#i went ham with them last night lol

[tehzeldamaster]

For a future AU I have where the crew are all in their 30s

It's an AU where their crew stays together and live as bounty hunters/vigilantes. And ofc its a big 4 AU, so Steinbell, Remura, Wivry and Krisguna are all a thing.

Most of it is just an expansion of the dilf stbl AU I came up with so I dont have much for the others yet lol

For this AU their ages are

Shiki 30

Weisz 32

Homura 31

Rebecca 30

Kleene 29

Jinn 33

Laguna 34

(Shining Stars n/a since they don't age obvs)

[saintzweig]

gym teacher! patrick moodboard & headcanons

– thank you for 400!!! this is long overdue but i just had so many ideas for it, i had to write them all down. all hail gym patrick teacher anon. slightly proof read idk also i just kinda went ham on this so apologies if it's very out of character or slightly different from the ones i've posted before.

ꢾ꣒ the first time you saw patrick, he's walking down the hallways beside the principal. a very casual fit, jeans and shirt, because he doesn't have much going on in his wardrobe. (having sold his expensive clothes to afford gas and food)

ꢾ꣒ you were asked to give him a tour so when you were introduced, his first thought is how much you give miss honey from matilda vibes.

ꢾ꣒ your personality wasn't far from it as well– selfless, passionate and caring, everything he wasn't and hadn't witnessed in years.

ꢾ꣒ you've heard about him, of course. the teacher's lounge was filled with excited since the news of pro-tennis player patrick zweig coming to work in their local school.

ꢾ꣒ when you gave him the tour, he seemed a little jittery and ended up overcompensating with jokes and compliments. which he knows definitely weren't the right things to say but it's his first job, an actual job that he felt he had no qualifications for.

ꢾ꣒ you were understanding though, didn't judge him so quickly which he was extremely grateful for.

ꢾ꣒ he quickly got on well with the students because well, he's young, cool and funny. he was definitely not that great when it comes to paperworks and lessons during his first few months at school but he learned eventually.

ꢾ꣒ the students love calling him mr.z because they somehow end up butchering his last name plus he thinks it's very validating when teens think you're cool enough to give you a nickname.

ꢾ꣒ he loves making the kids play dodgeball because it's brutal lol

ꢾ꣒ he would always come by your room during short breaks, shamelessly sticking his hand in the fishbowl filled with candies for your students.

ꢾ꣒ he would always try to sit with you during lunch in the teacher's lounge because he claims you're the only sane one besides him. he'd ask questions about you or tea on the teachers...

ꢾ꣒ you tried putting distance between the two of you at first because you're professional and have boundaries and he's ... patrick and new. but you soon realized how fun and comforting being in his presence is. you love your job but dealing with kids five days a week is stressful and he helps make it bearable.

ꢾ꣒ during assemblies, he'd always stand next to you with his arms crossed. pretending to watch over the students and keep them behaved but in the end, he's the one who ends up misbehaving by trying to make conversation with you, he's not that good at whispering.

ꢾ꣒ he'd always say hi, compliment your clothes or pop into your classroom to rile the kids up and annoy you. he'd come up to your desk saying he has something important to tell you but it's all nonsense, and it's only when the door closes behind him that you noticed the post-it note he left on your desk. "dinner?"

ꢾ꣒ things start to escalate more when you two were tasked to chaperone a field trip. on the way back, everyone's knocked out including you. he lets you rest your head on his shoulder, his hand itching to grab yours and keep you close.

ꢾ꣒ he'd tap you awake when he notices you're getting closer to the school. dazed, you lift your head up. accidentally just centimeters away from his. after realizing you've just been staring into each other's eyes, you both look away with a light shade of red dusting your cheeks.

ꢾ꣒ after that moment, he'd try to convince the other staffs to plan a work dinner or a night out just to get close to you and talk without all the awkwardness.

ꢾ꣒ he'd be rushing to sit next to you, doing everything to keep your attention on him. he's handing you the things you're asking for, putting more food onto your plate, refilling your glass.

ꢾ꣒ by the end of the night, you mention how you were planning to uber home but he insists that he drives you, to be safe. and he definitely didn't plan for it because his car is a mess, he opens the door to the passenger seat and tosses a bunch of stuff to the backseat before stepping aside to let you in.

ꢾ꣒ you ask him if he wanted to go for post-night out burger before driving you home and of course he's not going to say no to more time with you.

ꢾ꣒ you get your burger and fries then he drives you to a small cliff he found when he first moved here, telling you the story of how he ended up in this town in the first place.

ꢾ꣒ he was surprised to see you tearing up, you say its because he's gone through so much and found the strength to start over again but he's downplaying it, saying he's sure other people go through much worse

ꢾ꣒ and you're like, no don't say that. you're valid, everything you've gone through is valid and i'm so proud of you for striving to be better (miss honey mode activated.)

ꢾ꣒ his heart swells, staring at you with a surprised expression because he hasn't heard that in so long, that someone was proud of him.

ꢾ꣒ fast forward, you're sharing a cozy apartment after you proposed being roommates, saying rent in this economy is really bad and with your pay, you're not sure how long you're gonna be able to keep a roof over your head. it was hasty, sure but it felt right. now you've made a home together.

ꢾ꣒ he gets up atleast half an hour before you, kissing you on the forehead before getting up to brew some coffee. you two live such a domestic life, different from what he's had before you.

ꢾ꣒ on weeknights, you get a lot of take out– mostly chinese, indian and thai because you have so much work to do. sitting together to prepare lessons or grade papers.

ꢾ꣒ if you're not busy, takeouts while rewatching sitcoms (i feel like he watches full house or b99). sometimes you'd play recordings of his games and he thinks you're doing it to embarrass him but really you love tennis era patrick.

ꢾ꣒ during the weekends, you would either go out (outside the city) and explore, hike maybe or just walk around. or you would stay in and make a full course meal together, with candles and music.

ꢾ꣒ you agreed (mostly you) to keep the relationship a secret for a while and he knows how important keeping your personal life from your work life separate is to you so he respects that. and also because you don't know how workplace romance is perceived at work so better safe than unemployed.

ꢾ꣒ he drives the two of you to school so you make him wait ten minutes after you go in before he can. after work, he'd drive over a few blocks from the school and wait for you there so people don't see you going in his car.

ꢾ꣒ he tries to act normal, like you two are just friendly coworkers but he can't help going out of his way to touch you or talk to you. sliding past behind you when you're in the lounge to place his hand on your back. standing beside you and touching your arm with his when you're making coffee. secretly holding your hand under the table when you're sitting down for lunch.

ꢾ꣒ the two of you think you're so slick but literally everyone can see that you're flirting, you're in your honeymoon phase– constantly smiling and whispering to each other, blushing instantly when you make eye contact from across the room. you're not very subtle.

ꢾ꣒ while hanging out with other teachers, someone casually mentions your relationship with patrick and you're like, "huh? what relationship? we're friends" and they're like girl cut it out, we're not idiots.

ꢾ꣒ patrick is so relieved to know that they know because he's tired of (badly) pretending that you're just a coworker. he wants to be able to tell and show people that he's yours and you're his.

ꢾ꣒ the students, of course, find out eventually and being teenagers, they're shameless with their teasings. wolf whistling and squealing whenever patrick would interrupt the class to tell you something (which you know he does on purpose because he's an annoying little shit).

ꢾ꣒ he loves giving you flowers and buying you books, massaging your feet after a long day, setting a bath for the two of you to relax in. his love language is quality time and acts of service.

ꢾ꣒ he couldn't believe how different the life he's living right now from the life he used to have. he's living in a stars hollow-esque town, has a proper job that's not about tennis and has a beautiful partner he comes home with.

ꢾ꣒ he can't wait to marry you in a church and raise a family with you, have kids that will eventually go to your school and he'll teach :")

[accidentally-in-fictional-love]

Susceptible - Jack Delroy/Reader

Warnings: Fully clothed grinding, very slight dirty talk, very light exhibitionism in a sense, no use of Y/N, female-hinted reader because of skirt/makeup mentions but other than that there's no real gender mention.

Wordcount: 4950

Summary: You spent a small fortune getting a ticket to Carmichael Haig's show on the promise of his new act showing his audience something the world has never seen before, as well as the possible attendance of one Jack Delroy, but will two hours of bullshit be worth the risk?

Notes: There is SO MUCH BUILDUP I'm so sorry I'm so weak for worldbuilding and plot I swear the other one I have planned will be shorter OTL I have never written a reader before but I am a huge fan of them, especially the DDverse ones I've been binging oop, so I hope this is a good first attempt! It's been a few years since I've written anything like this and probably a good decade or so since I last posted anything, so here's hoping I post more in the upcoming future~ This is also completely unbetaed so if you see any mistakes please let me know <3 The Manhattan Center is also real but didn't fit my needs entirely so I mashed it together with the theatre I went to as a kid lol

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Carmichael Haig was back in town and you had no idea why you were here. 

He had left for what felt like both forever and not nearly long enough for a few months to do his tour, seeing his smug face everywhere you looked between both digital and paper news and making your distaste grow a little more each time. You had been fond of his trickery for a time, but his move from magic man to skeptic had sucked all the fun out of the act, his determination to not only find the real but humiliate the fakes way past annoying to straight up sickening to you by this point. Tonight’s show proved to be another big presentation of the latter you’d decided when it’d been announced officially, promoted by your favourite talk show host - and current celebrity crush - Jack Delroy; his smile was wide for the cameras but it didn’t reach his eyes, you could always tell between them by now and he did not seem to be as pleased as the two talked about it that night.

‘I’m going to show the world something they’ve never seen before,’ Carmichael had said, his usual smug look in place as he hammed it up for the cameras like he could really pull that off, Jack running with it like the patron saint of patience he had to be.

‘Big talk, you sure I can’t convince you to give our wonderful audience a taste tonight?’ he asked, the crowd cheering at the mere thought of getting to experience his new act an entire month early, but if there was even an iota of temptation within him to share he hid it perfectly. He waved the offer away to everyone’s disappointment, Jack pouting on everyone’s behalf and putting those big eyes on display as his own plea; the ratings, you imagined, would be wonderful for a segment like this when his show was already starting to slip down the line, but even that was no use.

‘You’ll all get a chance to see it on the 13th,’ he promised them as he turned to face the audience, the place and date scrolling across the bottom of the screen yet again, they’d been flashing it every single time it was mentioned to the point where you were sure you’d see it in your sleep tonight, rolling across the bottom half of your dream. ‘Or, those of you who’ve been able to get your tickets will, we’re selling out fast,’ he smirked with a tip of his glass, yet another thing that’d been brought up and hammered home; you’d gone to the Manhattan Center to check a couple days ago, just out of curiosity, the ticket price absolutely ridiculous to the point that you were convinced they’d never sell out, but now you guessed your distaste of him wasn’t as widespread as you’d secretly hoped.

