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I could get over anything as long as I have something new to be obsessed with
#without a silly book or show or comfort movie idk where I would be genuinely#like I’d rather just be entirely consumed rather than self aware today thanks
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It was the cutest dream I’ve ever had.
Wally, except baby size, and he hung out with me all day
andthentheworldsortastartedfallingapartbutthatsok
#welcome home art#wally darling#welcome home wally#wally#welcome home home#welcome home au#creepy#he was just adorable#He felt like holding a small child#And I’d pick him up under the arms#And he’d get comfortable on my shoulder and tell me about how he misses his neighborhood#He was so sad#that’s the only part of the dream I’d change#He talked just like he does.. except he was like.. younger sounding?#And I wasn’t aware in the beginning that he was alive#But throughout the day he like.. got more and more active#And I was a little bit nervous so I left him on the counter#And then he yelled (yelled being slightly louder then normal) and I just automatically walked back and cradled him#Dream me felt the same as real me fr#Best dream everrrr
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reading old journal entries is like. i take myself firmly by the shoulders. you are not fundamentally evil you are just fifteen
#i was always writing with a hyper awareness that my future self would be reading it#like i felt like i was looking over my own shoulder and i was self conscious about it#and i was always apologizing or asking my future self to forgive me for being dramatic or emo#i couldn’t stand the thought of not being self aware#but reading back now it’s like. girl. i like you. it’s fine.#you’re having a completely normal response to being fifteen. it’s just like that. it’s really okay#i guess i am still looking over her shoulder but mostly i’d just like to hug her#anna rambles
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i really feel like we don’t talk about this photo enough
#it’s a work of art#it should be hung in a gallery somewhere#also not just the fact they’re looking at each other#but they appear to literally be looking at each other’s crotches??? 🤦🏻♀️#like just blatantly#with giddy delight#totally wrapped up in each other 😭#i have no idea what the context for this photo is but i highly doubt it can improve anything#that being said i’d still be super interested to know so if anyone is aware please share!#milex#tlsp#the last shadow puppets#miles kane#alex turner#lulu posts
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quick doodle in honor of us finally getting to hear their voices again
#my art#rowdyruff boys#i’m not over it!!!#the powerpuff girls character in general looks like a blast to play with in that game#i’d consider buying it but i’m just not a fighting game person#i am also aware that the boys are a paid skin. or something along those lines
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DO NOT ADJUST YOUR TV SET
i spent a very long time on this. here’s your host, jack delroy
#late night with the devil#jack delroy#jack delroy art#lnwtd#lnwtd fanart#mixed media#paper dolls#my art#david dastmalchian#also i’d like to mention (bc i KNOW someone will say it)#im very aware of the ai use in the movie and i’m not happy with it at all#but i enjoy these characters very much and we’re allowed to enjoy media while still being critical of its choices#that being said. bootleg it.
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I still can’t w the fact that in the fnaf movie Mike found a bunch of dead kids in his dreams. And the first thing he asked them was can u find MY brother’s killer? Their murders were never solved and their bodies never found and ur gonna ask them who UR brother’s murderer is? 😭
#I get that in the end it was all William Afton so it worked out but like#I’d be miffed if I’d been dead for 20 years and the one guy I could communicate with was only interested in his own case#have some social awareness 😭#fnaf#fnaf fandom#fnaf movie#five nights at freddy's#john hutcherson#michael afton
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South Park fans! How many things do you have in common with your favorite character(s)? I’m curious!!
#So like Tweek I struggle with anxiety#I get can very jittery/twitchy too sometimes#though not as badly as him lol#I feel like I’m never able to express myself properly and can often be misunderstood#ESPECIALLY by my parents#I’d probably describe myself as sweet/sensitive#I worry a lot about both myself and others#but I can also be very snarky 😭😭#I also tend to be insecure and need validation sometimes#and I have a very active mind#and a lack of social awareness 😭😭#KENNY on the other hand#I tend to rely on my friendships a lot#I take a lot of comfort in them and struggle with the idea of not having them around#and id probably consider myself a pretty protective person too at times#and once I’m comfortable around you I have a pretty chaotic/laidback type of personality#asides from that though I tend to stay in the background/not talk as much#south park#tweek tweak#kenny mccormick#honestly theres probably more but these are the ones I can think off of the top of my head
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This is something I've only seen on the game's TV Tropes page, but what do you think of the idea that Curly's less than perfect decisions were because he was sleep deprived?
