#i want to do the asks in my inbox so bad bc theyre so fucking good but i have no motivation rn fml

[fcthots]

Jason Todd can always be found tracing your skin. His touch is almost always feather light. He moves his hands across your body with awe and devotion. He catalogues every bit of skin on you. He knows it all. He loves it all. He worships it all. His touch is reverent as if he can't believe you're his, his to touch and to love and to adore. All his. He loves to watch how you react when he wakes you up in the morning by gliding his fingertips across your bare back. He notes with love the way you get goosebumps and shiver, the way you press your back into his hand, the way you press into him like a cat when his hand stops moving. He loves knowing he's wanted. He loves knowing that he gets to slide his fingers across your bare skin whenever he wants. He gets to move his fingers up and down your arm when you're outside in the cold. He gets to move the clasp of your necklace back to the back of your neck, and he gets to take that as an excuse to get to slide his fingers across your collarbone and shoulders. He gets to pull your hair off your neck when you're overheating outside and run his fingers through the delicate strands. He can't believe that he gets to map out your body like the stars in the sky. He will never have enough.

[intertexts]

ROSSSSS ok. yhesterday u asked for like details and habits and skills nhw virion would have picked up from the greats and theyre still living in my head Rent Fucking Free so im gonna throw some stuff in ur inbox bc i want 2 talk abt them SO BAD

ok so strider definitely contributed to virion’s paranoia. thats just. yeah. he didn’t really Mean To it just kind of Happened. bro did not realize that saying “keep your eye out for anything or anyone when you’re out alone on the streets because if someone Can hurt you, they Will” would scare a kid into being Perpetually Anxious!!!! virion definitely looks over his shoulder like every ten seconds whenever he’s out, even if he’s not in costume, bc strider drilled that into his head. Always Be Cautious Always Be On Your Toes!!!! strider also taught him basic street fighting. showed him how to fight dirty!! virion does tend to carry around a few concealed weapons and he started doing that because of strider

meanwhile chungus (i love u chungus ur name is so fucking stupid) taught virion how to fight fair!!! i’m still working on chungus’s backstory and trigger event but i like to think he was a wrestler and/or boxer in school, so he taught virion the Rules of fighting, how to take down an opponent without really hurting them, how to take down people who are heavier and bigger than him, etc. it’s not knowledge that virion uses a lot but in fights with no weapons he still automatically goes into Proper Boxer Fighting Stance. also he has totally accidentally put someone in a headlock because of instincts when they’ve snuck up on him

greyson!! greyson taught virion how to hold all manners of weapons. daggers swords shields you name it!! not really because greyson thought it would be particularly useful, just mostly for fun bc no way this kid is ever going to need to use these!! he got a lot more little habits from greyson tho, like stuff he doesn’t really notice but it is from greyson. he taps his fingers on his arm when he’s impatient, picks at the skin around his nails, stuff like that. he also knows a lot about medieval weaponry bc greyson liked to infodump and virion Absorbed that knowledge. will sometimes find himself going on tangents about how catapults were used in the 1500’s if the topic somehow comes up but he will shut the fuck up once he realizes what he’s doing and gets reminded of greyson and suddenly feels Bad and Horrible at the reminder. yeagh

min did try to teach him stuff but there wasn’t much she knew that she thought would be super useful. she was learning math and physics in college before leviathan hit her hometown, but virion was never really one for academics!!! but he did try to listen to her on the rare occasions she talked about it. he picked up more little habits from her, like he chews on things like his hoodie strings or even his hair when he’s thinking really hard, she taught him how to braid hair and he’ll find himself copying how she braided his sometimes when he’s messing with ashe’s hair, and whenever he’s holding a pen he clicks it really fast like a million times before he even does anything with it. keep his ass out of school he cannot pick up a math or physics textbook without thinking about min and he will think about her the entire class

RAMMM ILY RAM..... he taught virion how to hold guns. any gun he could think of ram was like okay i gotta teach this kid how to shoot and handle this thing correctly and safely. btw i decided ram’s trigger event was him and some friends being stupid in college and playing drunken russian roulette. u can imagine!!! how well that went!!! i wanted to make his sudden innate Knowledge about guns be horribly ironic and also painful for him <3 so now he’s fucking Insistent that virion learn how to handle guns and how to Know when they’re loaded and to ALWAYS KNOW WHERE THE BULLET IS. VERY IMPORTANT. whenever virion’s handling a gun he Always makes sure he knows how many bullets he has left, where his ammo is, never leave the safety off when he puts it down, etc etc. Very Persistent with gun safety. ram has also drilled it into his head to never drink when holding weapons. actually very insistent that virion Never Drink Ever actually. also his southern mannerisms rubbed off on virion juussssst a little bit. virion calls wibby “darlin” once and william has a heart attack over it. virion doesn’t even realize he’s doing it!!! he says ain’t and y’all sometimes and doesn’t even notice until one of the other wards points it out and asks why and virion has an internal breakdown about it

ALPHONZ..... MY LOVE...... i think. for the first little bit after joining the greats, alphonz was in his breaker state A Lot and was not able to get out of it half the time. so in virion’s early life, he just has memories of this bright glowing angel-lookin guy in the room whenever he was around the greats. out of his breaker state tho!! alphonz tried to teach virion religion for a bit, but virion’s parents managed to convince alphonz to leave it alone because if virion wanted to go down that path someday he’d find it on his own, etc etc yk and alphonz eventually conceded. he did read bible stories to virion as bedtime stories though!! virion thought they were fun little fiction stories, and also alphonz’s voice was just nice to fall asleep to, so his parents didn’t mind. to this day virion can probably still recite like half the bible from memory. he doesn’t believe in god but maybe he’s got like. an old cross necklace that alphonz gave him once and he wears it under his shirt sometimes like in memory of alphonz. he chews on the pendant sometimes—thanks min for the chewing stim!!!—and the metal has small scratches and teeth marks. if the chain ever breaks or he loses the pendant he will lose his mind

ANYWAY. YEAH. THIS TOOK ME LIKE AN HOUR TO TYPE OUT IM SO SORRY FOR PUTTING A NOVEL IN YIOUR INBOX. THEY’RE JUST. LIVING IN MY HEAD RENT FREE RN. BRAIN IS SOUP. THINKING ABOUT NHW GREATS. U KNOW HOW IT IS

AUGH............................

[adriabun]

angel this is your free pass ask to go ham about whatever’s on your mind w petyle. i am laying down, kicking my feet, and listening 👀

ive been sitting on this in my inbox for so long just trying to collect my thoughts and so many ppl have asked me that...now it is time.....ok

i think the thing i want to talk most about is the beginning of their relationship and what their relationship actually is ...like what about it is making me lose my marbles...i want to get all of this information out because as the ceo of petyle i need everyone to understand how they are characterised and how to correctly view their relationship. anything outside what i think is simply lies and flanderization..../hj.........

i typically default to college-age setting so thats what ill be centering on but my ideas of their dynamic can be malleable to other ages (canon, high school, post covid at a stretch etc)

pete has always been interested in kyle from a distance- theyve never really spoken, but after stan becomes a normie again after his goth stint michael points stan out at school like 'look at that conformist lol' and petes like 'yeah what a loser. also who the fuck is the guy in green.'

we've seen from basic cable where he has a crush on sophie that he isnt necessarily afraid of putting himself out there when hes interested in someone but hes kind of awkward about it. so he approaches kyle a couple of times to see what his deal is. this makes all the other goth kids INSANE like not in a negative way they r either in disbelief (michael, firkle) or think its hilarious (henrietta) that pete has a crush on kyle, he massively denies its a romantic thing tho bc hes not a gaywad...he just wants to know whats up with this guy and why hes so interesting

ngl kyle is probably suspicious or at least confused as why pete has started talking to him once hes over the initial weirdness he realises pete is kind of chill but the award palatable small talk hes trying to have with kyle is really annoying kyle def snaps at some point and asks him what the fuck pete is trying to gain out of this because its obvious hes not being himself.

