#i was trying to draw many things at the same time and this is what came out

[hisfavoritesundress]

pissed and frantic

cw: cursing, slightly suggestive

jason is known of many things, his skills in fighting, precision, his blunt comments, and etc.

but one of his defining personality is being calm.

it's been hone and molded by years and years of training and experience, being able to stay calm and collected in the midst of chaos is a whole different type of skill.

and now, it become his second nature.

at first you didn't pay much attention to it, you understand that it is part of him and you love every aspect of his being.

until...

it becomes a frustration for you.

coaxing to draw a reaction from him, from little things like cooking for him, stacking his favorite energy drink, making him coffee, etc, although, you do all those things not only because you want him to see you and give a reaction but a little appreciation wouldn't hurt right?

but it's the same jason, neutral and stoic, although you know he's comfortable around you but it's not always consistent and you're okay with that, especially that he's adjusting his life again.

yet he just hum and nod then moved on with his day.

is it too much to ask for a bit more?

not until one time, he came home to drop by your shared apartment, which he usually does before patrol, and as he gets to the door, it's quiet, eerily quiet, it's not always quiet when you're around, he knows it despite not showing it, because either you're listening to music, watching tv show, scribbling, or just your overall presence.

he frown slightly.

he drop his bag by the door not even bothering to take his boots off and immediately goes to the living room, hoping to find you.

but nothing, okay, maybe you're sleeping early?

then he goes to the bedroom and not even your shadow or your scent is there, his mind is going to the most dangerous situation like it's wired to think the worst case scenario first, then he goes to the bathroom and it's also empty.

his heart starts to pick up.

he fish his phone from the pocket and dial your number while he roam around the apartment, as if there's more room you could be in, not even in the small kitchen, where he usually finds you around this time, making yourself a tea.

the phone rings.

then a ringtone echoes from the living room

fuck, she left her phone?

he doesn't easily panicked when it comes to things, especially in danger, but to you?

he was about to storm out the door and find you in every fucking corner, nook and alley of Gotham city if he needs to,

but then the door opens and you appear.

as soon as you saw him standing in the middle of the living room, with his outside clothes, boots, clutching around his phone and a thin layer of sweat on his forehead, you know something was up.

"you okay?" you asked with slight frown as you fully enter the apartment.

he was clenching his jaw, probably holding himself. "where have you been?" he asked, quiet and frowning a bit with an edge to his voice.

you head to the kitchen to wash your hands, too caught up the feeling of the trash bag you just held.

"answer me," he asked again with more firmness and demand to his voice, footsteps following you.

"at the back, i was just throwing the trash," you said after washing your hands fully and then turn only to see him standing at the doorway, almost crowding the entrance between the kitchen and the living room.

"why haven't you told me, why did you left your phone, did you know how dangerous it is?" he asked rapidly.

which you're surprised at the sudden outburst. "i was just throwing the trash babe," you defense as if he sounds ridiculous right now.

he looked away for a beat then goes back to you. "who told you to throw the trash?" he frowned.

"i j–"

"no, that's my job, what the fuck you doing? throwing the trash at," he retorted looking at the clock at the wall, "9 pm?"

"it's full," you added.

"i don't care, you tell me when it's full then i will do it," he said putting period on his sentence.

"why are you mad?" you asked, trying not to level his frustrations, as you dry your hands.

"im not," he answered shortly, as he turn around and walk to the living room.

you followed him, hoping to find answers of his outbursts.

"you sound and looked like"

he goes quiet again.

that expression, it's so guarded and reserved, it's getting into your nerves of how he could change his expression that easily, as if there's a switch somewhere, where he could go one face to another.

you stood there waiting.

he takes off his boots and places it properly by the door.

