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How Selfishness Contributes to The Arch Illagers Down Fall

Authors Note ------ First, before we start this, as many others said, Minecraft Dungeons deserved a lot more than what it got. I wish within the game you could learn about his story, but of course, you have to pay 10-20 bucks for a book just to read it, the whole book is just the trailer and a little extra [AND more than the trailer could ever give] . However, I don't regret buying the book, that is how I got into the fandom myself. If you want to read it, I recommend going through Wikipedia for the plot, I could have made a PDF file of the book I bought, but I was the type in middle school to draw scenes onto it. However, within the post, you WILL get book snippets for character reference.

Let's be honest with ourselves, this game had so many chances to be a story all Minecraft players could enjoy around the world. Unfortunately, that is not the case...instead in my opinion, the game became slightly, if not a shameless way to market Minecraft to get quick money, it is like Legends and Earth, there was no way for these games to EVER have a good chance to become its own thing and be loved. To have to play DLCS to get the full story is BS in itself. The true story is about a victim of the orb of dominance whose decisions were affected by some selfishness.

Intro ---- Hey, do you remember that post with Magnifico and the Arch-Illager and about how the Arch-Illager had a better position to be the villain? Yeah, I still hold that opinion the ACTUAL reasons were... 1. The character in general. 2.The motives portrayed in the story. 3.The relationship between both 'characters' I still believe those reasons to be true, although the game sucks at letting that be what comes across. The story was a market attempt to allow players of the game to know the lore and... honestly, if it was in the game, it would have been nice... This idea came into concept after talking to a friend about how Walda mentions how Archie and Thord bickering was something that showed they were more concerned about themselves than anyone else...and to be honest? She is correct, this act of trying to make themselves look good without the concern of those who passed WAS selfish. I talked about how the main flaw of most characters was their selfishness within the story. Then in the silence, that gave me an idea, this essay here. Thord and Archie were thinking about themselves and that got Archie into trouble. Karl being self-absorbed over his 'feelings' being hurt caused Archies selfless action of leaving the village Archie BECAUSE of selfishness took the orb because he wanted to prove everyone wrong, not use it to better people's lives. Archie loses his Friends, the PEOPLE he loved because he was selfish to raid their village. The orb was selfish in wanting this power and using Archie as a vehicle for its true motives. Karl is smart enough to run away, but he is so selfish that he runs away, and NEVER comes back to help the heroes knowing what was happening was wrong. Hell, you could say it was pure fear that caused these actions. Walda and Thord were selfish to not only allow Archie out in the forest to die, but they were selfish enough to take Archies's throne. Thord was SELFISH and stole and his SELFISH behavior led to his death. These examples are what are here for reasons, Salah you could argue was selfish to want to kick Archie out...but that came with a little bit of logic and the thought of their people. Yumi does call them out, she KNOWS they would do nothing to defend the village compared to Archie. Yet Archie was selfless and knew it would be safer for his friends to leave.

Thesis - Selfishness contributes to the story.

In the story, the lesson can be that Selfishness contributes to eventual bad outcomes and conflicts. It repeatedly throughout the story shows that it leads to horrible things no matter how selfish it is. Like other villains, their selfish actions lead to harm. Frollo due to selfishness decides to continue with sin, leading to his death. Ursula due to selfish reasons, wanted the trident for herself, therefore it leads to her death. Scar due to his selfishness, wanting the throne, dies in consequence. All of these characters have a negative outcome due to selfishness on their part. However, this isn't about them, this is about several selfish characters in "The Rise of The Arch-Illager" who suffer from not being selfless... and one moment that shows that even with selflessness, it led to a selfish choice. What happens that is interesting is that...Archie is not really the antagonist, it's Thord. The story is about how Archie becomes the antagonist in the end, he does take on the position against the real protagonists, the heroes by the final pages and the damning raid revealed in the trailer. Archie gets another chance at the end of the story because the heroes know what kind of person Archie truly is. The narrator knew nothing of this, it is painted in a light that is misleading in a few ways. That speaks volumes about how different these things truly are. The narrator knows of the danger, not the person who causes it. The Arch-Illager is the combination of Archie and The Orb of Dominance. In fact, the future actions that are made, are also selfish decisions of the orb. This might explain why the Orb is destroyed and Archie isn't.

But this is about the Arch-Illager, or rather Archie, so let's talk about each listed selfish thing for Archie.

The Selfish Actions of Archie.

These actions are important because it shows the character of Archie, and how his past influences affect how he approaches the world. There are 3 arcs in my opinion, The Mansion Arc, The Village Act, and The Orb Act, each act develops Archies's character, but also shows his main traits. He is Compassionate, fearful, peaceful, and reasonable [justified or not], yet he can be selfish, aggressive, and defensive. He has so many times where it shows who he is. But this is about selfishness, not everything else. [] The Mansion Act [] This act marks the first selfish act when he got kicked out due to self-interest, and Walda's decision. Walda had several reasons to kick out Archie, that are addressed before he is kicked out. Like him being Weak, and that he 'endangered a life of a fellow Illager'. I will say how that is hypocritical due to Thord never getting kicked out due to him harming Archie. The selfishness comes from Archie caring about staying in the mansion, living and perhaps Thord to be gone. In those moments he didn't care much about what he might have done wrong, he put the blame on others, just like Thord did to him. His consequence was that after specific actions, Walda was upset, and despite his begging, she kicked him out forever. another consequence was that he was forced into the woods to try and survive.

[] The Village Act []

I would say this act is...interesting, there is no selfish behavior, in fact this arc marks his development. When he had defended Yumi, and his first selfless action happens here, which is important. You can say that Salah was a reason that Archie removes himself from the village, but in reality, Karl would have attacked either way. Karl KNEW who Archie was, if Salah was peaceful and Yumi had introduced Archie to the heroes, he would have attacked. Everyone knew salah was right including Yumi and Archie. That was when Archie was selfless, and that meant he was going...expect. [] The Orb Act [] This is an interesting act, because I have a feeling a lot of selfishness here ACTUALLY also includes the orb this time around. His development made him ready to face the woods, sure he almost died but he made it. It is revealed that the orb actually was a major reason for him getting guided there, and it means that Archie became a victim. Archie takes power from it, yet the Orb made him is vehicle for destruction. Even the orb says that their fates were 'forever intertwined', so here and forward it was a lot of the orbs decision too and was someone who encouraged these actions. Archie was also exhausted, so it was easier for the orb to get Archie on its side. Despite this, Archie still takes it because of Karl and Thord because they hurt him. To make them fall onto their knees, and yet it is interesting that the orb knows about his misery. In theory this means that he has some mindreading or some way to be in the victim's mind [like Bill Cipher]. Another selfish thing they do together is obviously raid the town, twice. This was selfish and it made Archie lose his dearest friends, and 'family'. The orb totally could have done this intentionally to put Archie in a spot where he would listen because he had no one else but it. They were selfish for trying to take the land and turning the villagers into slaves to 'work for the mines'. Archie knew these people to be someone people who did care, and yet...he did this to them. If anything in part I think this was the orbs decision, not Archies. The end of the book implies Archie is taken control of and from there it is easy to say anything else that happens that is selfish is of the orbs doing.

The Orb of Dominance and Manipulation

This is a lot more important than just Archie doing these actions, in fact the Orb protects Archie, feeds him, and gives him a place to sleep the FIRST day they met. This is a lot different than Yumi's decision, she did it out of empathy. She cannot guarantee full safety and comfort, but she can certainly try, and their friendship is mutual. They benefit each other and allow the other to learn some good traits. Yumi develops a point of view that explains Illagers and their violence and can sympathize with them a bit. Archie learns compassion for others, and that leads him to telling the Illagers to leave Yumi [and who she brings] alone purely due to it. Infact Archie even learns skills and actually helps the village, and it means he is thinking about others. Yumi doesn't let what upsets her to be bottled in when Archie is threatened. She speaks on how the heroes could care less of them, and would slaughter their pigs, cows, that they sleep in their beds, and steal their food. It speaks volumes on how and why she would trust Archie more than the heroes and it makes sense. The orb thought? it knows nothing, but the misery Archie has gone through and lures Archie into a position where he is listening and shakes its hand so to speak. Then when Archie is in its grasp it feeds him, comforts him, HELPS him. This thing is an object with a mind...if it had true compassion, it would welcome him with open arms to stay in the cavern and help before this. It is a small but important detail, it has no capacity to care, and will LIE to get its way, as Archie states near the end of the book. Half of the book is about how Archie is backed into this spot where the barley has no say in some of the actions, again acknowledged and implied by Archie that he was getting 'dominated' by the orb. He feels stupid for not thinking about the name before, yet...He was exhausted, weak, and literally just finished climbing a mountain before the deal was made. When you get to the boss fight that also proves that Archie was a vehicle to this, and he is TURNED into a monster by the orb of dominance because it wasn't getting what it wanted from Archie. We get not a single word in the game from this...and yet it is meaningful. Archie is making noise when he is sucked in, That I saw as possible pleading for his life, or even begging to just let him lose. Or he knew that the Orb wasn't going to let it end and he was forced to be in this position. Then...finally when the Orb was defeated and destroyed, Archie 'tries to keep on' [I don't think so], and it breaks. Archie free and ready to approach the world again. I think the orb in that moment was trying to hold onto Archie, wanting more, wanting the world and NEEDING its vessel. I mean that is how I see it based on their relationship. There are several times when Archie was ready to stop and leave this. SEVERAL in counting and I feel like it says a lot. Tldr: The orb is a manipulator who uses Archie as a vehicle to get what it wants for selfish gain.

Now...to talk about the actual topic of Villainy other than the orb.

Thord, how selfishness led to his death.

So... why is this important compared to someone as serious as the orb? Simple, he IS the true antagonist in the story. Until Archie took over the position of that role. He possibly intentionally backed Archie into getting kicked out of the tribe because he was selfish. He lies about Archie, with only a few truths to be selfish and keep himself there. He is selfish by blaming Archie of being the issue and then manipulates the situation by pretending he is hurt. After that he plots with Walda to bring Archie down because he is a selfish person. He steals from the Firey Forge because he does it out of benefit... The most interesting scene shows he is still selfish, begging for mercy, or a deal. He knows he fucked up and maybe will try to still hurt him, but he pleads. There is something interesting, a few chapters before the orb tells Archie to kill Thord, and he refuses to do so, instead making the raid early in the morning in spite. When he is robbing the Fiery Forge and Archie knows this... but Arc, who makes the suggestion to kill? The Orb, Archie is aware of Thords threat and has SUCH a good chance to make him pay for getting him kicked out. Kick him out for stealing and let him venture alone like HE did. To make him pay, He even suggests the idea of waiting to surprise Thord. He was not in the mood to wait. That is interesting, it was an interesting decision. Usually, Archie is rather patient, yet...listen to how the orb says this. " You need to defeat him. Now." Now I do think Archie had agency in his choice, he did. But... when he suggests the idea of waiting, that would be smart because then he could catch Thord and Walda and punish them both. But just to kill Thord? That is what interests me, I do have a feeling the orb had a lot more choice in what Archie does, but I also don't want to undermine that it was ARCHIE'S choice to choose how he could make Thord go. was this to scare him in his last moments to leave him vulnerable like he was to the monsters before? As they always do, Archie and Thord bicker, and both of them are upset. Archie WISHES to return the beating Thord had given him, but he makes the decision not to out of what Thord has, magic. After that, that is when Thord begs, and he is LITERALLY begging. I mean hey, at least Archie gets to chew Walda out with him knowing their plan and watch her fear him! It really isn't funny, it shows how the orb influences how he acts, and that is a burden us readers have to watch unfold.

Karl's Selfishness and how it leads to flee

The most interesting character is Karl, who is more selfish in his self-interest than arguably most characters in this book. He wants to conquer the land and have people kneel for him, yet despite how he acts, he isn't chosen by the orb. Probably because as much as Karl is dumb, I think he wouldn't trust this so easily. He also is just the worst person ever, he is selfish in his actions, what he thinks and... for his life. He spares Archie only for his own gain, that's right his selfless action becomes selfish because getting his name out there to scare the illagers matters more than a life. This doesn't come out the way he wants it to because they don't understand what he says. This is why he flees during the trailer, this out of fear but also selfishness. A hero would risk his/her life to save the world, and a village, yet he doesn't even do that in the first place! He just abandons it and no joke, basically never comes back. His confidence must have cracked.

The Orb and How it is defeated due to selfishness. - The Game

As explained, the Orb is broken into pieces due to its selfish nature. due to the end of the book, Archie goes onto this route because there was no going back. It was in the orbs interest to back Archie so far back that he feels like he could do nothing but go along. I think the orb is Selfish for using a vulnerable man who wanted to live as a vessel for what chaos it wanted. The Orb is selfish because it knows it will destroy relationships in the process. This character is the embodiment of how Power corrupts, and unfortunately allows Archie for some confidence building he needed...yet it was for hurt. It knows so much knowledge, you think it would spare Archie of having to do the work. Of course not! it doesn't have feelings, or emotions to its name. It is an artifact for god's sake, and it only WANTS to hurt. The book gives the characterization for the orb that was needed.

Then when it fails, it decides to push to the edge and becoming a monster, one that towers the heroes and shows what power it has over Archie. He had no consent to this, just the way he screams as he is pulled is such a risen red flag of how SELFISH the orb is to risk the life of its vessel. The orb was the monster the story needed...and that is what it got. Not Karl, not the illagers, not Salah and some of the villagers, not the undead, not the nameless one, not even Archie who was tricked. It was the orb of dominance, the truest and most selfish and monstrous character.

Conclusion

Woo we are done! expect for a basic TLDR for this entire post. All the characters in Minecraft dungeons have suffered due to some of the characters selfish nature. Those who suffered the most were the ones committing the selfish actions. Some characters even die or have something bad happen because of this. In my Opinion I think after the Village arc, all the selfish actions of Archie were due to himself and the orb as well. Admittingly with a lot of influence from the orb of dominance. And you know what? The game BARELY shows this narrative, no hints to this story and we are left to understand just little pieces of everything...which was the trailer. The game is about the sad outcome of when someone is made a vehicle for destruction. This game was never for the full story and that is sad. They could have made a more interesting game if they JUST gave the story a chance to thrive and show us these things. an Illager protag for the first half would have been SO interesting. Now it is a cash grab, with DLCs. It did what they wanted, and they mostly abandoned this game, only adding modes...and for what? It adds nothing to the beauty that this story is. It makes me despise the game and would prefer to keep this book which was the reason I stayed in the game. It would have been fun to have a game from Mojang that just isn't EMPTY. It is empty because the game was from a sandbox, and this doesn't to seem to be their field of expertise and it made the only interesting because of the small amount of story it has. Take it from, if you're planning to play the game and buy it, don't. Just grab the book and watch the Game on YouTube. Support Matt Forbecks book, and if you can't, that is fine, I might plan to go ahead and perhaps read this book and make a series out of it. Thank you for reading/listening to this whole pose.

{I will repost this blog once it has been posted on my YouTube Channel}

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a-trick-or-two-with-lepers · 1 year ago

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Hair Song Ranking - by Production!

I'm back again with a somewhat coherent tumblr post! Can you believe it? Anyway, I know I've already done a Hair song ranking, but this time, I'll be talking about multiple productions: the Original cast recording (1968), the 1979 movie soundtrack, and the Broadway revival cast recording (2009). I know, same formula as my Godspell post.

I am aware that the film version omitted a TON of songs, but I'll be keeping those songs in the ranking anyway. I tried to match the songs up as much as possible, so I left out some that only appeared in one version. Also, massive spoilers for anyone who hasn't seen the movie- it departs from the original script in several major ways, and I think this impacts the message of the story both negatively and positively. (My asks and DMs are always open if you want to have a conversation about it 👀).

And now: my unsolicited opinions!

Aquarius- Winner: 1979 Movie. I mean. Can you blame me? This is, like, the most ethereal opening to a movie ever. The arrangement in this version is my favorite of any recording I've heard of this song. The extended intro leaves plenty of time for the audience to get excited- the bass and brass hit every time- and by the time the vocals come in, you'd better be ready to be astonished. The soloist is amazing. 'Aquarius' is by far the most popular track from the musical, and Renn Woods, who was just 19 at the time, sings it with such power. I'm a big fan of Sasha Allen, who sings this song (as well as many others) in the revival cast, and Ronnie Dyson's original take is iconic, but Woods only got one song in the show, and I think she deserves all the recognition for it. I highly suggest taking a look at this article if you'd like to know more about her experiences.

Donna- Winner: 1979 Movie. I was 🤏 this close to giving this one to the revival cast; Will Swenson is one of my favorite portrayals of George Berger. But not even he could hit the notes Treat Williams (rest in peace 😔) managed in this song. I also enjoy the instrumentation and backup vocals of this one the most. It's gonna be really hard to compare Treat to anyone else- he's top tier, for me.

Hashish- Winner: 2009 Cast. I almost gave this to the movie again, 'cause I do think it did the best job at what it set out to do, which is, I assume, make the audience feel like they're in the blunt rotation. Only thing with that is, this song is on the same track as 'Donna' in the movie soundtrack, and it pisses me off, because whenever I wanna listen to the former, I have to either sit through the latter (which I'm not too fond of) or use one of my precious Spotify skips! So, I'm gonna go ahead and say I like the revival recording best. Like I said, this track isn't my favorite, but I like that this recording in particular gets straight to the point and doesn't drag it out.

Sodomy- Winner: 1979 Movie. Ok. I know I'm riding high on the movie soundtrack right now. I'm aware of my bias. But it's not my fault they put a fucking church choir in this song. It sounds SO GOOD, and for what?? Also, love Donnie Dacus. He's so damn cute in the movie, and I really like his voice. It's just strong enough not to sound breathy, but not so strong it overwhelms the track. Woof, my beloved 🥰

Colored Spade- Winner: 1979 Movie. Or as I know it: ".....😶..... and president of the United States of Love!" Also, yes, another movie win. I can't defend myself anymore. The recordings are just so clean. Whoever played bass for this one really went at it. Not to mention, Dorsey Wright put his whole Hudussy into his performance. I will say, there's a weird noise at the end of the recording- I can't even explain it, but it's funny as hell. Go listen to it.

Manchester England- Tie: 1979 Movie/2009 Cast. Yeah, I couldn't choose with this one. I'd say the movie has a slight edge over the revival cast- mostly because it's gay as hell and has both Treat Williams and John Savage singing. I do love the revival version as well, though, because I think it's more what the original composition had in mind. The fake British accent-shtick is missing entirely from the film. Actually, this is one of those songs where the meaning in the stage version is completely different from the film version. This makes it really hard to compare them. So, you get a tie. (Side note: I need to watch this clip from the movie at least once a day to stay healthy. Doctor's orders).

I'm Black/Ain't Got No- Winner: 1979 Movie. Shit, man. You can't put Kurt Yaghjian in a song and expect me not to go crazy about it. (Peep the profile pic). Once again, the arrangement of this version rocks my shit to an absurd degree. Every soloist SLAYS it, the instrumentation is crisp as hell, and this version actually combines songs that are usually broken up in most stage productions. I'm not saying it's necessarily better because of that, but it certainly makes it easier to listen to cohesively. Also, I don't know. The choreography for the scene just matches so well with the tune. And yes, I know I shouldn't judge a movie based on its cinematography when comparing it to stage productions, but it's really hard to ignore with this one. Even without that, this is one of my favorite songs from the movie. It's genuinely perfect. I wouldn't change a thing about it. Also, John Savage is just really adorable when he sings "I'm invisible." Sue me. At least I'm honest!

Sheila Franklin/ I Believe in Love- Winner: 2009 Cast. This one isn't in the movie soundtrack, so you're safe from its reign for now. Woo! Anyway, Caissie Levy slays. The original cast may have gotten this one if it included the little intro where everyone sings their bit about Sheila- I love that part. But I think the revival cast deserves this win.

Air- Winner: 1979 Movie. "But tumblr user a-trick-or-two-with-lepers, this one wasn't even in the movie!" Ok, and? It's on the soundtrack, and it's the best one. I'm sorry, I don't make the rules. It's a damn shame this didn't make the cut, 'cause Annie Golden did a great job with it! She sounds absolutely adorable. The other two versions are almost hard to listen to for me. It's not like I think the singers did a bad job- they're both very talented and I don't hate their versions- but the song is written to be somewhat annoying, I think. The voice Kacie Sheik puts on for Jeannie can be a bit grating at times. Maybe that just means I'm more of a vocalist-enjoyer than an actor-enjoyer, but in terms of listening value, this one goes to the tragically unused movie version.

10. Initials- Winner: 1968 Cast. An original cast recording win! Yay! I don't even have a problem with the other two versions, I just think it's really funny that this particular recording came out while LBJ was president. Dissing a current president in your broadway production has to be one of the boldest moves I've seen in musical theater history- though, this show broke a lot of musical barriers, so I'm not surprised.

