#i was never told there was santa either btw

[avicecaro]

i come from a legacy of disliking religion though. my mom was raised vaguely lutheran and stuck with it until her teens because she liked singing in the choir even though she didn’t believe in god. then realized that she could just join a choir instead. my dad went to jesuit school and found it restrictive and miserable and as soon as he graduated he became a hippie. my grandma left the catholic church because they wouldn’t let her take communion after she divorced her abusive husband and she got involved in abortion rights activism. so i was raised with lots of stories but i wasn’t raised with any myths. there was nothing i was told that was a matter of faith, or was beyond questioning or criticism. i was never told someone would see and judge me in the privacy of my mind or when alone. i was encouraged to question authority figures, even my parents. i was taught that there are things we owe to each other, and we do our best to make sure they get done, and it’s okay not to be happy about it, and if you screw up you move forward, not suffer. i don’t feel like my moral education was lacking. i don’t feel a hole in my chest where god would fit. i feel like the first kid in class to know santa isn’t real

[palskippah]

Hi! Drew this based over a scene in Santa Clarita Diet bc Abby's relationship with her parents is so funny but also it's clear that she loves them aaa

Anyways, every once in a while Cyrus realizes that his other dad is actually cooler than he gives him credit for sjdfksj

Under the cut are some more thoughts!

-Btw I hope you get the 'of course' wink sjdkfjs

>My mom always does it whenever I ask a question that could only use a 'yes' as an answer, instead of nodding or talking and I think it's cool sjkdf (I don't use it bc I'm very uncoordinated, imagine I accidentally double wink or do the frog blink 😭)

-Cyrus is often so mean to him that whenever he's genuinely nice, sometimes Ambrosius' suspicious and wondering if he's being sarcastic or mocking him, even if Cyrus tries to tell him that it's nothing of that and he means it

>Like that scene in Santa Clarita Diet where Abby compliments her parents and they stare for a few seconds all seriously and then one says, don't listen to her honey, we did great (and it reminded me so much of that one scene in the comic with Ballister and Ambrosius sjdkfjs)

>This one:

>I really wanna redraw it like the scene in the show. Ballister going good job and Ambrosius just staring very calculating, and then going, don't listen to him, men, we DID get him >:(

-Also drew this because ever since Cyrus has been born Ambrosius couldn't help but feel that his son just knew that he wasn't a good person, the way he was always frowning at him (that's just his face, like Ballister's) and when he grows up, he seems to not like him much either pipipi

>Anyways one day (being a moody teenager) Cyrus says the typical I hate you, dad!!! D:< and locks himself in his room and Ambrosius' like, D':

>He's always mean too but that's just his teenager personality, sarcastic and stuff and Ballister doesn't take it personal because he knows his son is just like that (hopefully for the meanwhile, until he grows out of it), Ambrosius knows too but he's more sensitive and can't help taking it a bit personal 😔

-Also I got another idea for a small comic based over a kdrama I watched, where the daughter (the oldest of the two siblings) blamed herself over her dad leaving their family, and hated him for leaving too and many things, just very complicated.

>And aaa imagine Cyrus just never saying it but knowing that both of his dads' lives would've been different if he hadn't been born. Like maybe all of Ballister's plans to overthrow the Institute and stuff took longer, and some phases in his plan had to be put in hold because of him and stuff.

>Also for a while he feels like Ballister is bound to Ambrosius for life because of him (little did he know that those two would've been around each other their whole lives anyways, even if he never existed sjdkfs) then he realizes that they actually like and love each other, and then they try having something, or smth, and then he's like oh :) because seeing both of your parents loving each other and getting along is a very nice feeling (I've been told, idk from first-hand experience🧍 cries)

>Actually, I drew this unfinished thing about that, based over another scene in the kdrama I mentioned, where the daughter says, after being told that if her parents hadn't met, she wouldn't have been born, that it'd would've been for the better.

>I know the writing is terrible but Cyrus' complaining about Ambrosius and ending his rant with 'I wish they just hadn't met at all', and Nimona saying that she used to feel the same, but then realized that Cyrus wouldn't have been born, and Cyrus was supposed to say next, 'maybe that would've been better' and then Nimona doesn't answer and just stares at him wwhwh

-AND of course it's not Cyrus' fault that Ballister decided to have him, but he still has the feeling of having messed up his dad's life, and let's say that Ballister realizes for whatever reasons his feelings, connecting dots and stuff.

>So, imagine a conversation where he's saying very reassuringly, Meeting your father and later having you is one of the best things that had happened to me, or something like that. And Cyrus is resolutely not looking at him, but his eyes are getting teary, even if he feigns not acknowledging Ballister's words because how embarrassing, and how vulnerable he feels, but also he feels so relieved and loved too.

>And he doesn't know what to do with the feelings, also being a teenager with no feelings is his thing, y'know, so he's like, Just so you know, I'm not crying over what you said, I don't care about that, something just got in my eye- and Ballister just smiles because his son is terrible at communicating his feelings, but it's okay and he gets it, and just says, of course, let me get it out for you, and then he wipes Cyrus' tears and Cyrus gets a tad bit more teary but it's fine because his dad doesn't mind wiping some more tears wiwiiw

>(projecting so much into him bc when I watched that one scene in the show I cried bc I've felt the way the protagonist did (now I know better tho, I'm the coolest thing to happen to my mom yippiee) and it's a very ugly feeling, so of course I'm giving it to a character whwehw)

Anyways, that's it! I love them so much, I hope to make some more comics about the thingies I said above sjkdfd

[batlesbianism]

hiiii i hope youre doing well!! im your secret santa but also i am now invested in chameron lore and i want to know the details here. i love x men deeply and you are so so real for loving charles <3 he loves you too btw he told me :)))

OMG HI!!!!!!!! WAVING SO MUCH!!!!!!

I’m still in the day dreaming phase of their lore, but i’ll try and write down what i’ve got!!

1960 - X-Men first class takes place :D!! Cameron is one of the original mutants recruited by Charles. They get together during the events of first class :3. The School opens shortly after first class, it’s very small, Cameron is the band/chorus teacher ^_^!!

1963 - Cameron and Charles adopt Pietro and Wanda!! They originally come to the school through a program Charles set up for mutants in the foster care system. Pietro and Wanda are 5 when they’re adopted :3!

1971 - Cameron leaves the X-Men, taking the twins with them and moves to washington, d.c. This is just before DOFP, and Cameron and Charles end up splitting for about a year or two. I honestly have a lot of thoughts about this time period for them, and everytime i’ve tried to write them down my mind can’t think of words </3.

1973 - DOFP takes place and Charles and Cameron meet again after not talking for two-ish years. Logan invites Cameron to join Pietro and the rest on the mission (he also invites Wanda but she is forever the introvert and stays home). At this point Cameron and Charles are still really in love. They never really fell out of love. When Pietro goes home, Cameron decides to stay with Charles and finish the mission. They get back together shortly after finishing the mission and Cameron and the twins move back into the mansion.

1973 onwards - It’s pretty peaceful honestly. Very domestic and soft, most of the content I make surrounding them either takes place here or in the 1963-1971 period. Cameron and Charles run the school together, with Charles taking care of the numbers side of things, and Cameron taking care of the rest. Cameron also runs the drama club at the school :D!

and for some quick trivia,,

-Cameron’s superhero name is Jukebox (Raven gave it to them)

-Cameron teaches both the band/chorus classes, as well as mutant history through music

-I headcanon Charles as autistic,, Chameron is autism4autism :3

-and probably more I forgot about!!!

[cabinofimagines]

5. End Chat

A/N: Happy New Year! -Asnyox & Danny

The Le-Gou-Lash Bash

Jason

*A picture of Jason, sitting on Hunding Santa’s lap *

Magnus

You weren't kidding? There's a Santa??

Jason

Yes! He promised me to get Percy his reindeers that he's so worried about

Magnus

You mean he promised me. Jason, if I come back to a room with even one reindeer in it…

Jason

Don't worry, if he's the real deal he’ll do it right! If you do get reindeers, just give them to Percy and all's good anyways :)

Magnus

Helheim’s sake

Will

The real hell is camp Jupiter at Christmas time. 

Jason

Oh! Will, how did the planning go? Found my stuff?

Will

No.

Jason

Oh? Anything more

Magnus

I think he gave up. 

Hey, Jason, can you give me your address? 

Nothing to do with possible reindeers or therapy

Jason

Reyna told me to never write my address online, I'll tell you next time we see ech other! 

Or I'll write it down here, put it in your dresser :) 

Alex is telling me to just write it on your wall, that seems a bit much. I will rearrange your bookshelves though

I barely know any of these authors

Magnus

Do NOT touch my books

Will 

He reads things like the bible Magnus, i got his copy right here

It is annotated with colored tabs

Magnus

WHAT

Jason

Hey! It's just a thrilling read 

Magnus

And you didn't die in Valhalla???

