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I could get over anything as long as I have something new to be obsessed with
#without a silly book or show or comfort movie idk where I would be genuinely#like I’d rather just be entirely consumed rather than self aware today thanks
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It was the cutest dream I’ve ever had.
Wally, except baby size, and he hung out with me all day
andthentheworldsortastartedfallingapartbutthatsok
#welcome home art#wally darling#welcome home wally#wally#welcome home home#welcome home au#creepy#he was just adorable#He felt like holding a small child#And I’d pick him up under the arms#And he’d get comfortable on my shoulder and tell me about how he misses his neighborhood#He was so sad#that’s the only part of the dream I’d change#He talked just like he does.. except he was like.. younger sounding?#And I wasn’t aware in the beginning that he was alive#But throughout the day he like.. got more and more active#And I was a little bit nervous so I left him on the counter#And then he yelled (yelled being slightly louder then normal) and I just automatically walked back and cradled him#Dream me felt the same as real me fr#Best dream everrrr
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reading old journal entries is like. i take myself firmly by the shoulders. you are not fundamentally evil you are just fifteen
#i was always writing with a hyper awareness that my future self would be reading it#like i felt like i was looking over my own shoulder and i was self conscious about it#and i was always apologizing or asking my future self to forgive me for being dramatic or emo#i couldn’t stand the thought of not being self aware#but reading back now it’s like. girl. i like you. it’s fine.#you’re having a completely normal response to being fifteen. it’s just like that. it’s really okay#i guess i am still looking over her shoulder but mostly i’d just like to hug her#anna rambles
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quick doodle in honor of us finally getting to hear their voices again
#my art#rowdyruff boys#i’m not over it!!!#the powerpuff girls character in general looks like a blast to play with in that game#i’d consider buying it but i’m just not a fighting game person#i am also aware that the boys are a paid skin. or something along those lines
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i really feel like we don’t talk about this photo enough
#it’s a work of art#it should be hung in a gallery somewhere#also not just the fact they’re looking at each other#but they appear to literally be looking at each other’s crotches??? 🤦🏻♀️#like just blatantly#with giddy delight#totally wrapped up in each other 😭#i have no idea what the context for this photo is but i highly doubt it can improve anything#that being said i’d still be super interested to know so if anyone is aware please share!#milex#tlsp#the last shadow puppets#miles kane#alex turner#lulu posts
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DO NOT ADJUST YOUR TV SET
i spent a very long time on this. here’s your host, jack delroy
#late night with the devil#jack delroy#jack delroy art#lnwtd#lnwtd fanart#mixed media#paper dolls#my art#david dastmalchian#also i’d like to mention (bc i KNOW someone will say it)#im very aware of the ai use in the movie and i’m not happy with it at all#but i enjoy these characters very much and we’re allowed to enjoy media while still being critical of its choices#that being said. bootleg it.
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I still can’t w the fact that in the fnaf movie Mike found a bunch of dead kids in his dreams. And the first thing he asked them was can u find MY brother’s killer? Their murders were never solved and their bodies never found and ur gonna ask them who UR brother’s murderer is? 😭
#I get that in the end it was all William Afton so it worked out but like#I’d be miffed if I’d been dead for 20 years and the one guy I could communicate with was only interested in his own case#have some social awareness 😭#fnaf#fnaf fandom#fnaf movie#five nights at freddy's#john hutcherson#michael afton
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South Park fans! How many things do you have in common with your favorite character(s)? I’m curious!!
#So like Tweek I struggle with anxiety#I get can very jittery/twitchy too sometimes#though not as badly as him lol#I feel like I’m never able to express myself properly and can often be misunderstood#ESPECIALLY by my parents#I’d probably describe myself as sweet/sensitive#I worry a lot about both myself and others#but I can also be very snarky 😭😭#I also tend to be insecure and need validation sometimes#and I have a very active mind#and a lack of social awareness 😭😭#KENNY on the other hand#I tend to rely on my friendships a lot#I take a lot of comfort in them and struggle with the idea of not having them around#and id probably consider myself a pretty protective person too at times#and once I’m comfortable around you I have a pretty chaotic/laidback type of personality#asides from that though I tend to stay in the background/not talk as much#south park#tweek tweak#kenny mccormick#honestly theres probably more but these are the ones I can think off of the top of my head
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I wish I could tell the original artist that this drawing permanently changed the entire direction of my life in 2009. I want to shake their hand, look them in the eye, and admit I would not be who I am today if this drawing didn’t exist.
