#i wish i died a long time ago
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If you could die from being overwhelmed, I would be infinitely dead
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sskk-manifesto Ā· 9 months ago
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Friendly reminder that Akutagawa includes ā€œhaving friendsā€ among the things Atsushi is blessed with and that he should be envied for.
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the-gay-prometheus Ā· 6 months ago
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moophinz Ā· 3 months ago
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Iā€™ve made a short, tiny piece of criticism regarding fandomā€™s behavior of being super demanding and not engaging with the thing they demanded. But thereā€™s something else thatā€™s been bothering me for a while nowā€¦
This fandom feels very baby. In that way, I mean that it feels super young. So young, that certain popular people on Twitter who would have been called out for numerous counts of various flavors of poor behavior in other fandoms get strangely shared around a lot here. I donā€™t find much in the way of deeper analysis topics or video essays. Memes (that if I may be honest) have been used to death and beyond still get repeatedā€” even when itā€™s completely unwarranted. The worse of the meme brain rot crossover with steep bigotry people tend to overwhelm and act incredibly disgusting in some corners of the fandom and on official posts.
Like with any thing or community or what have you, thereā€™s people who seek engagement bait and spread negativity. Iā€™m surprised at how successful it can be to do that in this fandom on Twitter. It creates such a rotten atmosphere. All in all, a lot of these things have been pushing me away from the community even though I only joined into this series in 2021. It feels like some kind of tide turned for the worse.
Yes, this fandom is in fact relatively new in a way. Itā€™s existed for almost two decades but exploded some years ago with a continued high stream of sudden growth. But there are certain things that Iā€™m still astonished by.
#yakuza#ryu ga gotoku#like a dragon#I feel weird as itā€™s been a long time since I posted about grievances#last time I did so was when I was into Hetalia but things are just weird around here depending on where youā€™re at#I also have to dig my nails into my hands to stop myself from mentioning certain names#I donā€™t wish to start anything of course#some people just do too much#and I mean genuinely bad things such as leading attacks on others and chasing them out of the fandom and engaging with homophobia#also Iā€™m not sorry but the ten years in the joint meme died a very long time ago please make it stop#this is an official warning Iā€™m the fandom police actually I drew my badge with crayons#also also Iā€™m just tired of watching people spread lies#thereā€™s so many lies people do out of bad faith readings especially if it involves Yokoyama#and it doesnā€™t help that so much official info is in Japanese and will never be translated#Iā€™m pretty sure I complained about that too before actually#anyway Iā€™m always weary of sharing my feelings on fandom#the grand takeaway is to never interact with any fandom ever donā€™t even look at other people put yourself in a dark impenetrable dome thank#oh yeah thereā€™s also the fun issue of people only focusing on the goofy side content and getting pissed the live action isnā€™t including#that but also simultaneously getting very angry that the pirate game has pirates (with no context so far)#I look in any angle and something head-splitting is going on
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almostvermin Ā· 12 days ago
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kinda insane how someone on here can become one of the most important people in your life practically overnight but people youve known for the better part of eight years and have called your best friends for six will only hear about your special interest in passing
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mewhenifreakit Ā· 4 months ago
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curled up by the fire, tail waggin
#long day puppies in my phone long day#so so tired i dont have class tmr cos lecture not there so i get to sleep in yay but i wake up early anyways woah just dont Have to be up#going to try meet a friend because i feel like i havent seen anyon outside of college in months even tho its been 2 weeks#this old friend if mine kinda lowkey ditched me when he got a bucnh of new friends like 2 yesrs ago and hes been reaching out a lot to try#hangout and like hm im hurt abiut how he dropped me and he like genrally wasnt a great friend anyways:/ but i feel bad being kike i cant#hang but i also amnt even lyin genuinely cant hang i havent seen my best friend in so long i only see college and my home and therapist once#but also like ugh i dont like this guy i need him to not be beggin me to hang he could be reslly mean like too often but he was nice ..ugh#i wish there was a chill bot harsh way to cut domeone out like i dont hate u i just dont love u soz#and i love my friends so so deeply like i only have time for my besties who i would est whole if i could pike the way people talk about#their blorbo from my shows is how i feel talking about my friends like i want to squish them and poke em n kiss em their my little loves#so if i dont even like someone idk like i dont have time for people j dont love or who dont give a shit about me#hashtag being autistic and my 3 close friends are all also auttistic genuinly the 3 of them got diagnosed in the past 4 yesrs..dominos#i miss my friends wailing college too busy i miss my babies#n i feel really bad for not wanting to hang with this guy who litersllybdidnt care if i lived or died like a year ago#but now is all about me strangely#anyways hm will possible rant more ive had such a long day and nowmim currles on pillows in a bjg hoodie and its so good
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vampirezogar Ā· 4 months ago
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And furthermore, I am not too keen on the film Aliens (1986) and I think if we're talking about the best film in the franchise, it should not even be in the running. Honorable mention at best.