Will

He somehow survived Camp Jupiter's easter play, he survived all of this

Magnus

Will do you want to talk about it? I can clear up a spot for you, Austin already dropped some lore. Did you work through the events of the Battle of Manhattan yet?

Will

… I'll work through it later

Jason

Look guys I just annotated the Bible to rewrite the easter play! You've seen it yourself, Will

Alex is laughing at me

Will

YOU wrote THAT?????

Magnus

Easter play?

Jason

Yes, you can come with the rest of your floor if you want :)

Magnus

Sure?

Will

My condolences 

Magnus

??????

Jason

Magnus if anyone asks btw your friend Jack was visiting his family, I don’t know why your friends missed him but he must be a great guy

Magnus

Jack’s my sword

Will

My dad's arrow was sentient, was your sword?

Magnus

Still is sentient, and sings horribly 

Jason

You guys can talk to your weapons? Man that's so cool

Anyway I’m honestly a bit bummed out that I’m not allowed to visit this place, I’m gonna miss the wolves…

unless

Will

do NOT steal the wolves, you have nowhere to keep them, your house is tiny and sad

Magnus

Yeah, and don’t even think about taking them here either, this whole place is a safety hazard—which reminds me, Jason, would you like an appointment too?

Jason

Lupa says trauma makes us strong

Magnus

Kay, that’s awful! You’re getting one right now

Will

Let’s never do this again, please

Magnus

Fine by me

Jason

:(

Will

Maybe next time let’s just meet up somewhere, exchange gifts and call it a day?

Magnus

You got it

Jason

:)

Magnus

Happy New Year by the way!

Will

Gods, I hope so

[scruffyssketchbook]

how was old eevolves like?

It was written by an 11 year old. And it shows.

Shun had both Naruto and Avatar powers (he could bend all 4 elements and do Ninja Jutsu/control his chakra). And was a Mary Sue. I focused so much on Shun x May that it seemed like they were the main characters and everyone else was a side character. Eve’s dolls in ssec were in old Eevolves but Ruby owned them. Ofc, no June. Shun made them and they could talk because ofc they can. Sylveon wasn’t a thing when I wrote old Eevolves so Ruby liked Randy and there was no love triangle there. Max was never in the series cause him and his best friend Jax went away to learn ninjutsu from a Naruto ninja master. He wanted to get stronger so April will notice him. Which he did. Ex (or X) was an evil shiny Umbreon named UMBREON X and he was obsessed with Flora and he led a group of shiny Pokémon that terrorized everywhere, and ofc, Mary Shun had to stop him with his cool bad ass Naruto powers. Umbreon X also eventually got April Pregnant. Why April? She had nothing going for her so I thought it’ll bring her back into the story. It didn’t. :V She ended up hiding the baby from everyone. I forgot her son’s name. It’s probably Keith. Keith won’t be in New Eevolves and April is not getting pregnant either. Randy was a runt (like Vay is) and apparently it was Shun’s fault???? Idk. They had a big fight about it (with curse words and all) and Mary Shun with all his edge on display was like “ya…… come with me…….” “Leafeon……. It’s my fault….”. Randy is still oblivious as Ever with how Ruby feels about him, and only realizes when she heard her tell someone else. When he confronts her about this, she lists off the whole cast, saying the Eevolves main characters by their Eeveelution name but every other Eeveelution character by their actual name.

Mary Shun (who was Literally Black from ES but more Emo and Edgy) got super emo around May, so he leaves and May is heart broken for years until a kind Glaceon boy made her happy again and when Shun comes back against his will she still chooses SHUN AND NOT THE CUTE NICE GLACEON BOY WHO HELPED HER THROUGH ALL HER SAD TIMES. (The cute Glaceon character is in new Eevolves too, trying to find a name for him because I don’t remember his old name.) Speaking about Mary Shun, he at the ripe age of 12, had a mate and a child on the way, but both were killed by a Pokémon attack right in front of him (Ofc he killed the Pokémon who did it afterwards) and that is how he became edgy mc Edgelord. Also he borderline hated May and always told her to leave him alone and insulted things she liked. But OFC he had a soft spot for her cause she reminded him of his dead wife *eye roll* literal Tsundere. There is a picture I drew of him and said dead wife, they look like adults. Randy is playing a game with Ruby next to them and they look like literal babies. These characters are NOT THAT FAR IN AGE FROM EACHOTHER. Also ofc there are Eevolves kids too, they have their OWN drama. And one of them ofc is a Ninjutsu master at the ripe age of 4 years old. (Eevolves uses human aging, not SSEC aging btw). Everyone had dead or missing parents. Flora and Max’s parents died in a fire, April and May’s mom died and their dad was missing, Jet never knew his parents, Ruby’s parent abandoned her, Shun and Randy’s parents- are actually alive but Shun disowned them along with his older brother. So they were mostly living on their own. From a young age. No family or cousins or anything. Max evolved into a Jolteon btw.

BRO I JUST FOUND AN IMAGE OF MAY SAYING “WANNA BE THE SANTA IN MY SLEIGH” TO SHUN WUT LOLLLLLLLLLLL HELP I WROTE THIS WHEN I WAS 11

All of this ofc. Is changing.

I feel like the only thing not changing completely is Jet’s backstory, because HONESTLY. It’s the most grounded. I completely overhauled Shun’s personality, gave April more personality, changed everything with Max, gave them actual parental figures (well not Shun, his Parents stays borderline disowned, but the rest do have parental figures) and in general made the story like- not seem like it was written by a 11 year old.

[conkreetmonkey]

(heavy academic vent post, don't read if you're not in the mood. I don't want to bring anyone's vibe down. Minors pls don't read!)

So last night I found out that I missed an important assignment that's probably going to cost me a credit. I previously missed one, which was no biggie because it was only worth 15%, but this one was worth 20%. It doesn't seem like a big deal until it's taken into consideration that the final exam, taking place tomorrow, is worth a whopping 40% of the final grade, so even if I absolutely ace the exam, which I probably won't because I'm only human, the highest possible mark I can get is 65%, which I probably won't because the 15% assignment was marked by the unseen hardass TA who the teacher has had to keep reigned in because they don't even look at the assignment rubric and just go absolutely feral, docking marks for things the teacher explicitly told us to do and needing to be corrected on it.

(btw, the outstanding 10% is the stupid online discussion posts that I have not done for any class because I would honestly rather tear out all my toenails with a pair of pliers than subject myself to that. 2020 gave me a stress response to that shit. It feels like the academic equivalent of being forced to do a dance by a Walmart manager)

Since I bombed almost every class last year, my parents have told me I need to pass every class this year or they will withdraw financial support, something I totally agree is fair because I wasted so, so much tuition and residence money on pretty much zilch. The thing is, until last night, I thought I was passing. My father has withdrawn the money from my college fund and will soon be paying for my next semester (I paid for the first). Due to this, I am going to have to tell them I may fail a course and they should hold on to the money. They're probably going to be very, very mad. It's going to ruin an entire evening and it will cement me as the disappointing formerly gifted child for the foreseeable future.

The thing is, I can't tell them tonight like I've been steeling myself for because they've decided we're putting up the stupid Christmas tree. They're tidying the house for the obligatory happy family photo ops, as if we all haven't had a bad year for reasons too private to describe. So now I have to get tidied up and pretend to be a cheerful little clam for the phone camera, knowing I have to get up at 8:00 tomorrow to get fucking slaughtered by multiple exams, drag myself home, and tell my parents that I've failed them yet again. Putting up the tree at all just feels cynically bittersweet at this point. The youngest child has grown out of Santa, but we all have to keep up the act out of pure obligation to a tradition originating in happier times. While tidying, my mom threw out a houseplant I got her for mother's day, and it stung more than I'd like to admit. She claimed it was "pretty much" dead, but we all know it wasn't. She threw it out with a perfectly good pot attached. Basically, she's in one of those Mom Moods, where she leeches vibe arsenic into the air, making the rest of the day feel like walking on napalm-filled eggshells.

I feel trapped, and I'm tortured by the knowledge that I brought this on myself by forgetting about an assignment. I hate school so goddamn much, but I need to keep forcing myself through because a) I'll never survive in this economy otherwise, and b) if I don't use the rare oppourtunity of being able to attend university as a guy in a first-world country, I'll feel like an ungrateful POS for the rest of my life. I still feel like I should be forcing myself to become a doctor even though I don't want to and it's not expected of me, just because it's the "correct" thing to do. Instead, I'm shooting for a worthless bachelors of English that I don't even want just because if I'm not in uni I'll be obligated to work a shitty factory job until my bones crack to make up for it. No matter which way I go, I'm either miserable or a disappointment, and surviving outside of this house is impossible no matter what I do because this country's economy is collapsing in on itself. Even with my low-value degree, I'd be barely scraping by. I don't want any university degree. I hate university while studying something I like. Getting a valuable degree like business administration or bookkeeping would be like chewing glass. It's probably not even feasible if I couldn't manage this.

