#i worked so so hard on this painting
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closer than you know
i've been working on this painting for over 3 months and i am exhausted 💀 so excited to be done with it. i'm really proud of it though!! it's definitely the most detailed painting i've done in quite some time.
(please be sure to zoom in to see all the little details i worked so hard on!)
#god i hope this posts this time#fourth attempt jfc#my art#art#self portrait#painting#no ai art#human artist#reaper#corpse paint#photorealism#not a photograph#idk what else to tag this with but pls reblog#i worked so so hard on this painting
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the thing about art is that it was always supposed to be about us, about the human-ness of us, the impossible and beautiful reality that we (for centuries) have stood still, transfixed by music. that we can close our eyes and cry about the same book passage; the events of which aren't real and never happened. theatre in shakespeare's time was as real as it is now; we all laugh at the same cue (pursued by bear), separated hundreds of years apart.
three years ago my housemates were jamming outdoors, just messing around with their instruments, mostly just making noise. our neighbors - shy, cautious, a little sheepish - sat down and started playing. i don't really know how it happened; i was somehow in charge of dancing, barefoot and laughing - but i looked up, and our yard was full of people. kids stacked on the shoulders of parents. old couples holding hands. someone had brought sidewalk chalk; our front walk became a riot of color. someone ran in with a flute and played the most astounding solo i've ever heard in my life, upright and wiggling, skipping as she did so. she only paused because the violin player was kicking his heels up and she was laughing too hard to continue.
two weeks ago my friend and i met in the basement of her apartment complex so she could work out a piece of choreography. we have a language barrier - i'm not as good at ASL as i'd like to be (i'm still learning!) so we communicate mostly through the notes app and this strange secret language of dancers - we have the same movement vocabulary. the two of us cracking jokes at each other, giggling. there were kids in the basement too, who had been playing soccer until we took up the far corner of the room. one by one they made their slow way over like feral cats - they laid down, belly-flat against the floor, just watching. my friend and i were not in tutus - we were in slouchy shirts and leggings and socks. nothing fancy. but when i asked the kids would you like to dance too? they were immediately on their feet and spinning. i love when people dance with abandon, the wild and leggy fervor of childhood. i think it is gorgeous.
their adults showed up eventually, and a few of them said hey, let's not bother the nice ladies. but they weren't bothering us, they were just having fun - so. a few of the adults started dancing awkwardly along, and then most of the adults. someone brought down a better sound system. someone opened a watermelon and started handing out slices. it was 8 PM on a tuesday and nothing about that day was particularly special; we might as well party.
one time i hosted a free "paint along party" and about 20 adults worked quietly while i taught them how to paint nessie. one time i taught community dance classes and so many people showed up we had to move the whole thing outside. we used chairs and coatracks to balance. one time i showed up to a random band playing in a random location, and the whole thing got packed so quickly we had to open every door and window in the place.
i don't think i can tell you how much people want to be making art and engaging with art. they want to, desperately. so many people would be stunning artists, but they are lied to and told from a very young age that art only matters if it is planned, purposeful, beautiful. that if you have an idea, you need to be able to express it perfectly. this is not true. you don't get only 1 chance to communicate. you can spend a lifetime trying to display exactly 1 thing you can never quite language. you can just express the "!!??!!!"-ing-ness of being alive; that is something none of us really have a full grasp on creating. and even when we can't make what we want - god, it feels fucking good to try. and even just enjoying other artists - art inherently rewards the act of participating.
i wasn't raised wealthy. whenever i make a post about art, someone inevitably says something along the lines of well some of us aren't that lucky. i am not lucky; i am dedicated. i have a chronic condition, my hands are constantly in pain. i am not neurotypical, nor was i raised safe. i worked 5-7 jobs while some of these memories happened. i chose art because it mattered to me more than anything on this fucking planet - i would work 80 hours a week just so i could afford to write in 3 of them.
and i am still telling you - if you are called to make art, you are called to the part of you that is human. you do not have to be good at it. you do not have to have enormous amounts of privilege. you can just... give yourself permission. you can just say i'm going to make something now and then - go out and make it. raquel it won't be good though that is okay, i don't make good things every time either. besides. who decides what good even is?
you weren't called to make something because you wanted it to be good, you were called to make something because it is a basic instinct. you were taught to judge its worth and over-value perfection. you are doing something impossible. a god's ability: from nothing springs creation.
a few months ago i found a piece of sidewalk chalk and started drawing. within an hour i had somehow collected a small classroom of young children. their adults often brought their own chalk. i looked up and about fifteen families had joined me from around the block. we drew scrangly unicorns and messed up flowers and one girl asked me to draw charizard. i am not good at drawing. i basically drew an orb with wings. you would have thought i drew her the mona lisa. she dragged her mother over and pointed and said look! look what she drew for me and, in the moment, i admit i flinched (sorry, i don't -). but the mother just grinned at me. he's beautiful. and then she sat down and started drawing.
someone took a picture of it. it was in the local newspaper. the summary underneath said joyful and spontaneous artwork from local artists springs up in public gallery. in the picture, a little girl covered in chalk dust has her head thrown back, delighted. laughing.