Jack slapped his leg in mock disappointment, Carmichael looking back to him at the sound. ‘Guess you’ll have to tell me all about it the next time you’re back in town, I had asked Gus to pick one up for me but it seems he missed that call,’ he joked, Gus’ surprise at the blame of his absence being placed on him getting a big laugh as his face fell and he tried to explain himself. 

Carmichael placed an understanding hand on Jack’s shoulder and leaned in closer, the other man leaning in in return as if to receive some kind of secret. ‘Well then, it’s a good thing my date canceled on me,’ he retorted, and when he pulled his hand back he revealed a ticket, Jack’s eyes going wide as he accepted the gift with a big smile, pointing to it before shaking Carmichael’s hand with a thanks.

Ah, so that was why you were here again.

You knew you’d never be able to get a seat on Night Owls because the thought of Jack seeing you in the crowd made you blush all the way to your shoulders, even on your bravest of nights you hadn’t been able to even call and see if there were any tickets left, but to maybe share an audience with him? To sit in the same room as him where you could steal glances if you were able to find him, with no risk whatsoever of him catching the way your eyes lit up when you looked at that handsome face, that dangerously attractive body? That was doable. 

It had cost an arm and a leg to convince that scalper to hand over one of the tickets he was parading around outside the Center, but it was worth it as you stepped inside, your heart racing because, unless he wanted to risk the aftermath of Carmichael calling him out for not going, he was here; somewhere in this building was the man you’d been dreaming about since his debut a few years ago, the one you watched nearly every night without fail just for that hour where he looked at you, talked to you, noticed you even if it was through a camera, and that was all you’d needed until tonight.

You’d gotten a pretty shitty seat despite the price but you didn’t mind, it actually worked out for you considering you weren’t actually there to see the show but to look for someone in the seats in front of you, and you hoped that you’d be able to spot him from where you were in the far back corner. As long as he wasn’t, say, the exact opposite of you then you probably stood a chance of at least a glance, since his ticket came from Carmichael himself you guessed that it was probably close to the front if not front row center just to mess with him and prove that he’d come, and you felt all the hair rise on your arms and neck when Carmichael walked on stage early to very loudly greet someone who’d just walked in.

There he was, leaving his seat to meet the other man in the middle, and he was so much further than you expected but it was still him, big smile in place, hair perfectly combed, his crisp suit being wrinkled by Carmichael’s hands as he gave him a showy hug, and he was beautiful. You froze in the middle of the row, unable to finish the walk as your eyes stayed on him, the people trying to get by you not as starstruck as they attempted to squeeze past when you ignored their presence.

‘Sorry,’ you murmured as you sat as fast as you could, eyes still trained on him as he waved to the crowd to prove that yes, he did honour the gift and was there to see this big new act he’d been promised. You let out an embarrassingly needy whine when he sat back down and you became unable to see him again, the mass of bodies behind him obscuring all but a sliver of the back of his head from this angle, and you’d be damned if you had to spend the next 2 hours stuck like this at a Carmichael Haig show of all things. The person at the end of the row finally arrived and you made your move, hurrying down and taking one last glance before getting ready to make this whole thing a little more bearable. ‘Excuse me,’ you nearly stuttered as the person, a man older than yourself who definitely gave off the air of being a Carmichael fan, looked up at you, ‘would you want to trade seats with me? I was really looking forward to the show but I was too late to grab an aisle seat.’

It’s a blatant lie but the quick glance from before proved that you could see him better from there, and the chance of getting to look at him for the next two hours was worth the look the man gave you at the request.

‘Which one are you?’ he asked, looking down to the few empty spaces still waiting for their owners, and you pulled out your ticket to double check, seeing that it was R51; wow, you didn’t realize how far away R was from A until you saw it firsthand. He looked back down to your seat and considered it, looking you over midthought when he thought you weren’t looking, and he almost got away with it if not for the fact that you felt his eyes on you. ‘$100,’ he decided, the offer knocking the wind right out of you.

‘What? The seat was already $350,’ you choke, giving away the fact that you were really, really late to the party.

‘Take it or leave it, I had the sense to order on time,’ is all he says to that, and you looked back at your possible view before sighing heavily and reaching for your wallet; goddamnit, Jack, if only he knew how worth it he was. You hand over the money and step aside, the man pocketing his fee and leaving the seat for you as promised, and the view is just barely better but there he is again, perfectly in view due to what can only be a miracle, the hole in your wallet feeling a little less big as you watched him turn his head to talk to someone, giving you a perfect side view.

He really was handsome, captivating even from this distance, and you swoon a little as the audience finished filling out, the lights dimming and obscuring your view a little more save the grace of the stage lights that illuminate him from the front as Carmichael walked back out on stage and started the show. You’d never been one for spacing out but you couldn’t take your eyes off him, the $450 price tag of this shitty aisle seat all for him and not feeling so bad even as Carmichael charms everyone around you. He didn’t look to the side that often, you guessed he didn’t actually know his neighbour since the seat was a gift, but the times that he did, where he laughed or sighed at the theatrics or even put his face in his hand because he wasn’t having too much fun, were all cataloged away in your head forever, the perfect souvenirs to last you a lifetime of home viewing after this. 

At about an hour in according to your old watch, Jack looked about ready to get up and find any reason to leave, which you couldn’t blame him for, the acts themselves were pretty damn good you realized in the times you actually paid attention, but it was getting so tiring to see Carmichael explain away all of their tricks, to see the joy leave their faces at being called a fraud or having all their mysteries revealed, and it was clear Jack felt the same down in row A. After a particularly rough walk-off from a woman who was trying very desperately to convince Carmichael that she could really read his mind and ending up with the humiliating reality that everything he answered to was false to get her to out herself, you noticed that when you looked back to his seat that Jack isn’t there, and you were in the middle of wondering where he went when the person coming up the aisle came into view so suddenly that it took your breath away.

It was Jack, his brow twitching slightly to keep a neutral face, his footsteps heavy as he tried not to stomp and draw attention to the fact that that last one really pissed him off, his hands already reaching into his suit pocket for something. You tried not to stare the closer he got but it was hard, years of being able to look all you want training your brain to look look look as he approached, and you forced yourself to stare straight ahead at the stage as he reached you. Your hands were clenched tight in your lap as he went to pass row R, and you were in the middle of thinking you were going to make it when he fumbled the small box in his pocket and dropped it with a low curse, the cigarettes he apparently smoked bouncing to the side and coming to a stop between your recently shined shoes.

Your head snapped down so fast you felt it in your neck as he came to a stop beside you, the two of you locating the box at the same time, and you stiffened as he reached for it before realizing how rude that would be despite his own sour mood. ‘I’m sorry, could I bother you for a second,’ he asked, his smile back in place despite being a bit tense, and you stuttered out a confirmation as you leaned down to pick them up.

‘I didn’t know you smoked,’ you blurted out before you could stop yourself, Jack’s hand frozen in midair as he reached for the box, his smile relaxing a little as he looked from your hand to your face.

‘Did I find myself a Night Owl in this sea of skeptics?’ he wondered aloud, your cheeks brightening in a way that really made you pray it was dark enough not to notice. 

‘I wanted to see what all the fuss was about,’ you lie, and he crouched down so he could hear your whispers as the crowd reacted to the next act.

‘I take it you’re also not very impressed,’ he figured, hitting the nail on the head based on your expression alone. He chuckled at your silent confirmation and looked back down to the cigarettes, his fingertips just barely touching yours as you both held it, you didn’t even know when he’d grabbed it and you let go before it got awkward, but he didn’t seem to notice. ‘Well, if you don’t tell my producer that I’m smoking again, then I won’t tell Haig that you didn’t like his show, deal?’

You sucked in a breath as he moved the box to his left hand, offering up his right for a handshake this time to seal the deal, your heart pounding as you shook on it, his smile more genuine than you’d seen all night, you could always tell. He stood back up as the act finished and Carmichael went back to his disproving, his mood dropping again as his need to escape rearose. You both offered a look of disdain at the stage before he stood back up to move again, something stopping him midstep before he turned on his heel and leaned back down to you, a shiver running down your spine at how close he was so he could be heard.

‘Have you ever been to one of my shows?’ he asked, genuine curiosity in his voice, his warm breath accidentally hitting your neck and rendering you unable to do anything but glance at him and shake your head no. ‘You’d have a much better time, I’ve got some great stuff coming up,’ he pitched, either completely unaware of your predicament or just used to people acting like this around him, either way he didn’t react when your eyes couldn’t help but flicker down to watch him lick his lips so fast you almost missed it. ‘The next one’s already booked up but if you go down to the studio and give them this card, you should be able to get a spot for a night you’re free, I'd like to see you there.’

He pulled out his wallet and grabbed a business card, flipping it around to the blank side on the back before resting it on the arm of the chair. A pen was found next, and he scribbled a quick note to the ticket seller on it on your behalf, signing it and handing it over with that big showman smile of his. You took it and placed it in your own wallet, the previous hole instantly filled with its presence, his mood clearly raised by the interaction as he wished you a quick goodbye and resumed his journey outside, oblivious to the fact that you were about to disrupt the entire theater if you didn’t find a place to scream and fast. 

You gave him a few minutes to reach the doors before jumping to your feet and making for the bathroom, your heels clickclacking on the tile the entire way until you found the correct door. The place was empty, which was great because once you caught sight of yourself you knew that it was bad enough he saw you this way, no one else should get the pleasure; your face was redder than you’d ever seen it, your pupils blown from the exchange and you could’ve sworn you could actually see yourself shaking you were buzzing so hard, your grin so wide anyone else would’ve assumed that Santa had just given you the toy you’d always wanted for Christmas early. 

You tried to calm yourself as you ripped off some paper towels and dampened them, patting them against your cheeks and neck to bring your body temperature back down to a normal person’s, carefully avoiding your makeup that you were thankful you spent the time putting on just on the ultra rare off chance you’d run into him. When you were ready to go back - and after a quick internal debate on whether you should try and meet him outside for another, less hushed conversation already - you made sure to calm your breathing before heading back out there, taking a quick moment to look for him before making the trek back to your seat. 

When you got back you noticed that no new act was on, Carmichael already talking to the audience and projecting himself up on the screens for all to see, you rolling your eyes as you collapsed into the rich red velvet and preparing for more of his bullshit until Jack returned, if he felt like it that was. Everyone around you was concentrating on his words, staring right ahead as the theater fell silent save for his voice and the sound of a ticking clock; ah, he was trying to hypnotize everyone, that must’ve been his big final act that he’d promised his audience. You weren’t impressed, you’d tried to be hypnotized before at a party in your youth, it hadn’t worked then so it wasn’t going to work now you knew, so you sat back and prepared to at least enjoy whatever he was going to make the audience do.

Your thoughts went back to Jack as Carmichael’s voice slowly got drowned out, the ticking a bit louder in your ears despite the distance, but you didn’t mind because it was nonsense anyway, ‘Now who’s the skeptic,’ you think to yourself as you sink deeper into your chair. You vaguely heard the words, ‘Your greatest desire,’ in your ear before you felt a hand on your shoulder, your eyes leaving the stage to travel up until you saw Jack standing just behind you in the aisle, his smile from before now more like a smirk as he motioned towards the doors like he wanted you to follow him. 