11. I Got Life- Winner: 1979 Movie. I don't know why I spent so long thinking about which version was my favorite for this one. The movie version is like, one of my top tracks on Spotify. The whole scene is fucking perfect. I know this is supposed to be a Claude song, but Treat Williams as Berger owns it. It ranked number two in my 1979 Hair song ranking, and I stand by that placement. It has become one of my favorite movie scenes. The absolute joy that emanates from his performance is really inspiring. I will say, I like how they kept the 1948/1968 bit at the beginning of the OG cast recording, and Gavin Creel sings this song really well in the revival, but I'd be hard pressed to give this win to anyone but the one and only Treat Williams.

12. Going Down- Winner: 2009 Cast. This is another one that wasn't in the movie soundtrack, and I am PISSED that we never got to hear Treat sing this. Regardless, Will Swenson has the charisma cranked up to 1000 here. I adore how he growls out "Lucifer." This has become one of my favorite tracks from the 2009 recording. It is NOT believable that this man, or anyone playing Berger in these versions, is a teenager, but I've never cared about stuff like that. Well, except for the travesty that is the Dear Evan Hansen movie. Yeesh... Anyway!

13. Hair- Winner: 1979 Movie. The title track! I can back this one up, I swear. First of all: this is usually a Claude/Berger song, and while I really wish John Savage sang more in the movie, a second Woof solo is always appreciated. They keep more of the harmony in the intro, which I appreciate. This particular version of "Let it fly in the breeze and get caught in the trees" lives in my head rent-free at all times. I wish they'd used Hud's solo in the soundtrack, but I'm not too mad about it. Treat is, once again, hitting those high notes, and my ears thank him for it. Also, this is the only version that doesn't drag out the "why don't my mother love me" line, and I don't know why, but I kind of like it better that way?

14. My Conviction- Winner: 2009 Cast. This song is so cute. I love that someone of an older generation shows support in this show! And she's(?) trans?? Or a crossdresser. Never was sure which it was. Either way, I think all the performances of this one were really great, but Andrew Kober did it best in my opinion. Still, I'd love to see the unnecessarily horrified reactions to this in the 60s.

15. Easy to Be Hard- Winner: 1979 Movie. Yeah, I knew this was gonna win before I even started making the list. I'm sorry, I truly do love both other versions, and whenever I sing this song I use the original key, but the movie version is simply just. 😚🤌. That plucky thing they do with the guitar is so beautiful. The meaning of the song is amplified by how different the scene is from the stage versions. And the singer. THE. SINGER. FUCKING INSANE. Her name is Cheryl Barnes, and she owns my entire heart. This role isn't in any other version as far as I'm aware, and she doesn't even have a name. She just pops up and is like "hey lemme just blow you all away real quick." Fuck you Hud for being mean to her and her little baby. Still mad that he didn't get more flack for that on-screen. Point is- this performance is the best. I don't even like Jennifer Hudson's version more than this one, which is saying a LOT, 'cause I love that woman.

16. Don't Put It Down- Winner: 2009 Cast. This used to be a 'skip' song for me. But after listening to the revival recording more, I can safely call it one of my favorites. The harmonies are really clear in this version, and I find the satire of it really amusing. Crazy for the blue, red, and white! What a shame that they made it instrumental in the movie.

17. Frank Mills- Winner: 1968 Cast. I just found out this was sung by Martha Plimpton's mother??? I love her! This version is absolutely adorable. I really like her voice, and I think it captures Crissy's character really well. No shade to Allison Case, though; her version is just as, if not more, beautiful. The original just happens to be my favorite in this case. Also, I noticed how few wins they were getting and I felt bad.

18. Hare Krishna/ Be-In- Winner: 2009 Cast. This is one of those where I'd honestly be fine adding any of the versions to my playlist. The original seems like the perfect thing to get high to, and the movie version is accompanied by a literal drug trip scene, but this version is the clearest and most listenable to me. The harmonies are really present. I really like when they all sing, "Burn it, Berger, burn it!" Also, Dionne and everyone singing "Aquarius," is really beautiful and haunting. They're hyping Claude up, and then he doesn't burn it, and hhhhhggngnnnnngggghhh it's just really good.

19. Where Do I Go?- Winner: 1979 Movie. Is anyone really surprised anymore? This is hand-down my favorite song from the movie. Let me tell you why. The instrumentation at the beginning is like an auditory orgasm. The cinematography- I know, I know!- is really thought-provoking. The way every single person walking through New York just turns around, in sync, and stops, like they've suddenly realized how meaningless their lives are... And let me tell you. I fucking a-d-o-r-e John Savage's voice. I know most people won't- it's kind of whiny- but for some reason, I just can't get enough of it. It's so tragic that he didn't get more solos in this movie. Anyway, I have a whole ass analysis of this song on my blog, so check that out if you're interested. I also wrote an almost 40k word ao3 story using it as title fodder. Yeah, I'm shamelessly plugging my fanfiction. If I'm aware that I'm cringe does that make me less cringe?

20. Electric Blues- Winner: 2009 Cast. I almost gave this to the movie, because that really is my favorite version... for the most part. I think it goes on too long- I know that's because it fades into Claude's drug trip, but it gets tiring to listen to (for my short attention span, that is). That doesn't mean I don't really like the revival recording, though. Everyone has great energy, and this recording actually made me appreciate the song a lot more. Also, the end is really funny ("What the fuck! I was singing!")

21. Oh Great God of Power/ Manchester England (Reprise)- Winner: 2009 Cast. As far as I'm aware, this is the only one that actually has this song on the soundtrack. The original just has the Manchester England reprise. Anyway, I love this version to death. The first half is so gorgeous. I love how obsessed everyone is with Claude because, same. Also, I really like how they all sing "I believe in God!"

22. Black Boys- Winner: 2009 Cast. It took me a long time to warm up to this song. What made me finally like it was this recording. The scene in the movie was... strange, to say the least. But the women in the revival cast do such a good job with it. It's a bop!

23. White Boys- Winner: 2009 Cast. I know we're on a revival streak, but it felt wrong to split up the two boys songs. Besides, this is probably the best version of the three. Sasha Allen is fantastic as always. As much as I love Nell Carter's voice, the military recruiter guys singing in the track is too goofy for me to take it seriously.

24. Walking in Space- Tie: All. I knew this was gonna be a hard one to rank. I love all the versions so much. So, I'm just gonna take the easy route and talk about all three of them. The original is such a cohesive tune. It plays so smoothly, and I really enjoy everyone's vocal performance. It doesn't feel overdone at any point. The movie version is a bit long for my taste, but it's so good that it honestly has a right to be long. This part of the film drags a bit, but maybe I just don't like watching people suffer through war training. It's definitely impactful in that sense, though. I really like the first soloist; she has this lilting soprano vibrato that's very pleasant to listen to. I also like how militaristic the men chanting the colors sound in this version. Sasha Allen is the first soloist in the revival recording, and of course, she's perfect. She belts the whole thing, unlike the other versions' soloists. Her voice gives me massive chills, especially when she puts a bit of growl into it.

25. Four Score/ Abie Baby- Winner: 1968 Cast. All the love to Nell Carter and Sasha Allen, but this version is my fav. It's the least serious, which I think is what is was written to be. The soloist is doing this sing-talking thing, which I love, and she's funny as hell, especially at the end. ("Bang?! Ahahah, bang? Shiiiiit, I ain't dying for no white man").

26. Three-Five-Zero-Zero- Tie: All. Again, I'm not sure how to choose which of these is my favorite. It's just a really good anti-war song. Each one of the versions does it justice. I really like when a song makes me learn something, and I learned a lot from this song. For example: I learned what Viet Cong means, and I also learned that this song references a really interesting anti-war poem from the 60s titled 'Witchita Vortex Sutra.'

27. What A Piece of Work is Man- Winner: 2009 Cast. It was really hard to pick my favorite of the three. I didn't wanna hit you all with another tie, so I went with the revival cast. I think it has the smoothest transition into the Walking in Space reprise. The vocals are very clean as well. I wish they had kept this song in the movie; it's so pretty!

28. Good Morning Starshine- Tie: All. Dammit! I lied. I need to add another tie. They're all so good! The harmonies in the original are really, really nice. The movie version just puts me in such a good mood, and Beverly D'Angelo's voice is amazing! What a shame she didn't get more vocal parts in the movie. I really like how the harmonies start layering as everyone in the car gets into the song. This was one of the only moments I actually liked how they characterized Sheila in the film. But it was the revival recording that made me actually like this song- enough to want it in my playlists. Caissie Levy just has such a good voice. I also just love this song because it represents the last moment of hope and happiness in every version. It almost makes me want to cry, but I'll have to save my tears for this next song...

29. The Flesh Failures/ Let the Sunshine In- Tie: All. Welp. There goes my good mood. Fuck. This song... it doesn't matter who sings it. I will cry. Every time. It's so perfectly composed. In the original, when Claude sings his last few lines, he gets drowned out by the chorus, which symbolizes his meaningless death. Of course, the differences between the stage versions and the movie are stark, considering Berger dies instead of Claude, but the power of the message remains the same. The cinematography of this scene in the movie is so genius, it actually hurts to watch. The young men- the teenagers, the children- marching into the gaping maw of the warplane, Berger among them, singing a reprise of Claude's song. He knows now that he isn't seen as an individual by these people. He's a weapon. Disposable. He could be Claude for all they care. Fuck. It hurts just to think about it. The revival recording, though, might be the hardest to listen to. When paired with Aquarius Goodnights/ Ain't Got No/ Yip up the Sun, it never fails to make me sob. And I mean sob. The way Claude sings "Ain't got no" followed by gunshots, the way Berger screams for Claude, the brokenhearted singing of Sheila when she realizes Claude has died... I can't. I literally have to stop at Good Morning Sunshine when I'm listening to any of these albums if I want to continue having a good day, or else I'll be thinking about it all day. I truly believe this is the most intelligent and heart-wrenchingly stunning song ever written. Let the motherfucking sunshine in.

Well Gee Willikers. That was a ride. I love Hair like I love life itself, but BOY does that last song get me. Thank you SO SO SO much if you've read this far. I love you and I am kissing you tenderly on the forehead as we speak. I'm definitely in a bit of a Hair fixation right now- some may even call it hyper- and I had to have a somewhat productive outlet for it, so here you go! Hope you enjoyed ❤️

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Chasing Summer Skies by and with rainepaige08

I am Alexio Sospranio and you’re listening to the kaisoo fic podcast!

For new listeners welcome, welcome to the show. The kaisoo fic podcast is a space where we discuss literature found in the kaisoo world. Where we have authors on the show to give them a platform to talk about their writings and journey as an author in the fandom.

This episode there will be some reference to the previous episode with rainepaige08. If you have not, do check that episode out as well, but this episode can also be a stand alone episode, just that listeners who have gone through the previous episode with Raine will be able to see more or less where we are coming from. Raine is also the very first guest we had on the show, so having this episode together again is very meaningful.

Without further ado, ladies and gays and of the like, let us give a warm welcome to Ms Raine Paige!

Welcome Raine, thank you for becoming a returning guest on the kaisoo fic podcast show. We are very pleased to have you with us this evening.

Before we begin proper, do you have any opening comments you would like to make?

Thank you for having me here again and hopefully I’m more relaxed now than last time.

Pleasure is mine, i know we are more comfortable now that we have talked a bit more both on the twitter dms and discord voice chats, so I do agree that this episode will be more enjoyable as well.

Raine. yes? Shall we dive into the episode! We shall! We start with the fic.

Intro to Fic

Chasing Summer Skies is celebrating its 5th year anniversary since it was first posted. Congratulations on that Raine! Chasing Summer Skies is an ongoing, currently at the point of recording it has 11k words in 3 chapters on ao3. For those eager to go through the fic, it is complete as a tweetfic on Raine’s twitter account, rainepaige08.

I think what is really precious about moving tweetfics to ao3 is that there seems to be more flexibility and leeway for there to be commentary on the setting, premise and perspectives. Mainly because of the word limit on each tweet, you are sort of confined to the few sentences. So first question of the evening, I would like to hear from you and your choice of transferring your Chasing Summer Skies to ao3. Why did you make the decision to move?

In the past, the decision was just to transfer it word per word from the tweetfic for me to have a copy of my story since it is hard to scroll on the app. But I tried to reread it and with the improvements on my writing over the course of 5 years, I realized there are scenes I could have written better hence why new narrations are added.

Indeed it is hard to scroll on the app. Fic reading becomes more satisfying and the storyline becomes more put together in full potential on ao3 as compared to it being as tweetfics. But being on the app does have its merits as well, especially in gaining reactions and ending each update on the thread with a cliffhanger that makes readers eager to read the next update.

Our first episode together you mentioned you’ve been writing since your first year in collage back in 2011. So that brings us to you writing for a good 13 years. Have any other of your fics been rewritten with an updated plot as well?

A Familiar Face, which is the CEO AU, was also rewritten and new narrations were added but not to this extent. Maybe I just felt this itch when I am rereading the tweetfic after 5yrs that I want the scenes to be more vivid and their feelings to be expressed more.

Ah yes, Familiar Face, of course!

As a reader, okay ill speak for myself, this fic is hard to forget. And to me it is very heartwarming to know that you still love it enough to rewrite scenes and breathe new and more life into it.

Let’s continue by talking about the tweetfic, the plot breakdown or the events that happened in the fic.

Raine, would you like to briefly talk a bit on the fic for those who may not be familiar?

Chasing Summer Skies is a story about Jongin, an event photographer and Kyungsoo, a wedding coordinator who met during Summer and had a summer love affair. However, what they didn’t know is that Jongin's girlfriend is Kyungsoo’s sister which he would eventually help plan the wedding.

What a premise to start with… by itself, even without knowing too much of the plot, you know it is gonna be angst and heartache. The question is how deep are we getting into it. More of that in a bit.

So in the first few scenes, what brings our two lovers together?

It starts with Kyungsoo finding out that his room was double booked and now occupied. But suddenly a stranger approached him and by weird fate; it was the person staying in his room. The man introduced himself as Jongin and offered that they share the room instead. That’s the starting point of how they spent the summer together and got to know each other, to which they would eventually fall in love during the short trip.

Pacing and Difference between the tweetfic n ao3

Things happen in the fic quite quickly, so much so that Kyungsoo asks himself, i quote: “Could you fall in love with someone you only met for a week?” He knows the answer but just doesn't want to admit it. With that, will the pacing change now that you're moving it to ao3? Or maybe let me rephrase - generally what is the biggest thing that readers will see differently in this 5th year anniversary of Chasing Summer Skies?

The pacing of how they fell in love would still be fast, since I wanted the readers to doubt too if it was possible to genuinely fall in love with someone in just a few weeks. I like how it begs the question if it was just a spur of the moment thing or not. What the readers will see differently in this version is how Jongin’s and Kyungsoo’s connection were built. I mentioned in one of my posts that I want to build up their happy moments before the chaos would start. So, there would be additional scenes to watch out for.

Okay good good we as readers do want to see more happy kaisoo moments. Even in the tweetfic we have happy moments in the beginning… but then after Kyungsoo’s return from the vacation, it drastically turns to, i quote what Min says in the very end of the fic that she saw the yearning, love and sadness combined when they would look at each other.

Inspiration

Now having brought up Min, a question Raine, when you first thought of the fic, what was the very first relationship dynamic you had in mind or a scene that popped as inspiration in your head? Was it Jongin and Min’s relationship or the summer fling or could be neither of the options.

My first thought was “i want a kaisoo but one of them is in a relationship” so like an infidelity fic since I want to challenge myself to something more…controversial? questionable?. Since I think the plot of Infidelity is something that is being frowned upon until now.

Next that I thought of is Min being Kyungsoo’s twin but I think there are already a lot of fics with that concept so I decided for her to be his sister instead. After that, I thought of a way for them to have a connection. I don’t want the connection that Kaisoo has to be on the summer trip so that’s when I thought of a videographer and an event coordinator and Kyungsoo being Min’s brother, she would definitely ask help plan her and Jongin’s wedding

Infidelity.

Min Kyungsoo’s twin? No, too many twins written. Someone very close to Kyungsoo.

Job connection

Min connection to Jongn

Connection to not be just as a summer fling

Kyungsoo be Min’s brother who happens to be a wedding planner for Min and Jongin’s wedding so that

Kyungsoo can still be in the picture

Similar question to the one I just asked on inspiration because I do want to know a bit more on your author’s choice. When you start a story, how much is already figured out? I will break this question into two sections, one for the tweetfic and one for the ao3 version.

Inspiration - tweetfic (breakdown while writing for plot)

In our previous episode you mentioned that you had the start and ending in mind specifically for the CEO AU and this fic. As you were writing the tweetfic, what kind of outline did you have or were you exploring their backgrounds, relationship dynamics and oncoming conflicts at the same time as you write?

It was quite different from the CEO AU since I only have the start in mind and up until Chanyeol was introduced. I also have in mind what the ending is and the character’s relationship dynamics and major conflicts. but everything after that point, I would then gauge the reader’s reaction on the twitfic. Part of it was actually if the fic would still be a kaisoo end game or would it change to chansoo since there are a handful of readers that are question the flow of the story at the middle.

What was in mind was just the beginning of the fic to the first time Chanyeol was introduced. And the ending. Possible relationship dynamics and major conflicts.

Because it was a tweetfic and there are live reactions, it is a good gauge of their feedback. There was a point where readers started to question if the fic was going to change to chansoo end game, which got some readers fired up and questioning.

What were those relationship dynamics or conflicts that you prioritized to push the plot?

though i did get a lot of feedbacks from people, I still decided on a kaisoo ending. Another would be the decision to push through with Min and Jongin getting married.

In the tweetfic version of Chasing Summer Skies, were there any specific moments you wanted to see expanded on or did you see potential generally throughout the fic that you thought could be explored in more detail?

What I noticed first is how little are Jongin’s pov on the fic so I wanted to build Jongin’s character at the start since I think that’s the portion I failed to expound on the tweetfic since it is mostly Kyungsoo’s pov. Wanted to expand on Jongin’s POV because there were a lot of negative views on Jongin. Did not to justice to why Jongin did certain things to kaisoo’s relationship because it was mainly Kyungsoo’s POV so there was no insights to Jongin’s actions.

We do indeed see more of Jongin’s POV already in the first chapter where he goes out for his run and admires Kyungsoo’s sleeping face.

Another portion I wanted to expound on is chansoo’s relationship and the difference between Kyungsoo when he is with Jongin vs with Chanyeol.

That is a lot of moments for us to discover, we are very excited for that.

Inspiration - ao3 (develop scrapped or new plot devices)

You did mention in our previous episode that you had the start and ending in mind but changed the scenes halfway and even scrapped some ideas. With you now transferring the fic on ao3, are you planning to develop all the scenes you scraped in the tweetfic or are there new points of the narrative you would like to bring to the readers?

One scene I scraped which was added is Kyungsoo visiting Jongin’s workroom (this would be updated this week). It would give the readers a little backstory for Jongin and how he loves his work.

Min “photography is a hobby” but as Kyungsoo visits Jongin in his workroom, readers get to see that Jongin genuinely loves his job.

When you mentioned you will be adding how readers will see Jongin loving his job and Kyungsoo witnessing it, I don't know why but a moment that comes to mind is a scene a week before the wedding. Min invites Kyungsoo to her birthday dinner where Jongin defends Kyungsoo against his homophobic father. Somehow thinking about the dinner scene, and hopefully when reading this new scene, we get to see how kaisoo are able to relate to each other on a very vulnerable level. They feel like they are both misunderstood and undervalued. Kyungsoo with his father’s disapproval and Min’s distaste towards Jongin’s work.

Another new scene would be with chansoo since before I am scared of building up their part in the story since I know most of my readers have preference over kaisoo, but I feel like that scene would be essential to add.

For the plot, I definitely do agree that chansoo moments are essential to add. Right now with the tweetfic it may seem like just kaisoo moments with a sprinkle of chansoo. The nature of this fic… it is heavy angst for kaisoo, it would definitely be nice to see more light hearted moments for chansoo to balance things out. Because we were hinted at the fact that chansoo do spend a lot of time together, so it is definitely important to add.

I will talk more about kaisoo vs other ships in fics on the next episode for the one year anniversary of the podcast because this is something I'm passionate about, basically championing for fic writers. But for now i would just like to say that it is sad to know that people have a strong preference for kaisoo so much so that they will not accept any other pairing… But it is for the plot… Having as you said, Raine wants to expound on the difference between Kyungsoo when he is with Jongin vs when he is with Chanyeol. Chansoo’s dynamics is dramatically significant to bring the plot forward. And it also makes kaisoo’s relationship all the more precious and important for Kyungsoo.

