#i’m just updating the diary that is my tumblr blog

[obliviouspoptart]

this austin trip was set up to be real shit terrible

and it still kinda was

but i at least get to keep the title of official whore of all my friend groups 😎

[pleaseeeimjustagirl]

♡Dear Diary♡

Hey, babessss!!! I have not made a weekly chornicals post in foreverrrr so I decided to bring them back and change the name to “Dear Diary” for more of a girlieeee vibe lol.

♡Education♡

The semester is officially over!!!! Finals almost took me outttt lol I was panicked when it came to my math final but thankfully I got that over with and I’m happy to be free. I did not do as well as I thought I would this semester. I pushed myself super hard and I tried and I know that pushing myself constantly helped me grow. I came out with a lot of knowledge but I’ll try harder in the fall semester. I plan on taking a summer class this summer just to get extra credits to meet my degree requirements<333

♡Mental♡

Now that the semester is over I have to reframe my life and habits to fit the next three months. This week was very hard for me mentally. I plan on pushing myself out of my comfort this summer. I want to cross off everything on my summer bucket list and that will require me to go outside lol. I will be outsideee this summer I have a lot of solo dates and meet-ups with friends planned this summer. I think all of this or the idea of all this made me overwhelmed I had to relax and breathe to get myself to realize this is supposed to be fun, not overwhelming. 

♡Physical♡

I started a weightlifting challenge that one of my favorite YouTubers created but I quickly realized I didn't like it as much and I might not be into weightlifting like I was before. I prefer weighted pilates I love the way it makes me feel. My relationship with exercise has had a major shift I want it to be fun. I want to be excited to work out every day and I realized when I was doing my weighted pilates challenge I was so excited to work out and enjoyed every workout. So I will be paying for my Daily Thrive membership today so I can continue the weight x pilates challenge. I had a binge episode but quickly caught myself because of the emotions I was going through I was using food to cope or to cover those emotions and I hated the way I felt. I got up and fixed the issues and stopped the cycle I'm proud of myself.

♡Hobbies♡

I've written down a list of hobbies I want to get into this summer and I'm so excited. One of those is content creation. I've said this many times on this blog I use to create content and I'm excited to start vlogging and posting content and showing you girliesss my day to day life and glow-up journey but on a deeper personal level. I'm deciding if I want to post all the content to YouTube or just create my vlogs and post them on Tumblr for my babes on here. But when I do get that together I’ll let you girls know<3333

I enjoyed the 30-day glow-up challenge I created so much I wanted to bring back these weekly posts where I update you girlies on my life and the ups and downs I go through as well during my glow up. I love chatting with you girlieeess have an amazing week<3333

[cloudy-caspirations]

✧ Introduction Post ✧

Hello! I’m Cas and welcome to my blog! I’m new to this studyblr thing and tumblr in general but desperately needed motivation for my studies, so please excuse any mistakes 😵‍💫

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About me:

libra, latina, 19, any pronouns

As of the fall ‘24 semester I will be a 2nd year undergrad, but it will be my 1st year studying electrical engineering

Hobbies/Interests: anything and everything Kirby related, reading, guitar, occasionally art (both traditional and digital), arts and crafts I guess ??? bc I’m a broke college student and diy everything

Semester Specifics Under the Cut:

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- Intro to Electromagnetism and Circuits (Lecture & Lab) - Linear Algebra and Differential Equations - C for Engineers - Life Science (completely online) - Electrical Circuit Analysis 1 (Lecture & Lab)

Academic Goals:

- Turn in assignments ON TIME - Actually study regularly instead of just cramming before tests - Get over fear of emailing professors and/or asking questions during lectures - Attend more office hours than I did last semester - Keep my notes and assignments organized for longer than the first 2 weeks of the semester

Personal Goals:

- Work out at least twice a week - Replacing doomscrolling habit with something constructive (reading, hobbies) or at least relaxing (games, socializing) - Eat healthier and on a regular schedule - SLEEP EARLIER, or at the very least before 12am - Consistently update this blog

okay I think this introduction post has gone on for long enough, thank you for reading this far! I’m going to treat this blog as a diary or journal of sorts mainly focused on academics, but will probably end up posting about my life in general every now and then. Hope you all stick around and good luck with your studies!

[oskea93]

Keep it to Yourself (1)

✶ Douglas Booth!Nikki Sixx x OC ✶

Warning: This story will contain scenes of drug/alcohol use, sexual content, mentions of death, overdose, physical and emotional abuse. Please read at your own risk. I do not own rights to Motley Crue or any other famous person mentioned. Portions of this story will be pulled from Motley's book and film The Dirt as well as The Heroin Diaries. There will be parts that are complete fiction as well.