pete is stubborn enough to not back down atp, hes not gonna let a conformist own him like that. so he starts being himself so much, to a degree where hes almost saying 'you wanted this, fine here you fucking go' in order to make kyle upset. but it doesnt work oh no!! kyle finds his goth eccentricities and pessimism so stupid thats its endearing!!!

nothing between them is inherently romantic or even entirely..friendly. more than anything they enjoy annoying each other in a constant loop of quips and rolled eyes. but theres just like.. something fiery underneath they wont address until they get wasted at a house party and let the alcohol do the talking

i have a habit of favouring either onesided petyle (on petes side ofc) or one that ends with a bad breakup because #stylesweep so a lot of my thoughts are biased towards that sort of ending. i just like relationship/situationship angst ok ...ive been there many times. a part of this angst is the idea that theyre each just 'the best they can get' in the moment. Pete's too internally self loathing to think kyle is actually in love with him or anything. theyre just having fun. its not serious. he refuses to think into any of it emotionally, though its kind of eating him up inside. meanwhile kyle is literally just taking it as it is. he feels a little guilty. he doesnt like pete like that (???) but he cant deny flirting and fooling around with him is fun. and also a distraction from stan getting back with wendy.

anyway thats what i have for now. let me know if anyone wants any more i guess. or any specifics about their actual relationship that i have bouncing around. idk!

[demadogs]

(disclaimer i havent seen or read rwrb) heartstopper is a bit cringe but tbh i love it bc of that… i’ll never love wtvr nick n charlies ship name is the way i love byler but the show itself makes me so happy in a way st (usually) doesnt. maybe thats bc i havent been exposed to enough queer tv so i just love it wherever i see it but as a queer teen in a mega conservative us state it feels so hopeful/joyful esp compared to all the trauma will goes thru in st bc of his queerness (or wtvr various homophobic things happened in young royals i didnt watch the whole thing)

not that i dont love st (my blog is byler themed lol) but thats my unasked-for defense of cringe gay tv/movies. overall i just want MORE queer tv shows whether theyre cringe n saccharine or ultra serious n depressing :) would love to hear ur thoughts if u want to share or u can let this marinate in ur inbox or delete it w/o reading. peace and love !

and im so glad it brings other people joy!! when i say my own opinions that is not me saying the show/movie is objectively bad. i totally see the appeal of a happy gay show like heartstopper, i personally just prefer things that arent lighthearted and romcommy feeling. like my favorite genres are scifi, horror/thriller, and murder. i like deep and dark shit thats not always boiled down just to a ship.

and also i wanna make it clear that when i say “serious tone” that does NOT equate to depressing!!!!!!!! i am NOT saying i dont like happy endings. it just means i want it treated in more of a real way and not romcommy. i dont like the cutsey stuff like the doodles in heartstopper and how they filmed the phone calls in the first bit of rwrb (i know you havent seen it but just trust me). for me personally things like that just completely take me out of the movie like i just want to watch it authentically like it would have happened irl and thats how more dramatic and serious toned shows/movies are always shot.

i also tend to like my gay fiction to be within a much huger story. a good example of this is the show, the wilds. that show is about a severly fucked up social experiment involving 8 girls and a staged plane crash that leaves them stranded on an isolated island and two of the girls end up together. i LOVED how they wrote that. amazing show highly recommend. this is also one of the reasons i love byler. its a part of a much bigger story and its treated seriously while still being cute and beautiful. plus im 10000% sure itll have a happy ending so again, serious in tone does noooot mean depressing.

thanks for being respectful in this ask and not just trying to change my mind or act like im not allowing anybody else to enjoy what i dont enjoy. and i will say since you do love heartstopper, youd probably love rw&rb and i highly recommend it! and if you want a list of more queer fiction recs i can def give you that (but obviously mine will be less lighthearted than heartstopper).

[gumjester]

im sorry i was stalking your ask tag bc i was scouring for any tidbits of info for ur rewrite. and now i have to say i am SHAKING IN EXCITEMENT for the wonderland arc. holy shit. i know thats probably a long way away but the little descriptions about Blood and Knives and Dinner Parties and the overall Fuckedupness of wonderland is so !!!!!! and thats of course on top of the fact my fav is lizzie and i adore the rest of the wonderlandians, AND your characterisation of the wonderlandians thus far is soo *chefs kiss*. i reread the food fight scene almost daily bc im obsessed with lizzie fully throwing a steak knife at daring and then screaming ILL SHOW YOU FUCKING WONDERLAND and kitty's usual chaos causing self and maddie being the usual bubbly but also Mysterious gal..... anyways . i love your wonderlandians. and also the way people perceive and talk about them.. is it racism . im calling it racism. actually now that i mention that i remember raven's comment in the beginning with her mother on how it seems like theres no news on how theyre fixing wonderland.... very interesting.... *stares hard at milton grimm and his clear disdain/bias against the wonderlandians*

this ask was longer than i thought and somehow dissolved into me talking about ur depiction of wonderlandians in general My Bad!!!

I SAVED THIS ASK IN MY INBOX LIKE A PRECIOUS JEWEL JUST READING IT MAKES ME SMILE SO MUCH........... OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH YOU HAVE NO IDEA! OR MAYBE YOU DO! IT CERTAINLY SEEMS LIKE IT ACTUALLY

the wonderland arc is (because biased gummy is biased) my very favourite arc that i have planned so far and i truly think i am going to have SO MUCH FUN writing it because there is not a single moment of peace throughout the entire thing. just wall to wall insanity. just like wonderland would have wanted!!!!!!!! I HOPE SO VERY MUCH THAT YOU ENJOY AND I AM SO ELATED THAT YOU'RE ENJOYING LIZZIE AND KITTY AND MADDIE I WORK VERY HARD ON THEM THEY ARE MY PRIDE AND JOY

and wonderland racism! yes! good old fashioned xenophobia 👍 it strikes again.... the fairy tale world is rebuilding itself from the ruins of the queen war slowly but surely, while wonderland... well. the most grimm can do for now is seal the realm and figure out the best way to address the situation, which seems in itself to be. keeping the realm sealed. hm. the ineffable workings of the fairy tale world's great leader! i'm sure he knows what he's doing and there is absolutely no discrimination involved [This message was funded by the Milton Grimm Normal Person PR Team]

[cheolhub]

sar which idol fits with the vibes of your anons hehe

oh this is cute!! im not good at explaining myself, so anons forgive me 😹 just know i’d bias all of u and that if any of you left me, there would be gaping hole in my chest /hj

🥧 gives me jungkook and beomgyu just bc they’re live af in my inbox but then they disappear for a months at a time (which is not a bad thing!!! its very jungkook of them) i miss u sm tho nonnie, sending u hearts and kisses

🌵hmmm very much soobin but like shorter?? i just find you funny af but i also think ur cute and amazing and sweet like i want to give u the biggest hug ever— maybe dino too (ALSO I HOPE THE SHORT COMMENT WASNT OFFENSIVEVDGWG I LOVE U NO MATTER WHAT) 2 of my main biases bc i love u

🌾 taehyun and vernon 😭 ily bc ur effortlessly funny and ur just here for vibes and i respect that so much— you’re also probably someone id be friends with irl bc the way send asks is the way i send texts to my irls 😭

☁️ this crazy person… i think yeonjun… ik u don’t stan txt yet but u give yeonjun vibes and perhaps seungkwan or minghao. THESE R THE IT BOYS. UR HOT and i seriously need you to take over my blog bc ur brain is insane. oh and i love you

🧚🏽‍♀️ A SWEETHEART. i miss them dearly but i think they’d be 🤔 joshua and hueningkai!! these r two cuties that im in love with and need to praise for hours and u r a cutie that im in love w that needs to be praised for hours <3

🍀 U JUST STARTED SENDING ASKS BUT UR SO SO NICE. i think maybe dk or mingyu just bc i think you’re really warm and probably give really good hugs 🥹 i hope ur doing well imy and ily

seungschlong anon MY BAEEEEEE,,, DEFINITELY BEOMGYU & seungkwan. both funny as fuck and they literally have me on the floor dying but also theyre super hot a super talented. im saying im in love w u