I think it’s one of the factors on many.
To say it’s the biggest reason pushes past a lot of stuff and other concepts but I do think his “zoning out” and slow reactions were extrapolated by not sleeping enough. We can kinda infer he used the coffee machine to supplement the sleep he missed despite it keeping him up worse. Losing that in tandem with the last weeks stressors is like anxiety on top of caffeine withdrawal, but the machines been broke for a while so he’s likely over it. So I do think he was sleep deprived but it was more so the beginning stages of fog, irritability and struggles with organizing thoughts.
Like I put his sleep deprivation in one of the faults of capitalism and Pony Express when it comes to things Curly couldn’t handle vs just didn’t Janel well, it was out of his control. Like he is the Captain but also the main pilot, idk if yall know but 5 hours is not enough for like a nice day of relaxing let alone flying a space craft. It’s not just sleep deprivation but exhaustion from the monotony of work at play. If his psych eval is any indication he has been running on autopilot for a while, doubly so if we consider that sort of dissociative hallucination before Jimmy’s eval as another dash on his not all there ness.
A weird design of work relaxation balance from P.E as I feel like it makes accidents more likely to happen, but if that includes more reasons to dock pay then I can see why they made it that way.
#like the fact any of them were aware enough to do their jobs is crazy cause like they all do the entirety of their one position#like everyone should atleast get an assistant or something#just for trade offs and another 2 hours at least of sleep like no wonder everyone spiraled so fast#only 5 hours of sleep things keep going wrong like yeah I’d think we’ll time to hide the gun too and also like#holy shit maybe if I just mediate and talk nothing bad will happen cause like#I’ve stayed up too long and kept losing my phone that was in my hand cause I was only seeing it as a flashlight#like it’s not an excuse but another reason everything was fucked and doomed#mouthwashing#anon#ask#mouthwashing game#curly mouthwashing#captain curly#curly mw#again fuck that horse and fuck that ship
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I wish I could tell the original artist that this drawing permanently changed the entire direction of my life in 2009. I want to shake their hand, look them in the eye, and admit I would not be who I am today if this drawing didn’t exist.
EDIT: Original artist is @ivynajspyder !!!!
#‘but jojo’ you ask. ‘that seems a little ridiculous’#‘don’t you think that’s a little much?’#no. NO. IT IS THE TRUTH.#little baby middle schooler jojo had just gotten squeak squad. the first kirby game she ever owned.#and she loved it even tho there’s a lot she didn’t understand#like who dedede was supposed to be or why copy abilities existed#I asked for the game because my roommate at swim camp had it and she told me the plot of the game when I looked over her shoulder to watch#(the plot she told me was completely made up btw she said kirby had to save the dimension from dark overlord and did not mention the squeak#and said stuff about meta knight being a bad guy idk I realize now she was just weaving a tale of her own haha)#SO I WAS NOT AWARE OF THE LORE. I had only played the one game and it’s the one people don’t like the plot of#but meta knight completely intrigued me#what was this blue sword wielding little kirby dude doing here??#so I’d replay his boss fight over and over again just to get that glimpse at his face#and I’d sit and wonder what it all meant. who was this mysterious swordsman??#and the boss fight was hard!!! it cost me to beat it at the time but I’d still do it to see his face#AND THEN AFTER LIKE A YEAR OF THIS it occurred to me that there was a kirby wiki online#so I found all the pictures of his face and my little fangirl-raised-by-deviantart mind ATE THIS UP.#and then I look up that one fateful google search……… the one that changed me#meta.#knight.#maskless.#and this drawing was towards the top of the results#I went feral about a fandom related topic for the very very first time#I lost my MIND. HOW can a character be so cute AND COOL??! I was a changed child.#I consumed the hoshi no kaabii anime like it was the only piece of media on earth#I drew comics about him. I made my first kirby oc ever to go on a grand adventure on him.#I filled my notebooks with kirby art to the point my mom was like ‘jossie. you REALLY need to branch out. these are just orbs.’#and now I am the kirby artist I am today. so yes. YES. this drawing did change my life.#thanks for reading. and thanks to the original artist. I tried to find them to link but nothing. so if you know pls tell me#THE END!!! and remember! your art makes a difference in people’s lives even if they don’t say it to your face!!!!