No matter which way I go, I'm trapped. I'm miserable in school, but making a living without a valuable degree in this country is impossible. No matter what I do, I'll be living in my parents' basement for at least the next 3-5 years because the rent in this town is absurd, so living somewhere else would mean full-time min wage employment with at least 2 roommates, and I'd be counting individual dollars at the Walmart checkout with no real prospect of saving.

I want to sprint away from my life screaming and start over, but that would be a death sentence. My only option is school and I hate it and I know I can do it but I have so much executive dysfunction that it feels like climbing Mt. Everest, as does doing much of anything aside from sleeping. My antidepressants aren't cutting it anymore. There's no way I couldn't be depressed in these circumstances, where I'm surrounded by options and they're all shit sandwiches. I doubt therapy or upping my prozac dosage would even help. The problem is the crushing pressure and lack of non-miserable prospects. No matter what I do, the next 5 or even 10 years of my life are set to be a miserable slog. There's no escape.

I wish I could run, but where could I go? It's just as bad everywhere. You cannot land a non-body-ruining job that allows you to afford rent without a degree anymore, simple as. Because of AI, I couldn't even make money writing/drawing porn anymore, which has been my backup plan since forever. The only way out of this basement is through school, and due to the fuckup that broke the camel's back, I'm probably going to have to put myself through it, all while my parents think less and less of their previously "gifted" child (aka, I was neurodivergent but went undiagnosed and thus had a lonely childhood. People knew and never told me). I want to explode. I wish I could get hit by a car and break all my bones so it wouldn't all be my fault anymore, and I could sue and finally stop worrying about money. I am so close to just pulling an internet scam so I can have enough money to get out of this life. I need out and there's no way out. I need money and there's no way to make money. I'm tired and stressed all the time and I want to scream and I can't even complain about it because I'm technically priveliged. I should be happy that I get to go to school because this is the best there is. I hate living in this world. I want to escape but I can't. I'm a rat in a cage.

[bubybubsters]

thank you sm @thelov3lybookworm OMG I FRICKING LOVE YOU SM ughh HEY BTW YOU WERE MINE FIRST :) nyway thanks for being so amazing and helping me alone i'm glad i met you

@pumpkinsareamazing I LOVE YOU (wish we had a class together) BUT ALL UR MESSAGES MAKE ME SO HAPPY (on insta too) even if i don't respond out of pure laziness (that's all on me)

@writingsbychlo pretty sure i never told you this lol but ur blog was the first i ever found and ur the one that actually got me hooked in fanfiction so thanks :)

@azsazz all ur fics are like my comfort fics thank you so much you have no idea how much i reread ur stuff

@claireswritingcorner we haven't yapped in a hot second but ur always there and u give me advice and support and i'm really grateful 🥲

@angelfic never mentioned this either (sorry if the tag is annoying) but your 'the way i loved you' fic for theo nott is so ✨✨✨✨ omg i come back to it at least once a month thank you so much (lol that fic actually was the one that made me love theo)

@artists-ally we haven't talked in a while and i dont think you've been online recently but ur so fricking cool and ur writing is incredible :)

@berryzxx thank you for feeding me 🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️🙇‍♀️ you're 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰😍😍😍😍😘😘 :) ur so kind i love you

@icey--stars i'm glad i was ur secret santa a few years ago cuz without it i don't think i would have ever had the guts to message you and every time you post i'm settling back and kicking my feet. thank you

@tsunami-of-tears UR DIVIDERS ARE GORGEOUS AND UR WRITING IS EQUALLY IF NOT MORE GORGEOUS PLUS UR COOL AF :):) i really enjoyed being ur secret santa

positivity train!

if you see this or are tagged in it, tag a couple of your favorite mutuals/blogs and let them know you appreciate seeing them on your dash!

@h0neysugarfree @blueberrylovv @bequiteanddriveeeeeee @cherri-bomb-bomb @eg0mechan1c @fatrexicisback

[swimmingclassicrockpizzawombat]

I'm fucking SICK OF THIS I'M FUCKING SICK OF MY "FAMILY"

I FUCKING HATE THESE PEOPLE AND I AM SO FUCKING DONE WITH THEM.

And you know what?!?!?! That might make me sound like a monster but I don't care because THEY DON'T CARE ABOUT ME EITHER.

I can't wait to go back to college and not have to see them again for another 6 months.

At the same time I won't lie when I say they make me want to die sooooo bad

Like anything ti get as far away from them and all the manage they have done and continue to make. All their little insults and demeaning attitudes, their violence, their punches, everything.

I have a dietarty restriction due to allergies and IBS and we don't have a lot of food at home atm so I saved up some sushi SPECIFICALLY to have something to eat today. And my mom made my dad and brother a shit ton of their favorite foods (which I can't eat) to keep them from eating MY FOOD AS THAT'S ALL I CAN EAT.

AND MY FUCKING BROTHER STILL ATE MY SUSHI AND I WANT TO PUNCH HIM SO BAD.

I LITERALLY HAVE NOTHING TO EAT TODAY. I WOULD GO OUT TO A RESTAURANT BUT I HURT MY HIPS YESTERDAY.

AND THIS ISN'T THE ONLY TIME THEY HAVE EATEN MY FOOD.

I meal prep EVERY week and as a gym bro I have to make sure I'm eating healthily enough takomg enough protein/carbs.

And HAVE ASKED THEM NOT TO EAT MY FOOD BUT THEY STILL DO WHICH FUCKS UP MY ENTIRE WEEK SO I CONSTANTLY HAVE TO SCRAMBLE AND FIGURE OUT WHAT TO EAT LAST MINUTE.

Even when my mom makes food for them!!!! Specifically for them. Food that more often than not I can't even eat!!!!!

Like, even during Easter or Christmas when "Santa" or whatever used to give us candies MY BROTHER EAT ALL OF HIS AND MY CANDIES IN ONE DAY AND LEAVE ME NOTHING. Like, he would just fucking steal them.

But because they perceive me as a fucking woman they expect me to make food FOR THEM and SERVE THEM. Do household chores FOR THEM. Except that now that I'm trans and a wannabe man I'M ALSO EXPECTED TO DO "MANLY THINGS" SO I HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING.

Like I want to fucking cry. This is not fair.

Like, when my brother has invited his gf and friends to a game night (which btw I always have to clean uo after that bc I'm their maid), and we have played those truth/confession games they are always surprised by how little we act like siblings and dislike each other. Since for example his gf is super close to her siblings and while they do fight they have each other's back and care for each other deeply.

Yet when it comes to me and my brother we don't even pretend. I know we would never have my back with anything. We want NOTHING to do woth each other and he will still find ways to fuck me up because he sees me as his little bitch and he doesn't even try to hide it (he has shoved me in the past and beat me up while I'm brushing my teeth because he wants to brush HIS teeth and has no time to wait for a "worthless bitch like me" so I have had to pause brushing my teeth ans resume until he is done".

He even convinced our mutual therapist I have BPD to have her INVALIDATE EVERYTHING I EVER TOLD HER.

"Hey my brother started beating me up and I have bruises"

T: you are lying you just have BPD and are being extra sensitive

"HE KEEPS CALLING ME A WORTHLESS BITCH AND SHOVING ME"

T: it's your BPD just ignore it and meditate

"I think I have ADHD I meet all the diagnostic criteria and over 7 fmaily members have it"

T: It's just your BPD, from what your brother tells me you can't have it. You also did too well in school to have ADHD.

[spaceorphan18]

Idk I know lots of people like the idea of Kurt sleeping around whilst not with Blaine, but I can’t hc that at all. He’s always been very cautious of physical touch and I don’t think he’d rush to have sex with anyone, even if lonely or a teenage boy with needs!

If he did sleep with anyone else I think Adam would be the only other person I’d think of . (Especially as PUC is one of those episodes obliterated from my mind - and sexy Santa didn’t exist).

But I still think he was only ever comfortable with Blaine, and that’s what makes it so very special for him.

Okay... finally have some time to sit down and answer asks!

So, I want to preface this with... Kurt and Adam are one of those ambiguous things on Glee that don't have an actual answer. So, I don't think that there's only one way to come at this -- and while I've developed some of my own thoughts about it, I don't think the view in this ask is wrong, even if I'm going to take things in a different direction.

I do think you can argue the - did Kurt and Adam have sex - question and be on either side of it and have valid points. So, while I think it's a fun exercise to look at it from all angles, I'd really like people to remember when discussing it -- that it's okay to have differing opinions in this. The show did not explicitly say anything one way or the other. So... feel free to go wild with your headcanons.

These are my thoughts on the subject, which admittedly, have changed over the years, but I feel pretty comfortable stating that this is what I've settled on. I'm not asking anyone to agree, nor am I seeking to change anyone else's mind. I just thought this would be a good ask to use as a platform to express how I feel about it.