Impact

The things that happen between Kyungsoo’s return and Min’s passing, can be quite… distressing. Mainly because there are many times where we readers… okay for me at least, would want closure for Kyungsoo, but then a misstep happens. They fall back on each other, then they are back to square one again where Jongin is with Min and Kyungsoo is heartbroken. It is very anxiety inducing because how many times can his heart take this sting of rejection only to be met with desperation to want to love and be loved again? That is my feelings as a reader, but share with us how writing out these scenes impact you in any way?

I can actually still recall how emotional I felt writing those scenes. and as a person who easily cries, yes I am crying while writing most of those scenes. I wanted the emotions to be felt through the words and I wanted the readers to feel the same frustration that Kyungsoo feels as his heart is being pushed and pulled and played over and over again. I want every heartache to feel raw and relatable.

You want every heartache to feel raw and relatable, Raine, what insights have you gained upon writing Chasing Summer Skies?

I learned from this fic that I love writing emotional scenes. Emotional struggle of the characters. I also started to build more complex characters like Jongin that there are reasons why people did what they did.

I like that, the emotional struggle where there are complex human emotions. It is true to life. There are choices taken because of miscalculated steps and different priorities.

People disagreed with what Jongin did, but I also learned to not be pressured by expectations of the readers and to stick to your end goal.

The main struggle I had was with chansoo’s relationship. On the surface level they may seem happy, but if you dig deeper, we see that there are different types of love and you meet people at a certain part of your life to help you navigate through it. I think that is what Chanyeol is to Kyungsoo. He made Kyungsoo feel safe. He was the one who tried to push Kyungsoo forward when he was lost.

But at the same time, you see Kyungsoo going back to Jongin over and over again and at some point Chanyeol realized that needed to be the one to put an end to their relationship.

Chanyeol’s intention on sticking around Kyungsoo was to put a genuine smile back on Kyungsoo’s face. But I sometimes cannot believe that they almost got married, but again, as you said, different types of love. With Chanyeol it is always safe, but it was not the love that Kyungsoo wanted. Chanyeol needed to be the one to end things especially after it was confirmed through Baekhyun’s intervention that Kyungsoo does not love Chanyeol.

What scene are you most excited for readers to read? If you have, could you read to us listeners a snippet of it?

The extract i will be reading is the part of the wedding in Kyungsoo’s POV

The music played and Kyungsoo watched as Jongin walked towards where the officiant was.

Just one look. Just look at me once, Jongin, and it would be my cue to stop this. Please..

Kyungsoo told himself as the other entourage walked on the aisle. It was Min's turn and Kyungsoo fought the urge to look away as he saw Jongin smiling at his bride.

The ceremony started and the couple exchanged their vows, but Kyungsoo still waited.He still hoped for that sign. For that one glance from Jongin.

But it never came.

The ceremony was concluded and Jongin and Min are now announced as husband and wife.

But Kyungsoo still waited.

Until the reception, Kyungsoo's eyes never left Jongin. Even when Chanyeol checked if he's okay, he still stared at him. Hoping, still hoping, that Jongin would look his way.

The reception was about to end with Min and Jongin leaving for their honeymoon.

Kyungsoo finally gave up.

He said thank you to his assistant and said sorry that he needs to leave the venue. He walked towards Chanyeol and tapped the man's shoulder. The musician looked at him and nodded as he already knew what it meant.

As Kyungsoo walked towards the hotel, he failed to see Jongin looking back at him before the man left.

One last look.

I want to repeat this line for my own sake because it is just devastating: Kyungsoo fought the urge to look away as he saw Jongin smiling at his bride.

A very definitive moment for Kyungsoo happens right before the extract you just read, where chansoo are in the hotel and Chanyeol comforts Kyungsoo by saying he does not have to be at the ceremony, but Kyungsoo persists on and says: "No. I want him to take that path while knowing I am there witnessing it. That even after knowing that it would shatter me, he would still do it."

That moment is an example of how their love is a love at the wrong time.

Yea, and this happens after Kyungsoo’s proposal to: "Meet me at the airport at 4am tomorrow. I'll book a flight. I'll do anything. I'll find a way to escape."

Kyungsoo looked at Jongin's eyes and held his cheek as he added,

"Just say yes."

This is his final ace. The last card that Kyungsoo could gamble on.

Raine, what a line… what a moment, desperate but hopeful Kyungsoo… it is too hard to read.

It shows that Kyungsoo did all that he can for Jongin to pick him… despite all that, Jongin still chose to be with Min.

And hence Kyungsoo is persistently fighting the urge to look away from Jongin because he wants Jongin to take the path knowing that it will shatter Kyungsoo’s whole being. And Min knows that. Wait no she knew after they got married and when Kyungsoo left the country. When Jongin heard that Kyungsoo left, he broke down and told Min everything about their relationship.

I just want to remind readers that Min understands why Kyungsoo wants to stop the wedding but she also knows that Kyungsoo will choose Min’s happiness because she is the only one that understands him in their family.

Thank you for sharing, i think I speak for listening readers that we are very eager and excited to read that point in the narrative when it comes.

What is your favorite comment of all time, something you always think about when you're in a lull and unmotivated to write?

“It’s been quite some time since I last delved into the world of Kaisoo fanfiction, but recently, I stumbled upon this latest work of yours. As I immersed myself in your storytelling once again, I couldn’t help but feel a wave of nostalgia wash over me. Your writing still carries the same emotional depth and authenticity that first captivated me years ago.

Your fanfictions always hit me right in the feels, and reading this fanfic (eventho it’s an angst) made me miss Kaisoo even more. I just wanted to thank you for all the amazing stories you’ve shared over the years. You’ve got serious talent!”

Before we end things, dear Raine, do you have any other comments or running thoughts we did not cover today you want to share with us listeners?

It was really nice to be able to talk about this fic after 5 yrs as I think it was one of my hidden gems among those I wrote.

A fic that i always want to go back to when i need a good cry from life.

Wow, an angsty fic as a comfort fic. But yea i do agree we need to cathartically express our feelings in reading a good fic that knows how to make us cry.

Thank you for providing this platform to authors and artists to discuss their craft and our love for kaisoo.

It is my greatest pleasure to be able to celebrate your mastery in this craft you have chosen to do. We share this joy together.

Dear listener, the link to the author’s ao3 and twitter profile will be given below in the notes section. And with that ladies and gays and of the like, we have come to the end of today’s episode.

Do keep a lookout for next month's episode because oh my! it will be the one year anniversary of the kaisoo fic podcast show! Can you believe that listeners… One year… im so touched, happy and relieved that people tune in and enjoy the show. Next month’s episode would be like a review of the past year’s episodes.

New episodes either every 13th of the month or 12th and 14th, special kaisoo dates, of course.

To reach me, i am kaisooficdrunk on twitter and if you want you can drop me questions on my curious cat you can do so with the same username. There will also be another link that brings you to my tumblr blog with the transcription for today's episode. There you can also find the other scripts for other episodes as well.

Thank you for listening, have a good day, dear kaisooist, and we look forward to next month’s episode. Stay tuned.

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🥰PERSONAL NIGHT CITY HEAD CANONS🥰

According to MissArdenScotia --

Hi all! This post will just be my personal head canons for V, River, and Johnny after the completion of the game (because even though I haven't actually finished Phantom Liberty, I've spoiled the endings for myself, so it's fine).

*Please note: the opinions and backstories used in this blog have been heavily inspired by the world and story of Cyberpunk 2077, but have nothing to do with CDPR or their employees.*

This post will possibly be updated as I continue posting pictures and making up scenarios. If you notice any inconsistencies, please don't be afraid to message me and let me know! This is something I'm doing just for fun, but that doesn't mean I don't want it to make sense! 🥰

👑Venus De Valentino👑

PAST

V grew up on the streets of Heywood with her twin brother Vincent (Vince, V), loosing her parents to a gang shootout; just a normal Thursday.

Before she was old enough to actually work in the doll houses, she sat with the girls while they fixed their makeup and in between clients, reading fashion magazines and old scream sheets, whatever she could get her hands on. They listened to all kinds of different music in the dressing room, from pop to rock to oldies, Samurai a favorite of many of the dolls.

As she got older, she started taking her own clients, with Jackie as her bodyguard and 'pimp', for lack of a better word. He taught her some self defense, and then when he was almost too late, he taught her how to shoot, and then vouched for her when she asked Padre to start giving her merc work.

After she lost Vince in a street fight gone wrong, she set off for Atlanta, figuring nothing was left for her in Night City; where she spent a couple years trying to make it on her own, before eventually deciding to come home where her family had been waiting, welcoming her back with open arms.

She worked merc jobs during the day and worked as a waitress for Mama Welles at night, helping the newly hired security keep the supreme gonks at bay.

~Insert Canon Story here [minus the intro]; The Sun Ending~

🎸Johnny Silverhand🎸

After some serious searching with all the new resources at her disposal, V finds some small leads towards Johnny's actual resting place, which is a super secret Arasaka cryogenic facility, that has a second copy of a Johnny Silverhand engram, downloaded seconds before Mikoshi went offline.

V and some friends raid the facility, save Johnny, and insert him into his own body, silver arm and all. He spends about a month in recovery, staying with V in her Megabuilding apartment, giving Vik easier access for house calls when they're needed.

Johnny gets back to writing songs almost instantly, spending all sorts of time with Kerry in his home studio, bouncing ideas off each other as they each work on their new solo albums, taking lots of breaks to reminisce about the old days.

He won't say it (sober), but he's really glad to be back. Especially when he and Kerry get going, talking about all the things they're going to protest about now that he's back, over the bowl packed to the brim with the preemest synth-weed money can buy.

Falling in love with Alt had been hard; they were so similar, it was a wonder the sex was even as good as it was. But falling in love with V, well, that was easy. After having spent so much time in her head, he found that the commitment he feared with Alt had been nothing compared to the ease he felt when he thought about it with V.

He mostly stays in the penthouse apartment when he's not at Kerry's; preferring the solitude it offers, finding it hard to relate to other people again. V doesn't mind, she knows he finds the luxury comforting after living in her mind for so long.

He's constantly texting V when they're not together, hating the fact that they can't converse like they used too. He never asks for it, but she calls through out the day, just to check in on him or make him laugh with a story about some gonk on the street.

He doesn't hate River, but he's got a problem with his previous employer. They meet for lunch once a week, mostly for V's sake, but after a while, they realize they actually like each other and can be friends.

❤️‍🔥River Ward❤️‍🔥

After an 'anonymous benefactor' (De Valentino, LLC) donated an undisclosed amount of money, River was able to set up his private investigator career! He's got a nice office in the Glen and some fantastic local contacts in Heywood that can help him get some feet on the ground in the other parts of the city.

Joss understood when he told her he was moving out, citing the fact that now that he knew they were all safe, he could start living his life for himself.

He moves into V's Glen apartment, to be closer to the office where he spends most of his nights, anyway. Sure, the small cot in the corner isn't the most comfortable, but when V swings by with takeout for dinner and love making, Riv finds that the office isn't so bad.

When he and V aren't spending the day in bed, he takes the kids out for ice cream or to the new VR video game arcade in Japantown, meeting Aunt V for dinner (her treat, she insists) before he has a sleepover with them back at Joss'.

He wasn't sure about Johnny at first, having been told about him long before the Second Incident. He kind of thought that with Johnny gone, V would be able to move on and live a happy life. Now that he's actually spent some time with him, he can see why V fell in love with him. He's charming, in the most frustrating way.

He wasn't mad when V and Johnny got married, he was just upset that Johnny asked her first. He'd been planning to ask, but was having trouble deciding on a ring.

#cyberpunk 2077 #v(enus)#johnny silverhand #river ward #missardenscotia #personal head canons

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daisys-discography · 1 year ago

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Overall with this project, I think we did a good job. We faced many problems (like finding a space to film in, losing some of our music, having issues rendering the videos, etc.) and yet we managed to find a way around these issues on our own and still get what we wanted to be done.

Even though things could have gone better (if we didn’t have background noise, if we didn’t lose quality in the videos, if the game audio wasn’t as loud, etc,), we did well with the circumstances we were in and I’m still very happy with our project.

I would love to continue with this project by making more series and maybe some new things like streaming. I really enjoyed editing the videos and would really like to get into it more. I would love to be able to learn more about editing and get better at it. I think I will definitely be looking into getting a better editing software when I have the money. I also have so many more ideas and visions for the music for certain games, like Hellblade and God of War.

I do think we did slack a little in social media, we could’ve done a better job at posting more things, like behind the scenes, but I think our first time doing something like this it all just seemed too much to think about posting about it. At the time of filming and doing the project, we were very focused on doing it and making sure it all went well, rather than taking a step back and appreciating how cool the things we were doing are and then sharing that onto social media. If we do continue and make more series, I will definitely try to step back and take photos and videos of the things we are doing (behind the scenes) and share them onto our Instagram account. I do think as we continue we should then think about different platforms to have accounts on. For this project, we thought that Instagram was the best platform to have an account on, as we felt that it was more used by people compared to Facebook and Twitter. Though we should have had a tiktok account as that seems to be the better platform nowadays, but we only really had photos to share and TikTok is mainly video based.

I’m glad we made it a 5 episode series as we had a lot more footage than we had planned. The 1st Minecraft episode was an hour long in itself (before editing) which was the longest video. If we had more episodes, I feel like we would have been overwhelmed with the amount of work we would’ve had to do and I think it would’ve been too much work to be able to complete. At first, 5 episodes felt like it wasn’t enough but now after doing all the work, it was definitely enough.

I think the videos are entertaining, I tried my best to cut out pauses and where nothing much was happening, but in some parts we had to obviously leave some of this in for context of certain conversations or for what was happening. I’m happy we didn’t follow a script, we had a bit of a script for an intro but more episodes we filmed, the more we just made it up on the spot. As for the rest, I’m happy it wasn’t scripted as the videos show us being us and having a fun time with each other playing and talking about games. Nothing seems forced or scripted and it seems a lot better.

I did notice, when editing, that I wouldn’t always respond to what Ayisha was saying. I think this may just be the way my brain works within multitasking as I’m not very good at it, but I did feel like I may have come across as rude for not responding at times. I will try to work on this but I might not be able to solve the issue but just reduce the issue. I was trying to play the games, talk, plan in my head what to do next, listen to what ayisha was saying and check that everything is still running smoothly. It was a lot to multitask for me but it’s something I want to improve on if I’m going to continue doing things like this.

#MD5325

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kazamastar · 2 years ago

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Welcome to 2023

Version 1.0 - Ok let's go. I'm really happy to greet you on this December 31 2022 18h06, because it means this sum up has great chances to come out on time ! (Well, more or less, si je fais pas le papillon entre temps.) Yes, compared to the sum up of last year, we will switch back to English for this one. Why ? Without thinking much, I'd say that among all the events that happened to me in 2021, none of those described were private, intimate. (Well I just read it again and it seems I'm wrong but whatever). Reading it again is interesting because it could do a good starting point to this one. To be honest, I'm writting right now with a few notes but nothing really ... structured. So this is the moment when I warn every reader : this sum up is something personal that I write above all for me, so my priority is that I understand myself when I read it again. When I say that, I talk about the events/facts that I relate without getting too much into details or telling who it might concern. But I'm sure that if you recognize yourself in the events I'm talking about, it might be about you. In fact I (almost) never give names. Only nicknames based on numbers (might be odd and dehumanizing but idk ... no names seems like a natural rule to me). So, I need to be going fast so here's the plan : giving a good 2nd part of this intro, finding the illustration, and then getting into serious business with the real recap of this year 2022. A lot of stuff will be mentionned here. I'd like to remember all the movies and tv shows that I followed this year (Better call saul, for example). Here's the thing : I write to remember. I know my memory is bad so I like to write things to remember them. I like to write neutral things (stats, how much wins in Tekken, number of posts on this Tumblr etc) but I also like to write about feelings. Feelings by definition are not lasting in time. So this is the reason why I wanted to write this sum up on time and I'll try to express it in French. Je m'en serais voulu que ce post appartienne trop à 2023. En le postant (ou du moins en le commençant lol) en 2022 je sais que je capture ma pensée de 2022 et aucunement celle de 2023. Donc ca fait garder une complete ignorance de 2023. This will be important later in this text. We don't know what 2023 will be made of. For instance, we have already seen years I praised some people believing they were good people and they were gone the next year. But that's life isn't it. But the problem I'm facing this year might be a bit different, but I'll also detail that later. So, what are we going to talk about in the following lines ? That's the great question. It will be very meta and this whole thing might be a lot of words to express someething that could surely be said simpler. So if you're going to read that entirely please don't be too disapointed at the end. Oh. that makes me think this year we will be using emojis to make it slightly less painful to read. Or at least, easier to read diagonally (I'm not sure if this will work but nevermind (nvmd) I have to try, I swear scrolling through the 2020 sum up feels like scrolling though the Bible). The fun thing is that I want to make it long but I kinda need to hurry because 2022 ends in less that 6 hours. So here's the plan : 1st i'll try to give all the subjective things : numbers of all kinds, tv shows, movies, karate data, and all I'll be able to think of. 2ndly I'll talk bout the goals of this text. Then, because art results from contraints, we'll be talking about the ones I'll impose to myself to write this. 4th might be a comparison to the previous sum up, 5th the precise recap of marking events that year followed by random thoughts (might be the the most evolutive part as this sum up will not come out in time).

Pic : "Family business"

Funny I didn't pick a black and white picture. And I have too much hair on this one. But I'm already missing my hair, hope it grows back quickly.

So here we are, for real. By now you must know we're January 2nd. I really wanted it to come out in time but finally I have a few things to say so I made the choice to not rush it. So I'm not going to rush it but because I want it to release asap, I'm going to make a few choices to talk about the most significant subjects I'll find. SO, here you'll find a whole paragraph talking about ; TV shows, movies, karate data (competitions) Tumblr Stats : 4155 posts and 73 drafts. 16 655 likes (oh they diminished ! Guess ppl are deleting their tumblrs). 799 followers. Usually I take time to thank all these followers but let's be honest these are only bots I know I'm alone in this whole tumblr adventure but it's cool that way (If I wanted to make it public i'd go to instagram or tiktok or wherever the young folks are ahah).

Ok. I'm alone in this adventure and I'm writting for me. But what's the purpose of this whole thing ? The goal is to be intimate and honest. No matter how long after I read it again, I want those lines to remind me of everything in the moment present. I'll remember the rush it is to make it come out in time for instance. I don't want these feelings to be forgotten. If you know me, you know I have a fetish for dates. For example, I know dates like January 29th, June 26th, August 18th, October 19th or December 15th have proven to be lucky for me. But the thing when you remember everything is you also remember the painful memories. That's why I stopped having agendas a few years ago. It is funny to mark down everything that mattered on with the precise date but now I want to leave room for my "true" memory. Not stuff i wrote. Idk if that makes sense. If an event affects me, I want to remember it because it made me feel something strong (but not necessarily good). This is where this text is important. Arbitrarily, I have the choice to write about the things I want to remember later (as we know my memory is weak af). But I'm not gonna sugarcoat it (lol I love this expression). I said it will be honest. But I'm keeping in mind this is still public so I still have to weigh my words. Writing at the end of the year allows me to step back from the events of the year (easier to do with January than december but it's the thought that counts.)The goal of this text is also to be full (complet). If we forget the lack of time I have, by the end of November I already felt the urge to write. That might mean I had something to get off my chest, and the events of December didn't help and overflew me with emotions but I'm only taking time now to pour them out in words. I'm having a lot of thoughts. Most of them are about getting old. I don't know if I already said it but finally, I can start understanding all these Disney villains trying to be forever young and stuff. That's fascinating. I'm also thinking a lot about karate, competition, family, friendships and relationships. I'm thinking a lot about myself, how I evolved and how I can be better than I was and overall a better human. But still, I want to improve, but I still think I'm not good enough to be part of a couple. Funny uh ? This sum up is also a way for me to try new things, experiment. I still don't know in which form but I'd love to make 2021 2022 and 2023's sums up a trilogy, so it would be interesting to really compare this on to the previous and make bets on the future year of 2023.

