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cherrylindreams · 5 months ago

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i'm currently planning my move to China for work, and when I wasn't quite sure yet where i would be posted next (or rather, I started dreaming immediately one year after moving here jdjfisif), i dreamt of moving to shanghai and was looking at apartments there online. i fell in love with one in 2021, the listing was still up in 2023, and it is still up now... that apartment.... beautiful... if I don't find one quite like that in Guangzhou, I'll be so sad jsjdjsf

I can't ever really remember anything. i wouldn't be able to tell you which countries I've been on holiday to in the last few years but that apartment haunts me

#Dana speaks #Dana is moving to china #oof im so nervous #I only have two months left here I'm going to cry so much #I love the people and I love the country I love the city and how kind people are #i wanna come back here immediately #my friend is currently in Kazakhstan looking for her next apartment there and she sent pics and??? how can cities be that big?#Pristina is so cosy and small.... completely walkable not only bc everything's accessible by foot #but also bc everything is in walking distance #I can cross the whole city in 2 hours #and now we're both moving to mega cities from this cosy homey lovely towncity #aaaaah 😭 😭

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egophiliac · 8 months ago

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was gonna wait 'til I'd done all the poms, but it's been a day, so have Vil with a Salazzle 🍎

#art #twisted wonderland #poketwst #what are they plotting? you don't want to know.#sigh. once again the whole 'i don't wanna do more than two each' thing is coming back to bite me.#salazzle was the immediate obvious one and then there were like two or three others i was really torn between #(milotic is the other obvious-seeming choice but there were others i felt fit more in different ways and...yeah)#then i remembered i don't actually have to draw more than one pokemon so here we are #with the ✨QUEENS✨#(me drawing salazzle's weird little feethands: heheheheh)

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oneluckydragon · 2 months ago

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✨🌸 Sunshine on your skin, flowers in my soul 🌸✨

🌊🫧Summary → In the midst of his reconciliation with Team Wish, Dusknoir begins coughing up flowers. This unfortunate brand of bad luck should be a cosmic joke. A spiteful punishment that the world has brought down on him out of malice, out of vengeance for his past deeds. A cruel, agonizing curse manifested with the single unjustified purpose of preventing him from realizing happiness, ever seeking redemption, ever righting his multitudes of wrongs and moving on with his life. But that's not true, and he knows it deep down. Knows it in the very core of his soul like the flood of petals building in this throat.

This is his fault because he is a coward, and that's all he has ever been. A backstabbing, lonely coward.

And now he is going to die because of it.

[AO3]

[CH. I -- Word Count -- 13,290]

🌒💫 Return → the act of going back to a place, person, or memory

[CH. II -- TBA]

#(Momentarily comes back from hiatus just to drop this and then proceeds to immediately leave)#I didn't forget about my fic that I promised literally a year ago! Woo!#Here's the 1st chapter fellas!#I've been through misery and hell (still there tbh) but I'm hanging in there with my pencil and paper #(mutuals I did this for YOU)#(scribz once again THANK you for the art ilysm)#I gave up on trying to write everything coherently like a perfectionist before posting chapters #I've decided I'm just gonna post 'em as they're done instead of hoarding them all until I'm satisfied with the entire fic #It was unhealthy and hard to be motivated while writing all of this in my own little isolated box #Maybe with some feedback from readers I'll be more willing to focus on this and get it done rather than let it rot in my docs for months #Sunshine on your skin; flowers in my soul #my fic #Dusknoir/Grovyle #Dusknoir/Grovyle/Celebi #Hero/Partner #Echo/Sora #echo/umbreon #sora/lucario #pmd ocs #lots and LOTS of feelings in this fic be warned my friends #Must admit I am so nervous sharing this publicly cause it's like baring my whole heart to you guys #If you take a peek then I hope you end up enjoying it c:#pls leave me asks if you wanna share thoughts!!! I'd be so unbelievably happy to talk about this fic if anyone is interested #or maybe post a comment or kudos on AO3 instead!! anything pls I'd be indebted to you forever #No promises on a fic update schedule but I will TRY not to let it take months this time #pmd explorers #pmd eos #pmd sky #pokemon mystery dungeon #pmd fanfic

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morninkim · 1 month ago

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As a show of good faith toward the remaining Decepticons at the beginning of a new, united Cybertron, newly appointed Senators Bumblebee and Soundwave allowed Shatter and Dropkick to enlist into Autobot City's Defense Team.

