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distantsolarsystemsandsnails · 14 hours ago

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last christmas as in THE LAST CHRISTMAS WE’RE GONNA HAVE IN THIS HOUSE I’M SO SAD

#my grandma is moving next year :(#i’m gonna miss this house so much #I’ve been coming here for christmas since i was a baby and this is the last time i can’t believe it #last time sleeping on the third floor on an air mattress last christmas eve chinese food dinner in that dining room #last christmas morning opening presents from under the tree in the living room #this sort of symbolizes the end of being a kid for me since coming here for christmas was such an important part of my childhood #:((((((((#oh well things end #i’ll try to enjoy it as much as i can #and hey at least i get to say goodbye to this house. i didn’t get to say goodbye to my other grandmother’s house before she moved #solar systems posting

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myketheartista · 16 days ago

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43??

Hello Mel!! I was so, so excited to see you got 43 ^w^ this is one of my favorite songs and it makes me think about Matilda’s family back at home while she’s gone on her journey. There’s a lot of negative emotions that fester during the time she’s away, and the two eldest siblings are left feeling distant from one another as they struggle to find their own paths while taking care of their other four siblings. As scary as it is without Matilda around, Mallory knows she can’t leave Maeson to fend for the family or they’d inevitably fall apart. Thank you for the ask!!

#43: The Chapel - Madilyn Mei

#enthusiasm at its best #dnd #dungeons & dragons #goldenmill family #oc #original character #spotify wrapped 2024 #theeeeeeese guys make my heart hurt aaaall the time uguguuhh #Maeson being stubborn and closed off while mallory is too nervous for her own good #she cares for him a lot but she knows any second he rests or takes time for himself is a moment he’s not taking care of the family #and he’ll blame himself for that :’]#and he’s already so bitter in Matilda’s absence #I just think maeson becomes distant both in the relationships with his siblings as well as their traditions and things #and it’s upsetting to see him care so much about Matilda being gone than focus on what they have now #also peep baby milo he’s my favorite #I’ll post their family line up soon since I have a few asks focusing on Matilda :]#but I was so so happy to try this soft yellow tone out like it’s a memory or something #the chapel just fits the vibe….#anyways this is definitely a song that highlights their cultural practices like I think they go to a chapel quotation marks and sing songs #but everything is very clunky and wrong when someone is obviously missing and someone is obviously not participating #Mallory can only be happy the younger ones are enjoying themselves #fairytale campaign

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fishing-lesbian-catgirl · 1 year ago

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The internet is a beautiful place. I can search for something so absurdly specific and tailored to my interests and still be able to find something about it I disagree with that makes the whole thing less meaningful to me.

Several months ago I was able to find a whole collection of slutty transfem lesbian Asbestos fanfiction, only to get part way through and think “hey wait she would not get bottom surgery” and find the rest of the works in the collection less enjoyable because of it

#like this is asbestos we’re talking about. there’s not a lot of fanfiction of her in general #and I was able to find all that that was so fitting for my specific wants #and still find an issue with it that I don’t like #and I just think that’s hilarious. beggars can’t be choosers but I still try #(for the record I did still very much enjoy the rest of it. just not as much as I might have)#one day I’ll write magbestos or something and then all my specific wants will be met because how can I disagree with myself #oh wait #asbestos #arknights

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tj-crochets · 1 year ago

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An experiment with painting on paper instead of fabric!

Idk why I keep painting sunset-ish scenes, but I’m having fun lol

#painting #I might’ve added too more than the optimal number of clouds #but considering I did not paint from a reference picture and also don’t know what I’m doing #I think I’m doing pretty well! next time I think I might try to paint a quilt?#idk if I’ll enjoy that though I think my favorite part of painting might be the colors #not so much the precision work #side note if anyone is reading this tags who can paint and/or draw a stack of quilts in color #and is taking commissions please let me know #I’d love to have art of a stack of my quilts

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carlos-tk · 2 months ago

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sometimes i can’t believe i was posting wips every single wednesday and sunday for literal months like who even was that person

#and now i can’t even write a paragraph without taking a month break #or monthS should i say #god why aren’t the words so easy anymore 😫😖#this writers block thing is doing my absolute head in #i get so excited to still be tagged #and then i’m all ☹️ cos i have no words to share back #i have so many wips so may ideas but i am so scattered #i miss writing soooo much #and instead of actually writing #i just think about it #and never get any words down #also we’re like a third of the way thru the new season and that is scaring me #i feel like by the time i can write again or finish a fic i’ll have missed the boat #and everyone will have moved on #or already written the same idea but better #and it’ll be like hey! what’s the point #anyway i’ll try to be reassured by the fact everyone stayed active during an 18 month hiatus #and the more fics the merrier #also feels like i’m trying to make up for lost time #for all the years the show aired and i wasn’t apart of the fandom #i want to enjoy and savour all the moments of the new season with you all #and get out of my own head #but that won’t be tonight 🥲#🌀 hours #don’t mind me being a sook lol #emphasis on the sunday scaries tonight #literally how is it monday again already im going insane 😵‍💫#d stuff