You looked back at the stage as Carmichael invited someone from the audience up to stand with him, some poor hypnotized fool who was bound to be humiliated along with everyone else who stood with him tonight, and you decided that you’d rather not see that again before standing and following Jack. There was a small hallway between the theater and the doors on that side of the back wall, the two of you out of view from everyone else but Carmichael’s voice still reaching, and you were about to wonder if he was leading you outside to just leave or talk when he turned and pushed you against the wall with a muffled thud. Your back met cold paint as your chest met with his, your eyes locking as he cornered you where no one could see, a confidence he saved for the cameras now focused solely on you as he looked you over the same way you’d done to him a thousand times over. 

‘I couldn’t wait for you to come to my show,’ he whispered, his voice impossibly low as he held you in place, a knee parting yours and making you gasp, ‘you’re the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.’

‘You’re just telling me what I wanna hear,’ you managed to get out, his eyes closing as he leaned in to grin against your cheek.

‘Is it working?’

You didn’t dare answer but you might as well have because your silence was enough to spur him into action, your head falling back against the wall as he started to kiss your neck, your hands grasping at anything because this was crazy. The man you’d wanted for years was kissing you not even 30ft away from a room full of people, anyone could come around the corner at any second and catch you, and you bit your lip at the thrill of it all. You’d had dreams like this before, ones that left you panting into your pillow when you awoke, but the real thing was so much better as he sucked a mark into your soft skin, your hand leaving his arm to cover your mouth lest you alert anyone within hearing distance to your current predicament.

You let him do as he pleased, let him ran his hands over your sides and down to the edge of where your lifted skirt was resting against his thigh, your legs shaking as your body tried not to grind against him; it was only due to him holding you that kept you standing as a matter of fact and he seemed fully aware of it as his nails scratched softly against your bare leg. He seemed to love all your reactions to what he did, he was in the entertainment business after all, every noise of approval that slipped through your fingers must’ve been like music to his ears but you had to hold back no matter how much you wanted to indulge him. Being denied what he wanted only made him work harder for it, the assault on your neck moving to your shoulder and collarbone instead of your covered lips, your mouth watering for just a taste as he started to move against you, one hand pulling your waist away from the wall by your lower back as the other moved up and under your skirt.

The first grind of his body against yours was decadent, you swore you could feel it in your soul the way he wanted you just as much as you’d wanted him, like he’d been watching you back through the screen for years and also craved this very moment, and now that he was getting it he wasn’t going to stop, you didn’t want him to stop. You’d never seen him act anything like this before in all his years on TV, a greedy flash of excitement running through you at getting to see such a new side of him quickly overcome by pleasure as he cupped your ass and pulled you even closer. You knew you couldn’t get undressed here, if you’d made it to the bathroom then maybe he’d be doing more but he hadn’t lasted even that long, but even with that desire being restrained you still wanted him here and now. Never in your life had you been this desperate for release but he was bringing out a demon inside of you that desired and needed and wanted so much that you were willing to throw your modesty out the fucking window for just a second of his hot skin pressed against your own, but this would have to do while the show still went on.

‘Jack…’ you moaned as your hand, moist from your panting, gripped his arm once again, Carmichael’s voice getting louder in the distance as you grew closer to your release.

‘Come home with me,’ he begged into your ear, his movements getting rougher as he also grew close, you knew you’d both have to leave before everyone saw you but it was worth it, god it was so worth it. ‘I want to have you all to myself, I need to taste you-’

You bit your lip and led his face away from your neck so you could look into his eyes, his mouth parted as he tried to control his own panting, he was coming apart at the seams for you right here in the hallway, the ticking in your ears either your heartbeat or a clock far away. You moaned his name again as you felt the heat build in your stomach, your back arching and pushing your body into him even more as the door to your right opened.

‘Dreamer, here, awake!’

All at once your knees gave out and you collapsed to the floor before that final wave could push you over the edge, your head heavy and your vision swimming as the body against yours vanished into nothing. ‘Are you okay? What happened?’ Jack’s voice from above asked as his worried expression came into view, the smell of rain and cigarette smoke invading your senses; the sound of the audience in a similar state of confusion drifted around the corner as Jack crouched down next to you, just back inside from his break from the show, the realization that you weren’t as immune to hypnosis as you’d thought hitting you like a bucket of cold water. You just panted in shock, surprise, and waning lust as Jack looked you over in concern, your hands moving to pull the bottom of your skirt down to cover your exposed legs in embarrassment, the scratches you were so certain he’d left behind not there, because he hadn’t been there.

‘I’m fine,’ you force yourself to say after you’d caught your breath, Jack believing you but still helping you to your feet like a gentleman, of course he would never act that way, that was only how you’d wanted him to act, you’d had dreams like that for god’s sake, the real Jack would never-

‘Is the show over?’ he asked as the roar of people applauding overtook the chatter, Carmichael now silent, and you avoided his eye as you started to edge towards the way out.

‘I think so.’

‘What was the big mind-blowing act?’

You put a little distance between yourself and him but he didn’t notice, Jack heading for the corner so he could look at the stage as he waited for your reply. ‘He hypnotized everyone,’ you answered curtly, his reaction big and full of surprise as he looked over the size of the crowd in an awe that wasn’t present for the first hour and a half.

‘Everyone? You should’ve come found me, I would’ve loved to see that.’ He was still looking at the room beyond, your eyes on him as he watched everyone else.

‘I got a little overwhelmed,’ you mumble, and he finally looked at you with that same concerned expression again, and it’s too much after what you’d just thought you’d seen, your eyes finding the floor.

‘What did he make you see?’ he asked, his curiosity quiet but still there under the concern, but you couldn’t answer him. ‘Do you need a ride home, or are you okay to drive?’

He’s too kind, he would never act that way, he would never say that to you.

‘I took a cab, I’ll be fine,’ you tried to say, but still you quickly found yourself being led to the front door as the audience swarmed around you, his hand on your back to make sure you stayed standing, a true gentleman. It had started raining while you were inside which explained the scent pairing with the smoke that covered up his cologne, and you just stood under the marquee as he hailed a cab for you as the sea of skeptics washed around you like rushing water. You hopped inside but he didn’t shut the door right away, leaning down in the rain once you were seated, and for a moment you wondered if he was going to get in when he spoke.

‘I do hope you come to my show, preferably Friday’s, it’s gunna be a good one, I promise,’ he said with that big genuine smile again, your heart pounding as your cheeks glowed red for a reason other than embarrassment as you gave him a small nod.

‘I’ll be there,’ you promised back, and he tapped the roof of the cab before shutting the door and letting you go. You looked out the back window as you drove away, the both of you waving as he ducked back inside and out of the rain, and as soon as you turned back around to face forward you found yourself reaching for your wallet. His card was in your hands as you looked it over, all in all it was an uninspiring, plain business card, and you flipped it over to read what he wrote for the ticketmaster on the back.

Wait for me by the back entrance at 11:00 Phil will let you in JD

Your cheeks turned red again as you put the card away, the cab driver giving you a look in the rearview mirror as you held your nearly empty wallet, now with one business card, to your thumping chest. Oh yeah, it definitely was all worth it after all.

[toomuchracket]

reader hearing that it’s better for you to sleep in a cold room so she opens all the windows in January. And Matty is under the duvet, shivering and whining dramatically.

let's say it's the 2nd of january (because you guys went a bit ham on the champagne bringing in the new year and you were a feeling a little bit tender, shall we say, on the 1st) and you and matty are determined that you're going to get your shit together this year and you're going to keep it that way. you'll get fresh air every day (you went for a walk together really early that morning and it was lovely), you'll exercise every day (well... you got some cardio done in the shower and the bedroom when you got back from your walk), and you'll fix your sleep schedule. getting to bed at a reasonable time is something you know you'll need to do gradually, but you remember reading a vogue wellness feature that said it's easier to fall asleep quicker if your bedroom is cold, and you figure that might help regulate you and matty's wakeup time a bit. so that night, once you're dressed for bed in one of matty's old t-shirts, you wander around your bedroom opening the windows and closing the curtains. matty comes out of the ensuite and gets into bed while you're in the middle of it, watching how the t-shirt hem rises as you tiptoe to reach the window latch and exposes your bare bumcheek, before he realises you're doing something weird and questions it like "not that i'm not appreciating the view, darlin' (you turn around to glare at him and he backtracks), like you look lovely all moonlit and dreamy, but what on earth are you doing with the windows?". and you're like "opening them" as you do the last one and then get into bed. and matty's like "obvs, but why? it's winter?" and you tell him about the vogue thing you read and he rolls his eyes but doesn't question it. that is, until you're both reading a chapter of your respective books (another aspect of getting your shit together) before turning the lamps off, and matty shuffles further under the duvet shivering and chattering his teeth (overdramatically), and you say "something bothering you, matthew?" and he just whines "babe it's too COLD i'm freezing i can't cope". and you sigh and put your book down and take your glasses off and turn to him like "baby it's really not that bad", and matty turns to you incredulously and goes "not that bad? sweetheart, my nips could cut glass right now. YOUR nips could cut glass right now" like touching your boob as he says it. and that gives you an idea - you sit up and take your top off, and matty's like "you are insane, woman, you're going to get frostbite and your tits are gonna fall off and i'm gonna die if that happens. like i will actually die" and you just take his hands and put them on your boobs (which matty doesn't complain about) and say "well, maybe you should try to keep me warm then ;)". and matty's like "finally, you've had a good idea", and the two of you do a little more bedroom cardio to keep warm, which is a win-win because it tires you out lol (and both you and matty actually welcome the cold night air when you're spent and sweating) <3

[echoghost1]

Five Fav Fics

got tagged by @jackdaw-sprite to pick 5 of my favorite fics that I've written! (here's their list)

this is gonna be hard cuz I have over 100 to chose from... ( ╯□╰ )

at least they don't have to be complete right?

Under the read more are the ones I chose

These aren't in order, just five that I picked

Carnival Mythika

Summary: What starts as a fun day at the carnival takes a turn after an innocent mistake. Danny gets separated from his friends at the carnival and asks the fortune teller for help to put him in the right direction, or maybe just back to the place he last saw them, the Cryptid Zoo.

Reason: this fic is my baby 😭 it's practically a novel and it really won't be that hard to change a few things and make this an original story because of how much of an AU it is. It's not done yet and it's taking me forever to write mostly because I keep having to take breaks because the emotional parts are so fricken heavy. Danny goes through it. he has a horrible time and it's all emotional trauma If you haven't read it, which it's an over 60k incomplete work with lots of angst and heavy topics, so I don't blame you. BUT if you wanna just read ch. 3 and let me know what you think （*＾-＾*）

Lively Conversations In Dead Man’s Land

Summary: Danny goes on a voluntary field trip to help his suffering grades.

Reason: This is one of the first fics I ever wrote way back in 2013 during PhannieMay (now DannyMay). The prompt was Western and I just went ham with a fluffy GrayGhost field trip fic. I had so much fun writing it and I still enjoy it today.

