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I'm so happy that I got this game. It's so cute! š
#neko atsume#ćććć¤ć#cute#cats#i did not get this game#this game got me#i will forever be checking on my cats#what have i done?
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My review on episode 5 + some comparisons with manga and ln1.
It's mainly about Souheki because if i don't talk about them every chance i get i will explode.
Start of the episode ,i love the idea of using the sound the Ramune bottle and marble to attract Atsushi's n audiences' attention.It's a shame that they didn't animate Kunikida's soft smile when Ranpo was being even more rude in the manga.
annnnnnd ofc he's gonna focus on the marble and leave Atsushi sitting there awkwardly. Ranpo autism moment.
Atsushi thought Ranpo can't do anything without an ability is funny.Atsushi sweetie that's some wild assumption for a guy you just met a few days ago.He really just saw Ranpo can't take the train and assumed the worst lol.
this scene is always interesting to me because this is the only time we saw Ranpo paying respect to the dead like this.Now i have a few guesses of the reason.
1.a simple one is that maybe he did this all the time,after all we only saw him solve crimes with real bodies like two times.in perfect crime arc they were on rush.
2.Ranpo actually said "oh it's a lady",so yeah maybe he only did that to certain people
3.it's the start of the series so eveything is still uncertain
I don't have anything to add here,i think we could all agree dazai being there wasn't a coincident.
Another thing i mourn not making into Anime is that Ranpo saying even Dazai is an enigma to him in manga.it adds more layer in their relationship.tbh it's a bit boring if Ranpo always knows what Dazai is up to.
Now it's cute seeing Dazai defending Ranpo like that because i dont think minoura would actually hit him or something,maybe Dazai just wants to stop the bickering.
I love Ranpo's motto "All's well that's well for me" because it just like him.It seem self-center at first, but if you know him a little better, you'll know it actually means as long as he's fine he can make sure everyone else is fine.It's not just the meaning,this is how everyone's impression of him at first vs when they get to know him.
this part annoyed me the most cause Dazai looks so fond in the manga ,but he looks passive and serious in anime.LIKE WTF WAS THAT???DAZAI NEVER LOOKED AT RANPO LIKE THAT>>this leads to my biggest complaint of this episodeā¬
//spoil for light novel 1
it has been talked many times how messed up the azure messenger arc aka light novel 1 adaption is.But I want to add it was so poor that it has already affects this episode.In the manga, Dazai didn't explain how he knows Ranpo didn't have an ability to Atsushi.The explanation here is actually straight up pull up from ln1 what he told Kunikida after he first met Ranpo.BUT because Bones don't wanna properly adapt the novel, they have to stiffly add it here.So that's why Dazai seemed serious when testing Ranpo,they want to add the impression this is the first time he discover it.
Do you want to know another fucked up thing about this scene is?They phased it like Dazai never work with Ranpo , that they're unfamiliar with each other.But in reality, Dazai has saw Ranpo's "ability"the very first time they met.They have worked together so well that they received their own name "Souheki".Dazai admires Ranpo so much that he constantly compliment him.
End the post of my favorite shot of this episode<3 Look at my son having the best time in his lifeš¤©š¤©š¤©good for him good for him.
