#i was trying to remember if there was any reason i kept thinking abt that ITS CUZ ONE OF THE ACTORS VOICES A BATMAN CHARACTER

[robingivesmemagic]

i feel like im going fcking crazy listening to shadow the hedgehog soundtrack and thinking abt jason todd

[kairismess]

HIHIII! ik i’ve requested like 300000 times but your works are just so amazing 😣😣 but i’ve always just associated Suna with the song Love Language by ariana grande (it’s quite apparent i love her) for some reason. the song is abt trying to learn your partner’s love language so we can love better and i just love picturing that with him😫 Maybe reader can have that mentality along with the end part of the song with “i’m not what you had before, your ex girlfriend don’t want no smoke… i’m just gon make you my home”. bye i just think it’s so cute lolol 😣😣😣

rintaro's love language . . .

🏐 genre: fluff ~ !

✒️ word count: 645

💭 summary: rintaro's been noticing how strange you've been acting lately around him... almost as if you were trying to get something out of him. he doesn't mind, though—he'd love to give you what you're looking for so badly.

🍥 author's note: OOOOOOOO THAT'S SUCH A CUTE IDEA !!! I LOVE IT !! i hope this is any good :'DD

being seated on this boy's lap was the last thing you expected.

his mint green eyes stared into your own, balancing your weight on his string thigh, bouncing you up and down on it here and there to tease you a little. this is what you wanted though, right? to know what it really was that rintaro was into? to know what he loves to give you and take from you? well, you got it now—now you aren't leaving his lap no matter how much and how cutely you squirm and act all shy under his gaze.

for the past few weeks, rintaro noticed the sudden changes and the subtle glances and gestures you've been giving him; it wasn't so uncharacteristic of you, just a little... a little different. he didn't mind, he loved everything you did, even if it wasn't that obvious. he was a little curious every now and then why you were acting that way, but he figured instead of asking you, he'd beat you at your own game by observing you as you observed him.

you were always offering him some sweets in between breaks, and you always offered to walk home with him and hold his hand all sneakily—you were like a cunning little fox, and he oddly loved seeing you act like you weren't up to anything. he pretended not to notice and went with the flow as you kept showering him with affection, not realizing he had caught on long ago when he noticed your smile was laced with a few undertones of something mysterious. it didn't help your case when he had paid attention and remembered the details of the passing comments you made back then when talking to him, asking him if he had an ideal kind of affection he wanted you to give him.

he never understood what that meant, "a specific kind of affection"... until he caught a glance at your phone and realized what you meant. going on those love expert sites helped you get an idea of how to woo him over even more, but it also gave rintaro the idea that what you really wanted was to see what would make him melt... and fortunately, you hadn't figured it out yet. luckily for him, he was curious as to what your love language was, too—so in a bold gesture... he sat you down on his lap when no one was looking, and wrapped his lean but strong arm around your waist, bringing his face so close to you, that your noses were brushing against each other's.

he seemed so nonchalant about it, too... it was too much for you. your face burned and your lips quivered; you stuttered out questions, your mind ran a million miles an hour—but all rintaro did was peck a kiss on your cheekbone, placing his other arm around you, embracing you. "can i help that this is what i wanna do with you all along?" he murmurs as he gently caresses your waist, humming in lazy satisfaction, leaning his head down on your shoulder, closing his sharp eyes as he takes in the scent and feeling of being this close to you.

"y'know..." he murmurs as he runs his thumb over your tinier palm, pressing down on it gently. "...no one else has ever made me feel this way. i'm not really clingy, per se, but... i'd do anything to have you this close to me for a long, long while." he finished, planting a sweet kiss on your neck, not caring if the others came back to see this public display of his affection for you. he couldn't care less, all he cares about now is giving you what you want—and letting you know that he's more than willing to give you more of this than just this one occasion.

[diorsluv]

feather , part 19

“ you act like a bitch ”

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next chapter notes ) mississippi be doin too much frfr, but its okay bc luke dont even want her 🥱

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I'M SORRY THIS ISNT ABT MTT + CREPIC POLY BUT OGNYKHMHMH I NEED TO ASK THIS DESPERATELY.

Would milkbone hang out w the dogs in UT like greater dog n doggo n stuff more often because yk milkbone............ Not to make him an animal or smth ofc,,,, ALSOALSOALSALSOSSOO. I WANNA ASK ON WHY MILKBONE WON'T ATTACK ASRIELS BUT THAT'S LORE WORTHY STUFF RIGHT THERE.

AN OC ASK?????? FOR ME????? I MUST BE DREAMING OH MY GOD. DO NOR APOLOGIZE THIS IS THE BEST THING TO EVER HAPPENTO ME. I AM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW WORDS CANNOT DO IT JUSTICE OKAY!!!!!

milkbone would probably initially hang out with the more anthropomorphic members of the dog group, ie dogamy, dogaressa, and doggo rather than greater + lesser dog. he has an odd feeling when around greater and lesser dog but doesn’t look too deep into it. doggo, dogamy, and dogaressa are more. sapient? i guess? milkbone’s more sly than classic sans, the sort of person your more socially adapted friend would point out and say ‘don’t talk to him he’ll scam you out of 20 dollars and your left shoe’.

but he can relate to the hound patrol (is that what they’re called?) to an extent, even if he might distance himself at times out of discomfort. while he gets their love for certain things, there’s a sort of animal thing about them he feels off around. they like petting, they smoke dog treats, they bark and yip and do all sorts of dog things that he doesn’t do, and he doesn’t want to associate with something so… animal. this isn’t a dig at them, even if he mistakes his discomfort towards those things as discomfort towards them. before his au’s plot “went down” he didn’t mind hanging out with them, and probably cracked a lot of jokes about being an ‘honorary dog’ or something. he just doesn’t like being compared to a dog, or any sort of animal, now. dehumanization is my most favorite trope so he gets all of it.

