#i worked so so hard on this painting
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closer than you know
i've been working on this painting for over 3 months and i am exhausted 💀 so excited to be done with it. i'm really proud of it though!! it's definitely the most detailed painting i've done in quite some time.
(please be sure to zoom in to see all the little details i worked so hard on!)
#god i hope this posts this time#fourth attempt jfc#my art#art#self portrait#painting#no ai art#human artist#reaper#corpse paint#photorealism#not a photograph#idk what else to tag this with but pls reblog#i worked so so hard on this painting
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the thing about art is that it was always supposed to be about us, about the human-ness of us, the impossible and beautiful reality that we (for centuries) have stood still, transfixed by music. that we can close our eyes and cry about the same book passage; the events of which aren't real and never happened. theatre in shakespeare's time was as real as it is now; we all laugh at the same cue (pursued by bear), separated hundreds of years apart.
three years ago my housemates were jamming outdoors, just messing around with their instruments, mostly just making noise. our neighbors - shy, cautious, a little sheepish - sat down and started playing. i don't really know how it happened; i was somehow in charge of dancing, barefoot and laughing - but i looked up, and our yard was full of people. kids stacked on the shoulders of parents. old couples holding hands. someone had brought sidewalk chalk; our front walk became a riot of color. someone ran in with a flute and played the most astounding solo i've ever heard in my life, upright and wiggling, skipping as she did so. she only paused because the violin player was kicking his heels up and she was laughing too hard to continue.
two weeks ago my friend and i met in the basement of her apartment complex so she could work out a piece of choreography. we have a language barrier - i'm not as good at ASL as i'd like to be (i'm still learning!) so we communicate mostly through the notes app and this strange secret language of dancers - we have the same movement vocabulary. the two of us cracking jokes at each other, giggling. there were kids in the basement too, who had been playing soccer until we took up the far corner of the room. one by one they made their slow way over like feral cats - they laid down, belly-flat against the floor, just watching. my friend and i were not in tutus - we were in slouchy shirts and leggings and socks. nothing fancy. but when i asked the kids would you like to dance too? they were immediately on their feet and spinning. i love when people dance with abandon, the wild and leggy fervor of childhood. i think it is gorgeous.
their adults showed up eventually, and a few of them said hey, let's not bother the nice ladies. but they weren't bothering us, they were just having fun - so. a few of the adults started dancing awkwardly along, and then most of the adults. someone brought down a better sound system. someone opened a watermelon and started handing out slices. it was 8 PM on a tuesday and nothing about that day was particularly special; we might as well party.
one time i hosted a free "paint along party" and about 20 adults worked quietly while i taught them how to paint nessie. one time i taught community dance classes and so many people showed up we had to move the whole thing outside. we used chairs and coatracks to balance. one time i showed up to a random band playing in a random location, and the whole thing got packed so quickly we had to open every door and window in the place.
i don't think i can tell you how much people want to be making art and engaging with art. they want to, desperately. so many people would be stunning artists, but they are lied to and told from a very young age that art only matters if it is planned, purposeful, beautiful. that if you have an idea, you need to be able to express it perfectly. this is not true. you don't get only 1 chance to communicate. you can spend a lifetime trying to display exactly 1 thing you can never quite language. you can just express the "!!??!!!"-ing-ness of being alive; that is something none of us really have a full grasp on creating. and even when we can't make what we want - god, it feels fucking good to try. and even just enjoying other artists - art inherently rewards the act of participating.
i wasn't raised wealthy. whenever i make a post about art, someone inevitably says something along the lines of well some of us aren't that lucky. i am not lucky; i am dedicated. i have a chronic condition, my hands are constantly in pain. i am not neurotypical, nor was i raised safe. i worked 5-7 jobs while some of these memories happened. i chose art because it mattered to me more than anything on this fucking planet - i would work 80 hours a week just so i could afford to write in 3 of them.
and i am still telling you - if you are called to make art, you are called to the part of you that is human. you do not have to be good at it. you do not have to have enormous amounts of privilege. you can just... give yourself permission. you can just say i'm going to make something now and then - go out and make it. raquel it won't be good though that is okay, i don't make good things every time either. besides. who decides what good even is?