"L'art naît des contraintes". I LOVE this concept. When I write this, it's almost always the sames. Now we'll start talking about substance and form. The most obvious here is : french is my mother tongue but I'm still writing in English. 3 main reasons for this. First : I love English language and it's a very interesting exercice to find myself writting in English at least once a year. I also think this is a language which is "less precise" than French but it permits it to draw better pictures with words. I'm still getting more comfortable with english speaking videos on youtube (thanks to Eric Rosen and GothamChess, to only name these). But it can be more annoying for my relatives who don't like english that much and I'm sorry for that. The second reason is I have the feeling that writing in another language allows me to take distance from what I write. It gives me a feeling of objectiveness (even if what I'm writing is very personal). Third reason : I want to keep away not interested readers. Idk like, curious people I might know, or ppl who are not in my life anymore (but I'm a bit screwed if their English is good lol). 2 others contraints are : date and length. This is where it's getting complex. First, I want it to be long. Also for the unwanted curious people. But overall I want it to be a good sum up, a positive one. So if I want to talk about something good, a good year that happened to me I want it to even look big. But this year, i'll try to make it lighter to read. I'll use paragraphs. And ... that's the best I can do (thinking of it again, i'm not sure I'll be able to fill this text with emojis). I also want it to be long because all of these words are hiding something. It would be deadly personnal if I just opened my heart and write my feelings in plain sight. But the more I write, the more it gives me comfort as I know my important words will be drowned in all these lines. So I know I can express myself pretty freely. I express myself so freely that I might even say everything and its contrary here. Because some things make me feel complex things.The last contraint is that I wanted to make it before 2023 for simple reasons. The first is that I want to prove myself I'm doing ok on this end of 2022. This might look simple but not so simple seen how this end of the year has been challenging me on a whole lot of levels. But I'm doing fine and I want to prove it by releasing this text on time. Because now nothing keeps me away from functionning correctly. Which has not been the case some previous years because some troubles kept taking me forces to just survive. But thank God now it's not the case. Let's not get mistaken here. This year have been challenging. But it's not ending "that bad". So I told myself "You're doing fine so you can do your sum up on time." ... well at least, I could start on time. I overestimated myself thinking I could write this under 24/48h but it's my bad lol. Another one of my contraint : I want to keep anonymous the people I'm talking about, and for that I'll stay elusive about the events I'm talking about. If you're involved, you'll know what I talk bout reading it (if i did write correctly). I think this is a cool way to share a little bit more of intimacy and complicity. Plus if what I wrote made you smile or made you feel well you know where to read it again. :)

So : let's compare to 2021 sum up. Let's see what have changed, where I was right, wrong. The 2021 was short so this shouldn't be too difficult.

Comparaison au sum up précédent. Well, the first thing I see is : "welcome to 2022" have not been posted in time lol. 2 months late. But I was just lazy but still functioning (even though December '21 and January '22 have been tough). This is funny, the VPN hidden visitor stopped visiting. I guess one can run out of curiosity. The previous one was interesting because I could start talking about the photography to explain how the year went. But this year the photo is a bit more ... casual. I've not been present at this xmas at my cousin's house. So no tuxedo photo for me. What a rough evening. As 2021 have been marked by a real rupture, 2022 have been a lot more steady ... But still not boring. "Some years ask questions and some years answer." I think this year I've asked myself more questions than I've answered. This is crazy because when I wrote the previous one in February, war in Urkaine already started so this is what I mean when I say "Writting the sum up right on time allows to not spoil any of the 2023 events in it". Like, a war in Europe in 2022 ? This is crazy. Even my dear DB have been worried about this situation even if it's a bit far from her hometown. Last year I talked a lot about this tumblr coming to an end. I still think what I wrote but like I said, I would like to give a happy end to this blog. This can easily become a hard thing to accomplish. Here are the ends I'm thinking of. The most obvious one would be to find a lover and ending it with her. Another way would be to be successful in karate, in a precise objective I'd have given myself. I have a few in minds, some more realistic than others, but it could happen. Or the third would be to be fully accomplished, solving all the issues I have and going forward. (Or even end it because I'd be artistically satisfied with my tumblr). The funny thing about this year is that I could almost have ended this tumblr because of the 1st reason. Among the questions I've asked myself this year, there was "are you ready to put a woman in the middle of your life?" and I guess the answer was no, as I already could answer by the end of 2022. 1st, being able to ask myself this question is already a HUGE step forward in possibly finding someone. But it's not that clear. I've been facing this question a bit in a hurry situation. And those who know me know I'm not a fan of pressures under whatever forms. I don't like time pressure. But when the timming goes wrong, what can you do ? To be honest I started asking myself questions by November. But I wasn't thinking into it that much. Even though I was already pretty involved (a lot of kms have been driven those 2 months, but I don't regret any), I still took it pretty lightly because I was confident. In fact my biggest mistake was to think "Now time works with me. We're here and we're on the same wavelength (what a funny word), all we have to do is to get to know each other better and better." ... My friends what a mistake. So this is how I learned that time never works with you. Learnt it the hard way but not that hard. To be 100% honest, I've already had nightmares of this before she confessed to me she found someone else. So I didn't fall from any piedestal, thank God. In fact, while I write I remember all the previous sum ups and I remember telling myself "You should put yourself in the center of your sum ups" but for this year I want to change a bit. I would like to put ❤️ in the middle of this sum up. I want to talk about love. Because one of the biggest question of this year was "If the woman you've been waiting for all these years would show up, would you recognize her ?" and once again the answer was not that obivous. I'm talking about the downs of the relationship we have but be sure you'll read about her perfectness, from head to toes, and her lovely brown/green eyes who look even better when they're watching me but sorry I digress. So this tumblr is closer to the end than the begining, but I guess we will all see it coming. I already mentionned the lack of time I was victim of. 2022 didn't make it better. I'm reluctant to talk about all that here but I can't deny it took a lot of place in my life. Even though I don't define myself by my "wroking value". But I guess when my work is an argument mentionned when I'm explained why I'm not worthy of a couple, we can say it's pretty invading. But it's not like I ignored it. Maybe I've been thinking backwards on this. I remember thaking God last year telling myself "I can live this lifestyle because I have nobody in my life" so I shouldn't be surprised when a woman tells me "There's no place for me in your life". I'm a bit scarred my choices already put me on a path of loneliness. Yes, this is a real fear, but I'm quietly preparing to it. Being lonely on the bad days was the worst, but we can say I adapted a bit. So, I'm getting used to this idea, and starting preparing my dad also for this idea. This December 18th was a challenging day, as much as the whole following week have been. I'm talking about the 1st medal post covid in 2021 but 2022 saw the 1st loss after ~20 years (17 or 18 years to be precise) being undefeated in Midi-Pyrénées. Also on that December 18th. Still trying to recover from that loss but I think I'll do fine. I've seen others. But the karate question have been very present this year. As a competitor and as a sensei. In 2021 I wrote down "what goes up must come down" and hell I came down in 2022. But we know that's how it goes nobody stays up forever (except for lovers who can support each others for long periods of time). I'm still inspiring some kids but I have the feeling this year I have to be here for them if I don't want to waste anything. We could end with a very strong family but now as a turning point I guess. But I still have 2~4 years to hold on at least before I could retire. I'm still into chess. I met a woman I just played chess with, it was a very curious encounter but a fun one.

Now predictions for 2023 ... the ones for 2022 were pretty accurate indeed, if we forget that I was not ready to cross the path of a woman that phenomenal. Yes it was a quiet year because nothing serious happened. By that, I mean my father health was better than never, we went to the gym together and all so I couldn't ask for more :) Now the 1st thing that I can think of is ... Sunday, February 26th will be a date. Maybe answers will be given. Otherwise ... This will be a year of changes, hope it won't be too rough. I always hope for a peaceful year. I like those. I always say "It's better to be bored than dealing with issues". Could be my motto, I don't know. For last year, I remember wishing to stay focused on "competition and currency" ... Guess I'm still on these motives, more prepared than ever ! ⚡️ The truth is I don't like to predict things, because I'm scared to jinx myself putting them into words, idk if that makes sense. Oh there's one major project I need to talk about ! The MADAGASCAR 2023 trip with CP !!!!! This will be something.

There are events through this year I'd like to highlight. The stay at Montpellier. 1st medal post covid. 1st trip as an "adult". Still losing against the Empire ... Saint-Quentin, which became very personal. Oh, my 1st radio interview ! That was funny. We've also seen the 1st burnouts. A very lovely day at the museum. & a movie seen besides a castle, through a big big screen. I surely posted photos through the year. I'll check if I might not have forgotten some. My 1st female chir. Incredible. Who in a way could have been the best encounter of the year. But then came October 19th ... Well, this is the moment when it turns into a love story. If you read this long, congratulations you found the core of this whole text. Because these feelings are too strong. I need to write them out of me so I can go ahead. It would allow me to forget them so my head is free for more stuff coming. Because I'd know they're kept intact somewhere, here precisely. So October 19th the 1st messages led us to Halloween, October 31st. What an evening. Would it be too mellow to go through the whole thing ? I could. But I'd rather make it quick for this time. Maybe once this whole gigantic thing is written I'll write especially about this day. Because wow ... I'm not pretending to be a Casanova or something. But the fact is that I've seen a lot of dates. Some went terribly wrong. Funny memories to talk about tho. Others ... I'll forget them sooner or later. I remember them from time to time. Some went very well, with lovely people, doing lovely things. And others where you can feel the whole universe pushing yourselves together. The attraction was crazy, the whole atmosphere was ... Idk. It was cloudy and a bit oppressive but there was romance in the air. But a warm one. Things took an unexpected turn at ... "Hello" ahaha. I'm half kidding but I'm realising I might not remember her first words because I was too focused on her smile, the 1st thing I noticed. It reminded me suddenly of the quote "In order to seduce her, I should make her laugh. But everytime she laughed I'd fall back in love with her, again." And then I told myself "Well ... what a lovely smile and then I had the whole evening to stare at those beautiful brown eyes. Brown/green if you want to be precise. And then this whole body ... See, there's one thing I sure like in a woman. Simplicity. Like ... Women showing off their goods are in their total right, I respect and appreciate that. But when a woman is not showing off that much about what she has then you see it from your own eyes........ That feeling can hardly be equaled. And here was the case. She. Was. So. Damn. Fine. Slim waist, fat booty. But to be honest I was prepared if things went down, but she was so interesting that I felt it would still have been a great evening. We already talked a lot but getting to know her in real was awesome. I knew thanks to the vocals but her cute little lilting accent was lovely to hear in reality, not through a phone. We talked about a lot of things. In a lot of places. We talked in a tea saloon for ... 20mins and went out because they were too busy to serve us, so we just left. Funny we didn't even get angry. Nothing could have disturb us that night, it was like the city was ours. This is a feeling I love to get. It's when you're wandering through a city, with someone you love. Even everything around seems more beautiful. For our 1st meal we chose Pitaya. It was cool. We went back home and I'll just talk bout "perfect timing" and "thunderstorm". Indeed I wouldn't even have words to describe this. But maybe what happened between us might stay between us. Then we have November 13th. A lucky day, even if it was a Sunday. Wednesday, November 16th in the A. Then 24 hours together back in the T. on November 26th. My little fountain. (Sorry for showing off but ... come on I'm so proud!). The evening of Friday, December 9th. At yours. It was a funny afternoon. And a lovely night. I had to wake up early this time but the travel back to Toulouse was ... easy. It's easier when you're still feeling like you're floating because you just spent the night with someone you have a "heavy crush" on. But it was more than that, but I never asked myself deeply because we said we "didn't put words in it". Which is now a bit ironic seen how much words I'm using actually to relate those feelings. So guys, I listed the dates because I love dates but also to count. So it takes 5 dates to fall in love. So 4 is the limit, don't go beyond lol. Because after all that comes ... Thursday, December 22nd. I don't know if I have much to say about this. It's the breaking point. Oh, indeed I guess I have a few things to say about our last date. I don't think I'm wrong when I say love was in the air. But then came something else. A kind of bitterness. The same taste when you mix love and sorrow. To be honest, a lot of my previous relationships in which I was very involved didn't end well. Most of times with a very brutal break up. So putting a peaceful end to something that strong ... That clearly never happened to me. I must admit it caught me a bit off guard and I didn't know how to act. I remember waking up in the night, I was having trouble sleeping so I turned on Tekken 7. This is what I do when I want to take away my attention from my problems. Or turn my negatives feelings into something. I can't remember if I was winning or losing. But after playing a long time, I froze and realized "Dude there's the woman of your dreams in your bed and you're playing here, wtf are you doing ?????" and I went back to bed to hold her as tight as I can, "as long as I can". It's a very weird feeling to have someone in front of you, someone you have lots of affection for, but telling yourself your time is running out. It was hard to enjoy all of it but I did my best. Which was surely enough because I keep a great memory of this day. I'm very thankful for being able to live a peaceful end. But it's easier when the other person inspires you nothing but kindness. Decisions are way clearer. Even if the best decision is not always the easy one. [I'm scared of the distance it will create between us. I don't know how long, I don't know in which form but having a special place is not opposite of being distant. But I'm already missing her. If one day she misses me, I hope she knows well that feeling is mutual.] But I'm not done telling my year. Because the end of this love story is only one part of what made the end of the year tough. Because there also was a certain 1h ride back home that changed a lot of things. In fact, I like to see people with dedication, longevity. Being able to perform (at whatever level) for a long period of time forces admiration. Whether you like the guy or not, you can't deny he's here. But for the 1st time since 2005 I've lost Midi Pyrénées. What an awful day. Guess it was a day made for the bests to arrive 2nd lol. But I won't talk much about it, but I'm so curious if I'll be able to take revenge in 2023.

Pensées de fin (~random)_ In photography this year, I was inspired a lot by Better Call Saul. Then I ran through Yt to find guys putting in words why this is such a visual mastepiece. It was so interesting. I got a new cellphone (Google Pixel 6) so having a better camera makes me automatically curious of testing it in a lot of situations (Rest Easy Oneplus 5 tho). I still have my photography eye opened, trying to not miss a shot. I'm not sure if everything that needed to be posted was posted but nvmd. For Tekken, Which kind of progress did we see ? "The bad players beat who they can, the good ones beat who they want." A bit far from that. But I've a better understanding of the game. Lidia is insane to play, very very fun. For the stats, I'm really proud to say I hit Ryujin rank this year so it makes me officially "Ryujin Njaka" haha. I have a Victory/Defeats ratio of 11 930/23 349 which makes 51,09% wins. Talking about winning, I cockily thought I've finished the game of seduction. But realized that by the very end of the year. I mean, it's kind of stupid to think like that because no one is able to seduce 100% of the people one wants. But still, I found a lot of satisfaction seeing some people I found very attractive found me very also very attractive in return (coucou Alexia).

Series Better call saul > kim et jimmy, rapport a la photo, aux plans For example I'll develop later but Better Call Saul was incredible to follow this year. Made me think about a lot of things. Well "Gotham" Incredible to know better the roots of all the Batman story. Very very cool. Visually very .. bold. Stranger things Season 4 : Awesome !!! 1st stranger thing like an horror movie ... Insane. Avatar started again in April ... The Umbrella Acadmy was interesting. Tekken Bloodline on Netflix was great.

Mangas One Piece : we saw the gear 5th !!! Insane reveals.

Films Doctor Strange 2 : Insane !!!!! I watched again Lilo & Stitch. One Piece Red, supposedly the last One Piece movie. It was cool, great setting for watching the movie.

Musique We heard a lot of "Toko toko" and "Last last" this year.

En parlant de temps : 23:33 à lire le recap 2020. Et je vois que l'ecrire m'a pris : 40 JOURS.

[Vendredi 30 Decembre - 11h06. Salut. Je ne sais pas où tu en es dans ta lecture mais on va reprendre de zero. Si tu as lu jusque là, félicitations déjà. Ce post doit être long long long. J'ai relu tous les posts de ce genre pour faire celui là, en lisant plus ou moins en diagonale. J'aime bien la dimension que ce post soit écrit à temps parce que ca fige l'instant et les sentiments. Enfin, pour cette fois je veux que ça le soit. C'est donc pour ca que ce post va être long, parce que je veux qu'il soit daté. Je veux voir si dans quelques années je serais gêné d'avoir écrit tout ça (auquel cas je supprimerai ce paragraphe) ou si ... Le timming s'avère être plus indulgent envers nous. Je parle de nous parce que tu as trouvé la lettre "cachée" dans ce post extra long. Je casse le 4e mur mais je pense que ça va être fait de manière très maladroite, encore une fois pour rendre ce post le plus long possible. Comme tu sais je raisonne toujours en terme de fond et de forme. Ici, rallonger le texte dans sa forme globale devrait décourager la plupart des gens à continuer à lire. Mais je me dis que si toi tu ecrivais un texte LONG ou tu racontes ta vie je serais content de le lire donc voici le mien. En vrai j'ai aucune idée de si je vais réussir à le faire plus long ... Bref je papillone ahah. Donc bienvenue à toi 0305 ! Normalement, tu n'as pas lu ton prénom et tu le liras pas. Mais on sait tous les deux que là, ce qui va suivre est pour toi ... Samedi 31 Decembre - 18h45. C'est marrant. Aujourd'hui tu m'as demandé de faire d'écrire comme si personne n'allait me lire. Mais c'est impossible. En vrai je suis trop content que tu me lises, donc comme je disais je pense que c'est normal de récompenser ses lecteurs, et dans mon cas ma lectrice. En fait, là je fais une pause dans l'écriture du résumé de cette année pour bien écrire cette lettre et être sur que j'ai un max d'attention disponible pour être sûr que tout ce que j'ai à te dire soit bien dit. Mais du coup, comme je n'ai pas encore écrit le résumé, je ne sais pas ce que j'ai pu bien dire sur toi donc s'il y a des redondances je te prie de m'excuser, j'essaie humblement de mettre en mots tout ce que je ressens et tout ce que cette année 2022 m'a inspiré. En fait, quand j'écris ce résumé, je me demande chaque année "de quoi je vais parler, qu'est ce que je vais mettre au centre de tout ça ?" et puis j'ai pensé à observer le lien entre le fond et la forme. "Est-ce que les résumés les plus longs relatent les années les plus heureuses ? ou les plus tristes?" De fil en aiguille je me suis fait une reflexion importante : je veux que ce résumé sorte à temps parce que dans ma vie tout va bien, rien ne m'empeche de fonctionner au point que ce résumé ne sorte pas à temps et aussi je veux qu'il soit long parce que je veux continuer à irradier le positif. Puis même en y réflechissant, ça doit pas être interessant un looooong paragraphe d'un mec qui fait que se plaindre. Donc je veux mettre en avant le positif de 2022 et une manière très simple de le faire c'est de te rendre honneur puisque tu es tout simplement ma meilleure rencontre de cette année 2022. Une vraie tornade, et également la rencontre que j'attendais pas non plus cette année. En fait, il faut savoir que j'aime ce genre de rencontres. Pardon, il faut que je perde l'habitude de parler au pluriel. Ca me permet de me distancier dans ma manière d'écrire, mais y'a pas de pluriel à avoir puisque je m'adresse a toi (toi, toi, toi ... c'est comme l'écho dans les chansons de Nek ahah). Donc pas de pluriel, parce que tout ça c'est entre toi et moi. J'ai aimé notre rencontre. Je le répète en boucle mais ... le tonnerre du premier soir ? Rien que ça, ça suffit à dire que c'était pas une rencontre comme les autres. C'était vraiment une soirée incroyable. Et j'essaie de mettre au maximum ce que je ressens pour toi à l'écrit pour beaucoup de raisons. La première c'est que pendant deux mois je ne l'ai pas fait, donc je veux être sur que les termes soient bien dits, et surtout pour qu'on garde une trace de tout ça, et que ça reste vif quand on le lit. Je pense que ça serait un récapitulatif réussi si quand je le relirais dans quelques années ça me rapelle les souvenirs avec toute la bonne nostalgie qui va avec. Parce que comme je te le disais au téléphone la dernière fois : tout va bien. C'est vrai qu'on a l'impression de jouer nos vies parce qu'on sent que quelque chose de puissant peut se passer, mais il faut dédramatiser, et arrêter d'être tristes comme si on allait sortir de la vie de l'autre, parce que c'est pas vrai. J'ai envie de continuer à faire partie de ta vie et c'est réciproque, on ne se déteste pas, même si je suis jaloux à en crever de S. .... non je plaisante ahah (meme si évidemment je suis un petit peu jaloux hein). Mais ici, pas de place à la jalousie. Même si mon but c'est d'être un maximum honnête, j'aimerais mettre l'accent sur les sentients qui comptent. (Je me rends compte que des sentiments tu m'en inspires deja 100.000 mais bon, Je vais essayer de commencer quelque part). Ce qui me plait dans le fait d'écrire sur mes sentiments pour toi, c'est que je peux pas m'empecher de me demander si je regretterai ces mots, si quand je les relirai dans 6 mois, 1 an, 10 ans ils auront beaucoup changé ou pas. En vrai notre relation peut encore évoluer beaucoup, donc peut etre que quand je parle "d'herbe coupée sous le pied" j'éxagère un peu, peut-être qu'il nous reste encore beaucoup d'options pour faire évoluer nos liens, en dépit du manque de chance évident. J'étais sur le point d'écrire les scenarios qui m'auraient le plus plu, mais j'aurais peur de me porter la poisse en les mettant en mots. Le temps passe et j'aimerais en arriver au coeur de la lettre. Toutes ces lignes étaient là pour cacher ça, le plus important et le plus intime. Ce que j'aimerais que tu retiennes de cette lettre, c'est que notre rencontre est exceptionnelle et j'ai un respect pour toi qui est immense. En tant que femme, en tant qu'amie, en tant qu'humaine .... Et dans ton rapport avec moi t'as toujours été bienveillante. Tu fais partie des personnes les plus vertueuses que j'ai pu rencontrer et c'est pour ça que je relativise notre "fin prématurée" parce que je suis très fier et heureux de pouvoir faire partie de ton entourage. J'aurais été encore plus heureux et fier de me tenir à tes côtés comme un amoureux mais ça c'est autre chose. Autre chose que j'aurais fait avec grande grande joie. L'une des choses qui m'a le plus touché c'est que tu me vois comme j'aimerais qu'on me voie. Et ça c'est indescriptible. Tu es d'une franchise sans épreuve aussi. C'est très agréable d'échanger avec toi parce que je sais que jamais tu maquilles ta manière de penser. T'es honnête, et aussi t'es simple. En parlant de maquiller ... je m'attarderai pas à détailler comme je te trouve incroyablissime physiquement de la tête aux pieds, sinon ce texte risque d'être vraiment long. Mais c'est exactement ce genre de détails qui font que t'as été un vrai ouragan dans ma vie. Un ouragan qui m'a fait me questionner mes priorités et mes principes. L'une des questions que je me suis posé pour comprendre pourquoi on en est là aujourd'hui c'est : "et si j'avais été prêt plus tot, il se serait passé quoi ?" et c'est une question interessante je trouve. C'est pas la réponse qui compte, mais c'est le fait de s'etre posé la question en soit. Parce que la prochaine fois que je serai face à quelqu'un qui me remuera jusqu'au fin fond de mon ame, je serai un petit peu plus préparé à cette éventualité et à tout ce qui peut en découler. Pour finir, c'est pour ça que je tenais à écrire ça en 2022. Pour que mes sentiments et mes espoirs en toi soient intacts quand je relirai ça. PS : Oh et je viens de penser. Je suis content de commencer 2023 avec toi et je serai content d'avoir plein de nouveaux souvenirs de nous à raconter dans mon prochain résumé, dans 12 mois. Bisous.