as for why milkbone wont attack asriels, he was asriel’s caretaker for a while. the au they’re both from, undertrap, is still a work in progress, but ive established a familial bond with them. the general idea of undertrap is that monsters were viewed as less than human, kept as novelties and all that, and to escape it they went underground, where they lived happily for hundreds of years. however, humans eventually found them when looking for chara, who had gone missing. chara was angry about this because their intent was never to hurt their new family, blah blah, but most monsters were taken back to the surface against their will.

two of those monsters were asriel and sans, aka milkbone, who were both looking for their families whom they got separated from, as they managed to escape the humans. this is why milkbone doesn’t like being dehumanized—outside the general discomfort that comes from it, he was quite literally treated as an animal as every other monster was.

over time sans became a familial figure to asriel, an older brother of sorts. still working out the kinks, but so far i think that at the end of it they’d find asgore and then humans try to kill them all, sans steals part of asgore’s soul to keep himself alive whilst he dusts, blah blah. and then! memory loss! bro doesn’t know who he is or what he is! he just has brief snippets of memories and discomforts, and while he’s done dirty work for his clients before, an asriel is the one monster (outside of papyri) he feels an extreme discomfort doing any harm towards.

he is canonically a multiversal character due to this split second decision throwing his fate off. by all means he was supposed to die there, but he didn’t. and his code, not knowing what to do, basically threw him out of the au until someone else approached him and he got introduced to the multiverse.

this is what im thinking anyway, he’s still hugely in development,, fun fact though! his collar wasn’t a choice he made to have, it was given to him, but he couldn’t take it off at the time and now, since he doesn’t remember the reason he has it, still wears it under the assumption ‘past’ him had picked it out himself.

THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH FOR GIVING ME AN EXCUSE TO TALK ABOUT HIM GAH. man if only we hadn’t established a multiversal status quo id love for him to have been popular in 2016 😔 unfortunately i was stupid and also eleven years old with unrestricted internet access, and not exactly an artist of sorts either. maybe ill write a long fic about him and get some people to think he’s cool. i mean undereats and post sans got popular, and i think tear and stitch are too but i might be biased cause i love them. i can do this

ANYWAY YEAH THANK YOU FOR THE ASK ANON IM GIVING YOU A LITTLE KISSY ON THE HEAD :333

[hemlockalope]

ok ok im curious. sunday wanderer comparison?? that sounds cool. free pass to talk abt it if you want :O

Hi hi yes!! Thank you for giving me the opportunity to talk about them!! Also spoilers for 2.2 Penacony quest and Genshin's Wanderer quest

Also under cut because it ended up a little long-

To start i want to say that while im comparing them their stories definitely aren’t one to one, i just love thinking about Wanderer’s story in every occasion since i’ve obsessed over him for too long(and sunday is quickly joining him in my obsessions) But basically the main thing is how they both tried sacrificing themselves to godhood for completely different reasons and both failed, falling (Sunday was caught, Scaramouche was not)

Yes, both were sacrifices Sundays is a obvious one as Robin was supposed to be the sacrifice but Sunday did it instead of her, not letting his sister get hurt on beliefs she doesn’t even believe in(The Dreammaster always knew he would be the one to be sacrificed anyways) His sacrifice was selfless, he would go through eternal loneliness if it means everybody else could be happy

Meanwhile Scaramouche was sacrificing himself for selfish reasons He wants to achieve godhood because he isn’t human, and while it isn’t explicitly said(i think?) i very much believe he was trying to one up Raiden Ei in becoming a god(If you play as Ei and die in his boss fight he mocks her) But it’s still a sacrifice of his body, as they explained in the quest that if the sages completed their quest in getting the wisdom capsules into Scaramouche’s god form he would no longer be able to move for himself, he would fully become a puppet god for the grand sage

I just couldn’t stop thinking about how both of them tried ascending to godhood for completely different reasons yet both failed and yknow, both almost did it if it wasn’t for a factor they didn’t account for (Nahida’s Samsara abilities and Acheron and Black Swan waking trailblazer up plus Robin waking herself up)

Also!!! comparing Gopher Wood to Dottore Dottore obvs was not a father to Scara AT ALL but he was indeed extremely manipulative (Before Sumeru came out i questioned if Scaramouche ever saw Dottore as a father figure or not, and with Wanderer we know now that he hates him and even when he was Scaramouche he never liked him but working with him was a necessity) But also did Sunday even ever see Gopher Wood as a father figure? we know he took Sunday and Robin in, but the two never calls Gopher “father” or anything from what i remember Also the fact Sunday’s second suspect for Robin’s murderer to be Gopher Wood??? how fucked up is that???

The main thing i think a lot about is the selfish vs selfless sacrificed they did, also the fact that people think Sunday will get a redesign before he releases and he's gonna be released a lot later then when he first showed up plus going from a villain to companion is all things Wanderer went through After realizing all that I jokingly thought why not just let him change his name too, and while it started as a crack theory i kinda just kept thinking about it I saw someone say that Sunday isn't his actual name? I haven't seen any in game evidence though, but maybe Sunday is the name he chose for the family, or maybe he didn't even choose it maybe Gopher Wood did, and after everything that happened in the final he doesn't want to continue going by that name, nor does he want to go back to his old name, so he chooses to use a new one and I can't stop thinking of how Robin probably doesn't like the name Sunday, the family being the one giving it to him, so instead she just called him brother because she knows he doesn't go by his old name anymore either and after Sunday's fall, she talks to him about it. Asking if he's still okay with the name, and when he doesn't respond she hugs him and reassures him he'll always be her brother no matter what

The last bit just ended up me talking about a crack theory/ headcanon lol sorry this just ended up me rambling! Hopefully i covered everythign i wanted? I've been thinking about this for the past few days without writing anything down and I also have awful memory, and with that I'm sorry if I forgot something or remembered a scene wrong!!