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mrdrhenwardhykle · 3 months ago

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“Catch of the day”

I had a vision

#I’ll try to explain the best I can #Henry has a habit to make outdoorsy plans whenever he feels like he needs to decompress #Since his injury his doctor told him not to unless he had a buddy-so when he started getting close with Berna he asked her #Bernadette got used to it quickly and enjoyed it about as much as him #as they got closer they planned it more often to the point of having a good idea about local woodlands lodges and camping spots #I also felt like they would often look for other partners to go along with them #at the same time if they offered it to PG he would accept not because he’s outdoorsy but because he wanted to get closer to Henry and Berna #as friends not just employees #Howe the one time he’d tag along he probably got immediately swamped and realized too soon he’s not an outdoorsy person #yeah so I actually overthink elaborate things like that for character development #hehe #bernadette Leveret #fnaf #Henry Blagdan #phone guy #five nights at freddy's #Phonadette #Henadette

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starbuck · 11 months ago

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with respect to myself, this whole “i need to wait till i’m out of school to date,” “i need to wait till i’m more historically, politically, and culturally educated to date” is all bullshit. it’s the top surgery. that’s the holdup. they chop these tits off and i’m ready to go.

#for the record - i still think that those first two things are the WISEST course of action #but i’m just saying that i don’t think anyone could hold me back if the opportunity arises #because the top surgery thing is my real hangup #because that would be a LOT to go through with someone in a new relationship and i would rather Not #so it’s better to wait #and i have a feeling that MY confidence will increase a ton in the aftermath as well #i’ll FINALLY be able to dress how i want holy SHIT #no more needless layering and strategically shapeless flannels #thank GOD #and in the meantime i’ll just keep trying to learn as much as i can on the way there!#so that i’m as prepared as possible whenever the moment comes along #i’m really working on not being mean to myself about not knowing things #nobody comes into the world with this knowledge #and i was not given the resources growing up that encouraged me to learn these things #just because some people had parents or friends who introduced them to things when they were younger or grew up in cultural centers #doesn’t make them cooler or better than me #i am educating myself now and that is what is important #i enjoy learning and that is what is important #i WILL become my ideal self one day - i am getting better #i am not perfect - i am still fucking up a ton and insecure and stretching myself to the absolute limit #which is why it is probably NOT a good idea to date right now!!!!!!#but who knows… i’ll just go where the road takes me #and see how that works out

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floral-hex · 10 months ago

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woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void #shits rough dawg #I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts #haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier #it’s cold #saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early.#and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed.#went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours #guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left #even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are #I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh #my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week #maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done.#I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting #woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside #hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning #can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding)#actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so…#I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience #anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments #I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired.#I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die.#is this relatable?#just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda.#gonna look at pictures of butts now #ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever #you can ignore this #text

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ghettogothgoblin · 2 months ago

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i want my humanity back

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fingertipsmp3 · 5 months ago

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Friendship ended with google sheets, now filofax is my best friend

#i’ve been tying to come up with a system for verb conjugations #like recording all the verbs i’ve encountered in spanish and their conjugations. just in present tense for now and then i will learn #past and future and any other cases or tenses i may need #and i did buy a dedicated language journal (which i’m really enjoying using. it has habit trackers; lots of space for notetaking and doing #textbook exercises; sections for vocab lists and to write out/give examples of grammar rules; journal prompts for writing #in your target language etc) but it only has 48 verb conjugation tables #i have already encountered 77 different verbs in some form or another and recorded their infinitives so that i can table them #even if i’m just focusing on the present tense right now i do not have enough space and i don’t want to clutter up the rest of my note pages #with just conjugation tables #so i needed a system and at first i was going to do a spreadsheet but then i was like realistically i will spend WAY too long on the layout #and i don’t think i’ll actually use it that much because google sheets is so fucking awkward on my phone #i’d have to pull my whole laptop out just to look at this spreadsheet. it won’t be fun. it’ll seem too much like hard work #so i thought okay. what do i actually want from a verb conjugation system. some form of organisation for sure. colour coding #the ability to move stuff around if i want to #so i’m just using my filofax and various pens #it’s a personal size filofax so i can fit two verbs per page plus a couple of sample sentences using the verbs #i am SO much more likely to grab this and use it; especially if i keep it with my main language journal #and i can always add new pages. or if i run out of space i can take out verbs i’m confident with now and replace with verbs i’m trying #to learn. (i’m starting with just the most essential verbs. since that’s the ones i’m usually finding anyway in A1 content)#i’m really happy with this idea tbh. i don’t know if i already said that #personal

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crybaby-bkg · 1 year ago

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writing a slow burn enemies to lovers fic is. a lot harder. than I had expected.