These two turned out to be... not the best choices.

The city may have fallen to Insurgent Decepticon occupation had it not been for young recruits Hot Rod and Arcee's accidental interception of Shatter's communication with the fugitive Starscream.

To replace the errant Defense Team members, Springer and Blurr were reassigned from Iacon to Autobot City in their stead.

#my art #tf reconstruction #transformers #bumblebee movie #tf shatter #tf dropkick #maccadam #transformers au #semi-introduction to my idea for antagonists in tf:r - specifically being movie villains slotted into my au #bc if the main crux of the main reconstruction story in autobot city is about hot rod and her rise to becoming rodimus prime #which comes from the First movie - why not loosely adapt other movies too??#ive got ideas for most of them already - kinda jumping back and forth between the modern day story and my pre-war ''downfall'' story #which gives my brain a break from thinking about one to think about another #anyway - i imagine the first ''episode'' of tf:r would be like. hot rod shows up in autobot city on her first day > meets the team #> gets assigned arcee as her partner > arcee hates it > they over hear shatter talking to someone they don't recognise because rod's nosey #> huh that's weird > they intercept it next time by accident > its a communication to starscream about the city's defenses #> they take it to ultra magnus but they break the pad on the way because they were arguing about it #> ''hot rod i know you're new here. and you're intrigued about the war and everything. but we shouldn't be suspicious of everyone wearing a #purple badge. give them a chance.'' > arcee drops it bc she doesn't wanna start trouble + ''magnus will handle it. he always does somehow.'#> rod does not drop it and makes blaster monitor shatter's messages for anything unusual > blaster indulges her bc he's endeared to her #> he does end up intercepting an encrypted message > rod immediately acts and chases after shatter and dropkick on an outside-city mission #> arcee goes after her to stop her from fucking up really bad > blaster unencrypts the message. it's a rendezvous point to start an invasio #> magnus kup blaster and perceptor all head out to help the two young'uns before they get in over their heads #> rod and arcee meet and fight starscream and barely make it out by the skin of the teeth thanks to the more experienced autobots arrival #> starscream shatter dropkick and whoever else is there are driven off #> day is saved - magnus commends rod's gut instincts but rod goes back to what magnus said about not trusting bots with purple badges #> she was right this time but its an exception not a rule and most other decepticons in the city want to live in peace #> magnus also commends that attitude and the team head back > starscream starts plotting his Next Big Plan #''post credits'' scene of magnus putting the request in for springer and blurr + robot dinosaur opening its eye in the dark👀👀#longwinded but ya thats like the Clearest idea for Specific Events so far other things are Stuff I Want To Happen

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golden-stag · 2 months ago

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I know Strive doesn't have as many unique interactions between its characters compared to other games, so im trying to set my expectations low for when Venom eventually comes out.

... That being said I really want Venom and ABA to have unique dialogue- their arcade mode interactions in AC still make me laugh and I'm desperate for a follow-up

#I love how Venom was on board with hearing the blood thirsty demon axe out when he wanted to join the guild #but ABA comments about Venoms hair being counter-productive and he immediately shuts them both down #“You have no social skills. I'm not letting you in. Come back when you learn some manners but I'm getting the hell out of here.”#... ABAs has slightly better manners now. I wanna see if Venom comments on that.#guilty gear

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wickjump · 26 days ago

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i kinda want to live again

#not a vent #not literal #like. i wanna do things again. i wanna go places. i don’t wanna be holed up anymore #saw a mutual baking cookies #and my immediate thought was wow. life is so fucking wonderful #a stranger somewhere thousands of miles away from me is baking cookies. and i get to see a photo of it #and the color of the counter was the same as my friend’s old counter back in their childhood home #it gave me weird motivation to keep pushing through #very odd.#life is beautiful #i am mentally stable btw. just anxiety takes over my every waking moment #i am not in danger of myself don’t worry hang #GANG NOT HANG #THAT WAS THE WORST POSSIBLE TYPI I COULDVE MADE GIVEN THE CONTEXT OMG #i wanna live again #I’m going to join a club i think #start going to the library and chat up the librarians #maybe see if i can help them put away books. just for fun.#maybe i can get a job #maybe i can do this #maybe i can start saving up to move out. or go to college #im already starting to get a service dog. maybe i can do it #only issue is that driving is sensory hell for me so I struggle with it a lot #sooo #ill find a way #public transport here i come