#bsd#bungou stray dogs#ranpo edogawa#dazai osamu#atsushi nakajima#souheki#bsdrewatch2023#actually have a lot more to talk about but im busy now.......#i still stands by my theory of ranpo seeing Atsushi as a stray cat Dazai randomly bringing in#he didn't even try to start anyconversations with him#actually i want to put them under microscope to see how their relationship develops#will forever be pissed that they removed Souheki's first meeting#anyways shameless promote i actually made a mini analysis about it check my pin if you're interested
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Can you info dump about bluebelle, Iām very curious about her :3
SORRY THIS TOOK A HUNDRED THOUSAND YEARS I WANTED IT TO BE PERFECT
Hi hello!!!!! I will very gladly talk about Bluebelle, sheās the love of my life forever :D ššššš
Important note: Iām a very um dramatic person when it comes to creating oc backstories. I am nothing if not a little bit pretentious, and giving ocs weird and angsty backstories is my passion project, and thatās part of the reason it took so long to collect my thoughts, and come up with something concrete, (or as concrete as possible)
Iāll start with facts about her that I like and then backstory regarding the fabled music box :))
-her design/colors are based off of a stuffed animal I bought in Munich :)
-the songs I most associate with her, (I have a playlist because I wanted one), are probably A Dangerous Thing/Everything Matters by AURORA, The Sugar Plum Fairy from the Nutcracker, and I came to your party dressed as a shadow. Adore those songs
-the only jellicles that she has met, (by choice), are Victoria, Misto, Plato, and Demeter. Or rather, Demeter knows of her, but Bluebelle doesnāt know Demeter
-this is mostly bc sheās pretty paranoid about meeting new people, and prefers to stick to her people. It took her a while to warm up to Plato, but eventually she got used to him
-this is also despite Vicciās best efforts to convince Bluebelle to at the very least meet Jemima
-SPEAKING OF JEMIMA, if you havenāt heard, hereās my little jellicle magic theory: The catās magic relates to their eyes, just vaguely. Jemima and Misto each have white eyes, and you may have noticed, Bluebelle has those eyes as well. Because sheās. Blue. And thatās not a typical cat color, I figured I should just run with it. I see Bluebelleās magic as a combination of Jemima and Victoria! Yes, Victoria is magic to me and thatās not just because sheās lovely and beautiful, but because of the way she uses the music in the show, and the way some productions seem to use her as a metaphor for the Jellicle moon, relating it to her dancing. This is especially true for me when I hc Vicci as deaf, because it implies some sort of magic when her solo syncs with the music. Bluebelle has the same sort of music and dance magic as Victoria, and the same sort of eerie unearthly-ness of Jemima. Basically I combined all my favorite girlies into one and made her <33
Really incoherent n convoluted story under the cut lolllll
Iāve always imagined the music box has something Bluebelle has had since she was very young, as in some of her earliest memories are of the tune it plays. Her mother probably gave it to her before both of her parents disappeared like they were in a Disney movie. The point is that itās one of her favorite things, and she loves dancing to it. Victoria loves the song as well, and they sometimes practice using the music box, and things continue as so until Misto appears, and starts practicing with them.
Because Misto insists that no music is coming out of the music box. He canāt hear a single note.
Neither can Plato, or any of the other jellicles, when Victoria borrows it, and plays the song for everyone else in the junkyard, (Bluebelle doesnāt go with her-sheād rather not meet the others, for fear they wonāt like her, or will tell Victoria to stop visiting her).
No one else can hear the music. No one except, of course, for Jemima and the psychic twins.
Bluebelle starts to ask around town, playing it for different cats, until she finds an older tom, not far, though she doesnāt know it, from the Junkyard.
He canāt hear the music box of course, but he tells her that heās bit of a collector of magical artifacts. Perhaps heāll have something similar in his collection.
Would she like to take a look?
Bluebelle declines. Declines at least, to visit him on this night. She hands him the music box, and instructs him to take it back to his den, and look for himself. They will meet in the same place the next day, and if he cannot find anything, then she will go and see for herself.
The next morning, they meet again. He tells her that heās sorry, he couldnāt find anything that matched the box, and that in his haste to meet her on time, heād left the box behind. The tomcat invites her to his den, and again, she declines, saying she will visit on a later date, that she already has plans.
Bluebelle follows him home, and hides in wait. She watches as his friends gather to scheme, and doesnāt notice the staring of a golden queen hanging off the arm of a blood orange tom.
The acquaintances leave, and the old cat retires to his den. The fire is almost out, leaving her to sneak into the other tent.
ā¦blood seeps from every item in the cramped space, leaving it to drip from the walls and stain the ground scarlet.