[geodetojoy]

so cozy in this inbox- you’ve even got fruit snacks in here! im stayin forever if that’s okay

rng selected questions from the “distracting asks” this time! and yes more proofreading yayyy

23, 18, 10, 15, 3

carry on fellow pb blossom member o7

hello again dearest mads!!!! little did you know the fruit snacks were a lure you have no choice but to stay now >:)

23. talk about a WIP?

oh man ive got a lot on hold at the moment, buuut ill go with my tati/barb painting im working on (that I believe i sent you the current version of- its been a bit lmaoo)

i mean first of all i just really wanted to give my girls at least a bit of happiness. is it temporary? in canon? definitely not. but they deserve to have each other to lean on and to feel safe with

and i really love the concepts of bi/aro barb and lesbian/aroace tati so. they dont have a defined relationship, they just love each other and thats all that matters.

ive got a few ideas in my head of how their relationship would come to be, but i think its something they both tried to view from analytical lenses if that makes sense? especially with barb, my poor heteronormative victim. she definitely does not like the idea that she might care for tati in a more realistic way than she did with curt until she tried to put her fears behind her and consider it from a position of just what would make her happy. when she realized the answer to that question was tati, she was both extremely relieved and utterly terrified. with tati, she was so afraid of how easily barb was peeling back the walls she had built up so meticulously, but after she realized that it was probably healthier for her, she accepted the care with loving, almost desperate arms.

they definitely started out as incredible friends, both being able to bond over their shared experiences of discrimination in their jobs over being women in the 50s and 60s in such male-dominated places of work. and for some reason, tati finds it extremely easy to open up to barb and barb just cares so much and just wants to take care of her so bad and that love is always reciprocated, out of fear of losing barb at the beginning, but then out of sheer appreciation and adoration as time passed.

theyre in an incredibly healthy relationship, both because they had no pressure as women to be devoid of emotion and because i think they would talk about their emotions sooooo much with barb as a scientist and tati as a healing trauma survivor.

anyways! got a bit sidetracked, but my WIP is a painting of them cuddling on a couch in their shared apartment :3 the blinds are closed, ofc, and the place is scarcely decorated aside from the necessary furniture, but to them its the most beautiful home ever because they have the other there with them

the idea for the finished piece is to have the orange glow from the sun beaming through the blinds illuminating the room just enough to see them, but have it dark enough to enshroud them in shadow, hiding from the rest of the world. but what we can see is safe, warm, cozy, and quiet :3

18. Dream Job?

Game dev baby!! I wanna make every single aspect of a game entirely on my own one day, but honestly id settle for doing any part of the process in a company or group as long as i can pitch in!!

10. Favorite animal?

im so bad at choosing just one. so im giving you two :)

fennec foxes and red pandas!!!!!

15. Favorite subject?

(im assuming this to be school subject bc subject in general is. entirely too vague lmaoo)

Any and all math!!! im a nerd from head to fucking toe and i am PROUD OF IT

3. 5 songs you have been recently obsessed with?

YIPPEE MORE MUSIC QUESTIONS I LOVE TALKING ABOUT MUSIC I LOVE

(btw one of these is gonna be an album bc it has five songs on it and i cannot bear to exclude others for the sake of putting all five of them)

DoNotReadMe.wav by Charlie Slimecicle. is anyone surprised by this? if so that means i need to post about it more

The Wisdom Saga from EPIC the musical!!!!!! been listening to it since its release im obsessed!!!!

Facade from Cinderella's Castle!!! its just!!!! gah!!!! it sounds so good!!!!

Espresso by Sabrina Carpenter. im blaming joel for this one even though it was like a month ago

Once in a Lifetime by Talking Heads. i thiiiink this is the one? if not they keep playing a song just like it at work and every time i try to remember it later to figure out what song it is i forget how the melody goes and i lose my shit but its taken over my every thought I JUST WANNA KNOW WHAT SONG IT ISSSSS

ty for the ask again mads!!!! love ya forever and always my pb blossom buddy <333333

[trans-leek-cookie]

wanted to say i appreciate u taking the time to engage w my asks nd share ur thoughts, i do like to read these kinds of discussions on here. i will say i was being a coward and using evasive language wrt kui’s writing (even though on anon) bc i didnt want to come in as an opinionated rando in ur inbox but since youve expressed ur opinion i wanna say that i agree that it is honestly real disappointing that kui wrote the orcs that way. i see so often the argument that her writing is heavily influenced by the uhhh Founding Fathers of high fantasy (tolkien like u mentioned) as if that excuses it but it is so fcking annoying seeing the same exact racist anti indigenous take on orcs recycled and reused as if it has to be this way. like why r we perpetuating actual racist dogshit when its Fantasy which means we can literally make up whatever we want. ik why but its annoying. and i get how ppl tout dumeshi as being a cut above whats usually popular on social media but this series is still egregious w the way certain things are portrayed and itd be yknow nice if ppl more readily acknowledged (or even recognized) its flaws. anyway thx again was neat reading ur thoughts. have a good week 💟

yea I get it. I think it's smthn most ppl, esp ppl of color who aren't subject to antiblackness, colorism, and similar issues have to be careful with bc we need to not speak over the ppl who are really affected by the stuff but at the same time it's not something we can ignore- it comes down to finding and boosting other ppls voices and not letting these kinds of things go unchecked without overreaching.

It's really smthn like. At some point you just have to bite the bullet and stop trying to justify the authors bad decisions- and I think it helps to remember that morality and quality aren't inherently connected- though morality will definitely affect how things appeal to you (like if I learn an author has shitty views, that's gonna be in the back of my mind when I read their work- nothing about their writing has changed, just how you perceived it)

It's really like. The phrase that comes to mind is "kill your darlings", and while that's a different Thing, i feel like the core idea is similar? In that sometimes you have to get rid of a part of your creation that you're attached to but doesn't help your overall work. Like, at some point you have to say "I enjoy how this writer crafts characters and plot, but they still have a lot of racist ideas they need to unlearn" (esp when it seems like theyre in the process of unlearning racist shit- it's not something you can ever be really done with, so you need ppl to understand that theres always progress to b made).

Dungeon Meshi is good, but we gotta acknowledge the flaws or they're just going to be reproduced in future works and that fucking sucks

[collecting-stories]

Under Duress - JJ Maybank

Request: Hi!! So Ive been binging your work and trying to rewatch OBX. I was wondering if you could do like a oneshot with JJ from the episode he and John B go check on Miss Lana? Anyway I love how Rudy subtly shows how upset JJ is at the situation and I wanted to ask if you could write one where the reader comforts him (either while theyre there or back at the chateau) bc she knows why he’s triggered and knows hes panicking? I was thinking of the “man I was under duress” and his little “dont listen” and I just wanna give that man a hug. If you get to this, thank you!

A/N: Sorry this has been sitting in my inbox for so long...it’s been a hard couple months and I haven’t been able to catch up as much as I thought I would. 

Outer Banks Masterlist

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It was difficult to follow JJ and John B’s recounting of Lana’s house. The details were scrambled between their collective memories and JJ was so wired from the ordeal that he was still visibly shaking as he snapped at Kiara, insisting that he was ‘under duress’ the entire time. It was impossible to even process the story once you saw the look of anxious panic in his eyes; JJ was sucking on his vape like it was filled with barbiturates and he was trying to knock himself out. 

You wanted to grab him right there, wrap him up in your arms in the middle of his rant like you were a human security blanket and make sure that he was okay because you recognized that look in his eyes. You knew the nervous twitch of his hands as he tried to steady them and the frantic pace of his words as he tried to work through his emotions to get to the root of the story. John B looked exasperated by his best friend’s antics and Kiara did nothing to hide her annoyance with him but you were sure that you just looked concerned. Something that John B mistook for worry about Miss Lana when he assured you that she was alright.  