2022 Playlist :

Kaza - Sincère Travis Scott - sdp interlude Pedro Sampaio - Dançarina Tayc - Comme un samedi Kekra - Realest #HLM Fresh - Chop Gambi - Petete Burna Boy - Last Last Orelsan - Shonen Vald & Orelsan - Péon Dinos - Simyaci Negrito Senpai - Equipage (One Piece)

Mention spéciale : Sebastien Tellier - La ritournelle

PS : 09/02/2023 23:51 _ Punaise. Enfin fini. ça m'a épuisé ahah. Vous me pardonnerez le baclage de la fin, mais 40 jours de retard c'est trop, il faut en finir ahah. Puis bon, J'oublie toujours pas que j'ai une lectrice qui attend, en esperant qu'elle lira quand même ça avec engouement. Mais plus jamais un récap si long lol. La vie de ma mère je me relis pas.

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keicordelle · 2 months ago

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In the french localization, Emmanellain loses a great deal of the haughty, holier-than-thou ponce that he has in the English. He is still there because Artoirel recommended it, but he also wants to be there. I mean, he's not thrilled about the fighting and the cold (but really who is), but he wants to make a difference and he wants to help people, in whatever way he can. It feels (to me) much more like a direct continuation of his characterization from the post-HW patches, where he starts to realize his worth, and gets serious about putting in the effort, both in his training and in his governance of Dragonhead.

Even in the voice direction, there's a huge difference. In the French, we have an Emmanellain who's hesitant, but willing. He knows he's not the strongest (he's very explicit about this) but he's looking for a way to help and if Artoirel thinks he can be of use, he's going to give it his best shot. vs the English, where he comes off very "I'm a flighty noble here for a good time and I will be vacationing here regardless of the war and the snow, thank you very much."

For comparison (timestamped to Em's intro):

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His dialogue here is a great deal more self-aware, even if it still conveys more or less the same information. Hells, even some of the wording is similar, but the tone of it has shifted entirely:

[TR: > Greetings, everyone! I'm here as a representative of House Fortemps. > I warn you, I'm still far from having become a fierce warrior! It was my brother who thought to send me here, with the claim that it would be the ideal opportunity to make use of my talents, for the sake of world peace. > In any case, if it comes to dazzling the Garleans on the ballroom dance floor, I'm your man! I am a much better waltzer than swordsman, no doubt about that! <Insert WoL dialogue option here> > Thank you for your encouragement! You can all count on me. Oh, I'm looking forward to returning to Isghard so I can recount my exploits to Honoroit. The poor boy, he was in tears when I left!]

Compare with:

Gone is all of his hedging about how he's not here of his own volition, gone is his dismissive tone and his fruity embellishments. He still admits that he's here by Artoirel's recommendation -- but it's not implied in the French that Artoirel's doing it to effectively ship him off to military school. In fact, it's rather heavily implied that Artoirel actually expects Emmanellain to be of help to the Garleans, even if Emmanellain himself isn't sure how.

I also want to take a second and point out that in the French, he says that he is "still far from having become" a fierce warrior -- which, to me at least, reinforces that he is in fact keeping up with his training, and he's making the effort to improve his swordplay even if he hasn't reached a level that's really worth writing home about yet. But he doesn't disparage himself about it in the French, like he does in English. He just acknowledges the limits of his strength, and goes on to tell us that Artoirel thinks he can be of help anyway.

Hell, even your dialogue options (which I left out because I didn't think I was going to talk about them) are nicer. You still have one option that's poking fun at him a little, but the other is perfectly nice, if a little intense in that standard WoL way.

These characterization differences build up more and more over the course of the expansion. His lines during the instanced duty as you arrive in Garlemald are WILDLY different in French, but I'd have to NG+ it to screenshot it and I don't have that in me right now.

I will, however, point out this line from towards the end of the expansion, when you've sent everyone off to go gather whatever you need to finish Ragnarok. (I have this one on hand because it accompanied a long rant to a friend back when I first played it through in french lol)

Context: he was with a team exploring the ruins of Dalamud, and Sicard is teasing him about how he probably didn't actually go anywhere near it.

[TR: Untrue, I went up to the entrance! And I also called upon my connections to bring in some REAL experts on treasure hunting, the SKY pirates!] (his tone is a fair bit more playful in French but I'm trying to keep the translation as literal as possible)

Versus his English:

The English doesn't even talk about his efforts to organize the sky pirates here. Plus he speaks with such pride here in the French -- not arrogance, but proud of himself that he's finding his place and how he can help. He recognizes that he's not the best suited to martial matters, but that he does have a talent for organizing people and making connections. He's the Tataru of the Ishgard crew, truly

Do you ever just find yourself overcome with a lot of Feelings about a character that fandom often uses as a punching bag?

So anyway, Emmanellain de Fortemps.

I think about him a lot more than I let on around here. Yes he's a bit of a ponce and a dandy and the like, but he has a good heart. He saved Honoroit from indentured servitude. (Although I thought they originally met when he paid Honoroit to carry his bags then took him in from there? Did the lore change?) Either way, he personally taught Honoroit to read and write. He personally taught Honoroit to read and write. I'm not over that. Emmanellain didn't have to go out of his way to invest personal time and resources into teaching Honoroit, but he did. I'm not over that!! I refuse to believe that doing so came from anywhere else but a place of sincere compassion!

And speaking of sincerity, I feel like that's the source of some of his issues. Having grown up in a broken home and being the apology child and clearly having some anxiety issues, I think he struggles to be sincere. He has to be the good second son, and the goofball who diffuses negative situations, and an Ishgardian noble which no doubt comes with its own entire category of repression. All his running away from responsibilities and passing the buck and etc. etc. strikes me as someone with severe anxiety that manifests in avoidance habits which just hits way too close to home for me. But. But! He's learning how to face his anxiety! Don't you remember how inspired he was after the grand melee??!! "We need only show them the way." He wants to help people and guide Ishgard into that bright future he's finally able to glimpse himself!! He's trying to be sincere! He's trying to be true to that good heart of his! His love and curiosity for the world around him is growing, and helping him grow in turn! Emmanellain will probably always be a ponce, but he'll also always be generous and fun-loving and considerate!

EMMANELLAIN DE FORTEMPS

#I've kept the translation here as literal as possible to avoid accusations of embellishing to prove my point #but if I were trying to translate this properly I'd shift the verbiage around a little to better convey what he means and how he's saying i #anyway that got way longer than I intended. sorry LOL #fr ffxiv #I love my boy and he deserved better

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allywritesforfun · 3 years ago

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hey i really enjoyed your nightly routine post with wilbur? i was wondering if you could do something similar but in the morning instead?

awe my love! I'm glad that you enjoyed the nightly the routine... here is the morning routine!

{Morning Routine} Wilbur Soot x Reader

summary: you and wilbur made a nightly routine video that blew up more than you have thought, so now its time to do a morning routine!

pronouns: not mentioned

word count: 2280

trigger warnings: swearing, mention of a knife for going chop chop, this was too cute for even me to handle and it came from my hands

a/n: my god is this long! I really got carried away. I could've made this into two parts but whatevs

a/n pt 2: takes place after the “Nightly Routines” but not directly connected

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You deeply groaned as you fluttered your eyes open. This was not a great time to wake up. You really wanted another hour of sleep, but you knew you had work to get done today.

You looked behind you. You smiled at the sight of Wilbur in his sweet slumber, his arm lazily draped over your waist. Wilbur very much loved to be in bed with you. If he could, he would spend all day there, just you in his arms and some soft lofi in the background.

That was something very rare to get. Being a streamer and musician, Wilbur was busy almost all the time and rarely took a day off. Mornings and nights were dedicated to you. However, there were times that you would stream with him, or stop by the office to give him food, but nothing was compared to waking up with him.

“Oh shit,” You whispered, “We’re supposed to do morning vlog today.”

You looked around for Wilbur’s camera, which was no where to be found. You settled on stretching over to nightstand and unplugging your phone. You looked back at Wilbur to make sure he was still sleeping. You could tell he was by the gentle raise and fall of his chest and subtle “Ah-woo”. You just knew that was the perfect way to start the vlog. You recored him for about ten seconds of him doing his ‘not really a snore but definitely something’ and giggled almost the whole way through.

You would think that after living with him for two months and the multiple sleepovers that you’ve had with him, that you would be used to it by now. But even today you still giggled just like you did when you first woke up with him.

You snuck yourself out of bed and made your way to the kitchen. Once arrived you did the intro, “Good morning chat! It is currently about 6:30 in the morning, and as you realize, I am the only one awake. As you saw, Wilbur is still sound asleep and that how it is every morning. So we’re going to vlog our morning routine today, which I promise is way more interesting than the nightly routine vlog. So, Wilbur is literally the best person ever and deserves the world. And his world, besides me of course, is his morning coffee. So I’m going to use our Keurig to get his coffee started.”

You stopped the recording and decided to get some of your creativity out. You weren’t musical like Wilbur and can't draw for shit, so videography was your way of being creative. You set your phone the in the corner and opened up the blind to let a little bit of light through. It still looked basic so you moved your plant to the background, which added the perfect look. You started brewing and hit record.

While that was going, you measured out the creamer and syrup and grabbed your sippy cup for your chocolate milk. No judgement here. We all know chocolate milk tastes better in sippy cups.

The brew came to a slow stop and you grabbed the camera, “Wasn't that a satisfactory angle chat? Now, I am more of an iced coffee person, so in the morning I have water or chocolate milk, and today is definitely a chocolate milk day.” You raised your cup to the camera and fake ‘clinked’ it, cutting the recording when it was closest to the camera. You finished up making Wilbur’s coffee and set it on the living room table.

You looked at the time, 6:50 am, now was a good time to get Wilbur up. You always let his coffee sit out for a little bit, that way he could drink it the second that he woke up. You threw some napkins under your drinks and moved another plant over there. You wanted your place to look aesthetically pleasing, even if it was a little bit staged. You did a transition with your cup, this time now on the table.

“Okay chat, we all now mr. simpbur is a snuggler so we don't have breakfast in the kitchen, instead we share on the couch, that way we can get all of our snuggles in before he has to leave for the office. I have everything set up, normally I would prepare breakfast too, but I feel like cooking with Wilbur this morning. We’ll do this about once a week for some bonding time, so let's go get him up,” You decided to keep recording, just in case Wilbur woke up from your loss of presence.

You creaked the door open, Wilbur was still asleep. He adjusted his body for that he was hugging a pillow, who you assumed was your replacement. You laid down next to him and just took a moment to admire him. It was moments like this that you forgot that you were internet personalities. This was you. This was Wilbur. Both of you living your life without needing to exaggerate yourself. This was Wilbur at his purest form. He was all relaxed, not even aware that he was being recorded.

You scooted closer to him and intertwined your legs with him. You brushed his bangs with the back of your hands and gently placed your lips on your forehead. He stirred a little bit, but not enough to wake him up. You took the pillow from him and wrapped your body around his, “Wilbur, my love, it's about seven, you need to get up.”

You could tell he woke up by him pulling you closer and burying his head only you neck. You gently massaged his head and twirled his curls between your fingers, “Come on Will, I got your coffee made already. We need to start breakfast.”

He shook his head and kissed your shoulder, “Mine.”

You laughed, “Yes Will, and ‘yours’ is hungry, let’s get up and eat.”

He slowly nodded and pulled you closer, “Mmmm... I love you.”

“I love you too, simpbur.”

He snapped his head up at the nickname and saw the camera, “Fuck-that’s today?”

You giggled and detached yourself from, “Say good morning to chat.”

He shook his head and buried it in his pillow out of embarrassment. You stop recording and put your phone on the stand. Just seeing Wilbur all flustered was enough to make you go back to bed. You laid back down with him and pulled him on top of you.

“We’re gonna have to re-record that part,” Wilbur mentioned.

You rubbed his cheek with your thumb, which he happily leaned into, “No bubs, we gotta keep it in. It was a very cute moment.”

He shook his head aggressively, “No! That was embarrassing!”

“Too bad, it’s on my phone so I get to chose what goes in.”

He huffed and grabbed your hand, accepting defeat, “You said you made my coffee?”

You two got up and sat down on the couch. Wilbur took you into his arms the second he took his first sip, his personal way of saying ‘thank you, you’re the best person to ever exist’.

“What are you feeling for breakfast?” You asked.

“You,” Wilbur joked, kissing your temple.

You gently pushed him, “No actually, I really want yogurt, so pick something that goes well with that.”

“Can we just make a fruit plate?”

You excitedly nodded, if it wasn't for Wilbur, you would not be eating healthy. He really made sure that you were going to live as long as he did. Neither of you could live without the other. If something crazy didn't happen to you, you were going to die from a broken heart.

Wilbur grabbed your phone and started recording, “So um, good morning chat, I’ve had some coffee and more awake now. What you just saw- no you fucking didn't. We’re on the sofa right now and we decided on a fruit plate with yogurt this morning, trying to be a little healthier considering we had ice cream at one am last night. So we’re gonna make that off camera, because if you guys get us to six million subs, we’ll do a cooking stream!”

“Oh we are now?” You questioned. “I was never told about this.”

Wilbur laughed and kissed your temple, “Well you know now, that's good enough innit?”

You shook your head and placed your hand over the camera, Wilbur stopped the recording. You go the fruit out while Wilbur prepared the sink for rinsing and knives for chopping.

You made the plate look all nice and took it back to the couch. Wilbur placed his arm back over you and grabbed the remote with is free hand while you centered your phone.

“Okay chat, we’re gonna eat and watch tv for a bit, then you're gonna get ready with us. Wilbur has a test shoot at the office today, so we gotta make him look all pretty and obviously personal hygiene is a must... so yeah, brb.”

You two set up another game show to watch, it sorta became your go to show. Especially because there was no storyline and you could talk when you wanted. This was a pretty chill morning, you two enjoyed each other's presence.

When you finished up, Wilbur took the dishes and you went to the bathroom and cleaned up a little bit. You heard Wilbur go into his closet, so you started recording, “Okay chat, last thing we do before he leaves is actually get ready. Wilbur is getting changed right now so I’m gonna brush my hair out. I can get a little aggressive with the snarls and Wilbur always thinks I'm ripping my hair out so I always do it when he's not around to make sure he doesn't get worried.”

You set the phone in the corner and set it up to record a time lapse. You heard off in distance some light pop type of music, so you knew that Wilbur got his speaker out.

“Are you playing copyrighted music?” You called.

“It’s released Lovejoy!”

You smiled, you always got giddy seeing how happy Wilbur was able to make himself with his own music. You set your brush down and started to wet your toothbrush, Wilbur slid into frame, already jamming out to his own music.

You covered your mouth with your hand stifled your laughter. Wilbur laughed with you and tugged on your waist, trying to get you to dance with him. You aggressively shook your head no, you hated dancing. You would think by now that you would be used to Wilbur and his random dance breaks, but you never came around.

You looked down in shame as Wilbur attempted to get you to spin around. Once you made it clear that you were not in the mood to dance, Wilbur turned down the music and waddle over to the counter.

You grabbed the camera, “If someone wants a very tall British man, you can come get him. Warning: not fun dance outbreaks.”

“Oh come on now, y/n!” Wilbur wrapped his arms around your waist and placed his head on yours, “Stop pretending like you don't like to dance.” “You know I hate dancing,” You reminded him.

“Well chat, apparently I’m not allowed to have any fun in the morning? But anyway, that was a joke, but- we do really have to get ready. Should we do this Disney Channel style?”

You laughed and shook your head, “No, I think I just want to make sure you don't miss your meeting.”

“That’s at nine! We have time! Please let me have fun with you! It’s going to be such a stressful day!” He pouted with the cutest puppy dogs eyes.

There was no way that you could say no to him, “Alright, what fun we having?”

Wilbur said nothing and prepared his toothbrush like yours, “Last one to finish brushing their teeth has to do the dishes tonight.”

You hated dishes. You were winning this one. You didn't even wait for a countdown. You instantly grabbed your toothbrush and turned on the water with lightening speed.

“What?!” Wilbur yelled. “That’s not fair!”

You did your best to bump him away, but it literally did nothing. Both of you were laughing very hard but Wilbur quickly caught up. You both fought with your hands, trying to cup a decent amount water. You both managed to get the water into your mouth and you turned to face Wilbur, it came down to who could rinse the fastest. You two just stared at each other, wishing the water around. You were dead serious. You were not doing the dishes tonight. Wilbur kept flaunting his hands around trying get himself to go faster, which ended up in him completely breaking out in laughter and spitting all over your face. It took you by surprise and all that you could you do was laugh to yourself, you eventually spit the water out in the sink, raising your hands in victory.

“I am so sorry, love!” Wilbur took your hand and guided you into his arms, gently running his hand up and down your back, “I didn't think that would be that hilarious.” “It’s okay,” You laughed and looked back in the mirror. You were completely drenched shoulder up, “It was fun. Better to happen to me than you, you look really nice today for the shoot.” “Thank you,” Wilbur blushed and turned you around, “I think that is enough recording for today. All that we have left to do is leave so... thank you for watching! Subscribe now and remember, cooking stream at six mil! Bye guys!”

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chiefmysticmia · 2 years ago

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Why I Read Cassie Cage from Mortal Kombat as a Lesbian

(p.s apologies if the formatting is awful on here I honestly don’t know how to do it properly HAHA)

Hi! So I’ve been getting into Mortal Kombat recently and a character that particularly caught my eye was Cassie Cage. I’m not sure why but I absolutely adore her character and whilst reading into her backstory, the story modes of MKX and MK11 (which I have yet to finish) and her intros, I have noticed a lot of her traits relate to both my own and other’s experiences as a lesbian.

For context I myself am a lesbian, and during my coming out journey I have discovered many things about myself that I originally thought were universal experiences until I started reading up on lesbianism and the experiences of other lesbians in discovering their identities. I could just be reading into Cassie’s character a bit too much (or projecting onto her), but I think one of the reasons I find comfort in her character is because of these traits.

So! I’ve decided to make a post going into more detail about this because it’s pride month and I have nothing better to do with my time, plus I love talking about my interpretations of characters.

(Just as a disclaimer, I’m absolutely not saying ‘“all these things mean that Cassie is a canon lesbian and any other interpretation is wrong!!!”. Nor am I forcing anyone to agree with me. Her sexuality isn’t confirmed at all. This is just how I, a lesbian, interpret her and I am open to other points of view. Any lesbiphobia and general LGBTQphobia will be deleted)

Cassie in Mortal Kombat X

To start with, I want to discuss how Cassie was presented in MKX.