you weren't called to make something because you wanted it to be good, you were called to make something because it is a basic instinct. you were taught to judge its worth and over-value perfection. you are doing something impossible. a god's ability: from nothing springs creation.
a few months ago i found a piece of sidewalk chalk and started drawing. within an hour i had somehow collected a small classroom of young children. their adults often brought their own chalk. i looked up and about fifteen families had joined me from around the block. we drew scrangly unicorns and messed up flowers and one girl asked me to draw charizard. i am not good at drawing. i basically drew an orb with wings. you would have thought i drew her the mona lisa. she dragged her mother over and pointed and said look! look what she drew for me and, in the moment, i admit i flinched (sorry, i don't -). but the mother just grinned at me. he's beautiful. and then she sat down and started drawing.
someone took a picture of it. it was in the local newspaper. the summary underneath said joyful and spontaneous artwork from local artists springs up in public gallery. in the picture, a little girl covered in chalk dust has her head thrown back, delighted. laughing.
#writeblr#warm up#this is longer than i wanted i really considered removing that part about myself and what i went thru#but i think it really fucking bothers me that EVERY time i talk about being an artist#ppl assume i just like. had the skill and ability to drop everything and pay for grad school.#like sir i grew up poor. my house wasn't a safe space. i gave up a FREE RIDE TO LAW SCHOOL. for THIS. bc i chose it.#was it fucking hard? was i choosing the hard thing?? yes.#but we need to stop seeing artists as lazy layabouts that can ''afford'' to just ''sit around and create''#when MANY - if not MOST - of us are NOT like that. we have to work our fucking ASSES off. hard work. long and hard work#part of valuing artists is recognizing the amount we sacrifice to make our art. bc it doesn't just#like HAPPEN to us. also btw it rarely has anything to do with true talent.#speaking as someone with a chronic condition i hate when ppl are like u have it easy. like actively as i'm writing this my hands r#ACTIVELY hurting me. i haven't been posting bc my left hand was curled in a claw for the last week#this isn't fucking luck. after a certain point it's not even TALENT. it's dedication & sacrifice.#''u get to flounce around and do nothing with ur life'' is a narrative that is a direct result of capitalism#imagine if we said that about literally any other profession.#''oh so u give up 10 yrs of ur life to be a doctor? u sacrifice having a social life and u get SUPER in debt?#u need to work countless hours and it will often be thankless? well i wish i was that lucky''#we should be applying that logic to landlords ONLY#''oh ur mom and dad gave u the money to buy a house? and all u did was paint it white and rent it? huh.''
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One wedding and three funerals
Background paintings under the cut
#tomgreg#succession#tom wambsgans#greg hirsch#shiv roy#roman roy#kendall roy#yeah no im not tagging everyone thats too much#this is me going 'how much implications themes and symbolism can i fit in one painting'#yes i gave rose shivs haircolor. if we ever find out how she looks like and its not like this im just gonna pass away i guess#but yeah i hope yall connect the dots#i put waaay too much thought and work into this. i was googling pictures of all the actors as kids just for reference (sigh)#honestly kinda wanted to make tom and greg link pinkies as like. a pinkie promise. but that was too hard to draw in this angle#at least not without obstructing the view of the ring which is important to see so ya#my fave is actually the tomshiv wedding pic i went off with that. i love them... they should have run away to become sheep farmers fr fr#anyway im so glad im done with this UGH!! finally i can draw smth else without being like oh noooo i need to finish this#i see a lot of you wondering why there is no portrait of logan but one of ewan#it's bc the placement of the painting represent their standing. logans portray would not hang next to the stairs#his present portrait hangs at the end of it. all the way up at the top. alone and withering away#basically the picture you see underneath ewan to the right? its where toms parents would be. the right side of the wall is tom and gregs#and the left one is the roy siblings theirs. since they grew up rich rich. and tom and greg didn't#but ya thats why ewan hangs here and logan does not :)
