#i would fucking die of shame
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get home. unflushed piss in the toilet. shit smeared on the bathroom floor despite the fact that i texted my roommate asking them to clean it up at 8:45 this morning. no toilet paper in the bathroom. wrappers and trash scattered around the kitchen one literally right above the overflowing garbage can (i took out 2 BAGS last week). flies feasting on the caked grease in a dirty frying pan on the stove i genuinely feel like im going insane.
#i understand that life is hard and everything is difficult but if i left shit smeared underwear on the floor of the bathroom#and my roommate saw it#i would fucking die of shame#and YES they were home for about half an hour this evening#they were laying on the couch on their phone#what do i even tag this#gross cw#unhygenic cw#???????????
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i think whats gonna be most difficult for infinikki rn and most integral to pull off a recovery are two things.
actually do as the players ask
effectively divide efforts between fixing old stuff and preparing new stuff
its a very tricky situation. if they choose to focus on keeping a schedule of new content and they hope players will just "let it all slide", theyre 100% digging themselves into an early eos grave.
the correct choice is obviously to address the players concerns, but they took such a massive shit on their own project, that fixing all of it is going to take serious time and effort, which theyd normally be spending preparing for the next update/season. very likely execs and investors wont want the devs to hold off on updates in favor of fixing old fuck ups.
i think its important that besides asking for fixes on all the issues 1.5 brought, we also have to emphasise we are willing to wait. because unless theyre sure we wont drop the game or stop spending due to lack of new content, they will not easily sacrifice manpower to dedicate to the fixes instead of new updates.
so i definitely encourage everyone to keep sending feedback, keep up the girlcott but also emphasise were willing to wait and play as long as the game will take the form we want it to. dividing employee energy between fixing stuff and developing new content is gonna be super difficult, so we must discourage them from thinking its a hard decision or that new content is what players want.
#still in shock over how anyone at infold couldve thought this shit would go over well#but hey itd be a fucking shame to lose this game over a fuck up that can happen to anyone treading new territory#i refuse to let this game die girlies we gotta hold infold by the scruff of the neck and force them to lock the fuck in#infinikki#infinity nikki#nikki series#nikkiverse#love nikki#shining nikki#bubble season#sea of stars#snowy ballad#ena the curator#infinity nikki the seer#pomme de yap#girlcott
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moze 🤝 guinaifen
holders of backstory that makes me absolutely lose my mind and i wish was expanded upon on-screen but they've already had their time in the spotlight and probably won't come back in any meaningful capacity so i just have to sit with it by myself
#personal stuff#delete later#like. there is so much going on with these characters that i would love to read about. love to see people's interpretations of#why are 99% of their fics abt who they're kissing. get me out of here#LIKE. GENUINELY. TWO OF MY FAVORITE TYPES OF CHARACTERS. A CULT SURVIVOR AND TRAGIC SIBLINGS. COME ONN#at least i've found like. one or two really good platonic moze backstory fics. shadowkeeper my beloved shadowkeeper.#guinaifen has FUCK ALL though and i'm suffering. if i cannot find an artist insane abt her i might have to become that artist#like it's such a shame!!! she's so much more than a funny streamer. like she IS a funny streamer but oh my god her backstory#grew up a noble with a huge family. her home was destroyed by the antimatter legion and her parents died.#she and her 12+ siblings went to work and live in the ipc mines.#after an old mentor of theirs died her eldest brother turned to piracy to keep the family fed and crossed the xianzhou#who pardoned him and gave their family a place to live.#her open-world interaction even says she doesn't really remember all that. hoyo you cannot do this to me. not when her bg is this crazy#LIKE. HAS SOME OF THE MOST LINES OF ALL TIME.#when the ipc arrests the family for piracy and they're handed over to the cloud knights she just goes#''she breathed a sigh of relief. people all claim the folks of the xianzhou are very kind.#the cloud knights would definitely allow her entire family to die together in dignity.''#LIKE. WHAT. GUINEVERE???