EDIT: Original artist is @ivynajspyder !!!!
#‘but jojo’ you ask. ‘that seems a little ridiculous’#‘don’t you think that’s a little much?’#no. NO. IT IS THE TRUTH.#little baby middle schooler jojo had just gotten squeak squad. the first kirby game she ever owned.#and she loved it even tho there’s a lot she didn’t understand#like who dedede was supposed to be or why copy abilities existed#I asked for the game because my roommate at swim camp had it and she told me the plot of the game when I looked over her shoulder to watch#(the plot she told me was completely made up btw she said kirby had to save the dimension from dark overlord and did not mention the squeak#and said stuff about meta knight being a bad guy idk I realize now she was just weaving a tale of her own haha)#SO I WAS NOT AWARE OF THE LORE. I had only played the one game and it’s the one people don’t like the plot of#but meta knight completely intrigued me#what was this blue sword wielding little kirby dude doing here??#so I’d replay his boss fight over and over again just to get that glimpse at his face#and I’d sit and wonder what it all meant. who was this mysterious swordsman??#and the boss fight was hard!!! it cost me to beat it at the time but I’d still do it to see his face#AND THEN AFTER LIKE A YEAR OF THIS it occurred to me that there was a kirby wiki online#so I found all the pictures of his face and my little fangirl-raised-by-deviantart mind ATE THIS UP.#and then I look up that one fateful google search……… the one that changed me#meta.#knight.#maskless.#and this drawing was towards the top of the results#I went feral about a fandom related topic for the very very first time#I lost my MIND. HOW can a character be so cute AND COOL??! I was a changed child.#I consumed the hoshi no kaabii anime like it was the only piece of media on earth#I drew comics about him. I made my first kirby oc ever to go on a grand adventure on him.#I filled my notebooks with kirby art to the point my mom was like ‘jossie. you REALLY need to branch out. these are just orbs.’#and now I am the kirby artist I am today. so yes. YES. this drawing did change my life.#thanks for reading. and thanks to the original artist. I tried to find them to link but nothing. so if you know pls tell me#THE END!!! and remember! your art makes a difference in people’s lives even if they don’t say it to your face!!!!
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personalay i think you should draw more hlvrai gordo i love love love your gordon he is so real and there needs to be more of him
Went a little overboard but it’s okay cuz it’s Gordon
#THANK YOU FOR YOUR KIND WORDS… I’m happy you like my Gordo#the second picture is a week old I just thought I’d include it#hlvrai#half life but the ai is self aware#gordon feetman#hlvrai gordon#my art#asks
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One of the funniest disconnects with actual play to me is how much the viewers/fandoms have a much broader awareness of everyone’s mechanics than the players themselves - and often assume for some reason that all the players have that same total awareness.
Funniest examples I can think of off the top of my head are when Laura was convinced Caleb (AC 11 wizard) had a higher AC than Yasha (AC 15 Barbarian) - likely influenced by fear for Yasha in Ashley’s absence and Yasha’s position in melee meaning she was hit more by default. Another was when the entire CR crew aside from Laura revealed in the campaign wrap-up that they seem to have spent the entirety of C2 under the impression Jester had a very high Charisma score (her CHA was 12).