You only nodded dumbly, raising from your seat on the arm of the couch Pope was sitting on, and followed JJ when he headed into the Chateau. He went straight for the refrigerator, pulling out a bottle of the beer you’d nabbed from your dad’s stash in the basement and brought to the Chateau a few nights earlier. The fact that it’d survived this long was surprising but beneficial to JJ, who drank the cheap beer like it was water and he was dying of thirst.  

“Hey,” you called, grimacing when he jumped, chest heaving as he realized it was only you in the kitchen and he wasn’t still back there at Miss Lana’s, or worse. “Sorry...you okay?” you chanced asking as if he would give you a straight answer.

“Yeah just, you shoulda seen Lana’s...it was like,” He shook his head, unable to relay the words to describe the place to you.  

“Are you okay otherwise?” You asked, moving closer to him and reaching a hand out to hold his elbow. His skin was warm under your touch and he relaxed just the slightest, leaning back against the countertop. “I know-”

“It’s not like that.” JJ defended, though he remained relaxed, “it’s not always like-”

“Yeah, I know. I just...with Luke I just worried maybe-”

“It’s not like that,” he repeated firmly, “god, I’m not some fucking baby.”  

“I didn’t mean that JJ, I just felt like...maybe-”

“Well I wasn’t! I’m fine.” He insisted though his own appearance betrayed his words. His hands were shaking so bad he’d put the beer bottle down and his eyes were glassy and red. He looked sunburn but you knew it was just that he was upset, the pinkish tint of his cheeks and neck reflecting his inability to keep his cool. “I’m fine,” but when he repeated the words his voice cracked and you wrapped your arms around him, pulling him into a hug.  

JJ wrapped his arms around you, pressing his face against your shoulder, the feeling of wet cheeks against your bare skin the first indication that he was crying. He held on so tight you thought you might lose your breath but you just kept holding him back, rubbing your hand along his back. “It’s okay, you’re back here, you’re okay.” You promised, turning your head enough to press a kiss to his salty blond hair.  

“I just wanted to book it,” JJ admitted, his voice half muffled, “John B wasn’t even scared, just kept waiting for them to leave and all I wanted to do was get out of there.”

“That’s okay,” you promised, “I would’ve wanted to get out of there...you know what a wuss I am,” you replied, the insult a familiar one. When you were younger, when you used to play hide and seek after school in the woods you were always insistent that the game end before dark and JJ always called you a wuss.  

He laugh half-heartedly against your shoulder and slowly stood up enough that you could see his face. He loosened his grip and you found yourself missing the hug as he reached for his beer once more. “You were right...just kept thinking about my dad.” JJ admitted.  

“No one would blame you for that.”

“Yeah but...Lana needed our help and I just kept standing there like a fucking moron thinking about my dad...John B was the only one who kept his head on.”

“It’s the other way around plenty of times J, don’t compare yourself.” If you were listing best friends John B always made the cut but he wasn’t your favorite person and you were never shy about expressing your contempt for your ‘friend’, especially when he did something that made JJ feel shitty.  

“I just feel like I fucked up,” he replied.  

“Yeah well, you didn’t. And I’d happily remind you of that continuously until you believe me.” You pointed out.  

The front door opened and you stepped away from JJ, looking over to see who had walked inside. John B, looking like he’d finally worked something out, the rusty compass in his hand as Kiara and Pope followed him.  

“We’re checking the office,” Pope said, as if it was a question. He looked at JJ for a second, pausing in the space between the hallway and the kitchen, “you okay?”  

“I’m good.” JJ replied, downing the last of the beer and laying the bottle on the counter. You lingered a moment after him before following them, a little disappointed that they interrupted whatever sort of moment you and JJ were having.

[matchamabs]

I know you didn’t ask for it but- BOTW MONSTERS: RANKED BY HOW HOT THEY ARE,,,,

i do fuck all in the days lemme tell ya

ill admit i havent done EVERY enemy but like. i do enjoy making these posts so who knows, i might actually rank everything sooner or later 🤷‍♀️

,,,,, and if u want a specific ranking of botw/aoc stuff lmk 👀

ahh the ol reliable. the classic bokoblin. he is just a little lad! unfortunately they’re genuinely kind of ugly??? and the idk the singular horn in the middle aint a good look. i see cute comics abt these guys being domestic and thats adorable but also giving them so much leeway bc they’re really Not that cute. not sure what the loincloth is hiding and im not sure i wanna know anyway. 3/10 really kind of. not good. 

slightly bigger loincloth only means slightly bigger things to hide :( i rlly hate these guys noses and whatever the fuck toenails they have why do they have toenails?????? s’bad. the thing is tho they have the proportions of a potentially attractive gerudo which is probably what takes the edge off the general vibes of... u know... being an abomination. its also only JUST occured to me as im writing that these guys r just evolved bokoblins so. glow up i guess. 6/10 what that tongue do

ok bypassing whatever the fuck rule 34 has done to these guys, i actually dig them. i find the huge fat ones way cuter than the lil bug eyed ones. in their case theres rlly no, like... hotness about them. its just cute. i think they’re cute. any monster that is cute and also doubles up as a bed gets my vote 7/10 get urself a fella as flexible as these guys 

u know what, im gonna say it, these guys r actually kinda hot. proportions arent super bad, the face aint bad and generally they have good vibes. aside from, u know, when they’re tryna shank u. id say one of the most bearable monsters to have to look at. 8/10 im not a scalie

??????????? idk what to say. u could tie these little shits to like swingball poles and beat them with rackets thatd b good. aside from that these guys have like no redeeming qualities. they’re a pain in the ass and not in a good way. 3/10 cute but like. is it worth it?

i mean,,,,,,,, someones probably into it. i dont like these guys for a lot of reason and surprisingly the thing that gets me is the fucking hair why does it have that hair its like he-man just went straight over the top with an electric razor its not a good look!!! stop trying to make it work! it wont! and again with the loincloth??? im not into it. the only thing i like abt these guys is the lil waistcoats. they have some amount of decency (but the implications it makes are Not Good). uh. 2/10. barely.

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,,,,,9/10. but if you see a lynel up close like that chances are you died about half a minute ago

again. ??? i dont rlly like. i mean. im digging the top heavy proportions? its got the same body type as kass so like. 4/10. bit plain around the features but what can u do. i dont understand how but the igneo taluses are like. sexier 

UGHGHHH I FUCKING HATE THESE THINGS okay okay okay like these motherfuckers lure u in by being quite cute and dancin around and then u get a look at their faces and its like fucking JESUS and its even WORSE when you see under their cloak and they have no necks????? and like????? they do that gay little fucking dance that pisses me off???? they’re wearing hoods that give the ILLUSION that they have necks and im im fumin ok i HATE it i hate it i have been betrayed and i will NEVER FORGET ABOUT IT UGHGHGHG I HATE THESE CUNTS -10000000000000000000000000000000000/10 die

hhhhh i just dont like em. theyre too annoying to be cute now. and whats gonna happen if i squeeze one? is like. water gonna come out? r they just gonna deflate? 4/10 tentacles are not hyrules forte it seems ://

trust kohga to send the twinks out on the front line. seriously. they’re not bad tho? kinda small and underwhelming :((( tho i give extra points for the good crazy laugh we love a good manic cackle 6/10 they dont really count as monsters but ah well where else am i gonna put em

now THATS what im talkin about babeyyyyy we love the muscles,,,,, the posture,,, the stride,,, we love it when u fuck up stealth and a torrential downpour of these motherfuckers come down to beat ur ass,,,,, 9/10 its raining men 😎

u know. u dont rlly like. get a good view of these guys when ur balls deep in a battle with them, but the more i get like closer looks at them the more i go ???? like idk. everything about them looks backwards and wrong. but as far as backwards and wrong goes its not a bad look and the boss theme is a banger so 4/10 maybe dont jump on my ass every time i step one foot onto the desert :/

