#i will probably delete this in like 2 min again but i just want to yell in the tags for a sec

[oursecretways]

Deus ex machina I.

idol!Minho × fem!Reader note(s): I was listening to the song while I struggled to write and the idea came to me. Might be a bit shorter AND a two parter. genre(s): fluff, slice of life, little angst word count: 736 warning(s): reader thinking badly about themselves

master list ║part 2

where you're stuck on writing your book and Minho just tired and worried.♡

You’ve been sitting at it for hours at this point. Somehow nothing fixed it; you’ve done research, watched your current drama, drew your OCs, watched streams, ate, everything someone can name for writer's block, you did. It has been going on for weeks, at this point you considered writing an email to your publisher that you are giving up. You’ve been beating yourself up constantly, how bad of a writer you are, that you are a failure and that you will never be able to achieve your goals. It didn’t help that your boyfriend, Minho, is in Japan with his boy band doing promotion work for their next comeback. You wanted to be finished by the time he will be home, so you two have time, since the boys got a couple of days off in their hectic work schedule. 

It was passed 4 am when the front door opened — which you did not realize since you’ve been rewriting the same thing over, and over again — Lino quietly walked into the room after he got himself sorted out, thinking you might be asleep, but he was wrong. All he saw that you are slouching in front of the laptop, earbuds in, probably listening to one of your playlists, writing a paragraph, then deleting it, then writing it again. He knows that you always tried to solve the problem like this: going at it until it is solved, although maybe this time you should approach it differently, and he just knew how to. 

He tapped your shoulder, making you jump slightly. You took your earphones out as you looked behind you, shocked. “Min! Wait, what is the time? Oh god, I am so sorry babe, you could’ve called me!” He just chuckles and caresses your face, “I figured that you’d be sleeping, but I was wrong. Why aren’t you in bed? And don’t try to tell me you were just finishing up, I’ve seen you deleting and rewriting the same paragraph.” Minho knows you like he knows the back of his hand, you cannot escape his all-knowing gaze. “Okay, let’s go, we’re going to bed. You can save your progress, but you cannot do anything else, c’mon.” You stare at him in awe — after a while you pulled yourself together, saved your novel, and turned off your PC. He unloaded his dirty clothes into the laundry bin, and got ready for his bedtime. Once you finished packing your thinking, and putting your dirty dishes in the kitchen sink, you joined him. You brushed your teeth, did your skin care, and brushed your hair out; you massaged your neck and shoulders as you walked into your shared room. The smell, and the calming sound of the storm outside hit you just in the right spot; you felt your body starting to relax, as you climbed into your bed, finding a perfect spot in your boyfriends arm. You said your good nights, and you drifted off, not feeling the kiss he gave you on your head nor his worried words.

Your dream was horrible: you couldn’t finish your book, so everyone hated you. Minho was disappointed to the point he broke up with you. Minho woke you up, looking a bit worried, “Y/N! Y/N? Are you okay? What’s wrong?” You felt like it was silly, so you just shook it off. Couldn’t believe that you would make him wake you up just after a couple of hours of sleep, because you’re incapable of doing your job. You took a shaky breath trying to fight off the thoughts that yelled how worthless you are, or how you just got lucky, but you don’t deserve any of this. Minho made you turn to him, “Okay, this ain’t funny anymore, let’s be honest with each other. I see that you are stuck with your book, I assume you got into a slump. I will help you with it once we slept enough, but it is time to tell me what’s wrong, Missy” His firm, but kind voice is what broke you: you started crying talking about how you are a horrible person being for not waiting him more appropriately, how you cannot just write what you need to write and so on. When you looked up, you anticipated a disapproving Lino, but all you saw is concern. He pulled you closer, and hummed you sweet melodies until you fell asleep. 

🏷️(open)

[skztea]

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ prompt 15 | SKZ members reaction when you prank them — accidentally purposely texting him “he’s gone…you can come over now 😍💦”

✦ bang chan ੈ✩‧₊˚

He will literally give that “did i hear it wrongly” face. Taking some time to set his mind right, he relooked at the message again. “It wasn’t deleted though,” he muttered to himself while pressing the telephone on the top right corner - “baby, what is going on?” leaving the waiting room, his brows furrowed when he heard silence from you. His heart has never palpitated this hard before, not even when he performed infront of tons of people. “…It’s a prank! Baby don’t get alarmed, i was just trying to do a tiktok challenge!” You laughed at him while hearing him letting out a deep sigh, proceeding to lecture you softly and telling you to not do this to him again. (He can’t take it if you actually dump him though)🥲🥲

✦ minho ੈ✩‧₊˚

“Why is he not replying?” Tapping on the table impatiently, your mind started to go wild as you glanced at your phone. Your boyfriend has seen your message but have yet to reply, after 2 hours. You were so ready to dash out of the lecture room but if not for your almost failing attendence, you had to glue your butt to the chair until the lecture ends. The moment the clock strikes 2.30pm, you swept all your items into your tote bag and planned to rush to the other faculty. “Oh my-“ a strong hand wrapped around your waist and pulled you into a corner down the corridor. “Say it again,” the extremely familiar voice rings, with his breath fanning against the tip of your ears. “Say, say what?” “The message,” his voice lowered an octave, gripping you tighter. “Oh…It was just a tiktok challenge Min… i just wanted to see your reaction,” you finally met his icy cold gaze, slowly melting down as he dip his face into the crook of your neck. “Hajima…”

✦ changbin ੈ✩‧₊˚

“Are you fucking around with me right now?” You avoided his burning gaze that was on you for the past 5 minutes. You prayed that the ground will swallow you up as the other students walking by the alley were judging you and your mad boyfriend, pining you against the wall. “No-no…” your cheeks started to heat up and tears touring around the brim of your eyes, you regretted throwing the stupid tiktok challenge at him in the morning. “It was just a prank…please dont be angry anymore,” you lightly tugged the end of his leather jacket, where his free palm gently pulled your head to lean against his toned shoulders. He lightly carassed the back of your head, cooing you as if he wasn’t angry moments before.

✦ hyunjin ੈ✩‧₊˚

“Why are you sulking hyunjin?” Chan walked over to the strangely silent member who has been quietly scribbling in one corner while the rest were chit chatting. He raised his head to look at Chan, pouting as he showed him the text message you have sent 1 hour ago. “Oh…i don’t think y/n is that kind of person though, she’s probably just joking with you, why don’t you give a call?” He patted his shoulders, while Hyunjin contemplated to click on that telephone icon. As he was about to press on it, you called him. “Hey baby?” “Yea…?” He placed his pencil down, ready to welcome any bad news from you, if you were to declare them. “Baby, it was just a tiktok challenge, i was just pranking you, are you okay? Im sorry if i hurted you, i guessed you must be emo, hence i called you,” your comforting tone has broken his defence, while he wiped his tears off and adjust his voice to sound normal. “Baby, thanks for calling me, my heart was about to shatter when you sent that, i thought i lost you…”

✦ jisung ੈ✩‧₊˚

Jisung felt like a thunder just striked infront of his eyes. He dramatically looked up and down between the screen and the wall infront of him, confused by what you meant. “Im going over, i want to see who is that fucking guy,” he frantically punched in the phrase, slipped on his slippers and ran to your house. Before you could even react, you heard the doorbell rang. “Who?! who the fuck is that guy?! Where is he? GET THE FUCK OUTTT” He dashed into your house as if he was there to murder someone while you giggled behind his back. “YAH! NEO MICHEOSEO? It’s just a fucking joke you silly!” You gently whacked his back as he is still prying the different rooms and toilet of your house, finally sitting down on your couch when he finished his investigation. “Are you serious? You are really kidding me right?” Crossing his arms and pouting like Pocoyo, you ruffled his blonde hair and assured him.

✦ felix ੈ✩‧₊˚

Felix will scoff super loudly as he leaned back against the chair. He believed that none other than him, there is no other man that will enter your eyes and he is confident that it was a joke. On top of that, he has seen the Tiktok challenge before, hence he was unwavered by it. “Tiktok challenge?” He replied back to you. Busted. “Yah! Do you have to expose me right away?” You replied back with a sad face emoji beside, earning a deep laughter from him as the other boys looked at him. “What’s up lix?” Seungmin asked. “Naur, just my girlfriend being cute again.” The boys sighed and ignored the smirking friend who was awaiting for your reply to his tease.

✦ seungmin ੈ✩‧₊˚

“Is your brother coming over? Help me say hi to him,” his face was as cool as a cucumber. Knowing that you tried to prank him again, he also wanted to return you a favour. After seeing you seen his message and not replying, he knew that you were struggling on the other end to crack a reply. “Remember to buy his favourite cashew, he can use my PS5,” he continued to add on to his message, knowing that you are scratching your scalp now when your plan fell through. “What if he is someone else you don’t know?” You were too daring. “Then i must make friends with him so that he knows who is your boyfriend. Bring him over now.” After exerting dominance, he took over the ownership of the conversation. “Checkmate,” he thought as he imagined your little cute and annoyed face.

✦ jeongin ੈ✩‧₊˚

He will try to act normal after seeing the message and assume as a mistake that u havent sent to the wrong recipient. Still performing his daily tasks, he still can’t seem to get rid of the message you have sent. He thought that you will at least say a “sorry! It was a typo,” he wouldn’t got smashed by the basketball earlier. “Jeong! Are you okay?” Minho came over to ask about his swollen cheeks as he held onto his phone with the message displayed on screen, still not getting over it. “Urgh, im fine,” he dumped the towel one side as he decided to call u. “Hello?” “…babe! Please tell me that message was an error… please…” He immediately softened his tone while whining, earning giggled from you. “Jeongin-ah, i thought you always scroll Tiktok? It was a challenge! Paboyah!” You half jokingly scolded him while his lips started curving up again, skipping back to the bench and shared with you about how he got smashed by the ball.

-> It has been a reallly long time since i made a comeback haha, this prompt has been in my draft for over a year (whoever that requested this and i can’t find your request anymore) im so sorry TT a late compensation here, hope you are able to see it 🥲

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[the-winds-of-destiny-xxx]

uni

still haven't finished my essay. Gonna try staying up until 12.00am. Hoping I at least hit 1,000 words by then. Classes resume next friday. Not sure if i'm ready 😭😭 but it is what it is. Gonna be interesting to see what the dynamic is like between everyone given how things were the last time we saw each-other vs now. As i mentioned last time T has some v problematic views according to some of my course friends so that's gonna be different as well. I usually look at him with heart eyes (not that he notices) and things will probably be different now. I usually sit at the front (and in front of him) but conversation is probs gonna be less. We didn't talk much over the holiday anyway (probs like twice) so it would've been like that regardless. I still kinda wanna fuck him tho (he's hot it's not my fault).

work

fucked myself over and booked shifts for monday and tuesday because I remembered the due date for the essay wrong. Depending on how much I get done tonight I may ask to swap my shifts for other days or just say I can't make it.

gym/health

wanted to go gym today but did not have the time. It usually takes me 40 mins to walk there and 40 mins to walk back plus like 1-2 hours spent actually working out and if I'd done that I would've been fucked. So hoping I get to go more next week.

I've been eating better as well and as much as I love like fatty and sugary foods (especially when i'm stressed), I can't deny how good my body feels when I eat healthy and exercise.

dating

Deleted hinge and bumble (as said previously) and i refuse to turn back but i joined a dating app strictly for LGBTQ+ so we'll see how it goes. This community annoys me sometimes because almost everyone is poly and doesn't want anything serious like 😭😭 might as well just start entertaining K again atp.

mood

dizzy (lack of meds). actually feeling more emotionless than emotional like I usually do.

[boreal-sea]

This is really random but how do you make that gender dysphoria-euphoria graph on excel? As a fellow grad student, I’m trying to get better at data visualization, and that is so pretty. I’m not really a big excel girlie (mostly use stata) but I’ve never seen that type of graph before so I wouldn’t know how to even look it up.

Haha sure!! So it's not too hard to make but it's kinda involved, and I'm sure there's easier ways to do it in python (which I'm supposed to be teaching myself) but I only know Excel so here we go:

Let's go from this first graph to the second graph:

The first thing you want to do is set up a simple table like the one on the left in the image below. You don't have to separate everything out into different columns, I just did that because I was doing this fast and it's way clearer for me to keep track of what I'm doing.

The second thing you wanna do is understand how graphs in Excel work: You have to define an X axis and a Y axis. For this graph style, called a CalTech plot, we only actually want to display data across the X axis, but we still need to define it on the Y axis so Excel understands we're trying to make a graph.

So the -10 to 10 is going to be our X axis data. The 1's in the other columns just give Y a value so we can get it on the graph. That's the basic set up.

So, add a scatter plot however you like, and then right click to edit the data. Add each data type into the plot as a separate Series. Set the X to be the -10 to 10, and the Y values to be the corresponding data column.

Now here's where the details come in. Initially, your graph will probably look like this:

That's terrible. There's no legend, the dots are tiny, there's a Y axis right in the middle and grid-lines etc... So let's fix it!

Double-click on the Y axis. If the dots are too high or too low you can adjust the Min and Max values on the menu that'll pop up on the right. I set my Min to -1 and my Max to 2. Once you're done, click on the Y axis and literally just hit Delete. It'll go away.