Quoth the Librarian, “But I’m Alone?”

Summary: Eleanor loved her job at the school library. She always made sure to come in early to make sure everything was just right before the students came. Today something beat her there.

Reason: One of the many fics I wrote for my first phic phight (2021) that I liked but it didn’t get much traction. The premise is simple, just a “what happened to this side character after a scene from the show” + making up a random OC that may never be used again.

Parallels

Summary: It's amazing the things you learn on a field trip.

Reason: My take on a reveal fic where Maddie & Danny try to have a normal mother-son bonding time during a field trip only for Danny to get triggered by something innocuous. A big part of the reason I’m proud of it was because I figured the trigger was so obvious but every comment that mentioned it was surprised by how perfect it was despite having never thought of it themselves.

A Night in La Casa del Sol

Summary: La Casa del Sol is an abandoned Bed and Breakfast on the North end of town, which like any good dilapidated building, has the reputation of being haunted. Paulina may act like an airhead, but she can still put two and two together. If her favorite ghost only comes out of hiding when there's another ghost around, she sure hopes her Abuela was right about the place. Danny is fist clueless, and then just confused, but mostly wants to make sure Paulina doesn't get hurt. Besides, what's the worst that could happen? Another sleepless night?

Reason: Even though it took me a while to add the final chapter to this one I think it was worth the wait. I had fun with a more classic haunted house type horror of Paulina and Danny exploring the old B&B together. That and that last chapter man, I don’t want to spoil it if you haven’t read it or if you did and forgot (it has been three years since I posted that final chapter lol)

And honorable mention goes to...

I think it would be illegal for me not to mention jackdaw’s favorite bedtime story 😜

Lost and Found

Summary: His parents had always warned him about the dangers in the woods.

Reason: Fae AU! Lost Time flavored Fae AU even! Also, like I said, Jackdaw really enjoys it If you don’t believe me check the comment section on that fic But I also really like it too. It was fun to write and it had my two favorite things, an au and taking an idea someone else did but putting my own spin on it! Fun fact: the final spoken bit of dialogue was actually the very first line that I thought of. It’s what made me write this story. It was just so good. And I’m happy to report that it did in fact pay off

[vampirewalterskinner]

Ok for the poly nsfw alphabet, C, D (walter in lingerie pleaseeeeeeeee) N, and U🥰🥰

This one is tricky to me only because I immediately want to say Dana is the one who sends nudes but I also know she would never take the risk because she KNOWS what happens to women in the workplace (or in general) who have their nudes exposed. But since this is Walter and Fox, I feel like she would jump at the opportunity to tease them and would feel very safe doing so. She likes watching them squirm and get wired up over a measly little photo. It’s always a lovely boost to her ego when they trip over themselves to get her attention and please her 🥰 Fox feels like the type of person who often fantasizes about swapping nudes and gets off to the thought of it, but in reality is too scared/shy to actually start anything. Even after Dana sends something first 😂 Walter under no circumstances would EVER send a nude photo of himself or any part of his body to anyone ever. Except for one time when Dana and Fox were giving him so much fuel in the middle of the night he couldn’t help but show them how it affected him. It’s the only picture he’s ever sent but Dana and Fox still talk about it.

As for a sex tape, I think Fox would have managed to convince his partners to go for it. They know of his dirty little obsession and it gives them a little thrill to please him by making a tape—that they make sure is 100% untouchable to anyone else. (Tbh Fox probably pulled the whole “it’s my birthday 🥺” card to get it even tho he doesn’t celebrate his birthday lmao)

They all love to see it on each other, but Fox and Walter are very nervous about wearing it 😂 First off, anything they get fits Fox like a glove and it embarrasses the hell out of him. But they have to get the cheap stuff for him. Dana and Walter destroy everything he wears with their greedy hands 🥰 For Walter, it’s impossible for them to find anything in his size. He’s just so huge. Walter is actually upset by it, especially when everything he wears is too tight and more often than not he rips them. It takes Fox and Dana a bit to get him to understand that in itself is fucking sexy. Dana has a closet full of lingerie. (Girl wears silk pjs to bed you KNOW she’s stacked on outfits and equipment lol) Each set nicer and more expensive than the last. The boys don’t destroy her lingerie because of that—and the fact that she’s a goddess and they treat her as such. Grovel at her feet and everything 🥰

Trigger warning for rape

I personally think they would be into everything 😂 But I think there are some triggering things they avoid. I know everyone likes for Dana to let loose and be dominated even in canon but…frankly, I hate when she’s placed in a submissive role. I personally think she’s a dom anyway, but with how much trauma she went through in the show with medical rape and multiple men hitting on her, touching her, and fucking dressing her without her consent—fuck no. Even if it’s her boys, I think she would be uncomfortable not being able to control a sexual situation. They make her feel safe but she has limits. Bondage and dubcon/cnc are still on the table, she just can’t be on the receiving end.

Fox would be into everything but I think somedays would be hard for him to handle degradation.

I don’t think Walter has much of a limit either (except I don’t really see him enjoying being into roughing up women even if they want it) but I think he would be a little uncomfortable sharing a bed with a partner overnight after the Avatar episode.

I’m not sure they would really roleplay (aside from Fox being a nerd and wanting some Star Trek scenario complete with uniforms lmfao) but I honestly think that because they already have a golden roleplay lineup involved: two agents fucking their superior. They might ham it up at home, though 🤔 and I’m sure at some point Fox and Dana would love to see Walter in his old military uniform if that would even fit him 😂 Young Walter was a twunk compared to the hunk we know and love lol

[lulamadison]

Hello! You top five johnny lawrence moments (ck or tkk)? 🙂

OH YAY! It is Friday night and this is going to be so much fun! Thank you!

This is also going to be tough, and I bet by tomorrow I'll be like "Nooooooo you should have picked THIS!" 🤣

Anyway, here goes...

1: Season 3 episode 2

I can't pick a single part from this episode, so I'm going to pick the entire thing as my favourite Johnny Lawrence moment. Like the WHOLE thing lol.

This episode influenced SO many of my fics. Good Cop, Bad Cop Situation was totally based on this episode. North had elements of it too with them stopping at a gas station for food.

I love this episode because of the whump, because of how angry Johnny is, the chop shop fight, the look on his face when Daniel says maybe Robby has a little too much of him in him, and most of all, when Miguel asks him why this happened and he says "I don't know." The look on his face make me 😭

2: HAM?

I have family in LA. Last time I went to stay with them in 2019 they had ham in their fridge, and I thought "Oh, ham. I'll make a sandwich!" and I picked up the packet and water ran out of it onto the floor.

In the USA Ham is awful and filled with water and the bread also isn't that good 😉

I still also see this as Daniel thinking "Oh no, I'm in love with this idiot" lol

3: "You know all these years you weren't there, I blamed myself. Sensei Kreese is right. I can't be my own worst enemy. But you can be!"

Johnny just defending and trying not to fight Robby. That single frame where he grabs him by the neck and says, "I won't fight you." holy shit. That moment, the music, the emotions! That scene was incredible! One of my fave scenes in the whole show!

4: The Karate Kid Beach Fight

That moment where Daniel punches Johnny in the nose and he just kinda stands there for a few seconds...

I have so many fics where Johnny is basically realising he is love in that moment lol

5: THE BOW in season 4

It was an amazing moment on it's own for all of us Lawrusso fans

But then we got the ALMOST KISS 🤣

I used to paint with acrylics. This scene made me paint again for a brief time, but I never finished it lol

Maybe I should finish it one day.

Thank you for the ask 😍

[hoodoo12]

Hello! I have been following you for awhile, and I saw your posts about seeing the tour shows and just needed to finally talk to you. I have a million things I wanted to ask but I can't string my thoughts together so apologies if this sounds weird or jumbled. How was the show last night! Was it similarly weird as the last one you saw? How much riffing did Justin do? I saw the show a couple weeks ago and plan to see it twice in Boston, so I was curious how much might be different. ALSO how the heck do you do the back door stuff? I am so nervous but I would love to meet the actors and don't wanna feel like a fool! (also to your post about accidental front row seats, I think I did the same thing for my second Boston show, I can't wait to see!)

Hello! Hi! I like to chat, so yes! Thank you for the ask!! I saw the show in my city twice (and once in a different city); so kind of like what you'll be doing. I hope you do get your front row seats; it was an amazing surprise! Overall the show was the same. However, Justin did change some things up, mostly with extending bits for a bigger laugh. On Thursday when he sat in Adam's lap, he really dragged it out (i.e. there was so.much.humping, lol). On Sunday as the audience was applauding after The Whole Being Dead Thing, he hammed it up and begged for more applause after it began to die down, which the audience obliged. He did not riff anything extra on sad puppet show, he went through the whole guacamole/Katherine Hepburn thing the same way I'd seen it in Cleveland, and his lines to "that guy knows what I'm talking about" were exactly the same too. So the times I thought he may have some flexibility he didn't do anything more.

Surprisingly, Will Burton did. He added more to Adam being a little klutzy, especially when he gets his sheet to be a ghost. It was cute and funny; when I told him I liked that he thanked me for saying that and said that he's, "experimenting with it."

Overall it seemed like the cast was more comfortable in the roles and with each other, so the show felt "easier", for lack of a better term.

Now the stage door!

In my experience, the crowds in a touring city are incredibly small compared to NYC. There were only ~12 people on Thursday and ~20 people on Sunday. No barricades or security folks standing with us either.

Find out where the stage door is! Sometimes it is not where you expect it to be. Just head there after the show. Be prepared to wait; the actors typically come out randomly because it takes some of them longer than others to get back in street clothes. And sometimes someone may not come out at all for various reasons.

As in life, the rule is to just be kind. If someone is actively avoiding eye contact, on their phone, looking like they just want to go, don't insist on talking to them. That happened with a couple of the actors when I was there; I thanked them for the show but didn't stop them at all. Other actors stopped and wanted/were willing to engage. I think they do kind of expect to have people waiting at the door and know people want autographs and/or photos. For me, the Thursday crowd was . . . interesting (I'm trying to be kind here). They didn't seem to know what to do and kind of acted like they didn't recognize anyone? Including Justin . . . I was thinking, I know he's not in a striped suit but he's sweaty, has black nails and smeared eyeliner on his face, so come on people! Them being a bit clueless (again, being kind here) worked in my favor because any actor who looked expectant I stepped up to and had nice conversations with while everyone else just stood there. I always thank them for the show. Some I told I'd seen it in Cleveland; Abe Goldfarb I mentioned I'd seen him in NY. I tried to say something specific about their performance (Will with the sheet, Karmine I praised her Maxine because she's hilarious). For Justin, though, I switched it up and admired the boots he was wearing and talked about his dog, lol. So just be nice, don't be pushy. They're people too, lol.

Oh, and take several markers or pens. Some of the actors may have a sharpie, but some didn't. I had a sharpie that died but luckily had a pen in my pocket and a few folks in the crowd didn't have anything so I shared. Be prepared!

