a reboot.

their filler vs arc episode ratios: there's nothing wrong with the Monster of the Week format as a stylistic choice, but this show

a) would kill its own plot momentum to focus on MotW episodes. [part of this is the general spn problem they created of constantly trying to one-up their season's Big Bad, which I understand but also means one episode they are going against The Most Powerful Being in Existence (for the Fifth Time) and then rather than focus on that world-ending threat, they hunt vampires for like six episodes straight. they had a very bad balance where rather than continuously weave the larger arc into the season, or at least build characters and relationships, they'd jam it all around the season premiere, finale, and mid-season finale/premiere episodes, and then all the rest was just, bullshit cases where nothing got resolved or had a lesson stick around for the next episode, making them very skippable. also more on this under the homophobia section]

b) the filler episodes contradicted themselves and the main plot all the time.

c) sometimes they focused so much on making the b-plot a mirror they forgot to write a coherent a-plot. also: sometimes they focused so much on making the b-plot a mirror they forgot to write a coherent b-plot. 

I cringed my way through more than one episode of dialogue

the recycled plots

more on this in the next sections, but either they didn't notice, actively didn't care, or purposefully chose to overtly and subtly imply or state a bunch of really fucked up things, and then never address them at all

speaking of never addressing anything, I realize this is a fandom vs canon battle in general, but so many things get swept under the rug as they move on to the next issue (ex: Dean put an angel in Sam's body to "heal him", violating his consent and exasperating his issue with telling what reality is - a huge issue from previous season - and once the Mark of Cain story really took over the subject gets dropped.) 

death is so cheap on this show. and I don't just mean that the revolving doorway of resurrections means it's hard to get worked up about a death because (as long as the character was a white man and especially the brothers) there was a high chance they'd be back, and I don't just mean that their Murder Is the First, Last, and Best Solution to Any Issue, Ever means the faceless and not so faceless hoards of villains, monsters, and humans who get caught up in it are just hand waved as one of those things (they have ways of saving vessels and the later into the show the less likely they are to even try), but that there was no point in investing in (esp non-white, male) secondary characters because chances were they'd be dead pretty fast.  I'm honestly shocked characters like Jody (who actually at one point was in the middle of being killed off on-screen and then we didn't see her for eight episodes, so we assumed she was dead) made it until the end.

(speaking of dead characters though, what was with the habit of bringing them back constantly? just don't kill them in the first place! create new ones and let those ones stick around instead!)

when they can't use death as their solution, the other answer the writers fall back on is Deus Ex Machina

buckleming were a writing duo who had their own bingo cards that included things like shitty pacing, OOC-ness, flat one-liners, etc, and the question wasn't if you'd get bingo, it was a question of how often you got it during their episodes. at some point throughout the show, it became hard to tell what was a buckleming episode and what was just another episode in the season.  aka the writing quality went WAY DOWN as a whole

you know the tv trope Idiot Ball? or Idiot Plot?  spn should have it's own page for both. 

they constantly break viewer's trust, which is the basic tenet of what not to do when it comes to telling a story. (again, not just destiel, though the queerbaiting is a major part of it because it happened all the time to avoid actually answering that question.) when a writer violates their character's or story's core identity for a 'twist', it needs to have been carefully built so that it's a surprise to the viewer, not a betrayal. (you may not have seen it coming, but when you look back you can see the groundwork.) these writers, every time, chose the "shocking" choice regardless of how much they need to break canon or character to do so. their twists are either obvious, and/or they don't make sense with the rest of their story/lore of the show, and the viewer is left feeling stupid for believing they have more respect for the audience/characters than they do.

I realize this is pretty subjective, but huge swaths of it are just boring. fandom made the experience of watching it interesting, not the show itself.

and yet, for all of that, the quality of writing (while painful to have to sit through) was not the worst thing about it.

(note for the following: I stopped watching after s11, but I'm sure some if not all of these are still relevant until the very end)

Misogyny and Consent Issues: Is There a Limit? Signs Point to No

there is honestly so much under this topic I don't even know where to start. i'm going to focus on patterns rather than specific incidences, because otherwise I'll be writing this for a week, but just know I can easily provide examples of all of these because this is literally what I spent years writing meta on.

female characters were more likely to die quicker/earlier (esp vs other other male characters with similar reoccurring roles/characterizations), stay dead, and die often at the hands of their loved ones and/or in Stranger Danger situations. they died for man!pain. they died for fodder. they died as a sacrifice. they were turned into love interests (whether that was their original role or not) and then killed. they were put in mortal danger and then not given resolution for several episodes (Schrödinger's death.) they died in ways we've seen male characters survive. their deaths - the violence enacted on them - was constantly, consistently sexualized, and the camera lingered.

when it came to villains the show would go out of its way to kill the female one first, or act like she's the more pressing issue so that the male character could hang around longer (and honestly by male character I often mean specifically Crowley and the season's female villain. not only that but they'd often break canon to kill off a female character, and break canon to save Crowley/a male character)

when you compare the treatment of reoccurring female characters vs male characters who occupied either similar roles or characterizations, female characters were often punished and/or treated poorly for the same attitude and/or actions of their compared male character, who often got not just a (free) pass, but more screen time, dialogue, and development

they have more than once used the story line of underage girl seducing a grown man. (it was a whole season arc even.) this is esp galling when you find out about crew member Jim Michaels, who sexually harassed and assaulted (minor) fans

(btw, not the only crew/cast member to do so! and still be invited to cons!)

Dean Winchester (who is narratively treated as the moral judgement for the show) has blamed more than one rape victim for their assault/trauma. they often get abused (or outright killed) for stopping their abuser. 

Dean is ok with flirting with/leering at barely legal teenage girls. already sketchy when he's 26, really gross when he's in his mid/late thirties 

speaking of Dean. based on past personal experience I'm going to say up front people do not like me saying this, but that doesn't mean what I'm saying is wrong or even based on interpretations: Dean has more than one relationship that if it isn't rape, falls under extreme dubious consent.

there's actually a lot of rape (or "extreme dubious consent") and assault/molestation, both shown and mentioned: Cas and April, the cases were men take away free will and then have sex with the women (Ben Edlund was one of the better writers of series and even he did this a couple of times), Crowley orgy (and demon sex in general), random women in some episodes, Sam and meta!Gen, Becky and Sam, Sam and Lucifer, Dean and Alastair, several monsters (like the siren) and their victims, male characters secretly watching female characters undress/be naked, and so on. Dean was often attacked sexually by men, Sam by women. most of this is never addressed, never treated like what it is, and/or is made into a joke

and there's even more rape jokes beyond that, sub-sections: prison, vessels/demons, angel possession, sex work, childhood abuse, monster of the week, sexuality, etc.  huge chunks if not whole episodes were devoted to making what amounted to a rape joke. 

often ignored non-sexual consent (esp Dean’s actions, including a lot of mind-wiping and violations of body autonomy)

everything about Sam and body autonomy - he is frequently violated (multiple characters have possessed him; he is fed demon blood); how he feels unclean, how he feels disconnected from his own body, how he often is forced to act outside of his control and then blamed for those decisions

actually, Cas goes through that a lot too; he is trained, brainwashed, and forced to do things without his consent, and goes through major depressive episodes because of it

this show has a pattern of girls who are kidnapped, (sexually abused), raised in isolation, and expected to develop some perfect moral compass of acceptable behavior and were then killed off when they didn't. meanwhile, male characters get fourth, fifth chances.

female characters (and I'm talking about ones with speaking roles, who play an actual part in the plot, who are sometimes in multiple episodes) are more likely to be unnamed or given no last name

are you a Mother on spn (as in, that's your role)? you're either fridged for man!pain or abusive or both

it rarely could pass the bechdel test (including in s9 don't believe those fandom lies), and that's including episodes that focused on female characters. if the test included that the characters have to be named, that (small) number probably gets cut in half. if that test included both women are alive at the end...  