[mrsnancywheeler]

ommggg i read let me down easy today and i kept re-reading it bc its TOO GOOD AHH !!🦅🦅

it hurt so much but im a whore for angst first, and a human second🫶

just thinking about the reader suffering in silence because she feels guilty for having any negative feelings towards finnick :(( the way she dismisses those feelings bc she thinks that whatever she’s going through is nothing compared to what he’s been through :((

also thinking abt finnick’s slow realization that she’s suffering because of him :(( like the incident at the market is when he began to notice the changes :(( and later when he fully understands how his behavior affected her IT MESSES HIM UP SO BAD

i just know he was remembering his past interactions with reader (where she breaks the glass / when she rejected his money at the pearl necklace stand) AND CRINGING …and it only gets worse when reader spills her guts about what she went through. omg ik he was sick.

another #thougjt i had was how this might mess up the reader for a bit after too #idk (that just might be me tho lmaoo) bc i feel like once you’ve been in that cycle of feeling depressed/insecure for so long it’s hard to snap out of, even with constant reassurance 😔

But maybe that’s just my angsty side talking HAHA

but i loved this fic, 11/10🫶

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omg yes, literally my favorite thing I've ever written. ik I wrote it, but it's the only thing of mine I reread bc it's like the perfect expression of how I feel, like if I could represent myself in one fic it would be that one if that makes any sense. it's like a concept that always haunts my mind no matter what I'm hyperfixating on maybe because I'm just like melancholy like that 🎀🎀🎀

but thank you so much, I'm literally so glad people are enjoying it because it literally is my own roman empire

yes she wants to be angry, she is angry, but refuses to let herself be because his issues are what she needs to prioritize. how can she be angry when he is constantly suffering? even if it's not so slowly tearing her apart, like a piece of paper sitting in water, she's trying to stay connected for the illusion of it all, to be strong for him.

her being loving isn't new to him, so he isn't thrown off by that, only slightly confused by her waking up earlier then usual. so her gifts have little bearing when he's used to it and he really doesn't want to feel loved right now because he's trying to reject whatever will make him seek comfort. when she starts changing her clothes and makeup, it's different, but he's not responsive because she's always been his pretty girl and always will be, her buying new clothes doesn't make him perceive her any differently or wonder if there's a reason, people try out new things.

when he notices how other peoples interactions with her have changed that's when he really starts to notice, if everyone else perceives her as melancholy then something has to be wrong. even if he's not quick to point the finger back to himself. he tries gifts, maybe she wouldn't buy something because she wanted him to do it, some sort of attention, but it's not big enough part of the issue to have any bearing on the effects it's now had on her. the girl rotting depression era shall we say. eventually through that, what people say to him, self-reflection he gains full consciousness of what he's been doing, how he's been hurting the person he loves so much. and the guilt is incomprehendable.

how could he be so selfish? so closed off as not to process all the clear cries for help? thinking about how he was getting annoyed, feeling like she was being moody when she insisted on doing the dishes until the dish broke. how she ran out into the ocean, in the rain without a care to regain some sense of composure, composure to try and make him happy. then the necklace thing, how could he miss her clearly trying just to be with him, be near him, have the interactions with him that he was giving to the girl at the shop instead? he was so unresponsive to the emotional needs he just assumed it to be a material need that he was willing to give. so when she rejects the money it just doesn't compute, to buy it she needs it, and then she tries to send the message that buying something isn't what she's asking for but he misses it completely. he gets snappy and it snaps her.

so when he's finally talking to her, he needs her to tell him the truth, the nuances because he's been so blind to all of it. he needs to know how he hurt her and it really is like a full wake up call. he can't let his own trauma consume him, allowing it to traumatize her in different ways. like when she mentions her getting to the point of just wanting him to want her body if he wouldn't want her because that's how people perceive him, that's what was hurting him, but he inadvertently made her feel that way. it breaks him to think that he did that to her, that he hurt his girl that way. then the idea that she would have let him cheat on her, she would've picked being with him over her own well-being, well she did, and he doesn't deserve that. he can't fathom how he could be with someone who loves him so blindly as to choose being with a ghost of him over not having him at all, when she deserves so much better. when he has been so callous with such a precious kind of love. or the fact that he even made it seem like he had interest in anyone but her.

there will be a fluffy, smutty requested sequel but readers issues afterwards will be lightly touched upon in it. but yes, she would have to spend so much time mending her relationship with herself afterwards. he's totally on hand and knee trying to make it up to her, to prove how much he loves and needs her, to give the attention she deserves. but she's still paranoid about cheating, insecure, scared, even if she tries to mask it. but he knows. he could, and does, spend hours praising her, telling her how pretty she is, how she's the only one, how sorry he is, how much he adores her, but it doesn't stop the nagging voice in the back of her head. she tries to hide it but she's clingier and he's okay with that, she needs him more.

but yes there's lots of long term effects the incident has on there relationship. and they have to try and navigate that together.

thank you pookie, I love your thoughts sm 💋💋💋💋💋💋

[crushedsweets]

ik it wouldnt make rlly any sense but how would laughing jack fit into creeped universe? sorry if u answered this before love ur art!!

hii HII THANK YOU!!! also him fitting in would totally make sense, theres tons of ghosts and demons in my au!! again, the only reason i dont add him is cuz when i was little i was scared of clowns, and therefore never connected to his character LOL.. all of my current interest in creepypasta is derived from when i was 10

ok anyway. im writing this as i go with no thought, just hope. i wasn't suuuper fond of his OG story in general, just as a general preference thing, soooo....