Same with the grid-lines: click 'em and delete 'em. You can also remove all these items through the [+] menu that shows up when you click on the graph OR on the top menu under Chart Design.

After that, we need to add the Legend and change the size of the dots.. You can add the legend and then change its position using the [+] menu or through the Chart Design menu. I have it displayed on the Bottom.

Once you've got that squared away, if you don't have the right hand menu up you need to double-click anywhere in the chart area get the it to show up. It should say "Format Chart Area". Single-click on one of your data points, and it changes to say "Format Data Series":

Click on the paint bucket, then click on Marker, then click on the > to make the Marker Options menu drop down and then you can finally change the size of the markers. I picked 10 because it's nice and visible. Do that for all your markers! Finally, you can click on the Legend itself and go to font size to increase it and make it more visible.

And now, the last step. The colored boxes? They're literally just boxes. Insert > Illustrations > Shapes, and click on the rectangle. Click on Shape Format on the main menu to adjust the Shape Fill under More Fill Colors, and set the Transparency to 50%. Copy-paste as many boxes as you want!

Done!

If you wanna play around, you can change the "level" of the dots which can be helpful for data sets with overlapping numbers:

See how I changed the Y values to 1, 2, 3 and 4 in my table? I also had to change my Y-axis values to Min: -1 and Max: 5, but you can easily use the [+] menu to bring back the Y axis any time you need it, then delete it again.

[not-poignant]

Do you have a lot of different farms in stardew valley or go very long with just one? Also if you have different farms do you do any challenges or goals to keep it varied?

I have over 1,600 hours and have had over 15+ farms in Stardew Valley, and I tend to get bored around the year 3/4 mark, so I've never made it to year 5 in any of them. I started playing in 2016.

I played the first 10 or so without any mods at all, and most of my farms happened before the Ginger Island update, and things like that. Farms 10-13 had some cosmetic and quality of life mods (i.e. mods that let me know when I had hugged a chicken, so I didn't go and accidentally hug it again, and the 'No Children Ever' mod - the BEST - no kids, and don't even get asked to have them, perfect), and farms 14 and 15 actually have some 'cheat' mods to make it easier to play and more relaxing (instant catch for the fish, instant kill for the enemies).

I don't really have any obvious challenges or goals because I like to relax when I play it, so there's no point in making it harder for myself, right? It's very easy for me to max out all my skills to 10 before the end of year 1 for example (I'm usually level 5/6 on fishing with zero mods before the end of Spring, year 1), and usually all I need before the end of year 2 are the rest of the artefacts (I will have all the fish / crops / Community Centre etc.)

I'm not a hardcore min-maxer, but I do lean towards efficiency and low-key min-maxing, which means by the time money is pouring in, I'm ready to restart, because my favourite part of the game is starting to get all my goals. By the time I can sell my Iridium bars in stacks of 100 because I just have too many, I don't really see the point anymore, lol.

The game has actually changed a fair bit since I started playing it, we have a lot more quality of life changes now. There are new crops. There's new buildings. There's new farm animals. There's new scenes with the NPCs. The maple syrup bear, lmao. The little notes and magnifying glass. I've thought a little about trying Stardew Valley Expanded (a mod) but realistically what happens is I play for a little while quite intensely, and then I get bored and forget, and then I come back an old farm and can't remember what my routine was, so I just start a new farm. I'm actually in a 'I should probably update my mods and start a new farm' right now. So I haven't played Stardew Valley in a while.

I'm at the point where I've deleted quite a few of my farms, because I know I'll never go back to them, though I still have around 8 in the list.

I've never played multiplayer because I can't stand it (not being able to pause ruins the whole game for me), and I've only ever married/bonded to four candidates! Sebastian, Alex, Elliott and Krobus. I'm good at giving advice to newbies and even 'mid-tier newbies' (i.e. those who have only completed one farm and have about 60 hours under them), and otherwise just want people to enjoy the game and make it enjoyable for them. Stardew Valley is one of the best games to mod for your comfort (or challenge), and folks who can make the most of it should feel free to without guilt.

I've seen on YouTube some of the challenges people come up with - no farming for 100 days, no leaving the farm for 100 days, no talking to NPCs for 100 days, and so on. Idk, that's not really my thing. If I want to stress myself out, I'll just play Elden Ring or something.

Let me leave you with a pic of all my truffles from just one day of being away from my farm lol

I really miss the mushroom cave hack, but Barone nerfed it once he found out that some of us were exploiting it, lol. I thought it had been intentional, and not an error! :D :D

[undergaunts]

Call Me Baby (Chapter 3) (Chapter 1 here, Chapter 2 here)

Sebastian Sallow x Ominis Gaunt (Modern!AU)

Summary: The text chat logs between Sebastian Sallow and Ominis Gaunt during their 6th and 7th year at Hogwarts. (or Sebastian and Ominis can't bear to be apart for longer than 5 minutes, so spend their entire summer, winter and spring breaks texting and calling each other)

Rating: Explicit (sexting!! very h*rny wizards!!!)

Word count: 4.5k

Recommended to read on AO3 as the layout is better but it’s also below the cut <3

Ominis is calling sebauble

Call accepted

Call ended, 22min

10:24am

sebauble

sorry i won’t be long

Ominis

Take your time. 

10:36am

sebauble

ok back

i have to go again in like 10 mins sorry

she was like ‘i can’t peel potatoes and carrots and cook a turkey at the same time’

WHY NOT ANNE I HAVE IMPORTANT THINGS TO DO

Ominis

Help your sister, Sebastian. It’s Christmas. 

sebauble 

but i want to talk to you

more about what we were talking about

which by the way

hi

Ominis

Hi. 

sebauble 

:D genuinely can’t stop smiling haha i look like an idiot

Ominis

Probably, you usually do.  But I can’t stop smiling either, so I also look like an idiot. 

sebauble

ur my idiot and im urs

see before i wouldve written that then deleted it

but now i can acc send it which is crazy

Ominis

I’m honestly still in shock. You’re absolutely certain?

sebauble

dude

i need to stop calling u dude now lol

but yes im certain

when we can talk more i’ll tell u more but

im stupidly in love with u, don’t even question it

there’s no question it’s just fact

Ominis

You’re sure?

sebauble

STOP

YES SO MUCH

SO MUCH LOVE U DONT EVEN KNOW IT FULLY YET

Ominis

You’re a madman. Weirdly that’s one of the reasons I’m in love with you.

Wow, I can’t believe I said that.  I truly think I’ve died or gone insane. 

sebauble

BELIEVE IT BABY BOY

omgs

i can call u that now in a romantic way

i mean i always meant it that way even before i knew i did

and all the other names

perfect, gorgeous, lovely etc

Ominis

And I can call you sweetheart and you’ll know exactly how I mean it. 

sebauble

YES

gods anne is asking me what im smiling at

should i tell her?

Ominis 

You can. What will you say?

sebauble

that we have declared our love for each other, finally!

she already knew i liked u btw

Ominis

She did? 

sebauble

yeah she sort of worked it out back at the beginning of summer

Ominis

Oh, that makes sense now. 

I remember her saying you had something you needed to explain, and that she couldn’t explain it for you. I never pushed to find out. Of all things, I never thought it would be this. 

sebauble

ah yeah well im sort of glad she didn’t tell u

but also we could’ve gotten to this a bit sooner

the dating thing i mean

sorry i haven’t actually asked u yet if u wanted to date me or anything

no labels if u don’t want haha

Ominis

What if I wanted labels?

sebauble

Would you?

Ominis

Maybe. 

sebauble

what kind of labels? basic label or proper label?

Ominis

What’s the difference?

sebauble

well i guess basic is like we’re dating

and proper is like 

boyfriends

Ominis

The proper label sounds like something I’d like, I think. Would you like that?

sebauble

at least let me buy u dinner first 

jk i would very much love that

Ominis

At least then you can give a good description of what’s happened to Anne. 

sebauble

oh yeah, totally, the label is just to help anne understand

Ominis

It just makes things a lot clearer if we say we are each others boyfriend. 

sebauble

it does sound quite nice as well doesnt it? what do u think

Ominis

I think I’d be up for that, it really rolls off the tongue. 

sebauble

yeah cool me too

decided

Ominis

We can shake on it. 

sebauble

*shakes ur hand* lol

cool

I enjoyed that discussion with you Ominis, my boyfriend. 

Ominis

And I you, Sebastian, my boyfriend. 

Oh that was so strange to say out loud. I loved it. I would like to say that a lot more.

sebauble

FUCK YEAH

when i woke up this morning i was NOT expecting this

no offence i think this is a better gift than the jumper

the jumper that my BOYFRIEND got me

fuck that’s so good

i still love the jumper tho btw

Ominis

I think your gift was on par with this. But as it was a gift from my boyfriend, I may be bias. 

sebauble

ur so cute

gods

ok ok my sweet lovely boyfriend i must go

I DONT WANT TO BUT ANNE IS SHOUTING

I WILL RETURN TO YOU SOON MY LOVE

WAIT FOR ME I LOVE YOU

BRB

Ominis

I think you’re mad. I love you. 

December 27th, 2:09pm

sebauble

3 days!!!

well, 2 days, 22 hours

all the 2s 

Ominis

I think I’m more excited to see you than ever before. 

sebauble

Rude. But same

Solomon is already off in London and Anne said she would let us be on our own for a bit :))) if that’s alright with u

Ominis

That sounds pleasant. Do you have any plans for us while I’m there?

sebauble

do u mean for when we’re on our own? 

Ominis

I did mean plans such as Hogsmeade for lunch and shopping, or taking a walk down to the lake. But you could also tell me about your plans for when we’re on our own, if you’d like. 

sebauble

i don’t know, maybe i should keep that a secret

there’s quite a few things i was thinking we could do, but if you’d rather just go to Hogsmeade…

Ominis

I’d do anything if it was with you. I mean that for both circumstances. 

sebauble

don’t talk like that or my brain is going to explode

if u could see my face rn i look like a tomato

Ominis

:)

I look forward to touching your face. If you’d let me. 

sebauble

yes please

i can’t remember the last time u did that

Ominis

We were fifteen. You’d just got your first facial hairs and you wanted me to feel. But then I spent a long time touching your entire face because you felt so different to the time before. Which was when we were twelve and I’d finally gathered the courage to ask if I could, so I could know you better. 

sebauble

wow. how do u even remember ???

Ominis

When you’re hopelessly in love with someone you are certain will never love you back, you end up carving those sort of moments to the inside of your brain. 

sebauble

did you love me in fifth year then?

Ominis

Don’t be silly. 

sebauble

oh

Ominis

I’ve loved you since our first year. 

sebauble

WHAT

really?

Ominis

I can’t quite pinpoint the exact moment, but outside of my sister and Aunt, you were the first person to show me real love. It was always inevitable I would fall for you. 

Only I never imagined I’d be able love you in the way I wanted. 

sebauble

:’)

gods i love you

im so sorry i didn’t see this sooner

and then when i did that i didn’t do anything about it

Ominis

It’s quite alright. I think it’s happened the way it was supposed to. I had some much needed character development during that time. 

sebauble 

LMAO between all this and ur family idk how u survived

tell me ur secrets 

Ominis

Pure determination. 

And spite. 

And you. 

sebauble 

<33333

December 29th, 1:47pm

sebauble

u kno i was thinking

Ominis

Madness!

sebauble

wot?

Ominis

You, Sebastian Sallow, thinking?

sebauble

ha ha. very funny

Ominis

<3

sebauble

<3333

ANYWAY

I WAS THINKING

u know there’s a muggle tradition that on new years eve at midnight people kiss 

idk why but

it sounded interesting

opinions?

Ominis

That does sound quite interesting. I wonder why a kiss. 

sebauble

….

hmmmm

oh look ur gonna be here for new years eve!!!

but hmmm if i was going to partake in a new years kiss i wonder who i would kiss…

Ominis

I wonder such things too.

sebauble

…hmmm

oh i have an interesting idea!!

now tell me if this is good or bad

but me and u could kiss?

Ominis

That’s certainly interesting. I’ll have to think about it. 

sebauble

oh

Ominis

I’ve considered it and my answer is yes. Yes please. 

sebauble

:D

and if there was an opportunity to have a practise of this kiss beforehand, would that also be something you’d consider?

Ominis

Well I suppose a New Years kiss must be absolutely perfect. And they say practise makes perfect. 

sebauble

to get it absolutely perfect we would need maybe a day of advanced practise 

how about we start tomorrow at about 1?

Ominis

Well, I’m arriving at 12. So say 12:05?

sebauble

i like the way u think

December 30th, 11:52am

Ominis

I’m just about to leave. 

sebauble

!!!!!!

i keep having to piss lol

Ominis

Don’t be so crass.

sebauble

WHAT

IM EXCITED 

I CANT HELP IT

MY BOYFRIEND IS COMNG TO SEE ME

Ominis 

:)

See you soon. I love you. 

sebauble

I LOVE YOU

<33333333

SPRING

March 24th, 9:23am

sebauble changed their display name to seb♥︎

seb♥︎

morning my love <3

9:51am

Ominis

Good morning sweetheart. Are you alright?

seb♥︎

missing u

but surviving </3

Ominis

I miss you.  I’m sorry I couldn’t stay. I truly tried. But apparently I must be here. 

seb♥︎

ik baby

but ur like an adult now i don’t get why u can’t do what u want

well i know ur gonna say ‘im a gaunt’ but still :(

Ominis

That’s exactly it. If my father tells me to jump, I must ask how high. It’s always been this way, and I can only assume it always will be. 