#it’s why it took me so long to start akdhfkfjf #I’m just not used to writing slow burn!!!!#or enemies to lovers!!! lol #especially since enemies to lovers toes a very thin line #of this being too fast and all at once after a brief makeup #OR they’re too mean in the beginning and it’s like why do u have any attraction to that person at all.#so I’m trying to find the line of hesitant friendship somewhere along the line of that!!!!#even tho I’m only on chap three right now AKDHDKFJFJF #IM SO USED TO RUSHING THIS FEELS SO WEIRD!!!!!!#I’m ready for them to fugg #bc fugg is all I know I fear #but it’s coming along very well and I’m enjoying the writing process so much!!!#only downside is my wrist and back hurting #but trust and believe I’ll be back writing tomorrow ☝🏼#I’m enjoying this so much it’s so cathartic #I think I’m gonna write about five chapters first before I publish it and then write the rest as I go #I just know I can fall behind bc of school and depression but I’m really liking this so far!!!#also think I might upload on Monday’s or Thursdays??? idk #bc I do school tues/wed and I don’t typically get on my computer on sundays #and I usually go to bed either really late or really early Fridays LOL idk #I’m rambling soooo much I’m just so excited about this!!! OH and j made a banner and I love that too!!!!#—in store chit chat! 🍫

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sucrose-soymilk · 1 year ago

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hadn’t really regressed in a While and i didn’t realize how much i missed/dareisay needed it until i had the free time and ability to do so over the last few days and i have to say. i’m feeling a bit better

#imagine that! the coping mechanism… helps!!! wow #Seven’s Small Thoughts #not tagging this as anything else bc this blog is really just a not-so-secret public diary #and im not really trying to gain any sort of following or participate in the community very much #i just wanna talk to the void abt regression every once in a blue moon y’know #i also feel like i don’t really belong in the community much/am not a Good Example of sfw agere since i’m very n/ s/ f/ w everywhere else #which is a double standard that i don’t hold others to but i feel like others will hold it against me??? and i’m just shy anyways #and not looking to interact. just wanna keep all this stuff tucked away in a side-blog #i also feel like a lot of the community likes to blog while actively regressed and i don’t wanna step in there as someone who isn’t #nothing wrong with it! at all! i just don’t have the capacity to since i go nonverbal when i regress. no thoughts head blissfully empty #anyways this wasn’t supposed to be a vent post let’s change the topic!#anywhooo what else did i come on here to say. oh yeah #i lowkey forgot how much regressing has helped me in the past until i was able to really indulge myself in it again recently #it’s so nice to just be small and hand someone else the reins and forget abt everything other than doing something you enjoy #maybe one day i’ll be at a point in my life where i can fully regress more freely and more often but for now i’ll take what i can get #i’m also excited because i’ve been thinking abt ordering a paci from this one specific seller #and yesterday saw that they’re dropping a new batch of fall/halloween themed ones today!!!#so now i’ve gotta make myself stay awake until 6pm so i can jump on it when they’re available #which is a small struggle considering my nocturnal sleep schedule but i will do it nonetheless #that crescent moon patterned one Will Be Mine #trying to decide between buttercup yellow and schoolbus yellow for the clip #i think i’m more drawn to the vibrancy of the schoolbus yellow honestly #eeeeeee i’m excited i’ve been wanting to treat myself to ordering from this shop for a g e s and im finally gonna do it

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spicyicymeloncat · 1 year ago

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Bit of an opinionated rant but:

Idk why everyone is so upset over the Zelda timeline and the Zelda continuity or whatever. I like the huge spaghetti mess that is Zelda lore. I like that the developers don’t give a fuck about consistency. I’m glad it gives them the freedom to make whatever the fuck in their games.

Is it perfect? No. Could it be better? Of course!

But isn’t half the fun of being a Zelda theorist, playing with the puzzle pieces yourself? For me personally, it doesn’t matter if Nintendo never had this grand master plan of the Zelda lore. It means everyone can come to their own conclusions on the origin of the heroes or the magic or the different groups of people. And that’s kinda by design.