Taglist: @fancywasmyname1, @kaitieskidmore1, @xxisxxisxxis, @sparxx27,  @cruecifymesixx, @tempt-ress, @a-sia-san, @x-xinenas, @casualcomputerarbiter-blog​, @makaelahdelvalle

Author's note: Hello everybody! It's been a while since I thought about this story but now I want to bring it back to life. I think I rewatched The Dirt about 20 times in the past couple of days (Thanks snowstorm!) and i've been thinking about this story and all the other amazing Crue stories that are on Tumblr. So, with that being said - I have decided to rewrite Keep it to Yourself. I went back and read the original version and I want to revamp it in a way. I've changed a couple things and I hope to make it better than before. If you were tagged in the original version, I went ahead and just tagged you for this new update. If you would like to be removed, just let me know and I will take you off. If you aren't a part of the taglist and would like to be, just let me know and I will get you added. I hope you enjoy the new and improved Keep it to Yourself!

“Bryant –“ He paused. “I know I’m probably the last voice you wanna hear on your answering machine, but I desperately need your help right now.” A breathy sigh blew through the speaker. “I’m at my wits end and I have no idea what to do with him.”

I stared at the device – my hand curled against my mouth as his words flowed through my living room. “The drugs are constant – he’s high 24/7 – Half the time I don’t even know if he’s alive or dead when I get into his room. It’s not just him – they’re all fucked – but he’s the only one with one foot in the casket.”

How he got my number remained a mystery. They made him millions of dollars – more money than the man could even count – yet he was calling me about his issue. From the beginning, I told him that it would only get worse. The guy had issues way before he formed Motley – way before the money and fame came into the picture. Sure - he dabbled in drugs before hitting peak stardom, but the money was there, and he was a kid in a candy store.

“I know the two of you ended on such a sour note, but I feel like you’re the only one that can truly help him get out of this fucking mess. He needs you – I – we all need you, Bryant.” He went on to leave the number to the hotel they were staying at for the night. Begging one last time for my help. I must’ve played the damn message 10 times – each time making my anger rise. Doc was the one who let it get to this point – he fueled the fire when it should’ve been sprayed out years ago. He pushed the drugs in their direction – Nikki was always a step ahead though. He attracted the slime that had the harder, faster drugs. The drugs that would make him feel nothing when in reality his whole fucking world was crumbling down…

I continued to move the spoon around the cup, the sugar long dissolved by now. I was so lost in my own thought – Doc’s words swirling around in my brain.

“You’re thinking about going, aren’t you?” The brunette in front of me asked. “I know that look and that look tells me that you’re giving in.”

Hannah Hastings was the first person I met when I moved to South Carolina. She was an event planner – a free spirit in a Dynasty like world. She would spend hours on my couch, a bottle of wine being shared, as I spilled my entire life story into her lap. She knew all about my history with Nikki – how we met – our marriage – and the demise of our relationship.

I let out a sigh, “I don’t wanna go but something’s telling me that if I don’t –“ I paused. “If I don’t go, he’s gonna end up dead and then I’ll be blaming myself. At least if I go and say I tried and I don’t succeed, I won’t beat myself up if something does happen to him. Like – It’s not even a matter of if – it’s a matter of when.”  

“He was such an asshole though, Bryant. The man was toxic to you-“She reached across the table taking my hand in hers. “I don’t want to see you get hurt or worse. You know how drug addicts are – he could get violent and not even realize it until it’s too late.”

During the three years we were together, he never laid a hand on me. I was the one who had the heavy touch. Sure, we had awful arguments that pushed me to the point of slapping and pushing him away, but he always stormed off before touching me. The drugs at the time weren’t as hardcore as they are now though. I could walk in his house and come back out with a bullet hole this time. Hannah was right – drugs fucked with people’s brain – I’m sure Nikki was already there.

“Are you gonna tell Wyatt?”

I slumped back in my seat at the thought of telling my Uncle Wyatt. To say he hated Nikki would be an understatement. He warned me from the beginning that Nikki Sixx would be nothing but trouble, but I didn’t listen. He was used to guys like Nikki – being a kid from the wrong side of the tracks himself. He made a promise that he would do everything he could to protect me from men like Nikki. We only had each other and when Nikki came into the picture, the worst type of thoughts ran through his head. He knew what guys like Nikki did to girls like me – innocent until proven insane. It happened to my mother – her infatuation sending her straight to the grave.

“I figured I would just call him when I got to California-“Her eyes growing large. “You know so he can’t talk me out of it or worse come and get me.”

She shook her head in disbelief, “You know I love you and I’ll support you in any way –“I felt a “but” coming along. “But –“She smiled. “This is one decision I’m very wary about, Bryant.”