At least until Marvolo marries. Then perhaps they’ll focus more on him to produce the heir. 

seb♥︎

:(

hopefully soon

there has to be another pureblood family that wants to marry a GAUNT

i know of a guy from a pureblood family that would marry a gaunt

a specific gaunt

one with blond hair

nice ass

good with his mouth and i don’t mean talking

Ominis

Stop it. 

seb♥︎

;)

u love it

Ominis

I really don’t. 

seb♥︎

liar

Ominis

I’m moving swiftly on, Sebastian. 

Remind me how these ear things work again? 

seb♥︎

the earphones??

u basically put the two little end bits into your ears and then the other end plugs into ur laptop or ur phone 

hahaha u totally aren’t moving ‘swiftly on’

i told u why i got them for u for ur bday, so no one can hear what im saying to u when we’re on the phone

ur fucking horny aren’t u

Ominis

How dare you, it’s not even ten in the morning!

seb♥︎

i can see right through u

we’ve been apart for one day and ur already desperate for me

smh

Ominis

I’ll turn my phone off if you keep speaking like this. 

seb♥︎

alright alright

but we’re gonna have to do it at some point u know

loads of people do it over text

and I’ve got a raging hard on

might be worth having a go

:)

Ominis

I’m glad I put these things in my ears in before you started talking like this. Hold on, I’m getting my laptop so I can type.

seb♥︎

argggghh u don’t sound like u when u type

but fiiinneee

we could always call thooo, at least then we could hear each other

10:07

Ominis

no

don’t want to risk anyone hearing

mortifyin

seb♥︎

fine, i can imagine u anyway

ive seen u plenty of times

r u still in ur pyjamas?

Ominis

yea

u

seb♥︎

yeah

well it was a warm night i took my shirt off

just the flannel pyjama pants on

u kno the ones u like that feel all soft

what ones r u wearing

Ominis

silk ones

isnt anne there

seb♥︎

stop being nervous

she’s out until this evening

i promise im on my own

please

Ominis

ok

ok

seb♥︎

:)

i like those silky pyjamas

theyre so easy to slip off of u

especially when we’re trying to be quick

before anyone wakes up

i know we shouldn’t do it

but u know i can’t do anything until ive touched u

Ominis

tht y i woke up hrny 

waiting for u to sneak into m bed

used to it now

seb♥︎

can’t say i don’t treat u well baby ;)

making u cum before we’ve even thought about breakfast

Ominis

id rather u for breakfast 

seb♥︎

damn

wish i was there with u

i bet ur really trying not to touch urself aren’t u

Ominis

hard to not

when ur like this

seb♥︎

if i was there we wouldn’t have to rush

id sit in front of u

then take ur shirt off first

over ur head so ur hair is messy

just the way i like it

id touch u with my hands first

over ur shoulders and ur chest and ur neck

then id lean in

kissing ur neck, ur jaw

then down over ur collarbone

before licking over ur nipple

Ominis

fuck

can i touch u?

seb♥︎

no

only me touching u

id lick and suck ur nipple until u shiver the way u do

then move to the other one and do the same

i love teasing u

i know how hard it makes u

knowing u could touch me if u wanted but me not letting u

Ominis

not fair

u get to touch me

want to feel u

seb♥︎

but u won’t

cos u kno i’ll stop touching u if u do

so then id want to get closer

id push u back against ur pillows and climb over u

pushing my knee between ur thighs and pressing it against ur hard on

because there’s no way ur not practically poking thru ur trousers

Ominis

so hard

hard not to be when u tease me

when u so sxy

when i can feel how hard u r too

seb♥︎

u make me this way

u would grind urself against my knee wouldn’t u

desperate for some friction

as if i wouldn’t give it to u

and id kiss u until ur whimpering

wish u could see how u look when ur like that

all pink cheeks and puffy lips

ur the most gorgeous thing ive ever seen 

Ominis

fuck 

need u to touch me

propely

pleas seb

seb♥︎

since u ask so nicely 

id sit back and unlace ur pyjama pants then pull them down off ur hips

r u wearing boxers

Ominis

no

not now

seb♥︎

fuck

that perfect cock of urs would be right there then

hard and leaking and ready for me to do whatever i want

Gods i wanted to tease u more but i don’t think i can

id just pull ur trousers all the way off so ur fully naked

and then lay down between ur legs

id take u in my hand and then lick up from ur balls to the tip

tasting ur precum

fuck it’s so good u have no idea

Ominis

seb

i have to touch u

put my hand in yr hair

feel ur face while u have me like tht

seb♥︎

u always pull my hair when i go down on u

i love it

feels so good

fuck

r u touching urself

Ominis

yes course i am

wish i could feel u n ur mouth round my cock 

so gd

seb♥︎

yeah

id take u fully in my mouth

all the way back

ik how good im making u feel when u can’t stay still

even if i hold ur hips down ur still trying to fuck my mouth

moaning my name

Ominis

can’t blame me

too good

i bet ur aching for me rnt u

seb♥︎

more than u fucking know

id get u so close to the edge 

then pull away

my turn

id sit back on my knees and pull u to sit up

then bring ur hands to my pants

so u can feel how hard blowing u makes me

let u pull my bottoms and my boxers down

Ominis

i have to touch u

can’t bear it one mor secnd

wrap my hand round u and stroke u

ur always telling me hiw good i make u feel

bet if i leant down n lick ur dick u wld tell me how much u lov me

seb♥︎

fuck

tht fcuking tongue of urs

so wet

i bet u would hold back when all u really want is me to shove my dick down ur throat 

Ominis

u can fuck my mouth

plese

seb♥︎

of course baby

i bet ur so pretty right now

getting urself off

imagining me using u like that

Ominis

i need u so bad

seb♥︎

baby boy

i bet if i had my cock in ur mouth u would be touching urself anyway

but i can’t have u cuming yet

i want more

Ominis 

more ?

seb♥︎

would pull u off me

much as i want u still on me

push u back down and then flip u over

god ur ass is so perfect u know

idk how i haven’t yet but

all ive wanted to do is fuck u

im gonna

Ominis

seb

we havent

seb♥︎

i know

but i want to

i have this lube stuff tht I bought 

would need to use that

Ominis

o fuck

i

seb♥︎

would u want that

would u want me to fuck u

Ominis

yes

ples

fck

seb♥︎

good

need to get u ready for me

stretch u open

fucking hell

bet u would look so good like that

on ur knees for me

moaning as i finger u

hitting just tht right spot that makes ur back arch

Ominis

seb

please inneed this

need u inside me

seb♥︎

yes baby

when ur ready to take me i would line myself up and push my cock into ur pretty hole

gods i bet u feel so good

so tight

taking me so perfectly

all the way until im buried in u until i can’t go anymore

Ominis

im so close

please fuck me

i need u

seb♥︎

i will baby boy

ill pull out until it almost aches without me inside u

and then push back in until u can’t think straight

ill fuck u until the only thing u can think of is me

pull u up against me so I can suck on ur neck

telling u how good u are

how perfect

stroke ur cock until u the only thing u can say is my name 

Ominis

gnna cum seb

seb♥︎

fuck me too

im gonna fill u up 

cum for me baby

Ominis

rf./,b 

seb♥︎

brb

Ominis

     ,, .

seb♥︎

r u ok?

Ominis

oop

yeh

wow

am i dead

seb♥︎

i hope not

Ominis

i think im live

feel alive

also feel ded

seb♥︎

did u like it that much?

Ominis

i would prefer if u were actually here but yes

gross im a mess 

seb♥︎

cleaning charm 

thts what i just did

i also made a mess

Ominis

oh yeh

seb♥︎

lol

Ominis

ok clean

wow

thank u

seb♥︎

so after ur protesting u really enjoyed it?

was i right or was i right

Ominis

don’t start

seb♥︎

:D

that was so hot 

just thinking about u getting off to all of the things i want to do to u

feeling smug lol

Ominis

next time i c u

u r going to fuck me until neither of us can walk

ok ?

seb♥︎

gods ominis 

yes sir

March 25th, 11:03am

seb♥︎

hi lovely

wanna call?

Ominis 

Yes please. 

:)

seb♥︎ is calling Ominis

Call accepted

Call ended, 1hr 52 mins

March 26th, 1:17pm

seb♥︎

beep beep

Ominis

Ring. 

seb♥︎

yeeee

seb♥︎ is calling Ominis

Call accepted. 

Call ended, 3hr 5min

March 27th, 10:22am

Ominis

Home alone. Thinking about you. 

seb♥︎

mhm in what way?

Ominis

Don’t act dumb. 

seb♥︎

fuck

call me baby

Ominis is calling seb♥︎

Call accepted. 

Call ended, 2hr 9min

March 28th, 12:37pm

seb♥︎ is calling Ominis

Call accepted. 

Call ended, 4hr 15min

March 29th, 10:39pm

Ominis

image

Did that work?

seb♥︎

oh fuck look at u

gods

is that from rn?

Ominis

Yes. I was just thinking about some things.

Like the first time I got to touch you. 

And you touched me. 

seb♥︎

fuuuuuckkkk baby boy

what i wouldn’t do to u

call?

Ominis is calling seb♥︎

Call accepted. 

Call ended, 2hr, 44min

March 30th, 4:18pm

seb♥︎ is calling Ominis

Call accepted.

Call ended, 4hr 28min

March 31st, 10:53pm

seb♥︎

gods u have no idea how bad i need u

want u to ride me 

gripping ur hips til there’s bruises

so everyone knows ur mine

want to see ur cock bouncing as u move on top of me

fuck u would look so pretty

Ominis

coud pull ur hair like tht

bet u would cum in me just from tht wdnt u

would hardly be fucking me for 2 mins before u cum

but id keep riding u til im done

seb♥︎

shit 

i really need to hear u ominis

please

im begging u

Ominis

yes

ok

Ominis is calling seb♥︎

Call accepted. 

Call ended, 1hr, 19min

April 1st, 6:25pm

seb♥︎

love u

miss u

wanna kiss u all over

then fuck u into the mattress

Ominis

I’m about to have supper, don’t start now. 

seb♥︎

Not starting anything

but i bet u i could make u cum in like under 5 mins

Ominis

I doubt that. 

seb♥︎

want to try?

Ominis

Please. 

seb♥︎ is calling Ominis

Call accepted. 

Call ended, 4min

6:32pm

seb♥︎

told u

April 2nd, 9:26am

seb♥︎

hi gorgeous

dreamt about u

would love to tell u what happened ;)

11:42am

seb♥︎

damn i fell back to sleep 

ofc dreamt about u again

wasn’t a sex dream but we went on a date :D

was cute

love you

1:34pm

seb♥︎

where r u :(

miss u :(

3:00pm

seb♥︎

baby boy

3:41pm

seb♥︎

Ominis

4:14pm

seb♥︎

Ominis?

4:39pm

Missed call from seb♥︎

5:01pm

Missed call from seb♥︎

5:22pm

Missed call from seb♥︎

5:57pm

Missed call from seb♥︎

seb♥︎

Please answer

I’m worried

6:23pm

Ominis

sorry here

hate it here

seb♥︎

thank merlin

r u ok? what happened?

Ominis

one of the house elf

reporting to someone at the ministry abt marv

he been doing something bad can’t say for sure wht, no one would tell me

it was horribl

i wantto leave 

seb♥︎

I can come and get you, i can be there in seconds

Ominis

No then they wld kno I told you

seb♥︎

I’m not going to tell anyone

I only care about you

You being safe 

Ominis

scared they would hurt u

seb♥︎

I can hold my own

Ominis

not against them

seb♥︎

You underestimate me

Ominis

u underestimate them

seb♥︎

Please Ominis

I love you

Please

The thought of you being stuck there

I hate it

It’s not right

Ominis

dnt have a choice

seb♥︎

You do

Look

Move in with me

When school ends

You can live with me and we can work it out

We can get our own place 

Wherever you want

I’ll follow you anywhere 

Ominis

they wldnt give me the money to do tht

seb♥︎

I can take a job in Hogsmeade until we have enough money to get our own place

You don’t need anything from them

I know we aren’t sure what we want to do

But we’ll get there

All i know is i want to be with you

I promised u I got u and that id make everything ok

let me

Ominis

r u sure

it’s so soon

seb♥︎

No it’s not

Are you kidding?

Ominis you’re my best friend

We’ve been best friends for seven years

Every single moment I’ve just loved you more and more

And now you’re mine, entirely 

It’s not soon

I think we’ve wasted enough time actually 

All I want to do is be with you, love you and spend my life with you

Let me do that, please

Please just say yes

Ominis

ok

yes

ur all Ive ever wanted

seb♥︎

please let me come get u

i can apparate straight into ur room

we can be gone before anyone has even noticed

can u pack a bag?

Ominis

yes

5 min

seb♥︎

i’ll be there

love u

so much

2 YEARS LATER

April 2nd, 11:14am

Baby Boy

Where are you?

sweetheart

still stuck in the queue

sorry

Baby Boy

Did you get the flour?

sweetheart

yes

Baby Boy

And the eggs?

sweetheart

yes

Baby Boy

And the strawberries?

sweetheart

yes omi i got everything on the list

Baby Boy

And the sugar?

sweetheart

….

fuck

brb

Baby Boy

I should’ve gone myself. 