i just. i dont dig it. idk why. aside from the fact they’re a monumental pain in my ass, and now everytime i hear a beep even slightly resembling a guardian i shit my pants, but. idk??? as far as robots go its not like. terrible. they’re like the milfs of robots. the milves, if u will. a rilf. except i wouldnt. so its more like riwlf. but even that leaves too much up to interpretation so im just gonna call em a cunt and go. 4/10 leg game strong

here we are,,, the big boys,,,, waterblight isnt too bad i will admit, but the spear hand is both annoying and mildly inconvenient. its got a rlly big chest but rlly thin arms?? also not sure how i feel abt the strap on beard but oh well its not like ganons got taste. 5/10 kind of average for a blight i think

a hefty motherfucker. a chunk of a lad. big large. the fact this is like one of the easiest blights makes it more forgiveable to me but like whatever its got going on with the 80s hair needs 2 be sorted out. i like its moves but it doesnt hang upside down like waterblight :((( 5/10 calm down kate bush

ok who doesnt like gun arms. and a gun back. this things like fuckin megatron. the whole face plate thing doesnt look bad either. honestly its kind of a look? but its dickheadery in aoc makes me wanna set shit on fire so :// 6/10 hot but will not leave u alone 😔

ok this one is by FAR the sexiest of all the blights. i just cant explain it. i like guys with bad posture. i had an easy time beating it but apparently its given other people a lot of grief and that makes it 10x more sexy to me lmaooo. also it can clone itself which is like. thats a win. 8/10 ganon spilt all the sexy juice into this one

ok i didnt realise how many arms this motherfucker has and the whole hairline behind the ears thing is not a great look. especially w the beard. in fact the longer i look at it the less sexy it becomes tbh. 3/10 they tried to make arachnophobia sexy and it didnt work

10/10 i will be taking questions in my inbox but i wont be taking constructive criticism and you cant make me 

[kyovtani]

hii zadee idk much about zodiacs but what should i know about aries?? ejdjoskd do people like us? 😩😩 — cami @megumiya

hi baby! okay, i shall give you guys a quick opinion on the zodiacs sign from the view of a virgo- please don't send me extra asks about this bc it clogs my inbox MWAH!!!

— DISCLAIMER: these are personal opinions, pls dont take them too personal, this is all just for funsies + ignore my typos pls i love u

— fire signs:

sags: extra. way too fucking extra. there's absolutely no reason to always do the most of it all, just calm the fuck down and don't take everything so serious pls especially yourself. they tend to make one (1) thing their whole fucking personality and it irritates me so much bc come ON. loyal friends, really supportive and ambitious, definitely the ones which make one want to work even harder but if you do them wrong, they won't EVER stop talking about it.

aries: stop. just take a deep breath. not every battle is yours and not everything is worth the fight. definitely competitive as hell and will pout like a kid when they aren't the best at smth they JUST STARTED. theyre waaaaay too hard on themselves and lit always go 159% in when they don't have to and they expect everyone to be like that...bro, calm down. amazing friends, give great advice and always keep it real BUT will actually, genuinely break your heart if you play them.

leos: shut the FUCK up. no. everything is NOT about you. i know you want it to be so bad and you probably have a little group of water signs who will adore you but pls calm tf down. ego bigger than the eiffel tower and definitely narcissistic tendencies BUT good friends. they are ride or dies and will probably burn their house down for the people they love. push people away when they get attached after MONTHS like ok ?? trust and attachment issues in one. have good taste in fashion and definitely make good leaders but be that...far away from me pls

— water signs:

pisces: i...i am sorry to be the 172828292th person to tell you this but no it's not personal. pls stop taking everything to heart. and pls..stop making everything a competition. you're sad, you're unhappy...we know it, let's get us help for you hm? stop trauma dumping in form of bad self centered jokes- but i appreciate y'all. always giving everything to make their loved ones happy, don't expect anything in return and are usually really really loyal. a bit hypocritical but loyal. i like how empathetic you guys are

cancers: yes, i will say it again, stop crying. please. stop...whining. you guys are always complaining, switch from happy to angey and then legitimately sad within five minutes and i just don't understand why..just- why do you care so much? craving other people's validation won't really bring you the inner peace you crave, i promise. however...you fuckers are LOYAL. once a friend, always a friend. definitely one i'd trust in a fight because i know y'all got my back. sharp tongued and hella smart, good instinct and read people well but y'all really use that to feed into your victim complex sometimes

scorpios: fucking crazy bitches. why. tell me- why the FUCK are you mad again? what was it that made your patience run low??? always talking about how you don't care about anyone but i see you in everyone's business all the fucking time- BUT when it comes to your cocaine everyone has their own line, right?? secretive, smart, REALLY good at whatever the fuck they want to be good at. born leaders, good authority figures and great friends. but only for people with a LOT of patience and self control- not me 💗

— air signs:

aquarius: baby..no. shut yorr know it all ass the fuck UP. always talking about knowing EVERYTHING like- yes, we get it. you're smart, you know some stuff....stop shoving it into everyone's face. and listen- i know we shouldn't care about other people but..it's okay to show the people you love some love and affection. stop treating the people youve known your whole life like you just met them, it fucking hurts. and sTOP giving people second chances, istg i will actually fight you- you deserve BETTER than them. but i love y'all, can't lie. eager to learn, definitely ambitious but oh so chaotic. great lovers, understanding friends and always the one to stay objective- a good person to call when you need someone with a neutral opinion.

libras: my babies, i- no. stop- you cant save the whole world..i know you want your main character moment but it's okay to stay in your lane. not everything involves you, not everything has something to do with you and no, i promise not everyone worries about you the way you think they do. you're hella lovely but pls stop believing i the good in people, they WILL use you. stop going back to what or who hurt you- it makes you look pathetic, we know you crave everyone's attention, you don't have to add onto it. but damn it are you guys fun. hella laid back and nice people to be around. gentle lovers and sweet friends, deffo the biggest hypepeople ever and will defend you with their whole heart but spit into your face if they are annoyed like bro chill pls

geminis: just- why is it so hard for you guys to show empathy. it's like you live for yourself and ONLY for yourself. you always talk about all the things you've done for everyone but ... i don't see you making any efforts to give smth back? i was always like nah they arent as two faced as one might say but you fucking are and some of you do the MOSt. attachment issues of a leo and abandonment issues of a libra like stfu. there's never an in between, always either one or the other and i just don't understand why it's so hard for you to compromise :) but i gotta say that you are good friends for the people who managed to bear with your mood swings. lack a bit of understanding but it's okay because you're trying. you're usually quite brave and like to try new things, once youre good at what you do, you ace it and that's cool ig

— earth signs:

taurus: sigh, please take things seriously. please. i'm begging you- stop fighting other people's battles and focus on your own but......don't pull an aries. you guys are either HELLA problematic or chill and i dont even know what's worse because one moment you're fire and flames, ranting and venting about a topic and then when someone else starts talking about it you just shrug it off and talk about how other people's opinions don't matter.....WHAT????? and ngl taurus generally are a little hypocritical but its okay bc y'all give good advice and are usually really calm and useful in stressful situations. the taurus ive met like to procrastinate but do not stress about it AT ALL and they definitely do say what's on their mind. usually got pure hearts but fet influenced easily

capricorns: now...you guys are my favorites but oh my fucking god, you know there's a world outside of your comfort zone right? and i say that as a fellow earth sign. dude just.......STOP WORRYING. STOP THINKING EVERYTHING IS SUSPICIOUS. like okay they have GREAT instincts when it comes to people's intentions but pls the attachment issues- YIKES. and listen i know you dont want to talk to them because you don't know and need them but....come ON. how can you reply to EVERYTHING with sarcasm ??? you're lucky youre great friends. will definitely get into fights for the ones they care about and respect. won't ever hold back and will eventually tell you what's on their mind. trust their gut feeling, those fuckers really know if a person is it or not. organized mess and picky eaters but ALWAYS have their heart on the right place

and lastly, virgos: bro, as a fellow one and lowkey virgo hater i have to say one thing, cut the know it all crap. okay yeah, you do it more subtly than leos and you dont brag about it but if you keep that "i told you" attitude up i will have to fight you. nobody gives a FUCK if you knew or not, just keep it real the way you always do it and keep your priorities straight. you tend to bend around for people who are SO not worth it and that's when you deserve someone who actually puts the 100% into it the way you do. cut the people pleasing, youre so far up people's asses it's disgusting. but hey, you're fucking great. organized, responsible, probably really really sad but mask it well and can always handle things on your own. virgos really dont need anyone, ever. loyal as hell, love gossip and will give you the advice you need in the exact tone you need to hear it so be ready for it