#writeblr#warm up#this is longer than i wanted i really considered removing that part about myself and what i went thru#but i think it really fucking bothers me that EVERY time i talk about being an artist#ppl assume i just like. had the skill and ability to drop everything and pay for grad school.#like sir i grew up poor. my house wasn't a safe space. i gave up a FREE RIDE TO LAW SCHOOL. for THIS. bc i chose it.#was it fucking hard? was i choosing the hard thing?? yes.#but we need to stop seeing artists as lazy layabouts that can ''afford'' to just ''sit around and create''#when MANY - if not MOST - of us are NOT like that. we have to work our fucking ASSES off. hard work. long and hard work#part of valuing artists is recognizing the amount we sacrifice to make our art. bc it doesn't just#like HAPPEN to us. also btw it rarely has anything to do with true talent.#speaking as someone with a chronic condition i hate when ppl are like u have it easy. like actively as i'm writing this my hands r#ACTIVELY hurting me. i haven't been posting bc my left hand was curled in a claw for the last week#this isn't fucking luck. after a certain point it's not even TALENT. it's dedication & sacrifice.#''u get to flounce around and do nothing with ur life'' is a narrative that is a direct result of capitalism#imagine if we said that about literally any other profession.#''oh so u give up 10 yrs of ur life to be a doctor? u sacrifice having a social life and u get SUPER in debt?#u need to work countless hours and it will often be thankless? well i wish i was that lucky''#we should be applying that logic to landlords ONLY#''oh ur mom and dad gave u the money to buy a house? and all u did was paint it white and rent it? huh.''
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One wedding and three funerals
Background paintings under the cut
#tomgreg#succession#tom wambsgans#greg hirsch#shiv roy#roman roy#kendall roy#yeah no im not tagging everyone thats too much#this is me going 'how much implications themes and symbolism can i fit in one painting'#yes i gave rose shivs haircolor. if we ever find out how she looks like and its not like this im just gonna pass away i guess#but yeah i hope yall connect the dots#i put waaay too much thought and work into this. i was googling pictures of all the actors as kids just for reference (sigh)#honestly kinda wanted to make tom and greg link pinkies as like. a pinkie promise. but that was too hard to draw in this angle#at least not without obstructing the view of the ring which is important to see so ya#my fave is actually the tomshiv wedding pic i went off with that. i love them... they should have run away to become sheep farmers fr fr#anyway im so glad im done with this UGH!! finally i can draw smth else without being like oh noooo i need to finish this#i see a lot of you wondering why there is no portrait of logan but one of ewan#it's bc the placement of the painting represent their standing. logans portray would not hang next to the stairs#his present portrait hangs at the end of it. all the way up at the top. alone and withering away#basically the picture you see underneath ewan to the right? its where toms parents would be. the right side of the wall is tom and gregs#and the left one is the roy siblings theirs. since they grew up rich rich. and tom and greg didn't#but ya thats why ewan hangs here and logan does not :)
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worlds tallest purse chihuahua of a man
#deltarune#queenkaard#queen#rouxls kaard#art#deltarune fanart#doodles#oof i miss them#working on a DR zine shook loose some DR braincells ..........#queen never paints her own nails. thats what the butlers are for. thats where she hears about all the cafe and host club customer dramas#i think its so so so cute when characters are Mushed into each other. but its SO SO SO SOS O SOOOO HARD 2 DRAW
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give them blood blood gallons of the stuff :)
#art#digital art#my art 🦷#digital painting#iwtv#iwtv fanart#interview with the vampire#louis de pointe du lac#lestat de lioncourt#loustat#im not really in this fandom so like. i hope people dont get mad at me for this one lol#i just felt like drawing some sexy shit#not even happy with this piece tbh but i feel like posting it nayways cause i worked kinda hard on it :/#ik the perpective is probably off and their faces are a lil wonky#but.. I TRIED#and i like the vibes and the colors. sorta