11:20am

sweetheart

I got the sugar. 

back in the queue

Sorry

Baby Boy

You’re an idiot, Sebastian. 

sweetheart

:D

u love me

Baby Boy

I just want everything perfect for when Anne comes to visit. 

sweetheart

ik!!

that’s why im back in the queue just because i forgot one thing lol

i don’t think she’d be mad if we didn’t make her a cake tho

Baby Boy

Well, I would like to. 

I want her to see that not only have we successfully been able to find our own place together, but we are also able to look after ourselves and actually cook without ruining the food. 

sweetheart

that was ONE TIME we almost burnt down the cottage 

when she wasn’t there to help us

Baby Boy

One time too many. 

sweetheart

true

ok just paying now brb

11:25am

sweetheart

success

starting to head back now

it’s hot out here

not as hot as you

Baby Boy

Stop. 

sweetheart

;)

how long is it until anne is supposed to arrive?

Baby Boy

A few hours. Why?

sweetheart

is that enough time to break in the new bed?

Baby Boy

I don’t think you can break something in more than once. 

sweetheart

alright fine

to check it’s still working?

Baby Boy

It was working perfectly well last night.

sweetheart

hmm that’s true

but what if it’s stopped working since?

Baby Boy

I don’t think a bed can stop working. 

sweetheart

fine

i’ll just get back and we can make the cake

and that’s it

Baby Boy

Actually, I’d like to check if the kitchen counters are sturdy before we make that cake. I think one area might be a little wobbly. We might have to use our body weights to check if it’s stable enough. 

sweetheart 

oh

i like the way u think

would it be better if we were leaning against it or if u were sitting on it?

Baby Boy

Hm, just to be safe, why don’t we try both?

sweetheart

:D

today was a bad day to wear sweatpants lol

running home

Baby Boy

I’ll be waiting in the kitchen. I was preparing to make the cake so I’m wearing an apron. 

Only an apron. 

sweetheart

fuck ur gonna be the death of me

love u so much Ominis <3

Baby Boy

I love you more Sebastian. <3

[oloreaa]

[watch-grok-brainrot]

can i enquire your opinion on what i perceive as misuse of the words "zhiji" / "zhiyin" by western authors? it's often translated as soulmates, or even used synonymously, and for wx, often in romantic situations to fulfil non romantic soulmate fic tropes. i often get a bit frustrated by it. zhiji and zhiyin are both bosom friends, people who get you, appreciate you but they are not the western term of soulmates. what do you think? seeking perspectives to shape my opinion!!! thank you!!

nonny! I am so sorry! I meant to answer this the week you sent this and then i kept on getting sidetracked and forgot. >.> this is why i don’t get asks. i’m terrible at answering things. 

First of all, for those who are reading this and not nonny, i’m assuming you are either familiar with chinese or have read the blog post by @/hunxi-guilai by now. If you are not chinese and/or have not read her blog, go to her blog and go to linguistic meta and then read the post titled “ all right guys, let’s have a conversation about soulmates ” (gonna delete the link if i can’t get this to show up in tags since this is a nonny ask i want nonny to be able to find this... )

ok. now that we’re on the same page, let’s talk about translation. translation is messy. cultures don’t have the same concepts. when expressing words as complex as 知己/ 知音, you do what you can. 

do i think soulmates is an acceptable translation? yes. i would not hesitate to call wangxian soulmates. 

Is 知己/ 知音 inherently romantic? no.

do i think the connotations of 知己/知音 and the connotations of soulmates match perfectly? no. 

am i fine with fanfiction authors writing what they want? yeah. if i don’t like it, i just won’t engage with the material. it’s the idgaf of old age that i’m really glad i acquired. i can just nope right out and go find something i prefer. e.g. if i see a baobei in a wangxian fic, i usually nope right now. it’s not worth getting worked up over. lol. 

yes 知己/ 知音 are bosom friends but it’s deeper than that, right? 

Actually, i’m really glad i’ve waited. I’ve just binged Word of Honor (or what eps are currently out) and they toss out 知己/ 知音 a lot -- as they should. The show is spectacular (thus far 25 of 36 eps are out and i am dying at how amazing the main CP interactions are). Basically my heart is full of  知己/ 知音 mood so i think i can do a better job of explaining what it means to me now. 

To me, 知己/ 知音 is knowing someone/hearing someone so deeply that your souls are in sync. It’s being open and vulnerable. The mortifying ordeal of being KNOWN and/or HEARD. it’s joyous to discover that your eccentricities are understood implicitly. it’s stolen cheeky grins and stupid laughs that makes you feel alive again. It’s precious and rare and if you get one person in your life that REALLY knows/hears or tries to know/to hear you, you are lucky. this can be part of a romantic or platonic relationship. 

someone wants to call that a soulmate? sure. by all means. 

But if I were to see it in a novel or show I was trying to translate, I may translate it differently each time. The beauty of translation is, as the translator, I have the power (and the terrible responsibility) to interpret a work. My choices will be the text moving forward. My diction, if the only translation around, could be overanalyzed by a portion of the fandom. So would i always translate  知己/ 知音 as soulmates? no. Sometimes I might say say, “You’re the only person to know me truly.” or “To be truly heard in this life by one person is enough.” or I might say “soulmate” sometimes. 

so, i guess i do agree that soulmates limits the translation of the concept. but if you’re watching a show and there are subs, the subbers have more than meaning to worry about. you have to consider characters per second: 1) physically focusing on words with one’s eyes and then reading them takes time; 2) some people are much slower readers than others. (subbers also have to consider sentence structure and how to breakup a lines. and, depending on the show, sometimes the subs come out at an INSANE pace. it’s approximately 3-4 hrs of translation work once you have the chinese in front of you for a 20ish min ep if you’re being neurotic and probably just as much if not more of timing work to get an episode out. not to mention the translation checks and quality checks. so sometimes shortcuts are required... but i digress...) Is soulmates a good, succinct way to get the message across? yes. so i’m fine with it. and if it captures peoples’ imagination and brings someone joy, then even better. 

fandom should be fun. it should be happy. it should be a place where you grow and meet people that bring you joy. :) so am i upset that it’s the preferred translation of the mdzs/cql fandom? not really. it’s not perfect but it’s good enough for fandom (and horseshoes and hand grenades as people would say). 

[shiny-jr]

No need to answer this but boy do i feel ... Troubled, when i see people spamming content creators for more, as if they didn't had stuff to do or if they simply don't feel like doing it more, specially when already answered

it doesn't takes more than 1 or 2 min to check if someone has asked (and has been answered) before them; same as it takes them to spell their ask!

like you and any creator aren't machines and own nobody anything, so it's a tad ... Annoying? When they don't bother to check and just kinda demand for more

Sorry for the rant, but yeah, hope that you're alright!

Lol, anon, it's gotten so bad that if I answered every repeated question, it would probably flood my follower's pages. And no one wants to see that. Which is why most of the time I'll delete the questions and requests that are repeats of stuff I've answered before, specifically ones looking for updates. Yeah, I agree though, like I said before as well, it's easy to scroll through and check to see if they answered something similar to a question someone may have about a certain series or posts being continued.

When I first publicly started writing online years ago, all I wrote were requests on Quotev. I did that for a while, at least two years. I probably stopped taking requests in 2018 or 2019, and I made a separate chapter just to announce that. Yet to this day, I still get comments and messages requesting things. It gets very tiring and very annoying quickly, but I try to remain polite. Only recently did I start taking requests again but this time on here and for fandoms. I'm reminded again of how demanding readers can be. But on the other hand, I always remember that sometimes not all readers are not like that. Sometimes a reader may genuinely not have known someone doesn't take requests at times and such or don't like being asked for updates. Which is why I try to be patient. Plus the support I get makes things better. Although it is a bit upsetting to see something new in the inbox, be excited because you expect a request or chat, only to see it's another ask for an update. But I'm alright. I'm glad you sent this in so I can rant a tiny bit as well.

[darkficsyouneveraskedfor]

Biggest Fan 2

Part 1

Warning: coercion, blackmail, porn, nonconsent sex, cheating 

It was a long, silent walk back to the office. You rubbed your palm with your thumb as you struggled not to think of the feel of him in your hand. The hardness still barely concealed in his pressed pants.

He opened the door for you and you walked ahead of him. He followed you up the stairs and you felt his gaze on your ass, realising too late your mistake. As you reached your floor, you rushed over to your desk and he let you. He went to his office. It was as if nothing had even happened. As if your hand hadn’t been on his dick only fifteen minutes before.

You took a shuddery breath and logged in to your computer. Most of your work was transcription or shadowing Andy. Nothing overly complicated. Even so, you found it hard to concentrate on your work. You rubbed your forehead and leaned back in your chair. You glanced towards Andy’s office, his door was open, he was watching you, his pen pressed to his bottom lip. He tore his eyes from you and grabbed his phone.

You wanted to be sick. You drew your attention back to your screen and forced yourself to type. The buzz of your phone distracted you but you ignored it. It vibed again and you slid it out of your blazer pocket onto your desk. You positioned it just under your monitor and unlocked it.

‘Today. After work.’ The first text read and the second hovered above. ‘I can’t wait for the real thing’.

You swept away the bubbles and blinked at the computer screen. He was like a teenager. This man you’d looked up to, this man you’d admired for his professionalism, his veracity, were just like those boys in your program who tried to talk you into one of their stupid red cup parties. And he was married. The thought made you want to sob but you just forced down the bile and kept typing.

Though the morning had dragged by, the rest of the day seemed to fly. You looked at the clock and your phone lit up. Another message from him. You packed up your things before you dare to grab your cell and reluctantly looked at it. ‘Got a meeting with Canavan. Meet me at Joe’s down the block, 20 min.’

You looked over and found his office empty. You’d been so determined to ignore him, you hadn’t even noticed him leave. You grabbed your bag and headed out. Joe’s was a coffee place just down the block, you always grabbed Andy a small coffee when you got yours. Wait, had you led him on? With coffee?

No, no. He was a forty year old man and you were just a college student. This wasn’t your fault. Well, those were your pictures on the internet. You had put them there.

You barely recalled making your descent onto the street or hurrying down to the little cafe. You ordered a bottle of juice so you could sit in the corner. You picked at the unbroken seal and your leg shook nervously beneath the table. What were you doing? If you just ignored him, would he really send those pictures? Andy was a good guy… or so you thought.

You were startled as the table shifted and he sat across from you. He smoothed the front of his suit and smiled at you then looked around.

“We shouldn’t stay here long,” He said. “Too close to work.”

“You can’t be serious about this?” You kept your voice low. “Andy, I--”

“Shhh,” He raised his hand. “Look, we don’t have time to waste.”

You stared at him and gulped.

“First thing, delete your account.” He said.

“What? I can’t-- That’s how I--”

“I told you. I’ll take care of you.” He interrupted. “Delete it. Now.”

“You’re married,” You whispered. “Why--”

“I know what I am. What I want.” He turned his hand down onto the table. “Ten seconds or I add your professor to the CC.”

“Goddamnit,” You bent and reached into your bag. 

You sat up with your phone and keyed in the code. You opened the app and he took the phone before you could hit anything else. He placed it on the table between you and went to settings. You watched as he scrolled through the settings and finally found the option to delete. He accepted several warnings before everything just disappeared. He turned the phone back to you and slid it forward.

He stood and sighed as he checked his watch. “Alright. Laurie’s taken Jacob to his tournament so we should have some time. Let’s go.”

📚

Andy’s house was nice. Much nicer than your small apartment near the college. You felt out of place as he drove right into the garage and let you in through the side door. You hated that you were sneaking around. Hated that you were doing this at all.

You entered the kitchen and he turned to you. He took your bag and set it on the counter. You shuddered as you lifted your foot and he stopped you.

“Keep the shoes on,” He smiled. “I like ‘em.”

“Are you… sure about all this?” You lowered your foot slowly. “My account is gone, you made sure of it.”

“That’s not what this is about,” He grabbed your arm and wrenched you forward. He took your hand in his and pressed it to his crotch again. “Feel that. That’s what you do to me. Every fucking day.”

“Andy--”

He spun you and pushed you against the island. You saw a flowered notebook on the other side. That was probably hers, just like the man behind you. He leaned his weight against you as he gripped your waist and purred.

“I can’t help but think of you on my desk as I’m sitting on it but this will have to do,” His hand went to your ass and he slapped you hard. “Oh, fuck.”

His hands crawled up to your shoulders and he pulled your blazer off. He dropped it on the floor and reached around to unbutton your blouse. You grabbed his hand and he brushed you off.

“Don’t make this difficult, baby girl,” He warned. “Don’t tell me this isn’t what you wanted all along?” He tore your blouse open and forced it down your arms. “Posting those pictures.”

“Please--”

“Shhh, don’t want the neighbours to hear.” He flung your shirt. “They always are so fucking nosy.”

You hung your head as he unzipped the back of your skirt, pulling back to let it slip past your hips. It pooled on the tile and he stepped on it until you lifted your feet one at a time and he kicked it away. You regretted your ridiculous choice not to wear underwear. Well, it had been more a dare and earned you a smooth fifty on your paypal.