[homieswithhades]

you're one of the few i follow who talks about bucky and so here i am once again in your inbox because the whole way the MCU has approached bucky is just not it. you know? they wrote themselves in a hole. they don't know how to respond exactly with his popularity as a character and no homo'd his most important relationship so hard they're two dudes chilling in two different timelines because it's not gay. the whole 'made amends' thing is just wrong and terrible. bucky didn't do anything wrong! hydra did. hydra used him and yet the narrative has placed it on his shoulders. i enjoyed tfatws but i think there were quite a few odd character writing choices.

hiya !! lovely 2 see u in my inbox again <33

(two bros chilling in 2 different timelines cos theyre not gay killed me bdw)

oh 100% bucky has been mishandled by marvel, i wanna say since the very end of cacw. catfa bucky was splendid and amazingly written, super in character, like That's My Bucky.

catws bucky was obviously brainwashed but (even tho the russos had their grimy little hands on this one) again, amazingly written and handled esp thanks to seb.

it starts to go a little awry at the end of cacw. it was fine when bucky said "i dont know if im worth all this steve" nd steve replies "what you did all those years, it wasnt you. you didnt have a choice" bc this. THIS was the perfect way to be handling buckys trauma. and steve was the ONLY person who could do that. im sorry, but not even sam, whos a licenced councellor, could do that for bucky. the first red flag was before bucky went into cryo and NONE of his fears/feelings were dealt w beforehand. he just goes "i cant trust my own mind" and yoink into the freezer he goes! cacw wasnt terrible w handling bucky, but it did waste a lot of potential with discussing and exploring his character and what he went through. probably bc wuhhh a man cant have FEELINGS and GOD FORBID he show and express them in a HEALTHY WAY in a superhero movie !! (that should have been averngers: civil war, bdw. marvel u actually owe us ca:serpent society)

black panther end credits. what the fuck. is all im gonna say. russos overdosed on how can we make this guys "road to recovery" LOOK like its going like pure shit but not explain why, how, when, who and where.

infinity was a sorta a fucking joke iwel. there were some good parts like the steve and bucky reunion eg. "not bad, for the end of the world" (gives me catfa vibes 😭) and "steve?" being the last words bucky said before being dusted, ik bucky wasnt supposed 2 be the focus in this movie but the fact that they made him fight again after he was supposedly "cured" (see: "semi-stable 100 year old man") was cruel and lacked the exploration it needed to justify it.

endgame is self explanatory. shit movie all-round, pain for everybody in the audience!! it was more of a mishandling of steve rather than bucky, but if we're talking abt bucky specifically, he was more neglected than mishandled. not being bothered to do his metal arm? not showing us the convo he supposedly had with steve before he left? not showing us his reaction to steves joe biden cosplay? horrible. terrible, couldn't have gone worse. once again, seb did ALL the heavy lifting. he is 99% of buckys character.

all of this doesn't even take into account steve and buckys relationship. they are the absolute focal points of each other’s characters, and it was all not just swept under the rug, but the floor was then set on fire, the room burnt to a crisp, the house demolished and then launched into oblivion.

and now to adress what u actually asked, tfatws. i also enjoyed it, but that doesnt mean i think PERSONALLY that it was well written (and thats okay). i do understand it was supposed to deal w sam more than bucky, which it did, but if im being brutally honest, tfatws bucky didnt.... feel like bucky..... which isnt to say seb didnt do a good job, bc he carried what was left of buckys character from the writing, but it was like watching the wrong shoe being put on the correct foot, if that makes sense. bucky was treated like the bad guy, stoic and pissy. "guy with a staring problem", comic fucking relief. govt mandated therapy, constant dismissal, and being thrown back into a fights without it being acknowledged why first. i have no issue w characters who want to keep fighting regardless of trauma (see: john watson) but they NEED the verbal acknowledgement AND the right support system for that plot to be acceptable and sustainable. tfatws did none of that. they reduced bucky to Cap's sidekick again (even tho he wasnt steves sidekick, it feels like he is sams imo pls dont kill me 😭). none of what should have been dealt with was dealt with, because marvel tried to solve literally global, macro-scale problems without even acknowledging the ones at home.

as sweet and technically good the ending of tfatws was, it was badly writtten, at least for bucky. marvel will never climb out of the hole, to use your words, they wrote themselves into, because of 1) the thanos storyline, snap and blip (what the fuck marvel, genuinely) 2) timeline bullshit and 3) steve leaving.

its almost like his actual character development was put on hold for tfatws. it'll be forever up in the air, with no real closure, unless everything and more that i talked about is mentioned. he'll never have the ending he actually deserves.

please do remember, characters are supposed to have arcs, not 90 degree descents into the fucking ground.

[collisiondiscourse]

i have decided i am now going to blow up your inbox bc i csn i’m sorry codi focnnf

b u t!! anyway i’m going to rambling abt my new dad for all au [whixh was the au i sent you that ask abt]

alrighty so all might is now midoriya’s dad. that’s a thing. i like to think that inko and toshinori were high school sweethearts who broke up after graduation but met again when all might was called to recuse some hostages and inko was one of them!! anywho all might recuses her, they go on a coffee date, realize they’re still in love and start again

they get married and have izuku, who keeps inko’s maiden name [midoriya is now inko’s maiden name bc i do what i want]. he’s the cutest baby who has inko’s green hair, but has one blue and one green eye! [these are /important/] inko and all might talk abt maybe giving izuku all for one when he’s older, but they decide against it bc they don’t know if he’ll have a quirk or not

spoiler!! bitch baby has a quirk!! he gets a quirk that’s so much different than inko’s quirk and !!! ahhh!!! the basic explanation is that all might’s all of one genes mixed and then “corrupt” inko’s like 3 generation quirk-having genes or smth and izu has a very, very complex quirk now. it’s called astron, and astron allows him to fucking astral project into the center of the university and shit chxnc

astron works two different ways: using his blue eye he can project other people into his own personal astral plane and do whatever he wants. while the person’s physical body is still where it was, their mind is in the astral plane. if he uses his green eye, he can project himself to his astral plane and fuck around without consequences!!

[there’s an untold third ability of astron using both of his eyes, but izuku tried doing that when he first got his quirk and immediately fell into a coma for like a month? it was bad and his mind couldn’t handle the stress and dipped lol]

ANYWAY, izuku grows up with a bomb ass quirk and still has his kacchan with him thru his childhood so things are a lot different than canon? the wonder duo are little shitheads together and i love them, they wreck havoc and i love them

i have more ideas for this story but this is all i have for now, codi this is so long i’m sorry i’m blowing up ur inbox 🥺😭

me opening my askbox and seeing the length of this au: holy shit

me reading the actual whole au: HOLY SHIT

AJ I LOVE THIS HIGHKEY!!! I LOVE THE IDEA OF OP DEKU W A FUCKED UP QUIRK JUST TERRIFYING EVERYONE HE COMES ACROSS!!!! heterochromia is SO so good as a character design element and i LOVE THE WAY THIS IS IMPLEMENTED YELLS. I WANNA DRAW THIS SO BAD!!! THIS LOOKS SO COOL

(serious writing/plot below - blood and vomit mention)

oh god and now im imagining deku like. being this extremely feral and annoying lil shit whos extremely powerful and now bakugous got someone on his level so hes a lot more humble as hes growing up but also him and deku are the?? BESTEST OF FRIENDS. and i imagine when bakugou is being a little shit deku just. astral projects him out of his body for a while and apologizes to whoever kacchan yelled at LMFAO---bakugou comes back to his body and is all like “....fucks sake stop doing that”

AND THEN omfgkjfds imagine morally grey deku who does whatever he can to win?? he knew he wouldnt get into UAs hero course fair and square (all might offered him a recommendation but he declined because he wanted to get there on his own with kacchan) because robots didnt have souls he could astral project so he practices his quirks limits like YEARS prior and he tells bakugou about it but never rlly shows him but on the day of the entrance exam?

he shows up. everything goes as normal and he finishes the written exams and then moves on to the practical exam (still seperated from kacchan like in canon) and like. Every one goes dashing forward and deku doesnt really try to beat anyone. He waits until theyre all in the center engaging with robots when he walks to the center of the room.

and he sees the zero pointer in the distance.