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woe, arcane style rex be upon ye
#i was yelling the entire time i was working on this why is it so hard to paint#i don’t know if this turned out#the style was really hard and most of my focus was there so idk if i got the likeness at all#but regardless a fun experiment#star wars#the clone wars#my art#captain rex#tcw captain rex#the bad batch
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collection of some molly sketches :] im obsessed with drawing him smiling hugely looking mischievous
#mollymauk tealeaf#mollymauk fanart#critical role#critical role fanart#mighty nein#the mighty nein#critrole#m9#clip studio paint#id in alt text#artistic nudity#kind of? you cant even really see his ass bc of the tail so its pretty tame. but idk#anyways big smile screen right hand gesture is apparently my go too molly pose#ive been itching 2 color these for ages#im so swamped with stuff for school that its hard to justify fanart LMAO but i finished a lot of stuff this week so i gave myself a treat#YAYYYYYY#itseart#ALSO i think im realizing i dont work with purples as a base color that often???#but its rlly fun to paint purple skin
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show off
#tf2#unfortunately scout is blocking heavys arm that i worked rlly hard on :/#pretty messy but i really liked painting it#i have so much fun drawing them they would have a lot a great comedic potential haha#scout tf2#heavy tf2#team fortress 2#fanart#my art#artists on tumblr#illustration#sketch
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kendalling in oil
#KENDALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#art#traditional art#painting#oil paint#portrait#succession#succession fanart#kendall roy#jeremy strong#eye contact#art school is crazy because youre learning super fundamental concepts that make ur work stronger#but its so hard to apply those concepts in action#like tried to define and simplify the shadow shapes in this as much as i could#and theyre STILL mushy. but so much better than previous paintings have been#art growth is so slow and non-linear and fiddly#but i love his face so so so so much#succ critters are my muses
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#interview with the vampire#iwtv#louis de pointe du lac#armand#the vampire armand#loumand#iwtv art#egon schiele#self-seers ii death and man#THE SELF PORTRAIT AS THE PORTRAIT OF A SE#LF A CRISIS#LOUMAND BEDROOM I LOVE YOUUUU#working on the other paintings mara made this so hard skfhskhf
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pov you do ur gay little run cycle into the war room unexpectedly insp this painting and remembering this screenshot/post as well
#dragon age inquisition#dai#cullen rutherford#leliana nightingale#josephine montilyet#dragon age#dragon age fanart#art#my art#SORRY LELIANA WAS SO HARD TO DRAW i redid her face at least 3 times. gave up bc i have work in the morning#and cullen looks too good he needs to look more like shit esp at haven like#alas. anyways i saw the painting on my dash hours ago and immediately thought of THEE Advisors and then searched my archive for THE s#we look at gay people screenshot. and then decided fuck work tomorrow im drawing.#thats scroll and map storage under the table. looks like a wine rack but that shape was used for storing scrolls.#and yes they WERE talking about you.#thats why the expressions fit so well liek Cullen uncomfortable being caught gossiping. Josie. amused and ready to charm. Leliana. making#the same expression she was making before you walked in but ready to say it is for a completely different reason.
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⚙️🚦✨️ tfdw au is coming soon✨️🚦⚙️
✨️ko-fi ✨️
finished the poster of the au and posted it already on Ko-fi and finished some designs.for the characters check out em on Ko-fi ✨️✨️
#artists on tumblr#art#artwork#digital fanart#digital art#digital aritst#ibis paint x#TFDW#Tfdw au#Tfdw#Tadc au#tadc fanart#tadc pomni#tadc art#The amazing digital circus#Can't wait to post this 😩#I have been working so hard on it hope ya guys gonna enjoy it✨️✨️#Mellow arts
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Who Would Leave Their Son Out In The Sun?