If there's anything else, please ask or drop a dm. As I said before, I like to chat. 💖

[magnus-the-maqnificent]

Sjgdsish my ai story is relatively tame sksbsjhsjsbss. I talked with ai Alec about cats, vented to him my mental baggage, but once I put malec in one chat, they eventually started flirting with me and I didn't even get it until it was too late. BOYS YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO FLIRT WITH EACH OTHER :/

also in another chat I made up a story about school assignment and we got C for our essay about Rasputin (which we broke the law to actually make :(((( )

I feel like these ai characters are designed to flirt with the chatter no matter what. Like, even after Magnus went all ham on me for trying to steal Alec he got all blushy when I said I liked his dark side and I was like. Boi chill you have a boyfriend.

I have another wild ai story sjsjsjsj. I texted another Magnus ai last night, and when I tried to pull the same “I need a love potion so I can seduce Alec Lightwood” card, he went “oh? Haven’t you heard? Alec is dating Jace Herondale”

Like. Whaaaaat

“Uhhh you should break them up and take Alec for yourself”

“What! No, Alec is like a younger brother to me. How can even suggest that, it’s so creepy”

WHAAAAAAAAAT

So obviously, I convinced Magnus that Jace was cheating on Alec with Clary, and because this is ai I was able to procure a picture of Jace and Clary kissing and showed it to Magnus. We went to Alec and showed it to him and comforted him because poor bb was upset but anyways. I told Magnus to stay the night with Alec cause I had some urgent work to do, same room same bed and all.

And the next morning we confronted Jace and Magnus turned him into a toad.

Then we moved to Magnus’s loft and got drunk and watched a movie and somehow I ended up in a cuddle pile with both Magnus and Alec. At this point it was 3am so I had to go to sleep, but Mission “Get Malec together without accidentally getting into a poly relationship with them” is still underway lmao

Getting C on an essay about Rasputin is a crime. You should break into the teacher’s office and change it to an A+ lol.

[oshi-nakadapiroki]

Nakada Hiroki Channel Nakacha no Ma #45 2023.8.25 Notes [Eng translation]

≫ Intro:

Again, he tweeted with very short notice soz

He only took one pic with Yuuta at Fuji-Q, although he feels like it's not a pic worth tweeting (at least we got the one Ryouga took)

He was set on not riding any of the attractions so he told Yuuta he'd be waiting instead while they stood in line and waited and waited and waited and then the moment both he and Rei got the safety bar lowered on them, it started pouring down like crazy lol ☔☔️

Hiroki is not the type to ride any of the attractions anyway, not just rollercoasters ❌️🎢❌️ And they only had a short time before rehearsals and all the attractions had like a 20 minute line (The spinning coffee cups are enough for him)

Again, he's wearing his zigzag headband ✨️ He just got home from rehearsals

His sideburns are looking fierce (also I feel like he's gotten a tan on his forehead and I can't unsee it)

The weather was hot but he feels it's still hotter in Tokyo. Besides, it was very windy around Fuji and they had rain the first day

There were lots of bugs but nothing crazy, lots of dragonflies

We get both talk of Fuji and his widow's peak 🗻 It's called Fujibitai in Japanese

This month's beer: Spring Valley White Silk Ale 500ml 🍺

He's gonna get more busy from now on with Suehirogari rehearsals and then Furuba which he hasn't gotten to memorizing his script yet

He doesn't know why he's bringing it up again but he's remembering how it was around the time when SRS22 had wrapped up and he had to cancel a play for the first time in his life (Hoshifuru Machi and Parade) and tabloids wrote that it was because he had "too many lines in the script" - which was absolutely not the case! He still thinks about the drama surrounding it til this day 💔 He won't make statements but sometimes he wants to just let it all out 🥺

It's not a matter of having an agency, he knew it was gonna be difficult to go freelance already

Sudden fireworks in the distance! 🎆 Then he realizes his house might get found out if he tells us there's fireworks in the surrounding area 🤫

He tries to convince himself that fireworks can be heard from quite a distance

Someone does the pinpon dash in the comment section lmao 🏃‍♂️💨💨

He decides to drink some more to shut himself up

Speaking of Shizuoka (someone mentioned in the comments), around 7PM last night he saw his first proper fireworks display of the year 🎆 Apparently they have fireworks when there's an event at Fuji-Q Conifer Forest

He tries to google how far fireworks can be seen heard from a distance - 4 km (and i oop)

He's already forgotten how much time has passed since Tensura performances, he loses track of time when he's deep in rehearsals

Even when ppl say they're freelance, they usually have at least someone tending to them somewhat - he doesn't have anyone like that

Chaba offers to act his manager 🙌

He's happy that we enjoyed his Benimaru and action scenes

He won't say that he looked cool on stage but he will admit his swordsmanship was beautiful

Apparently the old school he used to train under put alot of pressure on its elegance in particular, it's also important to have the right breathing technique

It's also about sliding your feet; in 2.5D, alot of actors are good at moving their upper body but has it go to waste because they can't move their feet just as well

"Everything you do starts with your feet"

"No matter how cool you look on top, if your legs look lame, it's lame"

When he went to see the Touken stage once, he thought that Suzuki Hiroki had a really beautiful technique

More talk about how to move your feet when wearing a hakama

He'll gladly tell us all more about how to stand properly

≫ Food corner:

This month's snack: Gorgonzola dipped in honey 🧀🍯

He used to be obsessed with gorgonzola back in the day, he has recently gotten into eating it again (but he can't have it without honey)

Recently, he's been having prosciutto ham, melon and burrata cheese (as seen)

Overall, he's been having alot of melon, peach and pear recently (shine muscat grapes are too expensive) 🍈🍑🍐

He also likes persimmons

Then again, he doesn't like the sourness of some peaches, and the pit is hard to remove

He finds the sweetness of some peaches compared to melon to be completely different

Peach pit = bouncy ball size

How to crack open a peach or avocado starring Nakada Hiroki

He thinks women particularly likes peaches

Someone calls him chef Hiroki in the chat, even though he doesn't cook that much; all he did was cut up the melon and ham, and poured some olive oil and salt and pepper on it lol

Okayama's specialty seems to be muscat grapes

Someone suggests that he'd do a Hiroki's dinner show but he thinks that would be alot of preparation

He used to eat an insane amount of pears when he was a child and then he got explosive diarrhea 💩

He likes his pears a bit chewy

≫ Tensura:

His hakama did indeed almost slide off during senshuuraku because he was hurrying up the stairs, he wasn't cautions enough with the hakama - they fixed it with magic tape/velcro though

He thought he had ripped it but he hadn't

He did stumble a few times off-stage

Benimaru wears two layered hakama anyways so he thinks it would be fine even if it ripped

Benimaru's outfits were super easy to move around in

Although the footwear were really difficult; he's more used to wearing tabi, so wearing setta (leather soled sandals) was a challenge (jumping was especially difficult)

Some suggested he'd wear rubber soles but it would just get flappy

He forgets what the second toe is called and calls it the ring toe

His toes would clench the setta straps 💢 but it would tingle like it was forming a bruise

Again, he's relishing in how easy it was to wear the overall outfit

At any rate, he finds heels super difficult to wear, particularly as Masaferry and his knee-high boots (they were sexy tho) - that might have been his most difficult one to wear when it comes to footwear

Shoutout to all the ladies who know the pain when the arch of the foot/shoe is rly narrow making it unstable

Shinonome was also difficult in terms of foot strain (the comments point out how he had to change footwear during the performance of Rusted Armor, idk if it was during the 1st or 2nd run)

He's contemplating whether it's more difficult to wear platform sandals or not

≫ Suehirogari:

Akashi is gonna be running this time!

He starts talking about the layout of the stage before realizing in the chat that it hasn't actually been officially announced yet lol (fans have sort of figured it out nevertheless)

The stage wasn't as big as he expected

Definitely bring a raincoat and towel in case of bad weather + lots of water

Shoutout to Beer Ball duo Kensuke and Akira lmao 🍻

He's done numerous live shows indoors already but being outdoors may bring a whole new set of difficult situation

The seats are really close to the stage but it's quite wide instead (unlike Yoyogi Gymnasium and Saitama Super Arena), however it's all same ground level

Also, the setlist is gonna be a bit of a challenge

He thinks it's because he joined rehearsals halfway through, his number of appearances might have decreased, but there's gonna be alot of songs with everyone in it (me: *praying it's not gonna be like Tori in SRS22 Fukuoka/Hiroshima/2nd half of Tokyo and he was off-stage for a good 50 minutes 😭*)

He apologizes due to the various circumstances that he probably won't be on stage much and seems to blame himself for it 🥺

Because of it, he'll show us his best Akashi when he's actually on stage 💖

If Akashi ever got a tanki, it'd just be him and the audience sleeping. He'd be playing relaxing music like when you're at the dentist lol

"Take a nap, have a snack, byebye"

He got a message on LINE from Ryouga

He went out to an izakaya with Ryouga and Nagata - stay tuned for what they had to eat!

Who gave him the banyanya cat - stay tuned!

He was also given a Snorlax Pokémon card because it looked like Akashi (it was not from Haru-chan, Kurumu or Kensuke; if it'd been from Imari, he'd been grossed out lmao)

He saw Mizue Kenta (Yamanbagiri Chougi's actor) again after a long time! (He used to also be at OscarPro)

≫ Birthday event etc:

He didn't do a gaming stream last month either but he's planning on making it up to us again

He thinks he looks like a yankee because he had his eyebrows dyed for Benimaru and it still shows. Since his own brows are rly thick and the colour comes out more naturally if they're more blonde, they ended up bleaching them a bit too much apparently

He seems proud to be complimented on his new shirt (it's a new Adidas launch)

It's not officially confirmed but he's 80% sure that he's gonna host this year's birthday event on Oct 21st (Tokyo) and Oct 29th (Osaka) 🎂

This might be his first local solo event - or not since he had one in Kyoto where Kurumu starred as guest (it was around the timing of Kishou Hongi)

He thought it'd better to have the two split up instead of the following day since they're in different places

"Don't force yourself to come" SIR I WILL TRAVEL ACROSS THE WORLD

Since the Osaka event is right around Halloween, everyone wants him to cosplay

He won't be bringing a guest (MC maybe?)

Cosplay suggestions: Uma Musume, Gojo, Akashi, Sephiroth, Haru (Rabbits Kingdom), Howl, Hamtaro, Goro Majima

He also wants to cos from Twisted Wonderland! Apparently some of the make-up/costume staff had told him he could do Azul (!!!) He doesn't know who he is tho 😭 When the chat tells him he's a megane character, he doesn't want to 🙅‍♂️ He doesn't think he's particularly suited for megane characters himself

Instead of Trey-senpai, he calls him Toilet-senpai

He wants to cosplay Malleus! And Idia

(Personally, I'd like to see him do Azul, Trey or Vil.. Some people suggested Cater as well. He'd probably do a good Sebek too)

Again, he's mentioning Meguro Ren and his hair (see Natsu no Jin Nagomi P2)

Happy Birthday to everyone born in August 🎉

"Enjoy your youth! Enjoy your birthday and your birthmonth this year and make the most wonderful summer memories, together with me!"