***

So, I'm of two opinions -- A) The show leaned on the side of no sex and B) I actually prefer the Kurt and Adam had sex narrative, because I like it better for his character. (Making a cut, because this is gonna get long...)

Opinion A:

I think that the show made a huge deal out of sex -- especially when it was a character whom the show cared a great deal about. It's interesting that Santana goes from being a slut joke in the first-ish season to having a ton of narrative around her sexuality and her sexual habits once she becomes a more serious character. Did you notice that the sluttiness narrative nearly completely drops once her narrative of coming out starts to happen? That's because the show began to treat her like an actual character.

(As an aside - Brittany never really became a full, fleshed out character and, for better or worse, her relationship with sex is... iffy at best.)

Anyway... my point is that for main characters - the topic of sex is a big deal and even with the characters who have more of it, there are topics of discussion around it (more so with the female characters -- but that's a whole different thing entirely).

Kurt is way up there with Rachel in terms of main characters, so of course, this whole subject becomes a great deal. But when you compare it to what Rachel is up to during this time period, there are two vastly different stories being told. Rachel's story is about a girl trying to grow up too fast and making a ton of really stupid decisions -- including jumping into bed with Brody. (Btw - I don't think that it's bad that she sleeps with Brody - but the show wants to present it as a dumb choice, especially around the pregnancy scare.)

Kurt's story with Adam, however, is framed in a much different way. It's much more innocent, much more romcom. Kurt and Adam don't kiss, they don't touch, they don't really have much of a romance at all because Adam is barely a character, and after the first real development they give him, he's dropped like a hot potato. The show didn't really seem to want to commit to this idea of Kurt exploring other options, and it fizzled out quicker than it started.

And, if I'm being honest - I don't even think it was because they didn't want to show Kurt having sex with someone else, I think they just didn't care much about building up that narrative, so they dropped it before they had to start answering these questions.

So... I just don't think there's enough evidence within canon, for me, to support that that's what the writers wanted to show happened.

That said...

Opinion B:

I like the idea of Kurt and Adam having some kind of sexual activity.

Because I like the idea of Kurt having some sort of sexual experience that isn't tied to Blaine.

And I'd like to make abundantly clear that Kurt having an sexual experience does not diminish or erase any deep feelings or connection he has with Blaine. If anything, I think that more experiences help us contextualize things.

There are a lot of people out there who do like Slutty McSluttson Kurt, and while that's fine for them to explore, it's just not how I see the character. And that's fine. But I do see Kurt as a very sexual being. In canon, he does love sex. And once he starts having it, and is much more comfortable with the idea, it does become a part of who he is. It's often strange to me that people go to extremes -- either he's a Slutty McSluttson or he's pure and only saved for Blaine, and I guess I'm not really a fan of either of those options, if I'm being honest.

I feel like human beings are more complicated than that... varying shades of gray. So, why do we have a tendency to paint our characters in black and white?

I think there are a lot of things going on with Kurt when he meets Adam. He's very, very heartbroken. He's in a new city where his one friend has basically ditched him for a relationship. He's getting pressure from said friend to be in a relationship. He's allowed to be outwardly gay with less consequences for the first time. He's finding that he can be casually attracted to men and not have it be the heaviness that came with every other guy he had been attracted to.

And I think attempting to navigate a new relationship is a way Kurt can explore all of these things.

But also -- I think it's a chance for Kurt to have a positive experience with sex, and have an understanding that it doesn't have to have the same amount of life changing weight that young people often put on first relationships.

Sometimes... sex is just sex. Sometimes sex is nice because it feels good. Sometimes sex is nice because companionship. Sometimes sex wanting to explore what sex even is. And Adam - being someone completely new to Kurt, doesn't have the baggage Blaine carries -- and it's a way for Kurt to explore two people having a clean slate with each other. And I do like the idea that Kurt can experience and explore all of these things.

I'd also like to add -- just to comment on the 'touch' part of this ask... yes, touch does mean something to Kurt. But I don't think that will negate him wanting to have sex with a person other than Blaine. As we see in PUC (which, we all know I am not a fan of) which would have taken place /before/ Kurt met Adam -- Kurt was willing to get drunk and have a one-night stand. Even if it was throwing his caution to the wind, I think that if it's on Kurt's terms, he's open experiencing new ways of making himself feel good.

(I'd also argue that 'touch' with Kurt is also rooted in how people in his childhood treated him. That trauma was helped not only by Blaine, but by the love of his father, Mercedes, Rachel, Finn, and his other friends... to the point where I don't think he's as guarded physically in the later half of the story as he is in the first half. He is still very particular about who is in his personal bubble, but his defense is not as steely by the time he meets Adam.)

I don't think that Kurt and Adam are sex fiends either. I know fanfic likes to delve pretty quickly into kinks and sex 24/7, but it really isn't that way. Kurt and Adam probably had a few sexy times -- maybe some handjobs and one time Kurt was a top or something. And it's probably awkward, and maybe not completely fulfilling in the way Kurt wants, needs, or expects. But it's enough to satisfy Kurt's curiosity, and a way for him to experience something other than Blaine.

Not to mention - being able to experience what sex can be not tied to Blaine. Which... I think is important.

Because it means that Kurt chooses to come back to Blaine -- not because they're soul mates, or meant to be together, but because Kurt can understand his choices.

Adam is friendly and kind but a somewhat casual relationship. Kurt likes him, and is attracted to him, but the intense love and connection he feels with Blaine is not there. And that's okay.

I think it's also a way for Kurt to discover that what he and Blaine have is truly special. That intense love is something that Kurt wants. Sex with a lot of emotional feeling behind it is something he wants. And being able to experience a different choice is completely healthy and normal.

Plus, there's the added complication of Kurt dealing with his feelings of hurt from Blaine. He's still trying to figure out what Blaine means to him, how Blaine is going to be in his life, and at what level. Adam is kind of a nice distraction from all of that. And I think experiencing sex with Adam is a way to kind of understand what sex can be when it's mostly about the physical.

Anyway, as I said above, because the show doesn't confirm one way or the other, I do not think there's one right answer to this. And I don't want to put out there that my way is the only way to look at this, cause clearly there are so many ways. But I just like the idea of Kurt exploring and learning from Adam in a way that he can't from Blaine. And in the end - choosing Blaine because he understands not only that he wants Blaine, but that he's learned what the other options are out there.

:)

[sparkly-skies]

@mondscheinprinzessin "#<< and that's just where they're gonna stay forever#to the tune of jatp's unsaid emily | that's the soundtrack to your mind fics? what kinda sad stuff do you got up there?😭 (in which I mean, please share)"

I'm just gonna anwer that on this blog.

I wasn't thinking of anything in particular, I just thought "ah yes, the fanfic ideas in my mind, that's where they'll stay forever probably because I put off trying to write constantly", and then had that line with the melody in my mind and couldn't remember where it was from until I googled it. Have some Unsaid Emily for the crying of it:

Anyway, I still went through my notes doc and I can share some sad ideas if you want 😌

The main thing is still the "put Olli in a Dirndl and let him get harassed which then brings up a past incident he thought 'wasn't that bad' but he's still angry about it" vent fic one; I've told you plenty about that already I think, although I think I've maybe strayed a bit too far from what I originally wanted to write with that. Maybe I'll have to circle back to--- actually nevermind, I got confused and looked at my notes again and it does work like that, I just forgot part of why I wanted to put him in a dress in the first place. It works like that, please continue (me @ my brain). I'm still not sure how to get the comfort in there, sorry.

this one's hurt AND comfort, you could read it! I saw this prompt: - "Um, I know this might sound weird... but can you help me dye my hair? It would make me feel better." - "It's not weird at all. What colour?" and I don't have too specific ideas about it yet, but maybe something about Aleksi feeling torn about having "left" his solo career to join a band that's so different from what he did so far and thinking that maybe it would help if he tried to look more like he "belongs" there, so he asks someone for help dying his hair black the first time.

I think we also already talked about that one, or was that with someone else? - "I don't ever want to feel like I did that day again." Either someone (Olli? Tommi?) running into his shitty ex and telling his now-boyfriend they don't want to feel like they did in that relationship ever again; or a day one of them almost gave up on their music career because it was really hard and a shitty day came at the end of a shitty month and it seemed like they'd never make it anyway; or somewith with regards to past suicidal feelings and finally opening up to his friends about it.