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kaylazer · 7 months ago

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back on my bullshit (meeting men im in love with). Ben Schwartz is so kind and tall :-) I didn’t totally freeze like when I met the Jonas brothers but the selfies we took are blurry so 😔

(at least I have these bc I told sam to record the whole thing heheheh)

#also the show was great #I had to slap sam many times bc she was choking from laughter #ben schwartz #bro how did i forget my personal tag for ben #ben schwartz my beloved #me #also forgot me tag #editing tags after the fact to recount the entire experience #so we waited outside for about 10 minutes and I had no expectation of how long it usually takes for him to come out and take pictures #he comes out without a mask which is surprising to me and says ‘you guys wanna take some pictures?’#we all just kinda form a non sensical blob (there’s maybe like 10 ppl total) around him #Brandon Katie and Eugene hang back towards the stage door unsure if anyone wants to chat with them #I’m gushing over how tall and handsome Ben is to my sister who is ready to record our interaction once he gets to me #as I listen to him chatting with the other fans I can’t help but smile and say to my sibling ‘he’s so sweet’ every minute #he meets someone who has a cool sketchbook of the skits from the show that he wants to take a picture of #but they need to write their handle so he says he’ll talk with some others and get back to them #so he does and then later I see the girl ready to talk to him again off to the side #so I tell her ‘you can go ahead and finish talking to him”’ and she’s like ‘are you sure?’ and I’m like duh!#finally it’s my turn and he looks at me and says ‘hi I’m Ben’#yes Benjamin Joseph Schwartz I know #he sees me holding my phone and immediately sides steps to get into selfie mode as I ask him if he’ll sign my Jean Ralphio figure #he steps back to Be in front of me ‘yes of course!’#what insane media training he has #he says ‘I’ve seen this! this is the first one I’ve ever signed’#upon seeing the figure he says ‘it’s beautiful’ lol #he’s concerned that the sharpie I brought will not show up and I mention that it was probably a bad one to bring because it’s pastel #he signs and holds it up (as you can see in the first photo) to make sure it’s visible #he hands it back to me and I thank him and he says ‘do you want to take a picture?’#and I say ‘I would love to!’ and then I hold the Jean Ralphio figure and he looks to my sibling assuming she’s taking the picture #she’s like ‘no I’m just here for moral support!’

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transannabeth · 3 months ago

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hi. for people who saw gatsby: an american myth. do you remember mckee asking nick for lunch. and then gatsby in like the next scene inviting nick for lunch. because i remember.

#not pjo #chitter chatter #when gatsby was like 'we should do lunch' i was like. hello. fucking. hello. are we. hello.#gatsby really said we just met literally 5 minutes ago. come meet my father figure. normal normal thing to do jay.#to be clear gatsby also asks him to go to lunch in the book. but like. there's a time skip. and also #in the show after mckee asks they immediately start making out on the couch. none of this ... nonsense #so the vibes are a LITTLE different in my brain.#i saw a few people say they didnt think gatsby and nick flirted enough and like while i do think that think part of it is we're #in nick's pov but not his HEAD #he DOES start singing about gatsby's smile for no reason until jordon is like. alright buddy. lets talk about daisy.#like nick was just Doing That. pull it together carraway.#but i got the vibe (JUST my take) that gatsby was like. kinda into nick. zero reason to be leaning into his space like that sir.#however when he actually MET daisy again he became kinda singularly focused on her again #i mean he built his whole lifeup to this moment #he says it at the end. he murdered pieces of himself to bring himself here. for DAISY.#him snapping back to daisy mode makes sense to me but he still reaches out for nick as a comfort in the sense that hes like #nick do NOT leave please stay with us. daisy does the same. and ofc part is that theyre really. fucking awkward. but like.#LET ME HAVE MY OWN NONSENSE INTERPRETATIONS. HES TRAPPED BY WHITENESS AND CLASS AND HETEROSEXUALITY.#hes already so much of an outsider trying to fit in. (i also think he loves daisy or an ideal at least. and she's EASIER to love. safer.)#nick inherently has more freedom even as a gay man in the sense that hes richer and white and an ivy league dude i mean you understand righ #right????????#even if its in the book i do wanna point out the parallels between those moments. im choosing to see it as deeply intentional <3 #this show had a lot of repetition and parallels (see daisy and myrtle in a lot of songs and scenes)#(one i LOVE is tom giving myrtle a necklace and daisy later giving TOM her necklace in case he sees anyone he knows. idk love that shit)#im...gonna queue this #im embarrassed to talk about this show so much. so. into the queue it goes!!!#all the worlds a stage #so like. anyway. thats where i think nick's mind immediately went when gastsby asked him for lunch. personal headcanon <3 #gatsby after one convo: we're doing lunch // me and nick immediately: oh ok! guess that's a date then!