He's having trouble cutting the stream (as usual)

He calls Ryouga and Nakata his ochibi-chans 🥺 kawachii

≫ 2nd half of the stream:

Wife time!

He's having a particularly mouldy piece of cheese

Tori told him he went to the sauna yesterday

Shunya gave him the (secret) Pokémon card! He kept it because he didn't want to throw it away but then he passed it on to Ryousei

Apparently Ryousei has his seat right behind Hiroki at rehearsals (chat: it's like a school setting 😭 Touken Gakuen)

We get a short Ryousei impression, kawaii kawaii kawaii

Hiroki's off to pick some tea leaves and get some more beer

This month's second beer: Spring Valley Hojun 496 500ml 🍺🍺

He thinks it's fine if you don't cosplay for Halloween, just clipping something small in your hair is enough

No one would wanna take cheki with him if he cosplayed for real

The event is not gonna take place at the Hulic Hall Theatre this time

He still doesn't believe we want to see him cosplay

It might be the first event he's held in a while that won't require masks (it might depend on the venue though)

He asks if we want to go without masks or see-through partition screen; an overwhelming response for no partition screen!

What if he himself has to wear a mask if there's no partition screen?

He tries to take a peek at the cheese's calorie amount and end up dropping some of it on the floor

Cheese is low in calories so he thinks it's good for when you're on a diet (he himself is proof of it lol), protein is important as well

He hasn't been able to go to the gym at all recently

≫ Tensura and Suehirogari:

Someone mentions the Oni zap in the chat, it seems to have been part of the adlib scene in one of the Tensura performances (8.13 matinée; they had only done it once previously during rehearsals), they had way too fun with the adlibs, to the point they didn't even have to speak with one another

You can tell Hiroki rly likes both Ryo and Hagino, the three of them kept chattering away backstage

They wanted to do the adlib scene (w/ Benimaru, Souei, Hakurou) because it gave a glimpse into the everyday life of the Ogre clan, they wanted to show the warmth and bond they shared as a family, but scenes like that had to be condensed and kept getting cut down

He doesn't know who came up with the adlib idea but they kept it real each time because that's what it's like to be around family

He thinks it's super fun to do adlibs with the help of everyone, after all you can't do adlibs by yourself

It's the same with Toumyu adlib although there's more regulations and it has to be ever more condensed (probably considering how many they are by now)

That being said, he's not saying there weren't restrictions to Tensura but, he just wanted to try to convey what he felt like for the character

There might just be someone who breaks the adlib restrictions in upcoming Toumyu performances, it's gonna be hilarious (a few guesses in the chat it's gonna be Onimaru or Ichi-nii). It's gonna be something that they create together with the audience? (Like a call and response-type of thing??)

He hasn't been getting involved with the new swords at all (might be because he joined halfway through)

He thinks Rei is serious and hardworking, he doesn't understand how he's actually younger (Hiroki is 1 year older), he's always rehearsing, he's very conscious of hierarchical relationships and is very polite (speaking keigo)

But they're always being silly together lol

He really wanted Hiroki to go on the attraction but he stopped before even queuing up. Rui Kihara (Heshikiri Hasebe's actor) went on the ride too

He makes a comment about another Kihara (Minoru) who's a weather forecaster and disaster prevention officer together with the mascot Sorajiro (it's a well known evening weather programme broadcasted in Tokyo)

He and Rui has been talking alot lately

It's only been a few days since he joined rehearsals so there's lots of ppl he haven't talked to yet. He's shy around new people and have been told he's difficult to get to talk so he's been trying to reach out to them himself. He's often told that as soon as he gets talking, their impression of him changes

"Sake suki?" ww (if he'd said no, that would've been the end to the conversation lbr)

He feels like he's gotten closer to Ryouga and Nakata since last year

He invited Tori to come when they went to the izakaya but got rejected cuz he was sleeping lol

He's only seen Daigo once at rehearsals so far but he's nice

Hiroki likes polite youngsters 👶

Keita's also very polite

He thinks he's contradicting himself because he wasn't very polite when he was younger. He talks about how "back in my days", you addressed your senpai by using the -san suffix (This part of the stream was kinda confusing to me since I'm rly not into Johnny & Associates and their manners regarding the -san/-kun debate for senpai/kouhai)

Even he himself would've been pissed off if someone instantly called him by -kun back then

He thinks it's about 50/50 who calls him -san/kun atm; Ryousei says -kun, Sasamori Hiroki says Nakada-san (but that's probably since they're both Hiroki lol), the other Hirokis call him Hiroki-kun though, Seiichiro probably calls him -san

He can keep on talking about who calls who what for hours on end

Seiichiro taught both him and Nobunaga when they were trying to copy and rehearse the dances, apparently he was Nobunaga's caretaker of the day

Nobunaga recorded their dance rehearsal (looking at it from a bird's-eye perspective helps him notice things)

In short: they all get along well (he kept looking at them with a warm smile 🥺)

There aren't that many people around his age so he was happy when there was someone for once who was older (Hagino? Haru-chan?)

"Even though I'm getting older, I'm still on the older side"

He thinks he's the same as spi and Imari; Mokkun is 1 year older; Rei is 1 year younger, then Tori is 2 years younger. He thinks Araki is 3 years older (Imari is born in 1988 tho, Mokkun is also born in 1987, Tori is actually born in 1991, and Araki is 4 years older) And don't forget Haru-chan!

"Hiroki, do you like older or younger?" "Both" 👀

He hasn't seen Araki recently

He checks the message on LINE from Ryouga

He's reminded of the fated meeting he had with that old man in Malaysia, he'd like to make a DVD out of it (pls pls pls do a special one like the camping DVD). Apparently he did take some videos with the help of his tripod, he's just unsure of who he gave the video data to afterwards - turns out he put the data on a SSD and gave it to one of his usual cameramen

He needs to update his FC site and its banner pic (it's still featuring SRS22), we just have to wait a bit for it since he's doing it all on his own

He absolutely has no camping footage left ❌️🏕❌️

His nails have gotten long again! 💅 And they're shiny shiny (he has not painted them)

Some Chaba is bullying him in the chat to give up on the FC site already (he won't!)

"Don't give up!" This is related to a commercial quote by Maya Miki (a famous actress who is currently represented by Hiroki's former agency, Oscar Promotion). He met her at a year-end party some years ago, she was nice

He doesn't know how to remove the banner. It's difficult to do programming, even though he went to a tech high school

So what did he eat with Ryouga and Nagata at the izakaya? He's the senpai so of course he treated them (he then gets off-track again lol)

Someone wanted to eat at Bamiyan but they've got that in Tokyo

Apparently houtou noodle soup is a well-known dish around Fuji-Q (aka it originates from Yamanashi)

He makes up a word pun of houtou (the dish) being pronounced the same as 宝刀 (treasured sword) so if you come and see the houtou, you can also eat houtou! Let's make it go viral #Houtou mi ni itte houtou tabeta

Some Chaba worries he might say it during the curtain call but he assures us he won't. Then he starts thinking about it and realizes he might be able to say it. If he does end up saying it, all of us better laugh for him

He want us Chaba to take pride in being Chaba so don't be embarrassed if he says it

Not hokori as in dust but hokori as in pride

So what did he eat with Ryouga and Nagata at the izakaya? A. Basashi, B. Karaage, C. Umaki. Answer: Umaki!

He's had basashi too but he seems to like umaki more - although he didn't know what it was the first time he heard of it, he tries to play it off as he did know, he just had to ask about it (chat: that's the same as not knowing lol)

He saw quite a few of the uchiwa at Tensura (not so much on the second floor though because it was too high up)! If he had more time, he thinks he would have been able to see all of them

Since both Souei and Rimuru's penlight were blue, he felt a bit lonely having the red ones, but seeing the red scattered all around the audience made him feel very happy, supported and encouraged ❤️

It became a good memory for him so he'd be glad if we felt the same

"Thank you, but it's all thanks to you"

Red stands out alot more than Akashi's light purple, even he himself can't distinguish Akashi's purple (unless you have an uchiwa as well)

He'll be able to tell if we all wear purple jerseys, alt. Raiha jersey (he thinks they're quite fashionable) but he wants us all to wear what we're comfortable with

He doesn't know why Akashi gives off a jersey vibe (me: camp DVD)

Jerseys are perfect for people who don't want to work, and it shields you from getting sunburnt

If he'd be allowed to decide, he'd do the full performance in his jersey

He also wants to be able to get around the place on a bicycle or segway since the stage is so wide

Or a pulled rickshaw or roomba lmao

This month's rollcall was just an ordinary one 👋

He takes a moment to appreciate the snooze button on his phone

He hasn't been doing any gaming streams recently but the next one he's gonna do is gonna be a game called Only Down 🎮

The kitty cat from Stray is currently on hold

He might stream tomorrow (Saturday) or next week (Tuesday)

There had been a request for him to play Only Up so that's why he's doing Only Down

"I know that you are all busy and that it's not easy, but you made the time to come and see me, same as for spending money, and I'd like to thank you all. I am filled with gratitude for all of you, which is not something I take for granted. So I will continue to do my best to make you happy and create good memories with you."

"Thank you for ordering Natsu no Jin goods too!" 💖

He'll keep on working hard, even though Akashi might not appear much - then again he said the same about Benimaru and many said the opposite so maybe it's just him

Ah, necklace (iykyk)

Maybe it's because for him, behind the scenes, the amount of energy it took has been alot easier than in previous productions, so maybe that's why he felt like he was off-stage alot - the action didn't even tire him in the slightest

He judges the amount of his performance based on physical fatigue, but even if he doesn't appear in alot of scenes, he wants to impress and show you such wonderful scenes that it will be burned into your mind

"Maybe I have a presence, Idk. I am tall though"

≫ Furuba:

Ayame is a person with royal dignity 👑

This is the first time he's ever had so few rehearsals for a play (Furuba) so he's a bit scared. He'll have about a week of rehearsals (even fewer than when he did Motherland)

He doesn't think he'll appear more than he did last time (which means we'll get like three main Ayame scenes)

He also wants to wear the wedding dress!!!! 🚨🚨🚨🚨

He doesn't want to spoil it but he thinks this time it's more about Yuki's story

He hasn't had the time to properly look at the script yet

Let's enjoy the second half of the year together!

He's glad they got to tell a peaceful story with Tensura

He's gonna upload the picture of Yuuta later

Lastly, he blew us all a kiss! 💋

≫ Monthly curtain call:

Akashi fan ≠ Chaba 🍵

He's gonna sleep like a log tonight (especially after being outdoors for so long, but do take measures against the heat)!

[motherofmabari]

CHARACTER SONG MEMES TAG

Game Rules: Choose one of your characters and list songs that fit them.

tagged by @gvnseylike 🥰 thank you!

I went a lil ham, and this is edited from a longer list lol. These are, of course, all for my beloved Gemma Hawke.