Did you ever listen to Santa Cruz' Breathe? I did and it almost made me cry. It hits SO hard, like wth, losing friends and wondering how things would be if something would have been different? just rip my heart out, that would hurt less 😭

Hey, this is not necessarily a sad one! I wrote down "We're safe inside this Pandora's Box", which I've also had down to try to draw something for for ages now (in fact I think it was the first thing I wrote down for BC), and I have no idea for it at all, I just thought it could be a good title for a fic about how they (the band as a whole or a pairing of friends or a couple) are safe and happy with each other, they are each other's boxes to be safe inside and they'll be fine as long as they are there with each other.

and then there's also the one we've already talked about with Joonas or Olli going to visit his parents and immediately being treated like a child again in regards to... just about everything. Btw, the last line of the notes for that is "So many possibilities. Anyone hurt someone, please, thanks😊 - Laura"

[gra-sonas]

I had a quick question didn't Tyler say he was filming 3x08 or am I mistaken? I remember him saying he saw Vlamis? I think he also said he was shocked he wasn't in 3x09 because Trevino was directing? I remember seeing it somewhere, but I can't find the source and thought you might know? To me that seems like he filmed 3x06 and 3x07 maybe too? Cause his missing episodes so far are 3x03, 3x04 and 3x05 that would be his 3 contract episodes. That could be why he was shocked about 3x09?

I'm assuming all the 3x were meant to be 4x... 😉

There's been no hint of Tyler being in Santa Fe during the filming of 4x06 (he posted from LA a lot tho), and when they were filming 4x07, Tyler was on vacation in Mexico, IDK, going by what any of the cast (including Tyler) posted during that time it seems rather unlikely he'll be in either of these episodes but who knows.

As far as I'm aware, Tyler never said he was filming 4x08. Vlammy posted an IG story from his trailer during the time they were filming 4x08, saying "Tyler Blackburn told me I look hot right now" and from what I understand, some people took the "right now" literal and assumed he told him that in person [i.e. on set] and then took it as confirmation he's in the episode. However, there's been no other indication [I'd be aware of] that he was in Santa Fe during the filming of 4x08, but again, who knows.

During the IG live with Vlam in November, he mentioned that he wouldn't be in 4x09.

Either way, personally, I don't think the 10 eps/season contract applies to Tyler in S4. Neither does it apply to Amber btw (who, like Tyler, has been a secondary main cast member for the past 2 seasons with 10 eps/season) so far she's missed more than the usual 3 episodes, and CW's never made an announcement about that either, we'll just have to wait and see when these two will be back.

[bezdddakota]

So I finished The Last Of Us 2....

Where do I begin?? Let’s start with Abby because she is the only character people want to talk about.

I don’t hate Abby but I have many issues with her like the developers really wanted you to like her over Ellie and they pushed really hard on it too. Like they have her make these jokes like Ellie would in the first game and they make her take care of Yara and Lev ( who is my favorite character in the entire game btw ) like Joel took care of Ellie. Basically her entire part of the game is Joel from the first game but super short and. I feel  like if the game was made soley about her and get rid of the flashback scene and have them tell us at the end that Joel killed her father then people wouldn’t hate her as much. ( also her parts were my favorite part of the game but they were short tbh or I just ran through it. Took me 6 hours ).

Oh Ellie, my sweet girl. What the hell did they do to you?!?!?! You were full of life and in this game, they just sucked the life out of you and all because of your survivor's guilt and how you blame Joel for it?? I was confused by how she didn’t pick on Jesse in the very beginning when he woke her up or even with Dina later. She’d pull out a Playgirl and ask why the pages were stuck together 4 weeks after she saw her best friend die in front of her!!! She couldn’t make a stupid pun with her GIRLFRIEND during the open world exploring of Seattle?!?!?! She went through so much just for her to be a former shell of herself?!?!? The closest she was to her old self was with JJ and even then she was like the cool aunt who never sees her nieces and nephews twice a year!!!  

And the game plays like a melodrama, like the first one gave you a beginning you couldn’t forget and then gave you a cutscene that you had to listen to so you could understand what Joel has been doing for the past few years while this one starts with Ellie waking up and apologizing to Jesse because his ex girlfriend kissed her the night before and you NEVER SEE THE MAGICAL NIGH T UNTIL NEAR THE END OF THE GAME!!!!!! And that are sooo many flashbacks, too many to even make a coherent story out of it. Abby gets hit in the head, flashback to the time she told Owen where Joel was, Ellie plays the guitar, flashback to a time with Joel. I’m too busy worried about what Abby was doing to worry about her getting that high score, ok!?!?!?

And for some reason, I feel the game was never meant to be a sequel you know?? I mean, you don’t have to play the first game to understand this one and that makes me thinks that they made this game for people who never played the first one and they made sure that EVERYONE could play the game, they got options for people with vision problems, people with hearing problems and how you can customize your game with changing the difficulty settings for you, the enemies, how many supplies you find. It’s very impressive and although there are glitches still left in the game, ( my square button is still fucked, Naughty Dog!!! I can’t fend off a clicker or hit anyone with a board. I can’t even use photo mode!!!! ).

And the one thing that bothers me more than anything is that Abby never explained to Ellie why she killed Joel or even to Joel, for that matter. It really bothers if I see someone gets punished for something that wasn’t explained to them like “ my name is Abby Anderson, you killed my father. Prepare to die “, simple. And not even Ellie explained why she hunted her down. No one explained the things they were doing but do you know who explained why he was looking for a grown man traveling with a little girl. DAVID THE CANNIBAL!!!!  Because he at least told Ellie why and unfortunately that game did the whole “ your actions will come back to haunt you “ because David was terrifying.

This game looks beautiful and when the game lets you, it can be a lot of fun but the cutscenes have to remind you it’s Clinical Depression: the game and it is so obvious it wasn’t made for people who loved the first one.

Side notes because I forgot to mention them. 

SOMEONE SHOULD HAVE DIED IN THE FINAL SCENE.

Ellie lost her wife and kid just to get to Abby and she lets her go because of another frigging flashback?? It doesn’t feel like the game is saying “ revenge is bad “ but Ellie killed so many people along the way just because she could get to Abby and she just lets her go?? Either Ellie or Abby should have died because we spent too much time with them.

Another thing that bothers me other is all the LGBT characters gets the worst deal out of everyone in the game. 

The Scars want to kill Lev because he didn’t want to be a child bride and shaved his head and he accidentally killed his mother in self defense because she was going to kill him and witnessed his sister die in front of him and his home burn to the ground.

Ellie sees her father figure die in front of her, travels to Seattle to kill her and sees her uncle get blinded, her friend dead and when she travels to Santa Barbra to finally finish it, she loses her ring finger and her pinky and returns homes to find her wife gone because she could no longer take the cycle of violence and revenge.

Dina actually gets off better then Ellie and Lev but not by much, she has her ex boyfriend and father of her child die because he followed Ellie to Seattle and she leaves Ellie because again she could no longer take the cycle of violence and revenge and took her son away from her and possibly Jackson.

Edit: I unfortunately forgot to mention that if anyone is POC than they die. Manny, Jesse, Nora, Issac and Yara.

For a game that claimed to be diverse, they really dropped the ball on this

[angelguk]

hello :)

would you ever consider doing a fic outline or basically summarizing how you say ‘the things I never told you’ ending? I understand if not but I was just curious for those of us stil following the story!

sorry if this sounds rude or demanding I don’t mean for it to be and will understand either way

no its not! let me do it rn actually! note: this is me rambling not an actual plot outline (this is v bad btw)

the fic starts with oc (nurse major!) and namjoon studying in the library where taehyung promptly barges in and invites them to a halloween party, which he insinuates is their last night of freedom which makes oc go????? and then tae explains the whole concept of no nut november and how the gc made a bet on who could last the longest

the penalty for losing?? an ahegao tattoo

oc is obvs like wtf cause ew gross men but then taehyung tries to convince her to make jk lose. at first she's like no that is my BESTIEEE never!!

but then! later that night oc and jk go for ramen and the cashier (who is a v hot and sexy girl named nayoung) starts flirting with jk and oc starts to feel weird

mind u jk is like sex god on the campus people love him!! and oc is just like damn really everyone? (but really she has a crush and she feels like she'll never have a chance with jk)

(also while this is happening jk is giving bricks and focusing solely on oc... take that as u will)

the point here is that girls throw themselves at jk and that he would never last that long in NNN

but the real point here! is that jk is in love with oc and stopped doing casual hookups cause all he thinks about his her and nothing feels good anymore

and the second real point is that taehyung knows this and he knows if jk saw oc was with someone else it would force him to own up to his feelings!!!!

now this prompts oc to text taehyung and agree to help him which leads to her arriving in a sexy nurse costume at the party while taehyung is a shirtless doctor (doctor vagina in specific, i have no idea if you'll get that joke)

jk comes a vampire obvs he's sexy (he actually wanted to match with oc but! she was ignoring his texts)

at the party nayoung is there (in a jessica rabbit costume... she is also sexy - everyone is really)

and obvs starts flirting with jk but hes just there starting at tae and oc real hard because why r they in matching costumes?? which nayoung notices and then she opens her big fat mouth and says (to oc and tae) "wow your couple costume is sooo cute!"