“THE ZERO-POINTER’S HERE!” He yells and points at the gigantic mech heading their way. All at once everyone’s heads whip up to catch sight of the robot, enraptured by its sheer size and power. 

As they all look to one direction, Deku makes eye contact with them and smiles.

All at once, every single participant in the area goes limp. Astron throws their souls into the astral plane with little fanfare and everyone watches in awe and annoyance as their bodies uselessly crumple to the ground from the outside. The green-haired boy is suddenly given free reigns of the arena and they seethe as one by one he deactivates or disables robots that were once under their purview.

(What some of the smarter ones notice however, is the way he seems to be leaving some stray 3 pointers untouched... almost as if he was doing the calculations in his head as he goes... on how to ensure the number one spot while others can still score points...?)

One by one however, they start struggling and reaching to reconnect with their bodies. Their gleaming bright souls bob up and down with frenzied energy and Deku feels it. He feels it like itches on his skin and goosebumps that turn into hills that dance up and down his back. He feels it like he feels his limit reaching.

Its still around 10 minutes though before he actually loses control and everyone comes back to their bodies. His quirk times out and almost like its angry, the astral plane takes his body in exchange for the dozens he kept in there. He gets sucked through and passes out while everyone else runs and destroys the remaining bots. It doesn’t matter though, because he knows he’s racked up enough points to stay on top. He lets himself rest and observes the blue-haired tall guy with engines who contemplates carrying Deku’s body to safety.

Until, he sees her.

Just under some rubble and very close to getting crushed by the Zero-Pointer’s foot, Deku spots a brown-haired young girl that he recalls has some kind of floating quirk. He sees as everyone runs past her, prioritizing their own safety instead of hers.

He makes a decision.

Quickly--recklessly, a familiar gruff voice says in his ear--he forces himself back into his body and looks around. He runs to the girl and attempts to dig her out from the rubble before she gets crushed. The robot comes ever closer.

Using the little strength and flexibility he’s learnt from years of sparring with Kacchan, Deku abandons her in favor of climbing up the broken concrete and metal to meet the robot’s visor. He knows he won’t save her by digging her out of there, but by god is he gonna let her get injured without a fight. These robots weren’t designed to kill, but they were designed to destroy.

Focus. Focus and listen to what’s around you, Izu-kun.

The world around him reduces to tunnel-vision and suddenly Deku is face to face with the Zero-Pointer. It stops, as if calculating how to discard of Deku without hurting him severely with its own strength.

Everything has life in it. You only need to focus and look for it.

Izuku Midoriya looks at the robot.

In a whirlwind of blue and green, he reaches inside of himself and searches for life. Cold steel and hard-wired code meet his gaze and he plunges even deeper. 

Focus.

Then all at once, everything in his visions snaps into sudden clarity, like he’s never seen before. He feels everything. Sees Everything. Smells, tastes, hears--and he hears how the metal beneath him bends and groans. He feels how it winces and shudders. He sees it as it opens its maw and its visor bends in a facsimile of eyes, pleading him as if asking how?

The robot beneath him comes to life and stumbles back.

Quickly, he scrambles to the nearest ledge which happens to be a broken support beam. Distantly, he thinks he feels his arm being sliced open on the edge of it and the warmth of blood streaming down his side as he nearly falls. 

“HEY! YOU WITH THE ENGINES!” He hoarsely screams to the still remaining, slack-jawed contestants. “I CAN’T KEEP THE ZERO POINTER DOWN FOR LONG! GO HELP THE GIRL AND TAKE HER TO SAFETY NOW!”

With a sudden burst of energy, the fellow participants start taking others out from the rubble while the blue-haired boy helps the brunette he was protecting earlier. As he watches them clear the rubble to drag her out, he feels a pang.

Who am I? a lost voice calls out. It’s raspy and almost-robotic sounding and only he can hear it. Where am I? What am I?

And Deku’s vision flickers.

In and out, he sees flashes through eyes that aren’t his. He hears voices that are simultaneously faraway and way too close for comfort. The world tugs at the sides of his perspective and a strain is pulling at the back of his head tearing his brain to shreds. He doesn’t know what he’s focusing or straining on, except that its working and keeping the zero-pointer down.

He grits his teeth. “Hurry the hell up! i can’t do this any longer--”

Bursts of pain appear behind his mismatched eyes and he wants to scream so bad and if he were looking any clearer he’d see the way that the zero-pointer thrashes on the ground in time with the pounding on his skull. Bile crawls up the back of his throat and Deku screams.

“SHE’S CLEAR! YOU CAN LET GO NOW, MIDORIYA-SAN.”

Izuku lets go and his vision goes black.

[thegeminisage]

That Claire meta is right on the money, thank you for articulating something that has been pricking the back of my mind for years! Claire was actually the reason I couldn't get into spn in 09/10 bc I made the INSANE choice to watch "The Rapture" as my first ep & it hit a little too close to home (my dad had just died & I was a teen struggling with my faith for the first time) Cas IS my favorite character but that episode made me hate him. So thank you for putting my ambivalence into words

tyvm. i was so afraid to open my inbox bc i was scared this was hate mail so this is a huge relief THANK YOU. also like: big mood when the media hits exactly the right buttons at exactly the right time. had a similar hard-hitting experience w/ another episode of a tv show i watched recently and it turned my brain inside out. handshake emoji solidarity. ALSO. cas is my favorite too but when i’m writing claire’s pov? he’s absolutely the antagonist and the bad guy. that’s just who he is to her. he killed her father, you know? also, that’s a really good first choice. like absolutely 100% insane you’re correct but holy shit what a way to do it. 

also - this is a little off-topic to your ask, sorry - i’ve said this before but cas being the “bad guy” is part of what makes 4.20 so insane to me. like looking back on it now you KNOW cas was tortured in heaven and subjected to the lobotomies and did not have the choice of disobedience, so when he was told to take the girl he took the girl whether he wanted to or not. you might even argue for the headcanon that heaven telling him to do something “bad” (possess an 11yo) was a test to prove he was functioning as intended. which actually makes cas both the aggressor and the victim - being forced to possess someone is probably not as bad as BEING possessed, especially when you are 11, but it’s still pretty bad. add the torture and it’s REALLY bad. 

and what a great thing to compare it to actually is dean torturing people in hell. like yes he’s torturing but he’s being FORCED to torture under duress and the act of doing so is so psychologically damaging he held out under torture for THIRTY YEARS just to NOT do it. so he’s the aggressor and also the victim. lived experiences only dean and cas have <3 makes me insane <3 if you really want to make claire novak about destiel do it like that, fuck

...anyway, you should skip 9/10 bc theyre bad and just pick up from 11 and go to 14. 14 is when dean gets possessed which means we’re finally allowed to talk about it a little. it fucks

[spn masterpost]

[seijorhi]

asks

fair warning, a lot of this is about shitty discourse :/

ignore the antis, they are either actually children or just really dumb with a severely warped sense of reality. You and your writings are a gift to this world (also I hope you’re recovering well and getting lots of rest post surgery)!!!

i don’t even care that they don’t like it or think that i’m gross for writing it or whatever, just let me do it in fucking peace you know? i tag my stuff responsibly, it’s not under the main tags, you can’t find it unless you go looking for it. because i’m not gonna change their minds and they sure as fuck aren’t gonna change mine but it’s just frustrating to see hate again and again in my inbox.

also thank you, you’re a gem 💕

People must be bored that they started attacking you guys again. Anyways, I love you, Rhi and do I see an alternate AU for Inarizaki manager fic????? 👀👀👀👀👀👀

... honestly i’m low key tempted with the atsumu/kita/manager idea but i have so much other writing to do first so idk

i love your content so much holy shit don’t let anyone/anything makes u feel bad you’re 💯 - @arixtsukki

thank you, bby! 💕💕💕

Rhi I just want to tell you I'm so sorry for your shitty week I hope you get better soon and antis just need to go away nobody cares about their stupid opinions. -_-  

- @pokemonfreak666

bby, you have my heart, thank you sm 🥺

onLY LOVE FOR RHI 🥰🥰😍😍😍😍😍😍🥰🥰🥰🥰😘😘😘

I LOVE U BBY COME GET UR KISSES!!!