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worlds tallest purse chihuahua of a man
#deltarune#queenkaard#queen#rouxls kaard#art#deltarune fanart#doodles#oof i miss them#working on a DR zine shook loose some DR braincells ..........#queen never paints her own nails. thats what the butlers are for. thats where she hears about all the cafe and host club customer dramas#i think its so so so cute when characters are Mushed into each other. but its SO SO SO SOS O SOOOO HARD 2 DRAW
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give them blood blood gallons of the stuff :)
#art#digital art#my art 🦷#digital painting#iwtv#iwtv fanart#interview with the vampire#louis de pointe du lac#lestat de lioncourt#loustat#im not really in this fandom so like. i hope people dont get mad at me for this one lol#i just felt like drawing some sexy shit#not even happy with this piece tbh but i feel like posting it nayways cause i worked kinda hard on it :/#ik the perpective is probably off and their faces are a lil wonky#but.. I TRIED#and i like the vibes and the colors. sorta
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collection of some molly sketches :] im obsessed with drawing him smiling hugely looking mischievous
#mollymauk tealeaf#mollymauk fanart#critical role#critical role fanart#mighty nein#the mighty nein#critrole#m9#clip studio paint#id in alt text#artistic nudity#kind of? you cant even really see his ass bc of the tail so its pretty tame. but idk#anyways big smile screen right hand gesture is apparently my go too molly pose#ive been itching 2 color these for ages#im so swamped with stuff for school that its hard to justify fanart LMAO but i finished a lot of stuff this week so i gave myself a treat#YAYYYYYY#itseart#ALSO i think im realizing i dont work with purples as a base color that often???#but its rlly fun to paint purple skin
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show off
#tf2#unfortunately scout is blocking heavys arm that i worked rlly hard on :/#pretty messy but i really liked painting it#i have so much fun drawing them they would have a lot a great comedic potential haha#scout tf2#heavy tf2#team fortress 2#fanart#my art#artists on tumblr#illustration#sketch
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this guy again.. cute hair an makeup.. this is like present day but just without beard + longer hair..
(he/him)
fun gradients under the cut
#the cute hair and makeup combo is really great w him still being so hairy ithink#im still working on commissions okayy theywill take alittle longer than my usual batches because like#the uncomfortable tensions here make it hard to draw anything 😭#and i want to draw the commissions WELL so ihave to warmup#bleghghh#drawing#digital art#art#oc#illustration#my art#supernormal#original character#supervillain oc#trans oc#murph an joanies supernormal#posting at 2 am idodnt caaare iwill just reblog it annoyinf amount of times#im going thru some distress i can post at bad hours#clip studio paint
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kendalling in oil
#KENDALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#art#traditional art#painting#oil paint#portrait#succession#succession fanart#kendall roy#jeremy strong#eye contact#art school is crazy because youre learning super fundamental concepts that make ur work stronger#but its so hard to apply those concepts in action#like tried to define and simplify the shadow shapes in this as much as i could#and theyre STILL mushy. but so much better than previous paintings have been#art growth is so slow and non-linear and fiddly#but i love his face so so so so much#succ critters are my muses
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#interview with the vampire#iwtv#louis de pointe du lac#armand#the vampire armand#loumand#iwtv art#egon schiele#self-seers ii death and man#THE SELF PORTRAIT AS THE PORTRAIT OF A SE#LF A CRISIS#LOUMAND BEDROOM I LOVE YOUUUU#working on the other paintings mara made this so hard skfhskhf
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Omega Cannon Online.
#I WORKED SO HARD ON THIS GUYS#art by riley#samus aran#metroid#metroid fanart#metroid dread#art#digital painting#metroid dread fanart#artists on tumblr#small artist#uservanguard#userobstacles#Edit: THIS BROKE 1K NOTES HOLY SHIT??