which??? taehyung starts grinning and shit and answers mhmm yeah! before oc can deny and jk is just there going ....couple...costume????

but then jk gets dragged away by nayoung and oc is like :/ cause nayoung is so sexy and jks type

which leads to her grinding on taehyung on the dancefloor and him biting her neck which jk watches

which leads to jk kisses nayoung cause hes MAD but oc doesnt see that she just sees the kiss

and that makes her ://// so she leaves to hid in the bathroom where her bestie chaeyoung (gay and cool) comes to get her before tae shows up and ruins the whole thing even more by asking oc to come out

now... oc doesnt know this but jk has ditched nayoung and looking for her (v drunk) and even the texts he is sending is borderline love confession kinda

but she shuts down and ignores him for days

until tae intervenes and forces her to talk to jk (which they do in this cute park scene i partially wrote out) and they discuss all the funny feelings they are having (NO LOVE CONFESSION)

i have no idea what happens in the middle (hence the story being discontinued)

but overall, jk starts to assume oc and taehyung r dating which makes him so uncomfortable because hes had a crush on oc for the longest time ever

and even nayoung notices that

theres one wonderful scene where oc sees nayoung at jks practise (he's a baseball player in this au) and jk is watching from the field but oc thinks he's watching nayoung (hes really watching oc)

and then nayoung sweetly mentions to her that maybe she needs to look a little close at whats in front of her (basically a sweet girl talk moment where she encourages oc and tells her she means a lot to jk)

and then oc finds out nayoung is actually dating hoseok now (also on the baseball team)

and then oc starts thinking.... does jk like me?

more needs to happen to create build-up but i had no ideas to write so moving onto the ENDING!

it all comes to climax at the December christmas party where oc and jk r each others secret santa and then during the party they end up going to the back balcony and talking and jk just kisses oc which makes him!!!! and he starts apologising but oc takes it wrong (like jk was ashamed to kiss her) and runs outta the party

jk follows cause he feels so bad and he cant be around tae cause hes :/ that he kissed hes besties gf

taehyung is gay and dating jimin btw!!! just secretly so...

and then under the soft amber glow streetlights and lightly falling snow oc confesses her feelings cause she cant take it anymore and jks is like O_O

"u're not with taehyung??"

"n-no? wtf why would i-"

and jk just kisses her and doesnt stop and in the middle of those kisses he tells her hes been in love with her too... for like forever

and then they go home and nsfw stuff happens

END

very messy and confusing i know

also nobody gets the ahegao tattoo everyone fails within the first two weeks

but! jk does get a lily tattoo because that reminds him of oc (she doesnt know this until like 7 months later)

[squeiky]

Do not get me started on papyrus's "naiveness"

He has advanced shit as his favorite book. So dont start saying he's an idiot. Or his "intellegence" is low. Hes very smart and cool dude.

He knows what a lab is. Bro the "quantum physics book" could be his. He tells jokes/puns afterrall. And its neatly arranged in a nice ongoing pattern. I like it that way myself too uwu.

He knows what the sun is.

He straight up lied to us all on the surface. In the pacifist route. Everybody.

Need proof? Figure here:

Btw how do you know what a highway is? I thought this war was like years ago, like a millena. Not like 2012 or something.

(Of course @argentdandelion brought up a good point. Of how he might've heard descriptions in it of all the books he reads, but never actually has seen it. But either way, this is still gonna be up for some speculation)

You know what the surface is papyrus. The "human world" you are on earth papyrus. You know this. PAPYRUS. Just saying "human world".

(Of course he could also be referring to the "surface")

SANTA BETTER BE FRIKING CELEBRATED IN SNOWDIN OR IM GOING TO KICK DOWN YOUR DOOR PAPYRUS.

HOW DO YOU KNOW ABOUT SANTAA???!?! You better not be covering this up..

And the "lets just say" part? Means your simplifying things. The "..." Means your evaluating it. And that worried expression of your face?

Yeah i see that expression papyrus. Your hiding something. By using flipping Santa an excuse. Why, just why.

(He already has some kind of relationship with gaster, actually its alot more closer than sans does. So its plausible that gaster just straight up gave he action figures from like.. Deltarune or somthing.)

(Or someone dressed up as Santa, went to the dump, and got him action figures. )

Oh and dont say this wont say anthying about him, beacuse this is the kicker. Out of everything i had listed this is one to pay attention too.

HE HAS AN ADVANCED PUZZLE BOOK. For crying out loud.

And no, this isn't some kindergartener kinda thing

This is complex, takes a bunch of thought put into it.

(Whoever owns an advanced puzzle book, please tell me how long it takes you to finsih the whole book. Cause i just searched it up on google and this thing LOOKS LIKE A FREAKING MATH BOOK. Like i just searched up, advanced puzzle book review and this dude speaking really fast, flips throw "puzzle mania" and im blown away by how much stuff there is in there. Its like a big ol math book.)

Also this book is one of his "favorites". Just search up some reveiws for yourself on advanced stuff.

Yeah, papyrus definetly gives off the "critical minds" with the well thought out lying, planned things he does, HIDING STUFF FROM HIS OWN BROTHER, AND STRAIGHT UP LYING TO HIM TO THE POINT WHERE HE TREATS HIM LIKE A CHILD.

Oh and dont get me wrong. The "treat me like a child" is the best way to cover up thise dirty secrets papyrus. As children are associated with "innocence" so you must be free of charge? Right?

The fact you know of the "lab" says two things.

You might even know of the "true lab" the most "brutal place" of it all. The experiments on souls.

Not to mention he might be the strongest one in the underground. Stronger than say... Undyne? Whos apperently stronger than the KING of monsters? Due to her training? Perhaps.. Perhaps not.

Though, this link does imply the fact that he might've considered murdering someone. Im guessing from what we see in genocide, he doesn't go through with it.

The fact is he considered.

https://batter-sempai.tumblr.com/post/146708963368/eroshiyda-ibelieveinfairytales606

Papyrus does say if you hadn't stop he would've blasted you too... Well im guessing pieces.

(Seeing as he has alot of 4th wall breaking logic, so im guessing he literally means he blast your floating heart into peices. (As that what happens)

So papyrus would, and can murder you. He probably considered it, once or twice. He knows that capturing you, would just.. Get you killed.

Actually! He was gonna kill you in the genocide run, but you caught him off gaurd.

Its only with horrible puzzles and pasta and becoming his friend, where he tries not to have you killed. But without that, i doubt anything different besides a bit of guilt crawling down his back.

I mean all the puzzles he sets up are deadly, even claiming that kids love those stuff. Yeah, deadly puzzles..... Hopefully that's something someone told him, and not him just thinking that on a whim. Beacuse then it can be justified.

But your capable of making your own decisions.

So what do you think?

(Ps: i edited it a few times, so I might be a little different with each reblog)

[theyreonlynoodlesmike]

yo, i love your writing and was wondering if you'd ever write poly lost boys with a male werewolf reader.

Okay, so as soon as I read this I knew there was gonna be a little bit of angst. Since you didn’t specify a genre, I’mma just go all out with how I think it would  go down. This is gonna end up being a fic btw, so I hope you enjoy!!

The Wrong Bite (Poly!Lost Boys x Male!Werewolf reader)

Warnings: minor angst, gore

Word Count: 1794

You had known for the past few months that one day you’d be bitten. Your boyfriends, your four wonderful boyfriends, had already given you a few nips here or there. But only to take a few small sips. Nothing too big. Nothing that would turn you. It had been shocking at first. To learn what they were and what they were capable of. But they were your boys! 

You had met them when you first moved to town. You had a bike, and it hadn’t taken long for them to notice you. They’d offered a race, and you’d been far too cocky to deny the platinum blonde. Even if you knew your bike could never beat a Triumph. You swore that you’d seen the glint in his ocean eyes. Seen that he wanted you. But everyone, including David himself, knew that you had no idea what was going to happen when you walked into the cave that night.

Getting hit on by Dwayne had been one of the things you had expected least. He’d pulled you down next to him on the couch, and, after a few joints and a few swigs of alcohol, you had made a joke about how handsome he was. You’d made a single comment about how all the ladies probably liked him, especially with how quiet he was. He’d leaned in, and had asked in his deep, rumbling voice,

“Are you flirting with me?” And you swore that you’d never turned red faster. He’d given you a rare smile and brushed your hair away from your face. Now, you knew you weren’t straight. At least not completely. But it was the eighties. You couldn’t necessarily just come out and say those types of things to another guy. Especially when all his buddies were surrounding you. You’d stuttered and tried to assure him that you were definitely not flirting with him when he’d rolled his eyes and given you a silent look. One that spoke a thousand words. All it had taken was that one look for you to fall. Hook, line, and sinker.