I felt the same way. I had multiple scenarios playing like film reels over and over in my head. Some pretty good while others resembled horror movies. Even I knew that Nikki’s reaction to seeing me would not be a good one. He broke my heart, and I broke his even worse. Besides the band, I was his only true constant. He barely had any family – his grandparents living states away – not even aware of their grandson’s antics. Sure, the art of touring and going to different states brought about groupies and so-called friends but he didn’t have anyone to call or return home to. I was that person for him.

“You and me both, sister…”

I waited for the line to connect – the operator being nice enough to connect me straight to his room. Doc and I didn’t really have a relationship. He was Motley’s manager and at the time I was just a wife. I was glad the guys had him at first – their success was growing like a wildfire but that was because of their drive for stardom – Doc was just there lending a helping hand. He was extremely pissed when I ended things with Nikki. His own mouth spewing curse words my way once Nikki was served with divorce papers.

It makes the band look bad when a member gets divorced.

Nikki refuses to get out of bed and it’s all your fucking fault.

Girls all over the world would stay with Nikki no matter what – cheating, drugs – Learn to turn a blind eye.

“Hello?” I sat straighter as Doc’s voice sounded – my thoughts suddenly escaping me. “Hello?”

“It’s me.” My voice cracking. “I – uh – I got your message.”

“Oh, thank God, Bryant.” He sounded relieved. “I was worried that I would miss your call –“He paused. “Or if you would even call at all.”

I stayed silent – not really up for conversation.

“Listen, I know this is a bit of a tall ask, but I really do need your help. Nikki – hell all the guys for that matter – are ticking fucking time bombs. Nikki’s clock is etching closer to midnight ever second the fucker breaths – and I pray every night that he’s still doing so. He’s high ever second of every day. He shoots up when he wakes and right before he passes out for the night. I have no idea what he’s even taking anymore. Shooting up, snorting, smoking – he’s the walking picture of Nancy Reagan’s campaign.”

My grip on the phone tightened as he spoke – realizing that he was more far gone than thought.

“I need you to come out here and help us deal with him. I think Doug and Fred can deal with the other three, but we can’t get through to Nikki. Fuck, it’s not even Nikki anymore that we’re dealing with. He’s so mean and terrible to be around. His moods go from zero to sixty – it’s even worse when he’s coming down. Poor Tommy’s getting married, and I can’t even imagine Nikki standing up there with him when he’s high off his ass. You’re the only one that I think can get through to him – he still loves you, Bryant.”

He still loves you, Bryant.

Maybe the old version of Nikki was still in love, but I can assure you the drugged-up version was only in love with his high. That was Doc’s way of trying to lure me in – telling me that Nikki still loved and cared about me. I still loved and cared for the guy too – the Nikki I met at a 7-Eleven almost 6 years ago. Pre-Motley Crue – before the fame, drugs, egos, and women.

“I’ll pay for your ticket out here and everything if you agree, Bryant.” He stressed. “I’m desperate – he’s gonna die if we don’t do something.”

I let out a sigh, closing my eyes, asking myself if I really wanted to do this. It was a constant battle with my head and my heart. My brain was yelling at me to tell Doc to fuck off, but my heart couldn’t deal with the thought of Nikki no longer being here. “You think seeing me will snap him out of this spiral?”

“I think seeing you will probably piss him off more but at least I know you’ll be there and have the chance to stop him.”

My brows furrowed at his comment, “You’re making it sound like I’m gonna be with him at all times?”

His silence confirming my question. “You can’t expect me to stay in the same house, hotel room, or wherever with Nikki –“

“That’s exactly what you’re going to do, Bryant.” He cut me off. “I need that man to have constant surveillance – can’t put a bodyguard in there with him. He needs to have someone that he’s familiar with – someone that’s gonna remain sober and not give into his advances.”

“Then why don’t you stay with him then?” My attitude starting to come out.

“I’d end up killing him and then all of this would be for nothing.”

I shook my head as I pulled the phone away from my ear. I could hear Doc’s voice as he continued to talk. “Listen-“ I spoke up, cutting his sentence off. “I will come out there but I’m only there for a week. Once that week is up, whether he’s getting help or not, I’m going back home.”

“That’s not gonna work, Bryant.” He huffed. “He gets more fucked up when he’s out on the road than he does at home. These fuckers waiting in back alleys and backstage – knowing that he’s looking to score – that’s where I need you the most.

I’d been on tour with Motley when they were first getting their feet wet. I watched as they performed their first gig at the Starwood and then when they were opening for bigger acts like Ozzy. Going on tour with four men – the four Motley men was not for the faint of heart. I saw more body parts than I cared to see. Drugs, alcohol, and women were being pushed in their direction – more so as their popularity grew than before. Nikki and I shared a bunk and even that got old after a while. Living with four men for months on end would cause any woman to eventually lose it. Nikki and I were constantly fighting. Hell, I was fighting with everyone, even Mick at times. This was their dream, and it was my absolute living hell.