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Beautiful, But Broken
#bg3#tiefling#tw blood#c: Viivi#so I redid my bg3 character because I wasn't feeling durge that much. So now my sibling does durge and I regular tav Viivi#(changed her to tiefling for funs)#at least I meant to do regular tav but uhhhhh things have gone very unfortunately very fast#anyway. Viivi is an artist; she does painting sculpting poetry and some prose. Experimenting with this and that#unfortunately she is deaf which made making connections a bit hard in the fine arts world#fortunately she has a patreon with one very generous patron (she's fey warlock)✨ who has bestowed some gifts of charms for her#which have opened doors of many art galleries#She's not a fighter so although she is confident in her own lane she is also very aware of her mortality#so she avoided any fights she could#which might have saved her but also got her into the mess of her lifetime#you see she couldn't fight the entire goblin camp and their leaders. She would've just not survived that. So she convinced them#that she is a True Soul. She is good at convincing people. It worked. They thought she is on their side. Good#Halsin also though Viivi was on their side. Halsin attacked Viivi's party. Now Halsin is dead.#So Viivi and her group were still alone deep within enemy fort. Viivi made new plans. She frees the prisoner who says he will warn the grov#Good thinks Viivi now they know to flee. I will go to Minthara and tell we got the information from prisoner of the grove location#she will trust us and we walk off#when we get back to grove they have not fled and Minthara is at the gates#Minthara wants Viivi to sound the horn. Zevlor wants Viivi to sound the horn. Viivi asks Zevlor to please tell this plan in detail.#Zevlor says just blow the horn already. Viivi does that. Minthara thanks Viivi for leaving the gate open as planned#Zevlor does not thank Viivi for that. Viivi is confused as she did not leave the gate open. (for real the damn gate was left open)#So I did a Massacre.#now Karlach is gone Wyll is dead. Lae'zel is also dead#but apparently Minthara is ready to be very loving and sincere with Viivi. The most helpful person she has met in very long time.#Viivi might love her#so that is how she's doing.
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saint esther, first saint of the many below wound tree
once again, thank you so much to @spectralanomally for advising me on her wounds !!
speedpaint here
#the silt verses#pls zoom in on the gory parts i worked so hard#that being said. could be gorier.#tsv#the silt verses fanart#tsv fanart#tsv esther#the wound tree#the many below#tsv saints#gore#body horror#art#my art#digital art#huion tablet#medibang paint#digital painting#painting
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bait / hook / line / sinker
#the hunger games#finnick odair#thg#the hunger games fanart#this was a very very weird painting for me.#like i have painted decapitated heads and severed arms and shattered ribs and guts falling out and gallons of blood#and not once have i ever looked up from my work and been disgusted or disturbed by what i’ve painted#but the first day i was working on this one i looked at it and just felt so sick i had to get up and take a shower to get away from it#HE WAS 14 WTF WTF WTF WTF#that is a baby. that is a little kid. turned into a killer and paraded around like a novelty and used like a toy.#but on the whole i am very satisfied with this propaganda piece it's just as beautiful and unsettling as i wanted it to be#ugh my mind. nothing in the composition is overt but all the implications are there#not just the capitol's sexualization and brutalization of children but the fetishization of the districts' labor as well#as my good friend and mutual theworldiswhispering said.#'the hard labor you do is not safe from being romanticized by the people who benefit from it at your expense'#and i think about that every day#wherefore art thou#thg reread#why he so smooth.. just like a shark#[katniss voice] mfs took all my body hair cant have shit in the capitol#i just know tumblr's gonna crunch the quality of these images but i worked on a canvas 4 times larger than the usual size#so a lot of the detail gets lost when i post it. oh well. click for quality i guess#his expression changes when you're far away#far away he looks kind of vacant#close up he's smiling. like the photographer wanted a specific cocky emotion from him and it was there#but when you zoom out there's just a thousand yard stare#i did think about turning these into prints or actual posters but um. i don't think i should do that
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“if i am worth anything later, I am worth something now. for wheat is wheat, even if people think it is grass in the beginning”
is such a beautiful line from van gogh.
#i think the story of van gogh is nice even if its tragic#he believed in this artist utopia where artists would work together#but the only one to join him was gauguin#who ridiculed his work so hard ppl attributed it to van goghs later meltdowns#so it brings me a lot of joy when i see their works next to each others now#but while everyone fights for a photo with a van gogh painting#few seem to care for gaugin’s work#maybe thats not the moral to take away from it#it just feels poetic
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TRIGUN ✝ MAXIMUM: Coming this Halloween!
#IM SO HAPPY W THIS RRRRRRRRRAHHHHHHHHHH#IM LEARNING CLIP STUDIO PAINT GRADIENTSSSSSSS#photo#trigun#trigun maximum#fanart#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#millie thompson#meryl stryfe#vashwood#<-- bc there on the same page lol#i hope my hard work paid off RAH
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