Falling for the rest had been just as easy, and you had become a comfortable member of their group. Official, but not. You wanted to wait a bit, until you hit your twenty-first birthday. It had been a bit of a joke. That you wanted to be older than all of them physically. David had rolled his eyes when you’d told him that, but he’d given you a smile all the same. He thought it was silly, but he wasn’t going to push it. Not when you were actually willing to turn. It was Paul that had said,

“At least you’ll have a real ID! We won’t have to mind trick the clerks anymore.” And the boys had easily agreed to your wishes. You were going to be theirs forever, so who were they to complain? That was exactly what you had told Marko one night after he pressed a kiss to your cheek on the boardwalk. He was always the most daring when it came to affection in public, and he’d given you a large smile after the words had left your lips. You’d given him a smile and he had replied,

“Forever and ever, babe.”

Well, apparently, that wasn’t what fate had in mind. You’d been walking through the parking lot of your work, heading towards your bike. Usually, the boys would meet you a little bit after your shift ended, but tonight you saw something. A lone wolf. In Santa Carla. 

You had furrowed your brows when you saw it. It was sniffing the ground and pawing at your bike. Then, you watched it turn it’s pale, yellow eyes on you. This wasn’t just a normal wolf. Your breath had hitched, and you hadn’t even had time to think before it was bounding after you. You’d screamed and hightailed it back the way you came. You’d barely made a few feet before it was pouncing on your back, and you screamed in anguish as it’s jaws tore into the flesh of your shoulder. It had ripped right through your jacket, the leather one David had helped you pick out. It’s jaws clamped down, biting into the meat of your back. The pain seared and the only thing you could do was thrash and scream. You felt the pain of its jaws, of being knocked onto your front, of the scrape of concrete against your palms. The smell of it’s musk filled your senses. It stank, smelling putrid and dirty. It was a heavy weight on your back, one you couldn’t even think of getting off. Tears poured out of your eyes as you were sure that this thing was going to kill you. It shook it’s head as it ripped into your flesh, and then it was gone. 

Lights had flashed by and it’d bounded off, leaving you a bleeding heap on the concrete. You faintly heard the roar of bikes, and then you felt someone grabbing you. Hands. You could feel cold hands. Someone was turning you onto your back. Saying something to you. But you were in so much pain that you could barely hear them. You passed out, and you woke up at the cave.

When you opened your eyes, the first thing you noticed was that everything was clear. Sharp. You could see the dust particles floating above your head. And you could smell everything. You took an inhale, and you scrunched up your nose when you smelled something entirely awful. You sat up, and you didn’t even notice that the pain in your shoulder had gone. There was something in the room with you. Something that smelled wrong. You felt someone at the end of your bed touch your ankle, a way to try to calm you down, but you practically winced at the coldness of their fingertips. You’d flinched away and leapt to the other side of the bed. You didn’t even process that a growl had left your throat until your brain had caught up with you. It was David. David. Your boyfriend. The vampire.

You stared at him, and you felt your mouth go dry. You didn’t have to take another inhale to know that it was him who smelled so wrong. His skin had been cold before, but now it felt like ice. It had almost given you freezer burn. You heard the smallest of rustles, and your eyes flicked to the doorway. It was the other three. They smelled just as bad, as unnatural, as their leader. They looked wary of you, and you realized that you had shifted into a defensive position. As if you’d jump at them the second they moved closer. You tried to relax, but every part of your being screamed at you not to. They were dangerous. They were-

Wrong. It was a weird realization. It was one that left you completely confused as they explained what happened. How you’d been attacked. The wolf had thought you’d been one of them, and had tried its best to kill you. But you weren’t one of them. It had realized that the second it’d tasted your blood. It’s why it had ran instead of finishing you off. It’s why it had turned you instead.

You stared at the four of them, and you could feel hot tears pooling in your eyes. You didn’t even know why you were crying, but, then again, you did. You didn’t know how you knew, but you knew. Vampires and werewolves were enemies. You knew it the moment you had smelled them. How your instincts had kicked in. The boys screamed danger. Your new instincts were begging you to either get away or-

“Kill us.” David had said, and you felt the tears slip down your cheeks. God, it was cruel. Crueler than anything you could ever imagine. You loved them. You looked at all of them.

Your stony-faced brunette. Your mile a minute stoner rocker. Your firecracker of a museum bust. Your quiet, charming storm. You were supposed to be one of them. Theirs forever. But, similarly to vampirism, it wasn’t reversible. You had been asleep for three days, and the transformation had already taken hold. You were a werewolf, and there was nothing any of them could do to change it.

“I want to go home.” You’d told them, and you’d watched your boys. The boys that had been so happy only a few days ago seemed more melancholy than you’d ever seen them. A smile didn’t even dare pass over Pauls face. You couldn’t stand to be near them, enwrapped in their scent. So, you’d walked home. You had worn some clothes that you’d kept at the cave, and you’d peeled them off with disgust the second you’d gotten home. You’d showered for nearly an hour, scrubbing their stench off of you. 

The boys had left you alone. At first, you couldn’t have been more relieved. Being around them had tightened your nerves up so much that it had taken days for you to relax. It had taken months for you to go see them again. You’d gone to the boardwalk and sat on your bike. You’d grown used to the change in lights. The overwhelming sounds and smells. You’d even gotten used to transforming. After the first full moon, one that you’d spent in a self-imposed cage, you’d realized that you weren’t completely mindless. The first one had been horrible, but you’d transformed five times now. It had become surprisingly easy. All you needed was a cooler full of steaks to tear into, a couch to rip apart, and some other things to smash and break. The rage had become manageable, and your eyes didn’t flash yellow whenever someone got on your nerves now. It was why you were even daring to go to the boardwalk.

You had smelled them before you saw them. When your eyes landed on them, you’d saw how their heads had all nearly snapped towards you. They could smell you too, you realized. You watched them for a moment, and then your eyes flicked to the beach. Another thing that had changed was your reflexes. You wouldn’t have to trail behind them to make sure you didn’t end up breaking your legs. You smirked, revving your engine and then descending down the stairs. They only paused for a moment, and then the vampires were following you into the dunes below. You howled into the night, and, for the briefest of moments, you didn’t care that you’d been bitten. Wrong creature or not, they were still your boys. It would just have to take some getting used to. Luckily, you had a lot of time ahead of you.

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IDK if someone else already requested this prompt, but can I have a scenario where Eijirō accidentally becomes Izuku's secret Santa because of a misunderstanding??? That's all I wanted to say, TYSM & ILYSM 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 (Platonic KiriDeku) - btw, I've read your previous prompts & they're all sooo good!!!! My favorites are It's Always Been You, Disclosure, Forgive Me, Burning Need, The Rabbit and the Tiger, & Recipe for Disaster 😍😍😍🤩🤩🤩

*Frantically scrambles to get this done before Christmas becomes completely irrelevant* Bibbidi bobbidi boo, it is done, friendo! 😘 This is my first Kirishima POV so fingers crossed it turned out alright :’) (Also, thank you so much, I’m sobbing?! That really warms my heart - I’m so glad you’ve enjoyed them! 💖💖💖)

Eijirou never claimed to be the brightest bulb on the planet.

 Granted, it wasn’t through lack of trying; some things just came easier to him than others. For example, when Ectoplasm was spouting about letters which had no right to be in maths, he felt like ripping his hair out - he always refrained though, his hair took way too long to style only for him to mess it up over algebra. However, put him in a gym and ask him about the different muscle groups and he’d be able to recite them with ease.

 His strengths just laid elsewhere. 

So, when Iida announced something to the class in the common room, Eijirou was too busy watching a workout video on his phone to pay attention. It wasn’t until the class rep wandered over with a bowl full of paper that he realised he probably should’ve been listening.

 ‘Err… Hey, Mr Class Rep!’ He laughed awkwardly.

 ‘Good evening, Kirishima-san.’ Iida nodded in greeting and held the bowl out expectantly. ‘Time to pick out a name. Remember, you’re not allowed to tell anyone who you’ve got. As heroes in training, it is important that we are able to keep confidential information a secret.’

 Eijirou saluted, before dipping his hand in and picking out a piece of paper. He curiously opened it to find “Midoriya” scrawled out messily on the page. When he confirmed that he hadn’t picked out his own name, Iida said his goodbye and moved on to the next person.

 Once alone, Eijirou looked down at the paper crumpled in his hands, the ink staring mockingly at him. He really should’ve been paying attention, but he didn’t want to ask what was happening and risk everyone being disappointed in him. Maybe he could just figure it out based on what he had already heard?

 Iida had mentioned keeping it a secret. He also brought up them being heroes in training. Maybe that meant a training event was happening soon! Eijirou furrowed his eyebrows together. They usually didn’t plan things this far ahead though…

 ‘Hey, Iida!’ He called. ‘When’s this happening?’

 ‘The evening of the 24th!’ He chopped the air as he spoke. ‘The 25th would be too hectic.’

 ‘Great, thanks!’ Eijirou gave him a thumbs up to accentuate his point.