female monsters prove they deserve to live by killing off their family to prove they're the "good kind"  (this is not necessary for male monster characters)

female characters are not allowed to get vengeance

they took the Virgin vs Whore dynamic (and that that's all women are), and devoted a whole episode to it, but in general it underlines of ton of interactions, esp with regards to Dean and women.  {I actually never got around to writing it, but women tended to fall into four main classifications on this show, though overlap definitely allowed: Victim [sub-categories: Fodder, (Dean) Mirror, Mother], Love Interest, Sex Object, and Villain/Obstacle. very few female characters were either allowed to outgrow their category or didn't start in one.} 

we see the male characters assault female characters but it's okay because [insert supernatural reason here], ignoring that whatever explanations for why it's being allowed, we are still visually being shown this violence against women, and often from our "heroes"  (the women are then tossed away from the narrative after the violence and again, their aftermath gets regulated to off-screen who cares)

female characters were only allowed to be "so badass"; female hunters often fought female monsters or they lost/got regulated to the sidelines in battles. this gets even more contrasted as a male character/hunter will often do a nod about how "badass" she is, even as she is very easily beaten.

 the whorepobia of this show

had a tendency to strip female characters down to their underwear/make them nude before torturing them, and then adding sexualized torture on top of that

outside of actor injuries affecting this (like one of them broke his arm so he had a sling for a few episodes), female characters are often more likely to visually carry the bruises/violence of violent incidences much longer than male characters

gratuitous filming shots of breasts, asses

the use of the words: bitch, skank, whore, slut; the play on words they do so they can say "pussy"  

taking female myths/figures and reducing them to a cheap, sexist storyline (Amazons, Artemis, Lilith, Eve, witches - who are only allowed to live/be "good" if they're men, and are otherwise in league with demons/are evil and lose)

they often kept a character but switched out her actress; helps with the disposable feeling

how they treat women's ages (ex: Jody is not allowed to be a love interest to Sam because she's older than him/calling Dean 'kiddo'. ex: Rowena is played by a woman fifteen years younger than Crowley's actor. ex: Amara being one of the oldest things in existence but still having to age her way up.)

their treatment of teenage girls, ranging from how they sexualized them to expecting them to save themselves to treating them like they are grown adults and not children to the way they kept killing the ones who posted selfies to the fact the pr more than once used the tag "teenage girls - the scariest thing ever" for Claire's episodes 

actions and lasting legacies by female characters often got erased or passed on to male characters instead

it's a time honored tradition to treat certain monsters as metaphors for things. specifically for spn, they often use werewolves and vampires for sexual assault. (not the first to do so, not the last to do so.) however, that part of it gets textually glossed over, or treated as a joke, more often than not

and for all the patterns I talk about above, there's plenty of other one-off examples of misogyny/sexism or consent issues/rape culture this show did. like that time a grown man sniffed the bra of a dead teenage girl. not for any reason, just because it was there and that's what dudes do, apparently.

Racism: All the Flavors(+ Bonus Sexism)

when you compare the treatment of reoccurring white characters vs characters of color who occupied either similar roles or characterizations, characters of color were often punished and/or treated poorly for the same attitude and/or actions of their compared white character, who often got not just a (free) pass, but more screen time, dialogue, and development. 

usually Black men but in general men of color: 

a) got humiliated (often using feminization or infantilization) before their death  

b) had a more violent death; had a death that visually echoed racism (lynching, shot in the back, etc)

c) often used (racialized) rhetoric that in the real world is used against them

d) often filmed in ways to highlight their physicality, to portray them animalistically, to dehumanize them

e) even when victims, will add context to make them partially responsible for their death

characters of color were the villains or antagonists, very rarely "good guys"

this was a very white show, and while I'm speaking about speaking roles, reoccurring characters, and characters who get their own arcs, I'm also talking about background characters

using lore from groups they should not have and/or turned creatures into racist caricatures

having white actors play characters they shouldn't have

heavily depended on stereotypes for their characters of color

the treatment (esp narrative empathy level) of white angels vs angels of color.  again, screen time and character development differences between the two

a summary of (East) Asian woman on this show: fetishized porn/sexualized, “tiger mom”, Yoko Ono/The Girlfriend, monster. they were often silent or had no dialogue. microaggressions (usually spoken by Dean) were leveled at them.

antisemitism (styne issue, erasure of the Judah Initiative, Lilith, the golem)

like the sexism, just had random racist lines or visuals throughout the show (and sometimes those came in the absence of who should be there); some groups literally did not have enough characters to make a pattern, which is why this section looks a lot shorter than it really is

like for ex, I'm trying to stick with patterns but seriously, they put a Black woman in a dog collar and said her white boyfriend was her master/that she belonged to him

the ignorance of how white privilege worked to make them palatable

the replacement and/or elevation of a white character over a character of color (Lisa over Cassie, Bobby over Missouri, Charlie over Kevin in terms of how they were treated under Found Family, etc) 

how they treated non-Christian Gods: easily killed, evil, weak. they often repackaged them into a Christian framework and made them lesser than.

Bi/Homophobia, Queerbaiting, and Using Fans

they butchered Charlie.  they killed her, they killed her in a way that involved leaving behind plot, characters, and logic to do so, they killed her and used the violence of it for "shock," they butchered her and stuck her in a bathtub.  the guy who wrote Charlie in every other episode (Robbie Thompson, one of the better writers of the show) didn't write her last episode (assumption: because he wouldn't) and then he arguably left the show over her death. at one of the cons (comic-con?) the cast literally turned their backs when a fan questioned Carver (the showrunner) about what he did because they wanted no part of it. there was a mass exodus of fandom after they killed her (and another portion actually hung around because they got destiel queerbaited to stick out the rest of the season, and then they left.) she was un-apologetically queer, she was found family, she was widely popular, and they killed her for no reason at all. they didn't just Bury The Gay (their only reoccurring one), they salted and burnt the ground

they spent over a decade queerbaiting Destiel. they built queerbaiting destiel into the structure of the show: season opening/first couple of episodes whetted the appetite, which they then backed away from (usually removing Cas from Dean's physical area) and around this time they'd usually have some kind of heterosexual love interest, then mid-season they'd have some room to be together and share feelings, Cas would again disappear but this time they'd have some bi!Dean thrown in to keep you going, a few episodes before the end they'd have a major connection moment (I need you, I love you), and then the season would end with something to keep destiel fans occupied with during summer. it was never a trajectory, it was a cycle; just enough for plausible deniability but more than enough for fans to believe in. they had whole seasons where the b-plot were mirrors for destiel. they tried to sell DVDs by promising destiel cut scenes. they'd remove Cas from huge chunks of episodes just because they didn't want destiel interacting in the same physical space. they filmed them (I'm talking camera angles, physical positioning, etc) romantically.  (and sometimes, someone on crew/the network would accidentally reveal how not-fucking-happening destiel would be, and then backtrack when they realized fandom’s uproar.) 

a) Dean was only allowed to care so much for Cas, the narrative would only give him so much room to mourn/miss him. (Sam too.) it's beyond my general complaint that the writers/bros lose all interest in a character if they are not right in front of them (if they even cared when they were), but specifically they will spend episodes talking about how Cas is family, how much they care, and then because Dean and Cas cannot share the screen they come up with asinine reasons to remove Cas, which means Dean/the bros do not help him on his issues, and he is cast adrift until they need him, a push/pull of show vs tell with contradictory answers but made a lot of Cas/Destiel fans argue Cas deserved better.  

b) they also devoted seasons to the (subtextual) love triangle of Dean/Cas/Crowley. (I wish I was fucking kidding)

c) "you construct intricate rituals which allow you to touch the skin of other men": the way they use violence to supplement affection (which is actually a larger pattern with Dean and his loved ones in general, but specifically the show is willing to show - multiple times - Dean and Cas being violent (often with an arguably sexualized filming to it) in conjunction with or as replacement for expressing their care.)  other side of this: hugging/physical affection outside of the shoulder/hand thing is reserved for escaping or coming back from death, if then (and it took seasons and a few deaths to even get that.) 