I read this post the other day, and it put how I felt about Cassie in MKX versus MK11 very well. Unfortunately, queer/queer-coded characters are often full of stereotypes, and MKX Cassie fit in pretty well with the typical stereotypes lesbians face, i.e her lack of traditional femininity and her cocky attitude. Also, the fact that when Johnny said he was worried when she started dating, Cassie responded with “Afraid I’d come home with someone like you?”, with no gender specified. The fact that she shows no romantic interest in men whilst sporting those stereotypes speaks volumes in my opinion. I believe that in MKX, Cassie was intended to be queer-coded, but NRS backed out in MK11 after fans started to pick up on this.

Of course this doesn’t mean queer characters who fit into the stereotypes are inherently bad. I absolutely love characters who are lesbians and are portrayed similarly to Cassie.

I’m gonna use this opportunity to talk about the link (or lack of) between lesbianism and womanhood:

Due to the severe amount of misogyny and sexism in history, womanhood has almost exclusively revolved around empowering men. Thankfully, this is nowhere near as bad as it was years ago, but it still impacts all AFAB people and transfem people in one way or another

Lesbian is the only sexuality that doesn’t involve men at all. In a society where men are considered ‘superior’ to women, this makes our experiences in the LGBTQ community unique to others. All sexualities experience their own unique problems, discrimination, prejudice etc, and ours tends to revolve around the fact that we are non-men who are not attracted to men. Therefore, having a female/non-binary character who does not show any signs of attraction to men makes that character somewhat relatable to lesbians. Growing up, almost all the female protagonists and supporting characters we see in media end up with a man or are at least attracted to one. We lesbians had barely any characters whom we could look at and see ourselves in.

Obviously I am not saying that the discrimination lesbians face is worse or even comparable to the rest of the LGBTQ+ community. I’m just stating how it affects us in society.

How does this relate to Cassie, you may ask? Well:

Like I mentioned before, MKX Cassie doesn’t show any sign of being attracted to men, unlike a majority of female Mortal Kombat characters (Kitana, Sonya, Jade etc). Obviously this alone did not mean she was inherently a lesbian, but that along with the typical ‘masculine girl’ stereotype gave an implication that she was meant to be queer. Whilst I do not fully identify as female (I do not label my gender but I go by she/they pronouns), I am much more feminine than masculine in the way I present myself, yet I was still able to see aspects of myself in Cassie because of this.

Obviously, not all lesbians are ‘masculine’ and not all straight women are ‘feminine’. It’s just unfortunate that stereotypes play a big part in queer-coding.

tldr; Cassie’s lack of traditional femininity and attraction to male characters, despite being stereotypical, gives us lesbians something to relate to which we don’t often get in media

I think that’s all I have to say for this section, so let’s move on!

How Cassie changed in Mortal Kombat 11

Unlike the huge time skip between MK9 and MKX, the events of MK11 take place soon after those of MKX. However, Cassie’s character changed significantly; she became much more ‘typically feminine’ (long hair, makeup, painted nails etc). Whilst I love both versions of her, it is clear that the reason NRS changed her was partly due to the rumours of her being a lesbian for a number of reasons.

Now obviously if she was intended to be lesbian-coded, this could be a good thing as she would no longer represent as many stereotypes as she did. However, NRS added in a random boyfriend (or ex, we don’t know) who has absolutely no plot relevance, which leads me to believe that the only reason Dylan (or ‘Bob’ according to Sonya) was added into one intro between Cassie and Sonya was to combat the rumours that Cassie was a lesbian. Obviously lesbians can have dated/been attracted to men in the past, that doesn’t mean we’re any less valid, but the fact that Dylan was mentioned makes me think it had something to do with players picking up on Cassie being queer-coded. I’ll touch on this intro later on in the post because I have some things to say about it (not necessarily negative).

There was also the instance of Cassie apparently stealing Jacqui’s prom date, which I honestly cannot see Cassie doing out of genuine spite. Going by my lesbian headcanon, it seems more like an unobtainable, unrealistic crush, which a lot of lesbians experience and hold on to to try and convince themselves that they aren’t lesbians.

Cassie also had barely any interactions with female characters who weren’t her mother or Jacqui (who is technically family to her). If what I’ve theorised so far is correct, this could’ve been done to avoid fans shipping Cassie with other women (shoutout to Frost x Cassie shippers, y’all have an admirable amount of willpower).

tldr; The changes to Cassie in MK11 seem like they had something to do with the rumours that she was a lesbian amongst fans, leaving me to believe she was originally intended to be queer in MKX but NRS backed out of it in MK11.

There’s more to add, but I’m gonna break them up into different sections. Moving on:

The Intro referencing ‘Dylan’

(FYI: This part is more of a headcanon/me projecting rather than actual canonical evidence)

Like I said above, in one of the Cassie versus Sonya fight intros, a character called ‘Dylan’ (AKA ‘Bob’) is mentioned and implied to be either a current or previous romantic interest of Cassie’s.

Dylan has no plot relevance and, like I and others have theorised, exists to combat the rumours of Cassie being a lesbian.

However, what Sonya says about him (“Why learn his name if he’s not sticking around?”) implies that the relationship between him and Cassie is doomed. This line implies that Cassie has a history of relationships that end poorly, to the point where Sonya doesn’t know the name of her daughter’s current love interest. Obviously this could mean that Cassie struggles to keep stable relationships (possibly due to her parents’ divorce when she was young, which I can relate to), but since this is a lesbian headcanon I’m going to take a different interpretation.

A lot of lesbians experience ‘compulsory heterosexuality’, AKA comphet. This is term, originally coined by Adrienne Rich in her essay ‘Compulsory Heterosexuality and Lesbian Existence’ is used to describe the idea that in a heteronormative society, lesbians subconsciously devalue their relationships with other non-men, as AFAB people and even transfem people’s existence has majorly revolved around men in the past. Comphet comes in many forms and can feel like expecting yourself to date a man to feel worthy, forcing yourself to have crushes on men and many other ways that I cannot list on here because we’d be here all day.

Cassie being unable to keep stable relationships with men could be seen as comphet; dating men but not actually feeling a proper connection to them, leading to the relationship ending in disaster (another example being Cassie stealing Jacqui’s prom date). Considering NRS seems to have no problem confirming characters as bi, I’m sure that if Cassie had dated women in the past they would confirm that, which leads me to believe that all Cassie’s past relationships have been with men.

Again, this could just be me projecting onto her, but I find a lot of comfort in headcanoning Cassie to have comphet. It makes sense to me.

I was actually talking about this with my friend the other day and we came up with some funny hypothetical dialogue:

Cassie: “No woman really has any connection to the guys they date right? Like it’s all just for show, right you guys?”

The rest of the Kombat Kids: “…Um…”

*Takeda eyes Jacqui, who is profusely shaking her head to assure him that that is not, in fact, how most women feel*

tldr; Cassie’s relationship with Dylan was comphet because I experience comphet and I said so (/hj)

“But Mortal Kombat has confirmed Kung Jin, Mileena and Tanya to be LGBTQ+, why would they avoid doing the same with Cassie?”

This is a fair point: if there are confirmed gay and bisexual characters in MK, why would they not confirm a character to be a lesbian? Well…

As I previously stated, lesbianism is the only orientation that men cannot be involved in at all. In a society where men have power over non-men, lesbians are often excluded even by our own community (speaking from experience).

Sapphic relationships are often idealised and not seen as ‘proper’ relationships. I have seen many lesbians + other sapphic people who go through awful breakups be shocked because of how they’re always made out to be ‘perfect’. This is deeply rooted in misogyny, as AFAB people have always been seen as ‘dainty and fragile’ and in need of a man to complete them. This deeply affects transfem sapphics, too.

Considering Mortal Kombat is a series of fighting games, confirming a character to be a lesbian could make the character seem inferior to the rest of the fighters due to the fact that they wouldn’t need a man to ‘complete’ them. This is probably why NRS backed out of Cassie’s queer-coding after MKX; if they continued with it, people would expect her to end up in an idealised sapphic relationship, which could change how players, especially cishet men, view her and make her much less popular amongst fans.

Whilst Tanya and Mileena are confirmed to be WLW, they’re both bisexual. I’m so happy this series has really good bi representation, but unfortunately a lot of media is afraid to include lesbians due to backlash from certain cishet men who fetishise us and/or get unnecessarily angry when their favourite media includes lesbian characters.

Similarly, Kung Jin is confirmed to be gay. I think he is one of the best gay characters I’ve seen in media, because it’s not his whole character development; he just happens to be gay and I think that kind of representation is something we need more of for ALL members of the LGBTQ+ community. However games like Mortal Kombat tend to have a male-dominated fanbase, and many will see themselves in certain characters. I’ve seen many cisgender straight (usually homophobic) adult men treat female characters like objects (doesn’t help that they’re often hypersexualised, especially women of colour) and get extremely defensive if someone sees a female character as queer. Again, this could be why NRS changed Cassie in MK11; they could lose a lot of their male audience if those men could no longer ‘ship’ themselves with a confirmed lesbian, though this wouldn’t stop them fetishising her.

Speaking of Kung Jin, I love how he and Cassie are frienemies. They give off gay/lesbian hostility energy and I love it.

tldr; Because of misogyny, lesbians are fetishised, slandered and not seen as valid by straight men who want to gatekeep female characters, which is why lesbian rep is hard to find because companies want to keep their male audience. Therefore, it’s easier for them to make a sapphic character bi/pan/etc rather than a lesbian.

Other Things That Aren’t Totally Canon/Relevant but I Think Should Be Mentioned Anyways

This section is just gonna be various things that I think are amusing and will use to back up my headcanon.

First up, we got this MK11 Cassie skin:

Apologies for the atrocious quality, but this skin reminded me of the colours of the lesbian flag so I colour-picked them. This is proof that she’s a lesbian /j (Ik the colours are kinda off but I promise this is is meant to look like the sunset flag and not the lipstick flag. Pls do not use the lipstick flag, it’s transphobic)

Secondly, this line during one of Cassie’s intros with Sheeva (PS I am absolutely not implying that I ship them, I’m just pointing out this line and nothing more):

I know this is meant to be a pun, but it makes me cackle so much. ‘Girl Crush’ yes totally straight /s

I’ve reached the image limit unfortunately, but her and Frost’s fight in the MKX comics was insanely homoerotic, too.

I think that’s it so far, but I may add to this section in the future.

Conclusion

Phew, that was a LOT,,, Once again this is just for fun and I’m open to all other interpretations of Cassie and her character. I just like to analyse and relate myself to my favourite characters, lol.

I do hope that one day lesbian characters are more common in media like MK, but we still have a lot of work to do in order to make that happen.

Thank you so much for reading if you made it this far! <3

#mortal kombat #cassie cage #number 1 lesbian cassie theorist strikes again #lesbian #lgbtq #mortal kombat 11 #mortal kombat x #character analysis #lesbian coding #izzie’s rambles #sonya blade

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tarosin · 3 years ago

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the great adventures of y/n and ranboo

this is an extra part to the great adventures series

summary: part two to the angst imagine (the not so great adventures of y/n tommy tubbo jack and ranboo) it’s a happier ‘ending’ please read what is written in bold

this is an “alternative ending” around 15 years into the future this doesn’t mean this is actually how the series is going to end im writing it now and including it as part of series as their friendship is already established i can confirm y/n and the group are going to have a happy ending when the series eventually comes to an end this also does not mean the series is anywhere near the end i plan on continuing the series as vlogs come out, i feel the need to confirm this now love between y/n and ranboo in this imagine is completely platonic

it had been about a month since you last streamed whereas ranboo continued to stream a few days after the fallout as he wanted to make sure you were going to be okay. even though ranboo knew this huge fallout would eventually happen, it still hurt him, especially since he knew there was no way to prevent it, the four of you in the same house mixed with the stress of being some of the most-watched content creators made living rather difficult. it was like walking on eggshells as you didn’t want to interrupt someone's stream, then there was the additional stress of obsessive fans finding out where the four of you lived, you still remember that day very vividly. you were sat in between tubbo and ranboo watching the office whilst Tommy was in an interview when you received a message from your mod.

Chris: hey y/n I received this message earlier I don’t want to scare you, but maybe get the locks changed. someone sent a message claiming this is your address *image of message from ‘fan’*

it didn’t take long for tubbo and ranboo to receive a message from their mods saying the same thing

“holy shit...”

“chances are Tommy has the message too. we shall go check around the house when Tommy is done with the interview.”

luckily no one ever showed up to the house, but the fact some people were so obsessed to the point they found your address was enough to put everyone in the house on edge. and now it was just you and ranboo in the house. you didn’t feel safe as even though ranboo promised to not let anything happen, you didn’t wanna risk it.

“we should move. there’s no point in having such a big house for two people, what are we going to use the extra space for heh? hide and seek with people who have our address. no thank you. I say we move leave this mess behind and start completely over, hell I’d feel safer in the us and that’s saying something”

ranboo agreed the house didn’t have the happiest memories attached to it anymore, it hurt walking past the hallway as it would bring back the memory of him crying into the crook of y/ns neck whilst tubbo left the house.

“let’s do it, I’ll do an early stream then we can look for houses. go take a shower. I’ll stay close to the door so you’re safe, then you can stay in my room whilst I stream, you can join me if you would like.”

“you’re being very protective all of a sudden...let me guess you got the message from our mods announcing the obsessive fans are at it again?”

“go take a shower.”

“no.”

ranboo ended up picking you up, carried you to the bathroom and turned the shower on before putting you on your feet.

“quick shower I’ll see you later.”

and with that he left the room shutting the door behind him, 30 minutes later you got changed and followed ranboo to his room ready to join him whilst he streams

“hey boo, can I join you? I kinda wanna get into streaming again.”

“I'm so glad you asked, I was going to do a face cam stream, if that’s okay?”

“of course.”

you grabbed his mask and glasses whilst he locked the door so you were both safe. “here you go.”

“thank you.”

the pair of you started the stream and it was honestly going well, you were having so much fun you forgot about all the negative things currently going on, you began to understand why ranboo continued streaming as for those 2-4 hours of streaming it felt as though everything was back to normal. 3 hours later the two of you ended stream and Twitter went crazy. tweets ranged from fans talking about how ranboo was streaming with you, how Tommy was in chat, and how tubbo was modding as people who mentioned anything about their address being leaked were banned by tubbo. the one thing that caught ranboos eye was fan art and a picture of you both from the stream captioned ‘they’re platonic soulmates your honour’ ranboo went as far to like, retweet and comment on it.

ranaltboo: glad you liked the stream it was great having y/n back, think I might make them play tattletail next stream

definitelynoty/n: isn’t that the Furby game that terrified you in 2021? bring it on boo!

Twitter went crazy over this interaction, you had finally come back to social media after months of being inactive, and it looked like you were here to stay. a month later you and ranboo moved out of the house and sold it to your aunt and her wife and their three adopted children, you explained the situation and even changed the locks for them all before they moved in.

“Please do tell us if anyone shows up who shouldn’t be. we changed the locks as you were aware- oh hello little one.”

you noticed one of their children decided to cling onto your leg

“I like your hair it’s colourful!”

“Indeed it is.”

“WOAH A GIANT!”

the little girl let go of your leg and ran to ranboo asking to be picked up, unsure of what to do he looked towards you. however, you were too busy laughing about the fact he was compared to a giant.

“I'm so sorry uh if you want to pick her up you can, you don’t have to.”

“pick me up, tall man... I want to be taller!”

ranboo ended up standing next to you with an arm around your waist whilst the child sat on his shoulders happily playing with his hair.

“ranboo do not drop that child.”

“I didn't- I didn't plan on it y/n.”

eventually, it was time to leave and the child reluctantly let go of ranboo.

“bye-bye!! hope to see you soon!”

soon enough you were at a smaller house, far away from the old house, leaving behind the negative feelings. it could only get better, a week later the pair of you had settled into the new house, it finally felt like home. you and ranboo were now streaming full time again, safe to say the two of you were thriving and closer than ever.

“so I’m thinking if I hit the sub-goal today I’ll let chat pick what colour I dye my hair.”

“make it higher, and I’ll let you cut my hair.”

“Are you being serious? oh my god!”

a few minutes later you took to Twitter to announce you were going live.

y/n: kidnapping children in the sims with ranboo psst check the subgoal.

within 20 minutes you had hit the sub-goal, chat ended up picking another random neon colour for your hair.

“right hair dye and the cutting stream will be this weekend, now let’s go back to kidnapping.”

tubbo, tommy, and jack felt awful for what happened and went back to the house where you used to live, hoping to see you there so they could apologise, tubbo knocked on the door only to be met by a young child.

“my sister watches you on twitch!”

“oh that’s lovely.. are y/n and ranboo here?”

an older woman came to the door.

“oh no, I’m sorry dear they both moved out, but they left this box and said to give it to you if you returned.”

“do you know where they moved to?”

“I'm sorry dear, I'm not allowed to tell you that information for safety reasons.”

“I understand, thanks anyway.”

they ended up going back to jacks where the three of them had been staying.

“We should open the box.”

tubbo opened the box and emptied the items onto the floor, inside was the rocks y/n handed tubbo from every trip, photos of the group, a necklace y/n had gifted to Tommy a day before the argument, and a hat y/n had taken from jack during a trip to a zoo.

“what the fuck!”

“holy shit!”

“they really kept all these in hopes we would come back?”

“and now we’re too late.”

it was now the weekend you and ranboo were ready to stream, you stood leaning on ranboo who was significantly smaller than you as you lowered the chair he sat on.

“starting stream...now.”

after the starting soon intro played, you explained what was happening to any new viewers or people who didn’t watch the stream.

“so I’m about to become Edward Scissorhands...I love that film can we watch it later?”

“yeah mhm sure!”

you didn’t know this but your ex best friends were watching and ever so often would show up in the chat.

“so boo, what are we doing with your hair today?”

“just a trim please darling?”

“This is y/ns hairdressers you get what I’m capable of!”

you ended up doing a pretty good job of cutting ranboos hair, even he was impressed.

“I didn’t doubt you for a minute!”

“mhm sure thing please don’t mess up my hair tall one!”

soon enough you had the dye on. 45 minutes later you left to wash it off, leaving ranboo to entertain stream,

“chat I think I missed some of their hair it’s okay, I own scissors, I’ll just cut it.. speaking of they did a great job, didn't they? I honestly expected them to mess up.”

a few minutes later you joined ranboo again and spent the next few hours talking with chat. tubbo, tommy, and jack stayed the entire time. they loved the fact you and ranboo were able to stay close after what happened, Tommy noticed you were still wearing the necklace he got you many years ago and spammed them chat with him tubbo and jack

Tommy: THEYRE WEARING THE NECKLACE!!

jack: so what? they clearly don’t wanna talk to us.

tubbo: shut up listen to them.

“chat why are we spamming platonic soulmates?”

“they’ve been saying it all over Twitter, look on trending y/n.”

you started to blush slightly at all the amazing artwork soon enough the stream came to an end, after saying goodbye the pair of you sat together going through fan art. unfortunately the one that caught your eye was this one twitter post where the artist had created a drawing of a piece of paper with you, ranboo, tommy, tubbo, and jack, however the paper was ripped separating you and ranboo from the others, captioned ‘it was never meant to be’ this clearly upset ranboo as he took off his mask and glasses placing them on the desk before going straight to his bed.

“boo…are you okay?”

“Are you tired of me? are you going to leave next?”

“what? no of course not! I could never get tired of you, why do you ask?”

“everyone else has left..i thought they cared about us, i knew it would happen eventually and i couldn’t stop it, i’m sorry, y/n, please don’t hate me.”

you sat on the edge of the bed looking down at the floor,

“come here.”

you watched him roll over to face you.

“you know there’s no one else who I'd rather spend the rest of my life with, right…if i hated you i wouldn’t have moved house with you. it’s not your job to fix everything and make everything better, you’re a streamer for christ sake not a therapist.”

“i guess so.. can we watch that thing you were on about for ages.”

“edward scissorhands? “

“mhm!”

you could tell he wanted to be distracted, so you agreed and put the film on, towards the end you began to get upset due to how overwhelming everything was.

“Why are you crying?”

“poor Edward.”

“come here.”

ranboo pulled you into a hug you laid there crying into his chest, he knew that wasn’t the reason you were crying, but he wasn’t about to make you tell him, luckily it didn’t take long for you to stop crying as ranboo quickly distracted you.

“ranboo..”

“yeah y/n?”

“I feel bad i didnt realise how much pressure was on you whilst everyone was arguing.”

“Hey, it’s okay, is that what’s upsetting you?”

“mhm.”

“don’t blame yourself, i’d do it all over again to keep you safe and happy..then again i didn’t do a good job on keeping you happy.”