“I don’t th-“

“What do I need to do so you will say yes? Walk on water – swallow arsenic? Please, Bryant. I have never been so desperate in all of my life.” His voice wavering. “You were in love with this man at one point – I believe you may still love him. Just remember the reason why you fell in love with Nikki and do it for that reason."

[woven-birds]

(last updated december 2024)

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hello! <3

this is my main tumblr, it doesn’t really have a theme i just post whatever i like and what speaks to me. i have a few side blogs that are a bit more uniform that i’ve linked below if you’d like to check them out. :) 18 + only please! posts are mostly from my queue (i’m far too lazy to tag them as such haha). also please always feel free to ask or tell me anything. <3

i’m kristen. i am an avid daydreamer. a vegetarian. mom to two boys. bookworm. neurodivergent (AuDHD). 29. infp. half native american (mohawk tribe) & irish.

🌜🌞 taurus sun, gemini moon, libra rising 🌞🌛

i live in upstate new york. i read too many books and drink copious amounts of tea & coffee. i’m obsessed with anything antique or from a bygone era. my hair is always messy no matter how hard i try to make it look decent. i am comprised of dresses, flowers, & dreams. i’m forever sleepy. i still love playing on playgrounds. i often feel homesick for places that i’ve never been. my head is always in the clouds; i’m perpetually daydreaming. i feel most at peace in nature. i am a true crime/horror junkie. a self proclaimed weirdo. a proud member of the silly goose club. if i’m not reading, writing, doing a puzzle, playing a video game, or baking, you can probably find me listening to music, overthinking, or being anxious. sometimes if you’re lucky it’s all three. i’d rather be thrifting or looking at the stars.

my favorite sounds: trains in the distance (it’s an incredibly lonely sound but it’s strangly comforting to me in a way), birds singing, rain hitting the window, the keys of a typewriter, book pages turning, cats purring, clocks ticking, the sound of leaves crunching when you step on them in autumn, the crackling sound a record makes when the needle first touches it.

these are a few of my favorite things: flower crowns, old hollywood, gardens, fairies, teacups & teapots, fairy tales, bunnies, squishmallows, sharks, outer-space, macarons, graveyards, dresses, handwritten letters, studio ghibli, pressing flowers between the pages of my favorite books, strawberries, the smell of books, flowering tea, wes anderson films, bookstores & libraries, cuddling, butterflies, floral print, cozy sweaters, candles, when smells act as time machines, penny presses, everything about autumn, holding hands, rainy dreary days.

music: fleetwood mac, turnover, nirvana, the front bottoms, andrew mcmahon, chappell roan, bon iver, sonic youth, phoebe bridgers, david bowie, death cab for cutie, yeah yeah yeahs, mitski, ghost, the smiths, ethel cain, type o negative, pixies, the cure, faye webster, spiritbox, lana del rey, coheed and cambria, alexandra savior, fiona apple, sleep token, deftones, billie eilish, the story so far, taylor swift, eliott smith, bright eyes, florence + the machine, blink-182, & more.

tv: buffy, gossip girl, bridgerton, supernatural, doctor who, grey’s anatomy, the x files, the vampire diaries, yellow jackets, peaky blinders, last of us, outlander, new girl, it’s always sunny in philadelphia, walking dead, parks & rec, charmed, twin peaks, friends, what we do in the shadows, schitt’s creek, degrassi, community, pretty little liars, etc.

films: i love horror movies. i am also obsessed with studio ghibli, wes anderson, & audrey hepburn films. <3

books: my all time favorite books are jane eyre & pride and prejudice. i am also a fan of thrillers, poetry, fantasy, and a sucker for a cheesy romance book (sue me). always open for book recommendations if you’d like to send me one! (:

my side blogs: @teacuploveletter // @fairieslivehere // @shesdaydreamingagain // @arainyautumnnight // @porcelainmoons // @grungyfairy // @snowandtinsel // @dreaminginnostalgia

other places you can find me:

instagram // kristenisdaydreaming

pinterest // magicwildflowers

twitter // rainygirl53

snapchat // rainygirl53

discord // kristenisdaydreaming

spotify

sometimes i ramble about things/write poetry

tags: music // films // television // art // quotes // food // books // fashion // nature // flowers // tea // coffee // animals // doctor who // supernatural // pokémon // bridgerton // buffy // autumn // space // moon // sky // makeup // landscapes // interiors // studio ghibli // disney // animal crossing // fairies // important reminders // sanrio // sailor moon // vinyl //

(some graphics featured in this post are by @saradika-graphics others are ones i’ve found or made myself using canva.)

[antinomyelin]

I’m so far removed from the person I used to be when I actually used tumblr but considering I’ve treated my blog like a little diary since 2013 it feels fitting to update every once in a while.

