Last night I cried, and I mean UGLY cried at a foul hour because I love Albert Wesker and I hate it. (/Lh)
Like first off, the man's name is Albert??? Need I say more? But then, his name is kinda gothic when you say his full name. I don't know if that's just me. But just simply referring to him as Albert is goofy as fuck considering he's supposed to be a villain in RE. Not only that, he's got paper thin lips. How's he gonna get a kiss kiss??☝️🤨/ref
But it wasn't only that, mind you, it's also because this absolute FUCK, this evil David Bowie and Johnny bravo looking mother fucker, has consumed my life and every waking thought that sometimes it genuinely hurts and that's what I hate about being autistic. It's just how much I want to consume of something once it becomes a special interest and/or hyperfixation. On top of that, Wesker is a special case for me because I found out I technically trauma bonded to him as a comfort character. For the past year and a half now, I got back into RE because of the RE4R and began hyperfixating on said game then it spiraled into hyperfixating about the Wesker's storyline, with project W and so on. I already have a tendency to go back to RE periodically every like two or so years but this has low-key been probably the longest I've consistently fixated on RE without a single break in-between. My dad and I bonded over resident evil, he's one of the people who got me into RE, albeit he watched the movies and I got into the game's. Which means RE means a whole lot to me and since he passed my fixation on it only heightened as a source of comfort. I also found out when you have a comfort character during a horrible period in your life, you very well can trauma bond with said character. So that means out of all characters, I have trauma bonded to Albert Wesker and I am two seconds away from tweaking. 🤩
On top of that, every time @rainbowroadonsteroids sends me something remotely Wesker related I start punching my wall and they bully me for it smh./Lh+nm
Shout out to my favorite human nightlight, Albert Wesker. ☝️🗿
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mer!sugu watching you transfer a bug to a leaf so it wouldn't drown in the waves of sea water, just thinking about how you're too sweet for this world. too nice, too sweet, too eager to help others, even to the smallest of creatures you find by the beach. he can't help but feel irritated.
not at you.
never you.
but your tendency to pick up strays like suguru doomed it all from the start. he couldn't help but fall in love when you helped him and chose to stay. he couldn't help but fall deeper in love every time your eyebrows furrow with worry when he's even the slightest bit hurt. or every time you smile when he seemed content.
it feels so good to be happy, but christ it hurts to think that he'll always outlive you. he'll always live with the fact that he'll inevitably lose you someday.
so whether he leaves or he stays, it'll hurt anyway. no matter how sweet your love is, and how tender the moments you spend with one another are.
he hates that.
[got the thought from rafayel [love and deepspace] my other pretty purple fish man ...i couldn't resist with the angst my bad-]
🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 ANONNNNNNN ……..
when i saw this in my inbox i kinda had to take a breather … i have no idea what i did to deserve such talented anons ??? like genuinely ???? everyday i wake up and one of u dropped the most heartwrenching beautiful concepts i’ve ever read and then i’m just expected to continue on w my day like nothing happened smh ……..
AAAA JUST . this concept !!!! T_T anon!!!!! it’s so dear to me and def in line for what i think the main theme of this au is which is just … kindness? the meaning of little everyday acts of mercy??? and u just described it so so well i can’t handle it…. reader being so kind and happy to take in strays, even at their own detriment…. mer!sugu who can’t help but be charmed by it even though he thinks you should be a little more selfish :((… and the emphasis that he could never be angry at you, he’s just angry at the world and your circumstances…..
“your tendency to pick up strays like suguru doomed it all from the start” anon the way you phrased this is turning my heart to mush :((((( he can’t help but fall for you and that dooms you both. sob.
it feels so good to be happy, but christ it hurts to think that he'll always outlive you. he'll always live with the fact that he'll inevitably lose you someday.
so whether he leaves or he stays, it'll hurt anyway. no matter how sweet your love is, and how tender the moments you spend with one another are.
he hates that.
and don’t even get me started on this 😔😔 this aspect of their dynamic makes me so sad bc i don’t think reader ever thinks about it (or even knows that merfolk live way longer), but suguru does and it’s just this bittersweetness that he keeps to himself… that makes his chest hurt more than he’d prefer…. sighhh. T—T the thought of mer!sugu loving you forever and cherishing your memory even after you’ve passed makes me so sad….. but it’s also such a beautiful aspect of this au :’3 he won’t always have you with him which only makes those tiny moments of kindness and happiness between you more important!!
so i think deep down he’s really glad that you’re you, even when he has to share a home with all the abandoned kittens you brought back <3333
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