“Fuck.” He rubbed your ass as his other hand fought with his belt. 

You smelled his woodsy cologne as his fumbling grew more frantic. You heard the soft metallic clink and his zipper as he pushed it down. He wiggled as he shoved his pants down. His hand went around to your stomach and he guided himself along your ass his foot between yours as he urged your legs apart.

You slapped your hands on the island as he dragged his swollen tip along your folds and found your entrance with a hum. He pushed inside you and jolted your hips into the edge of the counter, nuzzling his head into your neck as he leaned into you. His hot breath was wet against your skin as he forced himself to his limit.

“Shit,” You swore as you stretched around him. 

“Mmmm,” He hummed and thrusted hard, lingering inside you as he basked in the feel. “God, you’re even better than I could have--” He rocked his hips again and choked. “Jesus.”

You scratched your nails against the marble island and pushed your head back against his shoulder as he moved his hips steadily, each tilt coming quicker than the last. You gritted your teeth as you tried to fight off your own arousal. Despite your reluctance, your core burned hot and you could hear how slick you were with each thrust.

He withdrew his hand from your stomach and grabbed your shoulders. He pushed you down until you were bent over the island and your feet left the floor. He held you down as his motion picked up and he slammed into you with dusky grunts. With each jolt of his hips, yours hit the marble and you held your breath to keep from moaning.

You closed your eyes and pressed your cheek to the cool counter. Your lips formed an O as you came quietly, covering your face with your arm. He crashed into you harder than before, you felt your juices spreading along the open v of his pants and the tails of his shirt. He gripped your hips and his thumbs dug into your flesh.

He pulled out of you sharply and swore as he spilled down your thigh, stroking himself along so that his tip rubbed his seed over your skin. Breathless, he spread his hand over your lower back then dragged it down to your ass and squeezed.

“Fuck, you’re gorgeous,” He rasped.

He drew his hand and backed away. You slid off the island and your feet wobbled beneath you, your heels almost perilous as your legs buzzed. Andy leaned against the other counter as he wiped himself with a paper towel and put his cock away. He zipped up his pants and buckled his belt before tucking in his shirt and straightening his collar.

“Whew,” He took a breath. “Baby girl, that was worth every last penny.” He looked you up and down and bit his lip. “Better get dressed before the wife gets back.”

[dancedance-resolution]

job update? went over the employee handbook they sent me

this is just me 🤨ing and complaining about their policies lol . also i might end up deleting this and all other posts that mention anything about jobs/labor in general? bc i might have to download an app for them (unsure if it’s required of my position since i’m not an appt only clinician type thing) and i’m nervous that like facebook it’ll mine all my data and shit and i don’t want my employer knowing how i feel about them

i’m not getting paid at all for a total of 40hrs of training (that’s $600 before taxes) . feels slightly illegal to me??? but knowing the state of usa labor laws probably not

they make me show up 35 mins early for every shift for a “daily huddle” and will discipline you if you don’t attend the daily huddle. but you don’t clock in to get paid until the start of your shift. so thats 3 hours of unpaid being at work every week (assuming i get 5 days a week) (which is $45 pre tax. which again feels illegal? but probably isn’t)

they’re allowed to adjust my shift by 1hr before or after at will with only 30min notice?? and it doesn’t count as overtime pay. so like i might find out at 6:30 that i have to come in at 7 instead of 8 for example.

bc my shift will never formally be longer than 6 hours, i will get zero (0) breaks or meals. (you claim you are a disability friendly workplace but i get zero breaks on a 6 hour shift, all of that time being spent in a room which you yourself admit is hot and humid as hell even in the winter.)

no paid leave, personal or medical. if i have to miss 2 days in a row, i have to have a dr’s note. (which i know is very custom for employers but again, bestie! you are as bad as archdiocese of baltimore catholic schools! and also it costs fucking MONEY to go to a dr and get a note so!!!)

this is less a complaint and more so something funny but. they spell out in the employee handbook that you have a wear a bra and be clean shaven if you’re a man 😭 which doesn’t really apply to me since i assume i’ll be wearing a bathing suit under my clothes which is like a quasi bra, but still this is a lame policy lol . ALSO! “care should be taken to ensure breath is fresh.” well i will be wearing a mask 24/7 (i hope you let me do that jesus i just now realized no employees were wearing a mask there so what if it’s not allowed…) so that doesn’t apply to me, but if it did, bestie i have severe chronic dry mouth. the only way my breath stays fresh for more than an hour or so is if you give me frequent breaks to use my anti dry mouth products. andyou already said no breaks so :))

they have a “don’t post shitty stuff bc it reflects poorly on the company” social media rule which makes me ever more grateful that i have no social media other than the hellsite which is not affiliated with my real name

they specify that you can’t bring meds to work?? even in a proper prescription bottle or whatever……bestie i have news for you. some of us take medication during the day. you cannot claim to be a disability friendly employer if you literally ban meds. (i think i’ll be able to get approval bc my manager seems nice but like :/ i was not planning on disclosing any health information to them bc i don’t want them to know i have to take meds at all, let alone day meds! sigh this also is a bit funky due to the no breaks policy). also the no meds rule is allegedly enforced by random locker checks so 🤔. also they call it a locker but we are not allowed to use a lock on it so 😂

i have to inform my manager first if my family will be attending the gym at any time……hey bestie my mom is a member of this gym and comes at irregular times and i’m not allowed to have my phone while on my shift so how am i supposed to know if she’s coming so i can (unnecessarily imo) alert you

they ban any socializing outside of the break room (which i will have no opportunity to use) ofc <3

they will not give you your tips unless they first verify that you have successfully completed your “side work” (which is extra work they give you in addition to the responsibilities associated with your job. you get side work every day btw). again this Feels Illegal bc isn’t withholding tips illegal? this doesn’t apply to me since i won’t receive tips but. Yeah

“distribution of literature is prohibited at all times and in all locations on the premises” nice job being subtle about not wanting us to unionize

they say i’m not allowed to be on the premises unless i am actively working but bestie?? you literally require me to be on the premises 35 mins before i can actively work and get paid for that work???

i have to give 6 hours notice before being late or absent to a shift or else disciplinary action is taken. once again: bestie you claim to be a disability friendly workplace, but you require 6 hours notice? that is not always possible bc my disabilities don’t always fuck me up the perfect 6 convenient hours before i have to work.

if i call out i have to find someone to replace me. which i know is common practice but like. oh my god literally you are the management isn’t this your job?

being late three (3) times a year is considered disciplinary action-worthy even if all 3 were excused lateness . LOLLL bestie if you saw my school attendance records you would have a heart attack. senior year i was late more days than i was on time . it’s called Having Serious And Barely Treated Disabilities.

if i need to be absent for 3+ days i need to take fmla. hello?? only 3 days???

“Frequent call out’s due to illness may require an employee to attend a mandatory health and wellness workshop to help the employee regain their understanding about the importance of taking care of themselves.” LOLOLOL bestie even one of the most well respected and accomplished specialist drs in the state cannot figure wtf is wrong with me regarding my physical disability so 😂 i’m sure your workshop will help though xoxo <3 (in all seriousness though, i’m glad they have an actually policy for this other than being fired. that’s kinda cool.)

anyways those are just some things that stood out to me while going over the handbook. maybe my 🤨 at them is just bc i haven’t had any work experience before, so maybe some of these policies are super common or even more lenient than most. but yeah. i’m excited for the job bc money and structure, but also deathly terrified that i am too disabled to be the type of employee they need me to be. and then there’s one less good reference when i apply to be a mailman 😔 so yeah. feeling funky

[actual-fucking-clown]

Take your time then.

Aizawa x gender neutral reader

Story under the cut :)

Unedited but like edited but still not properly edited :)

Hope you enjoy!!!

a/n: it’s been a hot min since I’ve written a fic. I think the last time i was 14 and it was shit and on wattpad. Ha. I hate myself. N e way, I was recently writing some shit for an au me and my friend thought up and in the back of my mind I was like, “you should start writing fics again bc this is kinda fun”, soo lo and behold I made a post asking if anyone would be interested, shared a little too much personal shit in it but whatever, and have now decided to write this mother fucker. (3/25/21)

a/n: not sure if anyone will care about this series of a/n’s but I’m just chronicling thoughts ig. rewriting rn bc my first draft was short and ass. Also I’m thinking about opening requests after this is posted, will go into detail in a diff post maybe. (3/28/21)

a/n: deleted everything, rewriting. I just want to make something that might be decent and if I can give that feeling, y’know those chills you get when you read something utterly gorgeous, but I’m bad at writing. sadge (3/28/21, like several hours later)

a/n: ugh (4/1/21)

a/n: ugh pt 2 electric boogaloo. I can’t seem to move forward with the writing. I realized something like this might happen bc to solve a problem feelings need to be discussed and I fucking hate doing that so you can see where I’m fucking up lmaooooo (4/2/21)

a/n: I read angst to fuel my writing brain. So, read some angst, finally writing agian. This first section is probs as long as the story itself LMFAO(4/5/21)

Started: (3/25/21) Finished: (4/5/21)

Warnings: uh angst, curse words, like a lot, (i saw someone else put this as a warning, do I actually need it?), avoiding problems instead of actually facing them, mentions of shit so-so parenting, mentions of not being able to live up to high expectations, y’know, the works

Synopsis: Aizawa takes in Eri without running it by you first and expects you to be okay with it. That’s funny. He was wrong.

Can I preface this with a thought? I’m going to anyway,

all the fics I read paint him as the sweetest partner and I’m sure he is but I think they miss out on how blunt he is and his whole “Mr. Rationality” thing. So as much as I adore him I think there are situations that he’d be a bit more colder towards, a bit more straightforward about. Maybe even like a bit insensitive about but maybe bc he doesn’t have the full picture or something. so I guess this is another warning but aizawa is a little insensitive in the beginning (but like not really but kinda. it’s complicated)

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Rain pattered softly against the window. The smell of some old random Bath and Bodyworks candle you’d dug out from a box you’d never bothered to unpack smothered the room. Some Netflix show idly played on a low volume on your computer, you’d lost interest in watching tv awhile ago. You needed a break. After the eventful month you’d been having you really needed this. 

Now of course your whole year so far had been eventful. What with all the villain attacks on you and Shouta’s class and the kidnapping of one of your students, to just dealing with the more mundane problems with your students. No. You had no problem with that. The villains, although not easy, were something you were trained to handle. The smaller problems with your students weren’t arduous either, after all you weren’t too much older than them. 

When reflecting on your situation, from and outside perspective it could be seen as the straw the broke the camels back, which sure, makes sense. After all, you’re bound to be stressed out by everything else, so why would this seemingly insignificant thing weigh heavier than a villain attack? Well if that is the situation why does this single straw feel like it weighs a ton? This is not that. This is not culmination of the events of this year draining the life from you. This is something entirely different. A panic inducing life change that completely took you by surprise mixed with your inability to actually face your problems. 

You don’t blame them. You can’t. They’ve done nothing wrong. A child. A small, probably mentally scarred child is your problem. Well not her personally but the fear taking care of her instills in you. Despite working in the field that you do, you cannot for the life of you handle actual children. Sure you’re a little awkward with your class but at least they’re young adults and (vaguely) mature and independent to a certain extent. The fact that your long term boyfriend just came back one day, small child in tow and said “Hey I’ve gotta look after this one now” not verbatim obviously, for a lack of better words, fucked you up. He basically solo adopted a kid and, let’s be honest, he probably expected you to help out. But how could you? How could this man look at you and think “I want this person to help me raise an already fucked up child?” Ok sure, he doesn’t at first give off the “I’m totally father figure material” vibe but in the end he is extremely competent. You on the other hand, not so much.

You’d never been good with children. Tried your best to steer clear of them. Didn’t matter the place, didn’t matter who’s kid, you couldn’t handle them. You would just stand there, awkwardly, not entirely sure of what to do and petrified that there was the possibility of making some mistake which would upset the child and then oh wow look, your head got chopped right of your shoulders. That’s hyperbole of course but it does sum up the insurmountable fear that overcomes you whenever you have to deal with a child. So considering the fact that your long term boyfriend had suddenly decided to adopt and not at least warn you, didn’t sit right with you.

So, the best and most obvious choice, was to avoid your problem. Avoid Shouta, avoid Eri. Avoid the mention of them and you, avoid it all. And honestly you’d done pretty well so far. You were able to have as little contact with them as possible considering the close proximity of your living quarters in the teacher’s dorms. After all they were legally supposed to give you two separate rooms but you never actually used yours, well until now. You were living it up honestly. Did you feel awful? Of course. He is your boyfriend after all and you were sure Eri doesn’t deserve your cold shoulder but this is probably for the best. What could you offer her? You weren’t sure that you were a good role model for her or anyone for that matter. What did you know about raising kids? it’s not like you had parents to set a proper example for you. Of course they might have shown you what not to do but where do you go from there? Is shit like that really avoidable? You don’t want to be like them. You strive to be better but what if you can’t be. There’s also the added bonus of the fact that raising a kid seems taxing on a relationship. Now matter how strong you were sure that the stress of a kid could break a relationship down that then festers into something toxic and unrecognizable. You didn’t want that. God you couldn’t let that happen. No. This was definitely for the better.