"you're not fucking touching that trash again," he said, passing you as he walks to the bedroom, there's no bite on his voice but rather a pissed off look on his face that adds fire to his overall body language.

now he's really pissed.

you followed simply because you want to see his face, his pissed off face, a reaction, finally.

you form your words carefully in your head, like a menace you are, adding gasoline to the fire, it sounds so sick but it's satisfying in a way, after so long of waiting to gauge a reaction from him, more than just a calm and stoic ones.

"i can do it, im not weak or an–"

"and?" he snapped, but not yelling, "didn't i specifically told you not to go out around this time, especially for a trash, baby?"

god, his eyebrows are knitted together, his eyes looking at you so intensely that it could cut you half, his jaw are clenching and unclenching, you swear you could see his pupils dilated.

please more

he huff an air out as he goes and take off his shirt in just a second.

"do you have any idea how anyone could just be lurking around and do something ungodly," he continues, venting his frustrations as he take his day clothes off while you're watching absentmindedly, "and i don't fucking care if it's full to the brim, you're not touching that fucking trash again, do you understand?" he asked, voice honeyed with vex and annoyance as he turns to you.

your mind is just going haywire at this point, you don't even know half of what he's saying, it's sick and hot.

"mhm, y-yeah"

"use your words properly baby," he frowned, as if taunting you for being stupid of going out this hour.

you sigh, acting. "it won't happen again"

"you better be," he retorted and the belt unclasping echoes through the room, the metal softly whispering to you.

while he's focused on undressing and finally getting into his under suit , he catches you staring at him, you're too distracted to even noticed him noticing you.

"you enjoying this?" he asked, snapping you back to the reality.

"huh?"

he huff an air out, looking at you, belt hanging on his pants, his boxer's waistband appearing with his bare stomach bouncing the light to your eyes, abs, scars and all. it's not the first time you saw him bare, but this is a different genre of him being shirtless.

he's pissed.

he grab his shirt and throw it to the laundry basket, looking at you.

"you like seeing me like this pretty girl?" he asked again, "pissed and frantic?"

"um"

"um what?"

you gulped, looking like you've been thirsty your whole life.

"nothing"

he scoffed, pressing his tongue against the inside of his cheek as he stared at you in sheer disbelief.

"don't do it again, are we clear?" he asked, pausing for a bit, thinking, "or are you planning this the whole time?" he added, his gaze drag to your lips, dark and deep with tinge of leftover frustration.

you frown. "what, no"

maybe just half of this.

jaw clenched, a sharp exhale escaping his nose. "no what?"

"i didn't plan this, that's, that's- no"

he hum, boring his eyes at you. "if you want to see me bothered, just ask"

"what you mea–"

"don't play coy," he cut you off, turning towards you "as if you're not drooling all over the floor," he remarked quietly, just above whisper, lips curling a bit, taunting you as he continue to take his pants off boring his eyes at you with that same darkening gaze.

"c'mere,"

"take a closer look"

yeah, you're partly thankful of the trash.

[martyfive]

I love your OC uniforms!! I’m always a big fan of uniforms designs especially sci-fi ones like watching Star Trek for the first time a few months ago kinda changed my brain chemistry despite it being so simple.

Your design is awesome, I love the cape and helmet and how it all fits together. I want to ask, what was the inspiration/thought process of making them?

(Sorry if this is a long ask 😭. I really love your art and you’re one of my inspirations. I hope you’re having a good day/night ❤️.)

oh hi! thank you so much!

to be honest, i don’t even know what to say? lol

i grew up watching star wars and star trek, that’s for sure, but i’m trying not to look at any existing media examples when i draw my OCs stuff. i usually overanalyse everything i see in media i watch so every time i see some sci-fi drip, the only thing that comes to my mind is: is it really comfortable to wear this silicone skin? the answer is often “no”, obviously.

i’m a big fan of layers when it comes to the outfits i personally wear! the more layers there are, the more i like the fit. summer is a complete nightmare because of this.