i think... i'd want him to be a circus performer from like 1800s-1900s. maybe his show was really popular with kids for a long time, but then kids stopped showing up. went from being an adored clown to some pathetic joke that teenagers came to throw tomatoes at. hurt his ego, made him feel abandoned, etc.

he began doing more and more dangerous acts just to get some of that attention and admiration back. tight rope walking, contortion, slap stick 'lion taming' and magic. and he kept pushing it till he died doing something stupid. maybe he broke his spine and that can reflect the sort of jack-in-the-box accordion type design ive seen an artist do(pls lmk if you know what im talking abt i cant remember who but it was so badass), and he ended up possessing a jack in the box as a ghost?

he'd be sold at the same garage sale ben's cartridge was sold at. dunno why, just would like them to intertwine.

and maybe someone like toby bought the jack in the box as a gift for clocky as a joke or something, and clocky ends up meeting LJ and she's like BRO WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS. brings toby along and tobys like CLOCKY WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO and jacks just bouncing around being scary and whatnot. they get EJ and EJ's like guys. i hate you so much. what is this. and then its just a funny ass scene of everyone being like DUDE.

i think one of them would have to try and sell LJ's box again, or leave him somewhere in the woods cuz he's scary as fuck, but LJ isn't having it cuz "YOURE NOT ABANONDING ME AGAIN" and drama ensues. they end up finding a good home for him, im sure.... dunno where. maybe with jeff and ben. i think that'd be fitting.

[xxlady-lunaxx]

Remember | {AkaYuki}

Theme: Angst

Note: Takes place a year after he turned into a demon Akaza spoilers<33 I think I started this in, like, july 2023 ;-; and yet I finished in december bc i forgot abt it wow

Akaza paused. It was darker over here. Hopefully there weren't any demon slayers hiding around this place; he did not feel like fighting today. Right now. Because today was significant to him. It was exactly a year after.. after something. Something that was big in his life. What was it? He racked his brain for answers, but found none. Perhaps if he sat somewhere calm he would remember. As he walked away from the darker spot, and found a illuminated place in the forest, he heard the sound of rushing water coming from his right. He realized there was a waterfall there and decided to settle there for now. 

It was indeed peaceful, for the night was clear so you could see the stars, and the sound of the water was beautiful as well. It should clear his mind perfectly and he could think. Remember. 

Except.. it didn't help. It helped his body relax slightly but his mind was still a mess. He kept having flashes of his bloody hands, of red, a lot of red. But.. it shouldn't have impacted him so much, should it? He was used to killing. He'd already killed so many in the year he'd been a demon. Why was it so scary? 

He sighed heavily and ran his hand through the water. He looked up at the sky, examining the stars. It was beautiful. He remembered vaguely standing with somebody in the light of the moon, telling them something. Comfort, perhaps? What was it? 

Then, with a sudden jolt, he remembered a name. An important name. Koyuki. Who was this 'Koyuki'? The name was so... familiar... So... so meaningful. Who were they? She... she was a girl he'd lived with? One close to him... A family member? A friend? A... no... his fiancé... They had been engaged, right? About to marry... Who was this other person? He... he looks familiar as well... Keizo... And then all at once. His memories flooded his brain, as if the waterfall was pouring into his head.

Akaza blinked furiously, fighting the urge to cry. Shit, shit, shit, he must not cry here. He couldn't, even if there wasn't anyone around. What was with him? What about this was so...

He looked up suddenly, gasping for a reason he didn't know. He breathed in in sharp intakes, placing a hand on his chest and pressing furiously. 

Breathe. Breathe you fucking idiot.

He looked down at his hand, moving it away from his chest to lay palm-up on his lap. This hand... had done so many things. And someone had held it... held it lovingly despite all the bad things he'd done with it. Who was it?

Koyuki.

The name rung desperately in his head, as if trying to tell him something. Koyuki... a girl who had been set to marry him. Who had loved him enough to marry him. Who was she?

Akaza's sigh echoed around him and he placed his head in his hands, cradling it. His head hurt too much from thinking, from trying to remember something so far away. 

Think.

Exactly a year ago, Akaza had... turned into a demon? Yes. And that same day, either before or after, something important had happened. With... a girl. The girl. Koyuki. And... the other person. Keizo. Who were they to him? A... fiancé and a father. Okay. That was good.

What else?

Where were they?

Akaza sat in silence for a long moment, letting the rushing sound of the waterfall fill his mind. He closed his eyes, his breath slightly muted by his hands over his face.

He lifted his head after a minute, sudden realization striking him. They were dead. 

His body sagged. Of course they were. Perhaps they were bad? And... had brought Akaza to the point of becoming a demon?

No. No that sounded all wrong. It was wrong.

They were... good. And something happened to them that had brought him to become a demon.

Yes, yes, that was right.

But what was it?

What had made them... die? 

Akaza blinked. Right, they died.

And he had hated that, supposedly. Become a demon to... avenge them?

No, that also sounded wrong. 

Then... what? 

He turned around, his eyes watching the water crash down against the rocks. He slipped his feet into the freezing water, shuddering for a minute before he got used to it.

He smiled to himself, resting his hands on the rocks as he stared into the small pool that the forest had created. 

Koyuki.

He looked around, confused. Had someone spoken? No, that was his head again. 

Remember, Hakuji.

Hakuji? Who the hell was that?

Akaza closed his hands into fists. Who were these people? Why did they matter to him?

I love you, Hakuji.

What? 

I promise to protect you forever, Koyuki. I promise.

Liar. You can't protect anyone forever. 

But... but why?

I love you.

Who? Who do you love? Why?

You.

Him? Akaza? How? How could he be loved? How could anyone love him after everything he'd done? After he'd brought blood into the Soryu Martial Arts style? The one Keizo had taught him. 

Wait.