“you did..you were always there for me even when i gave up on social media, you shared your room with me after i started receiving creepy messages from that obsessed fan, hell you even went on adventures with me even though it was clear you hadn’t been sleeping, just so we could spend time together and forget about what was happening. you mean a lot to me boo.”

“i love you.”

“i love you too bud, I’m tired.”

“go to sleep, it’s been a long day.”

“okay.”

“you just staying there?”

“yes.”

“oh, oh okay, goodnight.”

about a year later the two of you were still thriving, ranboo got you a promise ring a few months earlier.

“heh what’s this for?”

“as your best friend i promise to stay by your side and keep you safe and make sure that you’re happy, in other words you're stuck with me till the end of time.”

“boo…i really don’t know what to say.. thank you so much!”

“you don’t have to say anything!”

you ended up going out to buy him a promise ring when he started the stream and decided to take your cousins with you now that they were a little older. ranboo was doing a facecam stream when the door slammed open revealing you covering your three younger cousins ranboo not realising you were hiding them from the camera, instinctively stood up covering the camera

“ranboooooo!”

“yes you three and y/n ,what do you need?”

“we would like to watch a film!”

“Okay, i’ll go put one on, y/n will you entertain chat?”

“sure thing boo boy!”

once they left you sat fixing your hair forgetting you were wearing the ring chat noticed this and went crazy, so did Tommys group with tubbo and jack.

tubbo: that’s a ring, right??

jack: yeah looks like it.

Tommy: holy shit I always thought if anyone was gonna get married it would be tubbo and y/n, they were inseparable.

tubbo: hilarious.

jack: it could just be a ring, no one mentioned marriage tommy!

Tommy: we should congratulate them.

jack: at least let them explain fucking hell.

soon enough ranboo came back into the room,

“sorry one of them found it hilarious to steal my glasses...”

“they’re little shits i swear to god but i love them.”

you both noticed chat going crazy and both looked at each other before laughing.

“i'm sorry, i can’t take you serious in the mask and glasses!”

“i can’t take you serious with neon hair, but here we are!”

“rude!”

you and ranboo quickly put an end to the rumours,

“no we’re not engaged or married, it is a promise ring. no they’re not our children, they’re y/ns cousins they just spend a lot of time here..chat stop calling me and y/n parents and comparing us to phil that’s not..that’s not how it works okay!”

“parent arc!”

“y/n, don’t encourage them!”

“it’s a little bit funny!”

soon enough the bit came to an end and eventually ranboo ended the stream.

“hey boo look what i got you”

you handed him a little black box, inside was a ring similar to yours

“i promise to always stick around and be here for you”

“oh my god”

ranboo tackled you into a hug thanking you several times for his rings. you and ranboo were living your best life meanwhile jack, tommy, and tubbo were stuck dealing with the guilt of what happened, but they’re weren’t giving up that easy. they wanted you both back, that’s when you received a notification, tommyinnit has sent you a message request: hey y/n can we talk..please?

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sometipsygnostalgic · 3 years ago

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This is the post I was working on that I accidentally sent privately before I’d finished it, LOL. Thanks @imorahtarm107 for sending it back after what must have been a confusing request.

CONT: Rebecca Sugar has spoken before about how much they dislike the statement by press that Bubbline only became “canon” in the finale, because Sugar and Muto were working on that pairing all the way back in s3, those characters have been canonically queer the whole time. It’s not some novelty thing that was canonized at the very end just because everyone else was doing it, or that the characters were only queer and dating if they got to kiss on the mouth!

So yeah, I was a bit salty abouta few things. I mostly thought that season 10 had been underwhelming compared to the spectacular seasons 7 to 9. Honestly, I still stand by that opinion because those seasons were really good.

I felt that there were some other things missing from s10, but some of those got followed up either in the finale or in Obsidian, albeit less in depth than I’d have liked (primarily the fallout to Elements on the side of the Elementals themselves - I thought this was only appropriate considering what happened in Jellybeans Have Power. Are they not terrified of themselves? What are the long term consequences of that takeover, if any? It seems much bigger than the stuff with the Lich that barely anyone knew about.)

HOW MY THOUGHTS HAVE CHANGED

Well, honestly? Just hearing more from the crew about the problems they faced on CN, not just the AT crew but also Rebecca Sugar with SU, it clears SO much up.

Kent Osborne said to Ghostshrimp in a podcast that, even though they knew the show was ending, the team had no idea how many episodes they had left! Unlike the earlier seasons where CN just made block orders of 52 eps, it seems like from s6 onwards, things were far less stable. CN no longer ordered consistent season lengths. I’m not sure if they instead ordered blocks of eps, or if they gave the crew a flexible budget to work from, like Legend of Korra had.

From my observations and theories, the reason seasons 7 to 9 have so many miniseries is possibly because Adam Muto was using those as a way to appeal to what CN wanted out of Adventure Time, and therefore, to prolong the lifespan of the show. It worked really well as both standalone miniseries and as episodes of the show. Olivia Olsen commented that there were many times they thought they were on the last season but it turned out they weren’t. Adam Muto pitched the first eps of Distant Lands originally as miniseries to “extend” season 10. He was probably hoping he would be successful!

Unfortunately, this time he was not successful, and Kent Osborne said that the crew were taken off guard by Come Along With Me being their last ep. When they started work on it, they thought it was a special in the middle of what could be a longer season. Kent even believed they would’ve had another 26 eps left. Adam had to beg for an extra couple of months so they could figure out how they could turn what would have been a gumbald special (whatever that would have entailed) into a finale for the entire show!

Watching Come Along With Me with the knowledge that the crew were taken so off guard changes entirely what I think of it, because what originally seemed like lazy rush jobs - Simon turning back but not having any time as himself, the ep havingt so much going on, the conflict between Bonnie and Gumbald being a bit empty - now feels like the best possible outcome!! How on earth did they make Come Along With Me as good as it was?? They gave so many characters good moments, they had the whole thematic resolution to the land of Ooo and the themes of the world going in circles but nothing staying the exact same, they paid respects to Finn’s growth, and had the outro as the finale song while showing life goes on!

Now that I’ve had so long to process exactly what happened in the ep, I greatly appreciate so many scenes that I previously overlooked or dismissed. The intro sections by Steve and Tom are brilliant at building up tension, which is part of why the second section feels so jarring. However, the dream sequence is so funny, with interesting imagery that it’s still nice to pick apart. Jake gets to be a good brother, Finn gets to battle Fern, and you have that chilling swapperoo epiphany with Gumbald and PB. The scene where they’re all on the beach is so cathartic.

Then the second half of the special is just intense start to finish - everyone working together at the culmination of their character arcs, to take down GOLB! Until the power of a little robot’s song turns out to be the best tool of holding it back, and Betty performs the ultimate sacrifice for her mistakes with a smile on her face. So good. The ending scenes with Finn and the treehouse, Shermy and Beth, the music hole, those are a thematic conclusion to the show.

So, yeah, it did a great job. To an extent it’s better enjoyed if you pick it apart than if you watch it all at once, since it’s unfortunately not as hard-hitting as a lot of the single 11-minute eps of Adventure Time, including the previous season finale Three Buckets. However it absolutely does its job.

As for Bubbline, well... Adam was trying to get the show extended, and if anyone looks at the twitter comment I currently have as my pinned post, then you’ll understand that there’s no way PB and Marcy could have kissed or made their relationship undeniably explicit unless it was the very end of the show :/

Adam said himself that he didn’t see it as much his fight to battle the decisions of execs as Rebecca did. And while that hurts, it makes sense - he was the owner of someone else’s show that is a smorgas board of a large number of people’s ideas, whereas Rebecca was the owner of their own show and felt that if they weren’t able to express themself in their own show, Sugar was willing to completely take down SU. And that actually happened - Steven Universe got cancelled immediately!!! Adam was not prepared to do that with AT, especally when CN were already talking about cancelling it.

The good news is he didn’t give up on having PB and Marcy’s relationship be at least fairly clear, especially s7 onwards. I don’t know what happened behind the scenes, but it’s likely a number of the crew members taken on at that time found it important to press for Bubbline, and Adam decidedly agreed. If someone other than him had taken over as showrunner, or even if Pen stayed in charge (he supported it but didn’t want to be wrapped in controversy), I wonder if they’d have never interacted after What Was Missing :/

So yeah, with that in mind, as annoying as Marcy and Hunson still is, I can forgive the crew for doing a finale kiss. Rather, I can really thank Hanna K for pressing for one - she knows how important it was to at least confirm what people had expected, without a retroactive tumblr post ala Korrasami.

#adventure time #atimers #bubbline #come along with me

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thepriceofbeingaroseisloneliness · 4 years ago

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Kaoru Ongaku to Hito Interview May 2021

DIR EN GREY Endless originality. Don't shake, don't move, don't give up. As the leader and main composer of DIR EN GREY, he made me realize in this interview that even if the band is in a situation in which they can't move forward, they are still striving toward their own determination without losing sight of their desire to create music. The new single "Oboro" is a ballad with a simple sound envision that insists on the melody and lyrics. In this single, which was made with the intention of being widely listened, you can feel a different stance on the sounds and the arrangements. I think his obsession with music and the pursuit of originality are changing because of his age and career. On the other hand, the latest promotional photos are still grotesque and chaotic. The future this band is heading for it’s held by his unchanging desire for music. Here there is a dialogue with him which makes you believe so.

Notes before reading: This is Kaoru’s interview featured in Ongaku to hito music magazine May 2021.

You can get this magazine at cdJapan (totally worth it!) Feel free to correct me if you spot any mistake or any confusing parts. Links or credits to this post when the content is reposted or captured in other SNS is appreciated :) -----------

Text by Higuchi Yasuyuki Photographs by Amita Mari Hair & make-up by Yamaguchi Atsushi_ EKYQ

“I’m not in the mood to say ‘let’s do this now’ but recently, making astounding/ crazy songs might be difficult”

(While turning over the latest issue ...) Kaoru: Did M-AGE make a come back?

*M-AGE is a Japanese electronic pop/rock band active during the early 90s. They were feature in the previous issue of Ongaku to hito, April 2021* -Are you affected by that band? (laughs). Kaoru: I was surprised (laughs). -A band that disbanded more than 20 years ago did a comeback, there are another band that the drummer who has been a member for 20 years has left, there have been various things happening (in the music industry) in the past year, but DIR EN GREY has not lost to Corona. K: When it comes to losing, there is nothing you can do about it. - What do you think is the reason why these five people are continuing, without stopping, as a band? K: Isn't it because every one of us think we can’t go beyond this band? If someone gives up, we are not confident we can do something better than what we are doing now. It’s like, we can't get away from each other. It's easier to express your opinion if you keep a certain distance in that sense, and you don't have to accumulate stress about it. -By the way, throughout this year you noticed things and had some thoughts about the band. K: That’s right….well, since the creation process was originally done remotely, I rarely had the opportunity to meet with the members other than the tour, but in reality it was important to have casual conversations with the members during the tour. There was a moment when the ideas changed depending on the words I exchanged with the members on the spot like “we should try to make this kind of song”… But it was a year when I was making songs without this input, so it’s like there was a part of me that felt gloomy. -You felt the importance of talking with the members. K: Even if we communicate remotely, we can just communicate by voice or text but, the mood/situation, the temperature, facial expressions etc…that can only be perceived directly so I thought those things are important after all. -In that situation, did the band make a song that only can be made now or tried to aim for something in your work?

K: That’s not case. It was as usual. We are not in the mood to do something like that now. However, it has nothing to do with this situation but we talked about how recently it’s becoming harder to make crazy songs. -A crazy song? K: When the band tries to create a song, naturally it turns out quite relaxed/calm. It feels like it’s what our bodies want. -Why do you want that kind of thing? K: I think that kind of songs makes you feel good, isn’t it? If we want to make a song like “Gya!” (fierce), we can make it but if we do it naturally, there will be more calm/relaxed songs. In other words, our previous single (digital single ‘Ochita koto no aru Sora) was a song we made with the intention of creating something fierce. -Intentionally, you made a fierce song. K: So, there was a talk about what kind adjustments should be done. We did it this time as well, but for now we are not thinking too much about it. Originally, ‘ARCHE’ (album released in 2014) was an album that was closer to that feeling. I just tried to do things I liked. There were a lot of slow and calm songs, but maybe it's easier to come up with such songs these days. -That’s why you can’t let yourself go with your natural flow… K: That’s right. So, the next album ('The Insulated World') was shaken off in the opposite direction. Of course, there are still intense/fierce songs coming out from the members. However, the songs everyone selects and remains in the top ranks are generally calm/relaxed. - 'Oboro' is a song that was born in such a situation. K: There was a talk about this single like ‘let’s make it easy for people who listen to DIR EN GREY for the first time, having an easy-to-understand melody”, so this song became a single. -Why did you decide to go in that direction? K: Somehow, we thought there are quite a lot of people who only know the name DIR EN GREY these days, but don't know what kind of music we are playing. Then, we feel like trying to make it easy for such people to get into us. So, I think it's quite challenging for us. -You are not really a band that “goes outside”. But also this song, it’s a song that can be classified as a ballad in DIR EN GREY. K: It’s the kind of song we usually would keep for the album. It’s also interesting to dare to release it as a single. -It’s certainly a relaxing song and the variety of sounds is small, so it seems easy to approach but the latest promotional photos….(laughs) I was like “what’s your intention?”. K: Fufufufu (laughs) -But it looks like because of those photos the door is going to be closed before they listened to your music (laughs). K: That's why it's not that simple, like the sound or the tone of the song is intense or not. The song is like this, but this band is actually called ��fierce’. -You mentioned earlier it may be a matter of age, but the taste of music changes just as the taste of food changes when you get older. K: That's right. -So, recently, I feel this band doesn't try to resist such changes so much, or like you have started to project a realistic/true-to-life self into music. K: By all means, it looks like we became adults, right? -That’s why I’m familiar with it because we are from the same generation, it just fits. You can listen to it and enjoy a song with faint sounds instead of roaring ones. K: That's right. Simply, this kind of song is the one that roots in me. For example, the synthesizer-like sound that comes out first. -The intro with a synthesizer-like sound? K: That's right. That's my roots, originally I liked the New Wave and listened to it, so I tried to create what I was waiting for. *New wave is a broad music genre that included numerous pop and rock styles from the late 1970s and the 1980s* -But I think DIR EN GREY was the kind of band in which the roots of each member weren't projected in that way. K: After all, if five people do it, chemical changes will occur and the result will be completely different. But lately, the things I created haven't changed much, and sometimes they reach the end point. Of course, it's arranged in detail, but for this song, it's pretty much the same shape than at the beginning. -So, I got the impression it was a song that was unlikely to be done by DIR EN GREY until now. K: Maybe if we tried to keep it for the album, the arrangement would have been different. Because it’s a single, maybe I tried to listen to the melody. -In other words, it doesn’t feel like DIR EN GREY. K: Yes, if you listen to it with your existing values/sense of values, you might think it's not like DIR EN GREY. But this time we wanted to do that. That’s why when the president of our label listened to the demo first, said something like ‘This, isn’t it a bit insufficient/unsatisfactory?’ the reply was ‘No, that’s not the case’ (laughs) -Ahahahaha K: So, I think it's a new type of song. But just because this song seems to happen once in a while, the other songs are going to change steadily due to chemical changes going on. "This new song isn't fierce or shocking. Certainly, you can listen to it smoothly but actually….” -Then, I have a question for you Kaoru, not for the band, but do you think your personality has changed a lot from 10 years ago? K: How is that in reality? - Specifically, "DUM SPIRO SPERO" that came out 10 years ago is your commitment and obsession/attachment. In other words, I think it's an album that is full of personality. So, this time 'Oboro' comes from your roots,In other words, it's a song that is full of personality. However, if you compare these two works, the contrast is so huge that you can't think they were made by the same person. K: That's not true. -Oh really? (laughs). K: That's not true (laughs). For me, both are the same me. -But as a listener, I get the impression that the music is exactly the opposite, or that it's completely different. K: Certainly it’s the exact opposite when you are referring to a band called DIR EN GREY, but it’s not that different for me, rather, it’s connected. -What kind of connection do you have? K: The sound may be different, but the points we are focused are the same. Especially this time, it feels like we've created each sound in detail, so it's more like I'm playing with the precision of a machine inside rather than the outward appearance of the music. -I see. K: Anyway, the most particular thing about this song is the sound of the synthesizer at the intro I mentioned earlier. I thought the sound at the beginning would determine everything in this song. - Since that kind of determination/passion has disappeared, I was wondering if it would be a song that would allow me to listen to the melody simply. K: That's not true. Is it natural to stick to that? For example, I bought a synthesizer, and it makes interesting sounds so I tried to create something. But the preset sounds you got when you bought the synthesizer (Note: it's set in advance) don’t work for me. -Why not? K: You have to create your own original ones. Even if I think the preset sounds are are catchy the way they are, I dare to stick to my original ones. Otherwise I can't be satisfied. - I wondered if you had finally abandoned that kind of troublesome pickiness(laughs). K: I’m really picky about that (laughs). But I think that’s normal when you make music. Even commercial pop music can be really picky about it. -You're right. You're right. K: Because it was created with that detail,I think people who listen to it will say "Oh!".If it wasn’t created in that way, it won't convey anything, and if it's as simple as this song, it won't be interesting unless you are committed to it. That is why it is the same as "DUM ". -Surely, but what if you could make it smoothly without being so committed/picky about it? K: Sometimes it’s easy to create, still, it would be nice if it makes you feel something. -I agree. K: This new song isn’t intense or shocking when it comes to the music, so you can listen to it smoothly, that’s why there is something for sure that makes you go like “this song!”. But in reality, there are several sounds, I’m just not trying to hear them properly. It sounds like something that makes you feel it, you can’t hear it clearly, but it’s there. It’s not something new, to stick to that kind that sound, but in that sense it might feel like different or new. -At first, I had the impression that it was new or something different from what I heard before , but that may be the result of your commitment, to the point that you couldn't hear it. K: I don't know if the word "new" is correct, but now I want to create in a way that makes easy to project ourselves, while blending it with something that makes our guts/intestines stick out. If we can do that, I think it will be something different and interesting, like "DIR EN GREY is doing something interesting again". I feel like I'm exploring that aspect now. -We talked about age before but, Isn't this age the time to imagine something like the time remaining? Like taking it easy at this point…..that kind of idea. K: Rather the opposite. I don't know how long I'll be able to create something I'm compromised with, and whether if I will keep having this energy or physical strength. I want to keep doing it as long as I can. I can only make music with what I have, so I'm not overdoing it in that sense, but I'm overdoing it in a different sense (laughs). You can't create it without straining yourself. -I see, you are not lying to yourself. K: Of course. However, if you rely only on yourself, it won’t beat your expectations. I don’t think that this will change, no matter how many things happen. Still, at last I started to think that our music has some power of persuasion. Do you think we can keep competing with just our music? -It's been like that for a long time. But this band is like asking for something impossible, it’s a band that won’t disappear. K: But isn’t it about creating things? -I agree. Is it still fun to create things? K: It's fun (laughs) -Immediate answer (laughs) K: If we can do it forever, I want to do it forever. There are a lot of difficult moments, but I really like it. -As long as these five people are able to share that feeling, this band will continue. K: I think so. It's okay as long as I believe in myself and the members. -I see……your speech was much worse than reading a bad self-help book (laughs). K: hahahaha

#dir en grey #kaoru #ongaku to hito #translation

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darkhats · 3 years ago

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my response to that one cookie run drama video from 2019

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if u were in the fandom at around 2019 you'll remember this video. really a grand hallmark of its time. this is probably the most unecessary thing ill ever do but i see alot of recent comments from a month ago agreeing with this and i think thats extremely sad. im mostly doing this as a fun nostalgia trip and also i really want to justify me wasting 14 minutes watching this

first of all i want to say this video is fucking awful. just dreadful. like girl what the fuck are you even saying. i'd only recommend watching in full if you want to hear about the fandom in 2019 with a condesending voice talking down to you the whole time and even then you could probably do better just scrolling through the discourse tag

i suggest you pull up the video yourself as i'll be responding by timestamps. if i sound angry at some points its because i am

you can skip to 1:40 the rest is just intro stuff

1:47 | im really curious why you put this screenshot while saying "entitled fans" bc u never elaborated and i would really LOVE for you to explain whatever this one meant

1:50 | for the "huge amounts of hypocrisy" bit i have no idea what this is? this would be hypocrisy if the twitter acc in the previous screenshot and this tumblr blog r the same person but theyre not. we don't all think like a hivemind? this post is stupid in general stop infantilising asian ppl like they have no idea what a black person even is

2:02 | "gatekeeping what kind of ships you're allowed to like" with this screenshot u a proshitter or sumn🤨

the rest of the things they listed will be talked about later

2:51 | oh wow the "fixing art" thing. i dont think this is a thing anymore but it definitely was a big thing back in 2019! the thing is im quite neutral on it because a lot of artists dont like their work being edited but on the other hand if you dont like when people put the correct skintones on your art then maybe you should colour it right the first time

i will say though if you see cool art of like dark choco or espresso and its whitewashed and u wanna edit it so its not and u keep it to yourself then idc thats fine to me. the grey area is when it comes to characters like moonlight or alchemist, who's skintone is quite difficult to pull off in some artstyles. a lot of the examples in the video use people like cherry blossom or cotton candy who don't quite fit in the same category but are usually targets of this anyway

a very simple fix is to just use a different colour but to not make them significantly lighter from how they look in canon, which alot of the examples you showed don't do. they all look pale as shit compared to what they actually look like ingame and thats why people complained about them

also your marina video is fucking awful btw

3:53 |

4:56 | "so many people in the fandom hate the developers" im one of them hiii. i should probably use this time to explain why (please note that this was made in 2019 so a few of the points im bringing up here will probably be a bit too recent)

devsisters really love showcasing whitewashed art of their characters (they used to do it on their forums rarely but thats now gone) and recently they've been quite excited to dabble in the whitewashing themselves (keep in mind the others except from twizzly gummy don't really count as whitewashing but they're all significantly lighter than their regular appearance). its like a hobby or sumn. everytime they host a fanart contest i brace for god damn impact. and this has been a thing since FOREVER

speaking of race and ethnicity, lilacs costume (and redesign in general) is just... bad but i dont think they were even introduced at the time of this video. milk and yam WERE though and its extremely baffling to me how this went through an entire team/company and got greenlit. its insane how shit they are (if it was just yam on his own i wouldn't hate him as much, i still wouldn't like him tbh, but they decided to pair him up with a white saviour). would i call them racist though? ...idk? they've been moving funny recently cant lie

another thing is the valentines day video which pisses me off to even think about. in that vid theres alot of.. ships that definitely arent legal. and whitewashing ^_^ they still haven't addressed it btw if ur curious. but it happened this year and honestly i wouldnt blame them for not thinking devsisters would do something like that bc i sure didnt!

theres also the thing with nfts but no one couldve foresaw that one coming

i assume when you mention people saying devsis are transphobic that you're talking about characters like dark choco or cinnamon who weren't referred by any pronouns until they were magically given he/him pronouns later on. nonbinary people can use any pronouns they so damn please but i get why people would get annoyed about them both suddenly being referred as he/him. wouldn't call it transphobic though. other than idk, how tf am i meant to defend something when u dont even telling me what ur talking abt

and 5:29 is quite the bold claim if you have to say "do i have evidence for this asian hate? no.." when bringing it up again btw

now we're onto the "stories from a few people" section. the few people are actually just two, the first one just runs their mouth for way too long. dw they both suck. ignore how the creep art person is there its been addressed already in the description (which is funny because the creator remembers this video still? and they presumingly agree with it still..?)