but if we’re talking about my OCs, most of them have to work in an environment that’s not healthy neither for their skin, nor for their eyes or respiratory system (cough- or their mental health- cough), so that’s the two things i held in mind while creating their gear: many layers of protective material to secure their physical health AND clothes i would find comfortable enough to wear myself if i had to. there are varieties to their equipment and not every worker wears the same, but i’m yet to make the classification of their gear.

and i also realise that their gear is absolutely impractical in some ways. it probably weighs a ton and it’s definitely hard to put on by yourself, it’s surely too warm to wear it all day long and what about going to the bathroom with all this stuff on them? meh. i don’t really care. sometimes you just create something only because “yeeeah that looks cool”, right? they’ll have to manage the bathroom situation somehow.

[spelllingandthemysteryschool]

if it's not too invasive, can I ask how you figured out you were a lesbian? I'm currently trying to figure it out for myself and find many resources like the lesbian masterdoc a bit confusing, since I experience a lot of the things outlined there and am unsure how to differentiate comphet from attraction. how were you able to parse it all?

hi there! i ended up writing more than i expected so i put it under the cut!

hello and best of luck with figuring all this out. it took me many many months to sort through these feelings when i first started wondering if i might be a lesbian rather than bi so definitely don’t rush it—there is no deadline and no one is requiring you to know anything for certain any time soon! i also know that the lesbian masterdoc has been helpful for many people, but a lot of the things highlighted there are phenomena bi women also experience and the original writer also ultimately came out as bisexual, so i think an important thing to keep in mind is that you know yourself best.

in my case, it feel like it was pretty easy for me to recognize and accept the presence of my homosexual attraction and harder for me to recognize and accept the absence of my heterosexual attraction, since it was kind of a given (in my mind) that i did experience it, because um… why would i not? eventually it dawned on me that i didn’t really feel the same draw towards men my peers seemed to despite calling myself bi for five years and it was something i kind of uncomfortably revisited now and again for a while and constantly put off analyzing head-on. it eventually hit me that if i ended up with a man someday and the relationship worked out so well we got married, then i would be with him all the time: sharing a bed with him at night, having breakfast at the same table in the morning, walking down the street side by side and hand in hand. forever! and this idea dismayed, suffocated, and freaked me out so badly i sobbed so hard i almost threw up in my bedroom one evening. i just kept thinking about how all of these things that should be so pleasant to do with a lover sounded like a complete nightmare with a hypothetical man. so after things came to a head in this manner—the culmination of a long build-up—i realized it wasn’t really accurate to call myself bi and over the course of many painful and uncertain months i began to tentatively call myself a lesbian.

i’m quite confident in my lesbianism now (four years after the fact!) but i hesitated to call myself one for a while because of the idea that maybe someday i would come across the right man, who wouldn’t suffocate me if we were romantic with each other and who i would actually want to be close and intimate with. if you’re feeling similarly and holding off on calling yourself a lesbian out of the possibility or the anxiety that you might someday find an exception to these feelings, i encourage you to try calling yourself by this label slowly, maybe even just in your mind for a while before telling anyone else about it, and see if that takes the pressure off a little bit. labels should not be constricting! if you’re calling yourself bi out of anxiety let yourself set it down and see if that makes you feel like you can breathe easier. if you find that calling yourself a lesbian makes you feel more anxious than before and limited in your life and options, then maybe you aren’t one and bisexuality is the right descriptor after all. give yourself the grace and freedom to mentally try things out and not feel you’ve done something wrong by seeing what is more comfortable for you.

one last note about comphet that helped me when thinking about it—i feel like a lot of people have this conception of compulsory heterosexuality as, like, a one-and-done type of thing where you recognize you ‘have’ it and then eventually become so secure in your sexuality as a lesbian that it ‘goes away’. in reality it is a complex web of social, political, and economic conditions that rewards and enfranchises people in heterosexual relationships. no one is exempt from compulsory heterosexuality, not even heterosexual people, and certainly not bi people, because that’s just how the world is set up. i hope this doesn’t make things more difficult, but i encourage you to view comphet as a systematic issue rather than a personal one and see if that contextualizes your feelings towards men any differently and what that might mean for you.