Im still alive, im graduating college, I transitioned/have hrt care. It doesn’t feel suffocating in here like it used to. I miss a lot of the people that put me here. I lost a lot this year, more each year it feels like, but I think it’s getting just a little better. If nothing else it’s just easier to view aging as a privilege. I hope the other missing pieces follow soon. I hope I’m given the chance to let them.

[sixtwelve]

This is my first ever written post on this site, or in general. Before I get into anything specific this account will just be for my thoughts, feelings, snippets of fanfic I occasionally write or anything that I want to get out.

Don’t go too hard on me for spelling or grammar, complete and utter transparency here, I never finished school and my education is shaky at best, likewise if somehow someone is heavily intrigued by me or my life and in this hypothetical scenario I sporadically update then stop, don’t worry.

I am more than likely alive, just have no interest in engaging with the outside world, or I’m busy.

Now that that’s out of the way.

Welcome to my tumblr, I am Scottish, not a chav and despise the people who I currently reside with and I am a massive nerd, I read fanfiction for a multitude of fandoms, so if anyone has any good recommendations send them to me. I am weirdly really into Kdramas at this moment in time, also getting back into the vampire diaries.

If I am being honest I really don’t know where this blog is going, even if I’m going to post this, is blog even the right word to use? Anyway if anyone wants to become moots or simply just talk about shows, interests, books or anything of the sort ask away!

[sasheneskywalker]

about me

who are you?

an ordinary media enjoyer, wandering from one fandom to the next. an avid reader and writer of fanfiction. a sociology major. three unfathomable creatures in a trench coat.

what fandoms are you in?

harry potter, percy jackson, star wars, mcu, dc comics, sherlock, supernatural, merlin, arrowverse, naruto, my hero academia, death note, code geass, steins;gate, yuri on ice, owari no seraph, banana fish, bungou stray dogs, durarara, jujutsu kaisen, dune, disco elysium, the old guard, and more. 

what's your ao3?

SasheneSkywalker.

can i message you?

yes. i’m always down to talk about characters, ships, fics, ideas and general fandom stuff. send me a tumblr ask, dm me or find me on discord.

do you accept fic prompts/requests?

yes, although there’s no guarantee i’ll actually write them.

when will you post/update one of your fics?

hopefully before the world-ending apocalypse begins.

what events are you running?

dc trans week, rainbow exchange, enemies to lovers exchange, jason todd-centric exchange, dc prompt meme.

do you ship [insert a ship name here]?

if they could be described as "complex and toxic" then yes.

when will your wife return from war?

which wife and which war?

why do you make so many lists?

i just like collecting and categorizing stuff ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

where can i find stuff you've written and plan to write?

here are my creations and here are projects i'm currently working on.

can i get an invite to the jason todd discord server?

here you go!

masterlist of posts

meta rec lists

jason todd meta list

dick grayson meta list

cassandra cain meta list

useful resources for fanfic writers and readers

politics, philosophy, and superheroes - video essays

sex, love, fiction, and fandom - video essays

books and articles about about comics, superheroes, dc and batman

fic rec lists

dc/marvel crossover fic recs

jason todd-centric fic recs

dc poly ships fic recs

brujay fic recs

brudick fic recs

sladick explicit fic recs

sladick mature fic recs

batfamily fic recs that will make you laugh

batfamily fic recs where someone from the batfamily kills a person (or jason kills the joker)

batfamily fic recs where members of the batfamily deal with their experiences with sexual assault

batfamily fic recs which are told through unusual formatting

batfamily fic recs where original characters are main characters

batfamily fic recs which are told from an outsider’s perspective

batfamily fic recs where the main character is transgender or non-binary

batfamily fic recs where the main character is asexual or aromantic

weekly fic recs

weekly batman/dc fic recs tag

tags directory

tagging pattern: #[fandom], #[character], #[ship], #[category]

tagging categories: #meta, #fanart, #fanfic, #fandom, #shipping, #fic rec, #book, #book quotes, #book recs, #comic recs, #podcast recs, #writing, #idea, #bookmark, #resources, #wild tumblr, #humor, #negativity, #society, #science, #ask meme

personal tags: #sashene creates, #sashene’s diary, #sashene answers, #sashene rambles, #sashene's drawer of wips, #sashene commentates

(i don't tag nsfw posts and rarely use trigger warnings. consider this blog "not rated" and "creator chose not to use archive warnings")

[evaneet]

holy crap these past couple of weeks have just been sooooo much for me, I have no idea how im even alive right now.

I guess this is going to be a little diary entry, so buckle up for some nonsense and bad grammar!!