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personalay i think you should draw more hlvrai gordo i love love love your gordon he is so real and there needs to be more of him
Went a little overboard but it’s okay cuz it’s Gordon
#THANK YOU FOR YOUR KIND WORDS… I’m happy you like my Gordo#the second picture is a week old I just thought I’d include it#hlvrai#half life but the ai is self aware#gordon feetman#hlvrai gordon#my art#asks
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One of the funniest disconnects with actual play to me is how much the viewers/fandoms have a much broader awareness of everyone’s mechanics than the players themselves - and often assume for some reason that all the players have that same total awareness.
Funniest examples I can think of off the top of my head are when Laura was convinced Caleb (AC 11 wizard) had a higher AC than Yasha (AC 15 Barbarian) - likely influenced by fear for Yasha in Ashley’s absence and Yasha’s position in melee meaning she was hit more by default. Another was when the entire CR crew aside from Laura revealed in the campaign wrap-up that they seem to have spent the entirety of C2 under the impression Jester had a very high Charisma score (her CHA was 12).
#not gonna main tag this as anything because it honestly is just a fascinating disconnect for me#but I don’t trust people to not be weird#I’d also love to hear any examples from other APs if anyone’s aware#I feel like this is something far more likely to happen in dense long form campaigns#than in shorter ones though#and I guess the point I’m getting at here is that fandoms often assume the players hold an all-knowing overview POV#about everyone else’s characters#and they absolutely do not
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To make up for the fact that I didn’t do anything for them for Christmas, here’s another fake shoujo magazine chapter cover :]
pose ref ↓
HAHA ITS FROM ITAKISS!!!! Naoki and kotoko are nothing like the blorbs but I thought this pose worked for that scene (it’s apart of a much large page split into two images, but I decided to crop it cause the rest of it doesn’t matter tbh)
#‘but Emily it’s too early for Christmas?’ shut up the hallmark/w channel here in Canada has Christmas in July going on rn so it’s fine#/j it is too early for Christmas I’m just being silly#I’m aware of the fact the Japanese I put on here is terrible I’m not very good#while I know some words and have certain hiragana characters memorized (looking at you よ(yo))#my Japanese is still garbage and I rely on shitty online translators and the Japanese keyboards I have on my phone and now ipad#thought I’d add it this time around to make it feel EVEN MORE like it’s a shoujo being published in a monthly magazine in the 80s and 90s#also yeah I’m gonna post these covers out of order if I make more (keeps me from losing interest in completing something)#also also later on ill share what the test says as I’m too lazy to do it rn#anyways I’m gonna go read the blue castle now as I started rereading it recently and my phone need charging#stranger things#nancy wheeler#jonathan byers#jancy
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I love Jade, but if suddenly in that self aware AU i got into the actual TWST i would be terrified not only because of him being...well, scary ass hell, but because he's 190 cm tall, and i'm 147 cm, tall people are scary 💀 and although Idia is tall i would try to go with him because at least he'd understand my humor, if i'd befriend'd him i could stay all day inside his room and not face the other scary ass tall or plainly scarily demanding students, i wouldn't even mind doing anything for Idia as long as it's not going outside XD (i also want to adopt Ortho)
Jade is all legs instead of torso lol
Idia my beloved, he may be tall but I feel like he’ll be slouching around you instead of bending properly to your height out of habits.
Idia is a great option, he’s not some school thug (and Mafia), he's just a couch potato (with a bit of extra flavor which is his family background). Idia can't do anything much but Ortho can.