anyway yeah tl;dr this is how it was for me, you know what is best for you, don’t be too hard on yourself as you try and figure this out! everything is going to be super fine and no matter when you land on ultimately there’s no losing and no judgment. i hope you take care and i hope this journey proves much easier than you expect! 💌

[hana-bobo-finch]

doodles of the wasp of all time

[themadzarka]

Charicature / Chamra Girl

An AU that exists because I didn't want to let go of you.

[wixenforever]

Good morning - time for my essay. Was this the first thing I thought of when I woke up? Yes. And then I glance thru my phone and see you posted ANOTHER comic - like, how?!!? How do you do this so fast @that1notetaker you're amazing!!

Okay, so, wow. The Blaise and Theo friendship here is so perfect! Like @jundsthoughts said a million kudos for writing this with Blaise pushing all of Theo's buttons but not going too far. Theos "dead-pan expression of you done fucked up" LMFAO like - that's what keeps Blaise in line!

You've opened the door to talk about Blaise and I have to be careful about what I say because I don't want to get too ahead of myself!! I imagine Draco and Theo to have cousin energy in my story, but Theo and BLAISE are legit BFFs and you captured that energy so well.

[Okay, in writing the little paragraph above I literally stopped and spaced out for about 10 minutes thinking about various future scenes in BOTL lmao so that was inspiration coming from you in real time I just wanted to call out haha]

Blaise thinking "MF get the hint!" makes me laugh out loud, along with all the little sparkles you added to his dialogue, so on-brand for him ahah.

ALSO - holy cow: I. Love. That. Theo. Steps. Back. When he gets mad and grabs Blaise (just fucking fabulous by the way, I want to frame that image) and then Blaise is like "my b I was just jokin", the fact that Theo facepalms and is like "ima take a walk".....I don't know exactly why but you just really hit his personality on the head with that moment. Unlike our boy Harry, whomst I love, I feel that Theo really would cool off before saying something he regrets. Just a subtle nod to that part of his character I love!

And then we get to his FABULOUS insight into Harry being treated like an object by everyone and everything around him - like, where is John? If he heard Theo say "I don't stand for it" in defense of Harry he would be drawing up a marriage contract. Or if SIRIUS heard that!? Holy shit. His brain might explode. He'd be sending letters to his godson like "So how's that Theodore Nott doing lately? 😉👀🥰" Love that all three of them are on the same mission.

Ugh, UGH! My heart! Draco and Blaise communicating via ESP like "this shit is serious" hahah!!! Yes it is!!!

Finally, I was reading y'all commentary on Jund's reblog and think that this is one reason why I love this ship so f'ing much. Then tension between Harry wanting to save or spare the people that he cares about from a bad situation because he knows/believes he can take it is (to me) so rooted in his self-belief that what happens to him doesn't matter. like, harry has no parents, no siblings. he has friends, he has people who care about him, sure, but even those few people would be "fine" without him (after all, they lived many years just fine without him!)

That's what I think Harry believes in his heart of hearts, even though he'd probably never say that out loud.

Then you have Theo, who is weirdly in a very similar situation. Even in other NottPott stories featuring different Nott family arrangements, his connection to his family is usually very weak or actively full of animosity lol. Of course in my story he has responsibilities tying him to the world, but for him his collatoral is his happiness and relationships with other people.

So you bring two somewhat self-destructive forces together, and Theo looks at Harry and is like "who is forcing this precious person into all this bullshit I don't get why he can't be himself/be happy/be safe" and Harry looks at Theo and is like "why does everyone treat Theo like a scary monster in the back of the room when he's the coolest, nicest, smartest guy in the world" and they both just want the best for each other WHILE respecting each other's individual strength and not necessarily getting in the way of what they feel called to do, even if it's dangerous.