7:00 | i would heavily recommend putting the video on like 1.75 speed and just reading the reply yourself because this person goes on for WAY too long. excuse me if the timestamps are wrong because of this but at this point i really just do not care

the first thing i want to address is the cuphead and cookie run fandom comparison, because its just as ridiculous as it sounds "i have no idea why its so focused on being sensitive about cookies sexualities, genders, and races, when other fandoms dont even take subjects like that as seriously. im pretty sure the cuphead fandom takes its bosses less seriously than the cr fandom does its cookies..." literally what the fuck are you on about? excuse me as im not a cuphead fandom connoisseur here but how are either fandoms connected?? they both got a vastly different audience, gameplay, artstyle and characters (+ character design). the only thing similar is that theyre both popular i GUESS. also maybe the cookie run fandom is so "sensitive" about cookies races bc they keep getting whitewashed every 5 seconds🤔? just a game theory tho🤔

7:25 | pisses me off ever so fucking much. the "ive never seen a fandom get so disrespectful over issues that i honestly dont think even exist" while talking about MILK COOKIE COOKIE RUN are u crazy are u dense im glad you can frollick along in ur flowerfields not having to ever deal with racism but I cannot. and if ur not talking abt him then you'd be talking about the "sensitive about sexualities/genders/races" thing and yeah man u right none of that is real. the LGBT disappeared suddenly in 1987. all humans were destroyed as they had race. we're all grey goo people

im not even sure what the complaint even is.. oh nooo someone did a milk redesigning the controversial parts of his design... how ever will we recover..?

8:15 | yeah as everyone knows i can make a character as pale as i want in fanart as long as i say these are my humanizations actually. garbage argument, most people dont draw the characters as actual cookies and most of the fanart does just fine with eyedropping the characters original skintone (oh im sorry, dough!!) so whats the excuse?

dont worry this person is done now we're almost at the end

11:18 | for the other reply, its the fiction doesnt equal reality shit do you really need me to go over this one? do you really. if they just cookies and its just fiction then why y'all feelings hurt so bad. also lumping in whitewashing with age and gender while ur talking about peoples headcanons is a bit weird btw

anyway the last thing i want to go over is the "cookie run fandom is soo obsessed with debating on whitewashing, ages, gender and sexualities!" thing thats so prevelent with these arguments. 2019 had this fun period where with every new cookie that came out there was some sort of controversy with them (millennial tree and raspberry mousse being he/him, roll cake and sorbet shark being a child or not, ect.)

whitewashing is obvious why so i'll move on. some characters can be seen as lesbian coded (white choco and rose for having majority girl fans, sea fairy in general) and there are a few characters that explicitly aren't referred to by any pronouns (dark choco before the guild adventures, peppermint, ect.) which u dont see everyday in games. so yeah.. people care about these things because they like representation. who would've thought?

now im gonna be fucking real. the arguments over cookies ages were always annoying - the reason why the fandom has arguments about ages so much is because devsis REFUSES to tell us canon ages. think about it, majority of the "canonially confirmed" children in the game are from a child event that happened in LINE. thats a completely different company running the game. because of how character-heavy the game is, ships are a very big part of the fandom. i sincerely doubt theres anyone in the fandom who doesnt like any ship and at the time rarepairs were rly common. so when you've got a fandom who really likes to ship and developers that dont ever mention ages then you get a fucking mess. i dont know what sorbet shark or roll cakes age is and its pointless to even debate it because id rather just have the devs confirm it themselves (not like they ever will). and even for the one singular time they did specify that one of the characters was a child, they still showcased fanart of said kid being shipped with an adult anyway

but that concludes the video and thus this response! i have wasted so much time on this i honestly could've showed you them ranting about how "cookies dont have skin colours" in the video or the part in the marina video where they complain about how people "think whitewashing is bad but make non-black characters black" and moved on but what else would i do on a sunday night?

#cookie run #cookie run discourse #FINE ill use that tag but only ONCE.#i got like 52 of the people who've used that tag b4 blocked thts funny #anyway this was a HUGE waste of my time. really fun 2 look at takes that are absolutely freezing cold tho #text

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bootleg-sara · 3 years ago

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TBoI HC of the day: The Tear/Combat system

Probably the most difficult topic for me to properly explain so far, it’s about time I actually talk about how I view how fights actually go down in the basement. Though focusing on how the kids use tears to ward off monsters.

This isn’t going to be putting any focus on things like tear affects. We’d be here for an essay’s worth of time and that can all be saved for a later time. The only tear changing affects that will be here are for double/triple/quad shot. As well as big shots like polythemus and small shots like soy milk. Those are very closely connected to base tears and wouldn’t fit elsewhere.

This is a simple look at tear use from the kids. This post is meant to act as a baseline for future posts that discuss items and the like. As without this, many other aspects of the basement would be confusing at best.

Note: I won’t be talking about Lilith’s Incubus or Azazel’s Brimstone as those are varied cases that will be discussed later (Azazel’s brim is going to show up in the next hc post). Any special tear quirks from tainted characters like Blue Baby and Eve will also not be discussed here.

Geez that was a long intro lmao.

Okay so the actual process of in which tears are used are straight forward and easy. I drew a little diagram of how it’s done

Tears are formed from the eyes, travel down the neck and arms, then finally reaches the palms where the tears bunch together and can now be used to shot at monsters. This is a quick process, but not automatic. It’s better to have them ready before you start fighting if you can afford to.

They offer no protection to the bare skin underneath, but in a pinch can be used to burn the monsters on contact even if they aren’t shot out. It does more constant damage, not having to rely on the bullets that come out of the palms. But you are also directly in the face of the enemy and are guaranteed to take damage yourself.

Now you do need functioning eyes for tears to form. Items like the staple will make your eye unable to shoot tears because of that. Lilith’s no eyes and Cain’s broken eye also can’t shoot tears. Apollyon can because uh… idk I’ll get back to you. Blue Baby functions like their boss counterpart, and can form tears directly in the palm without the need for it to travel from their eyes. Other than that though BB follows all the same rules.

This process is normally done automatically for the kids. Tears will start forming at the sight of a monster and will stay until the threat is neutralized. It’s strongly reliant on a kid’s fight-or-fight response. These tears can show up without an immediate threat if the kid wants it too, but it does take a bit longer for them to get charged up before hand. They will also appear when a kid is going through strong emotions. It can be caused by strong feelings of anger, fear, and occasionally sadness in the right conditions. Panic attacks are also known to form these tears. The formation of these tears are almost always followed by an increased heart rate and adrenaline boost.

Now normal tears and what I’ll call “basement tears” are two completely different things.

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Regular tears are the same they are for us. Basement tears on the other hand are denser and heavier than water. They are bright blue color (when not affected by items) compared to the clearness of normal tears. Both kind of tears do not mix well and separate on contact. This can create little pockets of non-damaging tears within the stream of basement ones. At most this is a minor inconvenience.

The kids can not be hurt by tears very easily. With the exception of tear affects like explosions, fire tears, and a few others. They are meant for monsters and work best against them. Tears have a burning affect, much like a weak acid. It works wonders against the many enemies of the basement. It can affect the kids too, though it takes a lot longer for any significant damage to occur. Up to hours making it a worthless tactic against them. This affect applies to the people born in the basement as well. Though it’s interesting to note that people like Apollyon and Blue Baby can be hurt more by tears (think of it like a pinch. It hurts but certainly won’t kill you). While Azazel is not nearly as affected as they are desperately trying to separate themselves from the basement.

Tears are all shot out in the same way. When the tears reach your palms, they ball up and can then be used as projectiles.

They’ll only shoot out in small bursts to conserve energy. If they all shot out at once like a hose, you’d lose steam fast and be left waiting for your tears to recharge again. No matter how high your tear rate is, there will always be a bit of space between each contained blast.

There are a few ways that tears can be arranged on the palm for attacking. This is all referring to tear affects that change how many years you can shoot at once. There are double, triple, quad, and split shots. Each form slightly differently on the palm but all have the roughly the same affect; the ability to shoot more tears at once. The size of the bunches up tears also changes based on your damage. Growing bigger or smaller depending on how high your damage is. There are a few items that also make tears bigger without a damage upgrade. There are a couple other noteworthy affects that change how the bunched up tears are shot out, including eye sore, mom’s eye, and pupula duplex.

I have drawn diagrams of these tear affects, so I’ll be showing those and going slightly more in-depth about these changes. First are the most basic ones.

(Apologies in advance these last few images are hellish to look at)

So all of these are pretty self explanatory.

You have double shot, which lets you shoot two tears at a time from one hand. Two bunches of tears will form on the balm of your hand and each ball is able to shoot more tears. 20/20 and Bookworm are both examples of affects that grant this.

Triple shot is given to you by the conjoined transformation and well, triple shot. Same concept as double shot, but with three bunches. Quad is the same deal and is commonly given to you by mutant spider.

The more damage you have, the bigger the balled up tears will get. Items like Polyphemus and Proptosis practically covers your entire hand. The tear bunches do have a size limit and will stop growing at a certain point, even if the damage is still growing.

In the reverse scenario, lower damage makes the bunch of tears smaller. Soy Milk and Almond milk make the damage so low that the stream that connects your tears from palm to eye blend together. These bullets are very small but are often fast and have little to no wait time between shots.

Now for a few unique cases that change were the tears will ball up.

Split shot is given to you by either Dunce Cap or the “R U A Wizard” pill.

These will move the ball from on the palm to the top of your hand. This is often much more cumbersome to control. The position you have to hold yourself in to make an accurate shot is awkward and uncomfortable for long bouts. And when all the kids are used to how it’s normally done, it makes it even more awkward.

Wide shot stretches out the ball across the entire length of the palm. This creates tears that are wider for a bigger area of affect on the tears. When wide shots get higher damage, the stream of tears will grow more girth. Though wide shots do not shrink past their base size when gaining lower damage. This affect is usually given by Pupula Duplex.

Eye sore is an interesting item, as it’s the only one in the basement that cases tears to bunch up along the stream to the palms. These extra bunches of tears can’t be controlled nearly as well and will randomly change places. But these extra bunches do the same damage and have the same affects as your base tears.

Mom’s Eye, or the back shot, causes a ball of tears to be formed on the back neck of a person. Like Eye Sore, this bunch can not be as easily controlled and will only shoot occasionally.

An item I completely forgot about up until writing this post was Loki’s horns. I do not feel like drawing this out, so image Mom’s Eye but there’s also a ball of tears on the left and right side of the neck as well. Like a choker collar made out of sadness. Functions exactly the same as Mom’s Eye, just with more spots to shoot out of.

If I missed anymore than oh well at this point akdbkabd

Now there are a lot more tear affects that change how tears work. Items like Pop!, Trisagion, Brimstone, The Ludovico Technique, Anti-Gravity tears, any lobbing shot, etc. But with all of these kinds of tears are either still shot from the same base via the palm, or are so drastically different to how tears are normally used that I don’t feel as though they fit the topic of this post.

I’ll get into more random head canons about tear affects another day (one of the drafts I’m currently working on is about charge shots. Items that make you have to charge before you fire your tears). There’s so much to potential go over and it’s way to much for a single post.

For that that about covers everything you need to know about the basics of how tears work. There’s a few smaller things I could go over, but honestly they are barely important. They can be saved for smaller post for when I get bored another day lmao.

I’ll refer back to this post a lot when talking about my other tear head canons as this is the main building blocks that nearly everything else is built on. It also took me ages to properly get down how attacking with your tears would work so I will 100% share my hard work. Took me awhile to make this as I struggled for a bit to get the words out of my head and into written form. If anything needs clarification, my ask box is always open

#basement rambles #tboi #binding of isaac #the binding of isaac #just a basic overview of how tears work because it’s a pretty big part of tboi #ugh I was going to properly digitally line all these sketches but I really did not feel like it #got this done after sitting in my drafts for months and all it took was another sleepless night lmao #I can finally delete these image from my phone aaaAAAA

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Teresa VS Rubi

I haven't watched a telenovela since like 2007. I feel like Rebelde was the last one I saw. However, I hold on to a couple of novelas that I thought were outstanding, such as Rubi. With the years, I've come across a lot of talk about 'Teresa' and I wondered why it had the same premise as Rubi. I was slightly intrigued. I learned that the story of Teresa came first back in the day, then Rubi. On social media such as tiktok and youtube, people are always comparing both. I kept saying that obviously Rubi was better because it was the one i watched. So in order to not be THAT biased, i decided to give Teresa a shot. So i just binged the entire novela in a couple of weeks. So here are my 2 cents.

Intro:

Song: La descarada- Reyli

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Song: Esa hembra es mala- Gloria Trevi

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With the songs alone, I will still have to give it to Rubi's intro song. I feel like it was more seductive and more true to what the novela was going to be about. On the other hand, Teresa's theme song felt like it would be more appropriate for Rubi. Because it was sang from the point of view of the 'betrayed friend'. Although you can argue that the betrayed friend was Luisa and that it would be from her point of view, but that only happened towards the very last episodes, so it wouldn't really make sense for it to summarize the entire novela as Reyli's song did.

Furthermore, I enjoy Rubi's intro more, especially the beginning were is says 'Una obra de ..." it makes it seem fancy and like I'm in for a special treat.

The actress

Barbara Mori vs Angelique Boyer

I know I'm going to sound like a jerk by comparing their physical appearance, but I'm going to do it anyway.

Face

They are obviously both beautiful women, but in MY opinion, Barbara Mori's face is more seductive without even trying. She reminds me so much of Megan Fox. On the other hand, Angelique's face is so youthful that she has to work extra hard and make over the top gestures to act out the seductress role.

Body

Although they both have fantastic bodies, they are very different from each other. Once again, Barbara's body gives off a more sensual and natural look. Even the way she moves is a perfect embodiment of Rubi. Angelique once more has a more youthful small body, and the main thing that makes her 'hot' is her boobs, which look really fake and it doesn't play into the story since she's suppose to be poor. Rubi didn't have much of a chest, but she still managed to appear more naturally seductive. Teresa was just constantly exposing her chest to appear seductive.

Acting

Barbara Mori's acting was excellent. She made me feel like thats how she was in real life. Everything came natural to her. Angelique's acting was all over the place. She really had to OVERACT to put her point across. Everything about the novela in general was overacted actually. Angelique had to do over the top facial expressions to show when she was scheming, when she was talking down to people or when she was in love. She came out looking like a cartoon character as opposed to Barbara that made her character seem like a real person.

Story

I've already made this post way longer than i expected and there's so much more that I want to talk about out so I'm just gonna have to shoot out random points:

Evil

I feel like they were both equally evil. They both were horrible to their families, to the men they loved and to their friends. I can't really make my decision on who was worse. I will hand it to Teresa though that she worked and studied hard to have a degree and was an excellent lawyer. However, I've seen arguments that mention that she was smarter that Rubi and relied on her brains instead of her body to get ahead. But thats not true. Sure she had a degree but she didn't get far because of it at all. She did the EXACT same thing that Rubi did, got ahead with her body provoking a rich guy. Sure she played the long game but at then end she did the same thing, not just with Arturo but with Fernando as well. She seduced him, nothing to do with her brain.

Ending

Rubi's ending was EXCELLENT. It has stayed with me for a long time because we finally have a main character that didn't win at the end. She got what she deserved. She lost the man she loved, she lost all her money which is what she fought the most, she lost her beauty, and she lost her beautiful body. EVERYTHING, and it was just excellent.

Teresa's ending left me baffled. She ended up with the man she loved after everything that she did. People may argue that she changed and felt remorse for what she did, but come on. She didn't even suffer for that long. She only regretted things because she was caught and exposed, otherwise she would've never changed. Also the fact that Arturo came to her after what she did to his sister is disgusting. Sure forgive her for what she did to him, but to his innocent sister? Seriously??? I get it, that they wanted for them to have a happy ending since the actors were dating in real life, but that just makes bad story telling.

Plot

It kind of gave me the impression that Teresa was going to follow a similar plot to Rubi's in the sense that Teresa was going to stay in love with Mariano all the way til the end, and that at some point when Teresa was not going to have any more money, that Mariano would now be super rich and prestigious but would want nothing to do with her like in Rubi. Although that would've been a Rubi copy, it would've been a better route to take. Because then other elements seem pointless. Something that I do admire more from Teresa was the fact that Mariano fell in love with Aurora, because in Rubi, it felt like Alejandro, although he married Maribel, it never seemed like he truly loved her. It was more like he cared for her. So i was so ready for an awesome ending to where Teresa was trying to stop the wedding and be suffering because the love of her life no longer loves her. That would've been so satisfying to watch and Mariano's wedding would also be triumphant because he overcame his temptation....however, that didn't happen. Teresa didn't even care, so it makes the wedding kind of pointless to the story. It really felt like 3 quarters of the novela they were building it up that triumph moment, but instead it felt like they changed the direction of story to fit in the real romance between Angelique and Sebastian. To be honest, Arturo's ending should've been the same as his counterpart role in Rubi.

In Summary. I have a lot more bones to pick with Teresa, but the ones that come to mind, are probably mostly the acting, not just of Angelique but of the cast. I think many of them were new actors or something, but their acting was horrible. I can really tell who was new and who was a veteran. Having said all of this, I DID enjoy watching Teresa. I know it may seem like I'm just hating on it and like I didn't enjoy it, but I really did. The first few episodes were really boring but after a while it was hard for me to stop. In one day I would go through 10 episdoes.....bruh, those are like 10 hours a day dedicated to Teresa. It was intriguing and interesting, especially many of the elements that were different from Rubi, such as her becoming a lawyer and her ways that she helped unmask Ruben.

In conclusion though, I do see Rubi as superior. A superior actress, a superior story and superior ending. Maybe a bit is from nostalgia but I did give Teresa a fair chance. Although entertaining, it was not what I would consider a good novela.

Me das miedo Teresa.

Rubi, tan bella como malvada.

#telenovelas #rubi #teresa #teresa vs rubi #novelas #Youtube

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