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lctibule · 2 months ago

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so anyway, i think both si-u and minjoon are probably autistic ✌️

#if i am neurodivergent as I strongly suspect i am....... i guarantee you that all of my muses are too lmao #but these two like. I've really started to realize that yeah. yeah I really think they're both autistic #that's it that's the headcanon I'm coming back & I'm immediately dropping a neurodivergent bomb sjfgksg #I did crawl onto this blog though!! look at me go!!! I'm looking to get some stuff going here again 👀#so uhhhh. maybe a starter call tomorrow. unless y'all wanna send me some memes lmao #okok I'll shush now I just wanted to share this thought bc it's been on my mind a LOT #❥ 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐉𝐎𝐎𝐍 、headcanon #❥ 𝐒𝐈 𝐔 、headcanon

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keeps-ache · 5 days ago

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wailing at the sky I'm tired ! ! ! ! ! !

#just me hi #ik i'm testy rn and i should take a nap but ouuhhrrr #consistently on drives i've been just. dropping energy like nothing #like on the way to wherever i'm good i'm floating it's great. but then on the way back it's just. Bleugh kfshv #and then my legs get tired cuz i can't stretch !! i'm dyinggg out here #hate being tired. hate being sleepy. wish i could banish the neepy forever tbh #however the awesome embrace of sleep is pretty good so i guess it's a trade i'll have to be content with. sigh #wah. blah. bloo. ouhrr #//anyway let me tell you abt smth really nice now hfhvbsh :>#so i was just sitting down last night doing.. smth i don't rember lol and my youngest siblings come over like ':3 we have something for you #which is immediately suspicious and i was measuring the level of child-safe violence they were going to be subjected to lmao; but i asked #what it was and they handed me this little paper bag full of little bracelets and beads and hair clippies ????#and the bag said 'we appreciate your existence' And had oath's little symbol on the front dude are you KIDDING ME #if it wasn't for the fact i did not want to scare them i would have cried. it was very very sweet and i wish i wasn't so flat irl kfvshg #there were 2 bracelets n one of them says 'space buddy' (tears in funkin eyes) and the other one says 'pink space'#'pink space' has the 'ace' part highlighted Do You Understand What They've Done To Me #dude. dude. [<- big wet eyeballs staring at the horizon]#i need to like. hbwauhhhhhhhh #i love them so ??? i need to explode them asap lmfshvg #/anyway putting this here cuz i don't wanna forget kfhghfs #i don't think leo reads these tags so Lmaoo 💥 get 'Unknowing of Things'ed loser #//okey i'm gonna go melt into a puddle of ice cream now #oouuuu here i go... toodles lol :3

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stolen-stardust · 10 days ago

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‘izzy why are u on tumblr at 3am’ well i Was asleep but a guy tried to get into the fucking flat and my flatmates called security on him but the dude left before security arrived and we’re pretty certain it was the friend of a problematic flatmate but said flatmate is either fast asleep or not here. so what the fuck was maybe-his-friend doing banging on our flat door at 3am. also the flat hallway stinks like weed again. now i am awake

#why are people such dumbasses about smoking weed in the UK #like omfg if you’re gonna do it at least be smart #smoking it directly outside a university student accommodation building is just asking to have security callled on you #for being a nuisance if nothing else #i legally had to report the smell last week since i think it was coming from one of my flatmate’s rooms #(as part of my job working for the uni. it’s a whole thing)#and another flatmate was on my ass abt it #like man i don’t wanna be a narc. i’m a lefty american i love weed.#but it’s illegal here don’t be fucking stupid with how u go about smoking it #do it where it won’t linger and especially don’t do it in your bedroom???#fire hazard atp. that i Especially need to report immediately for the safety of a few hundred students in the building #sigh. wish i had edibles rn #i’m going back to sleep