#not gonna main tag this as anything because it honestly is just a fascinating disconnect for me#but I don’t trust people to not be weird#I’d also love to hear any examples from other APs if anyone’s aware#I feel like this is something far more likely to happen in dense long form campaigns#than in shorter ones though#and I guess the point I’m getting at here is that fandoms often assume the players hold an all-knowing overview POV#about everyone else’s characters#and they absolutely do not
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To make up for the fact that I didn’t do anything for them for Christmas, here’s another fake shoujo magazine chapter cover :]
pose ref ↓
HAHA ITS FROM ITAKISS!!!! Naoki and kotoko are nothing like the blorbs but I thought this pose worked for that scene (it’s apart of a much large page split into two images, but I decided to crop it cause the rest of it doesn’t matter tbh)
#‘but Emily it’s too early for Christmas?’ shut up the hallmark/w channel here in Canada has Christmas in July going on rn so it’s fine#/j it is too early for Christmas I’m just being silly#I’m aware of the fact the Japanese I put on here is terrible I’m not very good#while I know some words and have certain hiragana characters memorized (looking at you よ(yo))#my Japanese is still garbage and I rely on shitty online translators and the Japanese keyboards I have on my phone and now ipad#thought I’d add it this time around to make it feel EVEN MORE like it’s a shoujo being published in a monthly magazine in the 80s and 90s#also yeah I’m gonna post these covers out of order if I make more (keeps me from losing interest in completing something)#also also later on ill share what the test says as I’m too lazy to do it rn#anyways I’m gonna go read the blue castle now as I started rereading it recently and my phone need charging#stranger things#nancy wheeler#jonathan byers#jancy
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I love Jade, but if suddenly in that self aware AU i got into the actual TWST i would be terrified not only because of him being...well, scary ass hell, but because he's 190 cm tall, and i'm 147 cm, tall people are scary 💀 and although Idia is tall i would try to go with him because at least he'd understand my humor, if i'd befriend'd him i could stay all day inside his room and not face the other scary ass tall or plainly scarily demanding students, i wouldn't even mind doing anything for Idia as long as it's not going outside XD (i also want to adopt Ortho)
Jade is all legs instead of torso lol
Idia my beloved, he may be tall but I feel like he’ll be slouching around you instead of bending properly to your height out of habits.
Idia is a great option, he’s not some school thug (and Mafia), he's just a couch potato (with a bit of extra flavor which is his family background). Idia can't do anything much but Ortho can.
#I’d like to think that all the dirty work is done by ortho ^^#theatric guest#TWST#Yandere TWST#Self Aware TWST
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new fanfic pet peeve is when people are writing children and clearly don’t know the difference between a 3-year-old, a 7-year-old, and a 13-year-old. this newborn isn’t saying words, this teenager is learning emotional intelligence, this child is literally not capable of comprehending that complex topic. please, it takes 2 minutes to look up “how should a 9-year-old be speaking” and “how developed is a 4-year-old’s mind”
you could even take it a half step further and look up the various stages of development in people. piaget, kohlberg, erikson, all those psychologists created these stages because we all followed such strict patterns when growing. you don’t need to go into the moral development of your oc’s child but at least make sure they’re speaking and acting like a child would at that age.
also when in doubt, for older children just go for more mature. it’s far better than treating teenagers like they don’t know what an emotion is lol
#writing this because the fic i just read followed a LOT of 13-year-olds#and yet none of them were at ALL emotionally mature#like they were at the maturity i would’ve expected from a 9- or 10-year-old at best#just complete lake of control or awareness and no recognition of development#if your fic follows a large period of time we should be seeing GROWTH#it’s not enough to just acknowledge the birthdays passing#i’d like to see more complex thoughts and actions and awareness of consequences#i want to see your characters starting to feel regret and compassion more#weighing pros and cons and dealing with possibilities#they aren’t just existing anymore. they are actively participating in the world#but nooooo have your bloody 16-year-old be blubbering and unable to parse out a simple emotional interaction#yeah yeah context and whatever but seriously it’s just embarrassing#we already put so much effort into our fics so WHY should we give up here??
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You know, I've been thinking. The stars in our world often look quite dim, especially in areas where there is light pollution. Suddenly, I'm imagining that in the Imposter!AU, the Creator looks at the stars at night, captivated by their brilliance. Perhaps Scaramouche or Mona (Whichever you prefer, you may also just write another character you think fits this scenario :D) find them. The Creator looks at them, then back at the stars.
"They're very lovely, you know? The stars never shine this brightly back home. It's a lovely sight..."
They smile. "I'm happy that I'm able to see them, even if it's in another world. I appreciate you letting me look at them before I die."
Perhaps the character takes pause... And sits next to them.