Of course Aizawa didn’t feel the same. He was confused on why his partner had been so blatantly avoiding him. Did he do something wrong? He doesn’t remember doing anything that might’ve upset you. So why now? Why pull away now? He had to get down to the bottom of this but catching you was the hard part. You had been taking on more work, offering more assistance to the other teachers, picking up extra patrols, doing everything and anything to stay away from Shouta. It took him a month but he finally caught up to you. You were tired, worn out he knew that. Instead of loading yourself with work you’d decided to hole yourself up in your room. It was now or never.

You were pulled out of your peace at the sound of a few gentle knocks to your door. You really didn’t want to get it. You honestly couldn’t be bothered. 

“(N/n)? Are you in there?” He hadn’t gotten it wrong right? He hadn’t been too distracted earlier and missed you leaving right?

“What’s up?” You hummed from your place by the window, not bothering to actually open the door.

“Can I come in?” Shouta asked, voice soft. You could barely hear him above the patter of the rain and the low humming of your laptop.

“Uh, no, kinda busy. Got loads of work to do. Need to focus, sorry. Maybe later?” You hesitantly spoke. Not sure if you were convincing enough. 

Apparently you weren’t.

He sighed. “It’s been “later” for an entire month. Please (Y/n) just let me in. Whatever this is we can talk it out.” You had predicted that eventually Shouta would start to try to crack down on whatever the issue was but you didn’t expect it so soon. 

“Uh...no?” You tried, hoping that maybe he’d just give up but that wasn’t Shouta.

“No, you don’t get that option, now please, open the door.” Although it was still soft his voice had taken a more stern tone.

“Oh no I’m dead. I guess I can’t open the door. What a shame. I guess the only way to talk with me now is in the pits of hell.” You quipped, trying to lessen the tension that already ran thick.

“(Y/n).” Aizawa sighed.

“Jeez fine. Talk about pushy.” You quipped once more to no avail.

Opening the door you were met with, well exactly what you expected. He stood there, arms crossed, a stern yet gentle look in his eyes, his lips pulled into a slight frown. 

“Come in.” You mumbled as you stepped further into your room.

“So tell me. What’s wrong?” The sentence stirred so much. Of course you wanted to tell him. You wanted to spill your guts to the man you loved in hopes of comfort but you just can’t. You know you’ll just scare him off. You know you’ll make things worse.

So you stay silent.

He says nothing as he grabs your hands gently and leads you over to your bed. He sits the two of you down on the edge, muting the movie on the laptop sitting behind him.

“You know you can tell me if something’s bothering you right?” Shouta sent you a warm smile. 

You weren’t very comfortable with discussing your feelings sometimes, it mostly stemmed from the fact that you never really could discuss them with anyone growing up which made it harder to confide in anyone now, as at this point bottling things up was a habit. But this was also just something that you were sure that you couldn’t talk about.

Silence answered him once again.

Now he took sometime to think about his approach, think about what could’ve happened that made you pull away. What did he do that was different from his norm? He was genuinely stumped and the fact that you weren’t helping him confused him even more.

You decided to take this time to lament the situation too. What was he going to do? Should you actually tell him or play it off? If you play it off will he still insist that something is wrong? If you tell him will he leave you? If you don’t tell him will he leave you? You risked a glance at him, he was still deep in thought.

Why did you have to adopt this fucking kid without at least warning me?

“What?” Your head shot up at the sound of his shocked voice.

“What?” You asked, genuinely confused.

“Eri’s the problem...?” He spoke slowly, not entirely sure if he’d heard you right.

“Did I say that out loud?” You squeaked.

“I’m pretty sure you mumbled something along the lines of “why’d you have to adopt that fucking kid”.” Shouta said, unsure if he’d heard wrong. Wanting to have heard wrong.

“No no no no no no! It’s not like that! I mean it is like that but not like that!” You frantically waved your hands in hopes of defusing the situation.

The way he looked at you made you want to cry. You felt horrible. You felt like the biggest asshole in the world and, at this point you probably were. He looked at you with such a look of heartbreak and disappointment and confusion it made you sick to your stomach. You felt light-headed and started shaking. You were right. You were right. You were always right. God why did you have to be right! Why did you have to be like this? Scared of raising a fucking child! It was asinine and irrational and you could probably move past it  but thanks to your stupid fucking brain you just sealed your fate.

You scooted away from him still waving your hands frantically as no’s tumbled endlessly from your lips. You tried sputtering an apology, anything so that he wouldn’t look at you like that but nothing stuck. Nothing was comprehensible. Nothing worked. Nothing would work. Nothing will work. You were hopeless. It was hopeless. 

“If it isn’t like how it seems then tell it to me straight.” Shouta finally spoke up.

You took a second to come down from your panic. You steeled your nerves as much as possible before you spoke. 

“Um well, I have nothing against her it’s just that a little heads up would’ve been nice? I’m not all that great with kids so this is just kind of weird is all.” You were purposefully being vague in hopes that he’d understand what you meant and also maybe drop it.

“Not great with kids? You’re literally a teacher.” He pointed out.

“Yeah you know but she’s like a kid kid and let’s be honest I’m not too great with the students either.” You awkward laughed. So he wasn’t getting it.

“Wha-you’re fine with the students and I’m sure you’ll be fine with Eri, there was no reason to avoid me over this.” Shouta sighed. As good as he was with dealing with people, he was equally as shit. Or maybe it was just the fact that you gave him very little to work with. It was probably a bit of both. Still his dismissiveness was not helping you right now.

“No, no, no, no. I think I’ll stay here. Uh, good luck with your parenthood escapades and sorry to leave you high and dry like this but that’s going to have to be a no from me.” You rambled. He seemed to be getting a little tired of this.

“(Y/n) stop being irrational. She’s not even our kid I’m just looking after her for now. Why are you being difficult? I told you you were fine with the students and you’ll be fine with Eri, what else do you want to hear?” Shouta grumbled.

“Well uh I don’t know, uh...” You trailed off, this seemed to be going in a direction you really didn’t want it to go. A slight hostility settling in the air.

At your lack of a proper answer he clicked his tongue. He took a moment to reassess the situation. There had to be something he was missing. After all you were getting really worked up but if you weren’t going to talk to him there was nothing he could do. He shook his head before running a frustrated hand through his hair.

“(Y/n), please, please, just be honest with me. Whatever it is that’s bothering you, you can tell me. But I won’t be able to understand if you don’t.” Aizawa sighed, deciding that getting worked up about this was not the way to go, especially when you seemed to be especially distraught.

“Uh, god the thing is I don’t know entirely what to say to put the shitshow in my head into perspective.” You mumbled, trying desperately to figure out what to say that could clear the air but nothing seemed to be coherent enough.

“Take your time.” He decided that this was the best approach to things, making sure neither party got too worked up lest this turn into a fight.

The rain continued to patter softly against the window and your candle continued to burn an slightly off floral-ish scent.  A deafening silence hung in the air because even though he was being as patient as possible some of his frustration leaked through, it was bound to though so you couldn’t exactly blame him. After all, you were probably equally as frustrated with yourself too. 

“I’m just not good in a position like this. I’m not good with kids, especially someone like Eri who’s already so broken. You have that nurturing nature, it comes natural to you but I’m not on that level. I  don’t know the first thing about caring for a child let alone one as already traumatized as her. I’d fuck it up and only make things worse. I don’t want you to reassure me that I’ll be okay with her, I want you to understand that I’m not comfortable with this and that it might take me awhile to come around. I’m sure I sound like the biggest asshole ever but please understand that this just isn’t something I’m ready for.” You had rambled a bit, you were aware of that, but it was the only way that you could properly express your feelings without making things too complicated.

Aizawa said nothing. Trying to figure out how to go about things.

Was he upset? Yeah, you two, even after several long years of being together, hadn’t discussed moving forward in your relationship in depth. And if he’d tried you seemed content with the point you two were at so he left it be, no reason to try and move forward when what you had was already fine the way it was. But recently he’d been craving more. Some mornings, when he’d be the first to wake, he’d study your features in the soft light of the sunrise and wonder what it’d be like to properly settle down with you. Get married, start a family, all that jazz. He’d taken in Eri only because it was the most rational decision. His quirk would be good for quelling hers had it ever gotten out of hand. But it also seemed to quell his musings of something more with you. He had imagined you being a good parental figure for the little girl and it made his heart flutter and his stomach explode with butterflies. But now seeing that that wasn’t what you wanted and how you weren’t ready for it, it stung. But in the end, he loved you. He’d easily give his life for you. So, if that meant waiting he’d wait. He’d wait a million years if he had to. He could do it.

Once again he spoke,

“Take your time then. I can wait.”

Tagslist?: @captainchrisstan (I think you said you wanted to be tagged but I’m also just small brained lol If u didn’t want to and I misinterpreted things just let me know :) )

[livefordrama]

Reviewing Dramas I Have Watched Part 6

It’s been a while; I haven’t been able to watch a lot between school and just life. Not to mention the time I do have is spent doing buddy watches of kdramas I have already seen with my friends and family (On teleparty of course.) Again, here is my rating system:  1- Did not like, 2- Enjoyed but probably wouldn’t watch again, 3- Enjoyed and would watch some episodes again (or for movies may watch again), 4- Enjoyed and would watch again, 5- Loved

Korean Drama

Melting Me Softly: 3/5

Melting Me Softly is about a guy and s girl who get cryogenically frozen for an experiment for what was meant to be only a day. Unfortunately, something happens, and the 24-hour experiment turns into 20 years. Now they have to deal with the changes of not only their family and friends but the world and society as a whole all while trying to uncover the darker secrets behind the experiments.

I gave this a 3 because while the earlier and later episodes were amazing and hilarious, the episodes in the middle of the season bored me. I am not much of a romance person unless it is either subtle or played out a specific way and the romance in this wasn’t my personal cup of tea so it just got boring for me. On its good episodes though, it was funny, sad, and cute. I really did like the dynamic between the two main characters and the romance is pretty good, just a little slower in the middle of the series. The relationships with the family members of the two were so cute and so sad, I loved the all the scenes where the mains got to interact with their families. I did feel awkward and weird about the second-lead, I’m not sure if he counts as a second lead but for lack of a better term that’s what I’m calling him. I love Choi Bo-Min as an actor, and it had nothing to do with his acting, just the whole situation was uncomfortable to me. That other guy who doesn’t even deserve to be the second-lead, if you watch it you know, the stalker one, I despise that man. Not once during the entire show did I like one of his scenes. That could be why I didn’t enjoy the middle scenes as much cause he found a way to worm his way into almost every scene and I would get so annoyed with him. This show does have its good points and bad points, so I would recommend it for those who like romance with a little bit of suspense and humor.

Welcome to Waikiki (season 1): 3/5

Welcome to Waikiki is about a group of friends who own and attempt to run a guesthouse together. When they find a baby left behind in one of their rooms, they have to find out how to take care of her and find her mother. This becomes even more complicated when the mother returns in tears saying she had no where else to go and didn’t want her baby to suffer. After hearing about her troubles, they decide to take the two in, in exchange for help working at the guesthouse. It follows the group and mother as they try to figure out how to take care of a baby, save their failing guesthouse, and achieve their own dreams, all while falling in love.

This show was hilarious, I watched it because everyone was talking about how funny it was and I agree. I especially love how it focused on all the characters instead of picking just one or two and focusing on them. I love when shows really work on all their characters and this show played it out so well. Not one was neglected and I didn’t feel like any of them were underdeveloped by the end, and Sol was super cute! I loved every single one of her scenes, she was so funny and sassy and I know she is just a baby but she is amazing. I watched some episodes on the tv and my sisters even made comments on how cute she was when they looked up at the TV, even though they didn’t watch it. I enjoyed the ending and how it all played out and tied together nicely. 

It was a delight for the first two thirds of the season. However, yet again that romance hit and the humor kinda dissipated to be replaced by the romance for a good few episodes. While it was admittedly cute, and I adored the romance scenes in the last few episodes, most romance scenes gave me such second-hand embarrassment I had to pause the show for a while and gain the courage to restart it. I did enjoy it but would probably only ever rewatch the first two thirds and maybe the last two or so episodes. It reminds me of Love With Flaws in the second-hand embarrassment romance scenes, so if you enjoyed that show, definitely give this one a chance. If you like romance, humor, and can handle the second-hand embarrassment stuff I highly recommend this one! It’s super cute and hilarious!

Missing Nine: 5/5                                

Trigger Warning: Plane crash, Blood, Injuries, Suicide attempts, Murder

Missing Nine is about a girl who gets hired as a stylist for an arrogant and cold idol. On her first day, the plane they are all riding on to an event crashes on a vacant island. Only nine of them survive the crash and must now fight to survive and be found all while struggling with the betrayal of one of their friends who began to murder them one by one.