As the holidays approach and the impending doom of exam season comes around, I of course know how busy these get at school and in my personal life as well. However, being as I volunteered myself to help out after school for a play, I had no ‘Clue’ what I was getting myself into(the play is clue, like the board game. I think im hilarious)

Since the play is for the grad elevens and twelves only, I get to work as assistant stage manager/floater in preparation for when I am older, and it really is such a joy to do. I love it. I love the theatre. I love working the theatre lights, the soundboard, when I’m moving props or sets, and the upperclassmen I work with are literally so freakin cool on and off stage.

Now, my dilemma comes in when I am faced with the rigours schedule of rehearsals. The Friday before winter break, and the Tuesday after I come back to school, my lovely dramatic arts teacher is signing the entire cast and crew out of school from 8am and we will be staying there until 5:30pm. What the flip. Aside from that, I am faced with of course my regular studies and I have to balance working on my own script my own drama performance that a group of peers and I are working on, it’s a piece of work, that I know for sure. Another side of the coin are my other academic pursuits like science in which we have started biology and I find it to be the easiest when compared to Chemistry or the hell spawn that is physics, but it is a very memory based unit and the brain can only remember so much.

Sometimes, I sit at my desk, fumble around with my pencil, possibly crack my knuckles awkwardly, and the more I learn, the more I have to study, the more I have to dread and fret over in the end. What I’m really scared for though is my Religion exam. Throughout the entire semester, my teacher has taught us zilch. He’s very unorthodox and quite frankly unorganized too. I try to brown nose him a lot so I can get marks there, but I can’t bat my lashes and say ‘pretty please’ on exam day hoping that I’ll get an A+. He is nonsensical.

Also!! In the subject I adore most, history, there’s some guy named Henry ruining it for me. I LOVE LOVE LOVE history, like…a lot. There’s this…gentleman, shall I say, and he sits in the desk behind me in class. Henry is like a little fly in my ear that I would want nothing more than to swat away. His constant prattling in that aggravating voice of his, one time he said he wanted to create a society of cannibals and he didn’t even know the difference between socialism and communism. He’s one of those guys you’re likely to find in any history class, except he’s a total poser!! I hate when dumb people try to cosplay intelligence, it’s not a good look. Henry is off putting and he makes me feels uncomfortable.

Overall, i understand that im an academically inclined person who knows that she can bullshit a lot of stuff, im doing fine in all my classes, its just the stress of it all, and it doesn’t help that I’m also just a teenager who’s a lazy bones…

Anyhow, with winter breaking officially starting tomorrow afternoon school, I plan on doing A LOT. I plan on finishing reason two of Arcane, finishing my rewatch of Supernatural and Neon Genesis Evangelion, finally finishing reading The Goldfinch, and also watch OHSHC. I want to do my exam review for science, do some studying for my other classes, learn my lines for my drama CPT, but how much of it will I really get done?

I mean, I’m updating my Tumblr blog right now instead of reading The Goldfinch, does that not mean something?

Hopefully, in the end, I will rise above the swarming waves and swim.

[111starlight111]

Teenage girl experience

Mood: Excited, hopeful for future 🪩🎧

Art by maeziii on insta <3

I think the new generation wants to be older, mature, and not have a childhood

I’ve seen videos of 3 year olds dressing like they’re 27, which this is the parents fault ofc.

But what I wanna say is, I think being a teenage girl is amazing… though my mental health can be very bad and we have to watch our for things most people don’t have to, it’s really a special thing.

I think what I want is to delete a bunch of social media, except keep my blog. Delete discord, Snapchat, Twitter, and TikTok. I like insta bc I love posting pics, and I love tumblr bc it’s like a little diary for other girls to relate to.

Maybe deleting social media might made me closed off from trends and jokes but I think deleting it will help me grow and be able to just enjoy my life in the moment.

I want to go to the movies, go swimming, do self care, and meet people. I’m sick of being in my room watching tikok, I’m aging myself by worrying about what others are doing instead of caring about myself…

I just wanna be a teenage girl with no cares in the world, save my money and go shopping.

Be able to talk to a boy without him wanting me for my body

Make friends and see the world

Im only 15 and I only have 5 more years until I’m no longer an adult, it’s a short amount of time, starting from today on I’ll just live my teenage dream with no cares, but being responsible of course.

I’ll update my thoughts on my page as I have been doing

Xoxo, Starlight

[falconcoast]

wait? from ur previous ask, r u really leaving tumblr?

yes i am :)

tl;dr: i’m moving onto a pretty big chapter of my life next, esp as a student and a human being.

tbh it’s been a long time coming. i’ve not been particularly inspired for long a time. since thin ice ended, i’ve been thinking to myself like “yup! that’s it! i’m done now! it feels like a big part of this blog is finally complete!” so to me, it’s not like this is a sudden change

additionally, just for personal reasons, i’d rather not keep this up for future career and professional reasons. imo i’m fairly certain if you knew me IRL you would be able to say “oh that’s grace!” this blog is an extremely personal experience for me. hell, i’d consider it my escape from the real world when i needed it most. this blog reads like a diary, and has a lot of personal details that i’ve come to realize that i shouldn’t really share.