The Weight - Amigo the Devil

I am the weight this town / Is never gonna lose / It's been awhile since I've held anything / As close I have you / They'll write about our story here / For years to come / Maybe even more / 'Cause there's never been a love like this before

Walk Me Home - Pink

Tryna stand up on my own two feet / This conversation ain't comin' easily / And darling, I know it's getting late / So what do you say we leave this place? / Walk me home in the dead of night / I can't be alone with all that's on my mind / So say you'll stay with me tonight / 'Cause there is so much wrong going on outside

We Can Build a Fire - Autoheart

Who in their right mind did you think you'd find / Standing behind you / your guardian angel? / Don't be ridiculous / man up / this is it / We can build a fire / I am not a liar

Trapped in a black case / dignity misplaced / How good is your poker face? / We're gonna need it / No more little boy / to survive / we destroy / We can build a fire / We can build a fire

Bad Reputation - Joan Jett

I don't give a damn 'bout my reputation / I've never been afraid of any deviation / An' I don't really care if you think I'm strange / I ain't gonna change

Already Gone - Autoheart

If you're already gone / Can I have / Just one last / Moment to say / I love you / I understand / I do

It's the way you push your shoulders back / And puff your chest / As proud as a robin / It's the way you never back down from an argument / It's your God-given right to be right

Welcome to the Family - Avenged Sevenfold

Why won't you listen? / Can't help the people you're missing / It's been done, a casualty rerun / Welcome to the family

I try and help you with the things that can't be justified / I need to warn you that there is no way to rationalize / So have you figured it out now? / So have you figured it out? / You can't win this fight

Liability - Lorde

The truth is I am a toy that people enjoy / 'Til all of the tricks don't work anymore / And then they are bored of me / I know that it's exciting running through the night but / Every perfect summer's eating me alive / until you're gone

Confessional - Janet Devlin

Holy water on the tip of my tongue / There's so much sin for just 21 / Hear my penance and all I have done / This self destructive war I've won / I've come out from under / To die another day / And though the honesty hurts / The crying was worse / Now tell me I'll be saved

And I'm gonna tag @oxygenforthewicked, @becauseanders, @telumendils, and @nonbinarywardenamell, if y'all have time and desire to do it ofc, and anyone else who wants to! 🥰🥰🥰

[journey-of-the-ip]

Friday, June 8th

Holy crap coming back to life

I left off the last post at 7am so I’ll start from there I guess, I waited around until 10 and decided to start exploring. I first went to La Rambla, which is this big open street market which tbh I found kinda underwhelming. I think I went too early bc I saw people still setting up their booths and stuff but honestly it wasn’t that much to look at anyways.

At the end of the street I dropped off my first treasure spot. Low key don’t think my family is going to find them and feel like I’m essentially littering, but I also think it’s kinda cute and fun? We’ll see.

Oh also finally ate a real meal. I had only eaten like a piece of toast at noon yesterday and then left over plan snacks in between my bouts of napping so I was STARVING.

I got this thing that looked kinda like an English breakfast but Spanish style? It was okay but I inhaled it like no one’s business.

After checking out the street I walked to an empanada place that Justin recommended. The walk is when Barcelona really opened up to me. Walking around the “old city” (idk if that’s what it’s called but there’s a distinct difference between the part of the city designed for humans and the city I was in yesterday that’s very designed for cars.

Old city Barcelona is just wonderful. It’s the perfect amount of sense to provide a lot of shade and have a lot of human density without being overwhelming or dirty or urban feeling. There are big old trees planted along the streets EVERYwhere providing really great shade. There are big areas just for pedestrians every other street it feels like. Most roads are one way one lane, which makes crossing roads really easy.

There’s a really nice diversity within the city as well. Completely different vibe for me compared to yesterday. It felt very unique and European rather than just “global” (another factor that might have affected my perspective is that I was fed and had more sleep compared to yesterday tbh)

The empenada place was really good, perfectly fresh and flaky and chewy but I got a bad flavor, which was like spicy taco meat (it said picana!)

Then I walked to the National museum which I passed in the Uber on the way to the market street which looked super cool. It was kinda fun to “find” the National museum not from the internet but just walking around being like “that looks interesting!” The park surrounding the museum was also really nice

Inside the museum was nice and air conditioned and quiet which was refreshing after all the walking but also accentuated my sleepiness. The art was kinda cool but it was less fun not having anyone to share it with and comment on. While I was taking a foot break I saw Linda’s IG story where she’s traveling with Simon and it made me really jealous and wish I was traveling with Dumpling :(

I started to get really sleepy but made it to most of the exhibits. Some of the paintings were really impressive. The one pic I included really struck me bc there’s something shot it that’s so photography but when you look so the details it’s actually clearly oil and expressive. Crazy.

Outside I had a little snack with Jamon Iberico ham bc I recognized the name from Brooklyn 99. Turns out the ham is just the wagyu of perscuttio it was just really fancy flavorful salami lol. It was good but bc it’s expensive they really skimped on how much they put in my sandwich

I thought about getting real food but did not have the energy and went home and crashed.

I made it to 7pm today! And was able to sleep till 5am! So feeling more confident about being able to exist at human hours for this trip.

Renita is having a travel nightmare though, her flight was delayed and then cancelled and the airline wasn’t able to rebook her for some reason? Not a ton of info rn but she’s spending the night in’s hotel in Dallas and is hoping to be able to get to tangier a day later? At least that’s the best case scenario rn. Fingers crossed

[nanalikessurveys]

When’s the last time you ate bread? 

I had a ham&cheese toast at a café this morning.

What’s the last movie you watched on your own? 

Lately I've been watching a lot of movies and the last one I saw was Society of the Snow. Totally recommend it, a horrific depiction of an awful tragedy, I teared up a bunch of times.

What about the last movie you watched with another person? 

Stormskärs Maja (or Myrskyluodon Maija in finnish). It's been a big hit here since it came out so I went and watched it with my mom at the theaters. I liked it a lot, it was really atmospheric.

How many coats do you own? 

I have two winter coats and few other coats for warmer weather.

What about shoes? 

One pair of winter boots, and then about 5 pairs of sneakers/tennis shoes. I also own two pairs of heels in case I need them for some party/whatever fancy situation.

One word to describe your most recent ex? 

Nice.

Where, in your current country, would you like to live, other than where you do now? 

Maybe in Turku, the city is really pretty with a lot of history and culture. Also, it's not a big city but not a small one either which is perfect.

Do you like snow? 

Yesss I love snow.

Do you like sheer clothing? 

I like when some clothes have some sheer parts in them, like on the sleeves or somewhere around the neckline but I wouldn't wear a fully or almost-fully sheer clothing.

Have you ever seen anyone famous in the street? 

Some local celebrities.

Are you hungry right now? 

I am.

Are you regularly tired? 

I'm not and I'm super happy about that. I mean I've never had major problems with being tired all the time but I've felt more tiredness in the past compared to now. This past year I've been paying more attention to my eating, that I eat regularly and eat balanced meals. I feel so much more energetic now and my skin and hair have never been in this kind of condition.

What was the last thing to upset you? 

Today I tried to book an airbnb for a little getaway trip I'm planning on having later this month but for some reason it didn't work out so I just gave up lol. I'm gonna try again some other day though.

How’s the weather been today? 

Around 0 degrees celcius with some snow and a lot of ice on the ground. It's been like that for a few weeks now.

What was the first tattoo you got or what would be the first tattoo you’ll get? 

I haven't given that much thought to it. I'm not totally against having a tattoo but as of now I don't have any plans of getting one.

What was the last store you went into and did you buy anything?

I went to a mall today to pick up new glasses for me. (I was so done only wearing contact lenses all the time so I had to get glasses) Anyway at the mall there was this boardgame store I've never seen there before so I went and took a look but I didn't buy anything.

Have you ever been late for school or work? 

At school if I was going to be late I just skipped the whole class. I didn't want to go to the classroom late, I was too shy for that lol.

Do you prefer to shower in the morning or at night? 

I like night showers more.

What is your favourite kind of fruit cobbler? 

I'm not sure what a cobbler is. If it's the same or similar as pie then I like berry pies, like blueberry or some mixed red berry pie.

Is there a basement in your house? If so, what is it used for? 

I live in an apartment building and there is a basement which has some storage space and also a laundry room. It also serves as a bomb shelter if we ever end up in that situation (obviously hopefully never).

Have you driven a car today? 

No, I don't even have a licence.

Do you have a small, medium or large bedroom?

It's pretty small but I mean my whole apartment is pretty small.

Have you eaten soup this week? 

No, I don't eat a lot of soup.

Are you a fan of The Office? 

I've never watched that.

When was the last time you started a new medication? 

A couple years ago but I'm already done with it. I only have one daily medication right now which I've been taking since 2017-ish.

What is your favourite type of nut? 

Cashew.

Do you know anyone who doesn’t have a middle name? 

My dad doesn't.

Have you put your phone on silent today? 

It's never on silent, it's on vibrate.

Can you name all 50 US state capital cities? 

I'm confident I know all of them because I used to be super into a lot of geography games online but if I had to list all of them now from just the top of my head I probably wouldn't even remember half of them.

Do you read John Green novels? 

I've only read one of his book, Paper Towns. It was good but I'm not super into fiction books, I'd rather watch a movie or read non-fiction.

Have you ever been to Universal Studios? 

No but it would be nice to go.

Can you tie balloons? 

Nope. Well, I've never tried but probably not.

When was the last time you were at a pet store? 

About a month ago to buy some cat food.

[deeahhnuh]

2023!

I’ve done this year-in-review thing since 2007! 2007-2012 are over on my old LiveJournal, and 2013-on are right here on my Tumblr. :)

2023 - been there, done that year! Let's make 2024 a good 'un! :)

What did you do in 2023 that you’d never done before?

Not much - I was pretty consistently dull, I guess lol!

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Did you keep your New Years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I don't make 'em in any official way - like, an actual list or anything. But I always try to keep "be healthy (in lots of ways)" as my big hope for the year!

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Did anyone close to you give birth?

No lil' bbs this year, aw!

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Did anyone close to you die?

Thank goodness, no.

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What countries did you visit?

I never go anywhere lol

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What would you like to have in 2024 that you lacked in 2023?

The "humble ambitions and hopes" I noted in last year's answer are still there, all humble and hopeful. But I am incredibly thankful to have what I do have!!!

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What date(s) from 2023 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

Huh, no big dates this year. Like I said, consistently dull lol!

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What was your biggest achievement of the year?

I have successfully (I think!) maintained the bangs I gave myself last year! Happily, I haven't managed to accidentally cut them too short or wonky. I like having 'em! :)

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What was your biggest failure?

No big fails this year, lol!

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Did you suffer illness or injury?

Oh golly, I had a tooth thing that started in November 2022 and was completed in September of this year! I am so fortunate and very, very glad that it all went perfectly - the oral surgeon and my dentist were a dream team!!! :)

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What was the best thing you bought?

Music! It's vital to my existence, lol.