d) "buddy"  

that time Dean was allowed to be textually attracted to his mother and a literal dog (who was visually made to be very clearly a girl dog), but his attraction to men always stays subtextual and/or treated as a joke

they spent the whole show queerbaiting bi!Dean. aside comments, checking out other guys, getting flustered by men he finds attractive, metaphors, mirror characters, the heterosexual overcompensation [which is different from but comes from a similar place of the macho compensation to counteract how he gets sexualized/feminized], everything with Cas and how they play that relationship romantically and with sexual attraction, the character development that led to his relaxation of his macho compensation coinciding with increasing subtextual readings of his bisexuality (and domesticity), the inspiration for his name/character is bi, his relationship to Charlie and the pattern of fictive kinship, etc etc.  

why are angels straight???? why do they have gender???? (why are they interested in sex???)  minus the queerbaiting of destiel, they spent a lot of seasons pushing Cas into a heterosexual box. other angels were often pushed into heterosexual boxes too. (or left in subtext and then killed.) closest we got to playing with gender was Raphael and maybe Hannah, and at least with Raphael it was not without its issues. (also: both dead.)

random transphobic lines

homosexuality was often treated like a joke/punchline. queer characters/scenes were often treated like a joke/punchline.

outside of Charlie, queer characters were small, two-bit roles, extremely rare, and often killed

how they treated and showcased fandom space and esp queer fans in-show (much less how they treated them in real life), comes from a deeply sexist and homophobic place 

The Show Was 328 Episodes Long And the thing is, these are the four big categories, but it's not like this is it. The show flip-flops on calling John an abusive parent/that the bros are childhood abuse survivors. The show doesn't even really call out when Dean is being abusive to Sam, and the way they always, always go back to the Brothers Only format means they are often ignoring or straight-up forgetting the unhealthy aspects of their relationship. The show ignores how their trauma builds (and all the things that happen because of it), disconnecting the current issues with the ones that came before. The way they flip flop on monster morality and never address what the winchester bros do to people who happen to be monsters but aren't evil (or definitely aren't as evil as they are).  How violence is always the answer. How the "saving people'' part of hunting got dropped the later the show goes on, and red shirt vessels/hosts die in droves. Depending on how you view it, the way they treat alcoholism and addiction. The ableism. The line between the narrative's opinion on acceptable violence and not is inconsistent and dependent on how much they like the character doing the violence vs who the violence is being done to. Etc.

(The above lists are definitely missing stuff. I haven't done anything in this fandom in like four years, I've forgotten a lot.) I'm not saying people didn't enjoy this show. I'm not saying I didn't enjoy (parts of) this show. I'm saying whether you are basing it on things like writing craft or things like 'social justice issues', this show is bad. It is of poor quality. I really don't know how to explain the hold it has on people, how a show can be charismatic, how fandom was able to squeeze so much out of so little, but that's probably what's got you attracted into the idea of watching it again. If you're thinking of watching it because you want a coherent, well done story, look elsewhere. The finale was the literal last straw, not the only one. 

[bellamyblake]

I saw your tags and I agree! s6 was peak romantic Bellarke. I think the problem with the season is that it left a bitter taste. I was so good and after s5 kinda restored our souls but then there wasn't a payoff and jroth...well...was jroth and downplayed it big time. So all that excitement went away.

My personal opinion is that a lot of bellarke, like strong bellarke fans with lots of followers, and mainly creators of all sorts (giffers, fanfic writers) left in season 5 because they didn’t enjoy the season and as much as we as fans write and talk about angst, I guess we can’t handle watching it? So that was one reason. 

Another reason was that much like in season 3, in season 5 people have big expectations about the bellarke reunion, and when that wasn’t met, they kind of stepped back. 

Also, as much as I love our fandom, I think a very big portion of it just don’t get bellamy (or clarke for that matter) as INDIVIDUAL characters. Many people used the hash tag not my bellamy at the season 5 time and that hurt me personally a lot because I am one of those people who loved seeing bellamy grow as a leader, as a person, as a human being. 

The more I watch and rewatch, the better I get the characters but I just think that a very big part of the fandom is very much in love with the idea of the rebel kind bellamy and the bellarke from season 1 and I can see where this appeal comes from, though I personally prefer their relationship in later seasons because for me it grows and gains substance and just makes them THEM, you know? 

But I think a lot of people were just in love with this idea of angry, spontaneous, rebel king, whatever-the-hell-we-want Bellamy that they just...wanted that? And nothing else. Whilst I think it was most necessary that he grew as a character, that he grew as a leader. It is what Clarke wanted for him. Now I always think he was head AND heart before just like she was head and heart too before that monumental talk in 4x13 but I think the pain of losing clarke just sent him to more of THAT head extreme than anything.

However season 6 truly realizes him as he IS and should be- a very well rounded leader, a very well-balanced mix of head and heart. That is so clearly showed in 6x06 memento mori when he talks to Murphy and first he just wants to act his GRIEF out, the grief form losing Clarke AGAIN but then he gets to think about it and he slows down, takes a breath and realizes that-she’s gone and yet again it is up to HIM to take care of THEM, all of them and that THIS is what she would want and THIS is how he honors her. It’s not the first time it happens and it hurts even worse but he has to do this.

Bellarke is amazing in season 6 because it has all these amazingly awesome tropes that we talk and write about in fic but suddenly they are right there for us and we somehow skip them? Which is unbelievable for me.

We have the Bellamy figuring out it’s not her and then going through the grief of losing her YET again whilst in the meantime Clarke is in Jo’s body and tries to fight for herself but GIVES UP WHEN SHE FIGURES OUT HE THINKS SHE’S DEAD and then we get him realizing she’s still IN THERE and he FIGHTS FOR HER and he actually truly brings her BACK using the same old but golden

Head and Heart

And I won’t lie it hurts me that some of those fans who gave up in season 5 and again I’m not blaming them but sometimes I feel like they are just unncessesarily evil cause they say-oh lord they touched lips in that cpr scene are we really fawning over that?

And I’m like-do I gotta remind you guys, that YOU died when she kissed his cheek in 2x16?

So somehow one is better than the other? And somehow those of us who saw all of their potential and all of the amazing stuff that happened for them in season 6 (from bellamy figuring it out to thinking he lost her YET again, to fighting for her in the cave, and then literally saving her and then REFUSING to let her risk her life yet again but knowing he doesnt have a choice to her HUGGING Him when she lost her mom???? all the tropes literally...all the fics you write IS that but you can write it yet not see it and recognize it?) are...I guess wrong? LOL for the general fandom esp on twitter.

Tbh the reason why season 5 was so bad for me was because of fandom and most of all it was because of people claiming the hash tag-not my bellamy.

I came into this fandom in the worst time possible. In season 3. When bellarke and bellamy fans hated Bellamy much like they did in season 5 and when I was so confused as to what I think and I read all these meta and thoughts and all those stuff. Much of the same is happening now in season 7.

So I told myself, I won’t listen to anyone, I won’t read anything and I’ll just blacklist. But it still hurt. It hurt like HELL. But now I’m smarter, and i make my own thoughts and I know what I love about my favorite character and I know when I can judge the writing, when I can judge his actions when I can love his actions, all of it.

But I do it, myself.

I think a lot of people are just influenced by fandom. And that’s horrible. My friend who’s not in the fandom LOVED season 5, hated season 4. I love season 4 because of many things I wont get into now but that’s just my point. People can ruin this for you.

However I will never forget the not my bellamy tag. And people still use that shit. and I just never will get it. I love this boy. I love where he is now. And I am sorry but as cool and as awesome he is in season 1 and I love him there too, I just love the well-rounded person that he is now, the growth he went through.