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mark from the @roseganymede95 extended universe!!
#i cannot get that guy out of my head for the life of me#he has genuinely become one of my favorite blorbos#unironically on the same tier as edwin in the blorbo ranks#like MY GOD#he is SO fucking well written#the sheer dichotomy between the tragedy of his story and the undeniable lack of a moral compass that accompanies his character is just 🤌🤌#makes for a 10/10 blorbo yk#dead boy detectives#probably didn't draw him 100% accurate since i'm definitely not an artist lol#but i'm hoping the vibes are still there#dead boy detective agency#dbda#dead boy detective netflix#dbda fic#dbda fanfic#dbda fanfiction#roseganymede95#not-the-living-ghost#dude it's crazy because every now and then i'll want to make a reference to mark or “like we're gonna die young (again)”#and then i have to remind myself that outside of the dbda fandom nobody would understand the reference 😔#it's truly a shame because that fic deserves its own standalone fandom#it is truly THAT good
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Constantly torn between genuinely loving the remake timeline’s depiction of Reeve and Cait and being immensely sad that pretty much all of my favorite lines of theirs from the original were totally excised or bc of plot developments will never be said
#Reeve is never going to argue with barret about the reactor bombings. bc the immense damage wasnt avalanches fault and he knows it.#he also looks a lot more wishy washy as a result. which I’m not a big fan of admittedly#his hypocrisy is something I like in the original bc it makes sense. the damage Shinra causes is something he can turn a blind eye to#bc hes so focused on midgar’s development and improving the reactors to better the lives of the ppl who live there#the reactors blowing up and killing ppl is his direct jurisdiction and he cares a lot about the ppl in the city. and so!#avalanche frustrates him even when he knows logically speaking that they have legitimate reasons for the things they do#(like this is additional canon but not least of all bc his fucking mom lives in the city.)#starting him out as already sympathetic to avalanche robs him of like. half his arc#also he’s so much angrier in the original to me whereas in the remake he’s so sad. and both are understandable!#but I liked the anger. I liked it so much#and Cait doesn’t get to have his lovely request for the party to not forget him before he’s crushed in the temple.#bc that sacrifice mattered to that version of him even if he can be replaced!!!#I do love his extra dialogue when holding up the altar in rebirth it’s great but!!!#SIGH.#idk man I love their original depictions deeply and I feel like they got shifted into being more sympathetic but less complex. it’s a shame#still love them tho. I would kill and die for rebirth Cait#text#Reeve tuesti#Cait sith#I think about them so much and I wish ppl appreciated their original arcs more#ff7
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I am living for all of the thirsty tags you guys add when you reblog my shit. Absolutely unhinged. Never change, friends.
#Im adding my favorites in the tags get ready XD#anonymously of course but no shame you guys seriously i love you all!!!#is it possible to die from yearns#i want to lick every drop of sweat off his body#insert ''god i wish that was me'' meme#absolutely feral#that face and look feel illegal#i am unwell#I'm fine#this is fine#everything is fine#i need this man to go down on me while gale fucks him ok i think that would be healing#biting him biting him biting him#he’s so handsome I want to slap him#that second to last picture finna make me PASS OUT#he needs to be stopped#or he needs to [redacted] me#you better STOP#UUUGGGGHHHHH FUCK I WANNA BITE HIM#I'm going to crush him#i'm ruined for all other men for the rest of my life#i want 2 bite him#stop smiling at me like that ill kill us both#what dat tongue do#what dat mouf do???#that look in his eyes is straight up pornographic#that’s the look of a man about to feast#and Lord I want to be an all-you-can-eat buffet#the druid speaks
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the funny thing is. eddie can't even say his biggest gripe about healthcare workers (initially ignoring his complaints / symptoms of terminal cancer because they just thought he was trying to get prescription meds outta them due to being an obvious junkie. 🧍) because the whole Terminal Cancer thing is a Secret and he'll never tell anyone (but bruce & tommy but that's bc they already know)