I really enjoyed this one, it was my perfect type of show; angst, suspense, subtle romance, crime, found family. The only issue I had with it was the unrealistic ending, I just don’t understand how it is possible and don’t know how I even personally feel about it. I am also probably one of the very few people who didn’t watch it for Chanyeol, don’t get me wrong I am an Exol too, but like really new Exol. You can skip this parenthesis if you want, it’s a kpop tangent. (I am a huge multistan. I love all the kpop groups I have listened to so far and have all the dalcomsoft games minus Gfriend even though I love them, cause I feel like it’s going to be a BTS superstar and get deleted so it’s not worth my time or efforts. Feel free to talk to me about any group and any member. If I don’t know them, I would be happy to find new ones so even if they are not well known or new, don’t feel worried about squealing to me about them, I would love to make kpop/kdrama loving friends.) I watched for Jung Kyung-ho and only when I started did I see Chanyeol which was cool to find. This also means POSSIBLE SPOILER ALERT I wasn’t disappointed or biased after a certain episode like many of the people I saw raging in the Tvtime comments, not saying this in a bad way just stating that since I am neutral on certain events, I will be focusing on specifically the plot and how I felt about said plot versus how I feel about characters. SPOILER ALERT OVER

Overall I really loved this show, it was certainly an emotional roller coaster. I felt that it could have had a second season or a spin off to tie up that last little cliffhanger but I personally and satisfied with how the main issue wrapped up, other than that one weird ending scene. If you like angst, suspense, crime, and a little romance seen in an enemies to lover type of trope then I highly recommend this show. I gave it a 5 cause I personally loved it and am already planning on rewatching it with my friend. It does have a lot of blood and injuries so if you are sensitive to that, I wouldn’t recommend it to you. 

Because this is my first life: 5/5

Trigger Warning: Sexual Assault, Attempted R@pe (but it didn’t get far at all, just be careful)

Because this is my first life is about a woman (Ji-ho) who has to find a new place to live as her brother is getting married and her parents gave the son the apartment that they had bought for both their children. Because of many misunderstandings and coincidences, she accidentally rents a new apartment with a very strict and stoic man (Se-hee). Due to more problems, the two come to an agreement that they should get married since they both can gain something from it. The woman gains a place to stay and the man gains a tenant to help pay the bills, no more, no less.

Okay, so while I said that I didn’t like romance this is the exception, much like Shopping King Louie, it was just a really cute slow burn that I thoroughly enjoyed watching. Many people in the fandom, on TV time at least, were giving Se-hee a hard time and saying he was using and manipulating Ji-ho but I didn’t see it that way. She consented and never voiced anything other than that and the deal was for her to stay in the apartment since she needed a place to live and he needed someone to help pay bills. He didn’t ask for anything more, she was already following his schedule before the marriage issue and was just fine and accepting when they decided to get married. Neither had any expectations of falling in love, they just both needed something that marriage would help them gain and both consented to it. Later on, Se-hee even asked her if any advances were okay and backed off when they weren’t with no questions asked which I find admirable. Okay, rant over. It was cute and at times annoying cause you just want them to get together already. I laughed so hard in so many episodes and cried in a few too. The cat was so adorable and I love the interactions the main’s had with the little fluff. The best, and sometimes most painful, bonding moments between the main’s were the ones that dealt with the cat. I wasn’t too fond of the love triangle but was pleased with how it actually played out with the two women actually accepting each others presence instead of being horrible to each other for the most part. Highly recommend it to any romance lovers, and especially to those who are fans of shows like Shopping King Louie as mentioned above.

Flower boy next door: 3/5

Trigger Warning: Stalking, Panic Attacks, Sensory overload, Bullying, Teacher Crushes and Manipulation of Such

Flower boy next door follows Dok-mi, a young woman with crippling social anxiety to the point she never leaves her apartment. From her window she watches her across the street male neighbor every day, taking note of his entire schedule. This all comes back to bite her when her neighbor’s brother comes to visit from Spain and catches her. What starts as an attempt to make her stop stalking her brother, quickly progresses into a mission to help her overcome her past, anxiety, and to get out of the house and adapt back to a healthy social life. As this mission goes on the two begins to realize they have feelings for each other, but Dok-mi’s own next-door neighbor has his own mission of getting her to stay inside and fall in love with him. He has been writing a web comic about her being a modern Rapunzel and has been in love with her for many years.

I enjoyed this one, I watched it cause the actor from Psychopath Diary starred in it and it was really cute. The romance was adorable, and the whole telepathy thing was a great addition that made me laugh. I love the whole adorable dork male with quiet cold girl trope so much. I didn’t like the whole stalking situation very much, it’s just kinda weird and was something that made me really uncomfortable during the first few episodes. I wasn’t a huge fan of the next-door neighbor, he just seemed like an enabler to me and I found myself angry through most of his scenes, as well as through most of Dok-mi’s childhood friend’s scenes. Other than those two characters, I enjoyed it well enough. I know some people can get annoyed by each characters flaws but I usually am good with morally grey characters as long as they learn from their mistakes. Some did in this show and there was a lot of character development and some didn’t which is realistic but makes me kind of sad. I recommend it to people who like a cute romance show with some angst and don’t mind morally grey characters.

Web-drama/Mini-series

Ghost Vros: 4/5

Trigger Warning: Suicide, Death, Some gore, Jump scares.

Ghost Vros follows two young men who are trying to start up a business where they hunt ghosts using virtual reality software. The main character is able to sense the ghost through his ears turning red and his friend programs the virtual realty to make sure the main has everything he needs to catch the ghosts.

I liked this one, it was fast like many web dramas are, but really interesting. I did attempt to translate it myself with my, admittedly little, Korean knowledge before finding the English subs (which you won’t be able to find now that Youtube has rudely removed community subs, unless it’s uploaded somewhere else. If someone finds it please let me know.) I was always engaged during the show and wasn’t bored at any point. It did have some confusing points and I wish we got more backstory as there was mentions of some interesting things that was never explored further, but it is a web drama, so that is more than likely too much to ask for. Recommend to anyone who enjoys a quick comedy ghost story.

 Cats Taste and Cat Bartender: 5/5

Cat’s Taste and Cat Bartender follow three cat gods who run a bar at night to make money for their injured owner. At this bar, they give upset humans cocktails which enable them to either posses said human or go into a dream world, this isn’t really clear, and correct the issue in exchange for items the cats find interesting on top of the alcohol cost.

This show was so cute, I absolutely loved and couldn’t stop smiling. I got the first season, Cat’s Taste, on my youtube recommend and decided to watch it since I was bored. I am so glad I did, I got super excited when I saw that there is a second season as well and spent forever trying to hunt it down before a kind person on MyDramaList put a link to the English subs in a comment (if anyone needs it, I will be happy to send it.) Both seasons were amazing, and I am hoping for a season three as the ending looks like it might be set up for one. The way they showed the bartending moves was so pretty and satisfying and I liked how all three cats got to show their moves instead of just the one.  I don’t like alcohol, have tried many kinds many times to but just don’t, however this show makes me want to drink the mixed drinks even though I know I would hate the taste.

Also, is it just me or does Ms. Hana remind anyone of Johnny from NCT? I don’t know if she looks like him or what, sometimes someone reminds me of someone else and the two look nothing alike. Don’t know what that’s all about but let me know because I could not shake the feeling that she reminded me of Mr. Johnny from Chicago. Anyway, tangent aside, I highly recommend to someone who like a quick but cute drama.

Korean Movies

Beautiful Vampire: 3/5

Beautiful Vampire is about a female vampire who tries to avoid people due to her nature, but has all that shattered when she runs into her landlady’s son one night and begins to fall in love.

This movie was pretty good, but a little confusing. I couldn’t even write a proper plot explanation cause I was just so confused. I honestly felt like a fever dream, though a relatively interesting fever dream. I wish we had more information and backstory cause it just kinda felt like a rollercoaster ride of pining. It ended okay; I mean I was bored at the time, so it was something to do. If I am bored in the future, I might watch it again. I agree with most on TvTime when they say, it wasn’t bad, but it wasn’t good, it was just something to do. I feel like the story line needed more work done and that it ended too fast and progressed in such a way that it was hard to follow. If you are bored or have nothing to do, give it a try, you might like it more than I did.

Chinese Drama

Take My Brother Away: 3/5

Trigger Warning: Alcohol Abuse

Take My Brother Away is based on a web comic about two siblings living with their alcoholic, debtor father in China, after their mom filed for a divorce and left. It follows the two as they go to school, work, and try to live a normal life. The sister hates her brother for being lazy and not being able to help her get what she wants, and the brother gets annoyed at the sister for always getting violent with him and nagging him.

I loved this one, it was really interesting to see the dynamic between the family. I felt that the brother should have been given more credit in the beginning for all he does for his sister and I felt really sorry for the sister because she just wanted to be like the other students who could afford to read web comics or go on trips. Some episodes were hilarious, some were heartbreaking, some were admittedly annoying, some gave me secondhand embarrassment. I just love it all, the only reason I give it a three is because I wouldn’t watch all 50 episodes again, I loved it but some were more on the boring side like filler episodes and I just, don’t think I’ll ever watch the whole series again. I can defiantly say however, I will probably watch most of the episodes again. I enjoyed the ending though it was admittedly on the strange side, and felt it was wrapped up nicely. There was a lot of character development too which is always great. I recommend this to those who enjoy some dysfunctional family humor and some angst and who are able to commit to long seasons.

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[kingonafiftymetreroad]

check-in tag <3

ahhhh okay so thank you @stylesthebrave for tagging me to do this on Monday only for me to forget! and thank you @slytherinzouis for tagging me again and reminding me lol. <3

why did you choose your url? i think it's pretty self explanatory but for those who don't understand: here you go x

any side blogs? not any that are actively used. i've tried maintaining side blogs for other fandoms/etc but tbh one is already sometimes too much for me to focus on lol.

how long have you been on tumblr? checked my blog archive, my first post was on dec 2 2013 so 7.5 yrs .-.

do you have a queue tag? yeah it's just called queue but i generally forget to use it about 75% of the time kajdlfj

why did you start your blog in the first place? same reason i'm still using it to this day. those two fuck heads (& the other three fuck heads) are still weaseled into my heart somehow oolkaj;lkdfj

why did you choose your icon/pfp? i adore this photo so fkn much you have no idea.

why did you choose your header? iconic grammy leather and gorgeous dimples and smile? yes please

what’s your post with the most notes? my fic ocean eyes from yrs ago lmao

how many mutuals do you have? how do i find this out because i have no idea and would love to know!

how many followers do you have? 918

how many people do you follow? 931, i need to purge again but i also follow quite a few blogs for other fandoms and things as well.

have you ever made a shitpost? oh 100% even if it's just to get my thoughts out into the notes and delete it minutes later lol

how often do you use tumblr each day? probably around 20 min on average. some days it's hours and others i barely open it to check messages and maybe notifs if i'm feeling like it. i'm definitely the type to mass-post for two hours straight and then be super spotty the rest of the week lol

have you had a fight/ argument with another blog? who won? not that i can remember but i've seen a lot of blog wars, especially back when i first started my blog. the 1d/larry fandom back in 2014-2016... WILD

how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts? if it's the type of post like 'reblog this in x seconds for money' or 'reblog this or you'll have bad luck for 7 yrs' then no fuck those types of posts always. if it's an informational post, like a lot of the BLM and Free Palestine and Covid info posts then i'll happily reblog them.

do you like tag games? yes! i'm not the greatest at remembering to actually do them when tagged (this exact game for example lol sorry cait lol) but i love being tagged in things!

do you like ask games? also yes but i don't have the motivation for them anymore :/

which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous? uhh probably @kingsofeverything @aliensyndrome & @thetriangletattoo :D

do you have a crush on a mutual? no crushes at the current moment but i'll put @fournipplesau anyway ily

tags?

idk who's done this so i suppose i'll tag those four ^ and also @solvetheminourdreams @thechampagnelovers @justalarryblog @essercipertuttienonperse @holyshit & anybody who sees this and would like to participate please feel free to say i tagged you! this is a pretty long tag game so if you don't want to i understand and no pressure! <3

[chirp-featherfowl]

summertime is not a good friend.