Do I find injustices? Yes, I do. I definitely do. I have thoughts about things that I find wrong when it comes to Bob and Bellamy. And I can criticize that. 

but I love Bellamy Blake. That I am sure of. And no amount of hash tags and people telling me touching lips aint shit in cpr scenes or casual glances are nothing and on and on about how pathetic I am, can change my mind. 

[misc-headcanons]

Idk if you do multimatchups but it's totally ok if you don't ??? Like some people will do hero and villain matchups but it's ok!! I would understand if not!!! Anyway... A one piece matchup please!!!! I am a straight female,, 5'4 (and slightly chubby) blonde. My hair is very long and kinda curly. I have brown eyes and square/rectangular glasses bc I do be blind as shit you feel me?? 😔 I also wear a lot of black... Now for the fun stuff!! 1/3(hopefully)

I am!!! A fun loving person!!! I have a lot of anxiety but I try to be more optimistic ((and arguably loud)) bc what's so fun about being scared all the time??? Nothing djsjsbd. I am a Scorpio btw if that matters!! And an Debater personality for MBDI types which I think makes sense bc I'm very chatty lmao. I like all kinds of music but I guess mostly poprock stuff?? Kinda the vibe of darker themes but happy beats. I like reading but my attention span is bad.. drawing, playing piano, video games

And I like rollercoasters!! I'm not really good at cooking but I'm trying to learn lol ((I'm ok at baking tho)). I collect knives and more commonly manga. I sleep a loootttt and I love to take walks/explore !!! Uhh.. I'm usually either the mom friend/leader type or the bastard meme type friend lmao. I am VERY flirtatious ((yes I am over 18 if that helps)) but I've never been with anyone 😔. I'm terrified of bugs but ESP spiders !!!! I also studied psychology in highschool. Last part I promise- continuing that thought, I think id want to go to law school if I go to one at all. Thank you again you're super nice and I hope you have a good day and just in case I forgot to say it bc my ADHD to be making me forget but this is for one piece!!!! Love u!!! Xoxo

I match you with...Usopp! 

I really think you and Usopp would vibe together. You mentioned your role in friendship dynamics is usually either the mom friend or the chaotic meme bastard, and Usopp fits a similar role on the Straw Hats crew; he's the more sensible one compared to the likes of Zoro and Luffy, who will fight literally anything regardless of the potential consequence, but he's much more chaotic than the other "responsible" members of the crew like Nami and Robin. He's somewhere in the middle, just like you! 

Usopp may talk a big game, but any time you flirt with him, he turns into a blushing, flustered mess. Because you??? Think he's handsome??? And you're saying it out loud so everyone can know how much you like him??? AAAAAAAAAAAA

Usopp can definitely relate to your anxiety, and he does his best to help you stay calm during a panic attack or whenever your thoughts are starting to spiral out of control. Whenever there's a battle, he's ready to get you to safety at a moment's notice--not only does he want to help you and make your safety his number one priority, but he can also run away from a fight with you and just try to relax together until shit dies down. He'd try his best to keep your fear of bugs in mind, so even if he wants to show you this cool-ass beetle he captured, he doesn't want to scare you. So he'll just show it off to Chopper and Luffy. 

He'd use his inventing and crafting skills to make some glasses that aren't as likely to break on the battlefield; if the ship gets attacked and your glasses got broken, you'd be stumbling around blind and could fall overboard or worse! He'd also use his weapon-making expertise to make all sorts of knives for you to add to your collection; right now, he's working on a way to care a piece of Sea Prism stone into a blade for you to use against any Devil Fruit users in case they try to go after you in a fight. 

Because of your interest in roller coasters, he definitely wants to take you the Sabaody Park once Luffy and the crew find the One Piece. And just to prove he's no coward, he'll ride any attraction no matter how terrifying it is--the fact that he's screaming at the top of his lungs the entire time is irrelevant. He is a brave man, dammit. He'd try to get recipe books for you if he thinks you'd like them, but he's a liiiiitle bit cagey about asking Sanji to give you lessons on cooking/baking. He's not insecure or anything...okay, yes, yes he is. He knows deep down you wouldn't leave him for Sanji, but still, he'd get annoyed if Sanji did his whole heart-eyed "Ero Cook" shit around you.

He'd always want to partner up with you when the crew is exploring a new island, and when you're sailing the seas, he likes to just walk around the outside deck with you at night as a little date. He thinks you can't see how much he blushes when it's nighttime. He's very wrong. He's not as into naps as Zoro, but he does tend to sleep late when he's out at sea. He's got a bed set up in the Sunny's workshop and it's pretty common for you to stay up with him a bit and then fall asleep in his cot, only for him to carefully climb in as well to cuddle with ya until he falls asleep. 

[sk8terzz]

OK WAIT VAMPIRE AU AND IM LIVING FOR IT i have a shit ton of headcanons so,,,

here’s a quick summary

Humans hunt vampires and they’re often outcased/killed, although there’s been more recently since they’re learning from a young age to disguise themselves and can now hide their teeth.

also there's a couple types of vampires: some who melt in sun but have wings and can eat normal diets and those who don’t melt in sun, don’t have wings and need a little bit of blood in their diets (but it can be from like,, animals. It doesn’t have to be humans)

the vampires who melt in the sun (ILL CALL EM MELTY BOYS) are super rare so unless stated otherwise, whenever i say “X is a vampire” i'm referring to the not melty ones with no wings

setting/time/almost everything is the same. They are just. Vampires. (THEY LOOK DIFFERENTS TOO SFBDJHG)

also ships include: adrinette/ladynoir, djwifi, julerose, kimax, myvan, nathaniel/marc (I FORGOT THEIR SHIP NAME) and chlolix (chloe/alix)

You can send me ask if you want more details on certain things but yeah

if that interest you there’s more stuff under the cut

here’s what everyone is because its easier

Marinette: vampire *MELTY BOY

Adrien: vampire *MELTY BOY

Nino: human

Alya: half vampire thing?? Idk it just feels right *the sun hurts her skin a little, and she has little wings*

Chloe: vampire

Sabrina: human

Alix: vampire

Kim: human

Max: human

Rose: human

Juleka: vampire *MELTY BOY

Nathaniel: human

Lila: human

Mylene: human

Ivan: vampire

Everyone else is a human except for marc, nathalie and adrien’s mom *MELTY BOY

- marinette feels rlly bad about being a vampire (ALSO she a melty one)

- “TIKKI IM A VAMPIRE BRO I CANT BE LADYBUG”

- can go in the sun for about a minutes before it begins to really hurt so being ladybug isn’t awful cause she can hide in the shade most of the time

- ALWAYS HAS A SUN CAP ON (when she’s marinette) she just wants to be in the sun bro

- some guys start a theory that ladybug’s a vampire and she’s SCREAMING LIKE BRO HOW DO THEY KNOW but it was a joke

- alya is like,, super weird about vampires cause she was taught her whole life to hate vampires by nora because she thinks they’re super dangerous

- at first alya’s like “yeah suck it vampires” and then she learns she’s actually half vampire and she’s kinda like

- “fuck”

- almost rejects the miraculous lb gave her cause she was like “no im kinda vampire”

- but lb just goes “yeah me too so what”

- ALYA FREAKS SHE’S LIKE FUCK YEAH VAMP GANG

- nino’s super chill with her being a vampire!! he finds it rlly cool lol

i feel like i could go into more detail about their relationship but That’s Another Story For Another Day

- adrien kinda hates being a vampire (esp a melty one) and hides it from everyone but plagg

- his dad would kill him for being a vampire because then his son wouldn’t be perfect and that’s not good enough

- felix figures out he’s a vampire but doesn’t tell anyone

- felix isn’t a fan of vampires but respects his cousin and keeps his secret

- hiding his wings is so annoying like??? He wraps them around his body and wears a cap all the time is the WORST

- also same thing as lb he can go in the sun for about a minute as chat noir before he begins to melt

- again i can go into more detail about chat noir/ladybug and marinette/adrien but im trying to keep this kinda short