He is not only a collector of magical artifacts, but a collector of queens, as well. The music box is the only thing unmarred by the red, so she steals it back.
She swears she can hear him howling the whole trip.
Bluebelle doesnāt tell Victoria what happens. She tells her to steer clear of the cat who could very be Bluebelleās father, with a coat as vibrant as the sea, and Victoria doesnāt ask any questions.
Bluebelle doesnāt want to meet any of the other jellicles after that. She barely wants to talk to anyone ever again, with the exception of the few cats she already knows.
She and Victoria still dance to the music box though. Misto tries to follow along.
#ā¦so have any of you ever read or watched Bluebeard?#the 2009 movie is insane and I adore it with all of my heart#finally!!! bluebelleās long awaited backstory!!! *checks watch* an entire month past its relevancy!!#if you read all of that I will do whatever you want forever I am kissing you gently on the forehead#anyway I was so scared to make this cringe and edgy and convoluted#like so scared#but then I watched the movie again#and I realized that Bluebelle is my creation#and if I like this as her backstory#then it is her backstory#guys you can do whatever you want forever and ever#I believe in you š«¶š«¶š«¶#cats the musical#cats musical#cats oc#jellicle oc#asks!!!!!!!#if this wasnāt what you were expected for a music box backstory Iām so sorry#unfortunately I am a freak for fairy tales
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Beerus happens to be one of my favorite Dragonball characters and I fully ignore ANY of the dumb decisions the Super Anime made with his character at times.
#Out Of Ki | {OOC}#From The Heavens | {Mun Post}#Like I love that Beerus is a morally gray character; he's not a wholesome good guy but he's also not just a straight up evil bastard either#He does a job; it's not a pretty job but it's a job none the less that needs to be done#And that's why I adored his intro in Battle of Gods#Not just that but he had a personality; he could be goofy and silly but also be intimidating and scary af too when needed#And he could back up his shit talking too; wasn't just hot air#When he said he could FUCK you up easily that wasn't just him bragging; he literally CAN fuck you up#Like him admitting Whis could kick his ass even is just a matter of fact; it's why Whis is his attendant...to keep him in check#So yeah; I was not fond of what the anime 'added'#Especially the part with the Saiyans and Frieza#I know the manga sticks closer to keeping Beerus more or less how he is in the movies and such#And while the manga has it's problems...the anime seems to make them amplifies those problems or add new ones that the manga avoided#But yeah; hate what they do to Beerus sometimes in the anime...#I love my funky cat god man and forever upset at Super anime for how they portray him = =;;;#ALSO ALSO will forever remember in Xenoverse how he basically cackled when the villains tried to corrupt him and he just shrugged it off#Bitch was like 'cute but no' XD
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early morning wasp adventures. what a cutie!
#it flew in while i was trying to get out to my patio so i could check my laundry š#took forever to catch it between it freaking out and cats trying to eat it#i only kept it under the glass for a couple minutes i just wanted pictures of its cute face#but it was pretty fucking mad about being put in a cup so i had a hard time getting many decent ones#successfully put it back outside tho and it seemed fine despite all the batting around it received from my cats#hope it has a nice wasp-y day#turnip#bugs
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Meow.