#idk #i have seen one too many Zelda takes that I personally disagree with #sometimes people have valid criticism and sometimes their problem is that they lack imagination #there’s so much ‘well it’s not as good as [insert their fav zelda game]’ or ‘they should’ve done it just like [xxx Zelda]’#and like sometimes those games that they’re saying are so much better have like exactly the same pitfalls #or the person complaining just lacks the imagination to think about what couldn’t happened in the timeline #it’s literally up to player interpretation if you hate a game you can just idk decanonise it if you want #hhh #idk idk #gonna unfollow some people bc I swear half the Zelda content I see is ppl shitting on totk #and yeah it’s not a perfect game and it’s not my favourite and I’ve got complaints too #but it really feels like ppl are complaining because it wasn’t exactly how they envisioned it #like besties if you wanted it to be like any other Zelda then play those other zeldas instead #like totk is not even making my top 5 probably just bc I enjoyed other zeldas more #but imo people are being annoying about it #i mean that with love I’m not trying to pick a fight I’m just idk venting into the internet about dumb video games #Mayhaps I’ll delete later #loz #whatever I’ll just go back to playing the funny hatsune Miku game #i just watched a lesbian wedding in that game #it’s sunny somewhere

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fatelcved · 11 months ago

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i think i’m gonna write more in-depth lore posts for the deities of dorverold, maybe even exploring their respective “ courts ” and whatnot; i want to really flesh all of them out and build on the sort of followers they probably have, their influence, domains, etc., so!!

#mal and orrosta have to wait bc they weren’t creation deities in that they didn’t help shape the initial earth #they came later so they’ll later be grouped with other minor deities who rose to prominence #although i’m wondering if mal should be considered part of the original group? like saying he helped create time and gave day and night #a beginning and end and gifted humans the ability to recall precious memories stuff like that #we’ll see — i’ll think more on it later!#this is a good starting place since there’s a lot to think about :’ )#also sorry i haven’t been here!! it’s been a bad brain day ;; just haven’t felt motivated to do much other than play pokemon tbh #i hope everyone’s enjoying their day though!! and i’ll try to get back into things soon as i can!#just gotta take it a day at a time rn #get ready to ramble | ooc

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anderperries · 2 years ago

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saying this with the utmost love and respect. u have to stop caring about taylor’s personal life if it affects ur enjoyment of her music to this degree. blacklist the name of whoever she’s dating, unfollow people who keep putting updates on ur dash, do literally anything but sit there and allow it to affect u this much

anon, you’re right and i appreciate it. i try not to care about her personal life too much (as much as i can for the fact i have a parasocial relationship with her lmao) but this also is much deeper to me than her personal life which sucks. it’s more that it is kinda shifting my view of whether i see her as a ‘good’ person and how comfortable i am supporting her if that makes sense? i know it’s going to sound insane to say “it’s an autism thing” and i really don’t have the energy to explain properly rn how it is or why it’s affecting me so damn hard but like,,, it’s an autism thing. i appreciate you though, anon.

#also it’s not that i necessarily viewed her as all that good of a person before. like i love this woman and i have been a fan for 10+ years #but that also means i know stuff i don’t want to know about her and i see her through a weird lense #and if i’m being honest. i wasn’t so much thinking of her as a good person before as much as… not a bad person #and i can have very black and white thinking and it is difficult.#i don’t know. i’ll write more later. something something writing about my h*rry p*tter fan experience #right now i’m just gonna try and listen to her music and enjoy it as music and not as connected to her #also stella is this you? /nm #not tagging anything properly rn. maybe later. i’m not coherent rn.

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cetoddle-archive · 1 year ago

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i rlly have been enjoying dressing more “girly” and feminine the past few months :]

#i like my little skirts and my cute little shoes and my purses and my jewelry #i like doing my nails and putting cute things in my hair #i still don’t rlly wear makeup but every so often i put on a little eye makeup just for funsies and i’m always so pleased with how it looks #i think it’s rlly helped with my confidence tbh #i’ve always just not put much effort in my appearance #a lot of times i still prefer to just lay around in sweatpants and a hoodie still #but!! i really like days when i dress up all pretty i always have so much fun!#for the longest time i just. didn’t think i was the kind of person who could look like that i had no interest in being especially feminine #not even a gender thing i just didn’t rlly care abt my appearance much #but i decided to try different clothes and just slowly try some of the things i never thought i could or cared to wear #and i’ve been having fun! really!#i still have days i just stay in pajamas or don’t bother brushing my hair and stuff #and i’ll go run errands like that 💀#but i enjoy dressing up when i can :3 it’s fun im having sooo much fun #snow.txt

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