- CHLOE OH GOD chloe is so scared

- don’t get me wrong she still is mean and petty but she’s really scared someone will find out shes a vampire

- and someone does

- BUT ITS ALIX AND SHES ALSO A VAMPIRE LMAO

- alix is super chill with chloe and is like “hey man i know ur a vampire but i am too”

- after this they both end up getting feeling for each other lol

- THEY BE DATING but that’s a secret

- chloe’s mom knows she’s a vampire because she saw her fangs when she was born which is part of the reason she doesn’t like chloe

- in this au audrey never warms up to chloe instead chloe learns to not give a shit about what her mom thinks (with the help of marinette and ladybug) and tells her off before her mom leaves for new york

- her mom still keeps the fact that chloe’s a vampire a secret from everyone tho

- cause outing someone as a vampire is actually so low that even thought like yeah,, not everyone likes vampires but like no one’s gonna like u either bc you outed them on something so personal and something they trusted you with

- sabrina doesn’t care if chloe’s a vampire she still really cares about her

- but sabrina wouldn’t like it if anyone else was a vampire

- also another thing about chloe she tends to act like she hates vampires to avoid detecting from the Vamp Police 

- ig the vamp police is like sabrina’s dad who really hates vampires and actively looks for them (which is part of the reason sabrina isn’t a big fan of vampires either.)

- they’re not called the vamp police it’s just the police but i like saying that

- like i said before alix is Vampire and basically learns who’s a vampire in the class super quickly

- she knows what to look for when someone’s hiding their identity and knows she’s not the only vampire in the class

- she also figures out everyone’s super hero identities (which is why she gets the rabbit miraculous)

- max knows from stats that it’s likely that there's a couple people in the class who are vampires

- KIM DIDN’T ACTUALLY KNOW WHAT A VAMPIRE WAS BECAUSE HIS FAMILY THOUGHT IT WOULD SCARE HIM SO THEY NEVER TOLD HIM LMAO

- max had to teach him (with the help of alix) what a vampire was but it took like an hour

- the only reason kim actually learned something is because his boyfriend told him that if he paid super close attention (after running through the whole presentation like 3 times) he would give him a smooch

- after that kim grew a big brain and learned everything

- both of their parents and ondine would be super accepting if they were vampires tho

- but they’re both human

- also a little more lore its not biological if you’re a vampire or not it’s purely chance

- Its kinda like being born lgbt ig

- ALSO EVERYONE IS SOME FORM OF LGBT but i have my own hc for that

- lgbt vampires are incredibly oppressed like they can’t go out into the street *pensive*

- ANYWAYS juleka is a melty vampire and rose is a human

- rose’s family is super into hunting vampires 

- rose invited her gf over for a family dinner and the whole time they talked about killing vampires

- juleka doesn’t hate being a vampire and thinks it’s really cool

- SO SHE DRESSES LIKE A VAMPIRE???

- rose had marinette design juleka a sun hat similar to hers because juleka kept forgetting she melts in the sun and went out in it more times then she should’ve

- juleka’s a little bit more outgoing in this au and drops hints that she’s a vampire because she thinks it’s Epic

- rose has to remind her that not everyone thinks it’s epic

- nathaniel is really passionate about vampires and wants to learn more about them

- HE POPPED OFF HARD WHEN HE LEARNED HIS BOYFRIEND’S A VAMPIRE

- nathaniel is so supportive of marc it’s rlly cute

- he has to stop himself from mentioning his bf’s a vampire bc he remembers not everyone thinks it’s as cool as he does

- marc loves that nathaniel is so supportive

- when he first saw nathaniel drawing the class of vampires he just went “fuck he’s the one”

- 100% nathaniel draws marc looking super vampire during class

- i’m just now thinking of akuma’s but like here’s kinda how it would work

- They’re basically the same as they were before (being all evil and shit,, basically the same powers) but i think there would be some story changes??

- lady wifi would be less concerned with lb’s identity and more with if she’s a vampire or not because the cause of her akuma would be her theorizing if lb’s a vamp or not

- causing chloe to make fun of her and say stuff like “cool people can’t be vampires they’re stupid and serve no purpose in life”

- lady wifi doesn’t manage to rip of either lb’s mask for her fake teeth because the costume change also adds fake human teeth to replace the real ones (and you can’t take them off like the mask)

- but lady wifi doesn’t know this so she assumes lb’s not a vampire which she’s disappointed with but alya doesn’t remember this

- BUT the media and chat noir think that she’s not a vampire

- reflekta’s design is a little different but that’s about it

- The change with lady wifi is the only akuma i can think about rn but if i do more headcanons about this i might go more into detail on stuff like that

- CHAT BLANC IS ALSO DIFFERENT

- the build up to the akumatisation is basically the same but adrien realises that lb is marinette and also a melty vampire cause he she’s her melt a little when she leaves the room

- after marinette breaks up with adrien he runs in and transforms 

- after the reveal of adrien’s mom and stuff adrien reveals his wings and tries to kill is dad

- gabriel is disgusted by his son and tells him how disappointed his mother would be

- then chat gets akumatized and stuff

- instead of hitting the moon he’d hit the sun so that he didn’t need to struggle with being a vampire anymore

- he sucks the life out of hawkmoth and claims that he and lb can be together now that there’s no daylight but she says she can live like this which is when he kills her and goes on a murder spree

- then he just sits atop the eiffel tower in complete darkness until past lb shows up with bunnyx and she fixes everything

- his motives are more about disappointing his mother this time and being ashamed about being a vampire

- and also that his wish would be to make it so nobody is a vampire so people wouldn't have to feel ashamed about their identity and hide it all the time

- lb teaches him to love himself and his identity as a vampire and how proud his mother would’ve been of him

- ok enough about chat blanc 

- lila is a human and she acts like she loves vampires 

- but she actually hates them

- she’s super touchy with adrien and he’s even more uncomfortable now cause he knows she’s lying and would hate him when she found his wings

- all the vampires have seen this act before and tell their s/o’s so basically everyone’s against lila except for like maybe sabrina

- no one thinks she’s cool because i hate her

- she still lies about going on rides with prince ali and other stuff 

- WOULD TOTALLY OUT SOMEONE AS A VAMPIRE

- absolute jerk

- her family is known for hunting vampires but she claims she’s different

- ok but ivan is just a sweet vampire trying to keep his identity a secret and mylene is just his support human gf who loves him just the way he is

- ivan doesn’t hate being a vampire but also doesn’t like it cause he’s worried that everyone will say stuff like “i bet you’re a vampire” “you’re a villain and you’re cruel, just like vampires” and other stupid stuff

- he is just a soft man

- MYLENE DEFENDS HIM WITH HER LIFE

- mylene thinks him being a vampire is super cool!!

- they kiss a lot and ivan is worried he’ll bite her but she’s ok with it

- sometimes ivan wishes he was a melty vampire so he could wrap his wings around mylene to cuddle her and stuff

- they are v cute valid couple

- gabriel knows nathalie is a vampire and she knows he knows but neither of them make comments on it

- nathalie does really like vampires and doesnt mind being one herself

- she knows adrien’s a vampire and helps him hide it

- his father likes to know everything about adrien so he tried leaving cups with blood in them in his room to see if he would drink them

- and if he did cause he didn’t know his father was testing him nathalie would just refill them

- she starts keeping blood around the house and gabriel assumes it’s just for her cause he isn’t educated and doesn’t know the difference between rare vamps and the common vamps

- but it’s for adrien

- ALSO LIKE LAST ONE BUT one time lb and chat went out at night to hunt for blood cause they were thirsty but they ran into each other and it was rlly awkward

- but they’re both rlly oblivious and convince each other that they were out for a nightly stroll cause they couldnt sleep