#( 🧩 ✧ INFERIOR PUPPETEER ✧ | OOC )#// actually i don't think eddie can tell ANYONE about the Cancer Thing#// just bc like. ed feels if he does -- he Will Die#// both bc it has connections with him knowing who batman is -- as well as doing something Ra's would fucking GET HIM FOR#// see. he's very ashamed of his mother.#// but he can talk about her if he feels a certain way toward sb + vulnerable enough#// but the cancer thing ?? yea no.#// bc he talks about his mother -- he just feels immense terrible shame & distress#// he talks about the cancer thing ??? yea. that may be putting his life on the line#// who knows ... maybe ra's is chill ?#// AHSDHASHASHAH
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I can't even put into words how much I love Anders as a character. There's been plenty of characters I've obsessed over my life but later usually never have the same passion. Him, though?? I swear all I have to do is talk or think about him for a little and just start to burst out of my skin with love 😭 it's so unfortunate when I talk to other Dragon Age fans and they just give me the Look™ when I say he's my favorite
#He's a HEALER. Not to mention specifically for poor people#He's a grey warden!!#He's an activist who actually organizes!#He fundamentally wants to help people. And I know everyone one jokes about him blowing stuff up but#Ten years! It wasn't some willy nilly thing he did#He tried SO hard for almost ten years before resorting to violence#Genuinely justifiable violence#But he's a healer and doing that made him want to die in the end. He's such a tragic fucking character#It's such a shame they just never show people's positive opinions of him in the later games#There's no way all the poor people of kirkwall would hate him after everything he did#Personal
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yes, it is. did any of you grow up fat? like, obese? 100lbs+ at 12? be the constant, daily target of bullies? go through puberty that way? enter high school that way? watch your friends go on dates and to school dances while you just sat at home getting fatter? did boys make sure you knew how unattractive you are? did you let these same boys fuck you because your self esteem was so low? no? then go fuck yourself. being a fat child is a miserable experience, and robs you of the many good experiences you are watching other children have. it is child abuse to let your child get so fat they can't be a child. it is child abuse to provide an unhealthy diet to your child. it is child abuse to give in to your child's every whim. do you think i was such a fat little girl because people were taking care of me? making sure i had good meals? making sure my needs were met? you dumb care bear bitches.
#who can reblog: no one 👴#'oh but' don't care won't read#i'm not saying shame fat kids or that they are bad#i'm saying it fucking sucked#it was horrible#i would die before i do that to my child#i was so deeply unhappy and so much of it was#- and still is! because trauma doesn't magically resolve once you're an adult and realize oh that was fucked up i didn't deserve that -#because i was a fat child
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i’ve said it once, i’ve said it twice, i’ll say it a million times — writing willow and eddie will always feel like coming home to me. i know eddie x oc isn’t popular but- god, these idiots are so near and dear to my heart.
#i had to reread chapter 21 of shire for the scene i’m writing and i just#they were just babies#their early interactions will always get to me#eddie making jokes about sacrificing people in the woods?? subtly trying to remind willow of his reputation??#willow not even so much as flinching and going on to show just how comfortable she had grown so quickly with him????#the way she trusted him so ardently???#the way he always saw bravery in her and had unwavering faith in her??#god#sometimes when i reread it i can’t fathom that *I* wrote this shit#the metaphor of her running right into the water being her running right into the relationship with eddie???#IDK WHO WROTE THIS BUT IT CERTAINLY COULDNT HAVE BEEN ME WHAT THE FUCK#ITD BE AN HONOR MISS JENKINS WHAT THE FUCK#THEIR ALMOST KISS WAAAHHH#‘don’t die on me’ hehehehe#aw no it’d be a shame if he ever had to say that in a serious context#psh no it wasn’t foreshadowing on my part ever who would do that#a monster that’s who#wow those of you that read my tags are gonna have a fuckin field day my bad#mordor#hailey shut up#hailey talks too much
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today's prompts are spiders and self insert so i've been thinking of drawing nembone and a uh, bunger. but Im still thinking around the uh. ? i cant remember the word HELP the fucking COMPOSITION there.