 When the attention was directed away from him, he sighed and looked across the room at where Midoriya was talking excitedly to Todoroki.

 If this was a training exercise, then Eijirou would have to up his game. Besides Bakugou and Crimson Riot, Midoriya was the manliest person he knew and had proved himself to be a formidable opponent time and time again. In order to best him, Eijirou would need to work extra hard and give it his all.

 He hastily stuffed the piece of paper in his pocket and stood, excusing himself.

 He needed to hit the gym.

  💪💪

 Six days after he had picked out Midoriya’s name, Eijirou was fairly confident that he could give his opponent a good fight. He just needed one extra push. He needed to train with someone - or someones - who knew Midoriya and his fighting style.

 ‘Hey Bakubro! Todoroki!’ He called. 

 His two classmates were in the kitchen; neither appeared to have heard him. Bakugou stood by the oven, wok and wooden spoon in his hands as he cooked something spicy, while Todoroki sat at the counter opposite, conjuring small pebbles of ice and throwing them at the blonde’s back.

 ‘I swear to fucking All Might, Icyhot, if you don’t cut that out, I’m gonna beat the shit out of you.’ He growled dangerously.

 ‘I'd like to see you try, bitch.’ Todoroki replied nonchalantly, aiming for the back of his head.

 Before Bakugou could respond, however, Eijirou decided to intervene.

 ‘Hey guysss!’ He called out again, rushing forwards and standing between them. The two looked at him confused, but nodded in greeting. ‘I need your help with something.’

 ‘Why you asking Icyhot?’ Bakugou growled. ‘Ask me instead, Shittyhair!’

 ‘Jealous?’ Todoroki raised an eyebrow.

 ‘It’s important I talk to both of you!’ Eijirou laughed nervously and patted the blonde on the shoulder. ‘Well, I say talk… What I mean is… I need your help for training.’

 ‘Anything in particular?’ Todoroki asked.

 ‘Well, I’m not supposed to say, but...’ He hesitated. It would be fine if he told them, right? It wasn't like either of them couldn't keep a secret. ‘When we were drawing names last week, I got Midoriya, and you guys know his fighting style best, so I was hoping to spar with you both to improve my training for when I face him.’

 The silence in the room was almost deafening, until...

 'Dammit, I wanted to get Midoriya.' Todoroki whispered as if Eijirou couldn't hear him.

 Bakugou merely huffed.

 ‘So you’re telling me that you got stupid Deku for your Secret Santa and your immediate reaction was to fight him?’ He finally asked, looking at him like he had grown a second head. 'You know what? No. I'm proud of you.'

 ‘Secret Santa?’ Eijirou tilted his head to the side. When Bakugou facepalmed in response, he turned to find Todoroki raising an eyebrow, clearly amused.

 ‘Didn’t you hear Iida explain it?’ He asked, voice even.

 ‘Not really, but I didn’t want to ask.’ He chuckled nervously. ‘But I assumed that if Iida had organised it, it had to be something to do with training, so I’ve been hitting the gym more because I wanted to put up a good fight, but now I realise that I have to...’

 He trailed off and his smile faltered as his eyes widened with realisation. ‘Now I have until tomorrow to get Midoriya a present.’

 ‘I wouldn’t worry too much.’ Todoroki spoke, shrugging his shoulders. ‘Midoriya is really easy to buy for.’

 ‘You buy him stuff often?’ Eijirou furrowed his eyebrows together in question.

 ‘Icyhot has a fucking hard-on for stupid Deku, if you haven’t noticed.’ Bakugou tsked.

 ‘And you have a hard-on for Kirishima.’ Todoroki replied easily, before turning to Eijirou. ‘Sorry about that, by the way.’

 ‘Moving on!’ Bakugou exclaimed angrily before Eijirou could process any of what had just occurred. ‘Deku likes heroes and All Might. Literally get him something related to that and happy fucking days.’

 ‘It’s important to know what he’s already got though.’ Todoroki urged. ‘He already has the official bronze-age, silver-age and golden-age All Might figurines, including the pop vinyl figures. He also has five rare limited edition All Might-’

 Eijirou’s brain was starting to do that thing again where it just kind of switched off. He was interested in what Todoroki had to say, honest, he just had trouble processing the fact that Todoroki had the capability of actually speaking more than two sentences at a time.

 His eyes must’ve glazed over, because Bakugou suddenly whacked him around the back of the head to snap him out of it.

 ‘ugh, this is so difficult.’ Eijirou moaned, hiding his face in his hands. ‘So basically he has every single piece of All Might merchandise that a normal person can afford.’

 ‘I mean, when you put it like that...’ Todoroki stroked his chin, contemplative. ‘You could try and find him merch for other heroes though. As long as it’s not Endeavour, I think he’ll be happy.’

 At that moment, a thought struck Eijirou. It was an idea unlike any other. He knew that in the years to come, people would ask him, 'Red Riot, what was your best idea?' and he would immediately think of this moment. It was like the first time he had discovered the beauty of hair spray.

 It was a revelation.

 ‘I have the perfect idea!’ He proclaimed, startling both of his friends. Before either of them could respond though, he quickly thanked them and booked it out of the kitchen.

 All it’ll cost me is several boxes of tea!

  💪💪

 After several hours of pleading with Yaoyorozu, bargaining with Jirou on her behalf, one roll of wrapping paper and way too much tape later, Eijirou placed his present in the designated bag in the common room and collapsed onto one of the sofas, ready to fall asleep. However, Iida’s booming voice soon echoed through the room, startling him.

 ‘All right! Now that everyone’s presents have been put in the bag, it is time for the Secret Santa exchange!’ His hands chopped through the air as Kaminari stealthily placed a Santa's hat on the class rep’s head without him noticing. ‘Midoriya-san, if you could help me hand out the presents while everyone else gets settled, I would be very grateful!’

 ‘Of course, Iida-kun!’ Eijirou saw Midoriya sprint over, an eager smile on his lips. However, he tried to hide his snigger when his friend's actions only prompted Iida to lecture him about running inside.

 Soon enough, all the presents were handed out and everyone was settled on the sofas and carpet cushions. After opening his own present and finding an erotic Santa×Reader novella called Spanked by Santa inside, Eijirou's eyes instantly landed on Kaminari and the two sniggered to themselves.

 'Bro, really?'

 'I don't know what you're talking about, man!'

 'I know this was you!'

 When the two of them calmed down, Eijiro turned and watched as Midoriya struggled to unwrap his present. His crooked hands tried to navigate his way around the mass of tape and Eijrou felt incredibly guilty. Luckily, Todoroki was sitting next to him and helped rip the hardest parts away, only sending Eijirou an exasperated glance once, which he thought was pretty good going.

 He leant forwards in his seat and waited for the moment of realisation and oh boy, he was so glad that he did. Wrapping paper torn off, Midoriya stared at the present with wide emerald eyes and let out a shocked gasp.

 In his hands was the first ever hero Deku figurine - trademark and copyright Yaoyorozu Momo - ever to exist. Eijirou watched as his friend turned the figure around in his hands, noticing every detail, from the hints of red that poked out from his iron soles, to his white air force gloves, to the yellow bolts fastened to his knee pads, and to the respirator around his neck. A smile appeared on Midoriya’s face and his eyes shone brightly…

 Then he promptly burst out crying.

 Uraraka and Todoroki, who were sitting either side of their friend, promptly procured two buckets from behind them and held them up, catching the flood of tears pouring from Midoriya’s eyes, while Tsu came up behind him and slid a waterproof coat over his Christmas jumper.

 Had they expected this?

 Startled, Eijirou leaped off the sofa and ran over to them, scrambling over the mass of presents and wrapping paper scattered around the floor.

 ‘Midoriya! Oh my god, are you okay?!’ He grasped his friend’s shoulders and shook him slightly as he continued to openly sob. ‘I’m so sorry, do you hate it? Man, I didn’t mean to make you cry-’

 ‘Kirishima-kun...’ Midoriya slowly calmed himself, reducing the flood of tears down to a slight drizzle as he wiped at his eyes with a waterproof sleeve. ‘I- I love it! I love it so much! Thank you!’

 Eijirou stilled, slowly removing his hands from his friend’s shoulders.

 ’You… You do?’

 ‘Really, really!’ Midoriya sniffed, eyes now dry and staring at Eijirou with so much gratitude that he had to refrain from placing a hand over his heart and wincing at the intensity. ‘You’re so thoughtful - thank you so much!’

 ‘No problem, dude!’ Eijirou rubbed the back of his neck and smiled nervously. ‘You’re one of the best heroes out there. It’s only fair that there’s some merch of you out there as well, haha!’

 Before he could comprehend what was happening, green lightning suddenly began to crackle around Midoriya as he surged forwards and tackled Eijirou to the floor. His friend hugged his waist tightly and cried freely into his shirt. Not knowing how to proceed, Eijirou gingerly returned the hug and smiled dopily.

 So manly.