Keizo had taught him.

So that's who he was. 

Akaza stood, slipping out of the water and back onto the ground. 

He started pacing around, thinking things through.

There had been a girl whom had loved him, a man who had taught him to fight, their deaths, the turn of the demon, and... one more. There was one more piece of information he was forgetting. The cause of their deaths.

The blood.

His mind flashed back to the past and he stopped dead in his tracks. Poison. There had been poison involved and Akaza... No, Hakuji, had killed the poisoners. And then... and then Muzan came and... 

Akaza sat back down. 

Fuck. Fuck he couldn't stop them this time.

Tears poured down his cheeks and he desperately tried—and failed—to stop them, but his mind was caught on Koyuki's face, her face smiling up at him and saying she loved him. And how he'd said then, how he'd promised to keep her protected forever.

And yet she'd died.

This very day, one year ago.

She had died.

So you remember...

Yes, yes he remembered. He remembered every fucked up thing he'd done.

I love you, Hakuji.

But why?

You've helped me so much.

He did. He had helped. When he was human. When he wasn't a fucking monster.

Thank you.

For?

Akaza felt frustrated and he turned abruptly and smashed some of the rocks surrounding the waterfall, keeping the water in.

It spilled out onto the forest floor and Akaza felt his emotions pour out of him likewise, feeling numb inside but somehow feeling everything at once. 

Why. Why?! He didn't want to remember! He didn't want to know!

The memories started fading and the water began to spill out less and less, drawing out to a small trickle of water that would soon stop into nothing. 

Akaza blinked.

Why had he been mad?

He looked down at his clothes, soaked through from the water of the waterfall.

Whatever, he decided. He didn't need to know. He didn't want to remember.

{Word count: 1171}

this... was more depressing than I'd intended it to be!! it was originally supposed to end in fluff!

well that idea's out of the way <33

[definitelynotshouting]

Hello I’m here!!

Raaah I meant to talk about the latest chapter sooner but I kept forgetting :,))

But anyway! This chapter really hit home for me and I really resonate with Grian, and I feel so SO scared for him at the same time. The idea that he’s so dead set on hurting himself so badly and mumbo has no idea - along with the rest of the hermits - is very scary, and very effective.

And the fact that they’ve already witnessed him trying to hurt himself in such a way and they’re all trying to cope with that is so. It’s so good. The way you show how each person is dealing with Grian’s attempt is so good because you’re showing them all experiencing different forms of grief.

Mumbo yelled because he was afraid. Tango is trying to help Grian any time he can. Scar is trying to make him laugh. X is dead set on finding a way to save him. Pearl is upset with him. It’s such a good way of showing that grief can manifest in so many different ways, and no one is perfect- they do things like yell because they’re scared, or overstep because they want to help. No one prepares you for grief, and you do an amazing job of showing that.

I can’t express how badly I want to hold Grian’s hand. To me he feels like such a lost soul that feels there’s no hope for him. I have so much sympathy for this depiction of him.

It feels so.. “doomsday” to me?? If that makes sense? The way Grian talks about wanting to go outside and experience the sun and the grass and the sky for one last time before he leaves for good. I feel the bittersweet feeling he must be feeling; not wanting to hurt his friends’ feelings but simultaneously feeling like there’s no other option for him and he just has to do this, so he wants to have a good last day.

It pains my heart so much but in a good way- this is all extremely /pos I cannot express that enough. I think it’s so impressive that you’re able to capture such intense feelings through writing- that’s seriously incredible and if what I’m feeling when reading your story is what you’re after; you’re doing an amazing job!

Ok, I don’t want to overwhelm you so I’ll stop there- but needless to say I’m super excited to see where this story goes and I hope you’re doing well <3

- binge reader

BINGER READER ANON MY HEART....... ohhh this is such a sweet ask and im so unwell abt it /pos

Words cannot express how happy i am that you're resonating so hard with my fic 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 i feel so honored to be touching people's lives with this, i literally dont know how to articulate how much messages like these mean to me. And im just!!!! So pleased that you like what im doing with all these varying depictions of grief!!! From the start i truly wanted to explore different reactions and what i felt these characters would do when placed in such a fraught and urgent situation, and im indescribably glad im hitting the mark on what ive been aiming for.

Its been really enriching for me to explore all these myriad reactions to grief; i remember when i first wrote Mumbo in chapter 3, i was a bit worried about the potential reception-- but it felt so right to let him express his fear through anger. And with Pearl, ive loved taking a deep dive into her own fear and trauma and letting it play out in front of Grian during this situation. Literally everyone is so fun to dive into for all the reasons you've said-- Tango is in fix-it mode, Xisuma is pinning all his efforts on one desperate hope, and Scar is deflecting and trying to buy as much time as possible just to keep Grian alive a little longer. Their various reactions are so important to me, especially in how, like you said, nothing truly prepares you for grief-- and it often manifests in unconventional ways. Its been a real treat to depict that, and its something that i feel has some overlooked merit in the emotional realism department that im glad im able to bring to the table

Im truly so touched by this commentary, so don't worry about overwhelming me!!! Im just so genuinely happy people are getting so much out of my writing, its all ive wanted for such a long time, and finally being able to really reach people with it is a dream come true❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[yuikomorii]

Greetings, I come with late night ramblings abt diabolik lovers. Big fan of your blog, I really like the side of the fandom which discusses the characters

Sometimes i wonder what it was like for the mukami bros to turn into vampires. Since vampires look so similar to humans the fact that they are a different species really slips my mind sometimes.....

So sometimes I find myself wondering what that psychological shift was like. The mukami bros were all pretty young and had grudges against humans in some way when they were turned, so parting with their humanity wasn't on their minds I think lol.