[jadedjxsung]

written ship

“If ur ok w it can I request a romantic ship bc idk I’m just genuinely curious HHAHAHA,,, Idk how to explain how I look BUT I have long brown hair w bangs, light skin medj big eyes, I have lips leaning towards the plumper side and am 5’3 and a half HHAHAHA. (( if you want I can send a picture if that doesn’t help you !!! ))    As for my personality I’m rlly friendly and understanding !!! I’ve been told I am rlly good at listening and understanding both sides when there’s an argument, and I’m quite outgoing depending on my mood,,, mostly outgoing though !!! I’m quite hot tempered but I can control it. I am the type of person to think a lot and I need to rant to someone about it,,, and I also want to be able to be like a some sort of emotional pillar for some people bc a lot of ppl tell em I’m good at like listening, giving advice and empathizing w problems and such,,, but I care a lot,,, to the point where I get affected by every little thing,,, basically I’m hella sensitive but I’m trying to work on it hehehe.    Idk if this is true or false but I’ll add it in anyway bc it MUGHT be helpful,,, im told I’m like a white puppy ???? Like I’m told I’m like rlly pure and naive and somewhat energetic HHAHAHA,,, bc I always manage to make my friends soft for me or make em talk to me about their struggles naturally. I would say I’m open minded, and bro I literally can’t get mad at anyone ???? Bc I’m scared they’ll get hurt but when something gets too far I’ll try to tell em as nice as possible and to try to not make it look like it’s completely their fault, bc I think that in most situations there’s usually two part of the story so yeah HHAHAHA,,, like I just rlly try to find what the person did good yk hHAHAH,,, my mom has also told me I’m too nice and I try too hard to find the good in ppl to the point where I kinda forget about myself but rlly im working on that.    Tbh im the sort of person to think A LOT A LOT and get myself into stupid things bc I think it’ll be fun and I do it w good intention in mind but then I just end up getting myself into some small drama and I get stressed and ofc I know it’s my fault bc I got myself into it but after that I’ve gotten sooo so paranoid I always think I’m doing something wrong but like I know I didn’t like at the back of my head but I still apologize first.      As for my interests I rlly like dancing, sports in general,,, drawing, music, and working out for some reason HHAHAHA,,, one of my favorite things to do is to just go out for a drive and listen to chill music bc like idk o just find it soooo relaxing !!!! And I like going on walks like on a beach especially when it’s cold and windy Bc it’s rlly refreshing !!! Like I just like staying on a balcony w a nice view w wind just BLOWING yk. Tbh if I were in a relationship o would want it to be like walking in beaches and filming each other’s memories yk bc I just find that so so so fun esp when you compile it and look back at it I’m the future !!!!     I would also love to have like a dog in the future of adopt one or own one w my future s/o bc one, Ive never had a dog but always wanted one and two, it just seems like soooo much fun 🥰. Like I would also LOVE to binge watch a drama w my future s/o or just w friends and family yk bc NGL binge watching a drama is soooo much fun especially when you have people around. I also as I’ve said rlly enjoy singing dancing and drawing,,, especially drawing !!!     At times I can be a big crackhead bc I randomly think of weird questions at random times of the day HHAHAHA and when I ask someone they kinda ask if I’m okay But rlly it just COMES to me ya know. Like one time I thought,,, “would I rather eat curry that tastes like poop or poop that tastes like curry” KSBAJA,,,    I rlly like hugging ppl ??? Idk why ???? I also have a tendency to brush ppls hair JSBSJA,,, I really I’m a big softie w a lot and of crackgead energy HHAHAHA,,, I also rlly like to bake and cook bc it’s therapeutic sometimes and at times I just feel so PROFESSIONAL IABJA wow ok HHAHAHA,,, ok this is LONG but I hope you found it helpful !!!”

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wow! this is very long haha, but indeed very helpful!

i ship you with…

hyunjin!

okayokayokay so

hyunjin has said that his ideal type is someone who can “listen to my worries well and can empathize to them as if it’s their own worries.”

so you would get along very well!

also you both like dancing so that’s a big plus. bonus points if you already know a lot of skz’s choreography and if hyunjin’s practicing by himself you sometimes join in for funsies and end up dancing like crackheads lmao

next point: kkami.

like you’ll just be looking after kkami for the day, and you were taking a nap with kkami on your couch

and hyunjin enters your house quietly because he wanted to surprise you

and he looks into the living room to see you asleep on the couch, kkami curled up beside you.

by this point you wake up, but continue to pretend sleeping. you hear hyunjin whisper shout “kkami!”

kkami stays beside you, not moving at all. this occurs for about two minutes before you open your eyes and just watch as hyunjin literally is doing his best to get kkami to go to him. he stands up and pouts, then sees you’re awake and goes over to where you’re lying down on the couch.

“kkami loves you more than he loves me” [cue more pouting]

“aww come here baby, it’s okay because i love you and i know he does too. he just doesn’t show it.” you move over and then all three of you end up napping on your couch for a few hours while you run your hands through his quite excellent hair (especially the hair he has now aajkhfskd) :’) w h o l e s o m e 

i think you’d be really good in arguments - you sound like a good mediator and i think being able to see his perspective will help you in sorting out the issue and coming to an agreement/solution. he’s so soft for you though so he can’t be mad at your for long, especially when you never get mad at him. i think that it’s good but also being too empathetic is definitely going to be your downfall sometimes.

tbh i think most of your arguments would probably be based around whatever dramas you’re watching - though these are more of the joking kind of arguments rather than like a fight argument. like whether x character’s redemption arc was actually good or not, or even just little things like what happens in each episode, or oddly specific things like whether x character’s favourite coffee is an americano or a latte. (my friends and i do this with sherlock lmao we argue about it a lot, anyway i digress)

you guys will have drama marathons at least once a month. lots of snacks, blankets, pillows, and cuddles. 

your random questions always make him laugh, you know the one where his eyes crinkle and stuff :)

thank you for requesting @hyungenes​ i hope you are well and stay safe! :)

(also the alternate endings to heather are taking so long because i’ve written about half of each and kinda didn’t know where they were going. i’ll finish them soon though, hopefully!)

[vvivacious101]

Re-rewatching S04E01 - Lazarus Rising

It’s here!

Dean’s back!

And look who’s starring in this one.

This episode is just overwhelming, I have stopped it so many times at this point because my head is just burst with thought so I’m giving myself an intermission to just jot this overwhelming amount of information that my brain insists on spouting out as I watch this episode.

Dean’s back and he is looking good besides that handprint on his left upper arm, when this screeching sound blows out the windows of the Fill-up Joint he is at. I read a meta at some point way back which specifically pointed out how the entire set design points to the fact that the thing at the end of this episode is supposed to be good and I don’t remember most of it but I wanted to highlight this one scene that kind of stuck with me.

As you can see on the left side, it says Wing because Angel and on the bottom right corner you have a sign that says “No Smoking” though it’s partly cut out it’s a safe assumption that this is infact what it says and the person who deserves all the credit for this observation and I’m sorry I don’t know who you are, pointed out that in Supernatural demons smoke out. So, the no smoking sign is a hint that whats coming isn’t a demon. Also, there was so much more in that meta so if anyone knows what I’m talking about just give me a link so I can credit this to the person who deserves all the appreciation for this.

The entire Dean and Bobby reunion scene is so funny because Dean’s back from the dead and Bobby is eliminating every supernatural possibility which results in this.

I was waiting for that!

Then we finally get to Dean and Sam but before that we have a girl who opens up the door to Sam’s room when Dean and Bobby knock. Now, we know this girl is Ruby (okay, well I know it nobody watching this for the first time knew it because the viewer isn’t supposed to know her identity till it is later revealed) but the thing I wanted to point out is that Ruby knows Dean and Bobby she knows who they are and she had no idea that Dean was coming back so the moment she sees Dean, she lies which is not great but well Demon. What is weirder is that Sam goes along with it, like this isn’t something they discussed because they have no idea Dean’s coming but they play it. They lie to Dean and Bobby which in hindsight is just wrong. Sam doesn’t instinctively do stuff like this and even when you don’t know this as you watch this scene, in hindsight it really struck me as how weird this was for Sam because what is even the point. Dean’s back sooner rather than later he is going to find out about Ruby and everything they did last summer.