Lemme know who got babygirl Merrin in the comments
#star wars#darth maul#artists on tumblr#just a silly little guy#making silly little things#im happiest making silly things i found out#a painting cost me 17 hours? bam all i can see are the mistakes and dobettera#but a doodle of ten minutes? my precious forever#also in general ive just been feel very sad bc of life issues#this#help an artist out#likes and reblogs are greatly appreciated ily#check out my kofi and patreon for frew stuff or stay to support me#i gib cat pictures drafts doddles and more#ty for reading#dathomir#asajj ventress#nightsister merrin#savage opress#feral opress
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the most wholesome thing is seeing that the wholesome post blog runner is probably one of the nicest people ever :3 iām generally Terrified of sending asks especially to a blog that Does Things like this but seeing you talk in the tags instead of just reblogging and moving on makes you seem very friendly and approachable !!!! and i hope u know i appreciate that :] i hope you have a wonderful day and both sides of your pillow are always cool and that if you see a random cat on the sidewalk it wonāt run away from U ā”
woah, META-WHOLESOME!! thank ya for the compliment, i try my best to carry out those kinds of traits i value!!!!! iām SUPER super glad that ya did!!! THANK YOU THANK U!! always appreciating how much of an impact this lil blog has on top of appreciating u for sharing as much with me :-)
itās always a TRIP getting to hear that something i do that i wasnāt even really mindfully doing makes all the difference?? iām just really, REALLY grateful for all the different kinds of posts that get sent my way and seeing cool + uplifting + sentimental + OVERALL WHOLESOME posts that i express my thanks + ramble a bit in the tags haha !!
i ALSO hope you have as terrific of a day as youāre able to! and i hope youāll enjoy seeing more posts pop up!
AND YOUāLL NEVER BELIEVE but i got new pillow cases like a week ago THAT DO JUST THAT! AND THEREāS A NEW CAT ON THE STREET WHO HANGS OUT WITH ME SOMETIMES (iāve been planning to see if he has a microchip, but i know for a fact that the neighbors who feed all the stray cats on our street already have a cage + are well-versed in TNR, so iāve been thinking about asking them first because the thought that someone could be out there looking for their pal is enough for me to ādo it scaredā) !! SO THANK U NOT ONLY FOR THE SWEET SENTIMENTS BUT ALSO FOR THE UNEXPECTED HILARITY OVER THE FACT THAT THEYāVE COME TRUE???
#and i get it!! running a gimmick blog (as iāve heard it be described) is v v different from the other blogs iāve got going!!#ik iāve said it in the past but i genuinely think what makes for the lack of ambiance is the fact that i didnāt really? start this blog out#as a gimmick blog in mind?? it was kind of just for me to āarchiveā Solidly Wholesome posts in one place#by the dates i saw/read through them + let them flow over me. because thereās already a timestamp ya know?#but the Vision was that iād go through this blog + see that a year ago on a particular day was Important#which is still something i do when i have the the time BUT now i ALSO get sent wholesome posts!!! which WOAH#became a collective effort whether youāve mentioned me in one post or climbing up to the triple digits now haha!!! i appreciate them all#TRULY :-)#and iāll also admit that i donāt really remember if i kept the ask + submission channels open because i thought āhey maybe iāll get one#or two someday from someone?ā or if i kinda forgot to close āem because i think i only block Anonymous automatically for all the blogs#iāve got?? THAT will probs be a mystery for a long time to come if not forever BUT am glad itās all worked out in ways i never saw coming!!#also APOLOGIES FOR NOT ONLY RAMBLING IN THE TAGS BUT THE ASK!!#Apple Pie is defs a priority for me rn and iāve done some research + talked to my neighbors about TNR being the best bet in our area#last we spoke anyhow which was some time ago#also my parents apparently got into taking stray cats to a TNR program a few cities over so iāll ask āem too probably???#BUT FIRST THINGāS FIRST: checking for a microchip#10/13/2023#asks#wholesomepostarchive
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giving some love to their elderly pets! :[
#simblr#ts4#ts4 gameplay#tjolc#tjol challenge#f: vickers#vickers: 1#s: cutie the dog#s: adelia#s: garrus the cat#s: rosalie#s: fennec#q#i'm pretty sure cutie is going to die in like a few days but i've been too scared to check#roblox won't die unless i accidentally kill him by starvation#because fen gave him one of those treats that makes them live forever#also yes i changed my reshade <3 i'm trying out a new one
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hello, I kindly request your favorite Pokemon :)
'tis mewtwo ! a few other favs in no particular order are malamar hydreigon zoroark and gardevoir š my frends.....