Both of them might try too hard to protect or help each other in the beginning, but they'll level out haha. Wouldn't be a slow burn if there wasn't some sparks of conflict, right?

SINCE DAY ONE. @jundsthoughts @wixenforever

Another comic inspired by the awesome NottPott fic, The Burning of The Library by wixen here. In which Blaise is a suave motherfucker who wants Theo to get a hint, and ends up realising that the whole thing is deeper than both Draco and he thought. Theo remains oblivious for the most part, hidden under layers of intensity he doesnt have a name to yet.

Blaise, draco, who are used to this level of caring for one another from their parents. Also, common sense and Theo being an open hearted mf: 😳😳😳

Harry, somewhere: Ive never been more confused in my entire life.

[lemongogo]

[littlehatmouse]

lots of doodles because i forget to post art here most of the time

[quinn-pop]

yet another oc that only exists because i wanted to write something very specific

(middle is a little older, hence her scar healing. i like to think she gets a glass eye at some point)

anyway this is mira! (they/she) since that wip is almost 20k words and counting i won’t give away too much but long story short she’s the result of meta going “one last time, i promise” and adopting yet another kid

also galaxia kinda indirectly picked the name :)

i’ve mentioned before that i headcanon that pretty much all astrals are autistic and this is just kinda an extension of that. whereas meta tends to suppress his emotions and conform to others, mira…doesn’t. she gets uncomfortable and upset and lashes out at people easily, and working through their emotions is no small task.

the main reason i chose to write them that way was for the sake of narrative but i’ve grown attached to it because there’s a lot of ideas there i’d like to explore. stuff about navigating emotions and relationships when existing is so suffocatingly uncomfortable. it’s not something i could center around Kirby himself, but i think it makes sense with a post character development meta knight.

they are very loved (omg oldee cameo???)

kirby was definitely very excited to have younger siblings after being used to being the youngest in the room for so long!! (with the like. one and only exception being gooey.) he’s super affectionate with both of them and wants to have a close relationship one day, but for now mira is pretty unappreciative of that fact lol. they don’t like being pestered for hugs

everyone else is okay tho

(i know that’s hard to read. oops. “obvious bite marks”. siblings being siblings.)

mira also has a very love/hate relationship with the egg kid, being so close in age they kinda Have to get along but in typical sibling nature they also fight a lot. sure it’s probably rough for a while but i think in the end they’d be good buddies. maybe not as close as Kirby and Bandee but still.

anyway i have a lot of thoughts and am very busy but. i’m really enjoying writing about all this lately it’s been fun ^^

[idleindy]

Would it be blasphemy to say that I actually don't want another Dragon Age game?

[riiviir]

hey guys so I just started reading Flatland by Edwin A. Abbott and OMG AHSBNSBSBSNSNBSHZHSHDBFHGGHFHGRJ2KSHSBSNSK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I LOVE THINKING ABOUT THE RELATIVITY BETWEEN DIMENSIONS!!!!!!

[qulizalfos]

having a fantasy au moment it may or may not pass

[gardensnakie]

How’s life? No pressure question ofc, but if you want to share please feel free to do so with this ask :3

Eh, it doesn't feel all that great right now. I'm tired and hungry a lot, but I just have to get a routine together. My sleep has been wonky, I've been waking up too early, but I feel fine then but it also feels like I can't rest completely- I have dreamless nights mostly. And I also just get annoyed a lot, but it feels better being around people I like.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[orcelito]

i do love that vash is the Definition of high int, low wis. he puts on the goofiness to get ppl to not pay attention to how absolutely Bonkers skilled he is so ppl just assume he's a dumbass. and like. he IS. in some ways. he is SUCH a dumbass. but he's an incredibly intelligent dumbass. he has layers.

[arolesbianism]

Some more team captain ids! This time with the middle layer gang 👍