Anyhow Sam’s not the only one who is lying just before this scene we have Dean lying to Bobby as he tells him that he doesn’t remember a moment of Hell.

This episodes to a great start already and did I emntion this is the first episode. Oh boy! this season’s off to a great start.

We got a pile of questions ‘n’ no shovel.

is my new favourite Sam quote.

In under five minutes, Sam and Dean have just doubled the number of lies they have told others and each other. Dean tells Sam he doesn’t remember Hell, Sam tells Dean he doesn’t know where Ruby is and that he isn’t using any of his freaky ESP stuff. But, we do discuss Lilith, so apprently that blast of light she fires of was supposed to kill Sam but he is apparently immune. But, Sam doesn’t know what we know and that is that he needs to kill Lilith and that’s what Lilith wants so the finale of season three is actually just set dressing.

We have a name.

Castiel.

I just realised this episode has so many new faces, we get new Ruby who isn’t exactly a new character but she counts, we have Pamela and we have Cas.

Also, Sam and Dean are off the hook in this one, the amount of lies these two have told each other just tripled.

Bobby: This is a bad idea.

Dean: Yeah, I couldn't agree more, but what other choice do we have?

Bobby: We could choose life. 

This episode has so much happening and it has so many funny scenes, we get the Bobby and Dean reunion, we get Dean and Sam in Baby and Dean’s pissed and we get Dean and Pamela. Among all the scenes in this episode the very last one is iconic and literally, I don’t know if this is bad but the only reason I have always loved this episode is because of those last 5 minutes which just blew the ball out of the ball park.

Ahhhhh!!!! Can I just scream! This is what I mean, I loved this show before Cas because that’s why I saw all those episodes but God, the moment he came on screen I fell a whole lot more, to the extent that I wonder if I really loved this show before he was on it. Not because I didn’t love it before but the depth of feelings that arose in me after this episode made that love seem so shallow that I started doubting it was even there and this is what I mean, I loved the show before but after Cas I loved it a whole lot more, my love just got as deep as the Pacific Ocean while before it was like a pond. They are both ‘love’ but it just got more impressive. I don’t know how anybody didn’t just fall in love with Cas in that scene and with the show, because it’s so good. I still haven’t forgotten it. I remember all the dialogues and oh it was so good and that’s just Cas.

We aren’t even going to talk about the ship that sailed that day. But, those dialogues are so good.

I’m the one who gripped you tight and rasied you from perdition.

The one line I remember word for word and the one I will never forget which is also Castiel’s first dialogue on the show which is soemthing I didn’t know. Not only is this his most iconic dialogue it is also the first.

Also, let’s talk about the fact that Cas is just so impressive. I love all the expressions he gives in the beginning when Dean stabs him and he pulls out that knife with that smile

and then when Bobby is getting ready to take a swing, he gets this pissed expression as he turn around to deal with Bobby

because man at this point, he has said one dialogue and I’m already so far gone.

Dean: Who are you?

Cas: I'm the one who gripped you tight and raised you from Perdition.

Dean: Yeah, thanks for that.

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Cas: We need to talk, Dean. Alone.

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Cas: Your friend’s alive.

Dean: Who are you?

Cas: Castiel.

Dean: Yeah, I figured that much. I mean *what* are you?

Cas: I'm an angel of the Lord.

Dean: Get the hell out of here. There's no such thing.

Cas: This is your problem, Dean. You have no faith.

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Dean: Some angel you are. You burnt out that poor woman’s eyes.

Cas: I warned her not to spy on my true from. It can be overwhelming to humans and so can my real voice, but you already knew that.

Dean: You mean the gas station and the motel? That was you talking? Buddy, next time, lower the volume.

Cas: That was my mistake. Certain people, special people, can perceive my true visage. I thought you would be one of them. I was wrong.

Dean: And what visage are you in now, huh? What holy tax accountant?

Cas: This? This is... a vessel.

Dean: You’re posessing some poor bastard?

Cas: He’s a devout man. He actually prayed for this.

Dean: Look, pal, I'm not buying what you're selling. So, who are you really?

Cas: I told you.

Dean: Right. And why would an angel rescue me from hell?

Cas: Good things do happen, Dean.

Dean: Not in my experience.

Cas: What's the matter? You don't think you deserve to be saved.

Dean: Why'd you do it?

Cas: Because God commanded it. Because we have work for you.

The tune playing as Cas says his last line is sacred. It’s so good. It gave me goosebumps and I might have only rewatched this episode fully like three times but that scene I have watched that a million times, so it has no business giving me goosebumps.

Also, let’s talk about Cas’ last line “we have work for you”. I didn’t really put it together till like Season 15 aired and I realised the last scene of “Back and to the Future” is the same as the last scene from “The Pilot”. They make a point of telling you that as in “15x01 - Back and to the Future” the scene snaps to the very last scene from “1x01 - The Pilot” as the trunk closes but there is this dialogue Sam says both times which I now realise is pretty iconic not only because they replicated that scene for season 15 but because that line has been repeated before at iconic moments to kind of stress on the significance of that moment. So Sam, says it as 1x01 ends and Dean says it as 2x22 ends and now Cas says something similar.

The original line is “we got work to do” and we have Cas saying “we have work for you”. That line is already pretty impressive because of the background music that compliments it so much but now from experience I can tell that the show also wanted to kind of stress on this moment being a big deal.

And it is. They definitely got the message across.

[ichika27]

I watched Enter the Florpus

I had just finished watching Invader Zim: Enter the Florpus. Literally, like I just finished watching a few seconds ago lol.

My thoughts below and it’s gonna be ramble-y because I don’t have time to think things through and is going on what I feel at the moment after watching the movie.

The beginning part was fun to watch by the way... things appear different in Dib’s head it seems haha. That kid’s gonna grow up into a freaking chuuni at this point except he’s not actually delusional.

Anywho, it feels rather... different from the series? I decided to rewatch the original series’ first episode a few days back and also Dark Harvest (cause I was showing my little sister) so seeing those and then this is kind of. It feels different. Like the color scheme and some of the designs and the feel of the movie. It feels ‘cartoon-y’ and I’m not really sure how to explain it.

Things went by so fast in the movie. Like one second they’re in space then the next they’re trying not to get separated then Dib’s on Earth again. I know it’s a movie so it’s short and they need to do things and wrap things up fast but the pacing is just a little too fast for me? Like the transition from one scene to another missed something in between...

When I heard about the movie before, I had expectations. I expected something dark like in the original series but the movie was a bit too I’m not sure how to say it but... ‘positive’? ‘Light’? Just... I watched the series as a child and years later I forgot many things about it except for ‘Game Slave 2′, ‘Bestest Friend’, and ‘Dark Harvest’. Especially ‘Dark Harvest’. Like how do you forget something like that? Forget Keef getting his eyes taken and replaced? Gaz being creepy awesome just to get a game? I never forgot and so I expected something equally as dark in the movie. You know, something that’d make people ask ‘Is this really for kids?’ because that’s how I remember it and that’s why I liked it.

The last part with the Florpus and transitioning to ‘different reality’ looks remind me so much of Gravity Falls’ Weirdmaggedon. Same thing happened there, right? But there Dipper and Wendy went into these weird floating bubbles and in there is where they kept changing appearance.

My biggest issue with the movie? Gaz. What did they do to Gaz? She’s nice and cute and she’s not the Gaz I remember. She feels more ‘little sister’-like in this and the fact that she’s much more emotive here is weird. Gaz was my fave character as a kid cause I thought she was cool and awesome (like in Game Slave 2) but now she’s just... different. I like her old looks and outfit better, too. I think I heard Foodio call her ‘Gazlene’ at the end and that’s nice to hear. Like I heard that’s her full name but wasn’t sure.