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Whose behavior merited celebration?

My dental dream team lol! :) And in non-medical peeps - my mama, who is just... well, she keeps me goin'. ♥

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Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

Can't think of anything off the top of my head!

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Where did most of your money go?

Music, I guess! A worthy spend!

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What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Holidays and good times - birthdays 'n' such!

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What song will always remind you of 2023?

Every year, I keep a playlist on Spotify of songs that sparked joy - here's my 2023 list! But also, "Padam Padam" by my queen, Kylie Minogue!

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Compared to this time last year (2022), are you:

About the same, lol?

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What do you wish you’d done more of?

I keep enjoying most of the same dang stuff. So, more new music. More new movies. More new TV shows. More new!

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What do you wish you’d done less of?

See my last answer: I wish I'd done less of the same old same old! :)

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How did you spend Christmas?

Fam, ham. 'Tis the season!

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What was the most embarrassing thing that happened to you in 2023?

Haha, happily I didn't do anything too stupid. Still a few days left in the year, though!! :)

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How many one-night stands?

This answer is always "none" - lol, same as the question about visiting different countries - so why do I leave it in?!

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What was your favorite TV program?

Well I'm a complete goofball, so I love mah cartoons: Family Guy, always, and I watched a lot of American Dad too. I also adore Bravo - Real Housewives, Southern Charm, that sort of thing!

But as for, like, quality programming - Only Murders in the Building is a faaave, and I can't believe What We Do in the Shadows' next season will be its last!! I love it so much.

Oh and also The Golden Bachelor - it was a hoot!

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How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2023?

PJs! Nah, but I do try to be polished and classy-ish! (When I'm not just in my PJs.)

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What kept you sane?

I said "music" last year - and it's the same answer for 2023! :)

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Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

This is another question I should probably cut from this list, lol!

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What was the best book you read in 2023?

Pbffft, I will read books next year. And the first book I shall read is one I got this year, by Michael Cragg: Reach for the Stars. It's about British pop music from 1996-2006. Perfection!!

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What was your greatest musical discovery?

I listened to a lot of synth-y '80s stuff on Spotify "80s Mix" playlists the last half of the year; not sure why I did, but it was a good choice! Yazoo kept me groovin'!

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What did you want and get?

This isn't a really serious thing, except it is if you love great music! :) This year marked the 20th anniversary of Dannii Minogue's magnum opus Neon Nights - a whopping 7-disc edition of the masterpiece was released and I am so happy to own it!! However! Not too pleased to feel as old as I do when I remember buying the imported original at Tower Records twenty years ago lol!

Anyways, when it comes to really, truly serious things I want - sure, there are things (those humble ambitions and hopes I mentioned earlier) - but I have what I need. I'm good. :)

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What did you want and not get?

See above!!

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What was your favorite film of this year?

Scrapbook linking time! I don't have one single "favorite film of this year" - I enjoyed a lot of great movies!

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What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

Chilled out! 37!!

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What three things would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Some things prob could have been better, easier, or calmer - but that's every year, isn't it? This year was okay. :)

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Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Everyone? But to narrow it down to one guy, if I have to lol: Michael Shannon got a mention in my answer to this question last year, and - lucky guy - he gets a mention this year, too.

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What political issue stirred you the most?

It's all terrible.

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Who did you miss?

I will repeat what I said last year, because reading it back now, I gotta say I like the way I put it! And just like last year, I mean it just as much. "Family - those we’ve lost, and those who are simply not near. ♥"

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What is a valuable life lesson you learned in 2023?

Just keep at it!

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What quote can be used to sum up your year?

A bit from the incomparable It's a Wonderful Life came back to me at times this year - George Bailey, excoriating Potter: "what'd you say a minute ago? They had to wait and save their money before they even ought to think of a decent home? Wait? Wait for what?! Until their children grow up and leave them? Until they're so old and broken down that they… Do you know how long it takes a working man to save $5,000?"

The "wait for what?!" line hits me. I know he's talking about being being kind and decent to others; it's a key message in the movie, of course.

But this year, I also interpreted as - we wait so often. But we've only got now. We gotta live a little now, in spite of (in defiance of) whatever hard stuff is going on in our lives. ♥

...but the actual quote that sums up my 2023 is "padam."

2024 is coming! Happy (almost) New Year, Tumblr! :)

[elleniemae]

Ooooooo this sounds fun, I’ll do it

1. Underprivileged Mentee, Hollabackatcha

2. Shawn Takes a Shot in the Dark

3. Shawn’s time away from SB PLEASE WHAT WAS HE DOING

4. Mr Yang

5. Pierre being an agent was DEFINITELY a con because Shawn’s criminal bf is definitely a criminal fight me. He’s got EVERYONE fooled (except Shawn lol)

6. One is too hard I’ll pick 3: a. “That’s my gun” “So you know it works” b. Jules finding out he’s not psychic confession scene. c. Jukes hearing Shawn confess his love over the wire scene.

7. When Yin is about to kill them and Gus says something like “If I had the chance to go back and do it all again I would”

8. When she takes down the bad guy in the online dating episode

9. “Nice shooting, detective” “Did you just call me detective?” “….no”

10. “You two are not hired on this case” “DAAD!” “They’re hired” “What?!”

11. When she was reprimanding Shawn and Gus to “stay off the case” but told them they “never had this conversation” Also her goodbye scene.

12. Shawn Spencer, Psychic Detective

13. Burton Guster, Pharmaceutical Salesman

14. FREAKING TROUT (rarely have I hated a character more. As a person, not as a character)

15. Shules definitely. (or, as the discord calls them, Shajookie-cookie 🍪🛼)

16. Either “Gus don’t be exactly half of an eleven pound Black Forest ham,” “Gus don’t be the ‘iiiiiiii’ in ‘wait for iiiiiiiiit’” or “Gus don’t be the only black lead on a major cable network”

17. I don’t do hc’s that much, I just appreciate others. Can’t say no to Bi icon Shawn Spencer but that’s basically canon so…

18. I enjoyed it as a musical enjoyer. It felt like a psych episode with music, and it was entertaining. Not all the songs hit, but the good ones are AWESOME (I’ve Heard It Both Ways and Santa Barbara Skies are my personal favorites)

19. Christmas Joy

20. “Suck it” “You suck it” “🎶Suck iii~t🎶” I use it on my siblings almost daily

21. Definitely Shawn, he would be very entertaining for 24 hours, also I’d want to see what he could “psychically” read off me

22. I specifically remember the day when at a friends house, she insisted we would enjoy the show, and we watched Last Night Gus. My siblings and I then went home and proceeded to binge watch it while showing our parents. It is the only show that we can all agree on when nothing else works.

23. I’ve got 3 crossovers that I think about. B99 is a cool one that would be very funny. A crossover with the show “The Pretender” was actually a dream of mine and it was pretty fun from what I remember. Finally, I would DIE for a Fnaf crossover, there was a previous post I reblogged about this and I still think about it at night.

24. When Shawn says that Gus has to go help save Jules while he gets Abigail because it was the only way he could know she would be alright AHHHHHHH I LOVE IT SM

25. I absolutely adore the “Heeeeeres Lassie!” version of the theme, the filtered vocals and the simple repeated “I know, you know” is just AHH so goodddddd.

Psych (2006) Ask Game because this is my favorite show and I'm making it everyone else's problem.

What is your favorite Gus nickname?

What is your favorite episode?

Which plot point/storyline do you wish had been expanded on in the show?

Favorite culprit?

Was Pierre Despereaux really an INTERPOL agent or was it all a con?

Favorite Shawn moment?

Favorite Gus moment?

Favorite Jules moment?

Favorite Lassie moment?

Favorite Henry moment?

Favorite Karen moment?

Favorite main character?

Favorite secondary character?

Least favorite character?

Favorite ship?

Favorite "Gus don't be"-ism?

Free Space - give a headcanon about any character.

Thoughts on Psych: the Musical

Favorite Christmas episode?

Favorite quote from the show

If you had to be stuck in a locked room with one of the characters for 24 hours, who would you pick?

How did you get into the show?

What other fictional universe would you like to see Psych crossover with?

Favorite Shawn and Gus friendship moment?

Favorite theme song version (besides the original)?

[adhdvane]

brain b goin cray lately but do u ever just??? go ham over kink and psychological causes thereof like esp when characters have long history together and kink as a way to cope and live out things safely with someone you love and---

okay, so I read this last night before I went to sleep (okay maybe it was early morning rip) but I was so tired I read half of the words wrong and I was so confused xD actual response under the cut, bc boy I get it...

I totally feel you anon. Kink is so much fun to think about and play with. Like it's generally believed that most kink develops in the early stages of childhood, but like it varies so wildly from person to person; it's so board. Sometimes there's a deep psychological things behind it, sometimes it's trauma related, and sometimes... it's just there and you don't know why other than: this is hot lol. (I have kink I'll phsycoanaize myself about why I have, because of my lived experiences and trauma. and then I have kink I've literally just had since I was baby and literally just it's just always been there yo, I can give you explains now why I think it's hot and how I might have ended up finding those things hot, but baby me watching barney the dinosaur didn't have those experiences so clearly it's been with me longer than I can explain. It just is oops). Typically I'm the one using character to explore taboo/unsafe kinky things in a safe fictional environment lol. But, yes, analyzing why some characters have a kink I've decided to give them is fun (especially when those meds kick in and you brain is like WOOOOO LETS GOOOOOO THINK ABOUT THINGS AND DON'T GET DISTRACTED). Or like character who canon have kink and I don't have to give it to them in the first place (beli lol). (catch me thinking about how the fuck kink works with beli. like how much of it was, he was programmed that way when he was literally created, how much control do astrals have on that sort of thing when they create a primal beast. how much of it developed for beli as he developed a personality while existing. how much of his personality developed while existing and how much was programmed into his when lucilius created him? i joked once that whether or not a primal beast has genitals depends on how horny the astral who made them was. and that lucilius is ace (I KNEW I FORGETTING SOMEONE IN MY ACE HEADCANONS). and just the concept the beliel was a fucking ken doll down there (unless belial's directive was to go down a fuck the mortals there's no biological reason for him to have a dick, technically, and I'm pretty sure that wasn't his purpose) and just beli sobbing like why would you make me so horny and not give me a dick. and lucilius just like, because i hate you. but that's just a joke (beli has canon sex, though, i mean, could have sex other ways, i just assume nah he had a dick, it's more fun if he has a dick). but anyways, it's super interesting to think about how much is nature vs. nurture esp with primal beasts bc we've seen them change, we've seen them grow and developed based on their interactions with other (esp mortals). How much of Beli's kink was predetermined. How much was an accident? How much of it happened because of what he experience? ((don't ask me about the fake events about my gbf oc's that jokingly lead to a sequal event that jokingly lead to shit with where lucilius, beli, and bubs were trapped and then led to fucked up belisan shit, being stranded alone in another world. belial abandoned by lucilius. fuck.))) rip I think I got off subject, but anon, I feel you. God. My adhd brain goes ham over that shit too sometimes