It's a lovely night.
in the stars
word count: ~1k
-> warnings: violence, blood, both of those in your future so technically you’re not hurt yet, not written for mona mains, sorry, didn’t work with the plot :/ also diona/klee/qiqi/nahida/sayu mains are on thin ice with this one. questionable plot. barely edited.
-> lowercase intended
taglist: @samarill || @thenyxsky || @valeriele3 || @shizunxie
< masterlist >
the stars never lie.
mona clutches her catalyst to her chest, wide eyes turned to the sky. she whispers to them, hoping they’ll change, shift into something she’ll understand, anything.
they don’t.
her head lowers, inspecting the book. thrilling tales, the spine reads, the cover a simplified dragon with a sword through it. she tries to read into it, to try and pick apart the motives behind the weapon, but all it returns is a simple needlepoint.
a compass. one she’d followed ever since she caved into the pull on her catalyst, one she’d followed out of the city at dusk and into the plains, hiking up starsnatch cliff at its behest. her twin tails had lost some of their curl on the journey, her hat flopping sadly. it was late, later than she’d normally be awake, and she stumbled once on a rock before quickly catching herself, checking to make sure you hadn’t moved.
you, sat at the peak of the cliff. you, surrounded by cecelias, face turned to the stars. you, who turned at her short cry.
“are you alright?”
she couldn’t bring her hands to shift her catalyst into its attack position. her hands, free from their usual gloves, dug into the cover of the book, shaking both with the chill of night and with… she couldn’t tell, couldn’t pin whether it was fear or nervousness, or something else that blurred the line between panic and excitement.
“just fine, thank you.”
her voice was harsher than it should have been. she could tell you were being genuine, the way the water in the air shaped around you like it wanted to cling made that clear enough, the stars shining down on you as if you were the only being on the planet.
the stars never lie. so why were they saying you meant no harm?
you turned back to the stars, your hands shifting back to weave into the grass between the cecelias.
"they’re very lovely tonight. the stars, i mean. they never shine this brightly back home….” against her better judgement, mona glanced up. the sky was particularly clear, constellations shining down unhindered. “it’s a beautiful sight.”
orders from the knights echoed in mona’s head, orders extended from a god she’d never met. she knew the knights wholeheartedly meant what they said, truly believing the words they were told, but you…
hesitantly, she brought her hand in a circle in front of her, scrying for your constellation. you didn’t have one, unsurprisingly, and she relaxed slightly in the knowledge that you didn’t have a vision.. still, there was something strange about the empty space where yours would have been. swapping the sigils and rotating the outer edge, mona decided to read your future.
all the air was sucked from her lungs, the images depicted in the water making her mouth dry. the water warped and bubbled a dark color, as if it itself hated to show what it did.
you were on your knees, tight steel chains wrapped around you and latched onto hooks in whatever you were sitting on. in front of you stood the favored, the creator’s most prized, their weapon drawn. their form was taught with anger, nearly seething. it was strange, so uncharacteristic that it froze the astrologist in place for a moment.
no matter how fiery the disposition, vessels of yours were calmer after being wished upon, heart stiller for being by your side. they, the most prominent on your team of them all, should be at most handling such a severe situation with a tick in their jaw and quiet fury in their eyes, not…
she watched with sick horror as the favored attacks once, your chest caving once, twice with hitched attempts at breathing before you slumped over, blood trickling from your neck. the favored stepped back, weapon dismissed, and mona closed the illusion before it played any further. she hadn’t meant to look all the way to your death, only a few-
…only a few hours.
her hands shake where they’re still clasped in front of her, the remains of her scrying circle swirling in her palms. you didn’t even have a day.
she let the water fall, sending it towards the cecelias around you, willing them to stand brighter as she approached. she couldn’t bring herself to summon her catalyst, not now that she knew what your fate held.
the grass was damp beneath her, seeping slightly into her nightclothes. you didn’t say anything, simply passing her a flower that you had been twirling in your palms. she willed it to heal, restored the color to its petals and the strength to its stem, then passed it back. she had no use for it, not when you…
you chuckled as you took it, staring down at it for a moment before turning skyward once more. mona followed your eyes up, spotting a well known constellation directly above you. nearly perfectly straight up, glowing like a beacon, was the constellation of the favored, six stars making themselves prominent against the dotted sea of night.