But despite spending lot of their childhood/puberty around vampires they still do act a lot more human like than the sakamakis. Granted, the sakamakis def have a lot trauma that compromises their ability to have any type of healthy relationship. But characters like ayato suggest that vampires aren't inherently incapable of the more "human" emotions (don't rlly know a good word for it mb).

I do remember ruki saying somewhere that because he is weak he stays with his family (not the only reason ofc, but having to band together/find strength in numbers to survive is a very human-like thing), yet he and his bros abandoned being human/ hold some level of resentment for humanity.

Anyways all that to say the mukami bros have an interesting relationship with their "humanity" and I'm overanalyzing characters in an otome game of which the lore is constantly retconned. Complicating this is the fact that we don't have a "average" or "normal" vampire to compare with

Also reject totally missed an opportunity to make a character that didn't want to be turned into a vampire, and had to struggle with the changes.

// Hello, thank you for enjoying my blog!<3

Hmm… If the person who becomes a vampire is kind-hearted and mentally stable enough to avoid wishing revenge upon someone or using their newfound vampire status as an excuse to treat people badly, I sincerely doubt that the psychological transition from human to vampire would hit that hard. Trauma caused the Mukami brothers to develop such a vicious nature, exactly like Yui in HDB did at one point when, as a result of being mentally broken, she started killing people in an After story. While pure-blood vampires do have their own set of morals and they obviously need blood to survive, I wouldn’t say they are inherently evil, taking into account that in LP and VC, some vampires were nice to Yui and the Diaboys. They are indeed predators, that’s something they can’t control no matter how much they try, but not all of them are malicious.

The Mukamis got rid of their humanity but they still kept acting like humans around one another because, after all, that’s how they were initially accustomed to. As for the Sakamakis… due to trauma as well, they were pretty twisted since childhood. I mean, most of them were the main cause something bad happened to any of their brothers in the past, therefore it’s to be expected that their relationship is not a healthy one. However, vampires are actually capable of experiencing human emotions, and Ayato is the living example of this given that he is confirmed as being the most human-like out of all due to the fact that he was already capable of displaying these emotions prior to meeting Yui (for example: wanting to sacrifice himself for his brothers, ruining Karl’s blue rose so as Cordelia wouldn’t get sad, crying when Cordelia died and, most importantly, valuing his life). Additionally, a vampire will begin to experience human emotions the more Eve's blood he consumes, so... that's basically part of the plan, according to what Karl said in Ayato’s DF route.

I wouldn't say the Mukamis hate humans; they held a grudge against aristocrats, but not humans in general, because they only see them as an inferior species. As for Ruki, the reason he would feel weak without his family isn’t only due to banding together or finding strength in number but rather it’s about them as his emotional support. Kou, Yuma, Azusa respect, praise and accept Ruki with all his qualities and flaws, therefore feeling needed and appreciated is actually what makes Ruki strong.

[katatedge1]

Poe and Ranpo meeting a teen, 12-13, reader who’s basically murderous like Kyoka who has a powerful ability (on a rampage the first time Poe/Ranpo meet reader lol-). Except instead of reader getting a redemption (Atsushi and kyoka jumping out of the train scene) a little bit after meeting, it takes days to months even. And really, they’re just a traumatized young kid who took to murder as a coping mechanism after being taught to do so. They’re really curious about things most would already know their age

Sorry sorry if it’s a bit too detailed or you can’t understand

Do you think I want to live like this?

Warnings: spoilers for Season 4 episode 5 and gore (I think that's all)

It was only a few hours after Ranpo and Poe hears mushitaro getting shot in the head. Ranpo kept thinking of the warning mushitaro gave him.

"THE AGENCY WILL GET A JOB, NEVER ACCEPT IT! ACEPPTING IT WOULD DESTROY THE AGENCY"

Ranpo and Poe both felt saddened by Mushitaro's death.

As they were walking down the street, talking abt what that job would be, ranpo tried using his ultra deduction, but it hadn't worked for some reason.

The sounds of screams were heard as Ranpo and Poe's eyes widened, they started running towards the alley where they heard the screams from.

There stood a young girl, she was 12-13, she held a katana, that katana being covered in blood.

There were a huge amount bodies, small and big, it didn't matter to the young girl, as long as she got to kill, she didn't care.

At this point she was hitting the already dead person with the katana (legit hitting them).

She couldn't stop, she just couldn't, she wanted more, she wanted to kill more.

Ranpo went closer to her, but Poe was against it, Poe held out his hand to stop Ranpo, but he gave up as he realised Ranpo wouldn't stop.

Ranpo put his hand on the little girls' shoulder, knowing that she doesn't know what she's doing.

She slowly turned her head around, looking angry, but deep down, she was just a little girl in distress and just wants to be saved, but no one comes to save her, she's still waiting, wanting to be saved, but no one ever saves her.

"Do you wanna get killed like the others? Or are you gonna run and then get killed? Choose quickly and wisely." She said without hesitation.

"...."

"Ranpo! Why did you do that?!" Poe shout-whispered.

"First, I'll kill you both, then I'll kill my self. That's what I was ordered to do. Do my mission and die."

"You will not kill any of us. You are never gonna kill anyone again." Ranpo said boldly, clearly trying to stop the girl from completing her "mission", honeslt, who would make 13 year old girl do such job?

"Well then, I guess I have no choice but to kill myself..."

Ranpo pushed the katana out of the girls' hands and gripped both her shoulders

"NO! YOU ARE NOT GONNA KILL YOURSELF OR ANYONE!"

Poe stood shocked, and the young girls' eyes opened wide

"W- Who are you to tell me what to do?! I don't even know you!"

Her eyes started glossing as she started to cry. Poor girl.

She hugged Ranpo tight, crying.

Ranpo signaled that Poe can go, Poe went away of course, leaving them with the privacy they need.