#idk how long ago i got this ask i only just checked my inbox LOL#im so fond of pokemon its hard to pick a solid second-favorite. mewtwo at the top forever tho bc thats my kitty cat š„ŗ#id say AS OF LATE hydreigon probably qualifies best for second place. been very into dreigy recently#fey answers
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Got the guts to go out this morning to the stores. I needed to pick up an order from bath and body works; I got some of the vampire blood body lotion cuz they were having a 50% off sale on the Halloween stuff. Then I stopped by target cuz I needed a couple things, especially a hair brush cuz the one I had snapped and broke in half this morning. I quickly looked at Ross cuz I keep seeing people find cute clothes and shoes (I didnāt find shit, maybe I should try when they get truck deliveries on Mondays/Tuesdays). Then I quickly looked at homegoods, Iāve been trying to find this statue of the bride of Frankenstein, still no luck, but I did find some hello kitty bed sheets for my mom that she liked and I got her those.
#maybe on Friday Iāll go out again to check tj maxx#and Iāve been wanting to go look at five below for their new stuff#Iāve also been wanting to look at Spirit Halloween too (I need to get the guts to brave pass the animatronics and spiders š¬)#(yes as much as I like Halloween/ I am a bit of a scaredy cat and Iām terrified of anything with spiders)#also Iāve been wanting to look at daiso for forever! especially look at stationary/stickers/display shelves for my trinkets
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You know like mjau
#video#im actually missin a plugin (nexus). its bloody expensive so idk if i can properly finish thisš„#but it's a nice remix... then again Roses is just one my fav songs from the base game#i like when flps come with a visualizer. fun times (and saves me some time)#my quest of adding hearts in everything continues š its my Thing at this point methinks#i was gonna use toto (tom) at first. but then i thought 'wait no let's check tord'. gotta test other charas besides romantic f/os ok /lh#(like how i do with big bro Mikey :] & i have a fun time šāØ)#same as tom btw he has more than one chromatic ā this is just one of them& it's actually very loud yet he sounds so good here SDKLFDKSKL#first time drawing him too... my first impression of his hair lookin like cat ears will never leave my mind. it's forever there now
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i love being a writer because it allows for me to ask questions like āhey, how can i kill someone inconspicuously in a hospital if theyāre hooked up to an iv?ā and my medical whump expert friend to respond with āoh, air would work for sureā
i was afraid to use google but who needs google when you have writer friendsā¦ love them
#writing fic has been such a lovely hobby these days#i cant believe i wrote 3.9k of a miguel fic in (checks notes) 3 days#and i was content with it??? thats crazy usually i take forever to feel Okay to post#now i need to finish the draft for chapter 2 of my ghost fic#and im starting the second part of the black cat reader series#its just so much fun#but i wish i had more writer friends or close knit writing discords#too bad im antisocial for real#rambles
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PSA that animals can be infected with SARS-CoV-2 as well so if you even suspect you could possibly have covid-19, please take precautions around your pets to avoid infecting them as well. While most reported cases appear to be mild and evidence is sorely lacking in how this virus affects non-human animals, there's still a risk of harm, particularly for more senior animals. Cats are also more likely to be infected and develop complications than dogs. And this is just what we know about acute infection as there's little to no research on possible long term effects of covid on animals.
Ways to avoid infecting your pet include: distancing and/or isolating yourself from them (which i know is hard, especially if you're sick and miserable), washing your hands and wearing a mask when preparing and giving them food and water and not re-initiating usual contact until you've tested negative on a RAT/LFT etc at least twice consecutively to make sure you're no longer contagious.
