#i’m having So Many Feelings

[blorbodiaz]

got to the dead boy detectives love confession and i just gotta say that “you are the most important person in the world to me. and i can’t really say that like i’m IN love with you back but there’s no one else, NO ONE else that i would go to hell for. and we’ve got literally forever to figure out what the rest means” is the most beautiful romantic response i’ve ever heard coming from the unrequited party like what the fUCK-

[griffther]

i can’t stop thinking about kristen applebees. like just. imagine you’re 16 years old. you’ve saved the world multiple times. you’ve DIED multiple times. you had a crisis of faith and then finally found a god you truly believe in only for them to be taken from you. you’re 16 fucking years old and you watch a girl in your class slit another boys throat right in front of you while making direct eye contact with you and smiling. helio let you die before and now he’s let this boy die again and there’s nothing you can do to stop it. you’re only 16 years old and you can’t save him.

[rainbowpopeworld]

gif from @tardxsblues

From the same video that’s on Amazon’s X-ray feature

🥺😭

[castironnbitch]

Just reread the training of erasmus and the bittersweet warmth in my heart is too much

[porschesbabydaddy]

Help bc it’s genuinely getting to the point where I have to force myself to stop thinking abt DFF because it’s making me feel sick to my stomach

[notamortician]

so. that ending. anyone else’s mommy issues stab them in the gut or was that just me

[pinesboi]

I feel the need to rant about astarion and my tav

Because, listen. These two are the most emotionally stupid motherfuckers on the face of the planet. Astarion spent the last 200 years not being able to do more than what Cazador commanded him to, has been a festering pit of loathing and disgust for others and the world at large. He’s forgotten that kindness can be done just for the sake of it, that sometimes there is not another shoe waiting to fall. Andras has lived much the same way- he’d never lived a life where he wasn’t being hunted- first by the Flaming Fist in Baldur’s Gate, then the crime boss that killed his friends, and then by all the employers he fucked with by screwing their husbands/sons/brothers and taking their coin. Anders wouldn’t know how to be earnest even if someone directly transmitted it into his brain. By all rights, their relationship should be an endless cycle of taunting and flirting, maybe a one night stand or two before they decide it’s best to end it there.

And yet.

They both still crave something intimate that they’ve never really known. In this regard, I think Astarion’s more willing to open up than Andras is. Astarion finally has the opportunity to have something of his own, unsullied by Cazador’s influence. Even if it’s just for a while. If nothing else, Astarion is a creature of impulse, and he will gravitate towards what few pleasures he can find. Andras has spent the last fifteen years traveling from place to place, really only chasing his own pleasure without being tied down in any one place too long.

So when the two of them begin to feel that other thing beginning to worm their way into their chests- something that isn’t the tadpole, or Cazador, or anything else with a proper name- yeah, it scares the shit out of them both. But Astarion isn’t about to let this thing go, not if he can help it. And Andras has finally found someone like him, who is just as commitment-adverse. Neither of them want to make any promises to each other. They don’t even know if they’ll still be themselves the next time the sun rises. Their shared desire to have what fun they can, however, works in their favor. They continue to travel. They joke about Lae’zel and Shadowheart’s animosity. They speculate on how long they have until Gale manages to blow them all up. Andras lets Astarion feed from him when they don’t find a proper victim.

And they become something else. Not lovers. Friends. Companions.Something neither of them anticipates or trusts. It’s everything they wanted. They expect it to end at any moment.

[indigostars]

i watch noël way too many times for it to be considered healthy

[felrend]

IT’S HAPPENING!!!

[starspilli]

dc cowboy doodles & wips !

[justbackgroundnoise]

Chappell Roan, a lesbian, went on a national broadcast tonight and performed a song about dating a closeted woman who refuses to acknowledge their relationship and denies the fact that she’s a lesbian. Never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined that happening but here we are and it’s amazing.

As a lesbian woman, to have an artist go out and be so entirely herself in every way, to be so proud of her own sexuality and to perform a song like this and have it be broadcasted to millions of people…it makes me so emotional. All I have ever wanted as a queer woman is to have this sort of unabashed representation and we’re finally getting it in such an incredible way. What an era we are living in and all I can say is long may it continue and I am so proud to be a Chappell Roan fan.

[melmov]

I cast: curse of the eldest (can’t ask for help)

[identitty-dickruption]

one of the worst things in the world is that feeling unloveable can (and will) make you act in ways that reinforces itself. I feel unloveable so I don’t respond to messages so people reach out less so I feel unloveable. one of the hardest things in the world is fighting back the brain demons long enough to break the cycle

[autismdeathglare]

Ya know what shout out to butches who wrestle with our butchness because we don’t fit the mold in some way. Butches who aren’t physically strong or naturally caretaking because of physical disability, who need to be cared for, who can’t hold open the door for a femme. Butches with long hair, butches with big hair, butches who express their culture via their hair. Butches who’s masculinity is shaped by their culture, who’s masculinity doesn’t fit the white eurocentric mold. Fat butches, butches with curves viewed as feminine, butches who don’t have skinny, boyish builds. Butches who don’t want to be sexualized, butches on the ace spectrum. Butches who don’t have traditionally masculine interests or mannerisms or whatever. Effeminate butches. Butches who take inspo from gay men. Butches who like the occasional dress or skirt. TRANSFEM BUTCHES!!!!! And any other butches who don’t fit a certain mold!! All butches are good butches and we are all valid.

[stuckinapril]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

[beetleandfox]

I love how unsanitized The Terror feels. Like there’s grime everywhere. You can tell those men smell bad. When they do surgery you can hear the bone being cut, when they get sick they look genuinely ill. The main character’s actor even has pockmarks, he LOOKS like he could be from the 1800s! And idk, I think it’s cool that we’re so aware of the characters’ carnal desires. They’re hungry, thirsty, freezing, etc, and it is so obvious that they have a body with needs!!

I think this also accounts for how horny the show feels, even though everyone is bundled up 90% of the time and there are no real romantic subplots. Besides the fact that it’s a very carnal show, it just has the intimacy and grime of true horniness. Is this thing on