#luly talks#i was thinking of formating it like a parody of a flash or mobile game where the character is like FEED ME x =D but i cannot find like#references.#btw another ideas i had was doing ONLY self insert and make a character select screen with my sonas#first i thought of a gif where you'd change selection making the border shine and the character change expression and get color#(otherwise they'd be greyed out) and then i thought of doing a more classic smash bros like character screen#but those two ideas would be too hard#i also thought of something more simple like just. my fursonas hugging yuri style#and then i was like no lets go back to nembone (my og idea as mentioned yesterday on the tags of my art post)#and i was CONVINCED today the prompt was path and i was gonna make a very cool scene with Nembone and Keabin sitting on a bar#and i hope yall know why i hope yall are tuned in with the completely neglected bugsnax oc luly lore but in case youre not first of all#shame on you but second its bc keabin actually is my save where ppl DIE#and i spoke in a post that i think is in my oc blog or maybe my self ship one either way im sure is crossposted on both but i spoke about#how fucking Low Nembone would be in a post Shelda's death path <- eh eh get it get it that's where the prompt plays!!#they'd also be saying something about wishing things could've been different or something#it'd have been a cool drawing and a great excuse to draw my guy keabin who has been borderline fucking retconned otherwise but hey#its not the prompt. so.#idk what i will do for tomorrow btw i dont have many complicated fits ocs juan has been in my brain for close to a decade or more#and he has never wore anything but a green tshirt and some pants#but ill figure something i might do Bloody#or i might double the fuck down and if i do bloody i can tie spiders to her and do nembone and keabin today#it is cringetober after all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I gotta take a step back from my current WIP. Put it in perspective. Writing can be such a bitch because at some point you get so involved in your own story and taking a step back to look at it Big Picture as a new reader is helpful
#or I could like. ask someone to read this#I’ve got a red string cork board up in my brain and literally on a wall calender#I’m smoking cigarettes and pointing at character interactions and motivations going ‘He would fucking say that wouldn’t be god DAMN him!’#original writing is fun you guys I swear#(unlike fic writing which just makes me want to die of shame)#I’m obsessed with these Littke Guys#they take up so much room#the thought of asking someone to give the first chapter a read fills me with such terror#you can imagine what I was like at show and tell at school#’and this is a vertebrae of a deer I found…’ *5 minutes of silence*#the teach: I’m calling your parents#talking to myself#anyways
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i hope andrew hussie gets shot in the head i am so serious
#nothing happened or anything i just hate him forever and i want him to die#my posts#well something did happen i was crying for reasons i dont understand about everyone around me irl thinking homestuck is good bc of how#into it i was for so long and they basically only ever knew it as a part of me and they love me so they love it#but i fucking hate homestuck i hate it so much#its so dead to me and i feel nothing for it except bitter resentment and shame and the fact that if i were to go back in time and never read#it i would be a completely different person and its fundamental to who i am makes me want to THROW UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#but there's something else and i dont understand what it is but its making me so sad#he needs to die. he needs to die for making me feel like this#i doubt it would fix anything but its worth trying anyway#any followers who like homestuck i still love you this beef is personal its between me and him#vent#didnt even tag that at first bc i never do that
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you know what's really embarrassing? you as a 41 year old woman should have the literacy skills to parse what i'm saying but right now you seem to be completely fucking stupid as to defend your bad behavior that you come off as either unable to comprehend that you did anything wrong, or you actually don't think you are capable of doing anything wrong, and i'm leaning towards the latter for how you like to present yourself and trick other people into presenting a false image of yourself to sell to the public
#my dad was like this so i know#i talk#i'm not sure i should condescend further. this is very humiliating#for you and trey#in fact i wonder how that guy feels about this#if i were him and my ex had 4 mental breakdowns about the fact we're not fucking i'd. be so fuckin embarrassed man#i would die of embarrassment and shame that my ex couldn't be an adult for once in their lives#because oh my god
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