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twinkskeletons Ā· 1 year ago
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canā€™t kill myself until i see fob again canā€™t kill myself until i see fob again canā€™t kill myself until i see fob again
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angelnumber27 Ā· 2 years ago
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I want to murder the love I feel for the man that cheated on me twice and beat the fuck out of me every day while claiming he loved me more than anything
#He is now dating the girl he cheated on me with at LEAST twice FOUR years ago :-)#so awesome and great for me to know they probably stayed in contact that whole time! love that!#found out bc he got a text and it said ā€˜I could kiss you all dayā€™.#while we were together and everything was fine. I donā€™t understand why he did that.#this shit literally makes me want to off myself lol#and it fucking sucks because we dated for five years and it was so good for so long#and I love him more than Iā€™ve ever loved anyone#but thereā€™s nothing I can do#he also was the one who got me addicted to fentanyl.#and as soon as he went to rehab and got sober he left me. I wasnā€™t clean yet and could have died and he just left.#found out soon after heā€™d been seeing her.#when he cheated he sent me multiple pictures of her naked and her in our bed.#and my dumbass got back together with him.#every time#I was fucked up before this relationship but now I am literally irreparable#I canā€™t heal from this shit#heā€™d tell me to kill myself#and say he wished I was dead#knowing how difficult shit was for me and how suicidal I was#heā€™d strangle me and spit on me and trip me and punch me in the face#heā€™d constantly tell me I ruined every aspect of his life and that I was the worst thing that ever happened to him.#then heā€™d tell me that Iā€™m abusive because of my mental illnesses.#Iā€™m so tired :(#Iā€™m so fucking damaged and broken from this shit I cannot even put it into words.#abuse tw#physical abuse tw#physical abuse cw
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edwardshundredyearoldspunk Ā· 2 years ago
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the weird thing about depression when you no longer want to kill yourself is that it's soā€¦boring? like it's almost so fucking boring that you cry just to have some interesting emotion?? you realize that the wanting to kill yourself part was kinda like a little dopamine rush. it kept things interesting. a will-they-won't-they kinda thing between you and the river styx. and it's not 2013 anymore so you can't even romanticize it cuz everyone's got depression now. like you aren't even special anymore for being depressed, you're just depressed.
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sleepitawaydear Ā· 3 months ago
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also me going thru sex withdrawals and feeling unloved when itā€™s literally my own goddamn fault bc i get too drunk every night and pass out before anything can happen
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gregmarriage Ā· 5 months ago
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literally the biggest mood of all time, ms williams
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rlvaille Ā· 9 months ago
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why did i dream that my cat was dead šŸ˜­
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phoenixcatch7 Ā· 1 year ago
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Nearly at the end of bayonetta and honestly whoever green lit that missile/Jeanne final fight chapter -
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#Like I'd seen all the boss fights and the general plot overview and the lore and of course the hitless stuff#That did not prepare me for the 1:30 hour SLOG without a save point that was that chapter ToT#Like I'd just come from the barge angel boss fight man give me a break šŸ˜­#And I had to fight that stupid spinning four fingers guy again. HATE HIM. HATE HATE HATE.#And I died sooooo many times to Jeanne too which fair enough!!!#But I was so wired and tired even before we got to the fight because of the STUPID long missile sequence!!#Literally half that time would have got the message across. Why did it need to last that long?????? Ten minutes straight??#Never mind how many times I died there at had to restart the whole thing :')#If I quit at Jeanne I'd have to do that again. No thank you!!!!!!!#Literally had to pause the game put the controller down and lie down mid fight I was sick of it#My fingers were genuinely sore q-q#There's a very small sweet spot where the slog repays in triumph and relief and then past that you're just glad it's over#That chapter passed that point somewhere back in the first missile phase FOR REAL#And to make things worse I'd used up all my healing items in the missile phase so I had to do the ENTIRETY of Jeanne ITEMLESS#It would have gone better if I'd ever been able to really practice my combos. I wish you could go into that loading area at will#The technique try zone doesn't count because it doesn't have that list along the side and the book you have to memorise and hope you know#When you do it right#Lmao the game loads too fast now!!#Anyway that was absolutely awful. You can really tell that game came out so long ago it would not have flown now#In fact I can't think of many games that still use stuff like save points it's all just save in settings and autosave areas#Definitely one progression for the better XD#Outside of awful chapter lengths I'm having a FANTASTIC time I'm definitely going to replay many other chapters#bayonetta#Bayonetta chapter
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kwonhochi Ā· 1 year ago
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floats gently facedown in a river & gets swept out to sea
#so u see im trans but visible in a very lowkey babysteps way i only just started going by my name a few months ago and i dont really hide th#at im trans i tell ppl my pronouns and stuff if they ask! but im shy i dont introduce myself w threm and i dont pass either so like i still#get misgendered n stuff but ppl use the right name at least now#ANWYAY. so like im out but not Out yk#anyway part 2 i was leaving a thing and someone ik pulled me aside and asked me a question on my preference for something gender segregated#and it was so thoughtful and kind and no one has done that for me before and i really didnt know what to do šŸ˜­ its really nice to know that#i can do things quietly and people will still notice and care (in the good way). i mean hes probably overheard my friends using he/him#pronouns for me but still it was so thoughtful and considerate :(#todya has been wild my intrusive thoughts have convinced me my mom died twice today (shes in perfect health dw) and i think im finally#discovering how to hold the small happinesses close each day and letting the suicidal ideation ease away and i think im figuring out how to#live better. im hoping im looking forward to the future again im breathing 1 heavens cloud at a time#n now im just laying here lsitening to this is a life mitski on repeat and feeling like wvery emotion#WELL. that was a really long rant(?) thanks for reading . how are u all :3#i wish i could erase the word like (filler word) from my vocab Its just progresively getting worse all i say is like 50 times a sentence šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
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kamikazekid Ā· 1 year ago
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