She hugged ranpo even more tight

"I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry, I'm sorry.." at this point she was shouting her apologies.

Ranpo hugged her back, remembering when he had a break down when fukuzawa was yelling at him, it was all the same.

"Shh, its ok..."

She kept crying,crying and crying, until she finally calmed down, still sobbing a bit.

"Hey, what's your name?"

"Y/N...I don't have a last name."

You can come with me to the agency, we can get you anew katana."

"Thanks..."

[didderd]

Another interesting thing, you say? 👀

Now I'm curious, what might that interesting thing be? 🤠

oh you'r rly spoiling me today, aren't you :3

this one's a long ramble lmao, so i'm putting it under a read more:

ok, so some ppl with tics get thought tics, this is probably the most interesting thing i'v ever learned abt tics.

they're tics that ofc come in the form of thoughts. i don't think they fall under either tic category?? (those being verbal and motor tics.) tho maybe some are verbal tics that aren't strong enough to surface? i'm pretty sure at least that that's what my first(?) one was. (which i'm pretty sure was my first tic that i can remember.)

a lil off topic, but i can't talk about thought tics without talking about this: when i was like 13? (way before my tourette's rly surfaced/became active. i think it was just dormant for a long time?) my older sister had me watch her kids for a moment, and i was sitting there staring at them. and i kept getting the strong urge to ask if they were ok, even tho they were obviously fine. they hadn't fallen down or anything. one of them was even offering me chips. at the time i reasoned that it was just paternal instincts and shrugged it off (even tho i was still very confused abt it lol), but years later (at 18) after learning abt my tourette's i thought abt it again and it clicked that it was probably a tic trying to come out, but not being quite strong enough yet. :D

ANYWAYS, Sweet Anita kinda described them as like random or word association thoughts that will interrupt your train of thought and make it very hard to focus.

i don't often get them, and they can be hard to recognize even when i do, but i think i'll more often get image related ones.

it's REALLY annoying when i'm trying to daydream and the two ppl interacting are at a table and silly lil tourette's brain wont stop making whoever has any amount of their weight on the table fkn tip the table over lmao. even if it's just a hand. even if the table has four legs. that hand will suddenly weigh more than both ppl at the table combined, and two of those legs might as well not even exist.

this one is something that happened more often before my tourette's surfaced, so it was especially confusing and frustrating, but it would also force the body of whoever i'm trying to think of to contract and expand. from impossibly thin to impossibly wide. when this happened i could not for the life of me focus on one body type, and it would derail the whole daydream n i'd eventually fall asleep or give up.

so yeah, thought tics can be frustrating lmao, but they are also very interesting. :>

[jihyocentric]

i don’t remember if anyone asked this before but do you have any headcanons for rockstar!nayeon?

(i'm just gonna ramble about the world i built for the au in my head because i'm too tired to format the text into a proper hc post)

so rockstar!nayeon is a confident loser, she used to get all the girls she wanted and the only goal in her life before jihyo was going overseas to play her music for people, which she has already accomplished.

one of the reasons why jihyo got interested in nayeon is because she's the guitarist. nayeon is the lead vocal, jeongyeon being the main, but she also plays the guitar for the band and she frequently does guitar solos. when they weren't together yet, nayeon would dedicate them all to jihyo, without saying jihyo's name.

the nicknames would vary from 'cute pouting girl on the left', 'jeongyeon's angry friend', or even going as far as calling jihyo 'the girl of her dreams' for her fans to hear, and it would always make jihyo leave immediately. jihyo was not only embarrassed, but she could swear she'd kill nayeon if she kept looking at her.

jihyo used to say a lot of nos to nayeon. she plays tough on the outside and honestly nayeon loves it. she likes that jihyo doesn't automatically say yes to everything she says and that jihyo doesn't mask her feelings. if jihyo is angry, she will let nayeon know she's angry, and so on.

but there's a certain seriousness about jihyo that's so endearing for nayeon... like nayeon's life is way different than jihyo's. while jihyo is working at an office, nayeon is writing songs and writing riffs. jihyo is always tense, thinking about work, and nayeon essentially loves the way she gets to unravel jihyo when they alone together.

i also imagine jihyo being the daughter of rich, high class people and when she suddenly shows up with nayeon, her parents think she might have gone crazy. jeongyeon is her best friend and they know it, they like jeongyeon, but nayeon was a bit hard to swallow.

in my mind it's kinda funny to think abt nayeon trying to convince jihyo's parents that she's not taking their daughter to the dark side or anything they might be thinking. she tries her best every time jihyo brings her to a family lunch with her parents, but only jihyo's mother fully accepts her. jihyo's father is kind, but he still can't believe that nayeon will take good care of his daughter 😭 at least he's trying!

(if there's anything you guys want to add, feel free to!)

[ritzcuit]

since you cant find any ask prompts i'll just ask you a random question. what drew you to Datz as a character specifically? i love him a lot but i'm always curious to know what people vibe with when it comes to their favorite characters

AW hearts... thank you:3

its been a long time since i first met him so ill try to remember.. ik an ace attorney rp group i was in, the few ppl there who had played soj were talking about Gay Datz, so when i wanted to pick up a new muse i was like "that datz dude seemed silly (and we already had a dhurke) so ill just go watch soj for him:3" and then the horrors started

obviously he's an extremely likeable character but he was like the perfect storm of tropes i already liked + tropes i didnt even know i liked yet... him being the funny comedic relief is endearing but it's all the underlying Coolness of him that i just became obsessed with. and the loyalty. the loyalty i think altered my mind permanently. "right hand man" is like a trigger phrase for me being obsessed with a character now LMFAOOO HE BROKE MEEEE. i didnt even know i cared abt loyal guys before him!!! before datz i just cared abt delinquents and criminals

but god he's just so COOL ISNT HE!! his big ass kukri and the confident smug uncle way he peels apples... it really makes me nostalgic for the kind of guys i idolized when i was younger (and still do lmfao) i know he's in nepal-ish-area but he'd be 100% at home with my appalachian family.. the kind of guy who has infinite stories about anything and Probably half of them are made up but he's your uncle so you're gonna listen... bc he's the coolest ever.