 -       Tommy is 12 when he's assigned as a right hand man to a war general.      Far too young, the world thinks. Far too immature, the world says.        It is a war for peace, but not one a child should not carry the burden of. It is a war for hope, for prosperity, for freedom, but not one a child should be the right hand man of.       The child that is the subject of discussion does not understand, nor does he disagree with his placement. It is not for a long, long, time that he realizes.  -       In a few months time, the ages of the rest have been revealed.       A friend that is 13. An enemy that is 19. An outsider that is 19. A son that is 15. A girl that is 18.       The words pass through the minds of the watchers, only fueling them to have the world they carefully spectate fall in shambles. Some say it's sadistic, that it's cruel, but no one listens. Not even they can stop themselves from seeing what comes next. -  [Discussion Board Opened!] all hail sir billiam 23 min. ago lmao these losers saying its "problematic". get off of ur skyblock island sweetie, they're fictional <3 -- 18 replies  Skye [on hiatus!] 23 min. ago  Um they're not fictional? These are reall people   - Hati 20 min. ago       Lmao yes they are. They might as well be seeing as they shouldve known            what they were signing up for  -- 4 replies  ami | MOD | 18 min. ago  hello! please get off this discussion board and delete this post. we do not   condone discourse here, try and find another site! thank you.   - all hail sir billiam 18 min. ago       um no thanks. the mods here r shit anyways, go get the owner if u wanna            talk to me -- 8 replies -       Tommy is 13 when he learns that his suffering is being watched and condoned by millions of other people. He is angry, and rightfully so.       It just so happens that his anger has fallen on deaf ears, though, as his brother, his dear brother, is trapped in delusions of his own creation.       It is too late for his brother, and it is too late for himself. - puddle ;; shay @soggy_mem0ry Stop stanning problematic world groups and go back to playing on fucking mineplex or something. This site disgusts me 456 Retweets 34 Quote Tweets 6,282 Likes

el \ DON'T PRIV QRT @el_i god the discourse on here is horrible. i'm not going to be on this site for a while. i don't like what it's becoming. 293 Retweets 2 Quote Tweets 1,497 Likes -       It has been over six months since Tommy has been without trust. He cares for his brother, he does his best for him, and he knows he loves him back, despite the situation they're in. Tommy has done his best to bring his brother back to the way he was once before, and even though they both know it won't last long, they both put on a facade for each other. -       A young boy, the age of 16, watches as another boy, only three years younger than him, loses almost all his hope. This young boy does not matter to the state of this world, and he never will, but it is the impact that makes it so important.       The boy sits near a tree on his island, giving up hope himself. -        A girl slaughters her way to victory in small matches in her area, knowing much due to her ability to find sufficient role models.       Sufficient role models that happen to be revenge-filled adults that seem to not know they're torturing children, but it doesn't matter to her. It doesn't matter to anyone, in fact. No one cares when the world hinges on the fate of 14 year-olds who shouldn't know how to handle a crossbow, but so do nonetheless. -  frog-enthusiast - Follow man. i never thought i'd be making this post, seeing as i'm one of the more popular members of the dsmpblr community, but i'm done. i won't deactivate this blog so other people can still see it, but i probably won't be posting ever again. fuck everyone who condones this shit. -       Tommy is 14 when he begins to finally lose his hope.       He hasn't yet, despite what everyone else thinks. He is still holding onto it, not for long, but he hasn't let go.       But the world seems keen on having him release his grip, and he does, eventually.       That day is not today, though, and Tommy Simons still lives. He lives in a, sadly, different and changed mindset, but is still the same Tommy Simons.       He cannot say the same for his brother. - THEORIES ABOUT THE DSMP Kadoodles 696K views - 3 days ago MCC 9 Interview - Tapl's thoughts on DSMP, HBomb94 talking about L'cast, and more! MCC Highlights 3.2M views - 5 months ago Tommy confronts Wilbur about Manberg Obli Intel 52K views - 1 day ago - TAPL: Well, I'm not surprised you've asked me this. More that I was the first one to be asked, I guess? TAPL: If I'm being honest, I don't really want to talk about it. What does on in that world is none of my business. Though, that's not the answer you want, is it, huh? TAPL: I don't like it. It gives off such a bad energy, if that's the way you want to put it. I just... don't think it should exist, really? It shouldn't be shown off. -       Tommy is 15 when he finally, finally, crumbles. Where he, the final judge, the youngest, is corrupted, is taken down to be who he finally is.       Prey. -       Various teenagers from all across the world watch as friend gets separated from friend, and foe takes over foe. It's no surprise to the people who chose this demise, but it still is a burden to carry. To be known as one of the people that sentenced a child to an early grave is something not a lot of people personally like.       They keep on watching, though. Nothing will stop them. (But it is not as if people try.)       The world might crumble there, and they will watch. The world might disappear there, and they will watch. - Replies jumpy-the-alien - frog-enthusiast I'm sad to see you go, but I totally get where you're coming from! I really hope you come back, I love your art, but don't feel pressured. vlaired-spear fuck off with the "fuck everyone" thing. you watched this shit too. you can't put down other people while still doing the same thing. flameo-hotman @vlaired-spear holy shit this is why i hate this website. suck a dick flowgastrell @vlaired-spear I know right! Its not like the ccs will see this anyway flameo-hotman @flowgastrell yeah, maybe not in a discord server, but there's still a high chance when you post it on the fucking internet - TAPL: I know I'm probably going to lose a lot of people saying this, but you asked for my opinion, and here it is. I don't want to lie about it. Especially not when fucking children are at risk. -       Tommy remains 15 for a very long time. It is not of his own volition. He is bored, and time passes slowly.       Not until his friend arrives, that is. His friend with the mask, his friend with the lies. His friend that's not his friend.       But Tommy doesn't know that. - [Discussion Board Opened!] all hail sir billiam 45 min. ago it will be a long day in hell when i give up dsmp content lmaoooo got banned from that other board the other day mods were toxic as shit might report it idk  -- 4 replies  Gertrude Supremacy 44 min. ago  :O Oh no what happened  - all hail sir billiam 44 min. ago    just the antis being toxic again lol  -- 2 replies -       Tommy remains 15 when he his abused by the one he thinks is a friend. He remains 15 during the explosions, the traps, the hitting, the fighting, the party, the-       The things a 15-year-old should not have to deal with.       He stops saying sorry for being too weak-willed. He starts saying sorry for being too disobedient. He does both, and gets punished "suitably" for both.       It is a game, and he does not know the rules. to be continued!! may make a follow up post explaining the au

[meliakim]

Help From Yoongi-hyung (Pt. 2)

Jimin asks his hyung for more help.

Jimin once again approached the door of Yoongi’s hotel room and knocked. He wasn’t as quick to answer the door this time, but when he did, Jimin noticed headphones around his hyung's neck. “You’re back? How did it go with Min?” Yoongi asked. Jimin shrugged and said, “I guess as good as it could’ve… Hey, what are you up to now?” Yoongi rubbed his eyes, as he had been staring at his computer screen. “I was working on some music,” he answered.

“Good,” Jimin said, gently pushing past his hyung and inviting himself into his room. “I need help writing my song for ‘Love Yourself: Her’ intro,” Jimin said as he sat down on the armchair sitting next to Yoongi’s desk chair. Yoongi chucked and sat back down in his desk chair. “You should be done with that song by now… I’ve already started working on my solo song that’s not even going to be released for another year!” Yoongi said. “I know, but I’ve been struggling with what to write the song about, but I’ve just figured it out,” Jimin replied.

“I want to write the song about Min… or… rather to Min… telling her how I feel about her,” Jimin said, shyly, still not quite used to admitting to someone out loud how he felt about Min. Yoongi raised his eyebrows. “So, a love confession?” he asked. Jimin shrugged and replied, “more or less… I know how passionate Min is about music, and if I could just come up with a song good enough… I think it would be the proper way to finally confess to her.” Yoongi found this to be extremely cute, but he tried to hide his smile.

“You’re the best at composing and writing lyrics, which is why I wanted to come to you for help. I want this to be perfect,” Jimin said sincerely, looking over at his hyung. “Well, if that’s the case, I need to make a better set-up,” he said, turning to his desk. He untangled some wires and unplugged a few things before heading to his suitcase and pulling out a MIDI keyboard, microphone, mini soundboard, and another headphone set. Jimin watched him in amazement as Yoongi gingerly plugged in all his equipment to his laptop.

“Do you have any ideas for lyrics yet?” Yoongi asked as he worked on his travel studio set-up. “I have a few in mind… like ‘the universe has moved for us, our happiness was meant to be,’ er… what else? I guess I should start writing it down,” Jimin said, drawing a blank. “It’s not too cheesy, is it?” he asked, afraid of what Yoongi would think of it. “I think it’s sweet… it makes me think of serendipity… like how everything somehow works together by chance,” Yoongi said as he typed something on his computer.

“How is this? ‘The universe has moved for us without missing a single thing, our happiness was meant to be ‘cause you love me.’l Yoongi quoted from the lyrics he was beginning to write down. “Ohhh, Yoongi-hyung you’re so good!!! Hmm… how would it sound with ‘and I love you’ at the end of that?” Jimin asked. “Well, we haven’t come up with the tune and rhythm yet, so anything is game,” he said, adding Jimin’s suggestion to the end of the line.

“Really, we should start with the tune and flow of the song before we get into more lyrics,” Yoongi suggested. He stared at his MIDI keyboard, then had an idea. “You know… this is the first intro to any of our albums that is done by a vocal line member. I think it would be cool if we emphasized your voice in this song… and maybe add some light beats in the background,” Yoongi suggested. Jimin nodded. “And by emphasizing my voice, hopefully my message to Min will be clear,” he agreed.

Yoongi put on his headset and began messing around on the piano setting of his keyboard, coming up with a melody that he thought would sound good when sung in Jimin’s voice. After a few minutes, he passed Jimin the other headset and played what he had come up with so far. “Yoongi-hyung! You’re so quick in coming up with a melody!” Jimin said, impressed. He listened to it repeatedly, until he got used to the tune, then he began humming to it. “Can you move the key down half a step?” Jimin asked. Yoongi pushed a few buttons on his laptop, changing the key to A♭.

Jimin hummed along to the track again and nodded with a satisfied smile. “That’s better,” he said. Yoongi made a few more notes and then re-recorded a part based on how Jimin sounded with it. “It would sound good if it went high and then back low here,” he explained the one part and the change he made. The pair continued to do this for hours, adjusting each note to fit Jimin’s style, him humming the tune all the while. They finally made it past the tune of the verses and came up with the chorus melody and refrain as well.

“Ooo, what about ‘Just let me love you’? and then there can be kind of an echo like ‘let me love let me love you’?” Jimin suggested when they decided to move back to the lyrics. Yoongi nodded and played the refrain track to test his lyrics out. After hearing Jimin sing to it, he smiled satisfactorily and wrote it down. The pair continued to think of lyrics, writing them down and tweaking them to fit the melody Yoongi wrote, until every part of the song had a lyric to go with it.

“Ok, let’s see how it all sounds back-to-back,” Yoongi said, putting on his headset and handing the mic over to Jimin. Jimin put on the other headset and took the mic from Yoongi, clearing his throat and then nodding to him as if to say, “I’m ready.” Yoongi played the piano melody track in the background, guiding Jimin to sing the tune that they had written. Still not quite used to the lyrics, Jimin messed up a few times, but then was finally able to record the vocal sample for the whole two-minute track.

Jimin took off his headset while Yoongi did some mixing, then he unplugged it and played it out loud for Jimin to hear, without the piano melody in the background. Jimin balled his hands up in fists and shook them like he did when he was excited, grabbing onto Yoongi’s shoulders and squeezing him. “Hyung!!! It sounds so good already!!!” Jimin said as Yoongi tried to wriggle himself out of the tight grip of affection. “We’ll obviously have to record the final in the real studio, but we have a good track to go off of,” Yoongi said.

“Since we have your voice now, I can delete the original piano melody,” Yoongi said, finding the file on his computer. “Wait!!” Jimin said, an idea suddenly popping into his head. “Can you actually re-record the piano, but a little nicer?” he asked. “You don’t think my piano playing was good enough??” Yoongi teased, shaking his head before saying, “no, I really don’t think the song will sound good if your voice is overpowered by the piano.”

“No, I mean, record it as a cover of the song… I think the melody you wrote is so nice, I had the idea of dancing to it, maybe even with Min,” Jimin explained. “Ahh, then she’d also get used to the sound of the song and form a connection with it beforehand,” Yoongi said, now understanding what Jimin wanted a piano version of it for. Jimin smiled and said, “exactly!!” before standing up from his seat and stretching, suddenly aware that there was a bright light trying to sneak into the room behind the curtains.

He walked over towards the window and pulled the curtain back further, only to see the view of the NYC cityscape, with the sun rising in the background. “What time is it?!” he asked, looking down at his phone and seeing it was 5:30 in the morning. “Did we really work all through the night?” he asked, bewildered that it was already morning. Yoongi was either ignoring him or was so engrossed in playing his MIDI keyboard that he didn’t answer Jimin’s questions. When he was done re-recording it, he mixed it with a small amount of percussion and synth in the background to make it sound professional, then he emailed it to Jimin before taking his headphones off.

“I emailed the cover to you,” Yoongi said. “Do you realize what time it is??” Jimin asked, still staring out the window at the sunrise. Yoongi shrugged and said, “I’m used to all-nighters,” before getting up and stretching. Jimin’s phone buzzed at the receiving of Yoongi’s email with the instrumental version of “Intro: Serendipity,” and he was reminded of how much his hyung helped him over the course of the night. While Yoongi was still stretching, Jimin quickly approached him and wrapped his arms around his chest. “Thank you so much for helping me,” was all Jimin was able to say.

Touch-me-not-Yoongi gently slapped Jimin’s arm until he let go of his grip and said, “I didn’t do this for you… I did it for Min!” He halfway lied, as he truly did it for the both of them, but he wasn’t willing to admit he had a soft side towards his younger member that had become like a brother to him. “Either way I am grateful to you, hyung,” Jimin said, bowing out of gratitude to him. Yoongi, starting to feel sentimental at the sight of Jimin in love, just shook his head.

“Yeah, whatever… Will you leave me alone now so I can get some sleep? You’ve stolen enough hours from my life already,” Yoongi complained, though Jimin just continued to smile brightly, beyond satisfied with the work they were able to accomplish together. “Fair enough, I’ll let you get some sleep! I should probably rest too,” Jimin said, starting to realize how tired he was. He headed towards the door and turned to Yoongi once more and bowed. “Thank you again, hyung,” Jimin said one final time before exiting, leaving Yoongi alone in his makeshift studio.