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antigonescholar · 20 days ago

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november goals:

donate a bunch of my shit so that moving out of my apartment next month is less painful

finish reading my book

see each of my friends at least once

win one category at my last mock trial competition

think of smthing fun to do for my birthday

try to give a fuck about school at least a little bit

soak up what will possibly be my last full month living in my college town :'(

#IM ACTUALLY SAD #about moving #ive lived in this city for 6 years wahhhh #granted i might immediately be moving back here in 2025 depending on where my job stations me #but we'll see #i wanna hit my favorite coffee shops/hiking trails/study spots as many times as i can in the next month #in case im not coming back here 😭😭😭😭#also as far as sobriety goals go #i am already doing a really good job recently #in october i cut back from using weed every night to only using it every 3 nights!#which is huge for me #and ive only gotten actually drunk TWICE this ENTIRE semester #i am so awesome #so anyway the goal for november is only to drink immediately after the election (whether it is a happy or depressed drink is yet to be seen #and to continue only using weed every 3 nights. serve

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exopelagic · 3 months ago

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okay I severely misjudged spaghetti guy he’s actually just really cool

#okay so I came to this flat and he wasn’t here. greeted by a very dirty flat with shit all over the kitchen counters over cling film #I meet first my other flatmate who told me he stays in his room constantly bc of previous bad flatmates #has literally just a saucepan and some salt in the kitchen. so I’m like okay spaghetti guy potentially not great but could just be #how this guy is yknow #on Tuesday I get an email back saying he’s coming back from Norway tonight looking forward to seeing you feel free to use the kitchen sauces #rlly friendly message that I wasn’t expecting. I also didn’t know he’d been on a trip i just knew he wasn’t there bc his door was open #(to a REALLY nice room. multiple rlly nice plants (which he has little care labels for!!!) and it’s tidy and pretty #and he’s got a sheep teddy on the bed)#meanwhile I am in my own head bc I don’t wanna cook in the kitchen until I can clean it and I can’t clean it without moving his shit and #I haven’t seen him yet to talk abt it and I can’t bring myself to talk to him immediately bc I’m dying #and embarrassed as hell by how I’ve been cooking in my room with a microwave and air fryer (loud) and sneaking my shit out of the kitchen #but then yesterday I DO talk to him!! and he’s super friendly!! actually interested in having a conversation and Good at it.#and then he’s cooking and like. spaghetti burns but I’m not there for long and seems to be a mistake (he made the same thing for lunch today #and did Not burn the spaghetti) and is otherwise clearly competent bc the food smells Good and despite leaving a few things out it’s like #washed up stuff isn’t dirty and the sides are better despite still under cling film. more a case that he’s spread out than he’s messy #and now today we talked and i offered to hold onto some shit over summer bc complicated situation that boils down to he’s flying back home #and he cant take all his stuff and had to choose between chucking stuff/having literally nothing this weekend. like sleeping on the sofa etc #and then cleans the whole flat?? which I’m assuming a good chunk is his mess? but he did not need to do that. could’ve easily left #bc there are two people still living here who would’ve had to deal with it and he doesn’t know either at all #and THEN tonight we talk abt food which is fun bc we both ordered stuff. and he offers me some honeydew melon bc he’s been gorging himself #these past two days to finish it before it goes bad/he leaves which is also really sweet #and JUST NOW. I take my headphones out after finishing dinner and hear the sweetest fucking guitar #he plays the gentlest like dreamy sounding acoustic guitar I’ve heard in my life in his room (door closed by the time I leave)#this is actually just a really cool dude #now that the kitchens clear I’m gonna cook tomorrow and will probably offer him some bc otherwise he’s gonna be eating out all weekend #he has extra takeout for tomorrow night but might want smth Sunday #regardless I am just. huh??? left a bit stunned bc of the u turn my opinion of this guy has taken. bc my opinion of him was a reflection #of my discomfort moving to this weird dirty basement flat with two people I didn’t know #well. idk where to go from here. I think I’ll start by talking to him more this weekend. bc holy fucking shit.#luke.txt

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phagodyke · 4 months ago

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weekend melancholy is starting to kick in >~<