PLUS if you put any thought into datz at all, like, the fact that he's made to be the way the player learns about dhurke's (and the kids) past, its like ... Ok but how do YOU know what their childhood was like huh?! and immediately you get this idea that datz is like, a seriously loyal guy who cares not just abt The Cause, but this whole little family dhurke has... that + the way datz solemnly and seriously mourns tahrust drives me CRAZY !!! LOOK AT HIM WITH HIS GENUINE FEELINGS!!!! AND HIS DEPTH!!!ARGH!!! IM GOING TO EAT A TABLE!!!!

and the more i talked abt him with my equally obsessed friends and fleshed out what kind of a Guy he must be, like.. piecing together "ok well if he helped look for apollo's mother after the fire, when dhurke was being accused of Literal Treason, then he must already have been close friends with dhurke or otherwise trust him for some reason...moreover dhurke must have trusted him at least a little..." it paints him as such a capable and loyal guy....Bro he devoted half of his life on this world to dhurke and his cause... his exmilitary history and outdoorsy guy tendencies helping dhurke live on the outskirts of khura'in.....

(trembling)and inthe concept art creator comments in the soj artbook it makes a mention of how datz being the moodmaker of the revolution is what kept it going for so long HELPPPP DATZ!!! DAAAAAATZ!!! ok this isnt even from the game anymore LMAO

short answer is i think he was concocted in a lab to make me, specifically, mentally ill

[caatws]

I'm not always great with words so hopefully what I'm about to say makes sense. I think that I would have enjoyed vol 3 a whole lot more if the movie had been more open and honest about what happened to Gamora and what that meant for the guardians and for both Gamora's. A lot of the plot around her feels like a lie. Gamora is dead but they keep saying she's not. Peter has a right to be grieving and devastated because how Gamora died was horrific, but the characters want him to move on under the belief she's not dead and just doesn't remember him. This feels incredibly disingenuous because not only is Gamora dead, if she wasn't dead and couldn't remember Peter that would still be something painful and not easy to get over. Then with 2014 Gamora there's no honest exploration of Thanos being the reason she's in her current position. 2014 Gamora would have met the guardians and had this whole life with them if not for Thanos and the movie doesn't allow her to explore any feelings around this until the very end when she and Peter have their last conversation. This keeps her from being able to thoroughly work through what all of this means for her life and future.

One of the reasons I have loved gotg is because it's been so sincere in it's exploration of abuse, loss and healing. During vol 2 I found the relationship between Nebula and Gamora to be one of the most compelling in the mcu because they were both allowed to be open and honest about the specific nature of their individual experiences with Thanos with neither one of them made out to be wrong or denied the ability to move forward on their own terms. It's this type of sincerity that vol 3 was missing when it came to Gamora's death and it didn't just effect her, it effects all the characters because they are a family. A family like there's kept from having anything to say about someone they loved being killed by their abuser isn't open, honest or sincere. This is not me saying vol 3 is a terrible movie or that people shouldn't enjoy it. It's me sharing that I don't think it's wrong that some people have felt disappointed, hurt or maybe a little mad about Gamora's part.

you make total sense anon! i feel all this too. i rly dislike the whole dismissal of "she isn't dead she just doesn't remember" bc this isn't like an amnesia storyline like lol like first gamora gets murdered—after trying to get peter to kill her and then trying to kill herself, no less—by thanos and then 2014!gamora's entire life gets uprooted when she's sent to the future by thanos. like i think endgame and onward were kinda missing out on clarifying how gamora even rly feels abt being brought to the future? like you're telling me she has no feelings, no opinions on that at all?? 💀💀💀

and i've made my feelings on peter and the gotg never rly acknowledging the circumstances of original gamora's death clear before, but i feel like we honestly should've heard 2014!gamora's feelings on the matter as well. like idk i just think if i heard my future self got murdered by my lifelong abuser in the name of love i'd probably have at least a hint of an opinion, a shred of emotion, to spare on the matter lol

[vigilskeep]

my main problem with "any inconsistency is actually because a character is lying" is that for me it's too easy to fall into varric being the one lying. and like that's also fun but I can't use it to explain everything you know? so I have to go through my hcs like "ok only 3 of you can be blamed on varric alternate explanations now"

I do blame the ser pounce line on varric alas but in the sense that indeed anders was throwing out infinite random complaints about the wardens and varric forgot most of them. so he was sitting there being interrogated like "ugh shit what was blondie complaining about that time. it was something dumb. I remember a cat maybe it was about the cat?" and what anders had actually said was even dumber. like he complained that they kept overfeeding his cat "he's probably so fat now :'("

i think “varric was lying” hcs r fun but best used super careful like a strong flavouring bc if you go too far then you have to abandon like every da2 characterisation. which i mean sure if you want to go that hard but i would only think like that as a funny little thought experiment i wouldnt actually establish that as my canon. there are a few things i use “varric was lying” for—um for example i don’t think night terrors is particularly well-written for a lot of reasons so i decided varric is lying rather than reveal the demons’ actual promises that the companions or possibly even hawke were “really” tempted away with, because that makes the whole thing more interesting and bearable to me—but i try not to over-use it. but in any other character’s dialogue i will always always consider that they’re lying it’s fun and you avoid so many oversimplifications of character because they may be lying but they’re equally likely to just be wrong abt themselves which is also interesting

that interpretation is so funny though. forget da4 i just want to see the warden-commander sue varric for cat-related defamation