#I’d like to think that all the dirty work is done by ortho ^^#theatric guest#TWST#Yandere TWST#Self Aware TWST
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new fanfic pet peeve is when people are writing children and clearly don’t know the difference between a 3-year-old, a 7-year-old, and a 13-year-old. this newborn isn’t saying words, this teenager is learning emotional intelligence, this child is literally not capable of comprehending that complex topic. please, it takes 2 minutes to look up “how should a 9-year-old be speaking” and “how developed is a 4-year-old’s mind”
you could even take it a half step further and look up the various stages of development in people. piaget, kohlberg, erikson, all those psychologists created these stages because we all followed such strict patterns when growing. you don’t need to go into the moral development of your oc’s child but at least make sure they’re speaking and acting like a child would at that age.
also when in doubt, for older children just go for more mature. it’s far better than treating teenagers like they don’t know what an emotion is lol
#writing this because the fic i just read followed a LOT of 13-year-olds#and yet none of them were at ALL emotionally mature#like they were at the maturity i would’ve expected from a 9- or 10-year-old at best#just complete lake of control or awareness and no recognition of development#if your fic follows a large period of time we should be seeing GROWTH#it’s not enough to just acknowledge the birthdays passing#i’d like to see more complex thoughts and actions and awareness of consequences#i want to see your characters starting to feel regret and compassion more#weighing pros and cons and dealing with possibilities#they aren’t just existing anymore. they are actively participating in the world#but nooooo have your bloody 16-year-old be blubbering and unable to parse out a simple emotional interaction#yeah yeah context and whatever but seriously it’s just embarrassing#we already put so much effort into our fics so WHY should we give up here??
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there’s been a rise of “was silco a bad dad” discourse on tiktok and i’ve seen too much of it against my will but by far the craziest thing i saw was someone saying one of silcos faults with jinx was “pumping her full of shimmer” op purposely left out the context of why he did that and when someone in the comments was like hey she was literally dying! op said silco should’ve… just let her die. there’s so much to unpack here
the wording “pumping her full of shimmer” is purposefully done to frame his action as worse. we see how silco treats people with shimmer. he dangles it in front of them, taunting them, before throwing it to them like he’s giving a dog a treat. he can watch the effects the drug has on them like it’s nothing. with jinx he carried her in his arms, gave her a lil kiss on the forehead, and had to be knocked out before her procedure began because he wouldn’t have been able to handle seeing jinx go through it. he wasn’t feeding jinx shimmer her whole life, it was a desperate last resort he went to in order to save her life.
saying he should’ve just let her die is. fucking WILD. if he let her die they’d hate him for that too! if you hate this character just hate them as is! you don’t need to make his misdeeds even more awful he’s done enough for you to reasonably dislike him. whether you like it or not, silco was her father. jinx was his daughter. whatever view you have on silco, those two facts will always be true. of course he’d do literally anything to keep her alive. if vander did this, would you have the same reaction? would you say vander should’ve just let his daughter die? or would you call it sweet and say he was so caring and such a good father for saving his child’s life?
again you can hate silco but hate with reason. he’s a complex character in the terms that he is a complicated man in the universe. he’s not complex in the way that it’s hard to understand his actions. it’s actually really easy to figure out his motives, especially for something so clear as his daughters life literally being on the line. people are purposefully being ignorant of his nuances to feel justified in disliking him and im so fucking tired!!!!
#silco arcane#fandom critical#i’m trying not to get involved in this stuff too much#but jesus some of you have nothing in your skulls and i can’t be quiet about it#becoming a silco apologist out of spite im so annoyed#i’m very aware of his abuse and manipulation and i’d actually love to talk about him in depth#but people who bring that up don’t care about the character! they only bring it up to make you feel like shit for having the AUDACITY#to like a fictional character#‘am i the only one that thinks silco was a bad dad? am i the only one who thinks silco was manipulative?’#NO YOURE NOT YOURE LITERALLY NOT#stop trying to act like you have the moral high ground because you saw someone enjoy a villain in a work of fiction
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