Stay safe and may your pets live long and happy lives <3
#covid 19#im so worried about my cats since im not with them most of the time#and my brother is so blasƩ about catching covid (which he has. Twice)#and while he usually doesnt even interact with the cats he recently had to while mum was away#and also if she gets covid she's checking herself straight into hospital bc of her conditions so he'll have to look after them then#and he'll likely be infected to#and he sure as fuck wont listen to me about taking precautions#and when i asked mum to maybe even float the idea past him#she laughed at me#and said 'they'll be fine' and 'if they get it then it's their time' (bc she wont pay the money to treat them at the vets#and i just feel so angry and sick and worried about them bc im the only one who gives a shit about their health#all i ask is that they both take basic precautions to avoid infecting the cats#and they laugh at me#ik theyre senior cats and they dont live forever#but even just the idea of them dying makes me cry#and the thought of them dying bc of how callous and stupid my family are is just enraging#anYWAY#enough of a tag rant
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It has been 4 hours since it happened
#shut up cat no one cares#my boss from the position i left for the new job just texted and then called me to make sure i was okay#no i told you so or trying to get me back#just to check on me#good people like that are so rare and need to be valued forever#also in tags because mobile wonāt let me read more#and i just i dunno#no one really cares but itās nice to scream into the void for a bit#plus i canāt mope around forever#i
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Just thought Iād add a quick note on the cats. Scottish Folds are prone to pain as well as arthritis because the same cartilage deficiency that causes their ears to fold like that does also affect the cartilage in the rest of their body. And other breeds like Munchkins have issues with their joints from being bred to have smaller legs. Some have even started mixing these types of breeds to have cats like Scottish Fold-Munchkin mixes which will inherit the main problems from each of these breeds. You can also find that cats with long fur will need a lot of extra care when brushing them, as their fur easily tangles and can cause hygiene and infection issues if you donāt brush them multiple times a day. Especially around the genital area.
Also, many cats youāll find, especially in shelters, actually arenāt classed as a specific breed like Persian or Siamese and are classed simply as Domestic Short Hair. This is because cats are very prolific at mating and certain shelters will try to find and rehome feral cats if they have the space. Others will simply Trap Neuter Release as a way to reduce the local feral cat population. If you see a cat with a snipped ear, that is likely a TNR feral cat. Also, cats arenāt kept for pedigree or specific breeding purposes as much as dogs are, so plenty of cats will will be bred with tiger random cats. Or when an unspayed pet cat goes outside, they will start making kittens with the nearest Tom when theyāre in heat. Sometimes having multiple fathers in the same litter.
Phew. This one took, uhā¦ a bit longer than expected due to other projects both irl and art-wise, but itās finally here. The long-awaited domestic animal infographic! Unfortunately, I didnāt have enough space to cover every single domestic animal (Iām so sorry, reindeer and koi, my beloveds) but I tried to include as many of the āmajor onesā as possible.
I made this chart in response to a lot of the misunderstandings I hear concerning domestic animals, so I hope itās helpful!
Further information I didnāt have any room to add or expand on:
š āBreedā and āspeciesā are not synonyms! Breeds are specific to domesticated animals. A Bengal Tiger is a species of tiger. A Siamese is a breed of domestic cat.
š Different colors are also not what makes a breed. A breed is determined by having genetics that are unique to that breed. So a ābluenose pitbullā is not a different breed from a ārednose pitbullā, but an American Pitbull Terrier is a different breed from an American Bully! Animals that have been domesticated for longer tend to have more seperate breeds as these differing genetics have had time to develop.
š It takes hundreds of generations for an animal to become domesticated. While the ādomesticated fox experimentā had interesting results, there were not enough generations involved for the foxes to become truly domesticated and their differences from wild foxes were more due to epigenetics (heritable traits that do not change the DNA sequence but rather activate or deactivate parts of it; owed to the specific circumstances of its parentsā behavior and environment.)
š Wild animals that are raised in human care are not domesticated, but they can be considered ātamed.ā This means that they still have all their wild instincts, but are less inclined to attack or be frightened of humans. A wild animal that lives in the wild but near human settlements and is less afraid of humans is considered āhabituated.ā Tamed and habituated animals are not any less dangerous than wild animals, and should still be treated with the same respect. Foxes, otters, raccoons, servals, caracals, bush babies, opossums, owls, monkeys, alligators, and other wild animals can be tamed or habituated, but they have not undergone hundreds of generations of domestication, so they are not domesticated animals.