Its been an awful week for you but know we see your struggle and love and support you hundreds or thousands of miles away love you UwU

ahhh thank you so much, sweetheart!!!

Honestly i'm so fucking tired of people saying the same damn thing about haikyuu and bnha. THEY. ARE. NOT. REAL. Even their laws and physics doesn't apply to us (and vice versa) because??? THEYRE NOT REAL. NONE OF IT. If u're one of those people that says "fiction can affect reality", u're the one that needs to go and touch some fucking grass. (sorry for the rant rhi)

it’s the same shit that resurfaces every few weeks and i’m tired of seeing it, tired of explaining the same stuff to people who don’t care and won’t listen and frankly just want me to feel bad for the content i produce and consume and i am over it :) 

YOU'RE AN AMAZING WRITER AND ALL THOSE NEGATIVE PEOPLE CAN GET THEIR STOOPID ASSES OUT OF HERE. IF U DONT LIKE WHAT SOMEONE WRITES THEN JUST.. BLOCK THEM, ITS THAT SIMPLE. KEEP DOING WHAT YOU'RE DOING BABES, YOU'RE AMAZING. - @aslutforsuna

honestly i cannot believe that 2020 is almost over and these dumbasses still don’t know how to use a block button smh

Rhi, could I ask for another pov for the soulmate twins au? 👉👈 I just really loved the last one

like you want me to write the fic from the pov of one of the twins?

I’m ok with Atsumu living in ur mind cuz he lives in my mind too and when u post u just fuel my love for him so keep going( but only if u wish to) also why would people read stuff they don’t like than bash people. It’s basically saying an opinion is right and everyone against it is wrong

haha, i don’t think i’ll ever be over atsumu so i’m glad y’all are here for it. and thanks bby, like i said it’s a shitty thing and i’m very tired of seeing it directed at me and my dc moots :/

"wRiTing dArk fIcs wilL nOt help yOu coPe w/ yOur trAuma but hey I'm gonnA buLLy yOU and thReAten you and aDD another trAuma"

-every single fucking hater ever

also let’s not forget that pestering people about their trauma and invalidating how they choose to cope with an deal with that is super fucking hurtful but n e ways 👀

I just now read invidia and I was kind of happy you used that title, bcs envy literally translates as invidia (as I'm in a latin country).

it was my sleep deprived attempt to be *fancy* but i’m glad it made you happy hahah

i re-read breaking point and meet the parents version of it and rhi... especially tension on the meet the parents part is 10/10. i love it. thanks for writing!

ahh thank you, bby! glad you liked them <3

Why isn't your bd every month?? 😩

a question i ask myself every day, anon

[loki-the-trikster-god]

hellow it’s clyde! *waves*

ahhhhhh if you were to post your performance that would be so amazing (only if ur comfortable tho). gasp yes i wonder what a caliban costume would look like...

i’m so excited for you amigo :)))

yeah i get your reasoning. i think i’m one of the people that sometimes forget authors exist because acknowledging them would mean the worlds aren’t real... and that is just sad.

haha you seem like the kind of person to act like a slytherin but is actually a gryffindor inside

i think i’m a ravenclaw... but pottermore says i’m a gryffindor? idk maybe i’ll just go with divergent at this point

gAsP awesome you dye your hair friend it’ll be so amazinggggg. asdfhjk i bet u look so pretty in a pink suit :)

ahhhh fair reasoning. oh no the dreaded locker room... i hope people don’t be mean to you when you eventually have to use the locker room. asdfhjk i want to threaten everyone that could potentially be hostile towards you but as i’m about a kajillion kilometres north of where you are i can’t do much

yeahhhhhh maps are interesting when you don’t have to make them i guess. but i’m done the project (four freaking days later) now so yay!

oh um that is unfortunate i apologize i hope you will be able to get your illness cured sometime in the near future bc food is good

haha meat is indeed delicious. when my parents split i was able to try like actual bacon for the first time and omg it’s so goodddddd. i relate friend

now for the question... hm... you mentioned your writing... do you write like fanfiction, or poetry or stories or i can’t think of anything else but i’m sure there’s more stuff...?

honestly this is so fun :) i enjoy being ur friend cecil

also i was literally scrolling through tumblr for like 10 minutes wondering if u saw my ask (bc that’s what i do i’m annoying sry) then i realized i hadn’t even sent it yet and i’m like wow okay brain cells how many of your limited number are even awake in there?

That’s so relatable thinking is so hard I have two brain cells and they can never rub together lmaooooo also you aren’t annoying I was in my inbox most of the afternoon like ,,,asks?? So yeah lol

Well heck I may have to!! I’ll definitely post a pic of my finished costume. Today I tried it on so they could fit it before they distressed it (like theyre gonna tear it up and throw mud all over it) and I’m super excited! I have my arm brace to practice with too, in order to make the twisted posture easier on myself.

See when I enjoy a fandom i definitely separate my version from the original pretty distinctly, whether or not I like canon, so if I stop liking canon, I still have the idea in my head, you know? I’m a maladaptive daydreamer so some of this is clinical, but that’s a different story. Anyways, you let them Harry Potter characters live on in your heart no matter what J K R*wling is like.

You strike me as someone with ravenclaw energy but I think gryffindoors are supposed to be more friendly, generally. I resent not being slytherin because I want people to respect me and they never do :/ they’re always just like what a loser but gryffindoor is cool and hey if we both are 😌🤝😌

Sngialcospxls thank you I have previously been told I am generally found attractive,,,,,, who knows

Aww you threaten transphobes with your vibes bro!!! (Is bro an ok term of endearment for u?) and I’m done with pe after this year so that won’t be a problem!! I’m worried about my binder cause I can’t wear it a full school day but I’ll fuck my ribs up when it comes to it (/j I won’t do that)

Also I relate cause every time someone tells me to do something that isn’t for theater I immediately hate it no matter if I liked it before lmaoooooo

My illness isn’t that bad I hope I didn’t make it weird lol it just hurts sometimes but like I’m used to it and anyways I will. And I still enjoy food, even just out of stubbornness sometimes lmao. Also bacon is just 👀👀👀👀👀 who invented it and can I make out with them.

You have such educated and kind questions I feel so like. Listened to it’s wonderful. And I love being your friend too!!

I write a lot of stuff. I can mimic most styles if I put my mind to it but most commonly for fun I write short stories (basically fanfiction but somet I have been told that I write good dialogue and long descriptions. I also “work” for the national High School Critic Association (CAPPIES) which is my most pretentious title lmaoo. I’m pretty good at it though, I’ve been published the last three plays and I’ve got another this weekend. I can also write a killer argument essay, but those aren’t very fun, so-

Can u tell I’m vain about my writing? It’s not even my main passion but people praised me too much and now I’m disastrously stuck up lol

You’re so much fun, Clyde!! I feel like I have a pen pal, except with instant gratification :))