#im gonna go and do my food shop etc to keep myself busy and hopefully my 2nd meds will kick in and we'll be able to handle it together #i think i kind of do this so regularly bc my brain is just processing everything bc i dont rly have time during the week #all cool tho im doing good overall def on the up n i feel way more capable of coping emotionally which is nice. i <3 meds #also.. possibly settling on the idea that i might be agender. very tentatively. lots of experiences n thoughts coming together rn #ive been reacting in unexpected ways to a lot of gendered shit atm which has made me reconsider the way i think abt myself #but very difficult to articulate it to myself let alone anyone else. so ive been sitting with it for now until it precipitates #gender stuff has never rly affected me much or ive never been in a place to explore it which is why i havent thought abt it super hard #but im not the sort of person who needs a lot of internal exploration to figure out my identity like im v self aware tbh #and while im wildly indecisive abt most things in my life for some reason i never have been abt stuff like this. i learned abt lesbianism #like idk 9 years ago-ish and straight away was like yeah that makes sense for me. never looked back since #n similarly ive experienced forms of gender dysphoria before n just immediately dealt with it symptomatically n moved on #its never been smth to agonise abt for me like i know what makes me comfortable in my skin so theres no question abt doing it #and ik im privileged to be able to do that. and also it helps that gender for me is mostly divorced from external perceptions #+ that im v autistic so social pressures dont stick to me very well. i mean yeah i was bullied for it as a kid but i was stubborn asf #so yeah from the moment i realised i was genuinely uncomfortable/upset abt it earlier this week i was like okay. lets try this instead #its given me pretty instant relief from any distress i was feeling so far which is nice. rare respite from one of my torture labyrinths #just testing out internally whether it frames things more clearly n makes me feel more myself/at peace before i choose to stick w the idea #but not gonna do a whole coming out fanfare either way. dont think i wanna change how ppl interact w me + im still a dyke #so i dont consider it relevant to anyone else unless they share a similar understanding of gender to me. or if we're v close #ill prolly broach it w other trans friends eventually bc insert philosophers talking image. but to everyone else its business as usual #happy to play my cis-sona at work. + w new queer ppl i meet ive been introducing myself recently w mirrored pronouns instead of any/all #and i think i prefer that. virtually indistinguishable but theres smth nice abt inviting ppl to recognise me the way they do themselves #like translating + localising a non-gendered language into a gendered one... simplifying decisions abt how to perceive me #and ofc ppl are still gonna perceive me however but idc much unless we're actually friends. the rest is all a performance anyway #doubtful anyone on here ever has reason to refer to me but if u do for some reason... im freeloading off ur pronouns now btw <3 #but yeahhh. much 2 think abt. i need to read more alien/ai sci fi.. non-human sentience has been such a comforting concept lately #but yea tldr i woke up one morning this week like damn im prolly agender but i have a full time job to go to rn so idc abt that #.diaries #okkkk my dex is kicking in im no longer on the verge of tears lets go get these groceries wooohoooo

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orcelito · 5 months ago

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Tally has been so bad lately about yelling at night. Like she generally always does it at least once a night before she settles in for the night, but she keeps yelling and yelling before finally coming up, then immediately going back down only to end up yelling again. Like make up your MIND girl what do you want!??!

#speculation nation #like i wonder if the heat is making her restless? or the noise of the higher fan setting?#im generally fine with once a night yelling bc i call back to get her to come here and then she does and she is quiet #but if she wont Stay here i dont wanna keep having to yell back at her #bc it gets tiring!!! but if i dont yell for her to come here then she wont stop yelling. Frustrating!!!!!#thankfully she came back up to bed and is not immediately jumping down so maybe This time she will be done yelling #i need to go to bed man i need her to not be keeping me awake

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fortes-fortuna-iogurtum · 1 year ago

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'boutta start 🌟 doing some stuff 🌟 to my tumblr blog layout heh heh heh

#I'm so tired y'all.#I feel like this whole year so far has been a dream. and not a good one.#when I shut myself into my room everything feels normal again.#and my head feels clear. but as soon as I step outside all the reality comes back.#and the thing is that I'm tired of being in my room. I want to be outside.#it's so much more peaceful in here in one sense but I know that I'm just wasting time.#I wanna live in the real world now. I wanna move forward. I'm sick of looking back all the time.#I just don't know how to keep moving forward and making it stick. it feels like I start to go forward and then immediately take 3 steps bac #anyway. don't want to complain. just trying not to isolate.#keep praying for me please. it's so easy to forget that I have people who care about me lately even though I know I'm surrounded with them.#gurt says stuff

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