“beautiful, isn’t it?”
she swallowed, eyes flicking down to you. you were still watching the stars, probably tracing the shape of the constellation above you. unknowing of what it spelled for your fate, unknowing of the warning written above you.
mona settled into the grass a little more, taking her hat off her head so it wouldn’t fall when she looked up again.
“indeed, it is.”
#genshin sagau#genshin self aware au#self aware genshin#sagau#genshin#sagau impostor au#genshin impact#mona#mona megistus#sagau mona#sagau mona megistus#another fool with too many names smh#ANYWAY anon you are so right actually#and with mona? her character is criminally underutilized (i’m a criminal as well)#she can instantly tell intentions; tell truths from lies; literally just a scroll through her wiki lore page aiskksjd SHES SO INTERESTING#like…….. ugh….. i don’t have as good a grasp on her character as i’d like to because she’s so cool… so interesting and so many POSSIBILITIES#meant to post this forever ago sorry#but my mind made me write a 6k piece on the fatui harbingers soo…. :))#yeah i’ve been. i started a new project that can’t really be posted bc it’s vvvv self indulgent so requests are even further sidelined UGH#mmmm procrastinating requests even though i have no reason to
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Unpopular Opinion: Every time a black female character (especially if this black female character is dark skinned) enters into a relationship with the popular fan-favorite white male character usually one of three things happen a. the black female character is now headcanoned as a lesbian (never bisexual or queer or anything that would leave the character with the possibility of still entering into a relationship with a man) b. white male character is now shipped with other popular fan-favorite white male character/other white female character (the popular fan-favorite white male character is usually headcanoned to be bisexual and when he is, shipped with a woman that woman is always white) or c. black female character (and sometimes their actresses) is now being talked about as if they are the devil himself.
Wanting characters to explore their sexuality is fine but I always find it odd how this always happens when one member of the relationship is a black/blackish woman. *forgot to mention the suddenly polyamorous relationship the three (black female, white male and white male/woman) characters are now without a doubt in*
Anon you spoke nothing, but facts right here 🙌🏽
(The only thing I’d add is that they don’t just do this when the woman in question is with a white man, see Namor and Shuri and the backlash some shippers got for shipping them).
You aren’t the only one who has been noticing this trend.
I say trend loosely because really just a new stereotype to add to the bunch😒
It would be one thing if it was a want for actual representation, but every time now like clockwork. as soon as they see a Black woman who looks like she’s going to have a romantic arc with said popular fandom man, boom she must be gay😑
Hell, it’s getting so bad that these shows/movies are automatically just writing their Black women characters in that way.
If people can’t see how this can be harmful/dangerous, that’s cool, but anytime you want to paint all of a group a certain way and won’t show them in any other setting, that’s how you end up birthing new stereotypes.
This isn’t creating diversity. It’s limiting it(once again).
It’s so all or nothing with our media representation. Black women don’t want to be shown as one thing(which seems to go right over most people’s heads).
We just want the same opportunities as everybody else and not to be put into one or two narrow boxes of acceptable characterization that doesn’t threaten the status quo(aka you can't have Black women looking desirable especially not when there is an available white woman right there next to her).
#bnask#bnasks#fandom misogynoir#misogynoir#I understand the need for representation but it can't just be all one thing#there is a really good thread I want to link on this#but I’d rather not have people flooding that website#lol this reminds me of the people obsessed with Laena velaryon and Rhaenyra Targaryen#Look at how they won't even draw laena with her husband 🙃#yes I’m aware she’s a race bent character but in the show her and Rhaenyra hardly interact#she isn’t her lover(and she’s probably not in the books either) yet y’all just love to draw that version of them together#and refuse to draw that version of her with daemon 🙃#let’s not get into how there were some trying to say nettles is a lesbian with no proof#or baela and putting her with nettles#again I understand representation but it’s all very suspicious considering this is the same fandom that likes calling black people dirty 🙃#the bear fandom is another one that likes to do this#sydney adamu#nettles#laena velaryon#shuri udaku#baela targaryen#tagging all the ones from recent years#y’all rarely do this with white women#she breaths next to a male character and it’s ‘I ship it’🙄
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