#my art#mouthwashing#clip studio paint#csp#digital art#artists on tumblr#mouthwashing swansea#swansea mw#mouthwashing daisuke#daisuke mw#mw#digital painting#im really proud of the lighting in this#hoping this gets attention i worked so hard on itt#swansea ily#peep the tears#sorry yall#<3#reblogs appreciated
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Beautiful, But Broken
#bg3#tiefling#tw blood#c: Viivi#so I redid my bg3 character because I wasn't feeling durge that much. So now my sibling does durge and I regular tav Viivi#(changed her to tiefling for funs)#at least I meant to do regular tav but uhhhhh things have gone very unfortunately very fast#anyway. Viivi is an artist; she does painting sculpting poetry and some prose. Experimenting with this and that#unfortunately she is deaf which made making connections a bit hard in the fine arts world#fortunately she has a patreon with one very generous patron (she's fey warlock)✨ who has bestowed some gifts of charms for her#which have opened doors of many art galleries#She's not a fighter so although she is confident in her own lane she is also very aware of her mortality#so she avoided any fights she could#which might have saved her but also got her into the mess of her lifetime#you see she couldn't fight the entire goblin camp and their leaders. She would've just not survived that. So she convinced them#that she is a True Soul. She is good at convincing people. It worked. They thought she is on their side. Good#Halsin also though Viivi was on their side. Halsin attacked Viivi's party. Now Halsin is dead.#So Viivi and her group were still alone deep within enemy fort. Viivi made new plans. She frees the prisoner who says he will warn the grov#Good thinks Viivi now they know to flee. I will go to Minthara and tell we got the information from prisoner of the grove location#she will trust us and we walk off#when we get back to grove they have not fled and Minthara is at the gates#Minthara wants Viivi to sound the horn. Zevlor wants Viivi to sound the horn. Viivi asks Zevlor to please tell this plan in detail.#Zevlor says just blow the horn already. Viivi does that. Minthara thanks Viivi for leaving the gate open as planned#Zevlor does not thank Viivi for that. Viivi is confused as she did not leave the gate open. (for real the damn gate was left open)#So I did a Massacre.#now Karlach is gone Wyll is dead. Lae'zel is also dead#but apparently Minthara is ready to be very loving and sincere with Viivi. The most helpful person she has met in very long time.#Viivi might love her#so that is how she's doing.
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She chances a glance at Sebastian before getting out her copy of Divining the Undivinable from her bag and wishes she hadn’t. He looks uncomfortably big sitting on the tiny tea chair across from her, barely any hints of the boy who had completely swept her away two years ago visible on the sharper planes of his face. When had he - had they - grown up?
Sebastian Sallow was - is - charming, and that had been her downfall. She had successfully avoided his charms the year before, and she isn’t going to let that happen this year, no matter how much her body rebels against her mind and resolve. Because, as she reminds herself, Sebastian Sallow is also manipulative, and cold-hearted, and selfish.
“Well,” she says archly, opening her book. She will not look at him. “I suppose I am still quite ignorant of the practice of Divination, so do forgive me if I have to double-check my readings in the textbook.”
He says her name as she opens the book, and she ignores him. He says her name again. She continues to ignore him. He grabs the book from her hands and puts it the correct way for her. She was looking at it upside-down. Her cheeks heat up and she continues flipping through the pages, as if nothing has happened. She finds page two-hundred and thirty. She pretends to be interested in what she sees.
(Divination is unfortunately not interesting.)
Oh, fine.
“Do you want to start, or should I?”
These are the first words she has voluntarily spoken to him - not including the events of last week, which do not count as they were most decidedly not voluntary - since he called her ignorant a year and a half ago. He somehow looks surprised to see that she has addressed him, and for some reason this fills her with rage and a strange sort of confidence. Why shouldn’t she be able to talk to him?
“Here,” she says, putting her hand out towards him, palm up, ignoring the strange fluttering feeling in her chest when he gently grabs it with one of his. Sebastian looks up at her, waiting for her to continue speaking, and were she not looking at him so intently she would have easily missed the bob of his throat as he swallows nervously. “Show me how it’s done.”
from my oneshot, clumsy🫶🫶🫶
#it was SO HARD to think of how much of this scene to include as an excerpt#bc I want enough for no context really but I could have just included the whole pov and…maybe it would be too long idk#but enough to set the scen#of my brat angel reading her book upside down😆#Sebastián is trying not to smile bc she’s trying SO HARD TO BE UNAFFECTED😤😤😤😤😤😤#anyways I’m happy i had some time to paint today😭💓💓💓#I sketched this a few days ago but I didn’t know when I would find the time to paint and today the stars aligned🥹🙏#and honestly IT WAS SO HARD TO SKETCH THIS…#I was scared I would ruin the paper with how many times I erased😆😆😆#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow fanart#sebastian sallow x mc#hogwarts legacy fanfic#sebastian sallow fic#also I’m working on another dumb oneshot😆😆#I still have a few more scenes from this one I want to paint though🫶🫶🫶
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he is literally a girl. like this is a lady.
#have been so busy all day and this picture gave me the reason to make it thru the day#what is that image with the man holding a bag over his shoulders#and then he pulls out a pic in his pocket and smiles and keeps walking#this is me with sharl#this is my omega and im working hard for him#his little pink bracelets and pink shoes#i need to queen out with him so bad#we need to gossip about our crushes and paint our toenails#but also i need to get him pregnant like a male seahorse
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