I enjoyed it though, don’t get me wrong. It was funny and cute at times and it was entertaining (esp. Gir!!). I’m just sad there’s not much of Zim when he’s like, the main, title character. Dib became the movie protagonist not even half-way through and Zim just became a funny antagonist. They should’ve had the same amount of interesting screentime since that’s how it was in the show. They both are the main characters after all.

And as happy as I am that Dib and his dad fought together, I can’t get past that whole ‘I’m always proud of you’ line his dad told him. Like I know it’s supposed to be something nice to hear but proud of what exactly? He never believed in anything Dib told him in the series and certainly not here in the movie where he’s still adamant that it was all a dream/hallucination/totally not real. He’s always wanted Dib to pursue ‘real science’ like him which Dib never does. Dib is good at making things but it was never for real science like his dad wanted. Proud of what? It felt like Dib didn’t earn the words he was given. I mean if his dad finally believed him in the end and realized he’d always been right about the aliens and stuff then that ‘I’m proud of you’ line would’ve been heartwarming but right now it felt kinda out of place...

This is gonna be longer if I kept typing randomly. I’d probably just continue this part of the uh... my thoughts? later on in a  different post. This is just supposed to be about the movie after all.

[dearroseyy]

jdlc

I met you when I told myself dating apps is not for me, walang matino and I'm tired of dealing with these kind of guys. I met you when I started to believe that I won't be able to meet the right type of guy that I deserve, esp on dating apps. We were not able to talk as much like what normal people on dating apps would do and it's because of how demanding your work is. I didn't mind it to be honest, because I told myself maybe this is just a fling or friendly type of conversation, but I was wrong.

As days passed by, you opened up to me and I opened up to you. We shared our failures in relationships and life in general. Little did I know I'm starting to like you but I always stopped myself kasi sabi ko sa sarili ko baka nagpapadala na naman ako sa emosyon ko or the fact that someone is there for me again.

We didn't talk romantically. Yes we talked about our past relationships but never about the what ifs of being together. We talked as if we're just two people who met in an event and wanted to know each other better. For the first time, I started a conversation with a guy in a serious and clean way. Clean means no sex stuff, no flirting.

We don't talk much during weekdays because of work but when you have time, you always text me. Sometimes you call and I will never forget the day when we had a videocall while I was in the office because I told you I was alone. We talked for an hr and no one noticed it.

After 2 weeks, we finally met. Akala ko pa hindi matutuloy kasi wala kang update, yun pala you were busy driving. I'm used to dating but while I was on my way to meet you, kinakabahan ako. Ang weird but yes, yun talaga nafeel ko. When I saw you, di ko alam how to react. You asked me what I liked kaso sabi ko hindi ako fan ng CBTL so we looked for other places. Namali pa ako kasi I thought may Tim Hortons nearby pero wala so we ended up sa Seattles Best. You wanted me to eat kaso ayoko kasi kumain ka na at nahihiya naman ako to eat alone. So we had a coffee while talking. From time to time you check your phone because of work and I find it funny na nagrereklamo ka pero di mo rin natitiis na hindi sagutin, you just end up saying sorry or continue kasi I'm talking then bigla kang magpphone.

And then you asked me for a walk and I said yes. Kahit walang destination in mind kung saan, naglakad na lang tayo around Ayala. You never attempted to hold my hand but you make sure that you stay on the right side while walking on side walks. When crossing, you switch side and go wherever the cars pass. Literal na nakakababae ng feeling kasi I can't remember any guy doing that to me. I will always remember how you attempted to hold me while crossing the street na walang pedestrian lane but you were unsuccessful because I was holding my phone.

You walked me where I parked my car. Kinakabahan ako of what may happen to the point I felt panic and maintained a certain space in between. When you were approaching me like you were about to hug me, I held your arm and gave you a high five. I didn't know why I did that but wala na akong nagawa. Nahiya na ako and went straight to the car.

You thought you did something wrong but I told you it was purely out of hiya kaya I didn't let you hug me and give me a beso. We still talked for 2hrs sa phone before sleeping.

But then, work became so hectic for you and sometimes, for me. We were not able to talk and I'm starting to have doubts if you're still interested to me.

Until one night, we had a misunderstanding. On the 24th of December, you told me I don't deserve yung pasulpot-sulpot na paramdam mo and you just wanted us to be strangers again. I felt and thought that you were walking away, and I said to myself here we go again. Not until today I found out what it really meant, and it's too late. Too late because I was the one who did wrong this time.

You always reminded me of what I deserve. You never rushed me to be with you. You wanted me to regain my old self that I lost during my previous relationship. You supported me in any way that you can. I liked you, so much, to the point I pictured myself with you and I told some of my friends about you. It's weird bcos despite not knowing you in person, they liked you and despite telling me not to get involved in any relationship yet, they were good with you.

How I wish I listened, how I wish I never let one moment of pain overrule what I felt towards you.

I got hurt and did some things that was not right. Tama ka, hindi kita inisip nung ginawa ko yun. Alam kong nasaktan mo ako and I used that as a reason to go back to something less of what I deserve.

Akala ko hindi ka na interesado sakin, that you were just talking to me recently out of guilt. But with what you told me, I knew I was wrong. Sana hindi ko na kinontra yung sarili ko nung sinabi kong baka bumabawi ka na. Kasi we talk more now kahit may work. Siguro dahil sa takot na baka maulit na naman, I kept a distance and always remind myself na not again.

As our conversation got deeper tonight, you made me realize my worth again. I knew it when we were talking that I lost a gem while busy collecting stones. I knew I hurt you. I knew that this might be the reason for you to walk away, permanently. I'm still hoping that some time soon, you will change your mind.

I will never forget the impact of your words to me. For the first time, you told me what you really feel about me. How much you cared and how much you respect me and mkst importantly, how important I am to you. Sayang dahil pinagdudahan ko yun. Sayang kasi kinailangan ko ng salita kahit lahat ng actions ginawa mo na just to prove me na seryoso ka.

Alam ko naiintindihan mo bakit naging ganun ako because I once shared my life with someone who did the same but was not able to seal it with commitment. Pero sabi mo lang sakin noon, you don't want to rush things with me. You want me to heal a hundred percent, be happy on my own, bumawi sa time na nawala sakin with family and friends, sana pinanghawakan ko yun.

You were my 2019 year end blessing. I prayed for your health kasi nga may scare ka pa di ba. Sana pinanindigan ko na lang yun at di nagpadalos-dalos ng desisyon pero wala, wala na akong magagawa. Kasi ako yung nagkamali. Hindi ko pwedeng ipilit sayo dahil sabi mo nga, whatever you felt ako pa rin yung gusto mong makausap. And I was not able to do that to you dahil lagi kong iniisip na nasaktan mo ako. Para makalimutan ka, I did the things I told I won't do again. Sana nga naging successful ako, pero hindi. I always end up thinking about you kasi alam ko na kung ikaw yung kasama or kausap ko, things will happen differently.

Gusto kong ibalik yung panahon at itama lahat pero hindi yun pwede. Ang pwede ko na lang gawin ngayon ay maghintay sa oras na magiging okay ka na ulit at bigyan tayo ni God ng isa pang chance.

I will work on myself. This time, for real. Thank you for always reminding me of my worth, of what I really deserve. Sorry kung nasaktan kita dahil sa pagiging overly emotional ko.

I cared for you more than what you think. Thank you because before saying goodbye, you told me that everything you showed or made me feel was true.

Sana may next chapter pa tayo.

Take care always. Andito lang ako if you will still need someone to talk to. Sana ako pa rin ang takbuhan mo despite sa nagawa ko.

Ayokong sanang umasa pero gusto ko dahil alam kong mahihirapan akong makahanap ulit ng katulad mo. Pero habang wala ka, aayusin ko na yung sarili ko. Para pag bumalik ka, proud kong masasabi sayo na I'm a better version of myself.

Thank you sa lahat-lahat. Thank you.

Love,

Rosey