also, AO3 is a post-your-fanfic-whenever-the-hell-you-want kind of website. admittedly i got kind of overwhelmed when people sent me asks for updates or things like that. most ao3 interactions aren’t like that 👍

finally, i’m moving on in life. writing fics is very teenage girl experience of me, but i’m growing up and i can’t be that teenage girl forever. i want to be more present in the moment. staying here, uploading every thought i have, and dedicating hours on end to writing doesn’t help me achieve that.

so yeah 🤍 dipping out seems like the right move for me

[7rashstar]

this ended up being way longer than expected so i’m putting it under the cut ~

i miss getting tumblr anons/interacting w ppl on this site more. my old blog had almost 2k followers n i got them allllll the time. i had had that blog since 2015 tho and only stopped using it once i made this one, (after being off the net for. a long while) this is the only social media site i wanna use. i mostly just post and ghost though, barely scrolling the dash. i miss being more interactive with mutuals

i partially abandoned that blog because i felt like there were too many eyes on me 😵‍💫 the other part was bc i was really deep in addiction, and on top of all that i had some major creepy anonymous stalkers

i’ve been thinking abt making more diary oriented posts lately bc the weathers been whack n i’m not rly going on walks bc of that, i’ve also been pretty much a full time hermit since new years. i could prolly count on both (if not one) hand how many times i’ve seen my friends. i think this has been a good thing for me though,,,been having a personal renascence the past couple months. drawing every day, playing guitar and making mewsic etc etc

also thinking abt utilizing side blogs again. maybe make one for my drawings. i drew a couple pages of a comic i wanna work on more. mostly oc art and some photo collages.

i also wanna start posting my music. soundcloud or youtube or both. maybe make some vlogs too? part of the reason why i haven’t is because nothing feels finished, but i’ve realized i used to use my old soundcloud to track my progress creating on ableton when i first got it and had no idea how to use the program. coming to terms with nothing needing to be perfect, bc it’ll never get to that ‘perfectly finished’ point. it’s earnest and from my heart as it is. i do think i should start saving up for a new laptop though, mine is pretty old and laggy. i might jus try ripping everything to an external hard drive to clear up space n see if that helps…but a fresh start would also be nice. (plus i haven’t updated my mac since mojave because it would break ableton lol)

i finallllllly saved up and bought a new phone tho. it’s the same one i have right now but it’s from ebay certified refurbished so i feel pretty good abt it. hopefully it’ll come tomorroww, this one is starting to rly shit out on me. my alarms didn’t even go off this morning 😭 ended up being late to work

i miss going to shows a lot and hanging out w ppl. i think i’m finally starting to come back out of my shell, even jus a little bit.

might boot up my pc tonight and upload some stuff (but not holding myself to that lol) i found all of the old SD cards and some flash drives from my youth and some of the pictures are absolute gems

anywayyy long asf post lol but yea!! i hope everyone is doing ok

much loveeee <33

[harley-the-pancake]

This is just a post to try and keep things organized on my blog. If you want to know my pronouns, name I go by, age, etc, just look in my bio. I just reblog and post whatever I want.

I don’t have an official dni, I just don’t give a fuck half the time, as long as you aren’t a dick to others, you can stay

I also don’t mind people using ideas that I have, making things off of the ideas or fics I have, or tagging me in silly @ games.

I also have a second account I occasionally use as a studyblr, which is Pancake-tries-college.

My AO3 is Pancake_Overlord

I have two side blogs:

@pancake-tries-college is where I keep my adulting stuff

@bite-sized-pancakes is where I keep my little stuff cause I think I may be an age dreamer 👍

My pfp is made by a picrew from @wervty

Dragons from @blu3b3rryj4mp1r3

Important sorting tags:

#vent chai latte - posts that are vents or emotional (I don’t always use it I am gonna be honest)

#diary posting - a new tag I’ll be using when I ramble about emotions, meds or just more personal things that are not about my school or friends (LATER HARLEY UPDATE: It is also becoming a bit of less fun school stuff tag, eg talking with professors, getting homework done, etc)

#Into the datemate pile - a tag that I use just to save & share things with my datemate, who does not have an active tumblr

#ph anon of the opera - my ask tag. It does not matter if you are anon or no, you are all ph anon in my eyes hearts (I also have a tendency of hoarding my asks but be free to still send me asks)

#ask game - just replies I’m saving from like descriptions of me or ask games

#my wife saga - my datemate is studying abroad then researching in idaho so I’m being dramatic. This will be happening for 3 months.