š Also, as seen above, these animals have all been domesticated for a reason, be it food, transport, pest control, or otherwise, at a time when less practical options existed. There is no benefit to domesticating other species in the modern day, so if youāve got a hankering for keeping a wild animal as a pet, instead try to find the domestic equivalent of that wild animal! There are several dog breeds that look and behave like wolves or foxes, pigeons and chickens can make great pet birds and have hundreds of colorful fancy breeds, rats can be just as intelligent and social as a small monkey (and less expensive and dangerous to boot,) and ferrets are pretty darn close to minks and otters! Thereās no need to keep a wolf in a house when our ancestors have already spent 20,000+ years to make them house-compatible.
š This was stated in the infographic, but I feel like I must again reiterate that domestic animals do not belong in the wild, and often become invasive when feral. Their genetics have been specifically altered in such a way that they depend on humans for optimal health. We are their habitat. This is why you only really see feral pigeons in cities, and feral cats around settlements. They are specifically adapted to live with humans, so they stay even when unwanted. However, this does not mean they should live in a way that doesnāt put their health and comfort as a top priority! If we are their world, it is our duty to make it as good as possible. Please research any pet you get before bringing them home!
#I just started infodumping about cats#it happens#theyāve been my forever specialist subject#please feel free to correct me if I got anything wrong#last I checked most of this stuff was factually accurate
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ik im gonna HAVE to choose some sort of career at some point in the future to pay for my own goddamn survival in this capitalist dystopian hell but genuinely idk WHAT to do.
sure commission work could definitely HELP but i dont have the energy to just. Draw. All The Time.
(cw for stuff under the cut: mentions of sex work & sexual assault, but thatās more so just my FEAR of it)
(hate to vent on main but i just had to get it outta me ough)
id say ill just be a stripper or do some other kind of sex work, bc i am definitely conventionally attractive (to a certain extent, i am hairy) and men would absolutely be down for it, but i am Terrified Of Men. like im not even kidding i am quite literally scared of cishet men, and id never WILLINGLY hook up with a cishet guy, but if i were to do sex work then most of my patrons would PROBABLY be cishet guys.
and sex sells, yeup. stripping pays well, prostitution too i believe, so i could make BANK off selling my body and basically killing whatās left of my sanity for a place to live and some extra cash for food and water, maybe a little snack or two if im lucky, and yeah i am very sex-favourable (despite lacking any form of nonplatonic attraction to actual people) and ive got the libido to do it, but idk. even if i get paid well, im still scared of what might happen.
maybe i just watch/listen to too much true crime but still. even in my normal everyday life NOW i live in fear that i might get saād. i rarely go outside during the summer because hot, and also just in general because sensory issues related to light (fucking hate the sun) and some other general phobias, and im almost ALWAYS just in my room doing nothing in particular, but im still scared of Some Fuckshit popping up outta nowhere and doing some freak shit to me
maybe ill just couchhop forever. or die before my parents and brother.
idk this was supposed to be me complaining abt capitalism n all that shit but now its just a vent. oops
#cw sex work#cw sa mention#cw rape mention#cw vent#vent#text#buggieās rambles#idk man#the world aināt right. it better be fixed before my 30s or im committing murder#GOD I DONT EVEN WANNA THINK OF BEING IM MY 30S#I DESPISE THE PASSAGE OF TIME!!!!!!!!!! EVERYTHING SHOULD JUST BE OK FOREVER AND EVER AND ILL BE HAPPY WITH MY FRIENDS AND PARENTS AND CAT#i need to either scream or throw something but doing either will physically hurt me :( wa#this is what happens when i get too happy š my brain is just like Hey You Might Get Kidnapped And Raped. If You Go Outside#like fuck off dude let me have a good time for once#god damn intrusive thoughts fuckin me up when i least expect it like the spanish inquisition#good way of keeping my ego in check ig. whatever
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