#holly on the wally - my tag for my dog Holly! You can block this if you want or if you don’t like dogs

Tell me if I need to tag anything for you

From @hee-blee-art

Posts that I feel like sharing:

A post I made about saving Rats SMP vods and led to some decent archives. I did nothing, but it has the link to the document that has a whole lot of links so!

A post I made with a document that I use to save a whole lot of MCC vods and a few VODs I have saved myself

Not an important post, however it’s a post I love and I want to keep on my pinned for when I want to see. It entails some games of One Night Ultimate Werewolf for my datemate’s birthday

This isn’t a post of mine, but I wanted to save Tumblr fairy tales

A ramble on the life series from my datemate. Read it. This is a threat /silly

A list of things to cheer anyone up ^-^

Candy for any trick or treaters who don’t want to send an ask

Best video ever

Datemate poll

[cordyce]

BLOG RULES & REGS

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⇢ this is a multi-fandom blog, always keep that in mind. the fandoms posted will be: avatar + atwow, the last of us, the maze runner series, teen wolf, the vampire diaries, the hunger games, the wolf pack + more !

⇢ there is no consistent posting schedule on this blog. i try to post work as much and as fast as i can. i don’t mind you asking for updates on works but please please do not demand or pester me about when they’ll be posted too much.

⇢ bullying, harassment, racism, homophobia, transphobia, and anything else of the like will not be tolerated. i will block you. i won’t hesitate. don’t be a fucking asshole lol

⇢ i shitpost often. if that annoys you, block the tag. i’ll post what i want when i want on my blog. don’t police me.

⇢ please i am on my knees begging and pleading of you not to recommend my works on tiktok. that hellsite frightens me. but feel free to rec them on ao3 and tumblr!

⇢ asking to be mutuals rubs me a little wrong. i tend to follow people back who interact frequently and i like the vibe of. so just be nice and cool and i’m sure i’ll follow you back.

⇢ bottom line just be respectful. my blog is a safe place for everyone. please be mindful of that :)

[stinkydemon]

It’s long time talking here always forget I have blogs stuff little update sort of I don’t use Twitter and insta anymore!! it’s like few months now since beginning of 2023 I totally stop using it damn I totally forgot to say also don’t use discord anymore honestly I feel kinda free I sometimes use tumblr en most of time tiktok the only 2 platforms that I like :) tiktok lowkey reminds me of Tumblr ngl I know super weird to say that lmao.. anyway yea work has been good sadly my fav manger doesn’t work anymore but had 2 week break so idk how messy it’s since he was gone I was gonna for 2 weeks so will see next week if I enjoy my job still..

I’m really slacking on practicing for theory exam for driving shit but I know all rules it’s just questions are so fucking annoying but have but I have study..

I’m trying go to gym more and more kinda wanna be serious about it.

also I need get back more in my hobby’s again most of time I feel super tired 🥱 I need keep some energy in my hobbies.

Anyway yea nothing special lost a friend but its for the best honestly I’m glad other friend I have really good friend that always FaceTime with so I’m good :) its sucks losing friend eh I’m don’t wanna wast energy to people being dumb the end.

So yea that it I’ll really try update here more I might try make comic diaries if feel like it…

[cemchelarna]

Updates and housekeeping

Hello! It’s been a while since I last used this blog properly so I’m not sure how many people following me are still active, but I thought I’d do a quick update anyway.

I took a long break from tumblr for a while, which was definitely the right decision, but as I’ve discovered new hobbies and passions and interests, I found myself missing fandom interactions and that sense of community and just generally having a place to talk about things I like with fellow fans. Therefore, I’ve decided I want to make a proper return to using tumblr. My original plan was to just delete this blog and start anew, but as I was looking back through all my old stuff, I realised I couldn’t just delete it all. I’ve had this blog for well over ten years now and looking at old posts was like looking through a diary (albeit  a very cringe one at times), but I’m sentimental and don’t like the thought of getting rid of something that’s like a time capsule from my angsty teenage years. Not to get soppy on main, but I’ve changed so much as a person in that time and this blog has seen me through so much and so deleting it just felt wrong. 

So, the plan now is to keep this same blog and just rebrand a bit to fit more with my current interests. I’ve deleted some of my really old/cringe posts (god I really did post some absolute shit back then) but apart from that most other stuff will stay. I still love Hannibal and it will always have a place in my heart, but now feels like a good time for a url change to sort of mark the start of a new era or whatever. I love organising and tagging stuff so I’ll be keeping this blog as a place for whatever I’m currently interested in (which now includes stuff like hollow knight, the elder scrolls, and the goblin emperor series) and I’ll keep my sideblog as a place for everything else (memes, shitposts, reblogging cool art etc) and I’ll get round to organising that at some point too. 

Not sure where I’m really going with this but that’s about all I have to say, so if you’ve read this far, thanks! Feel free to drop by and say hi or whatever as I’m always up for new friends.